Can we just take a second to truly thank Nin for all the editing, research, facts, commitment, and dedication she puts into each video💗 I mean she is such a stunning person inside and out💯😊💗🌟 lots of love for everyone in the DissociaDID system!💗🌟💗🌟💗🌟💗
My abuser has DID and blamed, what he did to me on his alter and didn't even take any kind responsibility. Videos like this are so important. I'm glad it exists.
This is true. Tw: abuse mention, narc, religious our system was raised to believe that all good things we ever did belonged to somebody else. Generally our mother or God. Because of that, we strongly internalize the concept that all bad things come from us and all good things come from someone else. While we have worked through some of that, a good affirmation is to remind ourselves that when we work together we do great things and we can all take credit even if what we're doing is just not getting in each other's way.
@@DembaiVT Absolutely. It's one of the problems I have with any belief that puts all of the blame on one person and gives all of the credit to another. Just functioning is an achievement. Be proud of it! You all have to unlearn everything you've learned and relearn it the right way. That's really hard and it takes time. Take pride in the journey. Not everyone can be so brave as to go against everything they've ever known.
Being in a position of responsibility in a system sounds kind of like being a parent. If your kid is rude to someone or hurts someone and refuses to make amends, it's up to you to make it right, because that person was still hurt and you're responsible for the person who hurt them.
One of my alters cheated on my spouse. When I told her about it, I said "I cheated on you", even though it was an alter that did it. My alters are all parts of me at the end of the day
Sorry late but that's a really good explanation! It's like if you didn't have did maybe you had cheated on your partner yourself. You know what I mean? Because every alter would be one person
I love the choker, Nin, and idk if it's just me but it seems like your make-up skills are on a different level after the integration O_O Your make-up has been stunning in your videos lately!
She said in the recent lives that actually put on make up has been taking more time for her than It did for Chloe. But her style of make up did change!
@@cindaflaca4742 meaning when DissociaDID's two alters, Chole and Nina, merged / fused into one creating a new alter, Nin, who is currently running the channel. There are more informative videos on the channel about DID and it's terminology :3
I had to do an exam that was a speech and I chose DID as my topic because of this channel and the class seemed really interested in it so I would like to thank you for making that situation happen!
I didn’t know that DID was a thing, until I found this channel. Very fascinating and interesting to learn about. Thanks for educating me and many others via this platform
Nin, thank you for this message. As I am bipolar, when I am hypomanic or fully manic, I can spend money recklessly, speak inappropriately, miss work, and dissociate. However, when I return to balance, I have to accept what I've done, make amends, and deal with the fiscal ramifications. I know its not the same, but I can completely relate.
This gives me courage to confront someone who's really been bothering me lately. I think the way I was looking at it before was "you alters who are instigating this situation need to stop" but this gives me a different perspective. Like, we're all in this together. Thank you for this, Nin.
You and Chloe gave the strength to finally make myself go to find help. I'm struggling now for quite some time now whether I should or should not get help again. And you helped me so much with my decision. I do not have DID but some other mental health issues that were partly diagnosed while my last treatment. Thank you so so much and lots of love from Germany for all of you in the System, you are great people and really inspiring. Keep up with what you are doing ❤️ you really can help people and maybe yourself too with all the support from here ❤️❤️❤️❤️
i can’t imagine the fear that comes along with did. living with other people inside the same body has so much responsibility, it must be so hard trying to make sure everything’s going well between everybody. You have to have a lot more respect for others and you’ve definitely got to be resilient. i really admire all of you! there’s no right or wrong but you guys are doing it so well! nothing. is. linear. and you can have so many more downs then ups but that doesn’t mean it’s wrong! we all make mistakes 💗
quite a few of us actually considered that this potential was really scary until we all started communicating and I would come back to my journal to have someone saying I would never ever hurt you and other people writing I love you and drawing hearts all over the journal...it is sort of wild to recognize that I have a whole system of people who love each other. Some of them are not the world's healthiest individuals but that doesn't mean that they don't love and want to protect. Which is mind-blowing because our long-term host never experienced self love until her mid20s, and hidden beneath the surface of amnesia there was love.
@@dontstealmycaprisuns7596 most of us have really awful communication. We all struggle with amnesia really badly. But dissociDID really gave a ton of good tips to get messages around the system, and stuff. I'm glad I found out what was happening to me by finding this community.
I love this video, Nin, there is a friend of our system who has seen more alters front than probably anyone else ever and I feel like, because of the fact that I've personally told him that if anyone else who's a part of the system fucks up, I will always go ahead and deal with it as soon as possible to make things right, he has been able to trust the system a lot more in general. He does not have the disorder but is willing to and has learnt quite a lot whilst interacting with us and I think that if you give someone who makes an effort to get to know whoever alter is fronting at the moment and wants to learn about the disorder, respect in form of being responsible for the other alters within your system, often times people like that will give you the same amount of respect back and will be a good friend which is always nice :3 -Jack
man. i'm in a few did/osdd groups online where people don't take responsibility for their systems' actions. i'm glad to finally have a resource i can point them to instead of typing out an essay myself every time. also, nin this look & the editing are incredible!!!
I want to thank you for what you do here and how candid you are. Not only have I learned a ton about DID, I've learned more about the dissociation and cptsd that I do experience. I feel like between you and Crappy Childhood Fairy I've learned more about these topics than I have through years of therapy and psychiatrists. It has helped me to understand a lot about myself and that some things that feel abnormal are in fact normal for someone who has endured trauma. You are massively appreciated and I wish you nothing but the ability to thrive and the peace your deserve.
one of my close friends was recently diagnosed with DID and your videos helped me IMMENSELY in understanding and reacting to her experiences thanks a ton to Nin and the rest of DissociaDID! edit: woooooow! thank you! my first heart ^^ means alot to me, thank you! =^.^=
One of my alters got there hair cut super short so they could feel comfortable but didn't really think about anyone 🤦🏻♂️ now we all have to deal with it
Nin, thank you for this educational video. I appreciate all the knowledge you provide to break the stigma! Education is so important in this world today and the passion you have for education on this topic is amazing!
I LOVE the new touch to the editing and the channel, you are doing incredibly well Nin! Thank you so much for taking care of the channel and helping educate people on DID! I hope all of you are doing well, sending love to everyone❤❤
That part about alcohol and similar makes me think of a question I've had for a while. If the body is drunk, would everyone in the headspace feel it? How far back in the headspace would that affect (like someone who's co-con would be more likely to be affected than someone further back) What about being hurt? Would people in the headspace have a sudden feeling that something is wrong, or even feel discomfort if the body, say, broke their arm?
If conscious they can sense how the body is affected, to some degree, depending how close to the front (how focused in consciousness they are). However some alters also experience the same things slightly differently to each other too. Such as things like having a higher or lower pain tolerance, or different energy levels. Even amongst each other in the same body alters can have a different idea of what the body needs or how it seems to feel. It has something to do with how different parts of the brain are stimulated with different alters, and how the brain in turn manages the rest of the body, like hormones, and senses, even some reflexes. Not everything will change, but some things can. I hope this helps, but please don't take my word for it and look further at other resources too.
@@SashyGryphyth -- Your description is very much my experience with this. Pain tolerance, certain reflexes, vision and other sensory processing stuff, what caffeine does to us, how drunk we get after consuming the same amount of alcohol, etc. varies a lot based on who's out. Even whether or not we'll have a hangover in the morning seems to be dependent on who wakes up first. As the person who recently broke our foot, I can confirm that (at least in this case) I noticed it, but also didn't really feel it, so I thought it wasn't a big deal. We only went to urgent care a couple days later after someone else came out and noticed it... :P All anecdotal, of course, but I hope it helps with the initial question here, lol
As someone with DID, anything physical such as being drunk, having a cold, sprained ankle, etc. is only felt by whoever is out front/cofronting. Also being drunk is its own bag of worms with trauma cause memories come up wayy faster (like flashbacks and such) and it makes switching really weird. Only speaking from personal experience though
This channel has helped me so much. I found it when my therapist told me to research my diagnoses. It has helped me understand not only my non human alters, as well as what causes alters to splinter off, as well as possibly avoid making others . I didn't know why there was video footage of me doing things(destructive ) I didn't remember. The only thing I had was accountability for what I had done. No idea why it happened. There is far more to my story than I can reasonably write here. That said, thank you very much!!! Y'all have helped tremendously.
