What he doesn't understand is that those scars and tattoos were earned by him. Trophies can also be earned. But he chose the scars and tattoos instead. Its a choice. His shitty upbringing was not a choice but he chose to not change his situation by choosing to remain in that vicious cycle of being a victim and then he himself victimizing others. That's usually the cycle. Its rare when someone turns tragedy into triumph. It's possible but very rare.
This guy is so close to figuring out how to get himself back on the right track, you can hear him figuring it out in the beginning of the interview. This guy could benefit from a legitimate therapy session.
Every single gangster/thug/prostitute/addict is a person that feels unloved. Parents , make sure ur kids know you love them. Above all else. Give them that certainty that their parents adore them.
@Hayley Drawmer 😄 🤣 sounds dumb but it's true man. I tell my daughters I want them to have a nice to clean house when they're older. That's why I make them clean. Because I love them lol
That is true, but there have also been parents interviewed on this channel who obviously did care. Sometimes everything that can be done for a person is not enough. They have to want it for themselves.
As a mom it tore my heart out when he said, _you don't understand it was kinda harder for her..._ in reference to his young mother. He speaks about a horrific childhood with such Grace for his mother. Bless this guy. I pray he got a job and stayed out.
@@Goodmorning1221- how you gone talk bad about someone with our meeting them and judge them by there background negative ass ppl that’s why the world is the way it is
Unfortunately they're often in the same situation. Hurt and traumatized people who had a child and continue the cycle. You can't point the finger at any one person.
@@NeuroGeek85 i understand ur point but i just feel at some point accountability has to take place so next generation will have more concern for the families wellbeing 😔
This one breaks my heart. Because he is so aware and so close to finding a life and being that man he is striving to be. I pray for this man. Jesus. Lay your hands over this man, give him strength, give him support and certainly thank you for blessing him with wisdom.
Without a doubt. I have watched over 50 of his videos and after sometime l started to count how many of the interviewees haven’t had a childhood trauma. The count is 0 so far.
Breaks my heart thinking of parents abusing their children. He still looks like a kid to me. I have two sons in their twenties and I can only see him as someone's son.. who is in pain.. I sincerely hope he does well and gets help and meet good people. You can see how much pain he is in
@@Elver99Gudon What is wrong with you? Who are you to say that nobody deserves help? How would you feel if you were under the same circumstances as this man and people treated you the way you're treating him?
I have a friend who's Mother poured boiliing water over his feet when he was little, I really feel for ppl who've had these sorts of things happen to them. Best of luck Blue Devil, follow your dreams man you got this
There were two children a boy and a girl I went to school with and I remember that his name was Alvin but I can’t remember his sister’s name but they were both so sad because they were abused by their mom she herself was mentally challenged but they were finally taken away from their mother because she had poured scolding hot water over their heads because they had gotten lice and she thought that she was killing them ( the lice ) but it almost killed them instead.They couldn’t ever grow hair it was practically melted off of their heads bless their hearts I felt so sad for them . I wish that I knew where they were living at today I would love to see them and let them know that they weren’t forgotten but I have no idea where they would be at now . I hope that they are doing well .
And USA claims to be the best country in the world yet look what they get away with doing to there children and if the children do get in foster care are abused ??? Same they spend so much on war instead of your own back door. shameful !
U r Loved so so much young Man. God is u Father n friend. He knows u pain n trauma, n he cares. U hav suffered but u can hav peace through Gods healing. Prayin 4 u!
This guy makes my heart twist up. There's something about him that is so gentle and tissue paper vulnerable. I wish with all of my heart he had a Momma. He needs a momma.
Blue D has a significant amount of self-awareness and I hope it carries him to a self-determined and 'better' life. Whatever that means for him. I wish him the best.
There are many different kinds of intelligence. He's obviously not a scholar but he is rising above out of his "caste" in life so. Idk. Give him some credit and don't discount a spark. One spark can set one crazy fire!
This dude is on the brink of turning his life around. A go fund me account or a few good people could change this mans life. He’s ready for a change . I really want to see a follow up interview with him
Sadly a handout is not what he needs. He needs guidance, not free money. Give a addict money, they’ll spend it on drugs, give a addict guidance and a shoulder to lean on, and he’ll prevail.
@@kcck7588 glad you said it lol. i work at a treatment center and the last thing that would help the young guys there is a gofund me campaign. that would kill them.
@@AfterHoursEly yea man i was once a addict, and i wish people would’ve just sat and listened to what i had to say, rather than giving me money to feed my addiction. glad someone with some actual knowledge on the topic agrees.
Never judge a "book by its cover". We never know what a person truly goes through or is experiencing. What I love is how the portraits are "story-telling" and haunting. You truly capture the person's story in their portrait before we get to listen to it. Thank you for sharing!
This man needs our prayers. He is walking a thin line, two strikes :( I hope and pray that his life stays on the right track and he begins to enjoy the life he is meant to have.
@Goochisz Magoochisz You have just proven your point to me. Prayer is a very personal choice and I respect your choice. For me, I have had deeply profound spiritual experiences from a young age. For me, I cannot deny the power of Prayer or God.
That’s strike thing in Cali is crazy. To identify yourself as blue devil w 2 strikes makes me feel sad. In your mind, know that everyone in the courthouse was probably saying he’ll be back! Make that your motivation to stay straight. It’s easier said than done, but you have to. I hope you get a good life.
