i personally admire all these people that jumped from a bridge for whatever reason they had in mind, noone can understand what they are going through , feelings are strong , despair is the strongest , no luck finding someone to hold your hand at the right moment, so unfairness in everything, so you are dead now and there was really no choice
I once had a plan to commmit suicide with a loaded gun about two years back. My connection with my parents weren't really strong - we were always arguing and I was constantly disappointing them, my friends were assholes, I had realized that the only girl that I cared for really didn't want much to do with me, and everything was really getting to me. All of the work, stress, depression, all of that was just getting to me. That was going on for about three years and I had enough. So, I had a plan to commit suicide with a gun. The thing about suicide is that people don't really know what they're doing - they just want shit to stop. However, I came out of it, obviously. I just want to let people to know that I know what they're going through, at least the base of it, and I'm sorry that they're going through it. I personally felt that Simon and I had a connection, I was just like him. The Simon from Cry of Fear, by the way, incase you've never played it. I recommened it.
@@thenineinchnailer5674 i can relate, but let me tell you this ''life only gets harder so don't bother loading your gun''. Life is hard yes, but we gotta learn from it. Depression just fills your mind with lies, find a way to cope with it, and continue with your life, we all have hard lives, some have harder lives than others, some just do bad things they don't realize and some do realize making someone's life more miserable. There are people out there that will care about you, all it needs is to stay strong and find them, never give up. It might seem now they don't care, but after killing yourself you will hurt many people. Life is the only thing in this world you can't give back. There are far worse people out there, so don't let them win by taking your life, one great person matters more than thousand idiots.
I've jumped from bridges to beautiful, crystal clear waters below. Primarily for the sheer joy and life affirming rush that comes with it. Attitude towards life is a choice.
@@thenineinchnailer5674 @AlphaLeader772 I feel you both. I've had a similar incident where I almost slit my throat because my best friend didn't want anything to do with me, my parents had hit me one too many times, my friends were just non-existent, and overall, anxiety and depression just took a hold of me, like the bond between apart of me was severed and bled out. I've also found myself relating to Simon too. And it's true, as a close-to-suicide 'victim', they just want shit to stop completely, to run away and hide. But guys, if you ever think to end it all, just know, it's a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Stay safe, guys.
Music to put on even if you are at your lowest, or at the moments where you just appretiate life, drink your beer or tea, looking from a window and just being happy. Both of these moods get enhanced four times if you put this on!
i hope you will find the sense of this genre, because people like you make it like it's a bad stuff, but it's not, you have to feel it, like a safe place, not something that makes you more depressed than how you already are.
Such beautiful songs they seem to capture how I feel so well. I just want to disappear at the same time I wish I wasn't so fucking alone all my friends couldn't care less about me In 2021 I tried ending my life so many times over and over it was so exhausting not getting what I want I felt myself almost die so many times I felt how heavy my body was getting up out and sobbing about how mad they would be but they didn't care less that I tried to kms. I'm going back to that again somehow even after trying so hard to make myself change into a better person seems I can't escape this I can't wait until this shit just ends haha. I just don't want to kms I wish I could've just died those times by someone else rhdnndhdnnrhndndhdn d done rjne.
