This song is the reason I survived highschool. I listened to it on the bus just before pulling into school each day. I was picked on since kindergarten, I was what teachers called "an easy target" administration did nothing to stop bullies. Their way of keeping their schools "bully free zones" was to silence the victims so the outside world wouldn't know. If I could go back, I would've snuck cameras in and shown it to news outlets. This song gave me the will to keep going when nothing else could. 7 years later and it still keeps me going strong.
schools pull that "we don't tolate bulling in our school" BS and they only take action when the victim finally snaps and either fights back or goes to drastic measures (manly think of taking there own life or taking life of anyone in the school) schools only begin to listen when you record and get them on the news in a negtive way
(Kinda) Same with me in middle school. Although I was a known delinquent myself it still didn’t change the fact that my parents were shit and none of my “friends” actually cared.
Es verdad que esas experiencias son dolorosas, forman nuestro caracter, nos eseña a ser fuertes, y de no ser por eso seriamos alguien totalmente diferentes pero todos estamos deacuerdo en que hubieramos preferido no pasar por eso, uno se pregunta, realmente era necesario? No habia otra manera de ser fuertes?
I nearly ended up joining the suicide victims had my brother not stopped me... Listening to this equally hurts and brings me relief and wish so much I could stop this from happening to others.
Same even years later I cry my eyes out because its the harsh reality that some kids actually take their lives and say goodbye to their parents because they just can't handle everything anymore and I've been there many times 😭 I'm crying writing this comment honestly
I find there comes a point, when your recovering from depression, you've been happy for a little while, genuinely happy, but then for a moment, you consider letting it take you again, just because there's almost a sense of comfort it giving up, to stop fighting it, and let the darkness hold you again, even though it hurt, crying yourself to sleep every night over one thing or another, constantly being afraid of talking to anyone, or evening simply being around people, you find a strange sense of peace in it, I don't know what it means to feel this way, but it's conflicting, not knowing if you should let it take you back, and give up all you've gained, or keep fighting, until the feeling passes
I agree. I have been finr but once in a while i just wanna write a letter and let it all go. But I stop myself. I just know it hurts others more than it would relief myself
You completely nailed it. There's a strange comfort of the darkness, the cold void that's completely silent yet overwhelming static in ears. It breaks a person, can drive them mad with the bits of insanity keeping them sane. Many things can hold it back, either a unknowing force of will, delusion or the fear with it's consequences.
Gods this is so true... It's like... an old wooden chair. Uncomfortable, but so familiar and almost nostalgic that you can't help but sit in it every once in a while for a moment or two.
People tend to find that what's familiar is what's comfortable, even if it's a toxic or bad situation. But you need to remember that growing doesn't happen in comfortable circumstances. I'd say it's ok to miss it, but it's important to not let go of what's safe.
I used to listen to this when I was 12, angsty and never thought I would make it to 14... I'm now 18 and it's been a wild ride. This song has shaped who I am today.
im 14 sooo this still hurts :) im not being bullied by normal means but other than 3 friends lierally the whole school used me for comedy and stole my stuff then hid it and whenever i thought about tellin anyone i told myself im just making it up and that im just trying to get pity but its not bad bc summer break and going to highscool sorry for wasting your time sorry for ranting
i have a heavy videogane addiction, treat sleeping like a timeskip wear headphones for style + can listen to vibes whenever but to add on to my 1st comment the "voices" tell me i have it not as bad as anyone else and im being dramatic even this feels dramatic to say sorrrry for ranting x2
and being so scatterbrained i also got into reading webtoons during covid IM sorry for leechin off top comment please dont think of this like that i just felt i should share my experiences i dont need your pity
Holy shit. The first chorus plays and you're already making me cry. So much repressed trauma. Just an outpouring of PTSD. Nothing has hit me like this since Junior High.
As a bully victim myself from my old school days, this song speaks to me. I may not have struggled with depression or felt suicidal from it all but being bullied gave me SEVERE anger issues. Thankfully...I had great friends, kind teachers and a loving family to help keep me from going off the deep end. I'm just happy I graduated when I did, the public school environment has become so much worse than how it was in my youth
I love the double meaning of the phrase "i just want to go home". Because throughout the song the singer talks about their alone with themselves in their room. It's one of those ohrases where at face value you think of it literally: "this person is getting picked on and they just want to be alone, to be safe, to be home, away from this situation." Then you take into consideration that this song is all about someone alone with their thoughts as it all comes creeping in and overtakes them. Physically they are home and alone and safe. But despite being away from the situation, it's still corroding their mind. I know this sounds obvious in hindsight, but that doible meaning of going hime meaning they want to die hit me, and it's a really nice and enticingly haunting way to say they want to die without being needlessly explicit. It presents the singer's point of view of death very brutally. It is something they feel they have to resort to and so it's seen as a comfort. Home is where safety is. Home is away from all this madness. So maybe there's comfort or relief on the other side. Again, i know this stuff is pretty obvious. These close readings of the songs can be kinda cringy especially when the mssage speaks pretty loud and clear. However, i just wanted to appreciate this part of the song. It's not like it's amazing word smithing or anything but i thought it was clever.
i listen to this song, untitled, and the invisible parade and some other somewhat similar songs by other artists, i listen to them when im down and im gonna listen to them when i can finally leave, ill at least be comfortable listening to this song while i
What I loved about this song is that this isn't all "I can be stronger" cheesiness. I loved how this showed the reality of suicidal thoughts and suicide. I found this song from a MAP and I absolutely love this more than any other song in the world.
I know that i'm stronger, broken heart of a fighter, my scars remind me that i'm a survivor cause life is a tough game, and he doesn't sugar coat that, at all.
+Flame Pool I know how you feel I just called my boyfriend and started sobbing and he was like"Why are you crying?" and I replied "MY FEELS ARE BROKEN." He kind of just sighed XD
+The Silent Suffer You arent the only one whom suffer from Suicidal Thoughts. I do too suffer from them with my 24/7 desire of Death. Im glad you survived from nearly committin it. I understand the pain. Songs like these help us,brother/sister.
I have always hid my pain from everyone. My friends. My Family. When people try to help I push them away. And I run away from my problems. But nobody knows.
+Obviously Wolfie I do That Too...I'm only 10 and MY mom passed a year ago, I'm trying to hide it from everyone.. its sad, I'm trying to hide from my problems, they catch up to me always, its hard...im so close to killing myself..
This song is a mood bro, I do relate to this song a lot, and I do have really bad suicidal thoughts, to the point where I just cry my eyes out, it’s nice to have a song that someone like me can relate to.
Your band has such potenial. And i can tell. I'm going to be watching this band grow. And i can't wait to hear more from you. The way you worded this was amazing. You told it flat out. Like...it's perfect. I relate to this song. I just can't wait to hear more from you, Swift. I doubt you read this comment though...
I know I'm commenting after 3 months but, just discovered these guys and, love em. Easily better than a lot of today's artists. These guys are amazing at this and the potentiometer is there. more music more stories like these and they'll be big.
TheTrueHarmony It's probably bullies... Or people who did bad things to someone. Or they simply are trying to act cool and say to them self that this video is cringy.
Sadly some people will say its too emo and shouldn't bring the mood down because those people don't understand. I know I was labeled emo because of my trauma. More awareness needs to be raised so there is less ignorance and more understanding!
I love how the ending represents three kinds of people/stages who go through something like this. "I know that I'm stronger, broken heart of a fighter, my scars remind me that I'm a survivor" "This life is a tough game and I don't want to play it, I'm reaching out for a hand, help me make it" "But it's too much so I give up just please don't hate me, my letter's on my pillow with a kiss goodbye. I'm sorry mom I promised that I tried."
I presented this song in an "album about you" project in 5th grade, to EVERYONE in the class barely realizing what it meant. This song is one of my lifelines. EDIT: i'm turning 20 this year, and it is still as important to me as was in grade 5. Thank you blake
Maybe all schools should listen to this. I believe that it would change people. If everyone in the world knew this, maybe bullying will stop. This song was me... I'm better. But other people need to know this. Who agrees
+Fritz Pony Productions I agree. I haven't been a victim, but knowing how real life works, knowing that we're not in a fairy tale, I know someone will start to do it, but ill just say a quote from this song, "You don't need to break my bone for you to break me."
+Fritz Pony Productions i dont get how someone could hate something when they hate the thing thats horrible like bullying.... i have had bullies nearly KILL me before,and a bus driver that was a bully to me,my brother,my friend,my friends older sister... and forced me to sit in the back to get bullied on he even dropped me off by a giant vicious dog 6 blocks away from my bus stop after making me clean the entire bus because of one person,and stay on until everyone got off (and i had the 3rd bus stop out of like 12) and i was only 5 at the time :T I had became friends with one who used to bully me...after i made them see what they were doing hurt.. it 2 ways 1:i kinda beat the crap out of them because i couldn't take i$,(i kinda..regret this) and 2:i told them straight up we can never stop bullying but we can reduce it!