I am a white person in the South (USA) who had a wonderful, middle class childhood and now I’m 50, really seeing more and more that I am extremely ***lucky*** to have been born to my parents. I am very thankful. I’ve been and still am sheltered, probably more than I even knew. God bless this man and the people like him. Everybody deserves to have a loving mother. This is heartbreaking to the point that the wound will never be 100% healed. This could be any other person alive. Luck! So may we acknowledge that not even ONE of us is better than anyone else and the next one, too? ☺️ Siriklee. Seriously, feeling very grateful to God and asking Him to help us all. ❤️🙏
Watching your own brother die is hard as hell.And he was a kid which is even worse.His mother was a child herself when Blue Devil was born.Both parents were addicted to heroin. What should the boy do but also take drugs. He knows nothing else. And then the pain of his brother's death.I can understand him well. I wish him all the best from the bottom of my heart.Love from germany
This is one where looks are deceiving.. such wisdom coming from this man. I pray he stays away from gangs and drugs and doesn't waste rest of his life in prison.
I was soooo reluctant to click on a “gang member” interview but I I’m so pleasantly surprised and really, really like him! I’m just confused on the sequence of 5 or 6 older siblings with a mother of 15. Unless he’s her one and only. He’s already finding love within and I pray he finds it outside too!🙏🏿
Yes Lord he is a blue angel indeed l pray you keep him safe supported and around those who will keep him on your path Lord. Humble, introspective and forgives his mom...a good man he has become despite his background.
Blue Devil… sending you healing vibes. I sincerely hope you can stay strong and pull yourself up. If anyone can do it, I believe you can. Godspeed, brother!
Great interview Mark. Blue Devil, keep your head up homie. Good luck finding a way out. Save up for some tool bags and boots, most construction sites dont care about tattoos or your past.
Hi Mark! Hell, this fella has had problem's since they clamped & cut his umbilical cord ! Despite all of this he still can see the way up.Keep going, don't look into that rear view mirror !
This was probably my favorite interview. This guy has gone through some heavy shit, done some heavy shit but now recognizes where it's gotten him. So much respect to this guy, I hope he gets what he wants outta life 🙏 everyone deserves a 2nd chance
one thing that doesn’t add up is that his mom had him at 15 or 16 and he’s the youngest of 5. regardless tho i think he’s had a rough life and is tired of the lifestyle he’s been living. i think he 100% can change his life around. the accountability is beautiful
I come from 7 brothers and 7 sisters .My dad was not around and was told by my mother my whole life,you ain't shot just like your father. Now I am 70 years old ,she is 96 years old, I am the only one out of all those kids who looks out for her.And she still treats me like a dog.I lived downtown los angeles for 20 years on the streets and another 20 in prison. I just ignore her and do the best I can for her.I been over what she did to me.I have been back in my hometown now 7 years clean and got my life back.No drugs no jail.Its been wild ride but I am happy for once in my life.
I can see him in there. There’s a pure soul just waiting to come out. If he could have some guidance, help him with his shadow work, self healing and positive direction, he will be able to do some really great things!! He is a light that deserves to be utilized 💜
"The more I did something good, the more I got hurt", really reminds me of the quote, 'The path to hell is paved with good intention'. Reality is very tough.
There is something very gentle about this man. I have absolutely no doubt he would have turned out very differently if he had been raised in a loving, healthy home. He has a lot of strength and determination, an inner drive to better himself. He would do well working with at risk youth once he gets on his feet. I wish him nothing but the best. 🤍
@@FlyWhipGangGTA That's really unfortunate, but I stand by what I said. He spoke from the heart and desperately wants to do better. Some of us have a traumatic upbringing while some of us are lucky to have grown up in a safe, loving environment. They are vastly different.
@@FlyWhipGangGTA He's not on drugs now, didn't you hear him say he's been sober for months? The stabbing was a long time ago and he was only telling his story. He acts gentle because he is, not because of any drugs.
I can relate to this guy on a few different levels. Holding out for kids because you always felt like a burden. Trying to figure out, what makes "happy families" so freaking happy? I think I met this guy at a skatepark once. I remember the "BLUE" tattoo. Not the "DEVIL" one though. Had longer hair though so might've been someone else. Hope you're better today than you were yesterday. And even better tomorrow. Peace, Blue.
Age 32 now. So many other brothers & one sister, and he is one of the youngest in the family. So many very deep emotional traumas, that it will take so much "re-birthing". Very many "trigger points", but luckily no use yey of chemical resignation. So perhaps non-drug therapy might work. Lack of personal & social skills can be much harder to "teach", especially with so much emotional PTSD (imprisonment, etc). Removal of obvious tattoos might be necessary?
HES NOT A "GANG MEMBER!"& PUTTING THAT ON THE HEADLINE COULD GET HIM KILLED FOR FALSELY CLAIMING HES FROM A HOOD. HE EVEN SAID THAT HE IS NOT FROM NO HOOD! THAT SHIT IS SERIOUS...
This man just needs the opportunity to do better he has such a beautiful heart and is full of wisdom. He knows exactly how it is but also how it should be. I wish him the best. 💜
I feel like these interviews really let people who struggle talk in a way they can’t do on the street. Really show how they feel and think without the critique of of their peers. Interviews like these shows the fire they have in themselves to be do better. I wish the best to him.
Wow, the Trauma Bonding is absolutely incredible. The guy tells us that he was thrown against a wall as a baby, shot up with Heroin, saw his brother hang himself and he says, "'My parents were just young and did the best they could trying to raise a kid". I send every ounce of blessings and well-being to this gentleman.
