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Darlene, I had never heard of dysregulation. And I'm 68. So I looked it up. Thank you for educating me. I'm glad you still feel like sharing your emotions like you have in past years. Your feelings are yours and yours alone. No one has the right to disect them for you unless you ask. I am sorry you are feeling so out of sorts and sad. You have such a pretty smile, and I like seeing it. But I, as many others, will continue to watch and support you no matter what Darlene comes on. So take care and come back soon ❤
I do the same thing, feel like I shouldn’t have said something or regret it. Doubt myself. You are so brave doing this social stuff. I hope you can be PROUD of yourself. You have come a long way. I am inspired by you.
The cringe factor that I go through is often unbearable. And I still feel that paying for things that I said years ago. Things that other people would never remember even saying. I fucking remember shit and it just keeps replaying in my brain.
I think we all do that at least a little. I'll think about something I've done or said even years later and I feel like shit like it just happened. I try to do what Darlene said and try doing something I like to do like sewing or stained glass to try and get it out of my mind.
@@darlene.michaudI do the same thing and I’ve been literally working on rewiring my brain when I do that, I stop myself and in my head tell myself it’s okay people make mistakes, stop! And I’ll force myself to read a book or listen to loud music or tiktoks or do something that makes me have to think about something else and I’ve noticed after months of doing it that my mind automatically will switch off and stop when I start talking shit to myself and making myself cringe over the things I’ve done
Oh yeah. My mouthy, idiotic self and my normal self, are not friends 😅
At age 69 I finally realize I cannot go backwards. So forward .... I go... with a who cares, so what attitude.
What ever works!
Regardless, you are too much and extremely talented.
Thank you!
Darlene, I see you. I'm very sensitive and highly reactive and easily dysregulated due to a very shitty childhood and decades-long terrible abusive marriage. It is so hard just navigating a "normal" day sometimes. I'm glad you shared this. Thinking of you.
Yes, normal days can be a nightmare sometimes. I was never sure of anything as a child. And I still walk through life like that as an adult. A normal day can turn to shit in a heartbeat. it’s like I always have to be prepared for that to happen.
Gosh, people are very mean. I applaud you for talking on here. 🙂
I just liked several comments because I can't write a coherent, succinct thought. I appreciate you 🌻🍄
It"s OK to be Not Ok - at times
Hi Darlene, I totally understand where you're coming from cause I'm a recovering alcoholic sober for 12 years now. I am a hermit & only leave home once a month & had to deal with narssitic abuse all my life, anyway you're not alone & totaly feel your pain but i have learned a lot from watching you so i don`t sit & cry everyday now over everything & i thank you so much .
And I thank you for sharing this with me. It helps me a lot when I know I help others.
Hi Darlene… I am watching this and you are so strong for sharing your life and struggles… and you are entitled to feel what you feel and acknowledge it … going out to drive or walk through the stores is helpful…. Thank you for sharing and I’m listening…
Do what helps you get what you need and want. I quit drinking when the doctor said do you want to live or die in the next 6 to 8 months. It's been over 2 years now, but nights are hard at times and I cry until there's nothing left.
I cry until there’s nothing left too. Sometimes I don’t even know why I’m crying. It’s just a release from everything. That’s trapped inside. Congratulations on your sobriety.
Reliving memories is hard, I don't know how to deal with those feelings of inadequatcies or embarrassments. That is why I admire you so much.. You have been blooming since you've moved. I'm considerably older than you but you give me hope.
I so identify with you Darlene. Life is hard and painful but I thank you for sharing… it helps even me.
I`v decided i`m severe introvert cause i can`t deal with the world. I will be 63 in August a widow for 12 years
I’m a few years older than you, and just now dealing with childhood trauma and PTSD. I had blanked out so much. I sometimes wonder if I should continue to try to blank it out, but I do think it’s wiser to deal with it. But lots of tears, rumination, dysregulation. It helps me to hear what you are going through, you are an inspiration and a great example. We have different pain, but it’s still pain. You are so brave to put yourself on social media. I am working on getting out of the house, and being around other people. I am a work in progress, which is frustrating because I thought I’d be “done” by now. Thank you for your help.
