a long time ago, i was happy

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  • Опубликовано: 30 сен 2024
  • i was building happy memories without knowing it.
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  • @imamonster.
    @imamonster.  5 месяцев назад +792

    Wow, seriously, wow
    i never thought any of my songs would reach so many people. There are so many stories, so many experiences, so many situations
    i have nothing more to say to you than thank you very much
    whatever situation you are going through, keep going, you will make it, I believe in you

    • @quasar7140
      @quasar7140 5 месяцев назад +18

      thanks

    • @yungdrab
      @yungdrab 4 месяца назад +12

      Thank you. For everything ❤

    • @pragyashukla5414
      @pragyashukla5414 4 месяца назад +11

      You are not ghost anymore.love you from asia

    • @caiquealmeida3625
      @caiquealmeida3625 4 месяца назад +9

      sim eu também creio que vou conseguir em nome de Jesus 🇧🇷🙋🏽‍♂️, ♥️

    • @억장이문어찜-u7g
      @억장이문어찜-u7g 4 месяца назад +9

      1시간짜리로 만들어주세요.

  • @YUXK7
    @YUXK7 3 месяца назад +417

    "learn to forgive, not because they deserve it. But you deserve peace"

    • @grakatacc
      @grakatacc 3 месяца назад +12

      thank you

    • @YUXK7
      @YUXK7 3 месяца назад +4

      @@grakatacc any time

    • @jamalcharif7150
      @jamalcharif7150 2 месяца назад +5

      True i experienced this recently especialy family

    • @sirmultiverse5896
      @sirmultiverse5896 Месяц назад

      I don't deserve anything, nor should they

    • @miasofia24
      @miasofia24 Месяц назад +3

      this is very inspirational, as I needed to hear this!

  • @Soul_ship108
    @Soul_ship108 3 месяца назад +7

    We were happy but people destroyed in the worst way .....

  • @rockydavis94
    @rockydavis94 2 месяца назад +1

    So was I.
    Ever since I left school and college, it’s been hard. Ever since ‘18, I’ve had anxiety and depression which worsened after grandad died and COVID cost me friends

  • @Akito00305
    @Akito00305 4 месяца назад +3

    I want to go home

  • @James-ec2cg
    @James-ec2cg Месяц назад

    brother's n sister's my soul n spirit has grown cold to dark to see the light a life of quiet desperation is mine

  • @thegerblinradio
    @thegerblinradio 3 месяца назад +2

    RUclips isn’t letting me like the video, but this is that good shit
    EDIT: IT LET ME LIKE IT. WOOOOOOO

  • @riyankhan1741
    @riyankhan1741 20 дней назад +2

    I will comment on the video again when something Good happens in my life 😔,
    Now I am go to sleep.
    Hope for Tomorrow, Today 11 Sep/2024, 3:25 AM,

  • @Enativ_
    @Enativ_ 4 месяца назад +258

    Someone else here also feeling like there is just no point?
    It's just one big hollow

    • @imamonster.
      @imamonster.  4 месяца назад +34

      that's me

    • @Enativ_
      @Enativ_ 4 месяца назад +38

      At least we have music left. Right? :)

    • @imamonster.
      @imamonster.  4 месяца назад +38

      @@Enativ_ yes, a safe haven from the world

    • @YuainLucky
      @YuainLucky 3 месяца назад +10

      You and me both...

    • @abrarhamim4491
      @abrarhamim4491 3 месяца назад +7

      I used to feel like that too. I felt it was all a lie. But that ain't true. Always remember, bad days do not last. Believe in God and yourself. You'll get through this and you'll get even more than what you had in your past. More good things. It's coming your way soon.

  • @ethanschannel
    @ethanschannel 4 месяца назад +558

    When we were young, our world was bright, colorful, and vibrant with life. Our innocence untainted by the true horrors of this world. As we grow older, our perspective starts to change. The world we see becomes a dark faded gray. Our innocence exposed to the true cruelty of society. We lose the happiness that we once had, and we yearn for it back.

    • @aondeestaminhamente
      @aondeestaminhamente 4 месяца назад +23

      Is true

    • @Lonely.King31
      @Lonely.King31 4 месяца назад +35

      Knowladge is the way of sadness, more you see the truth, more sad you become

    • @krollflsp4868
      @krollflsp4868 4 месяца назад +12

      @@Lonely.King31 yep

    • @winsygalon8774
      @winsygalon8774 3 месяца назад +5

      There’s always a side effects

    • @winsygalon8774
      @winsygalon8774 3 месяца назад +9

      Knowledge the more you know the more you become insane
      Curiosity the more you are curious the more you realize the true meaning of a thing
      Truth the more you hear it the more you get sadder as you know truth hurts you but it will not remain like guilt did
      Immortality the more you live longer the more you feel lonelier

  • @CeNts2500
    @CeNts2500 4 месяца назад +858

    I’ve become nobody, a body with no purpose, a mind with no ambition, I just want to feel ok, to not be in pain.

    • @MrBusch90
      @MrBusch90 3 месяца назад +38

      In some cases, it's better to feel pain, just to start feeling again.

    • @i-steal-videos5337
      @i-steal-videos5337 3 месяца назад +11

      I feel the same way...

    • @thehammer3365
      @thehammer3365 3 месяца назад +12

      Seek out God, and our savior Jesus Christ, he will help you find purpose and will relieve your pain. I know he has certainly done so for me

    • @onlyKobo
      @onlyKobo 3 месяца назад +6

      I feel ya.......unfortunately...

