I feel like you're going to be my favorite youtuber or anituber... because I really like how you do your content. How you deliver them and how you talk about them, I feel like it's so rare to find people like that. I feel like you'd give a new perspective to things that I've seen before. That maybe you can teach me something that I don't already know... so, keep up the good job :)
Being a senior and halfway through this year, I feel that I'm stuck in this cycle of wanting and knowing I need to do more but being too content with the hand I'm giving and never change anything. All your videos have given me alot to think about in my own life but this hits so close to home for where I am right now. So thank you
I kinda hope more people would do videos like this :< i love hearing how something affected someone's life. However, I do understand why people wouldn't do these kind of things. :
Accepting yourself for however or whatever you are. Thinking that you cannot do anything will end you up in a hole you yourself made as you did not truly think about who you are. True that being an individual can be hard as life throws soo many obstacles at you, but getting out of it will be the best achievement in your life and thus makes it exciting/interesting. I know, whatever I wrote won't make sense but I really wanted to convey something. I feel like this anime might have conveyed something else but some part of it can be what I wrote.
Your so raw and so honest in these videos I've felt like this for the last 4 months and wondering if it was depression or something and I'm so glad you made this video I hope you and I can allow ourselves to open up to more color in our lives and start the climb to the mountaintop
I always waited until the day before a paper is due to start writing it, and then I freak out and start writing like a madman. It works and I usually get good grades, but staying up until 4:30 AM trying to keep a logical train of thought is not easy or healthy.
Every time I ever tried going for a relationship I end up ruining a friendship and when I finally gave up being proactive about it, that's when people became interested in me. I found most of those people were just abusive and now I don't really interact with anyone on a romantic level.
As a college senior and someone who has been watching anime for like more than half his life, your videos explained to me reasons why I love to keep watching these kind of shows. Although I am studious when it comes to my academics, that energy isn't really put into much else like socializing/relationships/taking risks. And playing the safe route felt normal to me as I feel like it is the only way. Now about to be done with college in a few weeks and I gotta make big decisions on what I want to do afterwards. In any case, I sorta binge watch your videos from time to time but they always connect at a very personal level, which I really like!
Its nice to see someone talk about this because i think it is something a lot of people go through. I often look at other people and wonder how they are so motivated to succeed while i am content doing just enough to get where i need to go. Its a nice thing to think about, good video!
i went thro that phase in HS and later in Uni but in Uni i lost all of my energy, and died internally, falled in depression but the answer to the energy problem is passion one day i found the passion of my life and the rest is history dont blame yourself for lacking energy when you didnt find a passion also, those early crushs of yours, i had them before and maybe it was a good thing you didnt date, even tho if the other girl felt the same i had a childhood love who confessed to me and for the whole time she was in same school and i never made a move on her later i heard she married but right now, i dont imagine it would have worked out even tho it was mutual i dont know if everything happened for a reason but the me now doesnt love that girl and i have no regrets about it i met others in my life, interesting people, interesting girls, one crush right now who deserves every bit of my love and admiration for her not much for my past ones same for my current passions, and the things i enjoy doing now even tho i have wasted 15years of my life doing nothing
@loli want my chicken LOL, too true In all seriousness, Chitanda only exists in a 2012 anime, Shinigami. Don't look for her, or you're going to walk away empty-handed. Be the man Chitanda would want you to be, and you'll find someone 10x more beautiful, kind, and caring. Best of luck.
@@authorbhattacharjee4957 See Vincente3's comment above - even if you did encounter such a person, you'd want to be someone who they would want to be with, too. Focus on improving yourself and broadening your horizons, meeting new people.
To me Hyouka could've easily be part psychological horror, or at least it felt like it could in the 1st ep where the Classics Club was at the school board and the MC felt all the effort and while it poured around him. I honestly felt chills.
Thank you for this video. No, seriously. Thank you for this video. Not only did this video make me appreciate the series more (although I'm still not quite content with the ending), but it inspired me to dedicate myself more passionately to the things I love. It reminded me that what I want to achieve won't be accomplished by a lack of commitment. "Reach for the stars to hit the moon" is a nice saying, but you have truly given it relatable meaning. Thank you.
Your videos are seriously truly inspiring. This one in particular hits a real close to home. I always find myself thinking I need to do more, take choices in my life that will make me happier and yet I never do, out of fear that I'll put all that effort and then find myself years later realizing I'm not happy with what I chose or that I won't be good enough to accomplish what I set out to do and I'll have wasted all my time and energy without getting anywhere, but I'm not happy with my stagnation either, it just leads to missing out on life. Why's life gotta be so difficult to get right...
After finishing Hyouka 3 days ago coming across this video, it was a good sendoff in a way. To know your personal experience with this type of thing really helped me! I know you'll probably never see this comment but if you do, I just wanted to let you know that, it was really well written and the delivery was superb! I will definitely be watching more of your videos, new sub indeed!
Man, you are actually ONE of the only youtubers that I actually relate to. I, too, was overly cautious of many friendships and looking back, I really messed up a relationship.
I'm glad you made this. You're the only one who can explain why media means what it does to you. And you explained it so well. The show can't give me the same experience you had with it, but hearing you explain it was sublime enough.
Love your video! I too can relate to Oreki's worldview. Putting little effort in things I do in life, thinking of I'm sort of genius lol. God, watching your video makes me miss Hyouka. Back then the anime has special connection to me. -Ice cream 🍦i scream
I can definitely relate with your highschool experience. It's often hard to even think about individual moments because it makes me unfathomably frustrated with myself. Not because I was so foolish back then, but it reminds me that deep down I'm still that fool.
I searched this topic up late at night years after watching hyouka just to remember what the story was about. I didnt expect to relate with your story as much as i did and you've got me thinking about the way i live now.
"Taking life as it is given and not putting your money in the pot may allow you more time to smell the flowers but it will never take you to the top of the flowers" Dayuuuuum that hit harder than any sad movie I watched. You're a really cool youtuber it's basically you talking to us it's more like therapy
I really wish I watched more of these high school slice of life animes in high school (2012-2015). I think I would've been able to enjoy them much more, due to the fact that I'd connect with the characters... And in other parts of my mind, I really wish I could've just gone to school in Japan completely. Why? Their culture fits my world view. I find the order, respect and cleanliness, even the school uniforms, attractive. Now I'm considering going to college. Or rather, I think I have to to get the kind of fulfilling life I want, a job that I'll enjoy. I've considered going to Japan. But, still many things scares me about going, and not knowing the language or how to act doesn't make it any better. I've also read that Japanese college isn't as strict when it comes to things like uniforms and the like, and the studying is a lot less active in Japan, not sure how that differentiates from Sweden, but compared to U.S it's apparently very different, and I'm almost certain Swedish college is much like in the U.S. On topic of Hyouka, though, I feel like someone like Chitanda, whether male or female, would've really helped me out, putting in effort, in high school no matter where I would've been in the world.
