Kathy! You're experiencing "Pseudo-Seizures"! I struggle with CPTSD too, and my "attacks" typically came every morning and night time. It was literal Hell. Incomprehensible to others by any stretch of my imagination. I am actually so relieved someone else is speaking up about this! Especially someone in the public eye. IT DOES GET BETTER. Sending love. Just have faith and keep on keeping on! ♥️
I came here to say this! These sound just like a long generalized anxiety attack triggering psychogenic nonepileptic seizures (pseudo seizures.) I had one and thought I was dying. It is terrifying. Love you Kathy! Chin up.
I have epilepsy and pseudo seizures and Im like embarrassed about the pseudo part because I am not faking it... I also majored in psychology and it's part of conversion disorder
Oh, Kathy. I applaud you for being open about this and talking it through. So brave, so honest. Many people suffer from panic attacks, high anxiety. There is science behind it and many things that can be done to help. Stay informed, use your tools, know you're not alone and look ahead!
Hi Kathy, thanks so much for your grace and bravery in telling your story. Five years ago, I was diagnosed with severe complex PTSD from a workplace shooting and from my prior job working as caseworker during the height of the AIDS pandemic. My tremors caused violent shaking in my arms and legs which was often mistaken for a seizure. It took over two years to find the right combination of medications so that I was finally able to sleep more than 3 hours per night. I’ve since been diagnosed with an autoimmune disorder which is secondary to the trauma I’ve experienced. PTSD takes a toll on the immune system and is expressed by high amounts of inflammation. In my case, the PTSD has damaged my sympathetic nervous system and both frontal cortexes of my brain. Transcraneal Magnetic Stimulation (TMS) has helped to heal the damaged neurons in my brain and has calmed my central nervous system. Switching to a plant based diet has helped reduce brain fog, inflammation, tremors and autoimmune symptoms. Using a weighted blanket is therapeutic. Staying well hydrated and taking electrolytes is also key. I wear noise cancelling headphones nearly all the time to keep from getting frazzled. I look like a weirdo but most folks just think I’m autistic so I get a lot of knowing smiles! You’ll find your way through this! Stay close to those you love and you’ll find your path! I’ve been a fan for many years and would have loved to see you at the Mirage. Congratulations on your return to live shows! Your comedy and tenacity have been life saving during the dark times.
Hi Kathy. I’ve suffered from severe PTSD related to repeated tragic losses in my life. I once had an episode so intense (manifests in me with muscular twitches throughout body and insomnia.), I didn’t sleep for 3 months! That was super intense. EMDR therapy was a life saver for me. It targets PTSD episodes. I also went to ongoing counseling and it got me to the other side. I’m so sorry about you being targeted by the Orange Fuhrer and your cancer. But you know what, Kathy, we are fighters and survivors. ❤️ You matter to me and so many others and are loved. By the way, I’m one of your gays and I’m 62 years old. Hugs to you.
I second the EMDR therapy. I've never had episodes that intense, but I found EMDR helps really dig into root causes of all kinds of things. Thank you for being brave enough to share this Kathy.
I suffer from Bipolar Disorder, anxiety and PTSD. I was 71 yrs old when I found a therapist who suggested EMDR. I can’t believe how it changed my life. I’m am 72 now and so happy that this worked. I have control over Bipolar, anxiety and my triggers for PTSD. I suggest looking into EMDR. It started as a therapy for PTSD and now is also a therapy for other mental health issues. I hope you will look into it as after years of therapy and terrible meds something finally helped me. Best of luck.
@@marykoufalis7666EMDR is a highly effective therapy process called Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing, developed by the late Francine Shapiro, PhD psychologist in the 1980’s. I am a mental health counselor who got trained in EMDR in 1993, and have been using it ever since. Very effective for many people with trauma- but only one of a number of approaches in a trauma therapist’s repertoire; it’s not one size fits all.
A friend was in a motorcycle accident and had PTSD after it. It kinda changed him completely. He finally found EMDR and he preaches its benefits to all who will listen. We got our friend back. Well done you and continued good health to you
@@marykoufalis7666 What is EMDR therapy? Eye movement desensitization and reprocessing (EMDR) therapy is a mental health treatment technique. This method involves moving your eyes a specific way while you process traumatic memories. EMDR's goal is to help you heal from trauma or other distressing life experiences.
Well, Kathy, you’re reaching out to others, and that in itself takes a lot of strength and character. You’re smart, too, and you have someone in your life who loves you so -all things considered - you’ll get through this. You’ll learn more coping strategies. Good things will come out of this. Sending you a hug and much love.💜
I have schizophrenia and I understand why you are afraid to tell people. I live in social housing and I cant under any circumstance afford to move because I cant work-I have spend over a decade afraid of my neighbors finding out because I dont want to be targeted and have them make stuff up about me to try to get me evicted. I also have developed physical disability so I tell them that is my disability and why Im on disability benefits. I wish the best for you Kathy
For anyone suffering from CPTSD, a great book is 'Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving', by Pete Walker. Also, the usual suspects of sleep, eating properly, exercise, need to be regulated. You can't burn the candle at both ends if you suffer with it.
You are so strong Kathy. Even just sharing this took so much courage. I hope you can get the help you need, you've been through so much these past several years that would mess anybody up. PTSD is a horrible thing to live with. Sending you so much love ♥
My daughter just explained this same very thing to me on our drive home from running errands. I told her she needed to take some time out to heal because even if she doesn’t understand what’s happening, her body is telling her she needs to stop whatever she’s doing and seek out the right people to help her pinpoint why she’s having these attacks. Nothing is more important.
I cannot imagine my child dealing with that! I really hope she finds the person or people she needs to help get her on the road to recovery. Sending all the happy and healthy vibes I can possibly muster🖤🖤
Stress and anxiety can cause physical symptoms and it's important to recognize these signs in order to address the underlying cause of the issue. Taking some time out to focus on oneself and well-being can be a powerful tool in helping to identify the root cause of the attacks and take steps to overcome them. You may also want to research Dihexa and Bromantane from Swisschems. It helped me a lot with my mental health.
Thank you for sharing, Kathy. Also, to each person who shared their personal stories in the comments, thank you. Your bravery brings light and positivity into our world. ❤
Hey, Kathy. I'm so sorry you've been struggling with PTSD. I want you to know that I've been exactly where you are for vastly different reasons, but I've felt every thing you described. There are a lot of other postings with suggestions as to how you might manage these attacks, so I will just hold on to my two-cents. What I've been wanting to tell you since "the incident" is that for me and many others, you are the Colin Kaepernick of Comedy. You are brave, speak the truth to power with great humor, and have risen to meet every challenge that's presented itself head-on. You are in recovery from the war that was declared on you and there may be more challenging days ahead. But never forget that there are people out here who love, respect, and admire you and are metaphysically sending you prayers and positive energy. Never forget that you are loved. PS: I always loved Miss Maggie, too! Tip it! 🍷🕊☮
My granddaughter also suffers from bipolar depression and social anxiety, adhd. She is only 12 and she has been in therapy since she was 8. Every day is a struggle but she is trying very hard to control it. One day, minute at a time. I pray for everyone who suffers from any kind of mental disorder. Hang in there Kathy, we all love you 😍
I was diagnosed in 2002 with cPTSD, I was stunned I also thought it was just a soldier thing, but my doctors told me it was because of childhood abuse I suffered, specifically being molested and beaten from age 1 to 16, my 1st memories are very early. I call them Panic Attacks, but they were extremely debilitating & in 2002, 2003, I had Flashbacks that lasted for 12 hours, regularly. I felt suicidal for many years, I had a massive meltdown in August 2002 & didn’t sleep for 4 months, eventually I was hospitalized for a week. I have attempted suicide several times, that’s done, I almost succeeded in October 2017, and I finally realized the damage I was causing my husband and grown children. I wish I didn’t have it, but one of my therapists told me in 1998, when I tried Biofeedback for my nonstop migraines, that we can’t stop the memories, and I have learned to deal better. There’s more, but this is very hard for me to write about. I am grateful you have your stage career and that you don’t have attacks when performing. Best of luck, Kathy.❤
Thank you for sharing your terror moments. The world is at such a heightened state of alert for terrifying things to happen unexpectedly, that I believe, we all are living in a state of “controlled” anxiety. Usually I am a calm and peaceful person, but for the past 4 years, I have suffered from mild panic attacks and anxiety which is affecting my health. If anyone is sensitive, listening to the news can be a terrifying experience. The world is not a safe place anymore, being able to feed the planet is uncertain and generally people are acting in irrational ways, which is scary. Mindful meditation has helped me and talking about what I am feeling. Please continue to post videos about what you are experiencing. It’ll be good for you and others. It’s important for people to not feel isolated or alone in their experiences. Sending calm energy to you from Santa Barbara.
❤ Kathy. Thanks for your voice and courage! Means so much, many people don’t understand, even psychiatrists , so having you describe your experience (I’m so sorry you go through this hell!) can really impact others in many ways. I had a terrible day yesterday and it’s just nice to know I’m having a human response to suffering, just like another would, in this case you. Been a fan 4 EVER- take the best care and truly, thanks 💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞
❤ I totally understand!! This world is so crazy and it's weird that anyone doesn't have PTSD. BIG HUGS OF LOVE TO YOU! It's so brutal being alive in this reality. ❤
You are amazing Kathy!! So brave to share with everyone. I am just amazed by you.. my God you have been through so much. BUT, these could be temporary. I am so happy you are back on stage where you belong!! I think you have been so traumatized by the things you have been through, that maybe returning to the stage for your second show, maybe you can finally relax and this is your body's shock... like you are in a shock that things have FINALLY turned around in your life. But they have! The bad times are behind you and you my dear. We are all WITH YOU!! I'm so so so happy you are on RUclips. Thank you for being here for all of us. And we are here with you now/ Because now the whole world knows what you have been through b/c you've been brave enough to share. I think if you get attacked, there is going to be a huge amount of support for you this time. Please calm your mind. I'm so happy you are loving being back on stage it's absolutely b.s. the amount of things you have been through. Woww you are strong you are so talented and you looked ravashing today Luvvvvvvv you xoxo I've loved you forever !! Thank God you are back. You are so inspiring woww xo
As a decades long sufferer with cPTSD (childhood Post Traumaic Stress Disorder) I understand. Discovering the root cause of my issue began a long and arduous healing process. Once fear and worry and self esteem issues began to clear, progress became quicker. Freezing in an inactive state of overwhelm sometimes still grabs and controls me. Working with a counselor is starting to unlock my latent fears. Best to you in your healing.