I subscribe to your channel, I love you just the way you are 🩷 I look forward to your videos. I laugh and I cry every time. I like Tony very much. I heard him call you baby, and I thought aww, how sweet. Best of luck.
I do understand. Overthinking and ruminating can paralyze my life -full stop - and I'm easily triggered. I keep on keepin' on, and I try to stay positive and grateful. Years ago, I finally found meds that help w my anxiety/depression. Sending u love and understanding. FYI, when u lean in, it shows off ur gorgeous teeth, which I'm admitted jealous of. Oh, and I FUCKING LOVE ur bangs 💇♀️
I needed that complement about my bangs! Lol. Thank you for that. As for my teeth, those are crowns, so I can’t take all the credit. Well, I guess I can take the credit because I’m the one that fucking paid for them. Lol. Did that before I ever even knew about RUclips. So I guess the crowns came in handy.
@@darlene.michaudYep, I'll probably have to break the bank for some dental work of my own. I'll just tell them, "Gimme the Darlene Michaud smile!" 😁
Memories play in my head every fucking day. I can hear my mother criticizing me, putting me down, laughing at me. It's horrible and can be so debilitating and paralyzing. I don't even tell anyone because I find it so embarrassing, probably another wound I learned along the way. I give you credit, you stand and speak out. Good for you. We are the walking wounded and I can only imagine how many of us there are. I don't have an answer as to how to eliminate this voice. I know my mother was insecure but even knowing that doesn't help. So yes I cry when frustrated, but I'm more mad at her. I do talk to myself a lot and say she's not right you aren't a blah blah blah and sometimes it helps but that damn voice is always there.
I find it really hard to reconcile the nasty things said and done to me by my mother ... and my obligations as a daughter to love my parents and take care of my aged (still nasty) mother. I struggle with the love and hate and I cannot bear to see happy families, always relating my own miserable past. I do not touch alcohol because when I drink, I cry my emotions out.
❤ Darlene, you are appreciated ❤otherwise we would not be coming back to watch and listen to you ❤
Wow..never realized so many mommy problems like mine actually exist…feel better like l never thought possible..thank you everyone who shares..🇨🇦
This is exactly why I talk about this stuff. It helps others!
I feel this exact same way every day, Darlene. My mind is like a picture book that constantly flips over, always stopping on things that hurt, make me feel sad or regretful. Even good memories, like a tune, or a memory of home, or time with my kids when they were little, kills me because those times are gone. I need to sort through years and years of photos and videos but I constantly put it off as I know it will be painful and I will be a mess. I don’t think I will ever be free of the turmoil in my head, and it is such an isolating feeling knowing that no one understands. Hugs from England x
You're still healing from a life of suffering from narcissistic abuse. Dysregulation is no joke. It messes you up. Dissociation is even worse. I can sit and look at nothing for an hour and not know what happened. Our brains are not wired correctly because we never felt safe as children. We are so lucky we made it to adulthood. We all needed help back then and protection, and it wasn't right that we didn't receive it. I'm so glad that it's beginning to come out, let it keep coming out. I listen to a lot of binaural beats, mostly 432hz. That's the love frequency. It helps while I'm in pain. We're here for you, Darlene. We're going to get through this.
I had to look up dissociation. New word for me. I can only relate to that a tiny bit. I lean more toward being aware and remembering everything. But I'm sure there is some dissociation mixed in there. A child who suffers trauma, especially repeatedly and for years, is forever changed.
Are you from Louisiana? I lived there for 4yrs and now live in Olive Branch, Mississippi so I am not too far from you, would love to hang out and sew. I love sewing.
Darlene, your feelings and what you said made sense 100%. I am 26 years old and I subscribed because I love your realness. I feel the same way, I feel like I’m just this girl stuck inside still processing things that have happened to me as a teenager but I have two children of my own now I have to focus on. It’s okay if you don’t understand or feel uncomfortable with your life right now, you seem to be doing some serious growth right now ❤️
I have done many of the same things you talked about. I appreciate you sharing with all of us watching, it is helpful to hear that I'm not alone. You are an inspiration in so many ways! I enjoy watching and learning from you. Thank you for all that you share.
