Hook So yeah, Fuck it I'm worthless Everybody's not what they seem on the surface I'm trailing through life , trying to find a purpose, surplus, it's no wonder why I'm nervous I've always been controlled by my past, life goes good, and then I crash, and I'm left on my ass, should've known happieness will never last, thought I was strong but my heart beats just as fast Found out that my mother had cancer, alchohol, drugs, it's never the answer, but I'll do it anyway to block out the pain, life without you will never be the same I'm humble, but I'm resigned to my fate, I can't afford to make any more mistakes, I'm gunna make you proud, without a doubt, I feel like I just need to let it all out, Hook I need you to know that I care, and if you need me you know that I'm there It's makes me sick that I've been so blind, just know that you're one of a kind, and you'll always be on my mind, I just hope we have more time, and life can be so unfair, don't wanna see you losing your hair, but someone like you now that shit is rare, I need you like we all need air, I don't believe in God but I'll say a prayer, at least I've got time to prepare I wanna make up for what I've done, and it hurts that you're only young, we are all united as one, big love from your one and only youngest son
By the way just read this comment a month later, forgetting I commented. I relate a lot and if you have SAD then check this out: This dam disease makes me feel so ill/ and not the feel good kind/ But the one that makes you want to kill/ Whatever is inside your mind/ I try to stop it and draw a line/ But the more you try the worse it gets/ It has made my life a hell of a mess/ and I wonder if life will ever give me some peace and rest/ Hook Wonder when I will get rid of this godam Social Anxiety This curse that makes me feel like I'm not part of society This burden on my heart, mind and soul That has got me shunning and avoiding people entirely Has made my life sink to and all time low And it repeats and repeats like my mind is a stereo and I am playing the godam radio No friends, no one to understand "Just get over it "," It is all in your head" Is all I hear people say like I hadn't try that before Trust me if I had a soultion I would try that instead I can't talk to no one without the feeling of shame At times it doesn't even make any shred of sense but it's too late my mind body are way past tense I just hope on day I forget about all of this and write my lyrics about this pain in past tense
Hey dude sorry about your dad. My dad die in 2017 too but it was on June 2. This beat always make remember my dad so much. It does hurt a lot so people can't say it does not hurt.
I lost my heart when my momma passed away these days ain't been the same everything has changed , been staying up all nights this addiction I got im tryna fight !! Write my wrongs write my life! Yeah im tired of being like this , I'm tired !
Just no God loves you believe that don't for get it I will keep you in my prayer,that sum free time away from everyone get you mind and heart right with God and keep loving you ,your mother is always with you watching her baby God bless
Sounds like the perspective from my brother in the addiction part. He was in jail due to drugs and we lost our mom in a fatal car crash where she died on impact. He gets out 6 months later. Is out for 4 months then got locked up yesterday again and was on another bad path of addiction. Shit aint easy man. And it aint supposed to be. But you got this, stay strong. And know there are people who love you and care about you. And want to see you succeed. Im the writer of my family and i write about all the experiences ive dealt with. Lost my mom may last year and it felt like yesterday. So besides actually experiencing addiction i feel and see your pain. Stay strong my friend. And hold your head high. You are 1 in a million. Love you dawg
All these fake smiles All these fake friends All these fake people who never had a hand to lend Yeah I go to school Yeah I do my work But sometimes I feel im bout to go beserk Yeah I know im young I should be having fun But I feel like shooting myself with a handgun They say life's a game, but I feel like I'm losing Push me to my edge Call me Lil Uzi like My school told me it's family that I represent But they're the same people who told me that I'm an accident I feel so lonely I don't know what to do That why I cover it up with an attitude
baby i feel your pain, we may never be the same, but look at the sun when it shines, trust me where there is darkness there is also a brighter side, just be happy u still alive
-it was only yesterday -when I was yours and you were mine -ive never imagine, that well be going our we seprate ways -leaving one another behind -and I never thought that I'd say this -but "I love you and good bye" -let us forget about our past -and pretend it never happend -it seems as if -good things aren't meant to last forever -I understand that your hurt/ And so am i - but i wear this mask in discize -to hide my hidden pain - to Express our love... -but the broken promises still hunts me -and over time/... -I have learned to see the big picture -that our love is a curse -so cherrish every moment that we've had -while it last -and never forget, -what our love is really worth -and let us be patient -and see/ what you and I really desearve -and take this time apart to search deep down you heart, what drove our love apart -just so you know, you'll always and forever remain in my heart -but from now on -you can walk your own path and I will walk mine
start 0:38 Reminiscin' In the corner... I sit here reminiscin/ Askin' god why is this the lady that I sit here missin/ When my father left I've been feelin' distant/ This girl came up to me and said, "Yo, how is it kickin?'" Deep in thought saying, "I guess it is my mission"/ For me to make her proud but I just didn't listen/ I'm sittin' here just me and her/ Inside wishin' I died so I could leave this earth/ I think suicidal thoughts so I guess it's death in me/ All the people 'round me poaching me/ I think of all the places your were supposed to be/ But now you're six under the ground and the depth's in feet/ I sit here and cry so helplessly/ How could this happen so suddenly/ Now every day I feel like a sun-burned leaf/ I used to think that you saw me as a failure for a second/ Because of the day that I failed the 7th/ Used to take a bunch of pills without second guessin/ Listen to my lyrics bruise this beat/ Like i'm stompin a bunch of beets under my feet/ My face turnin' purplish I feel like a disgrace/ I walk down the street of madison/ My train of thought came and I wasn't havin' it/ I think of when I talked to that girl/ So I got back to the place/ I sit here with the barrel turned to my face/ I think of life sit down and cock it/ My brain on the pavement while people walk past or watch it/ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ start at 1:59 One day I saw someone in the corner reminiscin/ I said what's up man how is it kickin' HE said his father left and he's been feelin' distant/ He was deep in thought sayin' I guess it's my mission" For him to make his mother proud/ But he just didn't listen'/ I'm sittin' here just me and him/ I ask god what was it like being him/ He told me that one day he wish he could die/ He said he was on and off about suicide/ WHen he told me his mother died I felt sorrow helplessly/ That meant his mother was 6 under the ground and the depth's in feet/ He screamed how could this happen so suddenly!!/ ---{===--7:30-- AM===}--- I woke up the next morning to go to school/ Lookin the mirror say I'm feelin fine yeah i'm feelin' cool/ Walk out the door tell my mother "I love you"/ Walk down the street on madison/ See the guy I talked to yesterday (Is it really happenin') I see him turn a barrel to his face/ See him think of life take the gun and cock it/ He shoots himself I stood there and just watched it!!/ Run over to his limp body and screamed I'm sorry/ A wave of guilt rushed over me like it was my fault and/ I stood up and I continued walkin/ Listenin' to the voices in my head mockin'/ Talk about how he killed himself and I could've stopped him.../
Before I met you I thought I was lost Upon the vast emptiness Of my heart And oh when you left me Showed me your colors They shown through While I was torn apart All those broken promises Meant nothin at all I knew I'd scrape my knees When you let me fall But all those bandages Wouldnt keep me from bleedin And all my love and trust woukdnt keep you from leaving I tried to make you stay But instead I wiped the blood on my shirt and ran away Now I'm reminded of the pain When I wear the shirt And see that stain A solemn reminder of who I once was Who I'll never be again Wishing I could go back And keep myself from falling So I would've never bleed Would've never seen the red The red flags that I was to blind to see Because when you look at me I melt so easily You had me wrapped around your finger But when you got tired you cut it off Wouldnt let me linger Even when my blood ran cold All those broken promises Meant nothin at all I knew I'd scrape my knees When you let me fall But all those bandages Wouldnt keep me from bleeding And no matter how hard I tried I couldn't keep you from leaving Keep telling me you dont trust me When I'm the one at fault I kept telling myself that you cared When I dont mean nothin at all I'm convinced that you are still my whole world But you distance yourself which makes it hard for me to reach You when you've had enough Of the world and the ones living in it
I've started rapping (again) because of this beat two years ago but it seems like an eternity since I've heard it the last time...feels a bit like coming home :)
A flawless angel of depression Stuck dreaming of repression Skin filled with blue blood Your every whisper an emotional flood Begging to the shattered skies Drifting among thoughtless lies Divine beauty without a voice Never did you have a choice Dragged into a deepening hell Any hope your demanded to sell Life lived as a cyclone of endless sacrifice Forever questioning things twice Blinded beneath a cloak of sorrow You plead not to see tomorrow Yet there before the ceaseless rain A hand knowing all to well of pain The help you have so desired The very dream you clutch when tired Hidden beneath your daily sight A friend who too knows the night This single beacon within the darkest of shades Any desperation quickly fades Without a single breath There gesture has halted your death Resurrecting a paused heart For all deserve a second start.
Why do I wake up to just go back to bed They say my life’s perfect but my problems come from my head Everyday a constant battle to stay in one piece Trying to stop smoking weed and just live life free But still I’m burdened by my feelings Thinking maybe I can release them No I’m trapped inside my mind Trying to find somewhere...anywhere else to hide I need to admit that I got problems But don’t want to be labeled as someone who got em’ I don’t know where they come from I just know they have to to I pray to god take me soon I don’t wanna be at fault for what I do Everybody tells me life will just get better But who even cares when the life you live in is a nightmare Have you ever just felt lost and confused Like you thought you belonged but guess no one thought so too So you have to band to yourself and look out for number one But with no one to cover you you felt like your life was almost done
Still remember the last time we spoke by the phone Is it better without me? beacuse i feel so alone Did it ever occur i tried to fix our broken home Wish it never tore us apart or broke our souls Haunting memories rewind until infinity Said you would never leave, was it that bad living with me? I know my jail time crushed a few of your dreams But i always thought you would stand by me I need too sleep , i cant go on like this I try counting sheep , but theres one i always miss Ive been up for six nights , walking on a white line Trying to create a wall around my mind So much powder up my nose that im starting to go blind But i still see you clear as day when i close my eyes Why couldnt you stay ?so i could avoid my demise Im still breathing but it feels like i died
One last time.. One last dance... Before reality slips through my hands.. One last kiss... One last chance.. Before everything I know leaves in a glance... I'm torn between option 1 and option 2, it's nothing personal but I wanted option 2, me and you. I know that sounds kind of selfish and you're right but what's wrong with a bird wanting to fly? I gave up everything, I gave you all I could and you still tell me I'm no good. Wishing upon a star is a beauty ain't it... So was our love until you drained it.. You shot me dead in the heart, making me fall apart into the puddle of the blood that kept us apart. Bad blood... isn't that what Taylor Swift said and it's true now, I want to be with you now, but you left me like a wounded soldier in battle and now I'm dealing with the hassle, the torture and dealing with the suture that's keeping me alive, but I'm already dead inside. I wish to confess, the things that I've oppressed, and the pain that I have left. One last night... One last plight... Until you disappear into the night... One last wish... One last kiss... Until these final memories become bliss... If you enjoyed my rap, please leave a like (or don't it doesn't matter) this was a good vent for me and I hope you found it nice.
If I could see your face, one last time Hear you say my name, one last time Fell the warmth of your embrace , one last time Holding your hands together as we pray, just one last time I miss you more than ever why did you have to die I could hold you in my arms forever I know you're always by my side lookin over me you see me when I struggle When I can't see the light You see me when I'm weak and I can't seem to fight Nothing seems to be alright I feel like I need you more than ever How could this have happened overnight where are you? Are you okay? I wish that I could sit and talk to you for just one more day. I wish you could have met my kids I know they would have loved you I miss you grandma even though your gone away I'm always thinking of you I'll never forget the memories we've made I swear when I close my eyes I could feel you place your hand upon my face.