Thank you for this wonderfully educational video! I don't usually comment on videos, but I just wanted to let you know that I really like your videos, and can tell that a lot of effort was put into making them! The contents are sound and educational, and I love the way you present your content. Not to mention the awesome editing! They really help me to understand DID better, and remind me of the importance of mental health as well, especially since it's not been talked about that much until recently where I'm from. I've been watching (and rewatching) your videos for a while now, and just wanted to let you know :) lots of love and respect!
Learning about persecutors is one of my favorite aspects of all this. Being a single personality, I can still think of the different parts of my brain as being compartmentalized the same way, even on a metaphorical level. Learning how to reach out to one's persecutors and offer them love and support just makes so much more sense in this context, and reminds me to not bully myself so much for my past suffering.
the vids are definitely more passion filled and personal now ❣️i can feel the emotion thru the screen like you’re speaking from your heart where before, tho Chloe was very open with us she definitely took the more objective, scientific route ! we love what you’re doing with the channel, nin ❣️
This is great advice Nin, even for those without DID, as what you do, aware or not, you still have to take responsibility for. You always have great advice Nin and speak in such a way where you can hear the passion behind it, and you are all around just absolutely lovely :)
Aaron Wilder - I so agree. Not to minimize the incredible situation a system lives with, but even a singlet personality has the challenge of recognizing and owning up to their responsibility for unconscious aspects or unconscious impulses. When all sorts of other people struggle to be self aware it’s because, well you can’t blame your childhood or your parent interjects or the immature side of yourself - its work to accept that responsibility, for everything about ourselves.
Hi. I am from Malaysia. I'm so glad that I found your channel as it taught me a lot about DID and show me different perspectives on it. It is full of knowledge for us who did not know much DID. Wish you all the best. ^_^ PS: I love your makeup, it makes you looks super gorgeous
There is another thing I want to say on a personal note. Between you and the Entropy System, I have come to learn I dissociate significantly. I don't have DID, but it explains why hours simply disappear. This has led to a change in my therapy and medication. I want you to know that you have changed my life. From the heart, thank you.
Hi Nin!!! I'm glad you brought this up. I had a friend in the past with DID, back when I wasn't very aware of what it was but believed them. And they broke our friendship, or an alter did, and when another alter apologized they said it wasn't them. It was someone else in their system and I had to just expect that. I don't think they truly understood their condition yet either but an alter said quite horrible things to me and they definitely didn't take responsibility, just apologized it happened. I was also less understanding and unwilling to believe it wouldn't happen again so I blocked them :( anyway, I hope that this helps other systems as much as it helped me understand what my former friend had done. Much love, always 💜
@Anne-Lou just as Nin said, take responsibility instead of saying there was nothing they could do! Especially since only that alter didn't want to be my friend. There was only apology that it happened, not apology for what was said or how much it had hurt me. I would have been willing to work with the system but nobody wanted to acknowledge that I had been deeply hurt. The communication just wasn't very good in their system yet. I understand that now, but especially back then, it felt like they were just playing with me and pretending it never happened. It was overall an unfair situation for all of us.
I had a similar situation where someone with DID did something that completely broke me and I was told by everyone that it wasn't her so it wasn't her fault and she took no responsibility and still hasnt. I'm still recovering. I'm so glad that I found this channel before the incident and had an understanding of it. It's nice to have this channel to turn to as it shows not everyone with DID will do that
I'm so early. I Love guys. Kyle I love you man, you're a legend ❤️ I love everybody in the system and Chloe started doing a great thing, spreading awareness about DID. I know you are putting yourself at a risk but so many of us love the DissociaDID system. I hope everyone is doing okay, sending lots of love to the littles too (I know you keep them private) but I hope they're having alot of fun! You have all my love and respect, this goes for everyone in the system, I love you guys alot❤️❤️ and Nin you're doing a really great job, I hope you keep going strong ❤️❤️
Thank you so much for making this. It brought tears to my eyes. You explain things so kindly and are so reassuring. As someone with trauma it just... means a lot to hear.
Thanks so much Nin for jumping back into the channel! I can imagine it's hard to just try and resume as normal after just poofing into existence. Great to keep getting to know you, we all already love you so much! Kisses and love to the guinea pigs!💖
Wow this video is rough and much appreciated. My husband was diagnosed 4 months ago and although one part of him is willing to take responsibility for the one part that causes all the issues, the trouble maker will return and contradict everything that the other parts have taken the blame for. The trouble maker is self destructive and horrible to me. From what my husband can tell me is that all his parts, but the one trouble maker, wants to work together. The one part who is so mean destroys any failsafes and work we and/or he has done. I do appreciate this video. I will show his host, cause his host agrees with you. I wish I knew what to do about the trouble maker. He’s really damaging my husband’s system and our family. Thank you so much for being here. Your videos are so helpful, important and brave. 💗🌸🦋
You are so so good at doing this. You balance communicating with people who have DID and people who don't and are learning about it, holding systems accountable for system responsibility and being empathetic and understanding about the struggles faced when doing so. It's a privilage to have access to such amazing, thorough mental health resources. Keep doing what you're doing!
I think one of the most frustrating parts of trying to make amends with people on things other altars have done is when people expect you to know what you’ve done and refuse to tell you when you politely ask. Growing up I’d miss entire days/weeks and think oh i must’ve got the days wrong not realizing DID is a thing and I’d come back to friends being angry at me and I’d try to get the situation sorted out but they were offended I couldn’t remember and be like “you should remember” and i just had no idea what was going on. And apologizing after even *hinting* that you dont know what happened has never gone well cause “its not a real apology if its not important enough for you to remember”. DID is such a hard disorder to live with
I understand taking responsibility as a system regardless of who made the “bad” decisions. I hope you all also find joy in taking responsibility as a system for each alters positive actions and choices as well 💓💓💓 thank you Nin for all you do 💙💚
I just found this channel and I'm so happy I did. My girlfriend has DID and these videos are really helping me learn. I wanna make sure I fully understand so I can be there for her whenever she may need. 💜
Heya Nin! Can I just say I love your editing style? It's so good and clean! There's so much information here. I'm so happy to be following you all. This is... helpful for me. I have a difficult circumstance in that my mental health team don't want to diagnose OSDD or DID in any of their patients. They don't believe they should be in the DSM-5. I suspect I'm a multiple. I used to suspect it when I was younger but I didn't have the words... I weighed things back and forth for a long time but since a major surgery, there was some medical trauma there and... well, there's someone new inside. But I have no idea how to deal with it.
I wasn't aware of almost anything about DID before a new friend who has osdd told me he had it and recommended your channel. Since then I watched every single video from both you and team piñata not only for the information, but for de amazing people that you are. Keep doing what you're doing. Rooting for you everyday 💕
Thanks Nin! This can be a difficult process to navigate for people with DID and those around them. I really appreciate the work you put in to make this video. Love to all of you.
