When I'm hypomanic I talk to strangers a lot at bus shelters, and some people, especially old people seem to enjoy the conversation. I learn from people's stories. Sometimes when I talk to everyone in the shelter it sparks a discussion between everyone.
I talk to *anyone* when hypomanic. Last week I ran after some woman to tell her she lost her kids sun hat.... her kid was in a pushchair. She smiled, and said it wasn't hers... so she'd left it on the floor. I was like, "em ok..." I'm still happy.... I didn't even feel embarrassed... so then I *know* i'm going high. lol
That's funny! Sometimes the person I will talk too will be a little annoyed but I'm so happy I don't care and it's pretty rare. Elderly people seem to love it and they have the best stories anyway!
dianna I totally agree, older people are usually more likely to engage in random chat. I was pretty lucky that the mother in the sun hat situation was relaxed about me accosting her. :/
Having bipolar disorder caused me to practice drums 4 hours a day and master them which led to me being in a working band and abusing drugs and alcohol. But I was damned good! I didn`t know at the time but I was self medicating. I miss it. After being forced to quit playing in a band at age 35 I began obsessively playing acoustic guitar and within two years I could sing and play hundreds of songs. I would go to parties and sing every chance I got. I got in trouble several times from mania though and also got a DUI, two drug charges and got in trouble for fighting. At certain times I had other obsessions like building crystal radios and experimenting with electronics for months (I had garbage bags filled with hand wound coils), building antennas, studying the Apollo missions, researching DNA and science, reading dozens of books, writing songs and poems and all kinds of stuff. I even had over 100 cactus plants at one point. I couldn`t keep a steady job and my family helped me for years so it gave me time to do all these weird things. I made money when I was in a band and worked at temporary jobs given to me by fans. Other times I sold whatever fish I could catch (illegally) because we lived on the lake. I was basically worthless because of this disease and didn`t know what was wrong with me. I didn`t get diagnosed until I was age 43. My dad and many family members gave up on me after my diagnosis. I was "crazy" and that was settled....a hopeless cause. My dad never spoke to me again. He died just over a year ago. My family abandoned me for years and I had no way to get my medication. I lost my truck, had no way to make money, and lived in a small RV van depending on one of my sisters to pay my small electric bill. For two years I had no money for food or anything else. The town gave me one small box of food per month and that`s all I had to eat. I had to walk if I went anywhere. I had to wash clothes in a bucket and heat water for a bath in pots. I had to walk to a park and fill jugs with water. I had no bathroom. Since starting my medication I`ve quit playing guitar, possibly because I`m sober and off drugs and alcohol. I have little interest in anything, can`t go outside because I feel like people are looking at me, and I just feel numb. I never go anywhere except to see doctors and to get my meds. My sister takes me and I go shopping with her. I don`t think I could go alone. I bought a kit of new needed parts for my guitar, three sets of strings and picks, intending to start practicing again, but my guitar sits in the corner gathering dust. A bottle of whiskey or drugs would make me pick it up but I can`t do that anymore. The meds have made me numb and bored. I watch RUclips, bored out of my mind, and can`t find any science videos, music or anything that excites or satisfies me. The most I`ve done in months is build an outdoor antenna for my shortwave radio, which I would normally enjoy listening to, but I just don`t feel anything. The only thing I look forward to each month is getting my pain meds filled, because for several days they sometimes give me a buzz that feels good enough to allow me to enjoy myself again. One of my sisters allowed me to move in with her. I sold my property and bought a small travel trailer and have about 4000 in the bank. Hoping to get disability. This disease ruined my life years ago because I wasn`t diagnosed in time to get help. PS: I`m not trying to get sympathy but just thought I`d share my boring story so that others like me know they`re not alone.
I know this is 2 years later but I hope you got more help. It sounds like you need a different doc and different meds orrr you're in a mixed state? I worry it'll take away my creative side. Recently diagnosed. I went over a decade not treated and it came to a head last year around this time. The depression was so bad it made them look at me again. Paxil wasn't the right drug for years. Antipsychotics and lamictol now. Still being creative so far. I hope you find your music again. I know what it's like to lose all interest in absolutely everything. It's the worst. You're just existing. Sending much love dude!
Thank you for sharing your interesting story. Mine sounds almost similar. I was diagnosed late (37) in life. Anyway, I got married and have two young children. I work from home as a massage therapist - qualified aromatherapist and Shiatsu practitioner. I divorced 5 years ago to get out of a severely dysfunctional and abusive relationship. But my work and my life feels so hum-drum. I take my medication as prescribed. I love my children dearly. I recently relapsed on weed and alcohol. It stopped yesterday but my life feels empty and boring and pointless. Not to mention that I am also falling further and further behind on my monthly rental so might soon face eviction. Still, the only thoughts and emotions I have are denial or heartache or a sense of dread coupled with a distinct "couldn't give a fck" attitude. That's me right now.
My daughter has responsibly managed her bipolar disorder for 20 years… sleeps at regular hours, exercises, does not drink alcohol, takes her meds even when they stop working. I have always and perhaps wrongly advised that her medical problem is only her business … afraid that employers, colleagues and friends would not be accommodating. She is admirable in her struggle . And admirable in so many other ways.. she is empathetic; can master anything to surprising levels in a short time; she certainly has great understanding of emotion. So there are benefits..
Hi, Rob offers one on one support on Patreon if you are interested. He also posts more personal information about his day to day struggles like his recent hospital stay. For the month of July he is offering free phone calls to patrons. Another Patreon exclusive is Rob hosting and moderating weekly support groups on discord! Take gentle care! 🙏 Sometimes we all need someone to talk to: www.crisistextline.org/ teenlineonline.org/talk-now/ Dianna Polar Warriors Team Member (H)old (O)n (P)ain (E)nds www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
I'm from Saudi Arabia.I live in a place where is mental health a totally new topic, and there are no good therapists around here. We can go to a psychiatric for medication tho but therapist are really rare and no good. Anyhow, your videos has been my therapy. Thank you a lot for the effort.
I am from Saudi Arabia too. However, I was lucky enough to get diagnosed with Bipolar 1 by a really good Doctor who discovered that I was misdiagnosed with depression and the antidepressants caused me to have a manic episode for about a month.. it's been a two years since I've been diagnosed with Bipolar Type one, things are stable, the therapy and medication is completely free and I can communicate with my Doctor anytime I need to. I only have some difficulty with the society and their misconsptions and stigma about Bipolar Disorder...
I'm so proud of my BP bf. Life can be difficult with him but he's so amazing and watching your videos has helped me so much to understand the condition better and - even though I can never really get what he goes through - have helped me to be more supportive and empathetic. I applaud all you BP affected ppl out there - you are heroes in my eyes ..
Robert, I always enjoy your informative videos. My wife and I have not found another channel for Bipolar that we found to be even half as helpful as yours. As for benefits to having BP, I am closer to my wife in just about every way as I know that GOD gave us to each other to complete each other. She helps me with this illness(managing ups and downs), and I do my best make her life better. I try even harder to make sure that she knows that she is loved and is special than I did a decade ago when symptoms started. I have been on meds for 8 years, and I thank GOD for modern medicine and my wife every day!
Tom Cleverley I too am blessed with an amazing and even tempered spouse. He has had some very unnuturing relationships in the past, while I had a pattern of staying in situations where I wasn't getting what I needed. We are very nurturing to one another and feel as though we were placed in each others' path at the darkest times for us both.
The stats for bipolar marital success are pretty depressing. But it can be done, if we ignore these and try to harness the positives to help it succeed and downplay the negatives. I am bipolar and was married to a much younger poor clinically depressed schizoid type for about 20 years. And yes, I did sometimes stress him out with my mania but when down, we wallowed in depressed misery together in his dark dungeon of his soul. Trouble started when I got high again and things sped up and I would have to leave him behind. He was just too cold, like a block of stone then... And yet, he craved my highs that stressed him so much with activity, weird new ideas, explorations etc. Guess he needed stimulation....And I needed my cold block of stone he was, to anchor me because, in a manic high, great as it felt, it was also scary. Like a tiny sail ship on a stormy sea. No anchor, no moorings.... And bipolar mania always feels unbearably hot. We also both had post traumatic stress but, oddly enough, both our mental conditions helped us beat PTSD, a beast of an illness but not invincible. Not everything about all mental illness is bad. Some is actually positive. But most, including sufferers will only see the negatives. Society conditions people to think in such a limited way and that causes a lot of unnecessary societal damage and wasted potential in many aspects of private lives and society as a whole. Will they ever see the light?
It's nice to know that I'm. Not alone and others struggle with some of the same things I have struggled with for years. There's really no one I can talk to about this. Your channel is truly a blessing
Hey there ! Rob is available on patreon. You can message him, text or even have a call with him there. He is offering free support phone calls for all patrons right now. I think you may benefit from that. Take gentle care. Sometimes we all need someone to talk to: www.crisistextline.org/ teenlineonline.org/talk-now/ Dianna Polar Warriors Team Member (H)old (O)n (P)ain (E)nds On Patreon, you can message Rob directly, get a phone/video call, watch videos that are more personal in nature, and access a great community. www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
Thank you for all the good videos. And very nicely presented. I'm 64 with bipolar II since 19. It is tough, and sometimes too much. But it's well worth the trip. And I look forward to seeing my own future. Meds have eliminated most of my downtimes. I really appreciate your balance views in the videos. I tend to get carried away. Not you. And you are brave enough to make videos while you are going through a 'spell'. Good for you. You have helped me. I find that many bipolar people are especially loveable. Maybe their pain has wash away convention to reveal something beautiful. Lucky us. Keep up the good work. Keep enjoying your unusual life.
I totally agree with all the positive sides of Bipolar that you have mentioned! I may have the Bipolar illness but I have always considered myself an INTELLECTUAL. My hypomania makes me THIRST for more knowledge. I get total excitement from reading a lot of books because of my desire to help alleviate my Bipolar symptoms. I also delve into learning more languages. I speak three fluently right now. Thank you sooo much for what you are doing! More power to you and your desire to help us who are suffering yet learning from your own experiences.
If I didn't have bipolar disorder I don't think I would be as good at poetry or essay writing. They're my favorite ways to harness that creative energy you mentioned. Thanks so much for all the hard work you do. Your videos have inspired me to try counciling again and talk to my doctor about a low dose mood stabilizer (as I'm sensitive to medication). So many of us have been positively impacted by your videos. Keep up the good work (and thanks again!)✌
I have BPD and medication failed me but I got help from self counselling via self help books on this and other conditions,too. But only the ones by real is officially and professionally qualified experts in mental health matters. I diligently worked through set exercises and they helped me deal with my problems in a discreet,very private, convenient and inexpensive way,as I was poor and isolated, living in rural Australia where we have a high incidence of serious mental illness dye to the very harsher conditions, poverty, social isolation etc. One thing we do have his resilience,though. Each time I survived a bad bipolar peak or trough,I grew stronger, ready for the next inevitable wave. It got easier with time. As the medication only made it worse I had to devise a better way to deal with "the waves". I sat beside the big surf beach waves where I live and thought and thought and thought.... About all the ways I could "end it all" and then all the ways I could live on and be happier and opted for the latter which meant figuring out a way to achieve this goal. I knew it involved closely tuning into my own body and mind to discover what causes what to happen. So I did that and wrote it all down,to detect patterns etc and discovered a few key things that influence my bipolar eg what goes into my mouth and brain, what my skin is exposed eg hot/cold, the social and psychological environments I am exposed to, chemicals in the air and the types of activity I have to do eg certain routines that aggravate my bipolar in some states, even when other obsessive compulsive types are the ones doing such repetition,which drives me nuts. I was able to work out my own self help plan and I keep improving it because it works for me. The only drawback is it requires great self discipline, it is so boring and other people think I am a freak because I do what i I must for to remain sane eg turn down incitations to lavish scrumptious banquets where I know I will be expected to eat food that will adversely affect my mental health. If you go down the self help path you need to be very careful and responsible. It is not for the feint hearted but worth doing if you must. I would take medication if I got badly out of control and became dangerous. But if I can do without it,I do. I hate all the deprivations involved and effort etc but it is worth it. Compared with how crazy medication made me feel. Even lithium salts which stopped the wild mood swings but turned me into a vegetable with no motivation, no creativity and I stacked on weight from it though it is finally coming off. Years after stopping lithium.