Sometimes impulse control can be the toughest thing to learn for some. I really like this guy, he's very reflective upon his situation and he seems willing to work at making it. God bless him and wish him the best for the rest of his life.
05:10 "the right persona at that moment" this sums up gangs so well. Most of us are "falling into line" in society in our own ways. I went through a period in my life where I was fully convinced my value was in my fists and my ability to intimidate people I perceived as a threat. It's an aspect of human nature (or just nature) that some people just need guidance with. Most never recieved that guidance and then society villifies them for not figuring it out on their own. It's never too late bud. You clearly see it clearly now. Just be about that sensible life.
Another incredible video, such raw desire to improve on his circumstances. Wishing you all the best Blue Devil! Arohanui (much love) and Kia Kaha (stand strong) - Te reo words from the Maori culture where I’m from in New Zealand. 💕🌸🌷
This man has a rare form of courage and universal thought. Very unusual to hear someone with his background speak with so much perspective. Pretty incredible.
I'm a 33 year old man and I don't cry very often but the first two sentences of this literally brought tears to my eyes I'm in a relating my dinner and just started crying this man please Lord help this man obviously you kept him here for a reason Lord please don't let this man continue to go through torture his childhood was more than what most people can handle or should handle
His wondering if having a loving family would have made a difference really hit me hard. And sadly, it doesn’t always make enough of a difference. I was once naive enough to think if my husband and I loved a kid enough and offered a stable home that we could break the cycle of addiction/street life for a child. We new nothing of developmental trauma and how the neglect in that baby’s first few months and the trauma of multiple caregivers abandoning him would forever change the wiring in his brain. So much so that he was headed down the same path of Blue Devil, even with all the therapy and support systems money can buy. Like he said….you have to be sick and tired of being sick and tired. I hope he gets a chance to turn his life around. He’s not making excuses for his sins, but he can make amends by leading a better life.
Blue, you are no devil. God loves you, darling. Go and live God's purpose for your life. Go ahead and shine this time. God has got your back. Trust that! God Bless!
I like this guy. I respect him a lot for not giving up and continuing to seek a better life. One day he’s going to get it, I can see it. He deserves so much more than he has been dealt. If you’re reading this, keep your head up bro. Much love from Virginia Beach
I am so sorry you had to go through that at such a young age.. There is so much for you out there and you are a beautiful person, has anyone ever told you that? I shed tears watching you, I feel your pain, I pray God blesses you with peace and comfort, a new way of life, you have the potential to do and be anything you want, there is more to life than what you were dealt as a kid, go get it hun, reach you hands up and grab it!!!!!!.. Good luck sweetheart and please, take care...
Just wondering if you shed any tears for the people who he stabbed and robbed? What about what they had to go through because of his bad decisions? Those are the people I feel bad for. Does anyone here commenting care about his victims? Anybody? Anybody? Hardly anyone mentions his victims. Why? Do they not matter? What if he stabbed and robbed you or your family? Would you still feel the same towards him ? Anybody?
He's a sensible person. He understands his upbringing, his situation, and the consequences. This guy is someone who, if i had this conversation with them, I'd say he had potential. Hope he does well in life.
It's so scary that despite the fact that we can realize how much parents can hurt a child if he is not in the right mind position to have a kid, despite that so many people who they don't really wanna have kids they are ending up having and then hurting them.
He is a smart and goodlooking guy and can communicate well. May he find the help and support that he needs to have the chance to live a better life. Anyone who have a very bad start in life like him seems to be so pulled in this kind of downfall. I hope that people should not have children if they are incapable of raising them properly. He understands this that's why he does not have any children. I wish you only the very best going forward. May God bless you.
These are just children playing adults. I would love to see a study to see when their brains stopped developing or when they redevelop. This is just fascinating to watch. God bless this young man,Please hold him and protect him.
There is a great article about how trauma changes a child's brain and body. ' 4 ways childhood trauma changes a child's brain and body'. I can't post a link, but if you search with the title you will find it. Good read.
Aoke thank you so much. Both my brother and sister are research PhD’s and I have been talking to them about this channel, and the studies that could be done at an adult level. I believe if I keep pushing them one ☝️ f them will either take it on themselves or find someone who can. I think this is so important that we understand how we help the adult in a more effective way.
@@nicolestargell8323 You are welcome. This article should be good for them to read. How trauma in childhood leaves the traces in adulthood, both physically and mentally.
Also, there are places that do brain scans that have shown the changes in tendencies for violence, decision making skills, etc. from physical trauma. There's so much help that needs to be given to so many people, it's overwhelming.
It's a great thing you do for people who got some of the worst cards dealt to them. You provide a platform for these beautiful souls. This man is very wise from his life experiences. I wish him the best . God bless 🤘
When parents drop the ball with the kids this is what happens, it's our job to make them feel safe and loved growing up. He was never given a chance to be better.
My martial arts teacher grew up a gang member in the projects in Philly. First job was as a 12 year old, watching a corner. by his 20s he was dealing and using, got shot in the face. One day he was sitting on a stoop getting high and suddenly kinda looked at himself and was aware suddenly that he really didn’t have to be doing any of this and that it was only gonna get worse. he joined the military, used the money to go to college, got married, had kids.he reminds me of you man. The odds were against him but he just said no and walked away from that life . A lot of his friends stayed but he’s a special dude. I think you are too. You can do it. I feel a lot of love for you man.
