You guys are the true superheroes only you don't wear capes so you go about anonymously, just another face in the crowd and never get the recognition you deserve.
Same here. I feel like I’m constantly getting F‘d in life and I’m at the point where I can’t make myself put in any effort any more and I can see it ruining my life.
Yup happened to me too. I saw your post on another video about chronic fatigue. I believe I have some form of it too and like you I was healthy and strong before. It's really negatively effected me as well. Just when I thought I would live a good life I got sick. Very sad and distressing.
@@TheFracturedfuture Yeah I feel hopeless. You're totally right. The worst part is not knowing what to do about it and not knowing if it'll ever end. I wish I could help but all I can do is wish you the best in the future.
It sucks being alive, it's almost like torture. All my good memories are behind me and all I can see is dark in front of me. I'm walking in a circle that leads to nowhere. I find myself wanting to stay in my dreams, because there at least I'm free.
Oh wow that about dreams..that is how I feel for years now. My dreams are colorful, full of life, with the people I want to be with. And real life is empty.
Life is hard, my child hood haunts me every day of my life I’m 38 and struggle with anxiety that absolutely makes me socially awkward and it’s so hard to take, when I’m in a social situation soon as I walk away awkwardly I’m yelling at myself In my head because I don’t have any confidence in my self because I was outcast as a child because I never had nice clothes a dad that verbally and physically abused me so I didn’t have the basic tools to make it in life.
@@cg-wo4ik it’s not going to be easy but you have to force yourself to be in uncomfortable situations to get more comfortable with social situations. Do something that builds your confidence in yourself like the gym.
@@juice5014 tried that, can’t really commit cause I’m chronically depressed and it never helps. I was pretty muscular for a while and was just still depressed even on days I went to the gym. Shit sucks I just gotta learn how to deal with it. I make music and nothing helps more than making music, it’s where I belong.
Giving up is the best option, really nobody will miss us, ive been told by everyone i know that I am worthless, fat and stupid so really there is nothing good about this world
Sadly, there are many people who are ill-equipped to to deal with life’s challenges. Mental illness, trauma, abuse, etc. can steal all of one’s joy. I am one of these individuals. I am a 46 year old man who is really a terrified and cowering child.
noone can afford shit now. things changed so much in ten years. the hardest thing is the average every day guys and gals are suffering. things were not like this not long ago.
This is the best thing, people who cant do anything just shouldnt try anymore. Ive tried everything to have a good life but it never happens so i am done trying, there is nothing here for me, im done, nobody can convince me otherwise
Brother, you know that I feel your pain. I lost my marriage, custody of my kids off and on, been disabled, fixed by surgery temporarily just to be disabled again by another, and I've had plenty of days that I feel that life is just too damn hard to deal with. The first 18 months after becoming legally disabled was absolutely the hardest time of my life without doubt. I questioned if I had the strength to deal with it. For the first time I felt something I had never felt before in my life. . .true depression. I used to hide it with alcohol and insane behaviors. When I let it set in, I was awe struck to say the least. It's a debilitating feeling I had ever felt. . . and even more so was the anxiety that came hand in hand with it. I started having panic attacks bad enough that it made me feel like I was having a heart attack. As crazy as it sounds, what I needed to help me deal with it all was something to take me away from it. . .my review channel. It gave me a purpose that didn't have anything to do with my worldly issues. Of course, that's where I met you bud! You and many others involved with my channel are what helped ME to find a path. Believe me when I tell you that you can get through anything you put your mind to. There's nothing wrong with relying on others to help hold you up in your times of need. There's nothing wrong with admitting to yourself and others that you're struggling. You need to take yourself away from the things that are pulling on your soul bud. If that means moving, then move. If that means getting a 2nd job just to take up time so you aren't left with your thoughts. . .do that. All it takes is that one catalyst to help push you forward to the point that you aren't judging yourself anymore. Failing is a part of life, and it's actually a big part because failing is how we learn brother! So don't beat yourself down with your failures. Take your failures and use them as a direction of success! That's how you beat your own feelings and stand up against life. You do everything within yourself to always stay above the dirt! You owe it to no one else but yourself to find what you feel to be success. That's how you find your way away from how you are feeling now bud. You hmu ANYTIME you need me man cause you know if I'm awake, I'm there for you!!!
Believe me, they're meant for anyone that they can help. We all have our ups and downs and our good and bad. Sometimes it's days, months, or even years. But all we can do is find the light within the dark and follow it to the best of our abilities. To never give up nor give in to the things that are most dark within each of us. I've personally spent 8 years now crippled from a surgery and truly taking 1 day at a time as if it were my last. Not because I'm dying, but because I want to live. Whether that day is hard, easy, good, bad, terrible, or glorious. . .I've come to terms as best as I can that this is how life is. Sometimes it feels like it's not what we signed up for, but that doesn't ever mean that we ever stop trying. To live is to fight with everything within you to prove to yourself that life is the best gift that you've ever been given and to treat it as such. That's how I make it through. I choose to follow the light. Look at the wonderful things in my life, and all be it there's plenty of bad, there's also good. So I focus on that and hope that my focus never strays away from that. You take care of yourself and I truly wish you all the best with overcoming life's obstacles!
So what do I do then? I have my first son on the way and the way I made money is next to gone. Debt mounting, damn near a 100k, a woman who expects a lavish lifestyle I can nice provided. I could do it all, I can make it happen but the perspective I’ve once had that drive that is gone. Now my existence, all I do is drink and fantasize about living In a van off the shore of Maui where I see others surviving without today’s responsibilities. The years have finally rolled in, I could end it all in one moment. Do I endure, does it matter?
Hey man, I just watched this and it resonates with me on so many levels. You speak for so many with all you said. Has anything changed for you? I hope you are ok
I concur with all you said. The end of this video was beautifully inspiring. I too feel like life isn't worth living. I can't afford to rent a place either and I live in Vancouver, Wa. I was fortunate enough to find a good family who lets me sleep in their driveway in my vehicle. I am twice college educated but am disabled now due to PTSD. I have no family at all as we are estranged for years due to physical and emotional abuse which has given me PTSD. I hate being in public. I am a good woman and a good person, but feel like most people judge me by my circumstances. Your video was one of the best I have ever seen on RUclips re: depression and anxiety. I too have nightmares and wake up screaming. My sleep quality is very poor as I fear for my life at night in my vehicle. I got a GED as well. I went to college and was a CNA for twenty years and then did college again and became a health unit coordinator in the surgery department for ten years before having a nervous breakdown due to corruption in the medical field and repressed memories surfacing after many decades of repression. I fell for you dude. You are intelligent and personable, even handsome. You can lose the weight. If that is weed you are vaping, I smoke weed too, but remember weed is a depressant , so give yourself a break from it now and then. P.S. I am sorry for the loss of your mother. Clearly you are grieving. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Peace.