Thank you so much for pointing out the positives. I’ve been in deep depression for several months and it’s hard for me to focus on the positive aspects in my life but when you mentioned empathy and resilience it made me look at my condition in a different way. Because I have to deal with so much internally it has made me stronger. I recently went through three traumatic losses. I lost my husband to cancer and both of my parents within a three year period. People kept telling me how strong I was. I thought they were crazy but now I understand that the coping mechanisms that I’ve used to help with my bipolar has transferred to other aspects of my life as well. Thanks for reminding me of that
hhorton86 I have had many artists tell me the same thing. I have made some of my best videos when I’ve been manic. There are definitely some positive sides to bipolar disorder :-) -Robert www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
Yay! Welcome to the erratic creativity! I can be creative in both the high and low parts if the bipolar wave but they are different types of creativity. The depressed creativity is more intense and thought provoking and often sombre but that's OK. life does always have to be bright and manic and exciting. Tap into these different types of creativity because,when down, you can feel like you simply have no artistic or any other kind of creativity at all. I just "veg out". Very quiet. Seething with well controlled anger, just locking myself away in my bed room so I can harm nobody else. It was during one such town phases that I discovered just how creative the down phase can be,especially for cleaning up and perfecting all sorts of crazy creative projects I start but seldom finish in a manic state. Because the mania gives way to depression and the half finished projects are left hanging there, half done. Fortunately I always have people keen yo steal my manic ideas but that's OK because I can easily get heaps more new and better ones. Of others finish off what I start and take all the credit for my original ideas. That's OK,too because some normal types are very spiritually deprived, creativity challenged, intellectually challenged etc and we all have a social responsibility to be caring towards others deprived in certain respects. So I let them. But there are some harder things I start in a manic phase that remain unfinished. I pick these up in my down phase and try yo complete them. The results are often astounding and I can feel do good about it that it lifts the depression eg I can suddenly do or play some music or solve some problem I had been hopelessly trying to solve for years. Suddenly it clicks. But never in the manic phase. Always the down phase. The manic phase is for new exciting things and for flying high, forget tedious details and perfectionism. I am a stickler for high standards and getting it right, but only in the down mood. I can't let such tedium or routine etc slow me down when onto something new and exciting during a manic phase.
I haven't been diagnosed as bipolar yet but I'm showing a lot of the symptoms. I get the same. And obsessing over a certain hobby for less than a month usually and then giving up and moving on.
Watching this a couple of years later, and from a much different part of my cycle, I connected less but appreciate more. I mean, I'm pretty sure I'm heading into a crash so it's hard to connect with any of the positives right now. BUT, seeing where I did connect before, and being reminded that the positives exist whether I see them or not, is reassuring. Even if I can't think outside the box, that doesn't mean the outside isn't there. It'll be interesting to see how long I can hold onto that hope as I go through this part of the ride. Thanks, as always!
Thank you for this video. All of your videos are so helpful. When I am manic, I can't shut up. I constantly have to be the comedian and make people laugh at work.
I've been in an extended period of depression and am in the middle of med changeup, who knows how this will go 😊 I was diagnosed much later in life than most people - 48. As an overachiever in a creative field, it was easy to write off erratic behavior and bursts of creative energy followed by periods of creative inactivity. I now see I was saving my creative phases of projects for manic periods and doing production work during down times. I can look back at the very year I was the most creative, won lots of awards, etc., as one where I must have been manic a long time. Exotic travel, new hobbies, etc. I watched this knowing I need to be on a freelance project but am struggling - way behind schedule. I find myself wanting a manic episode to come on just so I can knock this out! I now know why I have always been so aware of healthy eating, getting vitamin D, needing lots of natural lighting and time outside. Great video. I think the biggest rewards for me of this channel is what my spouse can learn from them that I can't always articulate.
I totally get what you are saying! I'm newly diagnosed at 42 and looking back with these new eyes is so weird. So much makes sense. It's a little sad, a little bit of a relief, a little puzzling how this went undiagnosed so long. I also did some exotic travelling and picked up random hobbies and trades. I also had some wild times in the bedroom, or more accurately not in the bedroom ;)
I am late diagnosee as well. I am 50 in July and I have been diagnosed only last month, although I suspected that from my own research for over a year... I haven't been diagnosed because I have always been on high or normal, never in real depression. Therefore I didn't take my 36 hours working spans and other things as something to be worried about. I have had bit of hard look at my inability to finish things to the detail, but hey, that's what I had my people to do. I was manger to show them way and after to tell them to finish it off, didn't I? :-)) It all came all downhill at once after breakup with my ex. Week to week I have been broke unemployed homeless in different town 100 miles away sleeping on friends sofa, because that was only place I could go to stay off streets. And on the top I was banned from driving for 6 months for speeding. I have been seconds from committing suicide, but stopped by event I can't explain in any other way as supernatural. I guess God wants me to finish something before checking out...
I was officially diagnosed 1 year ago at 23 years old with both Bipolar Disorder type 2 with ultra-rapid cycling and Borderline Personality Disorder after going through a massive depressive episode and attempting suicide. I can't even put in words how much your channel is helping me going through this tornado of emotions every single day. Thank you so so much. 💜
Thank you for sharing with us. I'm so glad to hear that Rob's channel has been such a huge help to you during the struggles you've been through. If you'd like to help support Rob in what he does with Polar Warriors I'd encourage you to consider joining him on Patreon. He posts exclusive content there and is available to reply to direct messages through that platform. Polar Warriors is completely supported by viewer donations. I'll include the link so you can check it out! :) Even if you can't join we value you being part of the community here! Take good care and hope your weekend is going well. -Rachel (Polar Warriors team member) www.Patreon.com/PolarWarriors
I was diagnosed BPD 2 about 3 weeks ago at 28 but have been dealing with this unknowingly since I was 16.The part about learning and jumping hobbies every week is so spot on,I have taught myself a lot of skills because of this.I went to culinary school,can rebuild vehicles,build computers,ski at expert level,skateboard and a few other neat little tricks here and there.That being said,these skills have taken years to develop because I am always floating around and trying new things.Obsessed for a week to a month and then dropped like a hot pan.
I was diagnosed with BP a few years ago, but only realized I actually have it recently.. if that makes sense.. your videos have helped me a lot with coming to terms and whatnot. This video especially. These are all things I’ve felt for majority of my life, many people call me “gifted”. I’m very artistic, empathetic, love making others laugh, I go all in with my many interests, I excel in the work place, I’ll leave out the negatives for this thread. But your videos have also helped my relationship tremendously, having you put these things into words that I can’t express while going through it. I’m glad you found this path and that I came across it 🙂 🍀
Thank you so much for sharing that with us Sierra. That does make sense what you said, about only realizing it recently, that you have it. It can take some time to fully come to terms with the diagnosis. Sounds like you have many positive attributes and a lot to offer to others. I hope you're doing really well this weekend! :) -Rachel (Polar Warriors team member)
Yes. The Polar Warrior videos are great. I try to help other sufferers, too. Even when down myself and hardly able to get out of bed all day. I found that when I help others, it helps me feel better. The strangest help I was ever called on to give was requested by a very large Bipolar mum with Type 1 Bipolar and very bombastic, until hospitalised. She managed to take the ceiling out of her house with her bare hands in her extreme rage. People feared her strength and power. Not only had she been a mother but also a top business woman, investi g on the stock exchange, making and losing a fortune, then the bipolar anger kicked in... She wanted me to sit on her lap and be her little golden haired child she never had and was now never able to have. So I braced myself and did it and sang her a song, like she wanted.... "I know you are a poor little orphan..." she said. Well,she had no idea about my background but, intuitively, she was spot on. Such empathy amidst all her destructive bombastic rage and fear she engendered. I was not an orphan but had been living like one since early childhood. My finding the courage to climb onto her massive big muscly lap enabled her to get in touch with her gentler inner self. She became calmer. Now, every time I see that sculpture at the arts centre of that big fat mama sitting down, I feel the need to climb onto her lap. I pretend to clan around and be photographed there. But my reasons are not just to seek attention....
I love when I’m manic because I come up with some really creative stuff and I can get a lot of stuff done but when you have the Lows it’s harder than crap to get anything done 💞😷
Lmao I know when I'm manic when as soon as I wake up, energy shoots throughout my body and I JUMP out of bed. I also talk a lot more and feel less apprehensive to say the things I want. I get irritable here and there, but mostly a euphoric, excited, and energetic version of me. My lows are the complete opposite. I wake up anxious, wondering if I should call out, and drag myself around the whole day.
This is so flipping amazing! I literally just asked myself yesterday "If this is something I am going to have to live with, is there any positives outside the somewhat euphoria during the highs?" And then there is this:) thanks!
I'll give you a tip: the only way to carry on is to get into the mindset of "What are the positives in this negative situation?" and focus on those. Once you fully get into this mindset, you bounce back from hard times a lot faster than most people.
Have you heard of CRIP TIME? We get used to, over the years, having to successfully adjust our schedules by keeping them flexible. (Depending on our mood state.) When COVID hit, My bipolar friends and I agreed, "We got this!" while others were thrown off by forced changes in their schedules. YES, your channel helps much!! Thank you.
Thanks you so much for the channel and it’s content! I’ve been looking for this sort of info for years and just last week found your channel. It’s quickly become somewhat of a best friend in my life, I listen, reflect on what your saying in a journal or throughout the day and get back to watch a next one. Each time being comforted that your perspective is calming, accepting and teaches me something new which in turn distracts me from my own negative thoughts. You manage to talk about stuff I’ve been wondering about for YEARS despite the fact that I’ve actually had people and doctors to talk to but not at all in the way you explain it. (And for once I’m neither hypomanic, depressed or mixed so I thought I’d say it with an honest voice of wise mind.) Thank you.
Happy Happy Birthday!! 🎉🎉 I ‘m grateful for each of my 60+ years and make sure I celebrate each one ! Life has been an adventure with many mountaintop moments and some time spent in the valleys. Just coming out of a pretty difficult valley but life is good again 😉!
I think you are amazing. Yes I do believe that my bipolar does give me very good character. I make people laugh all the time, always smiling... Sometimes most of the time. I love your channel
I think that's so cool Shelly! Another person said something about making people laugh and I do too! Perhaps it's because we know the importance of making the best out of a bad situation.
dianna yea some people think I'm rude for laughing when things go down the hill. A lot of times it's hard to find something good out of something bad. I just laugh. I LOVE to laugh and make other people laugh and smile.
Another great video! As a loved one, I have seen all of the positive things you mentioned. When it isn’t so positive, I have learned to focus more on me and remember that those positive things are what make me love this person as much as I do. It may not always be easy, but worth it! I will be forever grateful for the information and knowledge you have given me! You are awesome!!
