The fact that you were a major choice for the show makes me so happy. Also, the fact that your character was treated with respect when a lot of mainstream media would see Internet Personalities as superfluous and annoying when in fact, we derive knowledge and courage from many of them.
It was particularly interesting to hear the “deleted scenes” that didn’t make it into the show. I agree that it was a wise decision to tell your own story rather than the originally scripted one, and I’m very glad you were the choice to appear on “Heartstopper.”
seeing you in Heartstopper all of the sudden has been such a full circle moment for me as a bisexual guy and made me so happy that I started screaming in front of my screen as we have all been in Nick's place as queer people. Even though Heartstopper is exactly the type of support that I have needed during my own teenage years (and even today), watching the show has been extremely triggering to me cause it shows how my own life could have proceeded in an alternate, better world where queer people do not feel any "gay shame" or have to suffer from anxiety cause of homophobia and hatred :'( I know that life is a journey for sure as I am still trying to find my own place in this heteronormative world, but being confronted with how much time I have already lost to be my true self, makes me feel kinda sad and hopeful for a change at the same time.
I think Alice probably was drawn to you because not only have you advocated for the normalisation of bisexuality and provided content directed at younger people but you also have a softness and compassion in your delivery which fits the Heartstopper series. I know your channel and the show will help so many people. 💕
I know if I'd been a teenager accessing your content and heartstopper it would have seriously changed my experience. I've loved your reactions! It's refreshing to watch someone to connected to their feelings! 💓
There is a HUGE difference between speaking on RUclips or any media speaking TO people...and using a platform to SHARE yourself so intimately and authentically. Alice could see you weren't the best choice, but the ONLY choice because of that. Bravo!!!!! And congrats on getting the chance of a lifetime to help queer kids (and adults) in an important and already iconic series! ❤️❤️❤️🙌🙌🙌🙌
I WAS SHOCKED when i saw you in heartstopper. You're honestly a perfect fit for the role and I can't believe Alice handpicked you. It's just so awesome to see LGBT creators supporting and collaborating like this. You deserved this. Congratulations on the part!
I just wanted you to know that the first time I watched this scene I broke down sobbing. Growing up as a bisexual guy it took years and years for me to understand and accept myself. It was really hard for me for such a long period of my life and I really wish I had this when I was a kid. You say your role was small, but it was impactful to me. Thank you, you're appreciated!
I love this so much! Your story of kissing your best friend at 14 drew so many parallels between Nick and Charlie by showing Nick "what could be". You're just so perfect for the series!
Wow, this is wonderful to come across. I was watching your tv show reaction on another LGBTQ+ show (Swedish tv show Young Royals). I then noticed you looked oddly family and, was like, wow, you are the bisexual guy Nick watches to learn about being bisexual. It's so true that bisexual people are just bisexual and it's not a guessing game. Sometimes gay people just say they are bisexual but many are TRULY bisexual. It hurts me to think I am a 100% gay guy and long ago I thought maybe it was just some "excuse" to not say you are just gay (like Nick's very annoying brother David). But now I think how many straight people said I could not possibly be gay and was just "confused." It makes me sick to my stomach I never thought that. So, thanks for educating people about BEING bisexual. It's so awesome seeing how close our community can be at its best.
can't quite put into words why but I'll try: this video made me all warm and fuzzy. just knowing that you were Alice's first choice and that she allowed you to use your authentic story just makes that scene in episode 6 even better. there are many reasons why that episode is one of my favorites of the season and now I have another! you're an amazing human being. thank you for all that you do ❤️
Hello Courtney-Jai! I watched Heartstopper recently. When Nick watched the first video you made for the show, I had this feeling that I had seen a video of you somewhere many years ago. In fact, I realize that I’ve watched some of your early videos on coming out and myths about bisexuality when I was figuring stuff out, and then I lost track of you. Heartstopper was a chance for me to find you back and thank you for helping me back then, and for what you did since to help others (by the videos I see on your channel and the comments here). I believe the TV series give you visibility to help more people seeking guidance and answers. Even though the content you presented in the few-second clips was nothing new to me, the way you delivered it still struck me to the core. I’m glad you changed the script to make it more heartfelt and down-to-earth. I was glad that Nick found your messages when he needed it most, and so did the viewers. Thank you again so much and I wish you all the success you deserve!
Incredible video, Courtney. Thanks for sharing. Beyond chuffed you got to represent LGBT youtube as your content is incredible. So, so well deserved! ❤️🍂
Well done for being selected to help Nick on You Tube. It was a great contribution on this wonderful series. They wanted you because you are good at what you do and not how popular you are. Joe Locke was not a professional actor before Heartstopper. They saw his potential too and what an actor he has turned out to be. Good luck to you hope to see more of you in the future. Keep up the good work!
