I can relate. Off 32 months. After 30+ plus years. Nearly 71 now. We must never lose hope that this is our bodies healing and trying to find balance. We keep going through the storm knowing that we will get through this and get to the other side. What a journey!, Thank you.❤😊
I went through klonopin withdrawal in 2013 at 23 in Woodland Hills. I had just moved there with my boyfriend at the time from Ohio. We lived in an apartment with walls and blinds just like the ones in your video. I sat in that bathtub in scalding hot water for hours to escape the feeling. LA was so bright in August. It lasted all winter, kindling on and off Latuda, benzos, antidepressants. I was just called crazy. It was the anti-anxiety meds, and the ensuing meds, causing everything. It took me years to put together the pieces. It takes time, but healing is possible. My biggest issue now is living with this whole experience, knowing what I know now.
Hey Matt, thanks for this update. I can totally relate to everything you say. I "only" took an SSRI and after 25 months I still have severe symptoms. When I'm through this nightmare, I will do whatever it takes to let the public know about these crimes. I wish you all the best, lots of strength. We will make it!
Thank you so much for sharing this. Im in another GAD episode and can total related to your journey through hell. Insomnia, crippling anxiety and IBS all over again and the only thing that calms me down and gives me hope is watching videos like yours. Stay strong, brother. Much love from Bulgaria.
I just revisited this video; I’m 13 months off everything, 24 off the drug that has caused this mess. I’m here to remind myself it’s still early days. Thanks so much man.
I cold turkeyed 20 mg lexapro and 2 mg ativan reinstated multiple times after cold turkey took klonopibs trazadone had all kinds of hellish symptoms akathisia pacing 14 hours non stop a day for months sleep 2 hours a night for over a year. Lost my mind and came back through the power of God
I'm going fucking insane. That feeling you described in your stomach I describe as deep seated anxiety that is associated with SI! It's like an urge feeling of insane anxiety. I do badly want to get to the other side of this. It's almost like there is a force within that wants to stop that 😢. I appreciate you Matt. You're very strong!
Hey Matt, thank you so much for sharing your story. I went on an Ayahuasca retreat 9 months ago and I've been suffering from mild to moderate akathisia since then. It also caused a massive relapse into clinical suicidal depression. I'd love to have a conversation sometime if you're willing. Thanks for the good vibes. ✌️
I prob had really mild aka from qutting SSRI 2,5 years ago but psilocybin that summer made the whole thing sky-rocket. Like made it a million times worse.
At some point you will no longer be counting the months since your taper ended or you cold turkeyed .... it will all be in the past... and seem like a bad nightmare. I had the exact same thing with the too bright and too loud and electric bolts and terror and a dozen other symptoms.... They ALL very slowly faded away. The ONLY thing I would suggest is eating foods to restore your GUT... raw organic sauerkraut...kombucha, kefir (etc). YES..it is ALL from the meds.
I wish I could eat those things. For some reason, anything probiotic seems to make me worse. It’s so strange. I just pray every day that my gut figures it out because I have tried so many things to heal it.
16 months off Kolonipin for the first two months of I thought I was fine. Then all hell broke loose. 30 yrs on and was told to taper 4 weeks. Symptoms now are worse with extreme itching on my scalp and my entire face and body. Just having the air hit my skin or clothes rubbing against me is so extream. In no way can I stop itching, can’t take a shower or get dressed is torture. Thank you Matt we all need you friend. Your giving us hope and validation. ♥️
I finally started my taper of 3% a week and a half ago. I’ve never fully recovered from the ct in March so hopefully I don’t get a snowball of symptoms. Hope you’re feeling well today. I appreciate your videos.
Hi Matt, go and look what you can find on oversensory stimulations and take that in on as well as with all the other stuff you do to keep yourself at place of peace
I admire your determination despite how hard things are. Do you experience derealization or depersonalization? I've been experiencing it a lot since getting off benzos a couple months ago. It's a huge anxiety trigger. I experienced it here and there prior to this but it's like I've lost the ability to rationalize because my anxiety is so much worse in withdrawal.
