I feel ya Judda lad, I'm 55 and, I'm still stuck in addiction. I had a shitty childhood, a bully for a father and, a nonce for an uncle who sexually abused me. I have a very small family, there's only me and my 77 year old mother, who does an awful lot for me. I suffer from crippling anxiety and depression and, rarely, if ever go out. I've done a life sentence in my bedroom. Being alone is awful and, I often think about harming myself. What hurts me the most is that I'm well aware that life is a gift from God, is only fleeting, but with the right support can be a wonderful experience, but as I have neither love nor support, is a truly miserable existence. I yearn for happiness.
Im originally from Bolton and moved to Birkenhead to get clean and stay clean. Over 10 years drug free and loving life. Keep up the good work Bill and your videos are an inspiration 👏 ❤
@@P1ps955100% 😂 Doesn't matter where you are staying tho when you've had enough & threw the towel in the fight in your head is more important than surviving in your surroundings
Hey Billy love the podcast.....your such an amazing person and your compassion touches me.....I love how you never judge anyone and you have a fantastic friendship with judder.... Sending love from Ireland 💚 🇨🇮
Judder is a legend got a lot of respect for this man, says it how it is kicked the deadliest drug in the world in the head but kept true to himself all way admitting what he still does and takes he’s a legend billy
Bill if you're mate is getting lonely and depressed I strongly advise him getting a dog if that's a possibility. It will fill all those voids and much more. Best thing I ever did was to get my furry lunatic
You to are great what a bromance true brothers no bs love it you two could have your own channel bill what a 💎 of a man like yourself brother keep it 💯 bill judder lad wee love you brother ❤
Judder lad wee love watching your and bills journey ( jolly you guys make some memories because judder lad life to sort bro it’s good to see a real person searching for a better life your like me bother lots of love from Scotland 🏴 bro you too bill 🔥♥️🤣🏴💯‼️
Great to see the star of the show, auld Judders, tell you what Bill that accent you was putting on over in Bolton was spot on, Marcus got out his car sounded bang to rights the same 😂 .. all good fun lads. Take care the both of you, big love from North east. ❤
Stick with him, Bill, it's hard to come across a hacksaw when you're living in a pit of despair, so he's extremely lucky to have you, Bill. He really needs to sack the bird though, some might see it as a selfish thing to do, but If she loves him, she'll understand.
I'm a longterm addict aswell(nearly 25 years)and lonelineness and isolation and depression are bad especially for people like Judder and myself and others who live alone...I have my family but wonder how i"ll get on when my parents are passed away etc. Great video lads..much love and respect ❤
Class billy 😂😂😂 loved it when you said to judder if he had taken out because he looked different and he said no I know why it’s because must be love love with to old girlfriend ❤❤❤❤ 👍🏼👍🏼
Terry is one lovable fella you couldn't not like him he is proper down to earth and funny. I really wish him nothing but the best of luck and I am rooting for him. Respect Billy for giving him the time and faith to turn his life around like you have done. I need to start getting my head together and try to get stable again on my script. Sick of using everyday and I ain't getting any younger either. No meetings in winsford or Northwich anymore I don't think there is anyway we did used to have a CA meeting but nobody really went when I had been there in the past. I am at the point where I need to get my shit together again. I know I can do it but it's making that decision to say enough is enough time to stop. Anyway thanks for your videos you upload for us subscribers. Keep getting Terry to them meetings with you and he'll only get better with it in time. Take care and respect always your a top role model and someone to look up at and inspire to become clean and drug free. Your a top man Billy 👍👊😀
Bolton is summed up completely by the bridge on a one way street out of the town named "The Gateway To Bolton". Hahahah no way where you literally round the corner from where I live.
I love u billy pal and I have 27yrs in the game and counting,I hope u haven't been naughty because in the car you was slow at the start and your eyes were like piss holes in the snow and your not wanting to look straight into the camera, Come on bro if you have it's not good as you know and never ends well.
