I too think Jaquie would have wanted you to have her wheelchair. Nice of Judd to offer it to you. He knows that you could or need to use one at least sometimes. Take care . You Got This! Hugs & Love
I love this. Nice to know that you are staying in contact with Judd and taking care of each other. As for telling the story about Jacquies passing, that is up to you when or even if you want to talk about it. Don't rush and if you don't want to talk about DON'T. I personally respect your decision and privacy. Enjoy going to Universal with your niece. Sounds like a fun time. Take care.
MAY JACKIE REST. IN PEACE SHE IS GONE BUT WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN JACKIE WE WILL MISS YOU. Jackie passing is still hard for me because I loved watching her videos and it will always be for me but everyday I watch her videos in memory of her and I try not to cry when I watch her videos.
I’m just learning about what happened last year. It’s even hard for me to take in right now. I’ve been MIA with my own illness for a long time this last run. I’m so sorry for your loss. She was such a joy and true blessing. I hope everyone is holding up ok. I know it’s so hard. Sending my love.
I was in the same boat. I only find out a few weeks ago and cried. I had no idea. And I'm the type of person who has to know all the Details before being able to make peace with it. :/ I really wanna hear from Judd. I miss his face lol
What a great idea with putting on makeup!!!...it builds self esteem, makes you feel pretty, and is a reminder not to go to the dark place of depression... ANYTHING to help lift your spirit is a good thing! Xxooxx
How is Judd doing? Are we going to see him eventually? I understand that loosing Jaquie must have been devastating for him. I hope that he is doing well. All the best for him.
I’m so, so sorry for your loss, Janiece. I only found out yesterday. I had turned off notifications on Jaquie’s blog, then my own service dog/heart dog got seriously ill and died just as COVID was hitting, so RUclips was waaay down my list of priorities, because last year was my own sheer hell on wheels. Jaquie was an amazing young woman, and you were so blessed to have had her as a friend. But just as importantly, and probably even more so, she was blessed beyond measure to have had you and Paul.
You really should keep the chair it's keeping it in the family you never know when a family member may need it plus you have no insurance right now You know how Jackie loved her chair she would want you to have it Keep it girl! O'Ryan is such a love bug give Huggies for
That's so nice to donate it to someone who really needs it. I was denied getting a wheelchair as well, I know the frustration that can cause. Insurance doesn't understand EDS and dysautonomia. Hope you enjoyed your holiday!
You look so beautiful Janice, with and without makeup. I’m so sorry about Jaquie and I think she’d want you to have the wheelchair, especially since you do need it sometimes and your insurance company won’t provide one.... and especially to go to her favorite place... Disney. :) I think you’re doing well and being very strong in this very difficult time.
If it can't be Jaquie in the chair. It should be you. I am glad judd helped you get used to the idea of using it. I have seen your wheel chair and although it looks (and probably works) great. I remember how uncomfortable you were. We all miss her. Keep moving forward.
Janiece You explained things very well,grieving takes a long time, keeping things that remind you of her is good and important, ignore the people who question you about having her things, you know how you came to have the items that's all that matters. Keeping things that Jaquie had is a good thing it will eventually bring up good memories of her.Don't listen to people tell you how long or how much to grieve you do it in your own way and time.You do what is best for you.
You look so beautiful. It is emotionally seeing her chair so can't imagine how you are feeling. Bless Judd his such a sweetheart. Hope he is doing ok. Miss seeing him too.
Take your time to heal, when you are ready and it feels ok I'm sure it will be hard tell us what you want to tell us. Please don't feel pressure to "over share". I did not know Jaquie but she made a huge impact on my own cronic illness journey, and so do you! Thank you for letting us in and for fighting every day. Love and hugs from Sweden.
I remember that video, she was so excited that it was pink. and she and Judd went to there parking area. and she went around the place with it. she had the biggest smile. i know you dont want it, but i really think Jacquie would want you to have it. plus yes you are trying to walk, but it would be with you. When ever you may need it. just my opinion. you two where the best of friends, I could really see that in you both, kinda reminds me of me and my twin sister. Smile, not trying to make you cry, just charish that chair, thats all.
Great job Orion!! I am so glad you have the opportunity to use Jaq's chair. I know for certain she would want you to use it! I also know it's still hard for you. I am just a fan of hers and I still miss seeing her daily vlogs. Hang in there. Keep your friends and family close. They are your best support system. And know we are sending you our thoughts and prayers too.
Thank you for updating us, I miss her so much even though I didnt personally know her. I know this is hard on you and everyone who did I hope that everyone is doing well. ❤️
Although I have always loved your channel and your friendship with Judd and Jaquie, this is the most vulnerable and raw I have seen you. It looks good on you!
The makeup trick was my thing when my grams died. I did it every day, even when I didn't go out. It also gave me a great routine. Also, I think Jaquie woul be happy you were using her chair. Sending you so much love. 💚
I can't believe she's gone.. . Makes me cry. My dog layed in my lap... You know how they are... ❤🌻... One day at a time. LOVE TO YOU!!! JENEAN... JUDD!!! JACKIE!!! No suffering!!! Flying with new pink wings!!!
I'm glad Jaquie's belongings are being put to use. What a great way to honor her. You know she would never want things that are needed, collecting dust. That's just not what she was all about. LOVE and PRAYERS from Gainesville Florida.