Ey man, I'm usually a real cunt with this topic towards others. Lost one too many friends to this and I work the way, where something that makes a huge overload on emotions is just too much? My brain makes me either to completely block it out, or hate it so bad I mock others who ain't pissed with me and rather would loose the fight. 4 of my good friends are gone and it pisses me off, I myself had tough shit to get through, still getting out of it, but I'm much more further then before, when I just felt sad and alone. This hate towards it makes me go, but every human being is different I know. Maybe it's because I'm high as shit right now, but hey, I've got a trick up my sleeve which helped me and some of the people who were at the same place I was. It's music. Make it, experiment with it, thanks to this I learned how to play drums, guitar and bass, bought a scrathing table, DJ panel, couple of synths and for whatever reason an electronic harph that can be plugged into foot pedals. My whole appartment looks like I'm stealing electricity for the whole another city. Cabels everywhere, LEDs flickering everywhere, weird noises coming out from the speakers and MAN do I promise, this moment, where you just don't care and make sounds. You get used to making certain noises, put them slowly together and make your own pieces slowly but surely. This helped me to regain some sense of self-worth if you could say that. Making something from start to finish by no rules or leads, it's just YOU and that's what made me feel more appreciated of being here, of myself, of creating my emotions into something other can take and consume at their own pace. Since I play a lot of Tarkov since 2017, I found a group of people whilst playing it. Lad from England, another from germany, than Netherlands and Sweden. On Finland perkele redneck, Russian lad and one Danish weirdo. We all played together and when the servers were down or we just talked about random stuff throughout the night? We played whatever music we wanted, had it in the background and there I showed some of my songs to someone else. Scandinavians liked my depressive black metal song more, but for example Russian lad and German stick (he's super skinny and tall like a motherfucker) liked my speedcore/frenchcore stuff. One thing that I can't get rid off, is my critique towards my songs. If I start something I need to finish it as soon as possible, because even 2 days away from the song making and I'd do something different which has no goal in mind and before I finish it I already changed my mind 3 times and it's just a neverending mash. Some songs make themselves in minutes, some need some experimenting, some are just meant to be archived for future samples/ideas. Anyone reading my high thoughts, if you feel real down and there is no possible thing to make you feel otherwise? Please try this. Even if you do all yourself like I do, you always somehow bump into someone interested in the same thing you do. Be it by asking a question online about something, looking out for tips and ideas and there you see someone's idea, you agree, you start talking, it's always better if you can do this whilst someone listens to what your musical ideas are! One day I might feel angry so I make a song that captures that emotion and later on in the month I might feel super happy so that song is just positive through and through! It feels like a form of diary, but instead of describing your day/emotions by words, you describe them via music. And with music, people can resonate better then with words... because there's enough words from all sides, but almost no music.
i personally admire all these people that jumped from a bridge for whatever reason they had in mind, noone can understand what they are going through , feelings are strong , despair is the strongest , no luck finding someone to hold your hand at the right moment, so unfairness in everything, so you are dead now and there was really no choice
I once had a plan to commmit suicide with a loaded gun about two years back. My connection with my parents weren't really strong - we were always arguing and I was constantly disappointing them, my friends were assholes, I had realized that the only girl that I cared for really didn't want much to do with me, and everything was really getting to me. All of the work, stress, depression, all of that was just getting to me. That was going on for about three years and I had enough. So, I had a plan to commit suicide with a gun. The thing about suicide is that people don't really know what they're doing - they just want shit to stop. However, I came out of it, obviously. I just want to let people to know that I know what they're going through, at least the base of it, and I'm sorry that they're going through it.
I personally felt that Simon and I had a connection, I was just like him. The Simon from Cry of Fear, by the way, incase you've never played it. I recommened it.
@@thenineinchnailer5674 i can relate, but let me tell you this ''life only gets harder so don't bother loading your gun''. Life is hard yes, but we gotta learn from it. Depression just fills your mind with lies, find a way to cope with it, and continue with your life, we all have hard lives, some have harder lives than others, some just do bad things they don't realize and some do realize making someone's life more miserable. There are people out there that will care about you, all it needs is to stay strong and find them, never give up. It might seem now they don't care, but after killing yourself you will hurt many people. Life is the only thing in this world you can't give back. There are far worse people out there, so don't let them win by taking your life, one great person matters more than thousand idiots.
I've jumped from bridges to beautiful, crystal clear waters below. Primarily for the sheer joy and life affirming rush that comes with it. Attitude towards life is a choice.
@@thenineinchnailer5674 @AlphaLeader772 I feel you both. I've had a similar incident where I almost slit my throat because my best friend didn't want anything to do with me, my parents had hit me one too many times, my friends were just non-existent, and overall, anxiety and depression just took a hold of me, like the bond between apart of me was severed and bled out. I've also found myself relating to Simon too. And it's true, as a close-to-suicide 'victim', they just want shit to stop completely, to run away and hide. But guys, if you ever think to end it all, just know, it's a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Stay safe, guys.
Just discovered this guy is the creator of Cry Of Fear damn
Thank you for bringing us this wonderful music, keep it up
i listen to this shit all the time when im depressed but remember: you are not your depression. those thoughts arent real
stay safe everyone
cheers bro, I'll drink to that
@@palermus20 same
It, is is an outstanding record. The first notes.. the whole album. It gets me everytime.
I'm not sure if I can find better music.
my friend sent me this album, thank you!
Insanely gorgeous, thank you for putting up the full album!
Jake Smith dude... I have ur name
dude... まつろわぬもの
Man, your channel is so good, i hope you are doing good at your life :)
it hurts
Music to put on even if you are at your lowest, or at the moments where you just appretiate life, drink your beer or tea, looking from a window and just being happy.