He's a survivor. If he can get help to remove the face tats, he'll have a good chance of finding work and laying the foundations of a good future. I wish luck.
It's a brave new world. Face tattoos don't automatically mean unprofessional in some people's eyes now. He just has to find that one opportunity, that one person to give him a shot. I believe that's all he needs ♥️
'Sometimes we have to learn to parent ourselves'...best advice. I pray this man gets strength to live and thrive, not just survive. God Bless for showing compassion on these interviews.
Gotta be a firefighter 🔥 "Family dysfunction rolls down from generation to generation, like a fire in the woods, taking down everything in its path until one person in one generation has the courage to turn and face the flames. That person brings peace to their ancestors and spares the children that follow." - T Real Fight the flames. 🔥
Prayers up for this young man! Being a product of his environment doesn’t express who he truly is a person. I hope he is able to create the life he deserves.
Some people really just need to tell their story and be heard. Thank you for giving them this platform. There is so much good in this man. I hope he can find his way to happiness.
"I got scars and tattoos, I don't have no trophies." Blue Devil
That hit me hard, he deserves better. sending him prayers.
Did u look at his horns ?
Those prayers better be from Satan or he wont accept them
What he doesn't understand is that those scars and tattoos were earned by him. Trophies can also be earned. But he chose the scars and tattoos instead. Its a choice. His shitty upbringing was not a choice but he chose to not change his situation by choosing to remain in that vicious cycle of being a victim and then he himself victimizing others. That's usually the cycle. Its rare when someone turns tragedy into triumph. It's possible but very rare.
@Clint Hardnips neither
@Clint Hardnips forgiving your enemies is one of the biggest steps to growth and i know plenty that have.
This guy is so close to figuring out how to get himself back on the right track, you can hear him figuring it out in the beginning of the interview. This guy could benefit from a legitimate therapy session.
Yup
I thought he was pushing the tequila back down toward his gut...
Let's hope he reads this and does accordingly. He never had a chance in life. Hope he gets himself sorted out.
It's so frustrating seeing someone actually wanting to help themselves but never catching that break they need!
I think this is a legitimate therapy session, to be honest.
Every single gangster/thug/prostitute/addict is a person that feels unloved. Parents , make sure ur kids know you love them. Above all else. Give them that certainty that their parents adore them.
@Hayley Drawmer 😄 🤣 sounds dumb but it's true man. I tell my daughters I want them to have a nice to clean house when they're older. That's why I make them clean. Because I love them lol
That is true, but there have also been parents interviewed on this channel who obviously did care. Sometimes everything that can be done for a person is not enough. They have to want it for themselves.
no love but also traumas
Not every single some people just like living that life theirs no excuses to do bad things
Facts
I watch these every day without fail and I just love how encouraging you are Mark..... You're like everyone's personal cheerleader!
This poor guy still loves his mom, despite how horrible she was to him. He deserves all the help he can get. Like most children, he was born "good".
He stabbed someone.
@@chriskozub8012 things happen you dont know him yet so dont judge him based on his past
@@chriskozub8012 so what
No one is born good or bad.
@@chriskozub8012 "he stabbed someone" who cares bro except the person he stabbed and law enforcement. That's nothing trust me.
As a mom it tore my heart out when he said, _you don't understand it was kinda harder for her..._ in reference to his young mother. He speaks about a horrific childhood with such Grace for his mother. Bless this guy. I pray he got a job and stayed out.
When he said, “I want to adopt a kid,” I couldn’t stop the tears. This man deserves a second chance and I hope he gets it. He has a sweet soul.
You should take him home.
Negative fucks.
lets pray he isnt given a kid
The douchebag is probably a killer. No second chance.
@@Goodmorning1221- how you gone talk bad about someone with our meeting them and judge them by there background negative ass ppl that’s why the world is the way it is
Parents who cause this cycle of abuse should b held accountable PERIOD
Unfortunately they're often in the same situation. Hurt and traumatized people who had a child and continue the cycle. You can't point the finger at any one person.
@@NeuroGeek85 i understand ur point but i just feel at some point accountability has to take place so next generation will have more concern for the families wellbeing 😔
@@baublesanddolls looking thru the eyes of a lil child being pushed against a wall wen ur little is like being thrown by this angry big parent 🤔
It's the kids having kids
YES!!!
This one breaks my heart. Because he is so aware and so close to finding a life and being that man he is striving to be. I pray for this man. Jesus. Lay your hands over this man, give him strength, give him support and certainly thank you for blessing him with wisdom.
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After watching Mark’s videos for years I definitely feel like trauma is the gateway to most of these lifestyles.
Without a doubt. I have watched over 50 of his videos and after sometime l started to count how many of the interviewees haven’t had a childhood trauma. The count is 0 so far.
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Well yeah
It 100% is and is proven, doesnt even have to be some horrific trauma, theres all kinds
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His eyes tell it all, gang life is painful and empty. Bless his heart ❤
Hes horrible. He fuckn stabbed and robbed people
Precisely! His eyes is why I clicked the video. Eyes always tell the truth.
His problems started way before gangs but they are problematic
Either you wanna do right or do wrong! Hes 32 yrs old , getta fkin job and stop making excuses
@@jugghead-1975
... because Life for Everyone is that fkn Simple right? 🙄
Breaks my heart thinking of parents abusing their children. He still looks like a kid to me. I have two sons in their twenties and I can only see him as someone's son.. who is in pain.. I sincerely hope he does well and gets help and meet good people. You can see how much pain he is in
This guy is totally worth investing time and resources into.
