An Explanation (& Question FOR YOU!)
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- Опубликовано: 8 фев 2025
- Sorry I dipped out. But hey, you know what they say..."The world is gonna roll me, and I ain't the sharpest tool in the shed."
But for real, I appreciate your patience and everyone who has checked in. It doesn't go unnoticed :) Also, let me know down below if you would watch "re-wind" footage, because there is plenty to go around!
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So glad you’re on the mend. Your health is the most important thing. And yes, we will watch anything you post! 🤣
I would 100% watch it girl. Feel better. You are loved, no worries! ❤
SHARE THE OLD FOOTAGE!!! YES WE WOULD WATCH IT!!! Everyone is going through something and it's nice to know we aren't alone! It's also nice to see that there are amazing good moments amongst the hard ones
Post ALL THE FOOTAGE!!!! I'll watch it all. I love your content. Keep it up cutie!
YES BRING ON THE FOOTAGE PLEASE!!!!!!!Hunny you are number one first of all. Your true fans will be here whenever you are ready and will fully support you. Your mental health falls into health period so you take as long as you need. All we want is for you to be stable and happy and living. We will be here waiting patiently. Lots of love and prayers from this Northern Michigan Momma. ❤️
I was 7 months trying to tweak my meds once...worst time of my life. Cried so much my eyes were absolutely raw. Only slept 2 hrs a night for months. As soon as we got the right med, it was immediately apparent. Even so, it really is a lifelong battle. Your meds don't make your feelings. They just make it easier to process them. This IS a lifelong journey, and your self awareness WILL get you through this.
As far as vlogging, we are happy to see and hear from you at any time. And girl, you gotta pay the bills. Do what you need to do to take care of you first. We love you and can't wait to see whatever you post next. Stay wonderful. We love you
It really is a JOURNEY! Thank you for sharing :)
I’m so thankful you’re getting the help you need! You are so pure for sharing your life ❤ pleaseeeee post all the old content!!
Post the old stuff. Its always fun to see what people do.
1. You do not owe us or anyone an explanation for taking care of yourself!!
2. Yes yes yes to any and all footage, we're here to support you no matter what! Keep on keeping on girlie 💞
Going through similar things, I can tell you that once you and your support team figure things, it gets easier. Hang in there, be good to yourself, laugh when needed, cry when warranted, remember to eat and drink your water! We're so glad you're here, and we'll be here for you. ❤ I haven't posted for months, and I don't have the reach you do... take your time, and please be well!
I'm glad you're back, remember that you are strong and you have a good, support system, hang in there.
I'd love to see your backup footage, it'd feel like catching up and that sounds nice. ❤
Emily, please please always remember that we don't care about posting times or "kept promises".
We care about YOU
One thing I heard a long time ago that always helps me is: If you feel like you’ve hit a wall, maybe it’s not there to stop you, but give you somewhere to lean against while you catch your breath
I would totally watch your older footage!
As someone who goes back years after the fact and watches peoples older videos even though they aren’t up to date, your idea is right up my alley! You’ll definitely have at least 1 view Em! Get well soon! 💗
I met you through Rachels channel, who I met through Collens channel. I've been watching your crew for so long and you know what... It is SO refreshing seeing people be real and normal on here. Not overdoing it, not not being themselves. (Although I must admit I am a fan of "Miranda sings" LOL) I love all of your content so much and would enjoy watching your older content. Take care of yourself and I hope you get the sleep you desperately need. My husband suffers from insomnia really bad as well so I understand the struggle. Thank you for being you and staying honest. We will wait for you because we love you. Those who dont, dont deserve to be a part of your channel TBH! Take care of yourself lovely!
I was struggling for years, debilitating anxiety and dark depression. I switched from an SSRI to an SNRI and went up to 150mg and the peace of not having anxiety is something that I never thought I’d get to! Just remember, It will pass soon as hard as it is when you just want feel normal. Valium also helps!!