Billy 😂u have him sused out 😂😂judders have a few DASESS u no the scope Billy but he's looking ok id love to bring the to of y9us over to Dublin for a weekend u will see how much Dublin looks like the pool we have a STEW YOUS HAVE A SCOUS have a good pal in noresgreen he's over hear I go over there 🇮🇪💯💪💙
Bolton Always been a hardcore drug using town ..back in the 70s and 80s the chemist shops were battered every week , even before the £10 bag epidemic started ..Farnworth is a town on the outskirts ..better to see the real picture around Halliwell ,Deane ,breightmet , Great Lever ..street dealers and brasses aplenty
Billy I love ya lad and I respect you But u should be helping him off camera mate And I hate putting this in text cause your a humble guy and an inspiration But he’s your blood and he needs an arm round him lad Please don’t take offence by this cause I do respect you billy ❤
what do you think Billy does off camera?? They are cousins from a tight family with a lifetime of experience together behind them...Billy does many more things off camera than you don`t know about. He is a rock to many people and a loving Dad
Billie, you mentioned last time in one of your videos, you told tez to calm down , it’s because he’s happy to be out with you. Just getting out of 4 walls it’s lonely and that makes people depressed. Lock down has nothing to do with it, as I’m a hermit anyway. But before I go Billie I just want to say how much I have improved relating to you and how far you have gone , but tez is right about loliness. Billie give a shout out to Ross and Andrew twins up in Cumbria.👍🙏🏼
Loneliness and Self Pity is the worst feeling ever 🙏🏻
I feel ya Judda lad, I'm 55 and, I'm still stuck in addiction.
I had a shitty childhood, a bully for a father and, a nonce for an uncle who sexually abused me.
I have a very small family, there's only me and my 77 year old mother, who does an awful lot for me.
I suffer from crippling anxiety and depression and, rarely, if ever go out.
I've done a life sentence in my bedroom.
Being alone is awful and, I often think about harming myself.
What hurts me the most is that I'm well aware that life is a gift from God, is only fleeting, but with the right support can be a wonderful experience, but as I have neither love nor support, is a truly miserable existence.
I yearn for happiness.
Im originally from Bolton and moved to Birkenhead to get clean and stay clean. Over 10 years drug free and loving life. Keep up the good work Bill and your videos are an inspiration 👏 ❤
Done well to stay clean in birkenhead mate haha
@@P1ps955100% 😂 Doesn't matter where you are staying tho when you've had enough & threw the towel in the fight in your head is more important than surviving in your surroundings
Im still stuck in the dump 😂
He has had more than half a can .he needs more will power and with you by his side hopefully he will get it . He is a boss man ❤
The world would be much a better place, with more people like you Billy,
Yeah I hope judder does treat himself to some happiness, fingers 🤞
Hey Billy love the podcast.....your such an amazing person and your compassion touches me.....I love how you never judge anyone and you have a fantastic friendship with judder.... Sending love from Ireland 💚 🇨🇮
Brill podcast. Love how you help people I'm in recovery now struggling but your podcasts keep me going being honest Billy much love to you and family
Judder is a legend got a lot of respect for this man, says it how it is kicked the deadliest drug in the world in the head but kept true to himself all way admitting what he still does and takes he’s a legend billy
Judder is right loneliness is an awful thing, I live on my own and have depression it's not good xx
Bill if you're mate is getting lonely and depressed I strongly advise him getting a dog if that's a possibility. It will fill all those voids and much more. Best thing I ever did was to get my furry lunatic
And squeeze some muscles
Good shout laa, I'd be lost without my Staffies.
The bloke doesn't look like he can look after himself nevermind a dog 😂
@@stephenharris7982 maybe but at least the dog won't judge him and give him much needed companionship and undying love
@@purpleaki1277 maybe but can he give that back that's the question ❓
Beat one yet👌😁😄😆😅🤣😂
You to are great what a bromance true brothers no bs love it you two could have your own channel bill what a 💎 of a man like yourself brother keep it 💯 bill judder lad wee love you brother ❤
Judder lad wee love watching your and bills journey ( jolly you guys make some memories because judder lad life to sort bro it’s good to see a real person searching for a better life your like me bother lots of love from Scotland 🏴 bro you too bill 🔥♥️🤣🏴💯‼️
Great to see the star of the show, auld Judders, tell you what Bill that accent you was putting on over in Bolton was spot on, Marcus got out his car sounded bang to rights the same 😂 .. all good fun lads.