While it doesn't surprise me that Alice let you change the script to accommodate you, it's still amazing that she did that. It's hard to imagine any other directors/writers being willing to do this. Let alone have an actual content creator, play the role of a content creator! I'm sure I'm not alone in the fact that I found your channel through the show!
I feel very lucky the role was originally written for a women but aloce liked my videos so much she asked them to give me the role I didn't have to do an audition they just sent me a messaging asking if I wanted to be in the show
Thank you for this video. No matter small role you got or not. You helped Nick and helped thousands of people realise that they are bisexual. I'm glad that thank for this series I founded your channel, it's so comfort and nice place ❤️
Congrats again. This is like an amazing dream coming true. Heartstopper will be watched for years all over the world and you will always be part of it!! I am Pices too..
Glad you didn't go with the Dr. Who angle. The take they used in Heartstopper was more relatable and authentic. Don't know why I'm saying this again because you already know but *love* your Heartstopper content!
Hi there fellow Pisces 😄 I just want to tell you, you were so wonderful in Heartstopper! It really shone through that you were sharing your own story and I was very moved by that scene. So, even though I did actually have a massive crush on both David Tennant and Billie Piper/ Rose, I'm glad you got to change it. I didn't know anything about Heartstopper before watching the show a few days ago, so seeing Nick figuring out that he's bisexual came as a total surprise and made me feel absolutely overwhelmed with joy. He's such a lovely character, and I'm really really grateful for that representation! I'm also glad I found your channel through the show, what you're doing here is nothing short of amazing. 😊 💖💜💙
Aww thank you thats so sweet it was amazing to be apart of thr show and help with positive representation of bisexuality ❤️ so happy yout enjoying the channel to
Hey Courtney, you did an awesome job in the Heartstopper series, regardless of how long it was it was impactful, inspiring and encouraging, not only for the character Nick, but also anyone who is going on this journey. A job well done and Alice certainly knows how to select the actors. 👍
I can see why she chose you, because your so straight forward and honest and genuine.. I REALLY appreciate that.. So many queer people take on a facade to cover up their internalised shame, trying to look cool to cope with society's rejection, its so refreshing to see someone who just accepts themselves and genuinely wants to help people and uplift others.. That's why it worked in the story so well, because Nick and Charlie and the other characters are also genuine loving people just trying to be themselves in the world 😊✌️We need more stories like this 💖
Honestly this bit in the series meant so much, to see such an accurate portrayal of the particular confusion that is figuring out bisexuality. The absence of that "oh wow this was it all along", but instead the "this feels different but also not different and what am I??"
Great video - you do a good job of conveying just how/why your involvement with "Heartstopper" was so special for you. Your realization that you were bisexual was similar to my realization that I was gay - even if I didn't connect with any of the stereotypes. I was lucky to have people come into my life who encouraged me to follow my own path, which is something that you've done, too.
I didn't know you before I watched Heartstopper, but after I saw you on Heartstopper I watched almost every Video of you talking about beeing Bi and your other Videos as well. I really like your content and I can totally understand, why they think you are a good RUclipsr. If you still reading this, wow My funfact: I'm also pisces ♓
Definitely the right move them going with your authentic story, it shows in your eyes when you speak. To be honest, when I initially watched HS I assumed you were an actor playing a part. But then you posted on the Heartstopper Netflix FB group which led me to this channel. I really enjoy your videos, I'm so glad HS introduced you to me.
Thanks for the inside scoop! The scenes work so much better with your actual story than with the original script. I'm so glad they let you change it. It definitely helps add authenticity to show. Besides, we already get the "omg, both celebs are hot" scene with Nick anyway.
As someone who has appreciated youe content for a lot of years I absolutely have to say that Alice's words in her message to you were spot on perfect, So glad to see you get the recognition you deserve.Now if you only had a chance to sit down and chat with Kit and Joe as I;ve seen you do with Joey and Nathan. Speaking of Joey and Nathan, how abou a vidoe of the three of you discussing Heartstopper and its impact?
Cookie Monster! So we could be wrong, but maybe Alice picked you because she somehow knew you were the kind of guy who had the good sense to have Cookie Monster pajamas? I mean, we all know you have good sense. Just didn't know you were down with Cookie. Should have known. Amazing. 🍪
How cool that Alice had it narrowed down to just you! Thank you for sharing the behind the scenes info. I'm in love with Heartstopper and all things related. PS Your sense of humor is great. The ending: "But unfortunately it's kind of wasted time." 😂
Very good Courtney! Thank you for sharing your experience. I think this is great. I see how much it means to you. I remember the long hair too. This experience says a lot and the fact you were picked. Youkeep doing you and more great things come your way.