YESSS post them and make it a series called “The Em Diaries” 🥰
Emily, your struggles are completely valid. The hardest part (in my experience also struggling with anxiety and depression) is the frustration of knowing that most people will not understand how detrimental mental illnesses are to our livelihood. Acceptance therapy has actually helped me a lot because it has helped me feel less sorry for myself because I would psycoanalyze everything my brain does and feel so much pity that I have to “live like this” This sh*t affects every aspect our lives, and it sucks that the world is not built to accommodate. Please do not feel guilty or lazy for not keeping up with your promises because your brain is actively fighting against itself which you cannot control. I know there isn’t much anyone can say, but you have helped so many people talking about your experiences, and you have made me feel less alone during the lowest points in my life. P.S. you should look into learning to crochet! A lot of therapists recommend it to keep your mind busy and distract from never ending thoughts. It also helps you feel like you’re being productive and it keeps your hands busy! Last year when I was going through severe depression, I would crochet all day every day and it helped keep my mind at ease and forced me to at least be doing something. Love you and I wish you the best!
If posting the footage will help you by getting you back into a routine. Then yes absolutely! If you’re not ready or not up to it, that’s ok. You’re not obligated to do anything. ❤
Yes! I'd love to see the older content! Please share! ❤ Also, hang in there. Big hugs! ❤
Melatonin is so tempting to try and sleep cuz I have the SAME problem with anxiety and depression and I noticed that Melatonin made everything WAY worse. It spiked my anxiety and made me feel like I couldn't sleep without it and it took me forever to figure out it was the melatonin that was making everything worse for me. So if you're reading this and can't sleep and have crazy anxiety and regularly use Melatonin, maybe try not taking it for a while, and see if it helps any. We love you Emily! We will watch whatever you wanna post! We just wanna see what makes you happy!
Something that is helpful for me when I need to set goals for myself (like trying to exercise daily, or drink a glass of water), but keep failing to meet them, is to set the goal as minimal as possible (like doing one set of 5 squats each day, or drinking one sip of water each day). It's not a lot, it may not make a huge difference to your actual physical help, but its better for my mental checklist, it helps me avoid feeling too much pressure from that checklist, and it's easier to keep the momentum once I've started small (I've done one set, I could do another. I've had one sip, I could finish the glass).
Best wishes 🥰
Eta: you owe us nothing and I'd watch the back dated vlogs!
Self care is important for mental health. Sleeping plays a huge part on getting back on track.
Would love to see your back up videos.
It’s nice to see you Emily! Two things, 1. Yes I would totally watch your older vlog footage, I thoroughly enjoy watching you and your content, and 2. This is super weird but whenever I can’t sleep and I try literally everything, and I mean I have had a week long episodes like you were describing, the ONLY thing that works is laying in bed upside down. Meaning put your head where your feet normally go. I know it sounds so dumb, but seriously idk why but it works. And I totally forget about it every time I can’t sleep until it’s been days. Once I remember and do it I knock right out. It makes no sense at all but try it! Ok love you bye ✌️
Take all the time you need. ❤️ We'll be here when you are ready.
Yes. Please upload the backup footage and take your time your mind and body needs
I have insomnia as well. My mind races when I try to sleep. Something that helps me is I basically write a story or movie in my head. That way I focus on one thing. It may seem odd but it helps me a lot. I can’t watch a movie because I focus on that too much but for some reason making up my own in my head quiets all the other thoughts but doesn’t keep me up from focusing too hard.
I hope find your balance! Youve got this girl!
Also yes all the footage pleaseeeeeee!
1) I completely understood what you described with your mental illnesses. People with mental illness are so freaking strong. YOU are so freaking strong.
2) EMDR therapy changed my life! My panic attacks became less over time and it’s been helping with my PTSD so much! 3) Gimmie the past vlog footage! I want to see it all so badly!
