When I was in middle school, everyone just saw me as “the ghost/vampire kid that’s probably immortal” I was super pale, spoke in vocabulary unbefitting a 12 year old, and was never seen traveling between places… Though I got uninvited from a lot of stuff because I’d go immediately into “deep talk” mode and bore my classmates.
2:46. You have no idea just how called out I feel, how PERFECTLY this describes my autism, how much this resonates witb my SOUL. I have the literal exact same mindset every day and I've never even thought about it until you pointed it out
It's the same thing for me but with my friends if one of my friends feels like s*** I feel like shitt if one of my friends are happy I'm happy it's just a weird thing that happened that I kind of like but at the same time it's just autism
SAME, this relatable. I fought over a shower not long ago and the reason? I don’t really like showers but it’s also that I needed the sleep from staying up and that I have a specific schedule, you change that schedule, I WILL NOTICE, and that morning was changed so I woke up early to take a shower, and I hated that cause I just wanted a normal morning.
@Mrcooper-u1b I've actually heard about this before, I think I remember it being associated with some kind of reflective empathy? Idk what it's called but I'm the exact same way
@AgentA-381 I know exactly what you mean- that feeling of snowballing one change into a billion more and messing up your routine? Been there done that
@@randomperson4915 somebody who understands! Nobody at my school gets it. And I might use the Pau Environment Chart thing the next time somebody questions my autism. Cause that also is a thing with my Autism, I feel what others feel, but if I get distracted then BOOM, I’m on the default line again, until I loose my distraction and I can’t help but think about if everyone is okay, cause even with the people I hate, I can’t just stand there and let them feel like trash, and like what Pau said, I feel responsible and that I need to help everyone feel better!
A DIARY THAT CAN MANIPULATE HOW OTHER FEEL AND ACT!!! HOLY CRAP THAT IS SUCH A COOL FANTASY POWER!!! AHAHAKDBDDJDNSJ THE INSPIRATION! ITS ALL COMING AT ME!!! GYAAAAH I MUST WRITE!!! The notebook can only be wielded by a precious smol bean that will do anything to make people happy! While she can be easily manipulated she will not hesitate to retaliate against anyone that hurts her, or others! Determined to make the world happier without forcing them to be happy against their free will. Oooobhh…. Mah brain is a tinglin. Thank you so much for being the inspiration behind this new story! :D
Okay. Why does your voice sound so nice? I listen to your videos in the background of making animations, and you voice is always so calming. And we also have a lot in common! I’m also an artist, and I have autism. I love your content so much you are amazing!❤
I RESONATE WITH EVERY CHORD IN THIS STORY TLDR: To circumvent bullying from my diagnosed Asperger’s, from 1st Grade into the 2nd I printed out sprites of Maple Story characters other kids used as a currency & also was dealing under the table to print scary stuff.
hey i'm not blaming you because this isn't particularly common knowledge but for future reference that term has. VERY unsavory origins. the preferred term is autism or autism spectrum disorder (asd)
@@Bulba413 I appreciate the concern, its just that when I was diagnosed at a very young age I was close to the tail end of the use of the term, and thus am an older generation ASD.
Omg!!!! You have Asperger's?! I do, too. I was diagnosed when I was in Elementary to Middle School. Also, until 12th Grade, I was bullied by certain people, in my class, Especially; my SPED (Special Education) Class.
Girl, your life needs to become an RPG or anime, and this would be the best plot line in it. Your stories are so insane and sad a lot of the time, but you tell them in the most adorable way imaginable!
you know, i always liked to write when i was a child. Creating some stories and characters based on my classmates. almost all classmates wanted to read my things to see what their character did in the story. it was like a book, but instead of only reading for understand the content, they read to see what things their characters would do in story situations. That's a nice video and the 3d too. Pau videos's worth my time ❤
Its intriguing how autism can have different levels and symptoms, some might pass under the radar because only have problems that could be easily confused by other things(its like a limbo, when its harder to get a concrete answer, even by the own person), while other have more complex symptoms that may it harder to involve in social situations like this case, that diary helped you somehow by expressing your concerns and ideas, still this could had been better handled with a proper diagnose or self aware from adults. Despise this, im very glad that you were able to get a formal diagnosis in the end, thanks to that you can fill the wholes of awkward situations in the past and in general became a happier person with yourself, so my best wishes for your future, and love your videos too!
