I had to Google what his channel name means. It makes me feel so sad for this man. Obviously it’s been 2 years since he posted anything, I wonder what happened that he only posted three videos? I hope he is thriving somewhere and has chased all his demons away. God bless him.
I hope this guy is still alive and well. I remember first watching his three videos on his channel when they were first uploaded and I was going through a difficult, depressing time. It was comforting watching him speak through the camera at the time, hearing him share. Every once in awhile I come back to see if he ever uploads anything else, but I see that he hasn’t. It has gotten better for me now in comparison to last year - of course, I’m not perfect and I still have my low days, but I have been better. I hope it has gotten better for you too. ❤️
Same here. Perhaps he's found the motivation and moved on from this channel. I hope these side-effects from this medication he's talking about in this video didn't cause any complications. Lockdown was tough on everyone. Whether he has stayed in the same place or found some answers, we would like to know what he is doing and if he is OK.
@Apocalyptic Workshop Hey man, glad to see you're keeping yourself busy, saw that other channel. Don't ever think you're back at square one, because you never really are with all that you have gone through you have become stronger and more experienced with it, you brain will always "heal" itself from trauma over time and things will only get better.
Do not take chemicals for depression... You need to make changes in your lifestyle get a dog use the sauna daily and take cold showers/ exercise.. best advice I ever got...
I'd love to hear how are you. Hopefully well. I've lived with depression and anxiety for 18 years now, there are much better times in between those years and some that are worse. In retrospect even the worst years are meaningful parts of life, but while living them it's hell. You are not alone. And it will pass, I promise. It will not change magically and just go away and it will require a lot from you, but nothing more than you can handle. Small steps. You have good insight, you have strength (even it might not feel like you do, but I see it).
Not sure why your videos just got recommended to me, but I see there are only 3, all released on the same day, 4 months ago. Hope you're doing ok, bud.
I used to crave for good friends and company in the past. Now, I've gotten used to being alone so much that I don't even desire having to dealing with another persons. Everyone has their own quirks, obsessiveness,pet peeves that you kind of have to navigate your way through it so that you won't unintentionally upset or hurt them. I have enough of my own issues and can't be bothered to deal with a friend's or acquaintance's issues. Once you get used to being by yourself, it is very difficult to turn back around and have a 2-way or multiple "communal" way of living.
Please don't give up if one medicine doesn't work for you. My ex-wife suffered from similar issues and every medication affects everyone differently and it a very fine line between helping and making things worse sometimes. I'm 49 now and my marriage has ended and i've lost both of my parents and i spend most of my days working and playing solo board games. I completely understand where you are coming from. I will say that I was never a dog person, but my wife wanted one and he is the only thing in my life that brings me pure childlike joy. And I know that one day I will lose him, but I would immediately be back to adopt another dog. At the end of the day, everything in life is a distraction. We all want to leave something behind, but most of us won't be remembered. That is just the human condition. You are not alone.
@@stevebillups9238 Happy for you brother. Sending love and hugs your way 🤗💕 I suggest believing in a higher power, God as you understand him, and an afterlife, for your peace of mind. And maintaining a mood diary daily, noticing the cognitive distortions in my thinking has been really beneficial for me 🤗
diazepam is an evil drug when used regularly, it took me 2 years to feel any kind of normal, the withdrawal was horrific. please continue to use sparingly bro. more vids please, your content is helping lots of people myself included. Would love see an update. best wishes
@@thejacobin9406 I didn’t go cold turkey pal, i tapered down under my Doctors supervision following years of diazepam use. I can relate it to “Jordan Petersons” hellish experiences. Never again
Honestly mate I've saved all your videos and I'm going through one of the hardest parts of my life, similar situation, no family, little friends, live in a city far away on my own for University. I've been on a few antidepressants before considering them again, good luck and please stay strong. All your subscribers are rooting for your happiness.
I've watched all of your videos. Hope you're doing well. You're definitely not alone on this journey. Hope to see your new videos, doing or sharing whatever you want. Hearing you talk feels really calm.
ive never seen anyone that mirrors my exact situation like this before. I'm a bit further down the line than you tho. Managed to find someone that loves me for who i am! Dude you are so like me 5 years ago it's insane. I'd love to talk with you if you wanted. Things can get infinitely better i promise you!
Beside that medicine, do take Vitamin D-3, you need it (most of us do). Lack of exposure to sun causes depression. That seems to be one of the causes in your case. Vitamin D-3 is very cheap and has lots of great effects. Hope you're feeling better these days.
I never thought anyone was struggling as much as me. I ran across one of your videos and I knew I wasn’t struggling alone. If your reading this I hope your doing well.
42 myself, living in Nagano. If not for my wife I would feel exactly the same. Even with the most loving woman in the world in my life I still struggle sometimes not to sink into lonliness, despair, and depression. Tomorrow I'm going to a clinic in Roppongi to see if they can help. I'm sure it has to be a brain chemistry thing. My life on paper is great and yet I can't drag myself up out of this funk. I hope you managed to get out of yours and I would love to see an update video and hear about how you're doing now.
Watch your videos man, hope you upload again sometime. 😢 We're rooting for you you're probably fine now hopefully and if not come on back we're here for you
I can recommend vitamin b3 (non flush - Niacin) for anxiety and b8 (Inositol) for depression. For me they worked way better than antidepressants, without the side effects. Hope this helps.
You may have to change until you get one that fits you. There are several just for that reason. When you do find the right one you will be back on track. Keep us updated. It's 4 months since you posted and those that saw your posts worry!
When you’re able, would love to hear an update. Struggling out here with a LOT of the exact same things as you brother. You’re not alone even though you feel as though you are.
just got this stuff prescriped last week - first time on dem pills - first day: felt dizzy, second day: went for a walk and passed out on the sidewalk. woke up in an ambulance. spend the rest of the day inside emergency room. not trying to scare anyone here out of trying them out but wanted to share this. fucked me up good that experience. keep it up king!
Do we have any updates on this guy? I found this channel by accident. I used to watch him when he created content in Indonesia as Bule British. He did some great videos but used to delete them regularly and constantly changed his channel name.
