Deep Storytelling Hip Hop/Rap Beat "Confessions" (Prod. Contrary Beats) 2016
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literally in love with this beat oh my god, wrote a masterpiece to it within an hour, thanks a lot
Every time I hear it. The tears never stop
Sometimes you have to breakdown to a billion pieces to know how to be solid. I pray that day comes.
I wrote this a few years back, to this beat. Was dealing with really bad depression and had to let it out. Around last October I started a new job which changed my life, while I have times the depression still sneaks in, the negative thoughts last a fraction of the time they used to. Rather than being in a funk for weeks, or months on end... Now it's days, or hours. This beat helped me express a lot of my frustrations 💕💕💕
I've got a confession, and it wont be news to some
see some people pay attention, and others, I swear that they're dumb
Some people care about me, when others just pretend
self absorbed with no emotion, for a lonely man
No I don't want your pity, that is not my goal
But I want to tell a story, before I rip out my soul
See I've been slowly losing my mind, feelin like theres no where to go
This is the life, of a man, with a death wish, and no trigger to pull
I joined the Army when I was 17
I thought, if I died serving my country at least I will be seen
As a hero, instead my family seemed, like they were happy for me to go and just die off in another scene
See all I want is a little love and compassion, and in my opinion, that ant all that much to be askin, for
see when I look into your eyes I see hatred growing, more and more and I see the fire and the rage you're exposing
See I don't care that our beliefs are that different, but if you wanna bring it up expect its something ill listen, and that ill conversate on, and ill use it as my mission, to use this topic to create a bond that we be missin.
See it seems to me like all along that we've been drifting, our intrests are slowly fading and our conversations slippin
And if I don't conform to everything that you believe, it seems like someday soon, you will be rid of me... rid of me...
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So I'm thinkin right now that i should take a break
from everybody in my life, because they all are fake
Right now im like "How was your day"? "How are you doing?" But I don't listen to your response cause it ant fluid
you repeat the same shit, its never nothing new.
We never have a conversation I consider true.
If i try to get political, or try to speak my views, you shout, and you yell, just like an ignorant fool!
see and in the end, you act like it was my fault. I didn't ask for your opinion or for your views at all. All I tried to do was respond, when you spoke you peace, and when i tried to do the same, i was met with heat.
See there's no way to deny now that we've been drifting, and I can tell that you hate me, there ant no way i could miss it.
I can't lie I hate myself, but its mainly cuz of you, throwin your son to the side, because of your views. Am i really that worthless? Am I really worth loosin? Are you crazy and I'm right? or am i crazy because of you two? See right now I'm confused and I'm split up in more then two views, because if i combine you two, I promise i will lose too.....
I'm really depressed and I can't deny, I bought a bag of apples, and i made a pill full of cyanide, I wont take it as i write this, but ima keep it around, and if you ever hear this song... just know, that im takin it now
Call this my confession or my suicide note, say that its just depression or some shit that i wrote, but i promise if this becomes something that I upload, just know my bodies lying still with vomit fillin my throat.
See I'm tired of this hateful life, all i want is love. For someone not to feel obligated just to hug, I don't need relatives I need a fucking family, but I'm feelin all alone and I'm done, with not being happy....
This shit hard asf 😮
Got all these confessions in my mind
The more I hold on tight I just dont feel right
I might just take flight with what I have left inside
The pain is a rush just one I cant hush
One that's a must confess my pain till end when I'm done
Fall on the floor calling to god just seeing my face
As I stand their in place staring at my face thinking I'm a whole different race something in life I just cannot face
Nice. Keep going!
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Nice
Hey you. Yes you. random person that I will never meet. I truly hope that you will find happiness in life. Today is going to be a great day.
Thank you. You too!
Jesus Christ gives true happiness. Believe me when I say this.
"Never the same, found my bestfriend slain. I tell myself i was the source of her pain.... back to the bottle to drink away the rain.... But now its got me shackled, and chained. this addiction is what started this confliction, going through life without a fucking mission."
I know its shit, and i cant write very well.
I cant even finish...
I love you, Mom.
thank you.
Honestly, i wish you continued.
I liked it! but I feel u, wit the lyrics not exactly feel ya but I can relate, keep that head up high!
Nicholas It's not shit, keep writing yo
very well written and i see talent in those lines the way they are written. write more
Yea i keep tryna make that connection
You know the one they call love
But no im toxic and i spread like infection
In capable of getting some affection
At this point i can’t even recognize myself
My arms all cut up in a mirrors reflection
God please point me in the right direction
i’ve always felt like I'm always alone
The fake me is all people have ever known
Maybe its cause thats all ive eva shown
So now i’m just gonna keep to myself
You know, stay in my zone
You won’t even talk to me the over the phone
Now look
who woulda guessed that i could ever be this fucking depressed. Oh wait you people already assumed that cuz the way that i dress. Shit i cant even confess, you know why? How about you take a second guess. Fuck i cant even deal with all this stress I’ll never find success. I guess its just all part of the process.
Every time i try to find love it backfires.
I burn every thing down like a wildfire.
It’s pointless, i’ll never find what i desire.
Cuz all i am is some fucked up drug addict and a liar.
Im done with this shit
ima go to back supplier
Light up and keep gettin higher and higher.
Even you bitches sing it like some fucking choir.
Shit you people basically put my entire ass on the fucking fryer
And why does caring about someone gotta be so complicated
You won’t even tell me how you feel
So why are you always getting frustrated
Because i don’t know what’s the big deal
Its like all this shit was just fabricated
Cuz love shouldn’t be so far gone and unreal
It shouldn’t have gotten me so devastated
And now im just full of hatred
What can i say
You made me this way
I waited for you
Every fucking day
Hoping that we would make it through okay
But no it’s always because something’s wrong with me. So why won’t a single one of you say anything because i can’t see. I don’t know what it takes to be the man you fucking want me to be. Might as well cast me to sea cuz you dont want a fucking thing to do with me.
I gave my heart to you
And for some reason after all this time
i can only think of you
Even all that shit you fucking put me through
I can’t get you out my motha fucking head
And now i don’t know what to do.
Im thinking about all the shit you said
And I shoulda knew
All of it wasnt true
I had no fucking clue
im guessing it was just over due
And if only i known that i was worth not shit to you
I might as well be fucking dead to you
Even though i fucking loved you
Even all the things i would do for you
I guess it never even mattered
And now im just laying her all alone
With my heart shattered
So fuck you
Ima go smoke weed
And then ima go get hammered
Fucken 🔥keep writing they will hear you soon enough
Nice lol ❤️
Straight fire😲
Can I use this lyrics
Sick beat bro, really dope!
Thank you mate!
hi bro 😀
Love you AGP!
Perfect! The beat gives a lot of inspiration for me!
You are really “doing it diffrent”. I think there are maybe 5 beat makers on youtube that make nice or special beats and you are one of them. They often have a (in my opinion) very unique sound💯
Thank you!
had depression since I was eight
mom beats me almost every day
have had four suicide attempts to date
mental problems I just can't shake
therapist can't save me it's way too late
I do believe I have a nasty fate
Dam
Stay strong my brother💪🙏
Strong man you have to write Song
Plz stay strong
yo,keep ur head up,just remember ur not alone,i can feel you bro
Man this beat is amazing and so are all of your beats. Don't stop doing what you do.
Thank you!
