growing up on the internet i didnt have a lot of restrictions so i could do whatever i wanted online and got away with talking to a lot of older guys. this song kind of resonated with me in the sense of using such an unhealthy (in my case, sexual) coping mechanism right under the noses of my family. the high and release of tension it gave, but the guilt and disappointment in one’s self by spending your reserved time doing something that is volatile in the eyes of others. something forbidden and disgusting in the eyes of my mother, but she didn’t even pay attention or care about what was going on. they don’t understand or know why i was doing what i was doing, or even notice that i was doing it. i didn’t even understand and i still don’t.
when i first heard this song i interpreted it as the literal shame around expressing female sexuality but it also feels like a song about self destructive behaviors that you turn to as a coping mechanism that only end up hurting you in the end
i interpret this song to be about self destructive habits, like drugs or self harm. specifically for me with self harm, because it does feel good. but it's a shameful thing that i hide, and nobody knows about it. it's my little shameful secret. love this song sm
I'm addicted to it. So much so I can't keep it a secret anymore. Everybody knows. I started at 13 and now I'm about to be 20. It'll never stop. I pray you get better friend, I hope you do. ❤
Shame is meant to bring attention not just to S/H, but really any behavior that would be considered Shameful to others, but to you feels amazing. They’re right there, they could see and hear how you feel about it if only they opened that door
to me this song is about bathing in your own self loathing. when it feels good to bask in the guilt and shame, especially as a symptom of depression. when she says “i haven’t been very good” it feels like the realization of your imperfections and moral inadequacy
since the first time i listened to this, i've interpreted it as the feeling when you're m*sturbating. especially when you know that your parents or siblings are awake. there's such dread while you're doing it, that somehow someone will find out, like they will walk in the door or hear you. "i haven't been so good//but right outside the door nobody knows" just speaks to me. you always feel like you're doing something wrong. and the last line: "and i don't need anything other than you" doing it can also be so liberating and "it feels so good." sometimes i feel like it's the only thing keeping me together, the only pleasure i feel. i love seeing everyone else's interpretations, though. mitski songs always have a million different interpretations
I see everybody has their own interpretations, but I feel like the song is just about shame. The intense and painful feeling of shame. If it helps you cope with any specific trauma that involves shame like me, I’m glad it helps you cope. A lot of Mitski’s music changes meaning with whatever I’m dealing with, so it’s interesting to come back to certain songs and see how I’ve changed
It feels so good It feels so good And right outside the door nobody knows They’re right outside the door and they don’t know how it Feels so good It feels so good I never was very good I haven’t been so good But right outside the door nobody knows They’re right outside the door and they don’t know how it Feels so good It feels so good And I don’t need anything other than you.
This reminds me of my habits caused by my eating disorder. I purge myself and it feels good. I starve and it feels good. But my family will never know.
This interpretation really resonates with me. I used to have a horrible relationship with food, and still feel anxiety and guilt when I eat "too much". In a twisted sort of way it felt accomplishing, starving myself. At my lowest points I would only eat when others were around and I'd lie about what I had eaten. The whole time bottling up my guilt since I had no one to tell.
I cant stress enough how much I love the last line 'And I don’t need anything other than you' mostly because of the tune, the way she sings it and the lyrics. Its just so sad and heartbreaking,, it's so beautiful i can cry
EXACTLY MY THOUGHT. And I also kinda imagine the murderer spreading the dead body's blood all over themself at some part during the song while there's either police or just random people outside during the line "they're right outside the door" having no idea what's going on inside
Tw for unhealthy coping mechanisms; Personally, I take shame as a song about addiction or an unhealthy coping mechanism in general, s/h, porn/masturbation, sex, binge eating; really it can be about the guilt and pleasure you feel doing any of those things and the guilty buildup during the act and just the fucking " and I don't need anything other than you " can mean alot, like feeling like you only need a certain person, object or food??? Shame broke my legs and made me cry.
this to me is like ED type feeling, the pain and hunger you’re feeling and trying to get rid of the wanting you’re experiencing, hating the feeling- but loving the twisted thought that it’s a good thing.
ESPECIALLY "They're right outside the door" like you just purged/hid food or something and "got away with it" as in no one is next to you. And then how negative side effects 'feel good' like losing hair etc when everyone says it's bad. And the way the music is is like you're getting deeper into the disorder and kind of digging yourself into a hole and hiding all this behavior
i love all the theories about this song. only mitski knows the true meaning but i think she left it open ended on purpose, there are so many interpretations
one of the things i love about this song and many of her songs in general is that they can be interpreted in so many ways and apply to any experience. it makes it personal! she’s such a good lyricist
This is literally one of Mitski’s best songs it sounds amazing, the instrumental is so good, and her voice is just so beautiful. I love it and relate to the meaning and lyrics so much. A literal work of art.
Ever since I first heard this song it really got to me, I used to interpret it as the shame you feel when you do something you know you’re not meant to do, especially in terms of SH or sexuality, and I always related to it because of the satisfaction I find in hurting myself. I used to swim a lot before, mainly to “fix” my body but also because when I swim I push myself to the point where I can’t breath and my hands tense up. I pushed myself to the absolute limit and everytime I was out of breath or frozen up or in pain I felt so proud because I knew that it was working, so I would just keep swimming. I think it’s beautiful how this video captures so much that can be interpreted in many ways. Thank you for all your beautiful pieces Mitski.
need this for smth 0:20 starts 0:42 first verse starts 1:28 first verse ends 1:29 gasp 1:41 second verse starts 2:31 final line 1:19 start? or 1:25 start?
