I Can FEEL It... Types of FLASHBACKS | PTSD & Dissociative Identity Disorder
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Thank you from the bottom of my heart for always making everyone feel valid. When I have described my trauma to people in the past -- even therapists -- I've been ridden off because, by a lot of peoples' standards, my trauma isn't considered as "severe." I have only ever been loosely diagnosed with PTSD because I didn't think I ever had flashbacks (because in my mind that was the stereotype of the full flashback), but now that I've watched this video I suddenly have realized that I have. I have body memories multiple times a week and I didn't even know it. You also have helped me to come to terms with the fact that I have more than one traumatic event in my life because previously I only thought of one. The amount of power that can be given or taken away by validating someone's experiences is earth shattering, and saying thank you isn't justice.
Dude Im so sorry people haven't believed you.
It doesn't matter how severe it seems to other people, it is severe to you and that's so so unfair
It was the same for me! I´m sorry for what you had to experience but I´m glad to hear that I´m not alone with it. Your ptbs, your feelings and symptoms are valid!
it was the same for me.. please stay strong and always know, that your thoughts and emotions are 100% valid!
I'm so sorry you had to go through that, but happy you now have a better understanding of your trauma and are being validated. I can definitely relate. I'm still unsure of whether or not the symptoms I experience can even be called "PTSD". But regardless, all trauma needs to be validated and taken seriously, even if it doesn't fit the usual mold.
I’m so sorry your trauma wasn’t taken seriously. You deserve to be heard and respected.
“Triggers don’t have to make sense, that’s not what matters. What matters is they are triggers, & that’s how your brain is working to process that memory” thank you for this, Chloe
i so badly needed to hear this
Ice cubes and spongebob were two triggers of mine. Late response but I felt this was a good example. I’ve been able to have ice cubes in my drinks for 2 years now 😤👌
For me it’s sitting in the back left seat in my moms SUV, it wasn’t one of the places where he did the worst to me but my mom was up in the front seat and I couldn’t say anything and idk it’s one of the flashbacks where I feel everything and it’s going through my head, it’s painful and scary, one of my most stupid ones is when people say “oh that’s thick with three c’s” because he said that a lot
My odd ptsd trigger is seeing ambos going past without lights and sirens. If the lights and sirens are on then I’m fine, but without I can’t deal with it. It doesn’t even make sense to me...
"triggered" has become such a normal term that I don't know how to make people take my actual triggers seriously anymore
exactly
me too. told this guy that if he grabbed my wrists i would panic and he thought it was funny. every time i saw him he tried to or would mention grabbing my wrists. one day he did, i immediately punched his side and felt so guilty and panicked for days after. fuck him
@@eep3 these people are the worst right? I had an arsehole who would jump out on me in work for a laugh, not taking my previous warnings that I could (and often did) have a full blown panic attack.
@@eep3 that's absolutely disgusting. people really think it's a game or a damn joke like you're a toy with a button that says "press me!" how dare someone mess with another person's head.
Trueeee :(((((
'I can feel someone burning me' oh Chloe, this broke my heart. I wish i could take it away :(. No one deserves to be hurt but i can't believe anyone would hurt you, you're such a wonderful human!
Yeah I cringed at that. 😥
Even worse, this most probably happened during childhood :(
Also the physical feelings when she mentioned in the lower regions.
Broke my heart and to think that any of this happened to Chloe.
Makes me feel so sad and upset and for her Im so sorry that she had to go through that
I honestly didn't even blink. There are some really evil humans in the world. If you look into child psychology. I've never told anyone before, but part of the reason that I dropped my psych program is because I was so severely triggered by the book "a child called it " that a little was pulled to front. Couldn't understand where they were and lost reality. Part of me wishes that one of the people with me had recorded it, so I would know more of what really happened. What I know is that I was laying on the floor of my dorm hallway repeating over and over that I wasn't real, that nothing was real. I didn't need to eat or move, etc.
It was chocked up to having an overloaded schedule and lack of sleep. Not remembering a lot of events well...
It didn't help that they were dropping most of the psych program and the student funding, but it was definately part of it.
