Younger me was 100% sure that some weird archaeologist is going to find my diary in the future and read this and I was like dude I gotta look so cool for these random archaeologist 😭
This is scary, I was the same age as you in every year, going through almost identical struggles and resolutions. Thank you for sharing this, it’s really cool how that whole time I thought I was alone, but you and probably many others were going through the same thing…
This was honestly so real. Being 11 and thinking others were just too immature. Being 13, chronically online, learning about new insecurities that I didn’t know i was supposed to have due to social media. Being an angry 14 year old, isolated, thinking you’re the center of the universe with all the problems in the world while others around u had everything they want. Then being 15 and accepting everyone has their own shit to deal and recognizing the idea you had of selfishness and self obsession you once had was childish and self centered. Now, being 16 and reconnecting with god while appreciating those who genuinely love and care about you, not having to carry the dread of being alone and unaccomplished, made me realize how grateful i am that I am not the same person that i was at 14. (Sorry for bad grammar)
FR except my handwriting has always been pretty messy unless I put effort into making it nice but it does get tiring writing so much with your hands for yearrrsss 😭
I used to journal for years and my handwriting was so bad at least half of it is illegible I finally fixed my handwriting now, only to learn japanese and have to restart fixing my handwriting (especially kanji, half the time I just end up drawing the kanji way bigger than all the other characters 😭)
help I thought you were older than me 😭your younger self honestly sounds like a nice girl to hang out with, I think everyone had a similar phase, but the fact that we can look back and notice in which things we were wrong shows a lot about our growth
the whole being labelled as a reader by teachers thing is so real because i was in the exact same situation as you. i literally had no friends when school started up again after quarantine, so all i had to do during tutor period (homeroom) was read because what else are you supposed to do when you have no one to speak to? i'm kind of glad about it all though, because it's what got me into reading more.
Honestly you are so real for doing this. Turns out a lot of people go through the same things (cringy diary entries, crushes, insecurities) and it helps to know that you’re not alone in the way you feel
You were so real for this. I never had any crushes so I pretended I did and wrote about a boy named Mark (god knows why) and he was basically the male version of myself until seventh grade when I revealed EVERYTHING. RUclipsr apology level diary entry. I was convinced I was a lesbian since I knew there was something “weird” about me (I was actually trans) and I remember crying because I lied to my diary about my supposed sexuality. I should really get that out again and see what I wrote. It was in that exact tone with all those cringe abbreviations and stuff 💀
Sometimes, I wish I kept little papers I wrote on (didn’t have a diary), just see how I improved… But, also I feel cringing already. Even if it was a coping mechanism that was good lol.
I reread an old diary of mine too, one I thought I lost. Wasn't as cringe as I thought (it was a high school diary) but it still had some weird moments lol.
I know this is a silly fun video but it also feels like a kind of bittersweet love letter to girlhood. Its crazy to look back on how emotional and sensitive we were at that age, and how it seemed all-consuming at the time, and realize now that it was just because we were young and scared and growing. (Also apparently I've reached an age where youtubers are younger than me?? Which did not register in my brain at first, and I was very confused when you mentioned having TikTok in 6th grade lmao)
This was so fun to watch, I had never seen a diary reading video before You were so real though! You were so much better than most people are at that age The negativity was so mild in my eyes Hope you have a great life and capture it in your next diaries :)
Same except the politics because I lowkey didn’t even know what politics were when I was younger and still wrote diaries, just replace the 30% with writing entire paragraphs about my fav games/mangas because I can’t shut up about them
Just wanna say this was beautiful!! Thank you for being vulnerable. Love the ending where you talk about how God helped you with some insecurities ❤ Loved seeing how you matured and changed!!!
