He was abused... He was hurt. He’s hurting. He is traumatized. He writes as an outlet. He lost his mom, and is guilty because he never called her.. yet, he keeps going, and he’s a great person. We all need to realize that.
I feel that every day. This is the first time I've heard this song....in fact, I have no clue who [or what] NF is AND I don't care for rap music. But THIS. THIS is REAL. THIS is how millions of people feel every minute of every day. I "get" it. By my age people are supposed to have it all figured out, but LIFE isn't the First Class I've flunked in my "life"...if you can even call it that....
This is NF's first song that I listened to, and he is now my favorite artist because what he does is not just music - it is emotion and soul poured into a mindblowing work of art
Grew up in foster care, came out with ptsd from abuse. I'm 29 years old and still get caught up in my emotional walls, and I'm so thankful to writers like NF for being able to vocalize all of the feelings I'm always afraid to expose
I'm trying not to one up or war stories. But my dad has been through 240 foster homes. And I showed him NF and he cried. I have never seen him cry. I was shocked. Not only because he cried. But he loved it he never really liked rap music but NF's music touched him
I had separation anxiety when I was really little cause my mom joined the army and left me with my brothers. I cried every night and didn’t understand why she left me.
Dynamite With A Laserbeam wdym, these metaphors are so well thought out and most definitely do have a deeper meaning that he uses in his lyrics to this day
"Or put him back outside where he came from, but I never can." "Cause' in order to do that I'd have to open the doors" "Is that me or the fear talking? I don't know anymore." You really hit me home there Nate...
@Gaming4life Thought i told you to keep your mouth shut, i mean so what you know i never listen. Let me guess, we gon' dig a hole kill the track and prolly put a beat in it.
The part where he says "fear came to my house years ago" and ends with "is that me or the fear talking, I don't know anymore" always gives me chills because I relate to that so much. I suffered from panic attacks a while ago and that was something I was fighting hard. That was literally a fight against fear and it changed me. I can't do things I used to do out of fear for a panic attack. I'm doing much better and I haven't had an attack in atleast a year now. I'm still building myself back up, slowly trying to do the things I've been too scared to do so man, that whole part of the song is just insanely powerful to me. NF is something else man.
I can't say I get it man but I do understand, my Stepdad was physically and mentally abusive...even to this day anytime I hear a man start yelling I freeze and wonder if I'll need to dodge a blow.....it's tough man but we'll make it through this just keep going never give up.....you're not alone some of us are in this struggle with you. Be safe, never stop, and live the best life you can don't be afraid to let someone in friend or more
@@stealthsword436 It's weird man, I actually have a fine life. Great parents, friends and a job. Still looking for love I guess but that will come too. I'm not even sure why it started happening to me. I still lie awake some nights, thinking I'm going to have a panic attack. I never do, but it's such an annoying thing to constantly have in the background of my life. Thanks for your comment and I'm sorry you went through what you did. My dad had an abusive stepfather too so I know how devastating that can be. Like you said man, stay strong 💪🏻
@@theunderdog9353 Sorry you have to deal with that man but I'm glad you have a supportive background. And thanks for that it doesn't bother me most the time but it's a background that always nags me. Be safe stay strong 🤟 Peace
i am 60 and this boy is singing my life except not stepdad...real dad and uncles and whatever... noone really wants or cares to know. keep singing young blood cause you have no idea how far God is making your borders. thank you for being open and real
@Lillian Isbell I feel the exact same way I wanna help my peers and people in the future with issues like these and the trama but how can I help if I truly don’t understand how it feels and the aftermath
"Fear came to my house years ago, I let him in Maybe that's the problem, 'cause I've been dealing with this ever since I thought that he would leave, but it's obvious, he never did He must have picked the room and got comfortable and settled in Now I'm in a position, it's either sit here, and let 'em win Or put him back outside where he came from, but I never can 'Cause in order to do that, I'd have to open the doors Is that me or the fear talking? I don't know anymore"... _this is just insanely meaningful lyrics_
TH3 R3AL M0NST3R oh mate I'm 100% the same, this song is just so perfect, 2nd verse is me but that 3rd verse I've been guilty of doing the same, letting fear get to me.
Our minds is like a mansion. So many rooms lead to so many thoughts in our head. Some of us lock the mansion so no one else knows what each room has inside. Damn I love this song so much, such true and real words
I really love your remarks on the song you really get it and I’m still listening to the song it is so deep it is just like you said with the rooms have been locked up into there is so much evil came inroom
Then we paint faces on our walls that arent what we feel, but what we want others to think of us as, untill it gets to the point where you even fooled yourself, and your lost in your mansion.
I've never related to a song more in my life. As someone who was abused and has survived multiple suicide attempts, this song hits so close to home. To everyone who faces depression and thinks of suicide, let us battle it together. We will beat our demon Please, stay safe everyone
I thank you and your God for caring. While I may have my own beliefs and deities, I respect you and your higher lord. May you and those around you stay safe. May the gods protect you.
I hope you’re alright my friend. Never think of suicide again because things always change and you might cut away happiness. There are people that care about you and they will not want to see life where you don’t exist. I don’t know you but I care because you’re human like me and we need more love than hate.
Yeah i fight internally for that ideal person. and yet i dont move. That simple verse brings into view of my own weakness and failed attempts to be "good". Thank God im living through grace and not through law! "Im christian but not perfect"
“I’m barricaded inside, so stop watching. I’m not coming to the door so stop knocking, stop knocking. I’m trapped here. God keep saying I’m not locked in, i chose this. I am lost in my own conscience” that’s me...
Me too, and its sucks cause I know in the end I'm going to suffer, but its like I physically can't let people in sometimes, no matter how hard I try, and tbh that makes me feel safe
*broken legs but I chase perfection* *these walls are my blank expression* *my mind is a home I’m trapped in* *and it’s lonely inside this mansion* Best lyrics ever
I really hope the next glass of milk you drink is slightly too cold, so it sort of hurts your throat, but you're too thirsty to stop drinking so your throat hurt's more and more as you drink more of it.
i don't have depression but i feel like the storm in me is made up of my anger pain and frustration. i never tell anyone how i feel and i keep everything locked up. if i let my storm out i'm afraid of what will happen
Its like I'm drowning and no matter how hard I try or what I do sll I can manage to do is slow the descent into darkness, I'm still drowning and theres no stopping it.
If you're reading this, and you're feeling like you're alone, and the darkness is closing in, and you have nobody, I just want you to know: I love you. I don't know you, but I love you. I love everything about you, the real you, the ups, the downs, the smiles, and the frowns. I want to know you. I probably never will, but if I ever got the opportunity, I would want to know you. Everything about you. Everything you think and feel. Everything you've experienced. Everything that has made you who you are. You are complex, but you are beautiful. Nobody can ever take that away from you. You decide who you are. You decide who you want to be with. You decide who you respect, and who you don't respect. If you're young, you have time. You will grow. You will break free. You just have to endure what you have to endure for a little longer, until the world is truly your oyster. It won't be easy, but it will be yours. You will be in control. You just have to wait a little a longer.. just a little longer. Hang in there, for me. I love you. I want you to make it. I want you to survive. I want you to learn, to grow and to thrive. Hang in there for you. Future you. You won't regret it. It will be beautiful. You just need a little patience, some passion, and a lot of perseverance. Stay strong. I love you. -The Stranger on the Internet
I'm on the fucking edge of my life barely hanging on, I seem to have lost my way in life and have no clue how to find my way back to what I used to be. I hope everyday that whomever is in charge upstairs takes me. I hate my life. I have no outlet, no friendships to speak of, no hobbies. I just exist. every miserable day.
Until today.. I hated rap. Now, here I am laying in bed with my headphones listening to song after song from this guy. His lyrics speak to me more than any other artist I have found. I would be lying if I said I haven't been balling this whole time. 💔
This guy is so talented. His words are almost too real....you feel like you are right there with him. I agree with the other comments that His work is just as therapeutic for him as it is for us. I admire him so much.
I heard this song for the first time today. Every lyric makes me cry. How can he be saying things I think and feel every single day. I didn’t discover NF until today and although I wish I had his music years ago, I can see this is the time of my life these words- his songs are needed.
So this part of my house, no one's been in it for years I built the safe room and I don't let no one in there 'Cause if I do, there's a chance that they might disappear and not come back And I admit I am emotionally scared to let anyone inside So I just leave my doors locked You might get other doors to open up but this door's not 'Cause I don't want you to have the opportunity to hurt me And I'll be the only person that I can blame when you desert me I'm barricaded inside so stop watching I'm not coming to the door so stop knocking, stop knocking I'm trapped here, God keeps saying I'm not locked in I chose this, I am lost in my own conscience
This to increase is blind institutions what's reality with all these questions it feels like I missed my alarm and slept in slept in broken legs but I chase perfection my mind is home I'm trapped in and it's lonely inside this mansion
I don’t want to be sad but yet I’m here. When I listen to NF’s songs I don’t feel better however I feel understood. I don’t feel alone. I feel like somebody cares.🥺
It's just amazing that a rapper / hip hop artist can release such a remarkably powerful and most enjoyable songs...and not one curse word used. It caught me off guard when I noticed that. I can't get enough of this one, I'm really glad a friend sent me to this video.