I know!! It's so difficult for me to imagine someone hurting Chloe like that... She's so precious 😭😭
Okay I just needed to say this cause I never realized that what I was experiencing was flashbacks... I break down every time I hear people screaming at each other. my friend and her boyfriend got into a fight and they were yelling at each other, and it was getting very aggressive and I heard things smashing, and that sound of that reminds me of events from my childhood. I immediately, as a grown woman, curled up into a ball and covered my ears as if I was young again and terrified. And for hours after the fight had ended I’d hear echoes of screaming in my head and it’s horribly scary. I’m starting to realize that maybe those events when I was a kid had way more effect on me than I realized if my mind and body react so negatively when I experience a reminder of it. I’ve probably overshared but thank you for the information, I’m learning more about myself even though I don’t suffer from DID😭❤️
I’m like this too, thank you for sharing. It’s really hard for me to convey these feelings to others, and because of that I’ve always felt alone. Hearing from others with the same problem really helps me to validate my own experiences with trauma. (Sorry if this doesn’t make much sense, I’ve had a stressful day.)
The whole "I'm triggered" culture is incredibly destructive, toxic, mocking, and invalidating to people who have genuine trauma and genuine triggers. I've been gaslit by it on several occasions and questioned if my own experiences were real and valid. PTSD, Complex-PTSD, and triggers are already not taken seriously much of the time and they're so personal, confusing, complicated, and painful, that there really is no room for jokes. Your videos are always so informative, accessible, and compassionate. Thank you for subjecting yourself to the scrutiny of such a large audience to make these videos!
omgg shut upp the meme triggered has nothing to do with ptsd. the meme triggered is like when someone makes you mad. not what she's talking about
has nothing to do w trauma and actual triggers. triggered is like saying your mad. its a whole different meaning. think before you type
your making it a big deal when you dont even know the meaning we use triggered for in memes. nobody would make a joke out of something that's this serious. calm down
Triggered is the scientific term based around PTSD. Absolutely what I'm talking about.
The world you and the meme are looking for us "offended"
I love this soft, gentle, almost watercolor eyeshadow you have going! Also love the new editing style, very cute!
goodness, sometimes i really just wanna hold the system and give them my love
Can’t relate more to a comment than yours.
I have complete amnesia of my childhood, my memories start from when i was about 9/10 years :/
Omg! I thought I was the only one... My memories start from when I was 8 years old, before that I just have 3 memories, one being around 6 when I had a very short haircut, other being getting back home one day from kindergarten and the last one is being around 3 years old and crying cause I has hungry haha... Other than that it is completely blacked out, like a big gap of nothing..... Sometimes I have a partial flashback and it is a combination of visual and body flashback, and it always stops, I've never been able to go through the whole memorie, it stops at the same point everytime... Sorry for my English, is not that good, but I'm kinda glad I'm not alone... Wish you the best!
I don't remember much before the age of 18. I can piece together quite a lot, but there are some aspects that are total blanks. And almost zero memories before 13. I'm 28 now, for reference. I'm glad it's not just me that experiences this. People don't tend to understand.
I can't remember most before middle school as well. A bit of early middle school. Get's better after the age of 12 I guess.
I feel so weird when others tell me stories of what we did in such a detailed way and I'm sitting there having no memory of that whatsoever. And I don't know why. I had a lovely childhood, lovely parents, a loving family. But I just can't remember.
I’m 13 and I can’t remember almost anything that happened bellow the age of 11, and I can’t remember most of the time i was 12. People be like do you remember this thing and I am like no. And it makes me upset because I can’t remember almost all of my life. It is just a blank. I even forget people I knew for 4 years. They don’t exist for me.
@@tillyaili the brain is really weird, isn't it?
When she said "or someone yelling at you" my eyes started watering...
I think I have a trigger and I didn't even know it. I felt so scared and confused, I can't imagine what people with several trauma have to deal with, I hope you the best, you deserve to be happy
I used to love watching David Attenborough documentaries. Then a trauma happened during one of these documentaries, and now the sound of David Attenborough's voice is a trigger. It's such a shame, because he's such a cool dude.
Im really sorry :(
I have the same with songs :( I can't listen to some of them anymore
Because you listen to them to focus on something else, but then they become triggers 🤦
I absolutely hate when the few things you enjoy get turned into triggers. It really feels like you cannot have a single good or nice thing in your life.
putting a tangible description to something that feels so illogical and overwhelmingly confusing is a life saver. suddenly things make sense when you explain them, and i can’t tell you how valuable your knowledge is
I work at a mental health clinic. Someone with DID just started a treatment at the clinic. I never worked with someone with DID and your video’s help me so much to understand and help him the best i can!
Thank you for that.❤️
Sorry for my english, its not the best.