I cry every time I listen to this....I learned this song about a week ago, and yet I've listened to it about 300 times since......I just can't stop. This song is actually my favorite song because of its message.....bullys.....please please stop bullying please.....I just can't anymore I'm sorry :'(
I connect with this song on SO many levels. I felt the same way, for a long time. But then when someone came along into my life, they made it start to go away...Then they left me, then everything was as dark as ever. My friends were worried about me, what I was going to do. Because I honestly didn't know. I never spoke, I never looked anyone in the eye, and I refused to fall in love again. But now, someone has come for me, and they are making me better again, I was reluctant to let them in, because of what happened before. But I have let them into my life, and I am SO glad I did...I just hope this doesn't break me again...because I'm not sure if I'll let anybody in my life again after this...for a while, at least...I won't ever get over it, but I know I CAN get better, with the help of my friends. One of them WERE always there for me +leahthemonkey and I know she will be there forever! She stopped me from trying to end it all, she tried to stop my self harming, sorry, Leah but that will NEVER happen, I'm the only one who can stop that. I am better now, not fully, I am still in pain in so many ways, and I am still broken, but I know that with the help of my friends, I will get through this!! So anyone who feels broken, please don't give up. Be strong and know you are not alone. Because MY HEART GOES OUT TO EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU! I love you all!! Stay Strong, guys! Hey this is me looking back at this maybe a year later, now. (I'm not good with dates.) and I need to say, at the end of the song, where he said the letter is on the pillow and he said sorry mom but i promised that I tried...well that was me 3 months ago. I almost left. I wrote a letter for my mum on my pillow and I was about to do it. But she stopped me, she saved my life. I was about to leave the world. But she saved me. And I love her for it.
***** I know how you feel I am exactly the same, I am almost 14 now and let me be honest with you, things will get better, maybe not fully, but they will be better than they are right now. If you ever need someone, I will be here for you. I'll take you under my wing and help you out if and when you need it :)
Not every battle has a happy ending. This song resonates with me in a way I could never describe. I'm so happy Shady made it. If you're struggling with abuse especially at a young age. Reach out and if no one answers, keep reaching out. There are people that care and if we see you in need we'll be there for you. You're never alone. Much love.
I listened to this song a lot well I was in high school. I had teachers, people meant to help me, that were bullies. I fought and clawed my way out, so they didn't drag me down, but this song helped a lot to just release a lot of pent up emotions. Honestly, I'm happy this song exists.
I still listen to this song from when it came out, I love it and just wanna say something........... I have been depressed for at least 7-9 years now and I wanna say that this and other songs keep me up and happy then when people pull me down I listen to this song the most. It makes me feel a bit better... Thank you for making this video and saving some lives around the world. With this song, I now have a girlfriend and some friends now, thank you so much
-I remember every story they wrote on my back. Bruises like words tattooed into my skin in blue and black ink. I remember every kitchen sink surgery where family had to stitch me back together. I remember every happily ever after that never came to pass. We didn't go to school in fairy tales. We went to school in all the gory details of a horror story while monsters made us victims of their comedy We, the recipients of their punch lines they hung insults around our necks like signs inviting anyone to join in. Their words were invisible ink that they tattooed upon our skin.-
+mantyke66770 I never tell people how I feel because of bullies I try to be invisible and with my friends I am cruel but I try to be a good friend but I feel they could easily replaced... I am also a joke and the girl no one wants to hang with.... Is it cause Im annoying, to loud, awkward , ugly!?! People can make you put up all the walls and they can still break you....
the last lines "This life is a tough game and I don't wanna' play it. I'm reaching for a hand, help me make it. But it's too much, so I give up - just please don't hate me. My letter's on the pillow, with a kiss goodbye. I'm sorry, Mom. But I promise that I tried..." kills me every time. It reminds me of when I was in a bad spot in my personal life. I actually wrote that last line (or something similar) in my letter.. I wish I could have helped the other people that arent still here.. This song equally hurts and helps me know that others feel the same..
It's an example of how things could have gone down for us, yo. I hear this and I'm glad that there were hands that did help me make it, that pulled me up when I needed it most. But I just know that not everyone had that help. And it fucking hurts, man.
@@josephschultz3301 true I feel bad for the people who didn’t make it to have that help but the line my scars remind me that I’m a survivor hits me hard it reminds me of how far I’ve come in my nearly 20 years of life so far through all the bad ugly and the absolute worst times
Been a while since I've heard this song. Came across it again and decided to give it another listen. The memories stirred came with bittersweet feeling. This song served a reminder of how far I've come from where I once was and how close I came to crossing the line of no return.
I haven’t come close to crossing that line of no return but I have been depressed before multiple times and it’s rough listening to this for the first time today reminds me that I can’t give up no matter how down I feel in my future or somedays I feel like garbage life’s rough but it does get better I’m proud of you for not crossing that line stay strong my friend 💖💖💖💖
I've never really been bullied (I mean there's Mean students at times but that's it) I have bullied myself (depression stuff .-.) And I can't imagine those hurtful words coming from another person.. and violence... it must be terrible.
I came across this again... It really brings back all that bad nostalgia from a year ago. It hurts to think about it because I can remember sitting on my bed and crying while listening to this, but then, I remember screaming all my problems to my mom and she listened. Although I defeated my demons, this song still haunts me to this very day. (It's a very good song though) Stay alive :)
Who has been bullied here? Edit: it’s been 4 years, yes I’m still bullied unfortunately but I’ve grown tougher and colder to the world. I hope the rest of you who replied and saw this are in a better place
This song is FAR too relatable for me. I dealt with serious bullying growing up, had a VERY abusive step father and have on more than one occasion considered suicide, especially in recent times. I'm doing a bit better now, but it can be really hard to remain "strong".
I dealt with bullying too for years somedays I cried it was hard but years later I’m much better and stronger than I was back then Keep staying strong my friend as much as you can each day you stay alive it gets a little better 💖💖💖*hugs*
I remember that I used to listen to this song all the time as a prepubescent elementary schooler. Looking back, I now realized why I related to this one in particular. But thankfully, Life has gotten a lot better; I'm getting the help I need, I have the family I needed, I have so much that I realized I needed back then. But this artist will always be a part of my childhood.
Multiple interpretations, multiple meaning, applying to everyone in some degree at some point of their current, past or future , everyone has shit and the amount meaning that can be drawn from this is astounding
this song always seems to make me cry every time I listen to it, it helps me deal with my worst points in life-thank you Scratch21 for making such a beautiful song
Just discovered this, and, reminds of when I was in high school in 2000. Things you dont wish were true, but the reality is deeply there. Such a shame this is the world we live in. So many wonderful people reaching the end of their rope from bullying. We never went home and let ourselves tell our parents, everything was "Fine" just "Fine" a faulty, cracking mask. This song is still relevant, and beautifully done. And has brought tears to my eyes.
This song gets me every time. Every. Fucking. Time. It always brings me to tears, and yet, it's so addictive I mean, I'm just unable to stop crying for ages once I've heard it... But thankyou. Thankyou from everyone.
I've made a playlist on youtube here of my absolute favorite videos, that I intended to watch through before I committed suicide. I'm no longer in that place, but I keep this playlist, and I come back to watch it through every now and again, to remind me. Thank you. This song helped me though one of my darkest times and helps me now through brighter days.
i remember being small, like six years old. crying to this song but i never understood why. eleven years old now, i can relate to this song so much. just knowing how much someone can change in just a few years. i love this song so much.
Chills from the first word. Cried at the last line. Often people don't realize how words can be the make it or break it point. In my case, I don't like to talk about me because I often get talked over, ignored, or interrupted. "Sticks and stones may break my bones" is utter bullshit. Words can stick longer than a cut or bruise. You can't just tell bullies to stop, you can't just be happy when you have depression or anxiety. Toxic positivity can be just as bad as your problems, whatever they are. Powerful message.
I am going to show this to the principal at my school and convince her to ask every middle school teacher to play this. It should help with my bullying and a lot of others bullying issues.
This song actually brought tears to my eyes, making me glad I had never taken the easy way out of my dark hours. And now I want to always help people through these times. I am crying because I know that there are people I have know that I could no help. And knowing that hurts. If anyone and I mean anyone who is reading this is having a rough time please let me help you get through it!
I'm going to tell a story of my life that makes my past relates about this song. So I made very few friends and a lot of enemy's from being me. This was in 5th and 6th grade. So the friends that I made, the 3 out of those few became best friends in my life and before that, I had one best friend that I made in kindergarten. These guys felt like they were my whole life. When 7th grade came along, my long, best friend move to Organ so it was kinda of a bummer. So after wards, in between my 7th grade year, my parents were having a discussion of going to Organ to my best friend. I had no say in it. Once my 7th grade year finish,we went to go to Organ. So I left 3 of my best friends at Colorado once summer hit. They all had faith that I will get online and chat with them. Instead once I got to Organ, I got a little sad. I remember that one of my 3 best friends said that this is going to be a critical time to do such thing. So half way of the summer, I got depressed and my friend was different then what I remember and it was in a negative change. So I was having suicide thoughts but I keep telling myself "The suicide is for the weak. Besides my family motivation is to keep going until we drop dead", and in which I interpret that as I will not kill myself but instead, I will wait for someone to do it for me but I will fight back. So after that summer ended, 8th grade happen. Half way through eighth grade, I search up depression (and yes, there is a different between depressed and depression) and each symptom was a fit for me. So I told my best friend (and keep in mind, I was online on summer time and my whole eight grade year for my 3 bests friends) in which he said I wasn't. After that, I kept silence through out the whole eight grade. So, I am in 9th grade. Things does not get better but at least I do go online to talk to my 3 best friends, and they were happy but I knew they change and they knew I change. But the bad thing is that I barley showed up. About 1 time per 2 months. In between the 9th grade, one of my best friend got killed. His name is Justin Burns, his school that he went to is Palisade High school. So that didn't help any. But after wards, 9th grade ended, and when 10th grade started. I felt a a lot less of being depressed. So here I am, in the beginning a new year of school and looking at life at it as pointless, like what we do is nothing but I got to keep going to seek out more knowledge to see that no one can see the way I see life.