My pain will never stop keep it going I'll reach the top and I lost my grandfather but to the hands of god. Now Im sitting here crying but the words are so defiyin' can't smile in people faces cause all they do is be lyin' Im just speaking what I know ain't just speaking what I can all of my fuxkin' life was gettin' closer to the end. I thought about suicide once or twice in my life but I get back on my feet and keep the pain away from hype. Im just trying to make a living Im not trying to make a killing This is not the end homie this is the beginning
Hook I remember waking up to hearing you're gone those words brought tears to my eyes when she said that on the phone. Reminiscing in my thoughts I was all in my zone tears falling down my face I felt like being alone. Mama told me "it's okay you know that life goes on" I reply "mama you're right but it feels so wrong" i just wish I could've seen your smile one last time and tell you that I love you more than words could even define. It just feels unreal, got me losing my mind. I be all up in a daze losing track of the time. Coming up wit different ways to keep my family from crying, but we're left with so much pain it got us no longer trying #WeLoveYouDasia #RestInHeavenMyAngel
Kao da bilo je juće Još uvijek sjećam se svega Moja si bila Moj svijet i moj najbolji kolega Ne mogu da zamjenim ni za jednu drugu Moj život bez tebe se promijenio u tugu Nikad nisam sanjao pare i zlato Sanjao sam mene i tebe i na moru jahtu Da smo skupa i da je ljubav prava Njene oći zavele me ko trava
Start at 01:34 right after the drop. One last time before i have to say goodbye One last time i got the chance to call you mine One last time i pull up in that benz without my friends, just me and you baby everything will be fine Noting left to do this don’t come ease Tears drippin one last chance babygirl please Lookin down all the water like im overseas Too much pressure im not a god dam submarine
Little pieces of you, missing is my heart. I used to call you my darl, every day, every hour only mine Maybe you don't miss me, but you know that who miss you - i, want to make it real, never mind its so hard, i used to give you whole my heart, nevermind, i cant find a part, which you stole and not give a back. Everything you want to do, is on your own, you threw it away all, without apologize. Im not freaking, i am takinga deep breath rollin my deep sheet, not a big hit, but a litle sick shit, blue like a berry and your lipstick. only you could be my lil chick, i want to fix this big deal, writin bout you is still hit, for my mind i miss it ...
Need you when I'm broken When I'm fixed Need you when I'm well And when I'm sick Friends that I rely on Don't come through They run like the river But not you Can't see when I'm falling Losing myself, but then I hear you calling There you are, there you are You're there with open arms There you are, there you are And I run Whispers in the background Behind closed doors I got myself in a mess and Without you I'm in more Oh, I'm a little drunk now That's why I went to war Oh yeah, you are my sober When I'm on the floor Can't see when I'm falling Losing myself, but then I hear you calling There you are, there you are You're there with open arms There you are, there you are And I run Only you know me the way you know me Only you forgive me when I'm sorry Even when I messed it up There you are Need you when I'm hot And when I'm cold Need you when I'm young When I'm old You won't be far There you are, there you are You're there with open arms There you are, there you are And I run Only you know me the way you know me Only you forgive me when I'm sorry Even when I messed it up There you are Even when I, even when I Even when I, even when I When you're caught in the crowds When you're up in the clouds When you're caught in the crowds When you're up in the clouds There you are✝️
Sayang aku rindu Akan diri mu Menyesal aku lepaskan Sekarang rindu terbeban Tolong undurkn masa Aku dah cukup basah Tak mampu berbahasa Diam tak terkata Teda yg dapat gantikan Walau banyak saranan Tapi semua aku tolak Aku susah nak dengar borak This rap is about i miss Yea now i lost in the mist Tak kenyang makan beras Cause i trapped in dust Masih boleh ka Aku panggil sayang Suda tentu la Aku yang si bangang Masa tak boleh undur Semuanya sia sia Lebih baik tidur Lebih bahagia Skrang terpisah Segala kenangan Aku masih simpan Walaupun pelupa Mungkin skrng kau Dengan yang lain Baik aq pergi cau Aku kn tukar lane
Saying goodbye granny was the worsts thing I could never imagine this was the worst dream tears flying down my face like fucking bullets heart beating so fast man I couldn't do it I would be lying if I said everything was fine I just need to see my granny for one more last time Me and my sister always sung to her she always thought she always thought our voices was beautiful and young to er. fake smiles , dried eyes, rope tied thoughts of suicide god why did she have to die? Its hard to believe it's been this long since you been gone , stressing depressing, in the mirror looking at my reflection , this got me in my feelings crying looking at the ceiling , eyes blood shot red , tears dried up I'm scared 10 feet deep my granny gone man I'm so fuckingggg aloneeee. Devils got ahold of my heart, something inside is tearing me apart , life's got me on my knees never knew she would fucking leave! I guess I have to say goodbye granny I cannot believe .
Why am I fighting to live, if I’m just living to fight? Why am I trying to see, when there ain’t nothing in sight? Why am I trying to give, when no one gives me a try? Why am I dying to live, if I’m just living to die?
Bullying hurts, don't you see? You are nothing, but a big bully Don't you think of what could have been? What if they put a razor to their skin? What if they wrote a note to say goodbye? And their family and friends were left wondering..why? What if at night, they cry themselves to sleep? By morning, it's too hard to get up on their feet They are afraid to come to school because of bullies like you When they try to tell an adult, their plead is overruled Soon they can't take it anymore They think, "What do I have to live for?" Finally all of their secrets start to spill They grab the bottle and overdose on pills All they ever wanted was a friend And to hear the words, "I'm sorry, I won't do it again" You did it all for the fun You didn't know what could've been done What if you pushed them a bit to far? All your actions have caused one big scar Haven't you seen what you put them through? You think they're weak, but they're stronger than you All they want to do is forget They think, "how much worse can it get?" Don't you know, you're their biggest fear? They scream so loud, but no one can hear What if it was you who got hurt everyday? Tell me how many words you would have left to say
Why? Can't you just tell me how u feel... because how your acting is so unreal.. ×2 You remember when you told me that you'd loved me, I felt unbeloved. . From the way you had hurted me. The way you fliterd was deserted.. u seemed like a nice guy, that was sorta shy.. but i felt I was going to be your third eye. I'm confused, your just like mathmaticas that I can't solve because you only revolve on that one exalt. I trusted you but now I know from my own perceptive to not to believe you.. I wounder if u even realized how confused you made me feel.. I'm sorry.. but please don't call me or look for me, cuz to me your just like a wanna be, that I didn't even want to meet.
I just started writing, please be kind :) [VERSE 1] She said you'll miss me when I'm gone Fuck that, I'll tell you wrong Imma just ride along Never mind, I'll just write another song See myself in the mirror And say "what the fuck is wrong with me?" And answer me honestly when I ask who you want in me No empathy I'm numb Yea so sick bitch, I feel so dumb Yea I'm a jerk But you at the top While I'm at the bottom eatin' dirt I convert, my emotions To letters Emotional boys With them oversized sweaters You know what we do I haven't slept in several days And I haven't eaten food My life isn't something you'll never get or ever understood I'm not telling you that you should I can blaim my parents, I can blaim my hood. [VERSE 2] Your words are kinda tough And i haven't seen you in a couple days I know a solution baby, I know alot a ways I know your broken too But what the fuck Would I do without you? All theese questions Without answers I'm sick Call me Young cancer You know I'm not stable Should I tie the rope or knot This never ending battle I fought Was all inside my thoughts My inner demons are controlling me What do they want in me? what do they want to see? Now I dig my grave in the sand Come with me and hold my hand I'll take you to heaven hell or never fucking land [HOOK] (X2) one last time I see your soul And take it away I speak truth baby I don't ever need to play I live for you Never lived for the fucking day [PRE OUTRO] Speechless, what can I fucking say... [OUTRO](ECHO) (I ask myself every day, what I live for I think of my family and you, I try to be honest and keep it true, Should I give up and just shoot.)
Yo your fucking great ma dude I just sung this and its pretty powerful it takes meaning in how I feel about my life right now I respect this shit dude I love your style I'm asking can I use your lyrics once I buy a beat I think I can crush bars that you wrote dude real shit bro loved it bro its perfection
I think on a daily- with this life of mine ageing- trying to maintain this mind- my vision feeling hazzey- my life seems to be on the line- but really it's the pain an struggles I survived- that re devised this fate of light that shines- I use to have it all- my closest homies- a girl that once told me she loved me- a life I didn't see when I was the old me- but now hopefully one day the devil doesn't troll me again- leading me down the same path like I'm holding his hand- to trap me in a dark thought of space- a void something Jesus couldn't avoid- it's reasons like this I'm still a little boy- who needs just as much loving- like the one who suffered to take away our sins from us- I'm feeling the repercussions from the storm above us- I'm feeling my knees bleeding- I'm weak an sick of being greedy- my mama always taught me - never become to needy- sharing is the key to speaking your mind freely- but damm I was full of myself- I over done it with tone of my mouth- I hurt an cut up the ones I loved an threw it to the ground- all for what to feel like the way I'm feeling now- as i slowly feel my life slipping out- my memories become a distant realm- almost at the point i couldn't turn around- forever asleep stuck in the ground- i wont lie- i tried kill myself one night- i was all alone with no others in sight- i swear i hear voices in my ear telling me its alright- i was scared but was promised to see the light- so i gathered all the pills i could find- took them all and waited for my time- i awoke with a fright- i realized my family around with tears in there eyes- they thought i wouldn't make it out alive- close to pulling my life line- i told them i was in the wrong sort of mind- and all they could say was do it the proper way next time- so ever since i thought fuck the world and its bullshit- if i have to be the one hurting like this- then i mite as well burn myself down with the rest of yas- 'finished'
keanu tamatea from us before I start blazing going crazy for my baby who ended her life at the age of 20 I have the pain aching its so amazing I haven't left already meeting her again in heaven so we can talk for ever and remmber when I met her
You stole my heart now I can’t get trough this I dont miss your theft but its your joy that I do miss I was always out of breath when you experienced true bliss And this is why I can’t do this, on my own My lungs will colapse unless they crumble like stone It scares me so deeply to be completely alone Why can’t it be easy, I just want you back home Because you are so beautiful, the way your hair rolls and tumbles on your sholders You wanted me to be older so I could understand to be a better me, but I can’t And I’ve got secrets that I’ve been smittin and bettering Grievously stricken afflicted by my own personal demons I’M ADDICTED. I’m a victim in this prison that I put myself in Now when your in it all the time thats why you haven’t written I never got a letter, I never got a response So i wait here day and night waiting for the prose and conse, but there’s none I simply lay here in my bed, let you run through my head I’m dead everytime I hear the thing that were said And O’s this burns in waiting We could start all over so you can love me again You could save my life one more time And I can call you mine Please save me Everytime I climb and fall back into the slime And i’m suffocating Constantly waiting and hating the way that you’re so pretty You were like a city that brought me in and took petty All my fragile bones, there always breaking Under the heavy load of all the grace you ever showed And I tried to pay you back, or I tried to give you everything You were my everything And just like that my motivation is gone I can’t breathe anymore I can’t finish this Song All I wanted was love All I wanted was you And I hate myself letting you leave the way you do But its all my fault I should have been with you that day If I was there with you that day maybe you wouldn’t have gone away And I’m sorry, I’m so sorry I’m sorry
I really thought I could fix this, should've stood up, but chose to be a witness. I'm sorry momma, I know you got hurt, he beat you in the ground, treated you like dirt. I should've been there to help you up, but instead I ran, cause I didn't like watching you get beat by a man. I apologize for my horrible actions, I do have a passion. I have a passion to help you now, so I'm gonna stand up and take a vow. A solemn promise, I'll get revenge on Thomas. Because you're my mom, I'll do everything in my power, can no longer stay calm. I love you so much, I'm sorry if I don't always tell you such. But I love you more than ever, I'm gonna show you the things I endeavor. My ambitions are to erase those memories, to be there through your suffering, to give you a shoulder to cry on through recovering.