Thank you for talking about this. I had an old friend who sincerely hurt me and she used her DID as an excuse. She was fronting, I'm not sure if she was co-coning or not, but she said that because she has alters, sometimes they will say something and it will blurt out without a filter. Her struggle and disorder is valid but the way she worded it made it sound like an excuse rather than an apology and it really hurt. This video gave me a lot of perspective on what she probably meant to say and helped me understand what it was probably like in her life as someone with the disorder. Thank you. 💜
Hey Nin. I wanted to say that I love how confident you've become. I want to thank you for being so brave and continuing to spread positivity. I wanted to say that I'm so proud of you. I may not know you or the system in real life, but I already feel like I would be more than happy to be a friend of the system. I wish I could send you all presents, but I'm unable to for the time being. This next bit is for everyone in the system. I want you all to know that even though you went through some terrible things, you are all amazing people who inspire others. I only know a few names so I'm sorry if you feel a little left out in this part. It's not that I don't care for you but because I am yet to come across you or simply can't remember you all at one time. Kyle. You are a big help to me on the days I feel masculine. Plus you have great taste in hats. Jade. You are an amazing protector. Don't doubt yourself even in the toughest of situations. Nin. Though you are new I already feel as though I know you. Yes I miss Chloe and Nina but I also see that you shouldn't be seen as the bad guy for existing as pieces of them while being a whole new person. You are stronger than you think. To the littles. I wish I could send you all as many stuffed animals and hugs as I could but unfortunately virtual hugs are all I can offer. You are all incredible people and I can't wait to see all the amazing things you'll all do in the future. Thank you for reading and I hope you all have a wonderful day/night. ❤💛💙
I feel the middle part so much. We were having trouble deciding to stay in a problematic/controlling marriage and my ex accused us of making up the DID to manipulate him. In a later convo when I was encouraging him to get help for his, our son, and his future relationships, he mocked me and said "maybe I have DID and when I get like that, I'm Steve." That was the moment all my alters got on board with running and running fast. All this was only a few months ago and since then, I've been struggling in decifering what's mine/ours to take responsibility for and what isn't. Particularly that his anger and inappropriate ways of dealing with it was my fault for being as 'damaged' and 'broken' as I am
Hi Nin! 💚 This sounds very tiring, you explain it very effectively and with grace. Referring to the system as a community helped me move past my initial thoughts of 'that sounds so unfair when it wasn't you!' to thinking about it using a community metaphor. In any community, whether a school, or an organisation etc, if someone within that organisation does something unacceptable, the organisation as a whole will accept responsibly and issue a public apology, even if 99% of the people in that organisation weren't involved, and their personal opinions on what happened may vary. Apologising for something that wasn't 'your' fault doesn't mean you've done anything wrong, just that you understand that all communities (and systems) are full of complex relationships and responsibility is shared. And as someone else mentioned, success! Individuals within the system should be proud of their personal achievements, but it's also okay for others who weren't directly responsible to share in the joy 💚
i didn’t know about any of this until the whole trish situation but im very intrigued by all this. i dont know anyone with DID or have it, but i feel like this stuff is important for more people to know about!!
As a person who has OSDD, this video was extremely helpful towards my system as my persecutor, Michael, has stopped doing things that can hurt other people.
It breaks my heart to watch my daughter struggle! The guilt is overwhelming sometimes. I left her with someone I truly thought I could trust when I was gone so long having my surgery. In my head I know there is nothing I could do different. I also know that I made a horrible mistake by leaving her where I did, but it was a mistake and I know in my head I need to stop beating myself up over it but that is much easier said then done. I feel responsible even though it was not my fault. I would gove anything to take the pain away.
I'm not sure if I should say this here but why not. I'm a bit older & I remember being diagnosed with Dissociative Disorder at age 30. I didn't realize what it all meant because I stopped going to that doc & moved out of state. I can't remember if I shared it with other counselors & docs afterwards but I probably did. Thing is, no one explained what it meant & I didn't ask or research. I thought it was just because I could separate from myself. I've been watching your videos for several weeks now & the reality just hit me. It all makes sense. I have much thinking to do now. I suppose I'll tell my new mental health team because I didn't even think to mention it. Thank you for all that you're doing!
I found this gem Thank you! This helped me a lot. My twin brother has DID His alter sometimes would throw the laptop at me And he'd suddenly apologies to me. So thank you This help me to understand him better
I have never met anyone with DID and I’ve become obsessed with your channel recently because I realized I knew absolutely nothing about it! It is amazingly fascinating and I admire every part your system we’ve been shown. I feel like I am learning so much about my own trauma and psychology even without DID through this channel. All of this feels so important to me I feel like I need the information you share, to better me and others I may encounter. So much respect for disassociaDID. The switches are fascinating, seeing how visible switches can be has confirmed it for me that this disorder is real when I used to be a bit sceptical about it all. I hope any others will react the same way so more people with DID won’t be told they are invalid or treated badly just because of their disorder. I thank you so much for educating us on this stuff even if it is very personal to you. So much love for your system, so much
I’m so thankful I found your channel. After finding you yesterday I’ve had such a sense of relief and calmness take over my body, like finally I’ve found what’s wrong with me. No one understands when I try and explain. Definitely going to seek further help on how to get a diagnosis! Thank you thank you thank YOU!!!
This all makes me have even more respect for people who live with DID. Thinking about how difficult it would be if I were to be responsible for everything my friends did already makes me stressed. Seriously, so much respect for being so strong 💙
Thank you for making this video because recently my teacher used DID as an example of if someone should be guilty of a crime despite their mental condition. So thank you, I was wondering about that.
Thank you for making this Nin! As a best friend of someone with DID for about 3 years now you were one of the first stories i heard from. I've loved meeting some of my friend Kian's system over the years. Such an interesting video. Really enjoying your presentation of content.
Another Great educational video. I hope things are starting to settle for you guys since the integration. Btw your makeup in this video is stunning!! I think it’s time for a Nin makeup tutorial. 😍❤️ hope everyone in the system is doing well.
Not really related, but me(the host) once suddenly got locked out of the headspace and it was CHAOS with the body until I came back. A co-host had to do their best to control the situation. Ralín is said co-host. Love her
I love that you can see both characteristics, traits and styles from both Nina and Chloe in Nin. Like her style is a perfect combination of the two, sort of an easier way of understanding the process of integration and what integrating means.
I can’t even begin to explain how your channel has changed my way of thinking not just DID but the world .... You are truly amazing! Thank you for making this channel! All of you !
The editing is on point Nin! Also, I know you say you struggle with makeup but girl... that's ON POINT 💖 Now about the video, this is such an important topic, not only for systems but for everyone. Pain, trauma and mental health problems don't wash away responsibility or liability at all. As a depressed anxious mess of a human being, I struggle with owning up to stuff I feel I can't control sometimes, so thank you! 💖
Great video nin! This is unrelated to the video, but in the livestream you said that you guys were going to dye your hair again. There is a brand of semi-permanent hair coloring called Overtone that I like. It is a conditioner that colors your hair, so it doesn't damage it like regular dyes. You can also wash your hair in warm water, so no more cold showers 😋. Sorry for sounding like an ad, have a great day! Also, I'm so excited for the podcast!!
In searching for answers about my trauma I found you. I don't have D.I.D but I am glad to have found you because you educated me on something I didnt know anything about. Your system is beautiful and I am a huge fan of Jade her no nonsense attitude reminds me of myself.
This really hit home =\ we have a persecutor who recently said some hurtful things to our partner, and I (as the primary host) have spent a lot of time since then trying to work out how much to apologise for his actions and what the right way to handle situations like that is, so thank you for this. You're right, it feels very unfair, but at the same time I care a little more about my partner's feelings than that sense of what's fair to me.
Hey Nin, I've watched your channel for quite some time and I actually had a question. It's completely okay if you don't have time/energy to answer! I understand you must get many questions daily. I was wondering if there are any dissociative disorders that you know of that can occur when repeated trauma is experienced in your early pubescent/teenage years?
Paige Henry-Robertson Borderline Personality is not only childhood. I was 12 when I started with symptoms but others don’t TIL later. DID which I also have (not official only by my psychologist) is 10 and under.
