Love my Shokz! Earbuds hurt, and they never stay in my ears, and over the ear headphones can get hot, sweaty, and nasty. For runners, you just can’t beat Shokz headphones.
This video is so important. It is so easy to put elite/professional athletes in a box and think that you don't have those thoughts and feelings, and whenever people who are elite in their field are open 'during' their lowest moments (rather than talking about it after they have recovered and are feeling better) it is another powerful vote for the importance of not hiding when we feel less than great. I hope you realise the power of this video; I thought you were fab before and now I think you are even fabber (I know that is not a word but it should be!) ☺
I think Stephen Scullion is a great watch for that, he's elite and feels awful more often than a typical person. I don't mean that its a bad thing, it's inspiring that a person with so many struggles can get this far in a sport.
I was just about to mention Stephen Scullion. I totally respect his transparency on YT. Unfortunately though it's sort of turned me off of watching him. It's a lot to take in, and sometimes I just want mindless fun running content...
@@nberkel I agree, sometimes he just hits you with a 15min monologue about surviving constant suicide thoughts when the video title was along the lines of „How to warm-up before a run” 🥲
Hormones are a shocker when you are not used to your 'natural' cycle. I came off hormonal birth control and have been shocked by my anger, despair and everything in between during my cycle. It has taken quite some time to recognise my emotional and energy level shifts and what I can do holistically to support myself at different points of the month. I do find that the week before my period my energy levels plummet, then I need plenty of carbs to get me through my actual period. Thank you for being so honest and raw, it means the world to us all, believe me.
I love your boyfriend's encouragement throughout the race. Absolutely loved your honesty as well, we all have bad days but like you said, you sure as hell can handle it ❤
Phily, your honesty and realness is what keeps bringing me back to your channel. And your quirkiness and sense of fun too. We're all human and it's nice to see all parts of you - thank you for sharing. Also don't underestimate what your cycle and hormones can do to your mood / mind - I get hit pretty hard with it and while I've learned to work it it, it's still a struggle at times.
My period sometimes really messes with my head-anxious or feeling distant to my own feelings or just not myself/off. Not to say that’s why, but just that I totally get it. Thanks for being so open. Way to push through and I hope you enjoyed the trip. :)
Thank you soooo much for opening up after your run on the eve before the race. It is good to see such relatable feelings/emotions from an elite runner. And that you also have to battle through these things. Best of luck in the last stint of the marathon block towards Berlin (for me is Amsterdam next), wishing you a smooth and good race with a clear and confident head on your shoulders! Keep it up and love the grind!
Thank you for coming to my State. I wasn’t able to attend Falmouth this year but usually do. It’s a lovely area. Keep being honest. You and Scully are helping the running community immensely with your honesty.
I worked the EMS crew at the finish line and watched you go by. We see so many runners so it's great to see behind the scene's of your race journey. Keep these videos going. I've done a few marathon's and just turned 60. You've stirred the bug in me and hopefully over the winter I'll get myself ready for something this spring! Keep up the great work!!!!
I love this video, Phily. Thank you for sharing how you're really feeling. We've all been there and I'm so glad you're able to bring that realness to us. You're so inspirational, even in your lowest moments. That's part of what makes you awesome. Keep on going, we'll all still be here rooting for you.❤
Hey Phily Amazing video, thank you for displaying the courage to show us behind the curtain. As a psychotherapist, I would particularly like to thank you for normalising these experiences for others, what an incredible service that is to your fellow runners! I'm sure you are already onto this, but when rationalising fails you (what I call "Top-Down" emotional regulation), it can be helpful to flip to "Bottom-Up" emotional regulation, which includes things like grounding exercises, various breathing and imagery methods, progressive muscle relaxation, tapping/EFT etc. Maybe one to discuss with your therapist next time around. Wishing you all the best for the run in to Berlin. I look forward to following your journey, inside and out!
You did great in that 10k! Thank you for being so open and honest about being anxious. Sometimes the snowball effect or a combo of many things can just be overwhelming, but these too shall pass. Love the grind! =D
I love the way you work through any new emotions and highlight how important being in the right headspace is to performance goals. You have really helped to not be afraid to address them - having a running coach was the best thing for me and money well spent - we all need someone who has your back 😊
mad respect phily. The fact that you toed the line makes you a real one in my opinion. I grew up in New England and hope to get to the finish at Falmouth someday.
