Things I have learned from the comments: 1. Outer Wilds covers much of the same topic. 2. OneShot covers much of the same topic. 3. OneShot is the game that has that cat creature I see everywhere. 4. I made a LOT of people cry
It may sounds like asking too much but... play Outer Wilds. It's just... that kinda of game you wish you could forget everything about just to play it again and relieve those moments.
Outer wilds is easily one of the best games I’ve ever played, I wish I could forget everything about it and play through it for the first time again. Your only limit in the game is your own knowledge
@Disgaea5 I'm one who thinks that Undertale is broadly overrated, but there's a difference between just saying "murder bad" and forcing the player to confront the fact that the capacity for evil exists inside them. You could just as easily oversimplify Halo Reach as being "war sad :(", but that kind of ultimately misses the point
Since the days of OFF, most indie RPG games with combat has "murder bad :'(" as it's main thing. Maybe except for Fear and Hunger. Murder gets you ve-ery far in there.
Two quotes from Satoru Iwata before he passed away “If I could start over, I wouldn’t change a thing.” “No part of my experience has been a waste of time”
"but in my heart... I am a gamer". Said at a time when gamers were stigmatized and demonized by the entire mainstream political and media establishment.
One footnote to the 14 Halo players is what the Reach developers did to acknowledge their efforts. See, at the very end of Lone Wolf, in the survive section, you can spot 14 fallen spartans around the map. These are the 14 players who lasted so long in the Halo 2 servers, in armor that (from my understanding) was chosen by those players. Their efforts to survive may have been in vain, but through that mission, they will always be remembered by those who know.
"It's a brutally depressing experience, where nothing you do can erase the mistake you made and every option gives you a sliver of the life you had before. The world around you is dead, no matter whether you survive or not." Is high praise 🙏 Thanks for remembering my dumb little flash game ❤
I remember getting recommended that game by a Vsauce video and I still stand by my decision to work in the lab every day. Your use of permanence was very novel and I have huge kudos for the vision of the game.
wait wtf do u remember playing with a random kid on a rust server like 7 years ago? had a big ass rock in the snow completely walled off on the inside of the rock. i remember you showing me your channel back then at like 1k subs. con fucking grats on blowing up dude not sure how i never realized.
When I was a kid I had to convince my mom Halo reach wasn’t violent because it was alien blood… if only she knew, one of the best and most memorable experiences in my life
As I heard the words "Obsessed with undertale as a kid" it became clear to me that I'm a fairly old man. I still recognized it as a, maybe not new, but definitely not as an old game. So I googled it and it dawned on me that this game is nearly 8 years old.
I'm 29, I think being on the internet kind of makes this seem much older because we are now surrounded by kids online, the reality is that we are not really old, not truly old, we don't even know what that feels like yet, but we have an artificial sense of being ancient because we are always interacting with people we normally wouldn't have due to the age gap
Hearing that line I automatically assumed Undertale was a rerelease or remake from a 90s game and the guy in the video played the old version as a kid. Only when I read the comments it became clear he was definitely referring to a game that, to me, did not release that long ago. I still can't wrap my head around how someone was "a kid" a few years ago and now making youtube documentaries.
@aduantas i'm 22 and feel the same. My Steam account is going to be a decade old soon, and although that's not quite half my life (made it when i was almost 14), i still feel like an old man for having a near-decade old Steam account. and granted, some people have had it since Steam launched almost 20 years ago.... but i'm not one of those.
I was expecting some lighthearted "oh these are lost games you cant find anywhere", not an emotional video essay about permanence and determination and what it means to be human. thank you for making this, its genuinely so beautiful
"I was expecting some lighthearted "oh these are lost games you cant find anywhere", not an emotional video essay about permanence" If you want videos like that, go see Izzzyzzz. They're all about that.
I was expecting a generic list. I was not expecting an incredibly sad, melancholic, nostalgic, somehow eye-opening and genuinely emotional experience. I've never seen your channel before, and I wasn't subscribed... ...I am now, because this was fucking amazing.
There's a philosophy in game making. Games must be places of joy. And keeping players there for any other reasons would makem places of boredom. You were playing for no joy.
A game that would've fit perfectly into this video is OneShot, as the entire game's permise revolves around the idea that you only have one try of completing the main charachters goal (hence the name OneShot, as in you only have one shot). Even though the version on Steam does have a "secret" ending after your initial first playthrough, after completing the game for a second time, it will lock you out of playing it ever again.
@Vero! True, I forgot about that. As you said, OneShot plays a lot more with the idea of the player only having one "true" playthrough than other games.
@krischurch3763 Well, I know for a FACT Nintendo didn't do that, because one evening it was online, and the next day when I came home from school, I was a mess.
I still remember dying for the first time on “Lone Wolf”. I kept expecting the objective to update, but it never did. As soon as I saw the special cutscene I knew what it really meant. Felt like I had my heart ripped out. Hurt having reality set in
Did anyone ever find a way to trick that into rolling credits without you actually dying? Star Ocean 2 and FF7: Crisis Core had 'unwinnable' battles that you could glitch the game into going past... you still lose as far as the game is concerned of course.
@Mark-in8ju I honestly liked the religious symbolisms and themes in Halo. Sure it could be taken multiple ways, but I feel like it added a lot more depth to the lore.
"Goodbye To A World", by Porter Robinson, is a song that encapsulates that feeling of seeing the world of your favourite MMO, one you've spent countless hours in, disappear becasue the servers shut down. I think it's a beautiful song and I wholeheartedly recommend everyone listening to it.
Oh wow, I did not realize that song was genuinely inspired by the concept of MMO games being shut down. That's pretty dope. Extra cool because I associate that song with Undertale too lol
I heard this song a few years before my memory started remembering. (Which isn't saying much because I only started properly remembering like 3 years ago and I am 15 almost 16), but I used to sing "Lonely, I am so lonely, and it's the end of the world, don't blame yourself now" Because I didn't know the lyrics properly because of how much of a foggy memory the song was. But the first time I rediscovered it, I oddly felt like I had found an old part of myself again. This comment made me rediscover it a second time, and it yet again feels like finding old memories of me playing at the playground of the old daycare I went to, sitting on the bark pretending to sell ice-cream down under the slides in the wooden box. When all I had to worry about was if the girl I had a crush on liked me back and if my iron beads were heated properly so I could take it home. Those were good times. I don't have a good way to end this comment off properly so.. Thank you, genuinely, thank you :) Have an amazing day and if times aren't looking up for you at the moment, it will get better, good job for sticking through it all. and if they are looking up, good job on playing your cards right. Signing off.
thank you, this reminded me of NFS World. i could only play it for a year as a kid because the servers shut down in 2015, but that game meant the world to me. i still remember the fireworks going off in free-roam exactly when the plug was pulled. me and tons of other people gathered up in that one spot, watching those fireworks, sending goodbyes in chat, reunited in this virtual final gasp of life... i couldn't not shed a tear. i had dumped my profile beforehand, so i could play it offline, as such a project was announced before the shutdown. it did come to fruition eventually, and i could play my game again, albeit by my own. multiplayer was planned, so i kept waiting... until my old hard drive died 3 days before i wanted to back it up. my profile, the last screenshot from the official servers, named "the end of the world.png", all gone. true, the game did receive a fan-made revival a few years later, and i did play it extensively for some time... but that just wasn't the same. i was a different person by then. the memories did not fully match what i was playing. i should not have opened that HDD that one day, maybe it was still possible to save it... well! thanks again, i guess i needed this.
I know I can't ever truly re-experience it for the first time again. But I admit I still revisit it. I still go flying around and looking at this strange, scary and yet wonderful solar system. I've practically beaten the game 100%. But I still play it anywa6, cause I love it so much.
@DeathAngel-ft8oz I've been thinking of giving this game a chance for quite a while now, and honestly? I probably will now. I've heard a lot of good stuff, heard some music, but I never touched it. In hope it's really as good as portrayed! ^^
I remember some kid murdered a family member out of frustration and then a week after that it was off the app store, probably no relation but at the time I thought that was the reason the creator decided to take it down
Halo Reach has one of the best endings in video game history to me. The ending to that game is so amazing while being something that is ultimately depressing at the same time. The thrill ride that that story is, is found basically nowhere else in gaming. It's one of those games that I wish I could entirely forget to replay again because I want to experience it again for the first time.
@MILDMONSTER1234 I tried so many times to survive and hope there was a beatable outcome to crises core only for it to be hopeless. Great memories I wish I could do again for the first time. Over 15 years later its still as memorable as ever. Rip Zack
Halo Reach is the most recent game I played to the credits a few weeks ago. So the feels and everything about it is still fresh and boy did it hit me hard. Such an amazing merging of gameplay and storytelling.
Every time I see Halo, it reminds me nothing is the same, and it can't be repeated. That was my friends' and I high school video game, and now I don't even know where my friends are...😢
This video is pure nostalgia, and not just because it talks about games that are no longer, but because it managed to put me in a mood I haven't experienced for years, I don't even know how to describe it, it's a weird mix of existential dread, inspiration and pure focus on the here and now while also thinking about the past. You truly managed to transport my mind to a place I haven't visited in a long time, it's been a while since a piece of media captivated my attention to the point where it felt 10x longer than it actually was, and even now that it's finished I'm still actively thinking about it an hour later. Bravo.
@RobotronSage This reads like satire. On the off chance you're serious, there's an important point you're seeming to intentionally miss. The community and atmosphere of Halo 2 being mainstream, easily accessible without 3rd party software, and feeling completely alive knowing everyone at school most likely had an account and also played is what truly "died." Let's consider the Mega Man battle network legacy collection that is about to release in April. Why am I going to spend $60 on it, even though the roms are readily available for free? Because of accessibility and an actual online community that will breathe life into a niche series. Being able to queue up against and trade chips with an actual online community as opposed to some niche circle in a discord is a night and day gaming experience. You as an enthusiast yourself must surely know what I mean when you give your pitch to normal people about the preserved classics. If it's not on Steam, Epic, PS5, Xbox, Switch, BNET, etc. no one is going to care about playing it or taking the admittedly tedious route of emulating and connecting with people. These preserved classics typically rely on P2P and never have dedicated servers, or any of the updates and features / DLC / patches that come with a game actually being kept alive by the company itself. What you're describing exists, but it's just not comparable unfortunately. I've went down that route with Dolphin/ Slippi with Melee for gamecube and Project M. There was a community of like maybe 200 people globally because millions of people instead were playing Ultimate on the Switch.
