Really, I have absolutely no idea why I want to wake up. It’s just something that came into view, years ago, and has now become a kind of circuit breaker of thought. I don’t resist its pull. Beyond that, I haven’t a clue. Thanks for the many videos. 🙏
I’m so tired of seeking. Many years! Life is not fun anymore, I’m so deep into this that I can’t just decide to put it down for a while do something else. Cuz nothing is fun once you know that waking up is a possibility.
Same here. Only waking up matters. I'm in "tiger's mouth" and that's the only thing attention wants to go towards. Everything else feels like a waste of time but mind doing tricks to defend its existance. It is indeed torture but everytime I sit with it and feel into it and dont go into compulsory distractions it's getting easier and easier to stay in the presence. But it its the most diffucult thing one can do.. to keep coming back to it, keep coming back...
Investigate what's behind "tiredness". Could it be some ego structures afraid of "dying if I don't fulfill my desires"? Habits? And also give yourself some breaks in the "rest areas" while "travelling". Time isn't involved really.
Very helpful ! Thanks 👌 as i woke I was just considering that “why do I want this”question again and remembered your pointing to go back to the questions “why “ list at the beginning of your book from time to time. There’s so many rabbit holes I have to remind myself a lot that ultimately I want the end to all suffering ! Otherwise I easily get sidetracked by egos doubt and fomo ❤
Yeah great video 💚 It's impossible to go from thought into no thought. Thought deals only with more thought (the dog chasing its tail). The trick to empty the mind out of a conditioning of constant engaging with thought is tough enough. Really the only way is to let thinking die out in the grace of sense perceptions and conscious breathing (pure being) awareness being aware of itself. Great video!
Sounds so damn simple, and in moments of clarity it is, but the pull to mind, moods and emotional identification is 50+ years in the making and for this character in the play, incredibly strong, despite that strength being imagined too.
So helpful Angelo, thank you. feels like a major iceberg of the puzzle just capsized and melted! ' I don't deserve it, I can't attain it, this can't be it' - what's right in front of my nose! Good Lord, far too ordinary. Thank you 👍🛌zzZ🤴🦖🤸♂️
Thank you, Angelo! You express so well what can’t be expressed 😃 . I marvel at your artistry! Actually, at first listen I recoiled once again and it all seemed like ‘word soup’, not making any sense to me, and the usual frustrations. But your invitation was so kind Angelo, I turned away from conceptualizing and turned into Huineng, the wood-cutter, recognizing truth when he first chanced to hear the diamond sutra being chanted. It’s not what your words mean per se, it’s where they are pointing to…..💚✨🙏🏼✨🙏🏼✨💚✨🙏🏼💚✨🙏🏼✨🙏🏼💚✨🙏🏼✨💚
I guess my reason is I am so tired of suffering. Tired of anxiety. Tired of fear and insecurity. Something keeps telling me that there’s more to things than that.
"something keeps telling me that there's more to life than that" is one way of the ego to escape from 'what is', in your case anxiety, fear, insecurity or suffering. Can you face your fear or suffering without any escapes? Just face it. Fear will not and cannot kill you. Have some time to really face it! Then see what happens.
Maybe someone can relate to the doubtful feelings that always seem to barrage me just as it seems I'm "finally" surrendering. The mind tells me to open my eyes...it's a magic trick. A carrot on a stick just like the old cartoons with the promise of something until you eventually find happiness somewhere else and naturally stop caring about all this spirituality stuff...or you simply keep going...day in and day out. The way they tell children to keep following their dreams and don't give up...knowing that many of them will never make it but if they don't tell them all to try then the special ones will never have a chance. I start to see the motivation behind the teachers and how we all need to find a way to make money and survive in this world and teaching spirituality is just another skill that can be learned, mastered and turned into gold. In the end however I always seem to discover a relationship with my intuition...and if I'm being honest I can't ignore the magic in my life. Little things and sometimes massive things that happen constantly at just the right moments. It's what keeps me moving forward.
I can feel it Angel o, I can hear it, I can see it, it's all luxuriantly gushing from your eyes my dear friend, and all along, this smile I just can't wipe out of my face. 💙🙏
This is hits hard! It’s mint! meditation I try prefer listening tho. I’m not sure . Not aiming for anything. Think im a slow burner. Fridge surfer. Pardon the pun.
I want to wake up because I always felt disoriented and because one time I had a glimpse that it doesn't have to be this way, that there's a way more obvious, clear and pleasant way to be than how we usually live
What I want most is to disappear. This world has never felt right and it makes sense its because its all illusion. What's left now is to disappear I guess?
Hey Angelo, I used to stare into the mirror sometimes before awakening and have what I called a dissociation moment, where I felt like I wasn’t my body or I was my body. Some type of identity shifting. Id say, “that’s me”. Now after awakening I haven’t gotten it to happen again. What do you think was going on there? Anyone else is welcome to chime in!