@@swiggityswo9558 I agree. Many people got this romantic idea how Japan is and even after they go and be a tourist they still don't have an idea how the "real" Japan is. It's nothing like anime, it's not roses and pedals in Japan. There's a huge reason why suicide rates are so high and why birth rates are falling. The truth it Japan is an awful country and most everyone is depressed in there. Plus not to mention they are super xenophobic. I used to have similar mentality when I was younger. "I'm going to go to Japan I don't care what people think it will be awesome and it will be different". Then I quit watching anime and started actually looking through my normal eyes and not rose tinted anime glasses, and I realised just how bad Japan is. The truth is Japan is awesome if you are a tourism, but if you want to live there the simple answer is ...... DON'T.
for whoever reads it, oportunities arent limitless, take the chances when u can im at a point on my life where even if i want to change something, meet someone, do something i dont have the chance nor the oportunity, i entered the fixed rail i may not be that old (25 at the 2020) but oportunity wise im prety much done, dont get me wrong there is still live ahead i have a job i have a carrer to finish but, its just a continuaton of things, no new branches, no other paths... think it tiwce when u have the chances... or just make a leap of fate, is up to u at the end. Good luck
I’m at a point right now in college where I’m realizing I have to take things seriously after just doing what I wanted in high school and I’ve felt so horrible about the fact all I ever do is watch anime or read manga instead of studying. I’ve been really disappointed in myself because I make all these goals that I never follow through on or I feel like it’s too much work and energy to do things but this video really touched my heart. It helped me come to the realization about my actions and how things could be better if I just try. Thank you for your videos and I hope you continue to make more.
Hiding in Public so far I’ve only started Goodnight punpun and toradora and I’ve caught up to bunny girl senpai, but I’ve caught up to bunny girl senpai, aside from that I’ve really enjoyed your videos on shows that I’ve seen like Hero academy, evangelion and FLCL!
I don't relate to Oreki on the same level as you do, but I do get the struggle of change. After middle school I thought I could manage a life on my own, with one or two people to talk to and good grades I could get through high school. This perception of mine was totally shattered once we had summer school where we stayed in dorms for a month, it was so fun. That's when my struggle to choose began, did I want the gray life or the rose-colored one? And 2 years later, I've found my answer. I'm choosing to be rose colored, as much as I can be anyways. The past 3 months have been really fun, much more fun than before. Yes it was tiring, it still is really tiring but I'm enjoying every second of it
hey, just found this video scrolling. great work! i love your personal connection to the show. i have very similar connections. i just love your overall style. keep up the great work!
Damn. RUclips recommended me your channel and now I've watched like 10 videos back to back. You're not analyzing anime - you're analyzing life and comparing what you experienced in your life with what you experience in anime, and trying to improve from it as a person. Exactly the way I do. These "monologues" hit home really, really hard. I see a lot of past me in what you say. I hope you keep doing these and would be great if we could talk it out more.
Oof, that bit about how lists and schedules don’t work because ultimately the _will_ to do it isn’t there really hit home for me. Though one thing my grandmother always said was that “prayer requires faith + works.” This means that while you must have faith that God will help you, _you_ must do the groundwork to carry out your desires through his vision. Though I’m not that religious anymore, I always admired this interpretation on how prayer worked. But where we differ is that I absolutely would have taken the shot with that girl, and I found myself verbally lamenting as I heard you recount that story of your folly. No way I would let something like “fear of ruining what we had” stop me from getting with a crush if I KNEW she liked me back.
As by all means, my comment is a Segway from my similarities, to my lifestyle, to human nature talk, to then talking about myself as person, and how I can understand the message of the what it means to have "grey clouds". Being similar to Oreki is something I can be proud of. I, in nature, am content with my own person, was a high schooler content with just being a "energy conservatize". Putting in a certain or just amount in any action or decision can lead many open doors. Some doors can be good, other can be not so good, what stands as a no brainer is all humans follow the same path. Living life how we all chose to live it, people like me personally, Oreki, and Hiding in Public like to be pulled by strings of aging forward and experiencing human life, having a religion or in my case a wind pushing me forward. While, being non-similar to those who chose to constantly take extra steps or give all they got for certain dreams, theirs no doubt that all humans are at battle of decisions. Choosing to invest ones' whole life into a passion/motivation is what drives of many people forward, is just as much wanting to conserve your content with making the decision "this is all I wanna be, but I'm fine by this drive" or "I like being in his gray cloud of mine". In many ways pushing me forward... Is my love for video games, anime, animations, and RUclips videos, I make it a choice in my path of being human and wanting to strike my strengths down this path of decision, where I can hopefully one day make a living off streaming, videos game, content creation, and RUclips videos because I love video games and doing what I love. This drive factors in my real-life time character growth, once was a kid who was fine with having no filter on his voice or decisions whatsoever, is now at a point in life where he can filter his ability to voice and views, being wiser and planning himself a direction on his human path that is defined by a strain to the roller-coaster of a human ride with the goal of pursuing a end by all means, placing himself in a direction of noticing how much effort I can put into this goal and how much energy he wants to conserve down this path. Others in my life and people close/around me would often comment/criticize/insult my way of living, my 'lazy' lifestyle, comment about my standing in High School/standing as a person, living life how I choose, putting their wants and views into my mouth, or at worst going too far with this drive. Putting all the leverage of expectations into this one soul, son, kid, teen, friend, and/or person leads me a distaste of satisfying these expectations, for the sake of satisfying and nothing else, how much it will feel and mean success striving this certain path expectations place me. While the intentions are good, not taking account or going past my views, ways of thinking, personality, or even way of speech, tossed in to a path with too much drive. Just claiming I am not putting this much effort as they view, even though I am putting a lot of effort. Ending up with a cycle I end up just pushing through caring on my life a helm dear as being human. At the end of the day, I can't say much, but what I can say is being in a "grey cloud" is alright, being content, having a reason, a belief, so on so forth, whatever way of thinking you have for your life. Staying in this "grey cloud" while still being aware of all of the world's color, is actually a quiet comfortable way of living in my own "grey cloud" to my choice in conserving as much energy as a desire to. If this reaches to you or anyone for that matter, consider taking all your person when considering how you wanna live your life and how intend on living. As it stands now, I am content (redundant I know :| ) with loving my self-consideration personality, as I go by the years of my life, staying the same, but also different, I can appreciate being in a position in life as human being. I can understand the thoughts of what it means to live a "grey cloud", just keep yourself upright while still questioning your lifestyle.
I can’t believe I got called out like that. But I guess I too was in a similar mindset in my junior year. I also met a woman I liked and liked me back, she confessed to me and it took a-lot of courage for me to finally make up my mind and take the next step with her. To be honest.. I had a lot of adjustments and it took some time to get used to, however, without a doubt its one of the best decisions I’ve made my whole life. Being with her, my life is no longer as mundane and repetitive as It used to be.. and I finally went up the mountain to experience the flowers better, see the world with all its colours without staying in its monochrome area. Ever since I’ve been with her, I started using up more energy than I ever did in my whole 4 years and to me.. that’s a good thing. This video made my resolve stronger, that the decisions I’ve made that day is better than having any sort of regrets.
