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The name of the kids that the singer Tim McIlrath is listing up are some of the "September's children" - they took thier live in September 2010 because they were bullied due to theit sexual orientation.
Red flags are different from person to person. My girlfriend posted a suicidal song on Facebook and she never had before. I IMMEDIATELY called her and she didn’t answer. I’m a trucker so was in different state and called her parents and had them rush to our apartment and get manager to let them in. She had taken pills and the speed I reacted saved her. Small things can be big flags.
What hits me the most is the names at the end. Those are actual real names of people who killed themselves because of bullying due to their sexual orientation. And there is a fucking 13 year old. Humanity can be so disgusting sometimes it shocks me every time. Thanks for this reaction I needed something like this
Those kids died and unfortunately even the ones who live through it still live with a lifetime of trauma. As someone who is trans and came out at a young age and I dealt with religious abuse, bullying, my own mom breaking my self esteem by insulting me and making fun of how I dressed and expressed myself. My family even made fun of things I couldn't help like my voice which they said was "too girly". Ended up with BPD and because of the trauma /lack of normal childhood part of me ended up getting stuck at the age when the trauma started. I should have a life like the rest of the people I grew up with who went on to have extremely successful lives. they were allowed to grow up normally and didn't have to go through second puberty in their early 20s unlike trans girls like me who are subjected to terrible religious abuse because we aren't allowed to have normal childhood and teen years. I felt like a lost kid when I moved away and tried to function in the world since leaving religion and my abusive family. I got help and I'm a bit better at functioning but I still deal with things like involuntary regression which is an effect of how the past tends to shape people and how certain wounds remain even if you survive.
Humanity IS disgusting. Those kids and so many more were driven to suicide just because of who they were born, it is just so fucking appalling. And our entire history just proves our hopelessness. So much discrimination, so much hate, so many wars, so many genocides and crimes... Maybe it's my depression talking instead of me, but I have completely given up on humanity. War in my homeland was the last drop for me
One day me and my dad were listening to music on his phone as we were driving to go get groceries. After a few minutes this song comes on, i didn't know the lyrics or what they ment so i tried to sing along as best i could. When the song ended my dad paused the music and asked me what the song meant, i said i don't know and he told me about the origins of this song. How it was written in tribute to the many lgbtq children who took their lives in September, hence why its called "September's children". My dad told me that after i came out as a lesbian, he listens to that song and hopes that he's doing everything right being my dad. This song is now one of my favorites.
This is a song that I had on repeat, in highschool. I was bullied, heavily, for just existing, for my whole childhood (including high school). I am also bisexual and didn't come out until I was 25. I was never bullied for my sexuality, but watching this again, for the first time, since coming out, hit me hard. Rise Against is one of my favorite bands and this song was one of the reasons. One of the mantras that I continue to use, in terms of my mental health struggles, comes from a band called The Ghost Inside. From "Mercy", the line is "Life's Swinging Hard, but I'm Swinging Harder" (Sorry for the lengthy comment)
In high-scool, I always stuck up for the misfits, and I never realized until years later after to running into some of them; how much it meant to them. I was just doing the right thing, and never thought it was something deserving of the thanks I recieved for it.
Thank you Amanda for reacting to this video and trust me i don't wanted to make you cry. But this song means so much to me. This song speaks from the hearts of so many of us. "Normal" or LGBTQ+ doesn't matter. Bullying was and is a thing that i lived through and am still living with it. The bullying is not that rough as it was in my teens, but when you are mentally unstable it can hurt a lot. And the 2. verse on the song... it can also be done at work, in the public... How many times as a teen did i though about doing this. But living in germany it is not that easy to get a gun - luckily...
Alkin it was such a true pleasure to meet you last Friday! I can relate to how you feel and I am extremely proud to consider you a friend! You are a very talented gentleman and thanks to Amanda I found a friend I understand and can relate to!
Thank you both. It's funny how you write my name because I think that's how my name is pronounced in English. On another Zoom call, I can tell you the correct pronunciation in Turkish way ^^
This song is one of the few reasons I am alive today. I am not a member of the LGBT community, but everything other than one line fits my life to an extreme. I will always be a fan of Rise Against for being able to speak to me when I needed it the most. Edit: I was raised in a christian home where everything i did was punished and everything I enjoyed was taken away from me, destroyed, lost or considered evil. I was not allowed to have my own identity, personality or sense of being. At school I was bullied severely, sexually assaulted by several other students for years, attacked on the playground, publicly humiliated by my teachers, harassed, cyber-bullying, etc. I even had attempts made on my life on several occasions sometimes by people I trusted. I had no friends. I never felt safe. I had nothing to keep me going. I had suicidal thoughts from the age of 12 to 18 constantly but no attempts. I suffered from crippling depression and anxiety making every task seem impossible to accomplish. Somehow I made it through but it is never easy. Please don't give up!
My ex girlfriend, who was and will always be my first love took her own life because she didn't find acceptance as a trans woman. I myself experienced a time in my life where there was constant struggle and hate and bullying, (even though I'm "only" gay) when I really wanted to end it all. And I am glad I didn't, because it got so much better. Yes, I do still have those scars from the past and yes, every now and then they do hurt but I am now at a point where I can truthfully say that I am making progress in healing. This song and video mean so much to me because to me personally it was a milestone in fighting back against my bullies. About 4 years ago I showed this video during a presentation in my music class. I just wanted them to know what they were doing to me and for the first time in years, while and after this was playing nobody laughed at me or made a mean/degrading commet. This will always be the reason why this song is so special today.
Rise Against has so many good songs with meaning. They're on my bucket list to see, just never played near when I've had the funds to go. This one always brings tears. Do love the tribute they give in the middle to the kids that all committed suicide (September's children) due to being bullied for "those they chose to kiss." My oldest has had to deal with that as well, but thankfully they've seemed to have made it through to the other side. Currently working for the summer at the beach and making friends and having so much better of a time than they were able to in my backwards, small hometown in the sticks.
I saw them at Louder than Life in KY last year (headed by Metallica, another bucket lister for me) and sadly I was very disappointed. They played almost none of their songs I actually like, it almost felt like they tried to play their hardest songs cuz it was a rock festival rather than ones with meaning. Was still neat to see though, but should have been so much better. On the other hand, Avatar absolutely KILLED it.
I really hope you get to see them live at some point. I saw/discovered them at Warped Tour in 2006, then saw them on their tour the following year when I was 17. 32 now and have seen them six times. Once within the last couple years. I can't stress how great they are to see live. My only complaint is that since I have so many favorite songs by them the show never feels long enough. I'm always left wanting to hear another 20 songs. Lol
Yup, song still makes me cry after all these years. It hits me in a different way though because my son is starting pre K next year which means it’s only a matter of time before my son may have to deal with bullies and I’m not ready. I was lucky enough to not be bullied and have a decent friend group around me. My depression always came from inside me and not from others. But it’s making me so anxious going in to this next stage of my sons life where I can’t go and protect him. Thank you for everything you do Amanda. You really are making a difference
Hello, Amanda. Just came across your channel an hour or so, and 4 or 5 videos ago. Love your positive energy. The song Ghost by Badflower has, and continues to, help(ed) me through my own struggles with putting myself to sleep. One line at the end just always sticks out to me. "The cutting part was easy but regretting it is so f#%&ed." It is a very heavy song and video, so DO NOT watch/listen on a bad day. You are loved, appreciated and right where you're meant to be. 🙂
I grew up in a very deep south rural community like you were describing, and from my experience, It's definitely gotten A LOT better, but it's no where near how it should be, the bullying and isolation was horrendous even if you were Slightly different from the rest of the group (Which I was) Thankfully I got out after almost a year and transferred to homeschooling, but not everyone has that option, we need to really band together and fight back against this kind of psychological warfare that these kids don't even know they're participating in....
