I literally googled heartstopper bisexual vlogger after I finished heartstopper because I was interested in knowing if you were a real youtuber and I love your content! So happy I discovered you through heartstopper
lI had no idea until I found this video that you were not just simply an actor on the show! You should be proud of your work in Heartstopper; you did a great job. Hopefully the show will draw more young questioning people to your videos and social media as well, and help them to understand and accept themselves 💜
imagine being THE voice and representation that helped THE Nicholas Nelson in accepting his sexuality 😭 you’re literally canon in the Oseman universe now. It’s wild! happy for you! 💖 also just wanted to add that I agree! Nick is basically your adoptive bisexual baby now haha you were his guiding light 🥺
"I can't believe I get to be what I never got to have." What a stunning comment; explains all the emotions this series dredges up in so many non-teen viewers...
Seeing your reaction to yourself in the show was so cute, I'm so happy you got to be a part of it and so proud of you. Thank you for everything you do, you're exactly the kind of person I wish I'd had when I was figuring out my sexuality. Also this episode was just so sweet
@@Courtney-Jai you're just so amazing and sweet and what you do with your platform is incredible. And you're in a Netflix show! Being yourself and helping people! And many like me are discovering you thanks to Heartstopper and that's great ♥
You did an amazing job on the show! I am a hetero, middle-aged female and this show has impacted me so much, so I can only imagine how it is for the young LGBTQIA community! My son came out to us as bisexual a while ago and it is something that he really struggled with for a long time. I wish this show had existed when he was younger, because it definitely would have helped him in his journey. Please keep doing what you do - it is so important to have bisexual role models for young people!
you were one of the people who helped me realize I was bisexual back in 2018 and to see you in the show helping Nick the same way 😭 it makes the show so special for me
When I first saw you on this show, I was so excited that they picked you to represent one of the few key moments Nick was discovering he might be Bi. It's great Alice specifically picked you to be a cameo on this show, as this shows homage to a genuine creator like yourself, who has been around for many years helping people discover and embrace their sexuality.
I'm 40 and knew I was bi as a teen, but I had zero representation or knowledge of how to talk to people about it. It wasn't until My wife came out as trans that I could even tell anyone. My wife wasn't surprised but I still never said much for a long time because of so much bi-erasure. I cried so hard watching this episode in particular. I really wish we'd had something like this when I was a teen.
I think you were the perfect choice of a real life RUclipsr to feature on the show, and as I said in the live comments, you have every right to be proud of being in this show that is already changing many people’s lives. One thing I like about the show is that it is at the same time a bit idealized but also completely believable. I think it gives hope and encouragement that is much needed in the world today.
I feel like the milkshakes were kind of an analogy. Charlie only likes the chocolate shake (boys), not Nick's cotton candy one (girls). Nick already likes the cotton candy milkshake (girls), but when he tries the chocolate shake (boys), he realizes he loves that flavor too!
"I can't believe I got to be what i never got to have..." I WEPT when u said this! Thank you for being a light to Nick Nelson and to the Heartstopper universe, which has just been life changing! Looking forward to your next video!!!
Hey Courtney. The part that got me is when you said "My Nan would be so proud." My heart really melted. She would be proud of you baby boy. Glad to be a member and one love my brother!
As a person raised in a very homophobic context, this show felt really healing to me. I had the same bisexual confusion as Nick, I even asked my friends about their sexuality just like he did. And everybody has this certainty about what they like, it seems so clear for them. Good to know that there are other people who experience something similar as I do.
You could feel the emotion when you started to cry. You not only got to be the main helpful component in a characters coming out journey, but all of the young kids who are going to watch this show and find your channel, or just see you in the episode and relate to you and your story also, is incredible. I’m in tears for you. I’m bisexual, and I was in love with my best friend growing up. They were transgender, but didn’t transition until after high school. So I spent my highschool time loving my female best friend. We had done stuff together, and it was always me who kept it a secret. I remember having them listen to the song “these roses” by gin wigmore on the school bus one morning because it was the only song I thought could explain what I was feeling. They were wild, and free and didn’t care what anyone thought of them. They passed away a couple years ago. They were killed in a foreign country most likely due to being trans. My biggest regret is that I was too scared to love the person who showed me true love to begin with. I wish I had a show like this growing up, I wish I had people like you to look up to growing up. I’m 27. A lot of people don’t realize that even 10 years ago, a lot of this stuff was still seen as taboo. I’m so happy to see that that’s changing. I don’t know you, but I’m so intensely proud of you. Thank you for being a wonderful person for others to look up to.
What an incredible comment I'm very sorry you never got to be with the person you loved and its amazing to see how the worlds change I'm 28 and I went through all this with my best friend when I was 14 it ended bad as sometimes things do but you never forget your first love.
Doing a rewatch of some of my favorite Heartstopper reactions and I noticed that when Charlie was babbling to Nick about going on a proper date sometime but then he said that was probably a stupid idea, I saw a parallel there with the scene between Mr Farouk and Mr Ajayi in episode six of season 2 after Darcy rendered Mr Ajayi's bed unusable. And it was absolutely adorable both times.
I do share a similarities with him I did play rugby in school that I was good at , I did have a secret boyfriend and I did realise I was bisexual around the same age.
"I can't believe I GET to be what I never had." I love that you used GET instead of GOT! Present and future tense, not something relegated to the past. Your channel, your cameo appearance, you are making a difference!
The very definition of the mantra, “be the change you want to see in the universe” You have created a safe space where none existed, you have made the world a little bit better and a little bit safer for so very many people.