    • @Titan_Main_D2
      @Titan_Main_D2 3 месяца назад +33

      Same here, mate. It's almost like... drowning in an invisible ocean, if I had to describe it. Except it's taking us slowly - over years and years. The creeping apathy, the unrelenting sorrow, and how hollow everything starts to feel combine into this maelstrom whittling down the castles that form our psyche until it's in ruins. Sometimes it feels like all I can do is look at the broken walls and remember what was; look at the shattered foundations, and wonder about what could have been built.
      I just hope it's possible for us to make it out, you know? All of us. Every single person who sees this, every single person who's ever felt this. We're down, sure... but not out. Not yet.

  • @IshyVideos
    @IshyVideos 4 месяца назад +1410

    What I've come to learn from 36 yrs of mediocrity is the closest thing to selfless love you will experience is from your parents. Appreciate it while you have it, and know it's okay if you didnt.

    • @LegacyofRei
      @LegacyofRei 4 месяца назад +18

      Preach

    • @aidaomar9764
      @aidaomar9764 4 месяца назад +12

      Oh damn

    • @ВладимирИгнатьев-х4ж
      @ВладимирИгнатьев-х4ж 4 месяца назад +43

      Will there be nothing better than the love of parents? Well, it looks like I'm in trouble XD

    • @Qhari-vj7yp
      @Qhari-vj7yp 4 месяца назад +38

      ​@@ВладимирИгнатьев-х4ж It's all about lucky sometimes.
      If you're lucky you would experience selfless love in one point of your life, if you aren't lucky you probably gonna have a though life like many other ppl

    • @techno_viking2609
      @techno_viking2609 4 месяца назад +2

      What about those who never haved loving parents? Are they just fucked? I think there are plenty of love out there, just gotta find it.
      On the otherhand what troubles me is the system,govermant,housing,job, finding good ppl is not as hard or daunting as taking on the whole rigged system.

  • @Acacius1992
    @Acacius1992 5 месяцев назад +490

    A long time ago i was happpy....
    Then i realised how much of a cold and cruel place the world is...

    • @konohoshi
      @konohoshi 4 месяца назад +13

      real

    • @deadokami-rt8zp
      @deadokami-rt8zp 4 месяца назад +15

      I know man I wish things were defrent now it's all gone never to return

    • @LilGrims20
      @LilGrims20 3 месяца назад +7

      Yea it is😢

    • @ПавелНовиков-в9с
      @ПавелНовиков-в9с 3 месяца назад +6

      Я согласен с тобой братан ...

    • @ilikeflour
      @ilikeflour 3 месяца назад +3

      the rise of the broken sigma ahh

  • @ZetaUrsaeMajoris
    @ZetaUrsaeMajoris 5 месяцев назад +215

    Never had that. Even with friends, I was alone, I was never really connected with the community. I was always, and still am a loner. I don't remember a time where I was happy

    • @Qryz.
      @Qryz. 4 месяца назад +11

      Damn that hit hard 😢

    • @Fuckhead5404
      @Fuckhead5404 4 месяца назад +1

      Me either tbh man I’m sorry

    • @LegacyofRei
      @LegacyofRei 4 месяца назад +12

      At least I’m not alone

    • @LegacyofRei
      @LegacyofRei 4 месяца назад +18

      But know this, I think a person like you is undeserving of the sadness you feel. I’d say in my eyes some of the best people I have ever heard of were loners. I grew into my darkness and my darkness grew onto me making the only friend I will ever need…maybe you’re just better than the common crowd society forces you to engage in. My friend, you are in a position few can even bother to reach and personally you’re cool in my book. :)

    • @Yosi7x
      @Yosi7x 4 месяца назад +4

      Aku juga sama

  • @anthonyshorter3666
    @anthonyshorter3666 3 месяца назад +93

    It really sucks waking up every day/night having no purpose or anybody in life

    • @DeAd4RiSer
      @DeAd4RiSer 2 месяца назад +5

      Then have a purpose brother.

    • @DeAd4RiSer
      @DeAd4RiSer 2 месяца назад +5

      U don't need nobody

    • @mileab6725
      @mileab6725 Месяц назад +1

      You ok bro?

    • @justicer14
      @justicer14 Месяц назад +1

      Bro I'm here don't do anything crazy

    • @anthonyshorter3666
      @anthonyshorter3666 Месяц назад +1

      @DeAd4RiSer I'm trying but👍 man it's rough

  • @GrievousDie
    @GrievousDie 4 месяца назад +271

    -you have friends? -of course, hundreds of them are next to me -but there's no one here
    -Yes I know...

  • @uchihaobito8179
    @uchihaobito8179 3 месяца назад +68

    You will never know importance of light untill you fell into darkness

  • @cherrera6872
    @cherrera6872 3 месяца назад +88

    Honestly reading all this comments makes me feel better knowing that I’m not the only one that’s in this dark place and at the same time I feel like we will all be better at the end

    • @worldmatters7384
      @worldmatters7384 3 месяца назад +4

      Yes we will be ok ....
      Someday 🥹

    • @Nucleus-d5h
      @Nucleus-d5h 3 месяца назад

      ​@@worldmatters7384idk why you guys are lonely because I always try to make friends talk to almost everyone and try to befriend them probably because I don't want people to feel isolated alone and sad as I've experienced the same before

    • @Nucleus-d5h
      @Nucleus-d5h 3 месяца назад

      ​@@worldmatters7384 I hope you find your true happiness mine is illustration drawings

    • @mr_koko2070
      @mr_koko2070 3 месяца назад +6

      For me, it's quite saddening.