Thank you so much for taking that moment in the middle to be open about how you were feeling and showing the hard struggles alongside the awesome moments. Your are beautiful, Philly. Good job! 👏 👏 👏
Thank you for openly sharing your experiences these last two post. It’s inspirational as we are a few weeks ahead of you on the training block and experienced similar things as you.
Hey Philly! First I just wanted to say thank you so much for putting up this content. As a female who has also been through my own journey of mapping out how my menstrual cycle affects running, mood, performance and relationships - I feel super inspired by your transparency and vulnerability because I know it can be super tough to be so open and to so many people. On the positive! I find that whenever I feel things that may or may not be related to the ebbs and flows of being a women, I find it easier to allow myself to ‘flow’ 😅 with the feelings rather then questioning myself and rationalising. Leaning into the feeling with a mentality that this feeling is only temporary and it will pass for negative emotions but also positive emotions is really helpful in helping me get perspective. I know it’s hard as well when you have athletic goals and performances you may want to achieve. I’ve found and observed that lots of athletes (amateur or not) have perfectionistic tendencies that can really help drive excellence. But personally for myself, I find that having a perfectionist mindset has been quite harmful for my mental health especially when as females we naturally have hormones that fluctuate on a day to day and even hour to hour basis! What does help is thinking about precision over perfection. Being precise over the things you have to do on that day and that week and thinking about the things we are in control with has been a mindset that I’ve found really helpful especially when I’m about to start my period and I feel down in the dumps. Hope this helps and super excited to see how amazing you’ll be at Berlin 🫶
Thanks Phily for being the whole person you are, as an Athlete and outside your sport. A role model for understanding and processing emotions and working hard at everything.
Thank you Phily for sharing your feelings when you were feeling so very low. I too have days like that and it’s feels like I am the only person in the world who feels that way, I know I am not but it’s just feels so isolating on those days. I applaud your honesty and openness. I also thank you as when I next have a day like that I will remind myself that even the best women in this world have days like that too ❤
Thank you for being you Phily that’s a big part of why we’ve bought into your journey and loving it (& the grind:-)) I wish I’d be more honest with myself and more open with my mental challenges as in wouldn’t have ended up in such a dark place - talking is the thing ! (& therapy and mediation for me) Ltg
Awww, you should be so proud of yourself! We're really fortunate that mental health is being prioritized and is finally accepted as a normal part of taking care of yourself. Also, hormones are no joke! There's nothing worse than knowing you're in a bad headspace, funk, or anxious and feeling like you can't do anything to make it better. Sometimes the more you try to "fix" things, the worse they get and the best thing you can do is just accept that you're not having a good day or days, give in, and just go with it. Like ya know what, yup, I don't feel ok, and that's ok. When this happens to me I flat out tell my husband and am like be around me at your own risk bc I'm super cranky, random, etc. lol! Even just saying that out loud to another person can make you feel better sometimes. As always, love the video and hope you enjoy the rest of your training block and time in the USA!
It was fun to see you at the race! I regret not yelling Love the Grind when you sped past where I was between miles 5 and 6. I’ve lived on the Cape for most of my life and never knew how huge the Falmouth Road Race is! So glad your visit to the East Coast was good! It’s important to do things that fill your cup, as they say. 😌
Thanks for the share. Always appreciate shares about mental health. I ran the race too and was shocked to find you raced also. Marathons this weekend and thinking back I felt the same way. Aerobically I was okay, but my body and legs were beat I just couldn't turn any faster. Good luck.
Another great videos. Thanks for keeping it real. This is the main reason why I keep coming back. Even though we are on different levels some of the experiences are the same.
I really appreciate these videos. It really gives me inspiration to keep running myself and it's nice to know that I'm not alone and my mental struggles around racing
Oh, Philly, that was so brave of you highlighting your true feelings. At the end of the day, you're only human, just like everyone else. You can only rock up and do your best...so let's go, like Daniel said.
Phily, thank you so much for this honest and awesome video. I have tears in my eyes. Thanks so much for normalising this situations, which I see not only in myself but in my family and friends, and yet it seems "not normal". Seeing it here really helps. Congratulations on the race, not for the result itself, but for what you learnt from it! I am so looking forward to shout to you in Berlin LOVE THE GRIND so very soon!
