I lost my husband 9yrs ago to lung cancer, I was with him till the end. I still have flash backs but I promise it gets better Kyle….Give yourself grace….Do things you enjoy, get that camper out there. I’m praying for you
I am going thru lung cancer and end stage COPD with my husband. We have been married 30 years and I love him so much!!! This is killing me! I am sorry for your loss😢
So sorry so many young women getting non smoking lung cancer. Kyle apple beautiful wife Jenny died. My partner died pancreatitis in his sleep 😴 at 33. My beautiful niece took her life at 16,both in 2020. I can only advise sweetie , your very attractive lady. Get a healthy picture of before you git diagnosed, light 💚 candle and put sunflower 🌻 next and pray 🙏 to archangel Raphael to heal yourself. I'm hear of you need a friend in need friend in deed, meditation might help if obviously anxious 😰 xx
Just passed the 10 year mark of when my husband earned his wings. I still get hit with waves of sadness, not as much anymore . Kyle, it's like when you first met Jenny, everything was a first, as a new couple. Seeing life through each others eyes. Death brings all that back around, except the spouse who is left now has all those new first experiences to endure. You two had a strong bond, and not even death can break. Hold on to your memories but make room for new happy ones. Jenny would want you to keep living and raising your children in love. She is only gone from your sight. She is everywhere around you all. God bless you all
This was so touching! Made me cry. Your beautiful word's of wisdom spoke to me, but in a different way. I'm happy that you are at a place where healing, comfort, and peace have helped. You're an Angel 😇 May God continue to shine in you and through you! God Bless ❤️🙏
"I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible." ~When Harry Met Sally
You and Jenny had more love for each other in the time you had together than people do that live a lifetime and never get to experience that kind of love . What you and Jenny had was so special , you created some beautiful memories that you’ll always be able to cherish.
There are a lot of us out here who should have had the chance to grow old with our spouces. Unfortunately, the powers that be had different thoughts on how it should be. My husband passed 31 years ago. Somehow it's easier for a man than a woman. Everyone cones out if the woodwork to help the male but I think they feel that's a woman's job so we don't need help. Also a man is more prone to getting married again because women aren't afraid to take on a man with a famiky. Men don't think that way. They don't want to take on a woman with children. Life isn't fair. 31 years later I'm still lonely.
@@sandrabugler9813 completely agree with you. We're left to deal with these feelings alone. A lot of what Kyle says also applies to childless women who never met 'the one' in time to have children with them. A lifetime of grieving babies that were never conceived and enduring the loneliness of never having a love. Always dancing alone. I both lost a partner to cancer and never got to have children. Still waiting to find true love.
I was widowed after 23 yrs of marriage at age 41. For a long time, seeing elderly couples out shopping together used to hit me hard every time, especially if they were with their grandchildren because we would never get that. I give you a lot of credit for going to the wedding. My best friend's daughter was married the year my husband died, and I couldn't handle attending. I've been so close to the bride since she was only 9 mo old so I felt so guilty but I couldn't do it.
That's tough teenagers when met,then taken away after 23 years coming up to 4 years in may. When my fiancee of nearly 4 years,he was only 33, niece 16 took her own life. She. Ever show any depression. Thoughts and prayers are with a yone going through grieving,no one escapes unfortunately that's life🙏🌻♥️
I'm so glad you are able to share all your feelings with us. I wish I could give you a big motherly hug. You are doing amazingly. Heaps of love to you Kyle and your sweet babies 🐨🐨🐨🐨🐨
I had the love of my life, just like Kyle n the option for another in my life was not an option, but everybody different. I am getting ready for 19 yrs as a widow!
Prayers for you Kyle You are doing so good in your grief journey Jenny would have wanted you to be happy and I feel she is always with you We love you Kyle😍💐
No time frame on this grief Kyle. Some days, events, smells, movies just about anything and everything will be a reminder . My heart hurts with you. I will continue to pray for you .
My husband’s name was Harry and I am Sally. We took a lot of kidding over this-“I’ll have what she’s having.” I miss him every day. Certain songs send me into memories. My heart is with you.
When school is out you and the kids need to get out and go camping clear your mind get some fresh air and have fun . I keep you and the kids in my prayers
I think the wedding hit you harder than you realized might happen. There is no way you could watch a lovely wedding and not feel deep pain, even on a subconscious level. Makes complete sense! Hang in there Kyle. 💐
My heart breaks for you Kyle. This grief process is horrible. It hits you like a sledgehammer when you least expect it. I'm going through it now. My Mother passed away May 10,2023, from Cancer the day before Mothers Day. I've had at least 3 dreams with her this week and I've cried much. Mothers Day is always tough for me. Praying for you Kyle, Ellis, Winnie. 🙏🙏🙏
Oh Kyle. ❤ You and Jenny do have a love story. Many, many people never experience a love like yours and Jenny’s. Jenny was called to heaven too soon - however the quality of you love is endless.
I know what you mean about losing a childhood dream. As the oldest of 8 kids, I always saw myself around the dinner table with tons of children all around sharing the day’s events. And then, I had a hysterectomy at age 26. I am so sorry, Kyle, there is nothing I can say to ease your pain, and that’s an awful feeling to have, but I am praying for you.
@@kkdoc7864 Aunts are usually cool but the best ones are those with time for them, and when we dont have our own kids, including prior to having any and after they have flown the nest, we have far more time & patience than their parents or siblings g, so Aunt is often like a best friend for life. ( in my experience) 💞💝👍🏼
Its been 7 yrs since I lost my husband. The pain was unbearable but it gets better with time. Still, wish he was here and I miss him but I now smile thinking about him and my heart doesn't feel empty now. God is my Healer and Saviour!