This is the best thing that I have ever done. I am talking about finding this channel and being able to feel like I am not alone. This is my journey. You have done an amazing job in explaining my condition. I feel now that I can own it. This is not who I am. This is what I have. I thank you and please keep doing what you are doing! You have certainly saved me from myself today. 🤗😂
Thank you 😊 when I am on manic I work my a** off when I am depressed I have to push myself to get food ready for my family and just survive! I took St. John’s wort yesterday and today I just feel very good not manic but just happy and joyful 😀
I can relate to your feeling. Ummm... I once got into a bad altercation with my workplace boss and colleagues for starting so much new work to meet or exceed business targets set by management. I was deadly serious about 'achieving targets by deadlines' and got cracking because I knew it would be a tough job and time running out. No coffee breaks, no lunch breaks. Got to work very early, finished late. Took work home. Who needs to waste time sleeping or eating. I utilised every moment of public transport travel. I was going to make the set targets. Next thing I find is colleagues complaining about feeling threatened by 'a maniac' in their workplace. The union rep taps me on the shoulder and 'warns' me to ease up... People wasting my precious time. And then the boss starts,too. Hauls me into his office to discuss my "work performance", when he and the rest of them were wasting so much of my valuable time rapidly running out that my chances of making targets set were rapidly diminishing and I was starting to tumble into a steep downer, caused by THEM,as I had great intentions, being a very fair, honest worker. He began to tell me how irresponsible I was starting so much new work blah, blah, blah and I reminded him of 'set targets' and he informed me that HE determines targets, not me and I was getting furious and so was he ... "You set the F;'??*n targets and here is written proof of it" I snapped and handed him some bullshit document he had written about setting targets blah blah blah. I got threatened with 'disciplinary action' and told I had no hope of meeting the target and deadline. I was ropeable by then because I could not bear to fail. "Wanna make a bet?" I challenged him. But he ignored my challenge and told me the meeting was over. But, I still needed to discuss 'targets set' and best strategy to meet the deadlines. Next thing I find I am moved to this dead head section where nobody bothered doing any work and it was just so depressing there I felt like doing something to these types, just to check if they were 'still alive'. So I did a few things most normal sane people would complain about eg as insulting or offensive. Much yo my shock, they lapped it all up and even told me I was the best thing that ever happened to their rotten work section.
I take advice from a rap song called Cocaine 80s - Motivation. "Take ups and downs to make it, just motivate." So I use the energy from the mania to achieve what I want, then I use the depression as motivation to keep moving and get to a better place. I might have to go harder in depressive periods but it means that I'm not in my bedroom crying all the time.
I subscribed to your channel because you keep it real. I got diagnosed when it was still a giant stigmata. I was 20 and I'm 45 now and even after 25 years I still learn something new from your channel.
Another great video Rob! It's wonderful to find the silver lining! Although an illness like bipolar can be so challenging, finding, and allowing the positive traits to shine through is a great idea. I'm so glad you pointed this out in this video. I'm sure many Polar Warriors are Blessed by looking at the positive traits you pointed out. May all of the Polar Warriors out there embrace the positive things, and be Blessed!
I'm really glad to hear that our channel has been helpful for you! It's amazing how much we can learn about ourselves through shared experiences. I know this illness can be incredibly hard to navigate. I'd love to offer any support I can... If it interests you, I have a private community where you can message me directly and network with other people who are going through similar struggles. No pressure of course, but it would be great to have you join us. I'm very accessible and happy to answer any questions you have... Below is a link to my private community on Patreon. It's where you can message me directly and I'll get back to you right away. We can also arrange a phone call if that would be more helpful. -Rob www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
I use to work at Wal-Mart and i always was told i had awesome leadership skills but because my ex kicking out i couldn't go to that next but then i got something in mail by Wal-Mart that was they were that i display and shown really good leadership effort and hard work no matter what i was doing i sure do miss it but once i get my ssi and ssd I'm planning to work there part time as a door greeter . I have lately showing my friends on Facebook that i have a huge heart helping others by talk about mental illness or talking them out of hurting them. I'll never change the way I am. This channel has made awareness to my Bi polar and I also recommend my friends to your videos thanks so for what you do.
Well, they obviously valued and liked you.... And care about you or at least they need you. If you miss the workplace there I think that is good enough reason to try again, once you get your life back on track again. Good luck with it. I'd go back if in your shoes. Never mind big promotions or prestige jobs or even big money jobs. A good work place with a good caring employer and doing a job you really love doing is something money cannot buy. But worth having, for the joy it can give. Compared with the misery of a rotten workplace full of awful competitive workers and absolute arseholes as management and having to do shit work routines you hate for most of the time, though one cannot expect it to be ALL fun all of the time, obviously....
I really need to ask this blogger only a specific question. I posed it here but weht nanic while writng it. I posted anway. I want to save my own life even if i have no support. will he read my post here?
Thank you for this video. I was just recently diagnosed with Bipolar disorder and am having trouble wrapping my head around it... this is making me feel much better.
This is the most helpful video I’ve ever seen. It just made me realize that accepting bipolar and sticking to my treatment has saved my life and made me a much better person than I was before treatment. I will watch it again and again. Thank you for making this video.
hi! just wanted to say that your videos really help me through the dismissal of the people around me including my parents and friends. thank you. i hope that you continue doing these
Excellent Video, some great insights! Found it very positive! Excellent beginning, there is an appropriate time/mood to watch or study according to your condition. Sometimes hard to know if you are hypomanic when you feel good! I also recognise the excessive use of the Gym to exhaustion! At the time it just feels you are well motivated!
Hi Robert, The videos that I have watched and listened to have been helpful. Because I am currently in between jobs, I have not officially become a Polar Warrior, but it is my clear intention to do so when I start working again. In retrospect, when I am hypomanic, I feel positive and hopeful. Hypomanic causes me to do things that help me to get stuff done that needs to be done; It motivates me. It also allows me to read for long periods of time and heal through writing. I can easily sit and write for 6 to 8 hours when I am hypomanic. I am able to walk my dogs, make homemade green chili and do things that I enjoy doing. It also allows me to connect with people who have the same diagnosis as me. When I am hypomanic I have realized that I am being abnormal and causes me to be very careful about what I am thinking about and decisions that I make. A positive thing about depression is that is causes me to think about times when I have hit rock bottom and they can serve as a rude awakenings or tools that can help to bring me out of a depression. I have been rapid cycling and because of that I decided to start keeping track of my moods and frequency of fluctuations and helps to put things into perspective when I go back and read what I wrote when I feel stable. For me, I feel the most stable about 45 minutes after I take my first dose of my medication in the morning and about 10 minutes after drinking a small cup of coffee or hot water with the juice of a whole lemon. Having Bipolar helps me to have a routine. I feel more stable in a very structured environment. When I am rapid cycling, having a routine or plan can help me to come out of the depression much quicker. Another really good thing about having Bipolar is being able to frequently talk with my psychotherapist and psychiatrist about my racing thoughts and things that I “read into”. It helps me with time management and causes me to be very open to diversity and how to learn to deal with and cope with people who are different than me. Whenever I meet with my psychiatrist and psychotherapist, I get a sudden sense of calm and peace, even if I initially walk into the building being symptomatic. Those are safe places, for me, that I look forward to. I love the rapport that we have and I cherish those professional relationships. Having Bipolar causes me to be obsequiously mindful, but not to a point where I feel overwhelmed or stressed about over analyzing mindfulness, which is a really good thing. One thing that I “love” about having Bipolar is that I am extremely compassionate and empathetic. I am a true empath and it causes me to feel good that I truly care about people to the point where it can trigger me to be manic, depressed or have mixed episodes. That’s a really good way for me to look at it. That is a type of obsequiousness that is not desirable, but the silver lining is that I truly do care about people and that thought can help me if and when red flags go up as indications that I may be in the beginning stages being symptomatic. Being Bipolar helps my to be more aware of metacognition and I think that is a really good thing and can help me when I choose to or need to communicate with people in a healthy manner. These were some of my thoughts about how having Bipolar is positive and benevolent. Oh yeah, having Bipolar has caused me to realize that I truly am benevolent even though I sometimes struggle with poor judgement and self control. It has helped me to pinpoint the areas of my life that I really need to zero in on. Bipolar is not who I truly am, it is just something that I have and I am learning to master it instead of it mastering me. A couple of years after I was diagnosed with Bipolar I read a book called “Make Anger Your Ally” by Dr. Neil Clark Warren. That was about 14 years ago. Now I just had the thought of “Making Bipolar My Ally”. Something along the lines of that would be a good title for a book. I am very grateful for this channel.
Loved this! I just got diagnosed with Bipolar Type 1 and it’s refreshing to see something positive like this amidst all the doom and gloom. Thank you :)
I absolutely agree about how I’m the best friend of any depressed or mentally ill person. I am the most empathetic and caring person. I’m uncomfortable around ‘normal’ people.... i also am overly generous. Way over. And then I start to realize I’m paying for everyone’s nails and eyebrows done. Seriously. My partner, and I can’t thank you enough, really got me after watching a couple of your videos. I’m an unusual bipolar. Yes I’m labeling myself...my entire family sees me that way and only that way. ... as i go up and then I’m brilliant and can start new ventures and then I come down a little and doubt myself. My downs are seldom. I get triggered and wham...first reaction/thoughts turn mortified and mean. Happened just yesterday. I still haven’t been able to deal with it. Today, at 57 now my blood pressure goes sky rocketing when someone or a song tree you name it triggers me. Yesterday when the conflict occurred my blood pressure was 160 over 100! Now I have to consider my bodily health. I just moved across the country to Florida with my mate and I gotta tell you my family still affects me. I just don’t like the constant triggers and blood pressure problems. I do take a pill for that too. Your videos are really centering for me. I’m in a new state and I can’t find a psychiatrist anywhere. You’re getting me through the scare of no Dr. yikes!
I am so glad to see this because it gives me a perspective of positive qualities I possess when dealing with BPD. This is very important for people who feel so down on themselves to the point that they may feel useless. I for one needs to see this time and again because I do get down on myself a lot. Even with medication, you are not immune to these emotions.
I've just discovered your channel, and I couldn't be more impressed. You are a great communicator and ambassador for the bipolar community. I can see you put your heart into the making of these videos.
I have been learning a lot in the past year since diagnosis. I have come to the realization that I have probably been manic for many years. I can't say that I really have experienced debilitating depression per se, but dysphoric mania is very common for me and I have had episodes of screaming/crying while hiding in the bathroom or a closet. On the other hand, I have discovered that I am excellent at motivating people and encouragement when I am well. I'm a teacher by profession, and my bipolar definitely helps me to be goal oriented.
Thank You😚 This was nice just to hear. BiPolar can defiantly be tricky.. But if you stay as Self aware as possible. It can be a great thing at times. ❤
I like when you talk about positive points about Bipolar Depression. I was depressed but now I feel I can use some of these tools . Right now I’m feeling better. Thank you!
You are providing an awesome source of information for BIPOLAR DISORDER. I was diagnosed 12 years ago. I didn't know a lot about myself when it came to my mental illness until I watched your video. I have a tendency not to be self-aware. Doesn't matter why, that is just me. To get back to the point I want to make. I had a doctor who was an Internist, which means she is not a Psychiatrist. She started to write my prescriptions because I didn't want to see a Psychiatrist, which has a co-pay for the visit, where she does not have one. What a mistake. She saw me from a physiology standpoint and did not include in her diagnosis the mental illness that is part of me as well. She didn't know how. She reduced my Psych medications because she was worried about how they could affect my heart. I am 58 years old. My heart is great, she is overcautious though. Psych meds back to where they were and all is well. I became very depressed without the meds. Depression lifted and I feel great now. I would also say meds are very important for me to be well, self discovery I have learned is also a tool kit that I can use to deal with my mental illness. Thank you very much for making the videos. I wish there was a way to reach the masses who suffer with this mental illness, so they are aware of there existence and can benefit from there existence. Good Luck everyone.
I'm in a mixed state right now and this really helps to hear about the positive side. I've been told I'm a deep thinker, very intuitive, never met a stranger, except for the isolation periods, have had many jobs that I was really good at and one actually asked me if I wanted to take a leave instead of me quiting. I would try to quit before I got fired. My Career was Cosmetology I loved. I felt so creative and awesome but unfortunately I couldn't handle two children, being in a abusive marriage and my illness. But I truly am grateful for all I've learned along the way. Thank you.
I am going to be the annoying and inappropriate worst stereotype here but i need serious information from this site only. all of the others say take your medicine. All recovery sites said taking your medicine is what you need to do. I have no need for a generic cocktail even if it is free. I need relief. The right relief and Iam completely new to this. Sorry to bother you but i think you might just understand that it takes a lot for me to bother anyone, let alone someone I already know still on a journey to learn more. Sorry to cause another problem. Just need to kinow if someone will respond here. Anyone?