I Think to myself I'm all alone
Tryna Stand tall on my Own
But Everything Ive known has Blown to pieces
open Season Bullet Holes Mentally Repeated
Like I'm bein Choked by demons
my ears stay alert and aware
Listening to the Hell in the Air
hope with prayer nope I'm scared
grab a Rope and Prepare to tie up all of this Crazy
even I Hate me you couldn't pay me to try and save me
Woke up again in hadeas My Sleep just a Day Dream
Spacing out again thinking about how maybe I can make some changes
somehow take my life and Remake it Rearrange or erase it
one bullet hole is all it would take to Escape this
Hatred Painted in a way God Would try and Frame Bitch
Forever in eternal Flames I sit with patience in amazement
Wonder how he made this Lifes Like A Puzzle By all the Free Masons
and all we think we need I s Vacation
Gotta get it off my mind
Were all gonna die And We don't even know if we'll find the other side
but on another line its suicide Spending all of our time online
status update who am I
Look in the Mirror You are Kind
You are Pride
You are Dead And Alive
You Survive even though You Are Blind
So you Look to the Sky
And Try and Picture Love With a Different Mind
See Faith as the Blizzards Cry
Somedays are rougher then others
Silently Screaming as you Suffer
Standing Still in space stuck in Hover
And it Only gets Tougher
In ya Head Screamin mother Fucker
all these cock suckers have me Under the Weather
Crumbling like Faulty Architechture
Invisibly Supported by "Our Protectors"
Our Forever We Remember in Black and White its Hypnotic treasure
Standing at The Bottom Of Olympus Screaming all September
No Wish you well on your endevours awake to luminescent embers
in a white wall Epicenter White jacket professors no love all business
No Fall together they all pretenders if they in ya image ya twisted
I see you on the horizon a shadow in the distance
havin all the answers but the one where you contradicted
Adam And Eve More like Competition Opposites clouding our common senses
I'm paying for hell before college tuition
Dope beat bro!
+Jurrivh Thanks man, glad you liked it!
@@ContraryBeats You Should Check out what I did with your instrumental, i'm not taking credit or trying to earn money off it. I used the beat because its hella sick and I love making the music!!! But if you see this and get the chance check it out.
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40 days, 40 nights
It never ends
It never fucking ends
It eats away at me
But I live with it, it's worth it
I keep telling myself that
Over and over this overpass of madness that
The ends justify the means
I recollect, I reminisce
Knowing full well acceptance must precede forgiveness
I secede my wits, concede my sins
Hopefully my mind ain't playing tricks on me
Cuz half the time I feel Iike I'm a monster in the making
Haunted by the voices I created
It's like I'm a schizophrenic
This goes from feelin' like a gift
To a stroke of genius
To fuckin' mental illness
I'm taken back, sedated
I'm lost I need savin
Cuz I was subdued, used, abused, fucking cursed
I was seduced, turned to words, I hope I escape this soon
Through this path I learned fast
I found meaning, I never asked
Perhaps my reach exceeds my grasp
The past is but a pillar of salt
Break it down, don't look back
Has a song ever spoken to you so much
Like the author knew your thoughts?
So taken back and stunned
Has someone ever hit you so hard
You just can’t get back up
Wondering if it’s love or lust
The words trail off
With the battles we won
And now I’m heartbroken before it even started
I can’t put it into words
So I put it in this verse
With my emotions
Hurtin searchin for the verses to fit them
for a spark, for a purpose
Hashem give me somethin'
He said
Emotions are emotions cuz we can't control them
Dr Zaius was right, man is ruled by them
Cuz I know I fucking am
They go hand and hand with wisdom
or however the fuck he phrased it
I can’t speak the unspoken
And I hate it
Relive the hopes and
So I wrote some notes in hopes of knowing my own hardship
In efforts to understand it
Composed with the ghost
Still self loathing, making amends, hoping these roads
Lead me back to our first moment
I can’t contain these thoughts
I can’t escape them, it comes, it goes
It haunts me, goes behind my eyes to my mind
And takes me to the places I never wanted to be
I can’t say it so I rap it
Like it’s a fucking language
Another episode and I’m trapped
Mad, ecstatic, I’m about to explode
About to erupt in my sadness
We lock eyes outside the commons
Take me back to it
I can’t live for the past nor fear the hardship before it happens,
I just want to live for the moment
Walking across that stone bridge, starin at my reflection
The voices come back and I listen
I murder these verses along with them
So please take this in
I listen to my heart like I did from the start
I saved room for two, an empty space for you
And that space is now a bruise
And it’s bleedin
I want to trust it, but it’s broken
I pick up the pieces
Make a masterpiece without thinkin
But inside I’m still screamin
Turn the pages, hoping the tale never ends
I took my heart
Dug a hole, made some space
Now I fear I'm digging a grave
For when this love turns to pain
It’s just a sad chapter, and these rhymes just come by chance
I’m at war with myself, I need help
I’m helpless against the visions
Of burning chariots inside my head
I feel the divine along with it
Cryptic and puzzled and scrambled as it is
I still get the sense that there is something more to this
It’s not random static but a sort of regulated madness
A planned predetermined path to transcendence
So I dance to the music that is my moonlit path to it
I meditate on it, I go from corner to corner like Akeva instructed in the Talmud, feet together, shuckling
Like Ezra once did
Shoulder to shoulder with this that and the other
I duck my head hopin this angel and devil will shoot each other
Because I’m at the edge
My mind’s in the promised land
My soul’s stuck in neverland
My people lost in rhineland
But my heart is in your hands
Until the end
I’ve spiritual cried on how many times I’ve spiritual died to become the man that applies all these lines to the blind to wake everyone to the rise I see the constellation in your eyes my heart is always on the rise I couldn’t comprehend with words in my mind how much your love is bound around my heart like a crown no run around when love is the circle of all I don’t look down my ego is a Placebo Polluting my vibes like a gazebo I go 0 to 100 real quick tho I’ve been the thorn your been the rose you would break your neck on all I’ve wrote trying to keep up
Part 2]
Hallo Baba, ich hoff', du hörst das
Das hier sind meine allerletzten Wörter
Vielleicht welche, die ich noch nie gesagt hab'
Aber ich bin immer stolz auf dich, Baba
Immer noch fühlt es sich wie ein Spaß an
Du warst in unsern Arm'n, als der Tag kam
Als du meinen Kleinen in' Arm nahmst
Wusstest du, dass die Reise schon nah war
Du hast die Stärke vom Bär
Du hast das Herz eines Elefanten
Du bist als funkelnder Stern
Von dieser Erde gegangen
Man kann deinen Platz nicht ersetzen
Für uns wird es jeden Tag deutlich
Ich kann mich mit zwanzig Mann treffen
Für mich bleiben’s immer nur neunzehn
Andre waren rechts und links, du warst immer gradeaus
Ich wusste, wenn ich ehrlich bin, du passt immer auf uns auf
Du hast die ganzen letzten Monate alles immer in dir aufgestaut
Aber keine Sorge, Baba, wir erfüll’n dir auch diesen letzten Traum
Du hast dein Leben lang für uns geschuftet, als es nicht mehr nötig war, wurdest du krank
Und anstatt deine Zeit mit der Fam zu genießen, war das Ende für dich der Dank
Vielleicht bist du nicht mehr da, aber wir machen jeden Tag für dich Dua
Wir sind immer an deiner Seite, bleiben ein Leben lang an dei'm-
They judge me cause I'm different but I'm also only human
My friends talk behind my back saying that I always lie
But all this worth it, at the end I'll get what I wanted
U wanna fight me and when I come front to fight u, you run away cause you know I'm stronger than you
Those lies, the hatred, the betrayals are all my strong points cause I know I'm worth more than that
If wanna know what's my weak point then come and give me little bit love
You sure do know I'm more stronger than this cause I can fight the devil if needed
U want u can betray me it won't affect me cause I'm only me and there is no devil inside or beside me.