I've been in a wheelchair a LOT recently, and a couple days ago I had a panic attack in Walmart because of the amount of stares I got. I was ashamed and I felt like I didn't really NEED it(even though I broke my foot and I have severe untreatable anemia and I DO need it) and it was so hard for me to calm down enough just to say "screw everyone staring, I need this, it is a tool for me to use to help me" and that can be hard. Especially if you're with a group of people that don't have any disabilities. But it's worth it, and it helps. Maybe if you don't have one get a "cheap"(not custom) one just for those really bad days or really big days. Walk when you can, roll when you need to, and don't be ashamed of what others think.
You look so pretty in that red lipstick! That is Your color. I am glad to see you using her wheelchair. Orion is such an eager cutie. I hope you had a good 4th of July!
yay, I hoped you would get that chair. She's always with you. She would want you to have it. Right now it's hard but you will be happy to have it. Hang in there it will get easier and you can use it and you do need it and you do Deserve it. Think of what Jaquie would say. She would say you are my BFF and I want you to keep it. Not only that but a Ti lite custom chair is over $2000.00 and you don't always get insurance help. Plus it's a tool to help when you need it. Please keep it, she'd want you to.
I’d be very careful since it’s custom made, it could cause more damage than good if it doesn’t fit correctly, I wonder if possible can it be adjusted to you? I believe jaq would want her chronic illness tools to be donated or used by those struggling, rather than be wasted and not used.
Bella I don’t think it’s a waste at all I think that it needs to stay in the family. And yes of course if things can be adjusted. How would it fit a Stranger that you’re donating it to that’s not fair to even say it like that I think that has a lot of sentimental value and needs to stay at home.
Videos about jaquie are hard for me to watch. Its scary knowing how real my conditions are and how dangerous they can be I miss her positivity and I'm so grateful that she can live on through her friends and her youtube channel
Glad you are using the chair. I understand your point on not wanting the chair, but also Judd's point on keeping it near. Your makeup is grand. Lol trying to stop tears, I've been there.
You’re so damn strong! I cry every time I watch these vlogs, I couldn’t IMAGINE being in your position. I wouldn’t be able to use the wheelchair either but you’re so strong. I hope you keep it. You need it, and you would be forever connected to her even more, if that’s possible. I love you, stay strong.
Sweet Janiece you look lovely today. I’m so happy that you have some of Jaquie’s things and I think she would have been happy for you to keep her wheelchair. If you sit on it it would be just like she hugging you when you need it most. Please see how you feel about after using it a few times. I love your vlogs, keep posting. Xxxxxx
Your makeup looks really good. I miss Jaquie's videos. I was shocked to hear of her passing. She was such a trooper. I followed her for about 2 years. The bleach mark is now a memory for you. I get you about people staring at you with canes and wheelchairs. I am 69 yo and I have bad spinal stenosis and neuropathy in my feet and I get so weak and my feet hurt so bad but people do stare at me and that hurts. I just have a hard time getting pass that. I use to be a fast walker and did the normal things but those days are long gone. I want to go places but my health just holds me back some. I also have IBS which makes things harder too. I went to the beach fir a few days last week and me and Imodium became best friends. I got to spend time with my 3 older grandkids. I had a nice time just getting out of the house. It is the little things in life that matter now b
Janiece you were Jaquie‘s best friend...some things she would want you to have...I totally understand leaving it for Judd but if it’s something someone can use all the time like her sweater...than take it...jewelry and things like that I would wait until Judd is 100% ready to give to someone...I think Jaquie would be happier if you used her wheelchair knowing you have been trying to get one yourself...much thoughts...prayers love and hugs always from New York💕
Orion is amazing! You do such a fantastic job training him and he catches on so quick when you show him new tasks. I’m always here if you need to just let loose. Hang in there Hun.
The one thing that Judd could do donate Jacquie's medical supplies to American Red Cross society or any programs that deal with used but still in good condition medical supplies for on low income who cannot afford the necessary supplies they need
not gonna lie, seeing Jacquie's wheelchair in the thumbnail and throughout the video made me tear up. I'm so glad it's being put to very good used with you. also, I can just imagine her arguing with you over the pronunciation of ti-lite. she always said tie light instead of tea light. 😁 love and healing to you all.
I got my first custom the other day actually-it was Jaq that convinced me to listen to my dr’s-I went for manual rather than electric-because I didn’t want to loose capacity also. Believe it or not, it does take a lot to use a manual chair. Just be careful tho-it looks like it doesn’t have anti-tippers on it, so if u go up something steep, if someone isn’t behind you, you could go backwards!! Hang in there, we are thinking of you! There is absolutely no time line to grief-you have to do you, and that’s the way it is!! I just wish people would cut you a break & realise you have lost a sister!
We all miss jaq, so we understand the tears. Judd is amazing. Well.. he did know that u guys were sisters/bestie so thats great that he let u keep some of jaq stuff and not go to waste. Love ur make-up. Keep doing the make-up. U look amazing. Judd's not comimg to disney with u guys? When u rode jaq's wheelchair, it reminded me of jaq soooooo much. yesterday i was watching some of her vlogs, and it brougt tears to my eyes, so we all understand ur tears. They do say time heals every wound, but i hope there right about it. Glad that ur vloging more now. Jaq's proud of u.
I love your makeup! It’s a blessing to have Jaquie’s some of her things. It’s helpful, I to have items of 2 friends of mine that have passed. I use a cane (it teal ☺️) 99 percent of the time of out of the house. So much joy in that 1 percent day I can walk alittle with out it! 🙌🏻
So glad you've made another rung in your ladder with doing your makeup. I find that putting my makeup on every day helps me get started in the morning. Or else my chances of just sitting on the couch are astronomically higher.