This song always gets me so bad I struggled so bad through highschool if it wasn't for my two best friends I never would have made it we don't talk much these days but I try to reach out and thank them every now and again because I wouldn't be here without them. I look forward to checking out more more of your channel I think I'm really going to enjoy it
Rise Against is my second favourite band of all time after Linkin Park. The endgame album is a god damn masterpiece and every song is worth a listen. Honestly though I would love to see a reaction to Hero of War from the Appeal to Reason album as it is the most powerful song Rise Against has done for me.
Huge issue in school that is constantly overlooked is bullying, there's school massacres everywhere, everyone asking why. Here's a example cocktailed with mental health
id forgotten this song from their discography... it had such a massive emotional weight to me as a teenager during an extremely dark time, that I've mostly blacked out of my memory. nearly a decade later though, and watching your reaction to this just filled me with a feeling of pure gratitude that i am still here and that you and anyone else reading this are too. let's prove them all wrong 💪
I've been trying to find the exact reason why I enjoy reaction videos. This is why. As it turns out, I enjoy reaction videos because I always want to know what people think about something. I wanna hear what they have to say, their point of views, their sides. Please keep doing this. I'm new here and I love how you react to this song, which I've loved since I was in college.
My love for Rise Against just continues to grow day but day! I really wish I had listened to them earlier in life when I needed to hear what they have to say.
Rise Against is from Chicago and I’m from the suburbs. One of the names he says in the break, I’m not going to specify who for privacy, is someone I had met in my area a few times as he was friends with a close friend of mine. Sweet kid, would never know he was fighting demons deep inside and when the news broke he had taken his own life we were all collectively shocked. His parents, very religious and by the book, seemed to not care at his funeral that he had passed. That was the first time I ever questioned my beliefs as a human being, and I did so at 13 years of age.
Bullying needs to end period! I hate reading about suicides in youths and elders. If you’re going through this just know this you are loved, valued and are extremely important. You are beautiful, handsome, smart, loving, kind, gentle, and most of all you have a positive impact on everyone’s life regardless if you see it or not. Be who are and love yourself and to hell what other people say. You are special and you matter!
Thank you, I remember these kids every fall, as part of the LGBTQ+ community I will never forget them. I was in high school, they gave me courage to come out.
Rise Against covers some pretty hard topics. I've always grouped them in with what I have coined "Folk Punk". The music is very straight forward skate punk, but the lyrics are from a mid to far left contentious place. You should really check Hero of War. Being a vet it is one of the most hard songs to listen to. Instant tears, can be very ptsd inducing as well. Other good ones are: Prayer for the Refugee Savior Re-Education Ready to Fall Like the Angel
I’ve started following you like 4 months ago and you make so much sense I have tried to end it like 7 times but sense I’ve been following you I feel better how you talk and tell people that following you thanks so much
I'm a survivor of 22 attempts since 1986. I learned that the pain doesn't stop. It transfers to those who love you. I'm so happy that I found my purpose 8 years ago. No self harming thoughts since. Loving Life!
Great vid. I am blessed to not have gone through what you speak about, but thought it was awesome as I watched your vid, the license plate on the car in front of me says "uragft"! Awesome.
Back in school, i was a creature nearly full of hatred, rage, and malice that i didn't find out till recently was aimed at myself. I say creature because I turned my hatred outward, instead of seeking help. I aimed my hatred and malice towards bullies, and ended up becoming what I hated, a bigger bully towards the bullies. I was a hateful, violent person not willing to reach out and get help in healing. It was only after several self attempts and addiction which lead to an OD, that I finally reached out, desperate to 'fix me'. I won't lie and say I'm better or even close. But, I'm getting there, slowly but surely.
This song has a very special spot in my heart. I was bullied most of my childhood and tried to end it by OD'ing on my dads sleeping meds when I was 18. The bullying only ended when I put the bully in hospital because he went too far while we were in the workshop at school. I completely crushed his nose and jaw with a hammer, and to this day he needs a feeding tube to eat. I don't feel sorry for him and don't regret doing it. Now I'm 29 and have a wife and daughter who loves me for who I am, and whom I would give everything for. Never give up, because YOU MATTER.
This song brings me back!!!! I swear this song helped me get through school. I was in I think the 6th grade and my life was miserable. I was bullied by even the teachers. So this song is very close and dear to me.
This song hits you like a fucking truck. We had an english project to show everyone in the class a song with a meaning and talk about the meaning after the song ended. This was the song I chose. I couldn't get through the last part of the speech without being on the verge of breaking down.
I know I'm a year later here, but I just wanna say this is a song that has saved my life multiple times, just as a reminder that somebody out there cares and that people out there accept me. Thank you
Yeah, so worried in this day and age about how the kids are to each other. My daughter turns 8 next month, growing up too fast, and I dread what might happen when she gets into the higher grades. When I was in school I was the one who drew in the misfits and bullied because I beat up the bullies and kept my circle safe from that.
This video really got me. Not because of bullying, but I’ve struggled with Schizophrenia, depression,and bi-polar. And every day for years the three words that are on repeat are “make it stop”
Still, after almost 2 decades, sends shivers down my spine and waters my eyes. Can't count how many times I've cried my eyes out listening to this. The memories won't fade. And living with the consquences of extensive bullying is like REN states "a pendulum, eternally swaying from the dark to the light"... There's bad times for sure, but there will be good times again!
I grew up in a large family, and was taught how to deal with bullying, unfortunately(perhaps) I was taught in large part by siblings who picked on me. And children are simultaneously the most innocent and malevolent people. There is interesting literature about how human development happens and how those not properly reared and socialized end up being cruel or even cruel just out of fear of standing out or standing up. I sometimes think about how much things might have been different if I understood then what I do now. Knowing full well that I wouldn't understand without those experiences. Accepting that path as worth traveling to achieve where I am today and where I will one day be, that's been a game changer. Developing an internal locus of control and empathy toward even the bully, has made every aspect of life not only more bearable, but also illuminating opportunities to shed light and beauty into the world.
As a Christian conservative who’s also dealt with depression and suicidal thoughts since my early teens and I just wanna say that “Christians” who condemn or shame LGBT people aren’t Christian in any sense of the word. God taught us to love one another, not condemn people based on sexuality or ideology. Any “Christian” that ignores that should be ashamed of themselves. Aside from that though, love the video. This song has helped me out on multiple occasions and I’m glad more and more people are getting to hear it. Your message is a great one and I hope you find more success because this is a message people need to hear
I just want to say thank u, bc I already lost some friends, bc of wrong and missguided thoughts, but it always matters it always gets better, even if we are going through hard times I'm pretty sure it always gets better.
Whatever has happened to a male or a female in this life does not determine your future or your past it only determines how much stronger you will be to go on further and never let the past control your future
Don't know the band or song but absolutely great song for Amanda to do a discussion of and a great outcome at the end. Remember the words at the end of a Testament song I know, "Where are you going to, no life's not done with you, You've only just begun, to live your life, for you"
Thanks for having the guts to react to this video, as many on RUclips won’t. Probably the most important video I’ve seen. I’m straight but bawl every time I see this. Thanks again from a schizophrenic, male child rape survivor
never heard this song until now and i was not ready, when i was in highschool, i went to a alternative school and there was only around 100 of us in the school, in one weekend 2 people commited suicide. the day we got back to school was very weird, quiet, we heard them make the announcment but we all already knew at that point, one of them was my friend, self inflicted gun shot, the music video really, really hurts to watch.
Hi Amanda. First time I've visited your channel. Lovely reaction to a video that can be hard to watch, especially since it speaks to your own life experience. Rise Against are a fantastic band. Tim McIlraith, their singer and main songwriter, writes many songs about redemption of the downtrodden (although that doesn't do his songs the credit they deserve). A couple of other songs of theirs I can recommend are: " Survive", " Prayer of the Refugee", "People live here", "Audience of one" and "The Numbers". Hell, they have 11 albums worth of bangers. Check them out. They're great! Take care Amanda and keep making fantastic videos.