Hi, Depression is not a disease , this is the beginning of a spiritual wake-up call., you can,t treat it with medication , it will pass by itself. In this situation it is not important whether you have frinds or not., do not look for Love somewhere beyond yourself , find it in You first. TRUE LOVE MEANS - Trust , Gratitude , Caring , Compassion , Appreciation , Acceptance , Tolerance , Patience. Ask yourself one important quesstion ,, Who I Really Am ?,, . Take Care.
Are you OK mate? I just feel the need to ask cause you haven't posted a video in a few years. I'm not the only Internet stranger who would like to know you're OK.
He started a RUclips reaction channel with his wife about a year ago, although they seem to have stopped that now. On the outside it looks like things had changed for the better in his life.
why worry? there are so many people dying everyday unnoticed. We just don't know when your and my time will be. Life is strange indeed and unpredictable.
Hey man, just had RUclips bring up your videos. I hope you're in a much better place now and that things are going well for you! I'm. 44 and have had similar problems to you in the past. I found the best thing for me was when I changed my diet to meat based. I cut out all vegetables and just ate red meat, Eggs, fruit and honey and I have not had a panic attack in 3 years now. Also, that feeling of dread has completely gone and I no longer jump whenever there's a knock at the door or I get a text message 😅I also have a generally much more optimistic and upbeat attitude to life. Cutting out processed food has an absolutely huge affect on mental well being. I have also been hitting the gym which again has a big impact. Finger's crossed that everything is going much better for you now, mate. England isn't a great place to be when you're down. We're told 'our' NHS is the best health service in the world, but that's not been my experience. Just know that you can get out of this rut. You've done it before and you will again. Take care
Some of the symptoms of anxiety can be from life experiences, diet, lack of exercise, social isolation and all can interact to cause one another. One thing that many people do not recognise is spiritual factors - things people are involved in ( I explored Eastern practices years ago - several different things I explored as they came across my path and awakened a search for spiritual meaning in myself - but - they were spiritually dangerous - most people do not realise this - that certain things can open spiritual doors and we can be attacked spiritually - I had gone from being raised in a religion ( which had been one of several issue in childhood ) also spooky cartoons and tv programmes, scary stories - a fascination for Halloween in childhood and adult scary tv shows that were on when I was a child. In adulthood going to groups under the guise of self improvement ( connected to Hinduism thought I was pretty clueless when I was going there) then a Buddhist meditation group and brief dip into some yoga and some other stuff - i started getting night terrors and a work friend of mine who went to another Eastern group doing "exercises" ( which are really worship rituals in disguise as exercises ) she had weird stuff happen including out of body / astral projection which is very dangerous. The thing that cleared all that out for me was finding salvation in Jesus Christ via The Bible - no religion - just a reconciled relationship to our Creator via the one off salvation transaction - info about that on some of my playlists accessible by clicking on the green circle to the top left of this post and from youtubers like "Nicholas Getty" and "Gregg Jackson" and Mark at "ProclaimHisWord". This is the free gift that extends into eternity and is clean not like religion and the eastern stuff i tried - also people make big dangerous mistakes - trying to contact the dead and stuff like that - many people have been affected by traumas and also due to involvement in spiritually dangerous stuff which isn't always presented as dark - but is subtle deception. At the same time - many people have been fooled into tapping into dark practices like kabbalah and even types of witchccraft, horror movies, tarot cards, horoscopes - opening doors that they cannot close - Jesus Christ is the Only Help for these and for salvation of the soul.
I was put on this drug and it caused me severe suicidal thoughts and ideation. I would strongly suggest you research the drugs before taking them. I wish I had
I hope you are okay. The Corona shutdown destroyed so many millions of lives in so many ways. I wonder if the cure was worse than the disease. This young man has so much going for him, I hope he received the help he needed.
He started a RUclips reaction channel with his wife about a year ago but they seem to have stopped it now. From the outside looking in it seems that his life had moved on.
@@johnblax I'm assuming that he met someone and got married after he posted those videos so I guess he was in a better place to even be in a relationship.
I feel as I’m interacting with myself here Your situation and how you explain your experience is nearly identical to mine. As far as cutting my doses and everything! I’m currently off mine, and have been suffering for months. I’ve been scared to get back on because I can’t remember how it went last time; this video was exactly what I needed! I cannot tell you how much this helped me! Thank you And the last video too, thank you for sharing and reminding me that others know what I’m experiencing so closely I hope you are doing well friend
I'm on this boat too for a long time now and I want to turn my life around with a little bit of help that I'm not sure I'm going to get but I'll remain hopeful and I'll also see what can I do. My woe consist of me being defective physically, mentally and socially. I'm also being haunted by the past plus my environment and where I came from. I wish to control some of it and alter my course to be better. Idle for quite a long time now, gaming back then and now reading my classic literature books which is now my passion. Now I want to return to college to take something related to literature. But it could be more complicated and I really wish I'm not sounding like making an excuse. Some things doesn't define us, it can depends and there can be more about us as a person and not just be define by our problems and status. Though the majority, functioning and has less issues individuals may not understand, it has to be enough that we have ourselves, others like us and the ideas, the arts, philopsophies and stories that we can immerse ourselves into and use to hopefully get out of our predicament, to be free, to live fully.
People are asking for an update in this comment section mate which shows we all care. So I think you owe us an update because I've only just discovered this page and we all care about you. I notice you haven't added an e mail address in your 'about tab because I wanted to e mail you and have a video call with you as I can relate more than you know. So we are all here for you. So accept the help and start making those human connections. You got this mate! Big love!
Why say that he's passed away? I bet you don't even know him. It's cruel. If you genuinely know the guy and know of his wellbeing then write a genuine comment at the top. Lots of people are asking out of genuine concern.
recently found your vids ...ya sound like your from my neck of the woods ... i hope your doing better and maybe have a friend now ... i have the problem with my throat feel like its closing up at times ...anyway i hope lifes treatin you a lot better now
It's like listening to myself !!! Last year I developed panic attacks...had to call an ambulance twice- once at work. Doctor gave me the little "pam" pills. And you are right...it's comforting to know that I have them...just in case. I tried anti-anxiety pills....they dont work for me. I take magnesium. Thank you for sharing. There is always comfort in numbers !!