Got y'all I'm bless this beat shit crazy made cry on my life im about to drop pain on this
Best Deep Rap Beat i have ever heard!! Great Dude🙌🏼
yesss bro ! artists better put some respek on this beat. you can spit real shit to this !!
Haha, for real bro ;)
aye, you tryin to let me use this beat for a rap imma put on youtube, not making money, just wanna make some shit with this tight ass beat
Mubz Got Beats I will 4 sure bro and post it beautiful beat
Awesome beat bro,I had to push the repeat button several times,very interesting violin...sounds really great!
Wow thanks man! Glad you liked it :)
My cousin sister, my dearest just passed away at a very young age not 2 hours ago. I heard a song speak to me and this was it! thank you for sharing...😭
I'm sorry for your loss, my sincerest condolences
Father forgive this sinner all I ever wanted was to be a winner now it's winter but my heart is colder then the snow I gots no place to go how can I show you that I care these thoughts in my mind I can't bear I'm in for a scare when I look in the mirror I'm my own worst fear I drown in this liquor wishing I would die quicker, I'm so scared to pull the trigger I'm a coward I'm weak I'm a fucking freak so I hurt myself at night hiding in my room waiting for the gun to go boom my soul is a tomb maby I should look to shrooms I'm doomed I'm worthless I'm nothing I deserve this pain forget my name call me failed a shell of a man with no plan...
I can't even fucking rhythm right I'm done
this was nice
this is nasty man keep it up
Don't stop writing...
As I look around I see a lot of broken soles/Nobady wanting life/the devil gets a pull.../
Uplifted Garage S197 thank you
I threw away my heart Ill never plan to love again
Friends from the start
An now we enemies like “fuck you then”
Lost all of my trust
Enoughs, enoughs
Learned from all my mistakes
I didn’t think that youd be one
You paved the way of pain
I only learned
to accept the stains
Battle scared from more than hate
I lost my mind to love
the real that you had
I only seen the fake
So close an yet so far
My heart an brain seem the same
You pray to god that I’m okay
But I don’t feel a thang
Confessing secrets to you
Thought that yous a saint
I bought every lie you sold me
Now I can’t afford to wait. -Kane
That's dope Bru..
Dark days I was staying up late
Knew I was alive but I didn’t have faith
Can’t find destiny I just couldn’t find fate
Mental in the head destined to be great
but i looked up, in the midst of the storm
i trusted God had my back,
And that I was never alone
👍🏾✌🏾
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Here I lay again tonight with the same thoughts on my mind
The thoughts of you when our love was in a better time
You never known how much I loved you but that's alright i will still lay here trying to make it through this lonely life
the only one to judge me heard me walking thru the shadows the one i fear the most help me thru my conscience battles focused on today cause the hate is so damn shallow
most of them snakes with no heart they just rattle
Just hold me so tight
don’t let me go
I’m sick of running
I’m sick of hiding
I’ve been stuck in a hole
Since I was six years old
I’ve been miles down
Not able to climb out
I’ve been clawing and scratching
To find my way out
My life has been cold, dark and sad
Ive never been able to choose the right path
But i will never look back
I’m sick of the lies
But let me tell u a fact
I’m only moving forward
I’m not gonna let anyone fight my battles
I am not gonna choose
Whether I live or die
Cause I know my destiny
So does him up above
God put me on this earth
For something much greater
I know I have a purpose
I just got to find it
But I don’t know where to start
My brain is tryin to figure it out
But All my thoughts
They Are all jumbled up inside
I don’t know where to go
My head is hurtin and
I feel like I’m about to explode
God please help me
I need to find my purpose
Because suicide wasn’t a option
I had to think about family
But my depression
Was slowly driving me insane
I think this is it for me I’m done
Being trapped inside this prison cell
I’m taking off my chains right now
I’m putting my coat back on
Ima go and seek for the light
Because once I find it
I’m going to spread the truth
AMEN
AND
Just like my daddy said to me
“Don’t look 5 minutes ahead of you
Look 5 years down the road”
Sincerely,
This is my life
And now u have heard my story
I have passion for what I write
For my name isn’t Austin
But it’s Austin Ryan Zenzen
Part 2 of 2
Confessions of my sins
Where do i begin with my unholy eyes
I wanted easy professions
I had to take school sessions
Learn from my mistakes cuz they were thwir own lessons
Ask god to help with some blessings
Start my mind off renew refreshing
I want to be know as a legend or s king
But i think their is more to life then just leaving a marking
Then just being on top of all the marketing
I needed to start seeking my story
Tarketing my path
Cuz it couldnt be solced with science or math
I aint no physchopath or sociopath
Underestimate me feel my wrath
in my mind I am dying
slowly dividing
from the things that I love
I lost it all when I lost my mind
my sanity given away to find
what hell feels like
yeah I can go back change it all
but I'm used to the pain and I like to fall
i dont let nobody see my depression
I put my trust up for the resurrection
nah I can't change it
I don't got a choice
my hearts to cold
and ive lost my voice
I drink to lose the memory
but it all comes back to me
when I finally lost it
I lost my love
for you and everyone
so enjoy the pain it's fun
you using the drugs you need to use Jesus
claiming hell when you yell for yesus
the years past and I'm not the same
you little girl back then was all sane
nothing hurts anymore I feel no pain
I'm used to it and I need the chance
but I can't it's the same
so go smoke your gold blunt
while I'm on the run dealing with your home boy thinking it's fun
what about when mama don't know what happened
don't know your shot in some alley
and your dealers not happy
you were someone's world but you gave it away that's why trust equals pain and in the end I was no longer sane
so go and get hurt but I had to learn do not trust a bitch who trust their own lies that make your heart burn
I mean I may have used those things to take the edge away
but it's something for real it's not to play
don't get addicted
always be hitting it
swim in your money while your kids Don't got a daddy
is it funny because nobody happy
you lose hope and it hurts to move
I ain’t got nothing left ain’t nothing to lose
but you get used to it
I broke myself tryna fix someone else
pick out my own pieces of my heart for their wealth
you always call me selfish but I gave up everything else
what more can I give I've lost the fight and now I lay awake every night
mufasa was right
bloods thicker than water but even that can't be trusted
maybe if just once you would listen
you can understand me
it takes alot to get me happy
I've taken so much shit
I built a wall and I'm not tryna be hit
pushed around my whole life is it really worth it
I'm sorry for my bad attitude
but to be completely honest
I'm not in the mood
please understand I'm truly nice
but I love in a hole
covered in ice
so if we giving confessions
to be honest is that how it goes?
