this fuckin video makes me cry and has done every single time ive listened to it over the past fuckin 4 years fuck this song fuck you purpleyorshee fuck everything
When I heard Nepeta’s Friendsim theme I went, “hey, this kinda sounds like Serena-“ and then I proceeded to sob and roll around on the floor. So I went back to listen to Serenade, and then I remembered that Requited existed, and here we are!
Ah what a lovely song *looks at comments* I ah... yep, yeah, yeh. It's like looking at a battlefield after it's been fought: you want to help but it's already over.
I stumbled upon this in my 'watch again' videos. During the gigapause I sort of gave up on Homestuck, I had been obsessed with it for over a year. I just kinda found other things I liked more. I remember listening to this on repeat over and over crying my eyes out. Nepeta will always be close to my heart, heck I'm getting teary just thinking about her now. It just goes to show that even when you forget it for a while, something as like Homestuck (all its feels included) stays with you forever.
What hits me hardest is that I was only able to read HS for the first time once. I don't think it's going to ever achieve the quality it had at its peak again, either.
I have even thinking the same as what you just said for weeks now- not because I saw this, but because I've been thinking the same- it's just not as good.
:33 < Really, it's okay; I promise. I'm just taking a little cat nap right meow and when I wake up things will be back to the way they used to be. Gamzee will be back to normeowl, Karkitty will keep being his grumpy self, Sollux will finish programming that game, and all of us can play together again. Just don't sail off without me yet, I'll be right there.
this song kinda reminds me when I first started reading homestuck, I actually gave up a little bit after I started but my friends told me to keep going, I did, and now i cannot say i regret it
I wish I had friends like that to tell me to keep reading. I think I had two false starts before I read it in earnest, with each start being months apart from each other.
a Requited Serenade is a love song that is returned, the start of a relationship. Two people who love eachother enough to proclaim their love in song, True Love. sadly this song was never relased, and can only be created when mixing two songs in differnet albums. songs that never met. Songs that never will meet. A song one singer can only ever dream of, while stuck in a cave alone.
I'm feeling something different than normal sadness listening to this. I'm not sure what it is or how to describe it but it's something that only Clark Powell could make me feel. Thanks for making this mashup even if this comment is 9 years late.
I started homestuck in my 8th grade year. 6 years ago. A year before I moved across the country, away from my friends. This webcomic helped to shape me into the person I am today and I'm grateful for that. It gave me something to look forward to when I got home from school. It kept me going when I was diagnosed with severe depression and anxiety, and it kept me going through the loss of friends and family. I'll never forget this silly comic.
this is my favorite of all the homestuck songs i've gone through. it has this relaxing, sorrowful, yearning quality that just makes you sigh. perfect for writing leijon fanfictions.
Wait- so let me get this straight: The Sufferer and Disciple were lovers or matesprites, but the Sufferer’s descendants, Kankri and Karkat, have love interests with Redglare’s descendants, so does this mean that the Sufferer secretly had affections for Redglare and was that why she wore the Sufferer’s -cult- necklace? If so, does that mean that his descendants represent the Sufferer deep down who wanted to move on from loving the Leos and fell in love with the teal bloods or did the Sufferer love Redglare from the start but ended up with the Disciple because the two were different and had difficulties with trying to be together due to having separate bloods and roles?
Nelski11401 Not different timelines, just different places on the timeline. Otherwise, yeah, the Sufferer was a martyr by the time Redglare became a Neophyte.
CalianSonadora Kankri isn't The Suffer's descendant, Kankri is the pre-scratch iteration of The Sufferer. For example, B1 Jade Harley is not the descendant of B2 Grandma English. They are technically the same person, only before and after The Kids' Scratch.