I really despise how people can make you feel a certain way and you make the wrong choices with them. Real friends will stay until the end and not just have fun with you, but stay when you're upset and feel with it. I'm so sorry that you have to live life knowing you were forced to leave them and loosing one of your real best friends in the process. I feel so horrible for you. Life is cruel and pointless without someone else's brain to acknowledge everything you've heard, learn and see around you and now that you have to know trusting the wrong people and people can be gone so fast that you don't know what to do anymore. I'm so sorry. I really hope that you try to find a way to talk about your depression in the same way you just did to feel better. But I see where you feel suicidal because even when you're talking to people it doesn't feel like it matters now. Life is very cruel. I hope you know that I care and anyone else who read it does too.
No one can see how you see life, but I can see how you see in the way I interpret how you've explained it. I can feel how you must feel. that everything humans do really means nothing. Being happy is a huge pull-back to what life really is. It's really awful for no one to understand that just because it makes you happy that it'll make someone else ignore "too much thinking" It's not even thinking. It's realizing.
Polar Vimto Wait what did her mom do? She's so nice for protecting them but that's awful that she has even more stress from her own mom? I'm a bit confused.
Hey, to everyone currently going through it all, I get, you’re not alone. Shit sucks through and through. If feels like there’s no hope, but trust me when I say that it DOES get better your heart may be broken now, and maybe it won’t ever fully heal, but you’re still here now. It’s tough out there, but you’ve lived through every day before and I love you for it. Hold on for a better future. Because eventually, it will come around.
This song is so special to me. Im autistic, and have multiple other mental and learning disorders. So as you could imagine, i was bullied RUTHLESSLY. Every minute of achool was agony. Words, slurs, physical abuse, gaslighting, cyberbullying, and worse. I begged and cried for help from adults but they continuously blew me off saying "im an easy target" or i need to be more normal. Or like the kids were being kids. I listened to this song a lot as a young kid, it fit my feelings at the time. I was bullied for everything you can imagine, and strongly considered endong my life multiple times to escape. Now, im an adult who makes money of my artwork, with a supportive community, and im happier than ever in my own skin. Please necer give up. Those people will never see how perfect you are, so look in the mirror and see for yourself. End bullying now! 💚
This is a very good song. It truly expresses what people feel like when they have been bullied or have been in hardships, or have known someone like this.
this song gets me... what it feels like to constantly be broken down by those around you, feeling like no one's on your side... this was the first song that "connected" with me, if that makes sense...
I put shame on the people who dislike this video. This song is gorgeous. I wish I could sing this at school to show people what I feel. This song deserves an award. Nice job Scratch
Agreed, if you hate this video you need to GTFO, he's making over four thousand people happy so every hater can high five a rusty chainsaw then dip their hands in lemon juice and salt. (nice profile pic by the way)
Listening to this again after so many years remains me of all the bullying I had faced through my younger years. Some schools don't realize that "sweeping" bullying under the rug like it's not happening that what they're doing is emotionally damaging a child. I remember walking out of the office several times with my dad after talking to staff members about the bullying I was dealing with. And just saying in my head "please just take me home!" But I still went my classes. My parents knew of the bullying and knew how bad it was, to the point my mom thought I was gonna do the worst thing to think off. Those thoughts never came cause my imaginary dog, a pitbull by the name of Killer, don't judge the name I was a child, would keep those thoughts away. I was an outcast for so many years that I was close to forgetting about friendship cause any friends I would make would be turned against me or chased away. However I remember walking out of my school for the very last time cause I switching schools. Relief washed over me and I smiled cause that was the last time I would be in the hell of a school. Then I ran to my dad's truck still out of fear of being beaten up by my bullies.
I’ve been bullied before by this one kid in school for years! He wouldn’t leave me alone year and year nearly got into a fight with him out at recess one day face to face screaming in each other’s face angry I remember crying in my moms car with the teacher talking to her another day in the back seat after school just hurting from the bullying just wanting something to change teachers did nothing the principal did nothing to really help me all they did was talk and that’s it and it kept going the only person that truly helped me was my mom I’m so thankful to this day she was there for me💖so finally after 5th grade I begged my mom to become homeschooled one evening just because I couldn’t take it anymore and I wanted to get away and she said yes and so did my dad I was so happy I cried tears of joy knowing the bullying was gone and I was finally free I’ve been homeschooled and haven’t been bullied ever since that day bullying with nothing really being done about it is the worst
@@goldenwolf8081 Agreed, like I had said a year ago schools that just do nothing to stop bullying can cause a lot of damage to the victim. For me when I had switched school the damage caused by the bullying was already done. I was close to forgetting about friendship cause at the time I thought who needs friends when all they do is abandoned and betray you as well as having trust issues cause I didn't know if I could trust the students at my new school. However after a few months I started to slowly realize that I was ok, that I could make friends again and did start to trust both the students and the teachers. But trust is something that is fragile, it can easily be shattered but hard to fix. One teacher however stood out among the rest. She knew what I went through at my old school, guessing some of the staff members told her about me, and learned how to help me with my school work, not just for her class but for the rest of my other classes as well. When she left cause she was having a baby, she had gotten word that I was being picked on by other students in her class, paper balls thrown at me to where I didn't feel safe in the room the sub did nothing to get the class to stop and to leave me alone. She felt horrible that this happened to me. I had switched out of her class and into a different class until she came back to which I switched back to her class.
@@celestiafanforever yeah I had no friends who would talk to me in school because I was the weird crybaby kid because 1 I was a kid and 2 I was being bullied and it’s been over 7 years since I last saw my school bully and I honestly many times wanted to find him after I left and felt better to beat him to death for hurting me so much for so long and only until this year! Did I finally realize I know the past was hard but you have to let it go and move on and I’m thankful I did
@@goldenwolf8081 To be honest I don't know what would happen if I even ran into my middle school bullies. The last time I saw one of them was on a bike ride many years ago and he ended up pissing off both of my sisters, my big sister and my little sister. But I do know for a fact I won't be backing down like I have done all those years ago. Then again I would probably cuss him out.
@@celestiafanforever same I would now if I saw him not back down either I would stand my ground and I would probably get really mad but just see what he does and not be a crybaby like I used too with his little insults and jabs he used to throw at me
Spotify Discover Weekly showed me this gem, and honestly I was surprised it went under my radar, it's criminal you aren't as famous as I expected. I listen to a lot of music, and this easily makes my top 10. Subbed. Keep doing what you do, seriously you're awesome!
This song hurts so much cause I love and connect with it so much. Been depressed since 15, 20 now, and even after getting so far, living and loving so hard it seems like you'll never get the same. All of my success based off the negative emotions that encouraged me to end it so many times. Even now I still question about it all, whether I'm living a story without a happy ending or if I just gotta try and ignore it each time it comes back knowing it's weakening my heart and heart strings. Chasing the light at the end of the tunnel my whole life, but running into rabbit holes every step. Thats how I'd describe my life, and sometimes I just wish there was someone to reach a hand out or to know if no one will ever reach out at all.
I have been listening to this song for years. I know all the lyrics, but reading them struck a nerve with me that I didn’t think I still had. This is a fantastic song.
I have been a victim of bullying for years with no one to comfort, never. And it's only been getting worst because I'm a brony, even my mom doesn't like me,but I will not give up, I will fight till the end. Thank you scratch21, you now have a new subscriber.
Yumi the Coyote The furry community gets a really unfair amount of hate. I found the fandom in high school, and I was dealing with a lot at that time in my life. I was depressed, and it was a struggle to find the motivation to get out of bed. But the furry community helped me find things I enjoyed, and I met some local furs that I got to know. Junior year was my lowest point. I had a loaded 12-gauge to my chin, ready to pull the trigger, when one of the local furs who went to my school messaged me and asked if I was there... I broke down. I told him what happened and we started talking, and we eventually started dating about a year and a half ago. So advice to the original poster- the only thing that should matter is that you find something you enjoy. The people who give you crap for being a brony? If they don't bother looking past that, they are sad and shallow individuals. Do what you enjoy and find others who enjoy it, and I hope things get better for you.
Uploaded three years ago, yet it's still so relatable.. It was up when I was in third grade. Now I'm in sixth and everything is colder, but I have people to help out. Scratch21, I thank you for writing and producing this wonderful work to show how you and others may feel.
I listened to this back in 2015 and thought I knew what these words meant. I thought back then that life couldn't get any harder then it already was. Now all these years later I come back and really understand. Ive learned into in these short years, I learned and am experiencing things that me from back then, me listening to this song, would have NEVER imagined. Which I suppose is a blessing but mostly a curse. I cried listening to this song kinda wishing I could be back to that time. I was innocent and I didn't even know it. Hell in a couple of years from now that me might be saying the same thing. couple of years from how I may learn more about the meaning of this song.