Found you because of Heartstopper, and so happy for it. You are an amazing and genuine person, and it's a perfect thing that a series that will help and uplift so many has you playing the part you play - because you help and uplift so many too. You are one of the reasons why we finally decided to start a channel after talking about it for a long time. Helping just one person by being "what I never got to have," as you said, is the best reason for being here. Thank you for what you do, and Happy Pride!
I just wanted to let you know that this part of the show was very important to me. I am bisexual, and have lived my life in doubt and confusion for a long time. Your part in the show along with Charlie, really helped me understand myself and will help many others! So thank you!
I'm so proud of you for being able be a part of Heartstopper and to become even more visible as a resource for people who want to know more about bisexuality. You're doing good and changing lives. Thank you for being a positive role model for people young and old.
Courtney, I love what you're doing here and in Heartstopper. As a 50 year old woman who came out when I was 16, I so wish there had been people like you and shows like Heartstopper around. It would have made conversations easier and it would have made it so much easier for me to admit to being bi back then (I identify as pan now). As it was, you had 2 choices then: you could be straight or gay and it felt like it was mostly determined by the relationship you were currently in. Even in crazy liberal California. I loved your comment about being the person you wanted to have. You are a delight and I really love to see you continuing to provide not only the education, but the safe space for folks to figure this stuff out and to walk with them down that road. Well done you! I wish you all the best in every way.
Courtney-Jai, you have such a big heart (and a great sense of humor)! You deserve to be proud of your part in Heartstopper and of your long-standing mission to help people know and accept themselves.
You are a part of what makes this show special Courtney! Your scenes are so wholesome, caring and understanding. You are making so many more Nicks accept themselves. Congrats!!
I am almost 50 years old and totally straight, and I don't really know any LGBT+ people that well but I just wanted to say that I love this show and your videos. I feel like I'm learning SO much from both, because a lot of this stuff was never taught when I went to school. At the time it didn't feel relevant to me because of who I am, so I didn't seek out the information that was available on these topics - but now I feel like having that knowledge would make me a better person and a better friend to any LGBT+ people I might meet in the future. And that's always a good thing, right? 🙂
Thank you and Congratulations Courtney-Jai! 💖 Alice Oseman could not have chosen better for Nick's online Sherpa. Seeing and including you just infused Heartstopper with so much more kind, gentle guidance and reality. This is such a beautiful love-embrace of a show and it felt just perfect to have your sage and thoughtful presence be part of it! 💓💜💙 Nick's character especially is pretty ground-breaking as far as representation, and we get to see such a kind and compassionate human being in him, also Kit Connor brings a great heartfelt sweetness to match Joe Locke's lovely supportive Charlie. And Corinna Brown and Kizzy Edgell are fantastic as Tara and Darcy, just trying to live their lives. **Yeah, that moment of relief when you come out to someone and are received with kindness, it's so sweetly shown here! What a gift for those who haven't had this to see it is possible. Feeling So much love for Heartstopper and everyone part of putting it into the world, we thank you all so much. ❤ k
This was the video I was most expecting for! I saw you for the first time in the show and when I discovered that you were a real youtuber, I searched YT to see your reaction. You did an amazing job
I had watched some of your videos prior to seeing Heartstopper. I was so excited and happy that they had picked you to appear in it. Not surprised, because your videos carry the same vibe as the show....positive representation ❤. I'm gay, but there is nowhere near enough positive representation for bisexuality so well done all round you should be proud. Also positive representation across the board has been so refreshing.
I didn't realize until I found your Heartstopper reactions that I watched some of your videos on bisexuality to help me figure myself out. It's insane that I've found you again this way. I was just looking through your channel and there's videos from 3+ years ago, watched all the way through! So thank you for everything. I don't know if I'd be where I am today without your content ❤️
Hi! I've been feeling like I wasn't straight for a good few years now. I'm glad I found you through Heartstopper. What you said in the show brought me so much peace with myself! I'm currently working up the courage to start telling people. From the bottom of my heart, thank you so much!
I didn’t know that you were the RUclipsr when I saw the show that’s amazing 😊 so happy for you and thank you so much because I have a boyfriend and he loves me but he didn’t want anyone not even me even though we you know so 1 day I watched this show he saw your videos on the show and I thought his leg and he started crying and said that he was bi and I thought it was just a actor that did it then I just so happen to see your video about Heartstopper because I love watching reactions about this show that helped me and my boyfriend so thank you so much I ❤❤❤❤ you
it was first tiem you saw it? CONGRATS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am streight but I love heartsopper and watch it several times and after I feel depresed OMG I have just realised you was in the same room with bluie wall like on this video here !!!!!!!!
This show is just soo good!! It feels so relatable! Seeing Nick on his journey to find himself, seeing his struggles, his emotions... It really reminds me of my own journey. Seeing you in the show made it even more relatable for me, because your videos really helped me, when I was on that point. Thank you!!
Hope you found your tribe. I was pretty much the same growing up, small town where anything other than straight was still considered a threat to social order. It really does get better.
I've been really excited to see you react to this episode. Your inclusion was vital for Nick's journey, as I feel his reluctance to come out was because (as he say's to Charlie in this episode) he "doesn't know what he is". I feel that Nick needs an identity to be able to come out, and you're crucial to that. I'm so happy that they picked you, a genuine bisexual youtuber who's been helping people for years and not a random actor, I'm sure that's why Alice herself wanted you.