They've been one of my favorite bands for 16 years now. They have definitely helped get me through some shit. A song I don't see get a lot of attention is Tragedy + Time. Idc if you do a reaction to it. Just make sure you hear it.
I love your videos, because like you I and a survivor. The worst voices I heard was in my head (schizophrenic) and I always thought it would be easier if I didn't exist. I try to help everyone I can because I know how it feels and the pain. I have a tattoo to remind myself to be open and tell people when I'm off. Please find someone that can be there for you and will listen, they are out there I promise it. I will be that person if you need it.
Looking back, i eould have missed out on so much. All the friends i made in College, all the bright sunny days, all the smiles of my niece and every single little thing. It does get better, really, it does. I still have bad days sometimes, but they're a lot less bad. I get through them and a better one lies beyond dawn. Don't give up. And for all those, that can find a bit of help in these words: god loves you. He does, I'm 100% sure. He is not like those bigoted people at church. He loves you and he always will. Because you are one of his children and he made each of us, exactly the way we are. Your perfect the way you are.
Watching this music video makes me drop a tear every time. I'm straight, but I was bullied too most of the time I was in school and kindergarten. For whatever "reason". I guess the "reason" was me being shy and an "easy target". What I'm saying is, there is not a single reason that justifies bullying someone. There is no such thing as a "normal" person. Whether you love men, women or both, no matter what your skin color or religion is, no matter what your hobbies are, you are who you are and you are perfect as you are. It just doesn't get in my head how some people still cannot understand this. Luckily for me it never got so far that I seriously considered suicide, but this song still makes me feel proud of who I am and happy that I'm alive, having great friends which I love and hobbies that fulfill me. And great music I can listen to, like Rise Against. I discovered this band like a week ago and my love for this band keeps growing. Not only is their music sounding great, but also very meaningful. ❤🧡💛💚💙💜
Coming back to your channel to rewatch some of your videos and it's got me realizing some other stuff. First off, I love your empathy, it's nice to see some pure emotion, even if it's a negative one. Seeing this video again, I still think the message is important, but I also feel for the cast/extras. Imagine having to pretend you're that disgusting of a human? It helps get the message across, but I hope the people who helped create the video are doing well. They also seem to be late teens/early twenties while the brain is still developing. I've been wondering that more and more when kids and YA are used in media, are they developed enough to fully seperate what their character does from themselves?
This song (and a cat who relies on me to survive) is what stopped my string of attempts from the age of 13-22 but it's always so hard to watch because of how many people don't make it out the other side. I know "it gets better" sounds hollow when you're in it but it really is true. I'm not just not sad anymore but genuinely happy and grateful every day that I didn't succeed
I am so happy that you navigated out of the darkness and found happiness and I'm glad you're still here with us to show others that there is another side!
AA meetings and steps helped me love myself. "They say things like let us love you until you do" I also have a psychiatrist I speak to monthly... I survived an attempt back in may 3rd of 2021 that left me in a coma for 4 weeks
My childhood in primary and secondary school was nonstop bullying. Not just simple name calling or crap like that I mean SERIOUS sheet! lol I was a shy kid up until about 28 years old, the bullying pushed me harder into my shell to cope. Here is a short list of some of the best (worst) things I survived though - 6 years old - kids broke my big toes while standing outside class waiting to go into class by stomping on them with their heels (several times), Beaten up many times in and outside of class or even outside of school hours - it got so bad once that I gave myself bruises - in the _hope_ that the bullies would take pity on me and not beat me up for a bit, it made them go even harder! lol At age 16 I was slashed by a kid with a long chef's knife during class by a bully - I put my hands up in self defence and received "Defensive Wounds" that cut my middle left finger to the bone, it took 6 weeks to heal without stitches as nobody would help me get stitches and the school swept the incident under the carpet. I was forced to go into a canoe in a dirty river with the bullies 2 weeks later while the finger was trying to heal by me taping it together with clear plastic tape and elastic bands, I told the teacher I refuse to go into that canoe with them as they will tip me out knowing that I can not swim plus they did this to my finger which has not gotten the treatment it needed so will get infected from that river water when they tip the canoe - the teacher told me bluntly to get in the canoe or leave and don't come back - I quit school right there and then. Went on to become long term unemployed for 13 years and homeless for a bit. During that time I did consider ending my life many times but could never find a way that would guarantee a quick and 100% death sentence that also will not mentally hurt others who find me... Other things that happened was I was pushed over which broke both wrists which I still today decades later have sore wrists that never properly healed, I was run down by a car while riding my bike (both at aged 16 after the finger thing above.) These are the highlights of my pain - much more of course but these are the best bits! lol The finger one was the inspiration for my band's name!! Due to not getting stitches, that finger sometimes feels tingly, numb, normal or occasionally it feels like a brand new FRESH cut finger to the bone!! Quite painful nerve damage right there! Get stitches if you can... Since that time, I have been 18 years full time employed since then, started my own small business and learned how to play all instruments for my band which I started including how to record, edit, mix, master and produce to upload onto Spotify etc. Well and truly out of that shell now! If you have had a bad time in your teens, do not end your life, it TRULY does get better as time goes on!!
Great videos, amazing to see someone talking about mental health in an informative way. I would love to see you react to the song Bob by Primus, it's a really really dark song about a true story.
This song came out while there was a sudden rise in teenage suicides in September of 2010 (I think). It seemed like suicide cases were inspiring other cases and alot of them were LGBTQ+ kids. This song is among a handful of songs that came out trying to help/telling the stories. I think Kesha's "we are who we are" was another one
I have nothing against the LGBTQ+, as long as they leave me be myself, I have nothing bad to about it. I've been bullied my whole life, that I just don't care about people's religion, sexuality, etc. My best friend said she loves my attitude because I don't judge. (Also Savior is a good song.)
Agreed. I'm about the straightest white male you'll meet, but I don't care what color you are or what you do in your spare time. As long as you don't try to force it on me, be yourself. I don't care.
@@hehawseve3560 I've known gay people all my life, friends, family, in the workplace... I have never seen an lgbtq person try and push their lifestyle on anyone. That beings said, I have heard straight people pushing their lifestyle on lgbtq people dozens of times. Let alone pressure from family, religion, the government, etc.
@@GreathSentina Yeah, most people don't. I dunno how much rise against you know but I highly reccomend some of their more obscure stuff. My top 3 Albums are The Sufferer and The Witeness, Appeal To Reason and Revolutions Per Minute (Siren Song of the Counter Culture is an honorable mention)
Just found your channel today. It's not likely you'll read this comment, as this upload is four months in the past, but I want to say that this is the best take on "September's Children" I've seen. Including ones I've heard in my personal life. Would love to support you, but I'm skimp. Please keep your perspective out there. Would love to introduce you to a song by a band called K's Choice -- maybe someday I'll become a patron.
@Mental Amanda As exemplified by yourself. I find it to be incumbent upon us, when we have not much geld to give, to dip into our other wells of bounty for each other. Bonne année & gelukkig nieuwjaar!
Have you done a reaction to I’m not ok by citizen soldier? This and a few of the songs you’ve already reacted to are on my “dark” playlist, it’s rare I listen to it but there’s definitely times when I feel I’m on a downward spiral and this playlist definitely helps. Music frames what goes on in my head better than I ever could
I'm a big white 35yo guy, maybe the "safest" combination ever, and I'm a long-time RA fan but after many many years I am still not able to watch this video without crying.
There's another song by Rise Against called "Hero of War" that deals with mental trauma of a veteran who went to war as a kid and through horror and tragedy, came home broken. I warn you, it is another one that will absolutely hurt and crush you, but is worth checking out and analyzing. As a veteran whos experience mirrored almost word for word the songs, I can't recommend it enough.
Rise against and Linkin Park helped me survive the most daunting and hopeless times in my life. I am as of this year longer alive after my last attempt than before. +16 years.