No way! This guy is one of those senseless aggressors that you fear for out in the street. He for sure has battered grandmothers
@@Elver99Gudon What is wrong with you? Who are you to say that nobody deserves help? How would you feel if you were under the same circumstances as this man and people treated you the way you're treating him?
@@chrisortiz9488 how would you feel if this guy robs your grandmother and punches her?
Mario Jimenez you are a straight up heartless piece of shit....
@@Elver99Gudon wtf😭😭😭
Bet he’d give everything to be loved. Virtual hug to this guy, there should never be a hard way in life. Hang in there!
Right! Help this guy out, Mark! Get a follow-up on this guy.
I can’t get over him saying his mother slammed him against the wall when he was a baby. I’m completely astonished! Oh my heart breaks for him. Prayers
I have a friend who's Mother poured boiliing water over his feet when he was little, I really feel for ppl who've had these sorts of things happen to them. Best of luck Blue Devil, follow your dreams man you got this
There were two children a boy and a girl I went to school with and I remember that his name was Alvin but I can’t remember his sister’s name but they were both so sad because they were abused by their mom she herself was mentally challenged but they were finally taken away from their mother because she had poured scolding hot water over their heads because they had gotten lice and she thought that she was killing them ( the lice ) but it almost killed them instead.They couldn’t ever grow hair it was practically melted off of their heads bless their hearts I felt so sad for them . I wish that I knew where they were living at today I would love to see them and let them know that they weren’t forgotten but I have no idea where they would be at now . I hope that they are doing well .
And USA claims to be the best country in the world yet look what they get away with doing to there children and if the children do get in foster care are abused ??? Same they spend so much on war instead of your own back door. shameful !
U r Loved so so much young Man. God is u Father n friend. He knows u pain n trauma, n he cares. U hav suffered but u can hav peace through Gods healing. Prayin 4 u!
@@fifilamoore1718 Where you from ?
This guy makes my heart twist up. There's something about him that is so gentle and tissue paper vulnerable.
I wish with all of my heart he had a Momma. He needs a momma.
Blue D has a significant amount of self-awareness and I hope it carries him to a self-determined and 'better' life. Whatever that means for him. I wish him the best.
If he can read a tape and swing a hammer he's got a job with me.
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He stabbed a guy and robbery yeah he should fit in pretty good with your crew.
@@truthiz7873 You Don't Know Why People Get Wrapped Up In The Situations They Do; Hop Off Ya High Horse.
@@septimaserpent Suckin on Serpents, give him a call and he can move in with you.
hes an intelligent guy. i wish him luck. the part about wanting to have a peaceful place to grow up is sad as hell.
This is what you regard as intelligence?
@@IDontBuyIt-zt4tc and what are your requirements?
I believe he has a chance
“Intelligent” lmao
There are many different kinds of intelligence. He's obviously not a scholar but he is rising above out of his "caste" in life so. Idk. Give him some credit and don't discount a spark. One spark can set one crazy fire!
This dude is on the brink of turning his life around. A go fund me account or a few good people could change this mans life. He’s ready for a change . I really want to see a follow up interview with him
So do, I I wish there was a go fund me that can go to all people who are interviewed
Sadly a handout is not what he needs. He needs guidance, not free money. Give a addict money, they’ll spend it on drugs, give a addict guidance and a shoulder to lean on, and he’ll prevail.
Y'all are seeing one side of a multifaceted individual and making a judgment based on that one side
@@kcck7588 glad you said it lol. i work at a treatment center and the last thing that would help the young guys there is a gofund me campaign. that would kill them.
@@AfterHoursEly yea man i was once a addict, and i wish people would’ve just sat and listened to what i had to say, rather than giving me money to feed my addiction. glad someone with some actual knowledge on the topic agrees.
Never judge a "book by its cover". We never know what a person truly goes through or is experiencing. What I love is how the portraits are "story-telling" and haunting. You truly capture the person's story in their portrait before we get to listen to it.
Thank you for sharing!
This man needs our prayers. He is walking a thin line, two strikes :( I hope and pray that his life stays on the right track and he begins to enjoy the life he is meant to have.
Amen 🙏
Yeah I caught that too.
@Goochisz Magoochisz Imagine having so little faith that you believe prayers are useless
@Goochisz Magoochisz You have just proven your point to me. Prayer is a very personal choice and I respect your choice. For me, I have had deeply profound spiritual experiences from a young age. For me, I cannot deny the power of Prayer or God.
That’s strike thing in Cali is crazy. To identify yourself as blue devil w 2 strikes makes me feel sad. In your mind, know that everyone in the courthouse was probably saying he’ll be back! Make that your motivation to stay straight. It’s easier said than done, but you have to. I hope you get a good life.
why are laws against violent criminals crazy?
This dude needs to go to Homeboy Industries. He’s smart, he just needs guidance that he never got growing up. I really hope he finds a way out.🙏🏽
Support.
Devil isn't as bad as his name implies he's a product of his upbringing. Dude just really wants a peaceful life, that's all most of us want.
Wtf are you talking about
@ Rob, I completely agree. 💯
@@ApexTheDon The man’s name has the word Devil in it. I agree that he isn’t as bad as the name implies.