It sounds like you’re talking about c-PTSD.... Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. Defined by *prolonged, repeated, trauma where you have little or no chance of escape*. In other words, a situation that may have caused DID had you been younger. I have both PTSD and c-PTSD diagnosis, so let me explain... PTSD is typically from one event OR a period of time involving one event, or at the very least, something that happens to you as a totally formed adult, already emotionally mature (but mainly it’s like... say you were at war, or if you were kidnapped and held for weeks, etc or, as a single event, a single attack or assault, in a car accident where the other person died, or say if you were present at a terror!st attack, etc. those are more extreme examples, but you see my point). The hallmark is the one chaotic event, or series of events around one thing (again, Like someone who was kidnapped and repeatedly assaulted for weeks and set free after would likely suffer from PTSD after thst even though it really wasn’t only one single event, or like I said, being at war is the old classic). Then there’s c-PTSD, which is a form of the same illness, the difference is that it’s from repeated trauma past childhood, but before fully formed and secure, if that makes sense, say, if someone was repeatedly assaulting you in some way for years when you were a teenage or young adult (any time past childhood, but before fully formed adulthood- like it has to occur while you’re still developing to my understanding). So, for example, I have PTSD because I was raped one time as my virginity “losing” (stealing) experience. I have trauma related to that specific event. However, my father also became a SEVERE (previously under control that I wasn’t old enough to notice bc he wasn’t very bad yet) alcoholic when I was 12, into my young adulthood (& beyond but by then I was out of his house) and I have c-PTSD because of that because it was a repeated abuse situation that my body interpreted as a risk to my life, but that I had no way to get out of so it went on for years and years.... so the brain forms c-PTSD as a way to cope and, well, survive (I won’t go on cause from there obviously you can google it). Lucky me lol.
I'm apart of a young, but large system of 41 alters (as of 11/14/2020). We've had DID for 10 years, but just found out about it a couple months ago. Our system is so massive (luckily not everyone is more interested living their own lives in the innerworld) & we are in a 15 year old body, so it can get chaotic, so this video helped a lot honestly, thank you so much.
I'd love to see Nin do a makeup video because the makeup is slightly different than what Chloe would do and I'm very intrigued as to how Nin approaches it (also I really want to know what her makeup products are because shes so good at it and her red lipstick doesnt transfer)
My friend has DID. However she doesn't have any communication with her alters. She doesn't have any names for them at all. She just goes about her day and if she switches then she switches. And when i say she communicates, I literally mean she never once acknowledges her alters as separate personalities. The issue is that its causing problems within our friends circle because one alter (we think its a persecuter) keeps popping up and is just NEGAAAATTTTIVE. From what we've answered wrong think its about 3-4 different alters within her system. But this 1 alter is the main problem causer. How can I tell me friend in a polite way to take control of her system. Or at least manage it better? I'm not sure if she's receiving any kind if treatment for D.I.D but my sorry is just trying to find a way to tell her without hurting her feelings or without that negative alter jumping in again
I was wondering if you could do a video about alters wanting to live their own lives. For example one may want to be a doctor, while another wants to be a lawyer, another wants to work with animals. For my system we are trying to add as much of our dreams together. I want to be a doctor but many want to be in law. So I was thinking we could study medicine and law and work as profilers or behavior analysis. While many of us like sports so we do that in our free time, while another wants to work in psychology and working in a BAU would also go with that. So I was wondering if you could make a video on how other people can learn to make "all" the alters dreams come true or how to let your alters work with you if you already have a career. (We are a system of 37 so trying to add things they like into my (the core/host) life is a bit tough.
I love the makeup! Also, my friend has a very similar choker and it looks great on both of you guys. These kinds of videos are extremely important. A lot of people are severely misinformed about DID, and channels like yours can help inform and educate those who can't find the information otherwise. Your channel has certainly taught me a lot about this disorder.
This video could not have come at a better time. Currently trying to handle persecutors that are actively hurting friends in an effort to push them away. You’re so right in saying that communication is key. Thank you x
All of you are amazing, it's great to find people that actually get it, especially with persecutors , I also try to look at people outside the body with that kind of mindset
Such an amazing video Nin. Question: could you make a video on Trauma Holders and how to help them please? My primary protector is a trauma holder and he has a lot of fear about the world outside of our system. For years I’ve been trying this to reassure him but nothing seems to have stuck and I’m not sure what else to do. Any ideas?
Nin you are doing amazing! I am so proud of you for sharing and carrying on post-integration and also addressing how its changed you and you are ever-evolving, healing and growing. Much love to you. I am studying to be a trauma therapist and you do an amazing job sharing your perspective and educating others. I have been watching Chloe's videos from the start and the whole system. Much love from Toronto, Canada!
(Unrelated but I’m curious) As host, has your ability to access the inner world changed after integration? Can you access more/less than Chloe could? Love your makeup too x
I believe in the Q&A she filmed (I watched a bit of it), she said she has slightly more access than Chloe however she can't roam freely for lack of better wording
Nin, I felt your pain, despair, and frustration with this situation coming through loud and clear. I am beginning to realize that the alters MAY be as much difficult to deal with as the information they are supposed to protect you from. Nin, the newly integrated host, is NOT supposed to suffer this much in my opinion. I am very sorry you have this pain in your life. If the alter KNOWS what happened to little Chloe, I can see why the misbehavior occurs. I wish you much love and triumph as the days go on.
Can we just take a second to truly thank Nin for all the editing, research, facts, commitment, and dedication she puts into each video💗 I mean she is such a stunning person inside and out💯😊💗🌟 lots of love for everyone in the DissociaDID system!💗🌟💗🌟💗🌟💗
Sharra Helena Amen!
Sharra Helena 👌💚
yas they put in so much work i respect that so much xxx
I was just going to say the same thing!
Thank you so much for appreciating what we do! ❤️😘💖💕
My abuser has DID and blamed, what he did to me on his alter and didn't even take any kind responsibility.
Videos like this are so important. I'm glad it exists.
Thats so horrible, im so sorry you went through that.
I’m so sorry to hear that you had to experience that. You don’t deserve that at all💗 Sending you lots of love and hope you’re doing ok now!! xx
I could only understand this content with your comment. Thank you. I hope you have justice on your side.
I experienced the same thing and I'm still recovering from it. I'm sorry it happened to you too.
Present tense?
The way I see it, it cuts both ways. The system should take responsibility for bad actions as well as credit for good actions.
This is true.
Tw: abuse mention, narc, religious
our system was raised to believe that all good things we ever did belonged to somebody else. Generally our mother or God. Because of that, we strongly internalize the concept that all bad things come from us and all good things come from someone else.
While we have worked through some of that, a good affirmation is to remind ourselves that when we work together we do great things and we can all take credit even if what we're doing is just not getting in each other's way.
@@DembaiVT Absolutely. It's one of the problems I have with any belief that puts all of the blame on one person and gives all of the credit to another. Just functioning is an achievement. Be proud of it! You all have to unlearn everything you've learned and relearn it the right way. That's really hard and it takes time. Take pride in the journey. Not everyone can be so brave as to go against everything they've ever known.
Being in a position of responsibility in a system sounds kind of like being a parent. If your kid is rude to someone or hurts someone and refuses to make amends, it's up to you to make it right, because that person was still hurt and you're responsible for the person who hurt them.
Noa Binnendijk
This is actually a really accurate comparison
Wacht ff, ben je Nederlands?
@@fienevandijk7224 me? Kinda yeah
@@noabinnendijk361 kinda? What do you mean?
@@fienevandijk7224 half Dutch, living in the Netherlands, not all that happy with it
One of my alters cheated on my spouse.
When I told her about it, I said "I cheated on you", even though it was an alter that did it. My alters are all parts of me at the end of the day
that takes guts 💖 proud of you
That's so honorable and I'm so sorry I hope you were able to leave this situation in the best place for all of you and your partner as well
Im sorry about that and i hope youre okay ♡
Sorry late but that's a really good explanation! It's like if you didn't have did maybe you had cheated on your partner yourself. You know what I mean? Because every alter would be one person
I love the choker, Nin, and idk if it's just me but it seems like your make-up skills are on a different level after the integration O_O Your make-up has been stunning in your videos lately!