want you all the time I want you to feel loved I want all of you, your body, soul and mind I want to hear your laughter be your happily ever after This is our chapter I want to hold you in my arms look into those beautiful brown eyes Protect you from harm as i lose myself Inside your world I don't care about your flaws or past I only care about this moment; right here, right now I wish it could last I wish you could see me; the same as I see you I want to take away all your pain Wipe away all your tears Bring out the true you You still remain in my heart after For 14 years, we've been apart, now reunited To this day, my love grows stronger, My feelings for you multiply I'd try to hide it inside, but my actions show it The expression on my face reveals it as I look at you I'm in awe of the beautiful women you've become A part of me wonders if you even notice the way I look at you with love in my eyes How It feels like heaven as you're lying by my side or The sweet taste of your soft lips as we kiss under the night sky My heartbeat starts racing, floating on a cloud of ecstasy My fingers, yearning to touch your body, The thoughts of slowly sliding my hands under your tight shirt, tugging your hair back as i gently kiss the back of your neck, it's serenity at best The desire to make passionate love grows exponentially But you don't believe in destiny? Yet God above keeps bringing us together like chemistry Like mixing Dopamine, Serotonin + Oxytocin ( the 3 chemical of love) Into a perfect portion of what we call true love potion
Starting as Baby It was so Magical Every single day My parents made me feel special Becoming as kid School work weren't Difficult Having tons of Awards Doing easy life work But as a Teenager, I learned the Word Called *PAIN* How life drag you down like a Water being Drain Entering Drama Was a big Mistake It made me Fight the Kids who keeps on being Fake Alot Of Fake Friends Alot of Fake Smiles Alot of these girls got pregnant and had a Child Forgetting all the love and support from the Parents Not knowing the pressure when they were like seven Some Teens hate their Dad Some really hate their mom Some really don't care when they got carried within 9 Months It's really a Shame I must Say!! Some Teens are now in Prison By Cocaine 😭 Some Teens Are losing their Mind Committing Suicide How could they do this to their useful Lives!! Some kids got Bullied Some lives are ruining But no one is stopping this nor even our President! Kids need Help They can't go out Murders and Rapist Are now roaming in towns Be aware and keep your loved ones safe Before they got killed or else they Got Raped😍😭😭😭
Once more once again Every breath a sin Failing my own test Weighted soulless chest Achieving twenty-five Yet still not alive Years blend into memory My days far from serenity Straying from happiness I am left only to remanence Scattered like the stars above How could I stray from love This broken will and these emotions Utterly shattering devotions A sinking ship with no others on board Left to my own stupefied accord I may be my own captain Still I know not what happened There will be no escape I am no superhero with a cape Only a fractured remnant This enduring pain is evident Not but a shadow amongst shadows Never will I behold the meadows Though I get kicked as a pebble My mind still a stoic rebel Begging for internal change My solace makes me enrage Faded off my own remorse My heart and mind demand a divorce Stretched apart by my morals A limp body across the corals Bleeding out of my very soul Forever shall my heart remain coal Unable to find eternal peace These demons need a release Yet I have no valve to turn Only the dream to yearn I stand before you now defeated Every hope has retreated Feel no remorse for this For only I can set me free of remise How simple though it is to truly fall As forgotten memories cascade upon the wall.
hey i just wanted to say that i know its like to struggle with anxiety and depression and feel so lost. i know the feeling of cut, getting everything out, it feels wonderful. just try to focus on your future when your happy and married and think about your family, no matter how much u think they hate u they love u. when i was hospitalized it almost tore my family apart because they were so worried about me. i am homeschooled right know and continue to have suicidal thoughts and struggle with major depression disorder and anorexia and i also don't have that many friends that love me for me, they are scared of me. keep believing and trying your best in life. your time will come. be patient. you guys are all beautiful, smart and amazing people.
I was afraid to take this road. Living and wishing I had a stable home. Everyday I pray he knows that it breaks my soul knowing you ain't here to change this role. I just hate to be alone. Put my faith and keep on going.
“THE DEVIL I LOVED” Coming back from school🎒 Walking through the door Found her on the floor The floor was covered with blood🥺 She was crying softly I can still listen to her sweet voice soabing😔 I couldn’t hold it !damn she was bleeding As soon as she saw me with my siblings🤦🏾♂️😭 Then she started pretending 😭 She said she was laughing But the scars were there 😭 I knew she was lying I just don’t understand why he had to😭 Why must he hit her !😭 I could feel her pain!😭 I can’t mehn!😭 D woman dat gave birth to me was crying 😭............ Chorus: He was a devil I couldn’t take it So I pushed him And he fell down ,He stood up And punched me I punched back I couldn’t take it I couldn’t believe i did it!! But yes I did it YES I DID IT ! AND SOMETIMES AM SO PROUD OF IT! SOMETIMES I HATED HIM BUT MOST OF THE TIMES I LOVED HIM This is the devil I loved😿 Verse2 Every time I ask her Mom why u crying She doesn’t want to answer
It has been months since we talked or faced each other eye to eye. And I wonder if my name has ever crossed your mind It hurts cuz it’s insane Yea, we used to be best friends And now We walk by and it’s if we never met I see our pictures and wonder why we didn’t try But, we were just habits We thought we'd always have it
Hatred boiling within my eyes Divination foretelling there lies Receding into an old blood gorge My life takes on an empowered forge A failure to this redundant world Yet I feel the evil becoming unfurled Blessed by the fires below Gods blessing gravely in stow I lumber blind, deaf, and ignorant Yet my land is beyond verdant Sacrificing emotions for these stones I have not any of my own bones Ground into nothing but dust Yet the heavens allow me to rust A mistake to worship anyone I wish to feel love never undone Only purgatory for a vindictive heart Perhaps a curse from the start Regardless a gluten for this pain Your hatred fuels my vein Never stronger than when solitary My bloodlust becomes involuntary Fueled only by my disgust There is no one I would entrust Alone like a star in the distance Driven by fulminating resistance I shall consume my own entity Drifting nameless into eternity.
Pain running through my heart Visions in my mind Thinking of better days Remembering better times Im Sucked back to present Got a overworked mind Going through tough times end of the line Lifes battle Battle of the mind Can this really be? Is this life mine? Can i get break? Man i cant seem to even concentrate Can i accept this is just my fate A story to tell An obstacle to break Heart of gold in a world so cold Beating me down trying to fit the mold Restlessness in my soul Want to beak out from the stories being told Im running out of time Heart is getting old A legacy left behind Its laying at everyone elses feet Not the man i was Just who strangers see Glad that im gone glad that im six feet
We clicked quicker than a relay could slingshot a ship Yet, distance created a rift in the relationship Something even the inquisitor couldn't shut with all his grit Let the demons possess to show our true evil, mines selfishness Still claim to see you that's a plain lie Flying Ferociously to your face But we would lay awake, minds whizzing, with blurred vision to keep us dizzy Reality drowned by Videogames, we didn't quit to save our feelings Now all in me is sadness glistening when summertime winds are whistling your name It's just me sitting reminiscing as I play our favorite games listening to Lana del Rey
""ONE LAST TIME STORY'' :( Not to long ago, I saw u standing there. We both ain't do as what we was told,we both ain't like to share. When we see each other we looked away,then one day a bully came to stay. He took your stuff and made u cry, I went out defended you, i tried But in the end i got beat up, head buried in the ground you picked me up. Since that day we stayed together, stayed like that since forever. Now we both almost grown, you tend to be alone. Tried to cheer you up, but you act like you ain't give a fuck. Days and Days , Months and Months,we ain't talk much. Then one day you told me your leaving,saying you cant be this being. You left me with my heart bleeding, couldn't stop this feeling. Stayed in this house isolated, Never stop thinking about time away. Went to the store one night, came out saw you in the alley light. Surround around a bunch of guys, one guy had a pistol on his side. Pointed the gun at you, ran in front of you in a blink of a eye. Told you to close your eyes, and approach the guy. BANG!!! They ran cause of the sound, you open your to see me on the ground. Crying eternly holding me close, blood all over your clothes. Told her to lean in close, said i'm glad ... to .. be .. with you .. be..fore I.. go. : ( sorry if u cried
seems like every body hates me , but they can never shake me, all they do is awake me because they will never break me I have a meaning even if they don't believe it they still gonna hear it and I know They will fear it. the pain inside is overwhelming but I will always tell it I'll even yell it I don't really care life ain't fair so stop trying to compare to a kid who just opened his fucking lid and spoke words that will leave you Ill and still
Internal revivification unbound Voices screaming with no sound My heart burns with endless light Still others choose the darkest night Pleading to end there damnation Yet never offering anyone salvation Turning a cold shoulder on others Then begging to sisters and brothers Standing tall for absolutely nothing Only in death will our voice become something A single name suspended through time Recirculated through a simple rhyme We echo without a mind of our own Ten laws written in godly stone Yet we curse and spit in its glory Then fall short writing our own story The very young do not always do as they are told Still we wonder why our cities continue to fold Ignorance spilled as a glass of milk When we have souls of eternal silk How dare we judge one another We know nothing of there pains that smother Hold your tongue out of respect There is no detail you need to inspect If you have never worn the shoes How possibly could you know what to choose?
I cried when you passed away, I still cry til this day, I know alots been going on, I'm trying to elevate, This hurt in my chest, Got me feeling some type of way, These tears in my eyes, Can't seem to hide this pain, It's really hard to maintain, I try and move forward, I've been broken countless times, It's coming hard to ignore, I dropped a few tears and watched them fall,looked myself in the mirror, And hit a brickwall, I still can't take it, Let alone fake it, All I know is I really gon make it, For you for me, You taught me how to be, I miss you so much, Your photos put my heart at ease, Knowing you ain't here, still hurts like a sting,you have no idea how hard it seems,I miss you so much ma, happy birthday from your Queen..