Okay. I'm not depressed or anything, yea I've been bullied, but I feel a connection this song. I wpuld sing this by heart when I was younger, and first found the song. Then, it was just a sad song that I didn't really understand the real meaning of. I just was looking at M.A.P animations and I found this one again, along with some other ones. I cried listening to it, and every time after that. Even now. I love this song. Scratch21 is honestly underrated. And most people don't understand the meaning of this song, and I am assuming you do. I remember when I started to actually understand what "I'm sorry Mom, but I promise that I tried" meant. I was crying knowing that people actually go through this. And some people end their life, and some people suffer through it, but end up living in the end. And I'm so proud of you for making it.
Yup... And once broken, not likely to be fixed. I believe my experiences from school has left me paranoid about trusting people, unable to socialize like a normal person, and often I prefer to be alone because it's seems safer that way. I'll be 40 next year and no sign of any of that changing any time soon. To my bullies, I'd like to thank you for making me the lonely bitter miserable person I am today. Good job.
I hadn't got bullied for over 4 Years now. I'm pretty much over it. But even worse than getting bullied is standing there, seeing it, hearing it, knowing what is going on but just don't have the strength to help the victim. To go home and hating yourself because you've done nothing to help
I heard you guys sorta disbanded. It’s heartbreaking to hear that. The Rhyme was my introduction to Scratch21 and from there I found other artists you guys collaborated with and made great friends along the way. Probably wouldn’t be where I am today without this band. Wish you guys the best, hopefully you’ll be back to making songs again someday. Thank you
sorry pal but they're gone. Ed and Coopers VA's were contacted by Littlekuriboh to inform them of what Shadyvox (Matt's VA) did to attempt to ruin his life. either they cut contact, or shady cut them off, i cant remember exactly, look up Littlekuribos published document for the full details, but the bands completely dead
My sister took her life more then a month ago and I wish she was still here. It feels like she’ll be home one day and my family is waiting for her to walk in
funny how i have watched this when i was 14... bring a whole new meaning to the subreddit IAm14AndThisIsDeep. Still in love with this song after so long.
And when the days over a gone are you still there? Or have you already left? Because words do hurt you. Was it to much? Have you given up? Or do you push forward? Do you climb uphill? Do you tell yourself "I'm not giving up today"? Did you tell yourself "I've made it this far I can go a little while longer"? You ARE a survivor. You know this because your reading this. There's hope. Don't stop climbing. Your almost there. Just hang on. A few more hours, a few more minutes, a few more seconds. Hold on. Helps on the way. I promise
The 154 dislikes are people with no taste in good music bruh the word good is an understatement this is great I love it and I started listening to it yesterday
I have never heard of them before, but my friend introduced me to their music with this song. I relate to this song completely and I honestly was at the end of my rope today. This song helped me feel better, also crying is cathartic.
Hearing this brings the memories that when my older sister told me what happened to her for years. She was corrupted by people and society took her childhood away at such a young age younger than me. Her and my mom don’t talk to each other anymore, but I hope they at least don’t strip each other out of their lives because of the past. I pray and wish they can see one another again, cause i tried my best and I just want the bad things to go away. Thanks Scratch21 for making this song. It’s amazing in its own way.
Depression isn't just being sad. It's a mental illness. We should treat it JUST as seriously as we would other disorders. It takes so many people annually, and it only acts as an echo chamber for the negativity bias that's an integral part of the human condition, and it CRUSHES people. Almost everyone struggles with it. Make sure your friends know they're loved. Let family know they are loved. Positivity and genuine kindness help so much.
I can relate to this song on so many levels. Depressive episodes are never an easy time to break through, but one thing that I found always has and always will help ease my mind. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. These things happen, but we have control over how we take things. We can give up, or we can force ourselves to keep going and fight for the lives we want and what we know is right. Thank you, Shane Koyczan. Haven't found something that has impacted me in such a positive way in quite some time. Keep up the great work, and continue the fight. #AlwaysKeepFighting
The first time I heard this song I liked it, but I couldn't know why or could understand what was sang in the song. And now, 4 years later, I literally cried hearing this song, and now understanding the message.
I've watched this a few times now and have liked it a lot. But for some reason this time listening to it made me tear up, and get super emotional, and I started thinking about my brother who had a hard life before he passed away last year. Thank you, these feelings are precious and hard to come by for me.
I was bullied like almost everyday in my new school. I was thinking to go back to my older school by the new school has alot of fun features. So I tried to stay strong and try to survive.
Coming back to this song after having 3 years of suicidal thoughts and self-harm. you will get better, it might not feel like it right now, but that's because you haven't got your shovel. if you are in mental pain and have suicidal thoughts please contact a therapist. and if you can't afford a therapist of you don't have the means of going to see a therapist there are always places online where you can talk to someone. -A friend who has been there.
Not only has this song sent me on a railroad trip of emotions and last memories its made me think about shit I go through. So thanks. I needed the lift of spirits to know someone out there in that gory, fucked up world knows and cares 'bout people, like us, feelings.
You weren't kidding with what you said on the RUclips policy change video. This video has resonated with me more than any other song I've listened to. The lyrics describe every feeling I felt when I was bullied to the point of suicide multiple times in school, and when I learned to stand up for myself to get the other extreme of bullying where I was ignored, laughed at, and had my voice stamped out when I couldn't take it anymore and made them listen to me. Very well written song. Will be sharing this with others tonight.
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This song is the reason I survived highschool. I listened to it on the bus just before pulling into school each day. I was picked on since kindergarten, I was what teachers called "an easy target" administration did nothing to stop bullies. Their way of keeping their schools "bully free zones" was to silence the victims so the outside world wouldn't know. If I could go back, I would've snuck cameras in and shown it to news outlets. This song gave me the will to keep going when nothing else could. 7 years later and it still keeps me going strong.
schools pull that "we don't tolate bulling in our school" BS and they only take action when the victim finally snaps and either fights back or goes to drastic measures (manly think of taking there own life or taking life of anyone in the school) schools only begin to listen when you record and get them on the news in a negtive way
I had a friend who told me about this song and I listen to it to remember them. It’s the only thing that I have to remember them
Those ppl r just heartless monsters dont let them get to u, also ur a survivor so keep being strong 🦾💓
(Kinda) Same with me in middle school. Although I was a known delinquent myself it still didn’t change the fact that my parents were shit and none of my “friends” actually cared.
Es verdad que esas experiencias son dolorosas, forman nuestro caracter, nos eseña a ser fuertes, y de no ser por eso seriamos alguien totalmente diferentes pero todos estamos deacuerdo en que hubieramos preferido no pasar por eso, uno se pregunta, realmente era necesario? No habia otra manera de ser fuertes?
"I promise that I tried."
That really freaking got me..
*hug*
;~;)
Same
Same 😭
I nearly ended up joining the suicide victims had my brother not stopped me... Listening to this equally hurts and brings me relief and wish so much I could stop this from happening to others.
This is “bone” chilling deep
The last line always brings me to tears
same ;0;
Same even years later I cry my eyes out because its the harsh reality that some kids actually take their lives and say goodbye to their parents because they just can't handle everything anymore and I've been there many times 😭 I'm crying writing this comment honestly
It does for me too
I hope against hope that someone found the kid in the song and saved him before it was too late.
Reason why i haven't killed myself is just cuz my mom would be depressed...
I find there comes a point, when your recovering from depression, you've been happy for a little while, genuinely happy, but then for a moment, you consider letting it take you again, just because there's almost a sense of comfort it giving up, to stop fighting it, and let the darkness hold you again, even though it hurt, crying yourself to sleep every night over one thing or another, constantly being afraid of talking to anyone, or evening simply being around people, you find a strange sense of peace in it, I don't know what it means to feel this way, but it's conflicting, not knowing if you should let it take you back, and give up all you've gained, or keep fighting, until the feeling passes
I agree. I have been finr but once in a while i just wanna write a letter and let it all go. But I stop myself. I just know it hurts others more than it would relief myself
You completely nailed it. There's a strange comfort of the darkness, the cold void that's completely silent yet overwhelming static in ears. It breaks a person, can drive them mad with the bits of insanity keeping them sane. Many things can hold it back, either a unknowing force of will, delusion or the fear with it's consequences.
Been struggling with this exact scenario for a while.
Gods this is so true...
It's like... an old wooden chair. Uncomfortable, but so familiar and almost nostalgic that you can't help but sit in it every once in a while for a moment or two.
People tend to find that what's familiar is what's comfortable, even if it's a toxic or bad situation. But you need to remember that growing doesn't happen in comfortable circumstances. I'd say it's ok to miss it, but it's important to not let go of what's safe.
I used to listen to this when I was 12, angsty and never thought I would make it to 14... I'm now 18 and it's been a wild ride. This song has shaped who I am today.
I'm just about to roll over 35, still hits just as hard.
im 14 sooo this still hurts :) im not being bullied by normal means but other than 3 friends lierally the whole school used me for comedy and stole my stuff then hid it and whenever i thought about tellin anyone i told myself im just making it up and that im just trying to get pity but its not bad bc summer break and going to highscool sorry for wasting your time sorry for ranting
i have a heavy videogane addiction, treat sleeping like a timeskip wear headphones for style + can listen to vibes whenever but to add on to my 1st comment the "voices"
tell me i have it not as bad as anyone else and im being dramatic even this feels dramatic to say sorrrry for ranting x2
and being so scatterbrained i also got into reading webtoons during covid IM sorry for leechin off top comment please dont think of this like that i just felt i should share my experiences i dont need your pity
im using reply so much because fo r some reason i cant edit comments but goodbye imma return to reading manga at 2am
Holy shit.