I don’t think I have PTSD cause I feel like my “trauma” isn’t “severe” enough compared to others. But now I know I definitely have emotional flashbacks. I don’t feel like I shouldn’t even have anxiety and depression because I haven’t gone through enough to have them. I know that sounds completely bizarre because it sounds like I “want” to have them but I really don’t. I can’t even go to school (physically and mentally) because I start shaking like a fish out of water. Yes, my “trauma” happened in school and it’s something common that happens to a lot of people (I fell over and it’s even difficult writing this because I have to remember it) and I feel like I’m just being a dramatic teen. My therapist and doctors say different but I don’t think I have PTSD even if the signs are right in front of me.
I totally relate to what you say.
But we need to learn that we're valid and everything we are or were going through is our own hell. We don't need to have "worse" experiences than others to be suffering.
Feel hugged 🤗
I wouldn't judge the severity of the event as a key definer into whether you do or dont have PTSD. I always thought my trauma wasnt too bad and held onto everything for over a decade. Now my ptsd has developed into C-PTSD. It takes courage but you should probably seek help/professional advice to be on the safe side
@@moccijiminie3688 can I ask what the difference is between ptsd and cptsd please? Thank you in advance and sending love and support to you all x
you don't have to have severe trauma to have ptsd, I used to think this but really anything that could have been traumatic can cause ptsd. don't invalidate yourself plz
There is no trauma Olympics. Your feelings and trauma are just as valid as everyone elses
Just had a flashback when I almost blacked out, and it’s comforting to know why my complex brain did this, thank you 💛
Remember that you are safe. You are safe and loved and valid.
Professor JAJL thank you, I needed to hear this today.
@@courtneyhansen9686 Of course, friend. Take care of yourself.♡
Seven months late, but I hope you’re doing ok and taking care of yourself
I don't have DID but I love this channel and its message on self acceptance. It's an amazing channel teaching us to be a little kinder to ourselves every day
2016 was such a horrible year and I feel like so many people suffered, as well. It's shocking to me how many people agree
Yeah :/
It is i guess the year my finally turned around.
yh
for me it was 2018, but i hope it got better!
Agreed 2016 was a very bad year for me as well.
Chloe looks so much more confident and overall happier in comparison to older videos! I'm so happy to witness this transformation!
We are, again, so lucky to have such a positive educator on DID. Thank you so much for everything you do. Thank you for this video!
Also I am seriously living for your hair!! 🥰
This was just posted yesterday and I just saw a post today saying that Chloe and Nina integrated. I hope the system is taking it well
I have ptsd from several traumatic events in my life when I was younger. This video explained some things I didn’t even know having this disorder. I didn’t realize all of these things were flash backs. I’ve had full on flash backs but experienced several of the other types and not realized that’s what it was and just dismissed it. Thank you for this helpful video! Love you all
Seeing Chloe pre-integration is kind of sad now.
Wait, what? Did something happen??
L Christensen my thoughts exactly
L Christensen The system announced on Instagram that Chloe and Nina integrated at the end of September. The newly integrated alter still goes by she/her pronouns and the name Chloe. I’d recommend checking out their insta if you’re interested.
Just for anyone reading this, the new alter (Chloe and Nina post-integration) is now going my the name Nin (rhymes with pin)
@@bluejay4072 but isn't this a good thing? (i just started following) i only have theorys, that if all the characters built up into one, then she may be "healed"?
I've been stuck fronting and stuck in an emotional flashback for over a day now and it is exhausting. And no grounding tools seem to be working for it. So now I'm just trying to ride it out. And doing the best I can for self care for the body. But I wish I could get out of the front.
It will go away, stay strong. I'm sure that you are already doing your best with the body, you don't have to do more than you can. Stay safe
I'm so sorry you are going through this right now. I don't have DID so I can't really give you advice on this but I sincerely hope this flashback ends for you soon and that you find comfort and peace. You were strong enough to make it through the trauma once, you can make it through this. You don't have to go through this alone though. I'm here if you need to message someone, feel free to message me.
You're going to be ok.
Sorry if you tried this already but if the other alters have positive triggers you could try that chloe did a video on them hope things calm down soon
@@jodz0291 i was going to suggest that too. If you can trigger someone else to the front or even co-concious maybe they could helo them fronting.
Close your eyes and allow yourself to imagine your you're a big Bountiful beautiful tree and allow yourself 2 imagine you're rooting yourself into the ground Deep Roots. That's one way to ground yourself another really useful tool is to imagine yourself at the beach on a beautiful day and imagine your feet in the sand and the water comes up on your feet and pulls back and allow yourself to imagine your feet just stinking little by little into the sand. I hope you feel better
As someone who doesn’t have ptsd or did I just want to send love for everyone who has. You guys are so strong and brave.
