Mee tooo stuff like this really do make me anxious I’m really scared but I’d rather be aware then be oblivious 😭😭😭😭. This is really sad and I really hope this women does end up having a successful pregnancy god willing 🙏🏼💕
Laila Lolita when I was pregnant with my first baby this is all I watched. I prepared myself for everything because anything could happen. Nothing about my delivery was routine. We started as a regular vaginal delivery but then escalated to an emergency c section.
From one stillborn mother to another, I felt every single word you said. I also tried my hardest to squeeze my son back up into me, I did NOT want to push, but my body took over. Stillborns are incredibly hard regardless, but I found it very difficult to go back home and continue being a mum to my daughter who was 4 at that point. I managed, I’m still here, but everything aches remembering. I had no warning, my pregnancy was fine, and I refused all pain medications because I wanted to feel everything, I felt like I deserved every bit of pain. I felt I’d done something wrong. Even now despite tests showing the reason why she passed away, and showing clearly it wasn’t my fault, I still feel guilt so so much. I dream about him, I have nightmares about that day. I did all of the above alone because I couldn’t get hold of my husband at the time. Thank you so much for making this video, I always feel so alone and although I so wish you hadn’t had to go through this and your darling daughter was with you in body, I am so very grateful for you reaching out to us. Our children are with us, whether in body or in spirit. My heart and soul goes out to you and I am sending you every bit of strength I can muster. All my love to you and your family from me and my family sxxx
I don't think words will ever be enough to explain the emotions you feel. You are so very strong and brave to do this, stronger than I think I ever could be. Your story is so touching and you have so many people here supporting you. My heart breaks for you and your family. Sending you lots of love to you all xx
I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my first child, a boy. He was born buttocks first, and his head got stuck. He died but they revived him. He had severe brain damage. He couldn't suck or swallow, he would inhale twice and exhale once. He couldn't close his eyes. He lived 5 weeks fighting to live. Then he died. This was almost 53 years ago. I still cry about it. Then mothers couldn't go in the nursery. I never got to touch him, while he was alive. I know this hurts you to your core. God bless you. It does get easier, but never goes away entirely. I'm so sorry.
I'm so sorry for your loss Virginia. I cannot imagine the experience you had as it is so obviously very different to mine but I can say that my heart breaks for you from one broken mother to another. Sending you all the love in the world x
I am sincerely heartbroken for the loss of UR beautiful darling daughter Prim. UR pain must be so deep N intense that U FEEL LIKE u cant breath. It is a pain that I never have gone through so I can only imagine such heartbreak.. I NO how empty I felt when I CLDNT take my baby home with me...I felt so sad N empty leaving the hosp...THAT doesn't even come close to what U have endured. It is every pregnant woman's nightmare. This nitemare has become UR reality N I can't even bare to think about going through such a loss. You are a beautiful person . I can tell by UR empathy for others. And that makes me question why? Why does such a beautiful person have to experience such deep pain N loss. It makes no sense. But this pain you are enduring has a purpose. U do not understand now what that purpose is but some where down the line you will realize how different U ARE as a person. U will feel that the loss of UR angel Prim made u a stronger N wiser person. Only through the kind of pain U endure cld you be the person U CAME to be. I WLD only imagine Ur love for ur 3+ YR old child has intensified. Ànd UR APPRECIATION of having her also intensified. I pray that the time comes when the pain U FEEL today becomes bearable N u are able to smile again. May God Bless You ..UR husband N UR 2 little girls. Take care. Much love
Why in the world would someone dislike this honest, sad, true, painful video? This is such an experience that no one ever want to go through! Be kind and give some love to this family that had no other option. We wish you all the best and a lot of strength. ❤️ take care
Oh darling Lorraine I sat here with tears sliding down my cheeks watching this. I can't even begin to possibly imagine the absolute pain you felt before and during Primrose's birth, and that you still must feel now. You are so brave sharing this with a load of friends (and strangers) on the internet, but I have no doubt that it will help so many people. You are a very brave lady and I think about you so often. I am sending you all my love as always. x
Thankyou Katie, truly. Having such wonderful people behind me like yourself is what honestly keeps me going. If i wasn't held up I would so easily crumble x
Hi Lorraine...I can't begin to thank you enough for your courage in sharing this story. I lost my baby at 37 weeks due to a knot in the cord around my baby's ankles just 3 weeks ago. As you described each and every feeling you experienced giving birth and seeing your sweet Prim, I could feel it. You perfectly captured every feeling a mother goes through. I am so sorry for your loss... I wish I couldn't relate to what you felt but I do....
@Star God forgive u for such vile thoughts & heartless words. Shame on u. May u never hv to experience such a devestating tragedy. I pray u get a psychological evaluation to determine how/why u can be so hurtful to a fellow human being; a mother literally heartbroken over the devestating loss of her precious baby girl. God help u Star.
Don't think I've ever wanted to take someone else's pain away from them so badly. Bless this woman. So strong so brave. What a brilliant mum. God needed another angel. So thoughtful to share this and help others in a similar situation.
As a labour and delivery nurse at a high risk hospital where a lot of women experience stillbirth and feel alone, misunderstood, and ashamed, thank you for sharing your story.
I am currently 16weeks pregnant and I always have this fear of losing my first baby. I can't imagine what you're going through. You're such a strong woman for sharing this very sad experience. Heaven just gained another angel. God bless you, Lorraine.
Lorraine ❤️ you told Prim’s story perfectly. I had tears rolling down my face watching this. I remember when we heard and I felt utterly bereft, I cried and sobbed for you and your family and my heart felt like it was broken too. I have no idea how unimaginably painful the past few months have been for you and your family. You have such a strong and special soul, I honestly don’t know how you do it. You’re going to help so many people by being so open about this. You are truly incredible. I’ll never ever forget Primrose, she may have been tiny but her impact on this world is going to be huge. Sending so much love to you ❤️ xx
Thankyou Rhian, I've told you may times what a wonderful lady I think you are and you just keep coming with your kindness. It's so appreciated. I'm very grateful to have made friends like you x
There is no day I don’t think about you Lorraine. We had a chat in London in March 2017 and I was pouring my heart out to you having lost my 6th. I felt comfort when you spoke to me and I to this day remember Crying uncontrollably when I heard Prim was born sleeping. I cried that night and for days after. I don’t know why kind hearts have to endure this pain but I know you are going to make sure Prim is always remembered and you will always have my support. We love you so very much. X
I remember that chat to Bella. You were just as amazing as I knew you would be. I remember the comfort from your hug that you gave me and I still feel it now. You're a dear friend and I value you alot x
Star first of all - not playing at anything. Secondly what the hell is wrong with you, that you would take the time to leave a moronic comment, not once, but repeatedly. You are either a troll, a child, or a simpleton - whichever one it is, you’re pathetic efforts are not welcome here.
I’m watching this and I’m just heartbroken for you. I am so glad you told her story. I will never forget her and how special she is. And I’m so in awe of your bravery in filming this. And I’m still so sorry. xx
Oh Lorraine. The more I watch. The more I cry. I’m so sorry. I hate myself a bit, watching this. Because I wish I could change things. I feel like I don’t deserve to still be pregnant when you’re in so much pain. I’m so sorry. xx
Charlotte Louise Taylor oh sweetheart never think that. You deserve little man so so much. I know I deserved Primrose to be here with me now, I know that. She was a fighter and let me tell you she had a mighty fight in my tummy but she did so well to get as far as she did sweetheart. There was nothing wrong with my little flower in anyway shape or form. She was perfection. It seems everything else is what was against her. My girl was perfect and so is your little boy Char 💖 I can’t wait to meet him! Never ever think otherwise x x x x
Lorraine Mulrooney I just feel so angry that someone as wonderful as you is going through all this pain. But then I also know that angels like Primrose have to come from somewhere special. And she couldn’t have a better mother. Just know that I always think of you and I send you so much love. I really do. xxx
Star You are truly a scumbag of the worst kind. If you don’t have enough humanity to understand that this is the most devastating thing that can happen to someone, do everyone a favour and keep your unkind, unwanted comments to yourself. Failing that - go and find a busy road and play with the traffic.