I’m so sorry you’re going through this too. Yes, I do experience those often. I forgot to include them in the video. It feels like I’m not real and the world around me isn’t real either. Almost like a bad dream or a video game. It’s bizarre and hard to describe. What’s helped me is to remind myself that the feeling will pass when I’m in it, and that I am indeed real even if it doesn’t feel like it. If I’m with the people closest to me in my life, I also ask if I can touch their arms while we are having a conversation. Sounds weird, but it helps to at least try to partially ground myself in physical reassurance that they are there with me. I hope things improve for you very soon and am here if you ever want to talk.
Do you still have this morning doom and anxiety? When did you notice that this went away? If it went away for you was it when you fixed your gut axis? I am still dealing with this really bad I will be three years September 11 this year. I had gotten it to leave whenever I was taking Sam E but that was making me sleep and be lazy all day so I stopped taking it. You are doing amazing. Keep the line in yourself with the spiritual round like you’ve been doing so awesome.
I do still have it. It is lighter than it used to be, but definitely still something that needs more healing. I’m sorry you’re going through it too. Please keep going.
Oh wow im so glad your doing better!!!! I have been on xanax 30yrs.i tried to get off them i went into acoma blind paralyzed. 2 months on hospital. Had to get back on them .i get seizutes .i need to get off these saftley .😢
My air hunger has lasted 9 months really bad now I can't even stop thinking about breathing from tim e I wake till I sleep 9 months str8 I've never takin ssri but mine started from benzo withdrawal doc now thinks ssri could stop breathing thoughts but stories like this hold me back from starting
Hey 15 months after cold turkey antidepressants and benzo. Most terrified symptom since day 1 is left hand and left leg weakness. I really got all tests but really don't know what's causing it. Tried multiple times to end myslef but family is so clinging on me. Its raw hell. I was a full time businessman. Now i lost everything
I’m so sorry. For what it’s worth, I have heard of those symptoms before and I don’t know how any of this stuff happens, but others have healed from those types of things with time. Keep going.
@@Heymattmarin brother I can't take these symptoms anymore. Can reinstating and then tapering help me get rid of these symptoms ?? Can I function normally after this??
@Kornyboyo1917 how on earth can I have symptoms lik weakness numbness tingling burning only on one side. I see no one gets this. This is something am worried about that am I the only one. I am scared this is a disability.
I'm not stopping my meds no not going to feel that shit no more its not as bad as this dude and thank god my symptoms stop when i start taking my meds again maby im not going through the same thing as him but ya i know whats up now😢 no im not stopping im not going through that again no
Hey Matt.hope u r doing better every day. I am 1 year off... And suffering delibating symptoms from lexapro tones of them. This brain fog is very severe. Does ur brain fog got better with time? ❤
Hey there. It still comes and goes, but I do get times where I don’t experience it now. It can take a long time to go away for some people. It will improve, just keep going ❤️
I've been on benzos and Gabapentin over 20 years. I'm in tolerance withdrawal and too afraid to start tapering off, because everyone says things are worse off for many years and I'm already older.