Hi there! I've watched this channel for a while, but having Chloe validate my trigger of a certain shade of green, or a certain body spray is so comforting! I've had a lot of different therapists look at me funny when I brought it up, and just knowing that there are people trying to explain this to others is huge to me! Thank you so much!!
Ellie Patches I also have a trigger of a specific colour, for me it’s a dark blueish grey. Usually it’s only fabric of this colour but not always.
I have that problem with my phobias , I have a phobia of lobsters, shrimps, and nobody takes it seriously, to the point that they would show me their shrimps heads to test me at the restaurant. It's annoying, but for me that is all it is, I don't go to the restaurant everyday and you don't see lobsters and shrimps on the streets. It could be really dangerous though for someone with ptsd or anxiety attacks, it could send them right into an attack or a flash back. And I find it quite shoking that your therapists look you funny, your triggers are perfectly valid and therapists should know that.
It is quite disturbing that some therapists seem to know so little about PTSD and other mental disorders. How are they supposed to help their patients??
I'm so sorry you've even had therapists be so cruelly invalidating! your trigger(-s if you have more than one, no need to confirm nor deny), your trigger(-s) is(/are) incredibly valid!
I just wanted to say that I love how people in the comment section of this channel are so open about sharing their own experiences, and other people taking the time to help and reassure them whenever possible. So much love and kindness here. You are a bunch of awesome people. ❤
It’s nice to know I’m not the only one. Where I live, there are officially only 2 people recorded of having DID. You are very inspiring, thank you so much!! I’m (host) 16 years old with 8 alters💙
Thank you💖💖
I thought I was “pretending “ or my brain was “pretending “ but, this made me feel like I am valid. Thank you.
Yes! I feel like this sometimes too!
Now I can understand what’s been happening to me my therapist has told me I’m having emotional flashbacks but this video really made me understand I feel understood I can’t say thank you enough
I have no words for how validated I feel. My friends have been telling me I have ptsd for the last few years and I got diagnosed last year. It was hard for me to agree with the diagnoses because I didn’t think I was having “real” flashbacks. It was confusing and invalidating. Thank you so much for explaining that body memories are a type of flashback. ❤️❤️❤️
I adore you Chloe! You make me feel normal, in a world that makes it seem that having mental health disorders abnormal.
I have 3, generalized anxiety disorder, depression and most recently PTSD, diagnosed on September 3rd, my husbands birthday. Since then I've gone back and re marathoned all your PTSD videos. They help so much. All my love to you and your system.
Chloe: Talking about smells and weather...
Me: Is that why it happens every time it rains and there's that weird smell in the air just after it stops? It's kind of a pleasant smell but for some reason I always feel scared and sad... also confused I'm pretty sure that's just because I don't know why these other emotions are being triggered. I think most of my triggers do make sense except that one I don't know why that's a thing. I also get flashes of an apartment we use to live in when I was 4 years old but it's never been clear exactly what happened when I flash back to that time... The apartment wasn't even clear to me at first until I was about 10 when my grandparents were living in the same apartment complex for a while I suddenly remembered after a rain that I lived there before. My parents even confirmed which apartment it was. But I still don't know what actually happened there.
And I think I just triggered myself... because I can suddenly smell that just after it rained smell even though I'm inside and it hasn't rained in weeks. Just talking about it and suddenly because I'm thinking about my brain brought it to the front. Going to go focus on something else now.
I get it. Sometimes we have little traumas we don't even know about
Just conversationally, there are three different sources of after-it rains-scents: ozone, petrichor, and plant oils. All of them are generally described as pleasant and inviting, with distinct characters. The ozone comes from lightening turning O2 to O3. (Aside: rarely, cloud to cloud lightening before rainfall can bring the scent early). Petrichor is from a chemical reaction involving soil bacteria, (streptomyces spores making a chemical named geosmin) with a very distinctive green/earth smell. Usually when rains after a dry spell causes the bacteria to build up spores. I don't know a single word name for the third scent, but it's from a build up of plant oils that the rain suddenly aerosolizes. (2-isopropyl-3-methoxy-pyrazine is one of the main rain smell oils, isolated by Nancy Gerber in the 1970s). Generally, these are all rain specific, though electricity splitting air into ozone can be encountered in some other settings, like walking past power grid transformer stations, or electric gas ranges sparking a lot. Hopefully chatting casual rainstorm science has been intriguing rather than distressing, so you can pull apart your scent triggers and know how they work / which rainstorms will or won't evoke which scents strongly. All the best for a pleasant weekend.
I love rain I hate bees though they make me sick in the stomach I don't know why but it make my heart rate go up and I cant do anything but run or stay still
@@lllevokelll Wow, just wow. Medal for this, please!