I would watch any content you put up! You take care of you please put them up
I've been taking Ambien for a few years now and ill tell you without it I would be locked up in loony bin from lack of sleep. It has helped me sooooo much physically and mentally!
I'd love to see older footage! I'm always very excited when I see a video of yours pop up, they honestly make my day! And you're such a comfort to me, take care
Give yourself grace. It took me a year and a half of new meds and different things to get my depression and anxiety under control. The vicious cycle of I can't work because I'm depressed and I'm depressed cause I can't work is so hard. I slept so much it was crazy. Insomnia is truly a bitch. I've laid in bed staring at the ceiling more nights than I can count. Sleeping pills when you need them are a game changer. A restful nights sleep can make a world of difference. Take the time you need and we will all be here when you get back. I personally would love to see old footage especially if it includes the puppies.
Thank you for being open. Also, if it’s something you’d enjoy, I wouldn’t mind a podcast or videos like these where you sit down and rant. Definitely made me feel like I’m not alone. ❤
Yes! Would love to watch old footage. 😊
I would LOVE to see your "backup footage". I'm so glad you have new Drs and are working on your mental health! You don't owe anyone anything and please pace yourself. I hope things get better soon! Sending hugs
I would love to watch your "re-wind" footage! You make this middle-aged disabled woman's life happier with any content you post. With you and only a handful of other RUclipsrs, I'm picky, I have seen more of our country in the last 5 years than I would have seen while I was healthy! KA from SWFLA 🙂
Dearest Em! It's hard not to criticise yourself, trust me, I know! We need to remind ourselves that whatever we're feeling is valid. Personally for me, what works is I keep telling myself "this will pass" thanks to my therapist for that! 😅 day by day it gets a little easier, whereas some days it feels like nothing is going right. We all love and support you through this time. I can't speak for everyone, but I will say that I will continue to watch your videos whilst you grow as an amazing, inspirational woman. ❤️ wish you the best you beautiful soul!!
I 100% noticed you weren’t posting. You’re so fun to listen to and watch, post it all!
I’m glad you’re feeling better. I’d say post the backup footage. I’m totally gonna watch it!
Yes! We’ll watch old footage, we don’t care when it’s from! It’ll probably help get you into a routine and take your mind off of things in the moment too. Thanks for talking about your mental health journey! It helps reduce stigma. It can take sooooo long to find the right combination and balance of medications, especially because there’s so much that goes into mental health. It’s a journey but you’re not alone.
Please share the older footage. My anxiety is the worst it’s ever been and it’s comforting having this chill, low stress, non-triggering entertainment as a distraction. Also, so glad you’re taking care of yourself!! ❤
Emily bring on the vlogs I would watch them. From one struggler to another take time to heal and take each day at a time and remember you are loved xx
You’re getting through and that is so impressive! I have been in your shoes and scrambling for answers it’s so overwhelming and even scary. For me, exploring my neurodivergence and getting a team of providers that understood how it affects ALL aspects of my life changed everything for me. I’m on the fewest meds I’ve ever been on (fewest just because I’ve been fortunate to find the right ones) and changed entirely how I went through my day to day life. Learning what my mental capacity actually is and accepting that I can’t do what some of my other friends can on a day to day basis has improved my mental and physical health more than I can explain
Allow yourself the emotions, the hours of crying, the days on the couch. Life's hard. You'll get through it! You're a fantastic young, inspirational woman!
I would 100% watch backup footage!! If you didn't tell me it was awhile ago, I would legit not have any idea anyways. I'm not the sorta person who cares at all about when something happened. I still watch videos I find now that were posted years ago.
YES of course we WANT to watch you! Upload the footage! Upload the footage!