I understand. Everyone’s journey is different, truly. You may feel better when you come off the drugs, there’s just no way of knowing. If you do decide to taper, do it SO slowly. Slower than you think you need to. Sending love ❤️
@@Heymattmarin Thank you for that bit of importance information, because I often try to rush things. Please keep updating anything positive you notice nomatter how small it may seem. Breakthroughs often start with those.❤️
I have alot of this from thc, I been off cannabis for 4 months now and this is hell! The head pressure got a little better but the akathisia is the worst now! I dont think it's as bad as yours! It's just from my cannabanoid receptors are healing. It can take 6 months to 2 years to heal! Do you take any medication at all to help with your symptoms? I dont mean the ones that caused this crap! I mean like can you take anything to help,
Hey bud, I would suggest looking at Agmatine Sulfate! Its a non-addictive workout supplement thats being studied for benzo and opiate withdrawal ! Look into it, It works by reducing excess glutamate in the brain which gives rise to the sensitivity, anxiety, tremors and depression caused by the trimming of GABA receptors Another thing that could help is Kavakava and CBD when you begin to feel the anxiety starting , taking some kava kava capsules with a few drops of cbd in oil could cut that sensation back before it seriously takes hold Lastly , a probiotic such as the one by neuralli can help with the digestion issues and even depression, there are important receptors in the gut that are likely associated with your situation 👍🏽 Hope any one of these can help you friend ❤️
Just read the comment below about how probiotics make ur situation worse, sorry to hear Still would highly advise you to try the agmatine sulfate, changed my whole taper and jump off ❤ Kava kava also helps with the night time insomnia which is the worst Some nights I take Benadryl when I realize the insomnia gonna be too bad for the herbs 🌿
@@Heymattmarin bless up, It’s starting to become more commonplace in forums. It started out as a workout supplement that was added to reduce anxiety in the pre workouts which have ridiculously high amounts of caffeine. i ordered a 50$ bottle of 250 grams powder from nootropics direct , before checking amazon and there is a 1 KILO bag for like 5$ more . I take 1000mg morning and night to great effect I post it on every video I watch about this topic to try and spread the word . Besides the agmatine sulfate and herbs i’ve also started taking lions mane and cordyceps mushroom to help wit neuroplasticity
Well with his diarrhea magnesium might make that worse cause it has laxative effects but magnesium is only vitamin that helped my anixtey a very little but noticeable way so yes magnesium is good recommendation just not if you have diarrhea
Our body can not survive without Magnesium, this is one way to gently bring it into your body. You can make or buy Magnesium Chloride flakes and massage into skin so it bypasses the digestive system. Half a mug of flakes, half hot filtered water, stir, cool....that's called Magnesium Oil. Patch test, If it itches skin, dilute down until skin is okay with it. Don't use on broken or inflamed skin.Start slow, rub in a little to the tummy, back of legs, inside arms. Do 1/day, then twice/day or more...just build up very slowly. Evening time is great to help sleep. Use Mag Chloride flakes or the cheaper Epsom salt in foot baths to let a little Magnesium in through your skin....build up tolerance. Much love to you all, what amazing people you are!@@bigsteppa2200
I can relate. Off 32 months. After 30+ plus years. Nearly 71 now. We must never lose hope that this is our bodies healing and trying to find balance. We keep going through the storm knowing that we will get through this and get to the other side. What a journey!, Thank you.❤😊
Me too Julie. Off 30 months after 30 years on. We’ll make it!
I went through klonopin withdrawal in 2013 at 23 in Woodland Hills. I had just moved there with my boyfriend at the time from Ohio. We lived in an apartment with walls and blinds just like the ones in your video. I sat in that bathtub in scalding hot water for hours to escape the feeling. LA was so bright in August. It lasted all winter, kindling on and off Latuda, benzos, antidepressants. I was just called crazy. It was the anti-anxiety meds, and the ensuing meds, causing everything. It took me years to put together the pieces. It takes time, but healing is possible.
My biggest issue now is living with this whole experience, knowing what I know now.
Hey Matt, thanks for this update. I can totally relate to everything you say.
I "only" took an SSRI and after 25 months I still have severe symptoms.
When I'm through this nightmare, I will do whatever it takes to let the public know about these crimes.
I wish you all the best, lots of strength. We will make it!
Yes we will! Thank you for watching and sharing your experience with me too. I wish you the best as well.
Hey, I have the absolute same. 21 month out. And still suffering like hell.
@@jonahh9417 Hey Jonah, I'm sorry you're going through the same thing. What has improved for you so far?
@@jonahh9417 I’m sorry you’re in it too. We just gotta hold on.