Darlene I understand you completely, I grew up with horrible things happening to me, mostly by relatives. I can be triggered by a word, smell, sound, music, a name. It sets me in a tail spin. I analyze every word someone says,every action. Yes sometimes I drive myself nuts. It seems if somebody hasn't had any if these issues they can't put themselves in someone's shoes. I'M not happy you have to endure this lifelong thing, but at the same time I am glad to know I am not the only one who can't remove it from my head and heart. ❤
Omg… all the analyzing. I do that too. I analyze every fucking word. Every fucking expression. Every fucking action. And if someone tells me that they didn’t say something and I know they said it, I could lose my fucking mind. I trained myself to be this way, because my mother always insisted that she didn’t say certain things or that I said things that I know I didn’t say. I felt crazy even as a tiny little girl. So I made sure to listen hard and to watch hard to know exactly what people were saying and doing. It’s like my brain has been turned into a computer.
Our childhood trauma alters our brain & we struggle to function as a normal person should. We will always have our days when we feel paralyzed, dysfunctional or beat ourselves up so we just have to be gentle & give ourselves grace to work our way through it. Have been in your mind space many times or more days than I can count but I continue to learn as you do why it happens. Prayers & hugs
Yes! Living in a constant state of fight or flight as a child alters the brain.
Yes Darlene! Rumination destroys me, too! I'm learning self inquiry from Byron Katie's "The Work" It IS indeed work to make the effort to question my ruminating tortuous thinking! But I'm the only one who can do it for me.
Leaning back at you,Jellybean! Do what is best for you! Pain is not easy....hurtful people have no idea!
Love ya, Kid! Another New Englander!
It’s ok to share your pain. The saddest thing to me that you talked about was as a child you went to the doctor alone. That spoke volumes to me. I’ll patiently listen to your happiness and your sadness.
I know you’re hurting and it’s okay. I had a childhood that was similar to yours. Counseling has helped me, but only when I can let go of the pain and really listen. Your feelings are valid. 👍
My life has sucked hard for the past 8 yrs and this has been the worst part of my life, but what makes it worse is that the people who I thought were "friends" all left! Now, I'm a hermit and am in chronic pain and chronically depressed. I love your channel because you keep it real. I also subscribed to RC man's page. Much love from Texas ♥️🤠
Sorry for your pain, I am sure you help many with your sharing. Love the swearing, it’s so real. 🇨🇦
I hear you lady. And I know all too well what you’re dealing with. My narcissist mother has told me so many hurtful things. I have been heavy my entire life. I went from 250 to 140. Now my mother is “worried” about me because I am “too skinny”. Well after hearing how fat I am from her my entire life you’d think she’d be happy. NOPE!! There’s no pleasing narcissist mothers. I look forward to your videos daily. When you don’t post, I go back and watch the old ones. I’ve been watching since way back when. You’ve come so far, don’t stop now❤❤❤
I enjoyed the video and could relate to some of it. Validation is so important. Unfortunately, sometimes when I express a bad thing I am feeling, instead of Validation from the friend, I get what I call "the one up" or the "topper". They have to top me. Their sadness is greater; their problem is bigger; or they have shitty advice; or they know exactly how I feel. It's fucking irritating. I appreciate what you said here; what you feel. ❤
I hate “the one up” too. Fucking irritating as hell! It’s totally dismissive, and if it’s a constant in someone’s life, it’s mental abuse.
I can relate to some of the things you spoke of in your video. I hope today is passing with less pain for you. ❤
Hi Darlene, My sons name is Tony too. Great name. I did catch that the other day just didn’t want to say anything.😀 Hey if a meeting can be beneficial to you in any way then it’s worth it. I don’t understand your pain but wish you some relif.
I learn more every time you post a video. It might sound crazy but I feel like we are friends. You inspire me to be brave in social settings, to try new crochet stitches, to say f-it when things don't go as expected... and to cry when I need to. Thank you for being so authentically you. ❤
Darlene, I really understand what you are saying, I have the same feelings and issues when I start thinking about my own childhood. It still physically hurts. Sorry you are having this issue. Be you and love yourself.