I remember my long hair phase and I have to deal with heat, humidity and curly hair AS WELL AS major shedding. However, you carried off long hair beautifully!
Congrats! Loved hearing how this all came about for you. I really enjoy this series. It’s such a great show with wonderful characters. And, go lucky Cookie Monster PJ bottoms! We love our comfy PJ’s! 😉 Stay safe! ✌🏻🙂✌🏻
Very glad you made that choice to answer the DM! Now I have more RUclips content backlog, but not mad at it 😅 thanks for sharing the behind-the-scenes and being yourself!
thank you for the work that you do and congratulations on the role!!! and thank you so so much, because that scene was the one that gave me the courage to come out to some of my friends while we were watching heartstopper together. i'd been wanting to tell them for weeks but i couldn't tell them about me being bi until that moment. and hey, the inside scoop in this video was really cool too!!! :)
I’m really glad that you could be there for Nick in the show because he really needed someone that could give him not all the answers but some also, how did it feel to have such incredible support from the show?
You mention in this video that your role was small. That couldn't be more wrong! It might have been short, but it was absolutely critical to the storyline. You are an integral part of Nick's journey to self-awareness and self-acceptance. Thank you for your contribution to this masterpiece. ❤️
Wow I love this story so much! you were perfect for the part! you have such a warm and genuine vibe around you that I could really feel how YOUR voice actually encouraged him and really gave him strength to allow to feel his own feelings and take them seriously! Its so cool so see you other takes too. The versions they picked had the perfect beat in terms of the rhythm and the message being really concise and you actually seeming the most authentic and heartfelt. eventhough these takes are all also really fun! And your idea to go with your own experience is obviously spot on! It really worked allot better and it was also really what Nick needed to hear because it really mirrored his feelings! And one could really feel that you were literally sitting in your comfort pants because you felt so comfortable in your own skin and in your bisexuality and that comfy feeling transferred directly to Nick! so the obstacle left for Nick really wasnt himself feeling comfortable about his sexuality but being able to deal with the outside expectations and possible negative reactions and shit which is a whole other story all together... so, well done man! I will remember the comfy pants trick! You rock!
i still recognize the light theory on heartstopper and it's happend to you too the yellow and blue light in the back when you vlogging for the show 😆😆😆
So friggen adorable! Cook monster PJs 🍪. Crazy how life can catch you by surprise like that! I crushed a little on Captain Jack…until it was made public of his behavior on set 😒. It’s funny how a little bit of info can change your entire view of a person. Anywho, can’t wait to see your reactions to the rest of the series of Heartstopper and enjoyed the tidbits/bts experience. Maybe they can write you into the next season as a cameo like Alice on the train 🤷♂️
I for one am glad you got the role. “Lucky cookie monster pjs”. Too funny. Thanx for this brief excursion into HS behind the scenes. You may remember that I am 73 y.o. Retiree just coming to terms with being bi-. One question: have you had a chance to meet or talk with Kit or Joe?
Oh you definitely picked the best version for the episode . . . or did they do that? Did you send them lots of versions and let them pick? I remember watching your videos a long time ago (you've been around for ages) and I thought the Heartstopper one was just a clip from one of your older ones but I looked back at your first coming out vid (9 years ago) and realised that, no, you've changed a bit since then. :)
Awww. I love Cookie Monster. I even have a Cookie Monster tattoo. I'm first generation Sesame Street (i.e., I was born in '67 and it aired i '69). In fact I had a good ol' sob last night after hearing Bob McGrath died. The emotional impact of it took me totally off guard. Anyway, my daughter had made a design she wanted to tattoo and asked "Who wants me to tattoo this on them" and I said Hell yeah! It's Cookie Monster in a lacy heart munching a chocolate chip cookie. I love it but I stupidly had it placed on my shoulder where I never get to see it. Thanks for this content! It was fun to see! Daughter who did tattoo is also a Pices---March 2,1990
It definitely was there actually about 4 or 5 other version but I felt like I had to give somthing to my patreons they literally ask for nothing so I wanted to do somthing nice for them
The framing, lighting, and overall look and feel of what you recorded for the show doesn't seem to match your other videos. Did they give you some sort of technical direction or specifications for what they wanted? If so, I'm curious about what those were. :)
Nope and you'll notice it looks like my older videos from about a year ago , I use my phone to record now in 4k where as I used my old camera for that video but the whole shot from start to finish including the script is all me. All I got from the studio was a script telling what was going to happen and dialogue they wrote what I changed to reflect myself
Wait wait wait. The story is true? Where can I find it? I wanted so much to know about your relationship with your best friend and was disappointed that it wasn't the cut of a longer video. Have you discussed it on your channel at all?