Wow this is very sad 😔 does anybody know that he’s OK how he’s doing? But if you get to read this comment or anybody else that is going through this, you’re aren’t alone I pray for you every day please God have something special for you don’t give up 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
hey, hope u are ok...............i think u saved my sanity..........thank u so much for sharing your experiences and feelings.........please know that people are thinking about u..........we care about u.
I also take a medication for my depression, though my doctor was very clear about having to start slowly. He advised me to cut the pills in half and take half a pill per day for the first 10-12 days, then switch to a full dose of one pill per day. He also told me that the effects wouldn't start until 4-8 weeks during our first appointment where we discussed starting with this antidepressant. I do live in Belgium, so maybe a difference in doctors experiences between our countries.
I was put on antidepressants here in UK but they made me feel so bad, but when I told the GP I felt the tablets were making me feel worse I was told to "Stop them, then". So I stopped them, and have refused tablets ever since. I only later found out that they should have tried me on different tablets if the initial ones don't work. I was with a friend in Belgium who went to see her GP then had to go to the hospital for tests, and the service reminds my of the medical system I grew up with in South Africa many years ago. Here in UK it's awful. I've not been able to get a GP appointment for a few months, now. Neither has my elderly dad who is supposed to be monitored by the GP after an operation but there are no appointments available. We've been told a week ago that there's nothing before Xmas. It wasn't too bad before a couple of surgeries closed down and left one to take up the patients, then shortly after was the lock downs which seem to have collapsed everything. The chemists are struggling to get some drugs at the moment, too. I'm having to rely on charities for my mental health problems, and they have long waiting lists but the NHS system couldn't help me because they are struggling to cope with people in a much worse condition than I am. Anyway, I'm going on a rant, now! 🙂
Thanks for the video. I have been housebound in London Hotel for about 5 weeks (on and off alcohol has enabled me to get out to some extent, but obviously made things worse) second day off alcohol, but I had telephone appointment with Dr here and was prescribed Escitalopram 5mg for a week last Wednesday. I didn't pick them up until last Friday as was shaking from fear and was totally a sight, and this was me on alcohol. I had to go and collect them from Boots today as Dr called earlier and prescribed 28 tables, Escitalopram. Funny to describe, but waiting to go out of room, 1st for shower, then actually to hand in key scared the shit out of me; however, it wasn't that bad and when I was outside I gradually talked myself a little calmer - thus, I think the medication is having an effect. I guess you know feeling of feeling like a freak, all eyes on you etc is so shameful, but totally out of or control. Your story is in someways a little similar: I arrived here from China about 7 weeks ago, I worked there as International teacher. I have struggled with anxiety most of adult life, but to much lesser degree. I left Moscow to get to China 3 weeks before pandemic broke out. My Wife was pregnant with our Son and she and our daughter went to her mon's in the Philippines to give birth. She was meant to come to China, but the pandemic closed and made the journey in or out impossible. Months went to years, and over time my mental, and physical, health went down. Long story short, I was shipped out of China back to London via a medical hospital (yes a guy in Chinese mental hospital, with about 10 words of English). I was in there due to an act I carried out, best not to elaborate. Anyway, I think reality has hit in London and massive anxiety has been present even with self medication alcohol, medicines I had from China, and later Doctor. Money running down as in London hotel which is expensive. It's only today that I can only hope, and believe, that the Escitalopram will get me finished up here so I can travel on. I hope to get better, get physically fitter, stay away from alcohol and be able to travel to Philippines in Summer. Have been feeling so alone her, and guess I am, but reading your, and others, comments, If I have a panic attack "so what" I got to get my mindset right as sick of living in fear. Thanks for sharing, good luck.
I remember back when he first uploaded these videos. I was going through the same thing (and still am) that he elaborates on in his videos. While I remain optimistic about the future, I can't help but wonder if he found better days in his life. I don't want to come across as selfish or anything, but man, I would be lying if I said I don't check his channel periodically looking for a new video on his current state.
Depression and anxiety are spiritual at the roots I battle it with my hope in Jesus and taking each day at a time and not living in a pessimistic future or bitter past.
There is a reason we are all depressed. Personally - I lost my husband - died of Cocaine overdose and Daughter (estranged). The divide between the rich and the poor is what gets to us all.
I've always refused meds. I prefer simply dietary means of improving my mood. Like lots of spinach and cabbage, and NO Carbs. Works every time. I also avoid anything with Rye in it.
i dont know your situation, but if you can get a trainer for exercise, it is massively beneficial. If not, just try going for a jog/run. I'm trying to use exercise to come off of fluoxetine. i've been on it for 18months because i was just an absolute mess of a person. Lucky i didn't have agoraphobia though.
I will give this one a try. I am a so called hikikomoi I've bean like that for 2-3 years aperently I have depresion and anxiety too. I have been take some drugs but nothing really helps a lot. I would love to see more updates from you. This would mean a lot to the people who are like you. This may seem very selfish. But at least pls tell us if you are OK. Ps: love from your new subscriber ❤️
I only took LSD once when I was sixteen and thankfully had a good trip. I would be scared to take it now, I fear that it would permanently destroy my brain and make my anxiety a hundred times worse. Maybe I would make me psychotic.
@B D I believe you believe that. It’s what you’ve heard I understand. I used to think like that too. What you are parroting is drug enforcement propaganda. These type urban legends have been around since the late 60s and are kept going and perpetuated by each generation. Another favorite myth was that LSD caused chromosome damage. Another was people thinking they could fly and jumping off of balconies of hi rise buildings. Then the one about MDMA use causing holes in your brain. PCP giving people super human strength. Even recently with Alpha-PVP turning people into face eating zombies. The common thread with all of these different substance’s stories is they are all false. Not true ..made up. Once more no one has ever went on a permanent trip. There is zero medical evidence in medical journals of this ever happening
@B D I was good friends for years with a man named Nick Sand. Google his name. I think I know a bit more than you about the psychedelic movement and counter culture. Google his name. That’s the people that I learned my information from. Low IQ on my part huh?? Well you can’t be in the line of work we were in for decades and be a mental slouch. That’s the funny thing about the internet. You never know who your conversing with on the other end of that comment. You just happened to pick that one person in a million who really knows what time it is.