I could see how hard you struggled the day before, but you left something in the tank. All great lessons for on and off the race. Now you know that hormones could be a factor, flights, or disruption to your schedule could be a factor too. Make it part of your race plan and I know you'll smash it. Loved the video and the editing to showcase the story. Glad you also immediately felt the benefits of your altitude training. Well done, Phily!
Well done on the race result. With no taper and it not being a target race that was a great finish! Secondly - thank you for being so open. We all have feelings that we know are irrational and feel overwhealming at times. Knowing that others have, for their own reasons, similar times is really helpful.
This a an incredible video, thank you so much for sharing how you were feeling before the race, I struggle with my mental health a bit and to see that incredible athletes like you have the same and how you deal with it is so inspiring. Good luck for Berlin 🤞👍
Nobody mentioned the cool new colors of the race gear. All matching too. As to the feelings she was feeling... It happens. Some people need help to figure it out and some people don't. Falmouth did teach a really good lesson in that it is possible to feel like that and still do the race. The other lesson was that the monthly emotional cycle can also be dealt with. The unknown is if the monthly physical cycle will effect performance at all. Berlin will be a similar time frame with high expectations. Good luck to you Philly I'll be thinking positive thoughts for you. Hoping for a PB or high finish. Dare we hope for top ten or better?
I can very much sympathise with you regarding mental/ physical health being affected by periods. I went off birth control this year for personal reasons and also set myself the goal of running ultra marathon distances by the end of the year. My period can literally wipe out a whole week of training for me, it seriously changes how my body feels, reacts and my energy levels. With the added bonus my making my mental health dive as well and all I can do is wait it out. Then when I feel a little better get myself moving again :)
I wanted to do this race this year for the third year in a row, but had to get to college early for cross country training! Wish I got to meet someone amazing as you though! :) Hope you loved the course!:)
Running and menta health l part I can really relate to at the moment....its reassuring to know I'm not the only one that feels this way. Its good to document the highs and low!
Your thoughts are not always going to be rational because they are a creation of emotions, memories, physical responses - that’s ok. Crying is our human way of releasing the pressure valve and allowing us to function - that’s so bloody ok. Acknowledging how you feel and not pretending otherwise - that’s absolutely fookin’ awesome. Big love Phily! ❤
First ran Falmouth in 1975. I grew up not far from the finish lane. Was back again this year. Great race to run. I was just visiting again this weekend and have covered the whole course as part of my runs. This year I had a poor race, but the previous three times I ran, I beat my time from 1975 when I was 16.
This is so trippy. This video happened upon my feed. I live in the town and ran the race (not nearly as fast 😂) and seeing the town down with the edits and cinematography was so weird haha
Grt8 vid. Would love to see a video on all things supplement. Your shake ingredients, creatine, protein powder, salt tablets and cramping, baking powder. Long runs are starting to feel like a chemistry class. Would be good to hear your take on it. Love the grind thanks.
What????? Can’t believe you were in an hour drive of me. Truth be told my son and I did a triathlon that day so we couldn’t have come down, but my gosh, I would have loved to have been there to support you! And of course, thank you for sharing and being so vulnerable. I’m a guy so speaking with zero knowledge here but I also wonder if some of the emotions are due to your period which I hope not inappropriate but I’m super glad you’re getting one So much more healthy and so happy for you , taking care of your body
Tracking the mood changes along the cycle with an app (i use Clue) can be greatly helpful: my personal experience is that some specific days are 90% of the times going to challenge me emotionally more than usual. There are not many medical studies on this as of yet, but I hope my experience can help other people struggle less. I believe hormonal changes like progesterone increase, lowering of LH and so on deeply affect some women's experience of their emotions. Strong mood crashes can happen around the 17th, 19th day, for example. You're not alone in this, Phily, and others going though this 😊
Got to PB Boulangerie bistro and bakery. It’s near Wellfleet on the Cape and is absolutely worth the drive. The Marconi radio site is one of the most beautiful places I visited on the cape. Weed really helps my mindset. It’s legal in Massachusetts and smoking a bit of preroll and walking on the beach is very enjoyable.