Heeey! Thanks for the video. This is really one of my favourite anime, because of MC's mainly. And well, he is like lite version of Satou without panic attacks and hikkikomori ideas. What you said about discipline is so close to my experience. Thank you for your vids!
@@alejannndrrroooo yep I found the reason why season 2 is not coming . First of all the Manga have less chapter to make another season and the (writer / director) someone has died so it's not coming up ...I forgot that what who was that
My main issue is not making my videos long enough, my editing process is already hell, a ten minute video would be too long to edit. Or I’m just lazy...
Thank you for making this video. I have lived life looking for the lowest-effort, highest-result option. I've always found it easier to suppress my desires than to work towards them. Because of this attitude, my life has been mostly-uneventful. Low stress, but thoroughly hollow and meaningless. Your story about your mutual unrequited crush made me think; When I assess something as being too much effort, I might be underestimating the result. If I can adopt a more optimistic outlook, maybe I will be more willing to make an effort. I'll have to watch Hyouka, thanks for the rec.
My friend shared this video to me, and here's a summary of the conversation I had with him while I was watching this: Me: I understand that feeling of "life will go how it goes, and the past is the past," that hakuna matata, nothing really matters, life goes on, kinda feeling. But at the same time I feel like that's a bad way to actively live, because then you're not actively living, you're being passive and not actually doing anything. That's why I was so proud to mostly successfully pull off my 2017 resolution of "Do something special every weekend." I went to a bunch of cons all over michigan and one in canada, I hung out with friends a lot more, I expanded my hobbies beyond video gaming and into more board gaming and Magic. I could've not done any of that and stayed home and everything would still have been "fine" and I wouldn't have actually felt like I was missing anything, but I feel like my personal experience of life has been improved Friend: the guy wasn't saying that the passive way is the good way? he was talking about how he was like that in hs and he's trying to be more active and more motivated Me: I know, I wasn't critiquing him, I was reflecting on myself and my feelings, because I largely feel the same way he does. I'm still not what I want to be, I'm not a regretful person, but my biggest (and only serious) regret is still not pushing myself harder to get into *college A*, and then failing out of *college B*, and even now I still wait until the day-off for most assignments in my community college courses. I want to be efficient, and I feel like that's a struggle I may never fully overcome, but in the meantime I've found other ways to improve my life and give me more energy.
I hate when you say you don't accomplish much, it feels like an insult, since you clearly accomplish way more than me xD Not sure if youtube being optional makes it a worse barometer of your willingness to burn energy, than something mandatory; surely putting energy in when something is totally optional means you're more willing to burn fuel than if you were forced to do the thing? 2:40 i'm similar but different. I think luck (stuff outside our control) is such a big part of life that there's little point trying, and that most lifestyles are similarly enjoyable if you have the right mindset so there's not much point working hard to get a specific lifestyle. Different excuses for the same avoidance behavior pattern i guess :U Being on the top of the mountain is probably no better than being in the valley. You might have regrets for not dating those girls, but you could be saddled with something worse than regrets if you had dated them (you could've ended up tied to someone you later found you didn't like). A lot of philosophies like Buddhism seem to be about learning not to care about stuff, so i feel pretty enlightened being a lazy bum - guess it's a "grass is greener" thing, people who don't care about stuff want to care more and people who do care want to care less :P
"No better to be safe than sorry." is a line I recalled (Take on me) I'm in a similar boat, i feel you could spin any situation to some sort of contentedness, on the other hand, I'm aware that that supports continuing with my current lifestyle and not changing. Honestly tho, how can we know if the view from a valley is the same as the mountain if we've never been on it? But I also am just sitting in the valley... a fear of mine is living in the valley, and at the last minute of death, deeply regretting having not climbed the mountain. But then I get lazy. But is that really an excuse?
Your high school experience sounds extremely similar to my own, religious influence and never putting forth much effort. Thank you for the analysis it always brings up things I got a hint of but never could fully understand. I hope you keep making these
I find it frustrating how I _know_ I shouldn't get into a relationship mid teen even if everyone just makes it so "welcoming" and teasing about it all but my _emotions_ rival against that, and I always suppressed that feeling for... Since... I was 10. I know, it's stupid to talk about life when you're a child or even a mid teen but... It's just so... *Everywhere,* it reminds _you_ of everything about your loneliness. I've never "liked" or "love" someone, I've never had a crush on anyone really. You might say that's impossible, and I'd say you're right, because I've never known how to "identify" it, I don't know what it feels like. How do people keep saying they're in "love" when no one has ever thought you to identify the feeling of "love"? (Violet Evergarden portrays this quite well) "I thought it was out of grasp, but it wasn't. It's like, she was going out of her way to give me what I wanted, and I rejected it. I didn't want to ruin it. Yet, my actions ruined it." This hit me hard when you said it (it also felt like I was listening to a Ted Ed talk), I've always thought I was the most worthless thing, the unworthy kind. So I end up rejecting most good things presented to me. I decided at the end of primary school that I would be a loner in middle school and just try to shut myself away from socializing since I got verbally bullied for half of my primary school years and I practically got used to it, but still a little traumatized by it (in the end, I still socialized, go figure). Somehow, I'm in sort of the _same situation,_ two years ago a girl in my class who is the first girl to approach me in middle school. We never talked much during those two years but from what I know at the time, we had some shared interests and she'd come to me for help during specific times during class, but it's not very often. Now, this year, our seats were next to each other so we socialized more and played badminton during weekends with some of my friends. I remember the time when she talked about her first year, she just told me that she was more antisocial and "tried to keep _me_ company from afar", which was weird for me, why would someone just "tries to keep _me_ company"? There was once when I was sick at school, she "kept tabs" on me, she asked if I was alright and even ORDERED me to drink more water. After that day, my friends told me that her mood was lower than usual, as if to sympathize with me. Although it's just a simple act of friendship, it touches me that someone cares so deeply for me. But after all, she's made it clear that she just wanted to be friends and I'm fine with it, I'm not jumping into this emotional mess so early. Is it also a coincidence that her first name is "Angeline"?
Given how introspective you are, you might be surprised later on that you are actually more mature than you accredit. One of the (few) good things implied in Evangelion, is that the "You" that you hate and the "You" others perceive can be borderline separate from each other. So I beg you, sincerely, take good care of your friend, keep in contact with her, and share just a bit of your world, even if that makes you uncomfortable. And most importantly - don't be like me ;_;
Wow, I'm genuinely surprised that someone else thinks this way. I've never been able to relate to anyone about relationships to this extent. From my experience I've never had romantic interest in someone so I'm not sure what it feels like to have a crush or to be in love. In order to figure out what love feels like I've thought about the two types of relationships I currently have; My family, and my dogs. I created hypothetical scenarios that involve both parties dying at different times and how I would feel losing them. I suppose I'd go through the stages of grief but that's about it. I believe, then, if I love someone I don't want them to be hurt or die. And if I go by those standards then I only love my family and my dogs, no one else so far. It still confuses me as to how people just know they're in love. When I see someone and notice that they're attractive by my beauty standards, that's all it is; they're just simply attractive. However, the people I'm acquainted with usually say "They're hot/cute" and behave like they're infatuated with the person. I don't believe that infatuation is love. I don't believe that sexual arousal is love. But if I'm getting confused about love while those I know follow these standards then maybe my standards are wrong. I'm not sure why I'm really concerned about romance to be honest. I've already decided that I'll never say anything if I develop a crush or immediately reject someone if they confess to me. I've wished for a long time to be alone and that'd the people in my life would abandon me. I don't actually want that to be so, but, I do feel like I deserve it. Like I don't deserve happiness, love, or any close relationships. That's probably why I don't have any friends or try to make them. I try to avoid making relationships because I should be alone and feel empty. No clue where this feeling comes from but it's here. Anyways, sorry for typing up a storm. I'm not sure why I'm blabbing on about all this on the internet anyways. It's probably because I'm anonymous. But even so, I enjoyed reading what you said and hope your aquantences are kind to you, bye.