    • @chriss-wz9no
      @chriss-wz9no 3 месяца назад +1

      Honestly I've lost faith that I'll be ok

  • @rumplprcann
    @rumplprcann 3 месяца назад +50

    Miss the days i was living life, now I'm just surviving, empty case walking on this cruel, desperate world, full of hatered, pain and selfishness. If you show emotions nowadays you are looked as a weak human being.

    • @alyssamarshall
      @alyssamarshall 6 дней назад

      I understand that feeling, I hope you can find peace one day, and I'm sure you will

  • @AnonityHandle
    @AnonityHandle 3 месяца назад +152

    A dream of an introvert is not complete isolation.
    It's getting comfortable enough to socialize properly again.

    • @sirmeowsalot1099
      @sirmeowsalot1099 3 месяца назад +4

      One day that dream will come true. I'm sure of it.

    • @Zoro67555
      @Zoro67555 2 месяца назад +1

      Us bro😢 india🇮🇳

  • @kumaransh2830
    @kumaransh2830 3 месяца назад +41

    As kid:wanting to grow up and explore the world around us
    As adult:wanting to go back to the old world ,not ever knowing about the outside world

    • @MauricioTheAmazing
      @MauricioTheAmazing День назад

      You will be alright. Times may be harder as an adult, but that's just a part of living that we have to experience In order to appreciate the good moments In life. Be yourself & find people you can trust enough to go with on your journey on this walk of life as you are not alone on this journey ♥♥♥🥰.

  • @Bullboy_Adventures
    @Bullboy_Adventures 3 месяца назад +48

    You don't miss the "good old days". You miss the days when you were happy

  • @dogge521
    @dogge521 5 месяцев назад +100

    why is it sooo true i used to be happy and now im unhappy these years cant even find something to make me happy and just feeling nothing

    • @Thatguy-kf9yi
      @Thatguy-kf9yi 5 месяцев назад +3

      Theirs always the ONE thing that will bring the happiness back though.

    • @stepgus8135
      @stepgus8135 5 месяцев назад +7

      I believe its Jesus ! Life cant bring joy and hapiness, all is meaningless and leave a void in the Heart. This music is beautiful by the way

    • @dogge521
      @dogge521 5 месяцев назад +2

      @@stepgus8135 i know jesus can make me happy i am orthodox so yeah

    • @Thatguy-kf9yi
      @Thatguy-kf9yi 5 месяцев назад +2

      @@stepgus8135 Facts

    • @wendellthompson4634
      @wendellthompson4634 4 месяца назад +6

      This is why parents say enjoy your childhood, once it’s over life gets dull

  • @mhm6214
    @mhm6214 4 месяца назад +43

    A long time ago, I was happy..
    Then I decided to think and watch the world closer, now I wish I didn't

  • @Genjutsu238
    @Genjutsu238 4 месяца назад +116

    In the past, everything was natural, now when we go out there is no one to talk to, they have phones in their hands, social media and playing games.

    • @fistedmelon2787
      @fistedmelon2787 3 месяца назад +12

      I'm only seventeen and boy was I disappointed with high school. People talked and formed clicks just like they did when my dad was a teenager but I can't help but think that the spark they had experienced was snuffed out with technology. Although it's hard to say since I never experienced it, but I'd say most adults are more talkative then kids these days simply because walking up to someone on the street and starting conversations was at one point normal and now people just run away from genuine social interaction.

    • @Nucleus-d5h
      @Nucleus-d5h 3 месяца назад +5

      I think the same before now I tried using technology to try socialize with others I started playing games with my friends and I really enjoyed it compared to playing alone but everything just isn't the same after pandemic

  • @carloscassiano2791
    @carloscassiano2791 4 месяца назад +54

    Miss the time when I didn't know that the world was the world and I had no worries.
    I was happy in simplicity of my mediocre existence

  • @godzillaraiden4203
    @godzillaraiden4203 Месяц назад +13

    Hey you reading and scrolling through the comments. Everything is gonna be ok, You're not alone. I know what you've been through and it must have been hurtful. But just to let you know Everything is going to be ok. Don't think too much about the bad stuff, Think about the good, The positives. It will make you feel better

    • @ordinal-scrapz
      @ordinal-scrapz 25 дней назад +2

      I doubt that will happen but thanks

  • @AnyoneRandom-mz1xs
    @AnyoneRandom-mz1xs 3 месяца назад +45

    When I was little, I adored my friends. I would do anything for them but they didn't care for me. Whenever a team is picked, I'm the last one. Whenever I'm sitting with a friend, she would say "Can you let x sit here?" Initially, I would just brush it off. But after years of this, I finally realized this hard fact: no one is my friend. I dread every second I have to spend at school. They would make fun of me and humiliate me in front of everyone that hurt me so so much. It's worse. I liked it better when I was deluded and a kid. It was so much more bearable.

    • @imamonster.
      @imamonster.  3 месяца назад +9

      As children we always have some hope in any situation, even fooling ourselves into thinking that things will get better.
      Let me tell you i'm here for you

    • @LeviV-mh5lb
      @LeviV-mh5lb 3 месяца назад +2

      😊

  • @markajijelek5543
    @markajijelek5543 3 месяца назад +68

    The longer you live the more you realize that this world is filled with nothing but pain and futility

    • @Astro-y3b
      @Astro-y3b 2 месяца назад +4

      Wake up to reality..