I’m happy to cry for you, and I have been. Please feel free to express your grief through us. We are here for you and we love you just as much as Jacquie did and always will. Please know that our love is manifested through Jacquie. Our support is manifested through her soul and given directly to you. We will always love you. Sending you the highest of vibrations. Your beautiful soul deserves nothing less. 💋
Heart wrenching to even see the wheelchair, I totally get why you wouldn't want to keep it. That would be emotionally tough! I miss her videos so much :( Love you guys!!!
I hope you had a happy 4 of July 2019? It is a blessing that you have that wheelchair. It shows that Jaquie is looking after you from above. Like Jaquie has said in her videos and what I have gotten from her videos is that you should never be Embarrassed about needing a wheelchair. Like you said and Jaquie has said that you need to put your health first and from my own experiences there is way too many people out there that think that they know more about what you need than you knowing what you need. It is sad that PWD People With Disabilities have to keep (PROVING) Themselves and that people are so set on trying to make you feel that you are not "Normal" if you say that you are in a wheelchair or that you have a disability. For someone who is in a wheelchair a ramp is a tool like a set of stairs is a tool for someone who doesn't have a disability that effects them from entering a building or the same space that someone without a disability would have the same difficulty without the stairs. The stairs are a curse to someone in a wheelchair because the wheelchair is designed differently. I wish yours and Jaquie's videos or videos like your guys videos were around back in 2001? When there are people who support you those are your true friends, Keep Them.
Keep it, just think of all the adventures it will help you get to go on. I think she would love to help you to thrive in life she was such a cool human. So ya take it on adventures and take a piece of her with you on all of your adventures.
Janice, I'm so sorry you lost your insurance. I am chronically ill and was unable to have insurance for 4 years so I completely understand the struggle. Thankfully I found an amazing insurance agent who helped me. I wish you the best of luck on finding a Healthcare plan. Is there anything that us subscribers can get for you to help? Take care!
What jaquie said about using tools (like a wheelchair) when you need it really helped me be okay with it when I needed a wheelchair♡ usually I would probably get depressed because I need a qheelchair for "long" distances (long = more than 80-100 metres, sorry I have no idea how much that is in feet), but because of Jaquie, when my parents suggested that maybe I should get a wheelchair, I was just like "oh yeah.. I actually need that" aand because of Jaquie I knew they make motorized wheelchairs, so now I have one thats motorized too😍 all though in Norway you just kinda borrow them, so it's not really custom made.. I mean, I could choos if I wanted heelstraps for the.. footrests? I dont know what they're called... the things on the wheelchair that you put your feet on😂 and they took meassurements to be sure that the wheelchair would fit, but thats it.. buut since I'm technically only borrowing it from the state or whatever, I don't have to pay anything for it and if its broken or won't work they will fix it for free😍 and its black, which is one of my favorite colors so its not really a big deal that I couldnt customize it- allthough it would be awesome with a red or gold wheelchair😍😂
Thank you so much for taking the time to post this beautiful video. I know is hard, But most of all you look beautiful and best wishes to and your beautiful family. And they Judd Hello.
Jaquie would so want you to use her chair. Yes it is personal to you I get that but she would want you have it I have no doubt. I know Judd and you also are struggling with everything and we understand that. Just take your time but you know she would want you to use her wheelchair since you need it. I don't think Judd wants things going anywhere except to close friends who need it. And I've seen you use wheel chairs before when needed at Disney. Yes strengthen you limbs etc but Jacquie would not want you to do without. I personally would not judge you for using your friends wheel chair cause I know if she had a say vocally you would get it.
Thank you for the vlog. Certainly understand where you are coming from regarding the chair. Glad that you have it when you need it. Thanks for showing you doing wheel training with Orion. How is Judd? Guess that's probably a stupid question. Just let him know we are thinking of him and sending positive thoughts his way.
1. Girl, that lipstick looks Ah-mazing on you! 2. I can totally understand why keeping the chair could be hard for you. You do what is best for *you* 3. Grief is weird as heck. I lost my mom in 2015 and wow... I did all the anger, sadness, feeling weird about certain items of hers...all sorts of up and down crazy emotional roller coaster stuff. It's all "normal" and I guarantee you're not alone in feeling any of it. I won't give you any "it gets better" platitudes because that stuff is annoying. But it does get different eventually. We always miss the people we lose amd it always sucks. But eventually it hurts less, and stuff that reminds us of them brings memories and happy tears. (At least it does for me) Hang in there. 💜 Give Orion a pet for me.
Don't ever let anyone tell you that you were not her sister. My heart aches still for you and Jaquie family. I have a best friend of 20 years and I call her my sister and I can only imagine what I would do if I ever lost her. Family is not just who you are related to by blood it is people that you met and just know are meant to be in your life and kept in your heart forever. Thank you for being so open and honest about how you are doing and keep it up girly. Love sent to your from Texas
Your doing good, trying to get thru ur loss. I loss my best friend to CA in Feb 2018. Then suddenly lost my husband with a Brain Anyeresm 8mos later Oct 2018. I'm still trying to push myself thru. It's hard but we hv to keep moving forward!
Donating is wonderful. Many of us cannot get insurance to cover our wheelchairs. I have been fighting with my insurance for two years. They will appreciate it.
If you'd like to keep it, maybe keeping it kept away in a closet while you heal could help. Where you know it's there if you need it, but you don't have such a vivid reminder. It's just something I thought of while watching. I think it's absurd people are like "does Judd know you have that". For one, we see maybe 15 minutes of something you want to share or a tiny portion of your day. How people think this gives them the big picture and that they suddenly know everything, I'll never understand it. It's ridiculous. I am keeping yall in my thoughts. Much love from another spoonie in Kansas City.