@RobotronSage Maybe lay off the crack for a while, nothing in this life lasts forever, you can preserve games as much as you want, one day no one will care as everyone will have moved on to newer things. Things change, it's inevitable, and there's no point in staying attached to the past, this has nothing to do with corporate propaganda, it's just a fact of life, you have to learn to move on a let the past be. If you really care that much about old games, the best you can do is remake them with current technology as this will breathe new life into them and a new generation of gamers will get to experience them.
almost made me burst into tears lmao. been dealing with the whole "nothing lasts forever, time won't slow down for you, stop living in the past" kind of vibe lately, and this video just really nails that feeling. It's a bittersweet feeling for sure but god damn, if it isn't human to feel this way!!
Then I won't watch it. I feel bad just reading comments about how Pokemon was never good and the like. I doubt I'd be able to handle watching this video, even though I'm pretty sure the only game I recognize (I skimmed through the preview that shows up when you hover over the bar) is Undertale.
I struggle with that feeling all the time. We can't live in the past, but we can carry it with us into the future. Nothing lasts forever, and losing it always hurts, but it's still good while it's here.
@WITCHTICS There's a quote from Doctor Who that I'm very fond of, I think you'll appreciate it: "Everything ends and it's always sad, but everything begins again, too. And that's always happy. Be happy." It's certainly a struggle sometimes, but how human it is to be both sad and happy at the same time, right.
i cannot imagine the surreal feelings ApacheEnforcer experienced being the last person on the Halo 2 servers. To be that person means that the game probably meant a lot to them, so to be the LAST person to be on the servers- the last person to ever experience your favorite game...i can't imagine how it would feel. it would be so isolating.
@thatguythatplaysgames3221no. To answer your question, no “reward” or “acknowledgment” of any sort for what I did. [Source: I *AM* “APACHE N4SIR”, Guinness World Record Holder and the last person to be on the Halo2 servers after being kicked off after 673 hours 58 minutes after -ZERO HOUR-]
It wasn’t my FAVOURITE game… it was one of me favourites but it was the one that made the biggest impact in the gaming community. It was the reason why we had voice chat. Proximity voice communications. The reasons we had 100 friends on our friends list. To name a few. Without Halo 2 and all it’s framework we wouldn’t have XBOX LIVE the way we had it then and the way we have it now as it was built around Halo2. Without Halo 2, we wouldn’t be as advanced as what we were then or at that time. We have a lot to thank Halo 2 in the background even if you were not a Halo fan… you have a lot to be thankful for!!! Halo2 servers had the biggest following vs other games like Mech Assault or any sports game… the Lobbies in Halo were top notch and after a game it didn’t disconnect you and throw you outta the lobby like it did like Mech Assault 2 did (which was a pain in the ass, cause if you didn’t write down the Gamertag of the person you liked or got along with you had no way of finding who you were in the lobby and gaming with but in Halo 2 you could carry over from one game to another [which was nice]). For me personally, Halo held a special meaning to me and I wanted to play some more games with friends a few more times for old times sales. So that’s why I played and didn’t want to put down the controller… 🎮
I was expecting a trivia video about games that can't play anymore, but instead received a philosophical discussion about time, about life is ephemeral and how we can't just fight it, no matter how hard we try. Well done
@Raulikien brother the way it’s looking immortality will most likely not be reached within our lifetime and even if it does your parents or maybe girlfriend/wife shit maybe your kid might be gone by then I’m not tryna be a doomer but rn at least this is sci-fi
@gsegarra21 Just like AI would never be able to have true intelligence in our lifetimes... and then went from making low quality dreamlike pictures to photorealistic videos in a few years, plus actual reasoning better than even expert humans with models like o3. You don't keep up with tech and longevity research, do you?
Going through abandoned VR Chat worlds gives me those same feelings you mentioned in the end. Especially if they have pictures of the people that used to play there on the walls. Who were they? What made them leave? Are they even still alive? Doesn't matter, all that's left are their memories.
As a fellow VRC player, I cry looking back at all the photos I've taken. knowing so many beautiful people and even meeting a lot of them irl. it hurts knowing the inevitable, but it makes the memories made that much more bittersweet
This made me look back at the last 22 years of gaming. 22 years of fun, friends, and game after game. Some we’ll never get back again, others will live forever. But this point that you’ll never get that first feeling again, you’ll never be a kid after school at a buddies house again. Time moves on, but the memories are forever
No one can beat time. At the end of the road even memories fade away. We only have our actions and what we left behind weather it be bad or good. Though no one will remember a whisper of it in a century. It doesn't mean that they had no impact.
I’m hyped for Silent Hill F, but that looks more like a Fatal Frame that a Silent Hill. The teaser for Silent Hills (the non playable one) looked awesome with Norman Reedus too
@DocTime56 I'm pretty excited for F too, and also the SH2 remake. I'm happy Konami is finally doing something with the franchise, instead of just sitting on it like they have been for the past 8-9 years
The Halo 2 story was the most bittersweet. Before voice chat or typing were introduced to HALO, let alone consoles, the only way anyone could "communicate" was through moving around, rotating, or shooting at something. The final two players that remained, despite not being able to talk or text, seemed to feel some kind of kinship. That clip you showed where they were the only two players left? They looked like they were doing the bro hug. Then the clip where the last guy was running around. Just running around, not shooting anyone, not competing or cooperating. The last player on a dead server. ...I bet ApacheEnforcer felt like he was stuck in Purgatory.
Your thoughts about Halo and undertale are Awesome. Undertale for a long time had a really bizarre feel about it. There's the bright side with all the quirky characters, jokes, and happy endings, but then there's this crushing feeling of repetition and hopelessness. The characters are stuck in a loop and you're perpetuating it. On top of that, it does an effective job at commenting about player agency, and how players slowly realize what Flowey really means as a character.
Honestly, this is the closest a video essay has been to being perfect in my eyes. Only thing it’s missing is a mention of Outer Wilds. You should really play that game if you haven’t done so yet.
Check out Jacob Geller. Has the same vibe as this dude in the way he delivers the information. Always good to double up on essay sources bc they take a long time to make 😜
I havent cried in two years but this video has me tearing up on the brink of crying as the last points you made in the video about our memories never being changed or altered hit me hard since my brother died in a fatal car accident and one of my fondest memories i have is of me and him playing halo 3 together, even though he always demolished me in that game i always loved playing it with him and after his death ive never found as much joy in my life as i did when he was still here. To this day i still have his xbox 360 and the same exact game disk we played together on which i clean frequently so that when im feeling sad or lonely i can play it and explore the worlds we made together in forge and get a rush of memories that always brightens my day even when it comes with a sense of mourning. Words cant describe how touched i am by this video
Awwwww now Im crying🥹🥹 That is a beautiful story My condolences and I wish you the best❤❤ And remember, Spartans never die they just go missing in action❤
Halo Reach. My first ever Halo game I was so excited when I got it, I played it nonstop and refused to uninstall it to install my new game and then when I beat it, I felt empty I was so immersed in Halo Reach, All of those mission's only to die...
This was…incredible. It’s been so long since I felt what this video made me feel. 41 years old, sitting here with my dogs, listening to my wife talk in the phone, and just feeling memories flood my mind of Halo 2 matches, as my tears flood my eyes.
When I was young and friends be it online ones or IRL stopped playing a game or the game when offline permanently I would get sad for awhile but then as time went on I began to realize something which is what this video (I believe) is getting at: Games that you can't experience again be it because they were multiplayer and the servers are gone or they are single player games the reality is you can never experience the same game for the first time again, ever... but that's okay. That's not a bad thing at all. What I've realized is that the sadness we all feel when we finish a game or the servers go offline is we wish we could experience it all over again and get sad because of that but we shouldn't dwell in that sadness. The reason you are sad at all is because it was something so special to you that not being able to relive it again or experience it with a clean memory having never played it before. Really if you want to you can take this idea and extrapolate it to real life with friends and family or pets. When someone passes away or moves away, you lose contact or fall out of touch, etc. It is such a gut punching feeling. Maybe I'm not the best at handling grief but the way I've always told myself to look at these types of losses is that I shouldn't get sad and sulk and get depressed that they are no longer around. Rather, I should be eternally grateful that I had them in my life and cherish the memories I have of them. Don't get me wrong it's not that I don't cry or feel sad when I lose a friend or family member or pet, I do and a lot. However I know myself well enough to know that I could very easily fall into a downward spiral of regret, wishing I could go back in the past and hang out with them again and be around them more. Same thing applies to games. One of my favorite games in the past 10 years was a game called CrossCode. When I finished it I was very very sad and cried a bit because I didn't want the good times to stop. I wanted to keep going and to keep enjoying my time with the game. The moral of the story is: Cherish your time with whatever or whoever you are spending it with. It's okay to feel grief and sadness when it's over as all things eventually come to an end, but do not dwell on/in your sadness. Genuinely be extremely grateful and eternally happy that you got to spend the time in that game or with that person. Think about how much fun you had and all the different experiences and emotions you felt and memories you've kept with you. The sadness you feel when good things end is BECAUSE they were good things and meant a lot to you. There was a period of time where I legit felt incredibly depressed and alone when all my friends slowly stopped playing Xbox Live and I switched to PC. Eventually I realized that I was approaching my grieving of the situation all wrong. I shouldn't be sad that it's over -- I should be eternally grateful that I was lucky enough to spend my time surrounded by amazing friends who gave my thousands and thousands of hours of laughter and hilarious memories. I remember so many good times playing Halo 3 custom games with my friend Darius (if there's some strange world where you see this, hope you're living your best life buddy - my ID was sneakysnake/poisonous zero n we used to play Halo 3/reach/COD MW2 on Xbox 360) along with a ton others that for some reason my brain right now cannot name, but I've never forgotten the experiences I had with them and the time we shared. Cherish your friends and the time you get to spend with them, take nothing for granted and don't dwell too long when things eventually come to an end. Don't be sad that it's over, smile because it happened.
That was one hell of a video. I don't think I've ever had someone so perfectly summarize why video games in general are painful for me as I approach 30. I boot up games now and either they are the same thing I've already put 1000 hours into and can't possibly explore more, or they're unfamiliar and deeply unsatisfying because I have already experienced so many endless hours of incredible joy and curiosity. No matter what I do, every time I pick up a controller these days I am simply overcome with a deep sorrow and wistfulness for those careless summer days where I knew that my friends would come over, we'd boot up the latest obsession, and the hours would breeze by with unfettered joy. I find that emotion in other things these days, but after so many ups and downs for so much of my life, video games are just too emotional and embittering to enjoy anymore.
