I’m turning 18 soon so I found it appropriate to reflect on life and the future
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- Опубликовано: 11 сен 2024
- 0:33 I meant I found it kind of appropriate* to talk about as I’m turning 18 soon, not inappropriate 😅
I’m on holiday in Hungary at the moment (Budapest specifically) and don’t have time to write a long description or reply to comments too much, but I thought I’d upload this video I pre-filmed before I left! Sending lots of love! xx
0:33 I meant I found it kind of appropriate* to talk about as I’m turning 18 soon, not inappropriate 😅
I’m on holiday in Hungary atm so I don’t have time to go through the comments too much, but I thought I’d upload this anyway! Sending love! xx
Kovu it's fine do what you can and that'll be enough for everyone ♡
@@gridgalaxy_ I know it's so emotional
Have fun and don't stress about the comments !
Happy nearly 18! Woohoo!
@dragon DP5 ryply lmao
I loooove that shirt, you look beautiful!!! Also, 18??? It feels like yesterday when I first saw u on RUclips, the ' androgynous/masculine lookbook' you looked so cute!!! Look at u now all grown up, im very very proud of you, I know sometimes it doesn't feel that way but you are so strong, you really are, and a fighter and now im getting stupidly emotional. I don't really know you but in a way I feel like I do and I think that's because you are so transparent I don't know how to put it into words, hope this makes sense..anyway have a wonderful trip, take care, love uuu
Chivi Grint thank you so much Chivi❤️ you’ve been there for me through the years and although we haven’t talked THAT much you’re still one of the people I consider friends that I’ve made online. Love you tooo
You are so attractive physically but your personality is amazing. You need to not forget that.
But is kind of out of place, but i still agree
My god, yes. Kind of a stalker-y sentence, but yeah.
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@@kaidenprice I don't understand, how in any way is that stalkerish.
An amazing shirt! Matches your hair nicely! Btw, how’s your trip going? Or did you come back already🤔
No matter how many times you've talked about it in the past, every time I still find it very brave for you to talk about such private and possibly sensitive information about your deep thoughts. I'm proud of you for finding some sort of interest in your future life. Turning 18 opens up to so many new opportunities, and I'm so proud of you for staying in this world for the past 18 years, especially with all the challenges life has thrown at you. Good on you :)
EDIT: It's interesting for me to hear that you're relatively interested in 'where life takes me in the future'. I myself am rather afraid of the future because if I were to continue life as how I am right now, I don't think life will take me very far and very successfully. But it's good to hear that you have found some sort of interesting meaning in life, which itself should be somewhat motivating.
“An old professor with a pet pig” you are such a lovely human.
Thank you so much😊
Thank you for being you :)
I'm almost 18 and I find it so insane about how I'm almost there. Can completely relate to you. Amazing video
Professor Kingsrod... ooh I love that old man
You seem really comfortable to talk about this on the internet
You look so good in this beautiful shirt,matches with ur beautiful smile
I love your videos also...
This is a lot to ask for but please please could you make a 100 ways to come out but for trans instead of gay it would really help me and probably others too just a suggestion. Also I love your hair it's awesome.
Edit: I just realized that I'm the 18th comment and Kovu is turning 18😆
I agree, there should be a trans one
@@harriet5516 agreed
I don’t think he’d be comfortable making it tbh I’m not a regular viewer but I think he’s said in the past that remembering the fact he’s trans causes him a lot of dysphoria? Idk just my two cents
@@wackurmole6887 maybe, but I've been watching him for a while and he's been comfortable dressing as a girl for skits and stuff but I see that he might be uncomfortable
@lukas oh yeah I forgot, but it's his channel if he wants to he can and if he doesn't feel comfortable doing it then so be it
i just turned 18 a few days ago and right now i'm in the middle of a ~4 month period of having neither school nor a job or uni or basically anything and i really miss a structue to my day and can relate to what you're saying. But in 2 months I'll have a structure again and I have something in the future I want so it's fine lol
And I'm really proud of you, you've come really really far and I wish you all the best for the future!
this video and your perspective on life really inspired me, especially because you seem to have gone through some similar things to me, and are my age and I can relate to you. Thank you
Maybe that's just French lessons getting into my brain but your way of thinking kinda reminds me of the existentialists, like Sartre and Camus, and I think if you try reading about their philosophy (from beginning to end cause they only get to the positive encouraging parts by the end), it could help you develop your thoughts and feel better. It kinda did that for me, everyone is different though so don't feel bad if it's different for you.