Both of these moods get enhanced four times if you put this on!
I love the last track ❤
This music really helps me a lot with the story I am working on.
what a masterpiece
i just realised this album was released on my birthday
thats the best thing that happened that day
this music is destroying me but i don't mind
i hope you will find the sense of this genre, because people like you make it like it's a bad stuff, but it's not, you have to feel it, like a safe place, not something that makes you more depressed than how you already are.
Masterpiece.
really liked the first one
Helps alot with the brainrot.
Such beautiful songs they seem to capture how I feel so well. I just want to disappear at the same time I wish I wasn't so fucking alone all my friends couldn't care less about me In 2021 I tried ending my life so many times over and over it was so exhausting not getting what I want I felt myself almost die so many times I felt how heavy my body was getting up out and sobbing about how mad they would be but they didn't care less that I tried to kms. I'm going back to that again somehow even after trying so hard to make myself change into a better person seems I can't escape this I can't wait until this shit just ends haha. I just don't want to kms I wish I could've just died those times by someone else rhdnndhdnnrhndndhdn d done rjne.
Wiggle it giggle it
True facts
Ey man, I'm usually a real cunt with this topic towards others.
Lost one too many friends to this and I work the way, where something that makes a huge overload on emotions is just too much? My brain makes me either to completely block it out, or hate it so bad I mock others who ain't pissed with me and rather would loose the fight.
4 of my good friends are gone and it pisses me off, I myself had tough shit to get through, still getting out of it, but I'm much more further then before, when I just felt sad and alone. This hate towards it makes me go, but every human being is different I know.
Maybe it's because I'm high as shit right now, but hey, I've got a trick up my sleeve which helped me and some of the people who were at the same place I was.
It's music.
Make it, experiment with it, thanks to this I learned how to play drums, guitar and bass, bought a scrathing table, DJ panel, couple of synths and for whatever reason an electronic harph that can be plugged into foot pedals.
My whole appartment looks like I'm stealing electricity for the whole another city.
Cabels everywhere, LEDs flickering everywhere, weird noises coming out from the speakers and MAN do I promise, this moment, where you just don't care and make sounds. You get used to making certain noises, put them slowly together and make your own pieces slowly but surely.
This helped me to regain some sense of self-worth if you could say that.
Making something from start to finish by no rules or leads, it's just YOU and that's what made me feel more appreciated of being here, of myself, of creating my emotions into something other can take and consume at their own pace.
Since I play a lot of Tarkov since 2017, I found a group of people whilst playing it.
Lad from England, another from germany, than Netherlands and Sweden.
On Finland perkele redneck, Russian lad and one Danish weirdo.
We all played together and when the servers were down or we just talked about random stuff throughout the night?
We played whatever music we wanted, had it in the background and there I showed some of my songs to someone else.
Scandinavians liked my depressive black metal song more, but for example Russian lad and German stick (he's super skinny and tall like a motherfucker) liked my speedcore/frenchcore stuff.
One thing that I can't get rid off, is my critique towards my songs.
If I start something I need to finish it as soon as possible, because even 2 days away from the song making and I'd do something different which has no goal in mind and before I finish it I already changed my mind 3 times and it's just a neverending mash.
Some songs make themselves in minutes, some need some experimenting, some are just meant to be archived for future samples/ideas.
Anyone reading my high thoughts, if you feel real down and there is no possible thing to make you feel otherwise?
Please try this. Even if you do all yourself like I do, you always somehow bump into someone interested in the same thing you do.
Be it by asking a question online about something, looking out for tips and ideas and there you see someone's idea, you agree, you start talking, it's always better if you can do this whilst someone listens to what your musical ideas are!
One day I might feel angry so I make a song that captures that emotion and later on in the month I might feel super happy so that song is just positive through and through!
It feels like a form of diary, but instead of describing your day/emotions by words, you describe them via music.
And with music, people can resonate better then with words... because there's enough words from all sides, but almost no music.
idk abt depression and suicide and all that i just know this album makes me sleepy as fuck man, love sleeping to this sound
is from the creators of Cry of Fear?
Only one of them is Cry of Fear creator - Andreas, others are not associated with Cry of Fear.
@@iceyay i see, that's why i saw some stuff of this band in the buy store and the Team Psykskallar Yutube channel
flying dying
They call it dsbm
Hi Jordan I love you. You know who this is baby boy
Check Lifelover
this is more post black metal