+HetaliaCalifornia I'd go with something more along the lines of Redglare having met either Darkleer or Disciple during her lifetime, and as a result got introduced to the whole thing and became part of the cult or whatever. Either that, or she had heard of the Sufferer's plea and things, agreeing with his ideology, and thus joining his group. The way the Hearts work for the 3 families is Leijon -> Vantas -> Pyrope. Canonically, that's the main love triangle of the 2 groups (unless you counted Eridan -> Feferi Sollux). Why both Vantases like the Pyropes is beyond me, but Leijon's bonds towards Vantas is very much evident in and of itself. It's possible Kankri liked Latula because of her representing gender equality (in terms of gaming). As for Karkat
late, but the disciple and the sufferer had a matespritship that apparently went beyond the normal set of quadrants because it was so perfect or whatever. from the mspawiki on the disciple: "The ancestor of Nepeta Leijon, and the post-scratch incarnation of Meulin Leijon, the Disciple was the Sufferer's most devoted follower. She listened to every vision he retold, every lesson he preached, and faithfully recorded his scripture. Eventually, they became matesprits, although it was said that their relationship was more than that, going beyond the standard set of quadrants entirely." its safe to assume that the signless wasnt cheating on the disciple with a young redglare
Yes. I love this because it's so beautiful. I hate this because it's so sad. Homestuck is the only comic that made me feel like I wanted to be born at a different time. Give me Leo, give me Libra. Just please, don't give me Sagit- goddamnit...
actually yeah i can’t believe the creators put the sound of my heart shattering like a fragile glass vase from the 17 fucking hundreds into this mashup
It hurts that it ist the current Canon that karkat isn't with nepeta. But there are numerous timeliness they are together and that makes me happy enough
I'm not an overemotional guy, not at all. I'm rational and opinionated, confidant, at times over-confidant and people always say they find it really hard to get through to me on a personal level, not for a lack of effort on my part. I'm just distanced and that's who I am. I will tell you now despite all that, this song makes me FEEL things to the point of wonderment and then near enough tears. Amazing piece of music.
please promise me that once the story of homestuck ends the fandom will still be thriving? please. like literally crying thinking about the fandom disappearing.
oh gosh, the feels. It's truly beautiful, and I almost even cried. Like my eyes were straining like if you were about to cry. very few songs if none before this have ever made me *this* close to crying o-o
I love this song so much. I feel like I'm at peace, but I am feeling sad but has been givin hope from your Morial. Thank you for mixing the two songs together, it just makes my day every time I listen to this song.
I think you're right. Homestuck isn't just a webcomic. Sometimes, I just have these moments of warmth, like I'm part of something so much bigger than a simple comic drawn in mspaint. It's something I can't comprehend, but don't want to. It feels almost like a second family.
every time i hear this i always get this wash of sad/calm emotions because it is like they are talking to each other and the way the music just mixes together, the melodies and the piano keeping a constant flow of soft yet strong emotions. it gets me sad how bot their love ends in horrible deaths, and how they had a strong unending love, how serenade is just asking to find that love again and how requited is actually being able to find that love once more.
before hearing this i used to hate equius, but now i see where he's coming from in terms of wanting to protect her from every possibility of harm at all costs
I know this comment section is already flooded with sappy stories much like the one this introduction precedes. But, that doesn't much bother me. Though I will disclaim: this is me rambling, no specific idea or direction in mind. If it is completely incomprehensible garbage, just ignore it and move on. TW: I do end up talking about s**ual things nearer the end of the ramble-shpiel Homestuck is a story based on kids growing up too fast and dealing with the consequences. This has always stuck out to me considering my father passed when I was 10, old enough to understand what was happening, but not old enough to be able to (relatively) easily deal with it. I have always struggled with love, in particular, it felt like nobody was on my wavelength, and for good reason, I was distressed and scared. Seeing Nepeta after all this time, I saw she was everything I had wanted to be, at least on some level. Not someone who is overly confident, or any other normally considered attractive traits, excluding just being kind. She just cared about the people around her, like Equius. I've always had trouble with distancing myself from others and locking myself away, rather than talk and assist how I can. I still do most of the time. I guess that's what a Blood player sees when idolizing a Heart player huh? A sad state of being trapped in my connections almost. Like there's nowhere to go, the people I am around telling jokes that set off dysphoria and anxiety but not having a safe out. Not having a way to tell them what they're doing is harmful without fear of abandonment. All relations crumbling into just some other anxiety to hold me back, or scare me. Sometimes I just want one relationship, platonic or otherwise, to just be what I see in my head when I imagine what it would be like to actually be close to someone. To be able to talk without fear, or to be able to just cuddle on the couch and watch silly youtube videos with no sexual undertones. To be happy the way I want to be. I fucking hate the sexual nature of EVERYONE I ever begin to feel good about. Everyone is obsessed with it and it scares me. I cant deal with it but it always becomes one of the main things people talk about. Even in Homestuck, though to a lesser degree, Dave and Karkat in particular talk about sexual ideas at points. I won't say they're overdoing it or anything, just that I usually cry when reading those few pages where it happens. Let alone when the person I had truly believed to be a good candidate to be a partner. Anyways, I've been just trying to get things out into the endless void. If you've read this far, thank you. I love you, and please, find out the ways to be happier than me. Learn from mistakes. Cry when you need to.
