Nathan Wagner - Shame

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    Someone asked me once if I loved myself. It’s a weird question. Of course I said yes. Didn’t feel like being open. Vulnerable. Wanted the spotlight off of me. Years went by and I realized I had all the symptoms of one who doesn’t. Was wondered why I needed everyones approval. Why it took me days to get over one semi negative comment. Why anything less than perfect led me to the deepest guilt. As a kid, I grew up in sort of a “Shame Culture.” It was this weird twisted theology where if you speak positive about yourself in any way, it was pride and wrong. Of course, you can say all the negative you want. In fact, they’ll find them for you. I’m sure most of it was the way I perceived things as a kid and no one was truly at fault, but that perception left it’s mark. I woke up not long ago realizing I’d gone almost most of my life without having a single positive thought about myself. So, it’s basically self-hatred by default. It’s so strange. Trying to rewire my brain can almost feel immoral because of this toxic legalism in my head. Been a grueling journey. Here’s a song I wrote about that "Shame." I really hope it means something to you. I know it does to me. Love you all so much. Thanks so much for listening.
    Lyrics
    I’ve got everything I’ve wanted
    So tell my why I’m still in pain
    It’s like I’m afraid to being happy
    Like I deserve to be this way
    As a kid they formed my conscience
    Good and evil right and wrong
    Know they didn’t mean to make it vicious
    But now all I have are tortured thoughts
    I could scale the tallest mountain
    Change the world make it right
    Make the world something
    But it won’t be enough won’t be enough
    Won’t be enough
    I could win the highest honor
    Save the future make it bright
    But it won’t be enough won’t be enough
    Won’t be enough
    No I’m never enough never enough never enough
    I’ve got everything I’ve wanted
    My younger self would stand in awe
    Still I can’t let myself be happy
    Cause it just feels like it be wrong
    As a kid they said be humble
    Liftin your self like that is pride
    Well now I’m drawing in self hatred
    That was my last thought that was nice
    I could scale the tallest mountain
    Change the world make it right
    Make the world something
    But it won’t be enough won’t be enough
    Won’t be enough
    I could win the highest honor
    Save the future make it bright
    But it won’t be enough won’t be enough
    Won’t be enough
    No I’m never enough never enough never enough
    20 years locked in this prison
    A couple words rewrote my frame
    It’s funny something that’s so little
    Can still be causing all this pain
    I could scale the tallest mountain
    Change the world make it right
    Make the world something
    But it won’t be enough won’t be enough
    Won’t be enough
    I could win the highest honor
    Save the future make it bright
    But it won’t be enough won’t be enough
    Won’t be enough
    No I’m never enough never enough never enough
    Never enough never enough never enough
    Never enough never enough never enough
    Never enough never enough never enough
    Never enough never enough never enough

Комментарии • 346

  • @nathanwagner762
    @nathanwagner762  2 года назад +346

    Someone asked me once if I loved myself. It’s a weird question. Of course I said yes. Didn’t feel like being open. Vulnerable. Wanted the spotlight off of me. Years went by and I realized I had all the symptoms of one who doesn’t. Was wondered why I needed everyones approval. Why it took me days to get over one semi negative comment. Why anything less than perfect led me to the deepest guilt. As a kid, I grew up in sort of a “Shame Culture.” It was this weird twisted theology where if you speak positive about yourself in any way, it was pride and wrong. Of course, you can say all the negative you want. In fact, they’ll find them for you. I’m sure most of it was the way I perceived things as a kid and no one was truly at fault, but that perception left it’s mark. I woke up not long ago realizing I’d gone almost most of my life without having a single positive thought about myself. So, it’s basically self-hatred by default. It’s so strange. Trying to rewire my brain can almost feel immoral because of this toxic legalism in my head. Been a grueling journey. Here’s a song I wrote about that "Shame." I really hope it means something to you. I know it does to me. Love you all so much. Thanks so much for listening.