I am so so so late, but I just wanted to say thank you. I always seemed to think that I was going crazy when I was triggered, but now understand that a flashback can be many things. From this video I have learned that I have experienced many emotional flashbacks. I always wrote it off as really bad anxiety but now I get it. I always knew that this wasn't anxiety, this is different, but I dont know what's happening and I cant explain it, and it wont stop, and I hate it. But you helped me figure it out. Thank you so much, this makes me feel so much better. I don't know if how I'm saying this conveys how grateful I am but seriously, this is so amazing.
Thank you, Chloe. It's been tough accepting that I have ptsd because somehow my mind has decided I'm bringing this on myself. So your video has been really helpful in showing me that although I have many partial flashbacks, they are all still very valid.
Thank you for this Chloe. I didn't even know I've been having flashbacks for months now, especially since the relationship with my parents has been incredibly unstable for a long time, a lot of things make more sense to me now. 💕
Thank you so much for this. I have PTSD but only really suffer from emotional triggers so it's very difficult to not feel like my PTSD is insignificant. Especially when talking to people who dont understand. This made what I feel validated and like I'm not just "over reacting" or "too sensitive and emotional" which is what I normally get told. Thank you so much for everything you do x you are all a true light into this world that can be so so dark.
You're so valid, and not being dramatic 💖
I mostly have emotional triggers as well, good to know I'm not the only one with that experience. Do you mind my asking if you have specific triggers? Mine are much more general in nature, I can't seem to pinpoint exact triggers, they seem more situational.
Me too
I had to change school because one of my ptsd triggers was the school I was at.
This is such an important video. I wish I had known what I was going through sooner. I hope this video helps others experiencing a non-stereotypical flashback feel valid.
I didn't know I've been having partial flashbacks, I just feel myself in that moment again but felling my chest being squeeze just like I felt when the trauma happened, ashamed, neglected, feeling stupid, all at once but without the image of the moment ... I thought it was normal... everyone had it...
Your hair looks awesome, thanks for making such informative and amazing content!! I never knew this much about DID and I’m really happy that you destigmatize PTSD and mental illness. Triggers are no joke!
This helped me understand emotional flashbacks that i have, and I appreciate this so much
Ok, It's official I NEED their hair, like first, rainbow and now this beautiful colour scheme, you're getting greedy!
Chloe, your system has been through so much and as someones whose been following you for a while, im so incredibly happy that you're in a place rn where you are freely speaking about this sort of thing. You guys have been through so much and I'm so proud of you guys for continuing.
I have to go to bed but I would rather watch this lol
I absolutely love their hair!!
I don’t have DID but I love knowing more about it. I’ve learned so much from watching dissociaDID’s videos, and I feel like if someone decided to tell me they had DID, I would be able to offer support rather than having to ask so many questions about it. ☺️♥️✨
My dad also has PTSD from an abusive childhood and I accidentally triggered an emotional/visual flashback I've never felt so bad in my life never seen him so distressed before :(
I just discover this channel, I'm having a maraton of the videos and this come out, that's crazy (sorry I'm bad at english)
Your English is wonderful! I could understand what you were saying.
@@cheetahtfk7274 thank you!
@@Margitkam-h3s I'm mexican so I speak spanish, and yes, Listen to them is a great exercise to me
Thank you so much DissociaDiD! I honestly have known that I got PTSD from an emotional trauma 6 years ago but this video and it's comments helped me recognize that I have been experiencing partial flashbacks and emotional flashbacks to two traumatic events in my life. I never knew about emotional flashbacks or that I was experiencing them. Thank you for helping me recognize that. I have actually been triggered more than I've known but it's been emotional/physical flashbacks and I just haven't recognized.
Hey, you did amazingly with this. I can imagine this wasn't very easy to do but you aced it! It was a great video as I had been wondering whether I'd actually been having forms of flashbacks or not so this really helped.❤️❤️
you’ve really helped me a lot through my dispersonalization disorder diagnosis. Thank you so much ❤️
You're so mature, thats all I can say
This was so incredibly therapeutic for me... Ive had therapists talk about my flashbacks like a medical condition but i still always had this fear that I was just crazy... The physical sensations and the "overlay" visuals in particular... So hearing it from someone who KNOWS not just... Knows about is so... So important. Thank you for this video.
Thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, Chloe and DissociaDID System! This video is so validating, helpful, and informative! I was just asking the other day if it is possible to have a flashback that is just feeling the emotions (rather than a full flashback). thank ya'll for helping us better understand what we are experiencing!