Hi Kerry I think it's best to research about the subject at hand. I know it has helped me to accept the fact that I am not like everyone else and why and how to cope just to get through another day of all the symptoms that are forever present. Good luck and remember you're never alone there are plenty of other people that suffer with the same symptoms. You have found a Great channel here ....I appreciate all the research and time Robert ( Rob) ( Trey) has spent putting together another great video. Thank You
Just had my first episode turn 50 this month and can't believe I have this my sister acts like it is no big deal but she is a big help and I say Thank you from the bottom of my heart for doing these videos they probably keep me from freaking some more God bless you
Your amazing and a worrier, this is a great thing you are doing to help us understand people that are going through this illness and helping other that have this illness and they have a hard time sharing with us..... God help you and everyone that are living with this terrible illness. 🙏🏻
I have recently been diagnosed with bp2 and I've just found your channel and I think what you're doing is amazing. I'm actually going through a depressive episode right now and this video helped me feel a bit better. Thank you for what you're doing
Thank you, I was recently diagnosed a month Ago at 32, It's been a journey of acceptance, forgiveness, understanding you've made things clear so far for me, psychiatrist appointments are 15 minutes long, talking to people It's hard since they're judgemental
Whoa I love this!! I am not bipolar but I fight neurological problems, such as overcoming epilepsy, dealing with seasonal depression and battle a very mild form of PTSD and all these positive traits are spot on like having a positive attitude on life, wanting to help people, and how we can deeply think
Your program has been the best thing that’s ever happened to me. This is the kind of information that should be presented in treatment programs. Not coloring. I know you’re so busy, so I will back off leaving comments. Know that I’m behind you all the way!
I just found these videos a few days ago and it feels so good to know I'm not alone. It feels almost impossible explaining what bipolar is how my emotions to my loved ones or friend's. Thank you very much.
I got diagnosed nearly 8 yrs ago after the sudden death of my husband of 13yrs. Bipolar 1. I had my first manic episode within days of his passing. 3x more there after. I had my last, a month ago. I made it 4yrs and 13 days without an episode. Hoping to make this time around even longer❤️
Thanks for this! I like being able to laugh at the really dark stuff sometimes, and I think having bipolar helps me do that. I'm in a writing group and used to feel really self conscious because my feedback to other writers was SO different than everyone else's. I had to accept that my perspective is unconventional and that's okay. In fact, it might even be really helpful to someone.
You are awesome too! I really enjoyed this video and the positive points that were made. All to often those of us who have bipolar tend to focus on the depression and negative aspects of our lives, at least I’ve been guilty of that. Currently I’m going through radiation for breast cancer and your videos are something I look forward to. Everyone around me is terrified about my situation, but my strength comes from realizing things could be so much worse, and as a creative person I know how to handle really bad situations, like painting for example. Thank you so much for your videos!!
This really spoke to me. Everyone makes comments about how creative I am plus I'm not afraid of learning new things. I've had three great careers and have traveled throughout the country which is something others only dream of. For me the mania hasn't been super high and the depression part is my struggle. I've definitely learned to pamper myself. This experience has made me very sympathetic to others that struggle.
I think this topic was a great idea! I have bipolar 2 and find ur videos very helpful in so many ways! Thank u soooo much for caring and ur honesty. Don't ever question ur contributions for the greater good! I have shared ur videos w many of my loved ones so they can learn n understand since I have a terrible time trying to put my feelings into words that they could understand. thank u from the bottom of my heart and God bless U!!
I agree 100% with your intro... up until last week, I was in a really bad depression that almost got me hospitalized (well it did but only php and was voluntary). But before last week, I’d watch all your videos except this one just cuz the title would annoy me lol Now that I’m in a better place I’m more openminded to learn the good aspects... thanks for sharing!!
You look great Robert and YOU are AWESOME. Love the shirt by the way. Keep the content and education coming for those of us who wish to support and understand those with Bipolar.
David Rose thank you David! It’s always nice to see a comment from you. I just can’t get to all the comments anymore with how fast the channel has grown (which is very exciting), but I still try as best as I can :-) I hope you’re doing well my friend. -Robert www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
LOVE this video idea thank you I get rly depressed not just because of the disease but a lot of the times how I view myself because of the disease if you get what I’m saying
This is a fantastic perspective! There were more than a few points in this video that described traits that I've recognized in myself. You've done it again! Thanks for another great video.
Jen Ford thank you Jen!! I thought it would be nice to put some positivity out there instead of talking about symptoms :-) -Robert www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
Great video! Even though I was depressed when I watched it, it took me down memory lane. Yes, I did reach high achievements in school and my jobs before the crash. Now I volunteer in a thrift store with a food pantry. I am friendly and talk to so many people who have so many different tales. This is a skill that I did not know that I had until it was the bipolar that took me on this new adventure. Hugs to everyone!
Thank you so much for your work and (com)passion! As a fellow Polar Warrior (Type II) and as a psychologist in training I really appreciate the high quality information you provide in such a kind way. (I'm gonna copy paste this comment under a bunch of your videos, hoping to make a tiny contribution to the traffic to your channel. I would love for RUclips to introduce your work to many others.)
This is probably your best video so far, Robert. It takes such a deep knowledge of our disorder and empathy to face your task. Congrats! I used to achieve unbelievable things when I was hypomaniac, especially at playing sports, sex, sharp and bold reactions... I was brave beyond cautiousness and so self confident I even made a maitre assign me the best table in a New Orleans restaurant by convincing him I was a celebrity hehe. Now I do not experience such things anymore.
dianna I used to, yeah, like anyone of us I guess. But I don't anymore. My life turned into a boring flat line as soon as I started taking my meds for good.
Through my empathy I spend a lot of time encouraging others. Once a guy of whom I took 3 hours of my time talking to him and listening to his woes, months later he confessed to me that that night he was going inside to kill himself. By being Bipolar I literally saved his life that night. Because of incidents like that I know that I am blessed with a burden and am pleased / grateful for my gift of this disorder. Those who's lives I have changed when I reflect on them help me through the hardest, darkest sides of my apparent illness. What a warrior. These videos are a tremendous help. Please keep them coming.
I figured you were busy, and honestly, there is so much to ask. At least I can say you have helped me understand and cope. I do really thank you for your support
I really really appreciate these videos, this one reminded me that i did end up saving a life with the empathy. I spoke someone out of a life ending act and i couldn't have stayed up for three days talking to them without my hypomania. Getting that message a year later thanking me, is one of the most things i'm proud of.
At the end of a tele-health group a month ago, my I am grateful for statement was, I am grateful to be Bipolar. As you can imagine...CRICKETS...and then another group member added, well thats something you dont hear often. I thought you might enjoy that...Thank you for your work!
Yes! So glad I found your channel. I've been watching several hours now. However, I found you late last year. I know this is 2 years old but felt like responding. So many symptoms that I didn't know we're from the illness. I'm creative in that I paint and do many crafts. I will say I've done nice paintings but I don't always finish them. I like when I can channel the energy. I'm more productive.
Your videos help me understand the disorder. I've learned so much thanks to you. I hope your channel grows huge because you deserve great success with your mental health advocacy.
Me and my hubby have learned so much from watching all these videos for myself I have more understanding of my bipolar type 2 and my hubby has been watching and learning about how I feel we definitely have more understanding of each other and we're both a lot more forgiving on the bad times we're so very much indebted to you x
Hi Diane! Thank you so much for the kind words. I’m so glad that the channel has been useful to you and your hubby. If you guys ever have any questions or would like to support my advocacy work, there’s a link in the video description where you can reach me anytime. -Rob
The empathy thing is so true!! So few people have real empathy... And I find it so hard as my empathy for others is off the scale! So when they're so absent it hurts a lot.
Just found your channel. I'm a bipolar bear version 2. Neat right?! So I love your channel!! I found it at a perfect time...and have been sharing with my family and friends! Thank You for your help! You're doing an awesome job! Thank You so much!
I love being in the creative space where I get a great deal done that does have value; I could really be helped by a mentor or someone to keep me going in the same direction. Will I listen to them, lol. Maybe if they were a psychologist or even a true friend who understands me and is willing to be supportive. Listening to these videos I remember my early 20s and how much I was judged and criticized because the people around me did not understand mental illness. Even tho it brings back the pain of the couple of decades I lost in reckless risky behavior, I still enjoy listening to these videos so I do not feel alone. Thank you, Polar Warrior!
Hi, Rob offers one on one support on Patreon if you are interested. He also posts more personal information about his day to day struggles. All patrons can contact him directly by private message and he frequently offers free phone calls!!! If you decide to join, you can mention my name and he will give you a free call. Another Patreon exclusive is Rob hosting and moderating weekly support groups on discord! We have many family and friends take part. Take gentle care! 🙏 Sometimes we all need someone to talk to: www.crisistextline.org/ teenlineonline.org/talk-now/ Dianna Polar Warriors Team Member (H)old (O)n (P)ain (E)nds www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
This video is so great. It's so easy to get caught up with all the bad things of this illness so this is really refreshing and affirming. I can identify with most of these points but I would have never thought of them on my own. Thank you!
This made me smile :) I have bipolar type 2, and I do know the struggle with depression and hypomania, I've been in a really depressed state recently and just today was a pretty good day, and this video made me feel a bit better :) Thank you!
Thank you for your channel. It explains so much to me that could not comprehend. Sadly though my wife left me during what I know now as a manic state. The New Zealand public system took control of my wife and said that she was suffering from mild depression only and then took our 2 year old daughter into Foster care. I am sure you will understand what that did to my now Ex-wife. Our daughter is now 3 years old and I am fighting the Public system to get her back with Family where she belongs. I had no idea what was happening to my Ex-wife I am sure she has some idea but is not willing to confront it personally. Thank you again for you RUclips channel it has helped me to stay focused on what is really import. Eliminating the confusion of what I did not have any knowledge of. I was leaning towards Schizophrenia or Borderline personality disorder. But it neither disorder matched what I was seeing or experiencing. Thanks Bro. Keep up the good work.
I've come down but have had a bad few weeks.. I was doing so well :( Oh well, all we can do is try and work.... ALWAYS WORKING ON US. really needed this thank you.
When I'm hypomanic I talk to strangers a lot at bus shelters, and some people, especially old people seem to enjoy the conversation. I learn from people's stories. Sometimes when I talk to everyone in the shelter it sparks a discussion between everyone.
dianna it’s good that you can connect with people so freely
I talk to *anyone* when hypomanic. Last week I ran after some woman to tell her she lost her kids sun hat.... her kid was in a pushchair. She smiled, and said it wasn't hers... so she'd left it on the floor. I was like, "em ok..." I'm still happy.... I didn't even feel embarrassed... so then I *know* i'm going high. lol
That's funny! Sometimes the person I will talk too will be a little annoyed but I'm so happy I don't care and it's pretty rare. Elderly people seem to love it and they have the best stories anyway!
dianna I totally agree, older people are usually more likely to engage in random chat.
I was pretty lucky that the mother in the sun hat situation was relaxed about me accosting her. :/
So true!!! 😊❤️
Having bipolar disorder caused me to practice drums 4 hours a day and master them which led to me being in a working band and abusing drugs and alcohol. But I was damned good! I didn`t know at the time but I was self medicating. I miss it. After being forced to quit playing in a band at age 35 I began obsessively playing acoustic guitar and within two years I could sing and play hundreds of songs. I would go to parties and sing every chance I got. I got in trouble several times from mania though and also got a DUI, two drug charges and got in trouble for fighting.
At certain times I had other obsessions like building crystal radios and experimenting with electronics for months (I had garbage bags filled with hand wound coils), building antennas, studying the Apollo missions, researching DNA and science, reading dozens of books, writing songs and poems and all kinds of stuff. I even had over 100 cactus plants at one point. I couldn`t keep a steady job and my family helped me for years so it gave me time to do all these weird things.
I made money when I was in a band and worked at temporary jobs given to me by fans. Other times I sold whatever fish I could catch (illegally) because we lived on the lake. I was basically worthless because of this disease and didn`t know what was wrong with me. I didn`t get diagnosed until I was age 43. My dad and many family members gave up on me after my diagnosis. I was "crazy" and that was settled....a hopeless cause. My dad never spoke to me again. He died just over a year ago.