Very nicely done video! Loved the different artstyles + the 3D models, the smooth transition through the different poses… it all blended together very nicely. Also I don't know if anyone at that school knew what a diary is? Because boundaries are important and that's to be respected. (Which it seems like they didn't), Sorry you had to go through that Pau. This was a great first impression for your channel and I can't wait to see more, I hope you're proud of what you've made because I am definitely proud of you. Stay creative and stay legendary. Hope you get a good sleep.
Your voice, your glasses, your hair, everything is too adorable and cute. I wanna hug her and sleep to hear her talk her voice is like pillows with a puppy I don't know how it makes sense but go with it she is adorable we must protect this pillow of cuteness and innocence !!! 😭🥹 I'm new by the way I just found your channel of hugs and stories
I stumbled across Pau’s channel literally less than a day ago and I can confidently say that my life is better after after discovering this silly little human.
People see your RUclips channel too, and they await the newest videos. This upload is actually really well-timed for me. I'm dealing with my own situation where I wanted to make everyone happy too, but mine backfired terribly. People are so mad at me right now. I'm just glad to hear someone's story on the same sort of thing but it ends well. I also just really like your videos, Pau. Thank you for making them. This made me smile and I really needed to have that possibility! I hope you have an amazing day and a wonderful holidays time
Bro I love your artstryle 😭 Btw, nice history, I never thought someone could have something like a deathnote but to change a school's destiny instead of someone's death, that's honestly really cool! So see ya, I'll check your other videos Pau =)
This reminds me of the amazing world of gumball episode where that ice cream gets a book and writes weird stuff, except instead of writing fanfics they socially engineered their ideal environment
> hey diary wouldn't be it funny if a lot of people gave me $3 each tommorow when they see me heheheh next page > AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA IM SCARED DEAR DIARY AAAAAA 😥
2:03 I’ve always struggled to stay in the “default line” I usually have to spend the week climbing to get there then once I finally get there I either push myself off, or let myself be pushed off easily then spiral because I keep trolling myself into thinking I don’t deserve mental stability.
When I looked at the thumbnail I almost thought Pau had the death note.
close enough
Same
On god
Same!
Wait lmao that makes sense
learning social engineering at a young age is just basic autistic experience 101, but man I wish my diary that got stolen worked like this
I do not like the implications of this
having feelings of power at a young age is a feeling like no other and it genuinely scares me
Also, that 3D animation was VERY cool!
thank you!! ^^
Pau’s out here playing Scribblenauts in real life. You love to see it.
Thanks for the new video! I hope you have a great Christmas!
awww thank you so much!!! ^w^ you too!!!! I'll use some of this money to buy some s'mores the holidays if you don't mind ehehe c: thank you!!!
@@silly_pau help ur voice is so “adorable” (don’t take this weirdly)
Being undiagnosed for your childhood is a canon event for all autistic people with Asian, African or South American parents
Or a parent with a therapy background and a fear of having an autistic child
real, my parents hate me lmao
REAL, I honestly think I’m autistic but I have Asian parents so they will say I’m exaggerating 😭
Evil girlypop arc we love to see it
PAU WAS THE OG "DORKS DIARIES/ DIARY OF A WIMPY KID" KID
Actually, Soapysoapster, it's The Dork Diaries', & I know; because, I've read almost Every last one, & own a lot of them
The Death Note but it's a diary and people steal it to read it and punish those who have done misdeeds to her.