Such a sweet and natural reaction by Courtney. I feel like he should be VERY proud of his part in this movie. He helped Nick understand himself. Very well done! My most heartfelt congratulations on your videos being in the series. Love wins!!!
I haven't read all the comments about your input to Heartstoppers, but it was a very good part of the TV show, and you should be proud! Like I said I have not read the other comments, but your input into the series will be so helpful to young questioning teens for years to come! The impact that you will have will be felt by possibly millions of people and I can't even imagine how that must feel for you! To know that you have left a legacy that will potentially even save lives of troubled teens for possibly decades and beyond. I hope you have stepped back and taken in what a selfless thing you have achieved! I can only wish I could impact generations on that scale! Anyway...whatever you do with the rest of your life...you will always have the knowledge that you made a difference! Not preaching...I am sure you know all this already, but just wanted to be another voice out there thanking you for making a positive impact of young lives!
Love seeing you tear up on your 1st screen time and seeing your big smile during your second scene. Enjoyed your reaction on this episode. Well done. Thanks.
When I was first coming to terms with myself, I would watch sooo many RUclipsrs talk about their experiences, exactly like the one Nick is watching. It was an incredibly relatable scene and it made me look back on how far I’ve come since then 🥰 thank you, for being a part of something so uplifting and positive. I’m very happy you were in the show!
I'm very grateful I had so many people message me to tell the words I said were just right, which was really scary because how do you describe bisexuality in 30 seconds
Beautiful , to see someone's wounded heart literally healing in front of us was emotional for me to watch, thanks for sharing with us. Your raw reaction surpassed the episode itself. Powerfull stuff. Thanks for what you do.
You said it so right! There is no reason for coming out! Just to tell, that you are in love with someone! If it goes this way, it is how it should be! I am happy for you, that you are a part of this incredible show!
Nick is the perfect golden retriever boy. Handsome, mature, cute, kind, caring, kinda goofy, polite, fit, charming, funny, friendly. He's just like a warm hug 🤗
When I originally saw episode 6 I really liked the research Nick did but your video on the show really hit. The first thing that went through my head was... I hope people like this are really on online helping young people like this. Then I found reaction videos and found your channel. Thank you for those you help. Good on you.
@@Courtney-Jai Believe it or not, this is one of the few comments I ever made on RUclips and your's was the first response received. thx ps. I posted another question to you on one of your other vids. I think for #5. Might be an inconsistency in ages on the show.
I was so happy as soon as I heard your voice- I new it was you before you could see Nicks screen It gave the series so much authenticity for me, as I was once at nicks point and finding your Videos was so helpful
7:16 I'm literally saying aaaw and smiling throuhout the entire show, and then my cheeks hurt and I feel more alone than ever 😔 Great reaction as always, for obvious reasons.
When I first saw your scenes on Heartstopper, I somehow felt like I've known you for a very long time. I realize that I hadn't come across your channel before Heartstopper, but something about how you shared your experience and helped Nick understand more about himself made felt so familiar, comfortable, warm, and inviting. Also, your reaction to your own scene was honestly the best! Keep up the great work! 😁❤️
Having watched the series, along with reaction videos, several times, I think that part of Tao being upset about Charlie & Nick is because he is aware of his feelings for Elle &, he's confused by the gender issues, as well as the repercussions of changing their relationship. Charlie being "gone" only intensifies those fears. It's really cool to see you react to your own scenes. You made a great contribution.
Omg, you're making me cry with happiness, I'm so thrilled for you! Sending you a giant cross-Atlantic virtual hug and I'm so happy that so many people (including myself) are finding their youtube bisexual sherpa through the show! Did you know that they were going to use Pirates of the Carribean as Nick's first bi panic? I kind of lost it at that scene, bc literally like 2 weeks before I watched the show I had a conversation with a bi friend who had basically the EXACT same experience as Nick with the same movie lol.
You were fantastic in this Heartstopper episode - I hope you are proud of your involvement - you did a really good thing! I can totally see why Alice picked you to become part of the Heartstopper family - your sincerity and caring is dazzling. Congratulations!!
I'm so proud of you and your appearance in this episode, it's so amazing! Not only did you help me while I was in the closet through your RUclips channel but now with Heartstopper as well, you get to help so many others discover and proudly accept who they truly are and I love you for that. :)
You are literally what I would imagine a ray of sunshine sunshine to be in human form. Your story resonates with my own journey so much and it is amazing to see that story be so pivotal to this story!
Thanks for this reaction video, it was so lovely to see how genuinely touched you were by your scenes in the show and it's just another way to highlight how important it is for kids in the LGBTQ community to have positive role models and representation in the media and how pivotal it can be to help people find out who they are and how/where they fit
Such a heartfelt reaction to seeing yourself in a TV Show, I'm proud of you, CJ. You're a role model for the future generations now! I'm sure you'll continue to be a great one. :D x
When you got teary-eyed at your appearance and that you got to be what you never had I got emotional! 🧸 I wanted to give you a comforting hug. I felt heard myself when I watched Heartstopper and I'm sure many other bisexuals or people coming to realize it have a great example to feel validated! 💗 💜 💙
So glad that you're there for people who need a Sherpa. Equally glad that you're being made aware of how much of an influence for good you have been in the lives of the people you've touched. As I've been watching this series (and your additional commentary) I remember more and more instances in my own life - though in many cases happening with different people and at different times. Some are happy, some are sort of a light punch in the gut, but it feels so good to see the feelings portrayed - sort of a validation, that yeah, what I felt back then was real enough the others felt it enough to bring it to life for the whole world to see.