@@lapetimarc assuming I finish it, yeah! admittedly, it is an mcyt animation so it's definitely going to be at least a lil cringe but y'know. (also I'm going to upload it to a different channel than the one I'm using rn lol)
In all honesty, my own interpretation of this song to me, is the calming relief of finally letting yourself do your own harmful / hurtful desires, (for example, drinking, smoking, s3lf-h4rming, anything generally frowned upon in the eyes of our society,) but the dread and crushing worries of anyone finding out about the things youve done, and are still doing, the reason why I think this is because of the sudden music change of frantic switches of dark notes after the loud gasp and the lyric, ‘’Their right outside the door and nobody knows.” The need to keep it hidden. Because of the dread of one finding out is crushing. But the thought of stopping is to painful because, “ It feels so good.”
This song for me is about relapsing. and how you feel while you are relapsing. The calm before the storm, "how it feels so good." How good it feels to start again. The overlap of instruments (here: 1:31) show the release of pain you feel after relapsing. Nobody knows how good it feels because they are against it, they dont want to feel. They shouldn't be allowed to know. Its your secret. But after you do it, realization kicks in. You realize that you weren't supposed to do it. You realize that you broke your own promise. but then the song ends and that climax of relaxation dies down. "And i dont need anything other than you." = I need to keep doing it to feel fulfilled. I always feel understood when i listen you mitski
After reading several theories about the true meaning of the song, I have my own conclusion. From my point of view, this song refers to Mitski was not mentally well. In this part: "And Right Outside The Door Nobody Knows" The door is a metaphor, which would mean a barrier between people and her. Even if they are (physically) next to her, they do not know what it feels like, they don't know what she's feeling or thinking. And yeah, "It feels so good", it feels so good to be mentally ill, it feels so good to know that nobody can understand you. Sounds sad and irrationally, here is my depression lol. According to genius: The title is “Shame” because Mitksi feels shame for enjoying being unwell and for not telling others. That's all my theory and what I think... I know I discard the "Sex, lesbians or masturbation feelings" but people, not all life is sex and things like that... Yep, if you search in genius the lyrics of the song, you can see in the description that says that shame is a song about sexual acts, I know, and I don't refuse that, I just see another theory. If someone read this, sorry for my English. I thought a lot before writing this, not bad. Stay safe and happy easter... or whatever lol bye.
you’re so right omg this interpretation feels spot on. i totally relate to how you feel. it’s such a weird feeling to be comforted by being mentally ill, and so alienating. shame is a perfect word to describe this feeling
⚠️TW-SH⚠️ i view this song as self harm in a way? like its addicting but i will get caught. for example “it feels so good” and “theyre right outside the door” kinda symbolizes that you will get caught if youre not carefull with it. also with the background music and sounds sound panicked and i view that as something going wrong? like cutting too deep and trying to keep yourself calm, trying to put your skin back together, and containing the mess all while trying to not get caught so i have better words for this now. it still feels like self harm, “theyre right outside the door and nobody knows” is trying to hide it. doing it right under everyones noses. just waiting to get caught. also with “it feels so good” sorta showing how its just fueling their addiction. once the music gets more intense i see it as getting more and more addicted, and personally i felt like that when i hit styro for the first time? i was 12 and the rush of “OH SHOOT” and “omg i really liked that i wanna do it again” was a really intense emotion that i think fits along with the song
**TW SELF HARM & GROOMING** I'm not gonna put theories ab this song on what mitski could've gone through when making this but what it reminded me of and the lyrics that perfectly fit into it. when i was younger i had unprotected internet access and had adult guys tell me how pretty and special i am, something i never got from ppl irl since everyone thought i was fat and a failure. i would enjoy their attention and requests that made them love me, and sexualizing myself in every since relationship hoping I'll get their attention but it's never enough where i have to skin myself bare for a scrum of their attention. and ke self harm doing stuff no one knew about since I'm seen as a innocent little girl seeing the open flesh and myself hurt and bleeding it feels so good and no body knows.
brother just told me to listen to Mitski and this is the first one I've listened to. Sounds like a really good album closer or something. Very interesting
i listen to this when ii purge, it makes me feel like i am the girl i watch in the eating disorder short films. if only anyone had told me how painful these disorders are. once you start you cant stop, everyone leaves you and those who care care too much. its inexplicable all you want to do is not hate yourself and not want to die. but you dont deserve that. all you deserve is shame.
i love so much how you can connect with this a lot i connect it with my sexuality at times, nobody knows that it feels so good loving and expressing my gender identity different than societal views. tw self harm, bad habits i also like to think about it can be about self destructive behaviors and how it honestly can become an addiction like any other drug. you can become so infatuated with something without realizing how much it hurts you, but “it feels so good”
After listening to this song I realized how much I relate to this for doing something the society I live in sees as a shame (be it selfharming or masturbating). No one knows I do it except myself, and no one knows how much I like it. But at the same time I feel disgusting and guilty for doing it. Everytime I'm with my family I feel like throwing up because the shame overthrows me. I used to dislike a characters coping mechanism from a show because they used sexual acts as a coping mechanism but now I realized that it's because I do the same. Truly a wonderful song!