Nepeta is represented by the synthetic piano (keyboard, natch) The Disciple is represented the strings. They're telling each other their stories. If you listen closely, you can hear where they harmonize, and where they go back and forth, one responding to the other, eg 2:08 Nepeta 'speaks', then 2:24 The Disciple responds. They harmonize at some points, call and respond at others. I kind of really want someone to give these songs actual lyrics now.
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this fuckin video makes me cry and has done every single time ive listened to it over the past fuckin 4 years fuck this song fuck you purpleyorshee fuck everything
since when did this get pinned lmao
calm down
good comment
This comment is pure gold
yeah PURE GOLD (Im crying too tho)
Wait just... listen closer... you can hear the distant sounds of... my heart breaking..
0272686115 00005 can’t hear shit over my fuckin sobbing
I GOT PLAYED LIKE A FOOL
There are 2 tragedies in love.
One is losing your other half...
The other is not experiencing that love at all.
When I heard Nepeta’s Friendsim theme I went, “hey, this kinda sounds like Serena-“ and then I proceeded to sob and roll around on the floor. So I went back to listen to Serenade, and then I remembered that Requited existed, and here we are!
This song makes me feel so sorry for Nepeta.
Dear, sweet, precious Nepeta. Too good for this universe frog. Too pure.
I feel like crying now ;-; poor nepeta
Nepeta will always be in our hearts. She is the icon for love in my mind.
Anna M Agreed.
Why is it so hot on the meteor? because gamzee killed the AC
FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF
I get the feeling that I just listened to Nepeta's hidden theme...
I always felt like it was a hidden tribute to the Leo family of Homestuck.
well I feel like this is the disciple's theme
A doomed love, and a blooming romance. Formed together to become a beautiful piece.
Is that a Danganronpa icon you have their friend
@@eridanampora3024 why yes it is, thank you for noticing
Ah, yet another person who knows DR and HS. Honestly, it's double despair.
something about those chords is just...... it sounds like heartbreak
And then she was sucked into a black hole while terezi took a picture
ITS LIKE
REQUITED
REPRESENTS WHAT NEPETA IS WANTING
AND SERENADE IS SHOWING HER LONGING FOR IT
AAAAAH SOMEONE HELP ME WITH THIS SAD
requited represents the signless' and the disciple's love
i guess its in contrast to the unrequited love nepeta had
dave strider basically a huge "fuck you" to nepeta
Charlie Rose yup
poor nep
sobs
Ah what a lovely song
*looks at comments*
I ah... yep, yeah, yeh.
It's like looking at a battlefield after it's been fought: you want to help but it's already over.
That makes me way more late to the fight then any of you guys, that's for sure
@@kingstondaking7877 Plenty return to the battlefield
What if they took a morse code message of The Disciple's last words, and split them into the end of these two songs.