The first chorus plays and you're already making me cry. So much repressed trauma. Just an outpouring of PTSD. Nothing has hit me like this since Junior High.
As a bully victim myself from my old school days, this song speaks to me.
I may not have struggled with depression or felt suicidal from it all but being bullied gave me SEVERE anger issues. Thankfully...I had great friends, kind teachers and a loving family to help keep me from going off the deep end.
I'm just happy I graduated when I did, the public school environment has become so much worse than how it was in my youth
I love the double meaning of the phrase "i just want to go home". Because throughout the song the singer talks about their alone with themselves in their room. It's one of those ohrases where at face value you think of it literally: "this person is getting picked on and they just want to be alone, to be safe, to be home, away from this situation."
Then you take into consideration that this song is all about someone alone with their thoughts as it all comes creeping in and overtakes them. Physically they are home and alone and safe. But despite being away from the situation, it's still corroding their mind.
I know this sounds obvious in hindsight, but that doible meaning of going hime meaning they want to die hit me, and it's a really nice and enticingly haunting way to say they want to die without being needlessly explicit.
It presents the singer's point of view of death very brutally. It is something they feel they have to resort to and so it's seen as a comfort. Home is where safety is. Home is away from all this madness. So maybe there's comfort or relief on the other side.
Again, i know this stuff is pretty obvious. These close readings of the songs can be kinda cringy especially when the mssage speaks pretty loud and clear. However, i just wanted to appreciate this part of the song. It's not like it's amazing word smithing or anything but i thought it was clever.
i listen to this song, untitled, and the invisible parade and some other somewhat similar songs by other artists, i listen to them when im down and im gonna listen to them when i can finally leave, ill at least be comfortable listening to this song while i
Ive been listening to thus song for years, know it word for word. And now that i read this comment i realize that double meaning...wow
This one really hit close to home. Good job, Scratch21.
Hey :) i know you
What I loved about this song is that this isn't all "I can be stronger" cheesiness. I loved how this showed the reality of suicidal thoughts and suicide.
I found this song from a MAP and I absolutely love this more than any other song in the world.
This is the only song or person who knows this feeling of being lost and alone.
+Mewmewcat11 Miketheraptor Are you saying that this is the only song describing the desire for suicide?
+Ezra Block
No. I'm pretty sure he just means that songs about bullying is usually about,"I can be stronger!"
Ewemiz Insigne yeah I hate that people sugar coat everything to where they have to lie to you just to hide the horrible truth.
I know that i'm stronger, broken heart of a fighter, my scars remind me that i'm a survivor
cause life is a tough game, and he doesn't sugar coat that, at all.
I did not sign up for this feels trip...
+The Gaming Brony004 exactly
+Flame Pool I got a heart attack from feels ;___;
+The Gaming Brony004 I'm makin a music video for this right now
+Flame Pool yet you clicked the video
+Flame Pool I know how you feel I just called my boyfriend and started sobbing and he was like"Why are you crying?" and I replied "MY FEELS ARE BROKEN." He kind of just sighed XD
I'm not crying, you're crying!
***** Eh, why not.
*water levels around the world rise 2 feet*
*Drains the water* Do i have to clean this?
*crying* i just have something in my eyes
+The Silent Suffer
You arent the only one whom suffer from Suicidal Thoughts. I do too suffer from them with my 24/7 desire of Death. Im glad you survived from nearly committin it. I understand the pain. Songs like these help us,brother/sister.
i didn't cry but then near the end i notice how relateble my life is right now and then i cryed
I have always hid my pain from everyone.
My friends. My Family.
When people try to help I push them away.
And I run away from my problems.
But nobody knows.
+Prime Minister Fluffy Rose Thank you.
+Obviously Wolfie I do That Too...I'm only 10 and MY mom passed a year ago, I'm trying to hide it from everyone.. its sad, I'm trying to hide from my problems, they catch up to me always, its hard...im so close to killing myself..
Talk to people kid holding in your problems doesn’t make the pain go away
Don’t run form problems you can’t you forgotten face them it’s not easy but it’s the only way to start healing.
I have never been bullied
But that line is very reminiscent for me
This song is a mood bro, I do relate to this song a lot, and I do have really bad suicidal thoughts, to the point where I just cry my eyes out, it’s nice to have a song that someone like me can relate to.
Your band has such potenial. And i can tell. I'm going to be watching this band grow. And i can't wait to hear more from you. The way you worded this was amazing. You told it flat out. Like...it's perfect. I relate to this song. I just can't wait to hear more from you, Swift. I doubt you read this comment though...
I know I'm commenting after 3 months but, just discovered these guys and, love em. Easily better than a lot of today's artists. These guys are amazing at this and the potentiometer is there. more music more stories like these and they'll be big.
im pretty sure scratch 21 is a solo
well for some of his stuff
I just found them and I really enjoy their music
+tim wantstobattle well they just made their channel
I put shame on the people that dislike his video.
The True Harmony Maybe they hate crying?
The True Harmony they have no soul
those people have no heart💔
TheTrueHarmony It's probably bullies... Or people who did bad things to someone. Or they simply are trying to act cool and say to them self that this video is cringy.
Sadly some people will say its too emo and shouldn't bring the mood down because those people don't understand. I know I was labeled emo because of my trauma. More awareness needs to be raised so there is less ignorance and more understanding!
Scratch21 is my favorite band of all times. No band will ever replace it, and no Song will ever replace this one
I haven’t heard y’all in years,, you got me through my depression with this. Thank you for helping me survive
I love how the ending represents three kinds of people/stages who go through something like this.
"I know that I'm stronger, broken heart of a fighter, my scars remind me that I'm a survivor"
"This life is a tough game and I don't want to play it, I'm reaching out for a hand, help me make it"
"But it's too much so I give up just please don't hate me, my letter's on my pillow with a kiss goodbye. I'm sorry mom I promised that I tried."
I presented this song in an "album about you" project in 5th grade, to EVERYONE in the class barely realizing what it meant. This song is one of my lifelines.
EDIT: i'm turning 20 this year, and it is still as important to me as was in grade 5. Thank you blake
Maybe all schools should listen to this. I believe that it would change people. If everyone in the world knew this, maybe bullying will stop. This song was me... I'm better. But other people need to know this. Who agrees
I do
+Fritz Pony I agree
+Fritz Pony Productions I agree. I haven't been a victim, but knowing how real life works, knowing that we're not in a fairy tale, I know someone will start to do it, but ill just say a quote from this song, "You don't need to break my bone for you to break me."
Bullying makes me angry. People hate me for hating bullying UGH the nerve of some people
+Fritz Pony Productions i dont get how someone could hate something when they hate the thing thats horrible like bullying.... i have had bullies nearly KILL me before,and a bus driver that was a bully to me,my brother,my friend,my friends older sister... and forced me to sit in the back to get bullied on he even dropped me off by a giant vicious dog 6 blocks away from my bus stop after making me clean the entire bus because of one person,and stay on until everyone got off (and i had the 3rd bus stop out of like 12) and i was only 5 at the time :T I had became friends with one who used to bully me...after i made them see what they were doing hurt.. it 2 ways 1:i kinda beat the crap out of them because i couldn't take i$,(i kinda..regret this) and 2:i told them straight up we can never stop bullying but we can reduce it!
I cry every time I listen to this....I learned this song about a week ago, and yet I've listened to it about 300 times since......I just can't stop.
This song is actually my favorite song because of its message.....bullys.....please please stop bullying please.....I just can't anymore I'm sorry :'(
So true, Sugar! I downloaded it for free. D:
*bullies
Why can't I stop listening to this ;-;
Shut yo sensitive ass up
Never mind I just cried
I connect with this song on SO many levels. I felt the same way, for a long time. But then when someone came along into my life, they made it start to go away...Then they left me, then everything was as dark as ever. My friends were worried about me, what I was going to do. Because I honestly didn't know. I never spoke, I never looked anyone in the eye, and I refused to fall in love again. But now, someone has come for me, and they are making me better again, I was reluctant to let them in, because of what happened before. But I have let them into my life, and I am SO glad I did...I just hope this doesn't break me again...because I'm not sure if I'll let anybody in my life again after this...for a while, at least...I won't ever get over it, but I know I CAN get better, with the help of my friends. One of them WERE always there for me +leahthemonkey and I know she will be there forever! She stopped me from trying to end it all, she tried to stop my self harming, sorry, Leah but that will NEVER happen, I'm the only one who can stop that. I am better now, not fully, I am still in pain in so many ways, and I am still broken, but I know that with the help of my friends, I will get through this!!
So anyone who feels broken, please don't give up. Be strong and know you are not alone. Because MY HEART GOES OUT TO EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU! I love you all!! Stay Strong, guys!
Hey this is me looking back at this maybe a year later, now. (I'm not good with dates.)
and I need to say, at the end of the song, where he said the letter is on the pillow and he said sorry mom but i promised that I tried...well that was me 3 months ago. I almost left. I wrote a letter for my mum on my pillow and I was about to do it. But she stopped me, she saved my life. I was about to leave the world. But she saved me. And I love her for it.