    • @consciousEye-v5l
      @consciousEye-v5l Месяц назад

      Berserk reference 😊

    • @Lea_1762
      @Lea_1762 Месяц назад +1

      People will think is not true but its true tho ngl but we still have the moments that we will have fun but it will never last long .......

    • @yawsanevruh1116
      @yawsanevruh1116 Месяц назад +1

      @consciousEye-v5l No, it’s from Madara Uchiha from Naruto

  • @joshjoshington26
    @joshjoshington26 4 месяца назад +41

    Suffering from a addiction which is accepted in todays soceity, but i know i can get my life back, great song man

  • @oktokrush
    @oktokrush 4 месяца назад +22

    Lonely summer days...

  • @AvengingBloodlust
    @AvengingBloodlust 4 месяца назад +33

    I use to be so hopeful for the future. Now i live in the present waiting for the moment that will bring me peace.

  • @supertris1174
    @supertris1174 3 месяца назад +5

    A long time ago, I was happy. But I was dumb and naive. Ignorance in bliss is a very true statement. I grew up fatherless. I lost my mother at the age of 6. It hurt a lot. But life goes on. Pass from foster family to the next. Some are worse than others, but no one even caring to understand what I felt. I push through. Make "friends". All of them are in prison or drug overdose. Escaped that life. Joined the Navy, found a wife. And she was expecting. My new navy buddies supported me. I felt I had purpose. But it turns out my wife cheated on me. Said her child wasn't mine. The father? One of the navy buddies. I was devastated. The pain almost unbearable. But life goes on. She gave birth to a healthy daughter, she looked so much like me. But she said it wasn't. Before the DNA test I waived my rights to paternity. Only to find out later that it truly was my daughter. My other navy buddy the one that didn't take my wife was going through his own stuff shot himself. Now I'm truly alone. There is no left. It doesn't hurt anymore. I don't feel anything anymore no pain but no happiness either. I'm devoid of emotion. i don't see any future but life must go on.............. Right?
    Endless sleep doesn't sound too bad. I need to rest.

    • @Helpme-j4x
      @Helpme-j4x 3 месяца назад +3

      That was long and deep…. Hope you’ll get better…

    • @anthonyshorter3666
      @anthonyshorter3666 25 дней назад

      That's some serious stuff. I hope u find a way 2 always have FABULOUS🤩🤩🤩 days/nights 👍

  • @juanitobarragan9538
    @juanitobarragan9538 3 месяца назад +16

    To everyone reading this, just remember, no one is right at the end, we all have our situations and our origins, and no matter how desesperate the situation is, don’t give up, look for a solution or just talk to someone that you know, and most important in my opinion, learn to forgive yourself and let go. You are not alone.

  • @konoyaro09
    @konoyaro09 4 месяца назад +68

    Life as an introvert is really hard.you cant make friends,girlfriend
    litteraly everyone hate you for no reason.cant blame them tho because i hate myself too

    • @DoruemjiOnairos.
      @DoruemjiOnairos. 4 месяца назад +7

      I agree my life is like this too...

    • @andrex8888
      @andrex8888 4 месяца назад +11

      I can drink to that

    • @usama2056
      @usama2056 4 месяца назад +5

      i love this life what can i say i hate relashonhaips so much so i became an introverter and i like it

    • @tryndamere3117
      @tryndamere3117 4 месяца назад +7

      Bro tf why is it so true 😭

    • @Thomasnorman-405
      @Thomasnorman-405 3 месяца назад

      It's just the way this world condition us bro break free from Satan mind games I don't hate you YOU don't hate yourself it's the devil playing with your heart and conditioning others hearts to hate themselves I don't know you but I love you Christ loves you he made us in his image he ain't who this world depicts him to looklike alot of us know him by the name Jesus Christ but my kings true name is yeshua/YAHUSHA hamshiach and don't believe religion it's a manmade concept hope you come to king yeshua/Jesus he loves us he gave his life for us and rose on the third day

  • @luciferGms2453
    @luciferGms2453 4 месяца назад +40

    I was happy when she was present.
    I was happy when she loved me.
    I was happy when she was the world to me.
    Now it is almost as if she became non-existent.
    My joy was stolen.
    My happiness went back from a hundred to zero.
    Now I am just a man with an empty void within me that walks on earth, waiting for it to be filled by the same person that was once my happiness.
    Heartbreak is one hell of a drug.

    • @KevinAlt-u6c
      @KevinAlt-u6c 2 месяца назад

      True story

    • @SilentDeku
      @SilentDeku 13 дней назад

      I totally understand that bro, it's really hard to walk when you thought that person was gonna be with you and fight with you for the rest of your lives, but that doesn't mean that you should give up! I know that it hurts, I know that you might be feeling like you aren't worthy of love, but that's not true. Seek God's wisdom, put faith and trust in him, for he will eventually lead you to the right person when he knows that the time is right. For now however, let yourself heal from the heartbreak, and forgive her. Whether she deserves it or not, forgive her. It makes it easier to live with in the long run as it grants you peace. Finally, work on yourself, strive to become a better version of yourself everyday, learn from the mistakes that you have made in the relationship, and keep your heart soft and open, for when the right person finds its was towards you, you receive them with open arms and a loving embrace. You got this bro! You didn't come this far just to come this far, see your journey all the way until the very end. I believe in you even if we are just strangers. 😄

  • @Natebeast35755
    @Natebeast35755 3 месяца назад +3

    I was happy before Covid hit. Covid ruined my life. I regret not appreciating the good things in life

    • @matt815
      @matt815 2 месяца назад +1

      I'm pretty sure that the entirety of this world was happy right before COVID-19 came in existence, before this decade came in. So you weren't the only one that was happy.