@@Nerd-hq9vw would've been a much better anime tbh
Seeing the *happy stimming* bit genuinely put a smile on my face. Wonderful as always Pau.
When I was in middle school, everyone just saw me as “the ghost/vampire kid that’s probably immortal”
I was super pale, spoke in vocabulary unbefitting a 12 year old, and was never seen traveling between places…
Though I got uninvited from a lot of stuff because I’d go immediately into “deep talk” mode and bore my classmates.
2:46. You have no idea just how called out I feel, how PERFECTLY this describes my autism, how much this resonates witb my SOUL. I have the literal exact same mindset every day and I've never even thought about it until you pointed it out
It's the same thing for me but with my friends if one of my friends feels like s*** I feel like shitt if one of my friends are happy I'm happy it's just a weird thing that happened that I kind of like but at the same time it's just autism
SAME, this relatable. I fought over a shower not long ago and the reason? I don’t really like showers but it’s also that I needed the sleep from staying up and that I have a specific schedule, you change that schedule, I WILL NOTICE, and that morning was changed so I woke up early to take a shower, and I hated that cause I just wanted a normal morning.
@Mrcooper-u1b I've actually heard about this before, I think I remember it being associated with some kind of reflective empathy? Idk what it's called but I'm the exact same way
@AgentA-381 I know exactly what you mean- that feeling of snowballing one change into a billion more and messing up your routine? Been there done that
@@randomperson4915 somebody who understands! Nobody at my school gets it. And I might use the Pau Environment Chart thing the next time somebody questions my autism. Cause that also is a thing with my Autism, I feel what others feel, but if I get distracted then BOOM, I’m on the default line again, until I loose my distraction and I can’t help but think about if everyone is okay, cause even with the people I hate, I can’t just stand there and let them feel like trash, and like what Pau said, I feel responsible and that I need to help everyone feel better!
Little Pau is like “YES! BOW DOWN BEFORE ME AND ALL MY CUTENESS! BE HAPPY!”
A DIARY THAT CAN MANIPULATE HOW OTHER FEEL AND ACT!!!
HOLY CRAP THAT IS SUCH A COOL FANTASY POWER!!!
AHAHAKDBDDJDNSJ THE INSPIRATION! ITS ALL COMING AT ME!!!
GYAAAAH I MUST WRITE!!!
The notebook can only be wielded by a precious smol bean that will do anything to make people happy!
While she can be easily manipulated she will not hesitate to retaliate against anyone that hurts her, or others!
Determined to make the world happier without forcing them to be happy against their free will.
Oooobhh…. Mah brain is a tinglin. Thank you so much for being the inspiration behind this new story! :D
Okay. Why does your voice sound so nice? I listen to your videos in the background of making animations, and you voice is always so calming. And we also have a lot in common! I’m also an artist, and I have autism. I love your content so much you are amazing!❤
The different art styles throughout the video were amazing :D
thank you!! ^v^
@@silly_pauidk why i’ve never thought of using ^v^ but thank you for the knowledge ,’)
PAU UPLOAD AHHHH NO IM OUTSIDE NOW I CANT WATCH IT RIGHT NOW
I RESONATE WITH EVERY CHORD IN THIS STORY
TLDR: To circumvent bullying from my diagnosed Asperger’s, from 1st Grade into the 2nd I printed out sprites of Maple Story characters other kids used as a currency & also was dealing under the table to print scary stuff.
i was bullied but barely remember anything. i barely remember anything with vivid imagery or strong details.
aspergers too.
hey i'm not blaming you because this isn't particularly common knowledge but for future reference that term has. VERY unsavory origins. the preferred term is autism or autism spectrum disorder (asd)
@@Bulba413 I appreciate the concern, its just that when I was diagnosed at a very young age I was close to the tail end of the use of the term, and thus am an older generation ASD.