This reminds me of putting on eyeliner for the first time the pending anxiety of something known as makeup worn by women mostly and me assigned male at birth feeling gender euphoria for the first time although thats my interpretation of this song i hope that this can reach people :)
Everyone interprets this song differently- so here’s what I personally think can be the meaning TW- *Talk about self harm❗️and bad habits* I feel like Self harm could be related to this song bc it’s exactly the feeling some ppl get / I get when I used to self harm “it feels so good..and right outside my door 𝗻𝗼𝗯𝗼𝗱𝘆 𝗸𝗻𝗼𝘄𝘀” the lyrics kind of fit right into that type of feeling when your doing it Behind a closed door and yet nobody knows the horrific thing you are doing. I think the music plays a part in this aswell because although she’s saying that it feels good, the music is horrifying like something bad is happening. Also when a lot of ppl self harm it’s a good feeling even though It physically hurts. In conclusion, I don’t just interpret this song to just be about self harm, I feel like in general this whole song is just about having a guilty pleasure, but it’s your decision in your imagination to decide what yours is so you can relate to this song
Going along with the music thing, the instrument being played is either a violin or viola and the notes being played by gliding the bow over the string quickly kind of goes with this
You used to share everything to everyone before. But due to some reasons you stop sharing things and now it feels so good to you. Being buried by all the thoughts all by yourself. Being in pain feels good to you now
you know, i used to listen to this and relate it to a vague feeling, now it's a thing i can pinpoint. you are not supposed to understand what I'm talking about. i hope i can read this someday when im better and this feeling is in the past
Shame - TW; sh, dr-gs, addiction, self destructiveness I think shame is personally one of Mitski’s more dark song, most of mitski’s song can be considered dark due to the meaning of them, (Which makes them so special along with the lyrics and music and her voice, along with her performances.) But there is something specifically about the song ‘Shame’ by mitski that is more sinister and overall dark, the music and everything. Even the lyrics. This song has been interpreted about being ashamed from masturbation, and as I understand that view I think the song is quite a bit more deeper. The song is obviously named shame, and Mitski is singing about how it feels so good, and how she is ashamed of it. She expresses that no one else knows about what she's doing. And that they are right outside the door and nobody knows. I think this song is talking about self destructive behaviors in general, s3lf h@rm, dr-gs, seeking unhealthy relationships, addictions, etc. Just self destructive behaviors. Because typically thing’s like these, even though they are hurting you, it feels good, its a relief and an escape. “It feels so good And right outside the door nobody knows They're right outside the door and they don't know how it Feels so good” The song’s music is expressing a very dark melody, with the instruments going very high and quick, showing the adrenaline and the feeling of shame of doing the self destructive mechanism. I also think the song expresses the downfall of Mitski’s mental health, and how these shameful activities are separating her from her family and everyone else, “They're right outside the door.” The door is the barrier from people. Showing how she may feel alone within the self destructive activities. It’s also relating back to the shame, how shame may be a part of the barrier; because she is too ashamed to tell anyone. “I never was very good I haven't been so good But right outside the door nobody knows.” Is expressing how she hasn’t been good mentally, and possibly even physically and the coping skills she is doing isn’t good, and how she was never good. How this must be a shameful thing to be and have. Getting to the end, she finally screams how It feels so good, letting out the feelings and conflicts within her mind and this self destructiveness. “And I don’t need anything better than you.” I think there is also a sense of never being able to escape from shame. And the self destructiveness. It seems like she is trapped, and she is ashamed of herself because she can’t get out, but she also slowly realizes that she doesn’t want anything healthy or better. She doesn’t want anything better, and she doesn’t want an alternative. A fix. She wants this destructive behavior as it makes her feel good, even if it brings shame. She believes she doesn’t need anything else, as this is what makes her feel good. Even if it's shameful.
i cant explain the feeling this song invokes in me. it's this awful mix of despair, anxiety, and anger. the only other song that's ever even come close to this is Exit Music.
Literally had an aneurysm (not _literally_ literally but yk) at that crescendo with the violin when I first listened to this like I remember spamming my friend who first told me about mitski with text messages and I remember saying and I quote “(screenshot of song playing) WHAT IS THIS” “THIS ISNT MUSIC” “THIS IS SOMETHING ELSE”
TW!ed for me this song represents my ed that I used to have.I was around 15 at the time, it lasted for around more than an year.I was overweight growing up so I continuosly was told to loose weight and how much "prettier" I'd look skinny.All of that shit got into my head and my diet just collapsed,I wouldn't eat meals and feel good because of the "compliments" I would get for loosing weight.I was rotting on the inside I hated myself and felt ashamed but the approval felt so good.I fell into this vicious cycle,and I continued for a long time before I finally snapped back into reality and realised what I was doing to myself.I have recovered now,I remember not telling anyone what I was doing because of the shame I felt.But now I'm better and 17 I feel so proud of myself for getting through it,I think it wouldve been better if I had asked for help.But what's happened happened.Always know there's a light ahead❤
this is why i love this album sm is the theme of continual dread and self awareness but still continuing bad habits because of familiarity and comfort in it, SO GOOD
I never thought this way about her being a lesbian, I always interpreted it as her being abused and since its happened for so long she finds it as pleasure but she knows its wrong but is blinded and feels good when she get hurts. She expresses that nobody knows how it feels describing that she feels trapped because of her hurt and pain, but similar to the song Ultraviolence by Lana Del Rey she is brainwashed and thinks the abuse is a form of love. That's my take but she could be a lesbian too!
it's like you wish for it to stop but at the same time it's the only "affection" you get, which causes that "it feels good, though." mentality wanting it to all stop but at the same time enjoying it and feeling ashamed for doing so meanwhile, you can't really control it. exact idea of this song
many mitski songs imply that she was victim of sa more specifically at a young age but idk about her past or personal life i just enjoy her songs though so this is just a theory
Mitski isn't a lesbian, she said she has been attracted to men and women, unless you read in another place she was a lesbian (that, btw, if you could tell me where I would love to read it), we can only assume she's sapphic or bi
I can relate to this during a depressive state. At a early point in my life i grew numb to my feelings. Ive grown to crave my sadness since its the strongest and one of the only emotions i can actually feel. It brings me satosfaction when i feel it. And my family is only a room, or a door, away, yet they never know that im feeling this.