I rlly holdin back my tears Steady tryna face my fears This has been going on for years When will my fate become clear When you need me I’m there You don’t seem like you care I’m always second best When you’re my first When will I be good enough for you I try but you don’t put the effort in too When nobody else is there you go to me But I don’t recognise the girl I see Somebody asked if I knew you Memories came back I wanted to say yes But instead I said I used to I wish I could forget the memories I wish I could turn emotion off like you do I wish I could go back to the times When it was real, we were happy
I walk through these doors and see the pain my mommas eyes What I am now and what I could've been she knows I'll die But that don't catch her from surprise Teen buys drugs from an online website Dad later finds out and puts her card on decline She gets mad and says she'll leave the house for life But even her parents know she's telling all lies 6 months later she comes back saying she lost her mind when it came to the drugs Being sold by the corner thugs $40 for a plug They invite her in the house and give her a big hug Saying she misses them but tells them she needs money Kicks her right back out the house physically Now she crying mentally cause without drugs she feels the insecurity But she knows her parents did that purposely So she can get a job and money and go to a mental facility Where she can get clean, sober and healthy Later get a college degree and be what she always wanted to be A doctor who heals kids when they bleed I'm only 13 go easy on me
It's been years I remember when we used to come here You remember Bart's old Shop Man when we were kids we thought it was hot But now we just far from the top Cause damn I felt like we coulda been together But nothin ever Lasts forever Cause you coulda been mine but I choked I remember the words were caught in my throat I couldn't say nun You just stayed there patiently And I knew we connected spiritually But no I said how was your day And you just held back the tears and walked away Now I can never say anything to you Cause the people wanna keep me away Even tho I couldn't say what I wanted to say I loved you from the day that we locked eyes Cause I always wanted you to be mine But you looked like you weren't interested So we just stayed as friends But what I didn't realize Is how much you loved me back Waiting for me to say the words I wanted to say But no now your in a hospital bed While the doctor is rubbing your head Checking for a blood flow
Why Man I can't believe I have to tell this story I never thought it would come to this I always thought you'd be there till the end But now I sit her in the sand Wondering why Why this all have to happen Was it something I said Was it something I did That what I wondered for a while Then one night it all came to me So I called you And then your mom picked up And told me you killed yourself But you left a note Saying how much you loved me and that you're sorry For everything you've done Now I'm just standing here with the phone in the hand wondering why and how I let this happen If there was something I could of just said Why didn't I call early Maybe then I would of stopped you Maybe then I would been able to talk to you one last time Now I'm just sitting here crying wishing you were still here Wishing I could still love you Wishing I could still talk to to you Or just even be able to see your face one last time But what really hurts is I lost my best friend I hope you're doing good in heaven I miss you baby And I love you Rip I’ll never forgot you I’ll never forgot all the memories we shared. All the good and the bad. I just wish I could she you one last time Copyright 2019
Tốt nhất những kỉ niệm e có thì hãy thả nó vào gió Đừng bán rẻ kon tim a cho để r mai này chính e pải chờ A rất mún che chở.......nhịp thở của anh cũng dần không còn. thì làm sao... vét nứt trong tim không còn...những lần anh đau những lần anh buồn em có bao giờ hiểu đâu...........Nhưng e à.. Định mệnh buộc chặt khiến ta ôm lấy nhau Chỉ là nổi bùn a đang cố dấu và nó lại in sâu............A chỉ ước vùng trời xám xịt kia hãy tan thôi Và a biết cũng đã đến lúc xa e r... Đơn giản vì e là 1 ng cứng rắn Giữ e càng kh thể chắc chắn Điếu thuốc giữa môi a xiết chặt Và là ngoặc kép cho cuộc tình có nuốc thắt
I was adopted at 1 This is for my 2birth brothers-please comment ...:•] Starts at 00:50 I never really had brothers.never knew what it was like n il never know fully until we properly reunite -get together eventually and be part of eachothers life ul be by mine,and il be by my brothers side. I know it's been a while but ,good things take time ~gotta keep patient as we have n let it pass by it takes long,n it's a struggle and sometimes you gotta ask why but they say,you gotta walk through the darkness to get to the light sometimes you gotta get through the wrong to get to the right . It's hard being separated but things like these won't happen overnight some things are complicated not just black and white so you can't see change can't vision it too far for your eye-sight n it's hard thinking an waiting in yours and my mind but you gotta look to the future cos you can't rewind time n soon il be hugging my brothers tight.
Your birth brothers will soon find you, God has a plan so look ahead and not behind you, have faith with god its never to late & you'll rest in God's arms & no more hearbreaks (God bless u)
It's like, the more i cut the less i feel. In desperate need of something real. My parents ain't ever been the same, so they take drugs just to hide their pain. I try to help but it never succeeds. And that's when my heart bleeds. My anxiety is invading me. It kills me. Just wanna ask, not asking much. Can I just once more feel your touch?
@Chase Wilham this is my own song and if you don't like it then leave. I'm allowed to let out my emotions through a song and I don't like you hating on it.
Cutting literally releases endorphins, both a physical and emotional painkiller, but also raises cortisol which is basically the neurotransmitter for stress and that’s bad to have a lot of because in the end it is neurodegenerative. After having neurodegeneration (and after PTSD which causes ND), there is chronic neurotransmitter depletion (could last years) meaning for instance low serotonin or serotonin deficiency and this is why people do drugs. Sometimes drugs are better than suicide, but of course pharmaceutical drugs are bad for you regardless if they were designed for serotonin deficiency. Lol if ur looking to increase serotonin and dopamine and lower adrenal and cortisol, (translation: be happy and relax) then I recommend cannabis lol. Anyways ur lyrics are dope idk why i went off on this long ...information rant? .. yeah anyways ✌️ dope lyrics
Ya, I feel so alone when I’m at home setting in the dark always in my phone Depression knocked me out of my zone Got stuck in my thoughts Don’t got the energy to sleep a lot Can’t trust a thot Can’t true not a cop Yes you talk a lot You talk way to much Man fuck it I’ve had enough Life is tuff Depression is ruff Like what else can I say I feel all of the pain And yes I know it leaves a stane And can’t get the girl of my dream but she’s all ways in my mind Cause when she came she never left Now I’m on a quest to be the best
left me so broken yeah you left me alone, quiet thoughts keeping me from calling your phone, sometimes i just wish that i wasn’t alone, sometimes i just wish you were gone come home, left me so quick i was really confused, was it just me or was there another dude?, thinking back on it maybe i got used, thinking back on it maybe it wasn’t true
Since my girl left me I haven't been the same Not ever since she moved away I swear I think of her every single day I loved her so much why do I have to stay On this world I wanna leave so bad Thinking of it just makes me so mad Just wanna stay in my room and hide Pop the pills contemplating suicide On my own I really just wanna die See everyone I love and tell them good bye I'll be in heaven waiting for you to arrive I miss her so much why does it have to be This way But when I'm down you know I don't pray Cause god to me just sounds like a fake Take all my sorrows and drown them in a lake Sitting here crying like god sake While everyone is telling me it's gunna be ok
Uh, Thought it was me feeling this lovely song, Turns out it was me writing my wrongs, How could I write you all my wrongs? All I did was try inside, I'm done, Now I'm looking at a beautiful view, Trying to restore everything old and new, A clue, lately I've been searching for you, My motivation, my beautiful and only spark, The reason I would face my fears, the dark, All these painful marks, I'm loving these scars,
But they tear me a part deep in my heart, i truly wanna restart and right my wrongs. So ill just continue dreaming of a day in which i can say what i wanna say, flay who i wanna flay with the music i make. Maybe help create a reason to stay on earth to help the people debating they're worth. But i gotta get clean first to break the curse of stain and shame. Nothings worse than the strain put on the family. Of an addict since birth i was a basket case.
But they tear me a part deep in my heart, i truly wanna restart and right my wrongs. So ill just continue dreaming of a day in which i can say what i wanna say, flay who i wanna flay with the music i make. Maybe help create a reason to stay on earth to help the people debating they're worth. But i gotta get clean first to break the curse of stain and shame. Nothings worse than the strain put on the family. Of an addict since birth i was a basket case.
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Thanks for this 🙏🏼
@@selmogallado4913 99
Michael Libril Sicat records
Thanks bro..
The strings need to be louder
Can’t belive I’m the only one going back to this in 2023
This is one of my favorites I listen to it every night before I go to sleep
You not I’m still listing to this
Not everyone gonna write something
You're not the only one bro
No you’re not
Hook
So yeah,
Fuck it I'm worthless
Everybody's not what they seem on the surface
I'm trailing through life , trying to find a purpose, surplus, it's no wonder why I'm nervous
I've always been controlled by my past, life goes good, and then I crash, and I'm left on my ass, should've known happieness will never last, thought I was strong but my heart beats just as fast
Found out that my mother had cancer, alchohol, drugs, it's never the answer, but I'll do it anyway to block out the pain, life without you will never be the same
I'm humble, but I'm resigned to my fate, I can't afford to make any more mistakes, I'm gunna make you proud, without a doubt, I feel like I just need to let it all out,
Hook
I need you to know that I care,
and if you need me you know that I'm there
It's makes me sick that I've been so blind,
just know that you're one of a kind, and you'll always be on my mind, I just hope we have more time, and life can be so unfair, don't wanna see you losing your hair, but someone like you now that shit is rare, I need you like we all need air,
I don't believe in God but I'll say a prayer, at least I've got time to prepare
I wanna make up for what I've done, and it hurts that you're only young, we are all united as one, big love from your one and only youngest son
JustTizzell this is amazing, you need to make this a song, I can relate to thus on so many levels..
man u viben
JustTizzell really like this
JustTizzell keep it up..wow..nice
By the way just read this comment a month later, forgetting I commented. I relate a lot and if you have SAD then check this out:
This dam disease makes me feel so ill/
and not the feel good kind/
But the one that makes you want to kill/
Whatever is inside your mind/
I try to stop it and draw a line/
But the more you try the worse it gets/
It has made my life a hell of a mess/
and I wonder if life will ever give me some peace and rest/
Hook
Wonder when I will get rid of this godam Social Anxiety
This curse that makes me feel like I'm not part of society
This burden on my heart, mind and soul
That has got me shunning and avoiding people entirely
Has made my life sink to and all time low
And it repeats and repeats like my mind is a stereo
and I am playing the godam radio
No friends, no one to understand
"Just get over it "," It is all in your head"
Is all I hear people say like I hadn't try that before
Trust me if I had a soultion I would try that instead
I can't talk to no one without the feeling of shame
At times it doesn't even make any shred of sense
but it's too late my mind body are way past tense
I just hope on day I forget about all of this
and write my lyrics about this pain in past tense
I love u big brother ❤ Dec 5 2019
He died ??
@@younasjuventus5374 Idk
@@abdelrahmantech7831 then go to hell
@@younasjuventus5374 but I don't have your house keys
My condolences
NF would kill this beat. Like if you agree
Louie Rastelli omg I finally found a NF fan.
Indeed
What is NF ?
Silent Anons a Christian rapper
Louie Rastelli IKR he’s amazing
Dad I will always remember yu love Yu RIP THE BEST FATHER LOVE YU 12/17/17 CAMOSITY 🌟
Hey dude sorry about your dad. My dad die in 2017 too but it was on June 2. This beat always make remember my dad so much. It does hurt a lot so people can't say it does not hurt.
You are not alone ;(
F. Words and paragraphs don’t match up to one letter. Although it’s a meme, still. F.
My dad died when i was 1
My dad died when I was 9
too dope....HAD TO COME SHOW MY RESPECT TO A BEAT THAT WAS KILLED.
God got u so don't worry
I lost my heart when my momma passed away these days ain't been the same everything has changed , been staying up all nights this addiction I got im tryna fight !! Write my wrongs write my life! Yeah im tired of being like this , I'm tired !
Bro may give u more power to fight
I lost my mom too im the same 😔
Just no God loves you believe that don't for get it I will keep you in my prayer,that sum free time away from everyone get you mind and heart right with God and keep loving you ,your mother is always with you watching her baby God bless
Sounds like the perspective from my brother in the addiction part. He was in jail due to drugs and we lost our mom in a fatal car crash where she died on impact. He gets out 6 months later. Is out for 4 months then got locked up yesterday again and was on another bad path of addiction. Shit aint easy man. And it aint supposed to be. But you got this, stay strong. And know there are people who love you and care about you. And want to see you succeed. Im the writer of my family and i write about all the experiences ive dealt with. Lost my mom may last year and it felt like yesterday. So besides actually experiencing addiction i feel and see your pain. Stay strong my friend. And hold your head high. You are 1 in a million. Love you dawg
All these fake smiles
All these fake friends
All these fake people who never had a hand to lend
Yeah I go to school
Yeah I do my work
But sometimes I feel im bout to go beserk
Yeah I know im young
I should be having fun
But I feel like shooting myself with a handgun
They say life's a game, but I feel like I'm losing
Push me to my edge
Call me Lil Uzi like
My school told me it's family that I represent
But they're the same people who told me that I'm an accident
I feel so lonely
I don't know what to do
That why I cover it up with an attitude
Venessa Maduka thats why we got so much anger
Venessa Maduka I love your song it’s amazing
FEEL YOU BEEN THERE AND STILL AM
One last time
baby i feel your pain, we may never be the same, but look at the sun when it shines, trust me where there is darkness there is also a brighter side, just be happy u still alive
-it was only yesterday
-when I was yours and you were mine
-ive never imagine, that well be going our we seprate ways
-leaving one another behind
-and I never thought that I'd say this
-but "I love you and good bye"
-let us forget about our past
-and pretend it never happend
-it seems as if
-good things aren't meant to last forever
-I understand that your hurt/ And so am i
- but i wear this mask in discize
-to hide my hidden pain
- to Express our love...
-but the broken promises still hunts me
-and over time/...