@@mother_of_doxies - Thanks. Several sites use the small 'c' to be 'childhood', as they focus on that early time frame. Generally it does stand for 'complex'. I gues mine would be double 'cc'!
You could literally be saving a life right now especially when the lgbt community is under attack by the far RW in our country. It’s almost like we are afraid when things are going well. I totally get it Kathy.
The gay community population is rising....if they are attacking they sure r doing a bad job. The right wing does not care what u eat inside ur bedroom....stay thr fk away from.kids is our only request. Its weird and perverted😊
Firstly, I'm glad you're sharing what's going on with you. The program says "were only as sick as our secrets".It shows you are very serious about your recovery and mental health. I entered a recovery program in 1989. Two years after, I found myself on a therapists couch being diagnosed with PTSD. I asked my therapists why breaking up with my boyfriend would cause PTSD and she said " it's not from the breakup it happened when you were a child. The breakup is just a trigger." I soon learned that most people who enter recovery were self medicating in order to deal with their issues including myself. The anti-christ(you know who) gave me PTSD nightmares and he wasn't chasing me. Now his ugly puss is back on the news everyday and that alone has to affect you. I know it has me. My PTSD episodes I call " Hurt dog syndrome". Meaning a dog who gets hurt by a slow moving car gets up and runs under the house to hide for a few days. For whatever reason, it works for them and I find myself doing it also. I get triggered when I have symptoms from a catastrophic illness I had years ago. I know I have to feel my feelings about it, call a friend or sponsor and make sure I discuss it with my therapist. Oh, and your sciatic issue. Electro-stem acupuncture. I had it for years and tried everything until it was recommended to me and it has been gone for over 10 years after just three treatments. I hope some of this might help. Love you girl! Rob
Dear Kathy, I experience something similar. Why do attacks come when things are going great? When things are going great, we have more space for the dark things to rise up and come out. The good things create space for the bad things to come out. Keep on going, Sister. We're with you. Love from New York. ❤
Wow! Thank you so much for sharing your journey and normalizing that everyone has their own special journey and how they are navigating life. Please don’t stop ever performing and bringing joy to our lives through your comedy 🖖🧡
We really MUST shower during these episodes, or whatever kind of depressive or any mental health episodes. We really must force it. I find that showering is the last thing I feel like I can do when I'm in a heavy ptsd or depression attack but if I can suck it up for 2 minutes and just turn the shower on and throw myself in no matter what it clears away a large portion of anxiety that maybe I have during these attacks simply because I feel dirty and less than. I've been around other friends who have ptsd, anxiety, and depression episodes and I've gotten them to start forcing showers and I've noticed it has a similar effect on them. You won't want to do it but you will feel instantly calmer and better about the state of your body and it gets rid of my nausea fits too. I'm sorry I'm not more help but this is the biggest breakthrough I've ever had about it, and it works. Anyway, Cheers
Kathy, I had terrifying panic attacks when I got divorced. My doctor had me on all kinds of meds and it was a mess. I would wake up thinking spider webs were in my mouth. Just insanity. Finally my doctor told me that those damn attacks could not kill me. That helped. I really had to change my life. I don't actually think we recover from this madness. We just learn to deal with it. I don't put myself in those situations anymore. They were not healthy anyway. I give myself time and grace today. I admire your honesty.
Noone should have to live like that, and there is so much help available now. Things DO get better with help. No offense, but that was not good or even accurate advice that your doctor gave you in this day and age.
There's a big difference between panic attacks, and CPTSD. The two can go hand in hand but there is a difference. I have panic anxiety but not CPTSD. And the best way I dealt with it was to tell myself just come and get me.
I was recently told I was being treated for ptsd. By my psychiatrist. I had no idea I was already being treated for that, I was never told I had it. You are our savior. I’ve loved you for decades. You’re a champion. Thank you for sharing your life with us ❤
As someone with GAD, Depression and PTSD I can relate to this. Thank you for sharing, it can only do good for both you and the world... Peace and love from Alberta!
C-PTSD, chronic major depression, anxiety disorder, body dysmorphia, eating disorders... it took years to even confront any of this, but talk therapy and meds are the tools I used to help me with my symptoms. Ps try not to be afraid, sis.. we're in different times now where it's ok to not be ok❤
You’ve been through a lot in a short time…..anyone would be struggling after all you’ve been through. Take things moment by moment. You are loved and we support you!❤. Just take such good care of yourself…. Get in nature when you can. Make a list of things that soothe you. And reach out to a mental health professional whenever you need to.❤❤❤❤❤❤
You are Brave, You are Strong, You are Loved and this video is so important!!! You are going to help so many people!!! I hate that you're going through this, and please feel my arms around you with a huge hug!❤❤❤
Thank you SO much for taking the risk and sharing this with us. I know how much courage it takes. You'll find out who really loves you.... Again. I have a few mental health diagnosis' , one is PTSD. Most of the time, for me, there's no circumstancial reason for a PTSD attack. Even though the daily meds I take do a good job at keeping me stable, PTSD still smacks me upside the head from time to time. But we learn coping techniques that are helpful. Ask your shrink or therapist about em. Thanks again for the courage, Queen 👑! I'll be a fan now matter how fucked up you are! 😜 Wishing you all the best. You GOT DISS!!❤❤
Thank. You for being brave enough to discuss this Mental health issue. It's time for us all to show compassion for each other, and bringing out into the light your diagnosis and how you are coping with it will help so many people.
Thank you for sharing. Its a brave act of love to acknowledge PTSD and one thing I have learned is not to self isolate or internalize my trauma, to stay away from my triggers and work on healing them or coping with them ---- without judging myself for having them. Easy, right? We as a society are not that great at acknowledging when we are suffering especially with mental illness or a life traumatizing event but that is literally the most important step is to honor your wound. There are some really great self-help authors I have read a lot by Gabby Bernstein and highly recommend her programs. Sending you big hugs and hopefully a ray of light in the dark. You are not alone. Not at all.
Thank you Kathy for being brave enough to tell us your experiences with extreme PTSD….you never know who else is going through this exact situation. Just keep in mind you are bringing awareness to your disorder. Sending all my love!
I never had extreme anxiety and PTSD until my mom had to go into long term care in 2022 and her insurance was messed up. I was referred to an excellent therapist by my insurance company (UHC) and I’m doing EMDR. It’s helping so much. I’ve had a few more episodes recently but not nearly as bad as the all day ones where my husband literally had to hold me to keep me from shaking. We have a way to go with my treatment. Please keep seeking therapy that works for you. Much love to you 💕
Please get the help that you need - you TOTALLY deserve it! Many, many hugs and so much hope for your recovery, peace and healing. Noone should have to live like this.
Mental health is physical health. Thank you for speaking about your CPTSD, I also have it, you bring light to a health condition that needs visibility and more understanding, especially from the healthcare systems. I love you, you are hilarious, brave, and a super human! 🌈💜
If you can find an entheogenic practitioner or guide, I can tell you that modality has a lot of promise, and will help a lot of people with mental health challenges... and OMG, what it could add to your act...🤯😅 Thank you for being so vulnerable and transparent. I know your courage will set a powerful example for others, and give them hope. We love you gurl!!! ♥
I am very sad that you have experienced these severe attacks. I also suffered from panic attacks, which were extremely hard to deal with. Often, I couldn't understand what triggered them, but with time, I learned that they happened whenever there were emotionally charged events (positive or negative). Meditation and psychotherapy helped me. Now, they happen once in a blue moon. I hope yours will soon be behind you. ♥
😢 Oh honey I'm so sorry you are having trouble. I don't have a lot of trouble with my attacks unless there's a drunk involved. Just know that you are loved and you will get through this. Look at what you have already survived. We love you 🥰 💙
I’m so sorry you go through this, I feel for you and you are so brave to talk about it. Sharing your story helps so many people feel validated and not alone. I also have CPTSD and would love to hear you talk about more mental health stuff ❤
Yikes Kathy.. get the help you need. please. Stop thinking you are not worthy of self-love and self-help. Maybe it's a GenX thing...we grew up not talking about our issues. We were told to "take a lap or just rub some dirt in it". We have to learn that we are worthy of healing but we can't until we overcome the vulnerability of speaking up and seeking help. We love you GUUUURL.. YOU CAN BEAT THIS PS. Maybe your fear was not the show .. it was the shows going well. ie maybe your fear is that you're starting to come back. Getting the agent and manager, appearing on more shows, etc. The fear is that you will lose it again. Do you fear the maga mob will come for you if living your best life? Had you crawled in a hole and stayed there, then you wouldn't be a risk. It's scary. But there is no reward without risk. And living in fear...it's no life
Yes, she spent too many years alone trying to heal. Her millions of fans are here for it all. I'm still amazed she has made it to the other side, it wasn't looking good for a while. Go girl❤
I understand Kathy. I suffer the same and I just began to address it at age 74. It's never to late to make your life better.Just like my arthritis, there isn't a cure, but there is maintenance. Find what works for you and keep trying. We all have issues to manage, so don't feel alone because you're not. ❤❤
Maybe subconsciously you fear, a reoccurrence of the same event that you experienced prior. And everything that you said you experience during your attacks, emotionally matches, how I’ll presently feel after an episode because I am epileptic. I cry too. I hope this is something you’re able to manage. Nobody deserves to feel that way. Sending good vibes.