I completely relate to this. Angelo or Josh or Violet once mentioned that it’s not uncommon for things like this to happen once and not again. I try not to elicit or expect anything because it’s a goal or expectation or hope, or an attempt to control IT. Before I cracked open I viewed these kinds of experiences as breadcrumbs. Now I usually just laugh out loud at them. Having said that, when something weird happens now it repeats and expands. Like how images disappear and things that are moving aren’t moving 🤷 But, while I pay attention to and enjoy them, I don’t cling to these regular phenomenon either.
When you say "The unbinding goes on forever.", I wonder how you experience this? Do you see incremental unbinding? Is there any sense of it coming in discrete experiences, like an experience of unbinding and then another and another? Is there any sense of scale or amount, like identity used to feel like a mountain and now .... Anything, nothing, nothing that can be said, no sense of direction, path or structure of any sort? I realize words become meaningless, but wonder how it feels for you? Anything other than formless?
The problem is, as soon as I sit still and try to "feel it" I get strong anxiety and I get extremely restless. You say anyone can wake up, yet Ive never seen anyone on your channel so far, who had heavy childhood trauma or with complex ptsd and managed to "wake up".
Really, I have absolutely no idea why I want to wake up. It’s just something that came into view, years ago, and has now become a kind of circuit breaker of thought. I don’t resist its pull. Beyond that, I haven’t a clue. Thanks for the many videos. 🙏
Good Answer!
@@SimplyAlwaysAwakegood title
Unbinding from the world of thoughts and time is true freedom. ❤️🙏🏻
I’m so tired of seeking. Many years! Life is not fun anymore, I’m so deep into this that I can’t just decide to put it down for a while do something else. Cuz nothing is fun once you know that waking up is a possibility.
Yes! It can be torture
Same here. Only waking up matters. I'm in "tiger's mouth" and that's the only thing attention wants to go towards. Everything else feels like a waste of time but mind doing tricks to defend its existance. It is indeed torture but everytime I sit with it and feel into it and dont go into compulsory distractions it's getting easier and easier to stay in the presence. But it its the most diffucult thing one can do.. to keep coming back to it, keep coming back...
@@dominikazubrzycka7671 thank you🤍
Investigate what's behind "tiredness".
Could it be some ego structures afraid of "dying if I don't fulfill my desires"? Habits?
And also give yourself some breaks in the "rest areas" while "travelling".
Time isn't involved really.
Deep thanks angelo
The last days videos appear in perfect synchronicity. Amazing! Going to meditate now💫🧘♀️
Very helpful ! Thanks 👌 as i woke I was just considering that “why do I want this”question again and remembered your pointing to go back to the questions “why “ list at the beginning of your book from time to time. There’s so many rabbit holes I have to remind myself a lot that ultimately I want the end to all suffering ! Otherwise I easily get sidetracked by egos doubt and fomo ❤
Thanks Angelo, great strait pointings. Yes, Paul Hederman is great too!
Yeah great video 💚 It's impossible to go from thought into no thought. Thought deals only with more thought (the dog chasing its tail). The trick to empty the mind out of a conditioning of constant engaging with thought is tough enough. Really the only way is to let thinking die out in the grace of sense perceptions and conscious breathing (pure being) awareness being aware of itself. Great video!
Sounds so damn simple, and in moments of clarity it is, but the pull to mind, moods and emotional identification is 50+ years in the making and for this character in the play, incredibly strong, despite that strength being imagined too.
So helpful Angelo, thank you.
feels like a major iceberg of the puzzle just capsized and melted!
' I don't deserve it, I can't attain it, this can't be it'
- what's right in front of my nose!
Good Lord, far too ordinary.
Thank you 👍🛌zzZ🤴🦖🤸♂️
Awesome Tashi
Truth and freedom.
Thank you, Angelo! You express so well what can’t be expressed 😃 . I marvel at your artistry!
Actually, at first listen I recoiled once again and it all seemed like ‘word soup’, not making any sense to me, and the usual frustrations. But your invitation was so kind Angelo, I turned away from conceptualizing and turned into Huineng, the wood-cutter, recognizing truth when he first chanced to hear the diamond sutra being chanted. It’s not what your words mean per se, it’s where they are pointing to…..💚✨🙏🏼✨🙏🏼✨💚✨🙏🏼💚✨🙏🏼✨🙏🏼💚✨🙏🏼✨💚
Thank you, Angelo.
✌❤😊
Beautiful 🙏🏻❤️
I guess my reason is I am so tired of suffering. Tired of anxiety. Tired of fear and insecurity. Something keeps telling me that there’s more to things than that.
"something keeps telling me that there's more to life than that" is one way of the ego to escape from 'what is', in your case anxiety, fear, insecurity or suffering. Can you face your fear or suffering without any escapes? Just face it. Fear will not and cannot kill you. Have some time to really face it! Then see what happens.