Not many people know what im going through because im too scarred to tell anyone because i think they'll either not believe me or not care Through most of my life i have tried to hide the fact that im sad and just try to seem happy
“I built it because I thought that it would be safer in there but it’s not, I’m not the only thing that’s living in here. Fear came to my house years ago I let ‘em in, maybe that’s the probable cause he’s been here ever since.” I feel these words in my very soul. Thank you for putting words to pain I could never find the words for. Nathan, I love your brain. It is one of the hardest things to find meaning in our pain and tho I wish non of us had to know this kind of pain, I’m grateful I am not alone in it. I am grateful that your pain has touch my heart and the hearts of so many. We are not alone. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
An Artist who lets you see his brain repeating how his life got impacted by hard time and not embarrassed at all to let out the demons inside. One of the most Real Artists I have ever listened to! 🔥🔥🔥🔥
Yes...this song hit me particularly because I bought a 2 story house and there are lyrics that are figuratively and physically directly relevant. There was actually a point where I wrote on walls after painting over a ton of pen marker and crayons left from whatever family lived in the house previously. The second verse is a deadly accurate description of the thoughts and things I have been dealing with in this house...including my mother who has been in and out of the hospital for the last 3 years. Yeah, this some hits "home" for me.
iv read some of these comments in this comment section and i want every single person that i love them no matter what we are all the same we are all equal and we all bleed the same love yall have a wonderful day
Crying wont change the current state, thats up to your actions, i got nerve damage and emotional scarring from some family issues. Nothing will ever change by you allowing your eyes to flood out. Crying about things is a waste of energy, rather you put it towards fixing the issue at state, whatever that may be.
Danielle Bates same here his songs help me release when I'm so numb that I can't cry or feel anything it makes me snap back to reality and deal with the things I need to in order to move on. His song Let You Down gets me the most because its everything I feel and the ending is gonna be me the day my life takes a turn for the better and I move out of my parents house!
You are NOT a monster i dont care if you like it or not BUT YOU ARE AMAZING they is no such thing as ugly but unique AND THATS WHAT YOU ARE AND YOU NEED TO APPRECIATE IT
Clowns and knives because 1 clowns because i dont like them 2 knives because i watch a scary movie and there was a clown and it was killing people in different ways and places one by one
You stay up brotha never feel like death is the only way out. Always know that GOD will always be there near or far, whatever your relationship is he will always be the one thats there never give up
Don’t do it stay strong I can’t promise it will get better but I can tell you that your friends wouldn’t want you to do it think about them and the people that love you like me
I discovered NF in 2018 when I was going through a rough time. This song particularly hit close to home. There was, and still is, a room in my home that I don’t let anyone enter. I am so much better now but somehow still afraid of opening up and letting other people into that room bc of in how much pain I was. It’s a place of utter vulnerability and even if they were gentle it’d still feel like an intrusion. It took me so long to heal that I can’t risk letting anyone ruin that for me. Of course, there is still a lot more healing for me to do, and I know that I’ll get there eventually, but this space, this room in my home, will always be just mine. I do tell people about the things I have experienced, but I don’t have to show them the room for that because no one but me really understands how important everything in that room is. It’s my special place that reminds me of how far I have come and how much stronger I am today, and I value it far too much than to be sharing it with anyone but God. There is a difference between talking about your struggles and letting them enter the room that’s been the place where you experienced your lowest of lows, but also your highest of highs. Most people, albeit literate in real life, are illiterate when it comes to reading what has been written on the walls. I even dare to say that no human being can fully understand the pain someone else feels. We try, but we can never fully comprehend.
i listened to a lot of NF in my "edgy" phase, and yeah, I find some of it corny but this song, it's always resonated with me and I think it always will.
I am so in love with NFs music he has honestly helped me so much in the last few years that iv been listening to him and it is great. I sincerely enjoy what he does with his words, he is one of my role models and I honestly want to become famous just so I can meet him. meeting NF is literally my lifes dream.
Hap me to. I hate expressing my self, cause if people hear it, I think they wouldn't expect me to feel that way. Cause everyone knows everything about me... except my emotions. People don't expect me to be depressed, cause I act fine and they think I'm perfect.
Erik Munoz Lucky for you. I wish I was lucky like that... when I let one person into MY safe room, they stabbed me in the back. Then proceeded to steal my boyfriend. That's why no one else has been I my safe room ever since.
@@SunShine-zy8ju moral of the story is even after being cheated on, being told I was never good enough for my ex by her mother, stolen from, physically assaulted by an alcoholic who lived with me and battled my internal demons, I did what was neccessary: took the chance!
Erik Munoz I applaud you. Some people have the guts to take a chance. I don't. I use to be. I'm the type of person if you betray my trust, u will never gain it back. I'm to scared to take a chance anymore.
If there is anything that you remember about your career. Please remember that you help a lot of people including myself. I've been dealing with a divorce and my son has found comfort in your songs. I've always been a fan of yours but recent months have made me find comfort myself because of how I can relate to your music. It's been tough and you have helped with coping with my burdens and for that I thank you.
lyrcis : * Insidious is blind inception Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in) Broken legs but I chase perfection These walls are my blank expression My mind is a home I'm trapped in And it's lonely inside this mansion Yo, my mind is a house with walls covered in lyrics, they're all over the place There's songs in the mirrors written all over the floors, all over the chairs And you get the uncut version of life when I go downstairs That's where I write when I'm in a bad place and need to release And let out the version of NF you don't want to see I put holes in the walls with both of my fists 'til they bleed You might get a glimpse of how I cope with all this anger in me Physically abused, now that's the room that I don't want to be in That picture ain't blurry at all, I just don't want to see it And these walls ain't blank, I just think I don't want to see 'em But why not? I'm in here, so I might as well read 'em I gotta thank you for this anger that I carry around Wish I could take a match and burn this whole room to the ground Matter of fact I think I'ma burn this room right now So now this memory for some reason just won't come down You used to put me in the corner, so you could see the fear in my eyes Then took me downstairs and beat me 'til I screamed and I cried Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind But I'ma keep the door shut and lock the lyrics inside Insidious is blind inception What's reality with all these questions? Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in) And slept in Broken legs but I chase perfection These walls are my blank expression My mind is a home I'm trapped in And it's lonely inside this mansion Inside this mansion Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in pain See, my problem is I don't fix things, I just try to repaint Cover em up, like it never happened Say I wish I could change, are you confused? Come upstairs and I'll show you what I mean This room's full of regrets, just keeps getting fuller it seems The moment I walk in to it is the same moment that I wanna leave I get sick to my stomach every time I look at these things But it's hard to look past when this is the room where I sleep I look around, one of the worst things I wrote on these walls Was the moment I realized that I was losing my mom And one of the first things I wrote was I wish I would have called But I should just stop now, we ain't got enough room in this song And I regret the fact that I struggled trying to find who I am And I lie to myself and say I do the best that I can Shrug it off like it ain't nothing like it's out of my hands Then get ticked off whenever I see it affecting my plans And I regret watching these trust issues eat me alive And at the rate I'm going they'll probably still be there when I die Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind The question is, will I ever clean the walls off in time? Insidious is blind inception What's reality with all these questions? Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in) And slept in Broken legs but I chase perfection These walls are my blank expression My mind is a home I'm trapped in And it's lonely inside this mansion Inside this mansion So this part of my house, no one's been in it for years I built the safe room and I don't let no one in there 'Cause if I do, there's a chance that they might disappear and not come back And I admit I am emotionally scared to let anyone inside So I just leave my doors locked You might get other doors to open up but this door's not 'Cause I don't want you to have the opportunity to hurt me And I'll be the only person that I can blame when you desert me I'm barricaded inside so stop watching I'm not coming to the door so stop knocking, stop knocking I'm trapped here, God keeps saying I'm not locked in I chose this, I am lost in my own conscience I know that shutting the wall down ain't solving the problem But I didn't build this house because I thought it would solve 'em I built it because I thought that it was safer in there But it's not, I'm not the only thing that's living in here Fear came to my house years ago, I let him in Maybe that's the problem 'cause I've been dealing with this ever since I thought that he would leave, but it's obvious he never did He must have picked the room and got comfortable and settled in Now I'm in the position it's either sit here and let him win Or put him back outside where he came from, but I never can 'Cause in order to do that I'd have to open the doors Is that me or the fear talking? I don't know anymore Lonely (lonely) it's lonely Oh yeah, it's lonely Inside this mansionInsidious is blind inception What's reality with all these questions? Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in) Broken legs but I chase perfection These walls are my blank expression My mind is a home I'm trapped in And it's lonely inside this mansion Yo, my mind is a house with walls covered in lyrics, they're all over the place There's songs in the mirrors written all over the floors, all over the chairs And you get the uncut version of life when I go downstairs That's where I write when I'm in a bad place and need to release And let out the version of NF you don't want to see I put holes in the walls with both of my fists 'til they bleed You might get a glimpse of how I cope with all this anger in me Physically abused, now that's the room that I don't want to be in That picture ain't blurry at all, I just don't want to see it And these walls ain't blank, I just think I don't want to see 'em But why not? I'm in here, so I might as well read 'em I gotta thank you for this anger that I carry around Wish I could take a match and burn this whole room to the ground Matter of fact I think I'ma burn this room right now So now this memory for some reason just won't come down You used to put me in the corner, so you could see the fear in my eyes Then took me downstairs and beat me 'til I screamed and I cried Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind But I'ma keep the door shut and lock the lyrics inside Insidious is blind inception What's reality with all these questions? Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in) And slept in Broken legs but I chase perfection These walls are my blank expression My mind is a home I'm trapped in And it's lonely inside this mansion Inside this mansion Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in pain See, my problem is I don't fix things, I just try to repaint Cover em up, like it never happened Say I wish I could change, are you confused? Come upstairs and I'll show you what I mean This room's full of regrets, just keeps getting fuller it seems The moment I walk in to it is the same moment that I wanna leave I get sick to my stomach every time I look at these things But it's hard to look past when this is the room where I sleep I look around, one of the worst things I wrote on these walls Was the moment I realized that I was losing my mom And one of the first things I wrote was I wish I would have called But I should just stop now, we ain't got enough room in this song And I regret the fact that I struggled trying to find who I am And I lie to myself and say I do the best that I can Shrug it off like it ain't nothing like it's out of my hands Then get ticked off whenever I see it affecting my plans And I regret watching these trust issues eat me alive And at the rate I'm going they'll probably still be there when I die Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind The question is, will I ever clean the walls off in time? Insidious is blind inception What's reality with all these questions? Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in) And slept in Broken legs but I chase perfection These walls are my blank expression My mind is a home I'm trapped in And it's lonely inside this mansion Inside this mansion So this part of my house, no one's been in it for years I built the safe room and I don't let no one in there 'Cause if I do, there's a chance that they might disappear and not come back And I admit I am emotionally scared to let anyone inside So I just leave my doors locked You might get other doors to open up but this door's not 'Cause I don't want you to have the opportunity to hurt me And I'll be the only person that I can blame when you desert me I'm barricaded inside so stop watching I'm not coming to the door so stop knocking, stop knocking I'm trapped here, God keeps saying I'm not locked in I chose this, I am lost in my own conscience I know that shutting the wall down ain't solving the problem But I didn't build this house because I thought it would solve 'em I built it because I thought that it was safer in there But it's not, I'm not the only thing that's living in here Fear came to my house years ago, I let him in Maybe that's the problem 'cause I've been dealing with this ever since I thought that he would leave, but it's obvious he never did He must have picked the room and got comfortable and settled in Now I'm in the position it's either sit here and let him win Or put him back outside where he came from, but I never can 'Cause in order to do that I'd have to open the doors Is that me or the fear talking? I don't know anymore Lonely (lonely) it's lonely Oh yeah, it's lonely Inside this mansion *
“Is that me or the fear talking, I don’t know anymore.” That’s basically the best sentence that could ever explain my mind and how I feel tbh. I don’t even know if I can trust myself anymore because I don’t know if I’m putting my own thoughts in my head... or fear is. It’s scary. Scarier than anything. Something bad controlling my mind like I’m just a puppet.. and all I can do is sit back and listen.
Yuri I see your personality and ive gotta say, youre awesome. You like anime? Thats cool, I do too. And you are good at expressing your feelings and I envy you of that. Youre a good person. Dont let the world maks you feel worthless. Youre not. I like your personality.
this is deep af Edit: Thanks for all the likes and support. I apologize for not leaving a more moving comment. I went through a long time with depression, and it still hasn't gone away completely. This song hits me at the heart and just lets every bit of emotion sink in, it's truely amazing.
Thats what you have to say "this is deep af", after him crying out for help screaming his pain through his music. If you got nothing, don't say nothing.
There’s 2 ways to listen to this song 1. Understand 2. Enjoy Im 11 years old going on 12 and have never experienced this but have experienced my mom get beat in an abusive relationship for 4 years we are now doing good and are away from him 😊 but I have experience bad times like this and it hurts to look back and see someone else go through it 😔
This song reminds me of a good friend of mine that I a foster kid. He deals with depression, anxiety, and an extremely weak immune system. He never feels loved or cared for. He blames his sickness, conditions, and that he has foster parents on himself. He tries to hide the pain and tries to not get close to people because of his conditions. Please pray for him
Light Yagami I'm sorry if this is personal... but I was wondering, if you know at all what he has, could it be PANS or PANDAS. I ask because it sounds an awful lot like the illness my brother has: PANS
Light Yagami alright, I just wondered because it's "pretty rare" meaning that a lot of people get misdiagnosed since the symptoms are so strange, and the weak immune system thing sounded a lot like it since that's the main factor (not trying to go all doctor or anything, I just made assumptions and wondered about the possibility) it seems rare, but I'm sure there are plenty of people out there with it, but I just wondered because besides my brother I've rarely heard of it... anyways I'm rambling, sorry...
Do not worry about it. I'm not exactly positive but he goes to the hospital a lot for tests and other assortments of things even I dont know about. I am not positive but like I said I can find out for you.
Light Yagami ah I see, it's cool if it's like really personal or something to you or him because I totally understand that, and I don't mean to get into personal space, I just asked because I get really curious about things like this. Thanks for taking time and replying and all. I hope he does well and that he can get all the support he can for it. You sound like a great friend to him.
What I love the most about NF is that he can rap about his life and all the trauma he went through as a kid and all the stress and memories that haunt him and he doesn't have to cuss to get his point across. People cussing in rap songs doesn't bother me but my parents don't like me to listen to it around them and with NF I don't have to worry about it cause his songs remind me a lot of my life and all the stuff I went through and he doesn't cuss. I love that.
This song deserves a Grammy! Anyone that actually HEARS this song knows the levels it reaches! NF your mind is a beautiful place I go to with u threw these lyrics
I'm sorry to hear. But you are not alone in this world. We're here so is God. Others know part though never completely because we're not you, but we are here
a peculiar fame don't give up like that. We won't ignore you, or at least, I won't. I know how you feel. I'm an outsider, rarely noticed and I've been so used to staying in the background thinking that everyone hates me so they ignore me. I still don't know if I'm right but I almost lost a friend because of that. But I promise you, never give up, there's always someone there for you ❤
That verse about not letting people in his safe room because he thinks people will leave him had me in tears. I have the same problem and it helps to know I'm not the only one.
Hey, hey you, yeah you, the one thats reading this. You are loved more so then you will ever know. I love you and all of your perfect and imperfect perfections. I know that the depression is bad, believe me I understand ☺️ and I just wanted to say that im proud of you for lasting this long. For fighting this long and your still standing. You are a strong and very important person even if you don't see it. I know that the pain gets overbareing sometimes and it seems useless and maybe even hopeless.. but you can NOT give in. Your a angel.. but we need you here on earth.. please don't go home yet.. please stay strong and try to work things out.. I know it's hard but you made it this far in your fight.. you cant throw all of that away Reamber that I will always love you. My inbox is always open for anyone needeing to talk. Love you😍
@@elizabethsyvanen3901 someone has to be there. Ive been helping people for years and I know how ugly depression can be first hand.. sometimes you just need someone in your corner
This comment something you did you made someone like me stop thinking about fear and whats to come i can't even explain how meaningful your words can be weather it was for me or someone else just reading this brought me so much courage and so much stronger than i could ever be thank you i know that you play such an important part in this world to you made me want to cry of joy thank you so much i cant even begin to tell you how happy this makes me
Dang your comment is just as brutal as the lyrics in this song. Brutal is the word I am choosing to describe it. And although what you are saying is the exact opposite of brutal, but my internal reaction was somehow painful.
" you used to put me in the corner, so you could see the fear in my eyes, then you took me downstairs and beat me 'til I screamed and I cried. Congratulations. You'll always have a room in my mind." That hits me so damn hard. Like why would my own parents do that to me.
coming back to listen to this song after i've grown up and seeing all my progress from when i was listening to this on repeat in high school makes me feel so sad for my younger self but so proud of where I am today
"But imma keep the doors locked and keep the lyrics inside" "Broken legs but I chase perfection." "See my problem is I don't fix things I try to re-paint. I act like it never happened" "And I lie to my self say I do the best that I can" "And I regret watching these trust issues eat me alive" "I built a safe room I don't let no one in there. Cause if I do, they might disappear and not come back.And I admit I'm emotionally scared to let anyone inside. So I just leave my doors locked. U might get other doors to open but this door not. Cause I don't want u to have the opportunity to hurt me. And I'll be the only person to blame when u desert me." "I know shutting the world out ain't solving the problem but I didn't build this because I thought I would solve em" " I built it because I thought it was safer" "Now I'm in a position it's either I sit here, and let him win, or put him outside where he came from but I never can. Cause In order to do that I have to open the door" All these lines describe me...
Your lack burns, cuts deeper than the sharpest blade I almost forgot the voice of your steps, my hands rise with fear At night, it leaves the ashes left behind by the burning moments Pain dresses gala clothes, it's the anniversary of our funeral For we breathe without life, lost among the maps that guide our life, Wild ... ration biting from the sun, the moon drives in the morning Nothing is heard, the tears song has turned the earth into a mountain of salt I loved without loving you, resigned, dragging my black stories to the sun pit
Jessica Albrecht :))) The look you leave in the ground every time a store window feeds only your dreams, in the world where you learn how to be happy only from books. Normally ... normal people, we did not bother anyone, just bumping one under the cross of the other, kings without submisses ... slaves without chains ... What do you think?