So happy to hear your show went so well! You deserve it gf! Please please take time to give yourself lots of TLC because you’ve undeservedly been through so much bullshit! There are SO many people that love & support you & only want the best for you! I hope you’re feeling better and can get past all this. I have anxiety & depression coupled with chronic pain and after trying numerous meds & numerous combinations of meds, the only thing that truly helps me is cannabis. Which unfortunately isn’t even legal in my pos state yet but to keep my sanity it’s what I take and feel so much better. Dunno if that’s an option at all for you at this point but there is tons of research on how so many people are benefiting from medicinal cannabis for so many different health issues. The government needs to step up on legalizing this across the country! I wish you well my friend. Make sure to love yourself & give yourself grace. You are so worth it! I will keep you in my prayers. 💕😊
I haven’t been diagnosed but have experienced panic attacks… couldn’t breathe, felt paralyzed, tears, helpless… I read once about how humans never viscerally release their trauma… like animals do… if a deer is being chased by a bear and finally escapes, generally, the deer collapses into a puddle of tremors and energy but after the physical release happens, it’s able to get up and walk away like nothing happened. It was an interesting perspective that really helped me looked at the panic attack as a release of fear/trauma/whatever was causing the physical manifestation, and once I started to concentrate on that, my attacks lessened and I haven’t had one for almost a year. It helped me to think of the negative and terrifying experience as a positive ‘letting go’…. I don’t know if that makes any sense, but so grateful for you, your vulnerability, your wit and your willingness to share. 💛🦋💛 Maybe having an attack after a performance, where you feel like you’re at home, is your body finally feeling safe and releasing the trauma you’ve been subjected to since the 🍊 💩… you’re safe now. 🦋
Kathy I have seizures, and since you said some people you know likened these attacks to seizures, I thought I'd recommend something. Now normally I just take Depakote twice daily for my seizures, but my neurologist also prescribes me Lorazepam as a "take as needed" type thing and I think it would help you. I was prescribed this after instead of having "normal" seizures I started having these episodes where I wouldn't black out but I would get jittery and tremble non stop for 4-5 hours. Anyway, the with the Lorazepam, the second I feel shaky I just take 1 or 2 pills and it stops all the trembling pretty much instantly. Like I said I'm not a doctor but they sure helped me and I think they may help you too. Best of luck! I hope you come to DC again soon. 🙂
Kathy, I don't think less of you or am not deterred from watching your work past, present, and future. I've been watching you, I will continue to watch you. I'm glad you're talking about what you're going through.
Thank you so much for opening up about what you're going through and sharing it with us! You are so brave to do that and I know that you're helping so many people through your vulnerability. I am so glad you're back to performing on stage again too, you've been missed by so many people! You went through so much both professionally and personally. I'm glad you're cancer free and that your getting back to doing what you do so well, making us all laugh!! People care about you and want the best for you! Thank you for sharing your humor with us, as well as your personal life experiences! Hope your PTSD improves and that your overall health is great!! You're awesome! Continued success in your future!
I suffer from PTSD from an attack 18 yrs ago. I've been mostly a shut-in since then. Lots of anxiety attacks. Destroyed my life. Thank you for sharing, Kathy. My guess as to why you feel ok onstage is that you're among people who love you, and you feel safe. Congrats on the shows, so glad you're back. I hope that therapy - both physical and mental - and a good diet (for real) help you tremendously. Best luck to you!
I want to wish you improved health and mental health. My daughter has CPTSD and my heart hurts for her. I hope you feel better soon. Having friends that can come over to support you sounds great. I am glad that works for you. You are a sweet and beautiful woman. Your comedy is healing us. Laughter feels so good. Thanks for giving us joy.
I’ve had CPTSD for a number of years and last year, because of the housing crisis here in Australia, I became homeless for five months. I finally got housing a year ago, but it really pushed me to my limit. At first, I felt shell shocked but was getting through. But then, the attacks just started to hit and I’m barely able to function. I hate that they’re called “anxiety attacks” because that just doesn’t even begin to describe it. You hit the nail on the head when you called it terror! I pray we both get through x
Big hugs, ty for sharing... ❤ you explained it really well, i know its scary.. for me it helps what i hate the most - physical movement or any way to connect to my body and feel like i have any minimal control ... 🦋 problem is its so hard to force myself to do it.. you dont get it on stage cot your brain is fully focused on something else
Kathy, I am so glad you are talking about CPTSD. I am told that I have CPTSD also but I think mine is cause of a Dissociation things. I had no idea this could be so severe. Please know you are not alone as your comments are showing you. It takes so much courage to speak of our vulnerabilities. The more we speak of those vulnerabilities the less we have to deal with shame and the less power they have. Also, one thing that I have had to deal with is the not knowing the whys. Sometimes I have reactions and I don't know what triggered or activated me. Because I like to be in control, that makes it all worse. What I sometimes forget is that sometimes my body remembers what my head can't. So, for me, I have to go with the flow with as little resistance as possible. For me, it means trusting that my body has something to work through that my head just does not get right now. Then I take it to my therapist. You may know this already but there is a guy, Peter A Levine who has wrote extensively on trauma and how we process it. Waking The Tiger: Healing Trauma was a ground breaker many years ago. You may want to star there. You probably know this already. Just remember, you are not alone. You are not odd or crazy. This is the processing of trauma. Everyone heals differently. And everyone can heal.
Kathy… so sorry. Lost my daughter year and half ago and am now diagnosed PTSD and agoraphobic from suddenly finding myself holding my daughter as she lay dying. EMT held up by ice storm. So the attacks, yes complete terror. Mine begin with stomach clenching in terror and heart racing and goes from there. Have only been out of house for dr. Appts. She and I so bonded over your work; we went to two of your concerts, D.C. and Richmond VA. Thank you for your work and for sharing this. ❤️
Thank you for sharing. I've had ptsd for 20 yrs and cptsd for about 5. It's awful. Coupled with CRPS (complex regional pain syndrome) lovingly nicknamed "the suicide disease ' 🙄 it's a struggle. I never know what is going to cause my "flares" as I call them. My attacks last sometimes 8-12 hours even with medication. Take care of yourself, keep fighting and keep sharing your story! ❤
I went through a period of terrible anxiety, nothing as bad as what you described, but counting to five (or whatever number) helped. It sounds ridiculously simple and I didn’t think it would work but oddly it did for me and I still have no idea why. I also just want to thank you for sharing. I hope the attacks lessen or become more bearable. I have enjoyed your standup and I’m glad to see you’re back. ❤
Your vulnerability to be transparent and share your personal struggles is so admirable. My heart goes out to you that you have been dealing with this. I’m sure you are helping others to not feel alone in their own struggles. I’m happy to hear you enjoy your work so much that these issues don’t hold you back to perform. I suffered from a form of PTSD for years (post betrayal syndrome) and it was a long journey of me trying so many things to heal (Vipassana meditation retreats, self help seminars and books, therapy, and psychedelic journeys). I can’t say any one thing fixed me, as it was a gradual healing process. I hope you find your own way to find peace in your mind and body.
My mother suffers from complex PTSD and she didn’t get diagnosed until her early 70s. She wished she had know decades earlier but because of stigma and people really not knowing as much as they do now, she never understood what was wrong with her and why she felt she had to keep picking up and moving from town to town.
I'm so sorry to hear that you and so many others are going through this! You have been a favorite comedian of mine forever! I love you and hope you can find relief!
Kathy, my thoughts and prayers are with you. I delt with depression for yrs. Finally did therapy for several yrs. It got me on The right track. Be open to change and know there are people who care about you. Nothing i can do but send you positive energy and vibes. You deserve happiness.
Thank you so much for talking about cPTSD. I've been living with it since I was 5 years old, and my life has been one mental health diagnosis after another. It rewired my brain from kindergarten (1977). My whole family broke because of a sibling death. Dad drank, Mom highly disliked therapy. So our house was Dysfunction Junction. I was a punk rocker cutter by age 15. I've used 12 Step programs...several of them including ACA, talk therapy, medication therapy, EMDR (which saved my life), all that stuff. I've had to go no-contact with certain people in my life who did not respect my mental health. Oh, and I had my first trip to the psych ward this past May. Because recovery is not linear. But I am still here. I have started a documentary project about mental health from the patient side. We'll see how it goes. Much love and respect from Brooklyn. ♥
Kathy, am so sorry you have to experience this, it sounds like hell. Admire you for being honest and open, I’m sure it gives others solace to know they’re not alone. Lots of love from Australia xx
So good to find you on RUclips! Im wishing you strength. Love you. Thank you for being real and honest and vulnerable (you always have been) Sending you love.