I m in the same boat too Simon Mader
Thank you so much for sharing this. Im in another GAD episode and can total related to your journey through hell. Insomnia, crippling anxiety and IBS all over again and the only thing that calms me down and gives me hope is watching videos like yours. Stay strong, brother. Much love from Bulgaria.
Much love back. I’m glad the videos are helpful. Keep going, you can do this ❤️
I just revisited this video; I’m 13 months off everything, 24 off the drug that has caused this mess.
I’m here to remind myself it’s still early days. Thanks so much man.
I cold turkeyed 20 mg lexapro and 2 mg ativan reinstated multiple times after cold turkey took klonopibs trazadone had all kinds of hellish symptoms akathisia pacing 14 hours non stop a day for months sleep 2 hours a night for over a year. Lost my mind and came back through the power of God
The skeptics make this hell so much harder
You will heal you are healing you are one brave SOB
I'm going fucking insane. That feeling you described in your stomach I describe as deep seated anxiety that is associated with SI! It's like an urge feeling of insane anxiety. I do badly want to get to the other side of this. It's almost like there is a force within that wants to stop that 😢. I appreciate you Matt. You're very strong!
I know the feeling. You will get through this if you keep going
Keep the videos coming Matt, you are an inspiration and you are keeping me going to persevere, I am not far behind you in timelines.
Hey Matt, thank you so much for sharing your story. I went on an Ayahuasca retreat 9 months ago and I've been suffering from mild to moderate akathisia since then. It also caused a massive relapse into clinical suicidal depression. I'd love to have a conversation sometime if you're willing. Thanks for the good vibes. ✌️
I’m so sorry you’re going through it too. Sure thing, let me know a good way to reach you.
@Matt Marín How about Facebook Messenger?
@@veggiemetal7812 sure thing
So the ayahuasca triggered akathisia?
I prob had really mild aka from qutting SSRI 2,5 years ago but psilocybin that summer made the whole thing sky-rocket. Like made it a million times worse.
You are very strong I just want this to end . I wish I had your attitude , i just want to give up everyday
I know that feeling well. I have had many days of giving up. It’s a walk through hell, how could you not? Keep going. Here if you want/need to talk
Hang on man! We can do it 💪
"At the end of the storm,theres golden sky and a sweet silver song of lark"
At some point you will no longer be counting the months since your taper ended or you cold turkeyed .... it will all be in the past... and seem like a bad nightmare. I had the exact same thing with the too bright and too loud and electric bolts and terror and a dozen other symptoms.... They ALL very slowly faded away. The ONLY thing I would suggest is eating foods to restore your GUT... raw organic sauerkraut...kombucha, kefir (etc). YES..it is ALL from the meds.
I wish I could eat those things. For some reason, anything probiotic seems to make me worse. It’s so strange. I just pray every day that my gut figures it out because I have tried so many things to heal it.
@@Heymattmarin how is ur sleep and depersonalization
@@tyrel510 I m 720 days off 80 to 85 percent healed still trouble sleep still depression
@@rameshlumb4003 sleep is still spotty. Depersonalization comes and goes and is sometimes quite intense.
Thank you for posting this, it means a lot to us.
Spot on video. Especially the solar plexus and skin symptom.
Nightmares are a good sign, it means you're reaching deeper sleep! Kinda envious
16 months off Kolonipin for the first two months of I thought I was fine. Then all hell broke loose. 30 yrs on and was told to taper 4 weeks. Symptoms now are worse with extreme itching on my scalp and my entire face and body. Just having the air hit my skin or clothes rubbing against me is so extream. In no way can I stop itching, can’t take a shower or get dressed is torture. Thank you Matt we all need you friend. Your giving us hope and validation. ♥️
I finally started my taper of 3% a week and a half ago. I’ve never fully recovered from the ct in March so hopefully I don’t get a snowball of symptoms. Hope you’re feeling well today. I appreciate your videos.