..-. ..- -.-. -.-
@@JuniperHatesTwitterlikeHandles I decoded it and all I got was "fuck" OTS A SECERT MESSAGE
@Micah Ingel don’t you do this to me
@CrabMaster69 well those were his last words
I stumbled upon this in my 'watch again' videos. During the gigapause I sort of gave up on Homestuck, I had been obsessed with it for over a year. I just kinda found other things I liked more. I remember listening to this on repeat over and over crying my eyes out. Nepeta will always be close to my heart, heck I'm getting teary just thinking about her now. It just goes to show that even when you forget it for a while, something as like Homestuck (all its feels included) stays with you forever.
+Miranda Jeanne
Same
So true...
lISTENING TO THIS AFTER FINISHING HOMESTUCK IS Not oKAY i REpEAT ITs n OT okAY
H o l y f u c k
SH1T 1T'S 3V3N WORS3 R34D1NG 1T WH1L3 L1ST3N1NG TO TH1S.
i ts even worse when you draw youR PERSONA AND YOUR BF'S PERSONA AND THEN YOU REMEMBER THAT ONE OF THEM ON ANOTHER PICTURE YOU DREW IS DEAD.
you fucking said it, m8
christ
i miss you so much firstwave homestuck. you were a different breed man
This is ten times better than either of these songs alone. Just gorgeous.
yeah. my persona x my bf's persona in one picture and then my persona's dead in the next one. it huRTS I SHOULD STOP.
*WHY HAVE YOU DONE THIS GLORIOUSLY SAD THING*
9 years later and Serenade still has the power to tear me up.
The Leijons deserved so much better.
I'm not crying it's raining indoors onto my face. *Major feels bomb dropped*
same... 'twas a freak weather accident
Fiona Wait Very strange, these indoor storms.
I THINK I AM SWEATING.WITH MY EYES..?
it is a rare disorder
Rain localized at this time of day in yoir house entirely on your face
Listening to this whilst having rain noises in another tab is even better holy hell.
+Alex Clowes FUCKING HELL MAN!!! Now I'm sobbing on my research paper.
i can't wait to be a useless piece of shit all day and finish all of these comics
fuck i'm falling down all of these feels
omg i just realised what you did
IT KEEPS HAPPENING
I TOLD YOU MAN!! I *TOLD* YOU ABOUT THE FEELS!!!
What hits me hardest is that I was only able to read HS for the first time once. I don't think it's going to ever achieve the quality it had at its peak again, either.
I have even thinking the same as what you just said for weeks now- not because I saw this, but because I've been thinking the same- it's just not as good.
:33 < Really, it's okay; I promise. I'm just taking a little cat nap right meow and when I wake up things will be back to the way they used to be. Gamzee will be back to normeowl, Karkitty will keep being his grumpy self, Sollux will finish programming that game, and all of us can play together again. Just don't sail off without me yet, I'll be right there.
ClipClock who gave you the permission to write that comment? ;~;
You just made me cry what the fuck
the song is sad enough on its own
i cried because of the art and now im sobbing because of this comment
oh, my heart is gone. can u give it back pls?
Ohhhh noOOOO 😭😭😭😭😭
I like the idea of calling this requiem for some reason.
if you whisper leijonvantas while listening to this you can very faintly hear me sobbing
Quinn Prescott
Leijonvantas
i thought that was me sobbing
Nepeta never got a proper character arc and I'm still pissed off about that.
this song kinda reminds me when I first started reading homestuck, I actually gave up a little bit after I started but my friends told me to keep going, I did, and now i cannot say i regret it
I wish I had friends like that to tell me to keep reading. I think I had two false starts before I read it in earnest, with each start being months apart from each other.
Holy jegus your right. I wouldn't have noticed that myself without your comment my friend.
a Requited Serenade is a love song that is returned, the start of a relationship.
Two people who love eachother enough to proclaim their love in song, True Love.
sadly this song was never relased, and can only be created when mixing two songs in differnet albums.
songs that never met. Songs that never will meet. A song one singer can only ever dream of, while stuck in a cave alone.
This is a "purrfect" combination of sadness and happiness from Nepeta and her ancestor ;ω;
TCHOO TCHOO.
ALL ABOARD THE FEEL TRAIN.