To quote Marvin the Paranoid Android, from Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy, "Life? Don't talk to me about life. I have a brain the size of a planet, and they just get me to get this, and get that."
Black Sabbath Paranoid (official video) in Belgium 1970. Many people go through this series of emotions in depression as well. Please react to this song for the many depressed people in the world.
I'm just gonna share my own experiences with mental health. And this is how I view it. Life does get better, but there will always be ups and downs. So just because it seems like it gets darker again, does not mean that the light is completely gone. And though it might get better, sometimes pain will remain, at least it did remain with me. That pain doesn't have to be a bad thing however, and you can find a reason for that pain and make it into something good. The way I was able to move forward is to accept the pain that I feel and use it for something positive. I used to be suicidal, but I haven't been for about 4 years now. My pain comes from different experiences in life, being bullied was a huge part of that when I was younger, though that doesn't affect me in any way anymore. Today, my mental health issues comes from other things I've experienced since, that has cause me to get PTSD as well as having another disorder that developed/evolved recently called Schizoaffective Disorder. I was diagnosed with this disorder this summer, but I've had symptoms since I was a child. It just got worse after I turned 20/21 and only now did the doctors realize what caused my symptoms after I suggested that it might be this disorder. Also I'd like to say that I don't mean that the pain will always remain, because I can't speak for any one else, and I still have a long road ahead of me. And I don't know how it works for others, this is just how it is for me atm. But to me, the pain isn't a bad thing anymore. It has become a tool for me to try and be a better person.
Highly recommend listening to Tragedy + Time from Rise Against as well, even if you don't do a video of reacting. It really spoke to me at a low point in my life.
Having a gun in your home is extremely dangerous. I can't really relate to that but I'm diagnosed clinical depression so I can "understand" to some extent. I did chamber a round sitting on my bed for hours thinking "it's 2 pound of pressure, 2 pounds of pressure and it will make it stop, they say a bullet travels faster than sound at point blank, it's just turning the lights off". Crying my eyes out, pointing the gun, resting the index on the trigger. Don't ever buy a firearm, especially if you live in the US. Don't, just don't.
I have a gun because I have had stalkers. I was also taught gun safety and how to shoot at a very young age and never saw guns as scary or evil. With that being said, in the times that my thoughts went dark, that was never the method that went through my mind. If someone struggles regularly with suicidal ideation, I very much agree that they should not have a gun in their home.
I... never really felt the message of the song when it came out in 2011. I wasn't bullied then. I've always had a loving and open-minded family. Even when I started to figure myself out in 2013 that I'm not straight I still didn't have anything negative like that... and then I've found myself figuring myself out further after I moved to a different state. I'm trans... and I moved to a neighborhood where half of my neighbors would hate me or maybe want me dead if they knew... if they knew... I've gotta hide now... and I feel the song's message even more than just understanding it... but this isn't anywhere close to stopping me. I'm happy knowing who I am. And I seriously genuinely wish I could hold a door open to my family for everyone that needs one. Hi, I'm Mae Day, and in the words of the song I plan to go on living. :) [Side note: the force and weight behind how Tim sings "I'm done asking I demand" hits me every single time.]
Hi Amanda! I came across your videos recently and I find your reactions to songs very informative. I was wondering if you could do a reaction to Lose Yourself by Eminem? It's an incredibly powerful song imo. It talks about Eminem's rough upbringing and his struggle to gain acceptance from his peers in the rap community.
I love rise against my introduction to them was give it all on need for speed underground 2. They quickly became a musical staple for me, they’re my favorite punk band other than alien ant farm and the offspring. Now for my question, I’ve been dealing with loneliness a lot lately. In the past I’ve been alright being alone, however as of late I’ve been feeling very lonely and been aching for companionship and seeking it I don’t know if it’s codependency or what. I just really want someone at my side like a significant other maybe? But Dating doesn’t seem appealing to me right now. Amanda please give me your insight and brutally honest opinion on this
I don't think it's codependency. Humans are pack animals and we crave to be acknowledged. With that being said, there are MANY forms of companionship from friends to group buddies to romantic partners to cuddle therapists!
@@MentalAmanda thank you Amanda I appreciate your insight. I’ve never heard of a cuddle therapist before, but I doubt there’s any in my area. Anyway I think I may have found the companionship I’ve been looking for and I’m excited to see where it goes
Fair warning, I get a warning up front by YT before I can watch your video and underneath the video is an inlay that links to local suicide prevention hotlines. Now I don't need that anymore, but I wanted to 1 warn you that you may be age restricted, but also tell you about something cool RUclips is doing. Not surprised it's a video of yours this happens on because you're more emotionally raw than most channels I watch. They call them 'Crisis resource panels' and I think it's dope.
That one young man on the bridge...that was me. WOW! It was not as a result of bullying for me, but the feelings were quite the same. I am off topic related to this video, but it still touched me so much. Why do I feel like you are my friend thru this channel? Thank you. Even after all that, I was part of so many organized religions for so many years. "What God would damn a heart?" I had to find my way out of all that so I could finally find God. I am no longer religious at all just because of all the warped people out there. I still consider myself spiritual, but my relationship now is with God, not anyone else trying to sell me on what God thinks about me. Thank you yet again for all that you are doing...but I have to ask, since I end up crying thru every one of your reviews....do you have any just plain fun reaction videos out there. I need to laugh some too. 🤪
We can never have too many friends! Here are a few of my fun reactions: To Be the Best by Tenacious D: ruclips.net/video/E80DvJhGhSw/видео.html Better Place by *N Sync: ruclips.net/video/EUX-Zxfg3TY/видео.html Toy by Netta: ruclips.net/video/iVRLnXzSNFo/видео.html Rise Up by Morisette: ruclips.net/video/xTgPZRbvHw4/видео.html
Thank you for sharing those review clips with me. Have you done a reaction to the cover of Metallica's "Nothing Else Matter" by Voice Play? I'm not sure if that would be in your wheel house but it is a great cover of a great song.@@MentalAmanda
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Hey Amanda I've had an up and down day today but I'll survive i hope everyone's doing well
My outlet was insanity and hitting my head on everything an anything
The name of the kids that the singer Tim McIlrath is listing up are some of the "September's children" - they took thier live in September 2010 because they were bullied due to theit sexual orientation.
@@dudestop1894 WAS is the key word. Proud of you for finding other outlets!
Or I am a bad person
Red flags are different from person to person. My girlfriend posted a suicidal song on Facebook and she never had before. I IMMEDIATELY called her and she didn’t answer. I’m a trucker so was in different state and called her parents and had them rush to our apartment and get manager to let them in. She had taken pills and the speed I reacted saved her. Small things can be big flags.
Great job man
What hits me the most is the names at the end. Those are actual real names of people who killed themselves because of bullying due to their sexual orientation. And there is a fucking 13 year old. Humanity can be so disgusting sometimes it shocks me every time. Thanks for this reaction I needed something like this
I thought those were the names of the people talking!
Yeah its really sad all the names and ages are real people with real heartbreaking stories
Those kids died and unfortunately even the ones who live through it still live with a lifetime of trauma. As someone who is trans and came out at a young age and I dealt with religious abuse, bullying, my own mom breaking my self esteem by insulting me and making fun of how I dressed and expressed myself. My family even made fun of things I couldn't help like my voice which they said was "too girly". Ended up with BPD and because of the trauma /lack of normal childhood part of me ended up getting stuck at the age when the trauma started. I should have a life like the rest of the people I grew up with who went on to have extremely successful lives.
they were allowed to grow up normally and didn't have to go through second puberty in their early 20s unlike trans girls like me who are subjected to terrible religious abuse because we aren't allowed to have normal childhood and teen years. I felt like a lost kid when I moved away and tried to function in the world since leaving religion and my abusive family. I got help and I'm a bit better at functioning but I still deal with things like involuntary regression which is an effect of how the past tends to shape people and how certain wounds remain even if you survive.