You’ve got this Twinsie, I have nothing but love for you brother. You’ll come out of this the other side dude, I know you will. Deep down, you have the strength to carry on, I know it. Big love Twinsie. ❤️
I feel ashamed because i watch these videos just to feel someone elses pain Nothings getting better its be over a decade and ive been through every life situation i believe could have helped me im at the end now.
I hear you...it’s over 10 years for me of Mental and Emotional Trauma that’s taken everyone and everything I loved away... I don’t see any hope. Just days of pain and hopelessness. Hope ur feeling a little better - you’re not alone🙏❤️
Everything he says resonates with me, never really been happy... I have giving up for real... I feel very empty... I feel lost, I feel as if am floating... And I have gained weight again... Am alone and money has never really been there
Discovered this post. I deal with depression on a daily basis. just no suicidal thoughts. I feel the same way about my failures. Honestly, I just sit around and play videogames to escape this world mentally.
Thanks friend. It's a sad world. I'm 27 and I feel everything you say. That's sad. We're such young people! I've watched the Congress of Psycholgists and psychiatrists online and they said its the first timenin history of human kind we have a society that actually wants to take their own lives and leave. It's that bad. Stay strong my friend. And if you don't have anything to do, watch the congress of psychiatrists and psychologists. It's all about nowadays society. Very interesting
Having only known you from the Persona 4 Comic dub, you've given me more than enough laughs and introduced me to a lovely fandom. I hope what ever you find yourself doing next that it is truly what you love to do, and gets you out of that dark mindset, Good luck and gods speed.
You ken have a great clear articulate voice.... i see you doing narrative work, or hear you should I say A voice can heal with the knowledge of darkness you have May inner peace find its home in you
I feel like just giving up on life completely every sence I was eight I felt completely lost, different, left out, empty and just "depressed" I had and still have no friends people call me fat or slim and both are body shaming. Everytime I try to help and do stuff good and give no one cares. You see the thing that is wrong Is I constantly feel dead inside I can't reach out to family members cause I don't trust them nor friends I'm just done with all the fake friends, fake feelings, fake love. I don't want to end it cause of the stress, hate, fake love, the dead family members or anything I want to end it to be happy for at least once..
It's been a month, and I hope so, so much that things are going better for you out there man. Thank you for making that choice, and living for yourself. After everything that you've been through, and as you said it yourself, it's really, extremely hard to make that choice. And I can't express enough how much I admire, and respect that. You are so strong, and so extremely inspiring... So, keep up the good job out there, stay safe, take care, and I wish you all the best of luck, with everything that may come your way.
I found your video today because I too reached a point where I want to give up and I'm not sure what road to take I have multiple reasons to give up but I also have three reasons not to I thought maybe if I found strength it would help but being strong doesn't stop the thoughts if you read this could you reach back out and give me some Intel of how you work through this please 🥺
We give and give and give and never expect ... Until there is nothing Left for ourselves ... But to give ourselves up. The only thing that's gonna help us is to find ourselves...Meditate my freind and I m sure we will realize what we are ...a different kind
I can relate to everything you're saying. I am there right now and today may be the last day of my life. My only regret is I'm leaving my small dog who is my life behind. Hard to figure a way out with depression does not go. Stays with me everyday I realize I'm never going to feel better. Living in pain 24/7 is no fun. It's also not very fair. But life is not fair
Yes, yes and yes ....I can totally relate on all of this !!!! Take it hour by hour and work your butt off to see the good and positive things no matter how small they seem.. Seek councelling, medication , and above all practice self awareness and love . I deal with everything you are saying every day . We can choose to sink or swim . Friends are extremely important .Make the effort to keep lines open . Stay here . You can feel better but we are a work in progress . It's tough sometimes but it beats the alternative .
You got this, dont give up. Im here if you need someone. SallaDs here for you. May not be physical at this time but we are here via zoom, fb..etc. i do plan to travel around some point and you are one of the ppl i want to meet. Just know you got SallaD and I cheering you on.
The choosing a date part is what has made the remainder of my time here at least bearable. Not so much a date, I take care of my mother who has senile dementia, it's difficult to watch your parent deteriorate before your eyes, day in and day out. She has essentially become a "living" hourglass because of a promise I made. I fantasize about being a drifter, not confined by time or the 9 to 5 or the never ending bills. Taking a walk down memory lane through the Bay area to say goodbye to places associated with fond memories. I like to think I have experienced all that I care to. I have loved and been loved, and looking back, that's enough for me. I'm going out in my time, on my terms. I keep thinking the saddest part of my, and others impending departure is that it is sad for others. If they only knew the constant suffering perhaps they'd celebrate. It's okay...
I have been depressed since 2012 and I feel worse and more hopeless now than ever. With the state of the world getting crazier by the day and looming on the edge of WW3 and the potential for nuclear war, I genuinely feel like the world is ending. Countries all across the globe are suffering and their economies are crashing. What the hell is going on. I have nearly no motivation to keep up with myself or my life anymore, I have been barely eating, I am failing my college classes and have no motivation to complete the work for them, and I am on the verge of giving up. I feel like anything that I work hard for now and achieve will not matter at all because the future is bleak. I have been fighting for the past 10 years to prevent my family from being sad, but I feel like this is an uphill battle and I am on the verge of giving up and losing.
That falling into the river thought, i have experienced it aswell. I searched for this video today cuz i need to relate to someone. No one understands.
I Know how you feel my friend mines every second I'm awake. I've had the suicide thoughts trufully I still am..I'm a true honest lovable person that's been seriously destroyed inside and out. 💔😪.. sending lots of prayers and hugs to you... you're not alone...
You're a beautiful and hurting soul and I can't imagine what you've been through. No matter what, Jesus loves you, and he will always be there for you if you ask. I'm praying for you brother, you are worth it.
It feels like your stuck, you can't go out, you can't escape, but depression makes us think that. But it doesn't work like that, there's always a way out.
I get the part about wearing a mask in life. There's an old saying: a person has three masks/faces. A face the public sees, a face only those close to you see, and face that nobody but you sees. Life is tough and it's even tougher when you're alone. Nights alone are the worst.