-I have learned to see the big picture
-that our love is a curse
-so cherrish every moment that we've had
-while it last
-and never forget,
-what our love is really worth
-and let us be patient
-and see/ what you and I really desearve
-and take this time apart to search deep down you heart, what drove our love apart
-just so you know, you'll always and forever remain in my heart
-but from now on
-you can walk your own path and I will walk mine
I love this.
@@glaissamaeroxas7497 thanks you.
@@oyaoyang6343 really Hits to the core.
@@glaissamaeroxas7497 lol. Thanks. Do you write?
@@oyaoyang6343a little, :-)
start 0:38
Reminiscin'
In the corner... I sit here reminiscin/
Askin' god why is this the lady that I sit here missin/
When my father left I've been feelin' distant/
This girl came up to me and said, "Yo, how is it kickin?'"
Deep in thought saying, "I guess it is my mission"/
For me to make her proud but I just didn't listen/
I'm sittin' here just me and her/
Inside wishin' I died so I could leave this earth/
I think suicidal thoughts so I guess it's death in me/
All the people 'round me poaching me/
I think of all the places your were supposed to be/
But now you're six under the ground and the depth's in feet/
I sit here and cry so helplessly/
How could this happen so suddenly/
Now every day I feel like a sun-burned leaf/
I used to think that you saw me as a failure for a second/
Because of the day that I failed the 7th/
Used to take a bunch of pills without second guessin/
Listen to my lyrics bruise this beat/
Like i'm stompin a bunch of beets under my feet/
My face turnin' purplish I feel like a disgrace/
I walk down the street of madison/
My train of thought came and I wasn't havin' it/
I think of when I talked to that girl/
So I got back to the place/
I sit here with the barrel turned to my face/
I think of life sit down and cock it/
My brain on the pavement while people walk past or watch it/
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
start at 1:59
One day I saw someone in the corner reminiscin/
I said what's up man how is it kickin'
HE said his father left and he's been feelin' distant/
He was deep in thought sayin' I guess it's my mission"
For him to make his mother proud/
But he just didn't listen'/
I'm sittin' here just me and him/
I ask god what was it like being him/
He told me that one day he wish he could die/
He said he was on and off about suicide/
WHen he told me his mother died I felt sorrow helplessly/
That meant his mother was 6 under the ground and the depth's in feet/
He screamed how could this happen so suddenly!!/
---{===--7:30-- AM===}---
I woke up the next morning to go to school/
Lookin the mirror say I'm feelin fine yeah i'm feelin' cool/
Walk out the door tell my mother "I love you"/
Walk down the street on madison/
See the guy I talked to yesterday (Is it really happenin')
I see him turn a barrel to his face/
See him think of life take the gun and cock it/
He shoots himself I stood there and just watched it!!/
Run over to his limp body and screamed I'm sorry/
A wave of guilt rushed over me like it was my fault and/
I stood up and I continued walkin/
Listenin' to the voices in my head mockin'/
Talk about how he killed himself and I could've stopped him.../
Sh8dy01 z
This was genuinely amazing.
Bro mad skillz
Can I use this??
youre sad@@michaelsanford5219
8 Millionen Klicks !!
R E S P E K T
FUCKING AMAZING!
I made a sound in that beat. listen here -> ruclips.net/video/lnwASOblshA/видео.html
ruclips.net/video/GN7-yzdGzWI/видео.html
MC BILAL well
Did you sample the beginning or were those live vocals?
Before I met you
I thought I was lost
Upon the vast emptiness
Of my heart
And oh when you left me
Showed me your colors
They shown through
While I was torn apart
All those broken promises
Meant nothin at all
I knew I'd scrape my knees
When you let me fall
But all those bandages
Wouldnt keep me from bleedin
And all my love and trust woukdnt keep you from leaving
I tried to make you stay
But instead I wiped the blood on my shirt and ran away
Now I'm reminded of the pain
When I wear the shirt
And see that stain
A solemn reminder of who I once was
Who I'll never be again
Wishing I could go back
And keep myself from falling
So I would've never bleed
Would've never seen the red
The red flags that I was to blind to see
Because when you look at me I melt so easily
You had me wrapped around your finger
But when you got tired you cut it off
Wouldnt let me linger
Even when my blood ran cold
All those broken promises
Meant nothin at all
I knew I'd scrape my knees
When you let me fall
But all those bandages
Wouldnt keep me from bleeding
And no matter how hard I tried
I couldn't keep you from leaving
Keep telling me you dont trust me
When I'm the one at fault
I kept telling myself that you cared
When I dont mean nothin at all
I'm convinced that you are still my whole world
But you distance yourself which makes it hard for me to reach
You when you've had enough
Of the world and the ones living in it
Love it 🙂
rly love it
Hay bro can i use these lyrics
@@darklif8752 what if he says yeah..for a fee😄 But it's free🙄
Great 👌
I've started rapping (again) because of this beat two years ago but it seems like an eternity since I've heard it the last time...feels a bit like coming home :)
A flawless angel of depression
Stuck dreaming of repression
Skin filled with blue blood
Your every whisper an emotional flood
Begging to the shattered skies
Drifting among thoughtless lies
Divine beauty without a voice
Never did you have a choice
Dragged into a deepening hell
Any hope your demanded to sell
Life lived as a cyclone of endless sacrifice
Forever questioning things twice
Blinded beneath a cloak of sorrow
You plead not to see tomorrow
Yet there before the ceaseless rain
A hand knowing all to well of pain
The help you have so desired
The very dream you clutch when tired
Hidden beneath your daily sight
A friend who too knows the night
This single beacon within the darkest of shades
Any desperation quickly fades
Without a single breath
There gesture has halted your death
Resurrecting a paused heart
For all deserve a second start.
damn not gonna lie this shit is valid. u mad talented big bro
Brow dejala sacar en español..
The flow of those lines fits the beat crazy good. Love it
Why do I wake up to just go back to bed
They say my life’s perfect but my problems come from my head
Everyday a constant battle to stay in one piece
Trying to stop smoking weed and just live life free
But still I’m burdened by my feelings
Thinking maybe I can release them
No I’m trapped inside my mind
Trying to find somewhere...anywhere else to hide
I need to admit that I got problems
But don’t want to be labeled as someone who got em’
I don’t know where they come from
I just know they have to to
I pray to god take me soon
I don’t wanna be at fault for what I do
Everybody tells me life will just get better
But who even cares when the life you live in is a nightmare
Have you ever just felt lost and confused
Like you thought you belonged but guess no one thought so too
So you have to band to yourself and look out for number one
But with no one to cover you you felt like your life was almost done
may i use this beat
Clean💥
Can i use this one im my song
I felt this with everything in me! I love the lyrics💯♥️💔💯
Still remember the last time we spoke by the phone
Is it better without me? beacuse i feel so alone
Did it ever occur i tried to fix our broken home
Wish it never tore us apart or broke our souls
Haunting memories rewind until infinity
Said you would never leave, was it that bad living with me?
I know my jail time crushed a few of your dreams
But i always thought you would stand by me
I need too sleep , i cant go on like this
I try counting sheep , but theres one i always miss
Ive been up for six nights , walking on a white line
Trying to create a wall around my mind
So much powder up my nose that im starting to go blind
But i still see you clear as day when i close my eyes
Why couldnt you stay ?so i could avoid my demise
Im still breathing but it feels like i died
this is amazing
+mightycool16 thanks , its just scribbles though
oh my...amazing !
that's eels right?
Oh okay because i know a song that has a verse just like one of yours must have it mixed up then
Damn, everyone in the comments is a professional rapper with bars about sadness or breakup.
If you can't beat them, join them
You should hear mine
mohit nair quando rondo made a song off this💯
May be
مافي احد يقدر يحرق اللحن ذا اكثر من شيبوبه ❤️🙏👑
نعم نعم صحيح 😭😭
I like this.
The beat stays the same.
It doesn't change.
One last time..
One last dance...
Before reality slips through my hands..
One last kiss...
One last chance..
Before everything I know leaves in a glance...
I'm torn between option 1 and option 2, it's nothing personal but I wanted option 2, me and you.
I know that sounds kind of selfish and you're right but what's wrong with a bird wanting to fly?
I gave up everything, I gave you all I could and you still tell me I'm no good.
Wishing upon a star is a beauty ain't it... So was our love until you drained it..
You shot me dead in the heart, making me fall apart into the puddle of the blood that kept us apart.
Bad blood... isn't that what Taylor Swift said and it's true now, I want to be with you now, but you left me like a wounded soldier in battle and now I'm dealing with the hassle, the torture and dealing with the suture that's keeping me alive, but I'm already dead inside. I wish to confess, the things that I've oppressed, and the pain that I have left.
One last night...
One last plight...
Until you disappear into the night...
One last wish...
One last kiss...
Until these final memories become bliss...
If you enjoyed my rap, please leave a like (or don't it doesn't matter) this was a good vent for me and I hope you found it nice.
If I could see your face, one last time
Hear you say my name, one last time
Fell the warmth of your embrace , one last time
Holding your hands together as we pray, just one last time
I miss you more than ever
why did you have to die
I could hold you in my arms forever
I know you're always by my side
lookin over me
you see me when I struggle
When I can't see the light
You see me when I'm weak
and I can't seem to fight
Nothing seems to be alright
I feel like I need you more than ever
How could this have happened overnight
where are you?
Are you okay?
I wish that I could sit and talk to you
for just one more day.
I wish you could have met my kids
I know they would have loved you
I miss you grandma
even though your gone away
I'm always thinking of you
I'll never forget the memories we've made
I swear when I close my eyes
I could feel you place your hand upon my face.
Its perfect
Sad😭😭😭
This made me cry, I worry about my grandma everyday, on the 26th she turns 61,i I'm crying right now
Can I use these lyrics for my song I'll obviously change them
My pain will never stop keep it going I'll reach the top and I lost my grandfather but to the hands of god. Now Im sitting here crying but the words are so defiyin' can't smile in people faces cause all they do is be lyin' Im just speaking what I know ain't just speaking what I can all of my fuxkin' life was gettin' closer to the end. I thought about suicide once or twice in my life but I get back on my feet and keep the pain away from hype. Im just trying to make a living Im not trying to make a killing This is not the end homie this is the beginning
Hook
I remember waking up to hearing you're gone those words brought tears to my eyes when she said that on the phone. Reminiscing in my thoughts I was all in my zone tears falling down my face I felt like being alone. Mama told me "it's okay you know that life goes on" I reply "mama you're right but it feels so wrong" i just wish I could've seen your smile one last time and tell you that I love you more than words could even define. It just feels unreal, got me losing my mind. I be all up in a daze losing track of the time. Coming up wit different ways to keep my family from crying, but we're left with so much pain it got us no longer trying
#WeLoveYouDasia #RestInHeavenMyAngel
Kao da bilo je juće
Još uvijek sjećam se svega
Moja si bila
Moj svijet i moj najbolji kolega
Ne mogu da zamjenim ni za jednu drugu
Moj život bez tebe se promijenio u tugu
Nikad nisam sanjao pare i zlato
Sanjao sam mene i tebe i na moru jahtu
Da smo skupa i da je ljubav prava
Njene oći zavele me ko trava
Start at 01:34 right after the drop.
One last time before i have to say goodbye
One last time i got the chance to call you mine
One last time i pull up in that benz without my friends, just me and you baby everything will be fine
Noting left to do this don’t come ease
Tears drippin one last chance babygirl please
Lookin down all the water like im overseas
Too much pressure im not a god dam submarine
Little pieces of you,
missing is my heart.
I used to call you my darl,
every day, every hour only mine
Maybe you don't miss me,
but you know that who miss you - i,
want to make it real,
never mind its so hard,
i used to give you whole my heart,
nevermind, i cant find a part,
which you stole and not give a back.