    • @falloser8412
      @falloser8412 2 года назад +3

      Np man your the best you could ever be,glad you keeping close to it

    • @gingercalz
      @gingercalz 2 года назад +3

      You’re not alone there I was exactly the same but nothing bad from tooting your own horn every now and again ❤️ just don’t do it too much

    • @giovannigio3764
      @giovannigio3764 2 года назад +2

      It's a beautiful thing to find positive things. And if you did found it out by using your brain it's even more beautiful. Because if you look very good at the world that you live in. You will see that you did not learn everything about life on school. And if you look very good at other people you will know that not everyone is there for you so be happy with yourself, your family and your friends. Because unlike they teach people you can't buy everything with money. I prefer 1 real friend over a 100 fake friends. Thanks for the the beautiful music. You did put your feeling in it so it's outstanding.

    • @aleex1239
      @aleex1239 2 года назад +3

      Its incredible that despite everything, you have come out ahead, you are my example to follow, keep it up❤️‍🩹

    • @lechugaperez8239
      @lechugaperez8239 2 года назад +2

      Tantas veces las personas..la familia o el entorno te hace sentir que eres malo...que no sirves para nada...yo siempre sentí que mi madre nunca ha estado orgullosa de mi...pero un día conocí a Jesús y él día a día me dice que soy la mejor, y que él me ama profundamente.. y que él si está orgullosa de mi...😊🌹❤️

  • @illumi5259
    @illumi5259 2 года назад +27

    I grew up in a humble and loving family, my parents gave me everything I needed and I feel forever grateful. Despite that, I always lacked self esteem and self love. It got to the point where I felt embarrassed and ashamed everytime something good happened to me, simply because I thought I didn't deserve it. It's hard to change those thoughts when you have grew up with them stuck in your mind and heart, but I hope to get rid of them one day. I really hope you do too.
    Your song is amazing as always, it didn't even felt like 6 minutes! All I have to say is...👏👏 Thank you for this breathtaking song and have a nice weekend!

  • @chaos6056
    @chaos6056 2 года назад +50

    Nowadays most of the music didn't have anything inside of it. But there are hidden gems. Such as, you and your channel. You feel the things you sing about. I can't even express it properly how much I love what you're doing. But let me give you an advice. Let your emotions flow. If only just in music, then just inside of that. Don't be like me. Don't lose yourself.
    Well, this became a bit more emotional, then what I expected. Anyway, keep it up. We will listen to you.

  • @traciaa1723
    @traciaa1723 2 года назад +16

    Make the music that makes you happy. What ever emotions you have. Let it flow through your music. It's your therapy ,it's your outlet . We are here for you.

  • @saraoverkamping8143
    @saraoverkamping8143 2 года назад +4

    Hits so much deeper when you are young and were in enough pain for three lifetimes. When you made a reckless decision and will pay for it the rest of your life. I cannot tell you Nathan how much your songs inspired me and gave me the strengh to learn to walk again. I was in hospital for six months, survived fifth operations, could not see anyone I love because of Corona. I needed someone to understand me and by listening to your songs, I always felt understood. I am eightheen and have my whole life ahead even from being paralyzed. Your songs lead me some great steps towards seing this! :-)

  • @vaerzzz
    @vaerzzz 2 года назад +23

    heard this on spotify already..
    never disappoints, that's all i gotta say👀

  • @erosophic
    @erosophic 2 года назад +1

    The opening of this song twists my stomach in a way that's almost uncomfortable, and yet I will sit there and rewind the first fifteen seconds over and over.

  • @Emunah_
    @Emunah_ 2 года назад +7

    It took me a long time to get it through my head that it's okay to not be okay and then I eventually had to flip in to tell myself it is also okay to actually be okay! I'm learning to heal and move forward and it's alright to be happy for the progress I have made! This song reminded me of that journey! Thanks so much for making something like this! I really enjoyed it.

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад +5

      I freakin love that! How beautifully said. Hopefully I can make it to that place. Much love

  • @Anx10203
    @Anx10203 2 года назад +10

    HEY NATHAN!! I love your voice so much. Early again, yay!
    Keep doing what you love and have a nice weekend :>

  • @Tori_T_Artist
    @Tori_T_Artist 2 года назад +1

    "Know they didn't mean to make it vicious". That's honestly the hardest thing I grapple with right now with C-PTSD. The adults who hurt me when I was 13 were really targeting the kids who needed the punishment, the sharp words and the intimidation. They didn't intend to traumatize me, much less emotionally and mentally abuse me. But it IS what they did, and that's what makes it so hard for me to forgive. Yeah, they didn't mean to be vicious...but they sure aren't apologizing either. And they never will. So now I have to forgive them for both the past and current pain they're causing me, without justice, without apologies, without anything but a monster made of memories.
    Anyways, I'm rambling. Amazing work as always Nathan! So happy I found you when you released Empath.