And right outside the door nobody knows. Why can't this song just be about. They're right outside the door and they don't know how- Sometimes what's best for us others don't like -it feels so good.
I interpret this song as an addictive habit that destroys you but gives you comfort However, it is something shameful and something you hide from yourself, which sometimes also makes you feel guilty, however well. What makes this song have such a big meaning for me because I have an addiction to self-harm and pornography, especially pornography because I had problems at home from an early age, which made me go to the world of addiction It's a very important song for me and a real feeling for me.
When I first heard this song, I actually theorised another plot behind this song. But reading others comments made me realise the meaning and the plot behind it is pretty abstract and can be conceptual from person to person. Here’s my take on it: By “right outside the door” I naturally thought it meant that the person created non physical boundaries to separate her private space from others. Here she can do whatever she wants, even if what she’s doing is heavily criticised by other people. I conjured the person to be having a secret affair with someone she shouldn’t have. She keeps it a secret because everyone would shame her for it because it’s bad and she knows it’s bad but how is she to explain how good it feels? She justifies herself by telling herself she was never a good person. By the last line “I don’t need anything other than you” I guessed that the reason mitski preferred to say ‘anything’ instead of anyone is because she didn’t exactly enjoy the person, she enjoyed being with the person and what they gave her. But yeah this is just what I came up with.
i thought this song could talk about a lesbian relationship but because of the sound i think it could be about destructive behaviours the lyrics of this song could mean too much things, but the sound is just... the sound
this is literally a masterpiece, the conection between the feeling and the rythm, all the instruments, mitski translated a fucking feeling into a song
only mitski can do that tbh she’s a goddess
growing up on the internet i didnt have a lot of restrictions so i could do whatever i wanted online and got away with talking to a lot of older guys. this song kind of resonated with me in the sense of using such an unhealthy (in my case, sexual) coping mechanism right under the noses of my family. the high and release of tension it gave, but the guilt and disappointment in one’s self by spending your reserved time doing something that is volatile in the eyes of others. something forbidden and disgusting in the eyes of my mother, but she didn’t even pay attention or care about what was going on. they don’t understand or know why i was doing what i was doing, or even notice that i was doing it. i didn’t even understand and i still don’t.
this is going to make me spiral LMAOOO
this sums up my early childhood
i did the same thing. i didn’t even understand how bad it was.
me too, its been seven years but it still haunts me
me too.
This song belongs in layers of fear, beautiful yet kinda creepy
OMG AGREEEEEE
when i first heard this song i interpreted it as the literal shame around expressing female sexuality
but it also feels like a song about self destructive behaviors that you turn to as a coping mechanism that only end up hurting you in the end
OH SHIT nv thought of that that is dark
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I thought of doing drugs in your bedroom at a family house then of a serial killer or kidnapper like Ariel Castro…
ABSOLUTELY
I thought it was about suicide or a panick attack
i interpret this song to be about self destructive habits, like drugs or self harm. specifically for me with self harm, because it does feel good. but it's a shameful thing that i hide, and nobody knows about it. it's my little shameful secret.
love this song sm
i thought i was the only one who thought this, ty for sharing!! we'll get through this
🖤
I see my binge episodes in my case
So real I love how open people are being and I hope u are doing great! ❤
I'm addicted to it. So much so I can't keep it a secret anymore. Everybody knows. I started at 13 and now I'm about to be 20. It'll never stop. I pray you get better friend, I hope you do. ❤
Shame is meant to bring attention not just to S/H, but really any behavior that would be considered Shameful to others, but to you feels amazing. They’re right there, they could see and hear how you feel about it if only they opened that door
That's why I hate the behaviors I have. It makes you feel like a monster
@@billie-jv5ll yup vro
This hit hard
to me this song is about bathing in your own self loathing. when it feels good to bask in the guilt and shame, especially as a symptom of depression. when she says “i haven’t been very good” it feels like the realization of your imperfections and moral inadequacy
since the first time i listened to this, i've interpreted it as the feeling when you're m*sturbating. especially when you know that your parents or siblings are awake. there's such dread while you're doing it, that somehow someone will find out, like they will walk in the door or hear you. "i haven't been so good//but right outside the door nobody knows" just speaks to me. you always feel like you're doing something wrong. and the last line: "and i don't need anything other than you" doing it can also be so liberating and "it feels so good." sometimes i feel like it's the only thing keeping me together, the only pleasure i feel. i love seeing everyone else's interpretations, though. mitski songs always have a million different interpretations
thats how i interpreted it too!
honestly i thought so too, especially since the instrumental got very heavy and “tense” near the end, only to “release” that.
i agree but i cat get overyour pfp•_•
this
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I see everybody has their own interpretations, but I feel like the song is just about shame. The intense and painful feeling of shame. If it helps you cope with any specific trauma that involves shame like me, I’m glad it helps you cope. A lot of Mitski’s music changes meaning with whatever I’m dealing with, so it’s interesting to come back to certain songs and see how I’ve changed
mitski after dropping the most worrying, traumatizing, anxiety inducing song ever
It feels so good
It feels so good
And right outside the door nobody knows
They’re right outside the door and they don’t know how it
Feels so good
It feels so good
I never was very good
I haven’t been so good
But right outside the door nobody knows
They’re right outside the door and they don’t know how it
Feels so good
It feels so good
And I don’t need anything other than you.