Darlene I have been watching you since 2016. I am telling you everything you talk about I feel and can relate to. I hate that people say dumb things to you that are so ridiculous to even mention like the list you mentioned at the end. I wish I could talk to you as a friend but I would never try because I know you like your privacy. You should have a dear Darlene which I know you would never do because that’s what I love about you… you do not push your opinion on anyone. But sometimes when I hear the way you think or how things effect you I think man she thinks just like me and I wonder if what she would do in this situation. I guess it’s again that validation that I think we all need. Just keep being you no matter how you show up. I love all the ways! And did you see that therapist on Joe Rogan that said talking about your problems over and over and reliving them actually makes us worse!! That resonated with me but I understand wanting to work through them. Just working through them enough to not be triggered anymore. Who knows is that even possible? I’m here I see you and I feel you!
I did not see that therapist on Joe Rogan, but I’ll have to look for that interview. I swear, there are times that it does make it worse. And sometimes doing all the work still doesn’t help. I think from now on I’ll do as much work as I think is necessary and then try to just fucking stop thinking about it after that. If I can’t fix it, I need throw it out. But I don’t really think that’s possible either. It feels hopeless at times.
Hi Darlene, thank you so much for sharing your feelings. I can so relate to you. Although what you go through emotionally is different from what I might go through emotionally, pain is pain. And I agree with you that it's good to go with the feeling instead of ignoring it. I think that brings some amount of healing. And each time it comes up it helps to be more self aware though the pain never really goes away entirely. Geez I hope this makes sense 😊
Love you for helping me realize I am not alone, I feel exactly like you! I totally relate to everything you said my friend! I'm really glad I came across your videos trying to learn more about sewing as I just taught myself at 58 to use a sewing machine last year and really enjoy making things and doing crafts. That is when I'm happiest.
Thanks for sharing. I'm a former drinker and it's like I'm in a meeting with you listening. So even if you can't share there, your sharing here helps. Sending ❤️❤️❤️ Also, your hair is great and the cussing is funny and people are turds on the internet so often it is ridiculous.
11:36 pm 6/29/24
Darlene, you are such a good person, I understand exactly what you are saying I have the same issue about the past and childhood and sometimes it’s just overwhelming!!!!
It took me decades to realize that the childhood trauma I lived was not my fault
I was looking up personality disorders because of someone else that had come into our family and during those searches I came across narcissism. I can still remember how I felt when I was reading up on all that and realizing that I wasn’t crazy after all. I went through a stage of great anger because I always thought my mother was right and that I just didn’t know what I was talking about. I mean, after all, why would she tell me that unless it was real. I mean, she was my mother, right? And then I went through insane sadness, knowing that all my life, my mother did everything in her power to destroy my soul. I still cry for that child.
@@darlene.michaud😮😢
Thank you Darlene. I feel your pain and more. Social anxiety is my unclimbable mountain. Getting higher as I age. Had lots of ‘therapy’ leading nowhere. Like a boomerang, I keep falling back to my way. Good days are very rare. I focus on my solitude, away from people but very close to animals and plants. What I can’t stand is, when people tell me that if I believed in God, It would help me. They have no idea.
Darlene you and I have so much in common, I know exactly what you meant when you said you don’t understand why when you were younger no one stepped in to do something about your mom. I remember being a teenager and praying that someone in my family would take me away from my mom or put her in a mental institution because she really needed help and I was the youngest and all my siblings (3 of them) knew how crazy she could be and did nothing. And I feel like a young girl sometimes too, and I’m married to a guy who is a workaholic he’s been very good to me but it’s a very lonely life. I do have 2 wonderful boys but they’re young and I don’t want to bother them with my problems. I just know what your talking about I have a lot of issues because of the things my mom use to say to me and the way she treated me, I just wish I could feel like a normal person. The good thing is because of her it made me want to be the opposite and I’m proud of the mom I was and I’m very close to my boys. You also seem like a wonderful mom and grandmother. Sorry this was so long 😅
I just love your channel Darlene.