Omg!!!! You have Asperger's?! I do, too. I was diagnosed when I was in Elementary to Middle School. Also, until 12th Grade, I was bullied by certain people, in my class, Especially; my SPED (Special Education) Class.
Hearing your story, seeing your animation, and seeing your live stream that one time, makes me happy, it’s all I need from you, and nothing more!❤
Girl, your life needs to become an RPG or anime, and this would be the best plot line in it. Your stories are so insane and sad a lot of the time, but you tell them in the most adorable way imaginable!
you know, i always liked to write when i was a child. Creating some stories and characters based on my classmates. almost all classmates wanted to read my things to see what their character did in the story. it was like a book, but instead of only reading for understand the content, they read to see what things their characters would do in story situations. That's a nice video and the 3d too. Pau videos's worth my time ❤
5 seconds in i’m already saying ‘real’ so hard
love the video :> i hope you have a good day pau!
I genuinely love your stories and art, they are like balm for the soul
Its intriguing how autism can have different levels and symptoms, some might pass under the radar because only have problems that could be easily confused by other things(its like a limbo, when its harder to get a concrete answer, even by the own person), while other have more complex symptoms that may it harder to involve in social situations like this case, that diary helped you somehow by expressing your concerns and ideas, still this could had been better handled with a proper diagnose or self aware from adults.
Despise this, im very glad that you were able to get a formal diagnosis in the end, thanks to that you can fill the wholes of awkward situations in the past and in general became a happier person with yourself, so my best wishes for your future, and love your videos too!
I love the mixture of different art styles, also love your voice, its so cuteeee
I rewatched the video and i don't remember making a comment so here i am, great vid, keep the great work pau!
hehe, that's so sweet thank you!!! ^^
Why that sounds like an anime title 😭
fr
Very nicely done video! Loved the different artstyles + the 3D models, the smooth transition through the different poses… it all blended together very nicely.
Also I don't know if anyone at that school knew what a diary is? Because boundaries are important and that's to be respected. (Which it seems like they didn't), Sorry you had to go through that Pau.
This was a great first impression for your channel and I can't wait to see more, I hope you're proud of what you've made because I am definitely proud of you. Stay creative and stay legendary. Hope you get a good sleep.
The 3d animation out of the sudden is so cool omg, you’re so creative!
Your voice, your glasses, your hair, everything is too adorable and cute. I wanna hug her and sleep to hear her talk her voice is like pillows with a puppy I don't know how it makes sense but go with it she is adorable we must protect this pillow of cuteness and innocence !!! 😭🥹 I'm new by the way I just found your channel of hugs and stories
LOOOVED the storytime! You might be one of the best creators on youtube! :D
wowie,, thank you! c:
I just recently stumbled upon this channel and I love her aesthetics and the topics she talks about :OO (keep up the good work!)
I stumbled across Pau’s channel literally less than a day ago and I can confidently say that my life is better after after discovering this silly little human.
a villan arc at the age of 8 is crazy
It always makes me happy when Pau comes out with a new video. On hard days, her quiet voice calms me down. :3
4:30
EMILE STOLE MA QUESADILLAS TODAY.... *crys in quesadilla*
Pau, you literally turned your inner demons into ACTUAL demons, you're quite impressive :0c
This makes me so happy, I don't know why, it's like so comforting, not in a weird way though 😭
1:45 Kira vibes?
1:59 hits so hard, a chart like that would have meant so much when I was younger :)
As somebody with autism I totaly relate to the line/ environment chart at school also I hope u got ur Quesadillas back ❤😂
5:54 aaaargh.... Pau always knows how to hit you in the feels...
Pau's diary would probably take my soul without me knowing
People see your RUclips channel too, and they await the newest videos. This upload is actually really well-timed for me. I'm dealing with my own situation where I wanted to make everyone happy too, but mine backfired terribly. People are so mad at me right now. I'm just glad to hear someone's story on the same sort of thing but it ends well. I also just really like your videos, Pau. Thank you for making them. This made me smile and I really needed to have that possibility! I hope you have an amazing day and a wonderful holidays time
Only diagnosed ASD super recently at 15
I hacked my school IT system when I was 11
And yh
Good upload anyway
Pau is a very interesting person. I hope things continue to get better for you.