These videos were made for fun, I listened to the 3 videos abt these diaries while drawing and i genuinely just stopped to think abt how looking at our past selves makes us notice how much we have changed as people, it rly inspires me to keep going on life omggg, im being so dramatic over a silly video but remembering the mistakes and dumb things I did when I was like 14 and then looking at myself today, I'm proud of myself
I came for the diary entries, but DID I JUST SEE SOME TAGALOG !! AND CHRISTIANITY ?! I’m still around the age of these diary entries and it’s amazing to see how much you’ve grown, it’s really inspiring and you’re giving me the motivation to write some more in my own diary !! (I think ur now one of my favourite RUclipsrs :) )
21:34 to 22:45 this. THIS. You took the words right out of my mouth. This is how I feel right now. And, can't escape it. Thank you so much for giving me this. You are such a wise person and I hope that someday I will get out of this endless cycle of loneliness like you did❤
I’m impressed how you can write that much 😭 I used to write short stories (and now I print them) and one page of it = four days of my hands hurting lol
Girl, not me getting back to journalism because of you! Thank you for this amazing content, it's good to feel less lonely in these past experiences. :3
Its funny to think about how we were roughly the same age and journaling too, about very different things. I think i was complaining about how people having crushes is super dumb lol
Not many people were talking about the last page when your younger self was talking about god and its amazing to see the growth and how u grew healthier and stronger and more positive u are truly amazing and everyone is going to have a growth one day that is good and it can happen earlier if u try god bless everyone❤😊
I was a 7th grader in covid. I was a bit of a troublemaker (not full on) my main friend group was online. I am autistic and have adhd (no I’m not using this as an excuse I make many mistakes. I’m just saying this because it does partially contribute to what I said and did back then) so I was very edgy because supposedly autistic people have problems regulating their emotions and I was also lonely. I would unintentionally sound rude to the friend group from having strong emotional reactions to things I wouldn’t care for now. This made we throw around words like “depression” “sadness” when I didn’t have depression. I thought I did. But I actually hit depression in 9th grade. I’m doing better now. Back then I would post edgy stuff of my oc taking everyone out. So yeah. The lonely aspect of this hit home. I’m sorry if this sounds messy I’m bad at wording sentences.
In this generation, everyone needs to hear this, not just the teens, but the upcoming generation too! But society Is so messed up that these children want to be every perfect era there is... But what? They get criticized for it. And their self-esteem sinks deeper like a sinking ship. In fact, one day I saw a video of a little girl sucking her stomach in and tightening her dress because of the influence she is around and is witnessing. And I am praying for whoever Is experiencing this messed up time to be safe. xoxo -From the heart, Hope more people see this and takes it to heart and realizes they are good enough.
21:34 ME FR RN I’M ABOUT TO SWITCH SCHOOLS BRO staff is basically bullying me omg 😭 Like I fr thought I was the problem but NO. No, now I’ve learned and I’m doing a lot better lol. I’d rather DIE than go there another day… 💀 I am scared, but I know it’s for the best. I’m scared to leave my friends, my BEST friend, and what I’ve known for years behind. But if I want to live a happy life and not just FAIL every class, I need a school that will support me and actually properly do what they are legally required to. What made me realize that this school is hopeless and the problem isn’t exactly ME was the response I got when I finally said something about all of it. They really don’t care one bit. They’ve always said that they were trying, blah blah blah… but no. They never were. They said I was the one who wasn’t trying, but I wasted the moments that I could have spent doing things that make me happy constantly worrying about that place and what I could do. I’m glad I will finally get out of there next month. It ruined my mental health.
I remember I found mine as well lol. I had a whole fanfiction novel and I wrote an entire book about schools and power hierarchies and basically everything sketchy happening but as a novel.
Bro i dont like how i relate to this as a guy, prob watching this for the cringe inducing power of these journals. Idk im sick so i dont know what i want. But you real for just sharing this
omg girl youre filipino, believe in God, had crazy crush thoughts, felt alone in school, writes in diaries.... literally twinning (well except im a sophomore😂)
I watched this vid and the other ones and they influenced me to make my own Axolotol character!! (I also had a diary, but I would write it like once and then forget about it months later lol) ur vids are SOOO good!! I’m so glad u learned to luv ur self, cuz that’s awesome!
![Felix "Unfair" | [Stray Kids : SKZ-PLAYER]](http://i.ytimg.com/vi/Oswujxm2Ag0/mqdefault.jpg)
8:13 💀💀
NAH I CRIEDDD
WHY DID THE MUSIC BECOME DEPRESSING AT THE END
😭😭😭
HELL NAH
667th like 😈
younger her: "I DESPISE him."
her now: "Enemies to lovers 🤨"
How did u get blue comment
HELPP
@@enzomcrPeople search that keyword a lot so it turned blue like- Enemies to lovers
WHY IS THERE BLUE COMMENTS ON YT....?
it's an update.