I absolutely understand pain…not here to fix you, but I’m hearing your pain. And there is never too much exploring your pain.
I love someone who mentally suffers in similar ways. Thank you for the advice you gave ME so I can support and be present for her. I want so much to fix things for her. I can't. But I can love her, stand by her, and listen. ❤❤
Hi Darlene, do what you have to do. I have relived my painful childhood my entire life and I am now 73. I don’t think about it until something or someone triggers the feelings. I can relate! I do what I have to do until I feel better, if it’s crying or depressed I let it be what it is. Take care of yourself as YOU need to do it! It’s better to let it out than keep stuffing back! Love your channel and you.
I see you
I hear you
I will sit with you
I am sorry you hurt
I hope everyone who is hurting sees your comment and they take it as though you’re telling it to them too. Thank you for that.
I love the name Tony it’s short for Antonio 😊
You are so brave. I am the same way about memories. 💙
I sometimes feel like memories could actually kill me.
Darlene I’ve been watching you for a long time and I can remind you that you are a really good person and really did make the best decisions you could given the conditions at the time. It’s human nature to try to review everything in hindsight and sure you can identify certain moments when a path chosen could have gone a different way, but no one has perfect answers in the first place and no one is exactly you with your soul to satisfy. So just know that this was your life’s journey, you learned from it all, the good and the bad. I’m still amazed by your resilience and tenacity, creativity and charm. I’m so glad to have your influence in my life. This topic is very real to me too now that my disabled son has passed away recently. It feels so strange to have to plan/live going forward in a new way, so I can relate to your emotions. Thanks for sharing your life!
I have been watching you for a few years, beginning with the crumb quilt series. I have never seen you more strong because of your past, your present and your future. I have many of the issues you have and I know that if I can get through life I know that you can and will enjoy it with all of your heart. Love, Amy
I’m a lot like you, I value your opinion and I think you are smart and funny 😄
It is easy for people to tell us how we feel, but until they go through it, they have no idea! The things you do, which clearly bother people make you, you & that is what makes you unique🤩😃
Hello Darlene, I think you're brave for daring to tell your lifestory and emotions. Unfortunately many people also have the same experiences. It will also help them that you are so honest in how jou process it. Me too. Thank you ❤ I wish you all the best and lots of strength. I love all your quilting videos too, thanks again for that. Greetings from Holland 🥰🙋♀️
You can cry if you want to. Sending you warm healing vibes.
Darlene, I hear you ❤ I have a narcissist ex husband that I’m trying to “coparent” with. The cycle of abuse is still ongoing even though he remarried right away. He won’t destroy me but sometimes the rumination and anxiety are so suffocating that I can’t think or do anything else. I desperately want to be loved by a partner but my trust has been broken over and over. I was engaged and the guy recently walked out on me because I wanted to push the wedding back to work on making our relationship and finances more solid. I know that I did the right thing, but there’s this feeling of being taken advantage of that keeps lurking. It sucks. (P.S. I agree on the bangs…love them!. Also, how are your teeth so damn white?!)
I understand what you mean! I also have anxiety issues and cry and all sorts of things. I hope things get better, for us all.
you know yourself and are on a life journey as you live. Acknowledging your hard childhood is so healthy .you know where and why your feelings and ways you deal with people is working for you. and yes face the dragon. (trama) never back down. hold your head high. and walk away from cruel people.
I can feel the pain and the hurt. I’m so sorry you went through all that. They say time heals all wounds but for me it’s gotten worse with time. I’m trying to stay hopeful. For me, for you. Some days are harder than others. I rarely have really good days, usually when I’m so busy I don’t have time to think about the past.
I do NOT believe time heals all wounds. Those who say that must be wired differently. Time increases my pain. The only thing that changes that is that I do keep busy and there are times that the memories don't come rushing back. But when they do, like if I'm tired, stressed, confused, those painful memories can come rushing back in.
I have memories that hit me, too. Especially lately. I just turned 75 in April. My youngest son is an alcoholic. He has been to jail twice in the last 20 years. My parents were alcoholics, as well.