She said in the recent lives that actually put on make up has been taking more time for her than It did for Chloe. But her style of make up did change!
agreed 100%
What's the intergration?
@@cindaflaca4742 meaning when DissociaDID's two alters, Chole and Nina, merged / fused into one creating a new alter, Nin, who is currently running the channel. There are more informative videos on the channel about DID and it's terminology :3
@@chikasole thank you for replying
I had to do an exam that was a speech and I chose DID as my topic because of this channel and the class seemed really interested in it so I would like to thank you for making that situation happen!
That sounds great! It's good to spread proper information about a topic that is so interesting and yet so unknown :)
Random, but ADHD brain keeps fixating in the way you say “body.” I don’t know why, but I really like the way you pronounce it.
Also the way they say love like *chef kiss* it's wonderful
Oml sameeeee! Everytime I say 'hello everybody' I say it exactly like them!
i love how she talks
I didn’t know that DID was a thing, until I found this channel. Very fascinating and interesting to learn about. Thanks for educating me and many others via this platform
IKR this made me want to be a pycholigist and neurologist and the same time
Nin, thank you for this message. As I am bipolar, when I am hypomanic or fully manic, I can spend money recklessly, speak inappropriately, miss work, and dissociate. However, when I return to balance, I have to accept what I've done, make amends, and deal with the fiscal ramifications. I know its not the same, but I can completely relate.
exactly what i was feeling! episodes bring such an “out of control” feeling that i cant even imagine how difficult it is to live with DID
I feel like Nin is the embodiment of a warm hug and a long meaningful conversation with tea.
This gives me courage to confront someone who's really been bothering me lately. I think the way I was looking at it before was "you alters who are instigating this situation need to stop" but this gives me a different perspective. Like, we're all in this together. Thank you for this, Nin.
your hair looks great! going to miss the rainbow but this definitely suits you!
Thank you!
DissociaDID I'd love to see a video on how you do your hair different colors!
@@liquidfirez Yessss! It always looks so good! I want to know what they use and how they do it!
As a system, I find this situation really unfair but hey, this is reality. Preach it!!
I know you said makeup is hard for you now, but the looks are fierce Nin! Get it girl! ❤
You and Chloe gave the strength to finally make myself go to find help. I'm struggling now for quite some time now whether I should or should not get help again. And you helped me so much with my decision. I do not have DID but some other mental health issues that were partly diagnosed while my last treatment.
Thank you so so much and lots of love from Germany for all of you in the System, you are great people and really inspiring. Keep up with what you are doing ❤️ you really can help people and maybe yourself too with all the support from here ❤️❤️❤️❤️
Gute Besserung
Auch von mir, gute Besserung!
Jaden Chloe and another alter, Nina, integrated and became Nin. There’s a video on it on her channel somewhere if you want to know more.
@@caitlinlynch3896 thanks I saw the videos recently.
i can’t imagine the fear that comes along with did. living with other people inside the same body has so much responsibility, it must be so hard trying to make sure everything’s going well between everybody. You have to have a lot more respect for others and you’ve definitely got to be resilient. i really admire all of you! there’s no right or wrong but you guys are doing it so well! nothing. is. linear. and you can have so many more downs then ups but that doesn’t mean it’s wrong! we all make mistakes 💗
quite a few of us actually considered that this potential was really scary until we all started communicating and I would come back to my journal to have someone saying I would never ever hurt you and other people writing I love you and drawing hearts all over the journal...it is sort of wild to recognize that I have a whole system of people who love each other. Some of them are not the world's healthiest individuals but that doesn't mean that they don't love and want to protect.
Which is mind-blowing because our long-term host never experienced self love until her mid20s, and hidden beneath the surface of amnesia there was love.
Dembai i’m glad you can all communicate! it’s lovely to hear that people are being so kind!
@@DembaiVT that's such a beautiful story. It gives us hope. Thank you❤️
@@dontstealmycaprisuns7596 most of us have really awful communication. We all struggle with amnesia really badly. But dissociDID really gave a ton of good tips to get messages around the system, and stuff.
I'm glad I found out what was happening to me by finding this community.
The quality of this channel keeps getting better and better. I love how the education has progressed. You're doing a great job Nin & Others
I love this video, Nin, there is a friend of our system who has seen more alters front than probably anyone else ever and I feel like, because of the fact that I've personally told him that if anyone else who's a part of the system fucks up, I will always go ahead and deal with it as soon as possible to make things right, he has been able to trust the system a lot more in general. He does not have the disorder but is willing to and has learnt quite a lot whilst interacting with us and I think that if you give someone who makes an effort to get to know whoever alter is fronting at the moment and wants to learn about the disorder, respect in form of being responsible for the other alters within your system, often times people like that will give you the same amount of respect back and will be a good friend which is always nice :3
-Jack
I love seeing how Nin is setteling into her personality, in this case her style and talking.
And as always, great video ❤️
Someone send this to Trish
Lmao
System responsibility - the one term that Trisha will never, EVER, understand.
@@valhersa29 Heck, just * responsibilty * is probably something she'll never understand
Isnt that the endo girl? dont wanna start syscourse but uhhh..
yk what im gonna say. she wont understand it because of that.
man. i'm in a few did/osdd groups online where people don't take responsibility for their systems' actions. i'm glad to finally have a resource i can point them to instead of typing out an essay myself every time. also, nin this look & the editing are incredible!!!
I want to thank you for what you do here and how candid you are. Not only have I learned a ton about DID, I've learned more about the dissociation and cptsd that I do experience. I feel like between you and Crappy Childhood Fairy I've learned more about these topics than I have through years of therapy and psychiatrists. It has helped me to understand a lot about myself and that some things that feel abnormal are in fact normal for someone who has endured trauma. You are massively appreciated and I wish you nothing but the ability to thrive and the peace your deserve.
one of my close friends was recently diagnosed with DID and your videos helped me IMMENSELY in understanding and reacting to her experiences
thanks a ton to Nin and the rest of DissociaDID!
edit: woooooow! thank you! my first heart ^^ means alot to me, thank you! =^.^=
One of my alters got there hair cut super short so they could feel comfortable but didn't really think about anyone 🤦🏻♂️ now we all have to deal with it
Nin, thank you for this educational video. I appreciate all the knowledge you provide to break the stigma! Education is so important in this world today and the passion you have for education on this topic is amazing!
I LOVE the new touch to the editing and the channel, you are doing incredibly well Nin! Thank you so much for taking care of the channel and helping educate people on DID! I hope all of you are doing well, sending love to everyone❤❤
How does your hair get better with every video?
YAs
That part about alcohol and similar makes me think of a question I've had for a while. If the body is drunk, would everyone in the headspace feel it? How far back in the headspace would that affect (like someone who's co-con would be more likely to be affected than someone further back) What about being hurt? Would people in the headspace have a sudden feeling that something is wrong, or even feel discomfort if the body, say, broke their arm?
If conscious they can sense how the body is affected, to some degree, depending how close to the front (how focused in consciousness they are).
However some alters also experience the same things slightly differently to each other too. Such as things like having a higher or lower pain tolerance, or different energy levels.
Even amongst each other in the same body alters can have a different idea of what the body needs or how it seems to feel. It has something to do with how different parts of the brain are stimulated with different alters, and how the brain in turn manages the rest of the body, like hormones, and senses, even some reflexes. Not everything will change, but some things can.
I hope this helps, but please don't take my word for it and look further at other resources too.
@@SashyGryphyth -- Your description is very much my experience with this. Pain tolerance, certain reflexes, vision and other sensory processing stuff, what caffeine does to us, how drunk we get after consuming the same amount of alcohol, etc. varies a lot based on who's out. Even whether or not we'll have a hangover in the morning seems to be dependent on who wakes up first.