  • @redfox2339
    @redfox2339 2 года назад +4

    Been a while since I've cried at a song 😅. But as someone with anxiety and low self esteem it hit me, I've always focused on trying to make everyone happy and it was a smack in the face that my friends never tried to make me feel happy but just make me feel low, so I'm starting to work on myself now and this song has encouraged me, so thank you again for your music 🙏🤗

    • @oblivion591
      @oblivion591 2 года назад +2

      Yes, work on yourself! You won't regret that decision. I hope you'll find happiness soon, best of luck in life onwards! ^^

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад +3

      I’m glad to hear your focusing on yourself! Much love!

  • @Hghgghg
    @Hghgghg 2 года назад +4

    I really connect with this song like no other. Ik I’ve said this before but your music has become my safe space. Somewhere I can go to forget about everything even if it’s for a few mins. I truly admire you and your voice Nathan. Thank you for everything.

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад +2

      Of course! Glad my music can be that safe space! Much love!

  • @cyberscape.
    @cyberscape. 2 года назад +2

    Incredible song. Unfortunately and sadly I'm in this place myself. I never really thought highly of myself, always felt like I couldn't live up to the skills and gifts of older siblings and family/friends. As time went on, I've started seeing in the mirror how that shame and stress destroyed me. I'm still quite young but physically I've aged so much more than my peers. I look older, haggard, exhausted and my mind isn't any better.
    But this year as times have been getting harder for everyone, I started looking after myself more. I am learning life skills and working out so I don't feel helpless anymore. I'm escaping little by little the thought that you have to be beautiful and wealthy for people to love you. I may not be as attractive as others, but I am smart and kind and learning to be strong.
    Thank you for reminding me that it's okay to not be the status quo. There's more in us than what we look like on the surface. The world has a lot of expectations. Be the one to break them and learn to be proud of all the good things that you are. It's okay ♥️

  • @katcurtiss2684
    @katcurtiss2684 2 года назад +5

    It's a very emotionally beautifully song, as some one with self-hatred promblems I also understand how hard it can be to think about the good in yourself and others. So thank you for bringing awareness with your AMAZING music.

  • @icore7252
    @icore7252 Год назад

    We' re still listening Nathan. Thank you for always being so honest. God bless

  • @itsthegr8matt
    @itsthegr8matt 2 года назад +5

    Nathan, this is amazing. As someone who is trying to pursue animation, I always felt like I just won't be able to do it. It will never look good enough. But then I started to see that my drawings are not as bad as I thought. That gave me hope. There's still a lot to learn, but I now I know it will be worth it.

  • @Prodigal_Sheep_
    @Prodigal_Sheep_ 6 месяцев назад

    I struggled with shame for so long over my sins, and still do sometimes. The greatest lesson the LORD Jesus ever taught me is: I'm not enough. I will never be enough. But He is, and His grace is sufficient. I could never be worthy, but Jesus is. I'm not worthy, but He said I and the world are worth dying for! He is risen forevermore as the King of Glory and will raise those who love Him! Hallelujah! Keep fighting the good fight brother!
    Even so, come LORD Jesus! Amen.