“I don’t need a boy… I need education!!!” She’s so real for that 😔✌️😭
frfr
@@asiyak.4423 frrrrrr
13:25 relatable
the dork diaries influence is so real
REAL
lmaooo reading back on my old diaries i wrote exactly like her
Fr❤
Omg I think I read ALL of those books in elementary school 😭
Same!
HELP IM SO HAPPY SOMEONE ELSE EXPERIENCED A CRAZY A CRINGY CHILDHOOD DIARY W DRAWINGS AND RANDOM SCENES / MOTIVATION LOLOOL
YESSS 🤝🤝
It’s so real tho😂
Younger me was 100% sure that some weird archaeologist is going to find my diary in the future and read this and I was like dude I gotta look so cool for these random archaeologist 😭
fr omg 😭
THE CHARACTER DEVELOPMENTTT>>>>>>>
real!
REAL
@@Lynx-n0t-f0undXDMIZU5??
This is scary, I was the same age as you in every year, going through almost identical struggles and resolutions. Thank you for sharing this, it’s really cool how that whole time I thought I was alone, but you and probably many others were going through the same thing…
it's crazy how similar we all rlly are hahah 🫶🏼
@@angelikadevarafr ❤
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👆 ummm what do you mean
SAME HAHA! Is this just the normal life of a tween-teenage girl between 2018-2022? lmao
why is some of your pasts self’s thoughts lowkey real 💀
nah ur just corny LMAO
🦗🦗🦗🦗🦗🦗🦗🦗🦗🦗
It’s me Ruby!1!1!
RUUBY????
Ruby!?!
1:20 “if you’re a bully STOP IT” bet i’ll use that in my next argument☠️
I can’t explain this but it sounds like it’d be accompanied by a sad spongebob or shrek image
FAN FROM II PFP??
This was honestly so real. Being 11 and thinking others were just too immature. Being 13, chronically online, learning about new insecurities that I didn’t know i was supposed to have due to social media. Being an angry 14 year old, isolated, thinking you’re the center of the universe with all the problems in the world while others around u had everything they want. Then being 15 and accepting everyone has their own shit to deal and recognizing the idea you had of selfishness and self obsession you once had was childish and self centered. Now, being 16 and reconnecting with god while appreciating those who genuinely love and care about you, not having to carry the dread of being alone and unaccomplished, made me realize how grateful i am that I am not the same person that i was at 14. (Sorry for bad grammar)
I'm 13 rn and why are the 13 and 11 parts lowkey real
Wait this is too real-
Wth! That's so me!
Wait why is 11 and 13 so real tho, even tho I just turned 12 😭
At 14 everything just clicked for me
The handwriting getting messier is so real
FR except my handwriting has always been pretty messy unless I put effort into making it nice but it does get tiring writing so much with your hands for yearrrsss 😭
I used to journal for years and my handwriting was so bad at least half of it is illegible
I finally fixed my handwriting now, only to learn japanese and have to restart fixing my handwriting (especially kanji, half the time I just end up drawing the kanji way bigger than all the other characters 😭)
Real and I like your Homura pfp
help I thought you were older than me 😭your younger self honestly sounds like a nice girl to hang out with, I think everyone had a similar phase, but the fact that we can look back and notice in which things we were wrong shows a lot about our growth
the whole being labelled as a reader by teachers thing is so real because i was in the exact same situation as you. i literally had no friends when school started up again after quarantine, so all i had to do during tutor period (homeroom) was read because what else are you supposed to do when you have no one to speak to? i'm kind of glad about it all though, because it's what got me into reading more.
Honestly you are so real for doing this. Turns out a lot of people go through the same things (cringy diary entries, crushes, insecurities) and it helps to know that you’re not alone in the way you feel
13:04 “Tell your kids you love them before I take them😀” That was so necessary😊
Edit: HOLY CRAP. 40 LIKES???????? IVE NEVER GOTTEN THAT MUCH, TYSM!!
Fr
Very demure, very mindful, and very cutesy😊
This is so funny and needs more views lolll, I also had unhinged diaries as a kid
Also you have a nice personality girlie
the self-growth and improvement though?!??? so inspiring lollll
Why was I actually so invested in this lmao.