ooh I can see why they went for the Doctor Who at the beginning, because it mirrors the Pirates of the Caribbean scene when Nick realises he has a crush on both Keira Knightley and Orlando Bloom! I guess the original idea was that, ok Nick hears that from the RUclipsr, then he watches the movie and realises it has the same reaction. It would have made the reason for that scene clearer (as it is on the show, it is slightly random, although understandable). But I think the choice of going for the personal experience was the winning one, the Doctor Who one was a bit too artificial.
Yeah when I had the meeting with Alice she said I could rewrite my script to however I wanted it and I thought doctor who was great but wasn't authentic to me
I actually have no idea I only got to speak to Alice and the director , it was a pretty surreal experience. I actually thought at first it was a joke because I just received a random message on Instagram and they said they wanted to put into a video call with Alice. It wasn't till they both appeared on the call I knew it was actually real.
@@Courtney-Jai oh! well i am still so just proud of you. i know we don't know each other but i watched your videos for some time and learning you were on heartstopper was such a nice thing to find out! as a bisexual trans man your part meant so much to me
The fact that you were a major choice for the show makes me so happy. Also, the fact that your character was treated with respect when a lot of mainstream media would see Internet Personalities as superfluous and annoying when in fact, we derive knowledge and courage from many of them.
Its pretty amazing to be fair
I plan to get the reaction video to ep7 out later this week
stay tune 😆😆😆
It was particularly interesting to hear the “deleted scenes” that didn’t make it into the show. I agree that it was a wise decision to tell your own story rather than the originally scripted one, and I’m very glad you were the choice to appear on “Heartstopper.”
seeing you in Heartstopper all of the sudden has been such a full circle moment for me as a bisexual guy and made me so happy that I started screaming in front of my screen as we have all been in Nick's place as queer people. Even though Heartstopper is exactly the type of support that I have needed during my own teenage years (and even today), watching the show has been extremely triggering to me cause it shows how my own life could have proceeded in an alternate, better world where queer people do not feel any "gay shame" or have to suffer from anxiety cause of homophobia and hatred :'( I know that life is a journey for sure as I am still trying to find my own place in this heteronormative world, but being confronted with how much time I have already lost to be my true self, makes me feel kinda sad and hopeful for a change at the same time.
I think Alice probably was drawn to you because not only have you advocated for the normalisation of bisexuality and provided content directed at younger people but you also have a softness and compassion in your delivery which fits the Heartstopper series. I know your channel and the show will help so many people. 💕
I really hope so this beginning of somthing great
I know if I'd been a teenager accessing your content and heartstopper it would have seriously changed my experience. I've loved your reactions! It's refreshing to watch someone to connected to their feelings! 💓
There is a HUGE difference between speaking on RUclips or any media speaking TO people...and using a platform to SHARE yourself so intimately and authentically. Alice could see you weren't the best choice, but the ONLY choice because of that. Bravo!!!!! And congrats on getting the chance of a lifetime to help queer kids (and adults) in an important and already iconic series! ❤️❤️❤️🙌🙌🙌🙌
There you go... 🙏❤️
I WAS SHOCKED when i saw you in heartstopper. You're honestly a perfect fit for the role and I can't believe Alice handpicked you. It's just so awesome to see LGBT creators supporting and collaborating like this. You deserved this. Congratulations on the part!
Thank you it was amazing to be apart of somthing so unique and beautiful
I just wanted you to know that the first time I watched this scene I broke down sobbing. Growing up as a bisexual guy it took years and years for me to understand and accept myself. It was really hard for me for such a long period of my life and I really wish I had this when I was a kid. You say your role was small, but it was impactful to me. Thank you, you're appreciated!
@jameskeenan201 I really appreciate your kind words and I also feel the exact same way ❤️
I'm so happy Alice picked you herself and that you were given this HUGE opportunity. Seeing the original script was so cool too! Great job
I love this so much! Your story of kissing your best friend at 14 drew so many parallels between Nick and Charlie by showing Nick "what could be". You're just so perfect for the series!