I'm seeing your video while having a kind of existential crisis so it got me to be talkative and this is my second very long comment, sorry about that 😅
But thank you a lot for having distracted me from my own negative thoughts, I hope you experience tons of marvelous things and meet plenty of great people, thank you for doing what you do, it helps more than you know ❤
I think about the future a lot, too much really, and I'm only 13. I can't imagine what it feels like to think about the future when you're about to be propelled into adulthood and when you'll be on your own. That sounded weird but...yeah
I was watching your older videos (i didn't watch the newest ones yet cuz i just discovered your channel) and when i clicked on this video i was so (positively) shocked about how your voice changed! I'm new to your channel and I absolutely adore you already! Lots of love❤️❤️
I occasionally watch your videos but this one/ most of the stuff you said really hit home. Great video
Happy 18th birthday Kovu!
You are such an inspiring person. Tanks for being you and just you
All the best for your Future mate. Take care. Virtual hugs and kisses.
Your unique and an awesome human being!
Omg Kovu! Your voice sounds amazing, i was watching some of your first videos just there and compared to then your voice is much deeper and masculine! love this video and you are such an inspiration to me because i have just discovered that i am non binary so your videos have really helped me :) love you lots and i hope you see this comment xx
You are incredibly adorable. Hope you're having a nice time in Hungary, and I hope that you are able to find happiness as you grow 🖤
It always makes me happy to see you upload
I've always sort of figured that when I'm an adult, I won't have any specific people for a long length of time. I always imagined people would just come and go, like you said. It always bothered me inside (I never really talked about it) but hearing you openly talk about it from a different perspective really helped me think "Maybe people will come in go, and that's okay. But someone could come along, too, so there's no use in feeling bad about what hasn't happened."
Happy early birthday you precious bean!!!!
Best wishes!!!!
Kovu maybe you can remember you celebrated my birthday ( i make a comment about my birthday and then you celebrated ok i know you cant remember because it was on march but it was so special for me and make me happy ) Thanks again ♥️♥️
AND NOW YOU TURNING 18 HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY KOVU I LOVE U SOO SO MUCH thanks for everything you've added to me you covered my heart with the power of the rainbow love u ❤💙💚💛🧡💜
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WAIT THOU IM OLDER THAN U BY LIKE 5ISH MONTHS?? I REALLY THOUGHT U WERE THE OLDER ONE IN THIS UTUBER AND VIEWER RELATIONSHIP
I remember 2 years ago I started watching Kovu.. I stopped watching him for a while and now i just checked up and woah u changed a lot. I’m happy for you :) keep doing u 🥰
That shirt looks very good on you 😊 And I think imagining the years between school life and being a more or less elderly person is the most difficult part for all of us to be honest. I think, it has to do with there being so many variables and possibilities that are often also not entirely within our control,whereas that "old me" scenario is essentially a "settled down" scenario where we have made a bunch of experiences and have figured out ways to reach our goals (which probably have changed a lot in between). It's sort of the "happy place" that we try to work towards. But the journey that takes us there is basically filled with unknowns. The in between years are basically the X of the equation that we try to solve 😏 (Which might be why that can seem so daunting to think about - maths isn't everybody's forte, after all). Anyway, I loved hearing you talk about your ideas for your future self 😊
You're plan for when you're old sounds so pure and cute
I love you Kovu! One of the most underrated youtubers i've watched
added his to my youtube playlist of things that will help me calm down in case of anxiety
It’s nice to know I’m not alone in my depression/thoughts, at least. Thanks Kovu
(Edit: PS: It’s a nice shirt ^^)
These videos are very chill, like it makes me feel like if we were having a chill conversation and it’s pretty cool
Also it was very interesting to see how we both have a slightly different outlook on life even though we went through similar experiences when younger
I wish I was so confident talking about my problems. When I was in therapy I was too closed off to open up, but now I regret that and wish I had gotten more help.
Your thoughts bring back so many memories for me. I didn't know what I wanted to do with my life then (and still don't). I've learned so much and yet so little. I've changed how I think about so many things (almost everything). You have a fantastic journey ahead of you. I hope you enjoy the trip.
That comment truly means so, so much to me. Thank you for believing in me.
Growing up while I watch you growing up makes me feel like there is a future, so thank you for sharing your thoughts and good luck with everything! 💕
This video made me so happy I'm literally crying omg thank you Kovu ❤
Keep going
❤️ Do great things👍
Hey Kovu
Thank you so much for your inspiring words💕
I decided to translate some (most) parts of it into German for my parents. I've been trying to explain my feelings to them for a very long time and i think these words fit my situation pretty good
I hope they'll get my...point of view(?)