Your reaction were always so warm and cheerful. I can always empathize with the touching parts which makes you cry. Thank you for participate in this greatest film.
This is my first video I'm watching of yours and the first minute I was crying! You are amazing and I'm so glad you get to be this representation for so many people due to this opportunity in Heartstopper. Hearing your story is connecting the dots for myself - I'm in the midst of questioning myself at the moment and I feel like I'm going to be watching more videos of yours!
@@Courtney-JaiI watched a bunch of your videos last night and loved them! I've found them really inspiring and helpful and have messaged you on Instagram also :) Thank you for your content! I'm now subscribed! :)
Courtney you are an absolute inspiration for young people in our community. I am a total Charlie where it has always been boys but my husband is more like you and I think we need to see more of people just being people xxx
Seeing you in the show made me look for you on RUclips! I thought - I need more of this guy! I want to hear what else he has to say! It was very powerful and hopeful and inspiring!!!!
I think you are such a beautiful person. Please don't apologize for getting emotional. It's a great thing. Feel all the happy tears, you are allowed to feel your feelings. You did awesome in the series! I love this show so much and love that's its so sweet and real. Its probably the only show that I've watched more than 7 times now and still can't get enough.
Your reaction was so heartfelt, sweet and honest. Loved it and off course cried when you where happy and cried. Especially your line ‘I can’t believe I got to be what I never got to have.’ And ‘I have no tolerance for that anymore’. That’s what I’m feeling too and try to be that now by starting a Pride Network at work and doing stuff outside work for our lovely community. Keep up doing what your doing. You’re changing lives!
Words can't explain how proud of you I am Courtney! Your reaction is so cute, it makes me so happy that you were able to be apart of such an amazing show. My eyes well up with tears I'm just soooooo proud and I love you loads! You deserve the world and everything good in it. I'm glad you are able to use this platform to educate and help others with sexuality it means a lot to everyone. ❤❤❤
share this video and let everyone know the bisexual youtuber is real ❤
I literally googled heartstopper bisexual vlogger after I finished heartstopper because I was interested in knowing if you were a real youtuber and I love your content! So happy I discovered you through heartstopper
@@nanatadewit461 I did the exact same!
I just did it and talked about you on a HS French group on FB :) Hugs
lI had no idea until I found this video that you were not just simply an actor on the show! You should be proud of your work in Heartstopper; you did a great job. Hopefully the show will draw more young questioning people to your videos and social media as well, and help them to understand and accept themselves 💜
@@tubularbells0677 that would be amazing
"I can't believe I got to be what I never had." 😭😭😭
it weird like I just didn't know how I'd react and they were my first two thoughts my nan and what I never had ❤
@@Courtney-Jai Your Nan sounds amazing!
imagine being THE voice and representation that helped THE Nicholas Nelson in accepting his sexuality 😭 you’re literally canon in the Oseman universe now. It’s wild! happy for you! 💖 also just wanted to add that I agree! Nick is basically your adoptive bisexual baby now haha you were his guiding light 🥺
Awww thank you and yeah its kinda cool being officially being part of this universe , what also cool my scene is actually in the comics to.
@@Courtney-Jai pinch me courtney actually replied to me 😭 🥹
@@claireofhell I try to reply to everyone I must admit its getting more and more difficult with my audience growing
"I can't believe I get to be what I never got to have." What a stunning comment; explains all the emotions this series dredges up in so many non-teen viewers...
Just reading this makes me want to cry 😢 😭
Seeing your reaction to yourself in the show was so cute, I'm so happy you got to be a part of it and so proud of you. Thank you for everything you do, you're exactly the kind of person I wish I'd had when I was figuring out my sexuality. Also this episode was just so sweet
That means the world to me ❤
@@Courtney-Jai you're just so amazing and sweet and what you do with your platform is incredible. And you're in a Netflix show! Being yourself and helping people! And many like me are discovering you thanks to Heartstopper and that's great ♥
When you said "My nan would be so proud" I wanted to give you a bear hug so badly 😭
@@canny_linguist pretty much anytime I do anything of significance I always think of my nan
@@Courtney-Jai She would be proud of you! We are proud too! You're a star now daaahling! 📷
You did an amazing job on the show! I am a hetero, middle-aged female and this show has impacted me so much, so I can only imagine how it is for the young LGBTQIA community! My son came out to us as bisexual a while ago and it is something that he really struggled with for a long time. I wish this show had existed when he was younger, because it definitely would have helped him in his journey. Please keep doing what you do - it is so important to have bisexual role models for young people!
I'll try my best to be the best role model I can be
Elle calling out charlie's "intense pinning" in front of Nick is true queer representation
"I get to be what I never got to have." - You're wonderful. I am so glad you're a part of this and that you're real.
Oh wow, I didn't realize the RUclipsr in the show was an actual RUclipsr! This show's dedication to authenticity is amazing. 👏
Yeah I've been making videos on bisexuality for a very long time
"I can't believe I get to be what I never got to have". Ok, that broke me, I'm crying
you were one of the people who helped me realize I was bisexual back in 2018 and to see you in the show helping Nick the same way 😭 it makes the show so special for me
Seeing comments like this makes these moments so special to me ❤️
When I first saw you on this show, I was so excited that they picked you to represent one of the few key moments Nick was discovering he might be Bi.
It's great Alice specifically picked you to be a cameo on this show, as this shows homage to a genuine creator like yourself, who has been around for many years helping people discover and embrace their sexuality.