Thank you dear❤
listening to this song in public feels so wrong for some reason
they’re right outside the door nobody knows😔
agree
shameful even..
Real
Just when I think Mitski couldn't possibly sound more beautiful, she does
This reminds me of my habits caused by my eating disorder. I purge myself and it feels good. I starve and it feels good. But my family will never know.
This interpretation really resonates with me. I used to have a horrible relationship with food, and still feel anxiety and guilt when I eat "too much". In a twisted sort of way it felt accomplishing, starving myself. At my lowest points I would only eat when others were around and I'd lie about what I had eaten. The whole time bottling up my guilt since I had no one to tell.
Everything you make is so hauntingly beautiful.
this is giving me legit chills
chillingly beautiful
Carolina Marin omg yEs :”)) 💓 i love her sm!
I cant stress enough how much I love the last line 'And I don’t need anything other than you' mostly because of the tune, the way she sings it and the lyrics. Its just so sad and heartbreaking,, it's so beautiful i can cry
i’m gonna go out on a limb and say that i think this song is about a literal murder. the creepy background just adds into my beliefs
fav interpretation
I agree , this was my original interpetation too
EXACTLY MY THOUGHT. And I also kinda imagine the murderer spreading the dead body's blood all over themself at some part during the song while there's either police or just random people outside during the line "they're right outside the door" having no idea what's going on inside
this song makes me feel uneasy in the best way possible. a masterpiece
Tw for unhealthy coping mechanisms;
Personally, I take shame as a song about addiction or an unhealthy coping mechanism in general, s/h, porn/masturbation, sex, binge eating; really it can be about the guilt and pleasure you feel doing any of those things and the guilty buildup during the act and just the fucking " and I don't need anything other than you " can mean alot, like feeling like you only need a certain person, object or food??? Shame broke my legs and made me cry.
This song is about when youre a kid in your room and look up "girls kissing"
real
Real
Dude it's 1am in the morning, reading this made me laugh in tears bro
real
So?
IT FEELSSSS SOOOO GOOOODDDD
I love u mitski
this to me is like ED type feeling, the pain and hunger you’re feeling and trying to get rid of the wanting you’re experiencing, hating the feeling- but loving the twisted thought that it’s a good thing.
ESPECIALLY "They're right outside the door" like you just purged/hid food or something and "got away with it" as in no one is next to you. And then how negative side effects 'feel good' like losing hair etc when everyone says it's bad. And the way the music is is like you're getting deeper into the disorder and kind of digging yourself into a hole and hiding all this behavior
im gonna write a book about this, thank you
Omg, remind me when its done !!
This song is technically a literal depiction of someone going straight into madness
my first thought was self harm, but anyway that like leading up part sounds so menacing but the peak makes my brain feel fuzzy I love it.
i love all the theories about this song. only mitski knows the true meaning but i think she left it open ended on purpose, there are so many interpretations
one of the things i love about this song and many of her songs in general is that they can be interpreted in so many ways and apply to any experience. it makes it personal! she’s such a good lyricist
This is literally one of Mitski’s best songs it sounds amazing, the instrumental is so good, and her voice is just so beautiful. I love it and relate to the meaning and lyrics so much. A literal work of art.
SOMEBODY HELP ITS 1:44AM AND. AM CRYIG SO HARD PLEASE I FORGOT HOW NERVE WRACKING TOE CURLING BLOOD CURDLING HEART EXPLODING THIS SONG IS
THIS SONG ISLITERALLY ME AND MY DUMB IDIOT SH
random guy swiming asmr
this mitski song do be giving me the chills doe 😳
Ever since I first heard this song it really got to me, I used to interpret it as the shame you feel when you do something you know you’re not meant to do, especially in terms of SH or sexuality, and I always related to it because of the satisfaction I find in hurting myself. I used to swim a lot before, mainly to “fix” my body but also because when I swim I push myself to the point where I can’t breath and my hands tense up. I pushed myself to the absolute limit and everytime I was out of breath or frozen up or in pain I felt so proud because I knew that it was working, so I would just keep swimming.
I think it’s beautiful how this video captures so much that can be interpreted in many ways.
Thank you for all your beautiful pieces Mitski.
need this for smth
0:20 starts
0:42 first verse starts
1:28 first verse ends
1:29 gasp
1:41 second verse starts
2:31 final line
1:19 start?
or 1:25 start?
what ia this for?
@@lapetimarc trying to make an animation/animatic :)
@@maddiepahlman7334 hell yea!! will u upload it?
@@lapetimarc assuming I finish it, yeah! admittedly, it is an mcyt animation so it's definitely going to be at least a lil cringe but y'know. (also I'm going to upload it to a different channel than the one I'm using rn lol)
@@maddiepahlman7334 NO WAYYY i love mcyt lol
In all honesty, my own interpretation of this song to me, is the calming relief of finally letting yourself do your own harmful / hurtful desires, (for example, drinking, smoking, s3lf-h4rming, anything generally frowned upon in the eyes of our society,) but the dread and crushing worries of anyone finding out about the things youve done, and are still doing, the reason why I think this is because of the sudden music change of frantic switches of dark notes after the loud gasp and the lyric, ‘’Their right outside the door and nobody knows.” The need to keep it hidden. Because of the dread of one finding out is crushing. But the thought of stopping is to painful because, “ It feels so good.”