My family abandoned me for years and I had no way to get my medication. I lost my truck, had no way to make money, and lived in a small RV van depending on one of my sisters to pay my small electric bill. For two years I had no money for food or anything else. The town gave me one small box of food per month and that`s all I had to eat. I had to walk if I went anywhere. I had to wash clothes in a bucket and heat water for a bath in pots. I had to walk to a park and fill jugs with water. I had no bathroom.
Since starting my medication I`ve quit playing guitar, possibly because I`m sober and off drugs and alcohol. I have little interest in anything, can`t go outside because I feel like people are looking at me, and I just feel numb. I never go anywhere except to see doctors and to get my meds. My sister takes me and I go shopping with her. I don`t think I could go alone. I bought a kit of new needed parts for my guitar, three sets of strings and picks, intending to start practicing again, but my guitar sits in the corner gathering dust. A bottle of whiskey or drugs would make me pick it up but I can`t do that anymore.
The meds have made me numb and bored. I watch RUclips, bored out of my mind, and can`t find any science videos, music or anything that excites or satisfies me. The most I`ve done in months is build an outdoor antenna for my shortwave radio, which I would normally enjoy listening to, but I just don`t feel anything. The only thing I look forward to each month is getting my pain meds filled, because for several days they sometimes give me a buzz that feels good enough to allow me to enjoy myself again.
One of my sisters allowed me to move in with her. I sold my property and bought a small travel trailer and have about 4000 in the bank. Hoping to get disability. This disease ruined my life years ago because I wasn`t diagnosed in time to get help.
PS: I`m not trying to get sympathy but just thought I`d share my boring story so that others like me know they`re not alone.
I lived on a mountain last winter in a camper and skied everyday,I feel you man.The obsessions are real,it's all or nothing lmao
Thank you for sharing your story ❤ it helped
I know this is 2 years later but I hope you got more help. It sounds like you need a different doc and different meds orrr you're in a mixed state? I worry it'll take away my creative side. Recently diagnosed. I went over a decade not treated and it came to a head last year around this time. The depression was so bad it made them look at me again. Paxil wasn't the right drug for years. Antipsychotics and lamictol now. Still being creative so far. I hope you find your music again. I know what it's like to lose all interest in absolutely everything. It's the worst. You're just existing. Sending much love dude!
Thank you for sharing your interesting story. Mine sounds almost similar. I was diagnosed late (37) in life. Anyway, I got married and have two young children. I work from home as a massage therapist - qualified aromatherapist and Shiatsu practitioner. I divorced 5 years ago to get out of a severely dysfunctional and abusive relationship. But my work and my life feels so hum-drum. I take my medication as prescribed. I love my children dearly. I recently relapsed on weed and alcohol. It stopped yesterday but my life feels empty and boring and pointless. Not to mention that I am also falling further and further behind on my monthly rental so might soon face eviction. Still, the only thoughts and emotions I have are denial or heartache or a sense of dread coupled with a distinct "couldn't give a fck" attitude. That's me right now.
Your awesome thanks for your story it really helped me
My daughter has responsibly managed her bipolar disorder for 20 years… sleeps at regular hours, exercises, does not drink alcohol, takes her meds even when they stop working. I have always and perhaps wrongly advised that her medical problem is only her business … afraid that employers, colleagues and friends would not be accommodating. She is admirable in her struggle . And admirable in so many other ways.. she is empathetic; can master anything to surprising levels in a short time; she certainly has great understanding of emotion. So there are benefits..
Hi, Rob offers one on one support on Patreon if you are interested. He also posts more personal information about his day to day struggles like his recent hospital stay. For the month of July he is offering free phone calls to patrons. Another Patreon exclusive is Rob hosting and moderating weekly support groups on discord! Take gentle care! 🙏
Sometimes we all need someone to talk to:
www.crisistextline.org/
teenlineonline.org/talk-now/
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I'm from Saudi Arabia.I live in a place where is mental health a totally new topic, and there are no good therapists around here. We can go to a psychiatric for medication tho but therapist are really rare and no good. Anyhow, your videos has been my therapy. Thank you a lot for the effort.
I have the same issue-- no therapist. I'm in the US, but in a small town area.
I am from Saudi Arabia too. However, I was lucky enough to get diagnosed with Bipolar 1 by a really good Doctor who discovered that I was misdiagnosed with depression and the antidepressants caused me to have a manic episode for about a month..
it's been a two years since I've been diagnosed with Bipolar Type one, things are stable, the therapy and medication is completely free and I can communicate with my Doctor anytime I need to. I only have some difficulty with the society and their misconsptions and stigma about Bipolar Disorder...
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I'm so proud of my BP bf. Life can be difficult with him but he's so amazing and watching your videos has helped me so much to understand the condition better and - even though I can never really get what he goes through - have helped me to be more supportive and empathetic. I applaud all you BP affected ppl out there - you are heroes in my eyes ..
Robert, I always enjoy your informative videos. My wife and I have not found another channel for Bipolar that we found to be even half as helpful as yours. As for benefits to having BP, I am closer to my wife in just about every way as I know that GOD gave us to each other to complete each other. She helps me with this illness(managing ups and downs), and I do my best make her life better. I try even harder to make sure that she knows that she is loved and is special than I did a decade ago when symptoms started. I have been on meds for 8 years, and I thank GOD for modern medicine and my wife every day!
Tom Cleverley I too am blessed with an amazing and even tempered spouse. He has had some very unnuturing relationships in the past, while I had a pattern of staying in situations where I wasn't getting what I needed. We are very nurturing to one another and feel as though we were placed in each others' path at the darkest times for us both.
Tom Cleverley that was beautiful I’m glad you have such an amazing person in your life
The stats for bipolar marital success are pretty depressing. But it can be done, if we ignore these and try to harness the positives to help it succeed and downplay the negatives. I am bipolar and was married to a much younger poor clinically depressed schizoid type for about 20 years. And yes, I did sometimes stress him out with my mania but when down, we wallowed in depressed misery together in his dark dungeon of his soul. Trouble started when I got high again and things sped up and I would have to leave him behind. He was just too cold, like a block of stone then... And yet, he craved my highs that stressed him so much with activity, weird new ideas, explorations etc. Guess he needed stimulation....And I needed my cold block of stone he was, to anchor me because, in a manic high, great as it felt, it was also scary. Like a tiny sail ship on a stormy sea. No anchor, no moorings.... And bipolar mania always feels unbearably hot. We also both had post traumatic stress but, oddly enough, both our mental conditions helped us beat PTSD, a beast of an illness but not invincible. Not everything about all mental illness is bad. Some is actually positive. But most, including sufferers will only see the negatives. Society conditions people to think in such a limited way and that causes a lot of unnecessary societal damage and wasted potential in many aspects of private lives and society as a whole. Will they ever see the light?
"Not everyone with bipolar is some creative genius who's gonna save the world"
Manic phase: Hold my teacup!
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True, lol! So me!
Im going through a depressive episode now and this made me cry kind of happy tears. Thank you so much
i'm glad you felt happy by this video
Don't give up, mate. Ride the waves and slay the dragon.
He's so good at expaining things.
He is awesome
It's nice to know that I'm. Not alone and others struggle with some of the same things I have struggled with for years. There's really no one I can talk to about this. Your channel is truly a blessing
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Thank you for all the good videos. And very nicely presented. I'm 64 with bipolar II since 19. It is tough, and sometimes too much. But it's well worth the trip. And I look forward to seeing my own future. Meds have eliminated most of my downtimes.
I really appreciate your balance views in the videos. I tend to get carried away. Not you. And you are brave enough to make videos while you are going through a 'spell'. Good for you. You have helped me.
I find that many bipolar people are especially loveable. Maybe their pain has wash away convention to reveal something beautiful. Lucky us. Keep up the good work. Keep enjoying your unusual life.
I totally agree with all the positive sides of Bipolar that you have mentioned! I may have the Bipolar illness but I have always considered myself an INTELLECTUAL. My hypomania makes me THIRST for more knowledge. I get total excitement from reading a lot of books because of my desire to help alleviate my Bipolar symptoms. I also delve into learning more languages. I speak three fluently right now. Thank you sooo much for what you are doing! More power to you and your desire to help us who are suffering yet learning from your own experiences.
If I didn't have bipolar disorder I don't think I would be as good at poetry or essay writing. They're my favorite ways to harness that creative energy you mentioned. Thanks so much for all the hard work you do. Your videos have inspired me to try counciling again and talk to my doctor about a low dose mood stabilizer (as I'm sensitive to medication).
So many of us have been positively impacted by your videos. Keep up the good work (and thanks again!)✌
I have BPD and medication failed me but I got help from self counselling via self help books on this and other conditions,too. But only the ones by real is officially and professionally qualified experts in mental health matters. I diligently worked through set exercises and they helped me deal with my problems in a discreet,very private, convenient and inexpensive way,as I was poor and isolated, living in rural Australia where we have a high incidence of serious mental illness dye to the very harsher conditions, poverty, social isolation etc. One thing we do have his resilience,though. Each time I survived a bad bipolar peak or trough,I grew stronger, ready for the next inevitable wave. It got easier with time. As the medication only made it worse I had to devise a better way to deal with "the waves". I sat beside the big surf beach waves where I live and thought and thought and thought.... About all the ways I could "end it all" and then all the ways I could live on and be happier and opted for the latter which meant figuring out a way to achieve this goal. I knew it involved closely tuning into my own body and mind to discover what causes what to happen. So I did that and wrote it all down,to detect patterns etc and discovered a few key things that influence my bipolar eg what goes into my mouth and brain, what my skin is exposed eg hot/cold, the social and psychological environments I am exposed to, chemicals in the air and the types of activity I have to do eg certain routines that aggravate my bipolar in some states, even when other obsessive compulsive types are the ones doing such repetition,which drives me nuts. I was able to work out my own self help plan and I keep improving it because it works for me. The only drawback is it requires great self discipline, it is so boring and other people think I am a freak because I do what i I must for to remain sane eg turn down incitations to lavish scrumptious banquets where I know I will be expected to eat food that will adversely affect my mental health. If you go down the self help path you need to be very careful and responsible. It is not for the feint hearted but worth doing if you must. I would take medication if I got badly out of control and became dangerous. But if I can do without it,I do. I hate all the deprivations involved and effort etc but it is worth it. Compared with how crazy medication made me feel. Even lithium salts which stopped the wild mood swings but turned me into a vegetable with no motivation, no creativity and I stacked on weight from it though it is finally coming off. Years after stopping lithium.
this made me both laugh and cry, really rough day. been rapid cycling. thanks for this
Thank you so much for pointing out the positives. I’ve been in deep depression for several months and it’s hard for me to focus on the positive aspects in my life but when you mentioned empathy and resilience it made me look at my condition in a different way. Because I have to deal with so much internally it has made me stronger. I recently went through three traumatic losses. I lost my husband to cancer and both of my parents within a three year period. People kept telling me how strong I was. I thought they were crazy but now I understand that the coping mechanisms that I’ve used to help with my bipolar has transferred to other aspects of my life as well. Thanks for reminding me of that
Just saw your post and hope you're doing well. Losing all three of those special people must have been extremely difficult.
Am so sad p for your great losses. You are very strong. No one has your coping mechanisms and it is a great pity they came from this terrible illness.
