Unfortunately growing up in a Christian and traditional values type house, I was 100% transphobic, as well as intensely homophobic. I hate that I was brought up this way, because even after secretly distancing myself from my religion, I STILL struggle to ignore those thoughts and, yes sadly, feelings of disgust when I see anyone who is gay or lesbian. Ironically, I started seriously questioning my gender in the past year, and I for a while I felt I may actually be a transgender woman. I feel a little stupid for jumping in so deep at my young age, I think maybe it’s all a part of the process of finding my identity and who I am, so with that said I’ve begun to feel I am not transgender. So even though I am more or less comfortable with being male (some days I kind of wish I could be a cis female, those days kind of suck), I still can relate to some of the obstacles people face in the beginning of the transgender journey. I suddenly felt persecuted by the entire world, since the majority of the population doesn’t understand transgender people or are educated on the topic of being transgender, as you mentioned in the video. It’s not like I felt everyone was full on transphobic, but just the idea that someone didn’t understand me or entirely get me (which is already true enough as a cis male), that terrified me. On top of this fear was the extreme judgment that came from myself, being an ex Christian. And I couldn’t stop imagining my parents disappointment in me. I knew they’d immediately reject my being a transgender, and they’d probably want to get me into therapy as soon as possible, since I’m so “broken” and need fixing. It was the worst feeling ever. So again, I know I’m not transgender, but I truly understand the mental struggle with it all. Especially that internal battle with yours self. Well, I suppose there are lucky folks who don’t have too many hardships, but I imagine the majority do have some issues to work through. Anyway, thanks for sharing your experience. Whether it’s lucid dreaming or not I’ve always loved your videos, they have an odd calming affect on me...I think it’s a mix between your voice and the music you use hahah.
You bro, do you have a tip for improving the WILD being newy? I WBTB but most of the times just fall asleep and maybe there is a clue in the dream but not enough to be get lucidity...
I have issues with WBTB too. I often fall asleep and then find that I drift in and out of sleep with some lucidity but it's often very low. One thing that I do is visualise a rope in front of me and as I pull the rope I'm pulling the dream scene towards me. Having something like that to focus on can help.
Thanks for sharing your perspective. I think trans people have always been with us, but it's only recently that they've been "heard".
holy crap I did not know you were trans. Dude you pass so well.
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Unfortunately growing up in a Christian and traditional values type house, I was 100% transphobic, as well as intensely homophobic. I hate that I was brought up this way, because even after secretly distancing myself from my religion, I STILL struggle to ignore those thoughts and, yes sadly, feelings of disgust when I see anyone who is gay or lesbian.
Ironically, I started seriously questioning my gender in the past year, and I for a while I felt I may actually be a transgender woman. I feel a little stupid for jumping in so deep at my young age, I think maybe it’s all a part of the process of finding my identity and who I am, so with that said I’ve begun to feel I am not transgender. So even though I am more or less comfortable with being male (some days I kind of wish I could be a cis female, those days kind of suck), I still can relate to some of the obstacles people face in the beginning of the transgender journey. I suddenly felt persecuted by the entire world, since the majority of the population doesn’t understand transgender people or are educated on the topic of being transgender, as you mentioned in the video. It’s not like I felt everyone was full on transphobic, but just the idea that someone didn’t understand me or entirely get me (which is already true enough as a cis male), that terrified me. On top of this fear was the extreme judgment that came from myself, being an ex Christian. And I couldn’t stop imagining my parents disappointment in me. I knew they’d immediately reject my being a transgender, and they’d probably want to get me into therapy as soon as possible, since I’m so “broken” and need fixing. It was the worst feeling ever.
So again, I know I’m not transgender, but I truly understand the mental struggle with it all. Especially that internal battle with yours self. Well, I suppose there are lucky folks who don’t have too many hardships, but I imagine the majority do have some issues to work through.
Anyway, thanks for sharing your experience. Whether it’s lucid dreaming or not I’ve always loved your videos, they have an odd calming affect on me...I think it’s a mix between your voice and the music you use hahah.
You bro, do you have a tip for improving the WILD being newy? I WBTB but most of the times just fall asleep and maybe there is a clue in the dream but not enough to be get lucidity...
I have issues with WBTB too. I often fall asleep and then find that I drift in and out of sleep with some lucidity but it's often very low. One thing that I do
is visualise a rope in front of me and as I pull the rope I'm pulling the dream scene towards me. Having something like that to focus on can help.