Humanity IS disgusting. Those kids and so many more were driven to suicide just because of who they were born, it is just so fucking appalling. And our entire history just proves our hopelessness. So much discrimination, so much hate, so many wars, so many genocides and crimes... Maybe it's my depression talking instead of me, but I have completely given up on humanity. War in my homeland was the last drop for me
@ligma212 this is why I've always resented organized religion, or any means to justify bigotry.
One day me and my dad were listening to music on his phone as we were driving to go get groceries. After a few minutes this song comes on, i didn't know the lyrics or what they ment so i tried to sing along as best i could. When the song ended my dad paused the music and asked me what the song meant, i said i don't know and he told me about the origins of this song. How it was written in tribute to the many lgbtq children who took their lives in September, hence why its called "September's children". My dad told me that after i came out as a lesbian, he listens to that song and hopes that he's doing everything right being my dad. This song is now one of my favorites.
This is a song that I had on repeat, in highschool.
I was bullied, heavily, for just existing, for my whole childhood (including high school). I am also bisexual and didn't come out until I was 25. I was never bullied for my sexuality, but watching this again, for the first time, since coming out, hit me hard.
Rise Against is one of my favorite bands and this song was one of the reasons.
One of the mantras that I continue to use, in terms of my mental health struggles, comes from a band called The Ghost Inside. From "Mercy", the line is "Life's Swinging Hard, but I'm Swinging Harder" (Sorry for the lengthy comment)
In high-scool, I always stuck up for the misfits, and I never realized until years later after to running into some of them; how much it meant to them. I was just doing the right thing, and never thought it was something deserving of the thanks I recieved for it.
Thank you Amanda for reacting to this video and trust me i don't wanted to make you cry. But this song means so much to me. This song speaks from the hearts of so many of us. "Normal" or LGBTQ+ doesn't matter. Bullying was and is a thing that i lived through and am still living with it. The bullying is not that rough as it was in my teens, but when you are mentally unstable it can hurt a lot. And the 2. verse on the song... it can also be done at work, in the public... How many times as a teen did i though about doing this. But living in germany it is not that easy to get a gun - luckily...
Thank you Alkin. Thank you for sharing. Thank you for standing up. Thank you for not giving up. You are my friend and I love you.
Alkin it was such a true pleasure to meet you last Friday! I can relate to how you feel and I am extremely proud to consider you a friend!
You are a very talented gentleman and thanks to Amanda I found a friend I understand and can relate to!
Thank you both. It's funny how you write my name because I think that's how my name is pronounced in English. On another Zoom call, I can tell you the correct pronunciation in Turkish way ^^
@@Naugrim1 enjoy your holiday my friend ! I love you!
This song is one of the few reasons I am alive today. I am not a member of the LGBT community, but everything other than one line fits my life to an extreme. I will always be a fan of Rise Against for being able to speak to me when I needed it the most.
Edit: I was raised in a christian home where everything i did was punished and everything I enjoyed was taken away from me, destroyed, lost or considered evil. I was not allowed to have my own identity, personality or sense of being. At school I was bullied severely, sexually assaulted by several other students for years, attacked on the playground, publicly humiliated by my teachers, harassed, cyber-bullying, etc. I even had attempts made on my life on several occasions sometimes by people I trusted. I had no friends. I never felt safe. I had nothing to keep me going. I had suicidal thoughts from the age of 12 to 18 constantly but no attempts. I suffered from crippling depression and anxiety making every task seem impossible to accomplish. Somehow I made it through but it is never easy. Please don't give up!
My ex girlfriend, who was and will always be my first love took her own life because she didn't find acceptance as a trans woman. I myself experienced a time in my life where there was constant struggle and hate and bullying, (even though I'm "only" gay) when I really wanted to end it all. And I am glad I didn't, because it got so much better. Yes, I do still have those scars from the past and yes, every now and then they do hurt but I am now at a point where I can truthfully say that I am making progress in healing.
This song and video mean so much to me because to me personally it was a milestone in fighting back against my bullies. About 4 years ago I showed this video during a presentation in my music class. I just wanted them to know what they were doing to me and for the first time in years, while and after this was playing nobody laughed at me or made a mean/degrading commet. This will always be the reason why this song is so special today.
Rise Against has so many good songs with meaning. They're on my bucket list to see, just never played near when I've had the funds to go.
This one always brings tears. Do love the tribute they give in the middle to the kids that all committed suicide (September's children) due to being bullied for "those they chose to kiss." My oldest has had to deal with that as well, but thankfully they've seemed to have made it through to the other side. Currently working for the summer at the beach and making friends and having so much better of a time than they were able to in my backwards, small hometown in the sticks.
I saw them at Louder than Life in KY last year (headed by Metallica, another bucket lister for me) and sadly I was very disappointed. They played almost none of their songs I actually like, it almost felt like they tried to play their hardest songs cuz it was a rock festival rather than ones with meaning. Was still neat to see though, but should have been so much better. On the other hand, Avatar absolutely KILLED it.
My wife and i saw them in Hannover before the pandemic
Me too, too bad they never do any concert to my country.
I saw them 2 times, cant wait till november to see them the 3rd time! I love this band!!
I really hope you get to see them live at some point. I saw/discovered them at Warped Tour in 2006, then saw them on their tour the following year when I was 17. 32 now and have seen them six times. Once within the last couple years. I can't stress how great they are to see live. My only complaint is that since I have so many favorite songs by them the show never feels long enough. I'm always left wanting to hear another 20 songs. Lol
Yup, song still makes me cry after all these years. It hits me in a different way though because my son is starting pre K next year which means it’s only a matter of time before my son may have to deal with bullies and I’m not ready. I was lucky enough to not be bullied and have a decent friend group around me. My depression always came from inside me and not from others. But it’s making me so anxious going in to this next stage of my sons life where I can’t go and protect him. Thank you for everything you do Amanda. You really are making a difference
I love this song. Haven’t even watched the video, but I already want to thank you for doing this song
Hello, Amanda. Just came across your channel an hour or so, and 4 or 5 videos ago. Love your positive energy.
The song Ghost by Badflower has, and continues to, help(ed) me through my own struggles with putting myself to sleep. One line at the end just always sticks out to me. "The cutting part was easy but regretting it is so f#%&ed."
It is a very heavy song and video, so DO NOT watch/listen on a bad day.
You are loved, appreciated and right where you're meant to be. 🙂
I grew up in a very deep south rural community like you were describing, and from my experience, It's definitely gotten A LOT better, but it's no where near how it should be, the bullying and isolation was horrendous even if you were Slightly different from the rest of the group (Which I was) Thankfully I got out after almost a year and transferred to homeschooling, but not everyone has that option, we need to really band together and fight back against this kind of psychological warfare that these kids don't even know they're participating in....
This song always gets me so bad I struggled so bad through highschool if it wasn't for my two best friends I never would have made it we don't talk much these days but I try to reach out and thank them every now and again because I wouldn't be here without them. I look forward to checking out more more of your channel I think I'm really going to enjoy it
Rise Against is my second favourite band of all time after Linkin Park. The endgame album is a god damn masterpiece and every song is worth a listen. Honestly though I would love to see a reaction to Hero of War from the Appeal to Reason album as it is the most powerful song Rise Against has done for me.
Huge issue in school that is constantly overlooked is bullying, there's school massacres everywhere, everyone asking why. Here's a example cocktailed with mental health
id forgotten this song from their discography... it had such a massive emotional weight to me as a teenager during an extremely dark time, that I've mostly blacked out of my memory. nearly a decade later though, and watching your reaction to this just filled me with a feeling of pure gratitude that i am still here and that you and anyone else reading this are too. let's prove them all wrong 💪
I've been trying to find the exact reason why I enjoy reaction videos. This is why. As it turns out, I enjoy reaction videos because I always want to know what people think about something. I wanna hear what they have to say, their point of views, their sides. Please keep doing this. I'm new here and I love how you react to this song, which I've loved since I was in college.