  • @rynl2076
    @rynl2076 2 года назад

    'You're always enough, always enough, always enough'. I think it will always be a fight (for those of us who have internalized and entrenched the destruction of our self-worth) to believe these words, even though they're true. Thank you for existing and sharing these pieces of your heart, I can't speak for anyone else but they've been a boon to my life 🖤

  • @melinad.rodriguez4318
    @melinad.rodriguez4318 2 года назад +4

    😭😭❤❤ Cada canción que públicas es tan hermosa y conmovedora, siento tus emociones en cada letra que no me canso de escucharte

  • @pandoraedits_
    @pandoraedits_ 2 года назад +2

    I relate to the music you write and the things you open up to us about too. It is crazy to think that when we were growing up we somehow used to let self-guilt and self-judgement control over our lives; and even now it still has power over some of us. I'm glad that eventually we all have found the true good thing in our lives and most importantly the mountaints we've overcome. I learned that the perspective with which we see things are the ones that will have control over us and our live as we continue living.
    This is why I loved that through the song you somehow showed that, Nathan. Thank you for this fantastic, touching and relatable piece of your heart and mind. 🙏🙌❤️❤️❤️ You deserve all the love. God bless you.

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад +1

      Thank you so much!

    • @pandoraedits_
      @pandoraedits_ 2 года назад +1

      @@nathanwagner762 Thanks to you, Nathan! ❤❤❤❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥 You have soul-healing songs.

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад +1

      Ahhh means the world!

  • @This_Is_Just_To_Say
    @This_Is_Just_To_Say 2 года назад +12

    "Know they didn't mean to make it vicious" is interesting to me. Shame and vilifying pride is a deeply ingrained cultural norm in many ways. Typically at the cost of healthy self-esteem and self-worth. And it was always very useful as a tool for enforcing oppressive order. After all, it's much easier to exploit people if they've been conditioned to think it's what they deserve. If you can shame those who would seek better, and this was seen as not just normal, but moral and righteous, well that's a very powerful social tool.
    The teaching 'never think well of yourself' is an innately vicious thing. But do the teachers of this teaching mean it to be? Tbh, I think most teachers of it simply don't understand the teaching. They don't study it, merely internalize and repeat it. How can you 'mean' anything if you do not seek to understand the meaning? A lot of it, is just social conditioning, that it starting to break down under newly embraced ideas like loving yourself. Self-love used to be a very shameful concept, but it's becoming more normal to think having a good relationship with yourself is good, important, healthy, even better for society. We're examining self-love, self-worth, but also things life self-hate, self-deprecation, self-degradation and how those can be negative for yourself, but also for others around you and society in general. The key, I think, it thinking about it, examining how we live, and what helps us all to thrive.

  • @egarosegarev
    @egarosegarev 2 года назад

    Thank you Nathan, that you are talking about this out loud in public. That makes the difference. Thats the beginning of it

  • @kaylonadkins3059
    @kaylonadkins3059 2 года назад

    I know how you feel because I also grew up in an environment like that. It was better to stay in the shadows so no one could see you, but the moment someone caught sight, you were shamed for not being a part of the crowd. It's exhausting to run all while realizing there's nowhere safe to go, nowhere you can take a breath and remind yourself that you're human. It's even harder holding onto the grudges and resentment because, even though it shields you a little, it also weighs so much on the soul. Thank you for caring for us so much in your music, and for caring after yourself. You are loved and appreciated.

  • @validark
    @validark 2 года назад +4

    As a teen i went through an intense traumatic experience that left me with abandonment issues that made me feel like i was worthless which only helped to spiral my depression which only helped to spiral my autistic burn out until just before i turned 19 i crashed and burned
    Its taken a long time for me to recover from the abandonment issues and depression and it was so hard to rewire my brain and i still have to actively force myself to think those reaffirming thoughts to stop myself from backsliding
    I honestly cannot imagine how tortuous it would be to grow up in a situation where feeling that was the norm and pushed onto children, you are incredibly strong and resilient and im glad you're able to work on these things

  • @rudoskudos4047
    @rudoskudos4047 2 года назад +1

    One word: AMAZING

  • @reaper9990
    @reaper9990 2 года назад

    Sir, as someone with similar struggles and I listened to many of your songs, you are not alone. I watched your video where you were live and I see the age difference. I grew up in a household where if my parents weren't happy no one was allowed to be. I was always hyper criticized so self esteem was shot among other things that led to PTSD. I won't go into everything but with the right combination of treatment there is some hope. I'm 40 now and it turned me into a monster that I refuse to let run my life anymore. Your songs hit home a lot. Keep up the excellent work and I'd be honored to shake your hand one day.