I needed a friend but all that you told me
was to suck it up and have some fun
two drinks and you'll be done
I needed some help now I'm to far gone
I'm tryna work on myself
but I'm bad in my mental health
all these racist comments and these bodies they flaunt it
the drugs and the guns the hate and the rape
why is diamonds better than your daughter
do you want her just cause she's hotter
all these boys treating girls like toys. I grew up in this world and now I’m impacted to the worst im attracted
this worlds fucked up and it's cruel as can be
but walk a mile and you can see
the only way out is god
and I can guarantee
your help has come just get on your knees and pray
it takes me alot to get in my feelings
but I can't stop and my mind's been reeling
I'm sorry if I hurt you
I'm still tryna feel sane
but I guess I'm stuck with the pain
I wish you would stay
and every day
I get fear that you'll leave
and then I start to greave
over the fact that you hate me
when it's not even true
I got trust issues
BabyGirl damn that was so fuckin hard bars girll ❤💯👏
_Love_Drew_ man that was pretty deep
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nice
Cring
Song got me in my feelings and I don’t rap this style with free styles usually 💯💯🔥🔥
look this is my confession
I've been really stressin
I have lost my way with no direction , asking questions
trying to figure out what is destined
I'm just waiting for a blessing
but I'm not the only one in this session
sadness Is the only thing that's mentioned
In my life there's to much stressing
dealing with it would need some medicine
I have learned my lesson, I want some sleep so I continue resting
I'm not saying this for attention
but getting it off my mind would be the best thing (pause)
The best thing for me and you
saying all of this is what I have to do , just to prove , that people are losing altitude and crashing with no parachute
metaphors is what I use
so you can see it the way I see it too
these people are trying to win , but they just seem to lose ,
it's how most people are introduced
It happened so many times , it feels like deja vuu
but the time to worry is when they keep their cool.
That’s dope
love it man, check my beats out
@BALI VLOGS sorry about the late reply. But yeah of course.
@@Franklin-wo8ho thanks 💯
@Nam beo fasho , it's a must 💪🏼
Rip AGP! ♥
Vibe of God every time he's my guide through life that's mine confessions on these times interlectual at every cost to get it across to much life has been lost
Looking back to the good old days again
The time when we used to be friends
Thought it would never end
But I guess things happen for a reason
My mind is still thinkin and thinkin
About how i didn't quit believin
In time, these thoughts become rougher
And i became tougher at the time
I was mad but I couldn't hold a grudge
I just began to judge
I didn't seem to love like i used to
But in time, I saw our ups
And those days we used to hug
Even though we weren't cuffed
My life molded me
It was really hard to process
Now you've made your progress
I just hope you do well
And hope you do succeed
And don't be like me, where I didn't proceed onward
Trust me, I will move forward
(Hook) 2x
I know what I've done
I know it's been so long
I'm writing a song to say I wish I could go Back Then
I'm spilling out the truth
I regret what I said in the truth
I was really mad at you
But now I feel so stupid
It felt like cupid hit me when I saw you
But now rocks are in my head
I can barely go to bed because
Sometimes i look back to being happy
Sometimes i even break a little
Shake a little
Hate a little
You know, i act like i don't care
I know it isn't fare
I know we shared a link
And in a blink, its all gone
All the fun was just gone
Our friendship was gone
And I'm sorry
We became strangers
To talk one more time would bring me some light
I know we had our fights as friends
But real friends shouldn't end like we did
I don't think we should suffer from our consequences
But we should learn to be more intelligent
I had one last chance of redemption to see you again
But I couldn't wait from the tension
I was too afraid, I know I could have waited that day
I should've went to risk it
You should have seen me change
We could have caught up that day
But now i regret it
Now I regret it
(Hook) 2x
I know what I've done
I know it's been so long
I'm writing a song to say I wish I could go Back Then
"contrary doin' it different."
dope.
The motto aye
It’s not like you’ve been what I’ve gone Trough
Trouble, torturing and sorrow
Don’t try to tell me what to do if you don’t know all of my problems
You say I’m bad when I’m crying
Yeah I’m sad
and what is it, why is it bad?
Don’t have no friends to have my back
Y’all hate me when I’m just being friendly
You don’t get it?
It’s not like I haven’t been praying
Down to my knees every day of the week
Tears coming outta my eyes
No I’m not alright
I hate the pain I hate the hate I hate myself
I hate the race I hate the killers of my only fucking friend
Why would you put a bullet trough his brain
He didnt do nothin
I wish I could replace him
I can’t wipe the sad face but I can wear a mask and hide the pain
I’m like a granade I’m about to go boom
I can’t take no more mentally, physically I’m broken
My momma sick why all of this happens to me
People acting fake out there in the streets
saying that they’re sad when they’re only playing
Shitty people but we have to deal with it
Even though they’re toxic I gotta live with it
Or not?
Why not just end it?
Put a rope around my neck
Blood all over my face
Die and never come back again
Beautiful beat...indeed❤🕊
This is an amazing beat especially at the end. It kinda brings me Eminem bad guy vibe on the final verse
Thanks I appreciate it dude!
Np keep up the good work 👍👌
Chala tha jis rah par
Wohi nikle the gaade kitne
Jinko samjha tha mai aapna
Wo saare the jhoothe sapne
Khabhar thi saari par
Kaboo na tha mujko khud pe
Mushafir banke bhatak raha tha
Khaboo me yun dubb raha tha
Bin rooye mai roo rha tha
Tukdo ko yun saanj rha tha
Khud ko mai sambhal raha tha
Bundo me hi beh raha tha
Tutti takhti saajh raha tha
Sapno ko yun boo raha tha
Haar paal mai yun tut raha tha
Samete yun hazar jhoothe waade wo haazar
Nami ki wo bunde hogae the wo haazar
Kahayalo ke wo nauke pe hi tair raha ta haar baar
Buddhi meri bhrasht thi par mauke mile mujhe hazaar
Check it
This is a story 'bout confessions and betrayals
For the ones walking with they chest out and they head low
With big hearts that never get old
That cared so much but had to leg go
Of everything they loved and at one point even cared for
Talking to the man behind the mirror
Flowing tears from a silent night
So that no one hears
How he miss his dear ones
Like a father to his dear son
A goodbye letter from a silent siren
And there is no one left to dry um
So they keep falling from his face like confessions
Telling the story of how they betrayed him
The tale of a loving father with his 3 little ones
Wish to tell a different story of how love won
But it's still being written till this day for um...
I probably don’t want to hear the answers that I seek
But you got to believe me, I think about it every week
But the most I can do now is wander in our past and
So much to see and do but how long you think this lasted?
Remember the summer night when we stared up at the skies
I’m looking right up at you and your stunning blue eyes
I’m thinking how fast will this time go by
But a lot a times I seem to not like our goodbyes
But you really got to tell me why you tricked me
But maybe in the end this road is too steep to see
Look I know you probably don’t feel the same way about me.
And trust me i do try to think about it differently
But after all these years and after all these tears
I think maybe think is the only thing I’ll ever come to fear
And I wish that you could dream to I wish that you would seem to enjoy whats happening but maybe that’s just me and not you
HappySadBird
LilTrapDog is the first thing that came to my mind when I heard this
Cũng đã tới tuổi 17 nhiều chuyện xảy ra , nó đẩy ta
Rơi , rơi thật sâu trong tâm trạng thối nát
Cũng đã vô tình lạc lối , nhưng mà vẫn kịp kiếm đường ra
Từng mất đi người yêu thương trong gia đình
Cũng lâu r không nghe bài hát em vẫn thường ca
Mọi thứ hình như đang rời xa mình
Cũng trãi cái sự vất vả của ba và mẹ
Cũng đã thích thú những thứ đơn giản như ca và bè
Cũng đã ướt hết cả mi , cũng đã dại khờ bước đến cả khi
Biết đau nhiều hơn vui , tui biết bạn có hạnh phúc nhiều hơn tui
Những bạn có tui không cần , cần cỏ kẹo và ke , tui khôn chứ không đần, dại dột dính nó làm gì
Mọi ng vẫn hoài nghi về năng lực của tao , nên trong lòng tự nhủ phải làm đi
Làm những việc tui m nói là không thể ,
(CHORUS X 2)
^
End me with a gun
stab me In the lungs
I don't give a fuck
Drugs making me numb
Leave me all alone
I don't have a home
Miss the people that are gone
Sad they had to go
Put the knife to my neck
Put a hole in my head
Rip my heart out my chest
Pointless avoiding death
Cause It comes for you next
(VERSE)
I'm trying to menoover my way through the hate to unlock all of my fate which is to be great
When i arrive to my dreams I'm never late
I only escalate
It's like I'm on a escalator
Rising to the top floor
Where I stack my paper
Guess that's just built in
Like death to mother nature war is just men and women dying for a million others instead of the countries unitting to become brothers.