Este video necesita tener muchisimas mas produccion y reconocimiento, muchas gracias por ser TAN INCREIBLE AMANDA, amor para todos
My love for Rise Against just continues to grow day but day! I really wish I had listened to them earlier in life when I needed to hear what they have to say.
I have loved this song for years, listening to it still gives me goosebumps. Loved your reaction. I so greatly appreciate your perspective.
Rise Against is from Chicago and I’m from the suburbs. One of the names he says in the break, I’m not going to specify who for privacy, is someone I had met in my area a few times as he was friends with a close friend of mine. Sweet kid, would never know he was fighting demons deep inside and when the news broke he had taken his own life we were all collectively shocked. His parents, very religious and by the book, seemed to not care at his funeral that he had passed. That was the first time I ever questioned my beliefs as a human being, and I did so at 13 years of age.
Bullying needs to end period! I hate reading about suicides in youths and elders. If you’re going through this just know this you are loved, valued and are extremely important. You are beautiful, handsome, smart, loving, kind, gentle, and most of all you have a positive impact on everyone’s life regardless if you see it or not. Be who are and love yourself and to hell what other people say. You are special and you matter!
Thank you, I remember these kids every fall, as part of the LGBTQ+ community I will never forget them. I was in high school, they gave me courage to come out.
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Rise Against covers some pretty hard topics. I've always grouped them in with what I have coined "Folk Punk". The music is very straight forward skate punk, but the lyrics are from a mid to far left contentious place.
You should really check Hero of War. Being a vet it is one of the most hard songs to listen to. Instant tears, can be very ptsd inducing as well.
Other good ones are:
Prayer for the Refugee
Savior
Re-Education
Ready to Fall
Like the Angel
If your a vet and a rise against fan you likely already have. But on the off chance you haven't you should really check out "survivor guilt" by them
I’ve started following you like 4 months ago and you make so much sense I have tried to end it like 7 times but sense I’ve been following you I feel better how you talk and tell people that following you thanks so much
I love your channel Amanda, your real and it's not staged . Appreciate you speaking out with mental health ❤️💯
This video was honest, and beautiful. Thank you for this.
The world needs more intelligent, compassionate, wonderful people. Please keep doing what you do. You are doing so much good work.
I'm a survivor of 22 attempts since 1986. I learned that the pain doesn't stop. It transfers to those who love you. I'm so happy that I found my purpose 8 years ago. No self harming thoughts since. Loving Life!
You're doing valuable work here. I appreciate you thanks ❤
Great vid. I am blessed to not have gone through what you speak about, but thought it was awesome as I watched your vid, the license plate on the car in front of me says "uragft"! Awesome.
Back in school, i was a creature nearly full of hatred, rage, and malice that i didn't find out till recently was aimed at myself. I say creature because I turned my hatred outward, instead of seeking help. I aimed my hatred and malice towards bullies, and ended up becoming what I hated, a bigger bully towards the bullies. I was a hateful, violent person not willing to reach out and get help in healing. It was only after several self attempts and addiction which lead to an OD, that I finally reached out, desperate to 'fix me'. I won't lie and say I'm better or even close. But, I'm getting there, slowly but surely.
This song has a very special spot in my heart. I was bullied most of my childhood and tried to end it by OD'ing on my dads sleeping meds when I was 18. The bullying only ended when I put the bully in hospital because he went too far while we were in the workshop at school. I completely crushed his nose and jaw with a hammer, and to this day he needs a feeding tube to eat.
I don't feel sorry for him and don't regret doing it.
Now I'm 29 and have a wife and daughter who loves me for who I am, and whom I would give everything for. Never give up, because YOU MATTER.
This song brings me back!!!! I swear this song helped me get through school. I was in I think the 6th grade and my life was miserable. I was bullied by even the teachers. So this song is very close and dear to me.
This song hits you like a fucking truck. We had an english project to show everyone in the class a song with a meaning and talk about the meaning after the song ended. This was the song I chose. I couldn't get through the last part of the speech without being on the verge of breaking down.
I know I'm a year later here, but I just wanna say this is a song that has saved my life multiple times, just as a reminder that somebody out there cares and that people out there accept me. Thank you
Yeah, so worried in this day and age about how the kids are to each other. My daughter turns 8 next month, growing up too fast, and I dread what might happen when she gets into the higher grades. When I was in school I was the one who drew in the misfits and bullied because I beat up the bullies and kept my circle safe from that.
All we can do is teach them empowerment and confidence so they're less likely to sway toward those types!
This video really got me. Not because of bullying, but I’ve struggled with Schizophrenia, depression,and bi-polar. And every day for years the three words that are on repeat are “make it stop”
Thank you for helping People, thank you for being part of the Solution
Still, after almost 2 decades, sends shivers down my spine and waters my eyes.
Can't count how many times I've cried my eyes out listening to this.
The memories won't fade. And living with the consquences of extensive bullying is like REN states "a pendulum, eternally swaying from the dark to the light"...
There's bad times for sure, but there will be good times again!
THANK YOU.
I grew up in a large family, and was taught how to deal with bullying, unfortunately(perhaps) I was taught in large part by siblings who picked on me. And children are simultaneously the most innocent and malevolent people. There is interesting literature about how human development happens and how those not properly reared and socialized end up being cruel or even cruel just out of fear of standing out or standing up.
I sometimes think about how much things might have been different if I understood then what I do now. Knowing full well that I wouldn't understand without those experiences. Accepting that path as worth traveling to achieve where I am today and where I will one day be, that's been a game changer.
Developing an internal locus of control and empathy toward even the bully, has made every aspect of life not only more bearable, but also illuminating opportunities to shed light and beauty into the world.
As a Christian conservative who’s also dealt with depression and suicidal thoughts since my early teens and I just wanna say that “Christians” who condemn or shame LGBT people aren’t Christian in any sense of the word. God taught us to love one another, not condemn people based on sexuality or ideology. Any “Christian” that ignores that should be ashamed of themselves.
Aside from that though, love the video. This song has helped me out on multiple occasions and I’m glad more and more people are getting to hear it.
Your message is a great one and I hope you find more success because this is a message people need to hear
I just want to say thank u, bc I already lost some friends, bc of wrong and missguided thoughts, but it always matters it always gets better, even if we are going through hard times I'm pretty sure it always gets better.
I love how genuine and real you are. Keep being you.
And based on this video, you might want to check out Millencolin - The Ballad.
Whatever has happened to a male or a female in this life does not determine your future or your past it only determines how much stronger you will be to go on further and never let the past control your future
Don't know the band or song but absolutely great song for Amanda to do a discussion of and a great outcome at the end. Remember the words at the end of a Testament song I know, "Where are you going to, no life's not done with you, You've only just begun, to live your life, for you"
Thanks for having the guts to react to this video, as many on RUclips won’t. Probably the most important video I’ve seen. I’m straight but bawl every time I see this. Thanks again from a schizophrenic, male child rape survivor
Thank you for sharing a glimpse into your world. Proud of you as a fellow survivor!
never heard this song until now and i was not ready, when i was in highschool, i went to a alternative school and there was only around 100 of us in the school, in one weekend 2 people commited suicide. the day we got back to school was very weird, quiet, we heard them make the announcment but we all already knew at that point, one of them was my friend, self inflicted gun shot, the music video really, really hurts to watch.
I'm so sorry that the video triggered you. My IG and email is always open if you need to talk.
Not enough people react to this! I'm glad you did!
Hi Amanda. First time I've visited your channel. Lovely reaction to a video that can be hard to watch, especially since it speaks to your own life experience. Rise Against are a fantastic band. Tim McIlraith, their singer and main songwriter, writes many songs about redemption of the downtrodden (although that doesn't do his songs the credit they deserve). A couple of other songs of theirs I can recommend are: " Survive", " Prayer of the Refugee", "People live here", "Audience of one" and "The Numbers". Hell, they have 11 albums worth of bangers. Check them out. They're great! Take care Amanda and keep making fantastic videos.