  • @oscargomezmurado6115
    @oscargomezmurado6115 2 года назад +1

    Thanks for all your music ❤❤❤❤❤❤

  • @kimm5483
    @kimm5483 2 года назад +1

    So many of us out there, have experienced this, put the feelings into a song, Nathan this helps, just perfect 💌

  • @atomicglot
    @atomicglot 2 года назад +2

    Thank you for everything. Your music is a big part of my live. I grew up with Linkin Park, now I listen to you.

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад +1

      Hey! I love them! Thank you for listening!

  • @somerandoontheinternet1105
    @somerandoontheinternet1105 2 года назад +1

    no words, you've done it again. you stole my words by the sheer beauty of this song. you are by far the most underrated and talented author I've ever seen and I've heard a lot. keep up the masterpieces.

  • @Seven_Miseries
    @Seven_Miseries 2 года назад +1

    for my part I grew up in the difference in front of other children thinking that I was the problem but now I am proud to be me and different :D I love again and again your work thank you for everything nathan, your music has real meaning and beautiful lyrics ❤

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад +1

      Much love!

    • @grassblock7668
      @grassblock7668 Год назад +1

      Same here, I'm anything but the typical child my parents wanted, but it ain't my business. We "wrong" kids should work on ourselves and realize there's nothing wrong with us, love you all!

  • @atggarden5251
    @atggarden5251 2 года назад +2

    I love listening to your wonderful voice. And again an amazing song.
    In many words of your lyrics i recognize myself.

  • @CROninja666
    @CROninja666 2 года назад

    There are so many musicians nowadays that don't understand how to put their soul into a song. But not you. There's a huge energy coming from every song you make. And it never fails to make me feel understood... I love you like a brother I never had!

  • @louevans1914
    @louevans1914 2 года назад

    Nathan Wagner you are enough just the way you are. A beautiful soul. A kind and caring person.
    Thank you again for sharing your music and your thoughts with the world.

  • @BryanTheFury
    @BryanTheFury 2 года назад

    There will never be enough words to say what you are Nathan.... because.. you are much more than what you think of yourself! I already said that many times already! Go forward! Keep going! Keep making us feel so many emotions with all the awesome operas you makes!

  • @Littlemonster-ve5pn
    @Littlemonster-ve5pn 2 года назад +1

    Masterpiece😍

  • @nos5915
    @nos5915 2 года назад +1

    this is such a beautiful, wonderful outpouring it's both comforting and emotional somehow

  • @BiBoFan
    @BiBoFan 2 года назад

    This song left me speechless😭😭😭😭🤧 Many people go through this. We let others bring us down,and we don't love ourselve the way we should💔💔

  • @AkiWasHere
    @AkiWasHere 2 года назад +1

    Enjoyed that one Nathan,I dont just listen but i hear your feelings. You are very enough.

  • @paigec0615
    @paigec0615 2 года назад

    I swear you’re such a diamond in the rough for me Nathan I’ve been listening to your music for like 2-3 years now and you never cease to amaze me! I first heard innocence then paranoia and suffocate then I was so hooked I found you in a dark place in my life and your music was a light in my dark thank you so much for your amazing lyrics and voice keep doing great work my dude one day you’re gonna be able to impact and help so many like you did for me thank you keep it up

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад

      Glad my music was able to help! Much love! Thank you very much!

  • @wangxiao2019
    @wangxiao2019 2 года назад

    Listening on repeat forever and evermore 💖

  • @reinstriver5432
    @reinstriver5432 2 года назад +1

    I really enjoyed this song 😌The uplifting chorus with some self-downplaying is a joy to listen to, and the lyrics of it hit hard and in my opinion depict a person vividly. Spectacular work on this again Nathan! You're amazing with vocals, instrumentals(Love the ones for this) and lyrics. Love the song! 😁 Grandma loved it too hahaha 😆

  • @Leightonmusic141
    @Leightonmusic141 2 года назад +1

    Hey Nathan
    Thanks for your music, it helps me heal through dark times, your music shows so much life and so much passion 💗
    Love from weezle family ☺️

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад

      Much love! Glad my music can help you through the dark times!