YES. YES. YES. YES PLEASEEE POST YOUR OLD VLOG FOOTAGE. I'd love to watch it and I've been missing you and your vlogs girl ❤ Also am happy for you to be starting a new chapter with your mental health journey 😇
Emily you are not alone. I have a space at my workplace where I have panic attacks. Thank you for sharing your experience ❤
You’ve made a lot of MAJOR changes in a very short time. Give yourself time and grace Whatever decision you make is the right one. This path your on IS THE RIGHT ONE. It’s the one that is making you. I promise. It feels like it’s too much. And never going to get better and I swear. It will. You are making the right decisions. Every single one. You’re growing and mature and brilliant. I’m so proud of every second of this journey you have made. I’ve been here through a lot of it. Like 2 years I think. You got this kid. It’s a lot. But you got this.
Yes please with old footage especially that doggy one. Be patient with yourself Emily one day at a time, depression and anxiety is a constant battle. I would like to pray for you if that is ok
Yes!! Post!! It'll also help you to "do something" which in turn can help your mental health! We love you!!
And yes please.... let us see all the footage you have... sounds amazing. Would LOVE to watch :)
YES!!! I would totally watch older footage of your quality content. Sending good vibes hope you start feeling better soon. ❤
Good luck on your mental health journey. I know it's tough! I would absolutely love to watch your older content!!!
Hi Emily, I really hope the sleep meds are working. I fully agree that sleep is the most important thing and once you have that figured out it will help make everything else at least a little better. We all care about you and your well being. I know we can't control or understand the way our brains work (I'm struggling so much my second to last semester of my master's program for no reason and its infuriating) but it doesn't speak anything about our worth as people. We love you and support you and if sharing past vlog experiences with us will help in any way, you know we will watch them :) and we'll consider ourselves extremely grateful! We hope you start feeling better soon ❤
As much as it suck’s to see you struggle, it’s comforting to see something so relatable, and comfort from my depression is so depleted it’s much much appreciated ❤ sending love
Of course we'd watch it, we have missed you and worried where you were. I thought of you yesterday!
I had a breakdown recently and rage quit my job....took 6 weeks to just look after myself/sleep (also because having to look after my Mum)....finally got up this morning and thought abut a few things for interviews etc!. It exhausted me just doing that 1/2 hour, but i'm living in the "do one thing today" mentality.....
Seeing you post this is so brave, and you did so well to open yourself up even more to us.
EmilyGang!
I would love the old footage! Seeing your adventures is still fun when you feel like sharing them! 😊 Maybe the process could help you slowly get back into where you’re wanting to work wise as well! p.s. thanks for giving us a Frank moment ❣️
I'm proud of you! I would happily watch backup vlogs.❤
Your mental health is more important than your videos. As a person with depression and anxiety. Do what you’ve got to do. It’s gets better. Go easy on yourself and give yourself grace. You are important and you matter. Also like you said, healing isn’t linear. Law and Order SVU has taught me that! So much love and empathy to you from this lady with depression and anxiety. ❤❤
Post the “old” footage!! You’re one of my comfort creators and i’m so sorry you’re feeling the way you’re feeling! One day at a time and we’re all standing behind you❤️
I related so much to what you said about just being so frustrated with the way your brain works because I’ve been there so many times with anxiety - I’m so sorry you are going through this tough time but thank you for sharing and validating what so many people also struggle with. Hoping you are towards better times and wishing you nothing but the best!! And I would absolutely watch vlogs that are not up to date, your vlogs are so fun to watch I don’t care when they are from! But don’t put too much pressure on posting them if you are not mentally up to it, if you can, I’ll definitely watch, but there is no pressure to. Do whatever is best for you and your health ❤️
I would love to see the archived “old” footage even if it’s out of date! We love any content you post but please don’t put pressure on yourself! Please take care of your mental and physical wellbeing. Before worrying about us!
You do you... Anything you want to post, I'll watch. I hope you feel better soon. Don't worry, better days are coming soon!
So will watch older videos! As long as it's you being you, I have bipolar and I seriously go through everything you described. Absolutely love you and I hope you find your best cocktail of meds that help you ❤❤
Personally I’d love to watch the old footage. Your videos make me so happy.
Yes yes yes please post the footage!