Thank you thats so sweet of you to say
Wow, this is wonderful to come across. I was watching your tv show reaction on another LGBTQ+ show (Swedish tv show Young Royals). I then noticed you looked oddly family and, was like, wow, you are the bisexual guy Nick watches to learn about being bisexual. It's so true that bisexual people are just bisexual and it's not a guessing game. Sometimes gay people just say they are bisexual but many are TRULY bisexual. It hurts me to think I am a 100% gay guy and long ago I thought maybe it was just some "excuse" to not say you are just gay (like Nick's very annoying brother David). But now I think how many straight people said I could not possibly be gay and was just "confused." It makes me sick to my stomach I never thought that. So, thanks for educating people about BEING bisexual. It's so awesome seeing how close our community can be at its best.
can't quite put into words why but I'll try: this video made me all warm and fuzzy. just knowing that you were Alice's first choice and that she allowed you to use your authentic story just makes that scene in episode 6 even better. there are many reasons why that episode is one of my favorites of the season and now I have another! you're an amazing human being. thank you for all that you do ❤️
Aww thank you yeah I even did takes like in the original script but just didn't feel right
Hello Courtney-Jai!
I watched Heartstopper recently. When Nick watched the first video you made for the show, I had this feeling that I had seen a video of you somewhere many years ago. In fact, I realize that I’ve watched some of your early videos on coming out and myths about bisexuality when I was figuring stuff out, and then I lost track of you. Heartstopper was a chance for me to find you back and thank you for helping me back then, and for what you did since to help others (by the videos I see on your channel and the comments here). I believe the TV series give you visibility to help more people seeking guidance and answers.
Even though the content you presented in the few-second clips was nothing new to me, the way you delivered it still struck me to the core. I’m glad you changed the script to make it more heartfelt and down-to-earth. I was glad that Nick found your messages when he needed it most, and so did the viewers.
Thank you again so much and I wish you all the success you deserve!
Incredible video, Courtney. Thanks for sharing. Beyond chuffed you got to represent LGBT youtube as your content is incredible. So, so well deserved! ❤️🍂
Me to its this awesome thing that I get to say I was apart of
Well done for being selected to help Nick on You Tube. It was a great contribution on this wonderful series. They wanted you because you are good at what you do and not how popular you are. Joe Locke was not a professional actor before Heartstopper. They saw his potential too and what an actor he has turned out to be. Good luck to you hope to see more of you in the future. Keep up the good work!
While it doesn't surprise me that Alice let you change the script to accommodate you, it's still amazing that she did that. It's hard to imagine any other directors/writers being willing to do this. Let alone have an actual content creator, play the role of a content creator! I'm sure I'm not alone in the fact that I found your channel through the show!
I feel very lucky the role was originally written for a women but aloce liked my videos so much she asked them to give me the role I didn't have to do an audition they just sent me a messaging asking if I wanted to be in the show
@@Courtney-Jai I really enjoyed your scenes and I am also loving your content and I am excited to see your thoughts on future seasons.
Amazing that you were the ONLY one she wanted for the role. That is major major kudos. BTW Love the new hairstyle.
Thank you for this video. No matter small role you got or not. You helped Nick and helped thousands of people realise that they are bisexual. I'm glad that thank for this series I founded your channel, it's so comfort and nice place ❤️
This is such a lovely comment thank you so much
Congrats again. This is like an amazing dream coming true. Heartstopper will be watched for years all over the world and you will always be part of it!! I am Pices too..
That is a seriously cool thought aswell
Glad you didn't go with the Dr. Who angle. The take they used in Heartstopper was more relatable and authentic. Don't know why I'm saying this again because you already know but *love* your Heartstopper content!
awwwww i'm so happy to hear how you got the role and the full script!! I'm so happy for you and for all the people that you've helped :")
Hi there fellow Pisces 😄
I just want to tell you, you were so wonderful in Heartstopper! It really shone through that you were sharing your own story and I was very moved by that scene. So, even though I did actually have a massive crush on both David Tennant and Billie Piper/ Rose, I'm glad you got to change it.
I didn't know anything about Heartstopper before watching the show a few days ago, so seeing Nick figuring out that he's bisexual came as a total surprise and made me feel absolutely overwhelmed with joy. He's such a lovely character, and I'm really really grateful for that representation!