I am sorry you are taken back to the moment she passed. I too spend too much time at that moment with my loved one…. Especially when I’m deep in grief. Sending love and prayers for healing to your heart. 💔❤🙏🏻
I lost my husband suddenly without warning exactly 2 months ago yesterday, he was 59. I keep going back to your channel to find some kind of peace. I've followed Jenny's cancer journey since the beginning. I know you Miss her, I don't think that feeling will ever go away, I believe it just shifts over time. I just want to thank you Kyle, for helping me through this. Diane
I lost my mom to cancer just 3 months before. It is still tough to believe that I lost my mom; my every part of life be it small or big is directly or indirectly associated to my mom.😢
Sometimes I just want to cry for you Kyle. I can't begin to imagine how hard it must be at times😢. Keep close to God because when we walk closely with Him He fills the gap in your heart because He loves you❤
I think timing is up to Kyle and if he finds someone sooner than later and the kids are good with it he should make that decision knowing he has Jennys blessings and ours also
Lonely hurts. Have those moments. You will get through it to a happier place. When my husband died and I had these moments and I would look in the mirror and say what he used to to say “I choose to be happy”. It will never go away but gets more tolerable. Less of those lonely times. It is still pretty fresh with you Kyle. Keep your strength to journey forward. Love you Kyle.You are a great soul and the best father and partner.
As you speak, I am hearing the lyrics to Diamond Rio’s “One More Day” and trying to fight back tears from the heartbreak I am feeling for you right now. Prayers for strength and comfort in these times where the bitterness of sorrow creep in. Jenny would be so intensely proud of you and the kids in how you all have handled this grief journey so far.
I totally understand how you feel. I’m struggling to get his last full day out of my mind too. I know I’m focusing on the wrong thing but I can’t stop. Sending love xx
Same with me we were extremely close and certain times of the year we did special things. I’m married but I was so close to my brother and ofcourse what he died from was horrible and I tried to take care of him the best I could. He passed away in 2019 and still he comes in my mind constantly. Crazy I even talk to him. He knew I loved butterflies so much and I have a butterfly garden so ofcourse there’s times I say hi to my brother.
last year, at age 74 I lost my 83 yr old brother. I’m surprised that this loss was worse than losing my parents. I was 40 when my mom died and 42 when I lost my dad, but my brother was in my life for 73 yrs. It’s terrible. He was the last person I could share memories of our parents, our childhood home, all those memories. It feels so empty.
Kyle your doing so well. This life can be cruel but also Beautiful. Cruel because it took away your Beautiful Jenny But gave you your life with Jenny and your children something that will never change us the love you both had for each other .Jenny is your soulmate and think you are the last man she loved ever she took the live she shared with you and your children and friends and family with her for eternity..you were both lucky to if found each other and created a Beautitul family with Beautiful Memories. Everything will b a first now but this will make you stronger. Your AMAZING.Take care x
As someone still grieving over the biggest loss of my life …I get it. And yes the movie does bring such emotion. I love that movie!💛. Prayers for you and your beautiful children 🙏
I also think it's really hard to comprehend losing Jenny. She was not like others. She was special. She did everything right. It makes no sense. I truly feel like it makes it so much harder. The only way it can begin to make any sense is an angel was needed. And that was Jenny. 🐞🦋
The anniversary of the worst day of my life is coming up on the 9th. Triggers are everywhere, all the time. Alex had the sweetest, kindest heart. He was growing into this incredible man, I struggle every day riding those waves of grief and PTSD memories that just pop up. Let those tears fall. It gets hard, then easier, then back again. When we are struggling, they are near. xoxo Thank you for being so honest. You have been so helpful.
You walking through your triggers is healing a huge part of you. You handled it really well. The emotional release after being triggered is healthy and needed. The crying is that release....it's better than it being stored in your body. Time for another massage to get those emotions worked out of your body.
My heart hurts for you but it’s good to let it out ! I lost my husband 3 years ago I was a mess but I keep praying it helps l still find it hard that he’s gone ! You are doing amazing! All that you do with the kids ! Love you all and miss Jenny !💔😪🙏🏻
We all get such undescribable heartbreak, where you feel like you cant catch your breath because the loss cuts to the core of you. What a great love you had with Jenny and she always looked at you with such security and safety that you gave her Kyle to fight. You two are matched soulmates, its beautiful what you shared. Your road now with grief for beautiful Jenny will always come in waves, please let those waves wash over your heart and help you heal and you will slowly. Give yourself grace, its your road to peace again.🙏
For me Kyle I am always grieving deep down. The sadness is like a volcano, always churning deep and then suddenly it erupts. Three years later I think I’m still in denial in a way. I don’t want to believe it. I want to believe he’s still here with me. You know what, it’s ok. I’m just going to ride the waves because to me it’s keeping him alive in some way for me. I don’t know if that sounds strange, but it is what it is. They are forever in our hearts our lives. 🦋
For me, I think the denial is just a form of shock which our brains do to protect us. It is far too much to process so we do little by little over a long period of time, or that is how it has been for me.
It's been ten years for me and I absolutely relate to your comment. Thank you for putting into words what is difficult for me to describe. Hugs to you and everyone who relates.❤
Try to think how happy and blessed Jenny is to be out of pain. This time on earth will pass in a blink of an eye. Then you will have ETERNITY to spend with each other and be in a place where there is no pain, no sickness, no evil, only the glory of the Lord of you have given your heart to God.