I can't imagine my world without music. It's like Nate knows everything about me and my thoughts, while my family calls me "moody". Depression? Oh, it's just a phase. Social anxiety? Oh, you're just shy. Crying? Oh, you're just a crybaby.
I'll draw you a picture I'll draw it with a twist I'll draw it with a razor I'll draw it on my wrist If I do it correctly A red fountain will appear To take away my pain To wash away my fear
this song puts all my deepest feelings in one sing, other than the abuse part, the angry....the sadness...feeling trapped.... it puts all the feeling i have sometimes in one song... thank you for making me realize i am safe and not alone with this song
@@icringetv6709 Don't know you mate but I speak how I speak. Maa right. And I pray ye never at a young age went through trauma. Nf is the voice for so many people 🙌
I lost my mom 12 years ago to stage 4 lung cancer she was my world since then I've locked myself in my "mansion" this song hits so close to me I've isolated myself for year afraid to let anyone in I've lost so much I'm not sure if I can handle losing someone close so again but we all have to pick ourselves up and try again you never know when 1 smile could brighten your world STAY STRONG and may peace find us ALL😎👍
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He was abused... He was hurt. He’s hurting. He is traumatized. He writes as an outlet. He lost his mom, and is guilty because he never called her.. yet, he keeps going, and he’s a great person. We all need to realize that.
Cora Cole Helmick 🙏
@@kim_ntaina7674 yes it is
@@kim_ntaina7674 Listen to the lyrics..... yes, yes it’s him. Lol
@@kim_ntaina7674 you’re fine 😅
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"And I admit, I am emotionally scared to let anyone inside."
I felt that.
Yea!
I feel that every day. This is the first time I've heard this song....in fact, I have no clue who [or what] NF is AND I don't care for rap music. But THIS. THIS is REAL. THIS is how millions of people feel every minute of every day. I "get" it. By my age people are supposed to have it all figured out, but LIFE isn't the First Class I've flunked in my "life"...if you can even call it that....
Iol
...
Me too.
That's the strongest rap lyrics I've ever heard. It's not just rap, it's a work of art
... it's therapy
This is NF's first song that I listened to, and he is now my favorite artist because what he does is not just music - it is emotion and soul poured into a mindblowing work of art
You must have not heard trap queen yet..
All his music have messages
Its not just rap but its also therapy
"Broken legs, but I chase perfection.." That hit home..
I used that quote in fourth grade and got extra credit cause we were learning about metaphors
U
@@N0stxlgia almost 5 years ago this song came out and people are still listening.
You can't say that to a lot of songs. Wow
Sa.e
Same.
"Is that me or the fear talking? I don't know anymore"
NF - The Therapist
English teachers: wow so deep
It’s like intro three when he says “wait a minute is it me or the fear talking”
Why did I laugh at the 'the therapist' part?
@@number1toyafan maybe you listen him as just a rapper
I really don't know anymore
Grew up in foster care, came out with ptsd from abuse. I'm 29 years old and still get caught up in my emotional walls, and I'm so thankful to writers like NF for being able to vocalize all of the feelings I'm always afraid to expose
I can relate x
Same sadly
I'm trying not to one up or war stories. But my dad has been through 240 foster homes. And I showed him NF and he cried.
I have never seen him cry.
I was shocked. Not only because he cried. But he loved it he never really liked rap music but NF's music touched him
Never been in a foster home just grew up with an abusive drunk
I had separation anxiety when I was really little cause my mom joined the army and left me with my brothers. I cried every night and didn’t understand why she left me.
There is an unbelievable amount of metaphors in this song and it has such a deep meaning. Love this song
256 like and no comments, wow
hA, ANOTHER LEMON
Dynamite With A Laserbeam wdym, these metaphors are so well thought out and most definitely do have a deeper meaning that he uses in his lyrics to this day
"I don't fix things I just try to repaint". Best lyrics in a long time.
❤️💕🦅♾️✝️
Cover them up like they never happened that’s what my brain tries to do is forget things hurtful things from the past past relationships
"Physically Absued, that's the room I don't wanna be in!"
Damn, that hit so close to home. Thanks, Nate....
Same. Child abuse turned me into a sociopath
@@auliisoares139 Honey, I feel you. I have anger issues and struggle with my relationships now...
@@cherrymochatea9877 it's funny how going through this changes and affects you forever
Same. Im on probation for assulting my abuser
I seem to keep visiting that room...
"Or put him back outside where he came from, but I never can."
"Cause' in order to do that I'd have to open the doors"
"Is that me or the fear talking? I don't know anymore."
You really hit me home there Nate...
Agreed
I agree..
Yeah that hit me too
@Gaming4life Thought i told you to keep your mouth shut, i mean so what you know i never listen. Let me guess, we gon' dig a hole kill the track and prolly put a beat in it.
@@king-1yk151 I mean why are you doing this? I know that your mad but I'm not in the mood for this
This is not rap this is therapy
👏👏👏
Becky Poston why so mad
Agreed
Nice
Well what you expect from a therapy session?
Oops. Wrong badass song.
The part where he says "fear came to my house years ago" and ends with "is that me or the fear talking, I don't know anymore" always gives me chills because I relate to that so much. I suffered from panic attacks a while ago and that was something I was fighting hard. That was literally a fight against fear and it changed me. I can't do things I used to do out of fear for a panic attack. I'm doing much better and I haven't had an attack in atleast a year now. I'm still building myself back up, slowly trying to do the things I've been too scared to do so man, that whole part of the song is just insanely powerful to me. NF is something else man.
I can't say I get it man but I do understand, my Stepdad was physically and mentally abusive...even to this day anytime I hear a man start yelling I freeze and wonder if I'll need to dodge a blow.....it's tough man but we'll make it through this just keep going never give up.....you're not alone some of us are in this struggle with you.
Be safe, never stop, and live the best life you can don't be afraid to let someone in friend or more
@@stealthsword436 It's weird man, I actually have a fine life. Great parents, friends and a job. Still looking for love I guess but that will come too. I'm not even sure why it started happening to me. I still lie awake some nights, thinking I'm going to have a panic attack. I never do, but it's such an annoying thing to constantly have in the background of my life. Thanks for your comment and I'm sorry you went through what you did. My dad had an abusive stepfather too so I know how devastating that can be. Like you said man, stay strong 💪🏻
@@theunderdog9353 Sorry you have to deal with that man but I'm glad you have a supportive background. And thanks for that it doesn't bother me most the time but it's a background that always nags me. Be safe stay strong 🤟 Peace
"That picture ain't blurry at all, I just don't want to see it."
Dang.
Yep, that part always gets me too!
That part hits hard, literally.
That hits hards
Dude I love your name “For His Glory” 👌👌👌
All the lyrics are brutal. For me it really hits home. Describes me to the T
“I’ll be the only person I can blame when you desert me”
That hit me hard
That whole verse really stuck to me and I kind of wish it didn’t
Each line gives me another wave of goosebumps, it’s so crazy how relatable this song its almost scary
Camden Dornewass I think it's qwitw good
i am 60 and this boy is singing my life except not stepdad...real dad and uncles and whatever... noone really wants or cares to know. keep singing young blood cause you have no idea how far God is making your borders. thank you for being open and real
Some people will never know what it’s like to understand everything in a song
I wish I didn’t understand this song
Same i dont understand this song
@Lillian Isbell I feel the exact same way I wanna help my peers and people in the future with issues like these and the trama but how can I help if I truly don’t understand how it feels and the aftermath
i completly understand this but i wish i didnt
Its good for them i hope noone does because atleast they should be happy but sadly nobody fully is so we gotta live with it
"Fear came to my house years ago, I let him in
Maybe that's the problem, 'cause I've been dealing with this ever since
I thought that he would leave, but it's obvious, he never did
He must have picked the room and got comfortable and settled in
Now I'm in a position, it's either sit here, and let 'em win
Or put him back outside where he came from, but I never can
'Cause in order to do that, I'd have to open the doors
Is that me or the fear talking? I don't know anymore"...
_this is just insanely meaningful lyrics_
Insanely genius and beautiful truth 🔥🗝🖤
I have no words but I feel exactly the same
Agree soooo muuuuuch🖤
It’s all meaningful ❤️
BNB. P
“see i don’t fix things i just try to repaint”
yep that’s me...
TH3 R3AL M0NST3R that whole second verse hits me hard, like seriously hard it's literally me, such a great song with so much meaning
Luke Elsey
the third verse is me, i’ve let my fear and regret get to me
then i ignore my problems and they mostly just get worse
TH3 R3AL M0NST3R oh mate I'm 100% the same, this song is just so perfect, 2nd verse is me but that 3rd verse I've been guilty of doing the same, letting fear get to me.