Shit at the end of the day we all have mothers that don't want to see us die and burn the only thing left of us is ashes and earth then back in our home town our mothers are getting killed over the money up in their purse .
I don't know what hurts worse
That were fighting for a country that is broken or that were fighting for people that are giving up hope and robbing an killing eachother
I left iraq and came back to a country that was just as bad
Now I'm unleashing my vision on the street in hope that someone will listen to me .
But nobody's listen that's why we're waiting on world war 3
So I'll just wait on the day that they call upon me to fight another battle over the sea's.
(CHORUS AGAIN X2 )
LOVE WHAT YOU HAVE GUYS CAUSE YOU NEVER KNOW WHEN YOUR GONNA LOOSE IT ....
Wrote a whole song to this beat within about 30 minutes this is an amazing beat man good job👌🏾👌🏾👌🏾
Nick mongold - That is great to hear, thank you!
Let's make some music!!!
Dude I don't know who are you
But you've won my heart man
German lyrics : Ich seh ein Licht, doch sitz verzweifelt in mein Zimmer rum. Die Gedanken laufen weiterhin im Hintergrund. Ich Lauf alleine in den Scherben wenn es regnet und ein Stück von meiner Seele seh ich sterben ich begegne, mir auf eine Weise die ich nicht begegnen will. Wo ist der Lebenssinn? Ich seh mich aggressiv den ich nehms nicht hin...
Lately ive been haven bad thoughts,
So tired of this fight you dont know half the battles i fought,
When i felt pain shelter is not what i sought,
Out to get,
Sometimes i feel like this the worst it can get,
But i know theres so much this world has to give,
And all they can tell you is,
you have to go through it its just how life is,
If thats how it is,
Then fuck this,
You know that feeling fighting with your mind,
Keep promising yourself and the ones you love youll never cross that line,
But you know deep inside,
You just wanna die,
Do so much bad its like your good and bad cant coincide,
I be havent that feeling like im not even alive,
My ex broke my heart to a bunch of pieces
Fake friends sucked me dry like some fucking leaches
Whole family turned against me when I was at my weakest
What hurt the deepest is they knew that I was fightin' demons
I stopped drinkin', had to stop partyin' every weekend
I started reading tryin' to be a better human being
I found purpose then I started changin' like the seasons
I made a switch from mumble rap to rhymin' with a reason
Now the word of mouth is on the hottest out
I heard they love this real shit that I be talking 'bout
A skeleton's trapped in the closet of that haunted house
Gotta perform an excorcism just to get them out
Not today devil, I'm on another level
They gave calls to a rebel rapping for the ghetto
Foot on the pedal like I'm tryin' to win a gold medal
I'm just a vessel that's remindin' women that they special
Fuck a real nigga, I'm a real man
I built this foundation with my bare hands
My supporters are family, I don't call them fans
This shit is deeper than Facebook and Instagram
The ladies fuckin' with me 'cause I give 'em truth
You know the one and only thing they never got from you
I mixed my dreams with a mustard seed and it finally grew
I never thought I'd ever live to see a million views
But this is what that jungle do
tight beat really inspiring
Ima make us go from this to, to the greatest who ever lived
Remember this comment.
Much love (HADES) ¥
Father forgive of my past it was a smashed up glass, I couldn't see clearly but now I'm singing up to you above the judge if you can hear me hear this prayer cause life doesn't feel fair I need some support, some love that I've never been taught so come and give me some love from above I need that blessing in my life cause everyday feels like a fight and my fists are clenching tight ready to swing at anything that comes my way, it's hard to say I don't know what to do when I feel low, where do I go and how do I know that they want the best for me all of this is like a test for me but im failing and I should be sailing but I just go around in a cycle my thoughts attack me then I feed off that no wonder I'm so low while I hop on this flow trying to reach out with a prayer of my despair
Yeah.
I love mellow beats man...
I cried when I heard this beat while freestyling
really feeling these beats man keep grinding. I find these beats easy to rap to. excellent work g.
I've never claimed to be perfect
But I better get this off of my chest
before it can resurface
It better be worth it
Before I lace my pain in these words
I feel a knot in my chest
I'm not at my best
I confess that the shame is absurd
So fuck what you heard
Murderous thoughts
Mixed up with my earlier plots
When I heard you were shot
I dropped the phone and ran out the door
It really shook me to the core
I went looking for a war
Like it would settle the score
If I just let the bullets soar
I opened my stash and loaded the shells
Debating my chances of going to Hell
Fucked up, with no one to tell
Luck's up, like things were going so well
Hopped in the Stang with a loaded up 12
Felt a little pain that I wasn't concerned at
Then I felt drained and everything turned black
In my mind I'm dying
slowly dividing
gave up on fighting
cos I know a lone soldier will never win
just keep on crying
it's hard to hide it
and the Seekers always find it
life ain't a game
it's all reality
I think I'm losing my sanity
face facts this is humanity
why is god so damn mad at me
' I don't feel vanity'
' everybody has that rarity'
don't try to target me
do I look like a messed up game of archery
cos your shots are so on point they go right through my arteries
it really hurts
depression really hurts oppression really hurts
confession really hurts
the truth really hurts
the lies really hurt
to the point where you might give up and leave yourself in the dirt
fire
I love all of your beats! Keep up the good work Contrary!
Thank you! Glad you like 'em
Is it bad to admit that I'm nervous
Maybe teary eye an alot could stain the service
May the pain I feel inside possibly have a purpose
I used to walk around with a ego so why
Could feel like a eagle that's fly
Maybe I just have the fear of being a regular guy
Just a man who tries to get by shoots for the sky
It's so hard no wonder the suicidal rate is so high
I'm just tryna keep a hold of what is mine
We got a family and kids I don't wanna say goodbye
I do my best to hustle and provide
We didn't know there were twins that laid beneath
I'll do whatever for my kids there's no way I'll meet defeat
Take a seat wait an see I'ma solve this mystery
I'll no longer make history this game no longer misses me
Still stumbling with chicken feet
I got confessions on my mind it's just hard to say it
Emotions are delicate there hard to play with
Oceans are waving I'm hoping and praying
No longer moping or laying I ain't chillin or playing
Who would of thought kc ain't doing blow
Sober thoughts now it's even harder to flow
The scars from my late night battles finally show
It's cold I don't wanna go thru this no more
This battles whipping me physically
I'm not asking for sympathy just mentally
This pain will stop eventually
Tho maybe I just need to mature
I never looked my problems in the face an felt so unsure
I never looked at my flaws for what they are never felt so insecure
I had friends I was real to
No surprise I still do
I got friends that owe me money
Then they started acting funny
Then they started judging me
i remeber seeing my daddy commit crimes those were the times. even if he wasnt doing good at least he was alive i would always rely. i am follwingg the same steps my father took if only someone would look and see im hurtin. i stay high never runnin low on supply not sure if i wanna live. fuck it ill keep living life until then ima smoke til i croak. only way to relive m y pain is mary and you will always see me high if i aint its rarely
Great to see this one finally up! Turned out amazing man.
Thanks man, appreciate your feedback throughout!