Amanda, "Make it stop!" Very appropriate.
They've been one of my favorite bands for 16 years now. They have definitely helped get me through some shit. A song I don't see get a lot of attention is Tragedy + Time. Idc if you do a reaction to it. Just make sure you hear it.
I love your videos, because like you I and a survivor. The worst voices I heard was in my head (schizophrenic) and I always thought it would be easier if I didn't exist. I try to help everyone I can because I know how it feels and the pain. I have a tattoo to remind myself to be open and tell people when I'm off. Please find someone that can be there for you and will listen, they are out there I promise it. I will be that person if you need it.
Looking back, i eould have missed out on so much. All the friends i made in College, all the bright sunny days, all the smiles of my niece and every single little thing. It does get better, really, it does. I still have bad days sometimes, but they're a lot less bad. I get through them and a better one lies beyond dawn. Don't give up.
And for all those, that can find a bit of help in these words: god loves you. He does, I'm 100% sure. He is not like those bigoted people at church. He loves you and he always will. Because you are one of his children and he made each of us, exactly the way we are. Your perfect the way you are.
Watching this music video makes me drop a tear every time. I'm straight, but I was bullied too most of the time I was in school and kindergarten. For whatever "reason". I guess the "reason" was me being shy and an "easy target". What I'm saying is, there is not a single reason that justifies bullying someone.
There is no such thing as a "normal" person. Whether you love men, women or both, no matter what your skin color or religion is, no matter what your hobbies are, you are who you are and you are perfect as you are. It just doesn't get in my head how some people still cannot understand this.
Luckily for me it never got so far that I seriously considered suicide, but this song still makes me feel proud of who I am and happy that I'm alive, having great friends which I love and hobbies that fulfill me.
And great music I can listen to, like Rise Against. I discovered this band like a week ago and my love for this band keeps growing. Not only is their music sounding great, but also very meaningful. ❤🧡💛💚💙💜
This band is real and touches on real issues ❤️❤️
Coming back to your channel to rewatch some of your videos and it's got me realizing some other stuff. First off, I love your empathy, it's nice to see some pure emotion, even if it's a negative one. Seeing this video again, I still think the message is important, but I also feel for the cast/extras. Imagine having to pretend you're that disgusting of a human? It helps get the message across, but I hope the people who helped create the video are doing well. They also seem to be late teens/early twenties while the brain is still developing. I've been wondering that more and more when kids and YA are used in media, are they developed enough to fully seperate what their character does from themselves?
I'd rather die on my feet, than live on my knees.
Such a powerful song and perspective..I'm not crying, you are...sniff...
This song (and a cat who relies on me to survive) is what stopped my string of attempts from the age of 13-22 but it's always so hard to watch because of how many people don't make it out the other side. I know "it gets better" sounds hollow when you're in it but it really is true. I'm not just not sad anymore but genuinely happy and grateful every day that I didn't succeed
I am so happy that you navigated out of the darkness and found happiness and I'm glad you're still here with us to show others that there is another side!
I love this song I hope you do more of their songs actually its not so much in mental health but they have many songs that need telling.
I like your videos and your message
AA meetings and steps helped me love myself. "They say things like let us love you until you do" I also have a psychiatrist I speak to monthly... I survived an attempt back in may 3rd of 2021 that left me in a coma for 4 weeks
Rise Against is a great band! Glad you got to experience them..
Keep up the words good person definitely would make someone who feel down. Feel better. Keep up your work.
My childhood in primary and secondary school was nonstop bullying. Not just simple name calling or crap like that I mean SERIOUS sheet! lol I was a shy kid up until about 28 years old, the bullying pushed me harder into my shell to cope. Here is a short list of some of the best (worst) things I survived though - 6 years old - kids broke my big toes while standing outside class waiting to go into class by stomping on them with their heels (several times), Beaten up many times in and outside of class or even outside of school hours - it got so bad once that I gave myself bruises - in the _hope_ that the bullies would take pity on me and not beat me up for a bit, it made them go even harder! lol At age 16 I was slashed by a kid with a long chef's knife during class by a bully - I put my hands up in self defence and received "Defensive Wounds" that cut my middle left finger to the bone, it took 6 weeks to heal without stitches as nobody would help me get stitches and the school swept the incident under the carpet. I was forced to go into a canoe in a dirty river with the bullies 2 weeks later while the finger was trying to heal by me taping it together with clear plastic tape and elastic bands, I told the teacher I refuse to go into that canoe with them as they will tip me out knowing that I can not swim plus they did this to my finger which has not gotten the treatment it needed so will get infected from that river water when they tip the canoe - the teacher told me bluntly to get in the canoe or leave and don't come back - I quit school right there and then. Went on to become long term unemployed for 13 years and homeless for a bit. During that time I did consider ending my life many times but could never find a way that would guarantee a quick and 100% death sentence that also will not mentally hurt others who find me... Other things that happened was I was pushed over which broke both wrists which I still today decades later have sore wrists that never properly healed, I was run down by a car while riding my bike (both at aged 16 after the finger thing above.) These are the highlights of my pain - much more of course but these are the best bits! lol The finger one was the inspiration for my band's name!! Due to not getting stitches, that finger sometimes feels tingly, numb, normal or occasionally it feels like a brand new FRESH cut finger to the bone!! Quite painful nerve damage right there! Get stitches if you can... Since that time, I have been 18 years full time employed since then, started my own small business and learned how to play all instruments for my band which I started including how to record, edit, mix, master and produce to upload onto Spotify etc. Well and truly out of that shell now!
If you have had a bad time in your teens, do not end your life, it TRULY does get better as time goes on!!
Hugs love ya you're awesome nobody should be bullied
Great videos, amazing to see someone talking about mental health in an informative way. I would love to see you react to the song Bob by Primus, it's a really really dark song about a true story.
Rise Against is one of my favorite bands and they always use their art as a voice for what's right.
Bullying: just because you can't see it, doesn't mean it doesn't happen. Why do schools and teacher not get this?
Song reminds me of my cousin. 18 years...he jumped off a building with his mother on the phone the whole way down. He was apologizing to her.
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This song came out while there was a sudden rise in teenage suicides in September of 2010 (I think). It seemed like suicide cases were inspiring other cases and alot of them were LGBTQ+ kids. This song is among a handful of songs that came out trying to help/telling the stories. I think Kesha's "we are who we are" was another one
I have nothing against the LGBTQ+, as long as they leave me be myself, I have nothing bad to about it. I've been bullied my whole life, that I just don't care about people's religion, sexuality, etc. My best friend said she loves my attitude because I don't judge.
(Also Savior is a good song.)
Agreed. I'm about the straightest white male you'll meet, but I don't care what color you are or what you do in your spare time. As long as you don't try to force it on me, be yourself. I don't care.
@@hehawseve3560 I've known gay people all my life, friends, family, in the workplace... I have never seen an lgbtq person try and push their lifestyle on anyone. That beings said, I have heard straight people pushing their lifestyle on lgbtq people dozens of times. Let alone pressure from family, religion, the government, etc.
Funny you mention savior, it's Tim's Least favourite song.
@@skakried7673 I had no idea.
@@GreathSentina Yeah, most people don't. I dunno how much rise against you know but I highly reccomend some of their more obscure stuff. My top 3 Albums are The Sufferer and The Witeness, Appeal To Reason and Revolutions Per Minute (Siren Song of the Counter Culture is an honorable mention)
Just found your channel today. It's not likely you'll read this comment, as this upload is four months in the past, but I want to say that this is the best take on "September's Children" I've seen. Including ones I've heard in my personal life.
Would love to support you, but I'm skimp. Please keep your perspective out there. Would love to introduce you to a song by a band called K's Choice -- maybe someday I'll become a patron.
Sharing and supporting can be more than just money. Love and attention to others can be even more important.