Relatable ;_;
TH3 R3AL M0NST3R same
Our minds is like a mansion. So many rooms lead to so many thoughts in our head. Some of us lock the mansion so no one else knows what each room has inside. Damn I love this song so much, such true and real words
Your so right i couldnt say it better myself
I really love your remarks on the song you really get it and I’m still listening to the song it is so deep it is just like you said with the rooms have been locked up into there is so much evil came inroom
Then we paint faces on our walls that arent what we feel, but what we want others to think of us as, untill it gets to the point where you even fooled yourself, and your lost in your mansion.
Oof
So it was only a figurative mansion?
That's true
First NF song I've ever heard. Used to blast it on repeat until it got old. So glad hes getting the respect he deserves.
I've never related to a song more in my life. As someone who was abused and has survived multiple suicide attempts, this song hits so close to home. To everyone who faces depression and thinks of suicide, let us battle it together. We will beat our demon
Please, stay safe everyone
That was very sweet.
I thank you and your God for caring. While I may have my own beliefs and deities, I respect you and your higher lord. May you and those around you stay safe. May the gods protect you.
do you know rgn d3vil on xbox/discord
@@jackkerr5927 no, I do not. Sorry
I hope you’re alright my friend. Never think of suicide again because things always change and you might cut away happiness. There are people that care about you and they will not want to see life where you don’t exist. I don’t know you but I care because you’re human like me and we need more love than hate.
"I thought it would be safer in here but it's not, I'm not the only thing living in here" I felt that shit in my soul...🔥🔥
I also felt that his lyrics are so meaningful
profanity
It's not shit
There is 2 ways to listen to this song
1: Enjoying the song
2:Understanding the story within the song
Skyler _playz when you’re happy you enjoy the song, when you are sad you understand the song
thanks skyler that was really deep man
Yeah
Both
Im number 2
Sharing emotions with nf's songs brings me relief like am talking to someone who knows just exactly how i feel inside. much love
" My mind is a home I'm trapped in...and it's lonely inside this mansion😓" I felt that
Kaley Randall
I didn’t understood what she meant here
@@mohamedhafez4796 basically that she is trapped in a huge area of thought
I broke down so hard because i relate to it.
Basic
Same. Having pure o is hell in your own mind
Broken legs, but I chase perfection 👌
When you have "ADHD" and an a korean family that's all perfect in school.
Yeah i fight internally for that ideal person. and yet i dont move. That simple verse brings into view of my own weakness and failed attempts to be "good". Thank God im living through grace and not through law! "Im christian but not perfect"
Tara Fowler what about broken arms
When I first heard this song, it was in class, and I hear that line and nearly died because it hit me so damn hard.
@@ashtonrose05 heard my teacher put this one and oh boy I still love it
"Broken Legs But I chase Perfection"
That hit hard because I always have presure on me to do things good.
Same...
Me too...
Every word in the chorus, man... it hits
I know how you feel it fucking sucks
Same
WOW. Chills.
NF taking us on his healing journey album to album, song by song with vulnerability....thank you NF you're helping me through mine
“I’m barricaded inside, so stop watching. I’m not coming to the door so stop knocking, stop knocking. I’m trapped here. God keep saying I’m not locked in, i chose this. I am lost in my own conscience” that’s me...
Same
Me too!
And me...
Me too, and its sucks cause I know in the end I'm going to suffer, but its like I physically can't let people in sometimes, no matter how hard I try, and tbh that makes me feel safe
That line hit for me
*broken legs but I chase perfection*
*these walls are my blank expression*
*my mind is a home I’m trapped in*
*and it’s lonely inside this mansion*
Best lyrics ever
I think you mean greatest*
it’s so much more than the best
Exactly, she has a gorgeous voice aswell
I know
Definitely
*HIGHLY AGREEING HERE ÒWÓ*
I'm crying nf is real and his music is real I understand everything he feels and his music helps me alot
Jesus is real too ❤️
Samr
NF is the voices of those who can't speak it out themselves
Like me😢
Same
Same
I can’t, 💔
Same because when we do people hurt us because we’re different because we hurt
bro in a year u will be the best youtuber star it up and be patient
Anyone still listening to this in 2020
PS:Still the best song in the world
Lol.. yes. I Only recently found it. I left music years ago coz almost all 2000-2020 is absolute crap
Me lol
I really hope the next glass of milk you drink is slightly too cold, so it sort of hurts your throat, but you're too thirsty to stop drinking so your throat hurt's more and more as you drink more of it.
@@rushshort6760 Yes
@@Dateow2 you're welcome
Everyone going through depression understands what being trapped means
For sure I never talk to anyone about it so I let NF speak how I feel
i don't have depression but i feel like the storm in me is made up of my anger pain and frustration. i never tell anyone how i feel and i keep everything locked up. if i let my storm out i'm afraid of what will happen
Indira do boxing it helps with anger, I've been through a lot but you no it ain't stopping me become a boxer
@@jaimemason3704 maybe that'll work if I had boxing gloves and a punching bag
Its like I'm drowning and no matter how hard I try or what I do sll I can manage to do is slow the descent into darkness, I'm still drowning and theres no stopping it.
If you're reading this, and you're feeling like you're alone, and the darkness is closing in, and you have nobody, I just want you to know: I love you. I don't know you, but I love you. I love everything about you, the real you, the ups, the downs, the smiles, and the frowns. I want to know you. I probably never will, but if I ever got the opportunity, I would want to know you. Everything about you. Everything you think and feel. Everything you've experienced. Everything that has made you who you are. You are complex, but you are beautiful. Nobody can ever take that away from you. You decide who you are. You decide who you want to be with. You decide who you respect, and who you don't respect. If you're young, you have time. You will grow. You will break free. You just have to endure what you have to endure for a little longer, until the world is truly your oyster. It won't be easy, but it will be yours. You will be in control. You just have to wait a little a longer.. just a little longer. Hang in there, for me. I love you. I want you to make it. I want you to survive. I want you to learn, to grow and to thrive. Hang in there for you. Future you. You won't regret it. It will be beautiful. You just need a little patience, some passion, and a lot of perseverance. Stay strong. I love you. -The Stranger on the Internet
I love you too, stranger ❤️
Thank you , this is the best thing to come home too
I barely ever reply but this has made my tearducts react and I swear I am grateful for coming and reading this stranger.
Thank you 😭 ill try
I'm on the fucking edge of my life barely hanging on, I seem to have lost my way in life and have no clue how to find my way back to what I used to be. I hope everyday that whomever is in charge upstairs takes me. I hate my life. I have no outlet, no friendships to speak of, no hobbies. I just exist. every miserable day.
Why do I relate to all his lyrics...
RapidFoxx 01 same I can relate to everything
My dad beats me and my siblings with a belt to “discipline” us but he doesn’t realize how many bruises he gave me.Hes going to hell.I just know it
me too...
SAME
RapidFoxx 01 this is weirdly correlated with all my anxious thoughts
Until today.. I hated rap. Now, here I am laying in bed with my headphones listening to song after song from this guy. His lyrics speak to me more than any other artist I have found. I would be lying if I said I haven't been balling this whole time. 💔
Bitch this anit rap dumb ass
Saleem Cash stop the hate bro its not needed or liked
@@saleemcash1372 please do tell me what it's classified as then? No need to act immature.
@@saleemcash1372 I'm not anyone's "hoe" 🙄
@@BrittneyFife this is rap👍 just to answer your question
This guy is so talented. His words are almost too real....you feel like you are right there with him. I agree with the other comments that His work is just as therapeutic for him as it is for us. I admire him so much.
He writes music to help his viewers. Look at Therapy Session for example.
I heard this song for the first time today. Every lyric makes me cry. How can he be saying things I think and feel every single day. I didn’t discover NF until today and although I wish I had his music years ago, I can see this is the time of my life these words- his songs are needed.
So this part of my house, no one's been in it for years
I built the safe room and I don't let no one in there
'Cause if I do, there's a chance that they might disappear and not come back
And I admit I am emotionally scared to let anyone inside
So I just leave my doors locked
You might get other doors to open up but this door's not
'Cause I don't want you to have the opportunity to hurt me
And I'll be the only person that I can blame when you desert me
I'm barricaded inside so stop watching
I'm not coming to the door so stop knocking, stop knocking
I'm trapped here, God keeps saying I'm not locked in
I chose this, I am lost in my own conscience
That part... it just expresses everything I couldn’t... just... so ....perfectly?
👍
My favourite part was................
The whole song
Raamis Salman , same💜
Raamis Salman, You are damn right
Factual information
This to increase is blind institutions what's reality with all these questions it feels like I missed my alarm and slept in slept in broken legs but I chase perfection my mind is home I'm trapped in and it's lonely inside this mansion
@@compilation2152 Same
I don’t want to be sad but yet I’m here. When I listen to NF’s songs I don’t feel better however I feel understood. I don’t feel alone. I feel like somebody cares.🥺
Agreed
Facts
I care💗
Deep down, someone always cares!
Me too😢
It's just amazing that a rapper / hip hop artist can release such a remarkably powerful and most enjoyable songs...and not one curse word used. It caught me off guard when I noticed that. I can't get enough of this one, I'm really glad a friend sent me to this video.
"Broken legs,but I chase perfection." describes me
Micheal Zane same
same
Well.... Me to
Micheal Zane damm
Mom 0 Michael Zane 1
“and i admit, i’m emotionally scared to let anyone inside”
I felt that. Every time i open up they can’t handle me.