I’ve gained more knowledge and understanding in these videos than I have in any science class I’ve ever taken. The way you all are able to explain things so clearly makes these conditions so much easier to understand. I’m so glad I have found this channel. Much love xoxo
Chloe, you have helped me understand so much more about my own flashbacks and triggers in this video, thank you so much. I have now made sense of a period of when I was terrified to leave home after returning from a trip. I have realised that it was probably an emotional flashback. It was a reminder of coming home after trauma in someone else’s home. It doesn’t matter that it was different houses, the fear of returning from a stressful trip and not recognising my home, was a trigger for that flashback. It lasted about a week and I was terrified of my own room, the house and any noises. I had panic attacks each day over tiny triggers or problems. It makes sense now. And you’ve helped me explain other experiences too. Thank you, Chloe. - Maddie.
Thank you! I’m sharing this video with my boyfriend! I’m a survivor of sexual assault and have PTSD and I feel like this may help him understand all of the things that can trigger flashback or even just an anxiety attack or depressive/mood switch. My flashbacks mostly aren’t always full visuals.
Thank you so so much, most of what I've learnt about my diagnosis is from your channel.
Omg hiii fellow madder😀
Can I just comment on how gorgeous the hair is?? The cut, the colors, the way it’s styled... Marvelous!!
More importantly, the knowledge the system has regarding the ins and outs of DID is amazing. The amount of time, effort, emotions, and I can’t even imagine what else (the list must be endless) went into understanding this mental illness...I hope the system is proud of all that’s been accomplished.
your channel has helped me so so so much, and has taught me more than most websites and articles can
So true
Thank you so much for explaining DID. I have learned so much more than I could've ever learned on my own. It's absolutely fascinating to me. I realize that DID started in by something horrible that happened to you. For that I am so sorry. But I appreciate everything that you teach me from the bad that happened. Thank you so much for that.
2013 was a pretty bad year for me and there are some songs that I used to love which I can't listen to now b/c they remind me of that time. Thank you so much for making this channel you make such a positive difference 💕
When I smell a Hospital Scent, I Feel the Safest I’ve ever felt. When I was a child, I actually took the Pillow I used from the Hospital. The Nurse said I wasn’t supposed to, but she would take the fall.
-Trigger Warning-
I don’t have DID, but I have PTSD, OCD, Anorexia Nervosa (Recovering), Epilepsy, Clinical Depression, Addiction (Recovering), Self-Harm (Recovering), Borderline Personality Disorder, and a Suicidal Past.
Finding your Channel gave me a lot Hope. Thank You. You are helping more People within and out of the DID Community.
This was surprisingly hard to listed to but really helpful. Thank you so much x
I find it so so sad that not only did you live your trauma once and fought so hard to survive it but you have to relive it just at its happing again in that very moment over and over. The brain is a amazing and clever thing but honestly it can be so cruel :(. I wish i could do something to help people like you who have to live that as their reality and i feel so much guilt that there is nothing i can do to stop you guys or anyone else from being hurt. I'm really proud of you and anyone else that has survived a hard life. I know its NOT but you make it look so easy, i could never! To anyone who has struggled or still stuggles i am so proud of you for even surviving, you're amazing and you are wonderful and even if all you did today was survive then thats okay and you're epic ❤❤❤
Seriously, such a great and imformative channel!
I just realized I’ve been traumatized by things I didn’t feel I had the right to be traumatized by, and had flashbacks relating to the event for months and it’s still impacting my life 4 years later. Thank you for making this nonsense going inside my brain make sense. I feel the need to be a little kinder to myself. None of it was my fault, it was just how my brain processed the event. Thank you ❤️
Honestly, your channel has helped me more than i can explain. Its even been a lot of help for my fiance as well to help support me. You guys make me feel like everythings going to be alright even when I feel like nothing but a trainwreck. Coming across your channel going on 3 months now I never would have guessed the amazing impact you have had on my life. I was able to seek out the treatment I needed because I felt encouraged to do so. I just really want to say thank you. From the bottom of my heart. Thank you.
This video helped me so much understand I've had a therapist tell me that I don't have PTSD even though I've been trying to explain to her even without the proper vocabulary that I've been having emotional flashbacks and body memories this honestly kind of makes me pissed off at my therapist
Thank you so much for this video! I've never seen anyone describe flashbacks other than the full blown, total immersion ones. I didn't even have the vocabulary to explain to my family and friends what I was feeling, but now I know the words to use and I can even send them this video! This made me feel so seen, heard, and just so validated. Thank you all for the work you do ❤️
I've only recently realized that what I've been experiencing are actually flashbacks from one of the earthquakes that hit Croatia last year. Really, anything can be a trigger. There was one time I was shopping and I think I've accidentally bumped the hangers with clothing on them and when they started swinging my brain thought that there's another earthquake happening. My whole body, especially the hands started shaking and the floor under me felt so shaky, unstable and unsafe. Things shaking, swinging and the sounds associated with that, as well as many other sounds are often unbearable for me. Thank you so much for making this video.