Certain manic states unlock artistic abilities that otherwise I don't have. Has anyone else experienced this M
hhorton86 I have had many artists tell me the same thing. I have made some of my best videos when I’ve been manic. There are definitely some positive sides to bipolar disorder :-)
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Yay! Welcome to the erratic creativity! I can be creative in both the high and low parts if the bipolar wave but they are different types of creativity. The depressed creativity is more intense and thought provoking and often sombre but that's OK. life does always have to be bright and manic and exciting. Tap into these different types of creativity because,when down, you can feel like you simply have no artistic or any other kind of creativity at all. I just "veg out". Very quiet. Seething with well controlled anger, just locking myself away in my bed room so I can harm nobody else. It was during one such town phases that I discovered just how creative the down phase can be,especially for cleaning up and perfecting all sorts of crazy creative projects I start but seldom finish in a manic state. Because the mania gives way to depression and the half finished projects are left hanging there, half done. Fortunately I always have people keen yo steal my manic ideas but that's OK because I can easily get heaps more new and better ones. Of others finish off what I start and take all the credit for my original ideas. That's OK,too because some normal types are very spiritually deprived, creativity challenged, intellectually challenged etc and we all have a social responsibility to be caring towards others deprived in certain respects. So I let them. But there are some harder things I start in a manic phase that remain unfinished. I pick these up in my down phase and try yo complete them. The results are often astounding and I can feel do good about it that it lifts the depression eg I can suddenly do or play some music or solve some problem I had been hopelessly trying to solve for years. Suddenly it clicks. But never in the manic phase. Always the down phase. The manic phase is for new exciting things and for flying high, forget tedious details and perfectionism. I am a stickler for high standards and getting it right, but only in the down mood. I can't let such tedium or routine etc slow me down when onto something new and exciting during a manic phase.
I haven't been diagnosed as bipolar yet but I'm showing a lot of the symptoms. I get the same. And obsessing over a certain hobby for less than a month usually and then giving up and moving on.
Half the people on my friends list on FB have bipolar disorder. I followed them for their music. I didn't know they had bipolar lol.
Watching this a couple of years later, and from a much different part of my cycle, I connected less but appreciate more. I mean, I'm pretty sure I'm heading into a crash so it's hard to connect with any of the positives right now. BUT, seeing where I did connect before, and being reminded that the positives exist whether I see them or not, is reassuring. Even if I can't think outside the box, that doesn't mean the outside isn't there. It'll be interesting to see how long I can hold onto that hope as I go through this part of the ride. Thanks, as always!
Thank you for this video. All of your videos are so helpful. When I am manic, I can't shut up. I constantly have to be the comedian and make people laugh at work.
I've been in an extended period of depression and am in the middle of med changeup, who knows how this will go 😊 I was diagnosed much later in life than most people - 48. As an overachiever in a creative field, it was easy to write off erratic behavior and bursts of creative energy followed by periods of creative inactivity. I now see I was saving my creative phases of projects for manic periods and doing production work during down times. I can look back at the very year I was the most creative, won lots of awards, etc., as one where I must have been manic a long time. Exotic travel, new hobbies, etc.
I watched this knowing I need to be on a freelance project but am struggling - way behind schedule. I find myself wanting a manic episode to come on just so I can knock this out!
I now know why I have always been so aware of healthy eating, getting vitamin D, needing lots of natural lighting and time outside. Great video.
I think the biggest rewards for me of this channel is what my spouse can learn from them that I can't always articulate.
I totally get what you are saying! I'm newly diagnosed at 42 and looking back with these new eyes is so weird. So much makes sense. It's a little sad, a little bit of a relief, a little puzzling how this went undiagnosed so long. I also did some exotic travelling and picked up random hobbies and trades. I also had some wild times in the bedroom, or more accurately not in the bedroom ;)
I am late diagnosee as well.
I am 50 in July and I have been diagnosed only last month, although I suspected that from my own research for over a year...
I haven't been diagnosed because I have always been on high or normal, never in real depression. Therefore I didn't take my 36 hours working spans and other things as something to be worried about. I have had bit of hard look at my inability to finish things to the detail, but hey, that's what I had my people to do. I was manger to show them way and after to tell them to finish it off, didn't I? :-))
It all came all downhill at once after breakup with my ex. Week to week I have been broke unemployed homeless in different town 100 miles away sleeping on friends sofa, because that was only place I could go to stay off streets. And on the top I was banned from driving for 6 months for speeding. I have been seconds from committing suicide, but stopped by event I can't explain in any other way as supernatural.
I guess God wants me to finish something before checking out...
I was officially diagnosed 1 year ago at 23 years old with both Bipolar Disorder type 2 with ultra-rapid cycling and Borderline Personality Disorder after going through a massive depressive episode and attempting suicide. I can't even put in words how much your channel is helping me going through this tornado of emotions every single day. Thank you so so much. 💜
Thank you for sharing with us. I'm so glad to hear that Rob's channel has been such a huge help to you during the struggles you've been through. If you'd like to help support Rob in what he does with Polar Warriors I'd encourage you to consider joining him on Patreon. He posts exclusive content there and is available to reply to direct messages through that platform. Polar Warriors is completely supported by viewer donations. I'll include the link so you can check it out! :) Even if you can't join we value you being part of the community here! Take good care and hope your weekend is going well. -Rachel (Polar Warriors team member)
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I was diagnosed BPD 2 about 3 weeks ago at 28 but have been dealing with this unknowingly since I was 16.The part about learning and jumping hobbies every week is so spot on,I have taught myself a lot of skills because of this.I went to culinary school,can rebuild vehicles,build computers,ski at expert level,skateboard and a few other neat little tricks here and there.That being said,these skills have taken years to develop because I am always floating around and trying new things.Obsessed for a week to a month and then dropped like a hot pan.
I was diagnosed with BP a few years ago, but only realized I actually have it recently.. if that makes sense.. your videos have helped me a lot with coming to terms and whatnot. This video especially. These are all things I’ve felt for majority of my life, many people call me “gifted”. I’m very artistic, empathetic, love making others laugh, I go all in with my many interests, I excel in the work place, I’ll leave out the negatives for this thread. But your videos have also helped my relationship tremendously, having you put these things into words that I can’t express while going through it. I’m glad you found this path and that I came across it 🙂 🍀
Thank you so much for sharing that with us Sierra. That does make sense what you said, about only realizing it recently, that you have it. It can take some time to fully come to terms with the diagnosis. Sounds like you have many positive attributes and a lot to offer to others. I hope you're doing really well this weekend! :) -Rachel (Polar Warriors team member)
I have helped so many people with bipolar. Even when i could hardly help myself.
Yes. The Polar Warrior videos are great. I try to help other sufferers, too. Even when down myself and hardly able to get out of bed all day. I found that when I help others, it helps me feel better. The strangest help I was ever called on to give was requested by a very large Bipolar mum with Type 1 Bipolar and very bombastic, until hospitalised. She managed to take the ceiling out of her house with her bare hands in her extreme rage. People feared her strength and power. Not only had she been a mother but also a top business woman, investi g on the stock exchange, making and losing a fortune, then the bipolar anger kicked in... She wanted me to sit on her lap and be her little golden haired child she never had and was now never able to have. So I braced myself and did it and sang her a song, like she wanted.... "I know you are a poor little orphan..." she said. Well,she had no idea about my background but, intuitively, she was spot on. Such empathy amidst all her destructive bombastic rage and fear she engendered. I was not an orphan but had been living like one since early childhood. My finding the courage to climb onto her massive big muscly lap enabled her to get in touch with her gentler inner self. She became calmer. Now, every time I see that sculpture at the arts centre of that big fat mama sitting down, I feel the need to climb onto her lap. I pretend to clan around and be photographed there. But my reasons are not just to seek attention....
I'd love to be in manic episode forever. In that stage, life is heavenly. 🤓
Until it's not 😕
I love when I’m manic because I come up with some really creative stuff and I can get a lot of stuff done but when you have the Lows it’s harder than crap to get anything done 💞😷
I like the middle ground with a few ups and downs here and there. No mania for me. 🚫 It's scary.
Be careful what you wish for.
@@cindyolson2288 yes, I'm the same, but i do manage to get small things done in the low times.
Lmao I know when I'm manic when as soon as I wake up, energy shoots throughout my body and I JUMP out of bed. I also talk a lot more and feel less apprehensive to say the things I want. I get irritable here and there, but mostly a euphoric, excited, and energetic version of me. My lows are the complete opposite. I wake up anxious, wondering if I should call out, and drag myself around the whole day.
This is so flipping amazing! I literally just asked myself yesterday "If this is something I am going to have to live with, is there any positives outside the somewhat euphoria during the highs?" And then there is this:) thanks!
Alicia Hidalgo EXACTLY. 🥰
I'll give you a tip: the only way to carry on is to get into the mindset of "What are the positives in this negative situation?" and focus on those. Once you fully get into this mindset, you bounce back from hard times a lot faster than most people.
I’ve come to love you Rob. Thank you for this. You made the difference in my life.
I will always remember that.
Have you heard of CRIP TIME? We get used to, over the years, having to successfully adjust our schedules by keeping them flexible. (Depending on our mood state.) When COVID hit, My bipolar friends and I agreed, "We got this!" while others were thrown off by forced changes in their schedules. YES, your channel helps much!! Thank you.
I can so relate to this! Everyone around me is freaking out and I’m kinda like..?? Uh ok.. y’all just calm down 😂
Thanks you so much for the channel and it’s content! I’ve been looking for this sort of info for years and just last week found your channel. It’s quickly become somewhat of a best friend in my life, I listen, reflect on what your saying in a journal or throughout the day and get back to watch a next one. Each time being comforted that your perspective is calming, accepting and teaches me something new which in turn distracts me from my own negative thoughts. You manage to talk about stuff I’ve been wondering about for YEARS despite the fact that I’ve actually had people and doctors to talk to but not at all in the way you explain it. (And for once I’m neither hypomanic, depressed or mixed so I thought I’d say it with an honest voice of wise mind.) Thank you.
You are very insighful and i can identify with a lot of those positives. Fantastic talk once again! Thank you!! 😀
IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!! GREAT TO BE 38!😚
CONGRATULATIONS! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! My 38th is next month.
Right on! Happy Birthday! I’m 38 too😊😊
Happy birthday!!
Fellow bipolar 38 y old🎉😃
Happy Happy Birthday!! 🎉🎉 I ‘m grateful for each of my 60+ years and make sure I celebrate each one ! Life has been an adventure with many mountaintop moments and some time spent in the valleys. Just coming out of a pretty difficult valley but life is good again 😉!
Happy Birthday! I am 38 also.
I think you are amazing. Yes I do believe that my bipolar does give me very good character. I make people laugh all the time, always smiling... Sometimes most of the time. I love your channel
Bipolar people are very charming until we have a depressive episode or if someone pisses you off.
I think that's so cool Shelly! Another person said something about making people laugh and I do too! Perhaps it's because we know the importance of making the best out of a bad situation.
Yes!!!😊❤️
dianna yea some people think I'm rude for laughing when things go down the hill. A lot of times it's hard to find something good out of something bad. I just laugh. I LOVE to laugh and make other people laugh and smile.
:)
Another great video! As a loved one, I have seen all of the positive things you mentioned. When it isn’t so positive, I have learned to focus more on me and remember that those positive things are what make me love this person as much as I do. It may not always be easy, but worth it! I will be forever grateful for the information and knowledge you have given me! You are awesome!!
Your videos have helped me so much in so many ways I understand myself and disorder way more even when to notice signs of a symptom of a flair up.
This is the best thing that I have ever done. I am talking about finding this channel and being able to feel like I am not alone. This is my journey. You have done an amazing job in explaining my condition. I feel now that I can own it. This is not who I am. This is what I have. I thank you and please keep doing what you are doing!
You have certainly saved me from myself today. 🤗😂
Thank you 😊 when I am on manic I work my a** off when I am depressed I have to push myself to get food ready for my family and just survive! I took St. John’s wort yesterday and today I just feel very good not manic but just happy and joyful 😀
I can relate to your feeling. Ummm... I once got into a bad altercation with my workplace boss and colleagues for starting so much new work to meet or exceed business targets set by management. I was deadly serious about 'achieving targets by deadlines' and got cracking because I knew it would be a tough job and time running out. No coffee breaks, no lunch breaks. Got to work very early, finished late. Took work home. Who needs to waste time sleeping or eating. I utilised every moment of public transport travel. I was going to make the set targets. Next thing I find is colleagues complaining about feeling threatened by 'a maniac' in their workplace. The union rep taps me on the shoulder and 'warns' me to ease up... People wasting my precious time. And then the boss starts,too. Hauls me into his office to discuss my "work performance", when he and the rest of them were wasting so much of my valuable time rapidly running out that my chances of making targets set were rapidly diminishing and I was starting to tumble into a steep downer, caused by THEM,as I had great intentions, being a very fair, honest worker. He began to tell me how irresponsible I was starting so much new work blah, blah, blah and I reminded him of 'set targets' and he informed me that HE determines targets, not me and I was getting furious and so was he ... "You set the F;'??*n targets and here is written proof of it" I snapped and handed him some bullshit document he had written about setting targets blah blah blah. I got threatened with 'disciplinary action' and told I had no hope of meeting the target and deadline. I was ropeable by then because I could not bear to fail. "Wanna make a bet?" I challenged him. But he ignored my challenge and told me the meeting was over. But, I still needed to discuss 'targets set' and best strategy to meet the deadlines. Next thing I find I am moved to this dead head section where nobody bothered doing any work and it was just so depressing there I felt like doing something to these types, just to check if they were 'still alive'. So I did a few things most normal sane people would complain about eg as insulting or offensive. Much yo my shock, they lapped it all up and even told me I was the best thing that ever happened to their rotten work section.