She wants you to have it .. take it when I lost my older sister I didn’t want to take any of her stuff and I wish I had and I’m sure it would help Judd also you have to work with it and after awhile I promise you will love that you kept it use it and don’t over do it.. I’m wheelchair bound and you deserve to have it and as loving as Jaq was she would want you to have it 🥰🥰💖💚
That's a personal part Jacque so I can understand your mixed feelings. You can hold on to it and donate later if not ready to make that decision. You're also without insurance now, which is disturbing that you were dropped.
good for you and judd having such a great relationship and communication. making sure that the other is ok with what is happening. you have an angel smile down on you 2. ps orion is so precious and amazing. 👍❤️😀💪🙏
I go out with my port accessed all the time in tank tops or tube top dresses. I really don't care and neither should you. It's a part of you that's yours, why be embarrassed? If people ask questions I just give them a quick "it's a cancer thing" or "yeah it's the quickest way to my heart". 🤷♀️ Whatever makes you comfortable, but that's not on other people 😜
Janeice take your time in grieving your best friend/sister, people who say otherwise have not lost someone close to them like the bond you and Jaqui have, when you are ready you will talk about Jaqui, I do miss Jaqui’s videos, I miss watching Jaqui, Harlow and Judd, also the rest of their families, I am so glad that you, Paul and Orion are there to help Judd and Harlow thank you very much for being there forJudd and helping him in his time of grief and the updates you do with Judd and Harlow, both you and Paul deserve a big hug and thank you
Love the red lip! Do you get a gold disability pass at Universal? My friend's daughter has cystic fibrosis, so they only had to wait 5 minutes for that new Harry Potter ride that had the crazy 8-10 hour wait on its opening day. It's understandable that you don't want to cry on camera, but let yourself cry sometimes in your private time. You need a good cry sometimes.
She was your sister end of conversation!!!!! it’s a hard loss end of conversation!!!!! We understand if you didn’t feel this way I would be very worried about you may God be with you you’re angel 👼 is behind you guiding you on your next journey!!!
Universal was fun. I went for my golden birthday two years ago I had so much fun. You will too. Take your time with telling us about what happened. We all just hope that all of you are doing ok
I’m so sorry I just found out today about jaquie it’s xmas day 2019 my day was a mess I’m so upset 😭 I’ve also just had brain surgery so I’m all over the place. 😭😭😭😭😭😭 RIP sweet girl love to all xxx
That is an awesome chair. I hope (I’m sure) the chair will get some good use by someone who really needs it. FYI, it’s pronounced Tie Lite, as in titanium.
I found a retired print from Vera Bradley that I got awhile back with a matching wallet for her I was gonna send it threw your P.O. box because back then when I first started watching you guys she didn’t have a PO Box and they weren’t sure about opening up one I ended up coming across it and knew that she would absolutely love it because it’s pink it’s up to you if you want it because we both know how she loved her Vera Bradley
You look beautiful with your makeup. I hope you change your mind about the wheelchair and keep it. I don’t think there is a person in this world Jacque would rather share her “designer” chair with. Love that color lipstick on you!
Keep the chair! It will b there if Judd needs to see it.....and for you too. On day you will look at her chair and smile about the good times instead of cry. She would want u to have i.
I lost my Best friend 37yrs ago. She had a Dr's appointment, but I couldn't take her because I was going to be out of town. They ended up putting her in the hospital because of her liver. When I got home there was a message that her liver had burst & she'd died. I've felt so guilty for not being there for her .I'd had her 11 yr old daughter since she was 2yrs old. Linda was not just my friend, she had been married to my brother for 2yrs. She also was a Heroin Addict. I was trying to get her clean. Her daughter is now 47yrs old & a Doctor in Texas, I live in Florida. I wish I had something personal of hers but her Mom got rid of everything without telling me. So, don't feel bad about using your sister-friends things. She would want you to❗❗😘💨💕💞✌♿
I too think Jaquie would have wanted you to have her wheelchair. Nice of Judd to offer it to you. He knows that you could or need to use one at least sometimes. Take care . You Got This! Hugs & Love
I love this. Nice to know that you are staying in contact with Judd and taking care of each other. As for telling the story about Jacquies passing, that is up to you when or even if you want to talk about it. Don't rush and if you don't want to talk about DON'T. I personally respect your decision and privacy. Enjoy going to Universal with your niece. Sounds like a fun time. Take care.
MAY JACKIE REST. IN PEACE SHE IS GONE BUT WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN JACKIE WE WILL MISS YOU. Jackie passing is still hard for me because I loved watching her videos and it will always be for me but everyday I watch her videos in memory of her and I try not to cry when I watch her videos.
I’m just learning about what happened last year. It’s even hard for me to take in right now. I’ve been MIA with my own illness for a long time this last run. I’m so sorry for your loss. She was such a joy and true blessing. I hope everyone is holding up ok. I know it’s so hard. Sending my love.
I was in the same boat. I only find out a few weeks ago and cried. I had no idea. And I'm the type of person who has to know all the Details before being able to make peace with it. :/ I really wanna hear from Judd. I miss his face lol
What a great idea with putting on makeup!!!...it builds self esteem, makes you feel pretty, and is a reminder not to go to the dark place of depression... ANYTHING to help lift your spirit is a good thing!
Xxooxx
How is Judd doing? Are we going to see him eventually? I understand that loosing Jaquie must have been devastating for him. I hope that he is doing well. All the best for him.