  • @bowdowntomight
    @bowdowntomight 2 года назад +1

    This shame culture is so prevalent, and so hard to shed. Love the song.

  • @pegasusbloody4444
    @pegasusbloody4444 2 года назад +1

    You are a great artist, you are going to go very far.
    And your followers hope to be there when that happens. Greetings from Mexico

  • @SeaneecusMusic
    @SeaneecusMusic 2 года назад +1

    Something to relate to 😭Always with good music too!

  • @janessao5114
    @janessao5114 2 года назад +1

    this is beautiful, I love this Nathan ❤❤😭 I can relate

  • @angelickai
    @angelickai Год назад

    Oh god, this song relates to me so well. And how I've been feeling many times before. Thank you for writing this masterpiece. ❤️

  • @Anx10203
    @Anx10203 2 года назад +1

    This is so good. Love you♡

  • @reinstriver5432
    @reinstriver5432 2 года назад +1

    I'll have to listen to this a bit later though man! About to have dinner and later will go out with friends to play feather ball/badminton!
    Looking forward to listening 🎶 I'm sure it'll be spectacular 😊😁

    • @Anx10203
      @Anx10203 2 года назад

      Have fun with your friends :)

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад

      Have fun at badminton!

    • @reinstriver5432
      @reinstriver5432 2 года назад

      @@Anx10203 wow thank you 😊

    • @reinstriver5432
      @reinstriver5432 2 года назад

      @@nathanwagner762 Thank you Nathan! We're playing Uno now haha 😁😊

  • @jasminechavez7653
    @jasminechavez7653 2 года назад

    I’m crying this song touched me I’m going thru bad back pain right now and depression and fear this song helped me to ease my fear and pain in he lyrics touched me in my heart such a powerful song I’m definitely keeping this on Spotify for my pain stress relief relaxation thank you Nathan for comforting me I knew you were there by my side for comforting and supporting me with loving arms I’m crying because you helped me so much your a wonderful friend and my spiritual brother love you so much 🔥😘🤘✌️💜🙏

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад

      Hope this rough time will pass🙏 much love Jasmine!

    • @jasminechavez7653
      @jasminechavez7653 2 года назад

      Thanks Nathan for holding my hand i appreciate your prayers for me yeah I’m praying that hope will pass and my pain will be gone I’m praying for my best love you so much Nathan big brother 🔥😘🫶

  • @Anx10203
    @Anx10203 2 года назад +1

    I always *LOVE* your endings. They are out of this world

  • @giornogiovanna4062
    @giornogiovanna4062 2 года назад

    I can really feel this one. I can hear all the emotions you are going through. I hope you will reach true happiness and for it never leaving your site. You are a very good man Nathan! Thank you ❤‍🔥💯

  • @georgesantos1132
    @georgesantos1132 2 года назад

    Nathan, your songs are completely astonishing and beautiful! You're so talented!

  • @oblivion591
    @oblivion591 2 года назад +1

    Your voice in Shame kinda reminds me of The Guardian, the vocals are quite different from other songs and I TOTALLY love it, perfectly fits this one. This song will stay on my playlist for a long while, it´s just spectacular!

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад +1

      Ahhh honored! Thank you very much Oblivion

  • @rkk9tuddy752
    @rkk9tuddy752 2 года назад

    Absolutely love this one it Nathan! Been a long time listener of yours now. Thankyou for bring us such personal songs!

  • @coreykuefler-terweeme7268
    @coreykuefler-terweeme7268 2 года назад

    This makes me think about how I know I’m a good person, but my insecurity around everything and how even if I do right and hood things I’ll still not feel good enough sometimes. This connects to the high expectations that people have on themselves, even if we are great people. I know I have a good life and I can do a lot to help people but I can’t fix it all and it makes me feel like I’m lacking. Just wish I could change all the problems in the world myself, if it was that easy.