@@7minutesago4yearsago29 That sounds a bit lonesome, but I do support your attitude. It's okay to be "not normal". I have some personal gripes and hatreds that also pushed me to hide away from all social contacts, despite not knowing where some those feelings originated. Anyways, just want to throw some neutral-negativity on the internet. Hope you have a good day.
I've always felt disconnected with people in terms of love, like, yes i guess i do care about you but then what? It's just my opinion that the struggle to differentiate or "identify" kinds of love roots from your family/environment growing up. As for me, i think that if i received love from my family properly as a kid, i then wouldve be able to differentiate what familial love is from friendship and romantic. I wish i could love romantically, but i feel like if you wanna get there, you must understand and know each other deeply. And that in itself is too much, i feel like its too much of a hurdle to overcome for something so uncertain. I've rejected the people who confessed to me because i feel ashamed when i face their genuine and honest feelings. I dont want to reply to their honesty with halfhearted replies or promise of love. I cannot do that. in my opinion, since i cannot properly love and im having a hard time seeing the differences, i just made my own definition of love for myself. For me love knowing AND acknowledging the part of the person that i do not like/hate and still deciding to continue loving them. For me love is the decision that, yes, this person might have some bad spots that i do not vibe with, but i accept that it is a part of them and i will love them regardless. I think it is seeing the person as a whole, not turning a blind eye to their flaws, but acknowledging them and reassuring them and yourself that even after these, i will still love them. I think it is important to reassure your partner and even yourself of the love you hold for them [could also apply to any relationship, friends or romantic].
At 9:18 when I saw the clock I thought that was the same time with my time at that moment, so I looked over to my clock and it was almost the exact same time! Crazy.
I can relate to you so much, like from the start to 4 minutes in was me till like 10th grade. Then theres the fact that I went through some similar realizations about being proactive and putting in more effort in my early 20s, went a bit(probably an understatement if you asked the ppl who knew me then) overboard with it in all honesty. Now I struggle with balancing the 2.
Yesterday (nov 2nd) this vídeo turned 2yrs old, and man this video lead me to that wonderfull anime that is Hyouka I hope someday Will be a 2nd season, because are a LOT of stories in the novel that are damn good
when you suddenly realize that you've been staring at walls or the words of a book to not get eye contact with so many strangers in your classroom cuz it's "too much of a burden". "I didn't know youtube could benefit me this much"
in arabic we have a quote that say "whoever feel fear of climb mountains, he will live between gaps forever" "ومن يتهيب صعود الجبال يعش أبد الدهر بين الحفر"
It's crazy how you and me seem to be 80% a same person. +-same personality, "problems" with personal life and ourselves, same ideas on life, same media preferences, same tendency of putting the thoughts out there in constructed manner (your RUclips, me just writing stuff). It actually scares me a little.
I feel like you're going to be my favorite youtuber or anituber... because I really like how you do your content. How you deliver them and how you talk about them, I feel like it's so rare to find people like that. I feel like you'd give a new perspective to things that I've seen before. That maybe you can teach me something that I don't already know... so, keep up the good job :)
Thanks, I'm glad you like them so much. Feels good to get this comment
@@HidinginPublic you're always welcome! :D
@@HidinginPublic , so wholesome :'D
agree
Being a senior and halfway through this year, I feel that I'm stuck in this cycle of wanting and knowing I need to do more but being too content with the hand I'm giving and never change anything. All your videos have given me alot to think about in my own life but this hits so close to home for where I am right now. So thank you
No problem man, I'm happy you are continuing to take something from them
This is literally me right now
I wonder where you’re at now lol
TBH both his voice and the way he talks are so calming
Dude your thumbnail also made me fall off of my bed
Your words are so true, it feels like i’m watching a documentary on life or something. See you next week
See you next week :)
Great video! I really enjoy these personal ones.
I kinda hope more people would do videos like this :< i love hearing how something affected someone's life. However, I do understand why people wouldn't do these kind of things. :
@@sed9385 Digibro used to do them, and they were also very good
@@CAkidTalks I did see one or two of his. If I'm not mistaken, it was Your Name and The Place Further Than the Universe. I enjoyed those too 😀
@@sed9385 Nicuuu
You are one of the only youtubers who I can connect with on a personal level, and its really great. Thank you.
It is really great, happy you can connect too
It's all about actively choosing for yourself isn't it? Being an individual is hard but it's also kinda exiting
Being our own people is the most pressuring yet amazing things we are granted in life.
Accepting yourself for however or whatever you are. Thinking that you cannot do anything will end you up in a hole you yourself made as you did not truly think about who you are. True that being an individual can be hard as life throws soo many obstacles at you, but getting out of it will be the best achievement in your life and thus makes it exciting/interesting.
I know, whatever I wrote won't make sense but I really wanted to convey something.
I feel like this anime might have conveyed something else but some part of it can be what I wrote.
Your so raw and so honest in these videos
I've felt like this for the last 4 months and wondering if it was depression or something and I'm so glad you made this video
I hope you and I can allow ourselves to open up to more color in our lives and start the climb to the mountaintop
My goodness, the music combined with what you were talking about really hit me. Thanks for that!
Happy it did. No problem man, best of luck
I always waited until the day before a paper is due to start writing it, and then I freak out and start writing like a madman. It works and I usually get good grades, but staying up until 4:30 AM trying to keep a logical train of thought is not easy or healthy.
Every time I ever tried going for a relationship I end up ruining a friendship and when I finally gave up being proactive about it, that's when people became interested in me. I found most of those people were just abusive and now I don't really interact with anyone on a romantic level.
Sorry to hear that.
Same
As a college senior and someone who has been watching anime for like more than half his life, your videos explained to me reasons why I love to keep watching these kind of shows. Although I am studious when it comes to my academics, that energy isn't really put into much else like socializing/relationships/taking risks. And playing the safe route felt normal to me as I feel like it is the only way. Now about to be done with college in a few weeks and I gotta make big decisions on what I want to do afterwards.
In any case, I sorta binge watch your videos from time to time but they always connect at a very personal level, which I really like!
Yesssssssss, your words are so true. I can definitely relate to your story and my senior year (currently going through it right now). Great video!
Thanks, happy you can connect. Best of luck on the rest of your senior year!