Judd has a heart of gold he always did
I’m so, so sorry for your loss, Janiece. I only found out yesterday. I had turned off notifications on Jaquie’s blog, then my own service dog/heart dog got seriously ill and died just as COVID was hitting, so RUclips was waaay down my list of priorities, because last year was my own sheer hell on wheels.
Jaquie was an amazing young woman, and you were so blessed to have had her as a friend. But just as importantly, and probably even more so, she was blessed beyond measure to have had you and Paul.
You really should keep the chair it's keeping it in the family you never know when a family member may need it plus you have no insurance right now
You know how Jackie loved her chair she would want you to have it
Keep it girl!
O'Ryan is such a love bug give Huggies for
its Jacquie
That's so nice to donate it to someone who really needs it. I was denied getting a wheelchair as well, I know the frustration that can cause. Insurance doesn't understand EDS and dysautonomia. Hope you enjoyed your holiday!
You look so beautiful Janice, with and without makeup. I’m so sorry about Jaquie and I think she’d want you to have the wheelchair, especially since you do need it sometimes and your insurance company won’t provide one.... and especially to go to her favorite place... Disney. :) I think you’re doing well and being very strong in this very difficult time.
Seeing her chair without her in it... 😭
If it can't be Jaquie in the chair. It should be you. I am glad judd helped you get used to the idea of using it. I have seen your wheel chair and although it looks (and probably works) great. I remember how uncomfortable you were. We all miss her. Keep moving forward.
Janiece You explained things very well,grieving takes a long time, keeping things that remind you of her is good and important, ignore the people who question you about having her things, you know how you came to have the items that's all that matters. Keeping things that Jaquie had is a good thing it will eventually bring up good memories of her.Don't listen to people tell you how long or how much to grieve you do it in your own way and time.You do what is best for you.
Amen you take care of yourself and let others worry about there self of how or where they get what they have!!!
You look so beautiful. It is emotionally seeing her chair so can't imagine how you are feeling. Bless Judd his such a sweetheart. Hope he is doing ok. Miss seeing him too.
Go ahead and keep it, Janice! Why not? It'll save you a lot of money and I'm sure Jaquie would love for you to have it. 😇😙🤗❤🤓
Sending prayers to you, in your grieving period, don’t rush it. Just take your time. Make up or not your still a beautiful person.
Take your time to heal, when you are ready and it feels ok I'm sure it will be hard tell us what you want to tell us. Please don't feel pressure to "over share". I did not know Jaquie but she made a huge impact on my own cronic illness journey, and so do you! Thank you for letting us in and for fighting every day. Love and hugs from Sweden.
I remember that video, she was so excited that it was pink. and she and Judd went to there parking area. and she went around the place with it. she had the biggest smile. i know you dont want it, but i really think Jacquie would want you to have it. plus yes you are trying to walk, but it would be with you. When ever you may need it. just my opinion. you two where the best of friends, I could really see that in you both, kinda reminds me of me and my twin sister. Smile, not trying to make you cry, just charish that chair, thats all.
Great job Orion!! I am so glad you have the opportunity to use Jaq's chair. I know for certain she would want you to use it! I also know it's still hard for you. I am just a fan of hers and I still miss seeing her daily vlogs. Hang in there. Keep your friends and family close. They are your best support system. And know we are sending you our thoughts and prayers too.
Oh God this made me ball 😭😭😭
I found Jacquie after she passed 😔 💔
Thank you for updating us, I miss her so much even though I didnt personally know her. I know this is hard on you and everyone who did I hope that everyone is doing well. ❤️
Although I have always loved your channel and your friendship with Judd and Jaquie, this is the most vulnerable and raw I have seen you. It looks good on you!
You look beautiful today and Jacquie would be proud n honored i believe. Stay strong. Prayers and love for you all. Best wishes always
The makeup trick was my thing when my grams died. I did it every day, even when I didn't go out. It also gave me a great routine. Also, I think Jaquie woul be happy you were using her chair. Sending you so much love. 💚
I can't believe she's gone.. . Makes me cry. My dog layed in my lap... You know how they are... ❤🌻... One day at a time. LOVE TO YOU!!! JENEAN... JUDD!!! JACKIE!!! No suffering!!! Flying with new pink wings!!!
I still can't believe that she's gone.
I'm glad Jaquie's belongings are being put to use. What a great way to honor her. You know she would never want things that are needed, collecting dust. That's just not what she was all about. LOVE and PRAYERS from Gainesville Florida.
I've been in a wheelchair a LOT recently, and a couple days ago I had a panic attack in Walmart because of the amount of stares I got. I was ashamed and I felt like I didn't really NEED it(even though I broke my foot and I have severe untreatable anemia and I DO need it) and it was so hard for me to calm down enough just to say "screw everyone staring, I need this, it is a tool for me to use to help me" and that can be hard. Especially if you're with a group of people that don't have any disabilities. But it's worth it, and it helps. Maybe if you don't have one get a "cheap"(not custom) one just for those really bad days or really big days. Walk when you can, roll when you need to, and don't be ashamed of what others think.
You look so pretty in that red lipstick! That is Your color. I am glad to see you using her wheelchair. Orion is such an eager cutie. I hope you had a good 4th of July!
yay, I hoped you would get that chair. She's always with you. She would want you to have it. Right now it's hard but you will be happy to have it. Hang in there it will get easier and you can use it and you do need it and you do Deserve it. Think of what Jaquie would say. She would say you are my BFF and I want you to keep it. Not only that but a Ti lite custom chair is over $2000.00 and you don't always get insurance help. Plus it's a tool to help when you need it. Please keep it, she'd want you to.