Your brain did not fail you, nor is your body for having injuries and niggles. As you said, everything you felt is valid and it is okay to not be okay and sit in that for a while, but know that you already have all the strength you need to get out of it and feel better again. I know you were speaking honestly and your negativity was coming through in your words, but you have SUCH a strong mind Phily, moreso than so many of us. Never doubt yourself and what you are capable of. Plus you had really cool nails for your run and it is all about the little things, right? Sending a hug your way. ❤🩹
Hey Philly great and fantastically honest video! Not every day can be perfect or in fact near perfect! So a question for you…….if Philly was to watch this video, what would Phily advice Phily to do??? You’re fab keep loving that grind!!! Stay strong mentally and physically 😊
Ha Philly! I wonder if you should get a blood test. Low energy levels and feeling emotional when you normally don't feel like this could be a sign something is out of whack. Love your content, love the grind. Keep up the hard work.
The way she felt is exactly how many women feel as a result of normal period hormonal fluctuations (including myself). It’s an irrational agitation, anxiety/vulnerability, feeling like you’re going to cry at the drop of a hat and low energy/appetite- usually for a day. It’s almost like you don’t recognize yourself. It can be less to not noticeable if you’re in a routine, but can be heightened if there are other atypical stressors on the body during that particular cycle like time change, travel, training unusually hard, lack of sleep, unusual work stress, eating differently etc. As soon as she noted she was on her period I was like girl no wonder! Wasn’t surprising she felt back to her normal self the next day. A larger underlying health issue would typically make her feel that way much more consistently. Sounds like she’s still in the process of getting her cycle/hormones back regularly after dealing with amenorrhea, so this feeling would understandably be foreign to her. Just wanted to chime in here as a female to provide some intel as I’m sure a lot of men are unaware that this is pretty standard 😊
Amazing Video. Well done. I just finished my long run 26miles steady 2hr 45mims. Tapering week next week as it's only 1 week till Great North Run. I am training for Chicaho Marathon :) also have my youtube. Motivated to share stories like you do :)
Thanks to Shokz for sponsoring this race video, use code PHILYBOWDEN or click this link to get £10 off on the Shokz website shokz.cc/PhilyBowden
Love my Shokz! Earbuds hurt, and they never stay in my ears, and over the ear headphones can get hot, sweaty, and nasty. For runners, you just can’t beat Shokz headphones.
I use the Shokz Open Fit and I really like them.
pb boulangerie Bistro and bakery in wellfeet on the cape is really worth the visit.
When there was an advertisement, was the voice recorded using a microphone from these headphones?
This video is so important. It is so easy to put elite/professional athletes in a box and think that you don't have those thoughts and feelings, and whenever people who are elite in their field are open 'during' their lowest moments (rather than talking about it after they have recovered and are feeling better) it is another powerful vote for the importance of not hiding when we feel less than great. I hope you realise the power of this video; I thought you were fab before and now I think you are even fabber (I know that is not a word but it should be!) ☺
I think Stephen Scullion is a great watch for that, he's elite and feels awful more often than a typical person. I don't mean that its a bad thing, it's inspiring that a person with so many struggles can get this far in a sport.
I was just about to mention Stephen Scullion. I totally respect his transparency on YT. Unfortunately though it's sort of turned me off of watching him. It's a lot to take in, and sometimes I just want mindless fun running content...
@@nberkel I agree, sometimes he just hits you with a 15min monologue about surviving constant suicide thoughts when the video title was along the lines of „How to warm-up before a run” 🥲
Great sharing Phily. About to run GNR and this is helping so much normalise the emotions and excitement and oh well the everything of it all. LTG
cool comment my friend 😊
Hormones are a shocker when you are not used to your 'natural' cycle. I came off hormonal birth control and have been shocked by my anger, despair and everything in between during my cycle. It has taken quite some time to recognise my emotional and energy level shifts and what I can do holistically to support myself at different points of the month. I do find that the week before my period my energy levels plummet, then I need plenty of carbs to get me through my actual period. Thank you for being so honest and raw, it means the world to us all, believe me.
Respect for your honesty so many RUclipsrs gloss over the tough days. Travelling can really take it out of you.
Race result aside, compartmentalising your feelings in the way you did was very brave, open and honest. Well done you.
Saw you running into the elite corral from the seeded runner corral. Thought “IT’S PHILLY!”
