Louis, your openness and honesty about your mental health struggles are truly inspiring. Your courage to share your journey and continue creating content despite your challenges is a testament to your incredible strength and resilience. By sharing your story, you are validating others going through similar experiences and empowering them to embrace their own struggles. Keep shining your light and making a difference through your content and vulnerability. Understand that we love you, stand by you and celebrate your strength and growth.
You have a purpose. You give meaning. You make people smile. You mean something to people. You are loved, and I am glad you pop up in my subscription feed.
ngl i breathed a sigh of relief when i saw this video popping up, i’m really glad that you’re following a more hopeful path. i’m not going to be the oversharing rando on the comment section but things hit close to home and i know how hard it is to not succumb to your darkest urges. you’re very brave for talking openly about your experiences and keeping on fighting also the lingering question that nobody seems to have asked thus far - is it louiE or louiS? the world must know
Self hatred is a self-fulfilling prophecy. IMX hating myself has always lead me to behave in ways that justified my self hatred. It's a lesson I've learned over and over in my life, and will probably have to keep learning. I just discovered your channel and I greatly enjoyed it so far. Good luck and I hope to see more because I'll probably be done binging it all way too soon.
it's great to see you back and doing better mentally. I don't often comment due to social anxiety and such, but I always love seeing you (and your adorable ratties) in a video
I suffer a lot from ptsd after finding my mother......... in 2009 I can totally understand what your going through it really hits me hard so much even when I'm on buses . I have been through multiple therapy and it is helping . Sadly I have lost both my parents and grandparents so I have not much to talk and mostly on my own but having channels such has yourself help me sooooooo much and I completely respect that and thank you . I do watch you on Twitch but never comment has I have fear of I may say something wrong to people . Stay awesome and keep please doing the content ❤ .
Octavius has always been very entertaining, but YOU are the character I've always loved. Every time you post one of your very personal, introspective videos, I am reminded of that fact. Please don't ever try to hide your true self or think that there's anything positive that you don't deserve. That is a deception that you came up with yourself. I am SO glad you have started to realize that and have turned a corner; you are definitely on a better path! Many of us, myself included, are going through or have been through the same things you are. Don't ever be afraid to tell people how you feel. You have friends and followers who will always support you.
I worried a bit that we hadn't seen you in a while, it's great to hear you're managing better these days. You seem healthier as well in your new videos.
Its people like you talking about real issues like this that make the internet a better place. Thank you for being you, and I hope everything in life just keeps getting better! Much love!
It takes real guts to put yourself out there and do your videos. You're much braver than you realise . Best foot forward, you honestly rule and are much loved ❤
As someone whom struggles daily with mental health issues, I very much relate as I feel the same about my own online branding. Know that we are your family here as well and support and love is here sweetie we love you and your rats, Excited bout the next yr. it will be hard but remember not all days are gonna be good ones and on those days it's very much okay to be not okay. Much love and hugs too you sweetie
I'm so happy to see you getting out and about. More contact and communication with real like friends and family is essential. You're doing do well and have come so far. WELL DONE YOU.
I just found your channel through Nostalgia Nerd's Action 52 review, and I went through this for several years myself, and I am glad to see we both came out on the other end, and are working on it. Keep going, you got this.
As someone that have been living with Depression for over 20+ years, this hit really close to home. I could relate to sooo much that you described. But you, you are worty of all the love and support coming your way. You are a gorgeous woman, smart, funny, ENTERTAINING, smart and just the right amount of nerdy. I would also like to thank you for being so open about your mental struggles. This world need more like you. Much love from Stockholm, Sweden
This video made me happier than any video I watched in months. So glad to hear you are being stubborn in the right direction and actively working on really really tough shit. And the fact that you're sharing all that with us is just... I'm not gonna use the word brave, that word has become a tired old cliché for dudes who talk about their male pattern baldness on reality tv. But it is amazing that you're willing to share yourself and your battles with us. It helps me to face some of my own struggles and also makes it easier for me to relate to other people with similar trauma. So from the bottom of my heart - Thank you. If I could hug you and that would be okay for you - I definitely would.
Good to know you are taking ,gradually charge of yourself. Been down the depression road myself from 27 to 30 years of age. Not gonna blab on about how to get through it but there are hurdles to leap over and, trust me , depression WILL fade away . It doesn't last forever. Go for it girl!!
Thank you so much for you openness and everything you produce, I love the content you produce. I was at Insomnia and The Dark Room on Saturday so I’m gutted I didn’t know you were there and get a chance to tell you in person to keep up the good work.
I like having you around trust me I've had brain cooties for 40 years my first stay in hospital I was ten years old lmao don't know you but proud you pushed to get this out to the world glad to see your face 🙂
Sorry to hear about your bad experiences. The secret is that most people are NOT "OK," they are just better at hiding it or dealing with it. It sounds like you use your videos and character to deal with issues, so it's like a self-therapy. And that is great! Keep working on yourself because you are worth it. Everyone needs to work on themselves.
I've only recently started watching your videos and I had no idea you had gone through this. I feel much the same way, about pretty much everything you've talked about (except I don't have a RUclips channel) but maybe not as severe. It's probably not going to help much, but I do appreciate your videos and your humor, and the openness about these issues even more, as it gave me hope that things can get better. We're here for you. Stay strong ❤️
Louis, I’m so glad to see you’re still taking care of yourself and doing what you love. One of the things i love about your channel is that i can relate to you as i am also neurodivergent and with severe depression and anxiety. And I don’t feel alone. And I love videos about the worst in media. You’re amazing and loved.