I'm there too. I'm just done with life. I don't see anything much to live for, other than not wanting to hurt a couple people who are close to me and would be terribly sad if I went. But otherwise, I am so so so so SO ready to be gone.
Good news! The couple of people close to me who I didn't want to hurt... They both (well primarily one, but the other has followed along) recently betrayed and abandoned me in my greatest hour of need. These are family members who I've dearly loved and shown a great deal of love and attention to and who I thought loved me just as much. Time to check out.
I"m so happy this video had a happy ending. 29 here in college. If I can do it, so can you. I had a lot of set backs. I believe we can do anything especially with Jesus's help. We can do anything!
My 44th birthday today... All that you speak of i feel... It sucks.. Yeah we're givers and I'd do anything for others not to feel good i feel. Great actors indeed, exahusted, cries, the battle with the thoughts, the emptiness and all the above.. Sadly all 100% true thoughts. I feel trapped cause if i were to succeed in my attempts, you feel guilty of those you'd leave behind in pain so you just keep on being going. It's not that i don't feel i deserve happiness its just they life has cut me so deep I'm loosing the ability to keep holding on, the reasons are dissapearing and this drainage is killing to say the least. I'm tired of this mask which needs to be on for the good of others.. Its just a viscious roller-coaster ride I'm ready to get off. What's next? For now I'm going to bed, tomorrow is another day. Peace, love and light to us all... Taking each day at a time, putting our best foot forwards 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾
2016 i was in latvia feeling where you are, another country and I was in your shoes. Take every day as a fight but, one you know you can win. The fight gets easier!
I don't want to live. I don't want to be anyone else. I don't want to be limited by societies and sheeple. I don't want to be a reflection of how they treat me. I cannot take it anymore
i wish you the very best man am just gonna say waht i think would work for most people , after all ive been where you are for the last 15 years , so i feel you bro take your antidepressant , drink lightly and try to stay busy as possible .
I've always said to people that SADNESS is my default emotional state. And I relate so much when you mentioned about something must have happened to have taken happiness away from you. And yes, that's the case for me too. A very melancholic childhood happened to mine...and genuine happiness went away with it. 😟🥺 Edit: The last part of the video is me right now too ! Hurray to living for ourselves !
I feel the same way. I am a victim of whichcraft. I lost my baby momma through suicide, I resigned from work unwillingly, I have 2 sons, which is why I'm hanging on, seeing my mother makes me feel sorry and don't want her to go through the pain. Iv been hospitalized and diagnosed with 5 mental illness ( schizophrenia, physchosis, temporal lobe epilepsy, Depression, bipolar disorder).Iv been attacked spiritually, Iv seen Evil 😈 with my naked eyes, my soul was literally taken out of body from a tattoo (symbol of sacrifice) Im suicidal ND anxiety is kicking in daily, Iv given happiness but end up hurt, none of my relationships last ( muti related). I'm giving in, it's just a matter of time before I decide to give up since nothing works out fine, maybe just maybe if I get a job I'll be better.
I'm sorry for you, and everyone who feels this way. It is the worst, day in and day out. Getting a job is not hope to me. I'm not even willing to work anymore. To survive? Unhappy? I'm afraid I can't get back from this state again, that I'm too deep, because I've had realizations and seen things for what they are, and I can't unsee them. I have no hope. And don't worry, to whomever may read this and assume, I don't receive government assistance in any way. 😒😔
When you let your family down at the holidays and this has been happening your whole life it seems like it's the inevitable and this is what is meant to happen to me I'm giving up i have been going thru this since birth so why do I have to suffer the same day over and over for the rest of my life
This is me, everyday. It's a vicious cycle. The car breaks down can't get to work can't pay the bills can't get a decent car, get a piece of junk, it breaks, can't work, can't pay the bills, junk the car find another piece of junk. It breaks down... Over and over and over. Nine cars in 4 years... Just got one for free ran fine... Had it not even a week..idk what happened... Now it starts then stalls. Put in new fuel pump, put in new battery, new starter, but a code reader, can't get it to work...I mean nothing goes right. Why??? I bought concert tickets waited 2 years for this concert due to COVID.. The day of the concert this car acts up and won't go. So . The one thing I waited years for can't happen. Missed the show. Car is messed up...I can't go anywhere. I'm stuck at home with two babies and two teenage boys that are mine. I love them and I feel so bad because I feel like a failure. Can't even go swimming in the pool because there's no money for chemicals. We are stuck in the house with nothing to do. Since the bills were behind the water was off. Just took all we had to put it back on. 1000 dollars worth of water bills and electric bills. This has all happened within one week. My birthday is in three days. I have nothing to celebrate. No car. Can't figure out what it is. No money. About 40 bucks in the bank. I mean will I ever catch a break???? Will I ever get a decent car???? Am I not worth it to God or whoever is in charge???? I'm sick everyday because of I this. I can barely function. I just can't do it anymore. A vicious cycle.😞😞😞💔💔💔
its so tru its like groundhog day!!! bad things all the time!!!! i though we were chosen and special in the galaxy why wont the gods manifest good things in our life =( im so jaded
You're bi#@hing about living in a house with a swimming pool that you can't use because you can't afford chemicals?? I live in a second/third floor apartment in the mountains, where we sleep downstairs on the living room floor and close off every other room and use one heater. No TV, computer, video games. 500 dollar a month electric bill in the winter. No insulation.. Maybe reevaluate your situation.....
I hear ya brother. I've been alone my whole life. I dont like the company of most people. I spend time reading the bible, excersizing, watching you tube, video games, movies, documentaries. you need to entertain yourself. try to get a few social connections through hobbies, clubs, etc
The call of the void isn't necessarily suicidal ideation, but once you have had the latter, you always doubt the former... don't forget that there are others to talk to when you feel like there is something you don't want to drop on those close by.
I too have comforted other people and gave anything and everything so as to make other people happy so they can't feel what I feel... And where is God... What is God
Life is useless. I gave up too. I'm in my bed since a year now. Almost not eating and drinking for 5 months. I'm not even waiting death, simply I don't care. My house is full of trash, new forms of life are taking form in my kitchen I suppose. I really don't care. The last thing that keeps a link with the world is my mobile phone, but really it's useless. I really don't care. Existence and not-existence it's a nightmare we should get rid of. Total passivity is the only means of real liberation.