So I totally understand what you are going through. I started listening to meditations in my 30's to help me. Jason Stevenson,Jess Shepard,ect. So after my daughter and I went through a sudden loss of custody,of my granddaughter,Layla(we haven't seen her for years,u would nvr believe what happened to my daughter... corruption of courts,her ex boyfriend,who was/is an alcoholic,his family had a great lawyer,also his dad worked in the courts)but anyway,I started living in my car,to help my daughter pay a crappy attorney and child support...so the first six months,I could only park somewhere, during the day,bc I couldn't sleep at night. My PTSD came back,full force, during the first six months. I had my two fur babies(dogs,my oldest passed about a month ago) I was terrified. I have always hated the dark. After listening to mediations every night, scoping out parking lots,to figure out a safe place to sleep..I found a Domino's,I could work at,and sleep at...I finally was able to start sleeping again. I had to crack my windows,so they wouldn't fog up..and I learned that fresh air, really helped me. I adore you. I admire your strength. Car living, actually made me stronger. I had to face all my fears. I talked endlessly,with my two furry kids, walked them in parks, everyday and worked at Domino's. Now,I stay in a shed, behind my kid's gramas home(my ex mother in law) she tolerates me here. I get to see my kids and grandkids all the time. I love you,for saving lives,by being real with us. I personally, don't like all the fake crap out there...huge houses that contain what I call,dead air. My heart tells me,to tell you this ..find out...is it real air,you need more of ..is it getting back to the basics,of human existence,is it... facing your fears, completely alone(with furry kids) what is it? I feel your beautiful soul. I am overweight,smoke cigs,and was able to make it through, loosing my older dog. My question is...what r u running from...and who's ass,do I need to beat? I love ya,sis. Keep talking. You are not alone. We hear you. Don't ever give up,on your essence. We r all on this adventure, together. And my heart is WITH....YOURS. love,Gigi(Sara)
The attacks sound like POTS, from my personal experience. I also have PTSD, and the nervous system is all connected. I also love performing, and you don’t have to worry about losing the ability to do the things you love - it just takes time to find your routine and get your nervous system regulated again. Certain vitamins helped me a lot, as simple as it sounds… your body gets depleted of some of these, when you have chronic stress. magnesium glycinate, b12, and d, were life changing for me. Also, I once had a 12 hour POTS attack with dizziness and fainting… it was so bad, it was like a near death experience. It’s important to validate how hard this can be. Thank you for sharing everything, I relate on a deep level, and it’s an important day to allow all of us to feel less alone. ❤
After what they put you through Miss Kathy I don’t blame you. I have ptsd as well. Things just never feel that safe. I feel like the sa is slowly draining my life out more each decade. I have always been a huge fan (regularly listening to the record winning comedy special spree most of all) and I am very glad to see you coming back. You’ll be the new Joan someday, I have said that for years. Much love and best wishes on you taking care of yourself ! Get back into performing it’s good for you it’s what you love! You need a whole row of us homos right in front telling you you’re the best. :) I thought of starting this comment “Jes*s Chr*st Kathleen!” but didn’t know if it would be blocked 😂😂
I am from Ukraine but currently I am living abroad. I started passing out and having major panic attacks when Russians occupied the city where my grandfather lives. When I passed out and after that had a serious panic attack for the first time, I was alone in the flat. I remember that at one moment I was just trying to tell myself what was around me, for example what kind of furniture I could see. Later, I knew about "grounding" exercise and this is something what helps me these days. However, my panic attacks are also not as strong as it was in the beginning of the war. Kathy, thank you for sharing your story with us and bringing awareness to the mental health issues! You are a great performer and a true survivor!
I've been dealing with panick attacks for years, and they definitely got worse after I left an abusive ex. My life has finally gotten to the point where I'm happy and stable, and now it's like I'm back to square 1 again with all this trauma coming to the surface. My body is finally like OK now that we are safe we can deal with this trauma. You've been through so much, and you're getting back out there. Just be gentle with yourself. I love how you already know what is gonna happen when you get an episode. Making sure those around you are aware of what do to is key too. Love you, Kathy. I hope you realize how many people have your back and are sending you so much love and light 💜.
I’ve never experienced this but wanted to send love and support to you and everyone dealing w CPTSD. The most important thing is to take care of yourself! Thank you for sharing your experience so we can all better understand what you’re going through. ❤
It’s great that you have a team and resources to help you through this. I’m sorry it’s so gnarly. You went through some pretty significant trauma in your life in pretty intense and rapid succession, so I get the inclination to desperately seek understanding “why” and “why now.” But maybe trying to accept that a lot of the trauma that has stored in your body is still working it’s way out can be your reason “why” at least for now. Intense experiences, like your return to the stage at the mirage, although great, is shaking some of that stored trauma loose. If you haven’t yet, read the book The Body Keeps the Score by Bessel Van Der Kolk and it might bring you more understanding and compassion for yourself and what you are experiencing. Congrats on the mirage and hang in there!
Thank you for sharing what happens to you. To wake up in a panic, drenched in sweat with pain throughout the body is exactly as my daughter describes it. 😢 Your video has helped me understand better. Heartfelt love to you, her and all sufferers. ❤️
I'm sorry this happens to you. I don't have anything similar to share, but my heart goes out to you, and I appreciate your honesty and perseverance in life. And you're a great performer!
Love you Kathy!! I suffer from extreme anxiety and depression and have had terrible panic attacks for 25 years. Each one feels like THE ONE. I’m dying. I would say 90% happen when I’m sleeping. The sheer terror is difficult to explain. When they subside, within minutes, I’m fully drained. But I’m somewhere else in the house because I run from it. Many different kinds of attacks but I wish you the best. They are no fun. Really, we love you and will forever be on your side gurl. 😘😘😘
Thank you SO much for giving a voice to this topic. I understand completely what you feel before-during-after these horrible attacks. And they are attacks! We can't control anything about them. I have PTSD from childhood. My life was a nightmare. My Dad died when I was 10 and I knew he protected my sister (age 3) and myself from my Mother. After he died it just made her psychotic rage even worse for now she was "stuck having to take care of us kids". She let me know as she beat the living hell out of me that she never wanted us....she had us because my Dad wanted kids. When she emotionally neglected us I felt like I lived in a state of fear wondering when she was going to snap. Now I am an adult. Now, all of a sudden I started having severe panic attacks. I ended up in a psych hospital for a week. Was diagnosed and put on a narcotic medication to prevent the attacks from being so severe. So yes I have a psychiatrist and go to counseling. Counseling is awful. It makes you dig up stuff you had locked up nice and secure and rehash it over and over. I was told my mother was mentally ill. Really! No shit Sherlock! I was told by my psychiatrist that when we go through trauma our brains get re-wired. We will never be able to heal from our abuse. The best we can do is learn how to deal with it. So Thank you Kathy for being so honest. When we go through this we feel like we hit the crazy button. We feel like no one could understand and we are alone. When people like yourself speak out, it gives the rest of us reassurance. Hey maybe I'm not crazy after all. My body is reacting to things that happened to me and I can't control it.
Love you Kathy! You're stronger than you know for sharing this. I've had panic/anxiety attacks that have knocked me to the floor as if someone hit me with a bat and have gone running down the street cry-screaming to just "get away from the terror". You're not alone. IYKYK
Kathy I've been a fan for years, and you sharing this means so much not just to people dealing with mental health issues, but to all your fans who love and want to know more about you. Thank you for this❤
Kathleen! I bloody love ya. Thanks for sharing, I think it's always best to share these things. You know what they say about a problem shared is a problem halved. I truly hope you feel better for sharing with us. I have a brain tumour (astrocytoma or GBM) and get the odd seizure, especially if I'm stressed, not sleeping enough or late with my pills. I always wake from them physically and mentally exhausted, usually with a small injury to boot. So to a certain extent, I feel your pain girl! I'm glad the stage is a safe place for you. You might have to request a bed on the stage in your rider lol. Xx
It's not a surprise that a person who had half of the country wanting to destroy her have these devastating episodes. I can't imagine. Kathy is so brave beyond words.
Thank you for your perseverance, Kathy! PLEASE keep up your great work & know that so many people love, support & feel forASAP. Nobody can truly imagine what you went thru post "incident" & its lasting effects. Hoping you feel better asap❤❤.
My heart & understanding goes out to you, Kathy. My symptoms are different (quite similar to a heart attack) yet I can relate to the fear of how others perceive these "episodes" as a sign of weakness. You just keep doing what you need to do for you. All of you out there. Sometimes it seems impossible to see any positive, to breathe and feel peace & in control of your own being; I know I do. Yet, please do try to remember that we are not weak. We are strong af for going through what we go through & still push forward, be it an inch or a mile. Kathy and all you beautifuls out there, stay safe and always be kind to yourselves. ❤❤
Kathy, we love you! …you are amazing! So sorry that you are dealing with this. You are helping so many others by having the courage to share this with us today! My heart goes out to you and any others who are going through similar issues.
Hi Kathy. Thank you for being brave enough to talk about this. You are not alone and you are shining a light on what many of us suffer. Try to ignore the sad song on a loop in your head and replace it with, "I have SURVIVED every bad day in my life." Look at how far you've come--this is only a temporary glitch. A bad one, admittedly, but only a glitch. You are stronger than a glitch. Hugs from Canada.
Kathy! You're experiencing "Pseudo-Seizures"! I struggle with CPTSD too, and my "attacks" typically came every morning and night time. It was literal Hell. Incomprehensible to others by any stretch of my imagination. I am actually so relieved someone else is speaking up about this! Especially someone in the public eye. IT DOES GET BETTER. Sending love. Just have faith and keep on keeping on! ♥️
I came here to say this! These sound just like a long generalized anxiety attack triggering psychogenic nonepileptic seizures (pseudo seizures.) I had one and thought I was dying. It is terrifying. Love you Kathy! Chin up.
I was just about to say this! ❤❤❤❤
It will get better. I know its so draining and scary if you don't know what's happening. I promise it will get better
Thank you for sharing Kathy. Your courage will no doubt help others. Whilst I have no experience with anything similar, I send much love.
I have epilepsy and pseudo seizures and Im like embarrassed about the pseudo part because I am not faking it... I also majored in psychology and it's part of conversion disorder
Oh, Kathy. I applaud you for being open about this and talking it through. So brave, so honest. Many people suffer from panic attacks, high anxiety. There is science behind it and many things that can be done to help. Stay informed, use your tools, know you're not alone and look ahead!
Hi Kathy, thanks so much for your grace and bravery in telling your story. Five years ago, I was diagnosed with severe complex PTSD from a workplace shooting and from my prior job working as caseworker during the height of the AIDS pandemic. My tremors caused violent shaking in my arms and legs which was often mistaken for a seizure. It took over two years to find the right combination of medications so that I was finally able to sleep more than 3 hours per night.