Oh my darling no one should ever have to go through this. My baby girl was stillborn 10 weeks and 5 days ago from a placental abruption at 37 weeks. I feel every word you say deeply. I pray that all our angel babies are happy and watching over us. May god grant all of us peace to live again without our babies.
im so sorry about your loss. may I ask how did you find out u ha placental abruption? did it happend at 37 weeks or prior to it .. I'm about to b 37 weeks nd was recently bleeding.. nd no ultrasound was made I'm a lil scared
@@nahomymedina2209 I hope all worked out for you. I just had my son a week ago via c section because of a placenta abruption, he was 37+5weeks gestation. I had been bleeding and left for hospital within 15 minutes. He was born healthy but they did tell me it could have been very different. I thank God for my little man.
chocolate witch I just had the same thing happen to me 2 months ago at 39 weeks and I had to have an emergency c section, I was almost gone too. I never heard of placental abruption until it happened to me but now I see quite a few women saying it has happened to them too. It makes me scared to wanna try again but also makes me want another baby very soon. It’s heartbreaking.
My heart breaks for you and your family. Thank you so much for sharing your story and special moments with Prim - you are so so strong. I can't imagine going through what you have and coming out the other side with such grace and determination to bring comfort to others. You truly are such an incredible woman and mother ❤️
I’m at the part where you’re talking about having your mother call your baby’s father and not tell him, and it’s so fascinating to me how human nature works. Even when you’re in the middle of what has to be the hardest thing you’ve ever dealt with, you felt guilty for not being able to tell him right away. Even though you were right in waiting, it’s still such a sign of what an amazing and compassionate person you are. For as brief as her life was, your daughter had a wonderful mother. Please don’t forget that. Your bond will live on forever.
You have told Prim's birth story so eloquently despite your heartbreak. I know this video will be sure help others and I really hope, in some small way, it helped you too. Sending you so much love. xx
Thank you for having the courage to speak about the heartbreaking loss of your baby Primrose. This powerful video will help other mothers who are feeling alone and grieving for their baby. Best wishes to you.
I want to reach through the screen and hug you so tight. It hurts my heart to see you go through this. I wish so much that there was something someone could do to change what happened. You are incredibly brave to share your precious memories of Primrose - you will help so many other people. I just want to send you so much love. I'm so so sorry you have had to go through this. xxx
Babe... I am completely devastated. I share your pain. My husband and I lost our second pregnancy and it is the worst feeling in the world. I would never want ANYONE to experience this. I admire you. You are stronger than you realize! Sending love and light to you and your family.
I don't know why I'm watching this . My birth in December was traumatic and bub got stuck but they managed to get us both safe and through it, I'm for ever grateful. I'm so sorry for your loss, I hope you can find peace and that you are not haunted by this. I spoke to a councillor to process what happened to us and I am much better
I can’t imagine the pain that you have to feel every single day and still be a mother to your eldest daughter. Wow. You are an inspiration and the bravest person iv came across. You will always have 2 daughters and I think that should always be acknowledged. So sorry for your loss xx
Wow, thank you for sharing. I just delivered my son at 33 weeks and I can 1000% relate to everything you said. I hope you have found some peace because I hope that one day I can as well.
Oh lorraine you are so unbelievably brave sharing your stoey with us all, ive sat and had a good cry with you, you are incredible and i truely am so sorry and you've never been far from my thoughts. Sending huge amounts of love to you and your family xxxx
I am so sorry. We have. A very strange coincidence. I Hadd my daughter at 34 weeks by emergency c section and she was also born 3rd December 2017. I am holding my daughter now and in tears at your loss. I am thinking of you often now ❤️
I'm not physically able to have kids, so I'll never know what that's like. But what I CAN say, is that the amount of strength it probably took to make this video is unimaginable. I can't imagine the pain you've gone through. But you're doing an amazing thing by sharing your journey because it'll help so many others. And that's one way Prim's memory will live on ♡
It's better to not be able to have children at all than lose a child. Losing a child is the worst pain imaginable. Be glad you'll never experience this sheena
I am so thankful and grateful of how very brave you are in telling your story of the loss of your precious baby girl! You are so beautiful and caring in so many ways! I am sure this will help many others that might or have gone through the excruciating loss of their precious child too! May God bless you and your loved ones now and Forevermore! 🥰
I lost my baby through stillbirth and feel your pain. Losing a baby is one of the toughest experiences to go through but having hope is so important. We now have a handsome and healthy little boy. Sending some good vibes and prayers your way. Thank you for sharing.
I watched this with tears streaming down my face. I cannot even imagine how you are feeling and you and your family are in my thoughts. You have been so brave to share with us Prim's stillbirth story. Sending you lots of love xx
Wow Lorraine this is the most heartbreaking video I've ever watched. Your heart ache is absolutely horrendous to witness. No words seem worthy. Your an amazing woman and mother to be facing every day, day after day. Primrose and Penny are your lights and you will always be theirs. I hope you find some comfort in the smallest things as time passes. I send you lots of love and hugs xxxxxxxxxx
I’ve never seen any of your videos until now. You poor darling. I have 5 beautiful children I couldn’t imagine this pain. I had a miscarriage and I felt that was heart wrenching having the baby removed but it was only a 10.5 wk pregnancy not 34 wk baby . Her name is beautiful . You are so so brave I have subscribed to you and send you love. All of you. Primrose sounds beautiful.
Who I'm their right mind would thumbs down this video!? Oh Lorraine I have cried and cried watching this. Bless your heart you are so incredibly brave. And the fact that through all of your pain your so concerned about other people going through the same thing shows just what a beautiful person you are inside as well as out to consider other people's feelings when going through such alot of heart break yourself. I just want to send you a huge hug xxx
Mrs Smith x Ahh don’t worry about the dislike lovely. I have no time for anyone trying to put me down. This video is so much more meaningful to me than any person trying to be silly x I appreciate your beautiful words so so very much Thankyou 💖💖💖💖💖💖
I think it is good to share your grief. It is so huge and overwhelming that it helps to release it, and to gain some understanding. The more you can express your pain, the more you can learn to cope with what happened. Primrose is such a beautiful name for a beautiful baby girl.Can you take any comfort in remembering the time she was inside, feeling loved and warm, hearing your voice, and being nurtured by her Mother? She knew she was loved. My heart breaks for you, I wish you comfort and love and support as you make your way forward.❤️
My heart is breaking for you, you are so brave to document this, I am a registrar and we have the horrendous task of registering still births, now I am a Mum it hurts my heart even more to see this happen to families. Thank you for finding the strength to share your story and reach out to those families going through the same pain, I myself have only experienced a missed miscarriage so I can’t begin to imagine what you are going through but my heart goes out to you and your family. Xxx
I experienced something similar. I also gave birth to my daughter without life. I was 38 weeks pregnant. I relate to every single word you describe. Im very sorry for what happened. This pain is horrendous. This happened to me 2.5 months ago. God bless you, we are strong.
I'm sorry for your loss. I'm about to have my rainbow baby after a really rough miscarriage and I can not imagine how hard this was for you. Especially with you being so far along. I'll keep your family in my thoughts. ❤
I’m so sorry. It’s hard to know what to say but sorry. I’m 5 weeks pregnant and the possibility of this happening to me terrifies me to my core but this sort of video is needed for awareness and to know that god forbid this does happen to me or anyone else watching that I’m not alone. So thank you and you’re not alone either. I hope you are feeling as ok as you can be right now. Xx
My heart breaks for you and your baby, I just wanted to say thankyou for being strong enough to make this video. I’m in the hospital recovering form stillbirth at 32 weeks. Sharing your pain helped me xo sending prayers
My heart breaks for you! I’m in tears listening to your story. I can’t even begin to imagine your pain. I pray you’re able to grieve your beautiful daughter and find peace.
Lorraine you are a beautiful mother. Your love for sweet Prim is palpable. She is your guardian angel now. I love your love for your babies. You are a strong person for sharing this. It will touch the lives of so many. ❤️
Oh Lorraine, I wanted to hug you all the way through this. It just rings so many bells for me, from that last scan, to the pain knowing other families will have to go through the same. My heart is broken for you. You are incredible for sharing your story, I was so desperate to find others who had been through the same as me when our baby boy was stillborn, so I know that this video will be invaluable. You are so brave for being so honest, thank you for sharing. Love to you and your family xxxx
I don't even know what to say. Thank you for sharing this story. Ive never been pregnant and so Ive never lost a baby, and this really helped me understand how utterly painful and empty it can be. I know this video will help so many people just to feel like they're not alone. It pains me that you have gone through this as you are one of the most genuine and loving people Ive ever seen. I hope you and your family are doing well
I stumbled across this video today and I am in tears for you. What a brave, beautiful thing for you to offer your story to others. Your girls have an amazing and strong mother, and I am sure many people Watching this video will find comfort in knowing that someone understands and that they aren't alone. I hope you and your family feel surrounded by love and support as well.