Congrats on the great result
I love your boyfriend's encouragement throughout the race. Absolutely loved your honesty as well, we all have bad days but like you said, you sure as hell can handle it ❤
Phily, your honesty and realness is what keeps bringing me back to your channel. And your quirkiness and sense of fun too. We're all human and it's nice to see all parts of you - thank you for sharing. Also don't underestimate what your cycle and hormones can do to your mood / mind - I get hit pretty hard with it and while I've learned to work it it, it's still a struggle at times.
Brave of you to keep the content in, and thank you very much for doing so.
To quote Daniel, “keep going Philly, you’ve got this”
My period sometimes really messes with my head-anxious or feeling distant to my own feelings or just not myself/off. Not to say that’s why, but just that I totally get it. Thanks for being so open. Way to push through and I hope you enjoyed the trip. :)
Thanks for sharing your feelings! It's okay to be not okay.
Thank you soooo much for opening up after your run on the eve before the race. It is good to see such relatable feelings/emotions from an elite runner.
And that you also have to battle through these things.
Best of luck in the last stint of the marathon block towards Berlin (for me is Amsterdam next), wishing you a smooth and good race with a clear and confident head on your shoulders!
Keep it up and love the grind!
There's these bumper stickers I've seen recently here in Australia which says: Its ok to not be ok.
Hang in there Phily
I think they're for RUOK? day.
Thank you for coming to my State. I wasn’t able to attend Falmouth this year but usually do. It’s a lovely area. Keep being honest. You and Scully are helping the running community immensely with your honesty.
I worked the EMS crew at the finish line and watched you go by. We see so many runners so it's great to see behind the scene's of your race journey. Keep these videos going. I've done a few marathon's and just turned 60. You've stirred the bug in me and hopefully over the winter I'll get myself ready for something this spring! Keep up the great work!!!!
I love this video, Phily. Thank you for sharing how you're really feeling. We've all been there and I'm so glad you're able to bring that realness to us. You're so inspirational, even in your lowest moments. That's part of what makes you awesome.
Keep on going, we'll all still be here rooting for you.❤
Hey Phily
Amazing video, thank you for displaying the courage to show us behind the curtain.
As a psychotherapist, I would particularly like to thank you for normalising these experiences for others, what an incredible service that is to your fellow runners!
I'm sure you are already onto this, but when rationalising fails you (what I call "Top-Down" emotional regulation), it can be helpful to flip to "Bottom-Up" emotional regulation, which includes things like grounding exercises, various breathing and imagery methods, progressive muscle relaxation, tapping/EFT etc. Maybe one to discuss with your therapist next time around.
Wishing you all the best for the run in to Berlin. I look forward to following your journey, inside and out!
You did great in that 10k! Thank you for being so open and honest about being anxious. Sometimes the snowball effect or a combo of many things can just be overwhelming, but these too shall pass. Love the grind! =D
I love the way you work through any new emotions and highlight how important being in the right headspace is to performance goals. You have really helped to not be afraid to address them - having a running coach was the best thing for me and money well spent - we all need someone who has your back 😊
mad respect phily. The fact that you toed the line makes you a real one in my opinion. I grew up in New England and hope to get to the finish at Falmouth someday.
your running amazes me!! so steady and strong make it look easy!!
Thank you so much for taking that moment in the middle to be open about how you were feeling and showing the hard struggles alongside the awesome moments. Your are beautiful, Philly. Good job! 👏 👏 👏
Thank you for openly sharing your experiences these last two post. It’s inspirational as we are a few weeks ahead of you on the training block and experienced similar things as you.
Hey Philly! First I just wanted to say thank you so much for putting up this content. As a female who has also been through my own journey of mapping out how my menstrual cycle affects running, mood, performance and relationships - I feel super inspired by your transparency and vulnerability because I know it can be super tough to be so open and to so many people.
On the positive! I find that whenever I feel things that may or may not be related to the ebbs and flows of being a women, I find it easier to allow myself to ‘flow’ 😅 with the feelings rather then questioning myself and rationalising. Leaning into the feeling with a mentality that this feeling is only temporary and it will pass for negative emotions but also positive emotions is really helpful in helping me get perspective.