“You talk a death, to death”, keep sharing Kyle. Find the daily blessing, feel the daily pain and feed the heart with the never ending love around you. 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻❣️
My son died of lung cancer 10 days ago. He was young like your Jenny. Have followed you guys for months when she was still on her journey. I know how it feels to lose someone you love so much. Hang in there. You’re so honest. 🙏
Hey Kyle. Valerie Here. Yes there's going to be many little pangs in yr heart thru out yr grieving process. Who wouldn't pine for such a beautiful wife and person than yr Jen Kyle. I'm sure in time the pain with get lesser. My daughters friend recently died of ovarian cancer leaving behind a devoted heartbroken husband & 3 kids under 10. She was a beautiful soul too & so healthy living. You're def not alone here. It's mind boggling but God only takes the best. ❤
Yr pain will fade in time Kyle but you'll never forget yr precious wife. She fought the good fight for more time with you & yr kids. She put herself thru many painful procedures. When she was so sick she just pushed herself so hard. How are the kids coping BTW? I hope they're doing well. Talk it out with us Kyle. We don't care if u vent or go quiet we are here bcos we care.
I lost my husband in 2021 due to covid. We’re both in our 70’s. We were married almost 30 years. Hold on to your good & positive thoughts Kyle. They will see you through your grief. I promise. 💞
It’s OK to cry you have feelings that’s why your such a good dad. Cry all you want until the tears dry up. Love to you and the beautiful kids of yours❤.
Kyle, you may not have the love story you hoped for, but I guarantee you you've had an even more precious love story in a shorter length of time with Jen. I've cherished your love story. You two were amazing together, and that will always be with you. I've had 50 years with my husband, the love of my life. I know it's not helpful since she's gone, but you will always carry your love story in your heart. So many will never have that. I know how fortunate I am, but I'll never have enough time with my love. God bless you, 🙌 🙏 sending prayers for peace.
❤you are so blessed to have a beautiful love story with Jenny❤ Grief sucks!!! I still go through waves of grief!! My spouse walked out after 40 years of marriage 😢 he chose to leave…Jenny didn’t choose to leave…Rejoice in the beauty of the loving relationship you had. Be thankful and grateful for her. We grieve for those we love ❤️ God bless you for going to your friend’s wedding!! I couldn’t go to a wedding for several years. Love and blessings. 🙏🩷🙏🩷🙏
It would be so hard to go through that grief. It is wonderful that you were still able to have a good time at the wedding and be there for your friend. I’m so sorry afterwards was hard, though. I’m praying for you!
Kyle - It will get better - those lonely times are very lonely & no one can understand that unless you have been through it. Remember day by day❤❤❤❤❤🙏🙏🙏🙏
My sister lost her husband 11years ago ,still goes to talk to him, she lonely misses him all the time. 😢 God bless you and your children 🙏 Cindy from New Mexico Mexico
Really praying for you Kyle. One thought of mine was you treated Jenny so loving and caring every day of your lives. You can look back and know that treated her so well. You made her so happy ❤❤
Aww. You are strong Kyle and you will all get through this. One day at a time. Congrats on your best friend's wedding and totally understand the emotions. Very raw still and will take time to heal. God will heal your hearts in time. 🙏😁
Hi Kyle, now is the time to be strong because it is a very low time in this greaving time. Remember, you were kind of strong, but now you have a dip. You can cry whenever you want. And you're more than welcome to cry and open your heart on this RUclips channel. Remember, we all are family. We all went through her illnesses and funeral, etc. It is Therapeutically to let everything out. Awe my heart goes out to you, I am so sorry for your grieve. 😢 We will keep on praying for you and the kids. Thanks for the update. Be strong🙏🏻. Big hugs Melinda from South-Africa.
It was traumatic, the end was… your love for Jenny is the fun and the great. It’s more than ok to say you wouldn’t want to go back to the harder times. I hope you know we have virtual arms hugging you ❤❤ love from the UK 🎉
Let yourself feel whatever you need to feel. Thats whats get you through. Allow WHATEVER you need or want do. You have more than 100,00 people here to help you along. We are all with you. Not every one can they have that many friends who care despite never meeting. We love you ❤
watching you “ trying to hold it together Kyle”, BLESS YOU, Bless your heart , You are SO Vulnerable in your grief, Thankyou for sharing your feelings for your Jenny, Cancer SUCKS!!!
I can relate so much, dear Kyle. Harry & Sally was a favorite of my person who's gone this May for 4 years. I wish you two could have grown old together and I also wish I could have had my happy ending as well. It's okay to cry. I absolutely can relate to having beautiful moments like this lovely wedding, seeing your friends and then when home again for a while realizing that something very important just keeps missing forever - your best friend. Sending you a big hug.
Hi Kyle, I have supported you and Jenny through this cancer journey. I now share in being in grief once again. 10 years ago, this past lost my Mom of diabetic complication, and 12 days later, I lost my Dad to prostate cancer. They had been divorced over 30 years, and we hadn't seen our father in over 20+ years. It was a very hard, dark time for me. Now, 10 years later, my brother has been taken. 💔😭 He passed away at home alone due to a medical emergency. The M.E. is still waiting for additional lab test to make a final determination of the cause of death, but currently, they believe it to have been from a GI bleed. I struggle with worrying he suffered or if he had time to know what was happening, but couldn't get to his cell phone to call for help. The Last communication we had was on my birthday at 11 p.m.. We truly believe he passed on 4/13 but was not found until the welfare check 4/15. We couldn't get closure at his service because they told us it would be best for our mental state to keep it closed casket. So I didn't get to see him to say goodbye. So my mind is struggling with it not being real. Please keep my family in prayer as I pray for you too. 🫂😔😢💔😭
I don’t like to be nosy but why or who told you to keep the casket closed? Both my brothers were funeral directors and I worked at one where they were and never heard of this. A man had most of his face shot off and it’s an art but my one brother got a picture from the family and reconstructed him. The family was so happy and it gave them closure.