Similar situation; this life sucks. Seek God; it really helped me. I know it's cliché, but it's the only thing that has helped me. Also, the pandemic experience was so similar to mine. I finally was coming off the meds, finally had a steady job, even started thinking about buying a house. Suddenly, everything got destroyed; they closed the gyms, which are my therapy, and I got locked in my room. I lost every single penny, friends, job, everything. Now, I'm really tired of starting again (this would be my fourth time starting again). But I was just reviewing my resume to start again, from zero, all over again. Thank you for the video and the advice!
All those happy pills never worked for me, what worked was ADHD medication like Ritalin or now Elvanse. They get me going and takes away much of the root of the problem, my overthinking and always pondering
If you ever read this comment I would like to recommend some great books. (Trust me). Rewiring The Anxious Brain by Catherine Pittman, and Stopping The Noise In Your Head by Reid Wilson. What maintains anxiety is avoidance. You gotta push yourself out of your comfort zone. The gym is a great place to start. Anyway, hope you are well. Take care.
Hey, my friend, how are you doing? I'm from Vietnam by the way, but your loneliness is so close to what I have been seeing here, and that has really changed my world view, specially after your last video. We all care about you, mate. Trust me, please!
I hope you’re doing well, many of us are concerned and we consider ourselves to be your friends as we many of us can relate to all of the things you’ve mentioned in your videos were very concerned and hope to hear from you soon your friend here in the USA Florida
Hey I just noticed all your videos are 3 months old. I really hope you make more, I've never come across a channel that resonates with me so much. I really mean that...
Yeah, don't disappear or ignore this channel if times are tough.. I guarantee you, kids and young people (worldwide) are searching videos like this to look for help. Your story is harsh, but real. Let others know what's up even if it's embarrassing or difficult. You're braver than you think for making these 3 videos. Keep going.
I was on regular citalopram for a few years and found it didn’t do anything. Moved onto mirtazapine and that worked for a while but it made you a total zombie. It would make you sleep for 10 hours and never really feel awake. Stopped taking all meds 3 years ago. I find working out and outside walks help no end. Eating properly, nothing extreme just cut out ready meals and takeaways. Big one is the booze. Even a few pints can trigger off a depression lasting a few weeks. I just don’t bother now, luckily I prefer a little green. I just have to be careful not to wake and bake and make an effort to get out the house. Please look into any jab before you let them stick you brother.
If you want a moral boost here’s some channels I watch, they all got kicked off here for truth telling. “ScottyMar10”, “Truth and Art TV”, “And We Know”, “X-22 Report”, “Redpill78” and “The Patriot Hour”. I watch on Rumble and DLive.
Ugh I feel ur pain.... The damn dizziness, lightheadedness, exhaustion, fatigue along with the other lovely symptoms... I hope ur doing well my friend...
How are you now, just found your vids and they are so valuable as youre talking about such personal but relevant stuff to so many people including me.💯
I have chronic depression and anxiety. I tried 20 mg. I was nauseous, had heart palpitations, body sore, felt like I was on a really bad drug trip. Anxiety through the roof!!! I was physically Ill from it. It was awful. Couldn’t leave my bed
I had to Google what his channel name means. It makes me feel so sad for this man. Obviously it’s been 2 years since he posted anything, I wonder what happened that he only posted three videos? I hope he is thriving somewhere and has chased all his demons away. God bless him.
I hope this guy is still alive and well. I remember first watching his three videos on his channel when they were first uploaded and I was going through a difficult, depressing time. It was comforting watching him speak through the camera at the time, hearing him share. Every once in awhile I come back to see if he ever uploads anything else, but I see that he hasn’t. It has gotten better for me now in comparison to last year - of course, I’m not perfect and I still have my low days, but I have been better.
I hope it has gotten better for you too.
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Same here. Watched it long time ago and came back to see how he is doing.
Well, no updates so far and I'm kinda worried about him.
@hikikomori Bro?..
Same here. Perhaps he's found the motivation and moved on from this channel. I hope these side-effects from this medication he's talking about in this video didn't cause any complications. Lockdown was tough on everyone. Whether he has stayed in the same place or found some answers, we would like to know what he is doing and if he is OK.
Hey there to anybody got any tips on how to managed Anxiety......
He died. RIP.
@@Gukzilla How do you know?
I just found this channel but videos are 2 years old...i hope he is alright...
Same here
Hi, it's me again. How are you feeling these days? Would love to hear another update soon. Cheers.
Yes please, you ok?
me too, i would also like to know how you are?
@S JLA he is not!!!!! this is just a sick joke
@Apocalyptic Workshop Hey man, glad to see you're keeping yourself busy, saw that other channel. Don't ever think you're back at square one, because you never really are with all that you have gone through you have become stronger and more experienced with it, you brain will always "heal" itself from trauma over time and things will only get better.
Do not take chemicals for depression... You need to make changes in your lifestyle get a dog use the sauna daily and take cold showers/ exercise.. best advice I ever got...
You're definitely not alone. I'm impressed by the amount of love in this comment section.
I'd love to hear how are you. Hopefully well. I've lived with depression and anxiety for 18 years now, there are much better times in between those years and some that are worse. In retrospect even the worst years are meaningful parts of life, but while living them it's hell. You are not alone. And it will pass, I promise. It will not change magically and just go away and it will require a lot from you, but nothing more than you can handle. Small steps. You have good insight, you have strength (even it might not feel like you do, but I see it).
@Apocalyptic Workshop Please read my comment posted above!!
@Apocalyptic Workshop Really glad you're doing alright.
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Has anybody heard from him?
Just found your channel. I'ts been 2yrs since your last update...
I truly hope you're doing well. 🍀
Sending you tons of love & positive vibes! 🥰✨🌞
This is two years ago. Really hope all is better for you now. Thanks for sharing how a lot of people feel
Not sure why your videos just got recommended to me, but I see there are only 3, all released on the same day, 4 months ago. Hope you're doing ok, bud.
Same
Same here ...
I hope your ok man, would love to hear back from you. I've tapered off several medication but the anxiety and depression always comes back.