Please take all the time you need and come back to regular posting when you are ready. We all love and support you ❤️❤️
From a therapist and also client: ACT is amazing and I personally use it and like it 100x more than CBT or DBT.
I would love to watch the old footage!!!
We follow you for you. Whether the content isn’t current or not we’ll watch!!
Please post the older stuff!!! Especially Ireland (I'm going for the first time in June!), the dog trip, ALL the things!! happy that you're taking the time to work on you ❤
Just some thoughts from a Momma who had an adult kiddo have a mental break in 2019/2020...all five of us are neuroscience and have anxiety/depression...
Have you had your vit D levels checked? Have you tried magnesium? Have you tried lavender oil diffused while you sleep? It sounds like your nervous system needs a reset. For me, there are so many levels of the things that cause my issues, it takes a lot of patience to work through those layers. For me, I get ahead then backstep with my mental status. My hormones are all over the place. Sleep will definitely help and im.hoping the sleep meds can get you some much needed rest. Fir me magnesium/zinc/D/B/ C and calcium help so much. Make sure your vitamins are methylated though so your body can absorb them. I have MTHFR, check that out too for you, so I have to have methylated vits. Maybe vlog daily just for you but don't post them. From seeing my own adult kids go through similar to what you're experiencing, I wish I could send you big hugs and fix it all for you.
Happy to watch the old stuff. Just love your content no matter what it is. Thanks for being real with us. Hope you feel better soon! 🤗
I follow a RUclips channel from a person with schizophrenia and she shows her mental health journey in huge detail including being hospitalized and everything! It’s totally up to you how much you feel comfortable sharing, but I know personal I struggle with depression and anxiety and I would relate a lot to a video about laying in bed having panic attacks ❤ thank you for sharing!
I am so sorry, I didn’t sleep for a full year because of a misdiagnosed him a doctor. But when I finally got the right diagnosis, of a rare type of epilepsy. I was finally able to sleep. You should never apologize for trying to get your mental health/physical under control
I’m glad your taking time to get better
Yes Yes Yes.. I will watch old footage. You are one of my comfort RUclipsrs and I will watch anything and everything you post! Thank you for the video today, it made me feel less alone with my spirals and vicious cycles💕
Also I love how vulnerable you are because it’s so relatable and something people don’t talk about often enough. I’ve wanted to be a mom my entire life and my life felt so empty without a child. I always said “when I’m a mom I’m going to have my life together because I’ll do anything to make sure my kid has a mentally stable mom with a stable life” well I got pregnant, had a baby, hormones took the best of me. I was MORE critical of myself because I’m like “you have a baby who relies on you, this is all you’ve ever wanted, why aren’t you stable you’re a piece of shit mom” then I got on MUCH needed medication and expected that to fix my whole life and I just didn’t. I’ve adapted the phrase “you can put a bandaid on a bullet hole but eventually you’ll need stitches” stitches being therapy and hardcore internal work. Sorry for the long story long. Love you
Yes post it all! We're here to support you and would love to see all the footage u put ur time into to take
I’d love to see your oldish footage! I hope you find the right combination of treatment and medicine that makes you feel like the person you want to be.
Yes!!! Post older footage! We love you! Feel better! ❤️🩹
I thought of you often. You never owe us an explanation of your absence. I'd happily watch "rewind" footage. Heck, I'd watch videos of blank walls if you posted them to support you.
Post your old footage! I would definitely watch it! IMO a lot of people care about you! I'm an invisible watcher but I love your personality and I hope you don't give up on you youtube channel!
Yes, I would definitely watch. Gives us a chance to get to know you better! Also, we seem to be the same person. Currently in bed with my head under the covers and was so excited to see your video to take my mind off me. Thank you!
yes do want the old footage but also I have complex trauma and all my 49 years of life I have had insomnia, I am on and off sleepers but I also hate the thought of addiction so will go off them for a month then only take when desperate, I am only sharing this as there is one thing I do you didnt mention but its my number 1 helpful thing.. my biggest issue is my brain not stopping/relaxing.. I read my ipad in the dark, it has to be dark backlit and then dimmed to the lowest, I read a book I love and have read many times in my sleep position and when I feel I am "in the book" and not my head , I put it down and close eyes.. if brain starts up, rinse and repeat... everyone is different but it works for me best .