Thank you Chloe, it's been a pleasure watching your videos.
It's horrible that people have to go through things like this. Flashbacks are unpleasant, and makes you feel cornered and defenseless. Chole, I wish you and everyone a safe and healthy life, physically and mentally. I send my regards to everyone who suffer PTSD, DID, anxiety, depression, and any mental condition that may affect their daily life. Thank you DissociaDID system for educating us, with clear and knowledgable answers. I wish everyone in the system the best.
I really appreciate the dedication and love which you explain the reality about the DID... it's so important for me .
Thank you so much for sharing all the experiences and make a safe and educational space .
Gracias desde el fondo de mi corazón ... gracias por entregarme seguridad y ayudarme a comprender mejor lo que una persona a la que amo está pasando ... gracias
This. Video. Is. So. Important.
Thank you for educating those of us who don’t experience what you all go through on a daily basis and otherwise, I studied sociology and mental health in school, but this was never taught to me and I have learned so much. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for teaching the rest of the world about DID and more. You teach people how to be human and how to love and how to heal, and I’m amazed. Thank you.
dude i forgot how different chloe talked
I'm glad I decided to watch this video, I remember very clearly that one day I was getting ready for tuition class when I got so upset I busted out in tears and started full on bawling. I was so confused on why I was so upset, nothing particularly bad happened that day and it was so sudden, I never knew why it happened until I watched this video and realized it was probably an emotional flashback
I also have panic attacks but thankfully not as often nowadays, one trigger for me that I used to think was weird is seeing someone fidgeting with their fingers, I have a friend that likes to rub her fingers on her dress and generally mess with them a lot, I told them so many times to stop but they just laughed at me. Glad I distance myself from her now
I have PTSD from a car accident and I've had a lot of people claim that what I experience isn't "real PTSD", so despite how triggering it was to hear near exact descriptions of my triggers in this context, I'm really glad that you guys validated people like me who have PTSD with "unusual" triggers.
You inspire me with your videos each day, and I just have to say how wonderful it is to see you and Team Pinata so happy, dispite what you've been through. I can only pray that you both get the life you've always wanted. Stay safe, and don't forget to smile.💌
I would like to thank you. I have sent this to my husband and family to help explain things a little better. I appreciate all of you videos more than I can express. Thank doesnt seem to be enough, but it will have to do this night. Thank you again.
Coming back to this video after learning about Chloe and Nina’s integration. I hope the system is doing well. We love y’all ♥️ Please take all the time you need before coming back and making more videos. Don’t feel like you need to rush a video and explain to us about the integration. We’re all hoping for the best and sending all the love ♥️
I suffer from flashbacks frequently. Thank you so much for making this video, it's always so educational and validating and makes me feel less alone.
I get flashbacks when I smell the perfume I was wearing the moment the traumas happened. I used to wear this one perfume all the time, so every time the traumatic experience happened I was wearing it. I started getting frequent flashbacks, and only after 6 months I realized it was mostly because I was still wearing the same perfume I was back then. I still have that perfume, and sometimes I use it purposely to "harm" myself... because I keep thinking the traumas were my fault (I feel guilty), and that I must relive it in order to be a better person... I have BPD, and I hate it. The feeling of being guilty of the trauma and "wanting" to relive it, and therefore hurting my emotional state because of the flashbacks... Does anyone have any tips?
You are such a sweet system. I love all of you. You have all helped me to better cope with my own mental illnesses. Thank you!💜
Love how your hair has washed out! I'm bleaching my hair right now and I've been wondering more about flashbacks lately so this video is really appreciated. Love you guys and your channel
I can’t even explain how much your videos have helped me to understand my own ptsd and bpd. I’m 35 and my trauma started at the age of 4, and all the doctors and therapy I’ve been to/through, I’ve learned the most from your channel. I hate to say this but I just feel like the whole mental health system has let me down thus far, and these videos are what keeps me going right now. You’ve taught me more about my specific disorders than any therapist/psychiatrist I’ve been to over the years. I have no one in my life that supports me or truly believes what I go through on a daily basis as I try to work through the trauma I’ve experienced throughout my life. I have no family left and no true friends, so I feel so alone in this sometimes, not having anyone to talk to that can help me work through all of these emotions. And even though I don’t know you and I can’t talk to you directly, you give me that validation and I just can’t even put into words how much I appreciate that. You are truly an amazing person and I’m so grateful that I found this channel. I’m going through a lot as I just recently got sober a year ago, and I’m trying to learn how to actually process all of these memories as opposed to just burying them with drugs. There are days where giving up seems like the only option to get through the pain of trying to understand why all of this happened to me. But now, I look to these videos for that information and advice I’ve been desperately reaching out for, for the last 30 years of my life..and you’ve restored my hope and given me that strength I need to keep pushing through every day. So, thank you from the bottom of my heart!!!!