  • @Shortom_Boy
    @Shortom_Boy 4 месяца назад +8

    My father torcher me but i am still surviving with my mother hope i get a better job and a happy family ❤

  • @mustafatausif1647
    @mustafatausif1647 3 месяца назад +16

    We don't really want to live our childhood again, we just want the friends and the moments of joy

  • @milenkapitanov8464
    @milenkapitanov8464 4 месяца назад +11

    I miss the 2000's so much 😢😢😢

  • @boiyonetta
    @boiyonetta 3 месяца назад +10

    The older I get, the more I realise that my world becomes less and less colorful. Gone are the days of vibrant colors which used to paint my emotions with joy and happiness. Now its all gray. Monotonous. Anhedonic.

  • @brabusS63amg
    @brabusS63amg 3 месяца назад +6

    Anyone who wants to understand humanity seeks solitude...

    • @VenaSerion
      @VenaSerion 3 месяца назад

      anyone who seeks true freedom, sets themselves apart from world. (I'm now one of those people who would happily watch the world burn to ground)

  • @randomguy22867
    @randomguy22867 3 месяца назад +9

    Been lonely my whole life and I don't think the situation is gonna improve. I feel lost, no friends, no love, no lost loves to remember. I feel nothing.

    • @Zoro67555
      @Zoro67555 2 месяца назад

      Us bro❤ from Karnataka

    • @LyricGibson-p9o
      @LyricGibson-p9o 10 дней назад

      What to her something Kobe I don't love you

  • @tipstops5306
    @tipstops5306 3 месяца назад +4

    If you're not feeling happy now, it means you are stuck somewhere you don't want to be, first get out of that place and go to a new place with new perspectives, new thinking and new people, you might feel happy because of your courageous decision. You can do it 💪

    • @nalleeyemadar9145
      @nalleeyemadar9145 3 месяца назад +1

      Thanks

    • @the_expidition427
      @the_expidition427 23 дня назад

      Unless the problem is your own point of views first work on that

    • @tipstops5306
      @tipstops5306 23 дня назад

      @@the_expidition427 U r right, and Iam always working on it, it will take time.

  • @MattAnime141
    @MattAnime141 3 месяца назад +12

    A lot of you guys may agree with me. Everything from the mid to late 2010s felt so awesome up until the arrival of the 2020s. When those years arrived all hell broke loose. I don’t know how 2023 managed to improve despite a bad start. We must keep moving forward and not look back!

  • @Jason-ge3lv
    @Jason-ge3lv 2 месяца назад +6

    A long time ago, I was full of wonder. Everything thing was new and exciting. Now, the complacency and monotony of my life makes me question my very existence. I am not alone. I know you feel this way too. I hope we find our purpose.

  • @Fennix580
    @Fennix580 2 месяца назад +4

    Remember when growing up wasnt scary?

  • @RavenLordOfficials
    @RavenLordOfficials 3 месяца назад +5

    I'd much rather keep it on the inside and say im fine than to spill my guts and be left for dead.

  • @lizrdwizrd2660
    @lizrdwizrd2660 3 месяца назад +15

    Life hit me when I was 12 and I saw my friend’s open casket, never been the same since

    • @md.rubaiyathossain7887
      @md.rubaiyathossain7887 3 месяца назад

      How old are you now?

    • @lizrdwizrd2660
      @lizrdwizrd2660 3 месяца назад

      @@md.rubaiyathossain7887 22 and speaking of which 10 years ago June 18th would’ve been the day. 😔

  • @nyctophobia3651
    @nyctophobia3651 4 месяца назад +18

    Seeing the title made me remember how colorful the past was...As i grow up i watched those colors fade away.The look of the people that i thought i knew, slowly changed from a loving look to a judging one...I never learned what made them look at me like that.Was i not good enough?Perhaps...But no one should ever let their hearts turn into stones even in this situation!As i hold on from the edge of the cliff i am so close to success.I hope you are also close to your dreams.Whatever goal you have,don't listen to anybody else just go for it!Good luck and see you on the bright side of the dreams...

  • @WarWolf778
    @WarWolf778 9 дней назад +4

    I'm starting to forget what it is like to be happy. I haven't hugged someone or smiled for a very long time. I feel ya.

  • @unjovenaburrido5793
    @unjovenaburrido5793 4 месяца назад +3

    I'm gonna use my true lenguage, please translate it,
    Tengo 21, y en este momento me encuentro atrapado, sigo en el mismo lugar que hace tres años, nada mejora, nada cambia, excepto yo, no hay dia en el que no intentará aprender algo nuevo, aprender más , adquirir una habilidad útil, pero empecé muy tarde, se siente como si todos me dejaran atrás, siento como el peso de mis malas decisiones como adolescente me llevaron a donde hoy me encuentro,
    Si hay alguien joven aquí, entre 14-16 años, les aconsejo estudiar, aprender algo útil, algo productivo, algo que disfruten y que de ganancias, el dinero puede que no sea tu meta, pero es un camino para llegar a ella, te ayudará y hará las cosas más fáciles, yo les digo que tal vez seguir sus sueños, no es la mejor idea,
    Así que enfoquence en lo real, en lo factible, y no en la opinión de las personas,
    Bye

    • @NADA-uz5vr
      @NADA-uz5vr 4 месяца назад

      Vc está preso na cadeia? Ou foi só uma expressão linguística?
      De qualquer forma obrigado pelo conselho!