I’d be very careful since it’s custom made, it could cause more damage than good if it doesn’t fit correctly, I wonder if possible can it be adjusted to you? I believe jaq would want her chronic illness tools to be donated or used by those struggling, rather than be wasted and not used.
Bella I don’t think it’s a waste at all I think that it needs to stay in the family. And yes of course if things can be adjusted.
How would it fit a Stranger that you’re donating it to that’s not fair to even say it like that I think that has a lot of sentimental value and needs to stay at home.
red lipstick looks so beautiful on you!! Thank you for making videos, I can't imagine what a hard time this is for you all. Big love and hugs
Videos about jaquie are hard for me to watch. Its scary knowing how real my conditions are and how dangerous they can be I miss her positivity and I'm so grateful that she can live on through her friends and her youtube channel
Glad you are using the chair. I understand your point on not wanting the chair, but also Judd's point on keeping it near. Your makeup is grand.
Lol trying to stop tears, I've been there.
You looked so cute all made up beautiful you look like your doing better god bless you all
💚💚💚
You’re so damn strong! I cry every time I watch these vlogs, I couldn’t IMAGINE being in your position. I wouldn’t be able to use the wheelchair either but you’re so strong. I hope you keep it. You need it, and you would be forever connected to her even more, if that’s possible. I love you, stay strong.
Sweet Janiece you look lovely today. I’m so happy that you have some of Jaquie’s things and I think she would have been happy for you to keep her wheelchair. If you sit on it it would be just like she hugging you when you need it most. Please see how you feel about after using it a few times. I love your vlogs, keep posting. Xxxxxx
Your makeup looks really good. I miss Jaquie's videos. I was shocked to hear of her passing. She was such a trooper. I followed her for about 2 years. The bleach mark is now a memory for you. I get you about people staring at you with canes and wheelchairs. I am 69 yo and I have bad spinal stenosis and neuropathy in my feet and I get so weak and my feet hurt so bad but people do stare at me and that hurts. I just have a hard time getting pass that. I use to be a fast walker and did the normal things but those days are long gone. I want to go places but my health just holds me back some. I also have IBS which makes things harder too. I went to the beach fir a few days last week and me and Imodium became best friends. I got to spend time with my 3 older grandkids. I had a nice time just getting out of the house. It is the little things in life that matter now b
Janiece you were Jaquie‘s best friend...some things she would want you to have...I totally understand leaving it for Judd but if it’s something someone can use all the time like her sweater...than take it...jewelry and things like that I would wait until Judd is 100% ready to give to someone...I think Jaquie would be happier if you used her wheelchair knowing you have been trying to get one yourself...much thoughts...prayers love and hugs always from New York💕
Orion is amazing! You do such a fantastic job training him and he catches on so quick when you show him new tasks. I’m always here if you need to just let loose. Hang in there Hun.
It’s healthy to cry though! RIP Jaquie. Loved Jaquie
The one thing that Judd could do donate Jacquie's medical supplies to American Red Cross society or any programs that deal with used but still in good condition medical supplies for on low income who cannot afford the necessary supplies they need
Its ok janiece your doing great.
not gonna lie, seeing Jacquie's wheelchair in the thumbnail and throughout the video made me tear up. I'm so glad it's being put to very good used with you. also, I can just imagine her arguing with you over the pronunciation of ti-lite. she always said tie light instead of tea light. 😁 love and healing to you all.
Fans aren’t heeled yet so can’t expect the family to be ready yet
I got my first custom the other day actually-it was Jaq that convinced me to listen to my dr’s-I went for manual rather than electric-because I didn’t want to loose capacity also. Believe it or not, it does take a lot to use a manual chair. Just be careful tho-it looks like it doesn’t have anti-tippers on it, so if u go up something steep, if someone isn’t behind you, you could go backwards!! Hang in there, we are thinking of you! There is absolutely no time line to grief-you have to do you, and that’s the way it is!! I just wish people would cut you a break & realise you have lost a sister!
We all miss jaq, so we understand the tears. Judd is amazing. Well.. he did know that u guys were sisters/bestie so thats great that he let u keep some of jaq stuff and not go to waste. Love ur make-up. Keep doing the make-up. U look amazing. Judd's not comimg to disney with u guys? When u rode jaq's wheelchair, it reminded me of jaq soooooo much. yesterday i was watching some of her vlogs, and it brougt tears to my eyes, so we all understand ur tears. They do say time heals every wound, but i hope there right about it. Glad that ur vloging more now. Jaq's proud of u.
You should take it for one last Disney run and get a churro with chocolate...Jaquie just about ran her own path around that place!
I love your makeup! It’s a blessing to have Jaquie’s some of her things. It’s helpful, I to have items of 2 friends of mine that have passed.
I use a cane (it teal ☺️) 99 percent of the time of out of the house. So much joy in that 1 percent day I can walk alittle with out it! 🙌🏻
So glad you've made another rung in your ladder with doing your makeup. I find that putting my makeup on every day helps me get started in the morning. Or else my chances of just sitting on the couch are astronomically higher.
How is Judd and her mom holding up and Harlow holding up and her father it must be tough on everybody on Jackie's passing
I'm not sure about her family but Judd seems to be doing well. Obviously he has Harlow and he also has a new girlfriend.
I’m happy to cry for you, and I have been. Please feel free to express your grief through us. We are here for you and we love you just as much as Jacquie did and always will. Please know that our love is manifested through Jacquie. Our support is manifested through her soul and given directly to you. We will always love you. Sending you the highest of vibrations. Your beautiful soul deserves nothing less. 💋
Orion is so cute. I love the awareness training of you in the chair...he did so well. ❤️❤️. 🇮🇹🐾
That's so sweet,I know Jaquie would be happy to see you using her chair! Thanks for sharing as you may,hope you have fun!! Orion is excited!!