I used to crave for good friends and company in the past. Now, I've gotten used to being alone so much that I don't even desire having to dealing with another persons. Everyone has their own quirks, obsessiveness,pet peeves that you kind of have to navigate your way through it so that you won't unintentionally upset or hurt them. I have enough of my own issues and can't be bothered to deal with a friend's or acquaintance's issues. Once you get used to being by yourself, it is very difficult to turn back around and have a 2-way or multiple "communal" way of living.
I agree with you
Please don't give up if one medicine doesn't work for you. My ex-wife suffered from similar issues and every medication affects everyone differently and it a very fine line between helping and making things worse sometimes. I'm 49 now and my marriage has ended and i've lost both of my parents and i spend most of my days working and playing solo board games. I completely understand where you are coming from. I will say that I was never a dog person, but my wife wanted one and he is the only thing in my life that brings me pure childlike joy. And I know that one day I will lose him, but I would immediately be back to adopt another dog. At the end of the day, everything in life is a distraction. We all want to leave something behind, but most of us won't be remembered. That is just the human condition. You are not alone.
How are you doing now?
@@LuxLisbon32 Still here. Still in therapy lol.
@@stevebillups9238 Happy for you brother. Sending love and hugs your way 🤗💕 I suggest believing in a higher power, God as you understand him, and an afterlife, for your peace of mind. And maintaining a mood diary daily, noticing the cognitive distortions in my thinking has been really beneficial for me 🤗
diazepam is an evil drug when used regularly, it took me 2 years to feel any kind of normal, the withdrawal was horrific. please continue to use sparingly bro. more vids please, your content is helping lots of people myself included. Would love see an update. best wishes
You arent supposed to quit cold turkey my dude. I titrated off them for over a year, minimal side effects
@@thejacobin9406 I didn’t go cold turkey pal, i tapered down under my Doctors supervision following years of diazepam use. I can relate it to “Jordan Petersons” hellish experiences. Never again
@@thejacobin9406 ruclips.net/video/hKw4orqKkVY/видео.html
@@tonyxvx1966 JB got off cold turkey, perhaps you titrated too fast?
you can't use 'sparingly' it's a daily thing until you taper off
Honestly mate I've saved all your videos and I'm going through one of the hardest parts of my life, similar situation, no family, little friends, live in a city far away on my own for University. I've been on a few antidepressants before considering them again, good luck and please stay strong. All your subscribers are rooting for your happiness.
How you doing now everything going better mate ?
I've watched all of your videos. Hope you're doing well. You're definitely not alone on this journey. Hope to see your new videos, doing or sharing whatever you want. Hearing you talk feels really calm.
ive never seen anyone that mirrors my exact situation like this before. I'm a bit further down the line than you tho. Managed to find someone that loves me for who i am! Dude you are so like me 5 years ago it's insane. I'd love to talk with you if you wanted. Things can get infinitely better i promise you!
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He has so many "friends" on here thats for sure.
I check back every so often in the hope this guy posts. I hope you're doing ok if you read this. Be good to see ya say hello if you're up to it?
How are you feeling these days? Hope to hear from you soon. 🙏🏻❤
Beside that medicine, do take Vitamin D-3, you need it (most of us do). Lack of exposure to sun causes depression. That seems to be one of the causes in your case. Vitamin D-3 is very cheap and has lots of great effects.
Hope you're feeling better these days.
My doctor just told me that too. I started taking it.
@@SuperToughnut I’d suggest taking vitamin k along with it.
I never thought anyone was struggling as much as me. I ran across one of your videos and I knew I wasn’t struggling alone. If your reading this I hope your doing well.
Same
Ask God just ONCE to help u and he will! ❤
God will help u in Jesus name! ❤
42 myself, living in Nagano. If not for my wife I would feel exactly the same. Even with the most loving woman in the world in my life I still struggle sometimes not to sink into lonliness, despair, and depression. Tomorrow I'm going to a clinic in Roppongi to see if they can help. I'm sure it has to be a brain chemistry thing. My life on paper is great and yet I can't drag myself up out of this funk. I hope you managed to get out of yours and I would love to see an update video and hear about how you're doing now.
Watch your videos man, hope you upload again sometime. 😢 We're rooting for you you're probably fine now hopefully and if not come on back we're here for you
I can recommend vitamin b3 (non flush - Niacin) for anxiety and b8 (Inositol) for depression. For me they worked way better than antidepressants, without the side effects. Hope this helps.
You may have to change until you get one that fits you. There are several just for that reason. When you do find the right one you will be back on track. Keep us updated. It's 4 months since you posted and those that saw your posts worry!
When you’re able, would love to hear an update. Struggling out here with a LOT of the exact same things as you brother. You’re not alone even though you feel as though you are.
I started taking Lexapro few months ago and I can tell I don't get as down as I used to. I'm grateful for it
just got this stuff prescriped last week - first time on dem pills - first day: felt dizzy, second day: went for a walk and passed out on the sidewalk. woke up in an ambulance. spend the rest of the day inside emergency room. not trying to scare anyone here out of trying them out but wanted to share this. fucked me up good that experience. keep it up king!
Do we have any updates on this guy?
I found this channel by accident. I used to watch him when he created content in Indonesia as Bule British. He did some great videos but used to delete them regularly and constantly changed his channel name.
Hi, Depression is not a disease , this is the beginning of a spiritual wake-up call., you can,t treat it with medication , it will pass by itself.
In this situation it is not important whether you have frinds or not., do not look for Love somewhere beyond yourself , find it in You first.
TRUE LOVE MEANS - Trust , Gratitude , Caring , Compassion , Appreciation , Acceptance , Tolerance , Patience.
Ask yourself one important quesstion ,, Who I Really Am ?,, . Take Care.
Are you OK mate? I just feel the need to ask cause you haven't posted a video in a few years. I'm not the only Internet stranger who would like to know you're OK.
He started a RUclips reaction channel with his wife about a year ago, although they seem to have stopped that now. On the outside it looks like things had changed for the better in his life.
@@danielcowan8673 that's good to know. I just wanted to know the dude was OK. He was in a low place.
whats the name of the channel@@danielcowan8673
@@danielcowan8673whats channel?
@danielcowan8673 what's the name of his new channel?
I really worry about this guy. Can anyone know how to find him?
why worry? there are so many people dying everyday unnoticed. We just don't know when your and my time will be. Life is strange indeed and unpredictable.