Bro I'm starting to feel you, it's all either too familiar or too foreign. I want something comfortable, but not something I've played a thousand times. By the time I played Halo Reach almost all enjoyment of it was lost on me. I didn't care about the story enough to continue, or the gameplay. I was confused how people could love it so much since I couldn't, but it was perhaps the burnout that ruined the game.
wow this touched me :') i hope that a game of some sort come round and that you and your friends can enjoy it together as the hours go by and endless joy comes through.
In my late 30s so I feel your longing for the games and types of games you miss & put time into. But, gaming as a hobby is just that. If you don't like the games your playing, try a different genre or platform/console. The back of games I have from even 3 years ago, is still in the teens. I find newness & enjoyment from top 10 games that are highly rated everywhere, by multiple sources. But, I don't let my hobby consume me. There's still lifting heavy objects and putting them down. Overall, my time is very limited these days...dang my kids and thier video games. 😅
This video is a piece of art and I was crying at the end. I'm in a point in my life right now where I feel like no matter what I do it won't matter, but knowing that there are people who will still fight to the end, even if it seems hopeless, that's what I live for. I'm going to keep fighting, even if it seems hopeless.
Today I finally completed the 100% of Super Mario Galaxy, a game I have played since I was a kid. Now I have watched your video and I'm crying remembering all the moments I lived playing it, how I struggled with the first boss and the satisfaction when I beat it, the first time I heard Gusty Garden Galaxy... Even if it's sad to think that I will never experience that for the first time, I'm happy it happened. Thank you so much.
The antidote to this sort of backward-looking melancholy is novelty. I don't grieve the loss of my ability to experience great things for the first time ever again, because I know that there are countless other first time experiences still waiting for me, some of which will be as spectacular as anything I've ever seen. A life filled with novelty is a life well lived.
I am so very blessed by the simple ability to remember and perfectly emulate the feelings of the first time I did anything. The first time I beat Reach, my entire body shuddered, and so it has every single time afterward. When I completed Shadow of the Colossus for the first time I cried as the beautiful, beautiful music played and those credits rolled, and so I do, every single time. After my mother passed away, I went to my father and told him 'I can't even remember what she looked like from memory' and we wept, and now, years and years later, I can remember that moment and cry just the same. I only wish everyone were able to remember so clearly, physically, mentally, and spiritually.
True, but at the end of your life, there are no more new experiences and all you are left with are memories. Without preserving the past, no one would even know what you are talking about when that time comes.
Holy crap. This video actually made me quite emotional. How most people would see the last matches as survival, it was actually a labor of love for so many. Truly inspiring thank you
Miss Halo Reach a whole lot. Me and my cousin played back when I was 4 until I was 13, we wish we could go back. Lone Wolf was such a great mission, too. A worthy end for Bungie’s Halo.
Me(7) and my brother(11) at the time were soo confused and thought we were doing something wrong in that mission. We both shared the controller to see who can last find the way out of that death zone, but then we realized that it must be time-based on survival. So we both shared again to see how long we will both survive. No matter how long we survived we always ended up seeing the same cutscene at the end. Then we realized, this is it. This is how the game ends. There is nothing further, but a downfall of your crew dying and eventually you at the end of it all. This game will always be on my list of best games I played and had the most fun.
@ethanshenk2058 Yea but 343 changed it. Campaign wise yea its fine, but online multiplayer is a shell of what it once was. Even when Reach servers were active once Bungie dropped the IP, they made changes for the worse. Idk if you remember TU Slayer, but that marked the beginning of their reign with bleedthrough shield damage. They changed the mechanics of a wildly popular game and wonder why it failed once they took over. You can't vote on maps, they dont cycle the old maps enough and you're forced to play on their newer ones that are terrible, they have the bleedthrough damage, spawning with a DMR and pistol is asinine vs AR and pistol because teams can focus fire kill anyone instantly. They took away creative and fun arcade style game modes in Action Sack and changed it to be king of the kill or capture the flag. They just never understood who the fanbase was/is. So yes, you can go play it again, but it's not the same game.
I wasn't expecting something of this magnitude. How eloquently put. How.. eloquently put. I've seen most of these games. Loved them, too. You got yourself a new subscriber. Take life as it comes, everyone.
Halo: Reach was the first game to give me a more existential view of the world and everything else. It was going through the stages of grief without having lost a person. This video has reignited that feeling of "I'm only here for so long, and I shouldn't be scared of the end cause then I'll only waste my time worried about something I can't control". This video means a lot, and I know I'm not the only one who sees the beauty in dark subjects like this.
"These experiences we had cannot be changed or forgotten; time will always march forward, and as distant as those memories get, those foggy but unforgettable moments, they'll always be a part of you, for better, or for worse." This hits hard.
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Some of what you described is how I feel exploring dead Minecraft servers, still clinging until the unpaid fees finally end them for good. Same with once-bustling survival servers now housing a small, dedicated playerbase. It's very melancholy looking at everything done, everything lost, and acknowledging the things I will never see. There's a heartwarming melancholy saying goodbye to things left behind, and knowing that someone somewhere remembers them for the beautiful works of creativity they were.
Mineplex going down earlier this year hit me really hard. I have tons of memories on that server, and the reality that its time was limited had never really occurred to me before the server was gone forever. Now all I have left is Hypixel, but that will inevitably die someday as well. Online games cost money to keep up and running and, because of this, every single one has a limited lifespan. Fortnite, rocket league, apex, hypixel, etc. all have a ticking clock. Some day it will no longer be viable to keep the servers running and all those games will become nothing but memories.
There used to be a minigame called Dwarves Vs Zombies. It used to feel *huge* . Then, the main dev had arguments with other devs, they went a little insane, and it died. Eventually, without the main server, recieving updates and the like, all the spinoff servers died. There have been times I visited the old spinoff servers, and it's just empty. Games which used to host well over 20+ people, now with one. Some servers eventuallly downsized to one minigame, usually not DvZ. Some became creative plot servers. All are barren. The last sentence isn't entirely true, of course, there *is* a small community organising games weekly, but you have to search to find it.
Depression often makes me think of these moments in time and feel sad that I can't relive them. Makes me feel like there's no point to doing anything, simply because in the end, it won't matter. Watching videos like this remind me that I shouldn't be sad just because I can't do it again, but that I should be glad I did them at all. Thanks for reminding me that everything ends, and that I should just be happy to be apart of something so large.
There is nothing called depression it's a term for ppl who don't wanna work so they say '' i have depression so i can't work'' but they don't have it :)
Ive finished the video. Ive been scrolling the comments for about 10 minutes now and the more i read, the more i think on the information in the video, the more i think of my past and how i can never be an excited kid again playing a game that was so fun. Everything i think about over the course of the last 10 minutes has caused my eyes to well up more and more. It hurts to know that time marches on and steals the people and things we love from us, but i look back with joy knowing i got to experience everything i did or spent time with who i have. It sucks to know that gaming is so different to me now than it was when i was a kid, not just because of the mentality but the production of games. I hope we can get back to making more good games that the newer generations can play and feel what we did. I know this was a long sappy comment and im sorry for that. Just had to get all this out there.
You explained the feeling of grievance to the absolute perfect degree. This is exactly how I felt when LBP2 online servers had to be cut off, knowing that I’d no longer be able to have slap battles with my friends, stay in the pod for HOURS to simply decorate it, create stupid, goofy costumes and levels with with them. It was a realization that my childhood game, the game that has pretty much shaped me into the person I am today was gone. It felt barren. People were still online, sure. But you could only play by yourself, and realizing that option of “Diving In” with a random person has suddenly dissipated, that ruined me. I miss the Little Big Planet franchise with every fiber in my body, but I’m getting older, and those memories will always stick with me. It’s time to move on 💗
Oh my god Little Big Planet 2 was so fun for me, meeting random people was pretty enjoyable, even when I came across literal bullies I found it amusing. The fact you can dress up your character, be the character you want to be was really cool. I came across so many people on Little Big Planet 2, playing that hide and seek level/game that was made. Their was a classic Jeff The Killer survival game. That other survival game where you gotta dodge the bombs. Also messing around with the AI within story mode and putting stickers all over them. I could go on and on about Little Big Planet 2 and 3, I feel like they should do a re-release of the 2nd game for both Ps4 and Ps5. I know the 3rd is still up I believe for the Ps4 and 5 but for some reason I enjoyed the 2nd game the most.
Man this hurt me. My brother and I loved Little Big Planet and especially Little Big Planet 2. They were our childhoods. Part of me died when I learned that the servers went offline.
I think a line Chara gives you at the end of a 2nd Geno run puts it perfectly. "You are wracked with a perverted sentimentality. I cannot understand these feelings anymore." Many experiences I will never be able to relive, only capable of reexperiencing them vicariously through other peoples' playthroughs. I loved these experiences, and part of me always wants to feel them again, no matter the path, but it wouldn't be the same. Great video.
15:36 "...after all, what's more human than being irrational." man that's deep. I've always thought of humans as striving to be the most rational creatures, but we hold on to things for irrational reasons. Great video.
i know this is basically what the video said but good but when i watched this, i felt the kind of sadness you get from looking at something nostalgic and remembering the good times you had then, and knowing you’ll never be able to experience that joy again, but also being happy that those memories even happened he did a really good job on this
Honestly it's crazy it seems like its a bunch of people feeling the same way. I miss how I used to play Halo 3 over again, I had fun playing the missions splitscreen and messing with the ragdoll physics. Collecting skulls...Then other games like minecraft, I remember when the hunger bar was added, and Herobrine was still kind of a thing. The first time I played borderlands 2, before they patched a bunch of the fun glitches. The old community servers I would join on black ops 1 multiplayer, and the lobby was just lively. I remember being so excited to get home and play zombies. The Richtofen easter egg line was so cool to follow up on during Treyarch's reign. Man golden age of gaming is over it seems. Now games have no atmosphere, or character. Alot of games use the exact same graphics and textures it seems. I remember when older games had an artistic look to the textures, the music, everything. I feel like now games have become like a fast food product, no one really cares about creating an experience but just creating something for people to buy until they can suck it dry...at this point im just ranting but man I miss when I would be excited to play and now most games I try to play now just feel empty. Cod4, CodMW2, WaW, Bo1, Halo 3, Halo 3 odst, Far Cry 2, Assassins creed 2 and brotherhood, Fallout 3, New Vegas, Skyrim, Oblivion, Borderlands 2, Halo wars, Battlefield 1942, Mafia 2, Garry's mod, Half life 2, Team Fortress 2....the Valve games, Bungie games and earlier CoD games were some of the best games I remember playing when I was younger. Other's I wish I had played sooner than I have, because when I was younger I was so bored and not allowed to leave home to hang out with friends that I had to play video games constantly. Now that I'm older I dont have so much time, and Im playing games I never got to play as a kid because they didn't look interesting at the time. So many regrets on moments I probably missed out on.