  • @WHYAREYOURUNNINGBUD
    @WHYAREYOURUNNINGBUD 2 года назад

    It’s really helping me through my health conditions journey being so depressed and suicidal a lot and I have to listen to ur and citizen soldiers songs to help me through the pain and suffering of health conditions but there’s lot more to come only 24 and I have testing june 14th for cancer I had really high cancer markers I’ve had 2 so far pointing to cancer and hope there’s nothing or if so hope they can treat it fast won’t know until June 14th so lead all the help I can get with the depression listening to your songs keep making please and I’ll keep listening

  • @xplayerheartx9343
    @xplayerheartx9343 2 года назад

    why is everything you release a masterpiece? 😍❤️

  • @berserkingtheburgerking9805
    @berserkingtheburgerking9805 2 года назад

    An amazing song. I always love how you get your heart out and all the emotion you put into your music.

  • @T1k1Torch
    @T1k1Torch 2 года назад

    Love the song. Love the person who made it. Love everyone else who viewed this.

  • @reinstriver5432
    @reinstriver5432 2 года назад

    Wooo finally had the chance to listen to your new song haha! I love it man, gave a short review too :P Hope you have a wonderful day and know I await the next masterpiece with patience 😌

  • @bfckrebo
    @bfckrebo 2 года назад

    This hits so hard to the heart. Thanks for this one man love it.

  • @robertoalves6426
    @robertoalves6426 2 года назад

    My god, I'm Brazilian and I'm already a fan of this guy, amazing ♥️♥️

  • @notmydidea
    @notmydidea 2 года назад

    Wow... no other words than that... just wow....

  • @aleex1239
    @aleex1239 2 года назад +1

    Incredible, keep it up❤️❤️

  • @onoctis_
    @onoctis_ 2 года назад

    This song is sooooooooo good i love it tysm for everything nathan...

  • @tberrygen3309
    @tberrygen3309 2 года назад

    Such a heart touching words, Thanks nathan, the old Nathan always better ♥️😘

  • @mk.h.9059
    @mk.h.9059 2 года назад

    I am glad to know how brave you have become, the steps you take both professionally and personally. And one thing is for sure, your music, those impressive lyrics full of truth and sincerity that many times we are not willing to formulate, have an impact, and I'm sure not only on me. Thanks. Keep growing 🙌🙌
    PS: I'm sorry if it's misspelled, I use a translator.
    Pd. de pd. ¡Lo estás haciendo increíble!

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад

      All good! Thank you so much! Will do my best!

  • @andrewchristianac9374
    @andrewchristianac9374 2 года назад

    You never dissapoint Nathan,love your new song.
    I can find myself in every lyric😔
    I hope someday you will get rid of that shame and be at peace with yourself as i hope for myself too
    Thanks for being here.
    Love from Romania 🇷🇴

  • @AzuraSnowflake
    @AzuraSnowflake 2 года назад

    Beautiful melody and lyrics, love it sm 💜

  • @mikaelthieres
    @mikaelthieres 2 года назад

    “You will always be enough”
    - Hope
    God bless you! 🙏🏻

  • @themasteraj6587
    @themasteraj6587 2 года назад

    Another absolutely amazing song, Thank you.

  • @violentgumby2482
    @violentgumby2482 2 года назад

    its very sweet to see that you responded to just about every body who commented in the first few minutes of this video uploading

  • @rileyschatz001
    @rileyschatz001 2 года назад

    Wow, your quality is just constantly improving. Been a fan ever since I heard Paranoid. It just gets better and better. Cheering on for your success!!

  • @MagicalGlimmers
    @MagicalGlimmers 2 года назад

    Oh dude this has such a different flavor, and I love it! It's so soulful

  • @tijskotkamp6741
    @tijskotkamp6741 2 года назад

    OMG!!!
    This is so relatable
    I love it🤩

  • @imnotasheeptrustme
    @imnotasheeptrustme 2 года назад

    I love the song. I've been listening to it on repeat for the past 2 hours haha. Goes very well as a background sound when you for example play video games

  • @theastrophotographerjudah9421
    @theastrophotographerjudah9421 2 года назад

    I've been living a life full of shame. I'm glad I found a song I can relate to

  • @HarrenClubdog
    @HarrenClubdog 2 года назад

    Great work as always. Can’t wait to see what you do next!