*feels feels~~*
+Sarah Brennan its supposed to be like a toot toot
*jumps onto the feel train*
Lemon *JUMPS ON WITH SO MUCH SORROW ALMOST FALLS INSTEAD* :-: ok
I'm in
If you will all excuse me, I'm going to cut my heart out to kill the feels.
Poisonous Point Hey Ness.
Honking Pirate hey there ness
I'm feeling something different than normal sadness listening to this. I'm not sure what it is or how to describe it but it's something that only Clark Powell could make me feel. Thanks for making this mashup even if this comment is 9 years late.
IT'S OKAY. I MY HEART WAS ALREADY DEAD BEFORE THIS. QAQ
Homestuck has the most AMAZING music ever, Serenade and Requited never fail to make me cry ;~;
I started homestuck in my 8th grade year. 6 years ago. A year before I moved across the country, away from my friends. This webcomic helped to shape me into the person I am today and I'm grateful for that. It gave me something to look forward to when I got home from school. It kept me going when I was diagnosed with severe depression and anxiety, and it kept me going through the loss of friends and family. I'll never forget this silly comic.
After 8 years, this found me again....welcoming me back home
Every couple of months i go back to listening to homestuck music and everytime this song legit kills me
They meld perfectly, obviously made to do so. One tragic story of unrequited love melding with the serenade of one mournful story.
Listening this after watching 'A Tale of Two Stans' is NOT okay I swear you hear me crying two apartments down even though it isn't made for it
Then you probably don't want to listen to this after watching the final episode...
+Ward of Awk Also 'Nine Lives, One Love' isn't okay after watching that episode I mentioned
Usually when songs are combined, it's a bit much, but these songs really work well together and it's amazing
Nepeta is a sweet baby angel cat she must be protected
listen to this while watching terezi : remem8er
im not ready
Hmm... Requinade or Serequited...
Definitely Requenade.
i think it would be "Requited Serenade" but i don't know.
+woodfur00 that sounds like pitch black lemonade
Ricky Chen I can dig that.
PopoDaWolf I'm a year late, but what about The Requited Serenade For Olivebloods?
time passes and this remains THE lovesong of all time
I will be extremely sad if hussie uses this at the end of HS.
I wOuLd SoB :"o(
Gamzee didn't y()u kill Nepeeta?? N()t t][at I blamee y()u. Y()u weeree s()beer at t][e timee. I d()nt blamee y()u. It is n()t y()ur fault.
()theer Gamzee
S()rry I thought you weeree Gamzee ^_^
BlackGemWarrior Kyoshi it's all good :>
Woah now ladies.
I've reached the sadstuck part of the fandom again ;-; it's all good when roleplaying until music comes in
I still come back to this one because it's so lovely.
sobbing and crying and shaking this is so fucking good im feeling so many emotions at the same time oooighhdsm
i listened to both songs seperately after this and they both sound so incomplete without eachother
this is my favorite of all the homestuck songs i've gone through. it has this relaxing, sorrowful, yearning quality that just makes you sigh.
perfect for writing leijon fanfictions.
i'm just gonna hobble off to my feels corner and gently weep
All these years and this is still one of the most Not Okay videos ever…
i miss nepeta
Thank you for posting this. It was beautiful.
If you listen closely you can hear me suffering.
Wait- so let me get this straight:
The Sufferer and Disciple were lovers or matesprites, but the Sufferer’s descendants, Kankri and Karkat, have love interests with Redglare’s descendants, so does this mean that the Sufferer secretly had affections for Redglare and was that why she wore the Sufferer’s -cult- necklace? If so, does that mean that his descendants represent the Sufferer deep down who wanted to move on from loving the Leos and fell in love with the teal bloods or did the Sufferer love Redglare from the start but ended up with the Disciple because the two were different and had difficulties with trying to be together due to having separate bloods and roles?
CalianSonadora He hadn't known Redglare because the meteors they rode when they were grubs put them in different timelines
Nelski11401 Not different timelines, just different places on the timeline. Otherwise, yeah, the Sufferer was a martyr by the time Redglare became a Neophyte.