Glad to see you back. I've got friends who have been through similar things to what you talk about in this vid and it's very brave of you to share such things. Can't remember which video of yours led me to discovering your channel, but I remember laughing a whole lot and feeling uplifted. So I'm gonna keep watching your stuff. Be well
Thank you for sharing this with us. I for one am really glad you are still here. I don't know if it means much, but I've recently found your channel and have really enjoyed listening to you. Your videos are very entertaining and funny and really has helped me getting through stressful days. You've brought laughs and some happiness to people far away. I wish you the absolute best going forward!
I'm literally crying right now because I've never heard anyone describe how I feel every day so clearly and completely. I wish you the best and I thank you from the bottom of my heat for being willing to put this out there. It's hard and seeing someone do it really helps.
Welcome back, and I think all of us have gone through some stuff at some point in our lives, so just know you ain't alone, and here's to a better, and brighter tomorrow!!!
I admire your bravery telling us this personal story. Mental health has held me back big time in life and I'm finally getting the help I need. I'm so glad you were able to go to that event because I understand how big a thing that is getting out there socially. Love your videos and have to say you're an inspiration to men and women like me. Keep being you.
I want to say thank you for all your content it has changed the way I view vintage games and has brought me and my son together we have played countless hours of most the games on you reviews. It’s you that makes the channel so good though. I don’t know what else to say apart from thank you.
Holly cow. Today is the 4th day after our daughter took her own life. Today is my first day back at work and pulling up the browser, this was one of the top recommended videos on youtube. Our daughter went through hell in the Army when deployed overseas, similar I guess to maybe what you went through. She was also a very beautiful young woman and I guess considered "too pretty to be depressed". She was also very secretive about what she was going through and could not stand to be seen as weak maybe? She would only tell her husband and swore him to secrecy. My god I wish we had known. She went down the medication route which doctors apparently were all too happy to prescribe. She was not her self that Thursday evening, looking into her history on her iPad confirmed that and seeing what she was taking I understand why. She always put on a very happy face when around anyone but her husband. I am super glad to hear that your attempt was unsuccessful and you have put real work in to overcoming what has been troubling you so much. I can't even express the intense sorrow and depression that has consumed my wife and me. We will of course get through it with time but man I get how real depression can be. I thought I knew but I did not. The people that care for and about you are so much better off for you hopefully getting better. I would have done anything to help our daughter had I known.
I'm so sorry for your loss. Suicide makes losing a loved one so much more painful and emotionally complex than any other cause of death, and as someone coming up on the third anniversary of losing someone to suicide--I can only tell you that so far in our family we haven't stopped thinking about them, and it never stops hurting, but it does get a little easier to control the tears. I've gone from crying everyday on the drive home, and randomly at my desk at work when I'm randomly triggered or just out of the blue because my brain decided to trigger itself, to now I only cry when someone else is crying about it, or when someone else mentions their own loss. My wife and I can sometimes even manage short conversations about what they might have said or how they would've reacted to something they missed out on, but it's still like balancing on a knife edge, and you know that you're just barely keeping it together and if either one of us breaks, we're both going to be bawling our eyes out. The most important thing people can do to help others in similar situations is by talking about this stuff, because it's awkward and maybe it'll help knowing that someone else has been going through the same thing--which can maybe help folks dealing with the loss and all that comes with it, but maybe someone thinking about it will realize how much it is going to shred the lives of the people they care about, and that what they're thinking about doing isn't just going to make everything easier for everyone. If you're truly miserable about the thought of waking up another day, tell someone about it and really let them know what you're thinking about doing, and I think you'll find more support than you ever realized. Even someone you may not think you're even that close to is probably a lot more willing to listen and hug it out than you realize. I had a friend I hadn't seen in years talking about stuff online like he was on the edge, saying things like late brother in-law had been saying before he chose to exit this plane of existence, and I called around all of my friends to find out where he was living, and that night I showed up at his door I'd never been to before, completely unannounced, way later at night than I should've been out and about before work the following day, and I hugged that man and cried with him, and told him how much he was loved and how much he would be missed and let him know that I was always available to talk, no matter what. He's since gotten out of the slump he was in and things have been turning around for him as much as it can given his circumstances. I did similar things multiple times for my brother in-law, and there were at least two moments where I know I was able to help him stick with it for a little bit longer, and maybe there were more times, but the last time I obviously didn't get the chance and it haunts me to this day thinking about how he could've been saved again. That said, I know you can't ever truly stop someone from doing it if they're determined, but you can score those last minute saves every once in awhile, and for some people that might be all it takes before things turn around and they figure out how to manage what they're dealing with--but some people, like my brother in-law refused to do the things we couldn't do for him or force him to do that would help him improve, like seeing a professional and getting some anti-depressants or CBT or whatever combination of things that might've helped him. There are some personality types that don't mix with that kind of major depression, where they mask it so well that nobody around them ever knows until it's too late or they're too stubborn to do the things they know would help them, and too proud to ask for help doing them, on top of masking and lying about what's going on with them--and in cases like my brother in-law, his depression became a terminal case because of those things that made it so much harder to help him. Part of me saying that is to make myself feel better, because there literally wasn't anything more that my wife and I could have done for him, and we spent every last dime we had saved to bail him out of some financial troubles that he was in, and probably prolonged his departure by 3-4 months, and it was worth it. I wish I had an infinite amount of money to have kept that up indefinitely, but that wasn't possible, and he kept his financial troubles closer to the vest the last time, because he didn't want us to spend even more money on him. I know he died thinking that he was doing us a favor, and I wish I could let him know that he couldn't have been more misguided. Anyway, I'm rambling and my point is that suicide sucks because it's the only cause of death that's paradoxically both avoidable, and unpreventable. Some folks can absolutely be saved, while others there is nothing you could do, and you don't ever get to find out which are which until it's too late. So, you need to care for your loved ones and let them know how much you care and act as if it's possible to prevent them from ever doing it, but then be able to accept that it wasn't if they do the worst thing imaginable.