Hang in there, I know it helps to talk about.
I am so happy that you were able to talk. I could understand a lot of your feelings. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day and this too shall pass. I will say a prayer for you.😢😊❤
I can totally relate to the memories! It drives me crazy and don’t know how to get past it! ❤
We are all on our own path. Thank you for sharing
I don't think that I have commented on any of your videos before. I just started watching your channel about a month ago and really love all the blocks of the months that you are doing. I am also trying to catch up so that I can follow along. I am new to quilting, so that one is a challenge that I am really enjoying. I do know how to crochet, but I have not used some of the stitches that you are using, so that too has been quite intriguing. On another note though, I would like to suggest a book that I once read that helped me a lot with some of the things that you are speaking of here. It's called Emotional Healing by Praying Medic. I had a lot of childhood trauma and would also cry at the memories even when it had been when I was so young, but the book is about healing from any type of trauma. The author has been able to explain what happens to a person from trauma and simple ways to heal from it. See you on the next one. Thanks for sharing.
You do you Darlene, that's why I watch your channel. You are real, no trying to please everyone because that is impossible.
Haters gonna hate! I adore you and your honesty.
Just so you know I am 37 years sober and still go to AA 4 times per week. With some therapy and AA I have a life beyond my wildest dreams. In spite of the fact that my mother beat me and never kept me safe and that my husband died 11 years ago. A good life is all there for the taking. Get a sponsor and help to sponsor others. Might help.
I went 4 times this week! I work at home and I'm alone all day. If I'm not going out dancing or I'm not with Tony, I'm going to hit a meeting. It gets me out and it validates me. It's a win, win!
Hang in there Darlene. I have BAD Days too. We all do and if people say they don't they are lying. I ALso rethink things I say and do over and over...love your videos. Hi from SC.
I just cant believe there are people who gripe about your hair or touching your face or any one of those other things. Its just not revelvent. If they are so petty about these things,they need to get a life and stop following you.
I wish you the best!
Well, that brought tears to my eyes. For me as well as you, lol....not that it's funny, but because I can relate so much to all that you said. As much as I LOVE your sewing content, for me, it's always been how relatable you are. Thank you for being YOU & being so generous with your honesty & transparency. You're doing your best, and that is inspiring to see. ❤️
I gotta a question. ????
Do you know how to make American Indian RIBBON dresses for young teens on the taller/bigger size?
Theres all types of fabric, most are long & fairly simple. Unfortunately, the prices start @ $250 on Etsy.
Can just respond for further details.
Sorry, I have no clue.
You aren't alone 11:08, I do that too. Have been sober since 1998. There are days when "This too shall pass" feels like passing a kidney stone the size of a beach ball.
It's rough, and it is a thing. Gentle distance hugs and huggage. I stopped going to meetings, the wheelchair and such makes it a little sucky.
For the not okay days, you are not alone. Been there. Thank You. Wasn't expecting an impromptu meeting at almost 3am.
Yes I understand 100%. You are a good loving person be you.
I appreciate your videos ❤️
Don’t ever apologize. I love your videos. You do seem , for the most part, happier since you moved. Everyone goes through shit. And if they say they don’t they are lying. Love you.
Hi Darlene
I had a pretty crappy mom so I can sympathize with you. My mother made me go to beauty college during 2 summers between university classes to "keep me out of trouble"....like i was a prostitute or something!! SO i got my cosmetology license but wasn't a beautician very long because I knew I didn't want to do that kind of work. Saying all of this to say: don't worry about your hair. It looks FINE! GREAT! I dare say a beautician can't cut a STRAIGHT line on bangs. I wish I had half the hair you have....mine is so incredibly thin. Love you. Hope you are feeling better by now. One day at a time.