I am a white person in the South (USA) who had a wonderful, middle class childhood and now I’m 50, really seeing more and more that I am extremely ***lucky*** to have been born to my parents. I am very thankful. I’ve been and still am sheltered, probably more than I even knew. God bless this man and the people like him. Everybody deserves to have a loving mother. This is heartbreaking to the point that the wound will never be 100% healed. This could be any other person alive. Luck! So may we acknowledge that not even ONE of us is better than anyone else and the next one, too? ☺️ Siriklee. Seriously, feeling very grateful to God and asking Him to help us all. ❤️🙏
Watching your own brother die is hard as hell.And he was a kid which is even worse.His mother was a child herself when Blue Devil was born.Both parents were addicted to heroin. What should the boy do but also take drugs. He knows nothing else. And then the pain of his brother's death.I can understand him well. I wish him all the best from the bottom of my heart.Love from germany
You believe him? How was his mother 15 when she had him yet he was the youngest out of 6 kids?
@@Elver99Gudon could be half siblings, from his dad
Don't quit, brother. I haven't had your circumstances but I know what it is like to be hopeless. Rooting for you all the way from China.
"It seems like you're still holding on to the idea that you deserve better."
"we all do"
very insightful guy.
Finally someone mentions that statement, very powerful
@@MS_Menace5 it absolutely is!
He is so introspective and compassionate with his mom.
This is one where looks are deceiving.. such wisdom coming from this man. I pray he stays away from gangs and drugs and doesn't waste rest of his life in prison.
I respect the fact that he’s smart enough to not repeat the cycle by bringing a kid into this world and Not raising it
Real wisdom and such a raw interview
My god, this is so powerful. Such an intelligent guy, I really want him to be able to succeed and have a happy life. My best wishes to him, seriously!
I was soooo reluctant to click on a “gang member” interview but I I’m so pleasantly surprised and really, really like him! I’m just confused on the sequence of 5 or 6 older siblings with a mother of 15. Unless he’s her one and only. He’s already finding love within and I pray he finds it outside too!🙏🏿
I like the gangster interviews a lot
I like that addict ones a lot too...to see what they go thru is just insane
No cap. What I've noticed is that all of their childhoods fucking sucked and then some take that too the chin and then some are lost like him
@@Wulf-RangJah he is trying to find himself it seems and hope he receives the help to become productive and happy in his beautiful life
This young man is “Blue Angel” after all he has been through, he has a pure good soul. Wish him all the best!
Such a beautiful statement. I agree with you.
Yes Lord he is a blue angel indeed l pray you keep him safe supported and around those who will keep him on your path Lord. Humble, introspective and forgives his mom...a good man he has become despite his background.
Its so true, really hope he pulls through.
Blue Devil… sending you healing vibes. I sincerely hope you can stay strong and pull yourself up. If anyone can do it, I believe you can. Godspeed, brother!
Thanks for these it's a very big eye opener for some
Great interview Mark. Blue Devil, keep your head up homie. Good luck finding a way out. Save up for some tool bags and boots, most construction sites dont care about tattoos or your past.
Hi Mark!
Hell, this fella has had problem's since they clamped & cut his umbilical cord ! Despite all of this he still can see the way up.Keep going, don't look into that rear view mirror !
This was probably my favorite interview. This guy has gone through some heavy shit, done some heavy shit but now recognizes where it's gotten him. So much respect to this guy, I hope he gets what he wants outta life 🙏 everyone deserves a 2nd chance
one thing that doesn’t add up is that his mom had him at 15 or 16 and he’s the youngest of 5. regardless tho i think he’s had a rough life and is tired of the lifestyle he’s been living. i think he 100% can change his life around. the accountability is beautiful
Maybe they are step siblings
Could be from his dad too idk
10 year olds have gotten pregnant, maybe his mama was fast or he got siblings on his dads side. You
I come from 7 brothers and 7 sisters .My dad was not around and was told by my mother my whole life,you ain't shot just like your father. Now I am 70 years old ,she is 96 years old, I am the only one out of all those kids who looks out for her.And she still treats me like a dog.I lived downtown los angeles for 20 years on the streets and another 20 in prison. I just ignore her and do the best I can for her.I been over what she did to me.I have been back in my hometown now 7 years clean and got my life back.No drugs no jail.Its been wild ride but I am happy for once in my life.
I can see him in there. There’s a pure soul just waiting to come out. If he could have some guidance, help him with his shadow work, self healing and positive direction, he will be able to do some really great things!!
He is a light that deserves to be utilized 💜
"The more I did something good, the more I got hurt", really reminds me of the quote, 'The path to hell is paved with good intention'. Reality is very tough.
There is something very gentle about this man. I have absolutely no doubt he would have turned out very differently if he had been raised in a loving, healthy home. He has a lot of strength and determination, an inner drive to better himself. He would do well working with at risk youth once he gets on his feet. I wish him nothing but the best. 🤍
He seems gentle because he’s banged out on heroin lol. He stabbed someone. You gotta be a little more hyped up for that, trust me lol.
@@FlyWhipGangGTA That's really unfortunate, but I stand by what I said. He spoke from the heart and desperately wants to do better. Some of us have a traumatic upbringing while some of us are lucky to have grown up in a safe, loving environment. They are vastly different.
@@FlyWhipGangGTA He's not on drugs now, didn't you hear him say he's been sober for months? The stabbing was a long time ago and he was only telling his story. He acts gentle because he is, not because of any drugs.
He is definitely still on heroin. That's probably why so many people think he seems nice, lol. Wonder what he's like when he needs a fix..