  • @MANOAHARANALSARAVANANAET
    @MANOAHARANALSARAVANANAET 4 месяца назад +3

    i was happyfor a while before parents divorce
    i now only know when my result is the worst, no one will be with me. my own mother will dispose me
    i am all alone. My life is all about result. no result i am nothing.
    i also know that my own father is a evil man and i got betrayed by many friends
    i also got heartbroken just a month ago

  • @Tentacult_Sapling
    @Tentacult_Sapling 3 месяца назад +10

    I dont miss the days i was happy. I just miss the days when the happy outweighed the sad

  • @Bz74
    @Bz74 3 месяца назад +3

    A long time ago i was happy

  • @meysamzakani4147
    @meysamzakani4147 4 месяца назад +8

    The world is cruel and gray? That's why i want to be better and make others feel better.

  • @NathanComX
    @NathanComX 3 месяца назад +16

    Happiness is a drug, you keep wanting to have the same happiness you had when you experienced it for the first time, whether in childhood or in relationships, when everything was happier.

  • @Novastar.SaberCombat
    @Novastar.SaberCombat 4 месяца назад +5

    Reflection is both key and lock. The trouble is, the majority of mankind doesn't train this skill. And it does NOT come by default. It isn't like breathing, seeing, hearing, and feeling physical pain. The work, studies, training, and subtleties required are nearly too plentiful to accomplish over a single human's meager "lifetime".
    Good luck; yer gonna NEED it, suckah. 💪😎✌️
    🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨
    "Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge, hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again."
    🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨
    --Diamond Dragons

  • @cam-inf-4w5
    @cam-inf-4w5 5 месяцев назад +5

    Things keep getting worse. Its true. But you can keep getting better.
    And to be good in a world of evil is beyond the power of any super hero by comparison.
    I believe in you. Your mind is all you had at the end of the day anyway. Make it good. Choose virtue. Make your mind a fortress, a kingdom, a garden.
    Everything else isnt in your control. You chose the path of intelligence. You knew that meant looking behind the velvet curtain at the ugly machine. How would you rather have it? Be bad in a world of richest? You chose to be good, everyone elses choices making everything bad isnt your responsibility no matter how much they try to convince you it is. You cant change others, you can only change yourself.
    Realize this.
    And dont think the few and small are so weak and the large and many are so mighty.
    The truth secret is all around you.
    When you look down...
    And see it..
    When a flower busts the concrete...

  • @Unknown.existY
    @Unknown.existY 3 месяца назад +4

    I Clicked Because Of Image And Titel 😢🙂🥀💔
    And Now This Is My Favourite Song 😢🙂🥀💔
    I Feel Good That I Clicked On This I Was Unaware Of This Video But Now I Like It 😢🙂🥀💔

  • @alekseyquiet2357
    @alekseyquiet2357 3 месяца назад +9

    I'm a monster too, glad to meet you.

  • @nachgeben
    @nachgeben 4 месяца назад +13

    The algorithm just decided you REALLY needed a push! I'm glad too, I'm about to do a 'Play All' and check out your whole channel.

  • @PinkOrangeOrangePink
    @PinkOrangeOrangePink 3 месяца назад +5

    The past brings shame, and the present beings rage and confusion.

  • @LostWorld-Comus
    @LostWorld-Comus Месяц назад +4

    To anybody who's reading this, I pray that whatever is hurting you or whatever you are constantly stressing about gets better. May the dark thoughts, the overthinking, and the doubt exit your mind. May clarity replace confusion. May peace and calmness fill your life.

  • @Nothing_01011
    @Nothing_01011 3 месяца назад +4

    I dont know what to feel anymore.

  • @pml_sher
    @pml_sher 4 месяца назад +3

    Хочу...

  • @AnriofAstora
    @AnriofAstora 4 месяца назад +9

    At this point its even stupid to think its "life" itself, its just me, i am i was i will always be the problem, no matter what where when or with who, i feel like im always the rock in the way of everyone blocking their paths, or making them carry me. Im so tired of a lot of things but one over the others and thats me, it doesn't matter how good i try to be or how much i try to learn, everything and everyone i touch is ruined... Thx for this place for (venting) a little bit, it dont help me with my problems but i guess it makes me feel better at least a little bit

    • @SaifAljenaibi
      @SaifAljenaibi 4 месяца назад +4

      Brother, The fact that you realize and acknowledge that is the first step into making a change, good for you brother.

  • @Only12dy
    @Only12dy 5 месяцев назад +13

    Imma need a longer version of this pls

  • @1-lil_nico
    @1-lil_nico 4 месяца назад +7

    i hate myself for having insecurities

    • @Diamond40000
      @Diamond40000 3 месяца назад

      We all have insecurities, why hate urself for that?

  • @punisherkid5861
    @punisherkid5861 3 месяца назад +3

    I miss my past

  • @skeleton599
    @skeleton599 5 месяцев назад +13

    when the high doesn’t make you geek, just makes you tired
    nvm all i needed was a 3 hour t break

    • @stawolf823
      @stawolf823 4 месяца назад +2

      sounds like burnout to me. I know its only been a bit more than a week, but how are you doing now?