The tears in crying is insane. My heart body and soul goes out to you and your family.. only a strong women is sent this heartache and your amazing.... Primrose is loving knowing your her mummy and will always be with you xxx new subscriber here!! Xxx
Oh sweet momma. I have never watched a video of yours until today. I wish it was under better Circumstance's but I am incredibly honored to know you and will never forget the amazing strength I saw infront of me when you spoke about the wonder of your beautiful baby. You said it perfectly when you said it was the most amazing and terrifying moment. That's what being a mother is all about. The love and fear that goes along with giving your heart and soul, all your dreams and fears wrapped up in these unbelievable sweet and perfect beings is the exact definition of being a mom. And you were chosen by your sweet prim. She chose the most amazing mother for herself. please know you did nothing wrong and loved that sweet girl in every way possible. I'm sorry for such a long comment. My heart was feeling all of these things and I felt I should say them in case by chance they might touch your heart in a way that you have touched mine. Thank you for sharing your life with us and you and your sweet girl are always together. She is with you always. She's a part of you and you are a part of her. She knew what true love was because she is loved by you.
What a amazing and strong Mummy! I have never seen any of your videos before this but wow!! I am so incredibly emotional with you. I have suffered a missed miscarriage very early on but cannot even begin to imagine how it must feel to be so far gone and experience such loss. I am 32 weeks pregnant watching this and feel such sadness for you and your family. Some of us do not realise how blessed and lucky we are. Sending lots of love your way. xx
I know exactly how you feel watching this was like seeing myself in a mirror. The day I lost our baby girl plays over and over in my head. It's those words sorry there's no heartbeat they are the worst words ever, it is like being in a nightmare and your praying for someone to wake you up . Sending you and your family so much love and hoping this video helps people realise it's ok to talk about our stillborn babies and not cringe when they hear there names it's the one and only thing that gets us mums through this nightmare.😢💕
Im in bits! Im a mother and your pain is unimaginable to me, its just to hard to even think about. Stay strong my dearest, i believe that we are reunited with our loved ones on the other side, so its painful now but remember she is waiting for you in a happier place and one day she will be by your side once again.
I’m so sorry for your loss. I had my little boy on the 3rd of December, 2017 as well. You never know when the best day of your life is the worst day in someone else’s life. Keep your head up ❤️
I never normally write comments on RUclips but I had too on this one. I just wanted to say you are such a strong woman and I am sending a million hugs over to you. This was such a tough video to watch as I’m sure it was to film. Thank you for sharing your story it has really touched my heart xxx
I have literally cried my eyes out watching this . I can not in a million years begin to imagine how you’re feeling . It’s absolutely heartbreaking and you are an amazing strong mummy . You make both your girls so proud xx
My daughter, Eleanor, was stillborn on 5/5 via emergency c-section at 34 weeks after decreased movement and very low heartbeat. I have had a difficult time grieving. I feel I avoid it. Hearing your story helps me face my emotions and after some of your most recent videos I also can feel hope again. I don't feel worthless or alone anymore. Thank you for sharing your story.
Prim's story has moved me to tears. I so wish her story had a different ending for you but sharing it will help so many women who have to endure the same thing happening. Love to you all. Xx
My heart broke for you and your family whilst watching this. I am currently holding my four month old with tears running down my face, I will hug him a lot longer today. You are a strong woman and mother.
Lorraine you are such an amazing woman. The way you are able to articulate your story is so brave, raw and honest and you will be a comfort to so many. Sending you and your family love and prayers xx
This broke my heart in half. I can’t even begin to imagine what you went through and continue to go through. Thank you for sharing your story. Sweet angel baby. ❤️❤️❤️
I wish I could gather you up and magic things better and I can’t. Primrose is so so loved by so many. My heart hurts for you, Reece and Penny. And your mum.
I just want to jump into the screen and give you a massive hug!!! I am so sorry for the loss of beautiful baby Primrose. I truly believe that babies are only taken away because they are needed back in heaven. I can’t tell you how much love, respect and admiration I have for you. You and your family will forever be in my thoughts. You have had to endure the worst thing that can ever happen to a woman, and I promise you, you can get through this. So much love is being sent your way right now xxxxxx
Your beautiful daughter is still with you. She will walk with you always My sister lost her son Canaan last November, born pre-term..and I can only speak for the pain I felt as an Aunt, losing her nephew. I'm sure you don't look at comments on here regularly (I'd understand if you couldn't) but, you are so wonderfully brave for sharing your Primrose, and your story of her with us. I just want to hug you! Thank you
I have just come across your chanel and am so glad you posted this. I can’t even the imagine the emotions you were and are still going through and really is an insight into the nitty gritty of what happens start to finish. I work as a nurse so have seen a LOT of horrific things but never anything so emotive from someone wanting to support others through it too. You are a true inspiration. All my love for you and am so so sorry for your loss xxx
We lost our baby during my labour when I was 41+1 weeks pregnant. It wasn't until she came out of me and 27 minutes of resuscitation did we find out our beautiful baby girl had passed away during my labour. Her heartbeat was prefect right up until 92 minutes before she was born. But nothing was done until she came out of me, no one knew she had passed away until she was born. They had no confirmed heartbeat for 92 minutes before she was born and nothing was done. No doctor was called for, no emergency button was pressed, no emergency c-section, nothing... She was born on 24th July 2020, our beautiful girl. I am so very sorry for your loss, I know how heart-breaking and empty it feels. I wish you all the love in the world
I lost my baby at 30 weeks in May. I'm still struggling with the grief. I wanted to tell you thank you because your video made me feel like someone finally understood what happened and how terribly heart wrenching the experience was. I am wishing you and your family well and sending you healing thoughts.
I am so so sorry for your loss. Thank You for sharing your story, to lose a perfect little child is unfathomable. I'm sending you much love and prayers even years later for healing and know that you are loved.
I actually cried with you. 💕 It is the heartache that no Mother should feel, EVER. There are still times I go numb just to survive the day and my loss was 40+ years ago. So, It's ok. Grief is love we couldn't give away. And only those of us that have lived through the loss of a child can truly get it and understand. 💜 I know your heartache is real. I know what nightmares wake you. All I can offer is a few words ....Grieve in your own way. 💕
I’m a student midwife and I could feel your pain, you’re such a strong brave beautiful woman and I can’t even explain how much love and respect I have for you. My heart aches for you and I don’t know you but I am so proud of you for doing what you did. Thank you for sharing yours and Primroses story x
I am a retired nurse that worked in labor and delivery and also in the nursery with the precious Newborns. Thank you so much for so bravely telling us the loss of your so precious baby girl! You are so beautiful and so awesome in doing this to help others that might also have had or might have a loss of their precious baby, I am so very sorry for your loss and you and your loving family are in my prayers! 🥰
I know you may not think so but you are an incredibly strong woman, the fact that you were so concerned about all of your family instead of you. I can’t imagine the pain you are going through, I was never able to conceive my own children. Please know that my entire heart breaks for your family. I’ve been a nurse for 20+ years and have seen babies born, awake and sleeping, each Mommie and Daddy go through their own moment, I saw the shock and incredible sorrow. It is at that time that I feel so helpless as a nurse because there’s nothing I can do to comfort the family except to be there. My heart breaks for all of you and I appreciate you sharing the birth of your precious Primrose.
You are one incredible, incredible mum to both your beautiful girls and you are one amazing inspiration to all of us. You will help so many others by sharing this my love. Sending all my love as always xxxx
I’m so sorry for your loss. 20weeks pregnant with my first and feeling baby kick... already so in love. I cannot imagine a loss, yet alone so far in your pregnancy. Sending lots of love and peace to you and your family as you heal from this.
I am truly sorry for your loss. Sweet baby Primrose. My friend is currently in labor with her sweet baby Mia who has already left this physical world. There are no words for you mommas and daddies who endure this pain. My heart breaks for you. Thank you for sharing your story ❤️
Thank you for sharing little Primrose's story. Believe me, you'll help more people than you'll ever know just by saying her name. You're amazing. Sending love xxx
Lorraine, this video made me so emotional and made me cry and I just want to tell you, that you are incredibly strong, you are a strong woman and talking about that shows your strength. You can do this. I really truly believe that you can do this. I can't imagine the pain you must be in, but it will get better! I believe in you and I pray for you and your family. Lots and lots of love to you!