@wendyouellette The funeral director told us that. I guess due to it being almost 3 days before they found the body so there was swelling and discoloration. They said when the GA funeral services processed the body prior to him being flown to OK said there was some skin slippage during the embalming process. The M.E. had told my husband the night they found him as well that he didn't feel it could be an open casket I had an ex brother-in-law shoot himself in the head 11 years ago, and they were able to do an open casket.
You know what all your animals two dogs and a cat all of them felt you having strong feelings!! They all jumped up to u. To show luv n support. That was really sweet 🌸🙏🏻. You my dear are allowed to feel happy then sad then lonely it’s ok. It’s normal You are very strong we are here for you sending you hugs. Jenny is right there too. It’s hard it’s devastating grief. Sometimes a random video pops up in my feed with Jenny’s beautiful face. And I CRY. So you are allowed to cry boo we all miss her just so u know. N we luv u ❤️🌹🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻♥️♥️🌹🌹🌹
Proud of you Kyle. You only had two choices. To stay home and miss a wedding and drown in your grief, or be brave and go to the wedding IN SPITE OF grief hitting so hard. I am happy you chose the latter. It doesn't take the grief away, and there will be many more times when grief will hit you like a brick. You will always miss Jenny. You will always love Jenny. But you have to continue living, and being OK with feeling happy. It's tough, it's painful. Ellis having a good cry about you leaving was definitely the trauma. You are his glue now. Two days to a kid who is also still grieving probably felt to him like it was a week. All 3 of you are going to continue to have "firsts" where grief will come. Day by day, year by year, the grief will not feel all consuming, the pain will dull, yet you will always remember Jenny. It is so good that you had some adult time, time with your friends and that you enjoyed the wedding. I am positive Jenny was smiling from wherever her soul is. This was a big step for you to leave the kids and do something for yourself. There is still a YOU Kyle. You are doing a great job carrying on life without Jenny. Finding the Kyle you were before love and marriage is important now. You were so young when you married Jenny. Now you are finding and defining who you are as a more mature grown-up man. Adulting is so hard sometimes.
You and Jenny were absolutely beautiful twin souls!!!! You really are so strong, Kyle. I was not even functioning for about almost a whole year (that I remember) when I lost my Mom. Give yourself time to just take it one second at a time. Thinking of you, Ellis and Winnie - always in my daily thoughts and prayers!!! Sending hugs, love, good vibes and blessings!! You are all so loved!!❤
Kyle, I lost my husband on EasterSunday 03/31/24 and he was born on Easter Sunday on 04/10/55 we were married for 39 yrs and I think your an amazing person 💕🙏🏻💕
I lost my husband 9yrs ago to lung cancer, I was with him till the end. I still have flash backs but I promise it gets better Kyle….Give yourself grace….Do things you enjoy, get that camper out there. I’m praying for you
I feel all yere pain,so sorry 😐
Absolutely start camping with the kids and friends
I am going thru lung cancer and end stage COPD with my husband. We have been married 30 years and I love him so much!!! This is killing me! I am sorry for your loss😢
So sorry so many young women getting non smoking lung cancer. Kyle apple beautiful wife Jenny died. My partner died pancreatitis in his sleep 😴 at 33. My beautiful niece took her life at 16,both in 2020. I can only advise sweetie , your very attractive lady. Get a healthy picture of before you git diagnosed, light 💚 candle and put sunflower 🌻 next and pray 🙏 to archangel Raphael to heal yourself. I'm hear of you need a friend in need friend in deed, meditation might help if obviously anxious 😰 xx
Lost my husband 12 yrs ago with lung cancer, it does get better
Just passed the 10 year mark of when my husband earned his wings. I still get hit with waves of sadness, not as much anymore . Kyle, it's like when you first met Jenny, everything was a first, as a new couple. Seeing life through each others eyes. Death brings all that back around, except the spouse who is left now has all those new first experiences to endure. You two had a strong bond, and not even death can break. Hold on to your memories but make room for new happy ones. Jenny would want you to keep living and raising your children in love. She is only gone from your sight. She is everywhere around you all.
God bless you all
that’s lovely ❤
This was so touching! Made me cry. Your beautiful word's of wisdom spoke to me, but in a different way. I'm happy that you are at a place where healing, comfort, and peace have helped. You're an Angel 😇 May God continue to shine in you and through you! God Bless ❤️🙏
Such beautiful, touching words of wisdom. Blessings to you my dear.
So sorry Kyle. I hope the load gets lighter as time passes. Sending prayers🙏 for the healing of your heart. God Bless my dear.
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"I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible." ~When Harry Met Sally
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I just love that movie ❤
One of my all time favorite movies. 😊
Love it so much
Yes, that movie is so great!
Losing your spouse gives another definition of "alone". No one can understand it until it happens to them.
You and Jenny had more love for each other in the time you had together than people do that live a lifetime and never get to experience that kind of love . What you and Jenny had was so special , you created some beautiful memories that you’ll always be able to cherish.
So true❤
Yes, I’ve not been so blessed. You and Jenny had a truly amazing relationship!! So rare
Life can be sooo not fair 😢😢😢 you should have had the chance to grow old with Jenny ❤ BIG HUGS KYLE❤
There are a lot of us out here who should have had the chance to grow old with our spouces. Unfortunately, the powers that be had different thoughts on how it should be. My husband passed 31 years ago. Somehow it's easier for a man than a woman. Everyone cones out if the woodwork to help the male but I think they feel that's a woman's job so we don't need help. Also a man is more prone to getting married again because women aren't afraid to take on a man with a famiky. Men don't think that way. They don't want to take on a woman with children. Life isn't fair. 31 years later I'm still lonely.