Not many people know what im going through because im too scarred to tell anyone because i think they'll either not believe me or not care
Through most of my life i have tried to hide the fact that im sad and just try to seem happy
Willy25 Bosss relatable
“I built it because I thought that it would be safer in there but it’s not, I’m not the only thing that’s living in here. Fear came to my house years ago I let ‘em in, maybe that’s the probable cause he’s been here ever since.” I feel these words in my very soul. Thank you for putting words to pain I could never find the words for. Nathan, I love your brain. It is one of the hardest things to find meaning in our pain and tho I wish non of us had to know this kind of pain, I’m grateful I am not alone in it. I am grateful that your pain has touch my heart and the hearts of so many. We are not alone. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
same
"The question is: Will I ever clean the walls of in time"
Felt that
'My mind is a home I'm trapped in.. And its lonely inside this mansion'
Can relate to this whole song immensely. Just wow!
Chelsie 92 u have a mansion?
Ikr
He is the realest/most talented artist of our generation
Banana Alle *ever*
Connor __Hayden ok that u might want to relook it
True
You’ve obviously never heard of Lil Pump.
FivePoint0 ew
An Artist who lets you see his brain repeating how his life got impacted by hard time and not embarrassed at all to let out the demons inside. One of the most Real Artists I have ever listened to! 🔥🔥🔥🔥
"I write when I'm in a bad place and need a release." Yes boy, yes. ♡ It's a healthy outlet for me.
Did anyone else actually feel that feeling in every word?
Tyler Cricchi meeee.🙋
Yes...this song hit me particularly because I bought a 2 story house and there are lyrics that are figuratively and physically directly relevant. There was actually a point where I wrote on walls after painting over a ton of pen marker and crayons left from whatever family lived in the house previously. The second verse is a deadly accurate description of the thoughts and things I have been dealing with in this house...including my mother who has been in and out of the hospital for the last 3 years. Yeah, this some hits "home" for me.
Oath powerfull shit right here 👍👍
Tyler Cricchi yeap💯
I did too
iv read some of these comments in this comment section and i want every single person that i love them no matter what we are all the same we are all equal and we all bleed the same love yall have a wonderful day
Yes we are, what shit are you on?
I mean there are shitty people but in general everyone basically gets treated the same.
Bleed the same is a Mandisa song- and i agree
This helps me cry when I feel numb
Thanks Nate
I am numb but no matter what I do I cant cry I hate it I just wanna cry glad u can at least do that #realmusicNF
Theressa Fountain I found that crying doesnt help anyways.
Crying wont change the current state, thats up to your actions, i got nerve damage and emotional scarring from some family issues. Nothing will ever change by you allowing your eyes to flood out. Crying about things is a waste of energy, rather you put it towards fixing the issue at state, whatever that may be.
Danielle Bates same
Danielle Bates same here his songs help me release when I'm so numb that I can't cry or feel anything it makes me snap back to reality and deal with the things I need to in order to move on. His song Let You Down gets me the most because its everything I feel and the ending is gonna be me the day my life takes a turn for the better and I move out of my parents house!
'What's your biggest fear?'
My biggest fear is mirrors, cause when I look at them all I can see is a monster...
You are NOT a monster i dont care if you like it or not BUT YOU ARE AMAZING
they is no such thing as ugly but unique AND THATS WHAT YOU ARE
AND YOU NEED TO APPRECIATE IT
@@sanford7933 I know that message wasn’t directed at me but it made me feel loved reading it... thank you
That's deep
ShEeShE
Clowns and knives because
1 clowns because i dont like them
2 knives because i watch a scary movie and there was a clown and it was killing people in different ways and places one by one
I’ve had 4 of my friends commit suicide, the depression is killing me, this stuff is the only thing stopping me from ending it
Theyre watching over you, you just have friends on the other side now
Don’t do it, please.
You stay up brotha never feel like death is the only way out. Always know that GOD will always be there near or far, whatever your relationship is he will always be the one thats there never give up
All I can do is feel the empty alone and the war with in my thoughts
Don’t do it stay strong I can’t promise it will get better but I can tell you that your friends wouldn’t want you to do it think about them and the people that love you like me
“Physically abused, now that’s a room I don’t wanna be in”
Dang, that hit home. Especially for me...
Nate... you’re the best
I discovered NF in 2018 when I was going through a rough time. This song particularly hit close to home. There was, and still is, a room in my home that I don’t let anyone enter. I am so much better now but somehow still afraid of opening up and letting other people into that room bc of in how much pain I was. It’s a place of utter vulnerability and even if they were gentle it’d still feel like an intrusion. It took me so long to heal that I can’t risk letting anyone ruin that for me. Of course, there is still a lot more healing for me to do, and I know that I’ll get there eventually, but this space, this room in my home, will always be just mine. I do tell people about the things I have experienced, but I don’t have to show them the room for that because no one but me really understands how important everything in that room is. It’s my special place that reminds me of how far I have come and how much stronger I am today, and I value it far too much than to be sharing it with anyone but God. There is a difference between talking about your struggles and letting them enter the room that’s been the place where you experienced your lowest of lows, but also your highest of highs. Most people, albeit literate in real life, are illiterate when it comes to reading what has been written on the walls. I even dare to say that no human being can fully understand the pain someone else feels. We try, but we can never fully comprehend.
i listened to a lot of NF in my "edgy" phase, and yeah, I find some of it corny but this song, it's always resonated with me and I think it always will.
In my edgy phase I did musically’s of this 💀
I am so in love with NFs music he has honestly helped me so much in the last few years that iv been listening to him and it is great. I sincerely enjoy what he does with his words, he is one of my role models and I honestly want to become famous just so I can meet him. meeting NF is literally my lifes dream.
Has it been working
And the saddest part of it all is we all hid behind our baggy clothes and fake smiles. 🥀🥀🥀
I don't hide
exactly
Yes. I...I still do that
RXSES INC. the real saddest part is who still wears baggy clothes in 2019🤔
Glum
Billie eilish
"i built a safe room, and i let no one in there, cause if i do i'm afraid they'd disappear"
Atleast im not the only one who understands.
Hap me to. I hate expressing my self, cause if people hear it, I think they wouldn't expect me to feel that way. Cause everyone knows everything about me... except my emotions. People don't expect me to be depressed, cause I act fine and they think I'm perfect.
I let a woman into my safe room even though I knew she was going to disappear. 3 years later, we are engaged and have a daughter on the way.
Erik Munoz Lucky for you. I wish I was lucky like that... when I let one person into MY safe room, they stabbed me in the back. Then proceeded to steal my boyfriend. That's why no one else has been I my safe room ever since.
@@SunShine-zy8ju moral of the story is even after being cheated on, being told I was never good enough for my ex by her mother, stolen from, physically assaulted by an alcoholic who lived with me and battled my internal demons, I did what was neccessary: took the chance!
Erik Munoz I applaud you. Some people have the guts to take a chance. I don't. I use to be. I'm the type of person if you betray my trust, u will never gain it back. I'm to scared to take a chance anymore.
If there is anything that you remember about your career. Please remember that you help a lot of people including myself. I've been dealing with a divorce and my son has found comfort in your songs. I've always been a fan of yours but recent months have made me find comfort myself because of how I can relate to your music. It's been tough and you have helped with coping with my burdens and for that I thank you.
lyrcis :
* Insidious is blind inception
Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)
Broken legs but I chase perfection
These walls are my blank expression
My mind is a home I'm trapped in
And it's lonely inside this mansion
Yo, my mind is a house with walls covered in lyrics, they're all over the place
There's songs in the mirrors written all over the floors, all over the chairs
And you get the uncut version of life when I go downstairs
That's where I write when I'm in a bad place and need to release
And let out the version of NF you don't want to see
I put holes in the walls with both of my fists 'til they bleed
You might get a glimpse of how I cope with all this anger in me
Physically abused, now that's the room that I don't want to be in
That picture ain't blurry at all, I just don't want to see it
And these walls ain't blank, I just think I don't want to see 'em
But why not? I'm in here, so I might as well read 'em
I gotta thank you for this anger that I carry around
Wish I could take a match and burn this whole room to the ground
Matter of fact I think I'ma burn this room right now
So now this memory for some reason just won't come down
You used to put me in the corner, so you could see the fear in my eyes
Then took me downstairs and beat me 'til I screamed and I cried
Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind
But I'ma keep the door shut and lock the lyrics inside
Insidious is blind inception
What's reality with all these questions?
Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)
And slept in
Broken legs but I chase perfection
These walls are my blank expression
My mind is a home I'm trapped in
And it's lonely inside this mansion
Inside this mansion
Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in pain
See, my problem is I don't fix things, I just try to repaint
Cover em up, like it never happened
Say I wish I could change, are you confused?