I was very honored to be asked such an amazing show ❤️
Nick always seems to ask all the right questions as he evolves into a confident bisexual. To Tara, to Charlie.....he's more methodical than I was.
Charlie being honest with his feelings and saying “Sorry” a lot is relatable.
Relatable but gotta admit Charlie was *frustrating* at times exactly because he wouldn't get out of his own damn way 😐
@@canny_linguist Interesting take
The only time you really see Charlie sticking up for himself is when Ben pesters him
I'm 40 and knew I was bi as a teen, but I had zero representation or knowledge of how to talk to people about it. It wasn't until My wife came out as trans that I could even tell anyone. My wife wasn't surprised but I still never said much for a long time because of so much bi-erasure. I cried so hard watching this episode in particular. I really wish we'd had something like this when I was a teen.
Me to that why I'm so grateful to be able to do that for other people now
I think you were the perfect choice of a real life RUclipsr to feature on the show, and as I said in the live comments, you have every right to be proud of being in this show that is already changing many people’s lives. One thing I like about the show is that it is at the same time a bit idealized but also completely believable. I think it gives hope and encouragement that is much needed in the world today.
I feel like the milkshakes were kind of an analogy. Charlie only likes the chocolate shake (boys), not Nick's cotton candy one (girls). Nick already likes the cotton candy milkshake (girls), but when he tries the chocolate shake (boys), he realizes he loves that flavor too!
Never thought of it like that before pretty good
"I can't believe I got to be what i never got to have..." I WEPT when u said this! Thank you for being a light to Nick Nelson and to the Heartstopper universe, which has just been life changing! Looking forward to your next video!!!
I look forward to seeing you there and the emotion just took over ❤️
Hey Courtney. The part that got me is when you said "My Nan would be so proud." My heart really melted. She would be proud of you baby boy. Glad to be a member and one love my brother!
As a person raised in a very homophobic context, this show felt really healing to me. I had the same bisexual confusion as Nick, I even asked my friends about their sexuality just like he did. And everybody has this certainty about what they like, it seems so clear for them. Good to know that there are other people who experience something similar as I do.
You could feel the emotion when you started to cry. You not only got to be the main helpful component in a characters coming out journey, but all of the young kids who are going to watch this show and find your channel, or just see you in the episode and relate to you and your story also, is incredible. I’m in tears for you. I’m bisexual, and I was in love with my best friend growing up. They were transgender, but didn’t transition until after high school. So I spent my highschool time loving my female best friend. We had done stuff together, and it was always me who kept it a secret. I remember having them listen to the song “these roses” by gin wigmore on the school bus one morning because it was the only song I thought could explain what I was feeling. They were wild, and free and didn’t care what anyone thought of them.
They passed away a couple years ago. They were killed in a foreign country most likely due to being trans. My biggest regret is that I was too scared to love the person who showed me true love to begin with.
I wish I had a show like this growing up, I wish I had people like you to look up to growing up. I’m 27. A lot of people don’t realize that even 10 years ago, a lot of this stuff was still seen as taboo. I’m so happy to see that that’s changing.
I don’t know you, but I’m so intensely proud of you. Thank you for being a wonderful person for others to look up to.
What an incredible comment I'm very sorry you never got to be with the person you loved and its amazing to see how the worlds change I'm 28 and I went through all this with my best friend when I was 14 it ended bad as sometimes things do but you never forget your first love.
“Can’t believe I got to be what I never got to have” … Dude, you’re making me tear up 🥹 🧡
I made myself tear up , I wish I could have been like super cool and been like yeah thats me haha
Doing a rewatch of some of my favorite Heartstopper reactions and I noticed that when Charlie was babbling to Nick about going on a proper date sometime but then he said that was probably a stupid idea, I saw a parallel there with the scene between Mr Farouk and Mr Ajayi in episode six of season 2 after Darcy rendered Mr Ajayi's bed unusable. And it was absolutely adorable both times.
Thats a great spot
Oh my god it’s killing me how great you are. You are the real life Nick. Thank you for being you, and showing the beauty of our queerness. X
I do share a similarities with him I did play rugby in school that I was good at , I did have a secret boyfriend and I did realise I was bisexual around the same age.
"I can't believe I GET to be what I never had."
I love that you used GET instead of GOT! Present and future tense, not something relegated to the past.
Your channel, your cameo appearance, you are making a difference!
Charlie sat quiet and watched as Nick took the lead and told Elle!!!!!
Tao is Peak Asian Parent: Loves their child to the moon and back and hates everyone they date.
The very definition of the mantra, “be the change you want to see in the universe”
You have created a safe space where none existed, you have made the world a little bit better and a little bit safer for so very many people.
I just want people to feel valid for who they are
Congrats Courtney, your scenes were so pivotal and profound in Nick’s journey, you did a wonderful job! ❤️❤️
Bless you, Darling ❤ I'm so glad you got to be a part of this ❤ Heartstopper is so beautiful and precious ❤
Aww thank you
Found you because of Heartstopper, and so happy for it. You are an amazing and genuine person, and it's a perfect thing that a series that will help and uplift so many has you playing the part you play - because you help and uplift so many too. You are one of the reasons why we finally decided to start a channel after talking about it for a long time. Helping just one person by being "what I never got to have," as you said, is the best reason for being here. Thank you for what you do, and Happy Pride!
Thats awesome keep me up to date with your channel I love seeing other creative people at work as they say become the change you want to see ❤️
I’m not going to stop saying that Tao’s comebacks are simply the best.