Keep pushing through, man. You will make it. And remember, someone is always there for you.
Onyx Songsinger :) Thank you. I will. :) xxx
+Dashie “Rainbow Dash” Baxter Yes people care for you even though I have never met you I feel your pain so let's push through this together
Chase Carter thanks :)
***** I know how you feel I am exactly the same, I am almost 14 now and let me be honest with you, things will get better, maybe not fully, but they will be better than they are right now. If you ever need someone, I will be here for you. I'll take you under my wing and help you out if and when you need it :)
Not every battle has a happy ending. This song resonates with me in a way I could never describe. I'm so happy Shady made it. If you're struggling with abuse especially at a young age. Reach out and if no one answers, keep reaching out. There are people that care and if we see you in need we'll be there for you. You're never alone. Much love.
I listened to this song a lot well I was in high school. I had teachers, people meant to help me, that were bullies. I fought and clawed my way out, so they didn't drag me down, but this song helped a lot to just release a lot of pent up emotions. Honestly, I'm happy this song exists.
Wow, very powerful song. great work.
I still listen to this song from when it came out, I love it and just wanna say something...........
I have been depressed for at least 7-9 years now and I wanna say that this and other songs keep me up and happy then when people pull me down I listen to this song the most. It makes me feel a bit better...
Thank you for making this video and saving some lives around the world. With this song, I now have a girlfriend and some friends now, thank you so much
-I remember every story they wrote on my back.
Bruises like words tattooed into my skin in blue and black ink.
I remember every kitchen sink surgery where family had to stitch me back together.
I remember every happily ever after that never came to pass.
We didn't go to school in fairy tales.
We went to school in all the gory details of a horror story while monsters made us victims of their comedy
We, the recipients of their punch lines they hung insults around our necks like signs inviting anyone to join in.
Their words were invisible ink that they tattooed upon our skin.-
Those are my favorite lines... They are the truth, I would know the pain.
+mantyke66770 Shane Koyczan, anyone?
Chanel Channel Chantel Vuong Hell yes!
+Chanel Channel Chantel Vuong I was thinking the same thing
+mantyke66770 I never tell people how I feel because of bullies I try to be invisible and with my friends I am cruel but I try to be a good friend but I feel they could easily replaced... I am also a joke and the girl no one wants to hang with.... Is it cause Im annoying, to loud, awkward , ugly!?! People can make you put up all the walls and they can still break you....
the last lines "This life is a tough game and I don't wanna' play it.
I'm reaching for a hand, help me make it.
But it's too much, so I give up -
just please don't hate me.
My letter's on the pillow, with a kiss goodbye.
I'm sorry, Mom. But I promise that I tried..." kills me every time. It reminds me of when I was in a bad spot in my personal life. I actually wrote that last line (or something similar) in my letter..
I wish I could have helped the other people that arent still here.. This song equally hurts and helps me know that others feel the same..
It's an example of how things could have gone down for us, yo.
I hear this and I'm glad that there were hands that did help me make it, that pulled me up when I needed it most.
But I just know that not everyone had that help. And it fucking hurts, man.
@@josephschultz3301 true I feel bad for the people who didn’t make it to have that help but the line my scars remind me that I’m a survivor hits me hard it reminds me of how far I’ve come in my nearly 20 years of life so far through all the bad ugly and the absolute worst times
Been a while since I've heard this song. Came across it again and decided to give it another listen. The memories stirred came with bittersweet feeling. This song served a reminder of how far I've come from where I once was and how close I came to crossing the line of no return.
I'm glad you stayed strong and never crossed that line, yo. Keep on keepin' on. I'm rooting for you.
I haven’t come close to crossing that line of no return but I have been depressed before multiple times and it’s rough listening to this for the first time today reminds me that I can’t give up no matter how down I feel in my future or somedays I feel like garbage life’s rough but it does get better I’m proud of you for not crossing that line stay strong my friend 💖💖💖💖
i remember tis song, very emotional and touching at the same time
I've never really been bullied (I mean there's Mean students at times but that's it)
I have bullied myself (depression stuff .-.)
And I can't imagine those hurtful words coming from another person.. and violence... it must be terrible.
I have a brother
yea, im my own biggest bully
I came across this again... It really brings back all that bad nostalgia from a year ago. It hurts to think about it because I can remember sitting on my bed and crying while listening to this, but then, I remember screaming all my problems to my mom and she listened. Although I defeated my demons, this song still haunts me to this very day. (It's a very good song though)
Stay alive :)
I come back to this song because of a friend who recommended it to me and it’s a song that helps me remember that friend who I miss a lot.
Who has been bullied here?
Edit: it’s been 4 years, yes I’m still bullied unfortunately but I’ve grown tougher and colder to the world. I hope the rest of you who replied and saw this are in a better place
Me. . . . *Crys internaly*
Paige Lafurge *hands you a tissue*
xXFire FrostXx Thank you *Smiles*
I have
The Rock & Roll Gamer so sorry
I remember listening to this song 2 years ago... It still makes me cry every time I listen to it.
This song is FAR too relatable for me. I dealt with serious bullying growing up, had a VERY abusive step father and have on more than one occasion considered suicide, especially in recent times. I'm doing a bit better now, but it can be really hard to remain "strong".
I dealt with bullying too for years somedays I cried it was hard but years later I’m much better and stronger than I was back then Keep staying strong my friend as much as you can each day you stay alive it gets a little better 💖💖💖*hugs*
I shed a tear or five thousand
***** hello
how r u
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Hi guys! Can I join you guys?
sure i'm lonely ;-;
I remember that I used to listen to this song all the time as a prepubescent elementary schooler. Looking back, I now realized why I related to this one in particular. But thankfully, Life has gotten a lot better; I'm getting the help I need, I have the family I needed, I have so much that I realized I needed back then. But this artist will always be a part of my childhood.
Multiple interpretations, multiple meaning, applying to everyone in some degree at some point of their current, past or future , everyone has shit and the amount meaning that can be drawn from this is astounding
this song always seems to make me cry every time I listen to it, it helps me deal with my worst points in life-thank you Scratch21 for making such a beautiful song
I am still blown away at how relatable this song is
I never heard a song as beautiful as this one.
Just discovered this, and, reminds of when I was in high school in 2000. Things you dont wish were true, but the reality is deeply there. Such a shame this is the world we live in. So many wonderful people reaching the end of their rope from bullying. We never went home and let ourselves tell our parents, everything was "Fine" just "Fine" a faulty, cracking mask. This song is still relevant, and beautifully done. And has brought tears to my eyes.
This song gets me every time.
Every. Fucking. Time.
It always brings me to tears, and yet, it's so addictive
I mean, I'm just unable to stop crying for ages once I've heard it...
But thankyou.
Thankyou from everyone.
I've made a playlist on youtube here of my absolute favorite videos, that I intended to watch through before I committed suicide.
I'm no longer in that place, but I keep this playlist, and I come back to watch it through every now and again, to remind me. Thank you. This song helped me though one of my darkest times and helps me now through brighter days.
I’m very happy you didn’t commit I’m glad your still here💖this song is so relatable sometimes it hurts but it’s the truth
i remember being small, like six years old. crying to this song but i never understood why. eleven years old now, i can relate to this song so much. just knowing how much someone can change in just a few years. i love this song so much.
Sounds like Simple Plan... wow, you're such great artists. I loved the song!
1 person. Artist. the poem guy is from a different channel and just helped with that part
Actually, this is now a band of 4.
I know but it was better when it was just the one guy. personally i liked it better.
Rod Ferreira NO IT SOUNDS LIKE...L BLINK-182
sounds like a literal mixture of all my favorite bands but furry this is epic
Chills from the first word. Cried at the last line. Often people don't realize how words can be the make it or break it point. In my case, I don't like to talk about me because I often get talked over, ignored, or interrupted. "Sticks and stones may break my bones" is utter bullshit. Words can stick longer than a cut or bruise. You can't just tell bullies to stop, you can't just be happy when you have depression or anxiety. Toxic positivity can be just as bad as your problems, whatever they are. Powerful message.
5 years later and this still just rips my heart out.
I am going to show this to the principal at my school and convince her to ask every middle school teacher to play this. It should help with my bullying and a lot of others bullying issues.
me too
Stop
Did it work?
I will show it to my principal too!
+Boring Story screw you pal
This song actually brought tears to my eyes, making me glad I had never taken the easy way out of my dark hours. And now I want to always help people through these times. I am crying because I know that there are people I have know that I could no help. And knowing that hurts. If anyone and I mean anyone who is reading this is having a rough time please let me help you get through it!