The legends that are the Noble 14. I think as the internet/gaming becomes older and game archivists' fight becomes more difficult as copyright, ownership, and corporate bs gets more complicated, their story will ring closer and closer to home for a lot of folks
I was just thinking about that.. About how.. that same story plays out in microscopic ways over and over again and will continue until something breaks.
Dude, this video actually made me feel hella emotional. It triggered so many feelings, memories and just make me think about so much. What a masterpiece of a video.
Horizon Zero Dawn was one of those games for me. It does such a great job at slowly working you into what happened, and at the end you're just numb by all the things you can't change.
Imagine being that one guy that was the last man on the server, probably searching in those last 22hrs endlessly, looking for someone, anyone that can play with him. The finest hours. Halo reach was one of those games that had a giant fanbase until the end, like the final EA nascar game when people were enjoying the finest hours of that last online race.
Damn… I’ll say this now. looking back at how I enjoyed undertale and other games and not wanting them to die but couldn’t stay playing those games because of me getting older and having more responsibility’s. After watching this video I cryed for the first time in 14 years. All I want to say is thank you for making me relive those memories.
This is a topic I've thought a lot about recently, I love that you brought up Undertale as its mechanics are so fresh and unique, great video as always Judge man
This video reminded me why I love videogames ever since I was a little kid. They let you live thousands of different lives, have millions of different experiences, you can do things not even you could dream of, you meet people you never thought even existed, because all those characters in your favourite videogame were created, were designed, were given life by somebody else, just like you. Definitely more than "just a videogame".
I find this ephemeral experience artistic. Its similar to having a meal at a restaurant - its only here in the capacity that it is for this moment in time. Somewhere theres someone who envies your enjoyment of this moment as they only have a memory of that place. One day it will close, become a different store or have a different chef.
Entering Waterfall in Undertale is genuinely one of the most memorable story telling moments in gaming. Using the slowed theme song of a later boss that somehow sounds good while creating it's own entirely separate theme and area that slowly makes the player begin to grasp the role they play in the story and the weight that it holds takes a genius thats rarely seen.
While Omori is a game you can play as many times as you like I have only played it once, despite it being one of my favourite experiences. I think this applies to many story based games, sure you can replay it to your heart's content but you will never have the same experience as you did the first time.
Things I have learned from the comments:
1. Outer Wilds covers much of the same topic.
2. OneShot covers much of the same topic.
3. OneShot is the game that has that cat creature I see everywhere.
4. I made a LOT of people cry
That "cat lady" (Niko) has no canonical gender, like Frisk and Chara from undertale
It may sounds like asking too much but... play Outer Wilds. It's just... that kinda of game you wish you could forget everything about just to play it again and relieve those moments.
This video made me go through a nostalgic crisis
@Aeonsteel I'm sure that cat lady appreciates this
Outer wilds is easily one of the best games I’ve ever played, I wish I could forget everything about it and play through it for the first time again. Your only limit in the game is your own knowledge
Undertale was originally going to delete all the data for the game and force you to rebuy it if you did genocide
That'd be a really cool thing in theory but obviously not in practice. God, I love Undertale.
@TheCursedJudge undertale isnt good at all. The story is just murder bad and the gameplay is pac man without walls
I recommend left on replay's video on undertale. It's pretty well made, and tbh I think his interpretation makes sense
@Disgaea5 I'm one who thinks that Undertale is broadly overrated, but there's a difference between just saying "murder bad" and forcing the player to confront the fact that the capacity for evil exists inside them. You could just as easily oversimplify Halo Reach as being "war sad :(", but that kind of ultimately misses the point
Since the days of OFF, most indie RPG games with combat has "murder bad :'(" as it's main thing.
Maybe except for Fear and Hunger. Murder gets you ve-ery far in there.
"Whats more human than being irrational" that line hit me hard
I’m a word freak, and that line is phenomenal
Because you're also genZ and now you're gonna put that in a tiktok
@solmoman woah dude he just was giving away how he felt lol
@solmoman that is gen alpha
Why did that line strike you the way it did?
I say being rational is more human; it’s what separates us from other animals
Two quotes from Satoru Iwata before he passed away “If I could start over, I wouldn’t change a thing.” “No part of my experience has been a waste of time”
Damn, serious Raoh energy. "Of this life, I've not a single regret!"
Okay?
"but in my heart... I am a gamer". Said at a time when gamers were stigmatized and demonized by the entire mainstream political and media establishment.
" If I start my life over again, it's bad for one life time, but I don't start my life over again, it's bad forever." - Iwata
satoru gojo
One footnote to the 14 Halo players is what the Reach developers did to acknowledge their efforts. See, at the very end of Lone Wolf, in the survive section, you can spot 14 fallen spartans around the map. These are the 14 players who lasted so long in the Halo 2 servers, in armor that (from my understanding) was chosen by those players. Their efforts to survive may have been in vain, but through that mission, they will always be remembered by those who know.
Halo Reach actually changed my brain chemistry soo much. I don't think there is any game that is like it.
It's my favorite game of all time, I actually made a video like 3 years talking about it, but it's unlisted.
Three words, Red dead redemption.
@TheCursedJudge where linkie
@BIGNUGGET5434Red Dead Redemption 2
It made me cry ngl
"It's a brutally depressing experience, where nothing you do can erase the mistake you made and every option gives you a sliver of the life you had before. The world around you is dead, no matter whether you survive or not." Is high praise 🙏
Thanks for remembering my dumb little flash game ❤
It genuinely is such a unique game and you did wonderfully with it ❤
DUMB? Nah man, you’re a legend. I love your game! It’s a beauty!
I remember getting recommended that game by a Vsauce video and I still stand by my decision to work in the lab every day. Your use of permanence was very novel and I have huge kudos for the vision of the game.
OH SHI- It's you! Hahaha man your game was a rollercoaster of emotions, thanks for making it 👍👍
I remember watching Letsplays of it! I’d say it influenced Indie gaming, and the story was great! 💗
that parallel of the last mission of reach to the theme of the video is inspired film making 10/10
I appreciate it Weyln, I remember watching your Rust stuff when you first blew up and I found your channel again recently, it's cool to see you.
the goat just commented on such a peak video
wait wtf do u remember playing with a random kid on a rust server like 7 years ago? had a big ass rock in the snow completely walled off on the inside of the rock. i remember you showing me your channel back then at like 1k subs. con fucking grats on blowing up dude not sure how i never realized.
Welyn! I love your content, it's what made me appreciate great commentary like this
wot u doin ere mate good ta see ya
"What's more human than being irrational?"
Thank you for this.
"As someone who was desperately obsessed with Undertale as a kid"
Jesus I'm getting old
As someone who was playing Donkey Kong Country as a kid, same
Insane how time works. This line stood out to me more than the whole essay.
To me, Undertale is another game in my backlog that I bought "a couple years ago" and I'll get around to playing any day now.
Undertale was released less than 8 years ago. There is no "was" here. This dude either wasn't a kid then or he is still a kid now.
@Zartanyus 8 years is only 2 years away from being a decade. Someone who was 15 years old then is 23 now.
When I was a kid I had to convince my mom Halo reach wasn’t violent because it was alien blood… if only she knew, one of the best and most memorable experiences in my life
On the Arbiter missions, it was MY mission to paint entire rooms with my friendlies' lovely blue blood 😂😥
Lmaoo I had to do the exact same thing, good times
Can’t you tell her?
ah he took the "its only aliens" route
I was at a friend's house and he just got halo, his mom heard Johnson say shit then kicked everyone out the house and beat his ass. Lol
As I heard the words "Obsessed with undertale as a kid" it became clear to me that I'm a fairly old man.
I still recognized it as a, maybe not new, but definitely not as an old game. So I googled it and it dawned on me that this game is nearly 8 years old.
I'm 29, I think being on the internet kind of makes this seem much older because we are now surrounded by kids online, the reality is that we are not really old, not truly old, we don't even know what that feels like yet, but we have an artificial sense of being ancient because we are always interacting with people we normally wouldn't have due to the age gap
Hearing that line I automatically assumed Undertale was a rerelease or remake from a 90s game and the guy in the video played the old version as a kid. Only when I read the comments it became clear he was definitely referring to a game that, to me, did not release that long ago. I still can't wrap my head around how someone was "a kid" a few years ago and now making youtube documentaries.
Undertale came out when I was 16
I think what´s also weird is that he talks about halo 2 like he was there.
@aduantas i'm 22 and feel the same. My Steam account is going to be a decade old soon, and although that's not quite half my life (made it when i was almost 14), i still feel like an old man for having a near-decade old Steam account.
and granted, some people have had it since Steam launched almost 20 years ago.... but i'm not one of those.
I was expecting some lighthearted "oh these are lost games you cant find anywhere", not an emotional video essay about permanence and determination and what it means to be human. thank you for making this, its genuinely so beautiful
Nagger
"I was expecting some lighthearted "oh these are lost games you cant find anywhere", not an emotional video essay about permanence" If you want videos like that, go see Izzzyzzz. They're all about that.
The halo 2 story would have been even more wholesome if the last 2 players became friends and met in real life
they probably did
Were it so easy
@blazetheplaneswalker you just unlocked a core memory with that line
😢
This isnt a fake reddit story..
I was expecting a generic list.
I was not expecting an incredibly sad, melancholic, nostalgic, somehow eye-opening and genuinely emotional experience.
I've never seen your channel before, and I wasn't subscribed...
...I am now, because this was fucking amazing.
same af.
Viewer: How depressing is your next video on games going to be?
The Cursed Judge: Yes
Yes, this was a different kind of experience...
I fucking agree
R.I.P Strikeforce
Oh man, I remember when we were all trying to stay on the Halo 2 servers as long as possible. Thank you for the trip down Memory Lane.
Walshy the 🐐
R3AP3R117 was there
I was level 50 in swat MLG. I still have the same account but no proof of my rank. sad.