Thank you so much for this great video. As someone who also suffers from complex ptsd I am thrilled by your candor. I have to admit that I like the videos off character even more than the others. The fact that you have accomplished so much gives me confidence. Thank you so much for that. Don't let it get you down, even when things aren't going so well. I think we all love you very much, even if sometimes no video comes.
A lovely and real message. For different reasons I understand what you are going through, and I send all the love in the world your way. Thanks for the video and the honesty.
Ever since y found your channel I wait for your videos to come out, I F*** love your sense of humor. Hope you are feeling better and to see more of your content soon. Saludos desde México
This dropped up in ny reccomend. Very glad to see you are still with us. I feel the neurodiversity, anxiety and depression. Really hope you get the help you need and the answers you deserve. You seem like a good egg and all round excellent human. Don't give up. Don't be afraid to talk about your experiences, not only will this take away the power it has over you, but it may also help others. Treat yourself with kindness and love and the rest will slowly follow.
❤ sending love and support, we've never met, but I feel I know you. Your feelings are always valid, if people don't get it that isn't your problem it's theirs. Take care.
We love Octavious character, but you are the person who is so beatufull and have this exciting tone of voice and sense of humor that make us feel hypnotized every time we watch the show.
No matter what speaking as a huge fan of yours, I love you and your humour. Whatever kind of content you choose to release, I will always be here for you. Your well being always should come first.
Thanks for your great content! Enjoyed it for years 🙂 I have the feeling that it will be even better from now on! You're a brave and strong person, many people are proud of you!
Awesome to hear from you! And it's amazing to see how for you've come, and how excited and ready you sound to take the next steps. Take care, awesome Louis!
Thank you for sharing this Louis. Had my own MH issues too so can empathise a bit. Everyone is different and their responses to mental health challenges will be different too. It is so good to see you coming through it with positivity. Only been following you a wee while, but I plan on sticking around.
Glad to hear you are dealing with stuff that needs to be dealt with and most of all glad to see you back! I watch your videos to be entertained but often learn a little something at the same time too and I very much like the style you do your videos in. All the best for the future and do take care of yourself and do let others help you too.
As someone with ptsd who has been through similar life experiences as yourself i would like to say your doing amazing and should be proud of yourself that your able to do the things you do but also the help you give to others with issues as I always watch your videos when I felt low and depressed cause I felt like your videos was like a safe space to be for myself to distract from the bad times but also with you being so honest and open with your own issues it helped me a lot to realise that I wasn’t so odd and that there is others who do the things I do myself which I want to say thank you and glad to see you back again.
Your depression will get even worse after Chinese dictator Xi soon invaded Taiwan and you been helping Chinese communists finance military build up via your ads. CCPway 🤮🤢
Thank you for posting this video! I stumbled across your channel about a year or so ago and have enjoyed each video you post. I enjoy the Octavious King character, but am glad you are posting to allow us to get to know you - out of this character. It's important that you be who you are, and we are grateful that you are reaching out to us. Each of us is a friend - and asking for your friends to reach out to you and show you love, truly makes you strong. Be proud of yourself and always know that you are loved.
Thank you for sharing, i think I can speak for a lot of us, some are good at pretending everything is fine, and the rest is just winging it! Your content is great, I love your bad video game reviews, your strength of opening yourself and net being afraid of showing the points you want to work on. Sending you lots of strenght and love!
Great to see you again Louis. Been struggeling with depression for more than 20 years, doing okay now. Talking about it helped me alot, great that you can do it too. Your videos always put a great smile on my face, thank you for that. You're great, never forget.
It's really brave to put yourself out there and I am very impressed with your ability to discuss your story. Mental health is NOT discussed enough and it's incredible that you are opening up the discussion. I look forward to your entertainment videos and discussions on mental health!
Louie .Sarah , Octy whoever you are ,you are loved and was missed by myself and many more people ....you are not and never alone love to you Xxx I/ we stand by you X
It takes a tremendous amount of strength to share this. All I can offer is clicks and views, and I salute/support your clear distinction between in-character and out-of-character. You take all the time you need; whenever you want/can upload, it'll get watching because of the quality of what you produce.
You don't know me, and of course other than your videos I don't know you, but I love what you put out there and have always found your frankness about your mental health to be refreshing and in a way welcoming. I, like so many in the comments here, am very glad to hear from you again and to know that you've taken a turn for the better and are finding the love of your family and friends. Much love from one human to another.
Thank you for your bravery. It helps others in the same boat. I am 40 and find life so difficult. Videos like this make me feel less alone. Sending the love that you deserve as an amazing, unique and incredibly brave person.
Thank you for you honest post. I have loved you content for ages. Mental health is a hard struggle, kudos to you for pushing through. Lots of us struggle and it’s important to hear others struggle as well. The struggle doesn’t make you less than.
Great to hear from you. It's not easy to find self awareness and make honest improvements. You're doing amazing. We love you and always have your back.