Everything you want to do,
is on your own, you threw it away all,
without apologize. Im not freaking,
i am takinga deep breath rollin my deep sheet,
not a big hit, but a litle sick shit,
blue like a berry and your lipstick.
only you could be my lil chick,
i want to fix this big deal,
writin bout you is still hit,
for my mind i miss it
...
I'm thinking about writing a song for my Dead mother with this beat.
Amazing Job, made me shed a tear...
Thanks for 500.000 views fam 🔥💪💪💪
this is still available??
how much for the beat
how much for beat
Anlo Da Rambo
Starting from 19.99$ here: www.magestickrecords.com
Magestick Records - Rap Beats | Hip Hop Instrumentals
amazing beat guys!
+Feelo Thank you!
Need you when I'm broken
When I'm fixed
Need you when I'm well
And when I'm sick
Friends that I rely on
Don't come through
They run like the river
But not you
Can't see when I'm falling
Losing myself, but then I hear you calling
There you are, there you are
You're there with open arms
There you are, there you are
And I run
Whispers in the background
Behind closed doors
I got myself in a mess and
Without you I'm in more
Oh, I'm a little drunk now
That's why I went to war
Oh yeah, you are my sober
When I'm on the floor
Can't see when I'm falling
Losing myself, but then I hear you calling
There you are, there you are
You're there with open arms
There you are, there you are
And I run
Only you know me the way you know me
Only you forgive me when I'm sorry
Even when I messed it up
There you are
Need you when I'm hot
And when I'm cold
Need you when I'm young
When I'm old
You won't be far
There you are, there you are
You're there with open arms
There you are, there you are
And I run
Only you know me the way you know me
Only you forgive me when I'm sorry
Even when I messed it up
There you are
Even when I, even when I
Even when I, even when I
When you're caught in the crowds
When you're up in the clouds
When you're caught in the crowds
When you're up in the clouds
There you are✝️
Shit
Sayang aku rindu
Akan diri mu
Menyesal aku lepaskan
Sekarang rindu terbeban
Tolong undurkn masa
Aku dah cukup basah
Tak mampu berbahasa
Diam tak terkata
Teda yg dapat gantikan
Walau banyak saranan
Tapi semua aku tolak
Aku susah nak dengar borak
This rap is about i miss
Yea now i lost in the mist
Tak kenyang makan beras
Cause i trapped in dust
Masih boleh ka
Aku panggil sayang
Suda tentu la
Aku yang si bangang
Masa tak boleh undur
Semuanya sia sia
Lebih baik tidur
Lebih bahagia
Skrang terpisah
Segala kenangan
Aku masih simpan
Walaupun pelupa
Mungkin skrng kau
Dengan yang lain
Baik aq pergi cau
Aku kn tukar lane
Saying goodbye granny was the worsts thing I could never imagine this was the worst dream tears flying down my face like fucking bullets heart beating so fast man I couldn't do it I would be lying if I said everything was fine I just need to see my granny for one more last time Me and my sister always sung to her she always thought she always thought our voices was beautiful and young to er. fake smiles , dried eyes, rope tied thoughts of suicide god why did she have to die? Its hard to believe it's been this long since you been gone , stressing depressing, in the mirror looking at my reflection , this got me in my feelings crying looking at the ceiling , eyes blood shot red , tears dried up I'm scared 10 feet deep my granny gone man I'm so fuckingggg aloneeee. Devils got ahold of my heart, something inside is tearing me apart , life's got me on my knees never knew she would fucking leave! I guess I have to say goodbye granny I cannot believe .
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damn dawg that was dope RIP granny
I love The Fact That everyone in the Comment Section Has their minds Open on how the world is i love where your hearts are at & god bless all😇🙏🙏🙏
Why am I fighting to live, if I’m just living to fight?
Why am I trying to see, when there ain’t nothing in sight?
Why am I trying to give, when no one gives me a try?
Why am I dying to live, if I’m just living to die?
+DarkWolf you are wrong too
HomelessGamer. I wonder thos all the time and tonight i am thinking will be my last i just want my life to ens
HomelessGamer wow😔
yessss
HomelessGamer ❗❗❗💔❤
Bullying hurts, don't you see?
You are nothing, but a big bully
Don't you think of what could have been?
What if they put a razor to their skin?
What if they wrote a note to say goodbye?
And their family and friends were left wondering..why?
What if at night, they cry themselves to sleep?
By morning, it's too hard to get up on their feet
They are afraid to come to school because of bullies like you
When they try to tell an adult, their plead is overruled
Soon they can't take it anymore
They think, "What do I have to live for?"
Finally all of their secrets start to spill
They grab the bottle and overdose on pills
All they ever wanted was a friend
And to hear the words, "I'm sorry, I won't do it again"
You did it all for the fun
You didn't know what could've been done
What if you pushed them a bit to far?
All your actions have caused one big scar
Haven't you seen what you put them through?
You think they're weak, but they're stronger than you
All they want to do is forget
They think, "how much worse can it get?"
Don't you know, you're their biggest fear?
They scream so loud, but no one can hear
What if it was you who got hurt everyday?
Tell me how many words you would have left to say
The EmvA respect bro my brother is being bullied I can't do nothing about it want the fuckers to see the writing see what they have to say
Yo can I use this song that you make
That's 🔥 I just rapped your lyrics
there wasn't anything better than 'bully'? srly?
beautiful sadd but true
OH god,Thank u for this blessings.. from time to time u were always right beside me...From pain,From sorrow, to gain tommorow
I miss you mom and dad and I pray for all mom dad have a wonderful time 😢😢😢😢
😭😭😭😭
Why? Can't you just tell me how u feel... because how your acting is so unreal.. ×2
You remember when you told me that you'd loved me, I felt unbeloved. . From the way you had hurted me. The way you fliterd was deserted.. u seemed like a nice guy, that was sorta shy.. but i felt I was going to be your third eye.
I'm confused, your just like mathmaticas that I can't solve because you only revolve on that one exalt. I trusted you but now I know from my own perceptive to not to believe you..
I wounder if u even realized how confused you made me feel.. I'm sorry.. but please don't call me or look for me, cuz to me your just like a wanna be, that I didn't even want to meet.
Im sorry to be that guy but "hurted" isn't a word.
This beat digs deep in down into your inner soul and reveals the pain and suffering you have been thru but to let you know it's alright
I just started writing, please be kind :)
[VERSE 1]
She said you'll miss me when I'm gone
Fuck that, I'll tell you wrong
Imma just ride along
Never mind, I'll just write another song
See myself in the mirror
And say "what the fuck is wrong with me?"
And answer me honestly when I ask who you want in me
No empathy
I'm numb
Yea so sick bitch, I feel so dumb
Yea I'm a jerk
But you at the top
While I'm at the bottom eatin' dirt
I convert, my emotions
To letters
Emotional boys
With them oversized sweaters
You know what we do
I haven't slept in several days
And I haven't eaten food
My life isn't something you'll never get or ever understood
I'm not telling you that you should
I can blaim my parents, I can blaim my hood.
[VERSE 2]
Your words are kinda tough
And i haven't seen you in a couple days
I know a solution baby, I know alot a ways
I know your broken too
But what the fuck
Would I do without you?
All theese questions
Without answers
I'm sick
Call me
Young cancer
You know
I'm not stable
Should I tie the rope or knot
This never ending battle I fought
Was all inside my thoughts
My inner demons are controlling me
What do they want in me?
what do they want to see?
Now I dig my grave in the sand
Come with me and hold my hand
I'll take you to heaven hell or never fucking land
[HOOK] (X2)
one last time I see your soul
And take it away
I speak truth baby
I don't ever need to play
I live for you
Never lived for the fucking day
[PRE OUTRO]
Speechless, what can I fucking say...
[OUTRO](ECHO)
(I ask myself every day, what I live for
I think of my family and you, I try to be honest and keep it true, Should I give up and just shoot.)
This is good. I sung it with some beat,and it's pretty good. Keep up the good work
pURe thats actually good.dude keep it up i right raps 2 just scared to produce
Yo your fucking great ma dude I just sung this and its pretty powerful it takes meaning in how I feel about my life right now I respect this shit dude I love your style I'm asking can I use your lyrics once I buy a beat I think I can crush bars that you wrote dude real shit bro loved it bro its perfection
Its very good but i share my opinion the fuckings are uneaded tbh its powerfull enough without them
it's actually pretty gud man :D
I think on a daily-
with this life of mine ageing-
trying to maintain this mind-
my vision feeling hazzey-
my life seems to be on the line-
but really it's the pain an struggles I survived-
that re devised this fate of light that shines-
I use to have it all-
my closest homies-
a girl that once told me she loved me-
a life I didn't see when I was the old me-
but now hopefully one day the devil doesn't troll me again-
leading me down the same path like I'm holding his hand-
to trap me in a dark thought of space-
a void something Jesus couldn't avoid-
it's reasons like this I'm still a little boy-
who needs just as much loving-
like the one who suffered to take away our sins from us-
I'm feeling the repercussions from the storm above us-
I'm feeling my knees bleeding-
I'm weak an sick of being greedy-
my mama always taught me -
never become to needy-
sharing is the key to speaking your mind freely-
but damm I was full of myself-
I over done it with tone of my mouth-
I hurt an cut up the ones I loved an threw it to the ground-
all for what to feel like the way I'm feeling now-
as i slowly feel my life slipping out-
my memories become a distant realm-
almost at the point i couldn't turn around-
forever asleep stuck in the ground-
i wont lie-
i tried kill myself one night-
i was all alone with no others in sight-
i swear i hear voices in my ear telling me its alright-
i was scared but was promised to see the light-
so i gathered all the pills i could find-
took them all and waited for my time-
i awoke with a fright-
i realized my family around with tears in there eyes-
they thought i wouldn't make it out alive-
close to pulling my life line-
i told them i was in the wrong sort of mind-
and all they could say was do it the proper way next time-
so ever since i thought fuck the world and its bullshit-
if i have to be the one hurting like this-
then i mite as well burn myself down with the rest of yas-
'finished'
Nice 😈
Teh Savage will finish it eventually 😊
these bars are hard
keanu tamatea from us before I start blazing going crazy for my baby who ended her life at the age of 20 I have the pain aching its so amazing I haven't left already meeting her again in heaven so we can talk for ever and remmber when I met her
😢
Your awesome and God bless you 🙏🏽
You stole my heart now I can’t get trough this
I dont miss your theft but its your joy that I do miss
I was always out of breath when you experienced true bliss
And this is why I can’t do this, on my own
My lungs will colapse unless they crumble like stone
It scares me so deeply to be completely alone
Why can’t it be easy, I just want you back home
Because you are so beautiful, the way your hair rolls and tumbles on your sholders
You wanted me to be older so I could understand to be a better me, but I can’t
And I’ve got secrets that I’ve been smittin and bettering
Grievously stricken afflicted by my own personal demons
I’M ADDICTED.
I’m a victim in this prison that I put myself in
Now when your in it all the time thats why you haven’t written
I never got a letter, I never got a response
So i wait here day and night waiting for the prose and conse, but there’s none
I simply lay here in my bed, let you run through my head
I’m dead everytime I hear the thing that were said
And O’s this burns in waiting
We could start all over so you can love me again
You could save my life one more time
And I can call you mine
Please save me
Everytime I climb and fall back into the slime
And i’m suffocating
Constantly waiting and hating the way that you’re so pretty
You were like a city that brought me in and took petty
All my fragile bones, there always breaking
Under the heavy load of all the grace you ever showed
And I tried to pay you back, or I tried to give you everything
You were my everything
And just like that my motivation is gone
I can’t breathe anymore
I can’t finish this
Song
All I wanted was love
All I wanted was you
And I hate myself letting you leave the way you do
But its all my fault I should have been with you that day
If I was there with you that day maybe you wouldn’t have gone away
And I’m sorry, I’m so sorry
I’m sorry
I really thought I could fix this, should've stood up, but chose to be a witness. I'm sorry momma, I know you got hurt, he beat you in the ground, treated you like dirt. I should've been there to help you up, but instead I ran, cause I didn't like watching you get beat by a man. I apologize for my horrible actions, I do have a passion. I have a passion to help you now, so I'm gonna stand up and take a vow. A solemn promise, I'll get revenge on Thomas. Because you're my mom, I'll do everything in my power, can no longer stay calm. I love you so much, I'm sorry if I don't always tell you such. But I love you more than ever, I'm gonna show you the things I endeavor. My ambitions are to erase those memories, to be there through your suffering, to give you a shoulder to cry on through recovering.