As the person who recently broke our foot, I can confirm that (at least in this case) I noticed it, but also didn't really feel it, so I thought it wasn't a big deal. We only went to urgent care a couple days later after someone else came out and noticed it... :P
All anecdotal, of course, but I hope it helps with the initial question here, lol
As someone with DID, anything physical such as being drunk, having a cold, sprained ankle, etc. is only felt by whoever is out front/cofronting. Also being drunk is its own bag of worms with trauma cause memories come up wayy faster (like flashbacks and such) and it makes switching really weird. Only speaking from personal experience though
This channel has helped me so much. I found it when my therapist told me to research my diagnoses.
It has helped me understand not only my non human alters, as well as what causes alters to splinter off, as well as possibly avoid making others .
I didn't know why there was video footage of me doing things(destructive ) I didn't remember. The only thing I had was accountability for what I had done. No idea why it happened. There is far more to my story than I can reasonably write here.
That said, thank you very much!!! Y'all have helped tremendously.
I have not been very kind to my alters and I'm ashamed of it. I plan on apologizing soon. Thanks for this 💗
Thank you for this wonderfully educational video! I don't usually comment on videos, but I just wanted to let you know that I really like your videos, and can tell that a lot of effort was put into making them! The contents are sound and educational, and I love the way you present your content. Not to mention the awesome editing! They really help me to understand DID better, and remind me of the importance of mental health as well, especially since it's not been talked about that much until recently where I'm from. I've been watching (and rewatching) your videos for a while now, and just wanted to let you know :) lots of love and respect!
Learning about persecutors is one of my favorite aspects of all this. Being a single personality, I can still think of the different parts of my brain as being compartmentalized the same way, even on a metaphorical level. Learning how to reach out to one's persecutors and offer them love and support just makes so much more sense in this context, and reminds me to not bully myself so much for my past suffering.
Being used to American accents, I’ve always been in love with the way Chloe said “everybody”, and now I hear Nin saying it like that too💙
the vids are definitely more passion filled and personal now ❣️i can feel the emotion thru the screen like you’re speaking from your heart where before, tho Chloe was very open with us she definitely took the more objective, scientific route ! we love what you’re doing with the channel, nin ❣️
This is great advice Nin, even for those without DID, as what you do, aware or not, you still have to take responsibility for. You always have great advice Nin and speak in such a way where you can hear the passion behind it, and you are all around just absolutely lovely :)
Aaron Wilder - I so agree. Not to minimize the incredible situation a system lives with, but even a singlet personality has the challenge of recognizing and owning up to their responsibility for unconscious aspects or unconscious impulses. When all sorts of other people struggle to be self aware it’s because, well you can’t blame your childhood or your parent interjects or the immature side of yourself - its work to accept that responsibility, for everything about ourselves.
@@daphnelecesne2618, very well said :)
Though I miss Cloe, I absolutely love Nin. She seems so confident and just more "mentally healthy/happy". I hope this makes sense and isn't offensive.
Nina’s personality definitely helped with that.
Why Nin became the host?
Hi. I am from Malaysia. I'm so glad that I found your channel as it taught me a lot about DID and show me different perspectives on it. It is full of knowledge for us who did not know much DID. Wish you all the best. ^_^
PS: I love your makeup, it makes you looks super gorgeous
There is another thing I want to say on a personal note. Between you and the Entropy System, I have come to learn I dissociate significantly. I don't have DID, but it explains why hours simply disappear. This has led to a change in my therapy and medication.
I want you to know that you have changed my life. From the heart, thank you.
Hi Nin!!! I'm glad you brought this up. I had a friend in the past with DID, back when I wasn't very aware of what it was but believed them. And they broke our friendship, or an alter did, and when another alter apologized they said it wasn't them. It was someone else in their system and I had to just expect that. I don't think they truly understood their condition yet either but an alter said quite horrible things to me and they definitely didn't take responsibility, just apologized it happened. I was also less understanding and unwilling to believe it wouldn't happen again so I blocked them :( anyway, I hope that this helps other systems as much as it helped me understand what my former friend had done. Much love, always 💜
@Anne-Lou just as Nin said, take responsibility instead of saying there was nothing they could do! Especially since only that alter didn't want to be my friend. There was only apology that it happened, not apology for what was said or how much it had hurt me. I would have been willing to work with the system but nobody wanted to acknowledge that I had been deeply hurt. The communication just wasn't very good in their system yet. I understand that now, but especially back then, it felt like they were just playing with me and pretending it never happened. It was overall an unfair situation for all of us.
I had a similar situation where someone with DID did something that completely broke me and I was told by everyone that it wasn't her so it wasn't her fault and she took no responsibility and still hasnt. I'm still recovering. I'm so glad that I found this channel before the incident and had an understanding of it. It's nice to have this channel to turn to as it shows not everyone with DID will do that
I'm so early. I Love guys. Kyle I love you man, you're a legend ❤️ I love everybody in the system and Chloe started doing a great thing, spreading awareness about DID. I know you are putting yourself at a risk but so many of us love the DissociaDID system. I hope everyone is doing okay, sending lots of love to the littles too (I know you keep them private) but I hope they're having alot of fun! You have all my love and respect, this goes for everyone in the system, I love you guys alot❤️❤️ and Nin you're doing a really great job, I hope you keep going strong ❤️❤️
Thank you so much for making this. It brought tears to my eyes. You explain things so kindly and are so reassuring. As someone with trauma it just... means a lot to hear.
Thanks so much Nin for jumping back into the channel! I can imagine it's hard to just try and resume as normal after just poofing into existence. Great to keep getting to know you, we all already love you so much! Kisses and love to the guinea pigs!💖
Wow this video is rough and much appreciated. My husband was diagnosed 4 months ago and although one part of him is willing to take responsibility for the one part that causes all the issues, the trouble maker will return and contradict everything that the other parts have taken the blame for. The trouble maker is self destructive and horrible to me. From what my husband can tell me is that all his parts, but the one trouble maker, wants to work together. The one part who is so mean destroys any failsafes and work we and/or he has done.
I do appreciate this video. I will show his host, cause his host agrees with you. I wish I knew what to do about the trouble maker. He’s really damaging my husband’s system and our family. Thank you so much for being here. Your videos are so helpful, important and brave. 💗🌸🦋
You are so so good at doing this. You balance communicating with people who have DID and people who don't and are learning about it, holding systems accountable for system responsibility and being empathetic and understanding about the struggles faced when doing so. It's a privilage to have access to such amazing, thorough mental health resources. Keep doing what you're doing!
Anyone else get HYPED, AND soothed when the intro music comes in?? @DissociaDID, THANK YOU for this vid. Timely in our healing process.
this is completely off topic: but this look is EVERYTHING on you Nin
I think one of the most frustrating parts of trying to make amends with people on things other altars have done is when people expect you to know what you’ve done and refuse to tell you when you politely ask. Growing up I’d miss entire days/weeks and think oh i must’ve got the days wrong not realizing DID is a thing and I’d come back to friends being angry at me and I’d try to get the situation sorted out but they were offended I couldn’t remember and be like “you should remember” and i just had no idea what was going on. And apologizing after even *hinting* that you dont know what happened has never gone well cause “its not a real apology if its not important enough for you to remember”. DID is such a hard disorder to live with
This channel has taught me so much about DID, I had a lot of misinformation before watching these videos, thank you for making these!!❤️
i love Nina choker/necklace here! you did great with the makeup also! 💗
*Nin 😊
I understand taking responsibility as a system regardless of who made the “bad” decisions. I hope you all also find joy in taking responsibility as a system for each alters positive actions and choices as well 💓💓💓 thank you Nin for all you do 💙💚
I just found this channel and I'm so happy I did. My girlfriend has DID and these videos are really helping me learn. I wanna make sure I fully understand so I can be there for her whenever she may need. 💜
Heya Nin! Can I just say I love your editing style? It's so good and clean! There's so much information here. I'm so happy to be following you all.