I'm also glad I found your channel through the show, what you're doing here is nothing short of amazing. 😊 💖💜💙
Aww thank you thats so sweet it was amazing to be apart of thr show and help with positive representation of bisexuality ❤️ so happy yout enjoying the channel to
Not only are your videos changing people's real lives but also TV characters lives 🙌
Hey Courtney, you did an awesome job in the Heartstopper series, regardless of how long it was it was impactful, inspiring and encouraging, not only for the character Nick, but also anyone who is going on this journey. A job well done and Alice certainly knows how to select the actors. 👍
Thank you thats so kind of you to say
Moral of the story: COOKIE MONSTER PYJAMAS help you get a Netflix Show. I’m getting one soon lol
I can see why she chose you, because your so straight forward and honest and genuine.. I REALLY appreciate that.. So many queer people take on a facade to cover up their internalised shame, trying to look cool to cope with society's rejection, its so refreshing to see someone who just accepts themselves and genuinely wants to help people and uplift others.. That's why it worked in the story so well, because Nick and Charlie and the other characters are also genuine loving people just trying to be themselves in the world 😊✌️We need more stories like this 💖
I always thought what if I could just change 1 persons life today , because I never wanted anyone to feel like me
Alice knew that you would be the best Sherpa for Nick! And you did! 🥰🥰 Thank you for this BTS video. I love it! 😍😍
the blue and yellow lighting is perfect, as well! thank you for sharing :)
The blue and yellow lighting was actually and accident as I wasn't told how to film the scene just a very cool coincidence.
Honestly this bit in the series meant so much, to see such an accurate portrayal of the particular confusion that is figuring out bisexuality. The absence of that "oh wow this was it all along", but instead the "this feels different but also not different and what am I??"
Well I'm glad I could show that I tried to keep authentic to how I actually felt
Great video - you do a good job of conveying just how/why your involvement with "Heartstopper" was so special for you. Your realization that you were bisexual was similar to my realization that I was gay - even if I didn't connect with any of the stereotypes. I was lucky to have people come into my life who encouraged me to follow my own path, which is something that you've done, too.
I didn't know you before I watched Heartstopper, but after I saw you on Heartstopper I watched almost every Video of you talking about beeing Bi and your other Videos as well. I really like your content and I can totally understand, why they think you are a good RUclipsr.
If you still reading this, wow
My funfact: I'm also pisces ♓
Haha Pisces unite lol
Your commentary has been insightful and wonderful to watch. Can't wait to see the next video! Your new haircut is totally adorable. :)
I'm loving the new look too! But I've enjoyed all your "hairdos" 😀
Definitely the right move them going with your authentic story, it shows in your eyes when you speak. To be honest, when I initially watched HS I assumed you were an actor playing a part. But then you posted on the Heartstopper Netflix FB group which led me to this channel. I really enjoy your videos, I'm so glad HS introduced you to me.
Thanks for the inside scoop! The scenes work so much better with your actual story than with the original script. I'm so glad they let you change it. It definitely helps add authenticity to show. Besides, we already get the "omg, both celebs are hot" scene with Nick anyway.
Great video. So glad you were Alice’s choice. They made a good one. ☺️
As someone who has appreciated youe content for a lot of years I absolutely have to say that Alice's words in her message to you were spot on perfect, So glad to see you get the recognition you deserve.Now if you only had a chance to sit down and chat with Kit and Joe as I;ve seen you do with Joey and Nathan. Speaking of Joey and Nathan, how abou a vidoe of the three of you discussing Heartstopper and its impact?
Cookie Monster! So we could be wrong, but maybe Alice picked you because she somehow knew you were the kind of guy who had the good sense to have Cookie Monster pajamas? I mean, we all know you have good sense. Just didn't know you were down with Cookie. Should have known. Amazing. 🍪
Haha maybe funny enough I have shown them off in a video before maybe that's the one she watched lol
How cool that Alice had it narrowed down to just you! Thank you for sharing the behind the scenes info. I'm in love with Heartstopper and all things related.
PS Your sense of humor is great. The ending: "But unfortunately it's kind of wasted time." 😂
Binged it over 2 nights and properly got hooked, was so buzzed to see you on screen, congratulations man so proud 😊👌
Thank you 😊 it's such a great show
Very good Courtney! Thank you for sharing your experience. I think this is great. I see how much it means to you. I remember the long hair too. This experience says a lot and the fact you were picked. Youkeep doing you and more great things come your way.
I remember my long hair phase and I have to deal with heat, humidity and curly hair AS WELL AS major shedding. However, you carried off long hair beautifully!
So cool hearing your behind the scenes story! Thanks for sharing your other takes!
Congrats! Loved hearing how this all came about for you. I really enjoy this series. It’s such a great show with wonderful characters.
And, go lucky Cookie Monster PJ bottoms! We love our comfy PJ’s! 😉 Stay safe!
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Very glad you made that choice to answer the DM! Now I have more RUclips content backlog, but not mad at it 😅 thanks for sharing the behind-the-scenes and being yourself!