I lost my two uncles, my sister hates me and I feel like everytime I try to say something people say "oh your to young your learn that it's a phase." But every single day I would cry bang my head on a wall and wish to jump off a building/cliff. And not to mention at school there's so much stress people always are crying and coming to me and when that happens I wanna give up and stop breathing to see them happy but again people always say "oh your to young your learn that it's a phase." But personally I'm only alive rn for my unclesthey want me to live so here I am rn hating my life with stupid anxiety, depression and not to mention adhd at school panic attacks so yay here I am Emma a stupid _ year old wanting to die.
Giving up means that you are tired of the conditioned thoughts. Giving up is the best thing you will do. It might suck now, but later you will understand why you did it. You are what you think. Change your thinking, change how you are. That's how I see it...SBN NATAN
money made me loose everything.... i am done.... here goes.... so the last thing that was taken was my little daughter... just cant do this anymore... good-bye world
This life isnt worth living everything sucks no money no food no nothing i wish i could do more for my family and ive tried many many times. Ive went without food so my family couöd eat im tired and in constant mental pain
Listen I can’t fix everything in your life but what helps me and might help someone out there is that I stop eating the junk and start working out Atleast one time a day and become a better stronger person . Also I tend too stop eating so I can get girls bc it makes me look more cut bc I use too wrestle and cut weight all the time
Your honesty is beautiful. No one wants to address this issue. When is it okay to die? Why is it so important to live... if you're alone and no one gives a fuck. Everyday I find comfort knowing I can kill myself. I've been unsuccessful numerous times. Last time I came close, the belt broke, I cracked 3 ribs... next time I will successful. The thought of not thinking or feeling seems like blissful sleep.
Why would anyone love you if you can not love yourself ?? Great Question. It sounds like you need medication, seriously. Free or County Clinic to prescribe something for the anxiety, depression, & sleep issues. /// Worthiness is inherent. Trust me, there are plenty of dirt bags causing others pain, you just need to SURVIVE just because. Many times in life we are Alone but we have to be In Our Own Corner in the Boxing Match of Life. We must be of service to ourselves, occasionally volunteer to aid others. Volunteering can suck you into being a robot so beware; but in giving to ourselves & sometimes to others WE CAN FIND WORTH TO HANG ON ONE DAY AT A TIME. /// Walk, walk till you are almost ready to drop as exercise. Physical depletion helps deal with mental strain & perhaps will aid sleep.
@@VoidDweller86 // // Your ability to care about yourself or achieve in this life should not crater your entire self worth. Yes, Depression can be like a Black Hole, pulling you in & compressing you down. Maybe your situation is organic, maybe it is based on previous trauma, OR MAYBE IT IS BASED ON MENTAL CONSTRUCTS WITHIN OF LIFE BEING MUCH LESS THAN YOU WANTED IT TO BE. Things go better with acceptance & even small strands of gratitude. You don't have to be a hit. Just dial down the self criticism & high expectations. I have strove hard to accomplish; & like Icarus, I fell far & hard back down to Earth for many dark years. I have found some Grace thru redefinition, & just doing it for One More Day, everyday.
@@adrianmonk4440 I can just never come to be my own fan no matter what but that does not stop me from loving or caring about my loved ones and friends, I'm 35 years old
@@VoidDweller86 // I am not making light of your challenges. I wish you well on your journey. If you don't find a small spark of the life force inside you, don't find something in the universe to inspire you, & KEEP WAITING FOR OTHERS TO FULFILL YOU, THE JOURNEY WILL BE DIFFICULT INDEED. Namaste.
Does any One going throw this feels extemely bad when they wake up ..does any One have alot of vivid dreams and then this inteusive thougts as soon as they wake up ...? Like alot of imagens in the Head ? I dont know if its alucinations couse its not something i see outside of me with my eyes Open its just inside my mind ..i am Soo bad i cant work ..dont shower..bearly go outside of the house ..my brain dosent feel normal ..could this me more than depression and anxiety? I dont even take medications ..or have the corage to see a doctor ..Im like this for nearly a year ..i had a beautiful life before 😓
The way you’re describing your feelings is exactly how i feel everyday as well. Drained, alone, depressed, and like dying
You guys are the true superheroes only you don't wear capes so you go about anonymously, just another face in the crowd and never get the recognition you deserve.
Same here.
I feel like I’m constantly getting F‘d in life and I’m at the point where I can’t make myself put in any effort any more and I can see it ruining my life.
Me too
Me too
It’s really hard to live in this world.
Please read my comment about my life.💕💕💕
Maybe to hard
Perhaps that’s why I always feel like an alien on this earth 🤷♂️
I despise waking up every morning.
No shit he forgot same shit everyday day in day out
"It always seems like something happens to take this happiness away from me."
It always happens.
Always. the world is fucking against you, wish I wasn’t born god! Shit sucks.
Yup happened to me too. I saw your post on another video about chronic fatigue. I believe I have some form of it too and like you I was healthy and strong before. It's really negatively effected me as well. Just when I thought I would live a good life I got sick. Very sad and distressing.
@@Ffollies I'm sorry, fatigue is really a pain in the ass and it's so hard to stay positive when you can't do much.
@@TheFracturedfuture Yeah I feel hopeless. You're totally right. The worst part is not knowing what to do about it and not knowing if it'll ever end. I wish I could help but all I can do is wish you the best in the future.
@@Ffollies I wish you the best as well.
It sucks being alive, it's almost like torture. All my good memories are behind me and all I can see is dark in front of me. I'm walking in a circle that leads to nowhere. I find myself wanting to stay in my dreams, because there at least I'm free.
I don't even dream anymore
Oh wow that about dreams..that is how I feel for years now. My dreams are colorful, full of life, with the people I want to be with. And real life is empty.
I gave up on life a while ago but too coward to end it all at once. Now just breathing until I can't anymore. 👍
How did you give up?
What made you give up on life? I gave up of life cause of bad luck.
Me too. I consider my self as a dead man already so i don't give such a burden to my myself. Life is really pointless no matter you are rich or poor.
A beautiful women giving up. Now I've seen it all.
Life is hard, my child hood haunts me every day of my life I’m 38 and struggle with anxiety that absolutely makes me socially awkward and it’s so hard to take, when I’m in a social situation soon as I walk away awkwardly I’m yelling at myself In my head because I don’t have any confidence in my self because I was outcast as a child because I never had nice clothes a dad that verbally and physically abused me so I didn’t have the basic tools to make it in life.