Its nice to see someone talk about this because i think it is something a lot of people go through. I often look at other people and wonder how they are so motivated to succeed while i am content doing just enough to get where i need to go. Its a nice thing to think about, good video!
Thank you, I'm glad it's a topic you liked hearing about. It has been a sort of powerful back and forth over the last few years for me
this is scarily relatable... amazing job with your content! this channel has a lot of promise
i went thro that phase in HS and later in Uni
but in Uni i lost all of my energy, and died internally, falled in depression
but the answer to the energy problem is passion
one day i found the passion of my life and the rest is history
dont blame yourself for lacking energy when you didnt find a passion
also, those early crushs of yours, i had them before
and maybe it was a good thing you didnt date, even tho if the other girl felt the same
i had a childhood love who confessed to me and for the whole time she was in same school and i never made a move on her
later i heard she married
but right now, i dont imagine it would have worked out even tho it was mutual
i dont know if everything happened for a reason
but the me now doesnt love that girl and i have no regrets about it
i met others in my life, interesting people, interesting girls, one crush right now who deserves every bit of my love and admiration for her
not much for my past ones
same for my current passions, and the things i enjoy doing now
even tho i have wasted 15years of my life doing nothing
thankyou, you gave me hope. I hope you are doing fine. :)
@@dudeman3 yes, fine, keeping hope at 38yo xD
chitanda is my best anime girl ever, I was always looking for a chitanda in high school.
@loli want my chicken LOL, too true
In all seriousness, Chitanda only exists in a 2012 anime, Shinigami. Don't look for her, or you're going to walk away empty-handed. Be the man Chitanda would want you to be, and you'll find someone 10x more beautiful, kind, and caring. Best of luck.
Vicente3 I like this comment. This is a nice comment.
If only girls like her existed in real life :/
@@authorbhattacharjee4957 See Vincente3's comment above - even if you did encounter such a person, you'd want to be someone who they would want to be with, too. Focus on improving yourself and broadening your horizons, meeting new people.
To me Hyouka could've easily be part psychological horror, or at least it felt like it could in the 1st ep where the Classics Club was at the school board and the MC felt all the effort and while it poured around him. I honestly felt chills.
Thank you for this video.
No, seriously.
Thank you for this video.
Not only did this video make me appreciate the series more (although I'm still not quite content with the ending), but it inspired me to dedicate myself more passionately to the things I love.
It reminded me that what I want to achieve won't be accomplished by a lack of commitment.
"Reach for the stars to hit the moon" is a nice saying, but you have truly given it relatable meaning.
Thank you.
Your videos are seriously truly inspiring.
This one in particular hits a real close to home. I always find myself thinking I need to do more, take choices in my life that will make me happier and yet I never do, out of fear that I'll put all that effort and then find myself years later realizing I'm not happy with what I chose or that I won't be good enough to accomplish what I set out to do and I'll have wasted all my time and energy without getting anywhere, but I'm not happy with my stagnation either, it just leads to missing out on life.
Why's life gotta be so difficult to get right...
I don't know, but it's always worth working towards. I'm glad you liked the video man. Thanks for the comment
I always come back to this video since it’s like talking to someone who responds who actually makes interesting conversatiojs
After finishing Hyouka 3 days ago coming across this video, it was a good sendoff in a way. To know your personal experience with this type of thing really helped me! I know you'll probably never see this comment but if you do, I just wanted to let you know that, it was really well written and the delivery was superb! I will definitely be watching more of your videos, new sub indeed!
Man, you are actually ONE of the only youtubers that I actually relate to. I, too, was overly cautious of many friendships and looking back, I really messed up a relationship.
damn this is relatable. and honestly i admire that you're able to just say this stuff on the internet to so many people.
Damn... I learned a lot about Hyouka today...
Evanit0 waifu Wednesday: BoyMode AMV
I'm glad you made this. You're the only one who can explain why media means what it does to you. And you explained it so well.
The show can't give me the same experience you had with it, but hearing you explain it was sublime enough.
Thanks man, I'm glad that regardless of your personal enjoyment with the show, that you could still take away something positive from the video
It's an odd occasion that I enjoy one of RUclips's suggested videos even nearly this much. I'll be watching more of you, I think.
I'm glad you found it, and enjoyed. Best luck to the future
Love your video! I too can relate to Oreki's worldview. Putting little effort in things I do in life, thinking of I'm sort of genius lol. God, watching your video makes me miss Hyouka. Back then the anime has special connection to me.
-Ice cream 🍦i scream
This is so touching.
Glad you found it so
I can definitely relate with your highschool experience. It's often hard to even think about individual moments because it makes me unfathomably frustrated with myself. Not because I was so foolish back then, but it reminds me that deep down I'm still that fool.
I searched this topic up late at night years after watching hyouka just to remember what the story was about. I didnt expect to relate with your story as much as i did and you've got me thinking about the way i live now.
This is a really good video. Im glad that Im rewatching old content.
Thanks for making this. A lot of feelings I couldn't put into words.
0:30 realy similar on our school building but more trees near it making it more nostlagic
Holy shit why don’t you have more subs this was an amazing video. I hope you blow up soon and keep up the great content. Subscribed
Hey thanks man, I appreciate the support
"Taking life as it is given and not putting your money in the pot may allow you more time to smell the flowers but it will never take you to the top of the flowers" Dayuuuuum that hit harder than any sad movie I watched. You're a really cool youtuber it's basically you talking to us it's more like therapy
I love these videos. This makes me love Hyouka more than I already did.
I relate so much to you, when you talked about laying things off until the end. I be doing that all the time 😪
Even though it's not the best trait, I'm glad we can both relate to one another
Hiding in Public I must say some of my best works have been last minute
I really wish I watched more of these high school slice of life animes in high school (2012-2015). I think I would've been able to enjoy them much more, due to the fact that I'd connect with the characters...
And in other parts of my mind, I really wish I could've just gone to school in Japan completely. Why? Their culture fits my world view. I find the order, respect and cleanliness, even the school uniforms, attractive. Now I'm considering going to college. Or rather, I think I have to to get the kind of fulfilling life I want, a job that I'll enjoy.
I've considered going to Japan. But, still many things scares me about going, and not knowing the language or how to act doesn't make it any better. I've also read that Japanese college isn't as strict when it comes to things like uniforms and the like, and the studying is a lot less active in Japan, not sure how that differentiates from Sweden, but compared to U.S it's apparently very different, and I'm almost certain Swedish college is much like in the U.S.
On topic of Hyouka, though, I feel like someone like Chitanda, whether male or female, would've really helped me out, putting in effort, in high school no matter where I would've been in the world.
Agreed
Japan is a lot worse than everybody hype it up
@@swiggityswo9558 I agree. Many people got this romantic idea how Japan is and even after they go and be a tourist they still don't have an idea how the "real" Japan is. It's nothing like anime, it's not roses and pedals in Japan. There's a huge reason why suicide rates are so high and why birth rates are falling. The truth it Japan is an awful country and most everyone is depressed in there. Plus not to mention they are super xenophobic.