I don't know, whatever
Just thank you
I love your latest videos where you just talk
It makes me feel like i can understand myself with listening to you and it answers so many big questions and just makes me feel a little better about life
Hope y'all are having a great day and don't forget to smile❤️
Robin Barth this comment really got to me (in a really good way). It means so much that simply rambling about what is on my mind can mean something to people. And the fact that you used some of my words, translated them into a different language to be able to explain your own situation to your parents- reading that really makes an
impact on me. So thank you. I hope you have a lovely day ❤️
I turned 18 about half a year ago and I'll start going to university in a city across the country this year. I'm already pretty excited and hope that most things will go well, but I just can't imagine yet how my daily life as a university student will look like. I don't feel like an adult yet, but I slowly learn to become one. Have a nice day! 😊
Awww kovu can't wait till your 18th birthday mate ♡
This has got to be one of the most relatable, if not most relatable, videos I have ever seen. Especially since I turning 18 in a couple of weeks.
I’m 24 and I still don’t really have a particular goal; Drawing has just always been the most important thing to me and that’s what I want to center my life around in whatever form that takes
First comment haha. I love your channel so much happy birthday in advance❤️🎂
I was da first
@@jacobfedor6869 ok hhh
This was such a lovely video and it made me really think about my own life and future.
....and that's very sweet that you sound like Colin Firth :)
Actually, that's a bit weird... because when I was suicidal, it was the oposite for me. I imagined my future and that was one of the reasons I wanted to die because I saw how useless I would turn out to be and I didnt want to live through it. I figured, if I ended it here, I could save my family a whole lot of suffering and the world a whole lot of nothing. I attempted it five times last year before I figured out I was trans, and accepting that I was, basically stopped that line of thought. Now, I imagine myself in the future and I see who I've always wanted to be and that gives me immense hope.
I'm proud of you! I'm sure you will grow to be an inspiring person
@@finn1079 hey, thanks man that's really kind of you
I’m fifteen and I’m crying because I got my first pairs of boxers and I had to tell someone so here I am! I feel so much more comfortable in my own skin.✌🏽
That's a great step and I'm happy for you!
just replying so you know that someone read it and you succesfully shared it with a real human :D
Finn 💕💕
KOVU I HAVE NOT WATCHED YOUR CHANNEL IN A FEW MONTHS AND YOUR VOICE IS SO MUCH DEEPER CONGRATS I AM SHOOOOOOOOOOOOK
I just came from the "100 ways to come out", video and hOLY SHIT THE VOICE DIFFERENCE, PUBERTY HIT HIM HARD OML
Man,your shirt is amazing and it matches with your hair!
Its almost my birthday too. Whoo birthday twins...maybe...kind...doubtfully. Anyway, hope you have a blast when it comes, you deserve it 😁
i was watching one of your old videos and i was NOT ready for the voice change
Yaa, I like your shirt :))
Hello kova love the vid keep up the good work
Can’t believe how much your voice changed❤️it’s so deep now 😂😭❤️
My mam is trying to make me learn to drive and really don’t want to
I straight up don’t trust myself with that much responsibility
I'm just starting coming out as a boy... I want to thank you for being who you are. I am so thankful I'm not the only one!
I think it's hard to imagine anything between graduating and 60 years old because by 60, you hope to be settled in your career, hobbit house, and possible parenthood. The 20s and 30s are expected by most people to be when you establish your adult life- where you live, what type of housing, who you share your life with, what career you go into. Then it's expected that you just stay with that forever. Of course these expectations aren't rules anyone has to, or should, live by. But all the unpredictable variables make it hard to imagine how you will establish your adult life, and therefore it's hard to imagine between now and 60.
The "seeing where life takes you" can be positive or negative. It can be negative because it's a potential symptom of depression to not have goals or the motivation to achieve them (I'm dealing with that), but it can be positive because it sounds very open to change, which is great. It's like a boat- you won't move as much unless you have wind in your sails (passion/motivation), but you are also able to keep afloat among the waves (unpredictability or struggles.) I'm glad you and your parents have the mindset of just seeing what you're interested in college.
I'm also really glad you are so honest about how you feel and are comfortable sharing. I'm sure a lot of people of all ages feel similarly, and it helps to know they are not alone.
Darling, thank you for sharing these thoughts :) it was a joy!
I'm subscribed to you from the beginning and I the RUclips didn't recommend your videos for long and when I saw this I clicked and O M G I FUCKING LOVE THIS GLOW UP 😱😍
I relate to this in some ways 😂😊💛 thank you and have a great day!!!!! And a great B'Day!!!!