There's a philosophy in game making. Games must be places of joy. And keeping players there for any other reasons would makem places of boredom. You were playing for no joy.
@aleyzeeo-aleyzee2101huh?
i feel so cool bc my ipod still has the original flappy bird
A game that would've fit perfectly into this video is OneShot, as the entire game's permise revolves around the idea that you only have one try of completing the main charachters goal (hence the name OneShot, as in you only have one shot). Even though the version on Steam does have a "secret" ending after your initial first playthrough, after completing the game for a second time, it will lock you out of playing it ever again.
@Vero! True, I forgot about that. As you said, OneShot plays a lot more with the idea of the player only having one "true" playthrough than other games.
I almost didn't watch the video because I'm dodging spoilers for that game and was certain it would be here.
@Vero! The original OneShot (not the steam version) was special, if you close this game, Niko is DEAD, with nothing you can do to undo it...
You can delete your save and then the game and then play it over again two more times btw
🌘^🌒
“Spartans never die, they're just missing in action”
Another words their dead
@ClimberinChrist *in other words
@redvalens8861also they’re*
At this point, they are dead like the franchise that 343 made sure to try and kill off
No, they're dead...😢
I love how you tied the Halo 2 server story with Halo Reach’s Lone Wolf mission. Insanely poetic
Was that what they were going for with the mission?
@v.rokumonsen9338 nah, couldnt be bro. Game was done by then. Cool that Bungie left the lights on til the last person left, so to say.
@v.rokumonsen9338 not it, it tied well, but they didn't have that in mind
@krischurch3763 Well, I know for a FACT Nintendo didn't do that, because one evening it was online, and the next day when I came home from school, I was a mess.
2:10 Meanwhile CS still fucking living for like over a decade:
Lefti 4 Dead/2.. Team Fortress 2.. VALVe is on another level. Microsoft and Sony are just using excuses most of the time.
I still remember dying for the first time on “Lone Wolf”. I kept expecting the objective to update, but it never did. As soon as I saw the special cutscene I knew what it really meant. Felt like I had my heart ripped out. Hurt having reality set in
The original Halo trilogy contained Christian themes in its lore. Can the Covenant be forgiven for the war they started?
Did anyone ever find a way to trick that into rolling credits without you actually dying? Star Ocean 2 and FF7: Crisis Core had 'unwinnable' battles that you could glitch the game into going past... you still lose as far as the game is concerned of course.
@Mark-in8ju I honestly liked the religious symbolisms and themes in Halo. Sure it could be taken multiple ways, but I feel like it added a lot more depth to the lore.
Spartans never die, they're just missing in action.
@congruentcrib I agree
"Goodbye To A World", by Porter Robinson, is a song that encapsulates that feeling of seeing the world of your favourite MMO, one you've spent countless hours in, disappear becasue the servers shut down. I think it's a beautiful song and I wholeheartedly recommend everyone listening to it.
Oh wow, I did not realize that song was genuinely inspired by the concept of MMO games being shut down. That's pretty dope. Extra cool because I associate that song with Undertale too lol
I heard this song a few years before my memory started remembering. (Which isn't saying much because I only started properly remembering like 3 years ago and I am 15 almost 16), but I used to sing "Lonely, I am so lonely, and it's the end of the world, don't blame yourself now" Because I didn't know the lyrics properly because of how much of a foggy memory the song was. But the first time I rediscovered it, I oddly felt like I had found an old part of myself again. This comment made me rediscover it a second time, and it yet again feels like finding old memories of me playing at the playground of the old daycare I went to, sitting on the bark pretending to sell ice-cream down under the slides in the wooden box. When all I had to worry about was if the girl I had a crush on liked me back and if my iron beads were heated properly so I could take it home. Those were good times. I don't have a good way to end this comment off properly so.. Thank you, genuinely, thank you :)
Have an amazing day and if times aren't looking up for you at the moment, it will get better, good job for sticking through it all. and if they are looking up, good job on playing your cards right. Signing off.
@ICanHazRecon911I’m pretty sure it wasn’t actually supposed to be about MMOs. I think OP just interpreted it that way.
thank you, this reminded me of NFS World. i could only play it for a year as a kid because the servers shut down in 2015, but that game meant the world to me. i still remember the fireworks going off in free-roam exactly when the plug was pulled. me and tons of other people gathered up in that one spot, watching those fireworks, sending goodbyes in chat, reunited in this virtual final gasp of life... i couldn't not shed a tear.
i had dumped my profile beforehand, so i could play it offline, as such a project was announced before the shutdown. it did come to fruition eventually, and i could play my game again, albeit by my own. multiplayer was planned, so i kept waiting... until my old hard drive died 3 days before i wanted to back it up.
my profile, the last screenshot from the official servers, named "the end of the world.png", all gone.
true, the game did receive a fan-made revival a few years later, and i did play it extensively for some time... but that just wasn't the same. i was a different person by then. the memories did not fully match what i was playing.
i should not have opened that HDD that one day, maybe it was still possible to save it... well! thanks again, i guess i needed this.
I have that record, it's an amazing soundtrack
I was expecting you to mention the Outer Wilds. That's probably the first game where not being able to play it again hit me like a brick.
I know I can't ever truly re-experience it for the first time again.
But I admit I still revisit it. I still go flying around and looking at this strange, scary and yet wonderful solar system.
I've practically beaten the game 100%. But I still play it anywa6, cause I love it so much.
@DeathAngel-ft8oz I've been thinking of giving this game a chance for quite a while now, and honestly? I probably will now. I've heard a lot of good stuff, heard some music, but I never touched it. In hope it's really as good as portrayed! ^^
the only literal version of this title
@kyufyxia please do, it's a piece of beautiful art that each person can only experience once each lifetime.
@kyufyxia probably the best game I ever experienced. Do not look up any information about it before playing.
13:45 Hearing you were a kid in 2015 hurts me
*MFW 2014 is only 3 months away… YAAR*
Man flappy bird was hilarious, everyone was just confused when it was taken off the app store
I got the APK file if you want it
Very legit prob not a virus
Honestly I completely understand why he did it. It takes a big person to do something like that.
I remember some kid murdered a family member out of frustration and then a week after that it was off the app store, probably no relation but at the time I thought that was the reason the creator decided to take it down
@leithfischer9431 no that was a fake story.
Halo Reach has one of the best endings in video game history to me. The ending to that game is so amazing while being something that is ultimately depressing at the same time. The thrill ride that that story is, is found basically nowhere else in gaming. It's one of those games that I wish I could entirely forget to replay again because I want to experience it again for the first time.
Oh boy lemme tell you about FF crisis core which basically has the same ending as reach
@MILDMONSTER1234 I tried so many times to survive and hope there was a beatable outcome to crises core only for it to be hopeless. Great memories I wish I could do again for the first time. Over 15 years later its still as memorable as ever. Rip Zack
Halo Reach is the most recent game I played to the credits a few weeks ago.
So the feels and everything about it is still fresh and boy did it hit me hard.
Such an amazing merging of gameplay and storytelling.
A couple weeks ago, I played through Reach for the first time ever. Fantastic game, though I wish it was a little longer.
We are emotional junkies.
The last guy in Noble 14 when the other guy went off: Gentlemen... It has been a privilege playing with you
That hurts
They could still meet up in Halo 3, ODST, Reach and beyond if they shared gamer tags and added each other as friends.
1:55 Wizard101 feels so out of place here 😂
@Cashandtango well it’s actually back you can now play it on console
Every time I see Halo, it reminds me nothing is the same, and it can't be repeated. That was my friends' and I high school video game, and now I don't even know where my friends are...😢
Different time in our lives; its super weird now...
Fuck man. I miss my homies too.
Same with my buds I played GOW3 with online. Had our crew and had a lot of fun...no longer
Strange that in the presence of so many social media platforms (Facebook, Instagram, Snapchat) ... that people are as alone as ever.
@RNAPolymerase Indeed.
This video is pure nostalgia, and not just because it talks about games that are no longer, but because it managed to put me in a mood I haven't experienced for years, I don't even know how to describe it, it's a weird mix of existential dread, inspiration and pure focus on the here and now while also thinking about the past. You truly managed to transport my mind to a place I haven't visited in a long time, it's been a while since a piece of media captivated my attention to the point where it felt 10x longer than it actually was, and even now that it's finished I'm still actively thinking about it an hour later. Bravo.
@RobotronSage This reads like satire. On the off chance you're serious, there's an important point you're seeming to intentionally miss.
The community and atmosphere of Halo 2 being mainstream, easily accessible without 3rd party software, and feeling completely alive knowing everyone at school most likely had an account and also played is what truly "died."
Let's consider the Mega Man battle network legacy collection that is about to release in April. Why am I going to spend $60 on it, even though the roms are readily available for free? Because of accessibility and an actual online community that will breathe life into a niche series. Being able to queue up against and trade chips with an actual online community as opposed to some niche circle in a discord is a night and day gaming experience.
You as an enthusiast yourself must surely know what I mean when you give your pitch to normal people about the preserved classics.
If it's not on Steam, Epic, PS5, Xbox, Switch, BNET, etc. no one is going to care about playing it or taking the admittedly tedious route of emulating and connecting with people.
These preserved classics typically rely on P2P and never have dedicated servers, or any of the updates and features / DLC / patches that come with a game actually being kept alive by the company itself.
What you're describing exists, but it's just not comparable unfortunately. I've went down that route with Dolphin/ Slippi with Melee for gamecube and Project M. There was a community of like maybe 200 people globally because millions of people instead were playing Ultimate on the Switch.
@RobotronSage talks about gamers but plays pinball 😤 smh
@RobotronSage Maybe lay off the crack for a while, nothing in this life lasts forever, you can preserve games as much as you want, one day no one will care as everyone will have moved on to newer things.
Things change, it's inevitable, and there's no point in staying attached to the past, this has nothing to do with corporate propaganda, it's just a fact of life, you have to learn to move on a let the past be.
If you really care that much about old games, the best you can do is remake them with current technology as this will breathe new life into them and a new generation of gamers will get to experience them.
@ribcut well said!
@RobotronSage you're wrong and you should feel bad
almost made me burst into tears lmao. been dealing with the whole "nothing lasts forever, time won't slow down for you, stop living in the past" kind of vibe lately, and this video just really nails that feeling. It's a bittersweet feeling for sure but god damn, if it isn't human to feel this way!!