Hi Matt, go and look what you can find on oversensory stimulations and take that in on as well as with all the other stuff you do to keep yourself at place of peace
I admire your determination despite how hard things are. Do you experience derealization or depersonalization? I've been experiencing it a lot since getting off benzos a couple months ago. It's a huge anxiety trigger. I experienced it here and there prior to this but it's like I've lost the ability to rationalize because my anxiety is so much worse in withdrawal.
I’m so sorry you’re going through this too. Yes, I do experience those often. I forgot to include them in the video. It feels like I’m not real and the world around me isn’t real either. Almost like a bad dream or a video game. It’s bizarre and hard to describe. What’s helped me is to remind myself that the feeling will pass when I’m in it, and that I am indeed real even if it doesn’t feel like it. If I’m with the people closest to me in my life, I also ask if I can touch their arms while we are having a conversation. Sounds weird, but it helps to at least try to partially ground myself in physical reassurance that they are there with me. I hope things improve for you very soon and am here if you ever want to talk.
Do you still have this morning doom and anxiety? When did you notice that this went away? If it went away for you was it when you fixed your gut axis? I am still dealing with this really bad I will be three years September 11 this year. I had gotten it to leave whenever I was taking Sam E but that was making me sleep and be lazy all day so I stopped taking it. You are doing amazing. Keep the line in yourself with the spiritual round like you’ve been doing so awesome.
I do still have it. It is lighter than it used to be, but definitely still something that needs more healing. I’m sorry you’re going through it too. Please keep going.
Love an update matt hope your doing better
Thanks Shane. Gonna post one soon. Hope you’re doing well ❤️
@@Heymattmarinhow is your low energy sym
I was on an ssri for a month… 2nd day of akathisia, hope it ends soon
Oh wow im so glad your doing better!!!! I have been on xanax 30yrs.i tried to get off them i went into acoma blind paralyzed. 2 months on hospital. Had to get back on them .i get seizutes .i need to get off these saftley .😢
great descriptions, weed helps with the dreams and nightmares for me atleast
Thanks again for ur updates
21 months off benzos still bad morning anxiety air hunger I noticed I have those red bumps all over my arms never had them before in my life
My air hunger has lasted 9 months really bad now I can't even stop thinking about breathing from tim e I wake till I sleep 9 months str8 I've never takin ssri but mine started from benzo withdrawal doc now thinks ssri could stop breathing thoughts but stories like this hold me back from starting
Hey 15 months after cold turkey antidepressants and benzo. Most terrified symptom since day 1 is left hand and left leg weakness. I really got all tests but really don't know what's causing it. Tried multiple times to end myslef but family is so clinging on me. Its raw hell. I was a full time businessman. Now i lost everything
I’m so sorry. For what it’s worth, I have heard of those symptoms before and I don’t know how any of this stuff happens, but others have healed from those types of things with time. Keep going.
@@Heymattmarin brother I can't take these symptoms anymore. Can reinstating and then tapering help me get rid of these symptoms ?? Can I function normally after this??
@Kornyboyo1917 how on earth can I have symptoms lik weakness numbness tingling burning only on one side. I see no one gets this. This is something am worried about that am I the only one. I am scared this is a disability.
783 days off now
You are my bestie. You haloed me.
I'm not stopping my meds no not going to feel that shit no more its not as bad as this dude and thank god my symptoms stop when i start taking my meds again maby im not going through the same thing as him but ya i know whats up now😢 no im not stopping im not going through that again no
Hey Matt.hope u r doing better every day. I am 1 year off... And suffering delibating symptoms from lexapro tones of them. This brain fog is very severe. Does ur brain fog got better with time? ❤
Hey there. It still comes and goes, but I do get times where I don’t experience it now. It can take a long time to go away for some people. It will improve, just keep going ❤️
I have rough panic attacks and thaught about meds. So far no meds over 20 yrs.