Piano + Bass +Styl =💥💯💥
One day I will thank this beat
want you all the time
I want you to feel loved
I want all of you,
your body, soul and mind
I want to hear your laughter
be your happily ever after
This is our chapter
I want to hold you in my arms
look into those beautiful brown eyes
Protect you from harm
as i lose myself Inside your world
I don't care about your flaws or past
I only care about this moment; right here, right now
I wish it could last
I wish you could see me; the same as I see you
I want to take away all your pain
Wipe away all your tears
Bring out the true you
You still remain in my heart after
For 14 years, we've been apart, now reunited
To this day, my love grows stronger,
My feelings for you multiply
I'd try to hide it inside, but my actions show it
The expression on my face reveals it as I look at you
I'm in awe of the beautiful women you've become
A part of me wonders if you even notice the way I look at you with love in my eyes
How It feels like heaven as you're lying by my side or
The sweet taste of your soft lips as we kiss under the night sky
My heartbeat starts racing, floating on a cloud of ecstasy
My fingers, yearning to touch your body,
The thoughts of slowly sliding my hands under your tight shirt, tugging your hair back as i gently kiss the back of your neck, it's serenity at best
The desire to make passionate love grows exponentially
But you don't believe in destiny?
Yet God above
keeps bringing us together like chemistry
Like mixing Dopamine, Serotonin + Oxytocin ( the 3 chemical of love)
Into a perfect portion of what we call true love potion
This the first beat I ever heard Quando Rondo on and he killed it
Starting as Baby
It was so Magical
Every single day
My parents made me feel special
Becoming as kid
School work weren't Difficult
Having tons of Awards
Doing easy life work
But as a Teenager,
I learned the Word Called *PAIN*
How life drag you down like a Water being Drain
Entering Drama
Was a big Mistake
It made me Fight the Kids who keeps on being Fake
Alot Of Fake Friends
Alot of Fake Smiles
Alot of these girls got pregnant and had a Child
Forgetting all the love and support from the Parents
Not knowing the pressure when they were like seven
Some Teens hate their Dad
Some really hate their mom
Some really don't care when they got carried within 9 Months
It's really a Shame I must Say!!
Some Teens are now in Prison
By Cocaine 😭
Some Teens Are losing their Mind
Committing Suicide
How could they do this to their useful Lives!!
Some kids got Bullied
Some lives are ruining
But no one is stopping this nor even our President!
Kids need Help
They can't go out
Murders and Rapist
Are now roaming in towns
Be aware and keep your loved ones safe
Before they got killed or else they Got Raped😍😭😭😭
Joey Nielson
yoo this is dead ass deep bro keep it up
@@kkmoncaleano9527 Thanks Man ! Really Appreciate that Bro..
Too Hard bro love from ✌️ india
Once more once again
Every breath a sin
Failing my own test
Weighted soulless chest
Achieving twenty-five
Yet still not alive
Years blend into memory
My days far from serenity
Straying from happiness
I am left only to remanence
Scattered like the stars above
How could I stray from love
This broken will and these emotions
Utterly shattering devotions
A sinking ship with no others on board
Left to my own stupefied accord
I may be my own captain
Still I know not what happened
There will be no escape
I am no superhero with a cape
Only a fractured remnant
This enduring pain is evident
Not but a shadow amongst shadows
Never will I behold the meadows
Though I get kicked as a pebble
My mind still a stoic rebel
Begging for internal change
My solace makes me enrage
Faded off my own remorse
My heart and mind demand a divorce
Stretched apart by my morals
A limp body across the corals
Bleeding out of my very soul
Forever shall my heart remain coal
Unable to find eternal peace
These demons need a release
Yet I have no valve to turn
Only the dream to yearn
I stand before you now defeated
Every hope has retreated
Feel no remorse for this
For only I can set me free of remise
How simple though it is to truly fall
As forgotten memories cascade upon the wall.
Fire bro
hey i just wanted to say that i know its like to struggle with anxiety and depression and feel so lost. i know the feeling of cut, getting everything out, it feels wonderful. just try to focus on your future when your happy and married and think about your family, no matter how much u think they hate u they love u. when i was hospitalized it almost tore my family apart because they were so worried about me. i am homeschooled right know and continue to have suicidal thoughts and struggle with major depression disorder and anorexia and i also don't have that many friends that love me for me, they are scared of me. keep believing and trying your best in life. your time will come. be patient. you guys are all beautiful, smart and amazing people.
I was afraid to take this road. Living and wishing I had a stable home. Everyday I pray he knows that it breaks my soul knowing you ain't here to change this role. I just hate to be alone. Put my faith and keep on going.
Every time I feel sad I rap to this beat
Me too baby…it’s hard as hell and gives you the inspiration
Amazing! Really like this beat!
88BeatsProductionsTV Thank you fam!
Magestick Records - Rap Beats | Hip Hop Instrumentals your welcome brother
“THE DEVIL I LOVED”
Coming back from school🎒
Walking through the door
Found her on the floor
The floor was covered with blood🥺
She was crying softly
I can still listen to her sweet voice soabing😔
I couldn’t hold it !damn she was bleeding
As soon as she saw me with my siblings🤦🏾♂️😭
Then she started pretending 😭
She said she was laughing
But the scars were there 😭
I knew she was lying
I just don’t understand why he had to😭
Why must he hit her !😭
I could feel her pain!😭
I can’t mehn!😭
D woman dat gave birth to me was crying 😭............
Chorus:
He was a devil
I couldn’t take it
So I pushed him
And he fell down ,He stood up
And punched me
I punched back I couldn’t take it
I couldn’t believe i did it!! But yes I did it
YES I DID IT !
AND SOMETIMES AM SO PROUD OF IT!
SOMETIMES I HATED HIM
BUT MOST OF THE TIMES I LOVED HIM
This is the devil I loved😿
Verse2
Every time I ask her
Mom why u crying
She doesn’t want to answer
Since 4 years the best beat worldwide .... thank you
It has been months since we talked or faced each other eye to eye.
And I wonder if my name has ever crossed your mind
It hurts cuz it’s insane
Yea, we used to be best friends
And now We walk by and it’s if we never met
I see our pictures and wonder why we didn’t try
But, we were just habits
We thought we'd always have it
That's really good do you kind of I use it?
Thank you! What do you mean?
Wait isnt this tate mcrae?
Hatred boiling within my eyes
Divination foretelling there lies
Receding into an old blood gorge
My life takes on an empowered forge
A failure to this redundant world
Yet I feel the evil becoming unfurled
Blessed by the fires below
Gods blessing gravely in stow
I lumber blind, deaf, and ignorant
Yet my land is beyond verdant
Sacrificing emotions for these stones
I have not any of my own bones
Ground into nothing but dust
Yet the heavens allow me to rust
A mistake to worship anyone
I wish to feel love never undone
Only purgatory for a vindictive heart
Perhaps a curse from the start
Regardless a gluten for this pain
Your hatred fuels my vein
Never stronger than when solitary
My bloodlust becomes involuntary
Fueled only by my disgust
There is no one I would entrust
Alone like a star in the distance
Driven by fulminating resistance
I shall consume my own entity
Drifting nameless into eternity.
every beat u make fire much love
Pain running through my heart
Visions in my mind
Thinking of better days
Remembering better times
Im Sucked back to present
Got a overworked mind
Going through tough times end of the line
Lifes battle
Battle of the mind
Can this really be?
Is this life mine?
Can i get break?
Man i cant seem to even concentrate
Can i accept this is just my fate
A story to tell
An obstacle to break
Heart of gold in a world so cold
Beating me down trying to fit the mold
Restlessness in my soul
Want to beak out from the stories being told
Im running out of time
Heart is getting old
A legacy left behind
Its laying at everyone elses feet
Not the man i was
Just who strangers see
Glad that im gone glad that im six feet
Who else relates this music to their lives?? Give like
Trendy Buzz Official nah, ma life ain’t sad bruh....it’s poetic! Yours too! I see struggle, but there’s so much life in it it 🥀
@@matr1x83 hmm 🤔 I think you are right
Best sad beat on RUclips 🔥🔥🔥🔥
We clicked quicker than a relay could slingshot a ship
Yet, distance created a rift in the relationship
Something even the inquisitor couldn't shut with all his grit
Let the demons possess to show our true evil, mines selfishness
Still claim to see you that's a plain lie Flying Ferociously to your face
But we would lay awake, minds whizzing,
with blurred vision to keep us dizzy
Reality drowned by Videogames, we didn't quit to save our feelings
Now all in me is sadness glistening
when summertime winds are whistling your name
It's just me sitting reminiscing as I play our favorite games listening to Lana del Rey
Yea you were the one who put my heart away, and you always lie and always say okay, and when you text back is always late,
Boht hard bhai keep it up
Got a new subscriber! :D i just loved the beat that went with this
+Spencer Plays Gamez thanks for the love fam
""ONE LAST TIME STORY'' :(
Not to long ago, I saw u standing there.
We both ain't do as what we was told,we both ain't like to share.
When we see each other we looked away,then one day a bully came to stay.
He took your stuff and made u cry, I went out defended you, i tried
But in the end i got beat up, head buried in the ground you picked me up.
Since that day we stayed together, stayed like that since forever.
Now we both almost grown, you tend to be alone.
Tried to cheer you up, but you act like you ain't give a fuck.
Days and Days , Months and Months,we ain't talk much.
Then one day you told me your leaving,saying you cant be this being.
You left me with my heart bleeding, couldn't stop this feeling.
Stayed in this house isolated, Never stop thinking about time away.
Went to the store one night, came out saw you in the alley light.
Surround around a bunch of guys, one guy had a pistol on his side.
Pointed the gun at you, ran in front of you in a blink of a eye.
Told you to close your eyes, and approach the guy.
BANG!!!
They ran cause of the sound, you open your to see me on the ground.
Crying eternly holding me close, blood all over your clothes.
Told her to lean in close, said i'm glad ... to .. be .. with you .. be..fore I.. go. : ( sorry if u cried
Kevin Brown yo can I record this
sure man
Kevin Brown 😰😰😰😭😭
Kevin Brown that's deep very nice
Dope instrumental 🔥 🔥
seems like every body hates me , but they can never shake me, all they do is awake me because they will never break me I have a meaning even if they don't believe it they still gonna hear it and I know They will fear it. the pain inside is overwhelming but I will always tell it I'll even yell it I don't really care life ain't fair so stop trying to compare to a kid who just opened his fucking lid and spoke words that will leave you Ill and still
lit.
OKG DAGODD King Lil Smoke "One Last Time*
ruclips.net/video/D3qFBKKFipQ/видео.html
OKG DAGODD 🤗WOW good lyrics
love story ung music na yan, grabe ka ganda ang sarap gawan ng kanta nyan
Internal revivification unbound
Voices screaming with no sound
My heart burns with endless light
Still others choose the darkest night
Pleading to end there damnation
Yet never offering anyone salvation
Turning a cold shoulder on others
Then begging to sisters and brothers
Standing tall for absolutely nothing
Only in death will our voice become something
A single name suspended through time
Recirculated through a simple rhyme
We echo without a mind of our own
Ten laws written in godly stone
Yet we curse and spit in its glory
Then fall short writing our own story
The very young do not always do as they are told
Still we wonder why our cities continue to fold
Ignorance spilled as a glass of milk
When we have souls of eternal silk
How dare we judge one another
We know nothing of there pains that smother
Hold your tongue out of respect
There is no detail you need to inspect
If you have never worn the shoes
How possibly could you know what to choose?