Then I won't watch it. I feel bad just reading comments about how Pokemon was never good and the like. I doubt I'd be able to handle watching this video, even though I'm pretty sure the only game I recognize (I skimmed through the preview that shows up when you hover over the bar) is Undertale.
Then I recommend you play Xenoblade Chronicles 3, it plays into that theme beatifully
I struggle with that feeling all the time. We can't live in the past, but we can carry it with us into the future. Nothing lasts forever, and losing it always hurts, but it's still good while it's here.
@Ahrpigi Aye, spot on.
@WITCHTICS There's a quote from Doctor Who that I'm very fond of, I think you'll appreciate it:
"Everything ends and it's always sad, but everything begins again, too. And that's always happy. Be happy."
It's certainly a struggle sometimes, but how human it is to be both sad and happy at the same time, right.
3:29 wtf was that bruh💀💀💀
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@pineapplepotato6985 minor missinput
i cannot imagine the surreal feelings ApacheEnforcer experienced being the last person on the Halo 2 servers. To be that person means that the game probably meant a lot to them, so to be the LAST person to be on the servers- the last person to ever experience your favorite game...i can't imagine how it would feel. it would be so isolating.
Didn't he get rewarded or acknowledged by Microsoft?
@thatguythatplaysgames3221I hope so. He has more dedication than everyone at Microsoft combined.
@thatguythatplaysgames3221no. To answer your question, no “reward” or “acknowledgment” of any sort for what I did.
[Source: I *AM* “APACHE N4SIR”, Guinness World Record Holder and the last person to be on the Halo2 servers after being kicked off after 673 hours 58 minutes after -ZERO HOUR-]
It wasn’t my FAVOURITE game… it was one of me favourites but it was the one that made the biggest impact in the gaming community. It was the reason why we had voice chat. Proximity voice communications. The reasons we had 100 friends on our friends list. To name a few. Without Halo 2 and all it’s framework we wouldn’t have XBOX LIVE the way we had it then and the way we have it now as it was built around Halo2. Without Halo 2, we wouldn’t be as advanced as what we were then or at that time. We have a lot to thank Halo 2 in the background even if you were not a Halo fan… you have a lot to be thankful for!!!
Halo2 servers had the biggest following vs other games like Mech Assault or any sports game… the Lobbies in Halo were top notch and after a game it didn’t disconnect you and throw you outta the lobby like it did like Mech Assault 2 did (which was a pain in the ass, cause if you didn’t write down the Gamertag of the person you liked or got along with you had no way of finding who you were in the lobby and gaming with but in Halo 2 you could carry over from one game to another [which was nice]).
For me personally, Halo held a special meaning to me and I wanted to play some more games with friends a few more times for old times sales. So that’s why I played and didn’t want to put down the controller… 🎮
@apachen4sir631 Well now I feel like a dick
I was expecting a trivia video about games that can't play anymore, but instead received a philosophical discussion about time, about life is ephemeral and how we can't just fight it, no matter how hard we try.
Well done
That's just not true, life expectancy keeps growing and immortality will eventually be a thing if we don't destroy ourselves first.
@Raulikien brother the way it’s looking immortality will most likely not be reached within our lifetime and even if it does your parents or maybe girlfriend/wife shit maybe your kid might be gone by then I’m not tryna be a doomer but rn at least this is sci-fi
@gsegarra21 Just like AI would never be able to have true intelligence in our lifetimes... and then went from making low quality dreamlike pictures to photorealistic videos in a few years, plus actual reasoning better than even expert humans with models like o3. You don't keep up with tech and longevity research, do you?
Going through abandoned VR Chat worlds gives me those same feelings you mentioned in the end. Especially if they have pictures of the people that used to play there on the walls. Who were they? What made them leave? Are they even still alive? Doesn't matter, all that's left are their memories.
I took videos of my gameplay on those abandoned worlds, its hard to watch them when they were full of players and a younger me behind the headset.
As a fellow VRC player, I cry looking back at all the photos I've taken. knowing so many beautiful people and even meeting a lot of them irl. it hurts knowing the inevitable, but it makes the memories made that much more bittersweet
you should try visiting historic places like pompeii THATS powerful
@dabootvvI think Pompeii feels a little different because it isnt an instance that was loaded into reality for me and me alone.
Similar experience with abandoned second life sims
You’re not grieving the game, the game has reminded you that just like itself, you are temporary. You are grieving yourself
@SuperSpazYT Okay Socrates it's a live service xD /lighthearted
This made me look back at the last 22 years of gaming. 22 years of fun, friends, and game after game. Some we’ll never get back again, others will live forever. But this point that you’ll never get that first feeling again, you’ll never be a kid after school at a buddies house again. Time moves on, but the memories are forever
Until you forget or all who could remember are dead.
No one can beat time. At the end of the road even memories fade away.
We only have our actions and what we left behind weather it be bad or good. Though no one will remember a whisper of it in a century. It doesn't mean that they had no impact.
I needed this thank you Jack
Wow, wise words…
@dr.dreamer8914 my cod2 highlight reels will live on foreverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
Even nearly a decade later I'm still coping with the cancellation of Silent Hills and the removal of P.T. That was going to be such a good game.
I’m hyped for Silent Hill F, but that looks more like a Fatal Frame that a Silent Hill.
The teaser for Silent Hills (the non playable one) looked awesome with Norman Reedus too
@DocTime56 I'm pretty excited for F too, and also the SH2 remake. I'm happy Konami is finally doing something with the franchise, instead of just sitting on it like they have been for the past 8-9 years
After Silent Hill: Downpour, I really hope they have their Resident Evil 7 moment and turn the franchise back into what it used to be
They did Kojima so dirty
@pe3094yea idc what they might do good I still hate the company for what they did to him
Thank you for this amazing experience. Thank you for explaining my greatest fear ever in life. Just thank you, I'm speechless.
The Halo 2 story was the most bittersweet. Before voice chat or typing were introduced to HALO, let alone consoles, the only way anyone could "communicate" was through moving around, rotating, or shooting at something.
The final two players that remained, despite not being able to talk or text, seemed to feel some kind of kinship. That clip you showed where they were the only two players left? They looked like they were doing the bro hug.
Then the clip where the last guy was running around. Just running around, not shooting anyone, not competing or cooperating. The last player on a dead server.
...I bet ApacheEnforcer felt like he was stuck in Purgatory.
Your thoughts about Halo and undertale are Awesome.
Undertale for a long time had a really bizarre feel about it. There's the bright side with all the quirky characters, jokes, and happy endings, but then there's this crushing feeling of repetition and hopelessness. The characters are stuck in a loop and you're perpetuating it. On top of that, it does an effective job at commenting about player agency, and how players slowly realize what Flowey really means as a character.
One day I wanna make a video just gushing all about Undertale, there is so much to that game
@TheCursedJudge Then the only rational thing for me to do is subscribe and wait
Your channel is great
Somtimes I think I'm the only person who just despises Undertale
@ChipTheOtter you are. There is no reason to hate it with the exception of the fanbase. Its truly a masterwork in player centered story telling.
@Milkmangood58 I wish it were so
"Whats more human than being irrational" this was an epic video. Im not crying, youre crying.
I read that at the same time he said it.
I almost did too.
"You're crying too!"
@Scott's Precious Little Account You've never looked at imaginary numbers then 😂
7:43 - Flappy bird is still available for me download on my apple account. I've had it on every new Iphone I've had since it came out.
“What’s more human than being irrational” is one of the best quotes about life I’ve ever heard.
Reminds me of “Predictably Irrational: the hidden forces that shape our decisions” (a book by Dan Ariely)
Honestly, this is the closest a video essay has been to being perfect in my eyes. Only thing it’s missing is a mention of Outer Wilds. You should really play that game if you haven’t done so yet.
I haven't, a lot of people have told me to play it in the comments though. I'm a little broke rn but I'll get it when I have the chance!
Dudes voice is soothing AF no homo
@frogfarmer3551 you spittin facts bro
Check out Jacob Geller. Has the same vibe as this dude in the way he delivers the information. Always good to double up on essay sources bc they take a long time to make 😜
@TheCursedJudge you're broke now, you'll be broken soon after playing. 10/10 dont google a single word
This video is especially relevant today, with the stop killing games movement getting the required signatures
My heart goes out to those players, who held on as long as they could.
thanks for making this video, it hit hard.
I couldn't even begin to imagine the emotional roller coaster the last player went through knowing once he was gone, it would be no more.
That person actually has a RUclips account, and they've commented on this video. Go say hi to them!
I havent cried in two years but this video has me tearing up on the brink of crying as the last points you made in the video about our memories never being changed or altered hit me hard since my brother died in a fatal car accident and one of my fondest memories i have is of me and him playing halo 3 together, even though he always demolished me in that game i always loved playing it with him and after his death ive never found as much joy in my life as i did when he was still here. To this day i still have his xbox 360 and the same exact game disk we played together on which i clean frequently so that when im feeling sad or lonely i can play it and explore the worlds we made together in forge and get a rush of memories that always brightens my day even when it comes with a sense of mourning. Words cant describe how touched i am by this video
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Awwwww now Im crying🥹🥹
That is a beautiful story
My condolences and I wish you the best❤❤
And remember, Spartans never die they just go missing in action❤
I'm sorry about your brother. Glad you can somewhat be happy with the memories and its so cool that you clean the disc every so often
Rest in peace bro
This comment is beautyful
Halo Reach. My first ever Halo game I was so excited when I got it, I played it nonstop and refused to uninstall it to install my new game and then when I beat it, I felt empty I was so immersed in Halo Reach, All of those mission's only to die...
This was…incredible. It’s been so long since I felt what this video made me feel. 41 years old, sitting here with my dogs, listening to my wife talk in the phone, and just feeling memories flood my mind of Halo 2 matches, as my tears flood my eyes.
Go outside and touch grass
Ok boomer
Lmao
I swear as good as the comments are, the replies can be totally opposite and cringey as possible.
42 and I still have such a fond spot in my heart for halo 2 and then halo reach… unforgettable times and memories. I feel you brother 😢
This is the best video essay Ive seen in a minute
The soundtrack
The wording
The nostalgia..
10/10
Check out kaptainkristian hands down makes the best ones
incredible video, thank you
@Kmac2021 no u
AYY ITS KMAC! Good te see ye here lad!
holy shit where’ve you been?
Yo, where is guitar tip 4?