Ditto, I am a St. John's Wort Bipolar warrior. Works so well, took 90% of the load off my shoulders, I thought I would float away. Wonderful!
I take advice from a rap song called Cocaine 80s - Motivation.
"Take ups and downs to make it, just motivate."
So I use the energy from the mania to achieve what I want, then I use the depression as motivation to keep moving and get to a better place. I might have to go harder in depressive periods but it means that I'm not in my bedroom crying all the time.
I subscribed to your channel because you keep it real. I got diagnosed when it was still a giant stigmata. I was 20 and I'm 45 now and even after 25 years I still learn something new from your channel.
Thanks for subbing Chris, glad you're here! 🙏🏽
Mania is like lighting a candle on both ends.
Of course, creativity energy is off the charts
Another great video Rob! It's wonderful to find the silver lining! Although an illness like bipolar can be so challenging, finding, and allowing the positive traits to shine through is a great idea. I'm so glad you pointed this out in this video. I'm sure many Polar Warriors are Blessed by looking at the positive traits you pointed out. May all of the Polar Warriors out there embrace the positive things, and be Blessed!
Thank you so much my awesome friend!😊🙏
You are welcome!
I’m so happy I found this channel. I was diagnosed with bipolar about 3 years ago and I learn something new about myself all the time.
I'm really glad to hear that our channel has been helpful for you! It's amazing how much we can learn about ourselves through shared experiences.
I know this illness can be incredibly hard to navigate. I'd love to offer any support I can... If it interests you, I have a private community where you can message me directly and network with other people who are going through similar struggles. No pressure of course, but it would be great to have you join us. I'm very accessible and happy to answer any questions you have...
Below is a link to my private community on Patreon. It's where you can message me directly and I'll get back to you right away. We can also arrange a phone call if that would be more helpful.
-Rob
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I use to work at Wal-Mart and i always was told i had awesome leadership skills but because my ex kicking out i couldn't go to that next but then i got something in mail by Wal-Mart that was they were that i display and shown really good leadership effort and hard work no matter what i was doing i sure do miss it but once i get my ssi and ssd I'm planning to work there part time as a door greeter . I have lately showing my friends on Facebook that i have a huge heart helping others by talk about mental illness or talking them out of hurting them. I'll never change the way I am. This channel has made awareness to my Bi polar and I also recommend my friends to your videos thanks so for what you do.
Cleemdalla Radio thank you so much for the common my friend! I am very grateful for people like you on my channel.😊
Well, they obviously valued and liked you.... And care about you or at least they need you. If you miss the workplace there I think that is good enough reason to try again, once you get your life back on track again. Good luck with it. I'd go back if in your shoes. Never mind big promotions or prestige jobs or even big money jobs. A good work place with a good caring employer and doing a job you really love doing is something money cannot buy. But worth having, for the joy it can give. Compared with the misery of a rotten workplace full of awful competitive workers and absolute arseholes as management and having to do shit work routines you hate for most of the time, though one cannot expect it to be ALL fun all of the time, obviously....
Unbelievably helpful, have experienced almost 100 percent info provided. I will share this with four others who have bipolar and are experiening.
I'm manic so totally ready for this video...:-)
I really need to ask this blogger only a specific question. I posed it here but weht nanic while writng it. I posted anway. I want to save my own life even if i have no support. will he read my post here?
Hey Kerry, he replied to you on one of your other posts, I truly hope you are well know, he replied to you a couple of weeks ago. Take care❤️
Shahid Naqshbandi same 😂😂😂
Thank you for this video. I was just recently diagnosed with Bipolar disorder and am having trouble wrapping my head around it... this is making me feel much better.
This is the most helpful video I’ve ever seen. It just made me realize that accepting bipolar and sticking to my treatment has saved my life and made me a much better person than I was before treatment. I will watch it again and again. Thank you for making this video.
hi! just wanted to say that your videos really help me through the dismissal of the people around me including my parents and friends. thank you. i hope that you continue doing these
Patricia SA I won’t stop anytime soon 😊😊
Excellent Video, some great insights! Found it very positive! Excellent beginning, there is an appropriate time/mood to watch or study according to your condition. Sometimes hard to know if you are hypomanic when you feel good! I also recognise the excessive use of the Gym to exhaustion! At the time it just feels you are well motivated!
I'm definitely manic I just baked 140 gingerbread men so I'm very ready for the video
Hi Robert,
The videos that I have watched and listened to have been helpful. Because I am currently in between jobs, I have not officially become a Polar Warrior, but it is my clear intention to do so when I start working again.
In retrospect, when I am hypomanic, I feel positive and hopeful. Hypomanic causes me to do things that help me to get stuff done that needs to be done; It motivates me. It also allows me to read for long periods of time and heal through writing. I can easily sit and write for 6 to 8 hours when I am hypomanic. I am able to walk my dogs, make homemade green chili and do things that I enjoy doing. It also allows me to connect with people who have the same diagnosis as me.
When I am hypomanic I have realized that I am being abnormal and causes me to be very careful about what I am thinking about and decisions that I make.
A positive thing about depression is that is causes me to think about times when I have hit rock bottom and they can serve as a rude awakenings or tools that can help to bring me out of a depression. I have been rapid cycling and because of that I decided to start keeping track of my moods and frequency of fluctuations and helps to put things into perspective when I go back and read what I wrote when I feel stable.
For me, I feel the most stable about 45 minutes after I take my first dose of my medication in the morning and about 10 minutes after drinking a small cup of coffee or hot water with the juice of a whole lemon. Having Bipolar helps me to have a routine. I feel more stable in a very structured environment. When I am rapid cycling, having a routine or plan can help me to come out of the depression much quicker.
Another really good thing about having Bipolar is being able to frequently talk with my psychotherapist and psychiatrist about my racing thoughts and things that I “read into”. It helps me with time management and causes me to be very open to diversity and how to learn to deal with and cope with people who are different than me. Whenever I meet with my psychiatrist and psychotherapist, I get a sudden sense of calm and peace, even if I initially walk into the building being symptomatic. Those are safe places, for me, that I look forward to. I love the rapport that we have and I cherish those professional relationships.
Having Bipolar causes me to be obsequiously mindful, but not to a point where I feel overwhelmed or stressed about over analyzing mindfulness, which is a really good thing.
One thing that I “love” about having Bipolar is that I am extremely compassionate and empathetic. I am a true empath and it causes me to feel good that I truly care about people to the point where it can trigger me to be manic, depressed or have mixed episodes. That’s a really good way for me to look at it. That is a type of obsequiousness that is not desirable, but the silver lining is that I truly do care about people and that thought can help me if and when red flags go up as indications that I may be in the beginning stages being symptomatic. Being Bipolar helps my to be more aware of metacognition and I think that is a really good thing and can help me when I choose to or need to communicate with people in a healthy manner. These were some of my thoughts about how having Bipolar is positive and benevolent. Oh yeah, having Bipolar has caused me to realize that I truly am benevolent even though I sometimes struggle with poor judgement and self control. It has helped me to pinpoint the areas of my life that I really need to zero in on. Bipolar is not who I truly am, it is just something that I have and I am learning to master it instead of it mastering me. A couple of years after I was diagnosed with Bipolar I read a book called “Make Anger Your Ally” by Dr. Neil Clark Warren. That was about 14 years ago. Now I just had the thought of “Making Bipolar My Ally”. Something along the lines of that would be a good title for a book.
I am very grateful for this channel.
Loved this! I just got diagnosed with Bipolar Type 1 and it’s refreshing to see something positive like this amidst all the doom and gloom. Thank you :)
I love your videos! You help make really complicated issues so understandable that I can share them with others easily. Thank you!
I absolutely agree about how I’m the best friend of any depressed or mentally ill person. I am the most empathetic and caring person. I’m uncomfortable around ‘normal’ people.... i also am overly generous. Way over. And then I start to realize I’m paying for everyone’s nails and eyebrows done. Seriously. My partner, and I can’t thank you enough, really got me after watching a couple of your videos. I’m an unusual bipolar. Yes I’m labeling myself...my entire family sees me that way and only that way. ... as i go up and then I’m brilliant and can start new ventures and then I come down a little and doubt myself. My downs are seldom. I get triggered and wham...first reaction/thoughts turn mortified and mean. Happened just yesterday. I still haven’t been able to deal with it. Today, at 57 now my blood pressure goes sky rocketing when someone or a song tree you name it triggers me. Yesterday when the conflict occurred my blood pressure was 160 over 100! Now I have to consider my bodily health. I just moved across the country to Florida with my mate and I gotta tell you my family still affects me. I just don’t like the constant triggers and blood pressure problems. I do take a pill for that too.
Your videos are really centering for me. I’m in a new state and I can’t find a psychiatrist anywhere. You’re getting me through the scare of no Dr. yikes!
I am so glad to see this because it gives me a perspective of positive qualities I possess when dealing with BPD. This is very important for people who feel so down on themselves to the point that they may feel useless. I for one needs to see this time and again because I do get down on myself a lot. Even with medication, you are not immune to these emotions.
I've just discovered your channel, and I couldn't be more impressed. You are a great communicator and ambassador for the bipolar community. I can see you put your heart into the making of these videos.
I'm learning French to fight my disease
Hi, Robert! You are so cute, funny and smart person doing very important job!
I have been learning a lot in the past year since diagnosis. I have come to the realization that I have probably been manic for many years. I can't say that I really have experienced debilitating depression per se, but dysphoric mania is very common for me and I have had episodes of screaming/crying while hiding in the bathroom or a closet. On the other hand, I have discovered that I am excellent at motivating people and encouragement when I am well. I'm a teacher by profession, and my bipolar definitely helps me to be goal oriented.
Thank You😚 This was nice just to hear. BiPolar can defiantly be tricky.. But if you stay as Self aware as possible. It can be a great thing at times. ❤
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I like when you talk about positive points about Bipolar Depression. I was depressed but now I feel I can use some of these tools . Right now I’m feeling better. Thank you!
You are providing an awesome source of information for BIPOLAR DISORDER. I was diagnosed 12 years ago. I didn't know a lot about myself when it came to my mental illness until I watched your video. I have a tendency not to be self-aware. Doesn't matter why, that is just me. To get back to the point I want to make. I had a doctor who was an Internist, which means she is not a Psychiatrist. She started to write my prescriptions because I didn't want to see a Psychiatrist, which has a co-pay for the visit, where she does not have one. What a mistake. She saw me from a physiology standpoint and did not include in her diagnosis the mental illness that is part of me as well. She didn't know how. She reduced my Psych medications because she was worried about how they could affect my heart. I am 58 years old. My heart is great, she is overcautious though. Psych meds back to where they were and all is well. I became very depressed without the meds. Depression lifted and I feel great now. I would also say meds are very important for me to be well, self discovery I have learned is also a tool kit that I can use to deal with my mental illness. Thank you very much for making the videos. I wish there was a way to reach the masses who suffer with this mental illness, so they are aware of there existence and can benefit from there existence. Good Luck everyone.