It scares me as a socially awkward 21 year old that I may never get better socially
@@cg-wo4ik it’s not going to be easy but you have to force yourself to be in uncomfortable situations to get more comfortable with social situations. Do something that builds your confidence in yourself like the gym.
@@juice5014 tried that, can’t really commit cause I’m chronically depressed and it never helps. I was pretty muscular for a while and was just still depressed even on days I went to the gym. Shit sucks I just gotta learn how to deal with it. I make music and nothing helps more than making music, it’s where I belong.
Giving up is the best option, really nobody will miss us, ive been told by everyone i know that I am worthless, fat and stupid so really there is nothing good about this world
@@ChandlerGaming205 depends on the day but seems like it but trying to hold up
This is how I feel everyday. I just feel like I don’t have anything else to give this world. My whole life has been filled with heartache and pain
Sadly, there are many people who are ill-equipped to to deal with life’s challenges. Mental illness, trauma, abuse, etc. can steal all of one’s joy. I am one of these individuals. I am a 46 year old man who is really a terrified and cowering child.
noone can afford shit now. things changed so much in ten years. the hardest thing is the average every day guys and gals are suffering. things were not like this not long ago.
This is the best thing, people who cant do anything just shouldnt try anymore. Ive tried everything to have a good life but it never happens so i am done trying, there is nothing here for me, im done, nobody can convince me otherwise
I feel like this every day too. I just feel like I’m going through the motions every day. I just think of every day as another day closer to death.
Brother, you know that I feel your pain. I lost my marriage, custody of my kids off and on, been disabled, fixed by surgery temporarily just to be disabled again by another, and I've had plenty of days that I feel that life is just too damn hard to deal with. The first 18 months after becoming legally disabled was absolutely the hardest time of my life without doubt. I questioned if I had the strength to deal with it. For the first time I felt something I had never felt before in my life. . .true depression. I used to hide it with alcohol and insane behaviors. When I let it set in, I was awe struck to say the least. It's a debilitating feeling I had ever felt. . . and even more so was the anxiety that came hand in hand with it. I started having panic attacks bad enough that it made me feel like I was having a heart attack. As crazy as it sounds, what I needed to help me deal with it all was something to take me away from it. . .my review channel. It gave me a purpose that didn't have anything to do with my worldly issues. Of course, that's where I met you bud! You and many others involved with my channel are what helped ME to find a path. Believe me when I tell you that you can get through anything you put your mind to. There's nothing wrong with relying on others to help hold you up in your times of need. There's nothing wrong with admitting to yourself and others that you're struggling. You need to take yourself away from the things that are pulling on your soul bud. If that means moving, then move. If that means getting a 2nd job just to take up time so you aren't left with your thoughts. . .do that. All it takes is that one catalyst to help push you forward to the point that you aren't judging yourself anymore. Failing is a part of life, and it's actually a big part because failing is how we learn brother! So don't beat yourself down with your failures. Take your failures and use them as a direction of success! That's how you beat your own feelings and stand up against life. You do everything within yourself to always stay above the dirt! You owe it to no one else but yourself to find what you feel to be success. That's how you find your way away from how you are feeling now bud. You hmu ANYTIME you need me man cause you know if I'm awake, I'm there for you!!!
Believe me, they're meant for anyone that they can help. We all have our ups and downs and our good and bad. Sometimes it's days, months, or even years. But all we can do is find the light within the dark and follow it to the best of our abilities. To never give up nor give in to the things that are most dark within each of us. I've personally spent 8 years now crippled from a surgery and truly taking 1 day at a time as if it were my last. Not because I'm dying, but because I want to live. Whether that day is hard, easy, good, bad, terrible, or glorious. . .I've come to terms as best as I can that this is how life is. Sometimes it feels like it's not what we signed up for, but that doesn't ever mean that we ever stop trying. To live is to fight with everything within you to prove to yourself that life is the best gift that you've ever been given and to treat it as such. That's how I make it through. I choose to follow the light. Look at the wonderful things in my life, and all be it there's plenty of bad, there's also good. So I focus on that and hope that my focus never strays away from that. You take care of yourself and I truly wish you all the best with overcoming life's obstacles!
So what do I do then? I have my first son on the way and the way I made money is next to gone. Debt mounting, damn near a 100k, a woman who expects a lavish lifestyle I can nice provided.
I could do it all, I can make it happen but the perspective I’ve once had that drive that is gone.
Now my existence, all I do is drink and fantasize about living In a van off the shore of Maui where I see others surviving without today’s responsibilities.
The years have finally rolled in, I could end it all in one moment.
Do I endure, does it matter?
Hey man, I just watched this and it resonates with me on so many levels. You speak for so many with all you said. Has anything changed for you? I hope you are ok
Just randomly stumbled on this. You are not alone. I sincerely from the bottom of my heart hope you are doing ok.
I concur with all you said. The end of this video was beautifully inspiring. I too feel like life isn't worth living. I can't afford to rent a place either and I live in Vancouver, Wa. I was fortunate enough to find a good family who lets me sleep in their driveway in my vehicle. I am twice college educated but am disabled now due to PTSD. I have no family at all as we are estranged for years due to physical and emotional abuse which has given me PTSD. I hate being in public. I am a good woman and a good person, but feel like most people judge me by my circumstances. Your video was one of the best I have ever seen on RUclips re: depression and anxiety. I too have nightmares and wake up screaming. My sleep quality is very poor as I fear for my life at night in my vehicle. I got a GED as well. I went to college and was a CNA for twenty years and then did college again and became a health unit coordinator in the surgery department for ten years before having a nervous breakdown due to corruption in the medical field and repressed memories surfacing after many decades of repression. I fell for you dude. You are intelligent and personable, even handsome. You can lose the weight. If that is weed you are vaping, I smoke weed too, but remember weed is a depressant , so give yourself a break from it now and then. P.S. I am sorry for the loss of your mother. Clearly you are grieving. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Peace.
You’ve got this Twinsie, I have nothing but love for you brother. You’ll come out of this the other side dude, I know you will. Deep down, you have the strength to carry on, I know it. Big love Twinsie. ❤️
I feel this way, every, single, day…… i am tired….. tired…. whats the point
Life is pointless and meaningless existence. It's only repetitive actions. There is no the main purpose in our lives, on this fvcking planet.
This was exactly what I needed and was searching for, thank you
I feel ashamed because i watch these videos just to feel someone elses pain
Nothings getting better its be over a decade and ive been through every life situation i believe could have helped me im at the end now.
I hear you...it’s over
10 years for me of Mental and Emotional Trauma that’s taken everyone and everything I loved away...