5:13
HOLY SHIZ SAYORI POSE!!!
I love ur voice it's so nice to listen to 😭(while listening to you explaining how you basically ruled your school)
Thank you youtube for recommending me this
Only trans RUclipsr I can watch around my family without outting myself :3 (I’m in a heavy Christian household. 😭😭😭)
5:21 I cannot even begin to explain the joy this frame of the animation gives me :33❤
Don't push yourself to hard Pau we will wait for the next film! And good to hear you can beter express youself! 😊
Always a good day when Pau uploads! :)
Pau was playing creative mode in real life
PAU UPLOADING MAKES ANYONE'S BAD DAY TURN GREAT
5:32 They were also wrong for peeking in your personal diary too.
3d animations were so cool
The old school art style is so coo.
Let's goooo Pau update
Wowie the 3d animations are so cool!!!!
Bro I love your artstryle 😭
Btw, nice history, I never thought someone could have something like a deathnote but to change a school's destiny instead of someone's death, that's honestly really cool! So see ya, I'll check your other videos Pau =)
I thought it said 4 days ago and was surprised I haven't gotten the video in my recommended, then I noticed it actually said 4 HOURS
"For the one who punishes Emli for stealing my quesadillas I will draw you being cool and popular."
This reminds me of the amazing world of gumball episode where that ice cream gets a book and writes weird stuff, except instead of writing fanfics they socially engineered their ideal environment
Your voice is the most adorable thing >w
I know it's weird, but seeing this gave me death note vibes.
Love the 3d animation for the pau chart, big ds vibes
I love that your poses are from Ace Attorney! I'm autistic and that game is so neat!
I experienced something like this in fourth grade where everyone just sort of praised me for no reason.
this is the most wholesome thing i've ever seen, i love your content pau!
The first thought I had looking at the title was “Another Burn book incident?”
Let's go pau video the same day I get discharged
> hey diary wouldn't be it funny if a lot of people gave me $3 each tommorow when they see me heheheh
next page
> AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA IM SCARED DEAR DIARY AAAAAA 😥
Your videos have so many references, it's fun to watch :3
babe wake up again, pau uploaded
Congratulations on a quick 40k!
Your chanel will be popular soon😊 congratulations ❤🎉
I saw this video being sponsored and now I'm subscribed to you!
Why tflip does this make me feel so calm
Pau casually bending reality 🛩️
When I hear the part where Emil stole your quesadillas, I gasped so loud.
I loved your channel, new subscriber, congratulations on the great work😁☺️
OMG your channel is so cute, I love your animation style ^^
2:03 I’ve always struggled to stay in the “default line” I usually have to spend the week climbing to get there then once I finally get there I either push myself off, or let myself be pushed off easily then spiral because I keep trolling myself into thinking I don’t deserve mental stability.
This girl was really out here with a burn book and I am absolutely here for it
Guys, just have a diary to write false things in and have another for actual honest entrys :D
I fall asleep to your videos, your voice is so soothing hehe love your videos!❤
I love the style changes ....also You basically became Light Yagami trough the power of Autism XD
Huff i can relate to the classroom being in silence it feels so nice and calm
important work? 🚫
watching Pau? ✅
Pau Is Very Funny, Kawai and Great Isnt She?😅
damn, pau was a savage. mad respect.
i haavent watched the video yet but DEAR GOD was your diary the BURN BOOK or something
You are the most adorable precious small bean ever. You must be protecc
i read the word diary as dairy and was confused
This feels like an anime plot
yayyayaya new video! :3
What’s funny is that I did something very similar back in middle school.
…it didn’t end well.
Underrated for real
These videos mean alot to me ❤