Sometimes you say exactly what I've been thinking. For example you don't mind not getting remembered by people after you die. And I kind of feel the same way. I just want to live my life and experience the things that happen to me, but I don't care whether people remember me for something exceptional I've done or invented or making a huge difference in the world. However, what I sometimes think about is, do the people I've met remember me when I don't see them again, like for example teachers who influenced me in a positive way and were special to me or my best friend from elementary school who moved away. I don't care about staying in a "public conscience" as in, being mentioned in history books. But as long as I live, I would like the people I've spent a certain time of my life with to sometimes think back to the things we did and think, I liked her and it was a good time. I hope that this makes sense.
Omg this is the first video I saw after 2 years and his voice is so calm. Boiiiii
Well, I have a "life dream". I don't know how to have it, I don't know what would do/live between. So... understand.
Also, I have the feeling I won't live a lot longer (you can thank my english level). I had it. Like I won't go further than 16. Then, than 18...
...
Hei! Jeg er 20!
So you know, life, feelings, are sometimes strange, fuzzy. But that's okay.
It's maybe also due to what I leaved. My past. I don't expect anything good. I never had. Because nothing good ever happen.
I don't know. Maybe, maybe not.
I hope you'll have this house you seems to really want.
Glad you want to live, to be, to breath.
Glad you're doing better and better. Wish to do better and better in the futur!
L♥ve
Dude, i just watched your video when you`re only 14 :P I`ve get shocked
I love this video. I’m turning 18 in 2 days and geez am I terrified of being an adult and starting university. I’m also starting testosterone in 4 days or so and it feels like everything is happening so fast and so many things are going on. So I definitely needed this video
I don't think I will arrive far than 20, but I'm okay with that. I already accepted, because where I live I won't be able to be happy being me. But I'm really happy for you, at least some of us deserve to be happy in this crappy world.
Uwu ur shirt makes me happy too🥰
I really want to become your friend. You seem like such a great person and honestly I need better people in my life. Who knows maybe I'll meet you one day, I guess I'll just have to see where life takes me
~~First of all, forgive me for my awful English ;-; ~~
Wow this was really inspiring. When I started to watch the video, I was sure that you'd talk about anything in a superficially way. But after 5 minutes or less, you seemed to be very mature and decided about your future (I wish to be like you someday). Anyway, I'm sure any profession you'll have, you'll be great.
P.S.: Have you ever considerate on making a podcast? Because your voice is so good to hear.
P.S.: and you got to watch Steven Universe
Wish I could talk with you all day long about just everything, my ears would always be open to listen to your voice, thoughts.
Djxisndixne I just feel so grateful that I have found such a beautiful dude thanks to RUclips lol
Tusen takk? haha as always Kovu! xD
I love you dude
Hi Kovu! I'm one of your fan/subscriber from Budapest. If you have time maybe we could catch up just for a few words, a picture or something. Like fan meeting😊😊😊
btw i hope that i'm not disturbing your holiday and you have a great time in here!
Oh no that’s fine, and that’s so sweet! :D I heard pride is on Saturday so perhaps we could arrange something then?😊
Love I believe you'll do great things no matter what 😌
❤️ I love listening to you and a lot of things you talk about reasonate with me and I can easily relate. I even want to be a jolly old man in a hobbit house too, let's be neighbours then ;)
i love your shirt!
Hi
Kieran Dunning Hi
I'm in uni and everyone asks me what I'll do for my bachelor thesis and after that and I always tell them that I've no idea. Right now, I'm in a phase where my interests change quite a lot so I prefer to plan only the following semester cause otherwise, it'd stress me out.
YOUR SHIRT IS AMAZING🔥🔥🔥🔥
Hello Kovu, I find you so adorable. Yes I think you have conveyed your message. I am really glad you are talking about the future.
You are not "an accident" Kovu.
There is meaning hidden behind meaninglessness.
It is the human condition to accept life without knowing all the answers.
We are all connected, the human beings, the animals, the plants ...
I may be wrong but it seems to me that you have been abused emotionally and or physically.
Somebody has tried to make you feel less than, somebody has tried to steal your identity. Somebody has been jealous of you. Somebody has done you harm.
Maybe you have a covert narcissist or a malignant narcissist in your family.
Maybe it was somebody outside your family.
I think your parents need to heal.
You seem to be suffering from narcissistic abuse and from CPTSD (= Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.)
To my mind transitioning is a coping mechanism in order to survive.
There is a meaning hidden behind your gender dysphoria.
Ask yourself "what is the worst thing that could happen if I remained a woman ? "
Since you are interested in psychology I really advise you to read Sigmund Freud 's theory about the little girl 's penis envy from the age of 3 to the age of 7 (before the age of reason) and about the castration anxiety of the little boy of the same age.