I know it’s hard as well when you have athletic goals and performances you may want to achieve. I’ve found and observed that lots of athletes (amateur or not) have perfectionistic tendencies that can really help drive excellence. But personally for myself, I find that having a perfectionist mindset has been quite harmful for my mental health especially when as females we naturally have hormones that fluctuate on a day to day and even hour to hour basis! What does help is thinking about precision over perfection. Being precise over the things you have to do on that day and that week and thinking about the things we are in control with has been a mindset that I’ve found really helpful especially when I’m about to start my period and I feel down in the dumps.
Hope this helps and super excited to see how amazing you’ll be at Berlin 🫶
Thank you for being such an inspiring person. Just ran my first half marathon today. Love from Germany and love the grind!
Thanks Phily for being the whole person you are, as an Athlete and outside your sport. A role model for understanding and processing emotions and working hard at everything.
I wish I could give you the biggest hug Phily! Thank you for reminding us all that it’s okay not to be okay ❤❤❤
I loved this video and the honestly. And to see your smile at the end :) Also, in every video that Daniel cheers, it gets me ❤️
Best cheerer on RUclips!
Thank you for sharing the highs and the lows. We're here for the grind which we love and the not so pretty moments. Rock on!
Thank you Phily for sharing your feelings when you were feeling so very low. I too have days like that and it’s feels like I am the only person in the world who feels that way, I know I am not but it’s just feels so isolating on those days. I applaud your honesty and openness. I also thank you as when I next have a day like that I will remind myself that even the best women in this world have days like that too ❤
Hormones can do the craziest things to our minds. You’re amazing!!
Thank you for being so open about your struggles. It’s refreshing, honest, and relatable. ❤
Thank you so much for showing your authentic feelings! Im so glad you kept it in there. It really shows that everyone has these feelings ❤
Thanks for keeping it honest and choosing to share this part of your experience with us!
Congrats!! Love your honesty and kindness in this one, both to yourself and your journey
Im only halfway through and this is already one of my favourite vlogs. Epic work guys!
Thank you for being you Phily that’s a big part of why we’ve bought into your journey and loving it (& the grind:-))
I wish I’d be more honest with myself and more open with my mental challenges as in wouldn’t have ended up in such a dark place - talking is the thing ! (& therapy and mediation for me)
Ltg
Thank you for the honesty and vulnerability, Philly! It's very relatable and healing for us all. 🙏🏻
Loved this video- thanks for sharing this!
Thanks for always being so real with us Phily. LTG!!
I’m so glad you’re here! Thanks for sharing and being amazing
so glad you shared this, incredible video
Sending positive and encouraging vibes your way, you’re a wonderful human being xxx I really appreciate you sharing
Awww, you should be so proud of yourself! We're really fortunate that mental health is being prioritized and is finally accepted as a normal part of taking care of yourself. Also, hormones are no joke! There's nothing worse than knowing you're in a bad headspace, funk, or anxious and feeling like you can't do anything to make it better. Sometimes the more you try to "fix" things, the worse they get and the best thing you can do is just accept that you're not having a good day or days, give in, and just go with it. Like ya know what, yup, I don't feel ok, and that's ok. When this happens to me I flat out tell my husband and am like be around me at your own risk bc I'm super cranky, random, etc. lol! Even just saying that out loud to another person can make you feel better sometimes. As always, love the video and hope you enjoy the rest of your training block and time in the USA!
Good run. A runner is a human. Well done for showing your humanity.
It was fun to see you at the race! I regret not yelling Love the Grind when you sped past where I was between miles 5 and 6. I’ve lived on the Cape for most of my life and never knew how huge the Falmouth Road Race is! So glad your visit to the East Coast was good! It’s important to do things that fill your cup, as they say. 😌
Thanks for the share. Always appreciate shares about mental health. I ran the race too and was shocked to find you raced also. Marathons this weekend and thinking back I felt the same way. Aerobically I was okay, but my body and legs were beat I just couldn't turn any faster. Good luck.
"go out, try my best and have fun" 🎉 this will be my mantra for my fist 100 miler on Saturday. Quiet nervous but also excited.
Another great videos. Thanks for keeping it real. This is the main reason why I keep coming back. Even though we are on different levels some of the experiences are the same.
I really appreciate these videos. It really gives me inspiration to keep running myself and it's nice to know that I'm not alone and my mental struggles around racing
Oh, Philly, that was so brave of you highlighting your true feelings. At the end of the day, you're only human, just like everyone else. You can only rock up and do your best...so let's go, like Daniel said.