Oh sweetheart. Such pain and so much bravery to share this, to help others. My heart breaks everytime for you and your darling daughter. Sending all my love to you always xx
I had to comment, even though I rarely comment on videos. Emily Norris led me to your channel and I’ve spent the last couple of hours listening to your truly gut wrenching story Lorraine, crying countless tears and reading your Instagram posts before crying more tears. I cannot begin to comprehend the emotional and physical feelings you have experienced throughout your journey with Primrose. I cannot find any words of comfort as I’m certain none would ever be enough, but I will say that as a new subscriber I look forward to seeing you rebuild yourself and your family in future videos, while of course always keeping the memory of your darling Primrose alive and with you in your heart. My thoughts and wishes for a positive and happy future are with you 💜
I just lost my son on 11-14-2019. I was 26 weeks and 2 days and I still had to deliver him, so he came on 11-15-2019. I’m not coping well at all. I still wonder if I could’ve prevented it. I went in on 11-12-2019 for my 26 week appt (which was super rushed), and the 13th was the last day that I felt movement. I was sent from urgent care to the hospital because urgent care said they didn’t have the equipment to check me. Then at the hospital, 2 nurses checked for the heartbeat and then the doctor looked at the ultrasound. Seeing my baby on the screen face down made my heart sink. They finally said no heartbeat and no blood flow. I didn’t want to feel the pain from birthing him because I was so hurt, but I had no choice. I had a fever from being induced, dizzy with a headache from having morphine, and had antibiotics for the fever. I ended up throwing up and everything just got worse from there. He came out breech, no epidural, and all I could say to my baby was I’m so sorry. I still look at his picture and tell him I’m sorry. I miss my son, and just want him back. I’m sorry for you loss. I wish you the best moving forward.
I am so sorry for your loss. I know how you are feeling. I lost my baby 2019-12-16 at 20 weeks. This was my first pregnancy. Oh the pain, the heartbreak. No heartbeat was found either. I still have the first sets of scans of my baby to remember being pregnant. I know it is all in God's hand and He will see me through this difficult time. Every day is not the same. Sometimes I feel ok and next I am sad. It's all part of the healing process. Time is a healer. God has kept me thus far and He will see me through it. I believe that with all my heart. No one should ever have to go through this but we will all make it through this tough time in Jesus's name. Keeping you in prayer.
Lisa J thank you so much, keeping you in prayer as well. I’m so sorry for your loss, and sorry that you have to experience this. My heart is broken. Just reading what you wrote is a reminder to have faith. It sucks because I finally got to a point where I was doing so well, but I fell back down. Some days are better than others, but we will get there. You are so strong, and I pray for your continued strength. Thank you for this
As a med.professional-you recieved antibiotics not exactly for the fever. You recieved it for an infection. The fever was a symptom of the infection. An infection is likely the cause of your stillbirth. I am truly sorry. ☹
I’m so sorry for your loss, I have a 5 year old who would be a year younger than your daughter would be now and I just could NOT imagine. I can truly feel your pain radiating through the screen. I’m now 34 weeks with my second, and I don’t know why I allowed myself to watch this but wanted to look out for any signs. The fear is truly overwhelming😪 weirdly enough, my now 5 year old also did her first poo inside and when my water broke the same brown mucus was there. But luckily I was already at the hospital by this point as I had started contractions earlier that day. it scares me to think what would have happened if I wasn’t at the hospital, knowing the same outcome could have happened if my contractions came after instead of before. the thought of her not being here now is beyond unimaginable. I’m so sorry this happened to you and primrose. Thankyou for being brave enough to share and raise awareness. ❤️
I’ve just come across you through my recommended and this was the video it suggested for me. I honestly just cried my heart out as I watched! I’m not pregnant or ever been through what you described but I have a two year old and I just can’t imagine the pain you must feel! this video has made me so grateful for every moment I have with her. so I just want you to know that Not only are you helping pregnant/post pregnant women but also current mothers become even more appreciative and grateful for their children! You are so so brave for sharing your story and I will pray for you and your recovery. Xxx
Really struggled to watch your video was so unbearably sad. Loosing your beautiful baby girl. Your a very strong woman to be able to talk about such a horrible painful experience. So sorry for your loss, I wish you and your other baby and partner all the best for the future. I am blessed to have two wonderful children. I can honestly say I do not know how I would have managed to deal with what you went through. We love our babies from the moment we hear their tiny heart beats and feel their little feet, I can tell you are a wonderful mummy. I have no words that can possibly make you feel better but this video will have helped thousands of woman to know they are not alone. Take care xx
You are strong and brave for not only enduring but sharing your story. I can’t imagine your pain and sorrow. Sending you more strength and love from San Diego, California. I’m sure sharing your story will help others, and for that you’re a very generous and caring person. The world could use more people like you. ❤️
Lorraine... I don't even really know what to say. Im so so SO sorry that you went through this. Your pain is so obvious and raw and real in this video, and I have no doubt that this will be a great source of support for families who walk this path behind you. You are so brave and so strong, and this is a beautiful way of sharing Prim's story. x
You speak so beautifully. What a wonderful Mummy you are to little Primrose and Penny. Thank you so much for being brave enough to share yours, and your families story.
My heart breaks for you! I had a miscarriage early with my 1st and I remember the pain emotionally and physically, I CANNOT imagine getting so close to term and losing a little one. 😭 My grandmother lost her 5th baby like this. She didn't get closure because I think my grandfather wanted to protect her by not letting her see my Aunt Rebecca, but she told me recently that she wished she had been able to hold her and see her, to say goodbye. I'm so sorry for your loss!
You have so much strength to talk us through this and so eloquently. Primrose - what a beautiful, sweet name. Thank you for sharing Primrose with us. She sounds beautiful and at peace in her mummy’s arms xxx
I don't know what to say, such a heart breaking situation don't know how you have dealt with this, every parents worst nightmare. & Primrose what a beautiful name. Sleeping angel rest in peace x
You're an inspiration to so so many people who have lost their own baby. Your words give other people strength. Primrose is a beautiful name.❤ She's got a super mom. Sending you so much love. 🌈
Such a heartbreaking thing to go through. My heart is with you. I wish I could send you a million hugs of comfort. Primrose is a beautiful name, sounds like the perfect name for such a beautiful baby.
Oh Lorraine, I am lost for words and in tears. My heart breaks for you but I am in so much awe of your bravery in sharing your story. You and your family remain in our prayers. Sending love xxx
I am pregnant and don’t know why am watching this. I am so sorry for your loss 😭🥺🥺
Mee tooo stuff like this really do make me anxious I’m really scared but I’d rather be aware then be oblivious 😭😭😭😭. This is really sad and I really hope this women does end up having a successful pregnancy god willing 🙏🏼💕
Me too 😕😣
Laila Lolita when I was pregnant with my first baby this is all I watched. I prepared myself for everything because anything could happen. Nothing about my delivery was routine. We started as a regular vaginal delivery but then escalated to an emergency c section.
Same here.
I’m 30 weeks. And idk why I’m watching this but sometimes it’s better to be prepared then not to be.
From one stillborn mother to another, I felt every single word you said. I also tried my hardest to squeeze my son back up into me, I did NOT want to push, but my body took over. Stillborns are incredibly hard regardless, but I found it very difficult to go back home and continue being a mum to my daughter who was 4 at that point. I managed, I’m still here, but everything aches remembering. I had no warning, my pregnancy was fine, and I refused all pain medications because I wanted to feel everything, I felt like I deserved every bit of pain. I felt I’d done something wrong. Even now despite tests showing the reason why she passed away, and showing clearly it wasn’t my fault, I still feel guilt so so much. I dream about him, I have nightmares about that day. I did all of the above alone because I couldn’t get hold of my husband at the time. Thank you so much for making this video, I always feel so alone and although I so wish you hadn’t had to go through this and your darling daughter was with you in body, I am so very grateful for you reaching out to us. Our children are with us, whether in body or in spirit. My heart and soul goes out to you and I am sending you every bit of strength I can muster. All my love to you and your family from me and my family sxxx
I don't think words will ever be enough to explain the emotions you feel. You are so very strong and brave to do this, stronger than I think I ever could be. Your story is so touching and you have so many people here supporting you. My heart breaks for you and your family. Sending you lots of love to you all xx
I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my first child, a boy. He was born buttocks first, and his head got stuck. He died but they revived him. He had severe brain damage. He couldn't suck or swallow, he would inhale twice and exhale once. He couldn't close his eyes. He lived 5 weeks fighting to live. Then he died. This was almost 53 years ago. I still cry about it. Then mothers couldn't go in the nursery. I never got to touch him, while he was alive. I know this hurts you to your core. God bless you. It does get easier, but never goes away entirely. I'm so sorry.