I'm going to tell a story of my life that makes my past relates about this song. So I made very few friends and a lot of enemy's from being me. This was in 5th and 6th grade. So the friends that I made, the 3 out of those few became best friends in my life and before that, I had one best friend that I made in kindergarten. These guys felt like they were my whole life. When 7th grade came along, my long, best friend move to Organ so it was kinda of a bummer. So after wards, in between my 7th grade year, my parents were having a discussion of going to Organ to my best friend. I had no say in it. Once my 7th grade year finish,we went to go to Organ. So I left 3 of my best friends at Colorado once summer hit. They all had faith that I will get online and chat with them. Instead once I got to Organ, I got a little sad. I remember that one of my 3 best friends said that this is going to be a critical time to do such thing. So half way of the summer, I got depressed and my friend was different then what I remember and it was in a negative change. So I was having suicide thoughts but I keep telling myself "The suicide is for the weak. Besides my family motivation is to keep going until we drop dead", and in which I interpret that as I will not kill myself but instead, I will wait for someone to do it for me but I will fight back. So after that summer ended, 8th grade happen. Half way through eighth grade, I search up depression (and yes, there is a different between depressed and depression) and each symptom was a fit for me. So I told my best friend (and keep in mind, I was online on summer time and my whole eight grade year for my 3 bests friends) in which he said I wasn't. After that, I kept silence through out the whole eight grade. So, I am in 9th grade. Things does not get better but at least I do go online to talk to my 3 best friends, and they were happy but I knew they change and they knew I change. But the bad thing is that I barley showed up. About 1 time per 2 months. In between the 9th grade, one of my best friend got killed. His name is Justin Burns, his school that he went to is Palisade High school. So that didn't help any. But after wards, 9th grade ended, and when 10th grade started. I felt a a lot less of being depressed. So here I am, in the beginning a new year of school and looking at life at it as pointless, like what we do is nothing but I got to keep going to seek out more knowledge to see that no one can see the way I see life.
So I thank to any of those who read my story.
I'm so so sorry about what is happening ;-;
I really despise how people can make you feel a certain way and you make the wrong choices with them. Real friends will stay until the end and not just have fun with you, but stay when you're upset and feel with it. I'm so sorry that you have to live life knowing you were forced to leave them and loosing one of your real best friends in the process. I feel so horrible for you. Life is cruel and pointless without someone else's brain to acknowledge everything you've heard, learn and see around you and now that you have to know trusting the wrong people and people can be gone so fast that you don't know what to do anymore. I'm so sorry. I really hope that you try to find a way to talk about your depression in the same way you just did to feel better. But I see where you feel suicidal because even when you're talking to people it doesn't feel like it matters now. Life is very cruel. I hope you know that I care and anyone else who read it does too.
No one can see how you see life, but I can see how you see in the way I interpret how you've explained it. I can feel how you must feel. that everything humans do really means nothing. Being happy is a huge pull-back to what life really is. It's really awful for no one to understand that just because it makes you happy that it'll make someone else ignore "too much thinking" It's not even thinking. It's realizing.
Polar Vimto Wait what did her mom do? She's so nice for protecting them but that's awful that she has even more stress from her own mom? I'm a bit confused.
Hey, to everyone currently going through it all, I get, you’re not alone. Shit sucks through and through. If feels like there’s no hope, but trust me when I say that it DOES get better your heart may be broken now, and maybe it won’t ever fully heal, but you’re still here now.
It’s tough out there, but you’ve lived through every day before and I love you for it. Hold on for a better future. Because eventually, it will come around.
This song is so special to me. Im autistic, and have multiple other mental and learning disorders. So as you could imagine, i was bullied RUTHLESSLY. Every minute of achool was agony. Words, slurs, physical abuse, gaslighting, cyberbullying, and worse. I begged and cried for help from adults but they continuously blew me off saying "im an easy target" or i need to be more normal. Or like the kids were being kids. I listened to this song a lot as a young kid, it fit my feelings at the time. I was bullied for everything you can imagine, and strongly considered endong my life multiple times to escape. Now, im an adult who makes money of my artwork, with a supportive community, and im happier than ever in my own skin. Please necer give up. Those people will never see how perfect you are, so look in the mirror and see for yourself. End bullying now! 💚
Guess what Matt’s been doin
This legit made me cry. Bravo
XCOOLASSASINX your not the only one
XCOOLASSASINX made me want to cry too.
+XCOOLASSASINX This is horrible.... and lovely at the same time. Why don't people understand this about bullying....
+XCOOLASSASINX This is horrible.... and lovely at the same time. Why don't people understand this about bullying....
+XCOOLASSASINX It made me cry too :_(
This is a very good song. It truly expresses what people feel like when they have been bullied or have been in hardships, or have known someone like this.
The fact that the background alternates between darkening up and lighting up based on the lyrics speaks alot
Oh my god, I've been looking for this song forever. This brings back so many memories, I used to relate to this so much when I was younger.
this song gets me... what it feels like to constantly be broken down by those around you, feeling like no one's on your side... this was the first song that "connected" with me, if that makes sense...
I put shame on the people who dislike this video. This song is gorgeous. I wish I could sing this at school to show people what I feel. This song deserves an award. Nice job Scratch
Agreed, if you hate this video you need to GTFO, he's making over four thousand people happy so every hater can high five a rusty chainsaw then dip their hands in lemon juice and salt. (nice profile pic by the way)
That's an agreement. If you hate it you dont need to spam about it in the comment section.
((Ty btw xD))
+Kelsey Key I honestly have no idea why someone could even THINK about hating THIS song, like WOW
Some people dislike because the pain is too real... it makes them feel it again.
Listening to this again after so many years remains me of all the bullying I had faced through my younger years.
Some schools don't realize that "sweeping" bullying under the rug like it's not happening that what they're doing is emotionally damaging a child.
I remember walking out of the office several times with my dad after talking to staff members about the bullying I was dealing with. And just saying in my head "please just take me home!" But I still went my classes.
My parents knew of the bullying and knew how bad it was, to the point my mom thought I was gonna do the worst thing to think off. Those thoughts never came cause my imaginary dog, a pitbull by the name of Killer, don't judge the name I was a child, would keep those thoughts away.
I was an outcast for so many years that I was close to forgetting about friendship cause any friends I would make would be turned against me or chased away.
However I remember walking out of my school for the very last time cause I switching schools. Relief washed over me and I smiled cause that was the last time I would be in the hell of a school. Then I ran to my dad's truck still out of fear of being beaten up by my bullies.
I’ve been bullied before by this one kid in school for years! He wouldn’t leave me alone year and year nearly got into a fight with him out at recess one day face to face screaming in each other’s face angry I remember crying in my moms car with the teacher talking to her another day in the back seat after school just hurting from the bullying just wanting something to change teachers did nothing the principal did nothing to really help me all they did was talk and that’s it and it kept going the only person that truly helped me was my mom I’m so thankful to this day she was there for me💖so finally after 5th grade I begged my mom to become homeschooled one evening just because I couldn’t take it anymore and I wanted to get away and she said yes and so did my dad I was so happy I cried tears of joy knowing the bullying was gone and I was finally free I’ve been homeschooled and haven’t been bullied ever since that day bullying with nothing really being done about it is the worst
@@goldenwolf8081 Agreed, like I had said a year ago schools that just do nothing to stop bullying can cause a lot of damage to the victim.
For me when I had switched school the damage caused by the bullying was already done. I was close to forgetting about friendship cause at the time I thought who needs friends when all they do is abandoned and betray you as well as having trust issues cause I didn't know if I could trust the students at my new school. However after a few months I started to slowly realize that I was ok, that I could make friends again and did start to trust both the students and the teachers.
But trust is something that is fragile, it can easily be shattered but hard to fix.
One teacher however stood out among the rest. She knew what I went through at my old school, guessing some of the staff members told her about me, and learned how to help me with my school work, not just for her class but for the rest of my other classes as well. When she left cause she was having a baby, she had gotten word that I was being picked on by other students in her class, paper balls thrown at me to where I didn't feel safe in the room the sub did nothing to get the class to stop and to leave me alone. She felt horrible that this happened to me. I had switched out of her class and into a different class until she came back to which I switched back to her class.
@@celestiafanforever yeah I had no friends who would talk to me in school because I was the weird crybaby kid because 1 I was a kid and 2 I was being bullied and it’s been over 7 years since I last saw my school bully and I honestly many times wanted to find him after I left and felt better to beat him to death for hurting me so much for so long and only until this year! Did I finally realize I know the past was hard but you have to let it go and move on and I’m thankful I did
@@goldenwolf8081 To be honest I don't know what would happen if I even ran into my middle school bullies. The last time I saw one of them was on a bike ride many years ago and he ended up pissing off both of my sisters, my big sister and my little sister.
But I do know for a fact I won't be backing down like I have done all those years ago. Then again I would probably cuss him out.
@@celestiafanforever same I would now if I saw him not back down either I would stand my ground and I would probably get really mad but just see what he does and not be a crybaby like I used too with his little insults and jabs he used to throw at me
Spotify Discover Weekly showed me this gem, and honestly I was surprised it went under my radar, it's criminal you aren't as famous as I expected. I listen to a lot of music, and this easily makes my top 10.
Subbed. Keep doing what you do, seriously you're awesome!
This song hurts so much cause I love and connect with it so much. Been depressed since 15, 20 now, and even after getting so far, living and loving so hard it seems like you'll never get the same. All of my success based off the negative emotions that encouraged me to end it so many times. Even now I still question about it all, whether I'm living a story without a happy ending or if I just gotta try and ignore it each time it comes back knowing it's weakening my heart and heart strings. Chasing the light at the end of the tunnel my whole life, but running into rabbit holes every step. Thats how I'd describe my life, and sometimes I just wish there was someone to reach a hand out or to know if no one will ever reach out at all.
I have been listening to this song for years. I know all the lyrics, but reading them struck a nerve with me that I didn’t think I still had. This is a fantastic song.