This my confession so once get it gonna need you to R.I.P the message
I been struggling with depression so I put a bag over my head and stretched it
But it's the way I started gasping that had me laughing, think I'm psychopathicly inactive
But the fear is how would I use this information, that I learn about myself
I'm really dark intentioned forgot to mention, so evil is probably leaking out my ass hole
But everyday I keep thinking who I be, if I had a better past
But I'm just keeping it honest, so don't think I want an opinion
I just sharing what I'm thinking, only asking you to listen
So you know something about me, that is different
So don't try an pick apart my confession, cause you second guessing if you even understood the message
But it's just poison, that seep it to my veins from trauma, I had let my brain just fill up with venom
But I think that it took control of my body, and made me a bad person
Cause I not optimistic, but sure I can see a brighter future
Only after destruction, the flames will have the people screaming
But I'm just keeping it honest, but I'm not going to be the one to do it
So if something happens I'm apologizing in advance, excuse me mr. Slash him bloody, sorry devils making me do it stupid, I'm only feeling the unconscious movements
i feel really a strong sad vibe from that . good job .
I do this for the people that are struggling to leave the ends
You see the pain driving all your friends around the bend
Im I’m the rain I see the shame so no won’t I pretend
Never in vain, I see no change that’s why I depend
On writing rhymes just to express my frame mind at night
Strong
I wish my friend knew
I love him...
hope he/she does 😁
Nam eutai vayepani pahichan cha beglai
Dekhne ley ni sodhcha kina hidirachas eklai
Dukha tero k ho kancha maya lagcha herdai
Hidirako hunchu ma chai sisha mathi tekdai
Moj cha hai talai vanchan vetne manche testai
Hajarau cha pida hidirako chu ma bechdai
Aama pani nirash kati basirako eklai
Afno matrai sahara cha, baschu sabda lekhdai
bhinna badha haru chirdai ma chai aghi badirachu
afai bich ko manobad ma afai sanga ladirachu
Baira herda santa tara bhitra bata jalirachu
Lagcha dikka malai afnai kotha bhitra sadirachu
Mah.. afnai manobadh ma ladirachu mahh
Afnai kotha bhitra sadirachu mahh
Chot ley nasta vako mutu pida kati baljiracha
Paristhi dekhda afno mutu ahti tadpiracha
Kotha bhitra sarir dimag bhane antai dauriracha
Antaratma marisakyo bhitra aatma vadkiracha
Vadkirako aatma lai kasari aba santa garu
Bolnu man hudaina chupchap lagi baschu baru
Kholnu man hudaina malai bitisakya kura haru
Kaile kai ta lagcha baru sabai chodi jhundi maru
Kada sari mero man lai ful majha sajayeu
Chokho maya honi vandai timle afai batayeu
Mahina saal bitepachi jaat timle jatayeu
Lamo thyo kahani tara pana chitai paltayeu
Marna lagya janawar lai k tha swad daya ko
Ghrida garna layek chaina gham haina ma Chaya ho
Dhan ma timi bikeuu ani sacho tesko gayab bho
Falipaap Chau timi Tara khacho huncha Maya ko
Maya ko tyo khacho parda Malai timi samjhanu
Baki abaa saas chaina kehi xedd Lai parkhanu
Atit ka ti kura samjhi katti aba tadpanu
Maya marisakyo aba pardaina la farkanu
krass.. steckt echt viel Gefühl drin. Respekt
Danke bro!
Pieces of mind escapin' the skyscrapers of shaken demise waken a sacredness I've contemplated erasing my patience racing to drive- can't hit the brakes for I've taken a path of no escape and it's aching
Think it's time I finally said something
Love turned to nothing
Heart is so sunken
Through the pain but I stayed
Up and
Went to school did what I was supposed to do
Then a friend called me up
And asked if I wanted to skip school
Now I just thought it wasn't cool
But I still went
Like there was no rules
The message was never sent
To my head like hey man
What are you doing?
Like amen
Stay in school
Don't do drugs
Don't do what I did back then
My future is what I was looking forward to
Then I turned 16
And my childhood is overdue
Did the right thing stayed inside
Cramped up every night
With nothing to do
But I was alright
Broken too
I was fragile
Nobody ever turned to me
Been in the district for 6 years
But they never heard of me
Cos I decided to stay to myself
I was not going to be
The one that had a problem with everyone
I knew I was an outcast
Cos I didn't talk to anyone
I hate to confess
But I'm not like the rest
Cos even though I'm a loner
I'm not the one to waste my breath
I think it's time to finally put my soul to rest
Cos no one ever cared for me
But I always did my best
Therapist never helped
They tried to send someone else
Had a few problems under my belt
No one understood how bad I felt
My problems weren't the only one that we're dealt
My girl back at home
She always tryna kill herself
Everytime that we hang
Had to put the gun a shelf
Can't let her die young
she's alive with good health
She's really amazing
All she needs is all the help
We can't take it
Can't make it
Our lives have been hell
bout start writing. again i think it will help me over come all the stress and pain i feel i been writing. for. a min now i want to take it to the next level
Gestern warst du bei mir, heut' sind wir getrennt
Ich war es nicht, du hast die Beziehung beendet
Du hast mich geliebt und jetzt bist du nicht da
Gehe nicht mehr nach draußen, als wäre ich im Käfig gefangen
Weißt du noch, als du in meinen Armen lagst
Weißt du noch man, als wir beide zusammen waren
Ich glaube, du hast das alles hier vergessen
Jetzt bin ich alleine und kann durch das ganze Schmerz nichts mehr essen
Nicht schlafen, nicht lachen, ich kann es nicht ohne dich
Wir waren so Glücklich, es tut mir weh, wenn du Fort bist
Baby, fühlst du mein Schmerz oder mein Herz?
So viele Jahre, ich nahm uns beiden sowas von ernst
Du anscheinend nicht, sag' mir, bist du jetzt froh?
Ich fühle mich verloren, einsam und Tot
Okay, ich hab' zwar den Fehler gemacht, dass du nicht mehr kommst
doch ich bitte dich Baby, gib' mir eine zweite Chance
Gib' mir eine zweite Chance
Ich hab es zwar nicht verdient, aber es wäre Lieb
Gib mir eine zweite Chance
Der Streit war gestern, ich werde mich verändern
Gib mir eine zweite Chance
Gib mir bitte eine zweite Chance
Du bist mein Glück, komm' bitte zurück
Gib mir bitte eine Chance, sonst werde ich verrückt
Während du zuhause warst, war ich mit Freunden
Ich hatte kaum Zeit für dich, aber heute
verspreche ich dir, dass ich mehr für dich da bin Schatz,
denn als du gegangen bist, hab' ich viel nachgedacht
Es tut mir Leid, dass ich manchmal sauer war
Ich hab es nur getan, weil ich dich Liebe
Wenn du nicht da bist, fühlt es sich grausam an
Bitte, komm zurück, meine Geliebte
Ich hab zwar ein kaltes Herz, doch jetzt ist für die Liebe bereit
Vergiss die Zeit, lass' es neu probieren,
I cannot pay for this beat but I am interested in making a song using this beat, can you please help me out? I will give you due credit and will be very thankful.
Use a shattered life to slit my throat; (0:13)
Alone a husk with half a soul;
Unholy ghost a contract it wrote;
Death’s a gamble you don't want to fold;
In advance please forgive me for these words once spoke-en;
(short pause)
No hope to sell;
Back against the wall I cry for help;
Bloody knuckles beat the hustle;
No remorse what is this hell?