+Virginia Koerner sending you 💗
You're so right in that respect. Telling the story is one thing but trying to describe words to justify the feelings is near impossible
I'm so sorry for your loss Virginia. I cannot imagine the experience you had as it is so obviously very different to mine but I can say that my heart breaks for you from one broken mother to another. Sending you all the love in the world x
I am sincerely heartbroken for the loss of UR beautiful darling daughter Prim. UR pain must be so deep N intense that U FEEL LIKE u cant breath. It is a pain that I never have gone through so I can only imagine such heartbreak.. I NO how empty I felt when I CLDNT take my baby home with me...I felt so sad N empty leaving the hosp...THAT doesn't even come close to what U have endured. It is every pregnant woman's nightmare. This nitemare has become UR reality N I can't even bare to think about going through such a loss. You are a beautiful person . I can tell by UR empathy for others. And that makes me question why? Why does such a beautiful person have to experience such deep pain N loss. It makes no sense. But this pain you are enduring has a purpose. U do not understand now what that purpose is but some where down the line you will realize how different U ARE as a person. U will feel that the loss of UR angel Prim made u a stronger N wiser person. Only through the kind of pain U endure cld you be the person U CAME to be. I WLD only imagine Ur love for ur 3+ YR old child has intensified. Ànd UR APPRECIATION of having her also intensified. I pray that the time comes when the pain U FEEL today becomes bearable N u are able to smile again. May God Bless You ..UR husband N UR 2 little girls. Take care. Much love
Why in the world would someone dislike this honest, sad, true, painful video?
This is such an experience that no one ever want to go through! Be kind and give some love to this family that had no other option.
We wish you all the best and a lot of strength. ❤️ take care
Oh darling Lorraine I sat here with tears sliding down my cheeks watching this. I can't even begin to possibly imagine the absolute pain you felt before and during Primrose's birth, and that you still must feel now. You are so brave sharing this with a load of friends (and strangers) on the internet, but I have no doubt that it will help so many people.
You are a very brave lady and I think about you so often. I am sending you all my love as always. x
Thankyou Katie, truly. Having such wonderful people behind me like yourself is what honestly keeps me going. If i wasn't held up I would so easily crumble x
Lorraine Mulrooney us women we all need each other and we always will we have got this it’s better to have loved and lost than not loved at all xx
Hi Lorraine...I can't begin to thank you enough for your courage in sharing this story. I lost my baby at 37 weeks due to a knot in the cord around my baby's ankles just 3 weeks ago. As you described each and every feeling you experienced giving birth and seeing your sweet Prim, I could feel it. You perfectly captured every feeling a mother goes through. I am so sorry for your loss... I wish I couldn't relate to what you felt but I do....
Lorraine - I feel honoured that you’ve shared Prim’s birth story with us. I’m so so sorry for your pain. I wish I could take it away xxx
Thanks so much Charlie. It really does mean the world x
@Star whats wrong with you?
@Star God forgive u for such vile thoughts & heartless words. Shame on u. May u never hv to experience such a devestating tragedy. I pray u get a psychological evaluation to determine how/why u can be so hurtful to a fellow human being; a mother literally heartbroken over the devestating loss of her precious baby girl. God help u Star.
This video saved my baby. Thank you.
Wow, that’s amazing. How did it save your baby? If you don’t mind me asking.
@@xxsumixxtrax8159 she recognised the fluid to be meconium herself and got help quickly, I imagine
@@aizahs.3672 or maybe she noticed less movement than usual
@@fairlyvague82 or more. My baby was having death throes kicking like crazy. Extreme stress. Delivered by emergency c-section. Needed resuscitation.
@stacey821 wow! How did you recognize this from a normal active period?
My heart absolutely breaks for you 😭 I’m 34 almost 35 weeks now watching this makes me so sad prayers for your recovery and healing 💖💖💖
I'm 34 weeks too and my heart completely broke watching this and hearing this story 😭 thoughts and prayers to her and you with your pregnancy
Don't think I've ever wanted to take someone else's pain away from them so badly. Bless this woman. So strong so brave. What a brilliant mum. God needed another angel. So thoughtful to share this and help others in a similar situation.
As a labour and delivery nurse at a high risk hospital where a lot of women experience stillbirth and feel alone, misunderstood, and ashamed, thank you for sharing your story.
I am currently 16weeks pregnant and I always have this fear of losing my first baby. I can't imagine what you're going through. You're such a strong woman for sharing this very sad experience. Heaven just gained another angel. God bless you, Lorraine.
Lorraine ❤️ you told Prim’s story perfectly. I had tears rolling down my face watching this. I remember when we heard and I felt utterly bereft, I cried and sobbed for you and your family and my heart felt like it was broken too.
I have no idea how unimaginably painful the past few months have been for you and your family. You have such a strong and special soul, I honestly don’t know how you do it. You’re going to help so many people by being so open about this. You are truly incredible.
I’ll never ever forget Primrose, she may have been tiny but her impact on this world is going to be huge. Sending so much love to you ❤️ xx
Thankyou Rhian, I've told you may times what a wonderful lady I think you are and you just keep coming with your kindness. It's so appreciated. I'm very grateful to have made friends like you x
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I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm currently 28 weeks pregnant and I can honestly say that's my worst fear. I'm so sorry 💔
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Hope you are either on your last straws of a healthy pregnancy or you have your baby in your arms 💕
Same 28 weeks and very anxious
There is no day I don’t think about you Lorraine. We had a chat in London in March 2017 and I was pouring my heart out to you having lost my 6th. I felt comfort when you spoke to me and I to this day remember Crying uncontrollably when I heard Prim was born sleeping. I cried that night and for days after. I don’t know why kind hearts have to endure this pain but I know you are going to make sure Prim is always remembered and you will always have my support. We love you so very much. X
I remember that chat to Bella. You were just as amazing as I knew you would be. I remember the comfort from your hug that you gave me and I still feel it now. You're a dear friend and I value you alot x
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Lorraine Mulrooney will always be here for you xx
Star first of all - not playing at anything. Secondly what the hell is wrong with you, that you would take the time to leave a moronic comment, not once, but repeatedly. You are either a troll, a child, or a simpleton - whichever one it is, you’re pathetic efforts are not welcome here.
I just lost my son this video helped me cry and know that it's OK to grieve and everything that you felt I did too I'm so thankful for this video. 😭😭
I’m watching this and I’m just heartbroken for you. I am so glad you told her story. I will never forget her and how special she is. And I’m so in awe of your bravery in filming this. And I’m still so sorry. xx
Oh Lorraine. The more I watch. The more I cry. I’m so sorry. I hate myself a bit, watching this. Because I wish I could change things. I feel like I don’t deserve to still be pregnant when you’re in so much pain. I’m so sorry. xx
Charlotte Louise Taylor oh sweetheart never think that. You deserve little man so so much. I know I deserved Primrose to be here with me now, I know that. She was a fighter and let me tell you she had a mighty fight in my tummy but she did so well to get as far as she did sweetheart. There was nothing wrong with my little flower in anyway shape or form. She was perfection. It seems everything else is what was against her. My girl was perfect and so is your little boy Char 💖 I can’t wait to meet him! Never ever think otherwise x x x x
Lorraine Mulrooney I just feel so angry that someone as wonderful as you is going through all this pain. But then I also know that angels like Primrose have to come from somewhere special. And she couldn’t have a better mother. Just know that I always think of you and I send you so much love. I really do. xxx
Star You are truly a scumbag of the worst kind. If you don’t have enough humanity to understand that this is the most devastating thing that can happen to someone, do everyone a favour and keep your unkind, unwanted comments to yourself. Failing that - go and find a busy road and play with the traffic.
Oh my darling no one should ever have to go through this. My baby girl was stillborn 10 weeks and 5 days ago from a placental abruption at 37 weeks. I feel every word you say deeply. I pray that all our angel babies are happy and watching over us. May god grant all of us peace to live again without our babies.