@Mental Amanda As exemplified by yourself.
I find it to be incumbent upon us, when we have not much geld to give, to dip into our other wells of bounty for each other.
Bonne année & gelukkig nieuwjaar!
Have you done a reaction to I’m not ok by citizen soldier? This and a few of the songs you’ve already reacted to are on my “dark” playlist, it’s rare I listen to it but there’s definitely times when I feel I’m on a downward spiral and this playlist definitely helps. Music frames what goes on in my head better than I ever could
Rise Against have been trying for years to get us to find our collective humanity. If only more people would listen.
I'm a big white 35yo guy, maybe the "safest" combination ever, and I'm a long-time RA fan but after many many years I am still not able to watch this video without crying.
From this video we can learn from it Amanda
Small hidden fact. This was filmed at the lead singers (Tim) old high school
There's another song by Rise Against called "Hero of War" that deals with mental trauma of a veteran who went to war as a kid and through horror and tragedy, came home broken. I warn you, it is another one that will absolutely hurt and crush you, but is worth checking out and analyzing. As a veteran whos experience mirrored almost word for word the songs, I can't recommend it enough.
Let’s go baby girl I got you ❤
Rise against and Linkin Park helped me survive the most daunting and hopeless times in my life. I am as of this year longer alive after my last attempt than before. +16 years.
So happy your light still shines.
To quote Marvin the Paranoid Android, from Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy, "Life? Don't talk to me about life. I have a brain the size of a planet, and they just get me to get this, and get that."
Black Sabbath Paranoid (official video) in Belgium 1970.
Many people go through this series of emotions in depression as well.
Please react to this song for the many depressed people in the world.
I'm just gonna share my own experiences with mental health. And this is how I view it.
Life does get better, but there will always be ups and downs. So just because it seems like it gets darker again, does not mean that the light is completely gone. And though it might get better, sometimes pain will remain, at least it did remain with me. That pain doesn't have to be a bad thing however, and you can find a reason for that pain and make it into something good. The way I was able to move forward is to accept the pain that I feel and use it for something positive. I used to be suicidal, but I haven't been for about 4 years now.
My pain comes from different experiences in life, being bullied was a huge part of that when I was younger, though that doesn't affect me in any way anymore. Today, my mental health issues comes from other things I've experienced since, that has cause me to get PTSD as well as having another disorder that developed/evolved recently called Schizoaffective Disorder. I was diagnosed with this disorder this summer, but I've had symptoms since I was a child. It just got worse after I turned 20/21 and only now did the doctors realize what caused my symptoms after I suggested that it might be this disorder.
Also I'd like to say that I don't mean that the pain will always remain, because I can't speak for any one else, and I still have a long road ahead of me. And I don't know how it works for others, this is just how it is for me atm. But to me, the pain isn't a bad thing anymore. It has become a tool for me to try and be a better person.
Highly recommend listening to Tragedy + Time from Rise Against as well, even if you don't do a video of reacting. It really spoke to me at a low point in my life.
Having a gun in your home is extremely dangerous. I can't really relate to that but I'm diagnosed clinical depression so I can "understand" to some extent. I did chamber a round sitting on my bed for hours thinking "it's 2 pound of pressure, 2 pounds of pressure and it will make it stop, they say a bullet travels faster than sound at point blank, it's just turning the lights off". Crying my eyes out, pointing the gun, resting the index on the trigger. Don't ever buy a firearm, especially if you live in the US. Don't, just don't.
I have a gun because I have had stalkers. I was also taught gun safety and how to shoot at a very young age and never saw guns as scary or evil. With that being said, in the times that my thoughts went dark, that was never the method that went through my mind. If someone struggles regularly with suicidal ideation, I very much agree that they should not have a gun in their home.
I... never really felt the message of the song when it came out in 2011. I wasn't bullied then. I've always had a loving and open-minded family. Even when I started to figure myself out in 2013 that I'm not straight I still didn't have anything negative like that... and then I've found myself figuring myself out further after I moved to a different state. I'm trans... and I moved to a neighborhood where half of my neighbors would hate me or maybe want me dead if they knew... if they knew... I've gotta hide now... and I feel the song's message even more than just understanding it... but this isn't anywhere close to stopping me. I'm happy knowing who I am. And I seriously genuinely wish I could hold a door open to my family for everyone that needs one. Hi, I'm Mae Day, and in the words of the song I plan to go on living. :) [Side note: the force and weight behind how Tim sings "I'm done asking I demand" hits me every single time.]
Welcome to the community. One day the world will wise up. Until then, we love and accept you here and you can be who you are. 💖
coming from a suicide survivor please stop the bullying and hate
Rise Against always hits a special way.
Hi Amanda! I came across your videos recently and I find your reactions to songs very informative. I was wondering if you could do a reaction to Lose Yourself by Eminem? It's an incredibly powerful song imo. It talks about Eminem's rough upbringing and his struggle to gain acceptance from his peers in the rap community.
I love rise against my introduction to them was give it all on need for speed underground 2. They quickly became a musical staple for me, they’re my favorite punk band other than alien ant farm and the offspring.
Now for my question, I’ve been dealing with loneliness a lot lately. In the past I’ve been alright being alone, however as of late I’ve been feeling very lonely and been aching for companionship and seeking it I don’t know if it’s codependency or what. I just really want someone at my side like a significant other maybe? But Dating doesn’t seem appealing to me right now. Amanda please give me your insight and brutally honest opinion on this
I don't think it's codependency. Humans are pack animals and we crave to be acknowledged. With that being said, there are MANY forms of companionship from friends to group buddies to romantic partners to cuddle therapists!
@@MentalAmanda thank you Amanda I appreciate your insight. I’ve never heard of a cuddle therapist before, but I doubt there’s any in my area. Anyway I think I may have found the companionship I’ve been looking for and I’m excited to see where it goes
Rise Against has A LOT of music out there and they always have a good message in their music. look into more.
RUclips put a warning on this and I had to press confirm 3 times before I could watch it.
Very strange new development.
Great reaction! I think you'd really like the song One Less Heart to Break by Patent Pending. It's such a powerful song
Fair warning, I get a warning up front by YT before I can watch your video and underneath the video is an inlay that links to local suicide prevention hotlines. Now I don't need that anymore, but I wanted to 1 warn you that you may be age restricted, but also tell you about something cool RUclips is doing. Not surprised it's a video of yours this happens on because you're more emotionally raw than most channels I watch. They call them 'Crisis resource panels' and I think it's dope.
That one young man on the bridge...that was me. WOW! It was not as a result of bullying for me, but the feelings were quite the same. I am off topic related to this video, but it still touched me so much. Why do I feel like you are my friend thru this channel? Thank you. Even after all that, I was part of so many organized religions for so many years. "What God would damn a heart?" I had to find my way out of all that so I could finally find God. I am no longer religious at all just because of all the warped people out there. I still consider myself spiritual, but my relationship now is with God, not anyone else trying to sell me on what God thinks about me. Thank you yet again for all that you are doing...but I have to ask, since I end up crying thru every one of your reviews....do you have any just plain fun reaction videos out there. I need to laugh some too. 🤪
We can never have too many friends!
Here are a few of my fun reactions:
To Be the Best by Tenacious D: ruclips.net/video/E80DvJhGhSw/видео.html
Better Place by *N Sync: ruclips.net/video/EUX-Zxfg3TY/видео.html
Toy by Netta: ruclips.net/video/iVRLnXzSNFo/видео.html
Rise Up by Morisette: ruclips.net/video/xTgPZRbvHw4/видео.html
Thank you for sharing those review clips with me. Have you done a reaction to the cover of Metallica's "Nothing Else Matter" by Voice Play? I'm not sure if that would be in your wheel house but it is a great cover of a great song.@@MentalAmanda
They actually hid more names in the song post the four they named. Asher was my step cousin. Can barely hear it around 11:18 or so in your video