This song for me is about relapsing. and how you feel while you are relapsing.
The calm before the storm, "how it feels so good."
How good it feels to start again.
The overlap of instruments (here: 1:31) show the release of pain you feel after relapsing.
Nobody knows how good it feels because they are against it, they dont want to feel.
They shouldn't be allowed to know. Its your secret.
But after you do it, realization kicks in. You realize that you weren't supposed to do it.
You realize that you broke your own promise.
but then the song ends and that climax of relaxation dies down.
"And i dont need anything other than you." = I need to keep doing it to feel fulfilled.
I always feel understood when i listen you mitski
this meaning is actually so relatable, i love this song AND the meaning of it
After reading several theories about the true meaning of the song, I have my own conclusion.
From my point of view, this song refers to Mitski was not mentally well. In this part: "And Right Outside The Door Nobody Knows" The door is a metaphor, which would mean a barrier between people and her. Even if they are (physically) next to her, they do not know what it feels like, they don't know what she's feeling or thinking. And yeah, "It feels so good", it feels so good to be mentally ill, it feels so good to know that nobody can understand you. Sounds sad and irrationally, here is my depression lol.
According to genius: The title is “Shame” because Mitksi feels shame for enjoying being unwell and for not telling others.
That's all my theory and what I think... I know I discard the "Sex, lesbians or masturbation feelings" but people, not all life is sex and things like that... Yep, if you search in genius the lyrics of the song, you can see in the description that says that shame is a song about sexual acts, I know, and I don't refuse that, I just see another theory.
If someone read this, sorry for my English. I thought a lot before writing this, not bad. Stay safe and happy easter... or whatever lol bye.
tbh for me the song is more about self-harm and destructive behaviours than sex, but it's up to interpretation of the listener ig
honestly i can relate to your theory so i can understand why you may have this perception
Yea you're theory is how I feel, I don't know why I enjoy it though, I wish I didn't
this interpretation broke me
you’re so right omg this interpretation feels spot on. i totally relate to how you feel. it’s such a weird feeling to be comforted by being mentally ill, and so alienating. shame is a perfect word to describe this feeling
Hauntingly beautiful. The best poet.
⚠️TW-SH⚠️
i view this song as self harm in a way? like its addicting but i will get caught. for example “it feels so good” and “theyre right outside the door” kinda symbolizes that you will get caught if youre not carefull with it. also with the background music and sounds sound panicked and i view that as something going wrong? like cutting too deep and trying to keep yourself calm, trying to put your skin back together, and containing the mess all while trying to not get caught
so i have better words for this now. it still feels like self harm, “theyre right outside the door and nobody knows” is trying to hide it. doing it right under everyones noses. just waiting to get caught. also with “it feels so good” sorta showing how its just fueling their addiction. once the music gets more intense i see it as getting more and more addicted, and personally i felt like that when i hit styro for the first time? i was 12 and the rush of “OH SHOOT” and “omg i really liked that i wanna do it again” was a really intense emotion that i think fits along with the song
I like the way you think of, because I heavily agree/relate to this
this!!
**TW SELF HARM & GROOMING**
I'm not gonna put theories ab this song on what mitski could've gone through when making this but what it reminded me of and the lyrics that perfectly fit into it. when i was younger i had unprotected internet access and had adult guys tell me how pretty and special i am, something i never got from ppl irl since everyone thought i was fat and a failure. i would enjoy their attention and requests that made them love me, and sexualizing myself in every since relationship hoping I'll get their attention but it's never enough where i have to skin myself bare for a scrum of their attention. and ke self harm doing stuff no one knew about since I'm seen as a innocent little girl seeing the open flesh and myself hurt and bleeding it feels so good and no body knows.
I absolutely love the threatening violin in this
This song is absolutely a masterpiece with the instruments and the tone of her voice really makes it sound angry and sad. This is my new fav😍
you are right
brother just told me to listen to Mitski and this is the first one I've listened to. Sounds like a really good album closer or something. Very interesting
@@anon7245 so if this sounds like a good album closer, what does the actual album closer sound like? :o
Bro is ur brother mentally alr💀
@@necroid888 LMAO he's fine now :)
i listen to this when ii purge, it makes me feel like i am the girl i watch in the eating disorder short films. if only anyone had told me how painful these disorders are. once you start you cant stop, everyone leaves you and those who care care too much. its inexplicable all you want to do is not hate yourself and not want to die. but you dont deserve that. all you deserve is shame.