I hope your heart is in a better place and that you have found a small bit of peace
I’m so sorry, love.
im so sorry about your loss. may I ask how did you find out u ha placental abruption? did it happend at 37 weeks or prior to it .. I'm about to b 37 weeks nd was recently bleeding.. nd no ultrasound was made I'm a lil scared
@@nahomymedina2209 I hope all worked out for you. I just had my son a week ago via c section because of a placenta abruption, he was 37+5weeks gestation. I had been bleeding and left for hospital within 15 minutes. He was born healthy but they did tell me it could have been very different. I thank God for my little man.
chocolate witch I just had the same thing happen to me 2 months ago at 39 weeks and I had to have an emergency c section, I was almost gone too. I never heard of placental abruption until it happened to me but now I see quite a few women saying it has happened to them too. It makes me scared to wanna try again but also makes me want another baby very soon. It’s heartbreaking.
My heart breaks for you and your family. Thank you so much for sharing your story and special moments with Prim - you are so so strong. I can't imagine going through what you have and coming out the other side with such grace and determination to bring comfort to others. You truly are such an incredible woman and mother ❤️
Thankyou so very much x
I’m at the part where you’re talking about having your mother call your baby’s father and not tell him, and it’s so fascinating to me how human nature works. Even when you’re in the middle of what has to be the hardest thing you’ve ever dealt with, you felt guilty for not being able to tell him right away. Even though you were right in waiting, it’s still such a sign of what an amazing and compassionate person you are. For as brief as her life was, your daughter had a wonderful mother. Please don’t forget that. Your bond will live on forever.
You have told Prim's birth story so eloquently despite your heartbreak. I know this video will be sure help others and I really hope, in some small way, it helped you too. Sending you so much love. xx
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Thank you for having the courage to speak about the heartbreaking loss of your baby Primrose. This powerful video will help other mothers who are feeling alone and grieving for their baby. Best wishes to you.
I want to reach through the screen and hug you so tight. It hurts my heart to see you go through this. I wish so much that there was something someone could do to change what happened. You are incredibly brave to share your precious memories of Primrose - you will help so many other people. I just want to send you so much love. I'm so so sorry you have had to go through this. xxx
I like to hope it will help . Alex. Fingers crossed hey! Lots of love to you too x
im 24 weeks pregnant and crying my heart out watching this!!this is so painful experience.God bless you Lorraine.🙏
Babe... I am completely devastated. I share your pain. My husband and I lost our second pregnancy and it is the worst feeling in the world. I would never want ANYONE to experience this. I admire you. You are stronger than you realize! Sending love and light to you and your family.
I don't know why I'm watching this . My birth in December was traumatic and bub got stuck but they managed to get us both safe and through it, I'm for ever grateful. I'm so sorry for your loss, I hope you can find peace and that you are not haunted by this. I spoke to a councillor to process what happened to us and I am much better
I can’t imagine the pain that you have to feel every single day and still be a mother to your eldest daughter. Wow. You are an inspiration and the bravest person iv came across. You will always have 2 daughters and I think that should always be acknowledged. So sorry for your loss xx
Wow, thank you for sharing. I just delivered my son at 33 weeks and I can 1000% relate to everything you said. I hope you have found some peace because I hope that one day I can as well.
Oh lorraine you are so unbelievably brave sharing your stoey with us all, ive sat and had a good cry with you, you are incredible and i truely am so sorry and you've never been far from my thoughts. Sending huge amounts of love to you and your family xxxx
Thankyou Jodie
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I am so sorry. We have. A very strange coincidence. I Hadd my daughter at 34 weeks by emergency c section and she was also born 3rd December 2017. I am holding my daughter now and in tears at your loss. I am thinking of you often now ❤️
I'm not physically able to have kids, so I'll never know what that's like. But what I CAN say, is that the amount of strength it probably took to make this video is unimaginable. I can't imagine the pain you've gone through. But you're doing an amazing thing by sharing your journey because it'll help so many others. And that's one way Prim's memory will live on ♡
Thankyou SO much Sheena, you're so supportive of me and I appreciate it greatly x
This is genuine humanity❤
It's better to not be able to have children at all than lose a child. Losing a child is the worst pain imaginable. Be glad you'll never experience this sheena
I am so thankful and grateful of how very brave you are in telling your story of the loss of your precious baby girl! You are so beautiful and caring in so many ways! I am sure this will help many others that might or have gone through the excruciating loss of their precious child too! May God bless you and your loved ones now and Forevermore! 🥰
I lost my baby through stillbirth and feel your pain. Losing a baby is one of the toughest experiences to go through but having hope is so important. We now have a handsome and healthy little boy. Sending some good vibes and prayers your way. Thank you for sharing.
I watched this with tears streaming down my face. I cannot even imagine how you are feeling and you and your family are in my thoughts. You have been so brave to share with us Prim's stillbirth story. Sending you lots of love xx
I'm so thankful for you watching and for your kindness, sending love x
Thank you for being brave enough to share. I just lost my daughter at 30 weeks on November 27th 2022 and the pain is indescribable.
I feel so alone my baby girl passed 12/3/22 at 25 weeks . I don’t wanna be here anymore. I pray that god heal our hearts .
Wow Lorraine this is the most heartbreaking video I've ever watched. Your heart ache is absolutely horrendous to witness. No words seem worthy. Your an amazing woman and mother to be facing every day, day after day. Primrose and Penny are your lights and you will always be theirs. I hope you find some comfort in the smallest things as time passes. I send you lots of love and hugs xxxxxxxxxx
I’ve never seen any of your videos until now. You poor darling. I have 5 beautiful children I couldn’t imagine this pain. I had a miscarriage and I felt that was heart wrenching having the baby removed but it was only a 10.5 wk pregnancy not 34 wk baby . Her name is beautiful . You are so so brave I have subscribed to you and send you love. All of you. Primrose sounds beautiful.
Who I'm their right mind would thumbs down this video!?
Oh Lorraine I have cried and cried watching this. Bless your heart you are so incredibly brave. And the fact that through all of your pain your so concerned about other people going through the same thing shows just what a beautiful person you are inside as well as out to consider other people's feelings when going through such alot of heart break yourself.
I just want to send you a huge hug xxx
Mrs Smith x Ahh don’t worry about the dislike lovely. I have no time for anyone trying to put me down. This video is so much more meaningful to me than any person trying to be silly x I appreciate your beautiful words so so very much Thankyou 💖💖💖💖💖💖
I think it is good to share your grief. It is so huge and overwhelming that it helps to release it, and to gain some understanding. The more you can express your pain, the more you can learn to cope with what happened. Primrose is such a beautiful name for a beautiful baby girl.Can you take any comfort in remembering the time she was inside, feeling loved and warm, hearing your voice, and being nurtured by her Mother? She knew she was loved. My heart breaks for you, I wish you comfort and love and support as you make your way forward.❤️
My heart is breaking for you, you are so brave to document this, I am a registrar and we have the horrendous task of registering still births, now I am a Mum it hurts my heart even more to see this happen to families. Thank you for finding the strength to share your story and reach out to those families going through the same pain, I myself have only experienced a missed miscarriage so I can’t begin to imagine what you are going through but my heart goes out to you and your family. Xxx
I am so sorry, I've suffered 8 losses and each one I lost a huge piece of my heart 💜 sending light and love thank you for sharing your journey with me
I experienced something similar. I also gave birth to my daughter without life. I was 38 weeks pregnant. I relate to every single word you describe. Im very sorry for what happened. This pain is horrendous. This happened to me 2.5 months ago.
God bless you, we are strong.
I'm sorry for your loss. I'm about to have my rainbow baby after a really rough miscarriage and I can not imagine how hard this was for you. Especially with you being so far along. I'll keep your family in my thoughts. ❤
I’m so sorry. It’s hard to know what to say but sorry. I’m 5 weeks pregnant and the possibility of this happening to me terrifies me to my core but this sort of video is needed for awareness and to know that god forbid this does happen to me or anyone else watching that I’m not alone. So thank you and you’re not alone either. I hope you are feeling as ok as you can be right now. Xx
Bethan Norrell I hope the pregnancy is going well!
God bless you sweetheart xxxx
My heart breaks for you and your baby, I just wanted to say thankyou for being strong enough to make this video. I’m in the hospital recovering form stillbirth at 32 weeks. Sharing your pain helped me xo sending prayers
My heart breaks for you! I’m in tears listening to your story. I can’t even begin to imagine your pain. I pray you’re able to grieve your beautiful daughter and find peace.