I used to have similar mentality when I was younger. "I'm going to go to Japan I don't care what people think it will be awesome and it will be different". Then I quit watching anime and started actually looking through my normal eyes and not rose tinted anime glasses, and I realised just how bad Japan is.
The truth is Japan is awesome if you are a tourism, but if you want to live there the simple answer is ...... DON'T.
idk why but this video gave me chills
Thanks.
for whoever reads it, oportunities arent limitless, take the chances when u can im at a point on my life where even if i want to change something, meet someone, do something i dont have the chance nor the oportunity, i entered the fixed rail i may not be that old (25 at the 2020) but oportunity wise im prety much done, dont get me wrong there is still live ahead i have a job i have a carrer to finish but, its just a continuaton of things, no new branches, no other paths... think it tiwce when u have the chances... or just make a leap of fate, is up to u at the end.
Good luck
This video saved me in my psychology class THANK YOU!
Thanks, great video as always. Your writing is exquisite, every video of yours is a different experience for me.
I love these videos you are so mindful and insightful
All RUclipsrs : I Work Very Hard
Hiding In Places : I Dont Feel Like I Work Very Hard
I’m at a point right now in college where I’m realizing I have to take things seriously after just doing what I wanted in high school and I’ve felt so horrible about the fact all I ever do is watch anime or read manga instead of studying. I’ve been really disappointed in myself because I make all these goals that I never follow through on or I feel like it’s too much work and energy to do things but this video really touched my heart. It helped me come to the realization about my actions and how things could be better if I just try. Thank you for your videos and I hope you continue to make more.
Oddly enough I find myself watching a few animes just so I can watch your videos, and so far I’ve really enjoyed each show you’ve made a video on :)
That's some dedication. I try to talk about stuff worth watching, so hopefully it hasn't been too large of a task
Hiding in Public so far I’ve only started Goodnight punpun and toradora and I’ve caught up to bunny girl senpai, but I’ve caught up to bunny girl senpai, aside from that I’ve really enjoyed your videos on shows that I’ve seen like Hero academy, evangelion and FLCL!
I don't relate to Oreki on the same level as you do, but I do get the struggle of change. After middle school I thought I could manage a life on my own, with one or two people to talk to and good grades I could get through high school. This perception of mine was totally shattered once we had summer school where we stayed in dorms for a month, it was so fun. That's when my struggle to choose began, did I want the gray life or the rose-colored one? And 2 years later, I've found my answer. I'm choosing to be rose colored, as much as I can be anyways. The past 3 months have been really fun, much more fun than before. Yes it was tiring, it still is really tiring but I'm enjoying every second of it
I love your content because I can relate to the topics discussed.
Finally I found a video on Hyouka 😭😭
Hope it didn't disappoint
@@HidinginPublic Dude. I love your content. 🙏🙏
You make me wanna cry, my inaction has been the main reason for my regrets. It's sad to hear similar stories.
My favorite character was satoshi, I think he's underrated
Anyone else with me?
I just finished watching the show, and I gotta say he was my favourite!
MagicalGirl4 the second to last episode pissed me off too much to say that. Mine is Eru bc I'm jealous of how empathic she is.
Eru’s empathy and kindness is👌🏻top tier
I relate with him ....
8:45 is very powerful. amazing video :,)
Edit: scrap that, the whole video is a masterpiece. i resonate to it too much...
hey, just found this video scrolling. great work! i love your personal connection to the show. i have very similar connections. i just love your overall style. keep up the great work!
Damn. RUclips recommended me your channel and now I've watched like 10 videos back to back. You're not analyzing anime - you're analyzing life and comparing what you experienced in your life with what you experience in anime, and trying to improve from it as a person. Exactly the way I do. These "monologues" hit home really, really hard. I see a lot of past me in what you say. I hope you keep doing these and would be great if we could talk it out more.
Oof, that bit about how lists and schedules don’t work because ultimately the _will_ to do it isn’t there really hit home for me. Though one thing my grandmother always said was that “prayer requires faith + works.” This means that while you must have faith that God will help you, _you_ must do the groundwork to carry out your desires through his vision. Though I’m not that religious anymore, I always admired this interpretation on how prayer worked.
But where we differ is that I absolutely would have taken the shot with that girl, and I found myself verbally lamenting as I heard you recount that story of your folly. No way I would let something like “fear of ruining what we had” stop me from getting with a crush if I KNEW she liked me back.
As by all means, my comment is a Segway from my similarities, to my lifestyle, to human nature talk, to then talking about myself as person, and how I can understand the message of the what it means to have "grey clouds". Being similar to Oreki is something I can be proud of. I, in nature, am content with my own person, was a high schooler content with just being a "energy conservatize". Putting in a certain or just amount in any action or decision can lead many open doors. Some doors can be good, other can be not so good, what stands as a no brainer is all humans follow the same path. Living life how we all chose to live it, people like me personally, Oreki, and Hiding in Public like to be pulled by strings of aging forward and experiencing human life, having a religion or in my case a wind pushing me forward. While, being non-similar to those who chose to constantly take extra steps or give all they got for certain dreams, theirs no doubt that all humans are at battle of decisions. Choosing to invest ones' whole life into a passion/motivation is what drives of many people forward, is just as much wanting to conserve your content with making the decision "this is all I wanna be, but I'm fine by this drive" or "I like being in his gray cloud of mine". In many ways pushing me forward... Is my love for video games, anime, animations, and RUclips videos, I make it a choice in my path of being human and wanting to strike my strengths down this path of decision, where I can hopefully one day make a living off streaming, videos game, content creation, and RUclips videos because I love video games and doing what I love. This drive factors in my real-life time character growth, once was a kid who was fine with having no filter on his voice or decisions whatsoever, is now at a point in life where he can filter his ability to voice and views, being wiser and planning himself a direction on his human path that is defined by a strain to the roller-coaster of a human ride with the goal of pursuing a end by all means, placing himself in a direction of noticing how much effort I can put into this goal and how much energy he wants to conserve down this path. Others in my life and people close/around me would often comment/criticize/insult my way of living, my 'lazy' lifestyle, comment about my standing in High School/standing as a person, living life how I choose, putting their wants and views into my mouth, or at worst going too far with this drive. Putting all the leverage of expectations into this one soul, son, kid, teen, friend, and/or person leads me a distaste of satisfying these expectations, for the sake of satisfying and nothing else, how much it will feel and mean success striving this certain path expectations place me. While the intentions are good, not taking account or going past my views, ways of thinking, personality, or even way of speech, tossed in to a path with too much drive. Just claiming I am not putting this much effort as they view, even though I am putting a lot of effort. Ending up with a cycle I end up just pushing through caring on my life a helm dear as being human. At the end of the day, I can't say much, but what I can say is being in a "grey cloud" is alright, being content, having a reason, a belief, so on so forth, whatever way of thinking you have for your life. Staying in this "grey cloud" while still being aware of all of the world's color, is actually a quiet comfortable way of living in my own "grey cloud" to my choice in conserving as much energy as a desire to. If this reaches to you or anyone for that matter, consider taking all your person when considering how you wanna live your life and how intend on living. As it stands now, I am content (redundant I know :| ) with loving my self-consideration personality, as I go by the years of my life, staying the same, but also different, I can appreciate being in a position in life as human being. I can understand the thoughts of what it means to live a "grey cloud", just keep yourself upright while still questioning your lifestyle.