Come upstairs and I'll show you what I mean
This room's full of regrets, just keeps getting fuller it seems
The moment I walk in to it is the same moment that I wanna leave
I get sick to my stomach every time I look at these things
But it's hard to look past when this is the room where I sleep
I look around, one of the worst things I wrote on these walls
Was the moment I realized that I was losing my mom
And one of the first things I wrote was I wish I would have called
But I should just stop now, we ain't got enough room in this song
And I regret the fact that I struggled trying to find who I am
And I lie to myself and say I do the best that I can
Shrug it off like it ain't nothing like it's out of my hands
Then get ticked off whenever I see it affecting my plans
And I regret watching these trust issues eat me alive
And at the rate I'm going they'll probably still be there when I die
Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind
The question is, will I ever clean the walls off in time?
Insidious is blind inception
What's reality with all these questions?
Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)
And slept in
Broken legs but I chase perfection
These walls are my blank expression
My mind is a home I'm trapped in
And it's lonely inside this mansion
Inside this mansion
So this part of my house, no one's been in it for years
I built the safe room and I don't let no one in there
'Cause if I do, there's a chance that they might disappear and not come back
And I admit I am emotionally scared to let anyone inside
So I just leave my doors locked
You might get other doors to open up but this door's not
'Cause I don't want you to have the opportunity to hurt me
And I'll be the only person that I can blame when you desert me
I'm barricaded inside so stop watching
I'm not coming to the door so stop knocking, stop knocking
I'm trapped here, God keeps saying I'm not locked in
I chose this, I am lost in my own conscience
I know that shutting the wall down ain't solving the problem
But I didn't build this house because I thought it would solve 'em
I built it because I thought that it was safer in there
But it's not, I'm not the only thing that's living in here
Fear came to my house years ago, I let him in
Maybe that's the problem 'cause I've been dealing with this ever since
I thought that he would leave, but it's obvious he never did
He must have picked the room and got comfortable and settled in
Now I'm in the position it's either sit here and let him win
Or put him back outside where he came from, but I never can
'Cause in order to do that I'd have to open the doors
Is that me or the fear talking?
I don't know anymore
Lonely (lonely) it's lonely
Oh yeah, it's lonely
Inside this mansionInsidious is blind inception
What's reality with all these questions?
Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)
Broken legs but I chase perfection
These walls are my blank expression
My mind is a home I'm trapped in
And it's lonely inside this mansion
Yo, my mind is a house with walls covered in lyrics, they're all over the place
There's songs in the mirrors written all over the floors, all over the chairs
And you get the uncut version of life when I go downstairs
That's where I write when I'm in a bad place and need to release
And let out the version of NF you don't want to see
I put holes in the walls with both of my fists 'til they bleed
You might get a glimpse of how I cope with all this anger in me
Physically abused, now that's the room that I don't want to be in
That picture ain't blurry at all, I just don't want to see it
And these walls ain't blank, I just think I don't want to see 'em
But why not? I'm in here, so I might as well read 'em
I gotta thank you for this anger that I carry around
Wish I could take a match and burn this whole room to the ground
Matter of fact I think I'ma burn this room right now
So now this memory for some reason just won't come down
You used to put me in the corner, so you could see the fear in my eyes
Then took me downstairs and beat me 'til I screamed and I cried
Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind
But I'ma keep the door shut and lock the lyrics inside
Insidious is blind inception
What's reality with all these questions?
Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)
And slept in
Broken legs but I chase perfection
These walls are my blank expression
My mind is a home I'm trapped in
And it's lonely inside this mansion
Inside this mansion
Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in pain
See, my problem is I don't fix things, I just try to repaint
Cover em up, like it never happened
Say I wish I could change, are you confused?
Come upstairs and I'll show you what I mean
This room's full of regrets, just keeps getting fuller it seems
The moment I walk in to it is the same moment that I wanna leave
I get sick to my stomach every time I look at these things
But it's hard to look past when this is the room where I sleep
I look around, one of the worst things I wrote on these walls
Was the moment I realized that I was losing my mom
And one of the first things I wrote was I wish I would have called
But I should just stop now, we ain't got enough room in this song
And I regret the fact that I struggled trying to find who I am
And I lie to myself and say I do the best that I can
Shrug it off like it ain't nothing like it's out of my hands
Then get ticked off whenever I see it affecting my plans
And I regret watching these trust issues eat me alive
And at the rate I'm going they'll probably still be there when I die
Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind
The question is, will I ever clean the walls off in time?
Insidious is blind inception
What's reality with all these questions?
Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)
And slept in
Broken legs but I chase perfection
These walls are my blank expression
My mind is a home I'm trapped in
And it's lonely inside this mansion
Inside this mansion
So this part of my house, no one's been in it for years
I built the safe room and I don't let no one in there
'Cause if I do, there's a chance that they might disappear and not come back
And I admit I am emotionally scared to let anyone inside
So I just leave my doors locked
You might get other doors to open up but this door's not
'Cause I don't want you to have the opportunity to hurt me
And I'll be the only person that I can blame when you desert me
I'm barricaded inside so stop watching
I'm not coming to the door so stop knocking, stop knocking
I'm trapped here, God keeps saying I'm not locked in
I chose this, I am lost in my own conscience
I know that shutting the wall down ain't solving the problem
But I didn't build this house because I thought it would solve 'em
I built it because I thought that it was safer in there
But it's not, I'm not the only thing that's living in here
Fear came to my house years ago, I let him in
Maybe that's the problem 'cause I've been dealing with this ever since
I thought that he would leave, but it's obvious he never did
He must have picked the room and got comfortable and settled in
Now I'm in the position it's either sit here and let him win
Or put him back outside where he came from, but I never can
'Cause in order to do that I'd have to open the doors
Is that me or the fear talking?
I don't know anymore
Lonely (lonely) it's lonely
Oh yeah, it's lonely
Inside this mansion *
Dude its a lyric video you Don't need to give the lyrics
but- the lyrics are al- nvm
this IS a lyric vid xd
@Evie's Kiwis or copy and pasted it from any website lol
Why did u write the lyrics when it’s alr there bro?
“Is that me or the fear talking, I don’t know anymore.” That’s basically the best sentence that could ever explain my mind and how I feel tbh. I don’t even know if I can trust myself anymore because I don’t know if I’m putting my own thoughts in my head... or fear is. It’s scary. Scarier than anything. Something bad controlling my mind like I’m just a puppet.. and all I can do is sit back and listen.
Yuri I see your personality and ive gotta say, youre awesome. You like anime? Thats cool, I do too. And you are good at expressing your feelings and I envy you of that. Youre a good person. Dont let the world maks you feel worthless. Youre not. I like your personality.
Yuri same
Yuri there’s no courage without fear , Jesus got you
Yuri
Oh hi yuri
Yuri
Can you follow me😝
this is deep af
Edit: Thanks for all the likes and support. I apologize for not leaving a more moving comment. I went through a long time with depression, and it still hasn't gone away completely. This song hits me at the heart and just lets every bit of emotion sink in, it's truely amazing.
Nf's music album is really deep and is a really close thing to christian music brother i'm with you like everyone else. i love Nf's music alot.
GET BORN AGAIN AND CHANGE YOUR NAME.........
wait how did this come to Christianity. I'm not complaining though, I'm a Christian too. I hope to see you both at the cross one day.
THE INSANE ASSASSIN ikr
Thats what you have to say "this is deep af", after him crying out for help screaming his pain through his music. If you got nothing, don't say nothing.
There’s 2 ways to listen to this song
1. Understand
2. Enjoy
Im 11 years old going on 12 and have never experienced this but have experienced my mom get beat in an abusive relationship for 4 years we are now doing good and are away from him 😊 but I have experience bad times like this and it hurts to look back and see someone else go through it 😔
This song reminds me of a good friend of mine that I a foster kid. He deals with depression, anxiety, and an extremely weak immune system. He never feels loved or cared for. He blames his sickness, conditions, and that he has foster parents on himself. He tries to hide the pain and tries to not get close to people because of his conditions. Please pray for him
Light Yagami I'm sorry if this is personal... but I was wondering, if you know at all what he has, could it be PANS or PANDAS. I ask because it sounds an awful lot like the illness my brother has: PANS
I'm sorry I am not positive but I will ask him.
Light Yagami alright, I just wondered because it's "pretty rare" meaning that a lot of people get misdiagnosed since the symptoms are so strange, and the weak immune system thing sounded a lot like it since that's the main factor (not trying to go all doctor or anything, I just made assumptions and wondered about the possibility) it seems rare, but I'm sure there are plenty of people out there with it, but I just wondered because besides my brother I've rarely heard of it... anyways I'm rambling, sorry...
Do not worry about it. I'm not exactly positive but he goes to the hospital a lot for tests and other assortments of things even I dont know about. I am not positive but like I said I can find out for you.
Light Yagami ah I see, it's cool if it's like really personal or something to you or him because I totally understand that, and I don't mean to get into personal space, I just asked because I get really curious about things like this. Thanks for taking time and replying and all. I hope he does well and that he can get all the support he can for it. You sound like a great friend to him.
What I love the most about NF is that he can rap about his life and all the trauma he went through as a kid and all the stress and memories that haunt him and he doesn't have to cuss to get his point across. People cussing in rap songs doesn't bother me but my parents don't like me to listen to it around them and with NF I don't have to worry about it cause his songs remind me a lot of my life and all the stuff I went through and he doesn't cuss. I love that.