Phily, thank you so much for this honest and awesome video. I have tears in my eyes. Thanks so much for normalising this situations, which I see not only in myself but in my family and friends, and yet it seems "not normal". Seeing it here really helps. Congratulations on the race, not for the result itself, but for what you learnt from it! I am so looking forward to shout to you in Berlin LOVE THE GRIND so very soon!
Awesome insight. Thanks for sharing in such a transparent ready to point at it way.
Thank you for being so open and honest.
You definitely keep it honest, which your videos are fantastic to watch 😊🏃♀️
Thank you so much for your honesty, Philly. Your video really helped me today.
I could see how hard you struggled the day before, but you left something in the tank. All great lessons for on and off the race. Now you know that hormones could be a factor, flights, or disruption to your schedule could be a factor too. Make it part of your race plan and I know you'll smash it. Loved the video and the editing to showcase the story. Glad you also immediately felt the benefits of your altitude training. Well done, Phily!
Thank you so much for sharing! Your emotions are 100% valid! Love your videos and I’m so happy you are showing us all of the sides to training!
Well done on the race result. With no taper and it not being a target race that was a great finish!
Secondly - thank you for being so open. We all have feelings that we know are irrational and feel overwhealming at times. Knowing that others have, for their own reasons, similar times is really helpful.
I find it weird too sometimes waking up and feeling….off… but you handled it great. Thank you for sharing 🙏❤️
Glad you left it in.
Great job persevering. Love the small unique glimpses of deep feelings but also quirks of “wow, so this is what a race expo is?!”
nothing better than feeling the training pay off, congrats on pushing through the mental battle and your finish!
This a an incredible video, thank you so much for sharing how you were feeling before the race, I struggle with my mental health a bit and to see that incredible athletes like you have the same and how you deal with it is so inspiring. Good luck for Berlin 🤞👍
Nobody mentioned the cool new colors of the race gear. All matching too. As to the feelings she was feeling... It happens. Some people need help to figure it out and some people don't. Falmouth did teach a really good lesson in that it is possible to feel like that and still do the race. The other lesson was that the monthly emotional cycle can also be dealt with. The unknown is if the monthly physical cycle will effect performance at all. Berlin will be a similar time frame with high expectations. Good luck to you Philly I'll be thinking positive thoughts for you. Hoping for a PB or high finish. Dare we hope for top ten or better?
I can very much sympathise with you regarding mental/ physical health being affected by periods. I went off birth control this year for personal reasons and also set myself the goal of running ultra marathon distances by the end of the year.
My period can literally wipe out a whole week of training for me, it seriously changes how my body feels, reacts and my energy levels. With the added bonus my making my mental health dive as well and all I can do is wait it out. Then when I feel a little better get myself moving again :)
Thanks for being so honest Philly. Really good video and congratulations on a great race.
I wanted to do this race this year for the third year in a row, but had to get to college early for cross country training! Wish I got to meet someone amazing as you though! :) Hope you loved the course!:)
Great job phily , this is such a hard race ,I saw you at the start, by the time I finished you were probably having lunch 😅
Running and menta health l part I can really relate to at the moment....its reassuring to know I'm not the only one that feels this way. Its good to document the highs and low!
Great to see you pushed through your doubts, and mixed feelings leading up to the race, and then you had a great day in the office🙂
Keep pushing,great job!
I absolutely appreciate your honesty in this video
Champion mindset. So impressed by you.
Great video phily!
Loving the color grading and photo on this! Great vibes
Your thoughts are not always going to be rational because they are a creation of emotions, memories, physical responses - that’s ok. Crying is our human way of releasing the pressure valve and allowing us to function - that’s so bloody ok. Acknowledging how you feel and not pretending otherwise - that’s absolutely fookin’ awesome. Big love Phily! ❤
First ran Falmouth in 1975. I grew up not far from the finish lane. Was back again this year. Great race to run. I was just visiting again this weekend and have covered the whole course as part of my runs. This year I had a poor race, but the previous three times I ran, I beat my time from 1975 when I was 16.