Your children should have a mommy. It’s incredibly sad.
@@sandrabugler9813 completely agree with you. We're left to deal with these feelings alone. A lot of what Kyle says also applies to childless women who never met 'the one' in time to have children with them. A lifetime of grieving babies that were never conceived and enduring the loneliness of never having a love. Always dancing alone. I both lost a partner to cancer and never got to have children. Still waiting to find true love.
I will always remember sweet Jenny and her beautiful smile 🐞❤️🐞
I was widowed after 23 yrs of marriage at age 41. For a long time, seeing elderly couples out shopping together used to hit me hard every time, especially if they were with their grandchildren because we would never get that. I give you a lot of credit for going to the wedding. My best friend's daughter was married the year my husband died, and I couldn't handle attending. I've been so close to the bride since she was only 9 mo old so I felt so guilty but I couldn't do it.
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That's tough teenagers when met,then taken away after 23 years coming up to 4 years in may. When my fiancee of nearly 4 years,he was only 33, niece 16 took her own life. She. Ever show any depression. Thoughts and prayers are with a yone going through grieving,no one escapes unfortunately that's life🙏🌻♥️
There is nothing more beautiful than an elderly couple walking, still holding hands...
And powerful. They got through a whole life together without letting anyone or anything destroy what they have.
When happy moments collide with your most heartbreaking memories it can be an emotional storm.
I'm so glad you are able to share all your feelings with us. I wish I could give you a big motherly hug. You are doing amazingly. Heaps of love to you Kyle and your sweet babies 🐨🐨🐨🐨🐨
Beautifully stated
I love how all your animals rally around you when you are feeling sad. Proud of you and sending virtual hugs.
I have a strong feeling life will bring you love again!!🙏❤
I think so too I don't think it should be rushed but I do believe it will happen
@@amandawray7662 I know it will..I can just sense it!!!!
Jenny said it herself everyone don’t get mad at Kyle when he finds another ❤
I had the love of my life, just like Kyle n the option for another in my life was not an option, but everybody different. I am getting ready for 19 yrs as a widow!
Prayers for you Kyle You are doing so good in your grief journey Jenny would have wanted you to be happy and I feel she is always with you We love you Kyle😍💐
No time frame on this grief Kyle. Some days, events, smells, movies just about anything and everything will be a reminder . My heart hurts with you. I will continue to pray for you .
My husband’s name was Harry and I am Sally. We took a lot of kidding over this-“I’ll have what she’s having.” I miss him every day. Certain songs send me into memories. My heart is with you.
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That was a great line. I think that actress was Rob Reiner's mother!
When school is out you and the kids need to get out and go camping clear your mind get some fresh air and have fun . I keep you and the kids in my prayers
I love how your animals are right there lending support!
Hold her close to your heart. She’s always with you. ❤
I so much agree Michelle ❤
Truly!!🥰👍🏼
I think the wedding hit you harder than you realized might happen. There is no way you could watch a lovely wedding and not feel deep pain, even on a subconscious level. Makes complete sense! Hang in there Kyle. 💐
Im so sorry Kyle….grief is like a roller coaster. Hugs from a Grammy!!!
❤sending lots of love to you Kyle xxv
Good morning Kyle, Ellis, Winnie, Flower and Huckle!
It's the waves of grief....hard to control sometimes. It's so overwhelming ❤
Hi Mr. Apple 🍎🍏 I admire you are a really good man. I love hearing you talk about your wife and keep her memory alive
My heart breaks for you Kyle. This grief process is horrible.
It hits you like a sledgehammer when you least expect it. I'm going through it now. My Mother passed away May 10,2023, from Cancer the day before Mothers Day. I've had at least 3 dreams with her this week and I've cried much.
Mothers Day is always tough for me. Praying for you Kyle, Ellis, Winnie. 🙏🙏🙏
Its prob your Mom popping in to let you know shes ok! Keep smiling! 😊
Oh Kyle. ❤ You and Jenny do have a love story. Many, many people never experience a love like yours and Jenny’s. Jenny was called to heaven too soon - however the quality of you love is endless.
I know what you mean about losing a childhood dream. As the oldest of 8 kids, I always saw myself around the dinner table with tons of children all around sharing the day’s events. And then, I had a hysterectomy at age 26. I am so sorry, Kyle, there is nothing I can say to ease your pain, and that’s an awful feeling to have, but I am praying for you.
Best Aunt on the planet I bet! 💞💝💞
@@ilb735 what a sweet thing to say.
@@kkdoc7864 Aunts are usually cool but the best ones are those with time for them, and when we dont have our own kids, including prior to having any and after they have flown the nest, we have far more time & patience than their parents or siblings g, so Aunt is often like a best friend for life. ( in my experience) 💞💝👍🏼
Its been 7 yrs since I lost my husband. The pain was unbearable but it gets better with time. Still, wish he was here and I miss him but I now smile thinking about him and my heart doesn't feel empty now. God is my Healer and Saviour!
I am sorry you are taken back to the moment she passed. I too spend too much time at that moment with my loved one…. Especially when I’m deep in grief. Sending love and prayers for healing to your heart. 💔❤🙏🏻
I lost my husband suddenly without warning exactly 2 months ago yesterday, he was 59. I keep going back to your channel to find some kind of peace. I've followed Jenny's cancer journey since the beginning. I know you Miss her, I don't think that feeling will ever go away, I believe it just shifts over time. I just want to thank you Kyle, for helping me through this.
Diane
So sorry for your loss.
I just lost one of my best friends unexpectedly. No idea. He just passed in his sleep. It's hard. I feel for you Kyle. Stay strong. God bless.