My mistakes;
Agitation complacent punishment for this pain I've dealt;
Imagination buckles discrepant chains;
Containment wains a damaged cell;
Swear to God if I don't find solace in time
I MIGHT KXLL MYSELF
(short pause)
(change flow)
SIGHT
It's all that I want;
All that I search for but only find
LIES
Your advice so useless;
It's so fucking stupid but I take it so
BLIND
The eyes God gave me so fucking hazey;
Just another
LOSS
They said never give up;
I never gave up;
FOR WHAT?!
They told me purpose;
It's now what I want;
All that I search for but only find
SHAME
Your advice so useless;
It's so fucking stupid but it drowns out some of the
PAIN
Illicit shit right off the mental;
Impromptu at best your message is so fucking
FAKE
They said never give up;
I never gave up;
FOR WHAT?!
I’m in so much damn denial and you’re so damn wrong;
Fuck life if its so full of this stupid suicidal shit;
I knew life was a bitch once I became conscious of my consciousness knowledgeable that I’ll never win;
Hell with success whats the distinction between life/ death/ failure I’ll never grasp;
Seldomly held captive unrealistic distractions infatuated by everything except my own past;
Insidious disasters desecrated my imagination weak should be eliminated;
Personality wiped clean by a magic eraser; (1:33)
No sensation; (1:35)
Drove most who meant well away disturbed/ panic-stricken;
Suits well for the actions I’ve done and thought of taking;
Why does every damn girl I’m attracted to have to be a fucking angel?
I ain't afraid of rejection or hot chicks but I stay away cause once things get close they’ll see my mind;
Become unstable, fall from grace but how could I support anyway if I can’t put food on my own table;
Unfortunately susceptible to degradation with every payload;
I don’t want another person in this world to end up this scared/ shameful; (1:56)
No hope to sell; (1:58)
Back against the wall I cry for help;
Bloody knuckles beat the hustle;
No remorse what is this hell?
My mistakes;
Agitation complacent punishment for this pain I've dealt;
Imagination buckles discrepant chains;
Containment wains a damaged cell;
Swear to God if I don't find solace in time
I MIGHT KXLL MYSELF
Yeah I might kill myself;
But I don't wanna kill myself;
Anxiety plagues a scared mind contrive cause I really want to leave this hell, but I don’t want to leave what I know so well;
Shit; (2:19)
Look at everyone else's life how they relish in it;
Promiscuous you see I know everyone's got problems, visibly too but I don't embellish them;
The Hell with it could fix this shit with a mix of cyanide, adderall, monster, opioids and a cigarette;
Though consequence could take hold;
Halt an execution only execute infernal habits;
Residual masochist matter molded by futile ashes barely intact;
This is the reason detestant imagination congregates the abstract;
All I want is certainty and death won’t even give me that; (2:45)
To all who read; This is my mind.
I'm sitting here thinking if what I did
Was the right move
Before it got it so serious
It was hype to a point
These our my confessions there's so many sections let me break it down time to speak loud made moves I aren't proud of my confessions are the lessons I've learnt the flame has burnt in my mind at both ends everytime
I think this is the best one I have ever heard
Antonio Obiedo - Glad you like it :)
I love this beat, would love if it was like a minute longer
+MrAde9999 Thanks man! Yeah this was a shorter one.
+Contrary may I use this beat? Got a sick story to tell but it's in swedish :/
+MrAde9999 Sure, non profit and give credit.
@@ContraryBeats My Friend this beat changed my life. Hope you are back to beat making soon again
Oh dammmmmmmmmmmmmm I really drop some fuckinnnnnnnnnnnnng pain on this man
Last night I think i might have had a dream.
I could not see, it was pitch pitch dark so I could not really see
But the screams, I couldn't hear it,
the wailing of souls, I could tell they were men, mortal men, men of the earth.
These are men full of sorrows
Their screams it screech
it caused my heart to freak out and got me thinking,
man I've got to run out, no need to know what's going on here.
So I started to run, invested all my strength in it.
5min in and I'm still on the same spot I started.
I've not moved an inch. I'm still right here closer to these screams,
something is out place here. This is eery
I started to panic, the palpitations of my heart, see I could count it.
I lifted my hand close to my nose, to check if I'm still breathing,
I could feel the warmth air from my own breath on my own hand, as I breath in and I breath out,
whoa!, guess I'm still alive.
Alright, let start to think about my state of mind, cos I'm starting to lose it now.
I scrambled for a thought, a reason, to understand what is going on.
What's going on now.
Am I having some kind of out of body experience. Somebody tell me now?
I dont know.
Moments in, that's when I began see,
I'm scared to the core of my bone.
I'm trying to keep my composure but it's hard to keep together, when nothing seems to makes sense
and it feels like am losing my mind.
What's going on, what's going, I began to scream on top of my my lungs, hoping that someone might issue me a response.
shout out to you, this is really amazing
the best sad beat ever broooo
Bro I’m in love with this heat
What song man! Great job!!
Many thanks!
Maybe I should grab a gun Maybe I should grab a rope
Maybe I should end it all
Maybe I should try to cope
Maybe I should look for help
cause I cant do this on my own
Maybe I should go to sleep
And pray the Lord will take my soul
TheRealGabby damn... so deep bro
TheRealGabby Was
Bruh just chill
TheRealGabby
I'm stealing that ..😅😅
Its Awesome
@@thomaskingjarvy6262 no its fucking weak and emo
all my life i been thinkin,
constant nightmares no blinkin,
momma hush me say boy you were just dreamin,
but this prescription get the best of me,
you'd take them too if you saw the same reality that i see,
restlessness all night and half way through the next day,
losing an inch a week from your body losing weight, getting smaller,
had me feeling like i was three feet taller,
mouth constantly dry so i got too drink water,
and i'd turn out okay if it wasnt for my mother and father,
telling me too do what ever bc i'm a shot caller,
but you don't know that my mind alters my feeling,
endorphins getting released got me day dreaming,
stay up for 4 days and spend the rest of the week sleeping,
and to think one little pill got me hooked,
that has had the countries fiens shooked,
i'm like a nerd who can't put down his book,
when it comes too them, her name is adderall and she makes people grim,
focused on another planet, i'm in a different realm,
lost 35 pounds in a month had me getting slim,
use to lift the most but didnt have time for the gym,
and while i was on this medication,
all i could think about was hatred,
but now looking back on it i still made it,
see no body believed in me when i said i was tire of em, nah he's faking,
but nah i'll tell you all that i seen,
of having these addictions stronger than a fiens,
and this a real life experience no make believe,
you can perceive this anyway you wanna perceive,
got twisted around the thought of em like my head was interweaved,
always carried them around like a uniforms under-sleeve,
and taking these happy pills i felt like i was on one ☝🏽
but i got to thinkin what if i can't even see my born son? or my grandson?
because daniel stopped a little to short for the long run,
if he could've kept to running he would've won,
writing these confessions out now gets me teary eyed,
you should've wrote sooner daniel you would walk with a different stride,
but how can i replace a part of me that's scratching from the inside?
it's like all the shit i'm saying now just got amplified,
like how the fuck can i live knowing that i almost died?
eyes rolling to the back of my head like a gossip girl,
laying by the toilet ring cause all i did was hurl,
and i should've never took that xr,
bc when you sitting in the waiting room of a e.r.
a part of me just lit up, and said fuck all this,
i can't live this life being so close to death,
feel my air getting low after each breath,
i take, taking these for fun was just a big mistake,
felt like i was sinking without a life vest in the middle of a lake,
but no ones on the same page with me, and that's okay,
cause lately i've been trying to see the good in life each day,
maybe not, don't bring a gun near me cause i'll try to take my life away
Daniel Biggs ...damn...