This is... helpful for me. I have a difficult circumstance in that my mental health team don't want to diagnose OSDD or DID in any of their patients. They don't believe they should be in the DSM-5.
I suspect I'm a multiple. I used to suspect it when I was younger but I didn't have the words... I weighed things back and forth for a long time but since a major surgery, there was some medical trauma there and... well, there's someone new inside. But I have no idea how to deal with it.
I wasn't aware of almost anything about DID before a new friend who has osdd told me he had it and recommended your channel. Since then I watched every single video from both you and team piñata not only for the information, but for de amazing people that you are. Keep doing what you're doing. Rooting for you everyday 💕
Thanks Nin! This can be a difficult process to navigate for people with DID and those around them. I really appreciate the work you put in to make this video. Love to all of you.
Thank you for talking about this. I had an old friend who sincerely hurt me and she used her DID as an excuse. She was fronting, I'm not sure if she was co-coning or not, but she said that because she has alters, sometimes they will say something and it will blurt out without a filter. Her struggle and disorder is valid but the way she worded it made it sound like an excuse rather than an apology and it really hurt. This video gave me a lot of perspective on what she probably meant to say and helped me understand what it was probably like in her life as someone with the disorder. Thank you. 💜
Hey Nin. I wanted to say that I love how confident you've become. I want to thank you for being so brave and continuing to spread positivity. I wanted to say that I'm so proud of you. I may not know you or the system in real life, but I already feel like I would be more than happy to be a friend of the system. I wish I could send you all presents, but I'm unable to for the time being. This next bit is for everyone in the system. I want you all to know that even though you went through some terrible things, you are all amazing people who inspire others. I only know a few names so I'm sorry if you feel a little left out in this part. It's not that I don't care for you but because I am yet to come across you or simply can't remember you all at one time.
Kyle. You are a big help to me on the days I feel masculine. Plus you have great taste in hats.
Jade. You are an amazing protector. Don't doubt yourself even in the toughest of situations.
Nin. Though you are new I already feel as though I know you. Yes I miss Chloe and Nina but I also see that you shouldn't be seen as the bad guy for existing as pieces of them while being a whole new person. You are stronger than you think.
To the littles. I wish I could send you all as many stuffed animals and hugs as I could but unfortunately virtual hugs are all I can offer.
You are all incredible people and I can't wait to see all the amazing things you'll all do in the future.
Thank you for reading and I hope you all have a wonderful day/night. ❤💛💙
I love Nin's style, beautiful make up~
I feel the middle part so much. We were having trouble deciding to stay in a problematic/controlling marriage and my ex accused us of making up the DID to manipulate him. In a later convo when I was encouraging him to get help for his, our son, and his future relationships, he mocked me and said "maybe I have DID and when I get like that, I'm Steve." That was the moment all my alters got on board with running and running fast.
All this was only a few months ago and since then, I've been struggling in decifering what's mine/ours to take responsibility for and what isn't. Particularly that his anger and inappropriate ways of dealing with it was my fault for being as 'damaged' and 'broken' as I am
Hi Nin! 💚
This sounds very tiring, you explain it very effectively and with grace. Referring to the system as a community helped me move past my initial thoughts of 'that sounds so unfair when it wasn't you!' to thinking about it using a community metaphor. In any community, whether a school, or an organisation etc, if someone within that organisation does something unacceptable, the organisation as a whole will accept responsibly and issue a public apology, even if 99% of the people in that organisation weren't involved, and their personal opinions on what happened may vary. Apologising for something that wasn't 'your' fault doesn't mean you've done anything wrong, just that you understand that all communities (and systems) are full of complex relationships and responsibility is shared. And as someone else mentioned, success! Individuals within the system should be proud of their personal achievements, but it's also okay for others who weren't directly responsible to share in the joy 💚
i didn’t know about any of this until the whole trish situation but im very intrigued by all this. i dont know anyone with DID or have it, but i feel like this stuff is important for more people to know about!!
As a person who has OSDD, this video was extremely helpful towards my system as my persecutor, Michael, has stopped doing things that can hurt other people.
It breaks my heart to watch my daughter struggle! The guilt is overwhelming sometimes. I left her with someone I truly thought I could trust when I was gone so long having my surgery. In my head I know there is nothing I could do different. I also know that I made a horrible mistake by leaving her where I did, but it was a mistake and I know in my head I need to stop beating myself up over it but that is much easier said then done. I feel responsible even though it was not my fault. I would gove anything to take the pain away.
I'm not sure if I should say this here but why not. I'm a bit older & I remember being diagnosed with Dissociative Disorder at age 30. I didn't realize what it all meant because I stopped going to that doc & moved out of state. I can't remember if I shared it with other counselors & docs afterwards but I probably did. Thing is, no one explained what it meant & I didn't ask or research. I thought it was just because I could separate from myself. I've been watching your videos for several weeks now & the reality just hit me. It all makes sense. I have much thinking to do now. I suppose I'll tell my new mental health team because I didn't even think to mention it. Thank you for all that you're doing!
I found this gem
Thank you! This helped me a lot.
My twin brother has DID
His alter sometimes would throw the laptop at me
And he'd suddenly apologies to me.
So thank you
This help me to understand him better
your makeup looks so pretty, i love the monochrome + red lip combo and the choker!
Bruh I really love the new editing style Nin's brought to the channel! It's really smooth and aesthetic
Oh wow I actually got the notification 😂😂
sameee
I have never met anyone with DID and I’ve become obsessed with your channel recently because I realized I knew absolutely nothing about it! It is amazingly fascinating and I admire every part your system we’ve been shown. I feel like I am learning so much about my own trauma and psychology even without DID through this channel.
All of this feels so important to me I feel like I need the information you share, to better me and others I may encounter. So much respect for disassociaDID.
The switches are fascinating, seeing how visible switches can be has confirmed it for me that this disorder is real when I used to be a bit sceptical about it all. I hope any others will react the same way so more people with DID won’t be told they are invalid or treated badly just because of their disorder. I thank you so much for educating us on this stuff even if it is very personal to you. So much love for your system, so much
I love that Nin stares into my soul while she's talking. I can feel the emotions behind everything she says! It's so earnest and genuine!
I’m so thankful I found your channel. After finding you yesterday I’ve had such a sense of relief and calmness take over my body, like finally I’ve found what’s wrong with me. No one understands when I try and explain. Definitely going to seek further help on how to get a diagnosis! Thank you thank you thank YOU!!!
This all makes me have even more respect for people who live with DID. Thinking about how difficult it would be if I were to be responsible for everything my friends did already makes me stressed. Seriously, so much respect for being so strong 💙
Thank you for making this video because recently my teacher used DID as an example of if someone should be guilty of a crime despite their mental condition. So thank you, I was wondering about that.
Thank you for making this Nin! As a best friend of someone with DID for about 3 years now you were one of the first stories i heard from. I've loved meeting some of my friend Kian's system over the years. Such an interesting video. Really enjoying your presentation of content.
Another Great educational video. I hope things are starting to settle for you guys since the integration. Btw your makeup in this video is stunning!! I think it’s time for a Nin makeup tutorial. 😍❤️ hope everyone in the system is doing well.
Not really related, but me(the host) once suddenly got locked out of the headspace and it was CHAOS with the body until I came back. A co-host had to do their best to control the situation.
Ralín is said co-host. Love her
I'm sorry, I want my hard work credited 😤👊
I love that you can see both characteristics, traits and styles from both Nina and Chloe in Nin. Like her style is a perfect combination of the two, sort of an easier way of understanding the process of integration and what integrating means.
Hey Nin
I can’t even begin to explain how your channel has changed my way of thinking not just DID but the world .... You are truly amazing! Thank you for making this channel! All of you !