I hope the meds helped you and you feel better. Please keep us updated. Much love and strength
i genuinely hope this guy is doing okay
Hey man, just had RUclips bring up your videos. I hope you're in a much better place now and that things are going well for you! I'm. 44 and have had similar problems to you in the past. I found the best thing for me was when I changed my diet to meat based. I cut out all vegetables and just ate red meat, Eggs, fruit and honey and I have not had a panic attack in 3 years now. Also, that feeling of dread has completely gone and I no longer jump whenever there's a knock at the door or I get a text message 😅I also have a generally much more optimistic and upbeat attitude to life. Cutting out processed food has an absolutely huge affect on mental well being. I have also been hitting the gym which again has a big impact.
Finger's crossed that everything is going much better for you now, mate. England isn't a great place to be when you're down. We're told 'our' NHS is the best health service in the world, but that's not been my experience. Just know that you can get out of this rut. You've done it before and you will again. Take care
give us an update if you can, you are such a kind sounding human, I hope you are feeling well.
Some of the symptoms of anxiety can be from life experiences, diet, lack of exercise, social isolation and all can interact to cause one another. One thing that many people do not recognise is spiritual factors - things people are involved in ( I explored Eastern practices years ago - several different things I explored as they came across my path and awakened a search for spiritual meaning in myself - but - they were spiritually dangerous - most people do not realise this - that certain things can open spiritual doors and we can be attacked spiritually - I had gone from being raised in a religion ( which had been one of several issue in childhood ) also spooky cartoons and tv programmes, scary stories - a fascination for Halloween in childhood and adult scary tv shows that were on when I was a child. In adulthood going to groups under the guise of self improvement ( connected to Hinduism thought I was pretty clueless when I was going there) then a Buddhist meditation group and brief dip into some yoga and some other stuff - i started getting night terrors and a work friend of mine who went to another Eastern group doing "exercises" ( which are really worship rituals in disguise as exercises ) she had weird stuff happen including out of body / astral projection which is very dangerous.
The thing that cleared all that out for me was finding salvation in Jesus Christ via The Bible - no religion - just a reconciled relationship to our Creator via the one off salvation transaction - info about that on some of my playlists accessible by clicking on the green circle to the top left of this post and from youtubers like "Nicholas Getty" and
"Gregg Jackson" and Mark at "ProclaimHisWord". This is the free gift that extends into eternity and is clean not like religion and the eastern stuff i tried - also people make big dangerous mistakes - trying to contact the dead and stuff like that - many people have been affected by traumas and also due to involvement in spiritually dangerous stuff which isn't always presented as dark - but is subtle deception. At the same time - many people have been fooled into tapping into dark practices like kabbalah and even types of witchccraft, horror movies, tarot cards, horoscopes - opening doors that they cannot close - Jesus Christ is the Only Help for these and for salvation of the soul.
I was put on this drug and it caused me severe suicidal thoughts and ideation. I would strongly suggest you research the drugs before taking them. I wish I had
Did you ever try any others?
I hope you are okay. The Corona shutdown destroyed so many millions of lives in so many ways. I wonder if the cure was worse than the disease. This young man has so much going for him, I hope he received the help he needed.
2 years and no update? That worries me for this guy. Anyone have an update from him? 😧
He started a RUclips reaction channel with his wife about a year ago but they seem to have stopped it now. From the outside looking in it seems that his life had moved on.
Good to hear! And yeah, to think they have moved on with life, we can say they're at a better place.
@@johnblax I'm assuming that he met someone and got married after he posted those videos so I guess he was in a better place to even be in a relationship.
@@danielcowan8673ohhh what's it called
@@berserkagain7976I can't find anything on this dude. I'd like to know too.
I started praying and it helped as well.
I feel as I’m interacting with myself here
Your situation and how you explain your experience is nearly identical to mine. As far as cutting my doses and everything! I’m currently off mine, and have been suffering for months. I’ve been scared to get back on because I can’t remember how it went last time; this video was exactly what I needed! I cannot tell you how much this helped me! Thank you
And the last video too, thank you for sharing and reminding me that others know what I’m experiencing so closely
I hope you are doing well friend
Hey there, how are things with you now? Hope you're doing better. Let us all know you're ok, please. Thanks! Hang in there.
I'm on this boat too for a long time now and I want to turn my life around with a little bit of help that I'm not sure I'm going to get but I'll remain hopeful and I'll also see what can I do. My woe consist of me being defective physically, mentally and socially. I'm also being haunted by the past plus my environment and where I came from. I wish to control some of it and alter my course to be better. Idle for quite a long time now, gaming back then and now reading my classic literature books which is now my passion. Now I want to return to college to take something related to literature. But it could be more complicated and I really wish I'm not sounding like making an excuse. Some things doesn't define us, it can depends and there can be more about us as a person and not just be define by our problems and status. Though the majority, functioning and has less issues individuals may not understand, it has to be enough that we have ourselves, others like us and the ideas, the arts, philopsophies and stories that we can immerse ourselves into and use to hopefully get out of our predicament, to be free, to live fully.
You are wonderfully made in Jesus mighty name ❤
People are asking for an update in this comment section mate which shows we all care. So I think you owe us an update because I've only just discovered this page and we all care about you. I notice you haven't added an e mail address in your 'about tab because I wanted to e mail you and have a video call with you as I can relate more than you know. So we are all here for you. So accept the help and start making those human connections. You got this mate! Big love!
He can't give any update anymore, sadly he passed away.
@@Gukzillageez, for real?! I was about to ask how’s he been? 😢
Why say that he's passed away? I bet you don't even know him. It's cruel. If you genuinely know the guy and know of his wellbeing then write a genuine comment at the top. Lots of people are asking out of genuine concern.
recently found your vids ...ya sound like your from my neck of the woods ... i hope your doing better and maybe have a friend now ... i have the problem with my throat feel like its closing up at times ...anyway i hope lifes treatin you a lot better now
I've been subscribed to you for over 2 years and noticed you haven't uploaded in a while.
Hope you’re in a better place. I think I am...
It's like listening to myself !!!
Last year I developed panic attacks...had to call an ambulance twice- once at work.