CalianSonadora Kankri isn't The Suffer's descendant, Kankri is the pre-scratch iteration of The Sufferer. For example, B1 Jade Harley is not the descendant of B2 Grandma English. They are technically the same person, only before and after The Kids' Scratch.
+HetaliaCalifornia I'd go with something more along the lines of Redglare having met either Darkleer or Disciple during her lifetime, and as a result got introduced to the whole thing and became part of the cult or whatever. Either that, or she had heard of the Sufferer's plea and things, agreeing with his ideology, and thus joining his group.
The way the Hearts work for the 3 families is Leijon -> Vantas -> Pyrope. Canonically, that's the main love triangle of the 2 groups (unless you counted Eridan -> Feferi Sollux). Why both Vantases like the Pyropes is beyond me, but Leijon's bonds towards Vantas is very much evident in and of itself. It's possible Kankri liked Latula because of her representing gender equality (in terms of gaming). As for Karkat
late, but the disciple and the sufferer had a matespritship that apparently went beyond the normal set of quadrants because it was so perfect or whatever.
from the mspawiki on the disciple: "The ancestor of Nepeta Leijon, and the post-scratch incarnation of Meulin Leijon,
the Disciple was the Sufferer's most devoted follower. She listened to
every vision he retold, every lesson he preached, and faithfully
recorded his scripture. Eventually, they became matesprits, although it
was said that their relationship was more than that, going beyond the
standard set of quadrants entirely."
its safe to assume that the signless wasnt cheating on the disciple with a young redglare
*sheds the greatest of tears*
Yes. I love this because it's so beautiful. I hate this because it's so sad. Homestuck is the only comic that made me feel like I wanted to be born at a different time. Give me Leo, give me Libra. Just please, don't give me Sagit- goddamnit...
Equius is good tho
He was written weirdly but also he had plenty of room for improvement. Then he died
This is a fantastic song and I keep coming back to it over the years. Thank you for sharing.
The strange blob of feelings that homestuck is and what it means to me constantly change, its so good yet weird.
actually yeah i can’t believe the creators put the sound of my heart shattering like a fragile glass vase from the 17 fucking hundreds into this mashup
this song makes me feel touchstarved
I haven't been able to cry in a year and thank you for lifting that curse
I WAS PLAYING THIS IN ONE OF THE MIXES THAT RUclips MADE FOR ME AND RIGHT AFTER THIS CAME GAMZEE'S PESTERQUEST THEME 😭😭
Ahhh.
These songs are nostalgic for me.
The summer of 2014.
Stop this pain
Shall Homestuck still stand in 2023.
It hurts that it ist the current Canon that karkat isn't with nepeta. But there are numerous timeliness they are together and that makes me happy enough
To hear both of these magnificent songs play together perfectly, it's just, too beautiful for words.
I'm not an overemotional guy, not at all. I'm rational and opinionated, confidant, at times over-confidant and people always say they find it really hard to get through to me on a personal level, not for a lack of effort on my part. I'm just distanced and that's who I am.
I will tell you now despite all that, this song makes me FEEL things to the point of wonderment and then near enough tears. Amazing piece of music.
Can we just.. Take a moment to appreciate how damn beautiful this is?
please promise me that once the story of homestuck ends the fandom will still be thriving? please. like literally crying thinking about the fandom disappearing.
oh gosh, the feels. It's truly beautiful, and I almost even cried. Like my eyes were straining like if you were about to cry. very few songs if none before this have ever made me *this* close to crying o-o
Wonderful pair of songs apart, but a beautiful heavenly melody together
I love this, touches the feels.
FEELS COMBO X 2!!!!!!!
This is truly truly truly beautiful. thank you so mcuh
I love this. It is absolutely amazing to hear. It is a beautiful combination.
this is amazing, i have not the words to describe the beauty that has been created here. bravo!
*wipes away single tear* beautiful.
This is beautiful and drags tears against their will out of my eyeholes.
thanks, I love this song. one of my favorites for meditation, hands down.
Some how in the duration of this song, I had a life changing, eye opening experience. Thank you :3
I love this song so much. I feel like I'm at peace, but I am feeling sad but has been givin hope from your Morial. Thank you for mixing the two songs together, it just makes my day every time I listen to this song.