The editing is on point Nin! Also, I know you say you struggle with makeup but girl... that's ON POINT 💖
Now about the video, this is such an important topic, not only for systems but for everyone. Pain, trauma and mental health problems don't wash away responsibility or liability at all. As a depressed anxious mess of a human being, I struggle with owning up to stuff I feel I can't control sometimes, so thank you! 💖
Great video nin! This is unrelated to the video, but in the livestream you said that you guys were going to dye your hair again. There is a brand of semi-permanent hair coloring called Overtone that I like. It is a conditioner that colors your hair, so it doesn't damage it like regular dyes. You can also wash your hair in warm water, so no more cold showers 😋. Sorry for sounding like an ad, have a great day! Also, I'm so excited for the podcast!!
I'm always watching intensely for the videos. I love them so much!!
Ur an amazing person thank you for helping us understand DID better
In searching for answers about my trauma I found you. I don't have D.I.D but I am glad to have found you because you educated me on something I didnt know anything about. Your system is beautiful and I am a huge fan of Jade her no nonsense attitude reminds me of myself.
This really hit home =\ we have a persecutor who recently said some hurtful things to our partner, and I (as the primary host) have spent a lot of time since then trying to work out how much to apologise for his actions and what the right way to handle situations like that is, so thank you for this.
You're right, it feels very unfair, but at the same time I care a little more about my partner's feelings than that sense of what's fair to me.
Hey Nin, I've watched your channel for quite some time and I actually had a question. It's completely okay if you don't have time/energy to answer! I understand you must get many questions daily. I was wondering if there are any dissociative disorders that you know of that can occur when repeated trauma is experienced in your early pubescent/teenage years?
Thank you all so much for helping out, really appreciate it ♡
Tyler Tinari BPD is from childhood so can’t happen in early teens x
Paige Henry-Robertson Borderline Personality is not only childhood. I was 12 when I started with symptoms but others don’t TIL later. DID which I also have (not official only by my psychologist) is 10 and under.
@@P1P2P3_59 Not every person diagnosed with BPD suffered from childhood trauma. A large part does (around 70%), but NOT everyone
It sounds like you’re talking about c-PTSD.... Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. Defined by *prolonged, repeated, trauma where you have little or no chance of escape*. In other words, a situation that may have caused DID had you been younger.
I have both PTSD and c-PTSD diagnosis, so let me explain...
PTSD is typically from one event OR a period of time involving one event, or at the very least, something that happens to you as a totally formed adult, already emotionally mature (but mainly it’s like... say you were at war, or if you were kidnapped and held for weeks, etc or, as a single event, a single attack or assault, in a car accident where the other person died, or say if you were present at a terror!st attack, etc. those are more extreme examples, but you see my point). The hallmark is the one chaotic event, or series of events around one thing (again, Like someone who was kidnapped and repeatedly assaulted for weeks and set free after would likely suffer from PTSD after thst even though it really wasn’t only one single event, or like I said, being at war is the old classic).
Then there’s c-PTSD, which is a form of the same illness, the difference is that it’s from repeated trauma past childhood, but before fully formed and secure, if that makes sense, say, if someone was repeatedly assaulting you in some way for years when you were a teenage or young adult (any time past childhood, but before fully formed adulthood- like it has to occur while you’re still developing to my understanding). So, for example, I have PTSD because I was raped one time as my virginity “losing” (stealing) experience. I have trauma related to that specific event. However, my father also became a SEVERE (previously under control that I wasn’t old enough to notice bc he wasn’t very bad yet) alcoholic when I was 12, into my young adulthood (& beyond but by then I was out of his house) and I have c-PTSD because of that because it was a repeated abuse situation that my body interpreted as a risk to my life, but that I had no way to get out of so it went on for years and years.... so the brain forms c-PTSD as a way to cope and, well, survive (I won’t go on cause from there obviously you can google it). Lucky me lol.
I'm apart of a young, but large system of 41 alters (as of 11/14/2020). We've had DID for 10 years, but just found out about it a couple months ago. Our system is so massive (luckily not everyone is more interested living their own lives in the innerworld) & we are in a 15 year old body, so it can get chaotic, so this video helped a lot honestly, thank you so much.
Yes. Co- accountability
Is a thing ... it is a must !
this has always been a question I've had about DID systems! Thank you for clearing this up!
I'd love to see Nin do a makeup video because the makeup is slightly different than what Chloe would do and I'm very intrigued as to how Nin approaches it (also I really want to know what her makeup products are because shes so good at it and her red lipstick doesnt transfer)
I think you can tell just from the way you present yourself that you've become more confident.
My friend has DID. However she doesn't have any communication with her alters. She doesn't have any names for them at all. She just goes about her day and if she switches then she switches. And when i say she communicates, I literally mean she never once acknowledges her alters as separate personalities. The issue is that its causing problems within our friends circle because one alter (we think its a persecuter) keeps popping up and is just NEGAAAATTTTIVE.
From what we've answered wrong think its about 3-4 different alters within her system. But this 1 alter is the main problem causer. How can I tell me friend in a polite way to take control of her system. Or at least manage it better?
I'm not sure if she's receiving any kind if treatment for D.I.D but my sorry is just trying to find a way to tell her without hurting her feelings or without that negative alter jumping in again
I was wondering if you could do a video about alters wanting to live their own lives. For example one may want to be a doctor, while another wants to be a lawyer, another wants to work with animals. For my system we are trying to add as much of our dreams together. I want to be a doctor but many want to be in law. So I was thinking we could study medicine and law and work as profilers or behavior analysis. While many of us like sports so we do that in our free time, while another wants to work in psychology and working in a BAU would also go with that. So I was wondering if you could make a video on how other people can learn to make "all" the alters dreams come true or how to let your alters work with you if you already have a career. (We are a system of 37 so trying to add things they like into my (the core/host) life is a bit tough.
I love the makeup! Also, my friend has a very similar choker and it looks great on both of you guys. These kinds of videos are extremely important. A lot of people are severely misinformed about DID, and channels like yours can help inform and educate those who can't find the information otherwise. Your channel has certainly taught me a lot about this disorder.
This video could not have come at a better time. Currently trying to handle persecutors that are actively hurting friends in an effort to push them away. You’re so right in saying that communication is key. Thank you x
Wishing you all the best in such a complicated situation x
All of you are amazing, it's great to find people that actually get it, especially with persecutors , I also try to look at people outside the body with that kind of mindset
Such an amazing video Nin. Question: could you make a video on Trauma Holders and how to help them please? My primary protector is a trauma holder and he has a lot of fear about the world outside of our system. For years I’ve been trying this to reassure him but nothing seems to have stuck and I’m not sure what else to do. Any ideas?
Nin you are doing amazing! I am so proud of you for sharing and carrying on post-integration and also addressing how its changed you and you are ever-evolving, healing and growing. Much love to you. I am studying to be a trauma therapist and you do an amazing job sharing your perspective and educating others. I have been watching Chloe's videos from the start and the whole system. Much love from Toronto, Canada!
(Unrelated but I’m curious) As host, has your ability to access the inner world changed after integration? Can you access more/less than Chloe could? Love your makeup too x
I believe in the Q&A she filmed (I watched a bit of it), she said she has slightly more access than Chloe however she can't roam freely for lack of better wording
Nin seems to be less afraid of the inner world than Chloe was so I guess that’s helping the way she can access it
Izabella Hearon Thank you! I haven’t had the time to watch the live-streams fully yet
Nin, I felt your pain, despair, and frustration with this situation coming through loud and clear. I am beginning to realize that the alters MAY be as much difficult to deal with as the information they are supposed to protect you from. Nin, the newly integrated host, is NOT supposed to suffer this much in my opinion. I am very sorry you have this pain in your life. If the alter KNOWS what happened to little Chloe, I can see why the misbehavior occurs. I wish you much love and triumph as the days go on.