Ya big old bobbins! Seriously that must have taken a lot and you're an awesome creator it's good to finally meet you 😊. We all go through this strange thing we call life and sometimes it just gets on top of us in ways we can't even imagine. Having the ability to pick yourself up when you're down is a real skill that comes with time. Good luck with future
I feel like we always here and say, that everybody is different but rarely we really take it serious. Especially when we feel like to ones who are different. We are sad, because we feel different from everyone else, and we forget that it is normal to be different. It is okay if you are slower in some aspects, or if you have special interests. Happyness is leages more important than being what is considert "normal" and should be the goal of all our actions. I personaly really love this line from a song sung by Cass Elliot, because it highlights the fact that happyness is more important than fitting in. "Make your own kind of music. Even if nobody else sings along"
So much of what you said about acknowledging your own accountability and your stubbornness really resonated with me. Those are aspects of myself that I have struggled with and have been working on. I have always found that there is a certain comradery between those of us who have had instances of SH, and I have always felt a comfort in that. You and your experiences are valid. You matter, and we all love you for just being you. I'm looking forward to both your in character and out of character content.
Random internet stranger here, trying to recover from depression myself; depression takes a different form for every person, so i’m not going to say that i can relate or any crap like that, but i’m so glad you have plans and ideas, and even though i don’t personally know you, from the tone i heard in this video, i’m pretty sure you’ve got this. You are an inspiration, and for what it matters, this random internet person is rooting for you.
It's so good to see you back. You look great. Like really great. And I missed you and your videos very much. You make us smile and laugh and that is so special. Thank you.
You are not alone in this! Don't ever give up. Take whatever time you need and know a lot of people out here support you and send you good thoughts. Hang in there!
Always look forward to your videos popping up, raise a smile every time. Your honesty does far more for anyone struggling at any level than you realise. Take heart in the good that you do and take some for yourself, its well deserved and most definitely earned x
Just wanted to add to the cacophony of support you're getting here Louis. I'm glad to hear you're looking at things more positively, and I'm glad you're going to be continuing to make videos as I've enjoyed every single one you've made so far! Talking openly about your struggles is a very admirable thing to do, it can't be easy to open up to the world about things like that.
You deserve nothing less than respect and love for your strength in openly talking about your emotional state and the events that transpired to cause you such trauma.. Sending you love from a longtime viewer in Sweden. No matter what, you'll always have my support, and my respect and admiration for what you do and what you go through with life.
Absolutely adore your openness. This hit me on such a personal level. A couple years ago I started my own RUclips channel just to talk about my own mental health issues, struggles with anxiety, trauma, etc. At some point I sort of stopped. Feeling like it wasn't important, that I wasn't brave enough to really say everything I wanted to say. For about six months I've been wanting to go back to it. Even mapping out ideas for episodes. But still struggling and fighting to get in front of the camera again. I love the work you do as the Octavius character, but even more so I love the person YOU are. The honesty you are willing to share with your community. It's truly inspiring. So, thank you for everything you do. I can't begin to explain exactly how much I appreciate it. May be weird coming from a complete stranger, but fuck I'm proud of you.
As a PTSD sufferer from a traumatic childhood, I empathize with what you're going through and the desire to "just be normal." I think it's very courageous of you to share your story, and I hope talking about it will help you and others. It definitely helped me to feel less alone.
the “desire to be normal” part hit home with me really hard. A lot of this video put into words stuff I’ve been having a hard time putting into words myself.
@Silmarian that's the part I hope she realizes. Sympathetic ears are wondeful to find but for those who may not know HOW they even feel, this is even more important she talk about what she feels safe to share.
Glad to see you back, we're all here with you ♥! Missed your quirky and hilarious reviews of utter bobbins, off to watch something about about some ball controller right now...
The vast majority of us cannot even begin to imagine the stuff that you've been through, and the fact that we live in a society where these things are happening are tragedies in themselves. It's great that you've found support, and amazing that you've found the strength in yourself. We're glad and grateful that you're back, and are really looking forward to what you bring us in the future. You have been missed, and are definitely appreciated.
Good to see you're in a better place, life and people can be shit particularly for us that are neurodivergent but you've made it a better place for many people which is something to be proud of. Hopefully things will only get better.
I have a hard time just leaving my house these days. Big props to you for mustering the courage to go out and face a large social event like this. I admire the strength you can show even in your weakest times.
Thank you very much for sharing what has been going on in your life. We've missed you, and it's so good just to hear your voice and be able to share your life's travels (and travails). Best wishes from a fan across the pond, can't wait to see what you have in store for us. You are an inspiration for many of us and a simple thank you to you is not enough. Long Live Octavius King!
Louis, your openness and honesty about your mental health struggles are truly inspiring. Your courage to share your journey and continue creating content despite your challenges is a testament to your incredible strength and resilience. By sharing your story, you are validating others going through similar experiences and empowering them to embrace their own struggles. Keep shining your light and making a difference through your content and vulnerability. Understand that we love you, stand by you and celebrate your strength and growth.
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Out-of-character is the best character. It's really good to have you and your content around.
I can't imagine how many deep breaths came before this video. For all the reasons you listed, thank you for putting this video, and yourself out there
We didn't go anywhere, we're all still here and still love you. Missed you. Glad you're back.
You have a purpose. You give meaning. You make people smile. You mean something to people. You are loved, and I am glad you pop up in my subscription feed.
ngl i breathed a sigh of relief when i saw this video popping up, i’m really glad that you’re following a more hopeful path. i’m not going to be the oversharing rando on the comment section but things hit close to home and i know how hard it is to not succumb to your darkest urges. you’re very brave for talking openly about your experiences and keeping on fighting
also the lingering question that nobody seems to have asked thus far - is it louiE or louiS? the world must know
Self hatred is a self-fulfilling prophecy. IMX hating myself has always lead me to behave in ways that justified my self hatred. It's a lesson I've learned over and over in my life, and will probably have to keep learning. I just discovered your channel and I greatly enjoyed it so far. Good luck and I hope to see more because I'll probably be done binging it all way too soon.
Don’t give up on yourself these videos are great been through anxiety and self doubt all my life but there’s always a light at the end of the tunnel
it's great to see you back and doing better mentally.