I don’t see any hope. Just days of pain and hopelessness.
Hope ur feeling a little better - you’re not alone🙏❤️
Just saw this and it helps… i cant tell you how much it helps..
All I can say is that Pray more, hang in there, you Talking about your situation really helps me. I'm sorry you're going through this
Everything he says resonates with me, never really been happy... I have giving up for real... I feel very empty... I feel lost, I feel as if am floating... And I have gained weight again... Am alone and money has never really been there
Everytime I feel as if am getting a big break something happens and I really Right now want to die
Vicky Please read my comment in the comment section. There are two of them . One is my personal comment.💕💕💕
Discovered this post.
I deal with depression on a daily basis. just no suicidal thoughts.
I feel the same way about my failures.
Honestly, I just sit around and play videogames to escape this world mentally.
Thanks friend. It's a sad world. I'm 27 and I feel everything you say. That's sad. We're such young people! I've watched the Congress of Psycholgists and psychiatrists online and they said its the first timenin history of human kind we have a society that actually wants to take their own lives and leave. It's that bad. Stay strong my friend. And if you don't have anything to do, watch the congress of psychiatrists and psychologists. It's all about nowadays society. Very interesting
Having only known you from the Persona 4 Comic dub, you've given me more than enough laughs and introduced me to a lovely fandom. I hope what ever you find yourself doing next that it is truly what you love to do, and gets you out of that dark mindset, Good luck and gods speed.
You ken have a great clear articulate voice.... i see you doing narrative work, or hear you should I say
A voice can heal with the knowledge of darkness you have
May inner peace find its home in you
I don’t know where you are right now, but I feel ya bruh. This existence sucks. Hope you find something to hold on to. ☮️
Thank you for helping me feel not alone in this moment. ❤️
The pain guided our entire life and we never judged it and resulted to this
I feel like just giving up on life completely every sence I was eight I felt completely lost, different, left out, empty and just "depressed" I had and still have no friends people call me fat or slim and both are body shaming. Everytime I try to help and do stuff good and give no one cares. You see the thing that is wrong Is I constantly feel dead inside I can't reach out to family members cause I don't trust them nor friends I'm just done with all the fake friends, fake feelings, fake love. I don't want to end it cause of the stress, hate, fake love, the dead family members or anything I want to end it to be happy for at least once..
Sometimes you hide your pain so well deep in of you that you forget it is the reason that triggers the glooming depression which reigns your world
It's been a month, and I hope so, so much that things are going better for you out there man. Thank you for making that choice, and living for yourself. After everything that you've been through, and as you said it yourself, it's really, extremely hard to make that choice. And I can't express enough how much I admire, and respect that. You are so strong, and so extremely inspiring... So, keep up the good job out there, stay safe, take care, and I wish you all the best of luck, with everything that may come your way.
I found your video today because I too reached a point where I want to give up and I'm not sure what road to take I have multiple reasons to give up but I also have three reasons not to I thought maybe if I found strength it would help but being strong doesn't stop the thoughts if you read this could you reach back out and give me some Intel of how you work through this please 🥺
I’m still working through it every day, some days are good, others are bad, but I push through because I refuse to believe that I can’t break through
Thanks man for your help and love, means alot i know i couldnt get through this life alone..
We give and give and give and never expect ... Until there is nothing Left for ourselves ... But to give ourselves up.
The only thing that's gonna help us is to find ourselves...Meditate my freind and I m sure we will realize what we are ...a different kind
I can relate to everything you're saying. I am there right now and today may be the last day of my life. My only regret is I'm leaving my small dog who is my life behind. Hard to figure a way out with depression does not go. Stays with me everyday I realize I'm never going to feel better. Living in pain 24/7 is no fun. It's also not very fair. But life is not fair
Oh you poor thing 😭😭
I’m so sorry you’re going through this..but stay for your dog..you’re his whole world..he needs you
Yes, yes and yes ....I can totally relate on all of this !!!!
Take it hour by hour and work your butt off to see the good and positive things no matter how small they seem..
Seek councelling, medication , and above all practice self awareness and love .
I deal with everything you are saying every day .
We can choose to sink or swim . Friends are extremely important .Make the effort to keep lines open .
Stay here . You can feel better but we are a work in progress . It's tough sometimes but it beats the alternative .
Does it? Is dying such a bad thing??
You got this, dont give up. Im here if you need someone. SallaDs here for you. May not be physical at this time but we are here via zoom, fb..etc. i do plan to travel around some point and you are one of the ppl i want to meet. Just know you got SallaD and I cheering you on.
The choosing a date part is what has made the remainder of my time here at least bearable. Not so much a date, I take care of my mother who has senile dementia, it's difficult to watch your parent deteriorate before your eyes, day in and day out. She has essentially become a "living" hourglass because of a promise I made. I fantasize about being a drifter, not confined by time or the 9 to 5 or the never ending bills. Taking a walk down memory lane through the Bay area to say goodbye to places associated with fond memories. I like to think I have experienced all that I care to. I have loved and been loved, and looking back, that's enough for me.
I'm going out in my time, on my terms. I keep thinking the saddest part of my, and others impending departure is that it is sad for others.
If they only knew the constant suffering perhaps they'd celebrate.
It's okay...
I have been depressed since 2012 and I feel worse and more hopeless now than ever. With the state of the world getting crazier by the day and looming on the edge of WW3 and the potential for nuclear war, I genuinely feel like the world is ending. Countries all across the globe are suffering and their economies are crashing. What the hell is going on. I have nearly no motivation to keep up with myself or my life anymore, I have been barely eating, I am failing my college classes and have no motivation to complete the work for them, and I am on the verge of giving up. I feel like anything that I work hard for now and achieve will not matter at all because the future is bleak. I have been fighting for the past 10 years to prevent my family from being sad, but I feel like this is an uphill battle and I am on the verge of giving up and losing.
That falling into the river thought, i have experienced it aswell. I searched for this video today cuz i need to relate to someone. No one understands.
I Know how you feel my friend mines every second I'm awake. I've had the suicide thoughts trufully I still am..I'm a true honest lovable person that's been seriously destroyed inside and out. 💔😪.. sending lots of prayers and hugs to you... you're not alone...
Wish you had more speaking to us videos..this was awesome
You're a beautiful and hurting soul and I can't imagine what you've been through. No matter what, Jesus loves you, and he will always be there for you if you ask. I'm praying for you brother, you are worth it.