One time I ran downstairs because I heard my parents yelling and I was crying and I saw my parents sitting down smiling and I was really confused.
I'm a year late here - but this is possibly the best video on flashbacks I've ever watched. Ever. 'I have trauma from 2016', I feel you, I have trauma from 2015, also one of many. This video describes my experiences exactly. Thank you ❤️
Thank you for making this video. I never felt valid before now - because I was having these partial flashbacks but was assuming that what I was feeling wasn’t “real ptsd” because it wasn’t full flashbacks. The way you touched on the variety of triggers really meant a lot to me because when I’m triggered, often people around me don’t understand why. Thank you so much 💕💕💕
So please correct me if I’m wrong, but is Chloe saying that the terrified feeling in the pit of my stomach that I experienced for a few seconds this morning due to my mother saying something that reminded me of a scary incident in my past was an emotional flashback? Or is this feeling too weak for that and I was just scared of something bad happening again.
No, that's an emotional flashback and the alternative you just described is a symptom of PTSD.
Thanks guys. Just making sure!
Sounds like an emotional flashback to me. ❤️ I get that same feeling sometimes when something like that happens.
If your really curious, you should ask a professional. Once they get to know you, they can tell you the difference between trauma and ptsd. No one truly knows you from the comments, so I recommend a therapist or someone with experience. :))
Sounds like trauma
9:06 when you said its like looking at a film I jumped out of my hair saying “Yes! Exactly! Oh my god...” Thank you for helping me validate my experiences with PTSD and understand them a bit more throughout this entire video. I’ve been going in between stages where I doubt myself with my experiences and embracing my experiences. This definitely helped ground my pursuit to embrace them. Thank you!!
She's so beautiful, it hurts.
Thank you for this, so much. Nobody takes my triggers seriously, not even my therapists. Its so freeing to have someone be so validating. Sending love to you all.
Thank you for explaining this so well!💞💞
Man I just respect you so much. Thank you for all you do. I don’t have DID but struggle with mental health issues and your channel has helped me not be ashamed of what goes on in my head. You made me realize I need to work on healing every single day not just when things get bad. Thank you for being open, thank you for sharing, educating and being you.
omg!! i love y'all!! i have d.i.d too and its so hard, if the dissociadid system see this i love u so much, i love the video's thank u for making them
Chloe
i've been watching your videos for a while now, and i finally wanted to say something. im 19 years old, and have ptsd from childhood experiences. i also dissociate a lot, and that's something i'm still digging into with my therapist. coming across you channel, i simply wanted to know more about how other people deal with trauma, not so much from a curiosity standpoint, but because it really just makes me feel less alone. i can't connect with anyone else on that level, so hearing you talk so beautifully about life, and breaking these terrible stigmas, makes me cry with hope and adoration. i've come to look up to you, and what you do, which is weird for me because although i am always very kind and helpful towards people, i rarely trust. looking up to you is scary for me, because it's this weird kind of trust i didn't have growing up. i want to say that i wish the best for you, always, and you deeply move me. this world can be really hateful, but, as you've shown me, it can truly change for the better.
best wishes,
Your fan
Got this link from a person with flashback issues and you informed me well
To anybody suffering from PTSD and other mental illnesses, I just want to say you guys are so brave. You guys are warriors. Don't ever let anybody make you believe otherwise. I take a bow to the everday battle you fight. Sending lots of love and hugs.
Thank you, thank you, thank you. I needed this video. I've only just come to accept that I have PTSD. This is so helpful
Your videos always make me feel so calm and more understanding of my own and others situations.
I never FULLY realized I was having PTSD until this. I was in a car accident in 2012 and was diagnosed with fibromyalgia. Many mental health specialists barely mentioned or explained PTSD because I didn't think I experienced it not being the full on thing. I do however experience a lot emotional and some physical flashbacks almost every time I'm in a vehicle, which I never really understood until now!
So, thank you for doing what you are!