Heart wrenching to even see the wheelchair, I totally get why you wouldn't want to keep it. That would be emotionally tough! I miss her videos so much :( Love you guys!!!
Makeup makes me happy! You look great! If makeup makes you feel good, then keep it up!!
thank you 💚💚
I feel like if Jaquie was here she would definitely would want you to have it
I think you should keep that gorgeous pink wheelchair! Your “sister” would want you to use it. I think Judd wants you to use it.
I hope you had a happy 4 of July 2019? It is a blessing that you have that wheelchair. It shows that Jaquie is looking after you from above. Like Jaquie has said in her videos and what I have gotten from her videos is that you should never be Embarrassed about needing a wheelchair. Like you said and Jaquie has said that you need to put your health first and from my own experiences there is way too many people out there that think that they know more about what you need than you knowing what you need. It is sad that PWD People With Disabilities have to keep (PROVING) Themselves and that people are so set on trying to make you feel that you are not "Normal" if you say that you are in a wheelchair or that you have a disability. For someone who is in a wheelchair a ramp is a tool like a set of stairs is a tool for someone who doesn't have a disability that effects them from entering a building or the same space that someone without a disability would have the same difficulty without the stairs. The stairs are a curse to someone in a wheelchair because the wheelchair is designed differently. I wish yours and Jaquie's videos or videos like your guys videos were around back in 2001? When there are people who support you those are your true friends, Keep Them.
I know how much Jaquie 💗her leggings! I’d be more than happy to turn them into a memory quilt for Jud or you if you want.
What a great and thoughtful idea.
Thankyou for keeping her memory alive❤️
Keep it, just think of all the adventures it will help you get to go on. I think she would love to help you to thrive in life she was such a cool human. So ya take it on adventures and take a piece of her with you on all of your adventures.
Janice,
I'm so sorry you lost your insurance. I am chronically ill and was unable to have insurance for 4 years so I completely understand the struggle. Thankfully I found an amazing insurance agent who helped me. I wish you the best of luck on finding a Healthcare plan. Is there anything that us subscribers can get for you to help? Take care!
What jaquie said about using tools (like a wheelchair) when you need it really helped me be okay with it when I needed a wheelchair♡ usually I would probably get depressed because I need a qheelchair for "long" distances (long = more than 80-100 metres, sorry I have no idea how much that is in feet), but because of Jaquie, when my parents suggested that maybe I should get a wheelchair, I was just like "oh yeah.. I actually need that" aand because of Jaquie I knew they make motorized wheelchairs, so now I have one thats motorized too😍 all though in Norway you just kinda borrow them, so it's not really custom made.. I mean, I could choos if I wanted heelstraps for the.. footrests? I dont know what they're called... the things on the wheelchair that you put your feet on😂 and they took meassurements to be sure that the wheelchair would fit, but thats it.. buut since I'm technically only borrowing it from the state or whatever, I don't have to pay anything for it and if its broken or won't work they will fix it for free😍 and its black, which is one of my favorite colors so its not really a big deal that I couldnt customize it- allthough it would be awesome with a red or gold wheelchair😍😂
Thank you so much for taking the time to post this beautiful video.
I know is hard, But most of all you look beautiful and best wishes to and your beautiful family.
And they Judd Hello.
Jaquie would so want you to use her chair. Yes it is personal to you I get that but she would want you have it I have no doubt. I know Judd and you also are struggling with everything and we understand that. Just take your time but you know she would want you to use her wheelchair since you need it. I don't think Judd wants things going anywhere except to close friends who need it. And I've seen you use wheel chairs before when needed at Disney. Yes strengthen you limbs etc but Jacquie would not want you to do without. I personally would not judge you for using your friends wheel chair cause I know if she had a say vocally you would get it.
Thank you for the vlog. Certainly understand where you are coming from regarding the chair. Glad that you have it when you need it. Thanks for showing you doing wheel training with Orion. How is Judd? Guess that's probably a stupid question. Just let him know we are thinking of him and sending positive thoughts his way.
1. Girl, that lipstick looks Ah-mazing on you!
2. I can totally understand why keeping the chair could be hard for you. You do what is best for *you*
3. Grief is weird as heck. I lost my mom in 2015 and wow... I did all the anger, sadness, feeling weird about certain items of hers...all sorts of up and down crazy emotional roller coaster stuff. It's all "normal" and I guarantee you're not alone in feeling any of it.
I won't give you any "it gets better" platitudes because that stuff is annoying. But it does get different eventually. We always miss the people we lose amd it always sucks. But eventually it hurts less, and stuff that reminds us of them brings memories and happy tears. (At least it does for me) Hang in there. 💜 Give Orion a pet for me.
God bless you all!! I haven't been able to watch most of your vlogs about your process. You are all in my prayers. Love you.
Don't ever let anyone tell you that you were not her sister. My heart aches still for you and Jaquie family. I have a best friend of 20 years and I call her my sister and I can only imagine what I would do if I ever lost her. Family is not just who you are related to by blood it is people that you met and just know are meant to be in your life and kept in your heart forever. Thank you for being so open and honest about how you are doing and keep it up girly. Love sent to your from Texas
Your doing good, trying to get thru ur loss. I loss my best friend to CA in Feb 2018. Then suddenly lost my husband with a Brain Anyeresm 8mos later Oct 2018. I'm still trying to push myself thru. It's hard but we hv to keep moving forward!