shit man rap can make you feel things that nothing else can
Had to do it different, chilling for instances thinking on occasions , had to get a bag so I went and saved it thank you those who paved it and helped me made it went thru pain so I had to hide it I couldn’t take it so I had to fight it bite it, cry it but die it down watch it drown while I elevate and escalate leave it back watch it bait but no escape, record it just like a tape, confessions I cannot escape must speak the truth and keep the roof on top of me must go out and give it my all mama told me always just to stand tall no matter what I fought
Gin got me faded
Ain't no going back
Blacking out
Taylor's on my feet
Ashes on my jeans
G'd up
Geeked up
Give a fuck how you feel
Shade's on I can see thru the bullshit
Feds tryna pull me over
Friends switching up
I done came up
Fucc the fame
In it for the paper
Give a fucc about tomorrow
Girl if you ain't living for the moment
We ain't living right
Faded out the bottle
Henny got you lookin' like a model
Pedal to the metal
going full throttle
High as hell
On the highway to hell
Couldn't lie if I would
Wouldn't hide if I could
Your love is like no other
Gotta face the fact you ain't coming back
You're just a memory
Ripped out my heart
Stopped it to the ground
Watch it burn,
All these visions got my vision going blurry
Bout to feel the fury of a niggga's wrath
3 grams drippin' out the wrap
It's a rap when I come thru
Hoes tryna set me up for the guap
Everything's for grabs when you live like this
Still depressed never the less
Making all this cheddar
That's what makes it better
Bitch, don't you act so bitter pass the blunt
Never had a place to call my home
All these demons held me down
When I felt alone
All I needed was for you to grab my hand
Till the end of time
All I really needed was a friend to call my own
All I needed was a place to call my own
Fucc a phase
Beat the case
On that paper chase
In it till I win it
Take a seat, look at all the shit we done did
Without a deal we the
Shit
Smoke me up another zip
Deep down
I can see in your eyes
Mesmerized by the
pain
That I caused inside
Infatuated with the lies
I'm just trying to do u right
No more crying,
Wishing you died at night
Finger on the trigger
Contemplating about my failures
Lectures turning into lessons
Curses into blessings
La neve copriva le case
La nebbia offuscava la vista
Nulla copriva la fame,
La giacca copriva la pista di crystal
Passava il suo tempo a rubare,
Bucarsi, fumare e scappare dal mondo
Odiava la strada, ma l’amava
Affondava chilo
metrì sotto al fondo
Ogni domenica in chiesa
Pregava, ci fosse motivo per farlo,gni lunedì
Calava il suo passamontagna e
piangeva, ma era necessario.
Chorus
Next to you, next to me your my Hennessy come sit next to me, next to me, times are sad come and lay with me you were meant for me this was meant to be, we have chemistry come and step to me, why can’t you stop kissing me we’ve got history, times was hard I was missing you, you was missing me, missing me.
Verse 1
I crave for attention, my heads been locked up in detention. Listen my life has had a lot of tension, from not seing my father to my brother, maybe I never loved, i was raised by my mom who was above her, even though he didn’t stand tall she was the person who was smaller I don’t even wanna call but now she’s begging me back, to come round have a drink or suttin. But she still hasn’t learnt her lesson or suttin. She just, cries the night survives the night rides the night and writes bars, writes bars I still come back I strike yards but I still got some shit on my head benifitting but I’m ripping on the beat like ay okay.
Chorus
Next to you next to me next to you next to me next to you next to me ay
Verse 2
Maybe I might be forgiven my heads locked up in a prison, never been in prison by my demons with my past I might just scream, but now I’m dreaming of a better life there will be times I’ll be low I’ll look for the better lights better kites cos time heals like I’ve been percepting, my heads gone it’s getting hectic I love my family but it’s getting restless, it’s worse I don’t wanna see another hurse, my past has been cursed I spit fire on a verse get gassed my heads wrapped, had to stop now come and drop down, I’m too high like a kite but I’ll climb to the top of the revenue cos I’m stuck, and fucked up ay.
Times in my mind I confess stand up to the best I’m the next won’t let it rest cause I am bless started what I finish I am a Minnis I’m the realest
when i was growing up you barely acknowledged me as your daughter momma called to say you were gonna be a father you ran way away before she even broke her water she did it on her own for that you should applaud her you were never there never wiped one tear even without you i got over every fear you didn't want me that you made very clear i poured my heart out today and you didn't even care you just read it not long after i sent i stumbled over every word making sure i meant it it still hurt i don't know what i expected somehow i always knew we'd never be connected we love in two different worlds you got two other girls i remember the vanilla moose eating chocolate swirls rocking Shirley Temple curls without a care in he worlds all i knew was daddy finally cared for his girl that's all i ever wanted love and affection i was young when i developed a depression all the feelings i had i suppressed them i just wanted to saved like resurrection so i started believing in jesus when i had problems i would to the staple hanging on to words of the preachers turns out i'm one of the hethens i didn't know what to believe in i was alone again
Chorus: I know life is a blessing, I know a made mistakes so I guess these are my confessions, I'm trynna live right while I'm on my way to heaven, all these voices in my head won't stop I think I'm stressin (x2)
Verse 1: I'm walking down this road alone, I feel like i ain't even got a place to call my home, and I ain't got nobody who would ever call my phone, I'll just be sitting in my room all fucking alone, but I don't need you motherfuckers, all I needs my mother, I won't ever let nobody touch her, put nobody above her and that's a fuckin fact, me and my Bros ridin round we always run in packs, lookin alive but we ain't on that Drake shit, all my niggas real we never be on that fake shit, talking shit we're swinging you'd think that we're getting base hits, all the bitches in my phone ion fuck with they basic, give you your own medicine now it's time to taste it, you fuckin broke my heart now I'm out here just getting faded, I gave you my heart and you promised not to break it, but you did that's the truth so now it's time to face it.
And then the chorus again and I'm still working on the second verse
we all got confessions we wish we could speak but all dont have people to reach some might freak or give no attention so u fall back in to depression doctors prescribe you medicine trying to help with little luck you light the blunt to ease the pain to rearrange the chemicals in your brain just trying to make it through one more day there all ways a bright side to a picture you painted its your life and you have you make it regardless of your mistakes it can get better escape the stormy weather and sour
Gonna let the world know the pain im feelin
Going through depression dont feel iike livin
Beggin god i need healin
But shit just get wosrer by the minute
So its hard to face to it
Every single step your takin
Could be loss and breath taking
But i keep prayin
Just hopin
Life is a obsticacle but ima win
Aint no tellin
When its time to give
I been through so much shit in my life
the hardest thing for other people
Is easy for me is just a everyday thing
I drink pop zans just to forget about everything i did
You just got to make a livin
Dont break down and call yourself a nobody
I been there
Trust me you wont get nowhere
So i learned when you stop showing feelings people start to care
I just pretend there not there
But knowingly I'm livin
Hurtfully
Just taring me apart b
Y'all need to be taught a Lesson
So I put a Bible to his head and he Instantly started confession
See back when I had to beat him like Tekken
They didn't Confess then
God told him to mention, But I thought he had Forgotten
I could see through his soul that the number wasn't seven
I gave him two choices to be Punished or Confess And He accepted
He got down on his knees Put the Bible to his head then I started blessing
A vision hit me I saw depression, Him not using his mind for a weapon
Him worshipping Lucifer to a hells session
He was worthy and smart for his selection