I think you're right. Homestuck isn't just a webcomic. Sometimes, I just have these moments of warmth, like I'm part of something so much bigger than a simple comic drawn in mspaint. It's something I can't comprehend, but don't want to. It feels almost like a second family.
every time i hear this i always get this wash of sad/calm emotions because it is like they are talking to each other and the way the music just mixes together, the melodies and the piano keeping a constant flow of soft yet strong emotions. it gets me sad how bot their love ends in horrible deaths, and how they had a strong unending love, how serenade is just asking to find that love again and how requited is actually being able to find that love once more.
Oh wools all my feels just went flying over the roof.
My god this just sent me into tears.... and they won't stop. ;n;
And it wont stop
I can't help but tear up every time I hear this.
Both of them together makes it sound like a complete song!
Oh, why must you be so genius! T^T
It’s been years since I connected with these characters and I can’t for the life of me pin this twing of pain in my chest
before hearing this i used to hate equius, but now i see where he's coming from in terms of wanting to protect her from every possibility of harm at all costs
I know this comment section is already flooded with sappy stories much like the one this introduction precedes. But, that doesn't much bother me. Though I will disclaim: this is me rambling, no specific idea or direction in mind. If it is completely incomprehensible garbage, just ignore it and move on. TW: I do end up talking about s**ual things nearer the end of the ramble-shpiel
Homestuck is a story based on kids growing up too fast and dealing with the consequences. This has always stuck out to me considering my father passed when I was 10, old enough to understand what was happening, but not old enough to be able to (relatively) easily deal with it. I have always struggled with love, in particular, it felt like nobody was on my wavelength, and for good reason, I was distressed and scared. Seeing Nepeta after all this time, I saw she was everything I had wanted to be, at least on some level. Not someone who is overly confident, or any other normally considered attractive traits, excluding just being kind. She just cared about the people around her, like Equius. I've always had trouble with distancing myself from others and locking myself away, rather than talk and assist how I can. I still do most of the time. I guess that's what a Blood player sees when idolizing a Heart player huh? A sad state of being trapped in my connections almost. Like there's nowhere to go, the people I am around telling jokes that set off dysphoria and anxiety but not having a safe out. Not having a way to tell them what they're doing is harmful without fear of abandonment. All relations crumbling into just some other anxiety to hold me back, or scare me. Sometimes I just want one relationship, platonic or otherwise, to just be what I see in my head when I imagine what it would be like to actually be close to someone. To be able to talk without fear, or to be able to just cuddle on the couch and watch silly youtube videos with no sexual undertones. To be happy the way I want to be. I fucking hate the sexual nature of EVERYONE I ever begin to feel good about. Everyone is obsessed with it and it scares me. I cant deal with it but it always becomes one of the main things people talk about. Even in Homestuck, though to a lesser degree, Dave and Karkat in particular talk about sexual ideas at points. I won't say they're overdoing it or anything, just that I usually cry when reading those few pages where it happens. Let alone when the person I had truly believed to be a good candidate to be a partner. Anyways, I've been just trying to get things out into the endless void. If you've read this far, thank you. I love you, and please, find out the ways to be happier than me. Learn from mistakes. Cry when you need to.
I'VE BEEN LOOKING FOR THIS!!! :D
Nepeta is represented by the synthetic piano (keyboard, natch)
The Disciple is represented the strings.
They're telling each other their stories. If you listen closely, you can hear where they harmonize, and where they go back and forth, one responding to the other, eg 2:08 Nepeta 'speaks', then 2:24 The Disciple responds. They harmonize at some points, call and respond at others.
I kind of really want someone to give these songs actual lyrics now.
Yes, yes we do. AND WE ENJOY EVERY SECOND.
i found this little gem of 2 of my favoret tracks on 2 of my favoret characters in my newest obsession this is great and awsome and TvT
Gotta love Homestuck's music. Amazing stuff.
ı see beauty in this
Sad and Beautiful ♥