As a middle schooler, this is making me wanna write more in my diary to read when im older 😔😔
Same😭
Fr
I am and ive been for 2 yearss. Its so fun even reading now still writing it.
Me too , im planning on buying a diary soon ( but im so lazy to write in it)🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣
Same
You were so real for this. I never had any crushes so I pretended I did and wrote about a boy named Mark (god knows why) and he was basically the male version of myself until seventh grade when I revealed EVERYTHING. RUclipsr apology level diary entry. I was convinced I was a lesbian since I knew there was something “weird” about me (I was actually trans) and I remember crying because I lied to my diary about my supposed sexuality. I should really get that out again and see what I wrote. It was in that exact tone with all those cringe abbreviations and stuff 💀
Lmao 😭🙏
lol
@@radiationoverdrivesuitcase
Sometimes, I wish I kept little papers I wrote on (didn’t have a diary), just see how I improved… But, also I feel cringing already. Even if it was a coping mechanism that was good lol.
THIS IS THE REALEST THING EVER ME TOOO (except im not trans but yeah)
THE LAST BIT WAS SO BEAUTIFUL! YOU SHOULD TOTALLY MAKE SOME SORT OF HOOK SERIES
Your diary at the end (the fuzzy one with the pizza design) is so adorable! I wish I had one like it!
Im 14 and i actually resonate with a lot of your 14 y/o self's feelings
I’m 14 and I definitely don’t maybe when I was 12
@@Finn_sisjon that's nice
Basically r/im14andifindthisdeep
14 and I know my friend would probably relate to this a bit. (I also relate to it kinda. )
I dont think there was anything like that@@notso_cody
you can really see her grow in maturity throughout that book in her life
12:55 “Welp, I don’t want to read my old dairy entries or I’ll die of cringe.” *acts like nothing happened*
LOLLLL
Your younger self is actually so real
this motivated me to read my old diary 😭😭 how dare you make me relive that chaos hehe
I reread an old diary of mine too, one I thought I lost. Wasn't as cringe as I thought (it was a high school diary) but it still had some weird moments lol.
I know this is a silly fun video but it also feels like a kind of bittersweet love letter to girlhood. Its crazy to look back on how emotional and sensitive we were at that age, and how it seemed all-consuming at the time, and realize now that it was just because we were young and scared and growing.
(Also apparently I've reached an age where youtubers are younger than me?? Which did not register in my brain at first, and I was very confused when you mentioned having TikTok in 6th grade lmao)
“Whose cat is mustier”
I’M CACKLINGGG 😭
Why is this so inspiring? The last entry made me almost cry.
it DID make me cry, lol.
how is this not more liked this is actually peak comedy
"I don't need a boy i need education." SHE WAS SO REAL FOR THAT, ATEE 🗣
This was so fun to watch, I had never seen a diary reading video before
You were so real though! You were so much better than most people are at that age
The negativity was so mild in my eyes
Hope you have a great life and capture it in your next diaries :)
My diaries are like:
30% prayers and mental health
30% politics
30% hobbies
10% things that actually happened
100% unintelligible
why do you mean 30% politics 😭???
@@Nana-kx4hc Sometimes one needs to transfer their frustration to paper ig
Same except the politics because I lowkey didn’t even know what politics were when I was younger and still wrote diaries, just replace the 30% with writing entire paragraphs about my fav games/mangas because I can’t shut up about them
Just wanna say this was beautiful!! Thank you for being vulnerable. Love the ending where you talk about how God helped you with some insecurities ❤ Loved seeing how you matured and changed!!!
These videos were made for fun, I listened to the 3 videos abt these diaries while drawing and i genuinely just stopped to think abt how looking at our past selves makes us notice how much we have changed as people, it rly inspires me to keep going on life omggg, im being so dramatic over a silly video but remembering the mistakes and dumb things I did when I was like 14 and then looking at myself today, I'm proud of myself
8:52 is that SpongeBob???
Damn, the ending was so beautiful, im glad you are doing better, this is kinda inspiring even though we are not going through same problems.
I came for the diary entries, but DID I JUST SEE SOME TAGALOG !! AND CHRISTIANITY ?!