I lost my mom to cancer just 3 months before. It is still tough to believe that I lost my mom; my every part of life be it small or big is directly or indirectly associated to my mom.😢
It’s OK to cry. We all need to relieve ourselves once you cry you feel relieved so when you need to cry, don’t hold back release the pain.
Sometimes I just want to cry for you Kyle. I can't begin to imagine how hard it must be at times😢. Keep close to God because when we walk closely with Him He fills the gap in your heart because He loves you❤
I just wanna give you a hug!! I am sending comforting prayers to you Kyle. ❤
I think timing is up to Kyle and if he finds someone sooner than later and the kids are good with it he should make that decision knowing he has Jennys blessings and ours also
Lonely hurts. Have those moments. You will get through it to a happier place. When my husband died and I had these moments and I would look in the mirror and say what he used to to say “I choose to be happy”. It will never go away but gets more tolerable. Less of those lonely times. It is still pretty fresh with you Kyle. Keep your strength to journey forward. Love you Kyle.You are a great soul and the best father and partner.
As you speak, I am hearing the lyrics to Diamond Rio’s “One More Day” and trying to fight back tears from the heartbreak I am feeling for you right now. Prayers for strength and comfort in these times where the bitterness of sorrow creep in. Jenny would be so intensely proud of you and the kids in how you all have handled this grief journey so far.
My brother died in 2021, the enduring memory is of his last days, it's awful, can't get it out of my mind.
Same
I totally understand how you feel. I’m struggling to get his last full day out of my mind too.
I know I’m focusing on the wrong thing but I can’t stop. Sending love xx
He would hate for you to do that to yourself
Same with me we were extremely close and certain times of the year we did special things. I’m married but I was so close to my brother and ofcourse what he died from was horrible and I tried to take care of him the best I could. He passed away in 2019 and still he comes in my mind constantly. Crazy I even talk to him. He knew I loved butterflies so much and I have a butterfly garden so ofcourse there’s times I say hi to my brother.
last year, at age 74 I lost my 83 yr old brother. I’m surprised that this loss was worse than losing my parents. I was 40 when my mom died and 42 when I lost my dad, but my brother was in my life for 73 yrs. It’s terrible. He was the last person I could share memories of our parents, our childhood home, all those memories. It feels so empty.
Kyle your doing so well. This life can be cruel but also Beautiful. Cruel because it took away your Beautiful Jenny
But gave you your life with Jenny and your children something that will never change us the love you both had for each other .Jenny is your soulmate and think you are the last man she loved ever she took the live she shared with you and your children and friends and family with her for eternity..you were both lucky to if found each other and created a Beautitul family with Beautiful Memories. Everything will b a first now but this will make you stronger. Your AMAZING.Take care x
As someone still grieving over the biggest loss of my life …I get it.
And yes the movie does bring such emotion. I love that movie!💛. Prayers for you and your beautiful children 🙏
I also think it's really hard to comprehend losing Jenny. She was not like others. She was special. She did everything right. It makes no sense. I truly feel like it makes it so much harder. The only way it can begin to make any sense is an angel was needed. And that was Jenny. 🐞🦋
Did you personally know Jenny?
You are a wonderful example to all of us. Life is so short. God will carry you through all of this. God bless you and the kids.
The anniversary of the worst day of my life is coming up on the 9th. Triggers are everywhere, all the time. Alex had the sweetest, kindest heart. He was growing into this incredible man, I struggle every day riding those waves of grief and PTSD memories that just pop up. Let those tears fall. It gets hard, then easier, then back again. When we are struggling, they are near. xoxo Thank you for being so honest. You have been so helpful.
You walking through your triggers is healing a huge part of you. You handled it really well. The emotional release after being triggered is healthy and needed. The crying is that release....it's better than it being stored in your body. Time for another massage to get those emotions worked out of your body.
Kyle we love you and your sweet children 💞 Jenny was a beautiful ❤️ soul we will never forget 🌹 her ! God bless you thanks for sharing!
My heart hurts for you but it’s good to let it out ! I lost my husband 3 years ago I was a mess but I keep praying it helps l still find it hard that he’s gone ! You are doing amazing! All that you do with the kids ! Love you all and miss Jenny !💔😪🙏🏻
Happy Birthday to Leo. He has his mom with him this year and forevermore. Miss you Jen. 6 months.
Love to you, the kids, and the pups Kyle! Miss you Jenny! 🙏🏽♥️🐞✨
We all get such undescribable heartbreak, where you feel like you cant catch your breath because the loss cuts to the core of you. What a great love you had with Jenny and she always looked at you with such security and safety that you gave her Kyle to fight. You two are matched soulmates, its beautiful what you shared. Your road now with grief for beautiful Jenny will always come in waves, please let those waves wash over your heart and help you heal and you will slowly. Give yourself grace, its your road to peace again.🙏
Beautifully said ❤
Losing your best friend its hurtful ...❤kyle god is with you ..❤
For me Kyle I am always grieving deep down. The sadness is like a volcano, always churning deep and then suddenly it erupts. Three years later I think I’m still in denial in a way. I don’t want to believe it. I want to believe he’s still here with me. You know what, it’s ok. I’m just going to ride the waves because to me it’s keeping him alive in some way for me.
I don’t know if that sounds strange, but it is what it is. They are forever in our hearts our lives. 🦋
I can relate to this so much. It's almost 4 years for me but I still feel kind of in denial. Bless you.
For me, I think the denial is just a form of shock which our brains do to protect us. It is far too much to process so we do little by little over a long period of time, or that is how it has been for me.
It's been ten years for me and I absolutely relate to your comment. Thank you for putting into words what is difficult for me to describe. Hugs to you and everyone who relates.❤
@@misslovejoy1665 bless you💕
@@sunshine9122 awe so sorry. It is so hard to articulate.