I'm in a mixed state right now and this really helps to hear about the positive side. I've been told I'm a deep thinker, very intuitive, never met a stranger, except for the isolation periods, have had many jobs that I was really good at and one actually asked me if I wanted to take a leave instead of me quiting. I would try to quit before I got fired. My Career was Cosmetology I loved. I felt so creative and awesome but unfortunately I couldn't handle two children, being in a abusive marriage and my illness. But I truly am grateful for all I've learned along the way. Thank you.
Admire your stamina, luv. Life much to short to put up with abusive people.
Great research, polar warrior! Loved this video. 👍👍🔥
I am going to be the annoying and inappropriate worst stereotype here but i need serious information from this site only. all of the others say take your medicine. All recovery sites said taking your medicine is what you need to do. I have no need for a generic cocktail even if it is free. I need relief. The right relief and Iam completely new to this. Sorry to bother you but i think you might just understand that it takes a lot for me to bother anyone, let alone someone I already know still on a journey to learn more. Sorry to cause another problem. Just need to kinow if someone will respond here. Anyone?
Hi Kerry I think it's best to research about the subject at hand. I know it has helped me to accept the fact that I am not like everyone else and why and how to cope just to get through another day of all the symptoms that are forever present. Good luck and remember you're never alone there are plenty of other people that suffer with the same symptoms. You have found a Great channel here ....I appreciate all the research and time Robert ( Rob) ( Trey) has spent putting together another great video. Thank You
Just had my first episode turn 50 this month and can't believe I have this my sister acts like it is no big deal but she is a big help and I say Thank you from the bottom of my heart for doing these videos they probably keep me from freaking some more God bless you
Your amazing and a worrier, this is a great thing you are doing to help us understand people that are going through this illness and helping other that have this illness and they have a hard time sharing with us..... God help you and everyone that are living with this terrible illness. 🙏🏻
I have recently been diagnosed with bp2 and I've just found your channel and I think what you're doing is amazing. I'm actually going through a depressive episode right now and this video helped me feel a bit better. Thank you for what you're doing
Thank you, I was recently diagnosed a month Ago at 32, It's been a journey of acceptance, forgiveness, understanding you've made things clear so far for me, psychiatrist appointments are 15 minutes long, talking to people It's hard since they're judgemental
this was exactly what i needed today. thank you
Whoa I love this!!
I am not bipolar but I fight neurological problems, such as overcoming epilepsy, dealing with seasonal depression and battle a very mild form of PTSD and all these positive traits are spot on like having a positive attitude on life, wanting to help people, and how we can deeply think
I love this video
Your program has been the best thing that’s ever happened to me. This is the kind of information that should be presented in treatment programs. Not coloring. I know you’re so busy, so I will back off leaving comments. Know that I’m behind you all the way!
Thank you so much Julie! I’m so glad the videos have been helpful. Stop by the channel anytime!
-Rob
I just found these videos a few days ago and it feels so good to know I'm not alone. It feels almost impossible explaining what bipolar is how my emotions to my loved ones or friend's. Thank you very much.
I got diagnosed nearly 8 yrs ago after the sudden death of my husband of 13yrs. Bipolar 1. I had my first manic episode within days of his passing. 3x more there after. I had my last, a month ago. I made it 4yrs and 13 days without an episode. Hoping to make this time around even longer❤️
Thanks for this! I like being able to laugh at the really dark stuff sometimes, and I think having bipolar helps me do that. I'm in a writing group and used to feel really self conscious because my feedback to other writers was SO different than everyone else's. I had to accept that my perspective is unconventional and that's okay. In fact, it might even be really helpful to someone.
Absolutely!
You are awesome too! I really enjoyed this video and the positive points that were made. All to often those of us who have bipolar tend to focus on the depression and negative aspects of our lives, at least I’ve been guilty of that. Currently I’m going through radiation for breast cancer and your videos are something I look forward to. Everyone around me is terrified about my situation, but my strength comes from realizing things could be so much worse, and as a creative person I know how to handle really bad situations, like painting for example. Thank you so much for your videos!!
Your soo strong!
dianna Thank you, I’m really trying to be!
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This really spoke to me. Everyone makes comments about how creative I am plus I'm not afraid of learning new things. I've had three great careers and have traveled throughout the country which is something others only dream of. For me the mania hasn't been super high and the depression part is my struggle. I've definitely learned to pamper myself. This experience has made me very sympathetic to others that struggle.
I think this topic was a great idea! I have bipolar 2 and find ur videos very helpful in so many ways! Thank u soooo much for caring and ur honesty. Don't ever question ur contributions for the greater good! I have shared ur videos w many of my loved ones so they can learn n understand since I have a terrible time trying to put my feelings into words that they could understand. thank u from the bottom of my heart and God bless U!!
Thank you so much for your support and kind words Lisa!
I just discovered this channel a few days ago. I have watched a lot of videos and they are very inspiring. Thank you!
I agree 100% with your intro... up until last week, I was in a really bad depression that almost got me hospitalized (well it did but only php and was voluntary). But before last week, I’d watch all your videos except this one just cuz the title would annoy me lol Now that I’m in a better place I’m more openminded to learn the good aspects... thanks for sharing!!
You look great Robert and YOU are AWESOME. Love the shirt by the way. Keep the content and education coming for those of us who wish to support and understand those with Bipolar.
David Rose thank you David! It’s always nice to see a comment from you. I just can’t get to all the comments anymore with how fast the channel has grown (which is very exciting), but I still try as best as I can :-) I hope you’re doing well my friend.
-Robert
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LOVE this video idea thank you I get rly depressed not just because of the disease but a lot of the times how I view myself because of the disease if you get what I’m saying
This is a fantastic perspective! There were more than a few points in this video that described traits that I've recognized in myself. You've done it again! Thanks for another great video.
Jen Ford thank you Jen!! I thought it would be nice to put some positivity out there instead of talking about symptoms :-)
-Robert
www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
Great video! Even though I was depressed when I watched it, it took me down memory lane. Yes, I did reach high achievements in school and my jobs before the crash. Now I volunteer in a thrift store with a food pantry. I am friendly and talk to so many people who have so many different tales. This is a skill that I did not know that I had until it was the bipolar that took me on this new adventure. Hugs to everyone!
Hear, hear Eileen!!
Thank you so much for your work and (com)passion! As a fellow Polar Warrior (Type II) and as a psychologist in training I really appreciate the high quality information you provide in such a kind way.
(I'm gonna copy paste this comment under a bunch of your videos, hoping to make a tiny contribution to the traffic to your channel. I would love for RUclips to introduce your work to many others.)
This is probably your best video so far, Robert. It takes such a deep knowledge of our disorder and empathy to face your task. Congrats!
I used to achieve unbelievable things when I was hypomaniac, especially at playing sports, sex, sharp and bold reactions... I was brave beyond cautiousness and so self confident I even made a maitre assign me the best table in a New Orleans restaurant by convincing him I was a celebrity hehe. Now I do not experience such things anymore.
I have some really interesting stories too! Thanks for the kind words. Your comment means a lot to me!
Julio, it sounds like you have some wicked cool stories to tell!
dianna I used to, yeah, like anyone of us I guess. But I don't anymore. My life turned into a boring flat line as soon as I started taking my meds for good.
I hear you! I bet our bodies are thanking us though for slowing down.
Through my empathy I spend a lot of time encouraging others. Once a guy of whom I took 3 hours of my time talking to him and listening to his woes, months later he confessed to me that that night he was going inside to kill himself. By being Bipolar I literally saved his life that night. Because of incidents like that I know that I am blessed with a burden and am pleased / grateful for my gift of this disorder. Those who's lives I have changed when I reflect on them help me through the hardest, darkest sides of my apparent illness. What a warrior. These videos are a tremendous help. Please keep them coming.
I figured you were busy, and honestly, there is so much to ask. At least I can say you have helped me understand and cope. I do really thank you for your support
Awe you are most welcome 🤗 ❤️☀️☀️
I really really appreciate these videos, this one reminded me that i did end up saving a life with the empathy. I spoke someone out of a life ending act and i couldn't have stayed up for three days talking to them without my hypomania. Getting that message a year later thanking me, is one of the most things i'm proud of.
🙏 you are awesome Ember!
At the end of a tele-health group a month ago, my I am grateful for statement was, I am grateful to be Bipolar. As you can imagine...CRICKETS...and then another group member added, well thats something you dont hear often.
I thought you might enjoy that...Thank you for your work!
Yes! So glad I found your channel. I've been watching several hours now. However, I found you late last year. I know this is 2 years old but felt like responding.
So many symptoms that I didn't know we're from the illness. I'm creative in that I paint and do many crafts. I will say I've done nice paintings but I don't always finish them. I like when I can channel the energy. I'm more productive.
Great idea to focus on what good can come out of our having bipolar disease. Thanks again for all your videos!
You have helped me feel like I belong somewhere. I am eternally grateful.
Your videos help me understand the disorder. I've learned so much thanks to you. I hope your channel grows huge because you deserve great success with your mental health advocacy.
Me and my hubby have learned so much from watching all these videos for myself I have more understanding of my bipolar type 2 and my hubby has been watching and learning about how I feel we definitely have more understanding of each other and we're both a lot more forgiving on the bad times we're so very much indebted to you x
Hi Diane! Thank you so much for the kind words. I’m so glad that the channel has been useful to you and your hubby. If you guys ever have any questions or would like to support my advocacy work, there’s a link in the video description where you can reach me anytime.
-Rob
So great to be reminded of the positives! Polar Warriors has been really helpful in offering info and extra support along with meds and therapy.
rebquist rebquist thank you for the comment my dear friend! I always love seeing a comment from you 😊❤️🤗
I am VERY happy to bump into your channel. I love the way you talk and teach. It's wonderful.
Thank you! 😃
The empathy thing is so true!! So few people have real empathy... And I find it so hard as my empathy for others is off the scale! So when they're so absent it hurts a lot.
Just found your channel. I'm a bipolar bear version 2. Neat right?!
So I love your channel!! I found it at a perfect time...and have been sharing with my family and friends! Thank You for your help!
You're doing an awesome job!
Thank You so much!
I love being in the creative space where I get a great deal done that does have value; I could really be helped by a mentor or someone to keep me going in the same direction. Will I listen to them, lol. Maybe if they were a psychologist or even a true friend who understands me and is willing to be supportive. Listening to these videos I remember my early 20s and how much I was judged and criticized because the people around me did not understand mental illness. Even tho it brings back the pain of the couple of decades I lost in reckless risky behavior, I still enjoy listening to these videos so I do not feel alone. Thank you, Polar Warrior!
Hi, Rob offers one on one support on Patreon if you are interested. He also posts more personal information about his day to day struggles. All patrons can contact him directly by private message and he frequently offers free phone calls!!! If you decide to join, you can mention my name and he will give you a free call. Another Patreon exclusive is Rob hosting and moderating weekly support groups on discord! We have many family and friends take part. Take gentle care! 🙏
Sometimes we all need someone to talk to:
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This video is so great. It's so easy to get caught up with all the bad things of this illness so this is really refreshing and affirming. I can identify with most of these points but I would have never thought of them on my own. Thank you!
This made me smile :) I have bipolar type 2, and I do know the struggle with depression and hypomania, I've been in a really depressed state recently and just today was a pretty good day, and this video made me feel a bit better :) Thank you!
Thank you for your channel. It explains so much to me that could not comprehend. Sadly though my wife left me during what I know now as a manic state. The New Zealand public system took control of my wife and said that she was suffering from mild depression only and then took our 2 year old daughter into Foster care. I am sure you will understand what that did to my now Ex-wife. Our daughter is now 3 years old and I am fighting the Public system to get her back with Family where she belongs.
I had no idea what was happening to my Ex-wife I am sure she has some idea but is not willing to confront it personally.
Thank you again for you RUclips channel it has helped me to stay focused on what is really import. Eliminating the confusion of what I did not have any knowledge of. I was leaning towards Schizophrenia or Borderline personality disorder. But it neither disorder matched what I was seeing or experiencing.
Thanks Bro. Keep up the good work.
I've come down but have had a bad few weeks.. I was doing so well :( Oh well, all we can do is try and work.... ALWAYS WORKING ON US. really needed this thank you.