I'm not so sure how comfortable mitski would be hearing this, please get help
@@Lara-vo6rp so you basically shaming other's person experience, wow
@@vyuga3714 wow thats not what i meant wtf? Im just saying if theyre in that place please get help this is serious this isn't funny
@@vyuga3714they are not shaming them they need help
@@Lara-vo6rpthey aren’t shaming them they fr need help.. ☠️
I absolutely love this song, it's so hauntlying beautifull
Oh, your music it's beautiful. Thanks from Mexico.
it's literally shame and pleasure in a song
i love so much how you can connect with this a lot
i connect it with my sexuality at times, nobody knows that it feels so good loving and expressing my gender identity different than societal views.
tw self harm, bad habits
i also like to think about it can be about self destructive behaviors and how it honestly can become an addiction like any other drug. you can become so infatuated with something without realizing how much it hurts you, but “it feels so good”
After listening to this song I realized how much I relate to this for doing something the society I live in sees as a shame (be it selfharming or masturbating). No one knows I do it except myself, and no one knows how much I like it. But at the same time I feel disgusting and guilty for doing it. Everytime I'm with my family I feel like throwing up because the shame overthrows me. I used to dislike a characters coping mechanism from a show because they used sexual acts as a coping mechanism but now I realized that it's because I do the same. Truly a wonderful song!
that one part at 1:29 gives me anxiety
that part sounds like it should be in a horror movie
Fr😭
mitski saved my life
this song sends me into a mental breakdown every time i hear it
This reminds me of putting on eyeliner for the first time the pending anxiety of something known as makeup worn by women mostly and me assigned male at birth feeling gender euphoria for the first time although thats my interpretation of this song i hope that this can reach people :)
wow that’s actually. a really good interpretation of this song.
wow,, thats beautiful
i love that interpretation
Nice, but before reading the rest I thought you were scared of jabbing your eye with the eyeliner
i love that interpretation
Everyone interprets this song differently- so here’s what I personally think can be the meaning
TW- *Talk about self harm❗️and bad habits*
I feel like Self harm could be related to this song bc it’s exactly the feeling some ppl get / I get when I used to self harm “it feels so good..and right outside my door 𝗻𝗼𝗯𝗼𝗱𝘆 𝗸𝗻𝗼𝘄𝘀” the lyrics kind of fit right into that type of feeling when your doing it Behind a closed door and yet nobody knows the horrific thing you are doing.
I think the music plays a part in this aswell because although she’s saying that it feels good, the music is horrifying like something bad is happening. Also when a lot of ppl self harm it’s a good feeling even though It physically hurts.
In conclusion, I don’t just interpret this song to just be about self harm, I feel like in general this whole song is just about having a guilty pleasure, but it’s your decision in your imagination to decide what yours is so you can relate to this song
i thought about it too, very good interpretation :]]
Yes exactly. I wasn't the only one who felt this way
exactly this is what i thought of too
Going along with the music thing, the instrument being played is either a violin or viola and the notes being played by gliding the bow over the string quickly kind of goes with this
good one
WHY DID I THINK THIS SONG WAS ABOUT BLEEPING OFF LMAO
knowing mitskiit is probably
NO ME TOO. THESE COMMENTS ARE MAKING ME FEEL STUPID AND PERVY
it’s up to interpretation
Huh
I mean the Genius website says that it is-
i've been feeling guilty recently and this song helps me throughout my day
imagine this song in a chasing scene, that would be fucking awesome yet terrifying.
this song is art bro
my body's made of crushed little stars + shame !!!!
literally my main 2 mental breakdown songs by mitski lol
this song gives me chills every single time i listen to it holy shit
this song will always have me shook to my core thanks mitski
You used to share everything to everyone before. But due to some reasons you stop sharing things and now it feels so good to you. Being buried by all the thoughts all by yourself. Being in pain feels good to you now
it feels so good..
you know, i used to listen to this and relate it to a vague feeling, now it's a thing i can pinpoint. you are not supposed to understand what I'm talking about. i hope i can read this someday when im better and this feeling is in the past
Shame - TW; sh, dr-gs, addiction, self destructiveness
I think shame is personally one of Mitski’s more dark song, most of mitski’s song can be considered dark due to the meaning of them, (Which makes them so special along with the lyrics and music and her voice, along with her performances.) But there is something specifically about the song ‘Shame’ by mitski that is more sinister and overall dark, the music and everything. Even the lyrics.
This song has been interpreted about being ashamed from masturbation, and as I understand that view I think the song is quite a bit more deeper.
The song is obviously named shame, and Mitski is singing about how it feels so good, and how she is ashamed of it. She expresses that no one else knows about what she's doing. And that they are right outside the door and nobody knows.
I think this song is talking about self destructive behaviors in general, s3lf h@rm, dr-gs, seeking unhealthy relationships, addictions, etc. Just self destructive behaviors.
Because typically thing’s like these, even though they are hurting you, it feels good, its a relief and an escape. “It feels so good
And right outside the door nobody knows
They're right outside the door and they don't know how it
Feels so good”
The song’s music is expressing a very dark melody, with the instruments going very high and quick, showing the adrenaline and the feeling of shame of doing the self destructive mechanism.
I also think the song expresses the downfall of Mitski’s mental health, and how these shameful activities are separating her from her family and everyone else, “They're right outside the door.” The door is the barrier from people. Showing how she may feel alone within the self destructive activities. It’s also relating back to the shame, how shame may be a part of the barrier; because she is too ashamed to tell anyone.
“I never was very good
I haven't been so good
But right outside the door nobody knows.” Is expressing how she hasn’t been good mentally, and possibly even physically and the coping skills she is doing isn’t good, and how she was never good. How this must be a shameful thing to be and have.
Getting to the end, she finally screams how It feels so good, letting out the feelings and conflicts within her mind and this self destructiveness.
“And I don’t need anything better than you.”
I think there is also a sense of never being able to escape from shame. And the self destructiveness. It seems like she is trapped, and she is ashamed of herself because she can’t get out, but she also slowly realizes that she doesn’t want anything healthy or better. She doesn’t want anything better, and she doesn’t want an alternative. A fix. She wants this destructive behavior as it makes her feel good, even if it brings shame. She believes she doesn’t need anything else, as this is what makes her feel good. Even if it's shameful.
i cant explain the feeling this song invokes in me. it's this awful mix of despair, anxiety, and anger. the only other song that's ever even come close to this is Exit Music.
