I will never be happy again

this town is dead to me
it's rotting in my head
what good are memories?
eyes swollen like stone fruit
dread is the sound I make
a message has been received
you do not answer them
you do not even read it
I'll never be happy again
never be happy again
so far above the ground
vague and somewhat unseen
but it won't be for long
it will feel like forever
I'll never be happy
I'll never be happy
Look for who talks to me
under the mezzanine
looking around all I see
is fear and mirtazapine
I'll never be happy
I'll never be happy
No I'll never be happy again
I'll never be happy again
Never ever be happy again
I'll never be happy again
Again
Again
Again