I've been on benzos and Gabapentin over 20 years.
I'm in tolerance withdrawal and too afraid to start tapering off, because everyone says things are worse off for many years and I'm already older.
I understand. Everyone’s journey is different, truly. You may feel better when you come off the drugs, there’s just no way of knowing. If you do decide to taper, do it SO slowly. Slower than you think you need to. Sending love ❤️
@@Heymattmarin
Thank you for that bit of importance information, because I often try to rush things.
Please keep updating anything positive you notice nomatter how small it may seem.
Breakthroughs often start with those.❤️
I have alot of this from thc, I been off cannabis for 4 months now and this is hell! The head pressure got a little better but the akathisia is the worst now! I dont think it's as bad as yours! It's just from my cannabanoid receptors are healing. It can take 6 months to 2 years to heal! Do you take any medication at all to help with your symptoms? I dont mean the ones that caused this crap! I mean like can you take anything to help,
I’m sorry. No, I haven’t found much that helps to be totally honest. I think it’s about time, rest, and good nutrition/water. Hang in there ❤️
Thanks
Hey bud, I would suggest looking at Agmatine Sulfate! Its a non-addictive workout supplement thats being studied for benzo and opiate withdrawal ! Look into it, It works by reducing excess glutamate in the brain which gives rise to the sensitivity, anxiety, tremors and depression caused by the trimming of GABA receptors
Another thing that could help is Kavakava and CBD when you begin to feel the anxiety starting , taking some kava kava capsules with a few drops of cbd in oil could cut that sensation back before it seriously takes hold
Lastly , a probiotic such as the one by neuralli can help with the digestion issues and even depression, there are important receptors in the gut that are likely associated with your situation 👍🏽
Hope any one of these can help you friend ❤️
Just read the comment below about how probiotics make ur situation worse, sorry to hear
Still would highly advise you to try the agmatine sulfate, changed my whole taper and jump off ❤
Kava kava also helps with the night time insomnia which is the worst
Some nights I take Benadryl when I realize the insomnia gonna be too bad for the herbs 🌿
@@chupacabra304 thank you, I’ve never even heard of that. I will check it out. I appreciate you!
@@Heymattmarin bless up, It’s starting to become more commonplace in forums. It started out as a workout supplement that was added to reduce anxiety in the pre workouts which have ridiculously high amounts of caffeine. i ordered a 50$ bottle of 250 grams powder from nootropics direct , before checking amazon and there is a 1 KILO bag for like 5$ more . I take 1000mg morning and night to great effect
I post it on every video I watch about this topic to try and spread the word . Besides the agmatine sulfate and herbs i’ve also started taking lions mane and cordyceps mushroom to help wit neuroplasticity
@@chupacabra304ow are you now friend
Have you tried magnesium supplement?
Well with his diarrhea magnesium might make that worse cause it has laxative effects but magnesium is only vitamin that helped my anixtey a very little but noticeable way so yes magnesium is good recommendation just not if you have diarrhea
Our body can not survive without Magnesium, this is one way to gently bring it into your body. You can make or buy Magnesium Chloride flakes and massage into skin so it bypasses the digestive system. Half a mug of flakes, half hot filtered water, stir, cool....that's called Magnesium Oil. Patch test, If it itches skin, dilute down until skin is okay with it. Don't use on broken or inflamed skin.Start slow, rub in a little to the tummy, back of legs, inside arms. Do 1/day, then twice/day or more...just build up very slowly. Evening time is great to help sleep. Use Mag Chloride flakes or the cheaper Epsom salt in foot baths to let a little Magnesium in through your skin....build up tolerance. Much love to you all, what amazing people you are!@@bigsteppa2200
The drugs destroyed the cranial nerves. Oof. To loud to tight too fast too bright.
How long have you been on the meds?
I’ve been off of everything for almost 3 years.
@@Heymattmarin how long did u take the meds?
@@mitch5222 7.5 years
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