Hi Kmac2021 , how are you doign
When I was young and friends be it online ones or IRL stopped playing a game or the game when offline permanently I would get sad for awhile but then as time went on I began to realize something which is what this video (I believe) is getting at: Games that you can't experience again be it because they were multiplayer and the servers are gone or they are single player games the reality is you can never experience the same game for the first time again, ever... but that's okay. That's not a bad thing at all. What I've realized is that the sadness we all feel when we finish a game or the servers go offline is we wish we could experience it all over again and get sad because of that but we shouldn't dwell in that sadness. The reason you are sad at all is because it was something so special to you that not being able to relive it again or experience it with a clean memory having never played it before. Really if you want to you can take this idea and extrapolate it to real life with friends and family or pets. When someone passes away or moves away, you lose contact or fall out of touch, etc. It is such a gut punching feeling. Maybe I'm not the best at handling grief but the way I've always told myself to look at these types of losses is that I shouldn't get sad and sulk and get depressed that they are no longer around. Rather, I should be eternally grateful that I had them in my life and cherish the memories I have of them. Don't get me wrong it's not that I don't cry or feel sad when I lose a friend or family member or pet, I do and a lot. However I know myself well enough to know that I could very easily fall into a downward spiral of regret, wishing I could go back in the past and hang out with them again and be around them more. Same thing applies to games. One of my favorite games in the past 10 years was a game called CrossCode. When I finished it I was very very sad and cried a bit because I didn't want the good times to stop. I wanted to keep going and to keep enjoying my time with the game.
The moral of the story is: Cherish your time with whatever or whoever you are spending it with. It's okay to feel grief and sadness when it's over as all things eventually come to an end, but do not dwell on/in your sadness. Genuinely be extremely grateful and eternally happy that you got to spend the time in that game or with that person. Think about how much fun you had and all the different experiences and emotions you felt and memories you've kept with you. The sadness you feel when good things end is BECAUSE they were good things and meant a lot to you. There was a period of time where I legit felt incredibly depressed and alone when all my friends slowly stopped playing Xbox Live and I switched to PC. Eventually I realized that I was approaching my grieving of the situation all wrong. I shouldn't be sad that it's over -- I should be eternally grateful that I was lucky enough to spend my time surrounded by amazing friends who gave my thousands and thousands of hours of laughter and hilarious memories. I remember so many good times playing Halo 3 custom games with my friend Darius (if there's some strange world where you see this, hope you're living your best life buddy - my ID was sneakysnake/poisonous zero n we used to play Halo 3/reach/COD MW2 on Xbox 360) along with a ton others that for some reason my brain right now cannot name, but I've never forgotten the experiences I had with them and the time we shared. Cherish your friends and the time you get to spend with them, take nothing for granted and don't dwell too long when things eventually come to an end. Don't be sad that it's over, smile because it happened.
That was one hell of a video. I don't think I've ever had someone so perfectly summarize why video games in general are painful for me as I approach 30. I boot up games now and either they are the same thing I've already put 1000 hours into and can't possibly explore more, or they're unfamiliar and deeply unsatisfying because I have already experienced so many endless hours of incredible joy and curiosity. No matter what I do, every time I pick up a controller these days I am simply overcome with a deep sorrow and wistfulness for those careless summer days where I knew that my friends would come over, we'd boot up the latest obsession, and the hours would breeze by with unfettered joy. I find that emotion in other things these days, but after so many ups and downs for so much of my life, video games are just too emotional and embittering to enjoy anymore.
Bro I'm starting to feel you, it's all either too familiar or too foreign. I want something comfortable, but not something I've played a thousand times. By the time I played Halo Reach almost all enjoyment of it was lost on me. I didn't care about the story enough to continue, or the gameplay. I was confused how people could love it so much since I couldn't, but it was perhaps the burnout that ruined the game.
wow this touched me :') i hope that a game of some sort come round and that you and your friends can enjoy it together as the hours go by and endless joy comes through.
In my late 30s so I feel your longing for the games and types of games you miss & put time into. But, gaming as a hobby is just that. If you don't like the games your playing, try a different genre or platform/console. The back of games I have from even 3 years ago, is still in the teens. I find newness & enjoyment from top 10 games that are highly rated everywhere, by multiple sources. But, I don't let my hobby consume me. There's still lifting heavy objects and putting them down. Overall, my time is very limited these days...dang my kids and thier video games. 😅
Tldr; video games aren’t enjoyable and fun anymore so we should all find different hobbies to do until a new big hit comes out which is a low chance
SpunkySam fr lol
I'm feeling nostalgic for games I never played, but rather, games I heard others enjoy
Couldnt said it better
second-hand nostalgia is a very real thing in this era.
@ookami5329 People are so lazy these days, they don't even have their own memories xD
@fappylp2574 I don’t think that’s true
@fappylp2574 people are so petty these days they feel the need to look down on everyone
the quality of this video is so insane that is disgusting how underrated this guy is
It has almost a million views in only ten days . It’s not underrated at all
I agree. This is quality stuff.
@redshift912 JUDGE HIMSELF is stupid underrated not the video
@redshift912 Lol literally was about to say the same
@noopthenoop oh. wow this video blew up… I just looked at his other stuff that has no views in comparison to this.
"The only enemy they had, the only inescapebale villain was... time" this is such a good quote i think and it hits different :/
This video is a piece of art and I was crying at the end. I'm in a point in my life right now where I feel like no matter what I do it won't matter, but knowing that there are people who will still fight to the end, even if it seems hopeless, that's what I live for. I'm going to keep fighting, even if it seems hopeless.
Hey friend. You're worth while and people love you. Always remember that. Don't give up hope.
Fighting to the bitter last. For if I don’t fight, why am I here?
We are all fighting together my friend
Bro gave a whole sermon 💀
Don't you dare go hollow.
Today I finally completed the 100% of Super Mario Galaxy, a game I have played since I was a kid. Now I have watched your video and I'm crying remembering all the moments I lived playing it, how I struggled with the first boss and the satisfaction when I beat it, the first time I heard Gusty Garden Galaxy... Even if it's sad to think that I will never experience that for the first time, I'm happy it happened. Thank you so much.
"I killed them all because I loved the world." is certainly the crazy villain's excuse don't you think?
4:10 and we smh got classic overwatch
The antidote to this sort of backward-looking melancholy is novelty. I don't grieve the loss of my ability to experience great things for the first time ever again, because I know that there are countless other first time experiences still waiting for me, some of which will be as spectacular as anything I've ever seen. A life filled with novelty is a life well lived.
I am so very blessed by the simple ability to remember and perfectly emulate the feelings of the first time I did anything. The first time I beat Reach, my entire body shuddered, and so it has every single time afterward. When I completed Shadow of the Colossus for the first time I cried as the beautiful, beautiful music played and those credits rolled, and so I do, every single time. After my mother passed away, I went to my father and told him 'I can't even remember what she looked like from memory' and we wept, and now, years and years later, I can remember that moment and cry just the same. I only wish everyone were able to remember so clearly, physically, mentally, and spiritually.
This is the exact lesson Outer Wilds teaches through the narrative front to back.
True, but at the end of your life, there are no more new experiences and all you are left with are memories. Without preserving the past, no one would even know what you are talking about when that time comes.
“No one can escape time. It delivers us all to the same end. You can't plug your ears and cover your eyes.”
Persona 3 baby. Lesss gooo
That's dark
@hwanniggles187 “I’ll be watching you, even if you forget about me. And so it begins”
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Holy crap. This video actually made me quite emotional. How most people would see the last matches as survival, it was actually a labor of love for so many. Truly inspiring thank you
Glad to see I'm not the only one
2026 update , technically overwatch is back and playable
Miss Halo Reach a whole lot. Me and my cousin played back when I was 4 until I was 13, we wish we could go back. Lone Wolf was such a great mission, too. A worthy end for Bungie’s Halo.
Me(7) and my brother(11) at the time were soo confused and thought we were doing something wrong in that mission. We both shared the controller to see who can last find the way out of that death zone, but then we realized that it must be time-based on survival. So we both shared again to see how long we will both survive. No matter how long we survived we always ended up seeing the same cutscene at the end. Then we realized, this is it. This is how the game ends. There is nothing further, but a downfall of your crew dying and eventually you at the end of it all.
This game will always be on my list of best games I played and had the most fun.
Its still active on master chief collection though
@ethanshenk2058 Yea but 343 changed it. Campaign wise yea its fine, but online multiplayer is a shell of what it once was. Even when Reach servers were active once Bungie dropped the IP, they made changes for the worse. Idk if you remember TU Slayer, but that marked the beginning of their reign with bleedthrough shield damage. They changed the mechanics of a wildly popular game and wonder why it failed once they took over.
You can't vote on maps, they dont cycle the old maps enough and you're forced to play on their newer ones that are terrible, they have the bleedthrough damage, spawning with a DMR and pistol is asinine vs AR and pistol because teams can focus fire kill anyone instantly. They took away creative and fun arcade style game modes in Action Sack and changed it to be king of the kill or capture the flag.
They just never understood who the fanbase was/is. So yes, you can go play it again, but it's not the same game.
Seeing the quote "There'll be another time" during Lone Wolf always hits hard
This "short" video felt like hours. It was a deep, heartwarming video that I will have a hard time finding anywhere else. Thank You!
It's a shame it wasn't hours
@ApofKol it didnt need to be. It was beautiful as it is
I wasn't expecting something of this magnitude.
How eloquently put. How.. eloquently put.
I've seen most of these games. Loved them, too. You got yourself a new subscriber.
Take life as it comes, everyone.
Halo: Reach was the first game to give me a more existential view of the world and everything else. It was going through the stages of grief without having lost a person. This video has reignited that feeling of "I'm only here for so long, and I shouldn't be scared of the end cause then I'll only waste my time worried about something I can't control". This video means a lot, and I know I'm not the only one who sees the beauty in dark subjects like this.
"These experiences we had cannot be changed or forgotten; time will always march forward, and as distant as those memories get, those foggy but unforgettable moments, they'll always be a part of you, for better, or for worse."
This hits hard.
You made me create a new playlist to save masterpiece videos like this to remind me why I love games so much. Thank you for making this!