@@Perujay-dl2bs thank you! I feel like I am. I have been a lot of shadow work. Feeling into the fear and anxiety.
❤Thank you ❤
Maybe someone can relate to the doubtful feelings that always seem to barrage me just as it seems I'm "finally" surrendering. The mind tells me to open my eyes...it's a magic trick. A carrot on a stick just like the old cartoons with the promise of something until you eventually find happiness somewhere else and naturally stop caring about all this spirituality stuff...or you simply keep going...day in and day out. The way they tell children to keep following their dreams and don't give up...knowing that many of them will never make it but if they don't tell them all to try then the special ones will never have a chance. I start to see the motivation behind the teachers and how we all need to find a way to make money and survive in this world and teaching spirituality is just another skill that can be learned, mastered and turned into gold. In the end however I always seem to discover a relationship with my intuition...and if I'm being honest I can't ignore the magic in my life. Little things and sometimes massive things that happen constantly at just the right moments. It's what keeps me moving forward.
I can feel it Angel o, I can hear it, I can see it, it's all luxuriantly gushing from your eyes my dear friend, and all along, this smile I just can't wipe out of my face. 💙🙏
Wonderful
This is hits hard! It’s mint! meditation I try prefer listening tho. I’m not sure . Not aiming for anything. Think im a slow burner. Fridge surfer. Pardon the pun.
wonder-fully said
🙏🙏🙏
Your mind/thoughts will lie to you. Count on it. Thoughts are ultimately meaningless.
First it was another "wanting" Now I'm just very curious of the paradox.............
i just dont want to fight and crave anymore
❤
I want to wake up because I always felt disoriented and because one time I had a glimpse that it doesn't have to be this way, that there's a way more obvious, clear and pleasant way to be than how we usually live
Yes there is :)
What I want most is to disappear. This world has never felt right and it makes sense its because its all illusion. What's left now is to disappear I guess?
What does "disappear" look like to you?
When I say disappear I mean to lose the sense of a doer and seperation
See through the false identity and the doer falls away.
I feel like I'm being deceived constantly and it's annoying?
Who wants to disappear?
This reminds me of that Frank Yang quote to the effect of: Spirituality is this program to get there that ultimately has to delete itself.
What is your emotional experience? Do you experience much emotion at your stage of realisation
Hey Angelo, I used to stare into the mirror sometimes before awakening and have what I called a dissociation moment, where I felt like I wasn’t my body or I was my body. Some type of identity shifting. Id say, “that’s me”. Now after awakening I haven’t gotten it to happen again. What do you think was going on there? Anyone else is welcome to chime in!
I completely relate to this.
Angelo or Josh or Violet once mentioned that it’s not uncommon for things like this to happen once and not again. I try not to elicit or expect anything because it’s a goal or expectation or hope,
or an attempt to control IT.
Before I cracked open I viewed these kinds of experiences as breadcrumbs. Now I usually just laugh out loud at them. Having said that, when something weird happens now it repeats and expands. Like how images disappear and things that are moving aren’t moving 🤷
But, while I pay attention to and enjoy them, I don’t cling to these regular phenomenon either.
Probably disassociation, but may have been a taste of non-dual. Doesn't matter, just keep waking up here and now :)
Ooh 😢yep
Sorry, off topic, but are you going to make an announcement about the December retreat somewhere?
Good idea!
When you say "The unbinding goes on forever.", I wonder how you experience this? Do you see incremental unbinding? Is there any sense of it coming in discrete experiences, like an experience of unbinding and then another and another? Is there any sense of scale or amount, like identity used to feel like a mountain and now .... Anything, nothing, nothing that can be said, no sense of direction, path or structure of any sort? I realize words become meaningless, but wonder how it feels for you? Anything other than formless?
Interesting. Yesterday I emailed him asking him to do a video on this, or how the awakening and unbinding happens differently for different people.
The problem is, as soon as I sit still and try to "feel it" I get strong anxiety and I get extremely restless.
You say anyone can wake up, yet Ive never seen anyone on your channel so far, who had heavy childhood trauma or with complex ptsd and managed to "wake up".
Anxiety can be a wonderful experience if you allow it.
What does "allowing" anxiety mean? as if I have an option to reject it. All there is is the anxiety, which I have all the time@@colton_936
Nothing that has ever happened to you in this world can prevent you from waking up. Trust that.
@@bethhayes1 by "trust that" u actually mean "trust a random stranger on RUclips who didn't gok through the same shit"
@@stoics3698 Well, I too had heavy childhood trauma and ptsd from it. I just didn't go into that. I am speaking from experience.
You cant disappear, cause you never appeared. The illusion isnt the world, its you!
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So you are saying that there is a golden taint? 😂