Thank you and God bless you!
I can’t believe I got called out like that.
But I guess I too was in a similar mindset in my junior year. I also met a woman I liked and liked me back, she confessed to me and it took a-lot of courage for me to finally make up my mind and take the next step with her. To be honest.. I had a lot of adjustments and it took some time to get used to, however, without a doubt its one of the best decisions I’ve made my whole life. Being with her, my life is no longer as mundane and repetitive as It used to be.. and I finally went up the mountain to experience the flowers better, see the world with all its colours without staying in its monochrome area. Ever since I’ve been with her, I started using up more energy than I ever did in my whole 4 years and to me.. that’s a good thing. This video made my resolve stronger, that the decisions I’ve made that day is better than having any sort of regrets.
Love your content! Honestly i feel what you mean on a personal level, especially about the girls you liked. I've done that sooo many times.
Thanks man, if you relate, I hope you can also adopt better agency in the future. Best luck to you!
@@HidinginPublic thanks! I've been working on it as of lately
We need to get this man more subs right now pronto
Heeey! Thanks for the video.
This is really one of my favourite anime, because of MC's mainly.
And well, he is like lite version of Satou without panic attacks and hikkikomori ideas.
What you said about discipline is so close to my experience. Thank you for your vids!
Bro this video is something I don't have any similarity like orekj but this video totally worth my time...
"life would just blow me"
hi
@@HidinginPublic omg hi, great video btw
"... it would take too much energy to know for certain."
Okay, I'm subscribing to you now.
You know... This video... it was... I'm not sure how to describe it... but it is something that I can't point my finger on... I really liked it.
Well I'm glad you did
Really loved the video man,wish you had a podcast .
This video made me cry thank you 😁
How is this the most relatable thing I've ever heard, this was just pure coincidence and Love of Hyouka
Hyoka is one of the best series 😌 .. there is no anime like that , it's eight years now still I'm waiting for season 2 .... 👇
you do know why there’s no second season right?
@@alejannndrrroooo yep I found the reason why season 2 is not coming . First of all the Manga have less chapter to make another season and the (writer / director) someone has died so it's not coming up ...I forgot that what who was that
My main issue is not making my videos long enough, my editing process is already hell, a ten minute video would be too long to edit. Or I’m just lazy...
Damn, how did you tell such a great stories! I love it!
When I noticed the main character of clannad after story was the voice of oreki, I knew this show be so much more than I thought and boy was I right.
Thank you for making this video.
I have lived life looking for the lowest-effort, highest-result option. I've always found it easier to suppress my desires than to work towards them. Because of this attitude, my life has been mostly-uneventful. Low stress, but thoroughly hollow and meaningless.
Your story about your mutual unrequited crush made me think; When I assess something as being too much effort, I might be underestimating the result. If I can adopt a more optimistic outlook, maybe I will be more willing to make an effort.
I'll have to watch Hyouka, thanks for the rec.
You’re Anime analysis is amazing. Where are you doing up there? Good luck and keep moving forward and take care. Peace.
God bless kiddo, you’re making ur way
Thank you!
My friend shared this video to me, and here's a summary of the conversation I had with him while I was watching this:
Me: I understand that feeling of "life will go how it goes, and the past is the past," that hakuna matata, nothing really matters, life goes on, kinda feeling. But at the same time I feel like that's a bad way to actively live, because then you're not actively living, you're being passive and not actually doing anything. That's why I was so proud to mostly successfully pull off my 2017 resolution of "Do something special every weekend."
I went to a bunch of cons all over michigan and one in canada, I hung out with friends a lot more, I expanded my hobbies beyond video gaming and into more board gaming and Magic. I could've not done any of that and stayed home and everything would still have been "fine" and I wouldn't have actually felt like I was missing anything, but I feel like my personal experience of life has been improved
Friend: the guy wasn't saying that the passive way is the good way?
he was talking about how he was like that in hs
and he's trying to be more active and more motivated
Me: I know, I wasn't critiquing him, I was reflecting on myself and my feelings, because I largely feel the same way he does. I'm still not what I want to be, I'm not a regretful person, but my biggest (and only serious) regret is still not pushing myself harder to get into *college A*, and then failing out of *college B*, and even now I still wait until the day-off for most assignments in my community college courses. I want to be efficient, and I feel like that's a struggle I may never fully overcome, but in the meantime I've found other ways to improve my life and give me more energy.
I hate when you say you don't accomplish much, it feels like an insult, since you clearly accomplish way more than me xD
Not sure if youtube being optional makes it a worse barometer of your willingness to burn energy, than something mandatory; surely putting energy in when something is totally optional means you're more willing to burn fuel than if you were forced to do the thing?
2:40 i'm similar but different. I think luck (stuff outside our control) is such a big part of life that there's little point trying, and that most lifestyles are similarly enjoyable if you have the right mindset so there's not much point working hard to get a specific lifestyle. Different excuses for the same avoidance behavior pattern i guess :U
Being on the top of the mountain is probably no better than being in the valley. You might have regrets for not dating those girls, but you could be saddled with something worse than regrets if you had dated them (you could've ended up tied to someone you later found you didn't like).
A lot of philosophies like Buddhism seem to be about learning not to care about stuff, so i feel pretty enlightened being a lazy bum - guess it's a "grass is greener" thing, people who don't care about stuff want to care more and people who do care want to care less :P
"No better to be safe than sorry." is a line I recalled (Take on me) I'm in a similar boat, i feel you could spin any situation to some sort of contentedness, on the other hand, I'm aware that that supports continuing with my current lifestyle and not changing. Honestly tho, how can we know if the view from a valley is the same as the mountain if we've never been on it? But I also am just sitting in the valley... a fear of mine is living in the valley, and at the last minute of death, deeply regretting having not climbed the mountain. But then I get lazy. But is that really an excuse?
Your high school experience sounds extremely similar to my own, religious influence and never putting forth much effort. Thank you for the analysis it always brings up things I got a hint of but never could fully understand. I hope you keep making these
Thank you, for everything
You fucking HEARD ME! I LOVE YOU, Thanks! I see a lot of myself in Oreki too, that's why i asked you to make a video talking about Hyouka.
haha, well I hope you liked. I still try to read all the comments :)
I find it frustrating how I _know_ I shouldn't get into a relationship mid teen even if everyone just makes it so "welcoming" and teasing about it all but my _emotions_ rival against that, and I always suppressed that feeling for... Since... I was 10. I know, it's stupid to talk about life when you're a child or even a mid teen but... It's just so... *Everywhere,* it reminds _you_ of everything about your loneliness. I've never "liked" or "love" someone, I've never had a crush on anyone really. You might say that's impossible, and I'd say you're right, because I've never known how to "identify" it, I don't know what it feels like. How do people keep saying they're in "love" when no one has ever thought you to identify the feeling of "love"? (Violet Evergarden portrays this quite well)
"I thought it was out of grasp, but it wasn't. It's like, she was going out of her way to give me what I wanted, and I rejected it. I didn't want to ruin it. Yet, my actions ruined it."