It feels like your stuck, you can't go out, you can't escape, but depression makes us think that. But it doesn't work like that, there's always a way out.
I get the part about wearing a mask in life. There's an old saying: a person has three masks/faces. A face the public sees, a face only those close to you see, and face that nobody but you sees. Life is tough and it's even tougher when you're alone. Nights alone are the worst.
I'm there too. I'm just done with life. I don't see anything much to live for, other than not wanting to hurt a couple people who are close to me and would be terribly sad if I went. But otherwise, I am so so so so SO ready to be gone.
Good news! The couple of people close to me who I didn't want to hurt...
They both (well primarily one, but the other has followed along) recently betrayed and abandoned me in my greatest hour of need. These are family members who I've dearly loved and shown a great deal of love and attention to and who I thought loved me just as much.
Time to check out.
@@EmeraldView hi
You've got this man.
I"m so happy this video had a happy ending. 29 here in college. If I can do it, so can you. I had a lot of set backs. I believe we can do anything especially with Jesus's help. We can do anything!
My 44th birthday today... All that you speak of i feel... It sucks.. Yeah we're givers and I'd do anything for others not to feel good i feel. Great actors indeed, exahusted, cries, the battle with the thoughts, the emptiness and all the above.. Sadly all 100% true thoughts. I feel trapped cause if i were to succeed in my attempts, you feel guilty of those you'd leave behind in pain so you just keep on being going. It's not that i don't feel i deserve happiness its just they life has cut me so deep I'm loosing the ability to keep holding on, the reasons are dissapearing and this drainage is killing to say the least. I'm tired of this mask which needs to be on for the good of others.. Its just a viscious roller-coaster ride I'm ready to get off.
What's next? For now I'm going to bed, tomorrow is another day. Peace, love and light to us all... Taking each day at a time, putting our best foot forwards 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾
Life so fuck1ng long.
Happiness comes in moments. The open parking spot in front. The five dollar bill you see on the ground.
I was happy when I went to Sam's Club and bought a jar of candy😁👍
2016 i was in latvia feeling where you are, another country and I was in your shoes. Take every day as a fight but, one you know you can win. The fight gets easier!
I don't want to live. I don't want to be anyone else. I don't want to be limited by societies and sheeple. I don't want to be a reflection of how they treat me. I cannot take it anymore
Good news bruh Ken is doing much better, check out his update video
i wish you the very best man
am just gonna say waht i think would work for most people , after all ive been where you are for the last 15 years , so i feel you bro
take your antidepressant , drink lightly and try to stay busy as possible .
I've always said to people that SADNESS is my default emotional state. And I relate so much when you mentioned about something must have happened to have taken happiness away from you. And yes, that's the case for me too. A very melancholic childhood happened to mine...and genuine happiness went away with it. 😟🥺
Edit: The last part of the video is me right now too ! Hurray to living for ourselves !
Iv given up on life. IT IS WHAT IT IS!!!!
18:16 I ask myself the same question everyday. I'm just so tired
I feel the same way. I am a victim of whichcraft. I lost my baby momma through suicide, I resigned from work unwillingly, I have 2 sons, which is why I'm hanging on, seeing my mother makes me feel sorry and don't want her to go through the pain. Iv been hospitalized and diagnosed with 5 mental illness ( schizophrenia, physchosis, temporal lobe epilepsy, Depression, bipolar disorder).Iv been attacked spiritually, Iv seen Evil 😈 with my naked eyes, my soul was literally taken out of body from a tattoo (symbol of sacrifice)
Im suicidal ND anxiety is kicking in daily, Iv given happiness but end up hurt, none of my relationships last ( muti related). I'm giving in, it's just a matter of time before I decide to give up since nothing works out fine, maybe just maybe if I get a job I'll be better.
I'm sorry for you, and everyone who feels this way. It is the worst, day in and day out.
Getting a job is not hope to me. I'm not even willing to work anymore. To survive? Unhappy? I'm afraid I can't get back from this state again, that I'm too deep, because I've had realizations and seen things for what they are, and I can't unsee them. I have no hope.
And don't worry, to whomever may read this and assume, I don't receive government assistance in any way. 😒😔
I’m consumed by my stress. I can’t sleep, so I drink, it’s aweful
When you let your family down at the holidays and this has been happening your whole life it seems like it's the inevitable and this is what is meant to happen to me I'm giving up i have been going thru this since birth so why do I have to suffer the same day over and over for the rest of my life
I think he is gone. He isnt uploading or responding anymore. I hope he is in a better place right now. I will join him one day.
If he is gone, may he RIP. He is in a much better place now.
That is incredibly sad.
This is me, everyday. It's a vicious cycle. The car breaks down can't get to work can't pay the bills can't get a decent car, get a piece of junk, it breaks, can't work, can't pay the bills, junk the car find another piece of junk. It breaks down... Over and over and over. Nine cars in 4 years... Just got one for free ran fine... Had it not even a week..idk what happened... Now it starts then stalls. Put in new fuel pump, put in new battery, new starter, but a code reader, can't get it to work...I mean nothing goes right. Why??? I bought concert tickets waited 2 years for this concert due to COVID.. The day of the concert this car acts up and won't go. So . The one thing I waited years for can't happen. Missed the show. Car is messed up...I can't go anywhere. I'm stuck at home with two babies and two teenage boys that are mine. I love them and I feel so bad because I feel like a failure. Can't even go swimming in the pool because there's no money for chemicals. We are stuck in the house with nothing to do. Since the bills were behind the water was off. Just took all we had to put it back on. 1000 dollars worth of water bills and electric bills. This has all happened within one week. My birthday is in three days. I have nothing to celebrate. No car. Can't figure out what it is. No money. About 40 bucks in the bank. I mean will I ever catch a break???? Will I ever get a decent car???? Am I not worth it to God or whoever is in charge???? I'm sick everyday because of I this. I can barely function. I just can't do it anymore. A vicious cycle.😞😞😞💔💔💔
its so tru its like groundhog day!!! bad things all the time!!!! i though we were chosen and special in the galaxy why wont the gods manifest good things in our life =( im so jaded
You're bi#@hing about living in a house with a swimming pool that you can't use because you can't afford chemicals??
I live in a second/third floor apartment in the mountains, where we sleep downstairs on the living room floor and close off every other room and use one heater. No TV, computer, video games. 500 dollar a month electric bill in the winter. No insulation..
Maybe reevaluate your situation.....