This is so trippy. This video happened upon my feed. I live in the town and ran the race (not nearly as fast 😂) and seeing the town down with the edits and cinematography was so weird haha
Shes a real one, appreciate your content
Grt8 vid. Would love to see a video on all things supplement. Your shake ingredients, creatine, protein powder, salt tablets and cramping, baking powder. Long runs are starting to feel like a chemistry class. Would be good to hear your take on it. Love the grind thanks.
WE LOVE YOU PHILLY!
Looks a tough race this! Well done 👏🏻 i saw Spencer browns vid of it too and for you to feel good at the end is a great sign!!
My husband grew up not too far from Falmouth! He went to high school with Ben True. Maine is a beautiful state.
Love the videos👍
What????? Can’t believe you were in an hour drive of me. Truth be told my son and I did a triathlon that day so we couldn’t have come down, but my gosh, I would have loved to have been there to support you!
And of course, thank you for sharing and being so vulnerable. I’m a guy so speaking with zero knowledge here but I also wonder if some of the emotions are due to your period which I hope not inappropriate but I’m super glad you’re getting one So much more healthy and so happy for you , taking care of your body
Love the Video awesome 🏃♀️
Hopeless is a very familiar feeling I have daily. All I can tell you is you will make it through.
had a cheeky cry to this one, thank you :)
Daniel's edits are getting so good.
Thank you for keeping in the 'having a mental talking to yourself' bit
Yasssss Phily you go girl
Tracking the mood changes along the cycle with an app (i use Clue) can be greatly helpful: my personal experience is that some specific days are 90% of the times going to challenge me emotionally more than usual. There are not many medical studies on this as of yet, but I hope my experience can help other people struggle less. I believe hormonal changes like progesterone increase, lowering of LH and so on deeply affect some women's experience of their emotions. Strong mood crashes can happen around the 17th, 19th day, for example. You're not alone in this, Phily, and others going though this 😊
Got to PB Boulangerie bistro and bakery. It’s near Wellfleet on the Cape and is absolutely worth the drive. The Marconi radio site is one of the most beautiful places I visited on the cape. Weed really helps my mindset. It’s legal in Massachusetts and smoking a bit of preroll and walking on the beach is very enjoyable.
Not hot, but sweaty......us easterners call that humidity!!
Your brain did not fail you, nor is your body for having injuries and niggles. As you said, everything you felt is valid and it is okay to not be okay and sit in that for a while, but know that you already have all the strength you need to get out of it and feel better again.
I know you were speaking honestly and your negativity was coming through in your words, but you have SUCH a strong mind Phily, moreso than so many of us. Never doubt yourself and what you are capable of. Plus you had really cool nails for your run and it is all about the little things, right? Sending a hug your way. ❤🩹
Hey Philly great and fantastically honest video! Not every day can be perfect or in fact near perfect! So a question for you…….if Philly was to watch this video, what would Phily advice Phily to do??? You’re fab keep loving that grind!!! Stay strong mentally and physically 😊
Ha Philly! I wonder if you should get a blood test. Low energy levels and feeling emotional when you normally don't feel like this could be a sign something is out of whack. Love your content, love the grind. Keep up the hard work.
The way she felt is exactly how many women feel as a result of normal period hormonal fluctuations (including myself). It’s an irrational agitation, anxiety/vulnerability, feeling like you’re going to cry at the drop of a hat and low energy/appetite- usually for a day. It’s almost like you don’t recognize yourself. It can be less to not noticeable if you’re in a routine, but can be heightened if there are other atypical stressors on the body during that particular cycle like time change, travel, training unusually hard, lack of sleep, unusual work stress, eating differently etc. As soon as she noted she was on her period I was like girl no wonder! Wasn’t surprising she felt back to her normal self the next day. A larger underlying health issue would typically make her feel that way much more consistently. Sounds like she’s still in the process of getting her cycle/hormones back regularly after dealing with amenorrhea, so this feeling would understandably be foreign to her.
Just wanted to chime in here as a female to provide some intel as I’m sure a lot of men are unaware that this is pretty standard 😊
Great video, thanks for sharing. There’s some emerging research that menstrual fluctuations can be particularly impactful for neurodivergent peeps.
Amazing Video. Well done.
I just finished my long run 26miles steady 2hr 45mims. Tapering week next week as it's only 1 week till Great North Run. I am training for Chicaho Marathon
:) also have my youtube. Motivated to share stories like you do :)
Thanks, Philly!