Try to think how happy and blessed Jenny is to be out of pain. This time on earth will pass in a blink of an eye. Then you will have ETERNITY to spend with each other and be in a place where there is no pain, no sickness, no evil, only the glory of the Lord of you have given your heart to God.
Wish i had words to bring you comfort. Praying for you🙏🙏
Sorry for your loss 💔
“You talk a death, to death”, keep sharing Kyle. Find the daily blessing, feel the daily pain and feed the heart with the never ending love around you. 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻❣️
My son died of lung cancer 10 days ago. He was young like your Jenny. Have followed you guys for months when she was still on her journey. I know how it feels to lose someone you love so much. Hang in there. You’re so honest. 🙏
I'm sorry for you, and your family's loss! Sending positive vibes!
Sorry for your loss 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜
So sorry!
My prayers and thoughts are with you ❤️🙏❤️
I can’t think of anything worse. I am so sorry.
Kyle, I’m sending love and prayers your way. ❤❤
Hey Kyle. Valerie Here.
Yes there's going to be many little pangs in yr heart thru out yr grieving process. Who wouldn't pine for such a beautiful wife and person than yr Jen Kyle. I'm sure in time the pain with get lesser. My daughters friend recently died of ovarian cancer leaving behind a devoted heartbroken husband & 3 kids under 10. She was a beautiful soul too & so healthy living.
You're def not alone here. It's mind boggling but God only takes the best. ❤
Yr pain will fade in time Kyle but you'll never forget yr precious wife. She fought the good fight for more time with you & yr kids. She put herself thru many painful procedures. When she was so sick she just pushed herself so hard. How are the kids coping BTW? I hope they're doing well. Talk it out with us Kyle. We don't care if u vent or go quiet we are here bcos we care.
Kyle, thank you so much for your vulnerability with us. Grief is so doggone messy. ❤❤❤
I lost my husband in 2021 due to covid. We’re both in our 70’s. We were married almost 30 years. Hold on to your good & positive thoughts Kyle. They will see you through your grief. I promise. 💞
It’s OK to cry you have feelings that’s why your such a good dad. Cry all you want until the tears dry up. Love to you and the beautiful kids of yours❤.
I’ve watched so many of Jenny’s videos and I keep waiting for a new one from her 💗. Jen, you are soooo missed!!!!!!
Hey Kyle, we're here for you. ❤😊
Kyle, you may not have the love story you hoped for, but I guarantee you you've had an even more precious love story in a shorter length of time with Jen. I've cherished your love story. You two were amazing together, and that will always be with you. I've had 50 years with my husband, the love of my life. I know it's not helpful since she's gone, but you will always carry your love story in your heart. So many will never have that. I know how fortunate I am, but I'll never have enough time with my love. God bless you, 🙌 🙏 sending prayers for peace.
It's the same with everyone. I often see stuff that my best friend would have liked and say to myself, "he would of loved that."
❤you are so blessed to have a beautiful love story with Jenny❤
Grief sucks!!! I still go through waves of grief!! My spouse walked out after 40 years of marriage 😢 he chose to leave…Jenny didn’t choose to leave…Rejoice in the beauty of the loving relationship you had. Be thankful and grateful for her.
We grieve for those we love ❤️
God bless you for going to your friend’s wedding!! I couldn’t go to a wedding for several years. Love and blessings. 🙏🩷🙏🩷🙏
Hi Kyle, please cry if you need to! It’s part of how you get through this awful part of life 🥰 Love to you and the kids ❤
It would be so hard to go through that grief. It is wonderful that you were still able to have a good time at the wedding and be there for your friend. I’m so sorry afterwards was hard, though. I’m praying for you!
Kyle - It will get better - those lonely times are very lonely & no one can understand that unless you have been through it. Remember day by day❤❤❤❤❤🙏🙏🙏🙏
Hang in there Kyle God Bless
My sister lost her husband 11years ago ,still goes to talk to him, she lonely misses him all the time. 😢 God bless you and your children 🙏 Cindy from New Mexico Mexico
Yaow
I wish i could give you a big hug!
You and Jenny still have the best love story ❤
I can say that Sunday morning after the wedding if Jenny was still with us. I could hear her say come on Kyle let us go get our babies!
Grief is so tough…Jenny will always live in your heart…but some days can be so long…
Really praying for you Kyle. One thought of mine was you treated Jenny so loving and caring every day of your lives. You can look back and know that treated her so well. You made her so happy ❤❤
So glad you had some ‘me time’ in a beautiful place with beautiful friends let your self enjoy the little things. Hugs. 🌊☀️🦭
Aww. You are strong Kyle and you will all get through this. One day at a time. Congrats on your best friend's wedding and totally understand the emotions. Very raw still and will take time to heal. God will heal your hearts in time. 🙏😁
Understandable the wedding brought up emotions. Glad you were able to see good friends and celebrate. 🙏❤
Hi Kyle, now is the time to be strong because it is a very low time in this greaving time. Remember, you were kind of strong, but now you have a dip. You can cry whenever you want. And you're more than welcome to cry and open your heart on this RUclips channel. Remember, we all are family. We all went through her illnesses and funeral, etc. It is Therapeutically to let everything out. Awe my heart goes out to you, I am so sorry for your grieve. 😢
We will keep on praying for you and the kids. Thanks for the update. Be strong🙏🏻.
Big hugs Melinda from South-Africa.