I just wanted to let you know that this part of the show was very important to me. I am bisexual, and have lived my life in doubt and confusion for a long time. Your part in the show along with Charlie, really helped me understand myself and will help many others! So thank you!
Thats brilliant Alex that makes me so happy
I'm so glad HS introduced us to you.
Well I'm just happy people love the show and it's helping sonmany people
I'm so proud of you for being able be a part of Heartstopper and to become even more visible as a resource for people who want to know more about bisexuality. You're doing good and changing lives. Thank you for being a positive role model for people young and old.
Darcy literally said “Meddling Gays” and I’ve never related to something more lol
Courtney, I love what you're doing here and in Heartstopper. As a 50 year old woman who came out when I was 16, I so wish there had been people like you and shows like Heartstopper around. It would have made conversations easier and it would have made it so much easier for me to admit to being bi back then (I identify as pan now). As it was, you had 2 choices then: you could be straight or gay and it felt like it was mostly determined by the relationship you were currently in. Even in crazy liberal California.
I loved your comment about being the person you wanted to have. You are a delight and I really love to see you continuing to provide not only the education, but the safe space for folks to figure this stuff out and to walk with them down that road. Well done you! I wish you all the best in every way.
Courtney-Jai, you have such a big heart (and a great sense of humor)! You deserve to be proud of your part in Heartstopper and of your long-standing mission to help people know and accept themselves.
You are a part of what makes this show special Courtney! Your scenes are so wholesome, caring and understanding. You are making so many more Nicks accept themselves. Congrats!!
I am almost 50 years old and totally straight, and I don't really know any LGBT+ people that well but I just wanted to say that I love this show and your videos. I feel like I'm learning SO much from both, because a lot of this stuff was never taught when I went to school. At the time it didn't feel relevant to me because of who I am, so I didn't seek out the information that was available on these topics - but now I feel like having that knowledge would make me a better person and a better friend to any LGBT+ people I might meet in the future. And that's always a good thing, right? 🙂
Ofcourse anything that brings people closer is always a good things
Thank you and Congratulations Courtney-Jai! 💖
Alice Oseman could not have chosen better for Nick's online Sherpa. Seeing and including you just infused Heartstopper with so much more kind, gentle guidance and reality. This is such a beautiful love-embrace of a show and it felt just perfect to have your sage and thoughtful presence be part of it! 💓💜💙
Nick's character especially is pretty ground-breaking as far as representation, and we get to see such a kind and compassionate human being in him, also Kit Connor brings a great heartfelt sweetness to match Joe Locke's lovely supportive Charlie. And Corinna Brown and Kizzy Edgell are fantastic as Tara and Darcy, just trying to live their lives.
**Yeah, that moment of relief when you come out to someone and are received with kindness, it's so sweetly shown here! What a gift for those who haven't had this to see it is possible.
Feeling So much love for Heartstopper and everyone part of putting it into the world,
we thank you all so much. ❤
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Omg... you've helped Nick to figure himself out ❤️❤️❤️ love this reaction 💞💞💞
Oh, you’re such a sweetheart! Thank you for your work on Heartstoppers.
Aww I was just lucky to be apart of it thank you for watch my video and the show I'm glad you liked it 😊
This was the video I was most expecting for! I saw you for the first time in the show and when I discovered that you were a real youtuber, I searched YT to see your reaction. You did an amazing job
Thank you for being so awesome
I had watched some of your videos prior to seeing Heartstopper. I was so excited and happy that they had picked you to appear in it. Not surprised, because your videos carry the same vibe as the show....positive representation ❤. I'm gay, but there is nowhere near enough positive representation for bisexuality so well done all round you should be proud. Also positive representation across the board has been so refreshing.
I didn't realize until I found your Heartstopper reactions that I watched some of your videos on bisexuality to help me figure myself out. It's insane that I've found you again this way. I was just looking through your channel and there's videos from 3+ years ago, watched all the way through!
So thank you for everything. I don't know if I'd be where I am today without your content ❤️
Awww that's so sweet I'm just happy I could be apart of so many peoples journey's you guys are so amazing, congrats of figuring out who you are ❤️
Hi! I've been feeling like I wasn't straight for a good few years now. I'm glad I found you through Heartstopper. What you said in the show brought me so much peace with myself! I'm currently working up the courage to start telling people. From the bottom of my heart, thank you so much!
Its takes time but you will get there somthing I always tell people, will it make you happy if the answered yes then you know what you gotta do
Tori is extremely well-hydrated.
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Hydration must be good for the wits & older sister magic. ✨
I didn’t know that you were the RUclipsr when I saw the show that’s amazing 😊 so happy for you and thank you so much because I have a boyfriend and he loves me but he didn’t want anyone not even me even though we you know so 1 day I watched this show he saw your videos on the show and I thought his leg and he started crying and said that he was bi and I thought it was just a actor that did it then I just so happen to see your video about Heartstopper because I love watching reactions about this show that helped me and my boyfriend so thank you so much I ❤❤❤❤ you
That's amazingly beautiful. I'm so happy for you ❤️ and your boyfriend
Thank you so much for the part you played and being such a valid and supportive part of the community
I was just lucky enough to be a part of something so special , but thank you for such a sweet comment
@@Courtney-Jai I literally said something similar the other day; that I wished there was something like this growing up. You're welcome
You're reaction to seeing urself the first time was soo cute and made me cry with you
you saying goodbye with your hand like charlie at the front door is the CUTEST hahaha
Thats how I always say good bye haha
it was first tiem you saw it? CONGRATS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am streight but I love heartsopper and watch it several times and after I feel depresed OMG I have just realised you was in the same room with bluie wall like on this video here !!!!!!!!