    • @skeleton599
      @skeleton599 4 месяца назад +3

      @@stawolf823 currently geeking

    • @RoseQuartz-fe4xv
      @RoseQuartz-fe4xv 3 месяца назад +1

      ​@@skeleton599about what?

  • @drknxy00
    @drknxy00 5 месяцев назад +11

    damn this hits hard.. hidden gem fr

  • @Hawi_Samuel
    @Hawi_Samuel 3 месяца назад +4

    I was happy

  • @chriss-wz9no
    @chriss-wz9no 3 месяца назад +2

    Sigh this reminds me that i dont have any true happiness anymore only sparks of what once was a happy boy filled with wonder and life now i am barely surviving waiting for the day it all ends and i can be at peace. I even developed a false personality a mask if you will a mask of happiness that i put on when I'm at work or out so that people don't feel uncomfortable or get weirded out by me but their are days it gets exhausting to continue and my tired soul slips out and then people question and ask what my problem and get upset thinking I'm mad when in actuality I'm depressed. So yes i long for the days as a child or correction i long for those happy times once more until then i will keep just barely living hoping for the day i can finally be at peace

  • @Caallina99
    @Caallina99 3 месяца назад +3

    every ending is a new beginning ❤

  • @soulmaster9676
    @soulmaster9676 5 месяцев назад +14

    This…This reminds me of how I am today. It reminds me that I am two people…one filled with joy, the other consumed by depression. Life hasn’t been the same since I turned 21

    • @Fis19
      @Fis19 3 месяца назад

      Why 21 ?

  • @observer.b_e_l_l_i_s
    @observer.b_e_l_l_i_s 4 месяца назад +6

    A very long time ago.
    Alls left is an awkward numbness.

  • @speedradio1493
    @speedradio1493 5 месяцев назад +4

    Is this available on Spotify or original song

    • @imamonster.
      @imamonster.  5 месяцев назад +2

      I'll try to upload my songs to spotify in the next few weeks

  • @Cory.Ault02
    @Cory.Ault02 3 месяца назад +11

    I’m 21 years old, i graduated last year but better late than never! Anyways…. The way that life is moving so fast I feel so stuck in life while having a Crisis… Because ever sense I graduated I barley have any friends and no one checks up on me alot so I’m always alone and I have alot of Anxiety and ever sense I’ve Graduated people my age are having fun, having family etc while I’m all alone fighting this depression because no one even checks on me alot.
    All I do is, Wake up, Eat, work, then Sleep and just repeat everyday and I’m just so Mentally Drained Man….
    I always feel like I’m a failure because I’m different than most people when I try my hardest I always seem to fail and it’s never enough and I blame me alot and put myself down and at night I just cry it all out. Life is so Hard :”(

    • @HalfNav
      @HalfNav 2 месяца назад

      My friend, know that you are not alone in feeling this way. Unfortunately, the path in our life for some of us is meant to be walked alone and to be different from the rest. Reflect upon your success on obtaining your degree, yes, it may not feel rewarding right now watching your old friends have a different life than you, and work is not appreciating you and you are on a rinse and repeat cycle of existing and not living.
      This is the time you should find yourself during your time away from friends and family, think of places you want to travel too, read and research the beauty of culture and then make plans to travel there. Or take the time to learn new skills/hobbies of the outdoors and reconnect with nature through hikes and overnight camping, take a guidebook to learn of the local flora and fauna, to help you disconnect from the wild and crazy cold world. All the while of discovering what you want to allow and accept in life, find beauty in nature and even take a notebook to jot down some thoughts of what you are currently feeling at the moment to help release the anxiety that is pent up. For this is what I do when I start to feel that way, even though its a constant daily struggle for me.
      May you stay strong and be blessed to be inspired of finding new passion within life that resides within you. Peace and love in the pursuit of happiness friend.

    • @Zoro67555
      @Zoro67555 2 месяца назад

      I can understand you brother 🥺
      I'm from India🇮🇳
      I'm 22th
      Same feeling bro 💔

    • @greenplyer2807
      @greenplyer2807 День назад +1

      Man I'm 20 Yr old feel exactly the same man, anyway how r u now?

    • @MauricioTheAmazing
      @MauricioTheAmazing День назад

      Your not a failure and don't feel ashamed that you are your own unique self! Try to engage In conversations about that with your friends or anybody you have. Even If you don't have anybody that loves you now... I promise you as long as you stay true to yourself and try to love yourself you will be ok!!! 🥰🥰♥♥

    • @Cory.Ault02
      @Cory.Ault02 День назад

      @@greenplyer2807I’m still 21 I turn 22 here in December on the 24

  • @Sosarrelum
    @Sosarrelum 3 месяца назад +5

    There used to be a time when I was happy 😢😢😢

  • @PassingBy-j7z
    @PassingBy-j7z 5 месяцев назад +4

    I don’t want to fall but tonight I will I never quiet fit in this world but tonight I will it was quiet a ride it was fun I played the good guy for a while and I did good
    Gods of the heavens see me fall
    I present to you my humanity my imperfections I Thought I was going to make it I guess I’m not that strong after all this melody is beautiful thank you for the time I had I hope I help I hope I did good but I knew from the beginning it was going to end a knew from the beginning it was meaning less but maybe just maybe it wasn’t that’s all I want to say thank you

    • @imamonster.
      @imamonster.  5 месяцев назад +1

      Don't give up, don't give up.
      i believe in you, that at some point you will find a way to get out of that deep hole. May hope return to you and don't give up.
      you have all my support in you.