  • @antoniostapleton8763
    @antoniostapleton8763 2 года назад

    Amazing as always

  • @e_jas1234
    @e_jas1234 2 года назад

    Many of these songs has been some sort of teaching me how to open up, despite the circumstances, even though I still don't know what else to relate to
    Keep it up Nathan 🙂👍
    You're doing splendid work with these inspiring songs 👏

  • @sterr.enlicht2974
    @sterr.enlicht2974 2 года назад

    The few seconds in and I had an epiphany ; this is the song I needed right at this moment🥲

  • @Nerdy_Gamerin
    @Nerdy_Gamerin 2 года назад +1

    OMG so beautiful Nathan🙏🏻🥰✌🏻

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад +1

      Thank you Chrissi! Have a great day!

    • @Nerdy_Gamerin
      @Nerdy_Gamerin 2 года назад

      nothing to thank for
      thank you ..same for you too

  • @yukiryuta5432
    @yukiryuta5432 2 года назад

    I love it even if I didn't hear it 💖
    keep going bro .

  • @merumitsu6901
    @merumitsu6901 2 года назад

    I can really relate to this song. I've dealt with self-hatred in the past. I've always felt bad, useless, angry at myself that i couldn't be better or perfect. I felt like that partly because of my 'chubby' self. I've struggled with weight for a long long time to the point where my self loathing reached its peak and it turned into depression and self harm through starvation.
    But after long period of starvation and depression I decided to take a turn for the better (Wich took allot of willpower) and started working out wich made me lose all that self hatred and made me feel more fulfilled and happy as a whole.
    This is my 525th day of working out now and I'm not stopping anytime soon :]
    I figured since Nathan is pouring his heart out i might as wel do it too.
    Thank you for making such wonderful, relatable art Nathan!

  • @josephko_
    @josephko_ 2 года назад

    Heart touching and questioning love it

  • @giadazangani7734
    @giadazangani7734 2 года назад

    my dear idol Nathan I too as a young girl adolescence I was very negative because in the past I had many people who hated me and I felt against myself many times I wanted to disappear I wanted to disappear and not be seen but a positive thing I had not many but there are people who loved me. but you know nathan the past is just a memory that our old inner self left us and went up to us with a big smile. so nathan now you have become a great artist a new nathan compared to your old nathan who greeted you and felt proud of you. so yes yourself and take pride in what you have done that you give us to all of us who are your fans because your voice is part of our heart and your voice gives me a smile. thank you

  • @nateheskett333
    @nateheskett333 2 года назад

    Man I missed another one.. this hits very very close to my heart, cause I recently realize that I don’t love myself either and I can’t seem to back away from the edge anymore.

  • @marryanjell7134
    @marryanjell7134 2 года назад

    I love your songs bruh! 💜 Period

  • @hellothere9017
    @hellothere9017 2 года назад

    I’ve been dealing with this a lot the last couple weeks and also today. This memes me feel that I’m not so alone. So thank you Nathan.

  • @gardenrose5661
    @gardenrose5661 2 года назад

    This is a great song that is so relatable! Even when I say good things to myself it has 0 meaning to me and feels like I'm just talking to a wall. Nothing I do feels like it's enough.

  • @4thPoint
    @4thPoint 2 года назад +1

    YES BRO!!!!

  • @azwlfboy
    @azwlfboy 2 года назад

    Nathan, Thank you for this. Your amazing. I truly appreciate you.

  • @ΙωάνναΤσιουστα
    @ΙωάνναΤσιουστα 2 года назад

    Nathan you are my favorite singer ❤️❤️❤️

  • @JaneckiswagDead47
    @JaneckiswagDead47 2 года назад

    Love the lyrics of this song 😎👍

  • @ferhatbasma9063
    @ferhatbasma9063 2 года назад

    Keep doing what you're doing i wish you the best and keep going forward 😊

  • @gingercalz
    @gingercalz 2 года назад

    Wow this is a great song definitely adding this to my favourites

  • @SizzlingSolaris
    @SizzlingSolaris 2 года назад

    Awesome job with this, Nathan! 👍😁❤️

  • @reinstriver5432
    @reinstriver5432 2 года назад +1

    And eyyy I was fastest again for once hahaha, I've been missing the first few minutes of upload time quite often recently, my apologies 😆😂