Yeah thats why I'm quite emotional in this video , I'm actually a real bisexual youtuber
This show is just soo good!! It feels so relatable! Seeing Nick on his journey to find himself, seeing his struggles, his emotions... It really reminds me of my own journey. Seeing you in the show made it even more relatable for me, because your videos really helped me, when I was on that point.
Thank you!!
Hope you found your tribe. I was pretty much the same growing up, small town where anything other than straight was still considered a threat to social order. It really does get better.
I've been really excited to see you react to this episode. Your inclusion was vital for Nick's journey, as I feel his reluctance to come out was because (as he say's to Charlie in this episode) he "doesn't know what he is". I feel that Nick needs an identity to be able to come out, and you're crucial to that. I'm so happy that they picked you, a genuine bisexual youtuber who's been helping people for years and not a random actor, I'm sure that's why Alice herself wanted you.
Your reaction to yourself was golden! Wish you the best, mate!
Such a sweet and natural reaction by Courtney. I feel like he should be VERY proud of his part in this movie. He helped Nick understand himself. Very well done! My most heartfelt congratulations on your videos being in the series. Love wins!!!
Thank you thats so kind of you to say
I haven't read all the comments about your input to Heartstoppers, but it was a very good part of the TV show, and you should be proud! Like I said I have not read the other comments, but your input into the series will be so helpful to young questioning teens for years to come! The impact that you will have will be felt by possibly millions of people and I can't even imagine how that must feel for you! To know that you have left a legacy that will potentially even save lives of troubled teens for possibly decades and beyond. I hope you have stepped back and taken in what a selfless thing you have achieved! I can only wish I could impact generations on that scale! Anyway...whatever you do with the rest of your life...you will always have the knowledge that you made a difference! Not preaching...I am sure you know all this already, but just wanted to be another voice out there thanking you for making a positive impact of young lives!
Love seeing you tear up on your 1st screen time and seeing your big smile during your second scene. Enjoyed your reaction on this episode. Well done. Thanks.
When I was first coming to terms with myself, I would watch sooo many RUclipsrs talk about their experiences, exactly like the one Nick is watching. It was an incredibly relatable scene and it made me look back on how far I’ve come since then 🥰 thank you, for being a part of something so uplifting and positive. I’m very happy you were in the show!
I'm very grateful I had so many people message me to tell the words I said were just right, which was really scary because how do you describe bisexuality in 30 seconds
@@Courtney-Jai I’m not entirely sure, but you were very successful in hitting the main points and making it really relatable to a lot of people.
You're such a warm person. I actually started crying when you cried. Loved this video hun and can't wait for mooooore!
Congrats for being on the show! And thanks for putting yourself out there to make the world a better place.
Well thank you for the lovely comment
Beautiful , to see someone's wounded heart literally healing in front of us was emotional for me to watch, thanks for sharing with us. Your raw reaction surpassed the episode itself. Powerfull stuff. Thanks for what you do.
You said it so right! There is no reason for coming out! Just to tell, that you are in love with someone!
If it goes this way, it is how it should be!
I am happy for you, that you are a part of this incredible show!
Nick is the perfect golden retriever boy. Handsome, mature, cute, kind, caring, kinda goofy, polite, fit, charming, funny, friendly. He's just like a warm hug 🤗
When I originally saw episode 6 I really liked the research Nick did but your video on the show really hit. The first thing that went through my head was... I hope people like this are really on online helping young people like this. Then I found reaction videos and found your channel. Thank you for those you help. Good on you.
Thank you as I said in the video I get to be now what I needed then
@@Courtney-Jai Believe it or not, this is one of the few comments I ever made on RUclips and your's was the first response received. thx
ps. I posted another question to you on one of your other vids. I think for #5. Might be an inconsistency in ages on the show.
This was so nice to watch. You are the person you never had, people will always have you as their bisexual role model. Keep being amazing x
You got me at, "I can't believe I get to be, what I never got to have. " Now I am back to crying but for different reasons. Beautifully said.
Oh bless your heart, sending love and hugs 🥰
hugs back ❤
I loved your bits in the show! ❤️ and yes I completely agree, I just said “awwwww” throughout this entire show. It was the sweetest!
Awww thank you I really appreciate it , I still can't believe I got to be apart of somthing so amazing.
I was so happy as soon as I heard your voice- I new it was you before you could see Nicks screen
It gave the series so much authenticity for me, as I was once at nicks point and finding your Videos was so helpful
7:16 I'm literally saying aaaw and smiling throuhout the entire show, and then my cheeks hurt and I feel more alone than ever 😔
Great reaction as always, for obvious reasons.
You got to be what you wish you'd had 🥰 congratulations on being part of this fantastic series x
When I first saw your scenes on Heartstopper, I somehow felt like I've known you for a very long time. I realize that I hadn't come across your channel before Heartstopper, but something about how you shared your experience and helped Nick understand more about himself made felt so familiar, comfortable, warm, and inviting. Also, your reaction to your own scene was honestly the best! Keep up the great work! 😁❤️
It's so cool that you got to be part of this program that is one of the best shows EVER!
I feel very proud to be apart of it
Having watched the series, along with reaction videos, several times, I think that part of Tao being upset about Charlie & Nick is because he is aware of his feelings for Elle &, he's confused by the gender issues, as well as the repercussions of changing their relationship. Charlie being "gone" only intensifies those fears.