Donating is wonderful. Many of us cannot get insurance to cover our wheelchairs. I have been fighting with my insurance for two years. They will appreciate it.
If you'd like to keep it, maybe keeping it kept away in a closet while you heal could help. Where you know it's there if you need it, but you don't have such a vivid reminder. It's just something I thought of while watching. I think it's absurd people are like "does Judd know you have that". For one, we see maybe 15 minutes of something you want to share or a tiny portion of your day. How people think this gives them the big picture and that they suddenly know everything, I'll never understand it. It's ridiculous. I am keeping yall in my thoughts. Much love from another spoonie in Kansas City.
She wants you to have it .. take it when I lost my older sister I didn’t want to take any of her stuff and I wish I had and I’m sure it would help Judd also you have to work with it and after awhile I promise you will love that you kept it use it and don’t over do it.. I’m wheelchair bound and you deserve to have it and as loving as Jaq was she would want you to have it 🥰🥰💖💚
That's a personal part Jacque so I can understand your mixed feelings. You can hold on to it and donate later if not ready to make that decision. You're also without insurance now, which is disturbing that you were dropped.
good for you and judd having such a great relationship and communication. making sure that the other is ok with what is happening. you have an angel smile down on you 2. ps orion is so precious and amazing. 👍❤️😀💪🙏
I think Jacquie would be happy that you took her chair. Who better to take ownership of it than you. Please feel like it's OK to take it. Be well. : )
I miss her so much. You take your time.
I go out with my port accessed all the time in tank tops or tube top dresses.
I really don't care and neither should you.
It's a part of you that's yours, why be embarrassed?
If people ask questions I just give them a quick "it's a cancer thing" or "yeah it's the quickest way to my heart". 🤷♀️
Whatever makes you comfortable, but that's not on other people 😜
Janeice take your time in grieving your best friend/sister, people who say otherwise have not lost someone close to them like the bond you and Jaqui have, when you are ready you will talk about Jaqui, I do miss Jaqui’s videos, I miss watching Jaqui, Harlow and Judd, also the rest of their families, I am so glad that you, Paul and Orion are there to help Judd and Harlow thank you very much for being there forJudd and helping him in his time of grief and the updates you do with Judd and Harlow, both you and Paul deserve a big hug and thank you
Love the red lip!
Do you get a gold disability pass at Universal? My friend's daughter has cystic fibrosis, so they only had to wait 5 minutes for that new Harry Potter ride that had the crazy 8-10 hour wait on its opening day.
It's understandable that you don't want to cry on camera, but let yourself cry sometimes in your private time. You need a good cry sometimes.
The sheer fact that the Tilite logo was still on the fork, which wears of SOOO fast, shows how much Jacquie loved and cared for it :)
She was your sister end of conversation!!!!! it’s a hard loss end of conversation!!!!! We understand if you didn’t feel this way I would be very worried about you may God be with you you’re angel 👼 is behind you guiding you on your next journey!!!
Hags,what a good dog he is came in and gave love .and loved the training part as well.
Universal was fun. I went for my golden birthday two years ago I had so much fun. You will too. Take your time with telling us about what happened. We all just hope that all of you are doing ok
It’s February 16th and I’m just now hearing about it...I’ve been wondering why no videos have been posted in a long time and I’m like heartbroken
I’ve been looking for a wheel chair maybe I’ll look at the custom ones
I’m so sorry I just found out today about jaquie it’s xmas day 2019 my day was a mess I’m so upset 😭 I’ve also just had brain surgery so I’m all over the place. 😭😭😭😭😭😭 RIP sweet girl love to all xxx
love that lip color on you. having Jaquie's chair to help support you when you need the support. Going places you can bring Jaquie along.
Nonsense, you count! You are part of the crew.
Janiece,Jaquie would so want you to have the wheelchair 😁🌸🌷
glad to see u doing well keep being strong :)
That is an awesome chair. I hope (I’m sure) the chair will get some good use by someone who really needs it. FYI, it’s pronounced Tie Lite, as in titanium.
I found a retired print from Vera Bradley that I got awhile back with a matching wallet for her I was gonna send it threw your P.O. box because back then when I first started watching you guys she didn’t have a PO Box and they weren’t sure about opening up one I ended up coming across it and knew that she would absolutely love it because it’s pink it’s up to you if you want it because we both know how she loved her Vera Bradley
That's so kind of you❤️
You look beautiful with your makeup. I hope you change your mind about the wheelchair and keep it. I don’t think there is a person in this world Jacque would rather share her “designer” chair with. Love that color lipstick on you!
You look really fleek girl!😊 Orion does really well with the wheelchair. Take care.
💚💚💚
💚💚💚
💚💚💚
Keep the chair! It will b there if Judd needs to see it.....and for you too. On day you will look at her chair and smile about the good times instead of cry. She would want u to have i.
I lost my Best friend 37yrs ago. She had a Dr's appointment, but I couldn't take her because I was going to be out of town. They ended up putting her in the hospital because of her liver. When I got home there was a message that her liver had burst & she'd died. I've felt so guilty for not being there for her .I'd had her 11 yr old daughter since she was 2yrs old. Linda was not just my friend, she had been married to my brother for 2yrs. She also was a Heroin Addict. I was trying to get her clean.
Her daughter is now 47yrs old & a Doctor in Texas, I live in Florida. I wish I had something personal of hers but her Mom got rid of everything without telling me.
So, don't feel bad about using your sister-friends things. She would want you to❗❗😘💨💕💞✌♿
That clip of you training the pup pup was so awesome 😊