It was traumatic, the end was… your love for Jenny is the fun and the great. It’s more than ok to say you wouldn’t want to go back to the harder times. I hope you know we have virtual arms hugging you ❤❤ love from the UK 🎉
I know the feelings you are dealing with! We love you and the kids so much!❤
Let yourself feel whatever you need to feel. Thats whats get you through. Allow WHATEVER you need or want do. You have more than 100,00 people here to help you along. We are all with you. Not every one can they have that many friends who care despite never meeting. We love you ❤
Thank god for your kids they will keep you keeping on❤..so heartbreaking I can’t imagine
I'm so sorry for your pain Kyle. It's a huge deal going to a wedding without Jenny. Thank you for checking in with us.sebdibg love & prayers 💗🙏
watching you “ trying to hold it together Kyle”, BLESS YOU, Bless your heart , You are SO Vulnerable in your grief, Thankyou for sharing your feelings for your Jenny, Cancer SUCKS!!!
I can relate so much, dear Kyle. Harry & Sally was a favorite of my person who's gone this May for 4 years. I wish you two could have grown old together and I also wish I could have had my happy ending as well. It's okay to cry. I absolutely can relate to having beautiful moments like this lovely wedding, seeing your friends and then when home again for a while realizing that something very important just keeps missing forever - your best friend. Sending you a big hug.
Beautifully said...bless your ❤️
@@patriciasmiderle9181 Thank you and bless your heart as well!
Hi Kyle, I have supported you and Jenny through this cancer journey. I now share in being in grief once again. 10 years ago, this past lost my Mom of diabetic complication, and 12 days later, I lost my Dad to prostate cancer. They had been divorced over 30 years, and we hadn't seen our father in over 20+ years. It was a very hard, dark time for me.
Now, 10 years later, my brother has been taken. 💔😭 He passed away at home alone due to a medical emergency. The M.E. is still waiting for additional lab test to make a final determination of the cause of death, but currently, they believe it to have been from a GI bleed. I struggle with worrying he suffered or if he had time to know what was happening, but couldn't get to his cell phone to call for help. The Last communication we had was on my birthday at 11 p.m.. We truly believe he passed on 4/13 but was not found until the welfare check 4/15. We couldn't get closure at his service because they told us it would be best for our mental state to keep it closed casket. So I didn't get to see him to say goodbye. So my mind is struggling with it not being real.
Please keep my family in prayer as I pray for you too. 🫂😔😢💔😭
I don’t like to be nosy but why or who told you to keep the casket closed? Both my brothers were funeral directors and I worked at one where they were and never heard of this. A man had most of his face shot off and it’s an art but my one brother got a picture from the family and reconstructed him. The family was so happy and it gave them closure.
@wendyouellette The funeral director told us that. I guess due to it being almost 3 days before they found the body so there was swelling and discoloration. They said when the GA funeral services processed the body prior to him being flown to OK said there was some skin slippage during the embalming process. The M.E. had told my husband the night they found him as well that he didn't feel it could be an open casket
I had an ex brother-in-law shoot himself in the head 11 years ago, and they were able to do an open casket.
That's so heartbreaking. I'm really sorry for your family loss. I pray the Med Exam will find the cause. May God be with you all❤
Sending you and the kids lots of love and many blessings
One of these days you will find someone to be with, and you can share the love you had with Jenny to her.
thank you for sharing
Sending prayers your way ! Grief is so hard . 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
Hugs! It’s a process.
What you are feeling is natural ❤😢.
Thinking of you & Jenny as a couple, as family and as friends ❤❤❤ Keep the head high, dear Kyle!
You know what all your animals two dogs and a cat all of them felt you having strong feelings!! They all jumped up to u. To show luv n support. That was really sweet 🌸🙏🏻. You my dear are allowed to feel happy then sad then lonely it’s ok. It’s normal You are very strong we are here for you sending you hugs. Jenny is right there too. It’s hard it’s devastating grief. Sometimes a random video pops up in my feed with Jenny’s beautiful face. And I CRY. So you are allowed to cry boo we all miss her just so u know. N we luv u ❤️🌹🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻♥️♥️🌹🌹🌹
Aww man. I know she would’ve loved that movie. It’s a classic.
Proud of you Kyle. You only had two choices. To stay home and miss a wedding and drown in your grief, or be brave and go to the wedding IN SPITE OF grief hitting so hard. I am happy you chose the latter. It doesn't take the grief away, and there will be many more times when grief will hit you like a brick. You will always miss Jenny. You will always love Jenny. But you have to continue living, and being OK with feeling happy. It's tough, it's painful. Ellis having a good cry about you leaving was definitely the trauma. You are his glue now. Two days to a kid who is also still grieving probably felt to him like it was a week. All 3 of you are going to continue to have "firsts" where grief will come. Day by day, year by year, the grief will not feel all consuming, the pain will dull, yet you will always remember Jenny. It is so good that you had some adult time, time with your friends and that you enjoyed the wedding. I am positive Jenny was smiling from wherever her soul is. This was a big step for you to leave the kids and do something for yourself. There is still a YOU Kyle. You are doing a great job carrying on life without Jenny. Finding the Kyle you were before love and marriage is important now. You were so young when you married Jenny. Now you are finding and defining who you are as a more mature grown-up man. Adulting is so hard sometimes.
You and Jenny were absolutely beautiful twin souls!!!! You really are so strong, Kyle. I was not even functioning for about almost a whole year (that I remember) when I lost my Mom. Give yourself time to just take it one second at a time. Thinking of you, Ellis and Winnie - always in my daily thoughts and prayers!!! Sending hugs, love, good vibes and blessings!! You are all so loved!!❤
Kyle, I lost my husband on EasterSunday 03/31/24 and he was born on Easter Sunday on 04/10/55 we were married for 39 yrs and I think your an amazing person 💕🙏🏻💕
U had wonderful mom.it shows cause how nice u are!