It's really cool to see you react to your own scenes. You made a great contribution.
Omg, you're making me cry with happiness, I'm so thrilled for you! Sending you a giant cross-Atlantic virtual hug and I'm so happy that so many people (including myself) are finding their youtube bisexual sherpa through the show!
Did you know that they were going to use Pirates of the Carribean as Nick's first bi panic? I kind of lost it at that scene, bc literally like 2 weeks before I watched the show I had a conversation with a bi friend who had basically the EXACT same experience as Nick with the same movie lol.
You were fantastic in this Heartstopper episode - I hope you are proud of your involvement - you did a really good thing! I can totally see why Alice picked you to become part of the Heartstopper family - your sincerity and caring is dazzling. Congratulations!!
Thank you i really am proud and grateful that I got to be apart of the show
@@Courtney-Jai ❤️
Coming out and the community sharing experiences on you tube was so helpful to me
Thats amazing that what me and many other creators want to hear
I thought you had Nick Nelson Energy and then you ✨A C C U R A T E L Y✨predicted the dialogue lol
Every single episode make us cry. There are so many emocional, sensitive, beautiful scenes...
I'm so proud of you and your appearance in this episode, it's so amazing! Not only did you help me while I was in the closet through your RUclips channel but now with Heartstopper as well, you get to help so many others discover and proudly accept who they truly are and I love you for that. :)
Without your video, nick wouldn't understand Bisexual, so you're a big impact for him ✨🍃💙🧡
You are literally what I would imagine a ray of sunshine sunshine to be in human form. Your story resonates with my own journey so much and it is amazing to see that story be so pivotal to this story!
Thanks for this reaction video, it was so lovely to see how genuinely touched you were by your scenes in the show and it's just another way to highlight how important it is for kids in the LGBTQ community to have positive role models and representation in the media and how pivotal it can be to help people find out who they are and how/where they fit
Such a heartfelt reaction to seeing yourself in a TV Show, I'm proud of you, CJ. You're a role model for the future generations now! I'm sure you'll continue to be a great one. :D x
When you got teary-eyed at your appearance and that you got to be what you never had I got emotional! 🧸 I wanted to give you a comforting hug. I felt heard myself when I watched Heartstopper and I'm sure many other bisexuals or people coming to realize it have a great example to feel validated! 💗 💜 💙
It was a very cathartic experience for me it felt like I'd come full circle and achieved somthing that I always wanted
We love the character development for your dad ❤
It does feel like an out of body experience when you see yourself on a screen. Also, shoutout to your Nan for being awesome.
So glad that you're there for people who need a Sherpa. Equally glad that you're being made aware of how much of an influence for good you have been in the lives of the people you've touched. As I've been watching this series (and your additional commentary) I remember more and more instances in my own life - though in many cases happening with different people and at different times. Some are happy, some are sort of a light punch in the gut, but it feels so good to see the feelings portrayed - sort of a validation, that yeah, what I felt back then was real enough the others felt it enough to bring it to life for the whole world to see.
Thanks for the great reaction ! Excited for the behind the scenes!!
Your reaction were always so warm and cheerful.
I can always empathize with the touching parts which makes you cry.
Thank you for participate in this greatest film.
This is my first video I'm watching of yours and the first minute I was crying! You are amazing and I'm so glad you get to be this representation for so many people due to this opportunity in Heartstopper. Hearing your story is connecting the dots for myself - I'm in the midst of questioning myself at the moment and I feel like I'm going to be watching more videos of yours!
Thats amazing I'm going to be making alot more videos , remaking alot of old ones with a maturer head taking everything I've learned over the years.
@@Courtney-JaiI watched a bunch of your videos last night and loved them! I've found them really inspiring and helpful and have messaged you on Instagram also :) Thank you for your content! I'm now subscribed! :)
Courtney you are an absolute inspiration for young people in our community. I am a total Charlie where it has always been boys but my husband is more like you and I think we need to see more of people just being people xxx
Your videos were what helped me come out as bisexual. You really are such a gift to the bisexual community! Thank you!
Thats means so much to me that's amazing ❤️
Seeing you in the show made me look for you on RUclips! I thought - I need more of this guy! I want to hear what else he has to say! It was very powerful and hopeful and inspiring!!!!
Well thank you and I have alot of videos on bisexuality that I think can help alot
I think you are such a beautiful person. Please don't apologize for getting emotional. It's a great thing. Feel all the happy tears, you are allowed to feel your feelings.
You did awesome in the series! I love this show so much and love that's its so sweet and real.
Its probably the only show that I've watched more than 7 times now and still can't get enough.
Your reaction was so heartfelt, sweet and honest. Loved it and off course cried when you where happy and cried. Especially your line ‘I can’t believe I got to be what I never got to have.’ And ‘I have no tolerance for that anymore’. That’s what I’m feeling too and try to be that now by starting a Pride Network at work and doing stuff outside work for our lovely community. Keep up doing what your doing. You’re changing lives!
Words can't explain how proud of you I am Courtney! Your reaction is so cute, it makes me so happy that you were able to be apart of such an amazing show. My eyes well up with tears I'm just soooooo proud and I love you loads! You deserve the world and everything good in it. I'm glad you are able to use this platform to educate and help others with sexuality it means a lot to everyone.
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Aww thank you 😊
@@Courtney-Jai
You CAN be proud of you being on the show and how you helped a lot of people watching your video!!!