I’ve since been diagnosed with an autoimmune disorder which is secondary to the trauma I’ve experienced. PTSD takes a toll on the immune system and is expressed by high amounts of inflammation. In my case, the PTSD has damaged my sympathetic nervous system and both frontal cortexes of my brain.
Transcraneal Magnetic Stimulation (TMS) has helped to heal the damaged neurons in my brain and has calmed my central nervous system. Switching to a plant based diet has helped reduce brain fog, inflammation, tremors and autoimmune symptoms. Using a weighted blanket is therapeutic. Staying well hydrated and taking electrolytes is also key.
I wear noise cancelling headphones nearly all the time to keep from getting frazzled. I look like a weirdo but most folks just think I’m autistic so I get a lot of knowing smiles!
You’ll find your way through this! Stay close to those you love and you’ll find your path!
I’ve been a fan for many years and would have loved to see you at the Mirage. Congratulations on your return to live shows! Your comedy and tenacity have been life saving during the dark times.
Hi Kathy. I’ve suffered from severe PTSD related to repeated tragic losses in my life. I once had an episode so intense (manifests in me with muscular twitches throughout body and insomnia.), I didn’t sleep for 3 months! That was super intense.
EMDR therapy was a life saver for me. It targets PTSD episodes. I also went to ongoing counseling and it got me to the other side.
I’m so sorry about you being targeted by the Orange Fuhrer and your cancer.
But you know what, Kathy, we are fighters and survivors. ❤️
You matter to me and so many others and are loved.
By the way, I’m one of your gays and I’m 62 years old. Hugs to you.
I love it! ❤
I second the EMDR therapy. I've never had episodes that intense, but I found EMDR helps really dig into root causes of all kinds of things. Thank you for being brave enough to share this Kathy.
I suffer from Bipolar Disorder, anxiety and PTSD. I was 71 yrs old when I found a therapist who suggested EMDR. I can’t believe how it changed my life. I’m am 72 now and so happy that this worked. I have control over Bipolar, anxiety and my triggers for PTSD. I suggest looking into EMDR. It started as a therapy for PTSD and now is also a therapy for other mental health issues. I hope you will look into it as after years of therapy and terrible meds something finally helped me. Best of luck.
What is EMDR please?
@@marykoufalis7666EMDR is a highly effective therapy process called Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing, developed by the late Francine Shapiro, PhD psychologist in the 1980’s. I am a mental health counselor who got trained in EMDR in 1993, and have been using it ever since. Very effective for many people with trauma- but only one of a number of approaches in a trauma therapist’s repertoire; it’s not one size fits all.
A friend was in a motorcycle accident and had PTSD after it. It kinda changed him completely. He finally found EMDR and he preaches its benefits to all who will listen. We got our friend back. Well done you and continued good health to you
I’ve looked into that but it’s too expensive for my budget
@@marykoufalis7666 What is EMDR therapy? Eye movement desensitization and reprocessing (EMDR) therapy is a mental health treatment technique. This method involves moving your eyes a specific way while you process traumatic memories. EMDR's goal is to help you heal from trauma or other distressing life experiences.
Well, Kathy, you’re reaching out to others, and that in itself takes a lot of strength and character. You’re smart, too, and you have someone in your life who loves you so -all things considered - you’ll get through this. You’ll learn more coping strategies. Good things will come out of this. Sending you a hug and much love.💜
I have schizophrenia and I understand why you are afraid to tell people. I live in social housing and I cant under any circumstance afford to move because I cant work-I have spend over a decade afraid of my neighbors finding out because I dont want to be targeted and have them make stuff up about me to try to get me evicted. I also have developed physical disability so I tell them that is my disability and why Im on disability benefits. I wish the best for you Kathy
For anyone suffering from CPTSD, a great book is 'Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving', by Pete Walker. Also, the usual suspects of sleep, eating properly, exercise, need to be regulated. You can't burn the candle at both ends if you suffer with it.
Clearly the world is mental right now. I think we're gonna need more than a day to process. Take care of yourself. All the best.
You are so strong Kathy. Even just sharing this took so much courage. I hope you can get the help you need, you've been through so much these past several years that would mess anybody up. PTSD is a horrible thing to live with. Sending you so much love ♥
My daughter just explained this same very thing to me on our drive home from running errands. I told her she needed to take some time out to heal because even if she doesn’t understand what’s happening, her body is telling her she needs to stop whatever she’s doing and seek out the right people to help her pinpoint why she’s having these attacks. Nothing is more important.
I cannot imagine my child dealing with that! I really hope she finds the person or people she needs to help get her on the road to recovery. Sending all the happy and healthy vibes I can possibly muster🖤🖤
Thank you Kathy for your honesty and sharing this. You are not alone!
Stress and anxiety can cause physical symptoms and it's important to recognize these signs in order to address the underlying cause of the issue. Taking some time out to focus on oneself and well-being can be a powerful tool in helping to identify the root cause of the attacks and take steps to overcome them. You may also want to research Dihexa and Bromantane from Swisschems. It helped me a lot with my mental health.
Thank you for sharing, Kathy. Also, to each person who shared their personal stories in the comments, thank you. Your bravery brings light and positivity into our world. ❤
What a lovely kind comment 😊
I hope things can get better for you. Sending love & prayers.
Proud to see you on stage again ❤️ Stay strong! Stay bright!
Your amazing Kathy! So thankful you shared your experience! You will be helping so many to not feel crazy when we have these episodes ❤️
Hey, Kathy. I'm so sorry you've been struggling with PTSD. I want you to know that I've been exactly where you are for vastly different reasons, but I've felt every thing you described. There are a lot of other postings with suggestions as to how you might manage these attacks, so I will just hold on to my two-cents. What I've been wanting to tell you since "the incident" is that for me and many others, you are the Colin Kaepernick of Comedy. You are brave, speak the truth to power with great humor, and have risen to meet every challenge that's presented itself head-on. You are in recovery from the war that was declared on you and there may be more challenging days ahead. But never forget that there are people out here who love, respect, and admire you and are metaphysically sending you prayers and positive energy. Never forget that you are loved. PS: I always loved Miss Maggie, too! Tip it! 🍷🕊☮
My granddaughter also suffers from bipolar depression and social anxiety, adhd. She is only 12 and she has been in therapy since she was 8. Every day is a struggle but she is trying very hard to control it. One day, minute at a time. I pray for everyone who suffers from any kind of mental disorder. Hang in there Kathy, we all love you 😍
I was diagnosed in 2002 with cPTSD, I was stunned I also thought it was just a soldier thing, but my doctors told me it was because of childhood abuse I suffered, specifically being molested and beaten from age 1 to 16, my 1st memories are very early. I call them Panic Attacks, but they were extremely debilitating & in 2002, 2003, I had Flashbacks that lasted for 12 hours, regularly. I felt suicidal for many years, I had a massive meltdown in August 2002 & didn’t sleep for 4 months, eventually I was hospitalized for a week. I have attempted suicide several times, that’s done, I almost succeeded in October 2017, and I finally realized the damage I was causing my husband and grown children. I wish I didn’t have it, but one of my therapists told me in 1998, when I tried Biofeedback for my nonstop migraines, that we can’t stop the memories, and I have learned to deal better. There’s more, but this is very hard for me to write about. I am grateful you have your stage career and that you don’t have attacks when performing. Best of luck, Kathy.❤
Thank you for sharing your terror moments. The world is at such a heightened state of alert for terrifying things to happen unexpectedly, that I believe, we all are living in a state of “controlled” anxiety. Usually I am a calm and peaceful person, but for the past 4 years, I have suffered from mild panic attacks and anxiety which is affecting my health. If anyone is sensitive, listening to the news can be a terrifying experience. The world is not a safe place anymore, being able to feed the planet is uncertain and generally people are acting in irrational ways, which is scary. Mindful meditation has helped me and talking about what I am feeling. Please continue to post videos about what you are experiencing. It’ll be good for you and others. It’s important for people to not feel isolated or alone in their experiences. Sending calm energy to you from Santa Barbara.
You will get through this, you’re resilient, and a rock. Big hug. ❤
❤ Kathy. Thanks for your voice and courage! Means so much, many people don’t understand, even psychiatrists , so having you describe your experience (I’m so sorry you go through this hell!) can really impact others in many ways. I had a terrible day yesterday and it’s just nice to know I’m having a human response to suffering, just like another would, in this case you. Been a fan 4 EVER- take the best care and truly, thanks 💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞
❤ I totally understand!! This world is so crazy and it's weird that anyone doesn't have PTSD. BIG HUGS OF LOVE TO YOU! It's so brutal being alive in this reality. ❤
Well said!!
Sitting or laying in the shower is the only thing that brings me any kind of comfort when I go through an attack like that.
Thank you so much for sharing, Kathy. ❤
You are amazing Kathy!! So brave to share with everyone. I am just amazed by you.. my God you have been through so much. BUT, these could be temporary. I am so happy you are back on stage where you belong!! I think you have been so traumatized by the things you have been through, that maybe returning to the stage for your second show, maybe you can finally relax and this is your body's shock... like you are in a shock that things have FINALLY turned around in your life. But they have! The bad times are behind you and you my dear. We are all WITH YOU!! I'm so so so happy you are on RUclips. Thank you for being here for all of us. And we are here with you now/ Because now the whole world knows what you have been through b/c you've been brave enough to share. I think if you get attacked, there is going to be a huge amount of support for you this time. Please calm your mind. I'm so happy you are loving being back on stage it's absolutely b.s. the amount of things you have been through. Woww you are strong you are so talented and you looked ravashing today Luvvvvvvv you xoxo I've loved you forever !! Thank God you are back. You are so inspiring woww xo
Stay strong, Kathy. You are my inspiration. Thank you for helping us find our voice, reminding us we’re not alone, and sharing your story.