Lorraine you are a beautiful mother. Your love for sweet Prim is palpable. She is your guardian angel now. I love your love for your babies. You are a strong person for sharing this. It will touch the lives of so many. ❤️
Oh Lorraine, I wanted to hug you all the way through this. It just rings so many bells for me, from that last scan, to the pain knowing other families will have to go through the same. My heart is broken for you. You are incredible for sharing your story, I was so desperate to find others who had been through the same as me when our baby boy was stillborn, so I know that this video will be invaluable. You are so brave for being so honest, thank you for sharing. Love to you and your family xxxx
I don't even know what to say. Thank you for sharing this story. Ive never been pregnant and so Ive never lost a baby, and this really helped me understand how utterly painful and empty it can be. I know this video will help so many people just to feel like they're not alone. It pains me that you have gone through this as you are one of the most genuine and loving people Ive ever seen. I hope you and your family are doing well
I stumbled across this video today and I am in tears for you. What a brave, beautiful thing for you to offer your story to others. Your girls have an amazing and strong mother, and I am sure many people Watching this video will find comfort in knowing that someone understands and that they aren't alone. I hope you and your family feel surrounded by love and support as well.
The tears in crying is insane. My heart body and soul goes out to you and your family.. only a strong women is sent this heartache and your amazing.... Primrose is loving knowing your her mummy and will always be with you xxx new subscriber here!! Xxx
Oh sweet momma. I have never watched a video of yours until today. I wish it was under better Circumstance's but I am incredibly honored to know you and will never forget the amazing strength I saw infront of me when you spoke about the wonder of your beautiful baby. You said it perfectly when you said it was the most amazing and terrifying moment. That's what being a mother is all about. The love and fear that goes along with giving your heart and soul, all your dreams and fears wrapped up in these unbelievable sweet and perfect beings is the exact definition of being a mom. And you were chosen by your sweet prim. She chose the most amazing mother for herself. please know you did nothing wrong and loved that sweet girl in every way possible. I'm sorry for such a long comment. My heart was feeling all of these things and I felt I should say them in case by chance they might touch your heart in a way that you have touched mine. Thank you for sharing your life with us and you and your sweet girl are always together. She is with you always. She's a part of you and you are a part of her. She knew what true love was because she is loved by you.
What a amazing and strong Mummy! I have never seen any of your videos before this but wow!! I am so incredibly emotional with you. I have suffered a missed miscarriage very early on but cannot even begin to imagine how it must feel to be so far gone and experience such loss. I am 32 weeks pregnant watching this and feel such sadness for you and your family. Some of us do not realise how blessed and lucky we are. Sending lots of love your way. xx
I know exactly how you feel watching this was like seeing myself in a mirror. The day I lost our baby girl plays over and over in my head. It's those words sorry there's no heartbeat they are the worst words ever, it is like being in a nightmare and your praying for someone to wake you up .
Sending you and your family so much love and hoping this video helps people realise it's ok to talk about our stillborn babies and not cringe when they hear there names it's the one and only thing that gets us mums through this nightmare.😢💕
A mommy in heaven is looking after your baby don’t worry.❤️shes always with you.
My heart is breaking for you. This video shows how much you love your baby girl. Sending all my love to you, and your family.
Im in bits! Im a mother and your pain is unimaginable to me, its just to hard to even think about. Stay strong my dearest, i believe that we are reunited with our loved ones on the other side, so its painful now but remember she is waiting for you in a happier place and one day she will be by your side once again.
I remember being told those words, and the heartache that consumed my body.
Love to you and your family,
Thank you for sharing your story. Xx
I’m so sorry for your loss. I had my little boy on the 3rd of December, 2017 as well. You never know when the best day of your life is the worst day in someone else’s life. Keep your head up ❤️
I never normally write comments on RUclips but I had too on this one. I just wanted to say you are such a strong woman and I am sending a million hugs over to you. This was such a tough video to watch as I’m sure it was to film. Thank you for sharing your story it has really touched my heart xxx
Oh my heart breaks with yours. I feel this too. I too lost my precious baby. You're a great mother and person. Thank you for sharing.
I have literally cried my eyes out watching this . I can not in a million years begin to imagine how you’re feeling . It’s absolutely heartbreaking and you are an amazing strong mummy . You make both your girls so proud xx
Thanks so much for taking the time to hear my story xxx
My daughter, Eleanor, was stillborn on 5/5 via emergency c-section at 34 weeks after decreased movement and very low heartbeat. I have had a difficult time grieving. I feel I avoid it. Hearing your story helps me face my emotions and after some of your most recent videos I also can feel hope again. I don't feel worthless or alone anymore. Thank you for sharing your story.
Prim's story has moved me to tears. I so wish her story had a different ending for you but sharing it will help so many women who have to endure the same thing happening. Love to you all. Xx
My heart broke for you and your family whilst watching this. I am currently holding my four month old with tears running down my face, I will hug him a lot longer today. You are a strong woman and mother.
Lorraine you are such an amazing woman. The way you are able to articulate your story is so brave, raw and honest and you will be a comfort to so many. Sending you and your family love and prayers xx
This broke my heart in half. I can’t even begin to imagine what you went through and continue to go through. Thank you for sharing your story. Sweet angel baby. ❤️❤️❤️
I wish I could gather you up and magic things better and I can’t. Primrose is so so loved by so many.
My heart hurts for you, Reece and Penny. And your mum.
She will never be present nor absent. Always with you❤️❤️❤️
I can't stop crying. You don't know how strong you are Lorraine honestly. Xxxxx
I just want to jump into the screen and give you a massive hug!!! I am so sorry for the loss of beautiful baby Primrose. I truly believe that babies are only taken away because they are needed back in heaven. I can’t tell you how much love, respect and admiration I have for you. You and your family will forever be in my thoughts. You have had to endure the worst thing that can ever happen to a woman, and I promise you, you can get through this. So much love is being sent your way right now xxxxxx
Your beautiful daughter is still with you. She will walk with you always
My sister lost her son Canaan last November, born pre-term..and I can only speak for the pain I felt as an Aunt, losing her nephew. I'm sure you don't look at comments on here regularly (I'd understand if you couldn't) but, you are so wonderfully brave for sharing your Primrose, and your story of her with us. I just want to hug you! Thank you
I have just come across your chanel and am so glad you posted this. I can’t even the imagine the emotions you were and are still going through and really is an insight into the nitty gritty of what happens start to finish. I work as a nurse so have seen a LOT of horrific things but never anything so emotive from someone wanting to support others through it too. You are a true inspiration. All my love for you and am so so sorry for your loss xxx
We lost our baby during my labour when I was 41+1 weeks pregnant. It wasn't until she came out of me and 27 minutes of resuscitation did we find out our beautiful baby girl had passed away during my labour. Her heartbeat was prefect right up until 92 minutes before she was born. But nothing was done until she came out of me, no one knew she had passed away until she was born. They had no confirmed heartbeat for 92 minutes before she was born and nothing was done. No doctor was called for, no emergency button was pressed, no emergency c-section, nothing... She was born on 24th July 2020, our beautiful girl.
I am so very sorry for your loss, I know how heart-breaking and empty it feels. I wish you all the love in the world
Soooo sorry
I lost my baby at 30 weeks in May. I'm still struggling with the grief. I wanted to tell you thank you because your video made me feel like someone finally understood what happened and how terribly heart wrenching the experience was. I am wishing you and your family well and sending you healing thoughts.
I am so so sorry for your loss. Thank You for sharing your story, to lose a perfect little child is unfathomable. I'm sending you much love and prayers even years later for healing and know that you are loved.
I actually cried with you. 💕 It is the heartache that no Mother should feel, EVER. There are still times I go numb just to survive the day and my loss was 40+ years ago. So, It's ok. Grief is love we couldn't give away. And only those of us that have lived through the loss of a child can truly get it and understand. 💜 I know your heartache is real. I know what nightmares wake you. All I can offer is a few words ....Grieve in your own way. 💕
I’m a student midwife and I could feel your pain, you’re such a strong brave beautiful woman and I can’t even explain how much love and respect I have for you. My heart aches for you and I don’t know you but I am so proud of you for doing what you did. Thank you for sharing yours and Primroses story x
I am a retired nurse that worked in labor and delivery and also in the nursery with the precious Newborns. Thank you so much for so bravely telling us the loss of your so precious baby girl! You are so beautiful and so awesome in doing this to help others that might also have had or might have a loss of their precious baby, I am so very sorry for your loss and you and your loving family are in my prayers! 🥰
I know you may not think so but you are an incredibly strong woman, the fact that you were so concerned about all of your family instead of you. I can’t imagine the pain you are going through, I was never able to conceive my own children. Please know that my entire heart breaks for your family. I’ve been a nurse for 20+ years and have seen babies born, awake and sleeping, each Mommie and Daddy go through their own moment, I saw the shock and incredible sorrow. It is at that time that I feel so helpless as a nurse because there’s nothing I can do to comfort the family except to be there.