@Sherry YT Ditto. 🤍
I wish this man good luck, health, and peace for his life. Hope he can keep on the straight and narrow and do what he needs to do to make it work.
I can relate to this guy on a few different levels. Holding out for kids because you always felt like a burden. Trying to figure out, what makes "happy families" so freaking happy?
I think I met this guy at a skatepark once. I remember the "BLUE" tattoo. Not the "DEVIL" one though. Had longer hair though so might've been someone else. Hope you're better today than you were yesterday. And even better tomorrow. Peace, Blue.
Age 32 now. So many other brothers & one sister, and he is one of the youngest in the family. So many very deep emotional traumas, that it will take so much "re-birthing". Very many "trigger points", but luckily no use yey of chemical resignation. So perhaps non-drug therapy might work. Lack of personal & social skills can be much harder to "teach", especially with so much emotional PTSD (imprisonment, etc). Removal of obvious tattoos might be necessary?
Another great one Mark! Keep them coming!
HES NOT A "GANG MEMBER!"& PUTTING THAT ON THE HEADLINE COULD GET HIM KILLED FOR FALSELY CLAIMING HES FROM A HOOD. HE EVEN SAID THAT HE IS NOT FROM NO HOOD! THAT SHIT IS SERIOUS...
This is a good dude in a bad situation. I really love that you make these videos. A lot of voices need to be heard.
It truly takes a village to raise a child. This man deserves to be loved. He's so close to learning to love himself.
This man just needs the opportunity to do better he has such a beautiful heart and is full of wisdom. He knows exactly how it is but also how it should be. I wish him the best. 💜
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This video is the perfect example of no matter how you grow up there are choices and Blue Devil didn't realize that early on.
I feel like these interviews really let people who struggle talk in a way they can’t do on the street. Really show how they feel and think without the critique of of their peers. Interviews like these shows the fire they have in themselves to be do better. I wish the best to him.
He acknowledges his actions. He has potential to change. I can see his life completely turned around a year from today
Wow, the Trauma Bonding is absolutely incredible. The guy tells us that he was thrown against a wall as a baby, shot up with Heroin, saw his brother hang himself and he says, "'My parents were just young and did the best they could trying to raise a kid". I send every ounce of blessings and well-being to this gentleman.
Sometimes impulse control can be the toughest thing to learn for some.
I really like this guy, he's very reflective upon his situation and he seems willing to work at making it.
God bless him and wish him the best for the rest of his life.
Yes, he has gained insight
uphill battle from the time he was a baby...
05:10 "the right persona at that moment"
this sums up gangs so well. Most of us are "falling into line" in society in our own ways. I went through a period in my life where I was fully convinced my value was in my fists and my ability to intimidate people I perceived as a threat. It's an aspect of human nature (or just nature) that some people just need guidance with. Most never recieved that guidance and then society villifies them for not figuring it out on their own.
It's never too late bud. You clearly see it clearly now. Just be about that sensible life.
He's ahead of the game, he sees his faults and a future. He is still young enough to turn it around, I hope he does!!
Another incredible video, such raw desire to improve on his circumstances. Wishing you all the best Blue Devil! Arohanui (much love) and Kia Kaha (stand strong) - Te reo words from the Maori culture where I’m from in New Zealand. 💕🌸🌷
This man has a rare form of courage and universal thought. Very unusual to hear someone with his background speak with so much perspective. Pretty incredible.
I'm a 33 year old man and I don't cry very often but the first two sentences of this literally brought tears to my eyes I'm in a relating my dinner and just started crying this man please Lord help this man obviously you kept him here for a reason Lord please don't let this man continue to go through torture his childhood was more than what most people can handle or should handle
A follow-up on Blue Devil would be much appreciated.
His wondering if having a loving family would have made a difference really hit me hard. And sadly, it doesn’t always make enough of a difference. I was once naive enough to think if my husband and I loved a kid enough and offered a stable home that we could break the cycle of addiction/street life for a child. We new nothing of developmental trauma and how the neglect in that baby’s first few months and the trauma of multiple caregivers abandoning him would forever change the wiring in his brain. So much so that he was headed down the same path of Blue Devil, even with all the therapy and support systems money can buy. Like he said….you have to be sick and tired of being sick and tired. I hope he gets a chance to turn his life around. He’s not making excuses for his sins, but he can make amends by leading a better life.
Best channel to watch on RUclips. Very interesting. Thank you.
Greetings from South Africa 🌍
Man i dont know if i could interview so much Darkness with out Taking a Xan. Marc I love you man.Im on the channel everyday
U comment sounds pretty dark n judgemental! Just say in!
By far my fav interview. He’s such a pure soul god is watching over you💖
Blue, you are no devil. God loves you, darling. Go and live God's purpose for your life. Go ahead and shine this time. God has got your back. Trust that! God Bless!
I wish homie the best of luck on this journey he on he still got time to change his life around
Not even a minute in and I'm already saying, "HOLY SHIT".
I like this guy. I respect him a lot for not giving up and continuing to seek a better life. One day he’s going to get it, I can see it. He deserves so much more than he has been dealt. If you’re reading this, keep your head up bro. Much love from Virginia Beach
I am so sorry you had to go through that at such a young age.. There is so much for you out there and you are a beautiful person, has anyone ever told you that? I shed tears watching you, I feel your pain, I pray God blesses you with peace and comfort, a new way of life, you have the potential to do and be anything you want, there is more to life than what you were dealt as a kid, go get it hun, reach you hands up and grab it!!!!!!.. Good luck sweetheart and please, take care...