Same
The reason why I love eminem but never listen to his rap unless my little siblings are not around me
PSA: No one cares what year you're listening to this in. Just keep listening.
Finally someome with some damn sense
November 2019 and I heard this song like 4 or 5 years and I didn't know who it was but I remember these lyrics like it was yesterday..
y
@A Non December
Right?!
This song deserves a Grammy! Anyone that actually HEARS this song knows the levels it reaches! NF your mind is a beautiful place I go to with u threw these lyrics
This is my life now I'm still battling depression, anxiety and selfharming I feel his music is like almost the reason I'm still alive
keep fighting, if i can get through it, i know you can.
I'm sorry to hear. But you are not alone in this world. We're here so is God. Others know part though never completely because we're not you, but we are here
Hehe same mentally abused I just cant anymore have a good day ignore I’m here :) just like everyone else just like I try to do to my feelings goodbye
a peculiar fame don't give up like that. We won't ignore you, or at least, I won't. I know how you feel. I'm an outsider, rarely noticed and I've been so used to staying in the background thinking that everyone hates me so they ignore me. I still don't know if I'm right but I almost lost a friend because of that. But I promise you, never give up, there's always someone there for you ❤
Kayja Wolf spirit same
Anyone else just play NF in the background all day everyday or is it just me?
John Kus i do too
John Kus i would literally wear headphones all day
OMG if i had a phone i would listian to nf alllllll day in my room
John Kus i love NF so much
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That verse about not letting people in his safe room because he thinks people will leave him had me in tears. I have the same problem and it helps to know I'm not the only one.
Hey, hey you, yeah you, the one thats reading this. You are loved more so then you will ever know. I love you and all of your perfect and imperfect perfections. I know that the depression is bad, believe me I understand ☺️ and I just wanted to say that im proud of you for lasting this long. For fighting this long and your still standing. You are a strong and very important person even if you don't see it. I know that the pain gets overbareing sometimes and it seems useless and maybe even hopeless.. but you can NOT give in. Your a angel.. but we need you here on earth.. please don't go home yet.. please stay strong and try to work things out.. I know it's hard but you made it this far in your fight.. you cant throw all of that away
Reamber that I will always love you. My inbox is always open for anyone needeing to talk. Love you😍
Bless🙏🏻💞
@@elizabethsyvanen3901 someone has to be there. Ive been helping people for years and I know how ugly depression can be first hand.. sometimes you just need someone in your corner
This comment something you did you made someone like me stop thinking about fear and whats to come i can't even explain how meaningful your words can be weather it was for me or someone else just reading this brought me so much courage and so much stronger than i could ever be thank you i know that you play such an important part in this world to you made me want to cry of joy thank you so much i cant even begin to tell you how happy this makes me
Literly going to screenshot this so when i jave doupts i can read it
Dang your comment is just as brutal as the lyrics in this song. Brutal is the word I am choosing to describe it. And although what you are saying is the exact opposite of brutal, but my internal reaction was somehow painful.
" you used to put me in the corner, so you could see the fear in my eyes, then you took me downstairs and beat me 'til I screamed and I cried. Congratulations. You'll always have a room in my mind." That hits me so damn hard. Like why would my own parents do that to me.
A girl it was his moms new boyfriend
@@paganmin7489 they said why would their parents do that to them, they are not talking about nf
Saaame! 😭😭😭
Ayy who’s listening to this piece of perfection in 2018💯🤙
meeeeeeeeeeee
It's not that old so....
Always
Canukreid5 5 me bruh!
Meee
coming back to listen to this song after i've grown up and seeing all my progress from when i was listening to this on repeat in high school makes me feel so sad for my younger self but so proud of where I am today
"But imma keep the doors locked and keep the lyrics inside"
"Broken legs but I chase perfection."
"See my problem is I don't fix things I try to re-paint. I act like it never happened"
"And I lie to my self say I do the best that I can"
"And I regret watching these trust issues eat me alive"
"I built a safe room I don't let no one in there. Cause if I do, they might disappear and not come back.And I admit I'm emotionally scared to let anyone inside. So I just leave my doors locked. U might get other doors to open but this door not. Cause I don't want u to have the opportunity to hurt me. And I'll be the only person to blame when u desert me."
"I know shutting the world out ain't solving the problem but I didn't build this because I thought I would solve em"
" I built it because I thought it was safer"
"Now I'm in a position it's either I sit here, and let him win, or put him outside where he came from but I never can. Cause In order to do that I have to open the door"
All these lines describe me...
Who still watching this masterpiece in 2018?
Luis Taboada idk about watching, but I'm listening to it lol it needs a music video.
ME! This song is one of the best!
“Masterpiece” lol nah.
Mee
Everone hopefully
Your lack burns, cuts deeper than the sharpest blade
I almost forgot the voice of your steps, my hands rise with fear
At night, it leaves the ashes left behind by the burning moments
Pain dresses gala clothes, it's the anniversary of our funeral
For we breathe without life, lost among the maps that guide our life,
Wild ... ration biting from the sun, the moon drives in the morning
Nothing is heard, the tears song has turned the earth into a mountain of salt
I loved without loving you, resigned, dragging my black stories to the sun pit
Jessica Albrecht :))) The look you leave in the ground every time a store window feeds only your dreams, in the world where you learn how to be happy only from books.
Normally ... normal people, we did not bother anyone, just bumping one under the cross of the other, kings without submisses ... slaves without chains ... What do you think?
@Jessica Albrecht this is more than a song, this is a masterpiece that helps people through hard times
Finally someone who puts into words what the broken people fail to say.
I Love NF so much!!! He speaks for all of us that go through these things and puts them into a form where others will actually listen.
Depression is a killer and listening to this helps thanks 🙏🏼 NF I no this is therapy for you as it is for us 🔥🔥🎵🎵🎤🎧🦋
Maxine James I'm confused
Because you're just 11 years old. No need to know :)
I can't imagine my world without music. It's like Nate knows everything about me and my thoughts, while my family calls me "moody". Depression? Oh, it's just a phase. Social anxiety? Oh, you're just shy. Crying? Oh, you're just a crybaby.
people dont understand it until they experience it
Maxine James bifocals
Amazing! I have chills now. NF is so intelligent and his songs show it. This is real music, this is real material and delivery.
Whos listening in 2024?
☝🏻
Heree
Here
☝
Truth Everytime I hear it.... I built it because I thought I would be safer in here.
FINALLY!!!!... Actually Healing!!! ♡♡♡
Happy for you Brittnie!
Stephen Williams Thank You Sweetheart me too!! ♡♡
Thank u beautiful soul, Keep good and stay healed and set free. God Bless You!
Brittnie Rene
Amen, Lord will keep you strong.. I'm still dealing with marijuana and anger as two of my biggest problem's.. NF helps alot. God Bless
NF
Real music
Till the day
we
die
HELL YEA
True
I'll draw you a picture
I'll draw it with a twist
I'll draw it with a razor
I'll draw it on my wrist
If I do it correctly
A red fountain will appear
To take away my pain
To wash away my fear
:
this is every day for me
...
dont
😢
I never realized how blessed I was until I heard this song. This song is life changing to me
Mom: what kind of music is this?!?
Me: the kind that helps me explain how I feel on a daily 💯😟
i said the exact same thing to my mom and she legit locked me in the closet and put mats on the walls and doors...
@@Cartdough omg 🙊
This is so true I can't explain it
Elisson Dormezil Are you ok?
Elisson Dormezil If you’re being abused, you need to find help and tell someone RIGHT NOW.🤯
“my mind is a house with walls covered in pain
See, my problem is I don't fix things, I just try to repaint.”
That line though man...hit home.
I'm a 70 year old grandmother and NF's songs really touch me!! Yeah, I listen.
+Ethan Bradley I doubt that
this song puts all my deepest feelings in one sing, other than the abuse part, the angry....the sadness...feeling trapped.... it puts all the feeling i have sometimes in one song...
thank you for making me realize i am safe and not alone with this song
this song helps me escape from every bad memory of my childhood and previous bad situations I've been involved in 💜
Harley Johnson me too!
What about current bad situations, or is that just me :(
Johnson Smith me too on repeat most days
Johnson Smith past & current for me.
hidden name were in this together
This speaks of real life.
Of real scenarios.
Of real thoughts.
This is real music.
Thank you for reminding me I'm not alone.
To David L ,... Your definitely not alone hun! I think this song explains a lot of peeps 🤔🤔
This guy comments the lyrics of a song while we are watching the lyrics of the song
david lawrence I’m dealing with stuff too u ain’t alone I’m with u 🙏❤️
@@icringetv6709 Don't know you mate but I speak how I speak. Maa right. And I pray ye never at a young age went through trauma. Nf is the voice for so many people 🙌
I lost my mom 12 years ago to stage 4 lung cancer she was my world since then I've locked myself in my "mansion" this song hits so close to me I've isolated myself for year afraid to let anyone in I've lost so much I'm not sure if I can handle losing someone close so again but we all have to pick ourselves up and try again you never know when 1 smile could brighten your world STAY STRONG and may peace find us ALL😎👍
2018 and I still play this song on repeat
“I built it bc I thought that it would be safer in there but it’s not. I’m not the only thing that’s living in here” I felt that