No problem and yeah it crazy If I never responded to it this would have never happened
thank you for the work that you do and congratulations on the role!!! and thank you so so much, because that scene was the one that gave me the courage to come out to some of my friends while we were watching heartstopper together. i'd been wanting to tell them for weeks but i couldn't tell them about me being bi until that moment. and hey, the inside scoop in this video was really cool too!!! :)
Thats amazing congratulations on coming thats massive thing to do you should be very proud
I’m really glad that you could be there for Nick in the show because he really needed someone that could give him not all the answers but some also, how did it feel to have such incredible support from the show?
@sofiavitale9399 I had alot of nice messages and it helped alot of people which means everthing to me
The role fit you perfectly and thank you for making it so authentic🫶🏻
Congrats. I’m so happy Alice picked you for this show. So proud of you. Bro ❤️
Thanks gopi it's because of people like you being here and supporting me on every video this happened so you played a big part in that
Congratulations! Knowing how it all came about makes it even more special. Enjoy your success!
You mention in this video that your role was small. That couldn't be more wrong! It might have been short, but it was absolutely critical to the storyline. You are an integral part of Nick's journey to self-awareness and self-acceptance. Thank you for your contribution to this masterpiece. ❤️
Well that's super nice of you to say I really enjoyed being apart of the show
Aw, what an amazing story! Love that you were Alice's only choice ❤
you have a very natural presence on film, both in the series and in your video. Good job
Wow I love this story so much! you were perfect for the part! you have such a warm and genuine vibe around you that I could really feel how YOUR voice actually encouraged him and really gave him strength to allow to feel his own feelings and take them seriously! Its so cool so see you other takes too. The versions they picked had the perfect beat in terms of the rhythm and the message being really concise and you actually seeming the most authentic and heartfelt. eventhough these takes are all also really fun! And your idea to go with your own experience is obviously spot on! It really worked allot better and it was also really what Nick needed to hear because it really mirrored his feelings! And one could really feel that you were literally sitting in your comfort pants because you felt so comfortable in your own skin and in your bisexuality and that comfy feeling transferred directly to Nick! so the obstacle left for Nick really wasnt himself feeling comfortable about his sexuality but being able to deal with the outside expectations and possible negative reactions and shit which is a whole other story all together... so, well done man! I will remember the comfy pants trick! You rock!
i still recognize the light theory on heartstopper and it's happend to you too the yellow and blue light in the back when you vlogging for the show 😆😆😆
Its actually a complete accident with my videos I wasn't told how to film my videos I just picked those colours because they're complimentary
@@Courtney-Jai but that's completely correct, those colors remind charlie is yellow and nick is blue, how awesome 😆😆😆
❤️❤️❤️ from Minnesota!
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I'm a big Heartstopper fan, and now a big fan of you! Cheers from another Pisces. 😁
Thats awesome
You did a great job, love! It was excellent and how fantastic that Alice herself chose you! I love that! (I'm an Aquarius!)
Thank you for this. Keep up the good work man. x
So friggen adorable! Cook monster PJs 🍪. Crazy how life can catch you by surprise like that! I crushed a little on Captain Jack…until it was made public of his behavior on set 😒. It’s funny how a little bit of info can change your entire view of a person. Anywho, can’t wait to see your reactions to the rest of the series of Heartstopper and enjoyed the tidbits/bts experience. Maybe they can write you into the next season as a cameo like Alice on the train 🤷♂️
Thank you for watching my videos without you guys doing that I would have never had the chance
So excited, it starts as soon as I get home from work 😆😆
I for one am glad you got the role. “Lucky cookie monster pjs”. Too funny. Thanx for this brief excursion into HS behind the scenes. You may remember that I am 73 y.o. Retiree just coming to terms with being bi-. One question: have you had a chance to meet or talk with Kit or Joe?
Sadly not but I got to speak with the director and Alice which was lovely
Oh you definitely picked the best version for the episode . . . or did they do that? Did you send them lots of versions and let them pick? I remember watching your videos a long time ago (you've been around for ages) and I thought the Heartstopper one was just a clip from one of your older ones but I looked back at your first coming out vid (9 years ago) and realised that, no, you've changed a bit since then. :)
Yeah actually if you want to watch them they are on my patreon , you said you were a memeber so there's about 8 different versions I believe
Awww. I love Cookie Monster. I even have a Cookie Monster tattoo. I'm first generation Sesame Street (i.e., I was born in '67 and it aired i '69). In fact I had a good ol' sob last night after hearing Bob McGrath died. The emotional impact of it took me totally off guard. Anyway, my daughter had made a design she wanted to tattoo and asked "Who wants me to tattoo this on them" and I said Hell yeah! It's Cookie Monster in a lacy heart munching a chocolate chip cookie. I love it but I stupidly had it placed on my shoulder where I never get to see it.