Just wondering if you shed any tears for the people who he stabbed and robbed? What about what they had to go through because of his bad decisions? Those are the people I feel bad for. Does anyone here commenting care about his victims? Anybody? Anybody? Hardly anyone mentions his victims. Why? Do they not matter? What if he stabbed and robbed you or your family? Would you still feel the same towards him ? Anybody?
@@minigirl6379 not replying to you, go start your drama with someone else, not buying into it... sick to death of people like you.. move along, BYE!!!
I never comment on these, but this one hit me hard. I wish you so much peace & joy, Blue Devil. You deserve so much happiness.
He's a sensible person. He understands his upbringing, his situation, and the consequences. This guy is someone who, if i had this conversation with them, I'd say he had potential. Hope he does well in life.
Labels him a gang member , but he literally says he’s from HG but didn’t get jumped in !
keep your head up man, you've got this.
I just subbed to this amazing channel. Definitely what we need.
I hear him talk of hope, change and dreams.
I wish him the best and hope he finds the better way of life it sounds like he can see.
Hearing him speak on having self accountability for all of his actions and his situation hit deep with me...
Hes has great insight....the kind that is rarely seen. I wish him the best, i truly do. God bless 🙏
It's so scary that despite the fact that we can realize how much parents can hurt a child if he is not in the right mind position to have a kid, despite that so many people who they don't really wanna have kids they are ending up having and then hurting them.
He is a smart and goodlooking guy and can communicate well. May he find the help and support that he needs to have the chance to live a better life. Anyone who have a very bad start in life like him seems to be so pulled in this kind of downfall. I hope that people should not have children if they are incapable of raising them properly. He understands this that's why he does not have any children. I wish you only the very best going forward. May God bless you.
Thank you for sharing. Stay strong 💪 and God bless you🙏🏼🙏🏼
These are just children playing adults. I would love to see a study to see when their brains stopped developing or when they redevelop. This is just fascinating to watch. God bless this young man,Please hold him and protect him.
There is a great article about how trauma changes a child's brain and body.
' 4 ways childhood trauma changes a child's brain and body'.
I can't post a link, but if you search with the title you will find it. Good read.
Aoke thank you so much. Both my brother and sister are research PhD’s and I have been talking to them about this channel, and the studies that could be done at an adult level. I believe if I keep pushing them one ☝️ f them will either take it on themselves or find someone who can. I think this is so important that we understand how we help the adult in a more effective way.
@@nicolestargell8323 You are welcome. This article should be good for them to read. How trauma in childhood leaves the traces in adulthood, both physically and mentally.
Also, there are places that do brain scans that have shown the changes in tendencies for violence, decision making skills, etc. from physical trauma. There's so much help that needs to be given to so many people, it's overwhelming.
It's a great thing you do for people who got some of the worst cards dealt to them. You provide a platform for these beautiful souls. This man is very wise from his life experiences. I wish him the best . God bless 🤘
He said his mom had him at 15 or 16 but has 5 brothers and sisters. And he's the youngest?
I hope this guy finds some peace in life. He seems like someone who could possibly make a change for the better in the right situation.
When parents drop the ball with the kids this is what happens, it's our job to make them feel safe and loved growing up. He was never given a chance to be better.
My martial arts teacher grew up a gang member in the projects in Philly. First job was as a 12 year old, watching a corner. by his 20s he was dealing and using, got shot in the face. One day he was sitting on a stoop getting high and suddenly kinda looked at himself and was aware suddenly that he really didn’t have to be doing any of this and that it was only gonna get worse. he joined the military, used the money to go to college, got married, had kids.he reminds me of you man. The odds were against him but he just said no and walked away from that life . A lot of his friends stayed but he’s a special dude. I think you are too. You can do it. I feel a lot of love for you man.
He's a survivor. If he can get help to remove the face tats, he'll have a good chance of finding work and laying the foundations of a good future. I wish luck.
Lol,.. what a down and out ,.. he’s probably proud of those things on his face
@@JazzyJadaXXX He can be proud of himself regardless of marking on his skin. On heroin at 13 by his parents man. have a heart
It's a brave new world. Face tattoos don't automatically mean unprofessional in some people's eyes now.
He just has to find that one opportunity, that one person to give him a shot. I believe that's all he needs ♥️
@@Sammy-cm9ce I agree but at same time i guess gang tats are not great, but all the same GET THIS MAN A TRADE
'Sometimes we have to learn to parent ourselves'...best advice. I pray this man gets strength to live and thrive, not just survive. God Bless for showing compassion on these interviews.
He’s smart, he has hope, he just need support and guidance it’s so sad…. Prayers
That's a beautiful portrait Mark!
Gotta be a firefighter 🔥
"Family dysfunction rolls down from generation to generation, like a fire in the woods, taking down everything in its path until one person in one generation has the courage to turn and face the flames. That person brings peace to their ancestors and spares the children that follow." - T Real
Fight the flames. 🔥
@Michelle Devine 💜 feel free to share the message.
Prayers up for this young man! Being a product of his environment doesn’t express who he truly is a person. I hope he is able to create the life he deserves.
I feel u bro...stay strong homie💪✊👊keep fighting for a better life
Some people really just need to tell their story and be heard. Thank you for giving them this platform. There is so much good in this man. I hope he can find his way to happiness.