You could do what colleen did. Just vlog. ❤ have it be your personal diary. You never have to share the videos. You can even delete them. It might help to just to sit down, alone, and talk out how you are feeling. 😊❤
YESSS Emily ❤️💚🩷💙💖. We would love to watch any videos you’ve made. Absolutely! And meanwhile you just keep focusing on your mental and physical health. We care about you. I have suffered depression, anxiety, and debilitating panic attacks for 30 years. I feel ya sister. It is indeed negatively affected by being too hard on self (non-accepting), loss of sleep, and poor self care. Also, the right meds and dose are critical. We are here for you and you’re doing all the right stuff, love.
So glad to see you post again! Hope the health(mental and physical) journey gets better soon! I say post the older stuff, I will watch.
Yes. I would watch. I was diagnosed with bipolar over 30 years ago so I know some of what you're going through. Try to be kind to yourself.💜💜💜
Glad you are here. Keep working on your health. We all have shit we are getting through. Would love to see old vlogs. Post it and I'll watch it!!
One of the things that helped me is a gratitude journal. Another thing about the being hard on yourself my therapist suggested looking in the mirror and saying... I have a beautiful girlfriend..i have a safe place to live...i have a cat that tolerates me. I do have people in the world that love me. My therapist said leave out everything after the but...or just.... It can help with reframing your mindset. I mean take or leave the advice. Its coming from someone who's been through it. So its almost like the blind leading the blind. I am sending love and good vibes your way. And yes I'd love to watch old footage.
Post it! I bet that’s a good way for you to feel like you’re meeting your goals too. Regardless of who watches.
I would like to see old footage. I am happy you are working on yourself for yourself
Would love to see your vlogs! We watch old videos in the YT algorithm all the time - we probably wouldn't notice that the footage was 'old' anyway unless you made a big deal about it in the video or title. Dying to see what you mentioned about Joy and the dogs and Big Bear especially!
Yes bring your the FOOTAGE ❤❤❤ we Miss ‘Emily 🤜👏🥹😎😊
Sending thoughts of peace and comfort. I'm sorry to hear that you're struggling. Be gentle with yourself. This too will pass. Xoxo
See this is why I love you… you struck me instantly as a genuine person when you started out with Rachel. You are.. I also divorced few yrs ago. It’s a lot.. I think the trauma throws off our chemistry. I’ve been in this EXACT PLACE VERBATIM since! I want to just give you a huge hug. Thank you for being so real and descriptive about what mental illness feels like. The fucking struggle! You are amazing, strong, powerful, resilient! You got this girl! Glad you are paying attention and taking your needs seriously! Thanks for sharing.. l feel less alone. 💋❤️🏳️🌈
Post your footage, love all your videos
First of all. I can completely relate to everything you are saying. You are not alone. I recently left the medical field and am working at Target, felt like my life was falling apart and was a disappointment to my family. My mental health got so bad that the first time in my life I took a leave from work. Trying medicine is exhausting and frustrating at times. I'm still on that journey but trying. The important thing is you are putting your needs and health first. It's stressful to us and our significant others and you always feel like a burden but helping yourself helps those we love. Hang in there. I know you probably don't read all these but on the off chance you do, you really are doing great. It's not easy to come on here and discuss your feelings with strangers especially when you are feeling like you've failed. And you haven't. Take pride in that you are caring for yourself. As far as your question. Literally I would watch you two years ago make a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. I think like most of your RUclips peeps we just love you. We don't care what you post. We just love seeing you. Hang in there girly. You got.this.
Yes please post your footage! We miss you!