As a decades long sufferer with cPTSD (childhood Post Traumaic Stress Disorder) I understand. Discovering the root cause of my issue began a long and arduous healing process. Once fear and worry and self esteem issues began to clear, progress became quicker. Freezing in an inactive state of overwhelm sometimes still grabs and controls me. Working with a counselor is starting to unlock my latent fears. Best to you in your healing.
It’s actually, complex post traumatic stress disorder. But the trauma can start in childhood.
@@mother_of_doxies - Thanks. Several sites use the small 'c' to be 'childhood', as they focus on that early time frame. Generally it does stand for 'complex'. I gues mine would be double 'cc'!
You could literally be saving a life right now especially when the lgbt community is under attack by the far RW in our country. It’s almost like we are afraid when things are going well. I totally get it Kathy.
Can't y'all stop thinking about Trump all the time?
@curtisbrown5939 Who even mentioned trump are you okay ma'am?
@@sbg1911 😂
When you're typing a comment online stop and ask yourself if you'd say it out loud in real life.
If not, backspace and ho outside for some oxygen.
The gay community population is rising....if they are attacking they sure r doing a bad job. The right wing does not care what u eat inside ur bedroom....stay thr fk away from.kids is our only request. Its weird and perverted😊
Firstly, I'm glad you're sharing what's going on with you. The program says "were only as sick as our secrets".It shows you are very serious about your recovery and mental health. I entered a recovery program in 1989. Two years after, I found myself on a therapists couch being diagnosed with PTSD. I asked my therapists why breaking up with my boyfriend would cause PTSD and she said " it's not from the breakup it happened when you were a child. The breakup is just a trigger." I soon learned that most people who enter recovery were self medicating in order to deal with their issues including myself. The anti-christ(you know who) gave me PTSD nightmares and he wasn't chasing me. Now his ugly puss is back on the news everyday and that alone has to affect you. I know it has me. My PTSD episodes I call " Hurt dog syndrome". Meaning a dog who gets hurt by a slow moving car gets up and runs under the house to hide for a few days. For whatever reason, it works for them and I find myself doing it also. I get triggered when I have symptoms from a catastrophic illness I had years ago. I know I have to feel my feelings about it, call a friend or sponsor and make sure I discuss it with my therapist. Oh, and your sciatic issue. Electro-stem acupuncture. I had it for years and tried everything until it was recommended to me and it has been gone for over 10 years after just three treatments. I hope some of this might help. Love you girl! Rob
Dear Kathy, I experience something similar. Why do attacks come when things are going great? When things are going great, we have more space for the dark things to rise up and come out. The good things create space for the bad things to come out. Keep on going, Sister. We're with you. Love from New York. ❤
That's what I think, too.
We're always waiting for the other shoe to drop because we don't believe things can genuinely be that good. There's always a catch...
Wow! Thank you so much for sharing your journey and normalizing that everyone has their own special journey and how they are navigating life.
Please don’t stop ever performing and bringing joy to our lives through your comedy 🖖🧡
We really MUST shower during these episodes, or whatever kind of depressive or any mental health episodes. We really must force it. I find that showering is the last thing I feel like I can do when I'm in a heavy ptsd or depression attack but if I can suck it up for 2 minutes and just turn the shower on and throw myself in no matter what it clears away a large portion of anxiety that maybe I have during these attacks simply because I feel dirty and less than. I've been around other friends who have ptsd, anxiety, and depression episodes and I've gotten them to start forcing showers and I've noticed it has a similar effect on them. You won't want to do it but you will feel instantly calmer and better about the state of your body and it gets rid of my nausea fits too. I'm sorry I'm not more help but this is the biggest breakthrough I've ever had about it, and it works. Anyway, Cheers
Kathy, I had terrifying panic attacks when I got divorced. My doctor had me on all kinds of meds and it was a mess. I would wake up thinking spider webs were in my mouth. Just insanity. Finally my doctor told me that those damn attacks could not kill me. That helped. I really had to change my life. I don't actually think we recover from this madness. We just learn to deal with it. I don't put myself in those situations anymore. They were not healthy anyway. I give myself time and grace today. I admire your honesty.
Noone should have to live like that, and there is so much help available now. Things DO get better with help. No offense, but that was not good or even accurate advice that your doctor gave you in this day and age.
There's a big difference between panic attacks, and CPTSD. The two can go hand in hand but there is a difference. I have panic anxiety but not CPTSD. And the best way I dealt with it was to tell myself just come and get me.
Watch the Tapping documentary, and then start tapping. It’s the weirdest thing that actually helps. Promise.
@@Maggie-zr2ow Thanks Maggie.
I was recently told I was being treated for ptsd. By my psychiatrist. I had no idea I was already being treated for that, I was never told I had it. You are our savior. I’ve loved you for decades. You’re a champion. Thank you for sharing your life with us ❤
You sharing this is already helping you and other people. It's so good to see you performing again! We've missed you the last few years.
As someone with GAD, Depression and PTSD I can relate to this. Thank you for sharing, it can only do good for both you and the world... Peace and love from Alberta!
You sharing your experience helps me feel stronger. You aren’t alone with this! ❤ Sending ❤️
C-PTSD, chronic major depression, anxiety disorder, body dysmorphia, eating disorders... it took years to even confront any of this, but talk therapy and meds are the tools I used to help me with my symptoms.
Ps try not to be afraid, sis.. we're in different times now where it's ok to not be ok❤
You’ve been through a lot in a short time…..anyone would be struggling after all you’ve been through. Take things moment by moment. You are loved and we support you!❤. Just take such good care of yourself…. Get in nature when you can. Make a list of things that soothe you. And reach out to a mental health professional whenever you need to.❤❤❤❤❤❤
You are Brave, You are Strong, You are Loved and this video is so important!!! You are going to help so many people!!! I hate that you're going through this, and please feel my arms around you with a huge hug!❤❤❤
I'm sorry Kathy. I feel your pain. Keep up the fantastic work gurl
Thank you SO much for taking the risk and sharing this with us. I know how much courage it takes. You'll find out who really loves you.... Again. I have a few mental health diagnosis' , one is PTSD. Most of the time, for me, there's no circumstancial reason for a PTSD attack. Even though the daily meds I take do a good job at keeping me stable, PTSD still smacks me upside the head from time to time. But we learn coping techniques that are helpful. Ask your shrink or therapist about em. Thanks again for the courage, Queen 👑! I'll be a fan now matter how fucked up you are! 😜 Wishing you all the best. You GOT DISS!!❤❤
Thank. You for being brave enough to discuss this Mental health issue. It's time for us all to show compassion for each other, and bringing out into the light your diagnosis and how you are coping with it will help so many people.
Thank you for sharing. Its a brave act of love to acknowledge PTSD and one thing I have learned is not to self isolate or internalize my trauma, to stay away from my triggers and work on healing them or coping with them ---- without judging myself for having them. Easy, right? We as a society are not that great at acknowledging when we are suffering especially with mental illness or a life traumatizing event but that is literally the most important step is to honor your wound. There are some really great self-help authors I have read a lot by Gabby Bernstein and highly recommend her programs. Sending you big hugs and hopefully a ray of light in the dark. You are not alone. Not at all.
So glad you are back Kathy!!!
Thank you Kathy for being brave enough to tell us your experiences with extreme PTSD….you never know who else is going through this exact situation. Just keep in mind you are bringing awareness to your disorder. Sending all my love!
I never had extreme anxiety and PTSD until my mom had to go into long term care in 2022 and her insurance was messed up. I was referred to an excellent therapist by my insurance company (UHC) and I’m doing EMDR. It’s helping so much. I’ve had a few more episodes recently but not nearly as bad as the all day ones where my husband literally had to hold me to keep me from shaking. We have a way to go with my treatment. Please keep seeking therapy that works for you. Much love to you 💕
Please get the help that you need - you TOTALLY deserve it! Many, many hugs and so much hope for your recovery, peace and healing. Noone should have to live like this.
Mental health is physical health. Thank you for speaking about your CPTSD, I also have it, you bring light to a health condition that needs visibility and more understanding, especially from the healthcare systems. I love you, you are hilarious, brave, and a super human! 🌈💜
Thank you for being brave and vulnerable 💜
If you can find an entheogenic practitioner or guide, I can tell you that modality has a lot of promise, and will help a lot of people with mental health challenges... and OMG, what it could add to your act...🤯😅 Thank you for being so vulnerable and transparent. I know your courage will set a powerful example for others, and give them hope. We love you gurl!!! ♥
I am very sad that you have experienced these severe attacks. I also suffered from panic attacks, which were extremely hard to deal with. Often, I couldn't understand what triggered them, but with time, I learned that they happened whenever there were emotionally charged events (positive or negative). Meditation and psychotherapy helped me. Now, they happen once in a blue moon. I hope yours will soon be behind you. ♥
I might not be here today if it were not for taking care of my body and MENTAL health. I'm grateful for therapy and meds. Your effing amazing!