Take care the both of you, big love from North east. ❤
Judder is the man 💯 yous have great relationship Bill great to see you looking out for him 💯💯💯
Stick with him, Bill, it's hard to come across a hacksaw when you're living in a pit of despair,
so he's extremely lucky to have you, Bill.
He really needs to sack the bird though,
some might see it as a selfish thing to do, but If she loves him, she'll understand.
I'm a longterm addict aswell(nearly 25 years)and lonelineness and isolation and depression are bad especially for people like Judder and myself and others who live alone...I have my family but wonder how i"ll get on when my parents are passed away etc.
Great video lads..much love and respect ❤
are u on instagram bro?
I live in the new bury area of Farnworth. Now that's the roughest part OF the roughest part of Bolton.
Class billy 😂😂😂 loved it when you said to judder if he had taken out because he looked different and he said no I know why it’s because must be love love with to old girlfriend ❤❤❤❤ 👍🏼👍🏼
Terry is one lovable fella you couldn't not like him he is proper down to earth and funny. I really wish him nothing but the best of luck and I am rooting for him. Respect Billy for giving him the time and faith to turn his life around like you have done. I need to start getting my head together and try to get stable again on my script. Sick of using everyday and I ain't getting any younger either. No meetings in winsford or Northwich anymore I don't think there is anyway we did used to have a CA meeting but nobody really went when I had been there in the past. I am at the point where I need to get my shit together again. I know I can do it but it's making that decision to say enough is enough time to stop. Anyway thanks for your videos you upload for us subscribers. Keep getting Terry to them meetings with you and he'll only get better with it in time. Take care and respect always your a top role model and someone to look up at and inspire to become clean and drug free. Your a top man Billy 👍👊😀
Shout out Terry 💪 from Sydney city Australia 🇦🇺
Brilliant pod cast quote of the day there’s bellends everywhere 😂
Just keep going the meetings judder 👍
Defo had more than half a can there judder mate
Bolton is summed up completely by the bridge on a one way street out of the town named "The Gateway To Bolton". Hahahah no way where you literally round the corner from where I live.
I've run out of Lime, lol 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣
Terry and Billy are the original Goodfellas 🤭🤭🤭
P.S. I always said Bolton was full of Bellends 🤔🤔🤔
Well said judda! Spot on “corrupt” 👏🏼
Captured it perfect, madness, thanks Bill
Wow how can any council allow graves to be disrespected in such a way
Some of the finest uk street art on the thumbnail
This is banging patter lads class😂
Judder bringing the walking stick in case the pip office are watching, 😂keep ya chin up judder , and keep up the good work billy
Judd johnson the love machine🤣
Stay away from the chemical romance ..believe...you have too mate
I love u billy pal and I have 27yrs in the game and counting,I hope u haven't been naughty because in the car you was slow at the start and your eyes were like piss holes in the snow and your not wanting to look straight into the camera, Come on bro if you have it's not good as you know and never ends well.
lived in farny all my life, actually got robbed in the 90s right there near the phallic graffiti by a man holding a rotten squid! that's farnworth!
If you want rough places in Bolton it used to be Breighmet and Johnson Fold. Wigan try Marsh Green or Platt Bridge xx
Best
Rock now got crunch in..well the Charlie...
All Gone down hill Everywhere Billy since the 90s...😢
More than half a can there lad your eye is pinned. The first step to recovery is bein honest with yeself
No that’s not it!!!
Fingers crossed 🤞 please God he gets there he's a scream
Haha whats happening boris Johnson 😂😂
Looking well lads.
2can kick off legend hahahaha
😂😂😂funny as fcuk lads, laughing is the best medicine 👌👍 Respect👍
Keep it up lads
as much as i love him hes using mate ya can see it in his eyes
he has a glass eye ya plum...and if anyone could tell if he was using it would be Billy...do your homework
If both partners got habits! Never works.