Thanks for this content! It was fun to see! Daughter who did tattoo is also a Pices---March 2,1990
We’ve been waiting for the BTS for quite a while. Finally, the wait is over!
Such a cute story with the cookie monster pjs.
i'm soooooooo proud of you!
So proud of you 🥺❤️
loved that its so amazing how you got the role.
Ohhh, this made me cry some happy tears 🥲🤩🥰
I love the other sence but I feel like the sence that was in the show was the most authentic and personal
It definitely was there actually about 4 or 5 other version but I felt like I had to give somthing to my patreons they literally ask for nothing so I wanted to do somthing nice for them
@@Courtney-Jai I just honnestly love that ur in it. Like I said I screamed when I saw u
The framing, lighting, and overall look and feel of what you recorded for the show doesn't seem to match your other videos. Did they give you some sort of technical direction or specifications for what they wanted? If so, I'm curious about what those were. :)
Nope and you'll notice it looks like my older videos from about a year ago , I use my phone to record now in 4k where as I used my old camera for that video but the whole shot from start to finish including the script is all me. All I got from the studio was a script telling what was going to happen and dialogue they wrote what I changed to reflect myself
@@Courtney-Jai good to know! ♥️
Courtney Jai jokingly throwing a tantrum is ✨truly icon behaviour✨
So lovely and so great. You’re awesome!!!!!❤️❤️🥰🥰
Aww thanks your awesome to
Did they send you the yellow and blue background lights or was that just a happy color coincidence?
Happy coincidence all they sent me was a script that I basically rewrote
Thanks for sharing your story with the world 🌎 ❤️
Thank you for helping by watching ❤️
Your cut your hair, awesome. Love it
Yeah I got bored of long hair required to much effort for not much pay off
Great video Courtney jai
Kit Connor is also a Pisces. I was born on the Ides of March.
Wait wait wait. The story is true? Where can I find it?
I wanted so much to know about your relationship with your best friend and was disappointed that it wasn't the cut of a longer video.
Have you discussed it on your channel at all?
Yep it's called the first boy , my first heartbreak
Are you going to do reactions to episode 7 & 8?
did you got some alice's drawing on your original script ? I've heard she made some on the scripts
Not on mine as mine was sent digitally
I dig the new hairdo
Thank you long hair was getting to hard to control
Courtney…Epic! What an opportunity.
What an awesome opportunity!!!
It was very cool to be apart of
If you don't mind sharing, did they pay you for that role or was it volunteer?
ooh I can see why they went for the Doctor Who at the beginning, because it mirrors the Pirates of the Caribbean scene when Nick realises he has a crush on both Keira Knightley and Orlando Bloom! I guess the original idea was that, ok Nick hears that from the RUclipsr, then he watches the movie and realises it has the same reaction. It would have made the reason for that scene clearer (as it is on the show, it is slightly random, although understandable).
But I think the choice of going for the personal experience was the winning one, the Doctor Who one was a bit too artificial.
Yeah when I had the meeting with Alice she said I could rewrite my script to however I wanted it and I thought doctor who was great but wasn't authentic to me
Haha I'm a pisces too
Love this video! its so cool to be able to see the process!! thank you sm for showing us all!!!
No problem I'm really happy everyone liked it
@@Courtney-Jai It was awesome!!
I like you with short but you with long hair hits different 🔥
You having a crush to your bestfriend making you have a bisexual awakening making me feel like im aro-ace 💀
I haven't felt any crushes but i also feel the same for guys and girls
I'm a Pisces too. Cool
I'm also a pisces 😂
Thats brilliant
I lowkey miss your long hair haha
Sometimes I do sometimes I don't its very hard to look after
oh my god i finally found you!
Here I am and there's lots to watch here so enjoy
#PiscesUNITE 😂❤️🧡💛💚💙💜
Fellow Pisces love ❤️
STOPPP. from the beginning alice wanted you.
I actually have no idea I only got to speak to Alice and the director , it was a pretty surreal experience. I actually thought at first it was a joke because I just received a random message on Instagram and they said they wanted to put into a video call with Alice. It wasn't till they both appeared on the call I knew it was actually real.
@@Courtney-Jai oh! well i am still so just proud of you. i know we don't know each other but i watched your videos for some time and learning you were on heartstopper was such a nice thing to find out! as a bisexual trans man your part meant so much to me
Thx ❤
Congrats on the opportunity.
I love you ❤️
Long hair is great but I gotta say after your hair cut and weight loss you look hotter 😍
Thank you
Thanks!