I hear ya brother. I've been alone my whole life. I dont like the company of most people. I spend time reading the bible, excersizing, watching you tube, video games, movies, documentaries. you need to entertain yourself. try to get a few social connections through hobbies, clubs, etc
Watching this gave me a lil more strength. Because if i wasnt scared i would have been did it
I feel you my brother I'm depressed too
The call of the void isn't necessarily suicidal ideation, but once you have had the latter, you always doubt the former... don't forget that there are others to talk to when you feel like there is something you don't want to drop on those close by.
I too have comforted other people and gave anything and everything so as to make other people happy so they can't feel what I feel... And where is God... What is God
Jesus is always with you all turn to him with a open heart “this too shall pass”🙏🏽✝️
Amen
10 minutes in and i hit the subscribed button asap
You can get thru this hun.... if you ever need to talk get ahold me I'm here
Life is useless. I gave up too. I'm in my bed since a year now. Almost not eating and drinking for 5 months. I'm not even waiting death, simply I don't care. My house is full of trash, new forms of life are taking form in my kitchen I suppose. I really don't care. The last thing that keeps a link with the world is my mobile phone, but really it's useless. I really don't care. Existence and not-existence it's a nightmare we should get rid of. Total passivity is the only means of real liberation.
Thank you so much this is helping me out alot I am going through the same thing
I’m so hurt. I look forward to dying one day because I heard that everything is perfect there.
I lost my two uncles, my sister hates me and I feel like everytime I try to say something people say "oh your to young your learn that it's a phase." But every single day I would cry bang my head on a wall and wish to jump off a building/cliff. And not to mention at school there's so much stress people always are crying and coming to me and when that happens I wanna give up and stop breathing to see them happy but again people always say "oh your to young your learn that it's a phase." But personally I'm only alive rn for my unclesthey want me to live so here I am rn hating my life with stupid anxiety, depression and not to mention adhd at school panic attacks so yay here I am Emma a stupid _ year old wanting to die.
This is how I feel every day so tired
i hope you have found your peace and have not done the worst
having more income will not make you less depressed. I retired early at 35 and I just want to die
Giving up means that you are tired of the conditioned thoughts. Giving up is the best thing you will do. It might suck now, but later you will understand why you did it. You are what you think. Change your thinking, change how you are. That's how I see it...SBN NATAN
I question why does evilness exist?
Yeah me too. Life is filled with so many unanswered questions
@@chgofirefighter nobody knows what life is, and there's billions of people in the world..... funny
Omg you're telling my life... on point on everything...
Two year's ago what about today how are u doin today???
money made me loose everything.... i am done.... here goes.... so the last thing that was taken was my little daughter... just cant do this anymore... good-bye world
Brandon… How are you doing now? Im sorry to hear about your loss.
Your not alone
May the universe conspire in your favor!!
This life isnt worth living everything sucks no money no food no nothing i wish i could do more for my family and ive tried many many times. Ive went without food so my family couöd eat im tired and in constant mental pain
I'm jobless broke I also have health problems I have no direction in life
Thank you.
I understand you.
Life is hard, & very few care, or care that much. You need to survive AND be a selfish a&$h*le in these modern times Just Like Everybody Else.
Listen I can’t fix everything in your life but what helps me and might help someone out there is that I stop eating the junk and start working out Atleast one time a day and become a better stronger person . Also I tend too stop eating so I can get girls bc it makes me look more cut bc I use too wrestle and cut weight all the time
Your honesty is beautiful. No one wants to address this issue. When is it okay to die? Why is it so important to live... if you're alone and no one gives a fuck. Everyday I find comfort knowing I can kill myself. I've been unsuccessful numerous times. Last time I came close, the belt broke, I cracked 3 ribs... next time I will successful. The thought of not thinking or feeling seems like blissful sleep.
Why would anyone love you if you can not love yourself ?? Great Question. It sounds like you need medication, seriously. Free or County Clinic to prescribe something for the anxiety, depression, & sleep issues. /// Worthiness is inherent. Trust me, there are plenty of dirt bags causing others pain, you just need to SURVIVE just because. Many times in life we are Alone but we have to be In Our Own Corner in the Boxing Match of Life. We must be of service to ourselves, occasionally volunteer to aid others. Volunteering can suck you into being a robot so beware; but in giving to ourselves & sometimes to others WE CAN FIND WORTH TO HANG ON ONE DAY AT A TIME. /// Walk, walk till you are almost ready to drop as exercise. Physical depletion helps deal with mental strain & perhaps will aid sleep.
Well despite me being my own self despiser everyday I do care greatly about my loved ones and friends
@@VoidDweller86 // //
Your ability to care about yourself or achieve in this life should not crater your entire self worth. Yes, Depression can be like a Black Hole, pulling you in & compressing you down. Maybe your situation is organic, maybe it is based on previous trauma, OR MAYBE IT IS BASED ON MENTAL CONSTRUCTS WITHIN OF LIFE BEING MUCH LESS THAN YOU WANTED IT TO BE. Things go better with acceptance & even small strands of gratitude. You don't have to be a hit. Just dial down the self criticism & high expectations. I have strove hard to accomplish; & like Icarus, I fell far & hard back down to Earth for many dark years. I have found some Grace thru redefinition, & just doing it for One More Day, everyday.
@@adrianmonk4440 I can just never come to be my own fan no matter what but that does not stop me from loving or caring about my loved ones and friends, I'm 35 years old
I am a single male who's on The Incel spectrum
@@VoidDweller86 // I am not making light of your challenges. I wish you well on your journey. If you don't find a small spark of the life force inside you, don't find something in the universe to inspire you, & KEEP WAITING FOR OTHERS TO FULFILL YOU, THE JOURNEY WILL BE DIFFICULT INDEED. Namaste.
Any updates?
Does any One going throw this feels extemely bad when they wake up ..does any One have alot of vivid dreams and then this inteusive thougts as soon as they wake up ...? Like alot of imagens in the Head ? I dont know if its alucinations couse its not something i see outside of me with my eyes Open its just inside my mind ..i am Soo bad i cant work ..dont shower..bearly go outside of the house ..my brain dosent feel normal ..could this me more than depression and anxiety?
I dont even take medications ..or have the corage to see a doctor ..Im like this for nearly a year ..i had a beautiful life before 😓
Sorry of I missed something but can you get out of seattle? I know the thought of relocation on your own is scary
You have a great announcers voice.
good points
Me too. Im finished
I feel its all about not having a woman companion. I can cope with it though.
I wish you and I could meet in person. We have a lot in common.