I’m still around the age of these diary entries and it’s amazing to see how much you’ve grown, it’s really inspiring and you’re giving me the motivation to write some more in my own diary !!
(I think ur now one of my favourite RUclipsrs :) )
I loved the ending. As I'm going through this time of my life myself, the end was so strong and true. Thank you for sharing this.
3:21 the notes 😩
4:01 HELP THE CHEETOS BAHAH GIRL SO REAL I HAD THIS PHASE TOO 😭😭
Also you’re so pretty omg 😱
3:42 this is just for myself :)
21:34 to 22:45 this. THIS.
You took the words right out of my mouth. This is how I feel right now. And, can't escape it.
Thank you so much for giving me this. You are such a wise person and I hope that someday I will get out of this endless cycle of loneliness like you did❤
this made me remember all the cringy drawings of myself i used to put in my old diary's, they would never even look like me either😭
It’s nice u had a diary. I stopped writing in mine bc my sibling always tried to read it.
gonna be 100% honest here, im gonna turn 14 and i share a bit of the same insecurities you had when you were 14
Yuppp I feel like everyone goes through the same phases haha
I’m impressed how you can write that much 😭
I used to write short stories (and now I print them) and one page of it = four days of my hands hurting lol
so goofy! tbh you would make such a good actor!
3:20 YOUR SINGING THOUGH-❤😭
She got the lead role for a reason
2:54 you got a like from me after you said “enemies to lovers” bc I was dying 💀💀 ur so me istg I’m gonna binge watch all ur vids ❗️❗️
I saw this right when she said it
Edit: it's sooo real indeed
Girl, not me getting back to journalism because of you! Thank you for this amazing content, it's good to feel less lonely in these past experiences. :3
Dude whaaat how were you this charismatic at 11 while I just stared at friend groups lol
im 🪦
HAHAH I'm sure you were charismatic in your own way
angelika was.......demonika...edgelord ,emo asf back in the day 🤣
🤫🧏♀️
"If you're a bully, stop"
and then bullies each and every boy she sees
an icon, truly
Srs I love your growth as a person and omg girl you are sooo pretty (masallahhhh)
AHH TY
my favorite types of videos >>>>
this is the first video I watched from you and I loved it! now I’ve been binging all your vids lol you’re so fun :))
the character development is insane
fr
Real😭😭😭
Dairies are a very helpful way of dealing with emotions. I bottled them up when I was a kid, and it was not fun.
Same except I used to have a diary, a physical and online one and yeah I was messed up like not well. I stopped for sometime and I got into it again
Her: bullying is bad
Also Her: I WILL MESS THEM UP VERBALLY
There's no words to explain how much this resonated with me
Its funny to think about how we were roughly the same age and journaling too, about very different things. I think i was complaining about how people having crushes is super dumb lol
Been writing dairy for over a decade now (starting when i was 11) and kudos to you showing your dairy in the open like that!
The thumbnail is so!... Unique!!
LOL
It's full of... personality.
12:05 as somebody with hyperhidrosis, TRUST ME POOKIE YOUR HANDS ARE LIKE FOUNTAINS NOT JUST A LIL BIT OF SWEAT😭
Not many people were talking about the last page when your younger self was talking about god and its amazing to see the growth and how u grew healthier and stronger and more positive u are truly amazing and everyone is going to have a growth one day that is good and it can happen earlier if u try god bless everyone❤😊
23:38 this was like the exemple of “more you grow you’ll be more mature ”
Wait guys it's so cute how she slowly got better and grew her mindset and became happier and she grew closer to God ❤
omg ur so real i thought i was the only one who made a bunch of accounts when i was younger😭😭 something about it was just so addicting
I was a 7th grader in covid. I was a bit of a troublemaker (not full on) my main friend group was online. I am autistic and have adhd (no I’m not using this as an excuse I make many mistakes. I’m just saying this because it does partially contribute to what I said and did back then) so I was very edgy because supposedly autistic people have problems regulating their emotions and I was also lonely. I would unintentionally sound rude to the friend group from having strong emotional reactions to things I wouldn’t care for now. This made we throw around words like “depression” “sadness” when I didn’t have depression. I thought I did. But I actually hit depression in 9th grade. I’m doing better now. Back then I would post edgy stuff of my oc taking everyone out. So yeah. The lonely aspect of this hit home. I’m sorry if this sounds messy I’m bad at wording sentences.