My heart breaks for all of you and I appreciate you sharing the birth of your precious Primrose.
You are one incredible, incredible mum to both your beautiful girls and you are one amazing inspiration to all of us. You will help so many others by sharing this my love. Sending all my love as always xxxx
Oh Sarah I so appreciate you! Thanks so much darling :) x
I’m so sorry for your loss. 20weeks pregnant with my first and feeling baby kick... already so in love. I cannot imagine a loss, yet alone so far in your pregnancy. Sending lots of love and peace to you and your family as you heal from this.
You’re so very brave talking about something so heartbreaking and confusing. Treasure every special moment with Penny and those few with Primrose. ♥️
I am truly sorry for your loss. Sweet baby Primrose. My friend is currently in labor with her sweet baby Mia who has already left this physical world. There are no words for you mommas and daddies who endure this pain. My heart breaks for you. Thank you for sharing your story ❤️
Thank you for sharing little Primrose's story. Believe me, you'll help more people than you'll ever know just by saying her name. You're amazing.
Sending love xxx
Lorraine, this video made me so emotional and made me cry and I just want to tell you, that you are incredibly strong, you are a strong woman and talking about that shows your strength. You can do this. I really truly believe that you can do this. I can't imagine the pain you must be in, but it will get better! I believe in you and I pray for you and your family. Lots and lots of love to you!
Oh sweetheart. Such pain and so much bravery to share this, to help others. My heart breaks everytime for you and your darling daughter. Sending all my love to you always xx
I had to comment, even though I rarely comment on videos. Emily Norris led me to your channel and I’ve spent the last couple of hours listening to your truly gut wrenching story Lorraine, crying countless tears and reading your Instagram posts before crying more tears. I cannot begin to comprehend the emotional and physical feelings you have experienced throughout your journey with Primrose. I cannot find any words of comfort as I’m certain none would ever be enough, but I will say that as a new subscriber I look forward to seeing you rebuild yourself and your family in future videos, while of course always keeping the memory of your darling Primrose alive and with you in your heart. My thoughts and wishes for a positive and happy future are with you 💜
I just lost my son on 11-14-2019. I was 26 weeks and 2 days and I still had to deliver him, so he came on 11-15-2019. I’m not coping well at all. I still wonder if I could’ve prevented it. I went in on 11-12-2019 for my 26 week appt (which was super rushed), and the 13th was the last day that I felt movement. I was sent from urgent care to the hospital because urgent care said they didn’t have the equipment to check me. Then at the hospital, 2 nurses checked for the heartbeat and then the doctor looked at the ultrasound. Seeing my baby on the screen face down made my heart sink. They finally said no heartbeat and no blood flow. I didn’t want to feel the pain from birthing him because I was so hurt, but I had no choice. I had a fever from being induced, dizzy with a headache from having morphine, and had antibiotics for the fever. I ended up throwing up and everything just got worse from there. He came out breech, no epidural, and all I could say to my baby was I’m so sorry. I still look at his picture and tell him I’m sorry. I miss my son, and just want him back.
I’m sorry for you loss. I wish you the best moving forward.
I am so sorry for your loss. I know how you are feeling. I lost my baby 2019-12-16 at 20 weeks. This was my first pregnancy. Oh the pain, the heartbreak. No heartbeat was found either. I still have the first sets of scans of my baby to remember being pregnant. I know it is all in God's hand and He will see me through this difficult time. Every day is not the same. Sometimes I feel ok and next I am sad. It's all part of the healing process. Time is a healer. God has kept me thus far and He will see me through it. I believe that with all my heart.
No one should ever have to go through this but we will all make it through this tough time in Jesus's name. Keeping you in prayer.
Lisa J thank you so much, keeping you in prayer as well. I’m so sorry for your loss, and sorry that you have to experience this. My heart is broken. Just reading what you wrote is a reminder to have faith. It sucks because I finally got to a point where I was doing so well, but I fell back down. Some days are better than others, but we will get there. You are so strong, and I pray for your continued strength. Thank you for this
Same thing happened to me on my last week of pregnancy. It is not easy at all.
As a med.professional-you recieved antibiotics not exactly for the fever. You recieved it for an infection. The fever was a symptom of the infection. An infection is likely the cause of your stillbirth. I am truly sorry. ☹
I’ve hope you are doing well & wish you nothing but healing and positivity. May your son RIP till you meet again
I’m so sorry for your loss, I have a 5 year old who would be a year younger than your daughter would be now and I just could NOT imagine. I can truly feel your pain radiating through the screen. I’m now 34 weeks with my second, and I don’t know why I allowed myself to watch this but wanted to look out for any signs. The fear is truly overwhelming😪 weirdly enough, my now 5 year old also did her first poo inside and when my water broke the same brown mucus was there. But luckily I was already at the hospital by this point as I had started contractions earlier that day. it scares me to think what would have happened if I wasn’t at the hospital, knowing the same outcome could have happened if my contractions came after instead of before. the thought of her not being here now is beyond unimaginable. I’m so sorry this happened to you and primrose.
Thankyou for being brave enough to share and raise awareness. ❤️
I’ve just come across you through my recommended and this was the video it suggested for me. I honestly just cried my heart out as I watched! I’m not pregnant or ever been through what you described but I have a two year old and I just can’t imagine the pain you must feel! this video has made me so grateful for every moment I have with her. so I just want you to know that
Not only are you helping pregnant/post pregnant women but also current mothers become even more appreciative and grateful for their children! You are so so brave for sharing your story and I will pray for you and your recovery. Xxx
Really struggled to watch your video was so unbearably sad. Loosing your beautiful baby girl. Your a very strong woman to be able to talk about such a horrible painful experience. So sorry for your loss, I wish you and your other baby and partner all the best for the future. I am blessed to have two wonderful children. I can honestly say I do not know how I would have managed to deal with what you went through. We love our babies from the moment we hear their tiny heart beats and feel their little feet, I can tell you are a wonderful mummy. I have no words that can possibly make you feel better but this video will have helped thousands of woman to know they are not alone. Take care xx
Just found this, .. you have all my respect for talking about this! Be brave beautiful women! You have now an angel!
You are strong and brave for not only enduring but sharing your story. I can’t imagine your pain and sorrow. Sending you more strength and love from San Diego, California. I’m sure sharing your story will help others, and for that you’re a very generous and caring person. The world could use more people like you. ❤️
Lorraine... I don't even really know what to say. Im so so SO sorry that you went through this. Your pain is so obvious and raw and real in this video, and I have no doubt that this will be a great source of support for families who walk this path behind you. You are so brave and so strong, and this is a beautiful way of sharing Prim's story. x
You speak so beautifully. What a wonderful Mummy you are to little Primrose and Penny. Thank you so much for being brave enough to share yours, and your families story.
My heart breaks for you! I had a miscarriage early with my 1st and I remember the pain emotionally and physically, I CANNOT imagine getting so close to term and losing a little one. 😭 My grandmother lost her 5th baby like this. She didn't get closure because I think my grandfather wanted to protect her by not letting her see my Aunt Rebecca, but she told me recently that she wished she had been able to hold her and see her, to say goodbye. I'm so sorry for your loss!
You have so much strength to talk us through this and so eloquently. Primrose - what a beautiful, sweet name. Thank you for sharing Primrose with us. She sounds beautiful and at peace in her mummy’s arms xxx
I don't know what to say, such a heart breaking situation don't know how you have dealt with this, every parents worst nightmare.
& Primrose what a beautiful name.
Sleeping angel rest in peace x
You're an inspiration to so so many people who have lost their own baby. Your words give other people strength. Primrose is a beautiful name.❤ She's got a super mom. Sending you so much love. 🌈
Such a heartbreaking thing to go through. My heart is with you. I wish I could send you a million hugs of comfort. Primrose is a beautiful name, sounds like the perfect name for such a beautiful baby.
Oh Lorraine, I am lost for words and in tears. My heart breaks for you but I am in so much awe of your bravery in sharing your story. You and your family remain in our prayers. Sending love xxx