Doctor gave me the little "pam" pills. And you are right...it's comforting to know that I have them...just in case.
I tried anti-anxiety pills....they dont work for me. I take magnesium.
Thank you for sharing. There is always comfort in numbers !!
Wow this is very sad 😔 does anybody know that he’s OK how he’s doing? But if you get to read this comment or anybody else that is going through this, you’re aren’t alone I pray for you every day please God have something special for you don’t give up 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
Your videos are important and helpful to a lot of people, keep up the good work and I hope you continue getting better.
Hope you’re doing alright man, you’re not alone
Really wish we could get an update from this man.
hey, hope u are ok...............i think u saved my sanity..........thank u so much for sharing your experiences and feelings.........please know that people are thinking about u..........we care about u.
Wow, you seem to be doing much better than on previous vids. I hope it is going well for you. The epidemic hit hard all of us. Keep us updated! :)
I also take a medication for my depression, though my doctor was very clear about having to start slowly. He advised me to cut the pills in half and take half a pill per day for the first 10-12 days, then switch to a full dose of one pill per day. He also told me that the effects wouldn't start until 4-8 weeks during our first appointment where we discussed starting with this antidepressant. I do live in Belgium, so maybe a difference in doctors experiences between our countries.
I was put on antidepressants here in UK but they made me feel so bad, but when I told the GP I felt the tablets were making me feel worse I was told to "Stop them, then". So I stopped them, and have refused tablets ever since. I only later found out that they should have tried me on different tablets if the initial ones don't work. I was with a friend in Belgium who went to see her GP then had to go to the hospital for tests, and the service reminds my of the medical system I grew up with in South Africa many years ago. Here in UK it's awful. I've not been able to get a GP appointment for a few months, now. Neither has my elderly dad who is supposed to be monitored by the GP after an operation but there are no appointments available. We've been told a week ago that there's nothing before Xmas. It wasn't too bad before a couple of surgeries closed down and left one to take up the patients, then shortly after was the lock downs which seem to have collapsed everything. The chemists are struggling to get some drugs at the moment, too. I'm having to rely on charities for my mental health problems, and they have long waiting lists but the NHS system couldn't help me because they are struggling to cope with people in a much worse condition than I am. Anyway, I'm going on a rant, now! 🙂
UPDATES on 'Hikikomori 2' (NEW CHANNEL):
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Tried to go to the site and it said the user has deleted his account
Thanks for the video. I have been housebound in London Hotel for about 5 weeks (on and off alcohol has enabled me to get out to some extent, but obviously made things worse) second day off alcohol, but I had telephone appointment with Dr here and was prescribed Escitalopram 5mg for a week last Wednesday. I didn't pick them up until last Friday as was shaking from fear and was totally a sight, and this was me on alcohol. I had to go and collect them from Boots today as Dr called earlier and prescribed 28 tables, Escitalopram. Funny to describe, but waiting to go out of room, 1st for shower, then actually to hand in key scared the shit out of me; however, it wasn't that bad and when I was outside I gradually talked myself a little calmer - thus, I think the medication is having an effect. I guess you know feeling of feeling like a freak, all eyes on you etc is so shameful, but totally out of or control. Your story is in someways a little similar: I arrived here from China about 7 weeks ago, I worked there as International teacher. I have struggled with anxiety most of adult life, but to much lesser degree. I left Moscow to get to China 3 weeks before pandemic broke out. My Wife was pregnant with our Son and she and our daughter went to her mon's in the Philippines to give birth. She was meant to come to China, but the pandemic closed and made the journey in or out impossible. Months went to years, and over time my mental, and physical, health went down. Long story short, I was shipped out of China back to London via a medical hospital (yes a guy in Chinese mental hospital, with about 10 words of English). I was in there due to an act I carried out, best not to elaborate. Anyway, I think reality has hit in London and massive anxiety has been present even with self medication alcohol, medicines I had from China, and later Doctor. Money running down as in London hotel which is expensive. It's only today that I can only hope, and believe, that the Escitalopram will get me finished up here so I can travel on. I hope to get better, get physically fitter, stay away from alcohol and be able to travel to Philippines in Summer. Have been feeling so alone her, and guess I am, but reading your, and others, comments, If I have a panic attack "so what" I got to get my mindset right as sick of living in fear. Thanks for sharing, good luck.
I remember back when he first uploaded these videos. I was going through the same thing (and still am) that he elaborates on in his videos. While I remain optimistic about the future, I can't help but wonder if he found better days in his life. I don't want to come across as selfish or anything, but man, I would be lying if I said I don't check his channel periodically looking for a new video on his current state.
hes gone :(
@@mauuvillani Are you bullshitting me?
I check back frequently too. I really hope he's doing 👌ok x
How do you know he's gone? And gone where?
@@justalittleyoutuber Likewise
Depression and anxiety are spiritual at the roots I battle it with my hope in Jesus and taking each day at a time and not living in a pessimistic future or bitter past.
I want to hug him so bad and tell him everything is going to be okey 🥺
There is a reason we are all depressed. Personally - I lost my husband - died of Cocaine overdose and Daughter (estranged). The divide between the rich and the poor is what gets to us all.
4 months ago? Hope things have started looking up for him. He seems like a genuinely good person
where is this man now?
I think the Lexapro has cured him, and he’s out there being social as fuck and super fly, that’s why he doesn’t post anymore!
I would really like to think so.
According to another commenter on here he is married to a Chinese woman who makes OnlyFans videos.
@@LuxLisbon32why dont he post?
I've always refused meds. I prefer simply dietary means of improving my mood. Like lots of spinach and cabbage, and NO Carbs. Works every time. I also avoid anything with Rye in it.
i dont know your situation, but if you can get a trainer for exercise, it is massively beneficial. If not, just try going for a jog/run. I'm trying to use exercise to come off of fluoxetine. i've been on it for 18months because i was just an absolute mess of a person. Lucky i didn't have agoraphobia though.
I will give this one a try. I am a so called hikikomoi I've bean like that for 2-3 years aperently I have depresion and anxiety too. I have been take some drugs but nothing really helps a lot. I would love to see more updates from you. This would mean a lot to the people who are like you. This may seem very selfish. But at least pls tell us if you are OK.