Ur my new actual comfort youtuber
nahhh cause ik for a fact that everyone at 8:50 was turning the vid to 0.25 speed and trying to see what it was bc I sure did 💀💀💀💀
Oh my words, your handwriting is so neat!!!!❤❤
I love how you always say “she” when your talking about yourself💀💀
"If it breaks I will rip my nail off"
BAHAHAFSKABXIFI WHY IS THAT SO FUNNY
In this generation, everyone needs to hear this, not just the teens, but the upcoming generation too! But society Is so messed up that these children want to be every perfect era there is... But what? They get criticized for it. And their self-esteem sinks deeper like a sinking ship. In fact, one day I saw a video of a little girl sucking her stomach in and tightening her dress because of the influence she is around and is witnessing. And I am praying for whoever Is experiencing this messed up time to be safe. xoxo
-From the heart, Hope more people see this and takes it to heart and realizes they are good enough.
I'm so glad i found this channel about a week ago. I love the message at the end. ❤
21:34 ME FR RN I’M ABOUT TO SWITCH SCHOOLS BRO staff is basically bullying me omg 😭
Like I fr thought I was the problem but NO. No, now I’ve learned and I’m doing a lot better lol. I’d rather DIE than go there another day… 💀
I am scared, but I know it’s for the best. I’m scared to leave my friends, my BEST friend, and what I’ve known for years behind. But if I want to live a happy life and not just FAIL every class, I need a school that will support me and actually properly do what they are legally required to. What made me realize that this school is hopeless and the problem isn’t exactly ME was the response I got when I finally said something about all of it. They really don’t care one bit. They’ve always said that they were trying, blah blah blah… but no. They never were. They said I was the one who wasn’t trying, but I wasted the moments that I could have spent doing things that make me happy constantly worrying about that place and what I could do. I’m glad I will finally get out of there next month. It ruined my mental health.
I remember I found mine as well lol. I had a whole fanfiction novel and I wrote an entire book about schools and power hierarchies and basically everything sketchy happening but as a novel.
Bro i dont like how i relate to this as a guy, prob watching this for the cringe inducing power of these journals. Idk im sick so i dont know what i want. But you real for just sharing this
omg girl youre filipino, believe in God, had crazy crush thoughts, felt alone in school, writes in diaries.... literally twinning (well except im a sophomore😂)
Why do I love theses videos so much they are so relatable from when I was 10 lol
I love ur smile (i noticed u had a nice smilr after u listrd the compliments)
Dislikes: throwing up, math, bugs
I'm 22 and gotta say girl you're so real for that🙏🏻
Don't forget the science😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
IKR THOSE ARE MY FEARS
dayum i remembered having a diary on 3- 4th grade, i remembered throwing in the trash....i wanted to read it💀💀💀
NO WAY I HAVE THE SAME KIND OF JOURNAL, THE LOCK IS DEFORMED AND THE POMPOM CAME OFF 😭😭😭
You should be a actor and a singer😂😂you atee!!
This is actually so inspiring. Ty sm
Ur videos are very aesthetic and inspirational 😭❤️
HELP SHE WROTE SOMETHING IN HER DIARY ON MY BIRTHDAY 😔😔 4:56
This is extremely brave. And it is beautiful in some way. Luv.
crazy to think we're the same age and lowkey wish i had written a diary so i could look back on my middle school life..
you were so mature i could never
I watched this vid and the other ones and they influenced me to make my own Axolotol character!! (I also had a diary, but I would write it like once and then forget about it months later lol) ur vids are SOOO good!! I’m so glad u learned to luv ur self, cuz that’s awesome!
This reminds me of my own unhinged diaries I started writing when I was ten bahaha [:
stop... the end actually made me cry!!! but everithing els was so cringeee
@Serial_Designation_X whattt I didnt say enithing ab me and se liked my comment sooo ❤
@Serial_Designation_Xoh okey
lmao i'm right around the same age as you and this kinda makes me want to go back and read my journal from the covid era
You're funny Angelika I like your sense of humor 😂😂
Bro the start -💀 nah fr like I started my journalism like that tooo😭😭😭😭