Judder diary would be brilliant the ups the downs the in-between
Loneliness...but get around people who want get off aswell..or are in limbo..cos drugs is love hate..
Judders new nickname. Boris. 😂😂😂
🦿🔚'z legends love the vids big time
Billy 😂u have him sused out 😂😂judders have a few DASESS u no the scope Billy but he's looking ok id love to bring the to of y9us over to Dublin for a weekend u will see how much Dublin looks like the pool we have a STEW YOUS HAVE A SCOUS have a good pal in noresgreen he's over hear I go over there 🇮🇪💯💪💙
💯☘️✌🏻peace✌🏻🍀🎭
Proper class 😂
hahahahahahahah your judda boss bill quality hahahahah
And I KNOW you got on it too Bill.
Funny man he spot on all bout money
Scousers on tour
What's the accent? Can't place it. From a Manchesterite now in Canada. Cheers.
I think that graffiti juddas posing with is an original Wanksy. Chip them bricks out carefully an make a few quid.
Big up lar judder not a one off we all know one. Unfortunately for me it's me atm who a fk up keep going judder our day will come pal
Judder sutcliffe la wrapping brasses in bed sheets 😂😂
Bolton Always been a hardcore drug using town ..back in the 70s and 80s the chemist shops were battered every week , even before the £10 bag epidemic started ..Farnworth is a town on the outskirts ..better to see the real picture around Halliwell ,Deane ,breightmet , Great Lever ..street dealers and brasses aplenty
Chemical romance had a few them bill 😅
Come from a bat, turn it in 😀 Judders switched on Bill.
Where you from Liverpool...no laddy from farm worth 😂
Terry asnt lost his charm. Ur a double act 😂😂😂. Stay safe the both of u ❤
All jokes aside billy watch that bird with juders but if u c this message judders dont kick off just thinking of u
Billy I love ya lad and I respect you
But u should be helping him off camera mate
And I hate putting this in text cause your a humble guy and an inspiration
But he’s your blood and he needs an arm round him lad
Please don’t take offence by this cause I do respect you billy ❤
what do you think Billy does off camera?? They are cousins from a tight family with a lifetime of experience together behind them...Billy does many more things off camera than you don`t know about. He is a rock to many people and a loving Dad
Funny yous two. Get your Judder on the podcasts
Start fronting lamp posts 😂.
Sorry ..god bless
💯💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻🤘🏻🤘🏻🤘🏻
Billie, you mentioned last time in one of your videos, you told tez to calm down , it’s because he’s happy to be out with you. Just getting out of 4 walls it’s lonely and that makes people depressed. Lock down has nothing to do with it, as I’m a hermit anyway. But before I go Billie I just want to say how much I have improved relating to you and how far you have gone , but tez is right about loliness. Billie give a shout out to Ross and Andrew twins up in Cumbria.👍🙏🏼
He might be a bit radge, wor Judda, but he does speak some sense...... He had the Lockdown sussed to a T.
Judder rules.
BOSS LAD 🤣
Love the content , don’t mean to be rude but what happens to your ear if u can elaborate don’t matter if it’s bad memory’s . Big up the channel
1:58 TEH at end of the day mate you have to look yourself in the mirror and be honest wit ya self ❤ your whole affect today in this is different. 😢
Clint Needham he looking for
poor Me Poor Me POUR ME A DRINK 😢
Orangebam haha
11:11 1 city the red rose❤️🇬🇧💯 11:11
Funny as fuck no lime
Clint nedderman 😂😂 whopper
He’s boss judder
Comedy due
Worse than Kensington avenue in Philadelphia this country bill . Fucking ruthless 10:08
Judder for PM 😂
😜😁👍
Unless you’re in love Teh you’re eyes look like you’ve had more than half a can tho yano 🤦♀️ 1:19 Pinned TF
not sure how a glass eye gets pinned ???
Farmwoth lot better than it was years ago tongmor road a over place
A bolt in the head for all the junkies that have destroyed Liverpool especially.