Oh shit I didn't expect to see you here
Love your videos
There is one such video that i know of that can be called a masterpiece video - "The mystery of "MICHAELSOFT BINBOWS" by nick robinson. check it out if you havent already
@jonathanwright108 same
Wild Insym spotted
"No one can escape time, it delivers us all to the same end. You can't plug your ears and cover your eyes" Pharos (persona 3)
Some of what you described is how I feel exploring dead Minecraft servers, still clinging until the unpaid fees finally end them for good. Same with once-bustling survival servers now housing a small, dedicated playerbase. It's very melancholy looking at everything done, everything lost, and acknowledging the things I will never see. There's a heartwarming melancholy saying goodbye to things left behind, and knowing that someone somewhere remembers them for the beautiful works of creativity they were.
Mineplex going down earlier this year hit me really hard. I have tons of memories on that server, and the reality that its time was limited had never really occurred to me before the server was gone forever. Now all I have left is Hypixel, but that will inevitably die someday as well. Online games cost money to keep up and running and, because of this, every single one has a limited lifespan. Fortnite, rocket league, apex, hypixel, etc. all have a ticking clock. Some day it will no longer be viable to keep the servers running and all those games will become nothing but memories.
@orange_turtle3412Wait what Mineplex died ?
What the hell....
That was my favourite server on MC
@BrongoMan Yeah. It shut down earlier this year.
There used to be a minigame called Dwarves Vs Zombies. It used to feel *huge* . Then, the main dev had arguments with other devs, they went a little insane, and it died. Eventually, without the main server, recieving updates and the like, all the spinoff servers died.
There have been times I visited the old spinoff servers, and it's just empty. Games which used to host well over 20+ people, now with one. Some servers eventuallly downsized to one minigame, usually not DvZ. Some became creative plot servers. All are barren.
The last sentence isn't entirely true, of course, there *is* a small community organising games weekly, but you have to search to find it.
"After all what's more human than being irrational" this guy gets it
Depression often makes me think of these moments in time and feel sad that I can't relive them. Makes me feel like there's no point to doing anything, simply because in the end, it won't matter. Watching videos like this remind me that I shouldn't be sad just because I can't do it again, but that I should be glad I did them at all. Thanks for reminding me that everything ends, and that I should just be happy to be apart of something so large.
I experienced similar things. Keep going, it's worth it!
that’s a good way of putting it
@9iht6ihgt43rzhijj I appreciate it. I've been doing better recently but I still have those days. I'm glad to know I have peoples support 😄
There is nothing called depression it's a term for ppl who don't wanna work so they say '' i have depression so i can't work'' but they don't have it :)
@luckygaming6687 prick
Ive finished the video. Ive been scrolling the comments for about 10 minutes now and the more i read, the more i think on the information in the video, the more i think of my past and how i can never be an excited kid again playing a game that was so fun. Everything i think about over the course of the last 10 minutes has caused my eyes to well up more and more. It hurts to know that time marches on and steals the people and things we love from us, but i look back with joy knowing i got to experience everything i did or spent time with who i have. It sucks to know that gaming is so different to me now than it was when i was a kid, not just because of the mentality but the production of games. I hope we can get back to making more good games that the newer generations can play and feel what we did.
I know this was a long sappy comment and im sorry for that. Just had to get all this out there.
You explained the feeling of grievance to the absolute perfect degree. This is exactly how I felt when LBP2 online servers had to be cut off, knowing that I’d no longer be able to have slap battles with my friends, stay in the pod for HOURS to simply decorate it, create stupid, goofy costumes and levels with with them. It was a realization that my childhood game, the game that has pretty much shaped me into the person I am today was gone. It felt barren. People were still online, sure. But you could only play by yourself, and realizing that option of “Diving In” with a random person has suddenly dissipated, that ruined me. I miss the Little Big Planet franchise with every fiber in my body, but I’m getting older, and those memories will always stick with me. It’s time to move on 💗
Oh my god Little Big Planet 2 was so fun for me, meeting random people was pretty enjoyable, even when I came across literal bullies I found it amusing. The fact you can dress up your character, be the character you want to be was really cool.
I came across so many people on Little Big Planet 2, playing that hide and seek level/game that was made. Their was a classic Jeff The Killer survival game. That other survival game where you gotta dodge the bombs. Also messing around with the AI within story mode and putting stickers all over them.
I could go on and on about Little Big Planet 2 and 3, I feel like they should do a re-release of the 2nd game for both Ps4 and Ps5. I know the 3rd is still up I believe for the Ps4 and 5 but for some reason I enjoyed the 2nd game the most.
Yeah, it's crazy logging in now. So many functions are unavailable and inaccessible, it's like the game is missing a huge part of its soul.
Man this hurt me. My brother and I loved Little Big Planet and especially Little Big Planet 2. They were our childhoods. Part of me died when I learned that the servers went offline.
I think a line Chara gives you at the end of a 2nd Geno run puts it perfectly.
"You are wracked with a perverted sentimentality. I cannot understand these feelings anymore."
Many experiences I will never be able to relive, only capable of reexperiencing them vicariously through other peoples' playthroughs. I loved these experiences, and part of me always wants to feel them again, no matter the path, but it wouldn't be the same.
Great video.
15:36 "...after all, what's more human than being irrational." man that's deep. I've always thought of humans as striving to be the most rational creatures, but we hold on to things for irrational reasons. Great video.
I TRUELY hate the phrase: All good things must come doing end!!!
i know this is basically what the video said but good but when i watched this, i felt the kind of sadness you get from looking at something nostalgic and remembering the good times you had then, and knowing you’ll never be able to experience that joy again, but also being happy that those memories even happened
he did a really good job on this
Honestly it's crazy it seems like its a bunch of people feeling the same way. I miss how I used to play Halo 3 over again, I had fun playing the missions splitscreen and messing with the ragdoll physics. Collecting skulls...Then other games like minecraft, I remember when the hunger bar was added, and Herobrine was still kind of a thing. The first time I played borderlands 2, before they patched a bunch of the fun glitches. The old community servers I would join on black ops 1 multiplayer, and the lobby was just lively. I remember being so excited to get home and play zombies. The Richtofen easter egg line was so cool to follow up on during Treyarch's reign. Man golden age of gaming is over it seems. Now games have no atmosphere, or character. Alot of games use the exact same graphics and textures it seems. I remember when older games had an artistic look to the textures, the music, everything. I feel like now games have become like a fast food product, no one really cares about creating an experience but just creating something for people to buy until they can suck it dry...at this point im just ranting but man I miss when I would be excited to play and now most games I try to play now just feel empty. Cod4, CodMW2, WaW, Bo1, Halo 3, Halo 3 odst, Far Cry 2, Assassins creed 2 and brotherhood, Fallout 3, New Vegas, Skyrim, Oblivion, Borderlands 2, Halo wars, Battlefield 1942, Mafia 2, Garry's mod, Half life 2, Team Fortress 2....the Valve games, Bungie games and earlier CoD games were some of the best games I remember playing when I was younger. Other's I wish I had played sooner than I have, because when I was younger I was so bored and not allowed to leave home to hang out with friends that I had to play video games constantly. Now that I'm older I dont have so much time, and Im playing games I never got to play as a kid because they didn't look interesting at the time. So many regrets on moments I probably missed out on.
Love that old quote, don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened
@SgtJohnRemairez i am reading allat 😢
The Halo 3 title theme kills me, it makes me cry as i remember playing it with my school friends when i was a teenager.
The Portuguese word saudade perfectly describes the feeling you describe
The legends that are the Noble 14. I think as the internet/gaming becomes older and game archivists' fight becomes more difficult as copyright, ownership, and corporate bs gets more complicated, their story will ring closer and closer to home for a lot of folks
I was just thinking about that.. About how.. that same story plays out in microscopic ways over and over again and will continue until something breaks.
Dude, this video actually made me feel hella emotional. It triggered so many feelings, memories and just make me think about so much. What a masterpiece of a video.
cringe
@deli7328 😂
@deli7328😂
Man up dude
This video made me puke :) and no one cares if u are emotional :)
Horizon Zero Dawn was one of those games for me.
It does such a great job at slowly working you into what happened, and at the end you're just numb by all the things you can't change.
Imagine being that one guy that was the last man on the server, probably searching in those last 22hrs endlessly, looking for someone, anyone that can play with him. The finest hours. Halo reach was one of those games that had a giant fanbase until the end, like the final EA nascar game when people were enjoying the finest hours of that last online race.
Damn… I’ll say this now. looking back at how I enjoyed undertale and other games and not wanting them to die but couldn’t stay playing those games because of me getting older and having more responsibility’s. After watching this video I cryed for the first time in 14 years. All I want to say is thank you for making me relive those memories.
Still haven't tried Undertale, is it worth a go?
@Levistrasabsolutely worth
@Levistras yees
Same here man. I didn't even realise how much impact they'd had on me until now. Surprisingly hit the feels quite hard this one........
@Levistras even watching videos of it does not compare to being there for the first time. Play it
This is a topic I've thought a lot about recently, I love that you brought up Undertale as its mechanics are so fresh and unique, great video as always Judge man
Great now I’m crying
Damn, this dude is really underrated. I love your narration and choice of footage. Keep this up and you will definitely see significant growth.
You sound like a member of his board of directors
@brockhambley8557 🧐
lmao brock
This video reminded me why I love videogames ever since I was a little kid.
They let you live thousands of different lives, have millions of different experiences, you can do things not even you could dream of, you meet people you never thought even existed, because all those characters in your favourite videogame were created, were designed, were given life by somebody else, just like you.
Definitely more than "just a videogame".
Your video essays are some of the best I’ve ever seen and I’ll admit, I’m envious of your serious talent. Keep up the good work.
I appreciate the words Haven, and I'm glad you enjoyed!
I find this ephemeral experience artistic. Its similar to having a meal at a restaurant - its only here in the capacity that it is for this moment in time. Somewhere theres someone who envies your enjoyment of this moment as they only have a memory of that place. One day it will close, become a different store or have a different chef.
11:16 chara is the little goblin inside your head that represents any exp or gold you get in a video game
that same goblin also serves as the narrator for your story (though that's just a theory)
Having someone say that Undertale was their childhood obsession makes me feel anciently old.
The time limit to my mind is the bad ol' 'Heimer/'Mentia
Entering Waterfall in Undertale is genuinely one of the most memorable story telling moments in gaming. Using the slowed theme song of a later boss that somehow sounds good while creating it's own entirely separate theme and area that slowly makes the player begin to grasp the role they play in the story and the weight that it holds takes a genius thats rarely seen.
While Omori is a game you can play as many times as you like I have only played it once, despite it being one of my favourite experiences. I think this applies to many story based games, sure you can replay it to your heart's content but you will never have the same experience as you did the first time.