😢 Oh honey I'm so sorry you are having trouble. I don't have a lot of trouble with my attacks unless there's a drunk involved. Just know that you are loved and you will get through this. Look at what you have already survived. We love you 🥰 💙
I’m so sorry you go through this, I feel for you and you are so brave to talk about it. Sharing your story helps so many people feel validated and not alone. I also have CPTSD and would love to hear you talk about more mental health stuff ❤
Yikes Kathy.. get the help you need. please. Stop thinking you are not worthy of self-love and self-help. Maybe it's a GenX thing...we grew up not talking about our issues. We were told to "take a lap or just rub some dirt in it". We have to learn that we are worthy of healing but we can't until we overcome the vulnerability of speaking up and seeking help. We love you GUUUURL.. YOU CAN BEAT THIS
PS. Maybe your fear was not the show .. it was the shows going well. ie maybe your fear is that you're starting to come back. Getting the agent and manager, appearing on more shows, etc. The fear is that you will lose it again. Do you fear the maga mob will come for you if living your best life? Had you crawled in a hole and stayed there, then you wouldn't be a risk. It's scary. But there is no reward without risk. And living in fear...it's no life
Yes, she spent too many years alone trying to heal. Her millions of fans are here for it all. I'm still amazed she has made it to the other side, it wasn't looking good for a while. Go girl❤
I understand Kathy. I suffer the same and I just began to address it at age 74. It's never to late to make your life better.Just like my arthritis, there isn't a cure, but there is maintenance. Find what works for you and keep trying. We all have issues to manage, so don't feel alone because you're not. ❤❤
Maybe subconsciously you fear, a reoccurrence of the same event that you experienced prior. And everything that you said you experience during your attacks, emotionally matches, how I’ll presently feel after an episode because I am epileptic. I cry too. I hope this is something you’re able to manage. Nobody deserves to feel that way. Sending good vibes.
So happy to hear your show went so well! You deserve it gf! Please please take time to give yourself lots of TLC because you’ve undeservedly been through so much bullshit! There are SO many people that love & support you & only want the best for you! I hope you’re feeling better and can get past all this. I have anxiety & depression coupled with chronic pain and after trying numerous meds & numerous combinations of meds, the only thing that truly helps me is cannabis. Which unfortunately isn’t even legal in my pos state yet but to keep my sanity it’s what I take and feel so much better. Dunno if that’s an option at all for you at this point but there is tons of research on how so many people are benefiting from medicinal cannabis for so many different health issues. The government needs to step up on legalizing this across the country! I wish you well my friend. Make sure to love yourself & give yourself grace. You are so worth it! I will keep you in my prayers. 💕😊
Love you Kathy! We need you on stage MORE! Stay strong and know you can overcome these attacks, it may take time but it can be done. xoxox
I haven’t been diagnosed but have experienced panic attacks… couldn’t breathe, felt paralyzed, tears, helpless… I read once about how humans never viscerally release their trauma… like animals do… if a deer is being chased by a bear and finally escapes, generally, the deer collapses into a puddle of tremors and energy but after the physical release happens, it’s able to get up and walk away like nothing happened. It was an interesting perspective that really helped me looked at the panic attack as a release of fear/trauma/whatever was causing the physical manifestation, and once I started to concentrate on that, my attacks lessened and I haven’t had one for almost a year. It helped me to think of the negative and terrifying experience as a positive ‘letting go’…. I don’t know if that makes any sense, but so grateful for you, your vulnerability, your wit and your willingness to share. 💛🦋💛
Maybe having an attack after a performance, where you feel like you’re at home, is your body finally feeling safe and releasing the trauma you’ve been subjected to since the 🍊 💩… you’re safe now. 🦋
Kathy I have seizures, and since you said some people you know likened these attacks to seizures, I thought I'd recommend something. Now normally I just take Depakote twice daily for my seizures, but my neurologist also prescribes me Lorazepam as a "take as needed" type thing and I think it would help you. I was prescribed this after instead of having "normal" seizures I started having these episodes where I wouldn't black out but I would get jittery and tremble non stop for 4-5 hours. Anyway, the with the Lorazepam, the second I feel shaky I just take 1 or 2 pills and it stops all the trembling pretty much instantly. Like I said I'm not a doctor but they sure helped me and I think they may help you too.
Best of luck! I hope you come to DC again soon. 🙂
Kathy, I don't think less of you or am not deterred from watching your work past, present, and future. I've been watching you, I will continue to watch you. I'm glad you're talking about what you're going through.
Thank you so much for opening up about what you're going through and sharing it with us! You are so brave to do that and I know that you're helping so many people through your vulnerability. I am so glad you're back to performing on stage again too, you've been missed by so many people! You went through so much both professionally and personally. I'm glad you're cancer free and that your getting back to doing what you do so well, making us all laugh!! People care about you and want the best for you! Thank you for sharing your humor with us, as well as your personal life experiences! Hope your PTSD improves and that your overall health is great!! You're awesome! Continued success in your future!
I suffer from PTSD from an attack 18 yrs ago. I've been mostly a shut-in since then. Lots of anxiety attacks. Destroyed my life. Thank you for sharing, Kathy. My guess as to why you feel ok onstage is that you're among people who love you, and you feel safe. Congrats on the shows, so glad you're back. I hope that therapy - both physical and mental - and a good diet (for real) help you tremendously. Best luck to you!
I want to wish you improved health and mental health. My daughter has CPTSD and my heart hurts for her. I hope you feel better soon. Having friends that can come over to support you sounds great. I am glad that works for you. You are a sweet and beautiful woman. Your comedy is healing us. Laughter feels so good. Thanks for giving us joy.
I’ve had CPTSD for a number of years and last year, because of the housing crisis here in Australia, I became homeless for five months. I finally got housing a year ago, but it really pushed me to my limit. At first, I felt shell shocked but was getting through. But then, the attacks just started to hit and I’m barely able to function. I hate that they’re called “anxiety attacks” because that just doesn’t even begin to describe it. You hit the nail on the head when you called it terror! I pray we both get through x
Big hugs, ty for sharing... ❤ you explained it really well, i know its scary.. for me it helps what i hate the most - physical movement or any way to connect to my body and feel like i have any minimal control ... 🦋 problem is its so hard to force myself to do it.. you dont get it on stage cot your brain is fully focused on something else
Kathy, I am so glad you are talking about CPTSD. I am told that I have CPTSD also but I think mine is cause of a Dissociation things. I had no idea this could be so severe. Please know you are not alone as your comments are showing you. It takes so much courage to speak of our vulnerabilities. The more we speak of those vulnerabilities the less we have to deal with shame and the less power they have.
Also, one thing that I have had to deal with is the not knowing the whys. Sometimes I have reactions and I don't know what triggered or activated me. Because I like to be in control, that makes it all worse. What I sometimes forget is that sometimes my body remembers what my head can't. So, for me, I have to go with the flow with as little resistance as possible. For me, it means trusting that my body has something to work through that my head just does not get right now. Then I take it to my therapist. You may know this already but there is a guy, Peter A Levine who has wrote extensively on trauma and how we process it. Waking The Tiger: Healing Trauma was a ground breaker many years ago. You may want to star there. You probably know this already. Just remember, you are not alone. You are not odd or crazy. This is the processing of trauma. Everyone heals differently. And everyone can heal.
Kathy you are a SURVIVOR 🎉🎉 ..after all you went through it seems natural to have ptsd 😢….. you’re STRONG 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻stay strong ❤❤❤
Kathy… so sorry. Lost my daughter year and half ago and am now diagnosed PTSD and agoraphobic from suddenly finding myself holding my daughter as she lay dying. EMT held up by ice storm. So the attacks, yes complete terror. Mine begin with stomach clenching in terror and heart racing and goes from there. Have only been out of house for dr. Appts. She and I so bonded over your work; we went to two of your concerts, D.C. and Richmond VA. Thank you for your work and for sharing this. ❤️
I am so sorry. 😥
Thank you for sharing. I've had ptsd for 20 yrs and cptsd for about 5. It's awful. Coupled with CRPS (complex regional pain syndrome) lovingly nicknamed "the suicide disease ' 🙄 it's a struggle. I never know what is going to cause my "flares" as I call them. My attacks last sometimes 8-12 hours even with medication. Take care of yourself, keep fighting and keep sharing your story! ❤
I went through a period of terrible anxiety, nothing as bad as what you described, but counting to five (or whatever number) helped. It sounds ridiculously simple and I didn’t think it would work but oddly it did for me and I still have no idea why. I also just want to thank you for sharing. I hope the attacks lessen or become more bearable. I have enjoyed your standup and I’m glad to see you’re back. ❤
Your vulnerability to be transparent and share your personal struggles is so admirable. My heart goes out to you that you have been dealing with this. I’m sure you are helping others to not feel alone in their own struggles. I’m happy to hear you enjoy your work so much that these issues don’t hold you back to perform. I suffered from a form of PTSD for years (post betrayal syndrome) and it was a long journey of me trying so many things to heal (Vipassana meditation retreats, self help seminars and books, therapy, and psychedelic journeys). I can’t say any one thing fixed me, as it was a gradual healing process. I hope you find your own way to find peace in your mind and body.
My mother suffers from complex PTSD and she didn’t get diagnosed until her early 70s. She wished she had know decades earlier but because of stigma and people really not knowing as much as they do now, she never understood what was wrong with her and why she felt she had to keep picking up and moving from town to town.
I'm so sorry to hear that you and so many others are going through this! You have been a favorite comedian of mine forever! I love you and hope you can find relief!
Kathy, my thoughts and prayers are with you. I delt with depression for yrs. Finally did therapy for several yrs. It got me on The right track. Be open to change and know there are people who care about you. Nothing i can do but send you positive energy and vibes. You deserve happiness.
I had a bad day today and you just helped me to not feel alone. Sorry you went through that - I still love ya.
Thank you so much for talking about cPTSD. I've been living with it since I was 5 years old, and my life has been one mental health diagnosis after another. It rewired my brain from kindergarten (1977). My whole family broke because of a sibling death. Dad drank, Mom highly disliked therapy. So our house was Dysfunction Junction. I was a punk rocker cutter by age 15.
I've used 12 Step programs...several of them including ACA, talk therapy, medication therapy, EMDR (which saved my life), all that stuff. I've had to go no-contact with certain people in my life who did not respect my mental health. Oh, and I had my first trip to the psych ward this past May. Because recovery is not linear. But I am still here. I have started a documentary project about mental health from the patient side. We'll see how it goes.