I don't often comment due to social anxiety and such, but I always love seeing you (and your adorable ratties) in a video
I suffer a lot from ptsd after finding my mother......... in 2009 I can totally understand what your going through it really hits me hard so much even when I'm on buses . I have been through multiple therapy and it is helping . Sadly I have lost both my parents and grandparents so I have not much to talk and mostly on my own but having channels such has yourself help me sooooooo much and I completely respect that and thank you . I do watch you on Twitch but never comment has I have fear of I may say something wrong to people . Stay awesome and keep please doing the content ❤ .
Octavius has always been very entertaining, but YOU are the character I've always loved. Every time you post one of your very personal, introspective videos, I am reminded of that fact. Please don't ever try to hide your true self or think that there's anything positive that you don't deserve. That is a deception that you came up with yourself. I am SO glad you have started to realize that and have turned a corner; you are definitely on a better path! Many of us, myself included, are going through or have been through the same things you are. Don't ever be afraid to tell people how you feel. You have friends and followers who will always support you.
I worried a bit that we hadn't seen you in a while, it's great to hear you're managing better these days. You seem healthier as well in your new videos.
Its people like you talking about real issues like this that make the internet a better place. Thank you for being you, and I hope everything in life just keeps getting better! Much love!
It takes real guts to put yourself out there and do your videos.
You're much braver than you realise .
Best foot forward, you honestly rule and are much loved ❤
No one is normal, and no one is ok. I'm glad you're still with us and we can still be here for you.
As someone whom struggles daily with mental health issues, I very much relate as I feel the same about my own online branding. Know that we are your family here as well and support and love is here sweetie we love you and your rats, Excited bout the next yr. it will be hard but remember not all days are gonna be good ones and on those days it's very much okay to be not okay. Much love and hugs too you sweetie
I'm so happy to see you getting out and about. More contact and communication with real like friends and family is essential. You're doing do well and have come so far. WELL DONE YOU.
I just found your channel through Nostalgia Nerd's Action 52 review, and I went through this for several years myself, and I am glad to see we both came out on the other end, and are working on it. Keep going, you got this.
It's ok to not be ok. You got this. We're here for you.
As someone that have been living with Depression for over 20+ years, this hit really close to home.
I could relate to sooo much that you described.
But you, you are worty of all the love and support coming your way.
You are a gorgeous woman, smart, funny, ENTERTAINING, smart and just the right amount of nerdy.
I would also like to thank you for being so open about your mental struggles.
This world need more like you.
Much love from Stockholm, Sweden
Love,I'm glad that you're alive and well,glad also that you're making steps to putting yourself out there for us all again
This video made me happier than any video I watched in months. So glad to hear you are being stubborn in the right direction and actively working on really really tough shit. And the fact that you're sharing all that with us is just... I'm not gonna use the word brave, that word has become a tired old cliché for dudes who talk about their male pattern baldness on reality tv. But it is amazing that you're willing to share yourself and your battles with us. It helps me to face some of my own struggles and also makes it easier for me to relate to other people with similar trauma. So from the bottom of my heart - Thank you.
If I could hug you and that would be okay for you - I definitely would.
You are a truly amazing human being much love to you x
Good to know you are taking ,gradually charge of yourself. Been down the depression road myself from 27 to 30 years of age. Not gonna blab on about how to get through it but there are hurdles to leap over and, trust me , depression WILL fade away . It doesn't last forever. Go for it girl!!
Thank you so much for you openness and everything you produce, I love the content you produce. I was at Insomnia and The Dark Room on Saturday so I’m gutted I didn’t know you were there and get a chance to tell you in person to keep up the good work.
oh there you are. glad ur as ok as ok can be
I like having you around trust me I've had brain cooties for 40 years my first stay in hospital I was ten years old lmao don't know you but proud you pushed to get this out to the world glad to see your face 🙂
Sorry to hear about your bad experiences. The secret is that most people are NOT "OK," they are just better at hiding it or dealing with it. It sounds like you use your videos and character to deal with issues, so it's like a self-therapy. And that is great! Keep working on yourself because you are worth it. Everyone needs to work on themselves.
We are here for you, we love you and we missed you. Stay strong.
I've only recently started watching your videos and I had no idea you had gone through this. I feel much the same way, about pretty much everything you've talked about (except I don't have a RUclips channel) but maybe not as severe. It's probably not going to help much, but I do appreciate your videos and your humor, and the openness about these issues even more, as it gave me hope that things can get better. We're here for you. Stay strong ❤️
Louis, I’m so glad to see you’re still taking care of yourself and doing what you love. One of the things i love about your channel is that i can relate to you as i am also neurodivergent and with severe depression and anxiety. And I don’t feel alone. And I love videos about the worst in media. You’re amazing and loved.
I just found your videos this morning, and I’m so glad to have. I hope you keep making *lots* more of these! Cheers from SoCal!
Glad to see you back. I've got friends who have been through similar things to what you talk about in this vid and it's very brave of you to share such things. Can't remember which video of yours led me to discovering your channel, but I remember laughing a whole lot and feeling uplifted. So I'm gonna keep watching your stuff. Be well
Thank you for sharing this with us. I for one am really glad you are still here. I don't know if it means much, but I've recently found your channel and have really enjoyed listening to you. Your videos are very entertaining and funny and really has helped me getting through stressful days. You've brought laughs and some happiness to people far away. I wish you the absolute best going forward!
You are ABSOLUTELY worth my time and attention. Keep on truckin'. SO happy you have made progress- congratulations!
I'm literally crying right now because I've never heard anyone describe how I feel every day so clearly and completely. I wish you the best and I thank you from the bottom of my heat for being willing to put this out there. It's hard and seeing someone do it really helps.