This hit me hard when you said it (it also felt like I was listening to a Ted Ed talk), I've always thought I was the most worthless thing, the unworthy kind. So I end up rejecting most good things presented to me. I decided at the end of primary school that I would be a loner in middle school and just try to shut myself away from socializing since I got verbally bullied for half of my primary school years and I practically got used to it, but still a little traumatized by it (in the end, I still socialized, go figure).
Somehow, I'm in sort of the _same situation,_ two years ago a girl in my class who is the first girl to approach me in middle school. We never talked much during those two years but from what I know at the time, we had some shared interests and she'd come to me for help during specific times during class, but it's not very often. Now, this year, our seats were next to each other so we socialized more and played badminton during weekends with some of my friends. I remember the time when she talked about her first year, she just told me that she was more antisocial and "tried to keep _me_ company from afar", which was weird for me, why would someone just "tries to keep _me_ company"? There was once when I was sick at school, she "kept tabs" on me, she asked if I was alright and even ORDERED me to drink more water. After that day, my friends told me that her mood was lower than usual, as if to sympathize with me. Although it's just a simple act of friendship, it touches me that someone cares so deeply for me. But after all, she's made it clear that she just wanted to be friends and I'm fine with it, I'm not jumping into this emotional mess so early. Is it also a coincidence that her first name is "Angeline"?
Bruh I totally feel you !
Given how introspective you are, you might be surprised later on that you are actually more mature than you accredit.
One of the (few) good things implied in Evangelion, is that the "You" that you hate and the "You" others perceive can be borderline separate from each other. So I beg you, sincerely, take good care of your friend, keep in contact with her, and share just a bit of your world, even if that makes you uncomfortable.
And most importantly - don't be like me ;_;
Wow, I'm genuinely surprised that someone else thinks this way. I've never been able to relate to anyone about relationships to this extent. From my experience I've never had romantic interest in someone so I'm not sure what it feels like to have a crush or to be in love. In order to figure out what love feels like I've thought about the two types of relationships I currently have; My family, and my dogs. I created hypothetical scenarios that involve both parties dying at different times and how I would feel losing them. I suppose I'd go through the stages of grief but that's about it. I believe, then, if I love someone I don't want them to be hurt or die. And if I go by those standards then I only love my family and my dogs, no one else so far. It still confuses me as to how people just know they're in love. When I see someone and notice that they're attractive by my beauty standards, that's all it is; they're just simply attractive. However, the people I'm acquainted with usually say "They're hot/cute" and behave like they're infatuated with the person. I don't believe that infatuation is love. I don't believe that sexual arousal is love. But if I'm getting confused about love while those I know follow these standards then maybe my standards are wrong. I'm not sure why I'm really concerned about romance to be honest. I've already decided that I'll never say anything if I develop a crush or immediately reject someone if they confess to me. I've wished for a long time to be alone and that'd the people in my life would abandon me. I don't actually want that to be so, but, I do feel like I deserve it. Like I don't deserve happiness, love, or any close relationships. That's probably why I don't have any friends or try to make them. I try to avoid making relationships because I should be alone and feel empty. No clue where this feeling comes from but it's here. Anyways, sorry for typing up a storm. I'm not sure why I'm blabbing on about all this on the internet anyways. It's probably because I'm anonymous. But even so, I enjoyed reading what you said and hope your aquantences are kind to you, bye.
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That sounds a bit lonesome, but I do support your attitude. It's okay to be "not normal". I have some personal gripes and hatreds that also pushed me to hide away from all social contacts, despite not knowing where some those feelings originated.
Anyways, just want to throw some neutral-negativity on the internet. Hope you have a good day.
I've always felt disconnected with people in terms of love, like, yes i guess i do care about you but then what? It's just my opinion that the struggle to differentiate or "identify" kinds of love roots from your family/environment growing up. As for me, i think that if i received love from my family properly as a kid, i then wouldve be able to differentiate what familial love is from friendship and romantic. I wish i could love romantically, but i feel like if you wanna get there, you must understand and know each other deeply. And that in itself is too much, i feel like its too much of a hurdle to overcome for something so uncertain. I've rejected the people who confessed to me because i feel ashamed when i face their genuine and honest feelings. I dont want to reply to their honesty with halfhearted replies or promise of love. I cannot do that.
in my opinion, since i cannot properly love and im having a hard time seeing the differences, i just made my own definition of love for myself. For me love knowing AND acknowledging the part of the person that i do not like/hate and still deciding to continue loving them. For me love is the decision that, yes, this person might have some bad spots that i do not vibe with, but i accept that it is a part of them and i will love them regardless. I think it is seeing the person as a whole, not turning a blind eye to their flaws, but acknowledging them and reassuring them and yourself that even after these, i will still love them. I think it is important to reassure your partner and even yourself of the love you hold for them [could also apply to any relationship, friends or romantic].
Jesus fucking Christ! This hit me harder than I expected.
Dude wtf, this video is fantastic.
aye, glad you think so man. Feels good
I feel you are describing me on a personal level wow
At 9:18 when I saw the clock I thought that was the same time with my time at that moment, so I looked over to my clock and it was almost the exact same time!
Crazy.
I Love this! why didnt i found the channel earlier
Damn this is too relatable and what a nice ending note!
Well hello there my doppelganger in life choices. Nice video
The lesson I got out of Hyouka was that I was much more stupid and I had worse deduction skills than I had thought.
I can relate to you so much, like from the start to 4 minutes in was me till like 10th grade. Then theres the fact that I went through some similar realizations about being proactive and putting in more effort in my early 20s, went a bit(probably an understatement if you asked the ppl who knew me then) overboard with it in all honesty. Now I struggle with balancing the 2.
Yesterday (nov 2nd) this vídeo turned 2yrs old, and man this video lead me to that wonderfull anime that is Hyouka
I hope someday Will be a 2nd season, because are a LOT of stories in the novel that are damn good
when you suddenly realize that you've been staring at walls or the words of a book to not get eye contact with so many strangers in your classroom cuz it's "too much of a burden".
"I didn't know youtube could benefit me this much"
Glad you feel the video benefited you. Hopes for the best :)
Love that you used the Eureka Seven OST.
Where?
in arabic we have a quote that say "whoever feel fear of climb mountains, he will live between gaps forever"
"ومن يتهيب صعود الجبال يعش أبد الدهر بين الحفر"
Great video man!
Keep the good work. =)
Thanks man!
(Feeling of intense empathy with the fact that life doesn’t blow you.)
Chitanda's eyes...........those eyes. How did they make those eyes entrance you........... "I have to know"
It's crazy how you and me seem to be 80% a same person. +-same personality, "problems" with personal life and ourselves, same ideas on life, same media preferences, same tendency of putting the thoughts out there in constructed manner (your RUclips, me just writing stuff). It actually scares me a little.
I wish I would've came across your content a long time ago...