Yes and yes.just finished watching you talk and I understand I think how you feel. I'm eighty two woman and have lived a long strange life. I'm guilty sometimes and sad too. Am now caregiver to my son in sixties suffers mental illnness he also goes to aa. My mother told me many years ago god would punish me for being a bad mom.and I think now maybe this is that punishment she spoke of.who knows. Anyway I find you a very helpful speaker. You know what real life is like you know how to feel. Anyway swear grow your hair touch your face be you also love your quilting you have a talent. Hope me venting won't piss you off.lol 😅😅 ❤❤
I think when our mothers tell us such hurtful and even evil things we find a way to make them come true. It’s like we manifest it without even realizing it simply because we believe what our mothers tell us.
@@darlene.michaudabsolutely!😊
Hey girl, you don’t need to apologize for anything. If people don’t like what you have to say then they can just go somewhere else on the net. I understand a lot of what you are saying about your past because I have some unpleasant happenings in mine too. So I can sympathize. You are so right. A person just needs a person to be there and sometimes just listen. Parents don’t always get it right. We are the lucky ones, because of our pasts we became better parents because we learned what not to do. I’m not my mother, I’m thankful for that.
I hope you have a better day, and just know you are valued. ♥️
It's okay to still feel hurt and cry about the things from the past. You deserve to let it out and grieve, and you deserve to feel cared for then and now. ♥
I am so sorry that there are times that you have so much pain.
You are a brave soul to allow comments. Can’t believe what some people say. The critical unsolicited comments are unnecessary and unhelpful. If people have nothing positive to say, STFU! Feel your pain and keep going. Love your channel, including cursing. ❤
I hear you and get what you are saying.
What was your mother’s childhood like? Can you share?
I don’t share her childhood because it doesn’t really matter what her childhood was like. And she wouldn’t be truthful about it anyway. But I had a shitty ass childhood and was a drunk teenage mom to my son. None of that gives me any excuses as to the shit I put him through. The only difference is that since I’m not a narcissist, I was able to see how much I hurt my son. We have talked about things to great extent, and I validate every feeling he has. We have a very good and strong relationship. We are here for each other. He’s my rock and I am his.
Darlene, I applaud you for being you and not giving d_ _ _ about judge-mental people !!! I’ve always loved your videos and all the good you do for your viewers. I wonder if these people can look at themselves and know they are not perfect…..I bet not! ❤
Want to tell you I understand. Not saying we are the same but I have ptsd from childhood and 1st marriage. Also, anxiety. I will be fine and then all of a sudden I get upset and what I call "get stuck". Everything seemed fine and then not. I tried so hard to conquer my ptsd and anxiety but I realized that are part of me. Just be upset as long as you need, you'll snap back at some point when you are ready. You are doing great and so many of us love you!!!!! ❤❤❤
I don’t drink but my Mother did and I married a man who didn’t drink but after several years of marriage he stated drinking and ran around so I finally divorced him and started going to Al-Aoon and it really helped me. I haven’t been for years but the lessons I learned there helped me tremendously.
THRIFT STORE IS FINE !!!
Try to be nice and caring to yourself. You are in a lot of pain. It’s a lot to deal with all at once. You were able to block out a lot because you were caring for your mother. Now it’s coming out all at once. Maybe try writing it down, which gets it out and sometimes release it. Feel it as long as you need to feel it.
Darlene , never having been given love, it must be very hard knowing how to ask for it, or knowing how you deal with things the right way, I think maybe AA is opening up a lot of these pains, but as you say they will pass when you in your mind have dealt with it. It is no way possible for anyone who hasn’t dealt with things to know how to deal with something,just keep being strong….. does you good to let those feelings out.
Looks like you're speaking for a lot of us here. I know you are for me. You help me not feel so alone. I'm 72 and feel like 12. LOL
It's OK to be OK; just not today.
OMG Darlene…thank you🥲
You be you, Darlene, that’s why we FuK’n love you. Hahaha
I love you Darlene, so honest. You have a lot of “feelings” like myself. I am grieving my husband of 48 years and the memories, both good and not so good are destroying me at the moment. We need someone to hug us and give us unconditional love and reassurance but on the other hand we want to do it all ourselves. I am older than you and in the UK but reading the comments here, we are all sisters ❤️Sending peace and hugs.Sue ❤️
Waiting to see you drive one of RC`s little vehicles will be fun
I also caught it, but didn’t say anything!