No not be back
0l by
I cried when you passed away,
I still cry til this day,
I know alots been going on,
I'm trying to elevate,
This hurt in my chest,
Got me feeling some type of way,
These tears in my eyes,
Can't seem to hide this pain,
It's really hard to maintain,
I try and move forward,
I've been broken countless times,
It's coming hard to ignore,
I dropped a few tears and watched them fall,looked myself in the mirror,
And hit a brickwall,
I still can't take it,
Let alone fake it,
All I know is I really gon make it,
For you for me,
You taught me how to be,
I miss you so much,
Your photos put my heart at ease,
Knowing you ain't here, still hurts like a sting,you have no idea how hard it seems,I miss you so much ma, happy birthday from your Queen..
2019 anyone👀👀
rashad harrison 2020 of miserable that never ending in my life😔
2021
Yea this one’s for you
I never knew what i was going to do
The moment you left me
I never really knew me
Young bro did an awesome job on this
1:36
"all i wanted is u to stay here with me
But instead
U went out there and fell for someone else.."
I rlly holdin back my tears
Steady tryna face my fears
This has been going on for years
When will my fate become clear
When you need me I’m there
You don’t seem like you care
I’m always second best
When you’re my first
When will I be good enough for you
I try but you don’t put the effort in too
When nobody else is there you go to me
But I don’t recognise the girl I see
Somebody asked if I knew you
Memories came back
I wanted to say yes
But instead I said I used to
I wish I could forget the memories
I wish I could turn emotion off like you do
I wish I could go back to the times
When it was real, we were happy
Are these lyrics free to use?
I want to use ur lyrics it's related to mi
@@sayikhopekosii7491 You mean the lyrics on my youtube page?
@@lilbroccoli1398 hell no....
@@sayikhopekosii7491 oh
khub valo lagsa
I walk through these doors and see the pain my mommas eyes
What I am now and what I could've been she knows I'll die
But that don't catch her from surprise
Teen buys drugs from an online website
Dad later finds out and puts her card on decline
She gets mad and says she'll leave the house for life
But even her parents know she's telling all lies
6 months later she comes back saying she lost her mind when it came to the drugs
Being sold by the corner thugs
$40 for a plug
They invite her in the house and give her a big hug
Saying she misses them but tells them she needs money
Kicks her right back out the house physically
Now she crying mentally cause without drugs she feels the insecurity
But she knows her parents did that purposely
So she can get a job and money and go to a mental facility
Where she can get clean, sober and healthy
Later get a college degree and be what she always wanted to be
A doctor who heals kids when they bleed
I'm only 13 go easy on me
MT_KICKS at least u tried but nice job bro
Damn that's good for 13
at least u ain't no momble rapper lyricist 4 life
MT_KICKS that was good :) keep it up
Keep going at it! You are really good at storytelling!
It's been years
I remember when we used to come here
You remember Bart's old Shop
Man when we were kids we thought it was hot
But now we just far from the top
Cause damn I felt like we coulda been together
But nothin ever
Lasts forever
Cause you coulda been mine but I choked
I remember the words were caught in my throat
I couldn't say nun
You just stayed there patiently
And I knew we connected spiritually
But no I said how was your day
And you just held back the tears and walked away
Now I can never say anything to you
Cause the people wanna keep me away
Even tho I couldn't say what I wanted to say
I loved you from the day that we locked eyes
Cause I always wanted you to be mine
But you looked like you weren't interested
So we just stayed as friends
But what I didn't realize
Is how much you loved me back
Waiting for me to say the words I wanted to say
But no now your in a hospital bed
While the doctor is rubbing your head
Checking for a blood flow
i cried :(
Could I use peices of this for a demo please
bro I feel like this today.thank you.
+AsAP go ahead man good luck with the demo :)
., Mexican Who Can't Speak Spanish ygktfnnw&2&//4
4 years later and ppl still comment? damn bro much respect
Quando Rondo🔥🤙🏼
Why
Man I can't believe I have to tell this story
I never thought it would come to this
I always thought you'd be there till the end
But now I sit her in the sand
Wondering why
Why this all have to happen
Was it something I said
Was it something I did
That what I wondered for a while
Then one night it all came to me
So I called you
And then your mom picked up
And told me you killed yourself
But you left a note
Saying how much you loved me and that you're sorry
For everything you've done
Now I'm just standing here with the phone in the hand wondering why and how I let this happen
If there was something I could of just said
Why didn't I call early
Maybe then I would of stopped you
Maybe then I would been able to talk to you one last time
Now I'm just sitting here crying wishing you were still here
Wishing I could still love you
Wishing I could still talk to to you
Or just even be able to see your face one last time
But what really hurts is I lost my best friend
I hope you're doing good in heaven
I miss you baby
And I love you
Rip I’ll never forgot you
I’ll never forgot all the memories we shared. All the good and the bad.
I just wish I could she you one last time
Copyright 2019
I'm the type of person who mind escapes through beats and music. Poems and I love this beat.
Tốt nhất những kỉ niệm e có thì hãy thả nó vào gió
Đừng bán rẻ kon tim a cho để r mai này chính e pải chờ
A rất mún che chở.......nhịp thở của anh cũng dần không còn. thì làm sao... vét nứt trong tim không còn...những lần anh đau những lần anh buồn em có bao giờ hiểu đâu...........Nhưng e à.. Định mệnh buộc chặt khiến ta ôm lấy nhau
Chỉ là nổi bùn a đang cố dấu và nó lại in sâu............A chỉ ước vùng trời xám xịt kia hãy tan thôi
Và a biết cũng đã đến lúc xa e r...
Đơn giản vì e là 1 ng cứng rắn
Giữ e càng kh thể chắc chắn
Điếu thuốc giữa môi a xiết chặt
Và là ngoặc kép cho cuộc tình có nuốc thắt
I was adopted at 1
This is for my 2birth brothers-please comment ...:•]
Starts at 00:50
I never really had brothers.never knew what it was like n il never know fully until we properly reunite -get together eventually and be part of eachothers life ul be by mine,and il be by my brothers side.
I know it's been a while but ,good things take time ~gotta keep patient as we have n let it pass by it takes long,n it's a struggle and sometimes you gotta ask why but they say,you gotta walk through the darkness to get to the light sometimes you gotta get through the wrong to get to the right .
It's hard being separated but things like these won't happen overnight some things are complicated not just black and white so you can't see change can't vision it too far for your eye-sight n it's hard thinking an waiting in yours and my mind but you gotta look to the future cos you can't rewind time n soon il be hugging my brothers tight.
Your birth brothers will soon find you, God has a plan so look ahead and not behind you, have faith with god its never to late & you'll rest in God's arms & no more hearbreaks (God bless u)
Ktai zeher ❤️
It's like, the more i cut the less i feel.
In desperate need of something real.
My parents ain't ever been the same,
so they take drugs just to hide their pain.
I try to help but it never succeeds.
And that's when my heart bleeds.
My anxiety is invading me.
It kills me.
Just wanna ask, not asking much.
Can I just once more feel your touch?
sunlightx idk y but I cried to this
Can I add on to this
@@bob1244 sure
@Chase Wilham this is my own song and if you don't like it then leave. I'm allowed to let out my emotions through a song and I don't like you hating on it.
Cutting literally releases endorphins, both a physical and emotional painkiller, but also raises cortisol which is basically the neurotransmitter for stress and that’s bad to have a lot of because in the end it is neurodegenerative. After having neurodegeneration (and after PTSD which causes ND), there is chronic neurotransmitter depletion (could last years) meaning for instance low serotonin or serotonin deficiency and this is why people do drugs. Sometimes drugs are better than suicide, but of course pharmaceutical drugs are bad for you regardless if they were designed for serotonin deficiency. Lol if ur looking to increase serotonin and dopamine and lower adrenal and cortisol, (translation: be happy and relax) then I recommend cannabis lol. Anyways ur lyrics are dope idk why i went off on this long ...information rant? .. yeah anyways ✌️ dope lyrics
Ya,
I feel so alone when I’m at home
setting in the dark always in my phone
Depression knocked me out of my zone
Got stuck in my thoughts
Don’t got the energy to sleep a lot
Can’t trust a thot
Can’t true not a cop
Yes you talk a lot
You talk way to much
Man fuck it I’ve had enough
Life is tuff
Depression is ruff
Like what else can I say
I feel all of the pain
And yes I know it leaves a stane
And can’t get the girl of my dream
but she’s all ways in my mind
Cause when she came she never left
Now I’m on a quest to be the best
Can i rap... On this lyrics....
Veeresh Kambar yea for sure
Very nice beat 🎼🎶🎶🎶
left me so broken yeah you left me alone,
quiet thoughts keeping me from calling your phone,
sometimes i just wish that i wasn’t alone,
sometimes i just wish you were gone come home,
left me so quick i was really confused,
was it just me or was there another dude?,
thinking back on it maybe i got used,
thinking back on it maybe it wasn’t true
Since my girl left me I haven't been the same
Not ever since she moved away
I swear I think of her every single day
I loved her so much why do I have to stay
On this world I wanna leave so bad
Thinking of it just makes me so mad
Just wanna stay in my room and hide
Pop the pills contemplating suicide
On my own I really just wanna die
See everyone I love and tell them good bye
I'll be in heaven waiting for you to arrive
I miss her so much why does it have to be This way
But when I'm down you know I don't pray
Cause god to me just sounds like a fake
Take all my sorrows and drown them in a lake
Sitting here crying like god sake
While everyone is telling me it's gunna be ok
ShiBoBa Ft. Daddy KooL - يفضل حبرك (OFFICIAL VIDEO)
thank you for this beat
Uh,
Thought it was me feeling this lovely song,
Turns out it was me writing my wrongs,
How could I write you all my wrongs?
All I did was try inside, I'm done,
Now I'm looking at a beautiful view,
Trying to restore everything old and new,
A clue, lately I've been searching for you,
My motivation, my beautiful and only spark,
The reason I would face my fears, the dark,
All these painful marks, I'm loving these scars,
Something i came up with, continue it if you want :)
+Young Mars | Clash of Clans that is nice dude
Make it an actual video plz
But they tear me a part deep in my heart, i truly wanna restart and right my wrongs. So ill just continue dreaming of a day in which i can say what i wanna say, flay who i wanna flay with the music i make. Maybe help create a reason to stay on earth to help the people debating they're worth. But i gotta get clean first to break the curse of stain and shame. Nothings worse than the strain put on the family. Of an addict since birth i was a basket case.
But they tear me a part deep in my heart, i truly wanna restart and right my wrongs. So ill just continue dreaming of a day in which i can say what i wanna say, flay who i wanna flay with the music i make. Maybe help create a reason to stay on earth to help the people debating they're worth. But i gotta get clean first to break the curse of stain and shame. Nothings worse than the strain put on the family. Of an addict since birth i was a basket case.
2020 anyone
So emotional i can use this beat i will make a song with this beat
I have droped a lyric check plizz
Loving someone for almost 3 year's
Loyal and honest
Leaves you without even telling you
It's like alive but no soul
😔
GJ
Love my mom even tho she passed away on November the 4th from stage 4 colon cancer at age 40 I'm literally fucked up over it tbh(devil been busy)
Am i weird if these sad beats pump me up?
Mohamed Ismael kinda
No not at all, we learn from our mistakes man all this is just insipiration music. This is motivational in my opinion.
Mohamed Ismael nope I'm twerking
Not at all. Use it for my workouts. Motivates me
Same
I had this beat on the second day after it was uploaded on RUclips😭❤️ i still feel it.... It never gets old to me💗❤️