It is the stage of the Oedipal complex.
It is a bit more difficult for the girl because her sexual organs are not visible, they are hidden.
She seems to have nothing.
She doesn't have a penis, unlike a little boy and she doesn't have breasts unlike her mum.
She feels less than a little boy, less than a grown up man, less than a grown up woman, less than everybody ...
It is at this stage that the little girl tries to attract her dad's attention and she becomes her mum's "rival".
Then she realises she has the same sex as her mum and she identifies with her mum and accepts that her dad will never be her "fiancé". Another man will be.
For the little girl the first object of love is the mother (a woman, an homosexual love) and her second object of love is her dad, a man.
Sometimes the Oedipal complex cannot be resolved and the child remains stuck in a pre oedipal stage or stuck between the pre oedipal stage and the oedipal stage. When puberty hits what the child went through at such an early age comes back to the surface with more violence.
Puberty is a difficult passage for everybody but even more so for some people.
All of a sudden you look into the mirror and you don't recognize yourself. You feel disconnected from the body which is in the mirror and which does not seem to be yours.
A lot of transpeople think it isn't a phase but they don't wait long enough to know if it is a phase.
When a building is on fire, when you are trapped inside, the best option is to put a wet towel under the door and wait for the firemen.
The worst option is to jump out of the window especially if you are on the third, fourth, fifth floor ... No matter your impulse to escape by jumping out of the window, it is better to be patient and to repress your instinct to do so.
Of course fear makes you be in the fight or flight mode. Terror prevents you from thinking.
We need our cortex to think.
I'm happy for you because in this video you seem to have regained hope. We need safety in order to become free.
You seem to feel safer in this video.
You need safety, respect and freedom. You need to make all your fragments reconcile.
When we feel safe we can use our cortex.
I know that doctors think that the cure of gender dysphoria is transitioning, hormones, sometimes surgeries.
Personally I don't agree with that.
I think that hormones can be harmful and surgeries are barbaric, invasive and high risk.
Besides it is so sad, especially surgeries. Surgeries can add new layers of trauma instead of resolving the problem.
To accept surgeries is to make the abuser win.
The abuser has become internalised.
Ironically the surgeon without being aware of it plays the game of the abuser and finishes off what the abuser had begun.
You know Kovu in the past doctors did lobotomies to make patients be more "comfortable".
It was a "cure" ...
You are hypersensitive and intelligent, you are an empath, you are very talented and you make me think of a Shakespeare character.
Yet be careful because you are very young, a little naïve and an abuser can manipulate you with fear, guilt ...
Try to face your fear.
Transitioning is used to escape fear but in fact by transitioning I believe that you run the risk of letting your fear control you and bully you.
In this video you are distancing yourself from the emotion of fear.
Your future from the age of 18 to the age of 60 seems to be blurred but don't worry, the fog will not last for ever.
Sometimes we think that the storm, the tempest, the fog will last for ever but we can't be further from the truth.
Take care.
I give you a big hug.
You always cheer up my day
If you're into the research side of psychology, why not considering anthropology or sociology ?
I took some information about those and it can be so interesting, I met a man who had studied in sociology but was somehow also doing anthropological work and he had the opportunity to actually study life in prison and how people evolve in there and whenever he spoke about stuff he was able to question himself and compare infos with previous experiences and find little bits of answers to many questions and.... it was just really fascinating 😂
I've just turned eighteen, and it's the weirdest feeling. slight tw here, but I didn't think I would make it to 16, let alone ADULT age. It's weird...I don't even know what I'm going to do with my future, I'm in my final year of college (UK college, not uni), and I have NO idea what I'm going to do next, and it's kinda scary sksk
Yay new video
Happy early birthday Kovu
WOO! Go Kovu! Go Kovu! You’re the best YAY!
You're in Hungary???!!!? How long are you staying there???
2 views 43 likes....... (Really RUclips)
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I'm turning 18 in exactly one month!!!
Woah this is some inspiring stuff
Ah, I love your videos.
I have a similar shirt and the same necklace but a blue one
The funniest thing about turning 18 is that mostly nothing changes ... xD
That is actually really good to know!
i ADORE your shirt
I turn 17 at the end of the month its wild
The shirt is good
Love that shirt! Where'd you get it?
I really like the shirt haha
I love the shirttttt🤪❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️😂😂😂😂😂😂
I'm turning 16 in 2,5 hours!
@Rin Okumura ahwww thank you so much!!
Happy Birthday!
@@finn1079 Thank you!
¿ And the subtitule in spanish ? ♡