Ps: love from your new subscriber ❤️
How are things today? Merry Christmas and all the best for 2024 🎄
Are you still here? Are you alive? How are you doing now? It's Christmas, currently.
Magic mushrooms statistically work wonders for depression and anxiety.
I only took LSD once when I was sixteen and thankfully had a good trip. I would be scared to take it now, I fear that it would permanently destroy my brain and make my anxiety a hundred times worse. Maybe I would make me psychotic.
@B D no such thing as a permanent trip.
@B D I believe you believe that. It’s what you’ve heard I understand. I used to think like that too. What you are parroting is drug enforcement propaganda. These type urban legends have been around since the late 60s and are kept going and perpetuated by each generation. Another favorite myth was that LSD caused chromosome damage. Another was people thinking they could fly and jumping off of balconies of hi rise buildings. Then the one about MDMA use causing holes in your brain. PCP giving people super human strength. Even recently with Alpha-PVP turning people into face eating zombies. The common thread with all of these different substance’s stories is they are all false. Not true ..made up. Once more no one has ever went on a permanent trip. There is zero medical evidence in medical journals of this ever happening
@B D I was good friends for years with a man named Nick Sand. Google his name. I think I know a bit more than you about the psychedelic movement and counter culture. Google his name. That’s the people that I learned my information from. Low IQ on my part huh?? Well you can’t be in the line of work we were in for decades and be a mental slouch. That’s the funny thing about the internet. You never know who your conversing with on the other end of that comment. You just happened to pick that one person in a million who really knows what time it is.
Similar situation; this life sucks. Seek God; it really helped me. I know it's cliché, but it's the only thing that has helped me. Also, the pandemic experience was so similar to mine. I finally was coming off the meds, finally had a steady job, even started thinking about buying a house. Suddenly, everything got destroyed; they closed the gyms, which are my therapy, and I got locked in my room. I lost every single penny, friends, job, everything. Now, I'm really tired of starting again (this would be my fourth time starting again). But I was just reviewing my resume to start again, from zero, all over again. Thank you for the video and the advice!
All those happy pills never worked for me, what worked was ADHD medication like Ritalin or now Elvanse. They get me going and takes away much of the root of the problem, my overthinking and always pondering
This just got on my recommendations and I'm glad I did
Hey there... please, please please let us hear from you. So many can relate to what you feel.
If you ever read this comment I would like to recommend some great books. (Trust me). Rewiring The Anxious Brain by Catherine Pittman, and Stopping The Noise In Your Head by Reid Wilson.
What maintains anxiety is avoidance. You gotta push yourself out of your comfort zone. The gym is a great place to start.
Anyway, hope you are well. Take care.
Hi pls make more videos of your life it is highly relatable to me.
I hope your feeling a bit better these days. Remember your NOT alone.
So I just ran into your videos. Says it's 2yrs ago that u posted. Did things get better? Did you meet someone?
I dont think he met someone. He has anxiety and depression because he is alone. He is alone because he has anxiety and depression. its a cycle.
It's actually nearly 3 years❤🫂🙏
Hey, my friend, how are you doing? I'm from Vietnam by the way, but your loneliness is so close to what I have been seeing here, and that has really changed my world view, specially after your last video. We all care about you, mate. Trust me, please!
Any update how are you doing been 3 year now, Hope you're ok
I've asked as well. It's actually nearly 3 years! ❤🙏
@@michael5089 Hi Michael hope your well,yes you are right coming up to 3 years now,i was checking in to see if there was any news but nothing!
I hope you’re doing well, many of us are concerned and we consider ourselves to be your friends as we many of us can relate to all of the things you’ve mentioned in your videos were very concerned and hope to hear from you soon your friend here in the USA Florida
Im happy to hear you are feeling a bit better : )
I want a update on how you are doing. Pleaae.
Anyone know about him? I always come back an no updates. Where is he?
Where are you now?
Hey I just noticed all your videos are 3 months old. I really hope you make more, I've never come across a channel that resonates with me so much. I really mean that...
Please tell us how your doing?💙💙💙
I hope you are ok man you are not alone we all feel like this some are just better at hiding it that’s all
I wonder where you are. I hope things are better for you now my friend.
please give an update on how you're doing.
Yeah, don't disappear or ignore this channel if times are tough.. I guarantee you, kids and young people (worldwide) are searching videos like this to look for help. Your story is harsh, but real. Let others know what's up even if it's embarrassing or difficult. You're braver than you think for making these 3 videos. Keep going.
@Apocalyptic Workshop I can def relate to a lot of what you've shared. Hope you are doing ok!
I was on regular citalopram for a few years and found it didn’t do anything. Moved onto mirtazapine and that worked for a while but it made you a total zombie. It would make you sleep for 10 hours and never really feel awake. Stopped taking all meds 3 years ago. I find working out and outside walks help no end. Eating properly, nothing extreme just cut out ready meals and takeaways. Big one is the booze. Even a few pints can trigger off a depression lasting a few weeks. I just don’t bother now, luckily I prefer a little green. I just have to be careful not to wake and bake and make an effort to get out the house. Please look into any jab before you let them stick you brother.
If you want a moral boost here’s some channels I watch, they all got kicked off here for truth telling. “ScottyMar10”, “Truth and Art TV”, “And We Know”, “X-22 Report”, “Redpill78” and “The Patriot Hour”. I watch on Rumble and DLive.
Hey Bud u aight? Would Love an update
@Apocalyptic Workshop would love some more videos but it's great to hear that ur ok
Bro where are you? Been 2 years now.
Its 2024 are you still with us?💚💚💚💚
It would be good to hear how you are getting on.
Ugh I feel ur pain.... The damn dizziness, lightheadedness, exhaustion, fatigue along with the other lovely symptoms... I hope ur doing well my friend...
How are you now, just found your vids and they are so valuable as youre talking about such personal but relevant stuff to so many people including me.💯
You good bruh? Praying for you!
Hey man care about u hope ur doing well
I have chronic depression and anxiety. I tried 20 mg. I was nauseous, had heart palpitations, body sore, felt like I was on a really bad drug trip. Anxiety through the roof!!! I was physically Ill from it. It was awful. Couldn’t leave my bed