I have been a victim of bullying for years with no one to comfort, never. And it's only been getting worst because I'm a brony, even my mom doesn't like me,but I will not give up, I will fight till the end. Thank you scratch21, you now have a new subscriber.
Yumi the Coyote The furry community gets a really unfair amount of hate. I found the fandom in high school, and I was dealing with a lot at that time in my life. I was depressed, and it was a struggle to find the motivation to get out of bed. But the furry community helped me find things I enjoyed, and I met some local furs that I got to know. Junior year was my lowest point. I had a loaded 12-gauge to my chin, ready to pull the trigger, when one of the local furs who went to my school messaged me and asked if I was there... I broke down. I told him what happened and we started talking, and we eventually started dating about a year and a half ago.
So advice to the original poster- the only thing that should matter is that you find something you enjoy. The people who give you crap for being a brony? If they don't bother looking past that, they are sad and shallow individuals. Do what you enjoy and find others who enjoy it, and I hope things get better for you.
same here, be a brony is a hard life to live but I hope you and I can on a good, meaningful, amazing, fulfilling, and successful life.
God bless your soul
Auron Fox Thank you.
*Wipes tear*
Thank you so much.
Thank you all so much, I will enjoy my life. No matter what.
Uploaded three years ago, yet it's still so relatable.. It was up when I was in third grade. Now I'm in sixth and everything is colder, but I have people to help out. Scratch21, I thank you for writing and producing this wonderful work to show how you and others may feel.
Still relevant today. Such a damn shame on how schools do NOTHING about bullying either.
SOME schools do nothing, only few schools reach out to you
@@developer2 very true! Some help others don’t I wish all schools helped tho
I listened to this back in 2015 and thought I knew what these words meant. I thought back then that life couldn't get any harder then it already was. Now all these years later I come back and really understand. Ive learned into in these short years, I learned and am experiencing things that me from back then, me listening to this song, would have NEVER imagined. Which I suppose is a blessing but mostly a curse. I cried listening to this song kinda wishing I could be back to that time. I was innocent and I didn't even know it. Hell in a couple of years from now that me might be saying the same thing. couple of years from how I may learn more about the meaning of this song.
Okay. I'm not depressed or anything, yea I've been bullied, but I feel a connection this song. I wpuld sing this by heart when I was younger, and first found the song. Then, it was just a sad song that I didn't really understand the real meaning of. I just was looking at M.A.P animations and I found this one again, along with some other ones. I cried listening to it, and every time after that. Even now. I love this song. Scratch21 is honestly underrated. And most people don't understand the meaning of this song, and I am assuming you do. I remember when I started to actually understand what "I'm sorry Mom, but I promise that I tried" meant. I was crying knowing that people actually go through this. And some people end their life, and some people suffer through it, but end up living in the end. And I'm so proud of you for making it.
Yup... And once broken, not likely to be fixed.
I believe my experiences from school has left me paranoid about trusting people, unable to socialize like a normal person, and often I prefer to be alone because it's seems safer that way. I'll be 40 next year and no sign of any of that changing any time soon.
To my bullies, I'd like to thank you for making me the lonely bitter miserable person I am today. Good job.
about to be 37, know where you are coming from an can't even work
Somepeople don't understand.... because they have never had so much pain...
+Art Magic I understand..... it just hurt to even listen to this song that brings back some many bad memories...
+Art Magic I understand..... it just hurt to even listen to this song that brings back some many bad memories...
+Arina _ the song brings bad memory's of child hood that last year's that never healed
+Art Magic You and me both.
+The Gaming Brony004 Agreed
We need to put this on the radio and have it in school assemblys to show the bullys our pain and tell the world it needs to stop WHO'S WITH ME?!?!?!
elizabeth wright PREACH IT SISTER!!!
elizabeth wright I'm with you
So true!
elizabeth wright IM IN WOOOOOO
elizabeth wright SAME HERE, I'M IN!!!!!!
I hadn't got bullied for over 4 Years now. I'm pretty much over it. But even worse than getting bullied is standing there, seeing it, hearing it, knowing what is going on but just don't have the strength to help the victim. To go home and hating yourself because you've done nothing to help
Hey, Hunter from the past...remember when you binge listened to this when it came out?
Yeah well...we made through high school... :)
I heard you guys sorta disbanded. It’s heartbreaking to hear that. The Rhyme was my introduction to Scratch21 and from there I found other artists you guys collaborated with and made great friends along the way. Probably wouldn’t be where I am today without this band. Wish you guys the best, hopefully you’ll be back to making songs again someday.
Thank you
sorry pal but they're gone. Ed and Coopers VA's were contacted by Littlekuriboh to inform them of what Shadyvox (Matt's VA) did to attempt to ruin his life. either they cut contact, or shady cut them off, i cant remember exactly, look up Littlekuribos published document for the full details, but the bands completely dead
I find good furry musicians and it turns out they've done horrible things to others. Why, what is this? It's like a curse!😭😭😭
i can swear you are doing your button mash voice which makes it sound that much more like a kid is singing
"Though I walk through the valley of darkness, I shall not fear evil."
i'm not crying
I'M NOT CRYING
YES YOU ARE
+Cerious Kittys YES I AM
YOUR NOT ALONE T-T
WHO'S CUTTING ONIONS
WE’RE ALL CRYING
My sister took her life more then a month ago and I wish she was still here. It feels like she’ll be home one day and my family is waiting for her to walk in
*hugs* it's going to be alright. stay strong U-U
There are literally no words for how much I love this song. I don't know how many times I'm going to replay this...
I'm actually crying. Thank you.
funny how i have watched this when i was 14... bring a whole new meaning to the subreddit IAm14AndThisIsDeep. Still in love with this song after so long.
And when the days over a gone are you still there? Or have you already left? Because words do hurt you. Was it to much? Have you given up? Or do you push forward? Do you climb uphill? Do you tell yourself "I'm not giving up today"? Did you tell yourself "I've made it this far I can go a little while longer"? You ARE a survivor. You know this because your reading this. There's hope. Don't stop climbing. Your almost there. Just hang on. A few more hours, a few more minutes, a few more seconds. Hold on. Helps on the way. I promise
The 154 dislikes are people with no taste in good music bruh the word good is an understatement this is great I love it and I started listening to it yesterday
I have never heard of them before, but my friend introduced me to their music with this song. I relate to this song completely and I honestly was at the end of my rope today. This song helped me feel better, also crying is cathartic.
Hearing this brings the memories that when my older sister told me what happened to her for years. She was corrupted by people and society took her childhood away at such a young age younger than me. Her and my mom don’t talk to each other anymore, but I hope they at least don’t strip each other out of their lives because of the past. I pray and wish they can see one another again, cause i tried my best and I just want the bad things to go away. Thanks Scratch21 for making this song. It’s amazing in its own way.
almost four years and this still hits far too close to home than I would like to admit
I remember the day I found this channel. You and Shadyvox were two my favorite people... Little did I know that you two were the same people.
Depression isn't just being sad. It's a mental illness. We should treat it JUST as seriously as we would other disorders. It takes so many people annually, and it only acts as an echo chamber for the negativity bias that's an integral part of the human condition, and it CRUSHES people. Almost everyone struggles with it. Make sure your friends know they're loved. Let family know they are loved. Positivity and genuine kindness help so much.
This song speaks to me so deeply...... I absolutely love this song, thank you for making this exist... You have made the world a better place
I can relate to this song on so many levels. Depressive episodes are never an easy time to break through, but one thing that I found always has and always will help ease my mind. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
These things happen, but we have control over how we take things. We can give up, or we can force ourselves to keep going and fight for the lives we want and what we know is right.
Thank you, Shane Koyczan. Haven't found something that has impacted me in such a positive way in quite some time. Keep up the great work, and continue the fight. #AlwaysKeepFighting
I'm not crying. I just have something in my eye...
What is it? TEARS
I love this song
The first time I heard this song I liked it, but I couldn't know why or could understand what was sang in the song. And now, 4 years later, I literally cried hearing this song, and now understanding the message.
I've watched this a few times now and have liked it a lot. But for some reason this time listening to it made me tear up, and get super emotional, and I started thinking about my brother who had a hard life before he passed away last year.
Thank you, these feelings are precious and hard to come by for me.
sticks and stones may break your bones but words will always hurt the most
I was bullied like almost everyday in my new school. I was thinking to go back to my older school by the new school has alot of fun features. So I tried to stay strong and try to survive.
Same
same same I feel your pain
+Zane Tone Mare SAME
Coming back to this song after having 3 years of suicidal thoughts and self-harm. you will get better, it might not feel like it right now, but that's because you haven't got your shovel. if you are in mental pain and have suicidal thoughts please contact a therapist. and if you can't afford a therapist of you don't have the means of going to see a therapist there are always places online where you can talk to someone.
-A friend who has been there.
Not only has this song sent me on a railroad trip of emotions and last memories its made me think about shit I go through. So thanks. I needed the lift of spirits to know someone out there in that gory, fucked up world knows and cares 'bout people, like us, feelings.
You weren't kidding with what you said on the RUclips policy change video. This video has resonated with me more than any other song I've listened to.
The lyrics describe every feeling I felt when I was bullied to the point of suicide multiple times in school, and when I learned to stand up for myself to get the other extreme of bullying where I was ignored, laughed at, and had my voice stamped out when I couldn't take it anymore and made them listen to me.
Very well written song. Will be sharing this with others tonight.