  • @Torch_of_Sin
    @Torch_of_Sin 5 месяцев назад +9

    Once, I was something else. Now, all I am is wrath and sorrows. From the outside looking in, they look at me, as if I was always this monster. It's consuming.

  • @TewaIsStraight
    @TewaIsStraight 4 месяца назад +5

    Can't find something to make me happy these days eh? Can't even at least smile.
    New sub, I'll support you through your journey.

  • @AdemonGamer09
    @AdemonGamer09 3 месяца назад +3

    At this point, i just want to enjoy as much as i possibly can before i have to face reality. Im already in 9th grade and time is passing fast. I plan to end it once i finish college

  • @ZoxiXozi
    @ZoxiXozi 4 месяца назад +2

    Sorry Sya izin ambil foto nya

  • @RCHGameDev
    @RCHGameDev 4 месяца назад +4

    can i use this music to my horror game (of course i will credit you with a direct link to your channel or social media)

    • @Berserk-1-Enjoyer
      @Berserk-1-Enjoyer 4 месяца назад +4

      Ooo what is the games name and what is it on

    • @imamonster.
      @imamonster.  4 месяца назад +4

      hi :D
      everyone is free to use my songs for whatever they want
      best of luck with the development of that game, it looks phenomenal ;)

    • @RCHGameDev
      @RCHGameDev 4 месяца назад +4

      thank you for the positive response as well as for the compliment I wish you the same. I will let you know when the game is released and you will see it in the credits

  • @Uv_951
    @Uv_951 3 месяца назад +4

    I've always been a bit melancholic, it's in my character and despite that I've had joyful years. But I'm starting to think the way I feel now is not normal.

  • @lainzetsu
    @lainzetsu 4 месяца назад +3

    La felicidad es un estado temporal

  • @iloveanime746
    @iloveanime746 3 месяца назад +2

    I feel pain, yet i think I'm just being too dramatic, so i just shut up, hide it and wait until it goes away.

  • @doncomedia7927
    @doncomedia7927 3 месяца назад +8

    Wasn't even happy, but sure was better than today ...

  • @viitaman
    @viitaman 3 месяца назад +2

    Alcohol is the main reason for my loss of interest to everything I once cared about . Its been like this for 4 years now but as of last friday I decided to reclaim my life back and never touch that shit again.

  • @heleenmalherbe1827
    @heleenmalherbe1827 4 месяца назад +2

    Long time ago... I was happy...
    Now, I want to die

  • @altalks1419
    @altalks1419 3 месяца назад +2

    daaamn, thats pretty good

  • @MichaelNzimande-b5g
    @MichaelNzimande-b5g 3 месяца назад +8

    Remember when i was a kid wanting to grow up but now i want to go back to being a innocent kid again

  • @Daim669
    @Daim669 4 месяца назад +7

    Words just aren’t enough, this deep guttural void in the pit of my stomach, it echoes, aches and consumes all that I thought I was, and was not.

  • @jasonstults8986
    @jasonstults8986 3 месяца назад +2

    You either die a hero, or live long enough to see yourself become a villain. If you win a war, than someone else lost it.

  • @Sandra-qd6kz
    @Sandra-qd6kz 3 месяца назад +2

    Sometimes it's the one video, picture that touches & captures the feelings we have...❤

    • @themaximusyang8645
      @themaximusyang8645 3 месяца назад

      What did you sad?

    • @Sandra-qd6kz
      @Sandra-qd6kz 3 месяца назад

      I am good now thankyou but like many people have been in a dark place and this video captures how I felt...​@@themaximusyang8645

  • @Azeas1993
    @Azeas1993 5 месяцев назад +4

    Yes. I am a monster. I know I am a monster but I just want to be left alone.
    Edit: I'd figure I'd add this to explain how I came up with the phrase. I've done horrible things in my life and I've dealt with bad karma and consequences of my actions. My luck turned so bad that everything I get always has a defect and everything I touch (lawn mower, washer, dryer, sink, shower, toilet, smart phone, computer, tablet, gaming console, so on) either breaks or doesn't work right after. I've got people who support me and care about me that know what I've done. There's only enough to count on one hand. Do I regret my choices? I regret them every second of my waking life but it doesn't bother me anymore. So yes I'm a monster and if you knew what I've done you would look at me as evil. I've been quiet and isolated because of my choices. Nobody wants anything to do with me and I'm afraid of making a stupid choice again.
    Moral of the story: Protect your loved ones from pain and don't become the cause of it.

  • @aondeestaminhamente
    @aondeestaminhamente 4 месяца назад +8

    You don't take anything when you can't return from where you never had the chance to go. Rest in peace. 😞

  • @MCLegend13
    @MCLegend13 3 месяца назад +3

    My Autistic self have allowed my bad habits and addictions to take over and now they have caught up to me I now realise how much I have wasted.
    22 now it’s been almost a year since I completed my 4 year college journey but instead of seeking a career I festered in my anxiety dove further into my bad habits and addictions.
    Now I realise that all I’ve been doing has been just causing myself to wither away.
    Literally addiction and bad habits can lead to bad life decisions and foolish mistakes. And they genuinely make you feel horrendous and leave your depression and anxiety festering.
    But above all you remember who you once were and the times when you didn’t have these things back when you were happy and taking life for granted and not throwing it away. 😔😔
    Currently feel like a failure but hope for a better future wish me luck.