Welcome back, and I think all of us have gone through some stuff at some point in our lives, so just know you ain't alone, and here's to a better, and brighter tomorrow!!!
It's been a horrible few years mentally, and following your vids has really helped me through it, both for your honesty and humour.
I admire your bravery telling us this personal story. Mental health has held me back big time in life and I'm finally getting the help I need. I'm so glad you were able to go to that event because I understand how big a thing that is getting out there socially. Love your videos and have to say you're an inspiration to men and women like me. Keep being you.
I want to say thank you for all your content it has changed the way I view vintage games and has brought me and my son together we have played countless hours of most the games on you reviews. It’s you that makes the channel so good though. I don’t know what else to say apart from thank you.
Holly cow. Today is the 4th day after our daughter took her own life. Today is my first day back at work and pulling up the browser, this was one of the top recommended videos on youtube.
Our daughter went through hell in the Army when deployed overseas, similar I guess to maybe what you went through. She was also a very beautiful young woman and I guess considered "too pretty to be depressed". She was also very secretive about what she was going through and could not stand to be seen as weak maybe? She would only tell her husband and swore him to secrecy.
My god I wish we had known. She went down the medication route which doctors apparently were all too happy to prescribe. She was not her self that Thursday evening, looking into her history on her iPad confirmed that and seeing what she was taking I understand why. She always put on a very happy face when around anyone but her husband.
I am super glad to hear that your attempt was unsuccessful and you have put real work in to overcoming what has been troubling you so much. I can't even express the intense sorrow and depression that has consumed my wife and me. We will of course get through it with time but man I get how real depression can be. I thought I knew but I did not.
The people that care for and about you are so much better off for you hopefully getting better. I would have done anything to help our daughter had I known.
I'm so sorry for your loss. Suicide makes losing a loved one so much more painful and emotionally complex than any other cause of death, and as someone coming up on the third anniversary of losing someone to suicide--I can only tell you that so far in our family we haven't stopped thinking about them, and it never stops hurting, but it does get a little easier to control the tears. I've gone from crying everyday on the drive home, and randomly at my desk at work when I'm randomly triggered or just out of the blue because my brain decided to trigger itself, to now I only cry when someone else is crying about it, or when someone else mentions their own loss. My wife and I can sometimes even manage short conversations about what they might have said or how they would've reacted to something they missed out on, but it's still like balancing on a knife edge, and you know that you're just barely keeping it together and if either one of us breaks, we're both going to be bawling our eyes out.
The most important thing people can do to help others in similar situations is by talking about this stuff, because it's awkward and maybe it'll help knowing that someone else has been going through the same thing--which can maybe help folks dealing with the loss and all that comes with it, but maybe someone thinking about it will realize how much it is going to shred the lives of the people they care about, and that what they're thinking about doing isn't just going to make everything easier for everyone. If you're truly miserable about the thought of waking up another day, tell someone about it and really let them know what you're thinking about doing, and I think you'll find more support than you ever realized. Even someone you may not think you're even that close to is probably a lot more willing to listen and hug it out than you realize.
I had a friend I hadn't seen in years talking about stuff online like he was on the edge, saying things like late brother in-law had been saying before he chose to exit this plane of existence, and I called around all of my friends to find out where he was living, and that night I showed up at his door I'd never been to before, completely unannounced, way later at night than I should've been out and about before work the following day, and I hugged that man and cried with him, and told him how much he was loved and how much he would be missed and let him know that I was always available to talk, no matter what. He's since gotten out of the slump he was in and things have been turning around for him as much as it can given his circumstances. I did similar things multiple times for my brother in-law, and there were at least two moments where I know I was able to help him stick with it for a little bit longer, and maybe there were more times, but the last time I obviously didn't get the chance and it haunts me to this day thinking about how he could've been saved again. That said, I know you can't ever truly stop someone from doing it if they're determined, but you can score those last minute saves every once in awhile, and for some people that might be all it takes before things turn around and they figure out how to manage what they're dealing with--but some people, like my brother in-law refused to do the things we couldn't do for him or force him to do that would help him improve, like seeing a professional and getting some anti-depressants or CBT or whatever combination of things that might've helped him. There are some personality types that don't mix with that kind of major depression, where they mask it so well that nobody around them ever knows until it's too late or they're too stubborn to do the things they know would help them, and too proud to ask for help doing them, on top of masking and lying about what's going on with them--and in cases like my brother in-law, his depression became a terminal case because of those things that made it so much harder to help him. Part of me saying that is to make myself feel better, because there literally wasn't anything more that my wife and I could have done for him, and we spent every last dime we had saved to bail him out of some financial troubles that he was in, and probably prolonged his departure by 3-4 months, and it was worth it. I wish I had an infinite amount of money to have kept that up indefinitely, but that wasn't possible, and he kept his financial troubles closer to the vest the last time, because he didn't want us to spend even more money on him. I know he died thinking that he was doing us a favor, and I wish I could let him know that he couldn't have been more misguided.
Anyway, I'm rambling and my point is that suicide sucks because it's the only cause of death that's paradoxically both avoidable, and unpreventable. Some folks can absolutely be saved, while others there is nothing you could do, and you don't ever get to find out which are which until it's too late. So, you need to care for your loved ones and let them know how much you care and act as if it's possible to prevent them from ever doing it, but then be able to accept that it wasn't if they do the worst thing imaginable.
Thank you so much for this great video. As someone who also suffers from complex ptsd I am thrilled by your candor. I have to admit that I like the videos off character even more than the others.