Much love and respect from Brooklyn. ♥
Kathy, am so sorry you have to experience this, it sounds like hell. Admire you for being honest and open, I’m sure it gives others solace to know they’re not alone. Lots of love from Australia xx
So good to find you on RUclips! Im wishing you strength. Love you. Thank you for being real and honest and vulnerable (you always have been) Sending you love.
So I totally understand what you are going through. I started listening to meditations in my 30's to help me. Jason Stevenson,Jess Shepard,ect. So after my daughter and I went through a sudden loss of custody,of my granddaughter,Layla(we haven't seen her for years,u would nvr believe what happened to my daughter... corruption of courts,her ex boyfriend,who was/is an alcoholic,his family had a great lawyer,also his dad worked in the courts)but anyway,I started living in my car,to help my daughter pay a crappy attorney and child support...so the first six months,I could only park somewhere, during the day,bc I couldn't sleep at night. My PTSD came back,full force, during the first six months. I had my two fur babies(dogs,my oldest passed about a month ago) I was terrified. I have always hated the dark. After listening to mediations every night, scoping out parking lots,to figure out a safe place to sleep..I found a Domino's,I could work at,and sleep at...I finally was able to start sleeping again. I had to crack my windows,so they wouldn't fog up..and I learned that fresh air, really helped me. I adore you. I admire your strength. Car living, actually made me stronger. I had to face all my fears. I talked endlessly,with my two furry kids, walked them in parks, everyday and worked at Domino's. Now,I stay in a shed, behind my kid's gramas home(my ex mother in law) she tolerates me here. I get to see my kids and grandkids all the time. I love you,for saving lives,by being real with us. I personally, don't like all the fake crap out there...huge houses that contain what I call,dead air. My heart tells me,to tell you this ..find out...is it real air,you need more of ..is it getting back to the basics,of human existence,is it... facing your fears, completely alone(with furry kids) what is it? I feel your beautiful soul. I am overweight,smoke cigs,and was able to make it through, loosing my older dog. My question is...what r u running from...and who's ass,do I need to beat? I love ya,sis. Keep talking. You are not alone. We hear you. Don't ever give up,on your essence. We r all on this adventure, together. And my heart is WITH....YOURS. love,Gigi(Sara)
The attacks sound like POTS, from my personal experience. I also have PTSD, and the nervous system is all connected. I also love performing, and you don’t have to worry about losing the ability to do the things you love - it just takes time to find your routine and get your nervous system regulated again.
Certain vitamins helped me a lot, as simple as it sounds… your body gets depleted of some of these, when you have chronic stress. magnesium glycinate, b12, and d, were life changing for me.
Also, I once had a 12 hour POTS attack with dizziness and fainting… it was so bad, it was like a near death experience. It’s important to validate how hard this can be.
Thank you for sharing everything, I relate on a deep level, and it’s an important day to allow all of us to feel less alone. ❤
You have been through a lot, Kathy. It takes time to heal. Stay strong. Hugs.❤
After what they put you through Miss Kathy I don’t blame you. I have ptsd as well. Things just never feel that safe. I feel like the sa is slowly draining my life out more each decade. I have always been a huge fan (regularly listening to the record winning comedy special spree most of all) and I am very glad to see you coming back. You’ll be the new Joan someday, I have said that for years. Much love and best wishes on you taking care of yourself ! Get back into performing it’s good for you it’s what you love! You need a whole row of us homos right in front telling you you’re the best. :) I thought of starting this comment “Jes*s Chr*st Kathleen!” but didn’t know if it would be blocked 😂😂
I am from Ukraine but currently I am living abroad. I started passing out and having major panic attacks when Russians occupied the city where my grandfather lives. When I passed out and after that had a serious panic attack for the first time, I was alone in the flat. I remember that at one moment I was just trying to tell myself what was around me, for example what kind of furniture I could see. Later, I knew about "grounding" exercise and this is something what helps me these days. However, my panic attacks are also not as strong as it was in the beginning of the war. Kathy, thank you for sharing your story with us and bringing awareness to the mental health issues! You are a great performer and a true survivor!
I've been dealing with panick attacks for years, and they definitely got worse after I left an abusive ex. My life has finally gotten to the point where I'm happy and stable, and now it's like I'm back to square 1 again with all this trauma coming to the surface. My body is finally like OK now that we are safe we can deal with this trauma.
You've been through so much, and you're getting back out there. Just be gentle with yourself. I love how you already know what is gonna happen when you get an episode. Making sure those around you are aware of what do to is key too.
Love you, Kathy. I hope you realize how many people have your back and are sending you so much love and light 💜.
I’ve never experienced this but wanted to send love and support to you and everyone dealing w CPTSD. The most important thing is to take care of yourself! Thank you for sharing your experience so we can all better understand what you’re going through. ❤
It’s great that you have a team and resources to help you through this. I’m sorry it’s so gnarly. You went through some pretty significant trauma in your life in pretty intense and rapid succession, so I get the inclination to desperately seek
understanding “why” and “why now.” But maybe trying to accept that a lot of the trauma that has stored in your body is still working it’s way out can be your reason “why” at least for now. Intense experiences, like your return to the stage at the mirage, although great, is shaking some of that stored trauma loose. If you haven’t yet, read the book The Body Keeps the Score by Bessel Van Der Kolk and it might bring you more understanding and compassion for yourself and what you are experiencing. Congrats on the mirage and hang in there!
Thank you for sharing what happens to you.
To wake up in a panic, drenched in sweat with pain throughout the body is exactly as my daughter describes it. 😢
Your video has helped me understand better.
Heartfelt love to you, her and all sufferers. ❤️
I'm sorry this happens to you. I don't have anything similar to share, but my heart goes out to you, and I appreciate your honesty and perseverance in life. And you're a great performer!
Love you Kathy!! I suffer from extreme anxiety and depression and have had terrible panic attacks for 25 years. Each one feels like THE ONE. I’m dying. I would say 90% happen when I’m sleeping. The sheer terror is difficult to explain. When they subside, within minutes, I’m fully drained. But I’m somewhere else in the house because I run from it.
Many different kinds of attacks but I wish you the best. They are no fun.
Really, we love you and will forever be on your side gurl. 😘😘😘
Thank you SO much for giving a voice to this topic. I understand completely what you feel before-during-after these horrible attacks. And they are attacks! We can't control anything about them. I have PTSD from childhood. My life was a nightmare. My Dad died when I was 10 and I knew he protected my sister (age 3) and myself from my Mother. After he died it just made her psychotic rage even worse for now she was "stuck having to take care of us kids". She let me know as she beat the living hell out of me that she never wanted us....she had us because my Dad wanted kids. When she emotionally neglected us I felt like I lived in a state of fear wondering when she was going to snap. Now I am an adult. Now, all of a sudden I started having severe panic attacks. I ended up in a psych hospital for a week. Was diagnosed and put on a narcotic medication to prevent the attacks from being so severe. So yes I have a psychiatrist and go to counseling. Counseling is awful. It makes you dig up stuff you had locked up nice and secure and rehash it over and over. I was told my mother was mentally ill. Really! No shit Sherlock! I was told by my psychiatrist that when we go through trauma our brains get re-wired. We will never be able to heal from our abuse. The best we can do is learn how to deal with it. So Thank you Kathy for being so honest. When we go through this we feel like we hit the crazy button. We feel like no one could understand and we are alone. When people like yourself speak out, it gives the rest of us reassurance. Hey maybe I'm not crazy after all. My body is reacting to things that happened to me and I can't control it.
Love you Kathy! You're stronger than you know for sharing this. I've had panic/anxiety attacks that have knocked me to the floor as if someone hit me with a bat and have gone running down the street cry-screaming to just "get away from the terror". You're not alone. IYKYK
Kathy I've been a fan for years, and you sharing this means so much not just to people dealing with mental health issues, but to all your fans who love and want to know more about you. Thank you for this❤
Kathleen! I bloody love ya. Thanks for sharing, I think it's always best to share these things. You know what they say about a problem shared is a problem halved. I truly hope you feel better for sharing with us. I have a brain tumour (astrocytoma or GBM) and get the odd seizure, especially if I'm stressed, not sleeping enough or late with my pills. I always wake from them physically and mentally exhausted, usually with a small injury to boot. So to a certain extent, I feel your pain girl! I'm glad the stage is a safe place for you. You might have to request a bed on the stage in your rider lol. Xx
It's not a surprise that a person who had half of the country wanting to destroy her have these devastating episodes. I can't imagine. Kathy is so brave beyond words.
Thank you for your perseverance, Kathy! PLEASE keep up your great work & know that so many people love, support & feel forASAP. Nobody can truly imagine what you went thru post "incident" & its lasting effects. Hoping you feel better asap❤❤.
My heart & understanding goes out to you, Kathy. My symptoms are different (quite similar to a heart attack) yet I can relate to the fear of how others perceive these "episodes" as a sign of weakness.
You just keep doing what you need to do for you.
All of you out there. Sometimes it seems impossible to see any positive, to breathe and feel peace & in control of your own being; I know I do. Yet, please do try to remember that we are not weak. We are strong af for going through what we go through & still push forward, be it an inch or a mile.
Kathy and all you beautifuls out there, stay safe and always be kind to yourselves. ❤❤
Kathy, we love you! …you are amazing! So sorry that you are dealing with this. You are helping so many others by having the courage to share this with us today! My heart goes out to you and any others who are going through similar issues.
Hi Kathy. Thank you for being brave enough to talk about this. You are not alone and you are shining a light on what many of us suffer. Try to ignore the sad song on a loop in your head and replace it with, "I have SURVIVED every bad day in my life." Look at how far you've come--this is only a temporary glitch. A bad one, admittedly, but only a glitch. You are stronger than a glitch. Hugs from Canada.