Am I the only one who feels like this song has a horror movie feel to it?
It does feel that way
Yeah, it feels like something that would play in the background of an absolutely insane plot twist.
Literally had an aneurysm (not _literally_ literally but yk) at that crescendo with the violin when I first listened to this like I remember spamming my friend who first told me about mitski with text messages and I remember saying and I quote “(screenshot of song playing) WHAT IS THIS” “THIS ISNT MUSIC” “THIS IS SOMETHING ELSE”
TW!ed
for me this song represents my ed that I used to have.I was around 15 at the time, it lasted for around more than an year.I was overweight growing up so I continuosly was told to loose weight and how much "prettier" I'd look skinny.All of that shit got into my head and my diet just collapsed,I wouldn't eat meals and feel good because of the "compliments" I would get for loosing weight.I was rotting on the inside I hated myself and felt ashamed but the approval felt so good.I fell into this vicious cycle,and I continued for a long time before I finally snapped back into reality and realised what I was doing to myself.I have recovered now,I remember not telling anyone what I was doing because of the shame I felt.But now I'm better and 17 I feel so proud of myself for getting through it,I think it wouldve been better if I had asked for help.But what's happened happened.Always know there's a light ahead❤
the fact that this mv connects SO MUCH to the square mv literally makes me SCREAM
this is why i love this album sm is the theme of continual dread and self awareness but still continuing bad habits because of familiarity and comfort in it, SO GOOD
i love reading al the different interpretations of this songs, there is soo many potential meanings that are SO SO versatile
this song is a fucking masterpiece.
So haunting yet so beautiful
I never thought this way about her being a lesbian, I always interpreted it as her being abused and since its happened for so long she finds it as pleasure but she knows its wrong but is blinded and feels good when she get hurts. She expresses that nobody knows how it feels describing that she feels trapped because of her hurt and pain, but similar to the song Ultraviolence by Lana Del Rey she is brainwashed and thinks the abuse is a form of love. That's my take but she could be a lesbian too!
i thought about exactly the same
Where has the lesbian theory come from ??
it's like you wish for it to stop but at the same time it's the only "affection" you get, which causes that "it feels good, though." mentality
wanting it to all stop but at the same time enjoying it and feeling ashamed for doing so meanwhile, you can't really control it. exact idea of this song
many mitski songs imply that she was victim of sa more specifically at a young age but idk about her past or personal life i just enjoy her songs though so this is just a theory
Mitski isn't a lesbian, she said she has been attracted to men and women, unless you read in another place she was a lesbian (that, btw, if you could tell me where I would love to read it), we can only assume she's sapphic or bi
this makes me feel scared and calm at the same time
I can relate to this during a depressive state.
At a early point in my life i grew numb to my feelings. Ive grown to crave my sadness since its the strongest and one of the only emotions i can actually feel. It brings me satosfaction when i feel it. And my family is only a room, or a door, away, yet they never know that im feeling this.
this song will always and forever sound like a villian when their frightened at something.
Omg that tempo on the second half of the song feels like a template for anxiety
i relate to this song a lot
I will always love this song
this sent shivers down my spine
2:02
🎂🎂🎂
mitski ily
I interpret it as the shame a person experiences because of socially taboo things happened to them
I love all of mitski's songs omg
this song reminds me of when I cutted in the bathroom when I was younger
damn same lmao
same
Same but in my room also
uncontrollably sobbing to this song again
And right outside the door nobody knows.
Why can't this song just be about.
They're right outside the door and they don't know how-
Sometimes what's best for us others don't like
-it feels so good.
I interpret this song as an addictive habit that destroys you but gives you comfort However, it is something shameful and something you hide from yourself, which sometimes also makes you feel guilty, however well.
What makes this song have such a big meaning for me because I have an addiction to self-harm and pornography, especially pornography because I had problems at home from an early age, which made me go to the world of addiction
It's a very important song for me and a real feeling for me.
the 12 dislikes r from people that cant feel this music in the right way
When I first heard this song, I actually theorised another plot behind this song. But reading others comments made me realise the meaning and the plot behind it is pretty abstract and can be conceptual from person to person. Here’s my take on it:
By “right outside the door” I naturally thought it meant that the person created non physical boundaries to separate her private space from others. Here she can do whatever she wants, even if what she’s doing is heavily criticised by other people. I conjured the person to be having a secret affair with someone she shouldn’t have. She keeps it a secret because everyone would shame her for it because it’s bad and she knows it’s bad but how is she to explain how good it feels? She justifies herself by telling herself she was never a good person.
By the last line “I don’t need anything other than you” I guessed that the reason mitski preferred to say ‘anything’ instead of anyone is because she didn’t exactly enjoy the person, she enjoyed being with the person and what they gave her. But yeah this is just what I came up with.
mitski wrote this song for me.
this song is great i love it it's like a nightmare
cant believe mitski created the feeling of shame just for this song!!
This song feels like your shaming yourself over something you did,the gulit never leaves.
This song is the best
i thought this song could talk about a lesbian relationship but because of the sound i think it could be about destructive behaviours
the lyrics of this song could mean too much things, but the sound is just... the sound
Even if you don't understand something, you can still love it
this is art
Unsettling yet beautiful