The fact that you have accomplished so much gives me confidence. Thank you so much for that. Don't let it get you down, even when things aren't going so well. I think we all love you very much, even if sometimes no video comes.
A lovely and real message. For different reasons I understand what you are going through, and I send all the love in the world your way. Thanks for the video and the honesty.
Ever since y found your channel I wait for your videos to come out, I F*** love your sense of humor. Hope you are feeling better and to see more of your content soon.
Saludos desde México
This dropped up in ny reccomend. Very glad to see you are still with us. I feel the neurodiversity, anxiety and depression. Really hope you get the help you need and the answers you deserve. You seem like a good egg and all round excellent human. Don't give up. Don't be afraid to talk about your experiences, not only will this take away the power it has over you, but it may also help others. Treat yourself with kindness and love and the rest will slowly follow.
Thank God you didn't give up your video making. I really enjoy your videos and think you're beautiful. :-)
Glad to see you what are doing what makes you happy. You are loved.
Was just thinking about you yesterday. You are looking and sounding healthier. Good on you.
Thank you, Louis. I needed this today
❤ sending love and support, we've never met, but I feel I know you. Your feelings are always valid, if people don't get it that isn't your problem it's theirs. Take care.
We love Octavious character, but you are the person who is so beatufull and have this exciting tone of voice and sense of humor that make us feel hypnotized every time we watch the show.
No matter what speaking as a huge fan of yours, I love you and your humour. Whatever kind of content you choose to release, I will always be here for you. Your well being always should come first.
Louis we love you and it is wonderful seeing you making stuff again!
Take all the time you need and please take care of yourself!
Keep being awesome!
Thanks for your great content! Enjoyed it for years 🙂 I have the feeling that it will be even better from now on!
You're a brave and strong person, many people are proud of you!
what a lovely message! I have been a fan for many years and am really stoked and looking forward to any new videos you make. sending you love!
Anyone who manages to get through life without a few scars inside or out isn't human.
Awesome to hear from you! And it's amazing to see how for you've come, and how excited and ready you sound to take the next steps. Take care, awesome Louis!
I just found you and I like what you do. Thank you for giving me some laughs. Look forward to watching your back log of videos. Cheers to your future
I find you entertaining and you seem like a fun person to be around. I am always looking forward to your new content.
Thank you for sharing this Louis. Had my own MH issues too so can empathise a bit. Everyone is different and their responses to mental health challenges will be different too. It is so good to see you coming through it with positivity. Only been following you a wee while, but I plan on sticking around.
Glad to hear you are dealing with stuff that needs to be dealt with and most of all glad to see you back!
I watch your videos to be entertained but often learn a little something at the same time too and I very much like the style you do your videos in.
All the best for the future and do take care of yourself and do let others help you too.
As someone with ptsd who has been through similar life experiences as yourself i would like to say your doing amazing and should be proud of yourself that your able to do the things you do but also the help you give to others with issues as I always watch your videos when I felt low and depressed cause I felt like your videos was like a safe space to be for myself to distract from the bad times but also with you being so honest and open with your own issues it helped me a lot to realise that I wasn’t so odd and that there is others who do the things I do myself which I want to say thank you and glad to see you back again.
Your depression will get even worse after Chinese dictator Xi soon invaded Taiwan and you been helping Chinese communists finance military build up via your ads. CCPway 🤮🤢
Thanks so much. Super brave. Maybe one day I will find the courage you found. So keep up being You. It's a pretty incredible person.
Thank you for posting this video! I stumbled across your channel about a year or so ago and have enjoyed each video you post. I enjoy the Octavious King character, but am glad you are posting to allow us to get to know you - out of this character. It's important that you be who you are, and we are grateful that you are reaching out to us. Each of us is a friend - and asking for your friends to reach out to you and show you love, truly makes you strong. Be proud of yourself and always know that you are loved.
Thank you for sharing, i think I can speak for a lot of us, some are good at pretending everything is fine, and the rest is just winging it! Your content is great, I love your bad video game reviews, your strength of opening yourself and net being afraid of showing the points you want to work on. Sending you lots of strenght and love!
This was a really good video.
It's also nice to see the great progress you've made.
Great to see you again Louis. Been struggeling with depression for more than 20 years, doing okay now. Talking about it helped me alot, great that you can do it too. Your videos always put a great smile on my face, thank you for that. You're great, never forget.
It's really brave to put yourself out there and I am very impressed with your ability to discuss your story. Mental health is NOT discussed enough and it's incredible that you are opening up the discussion. I look forward to your entertainment videos and discussions on mental health!
Louie .Sarah , Octy whoever you are ,you are loved and was missed by myself and many more people ....you are not and never alone love to you Xxx I/ we stand by you X
It takes a tremendous amount of strength to share this. All I can offer is clicks and views, and I salute/support your clear distinction between in-character and out-of-character. You take all the time you need; whenever you want/can upload, it'll get watching because of the quality of what you produce.
You don't know me, and of course other than your videos I don't know you, but I love what you put out there and have always found your frankness about your mental health to be refreshing and in a way welcoming. I, like so many in the comments here, am very glad to hear from you again and to know that you've taken a turn for the better and are finding the love of your family and friends.
Much love from one human to another.
Thank you for your bravery. It helps others in the same boat. I am 40 and find life so difficult. Videos like this make me feel less alone. Sending the love that you deserve as an amazing, unique and incredibly brave person.
I'm in a similar boat. Life is a real downer right now. Hugs to you too.
@@Sozzled39 Right back at you
Thank you for you honest post. I have loved you content for ages. Mental health is a hard struggle, kudos to you for pushing through. Lots of us struggle and it’s important to hear others struggle as well. The struggle doesn’t make you less than.
Great to hear from you. It's not easy to find self awareness and make honest improvements. You're doing amazing. We love you and always have your back.
Ya big old bobbins! Seriously that must have taken a lot and you're an awesome creator it's good to finally meet you 😊. We all go through this strange thing we call life and sometimes it just gets on top of us in ways we can't even imagine.
Having the ability to pick yourself up when you're down is a real skill that comes with time.
Good luck with future
I feel like we always here and say, that everybody is different but rarely we really take it serious. Especially when we feel like to ones who are different. We are sad, because we feel different from everyone else, and we forget that it is normal to be different. It is okay if you are slower in some aspects, or if you have special interests. Happyness is leages more important than being what is considert "normal" and should be the goal of all our actions. I personaly really love this line from a song sung by Cass Elliot, because it highlights the fact that happyness is more important than fitting in.
"Make your own kind of music.
Even if nobody else sings along"
So much of what you said about acknowledging your own accountability and your stubbornness really resonated with me. Those are aspects of myself that I have struggled with and have been working on.
I have always found that there is a certain comradery between those of us who have had instances of SH, and I have always felt a comfort in that. You and your experiences are valid. You matter, and we all love you for just being you. I'm looking forward to both your in character and out of character content.
Random internet stranger here, trying to recover from depression myself; depression takes a different form for every person, so i’m not going to say that i can relate or any crap like that, but i’m so glad you have plans and ideas, and even though i don’t personally know you, from the tone i heard in this video, i’m pretty sure you’ve got this. You are an inspiration, and for what it matters, this random internet person is rooting for you.
Really happy to see you back, looking forward to following you on this adventure.
Love You.
It's so good to see you back. You look great. Like really great. And I missed you and your videos very much. You make us smile and laugh and that is so special. Thank you.
You are my favorite RUclipsr and We love you and eagerly await your videos in or out of character!
Great to hear you're in a better place Louie/louis/lou, and great to hear you've got some spark back! You got this 👊❤🤘
We all have our demons, some more than others. Cheers for hanging in there and keeping on fighting!
You are not alone in this! Don't ever give up. Take whatever time you need and know a lot of people out here support you and send you good thoughts. Hang in there!
Your channel has a very unique charm. Perfectly captivated by your intro song (bring it back please). My favourite gaming channel by far.
Yeah the intro song was so cool
@@dexocube 👍Absolutely, the full version with lyrics is very cool. Louis/Sarah/Octavius is so talented. Unique here on RUclips.
Always look forward to your videos popping up, raise a smile every time. Your honesty does far more for anyone struggling at any level than you realise. Take heart in the good that you do and take some for yourself, its well deserved and most definitely earned x
Just wanted to add to the cacophony of support you're getting here Louis. I'm glad to hear you're looking at things more positively, and I'm glad you're going to be continuing to make videos as I've enjoyed every single one you've made so far! Talking openly about your struggles is a very admirable thing to do, it can't be easy to open up to the world about things like that.
You deserve nothing less than respect and love for your strength in openly talking about your emotional state and the events that transpired to cause you such trauma.. Sending you love from a longtime viewer in Sweden. No matter what, you'll always have my support, and my respect and admiration for what you do and what you go through with life.
Absolutely adore your openness. This hit me on such a personal level. A couple years ago I started my own RUclips channel just to talk about my own mental health issues, struggles with anxiety, trauma, etc. At some point I sort of stopped. Feeling like it wasn't important, that I wasn't brave enough to really say everything I wanted to say. For about six months I've been wanting to go back to it. Even mapping out ideas for episodes. But still struggling and fighting to get in front of the camera again.
I love the work you do as the Octavius character, but even more so I love the person YOU are. The honesty you are willing to share with your community. It's truly inspiring. So, thank you for everything you do. I can't begin to explain exactly how much I appreciate it.
May be weird coming from a complete stranger, but fuck I'm proud of you.
As a PTSD sufferer from a traumatic childhood, I empathize with what you're going through and the desire to "just be normal." I think it's very courageous of you to share your story, and I hope talking about it will help you and others. It definitely helped me to feel less alone.
the “desire to be normal” part hit home with me really hard. A lot of this video put into words stuff I’ve been having a hard time putting into words myself.
@Silmarian that's the part I hope she realizes. Sympathetic ears are wondeful to find but for those who may not know HOW they even feel, this is even more important she talk about what she feels safe to share.
You are not alone and you are loved.
Glad to see you back, we're all here with you ♥! Missed your quirky and hilarious reviews of utter bobbins, off to watch something about about some ball controller right now...
I love your content, and watch your videos for entertainment. And I glad to hear that you will covering topics that you find interesting yourself ❤
The vast majority of us cannot even begin to imagine the stuff that you've been through, and the fact that we live in a society where these things are happening are tragedies in themselves. It's great that you've found support, and amazing that you've found the strength in yourself. We're glad and grateful that you're back, and are really looking forward to what you bring us in the future. You have been missed, and are definitely appreciated.
Love your videos, and they do entertain me. Lookin forward to the future of your channel.
Good to see you're in a better place, life and people can be shit particularly for us that are neurodivergent but you've made it a better place for many people which is something to be proud of. Hopefully things will only get better.
I have a hard time just leaving my house these days. Big props to you for mustering the courage to go out and face a large social event like this. I admire the strength you can show even in your weakest times.
Thank you very much for sharing what has been going on in your life. We've missed you, and it's so good just to hear your voice and be able to share your life's travels (and travails). Best wishes from a fan across the pond, can't wait to see what you have in store for us. You are an inspiration for many of us and a simple thank you to you is not enough. Long Live Octavius King!
Thanks for sharing. I've been in the same mental state. I can't wait to see what you have planned for future videos.