@Bokuto’s *thicc* ass I'm curious about the same but a guy on tik tok completely still looked cis and it was as if he never stopped T even tho he'd been off of it for 6yrs. I'm sure it's a lot different for everyone tho
@Bokuto’s *thicc* ass it depends on the person ! some ppl prefer to stay on n some ppl after awhile decide to go off. a youtuber named miles mckenna made a video abt why he want off t after i think a year if ur interested
If you have a hysterectomy you have to take it forever (or oestrogen) because your body cannot produce its own hormones after that. Otherwise, as others have said, you can choose how long you want to be on it. 😊
@@eneedham789 think you mean an orchiectomy or what's the name for ovary removal. But it's true, you need either T or E for some non sexual purposes in your body. They are chemically nearly the same.
You know with the voice thing it’s actually super interesting. There’s not a whole lot of research that’s been done about it yet, but there is a lot of anecdotal evidence that trans people who take testosterone and were AFAB have a larger range compared to a cis male because they don’t lose the strength of their upper register when they start taking T, they just get their range expanded downward. This gives so much versatility to your voice because as you said your range is very wide! I just think it’s super interesting, and more research should definitely be done about trans voices
after starting on T i basically completely lost my voice range, i can’t make it lighter or even scream bc then my voice just cracks and sounds ridiculous. my voice is kinda just stuck on one level and it’s pretty bothersome sometimes
I am an 21 year old cis guy and I have the same amount of facial hair growth. I know it may be a bit disappointing, but it doesn't make you be any less of an awesome man! You're amazing!
Only thing I can say is don't mention a stupid reason in a casual conversation because then you won't be taken seriously. I'm pretty dysphoric about my voice so I casually mentioned that I wanted to be able to sing lower and I wanted to start T, obviously they didn't take me seriously and now I have to deal with them thinking that's the only reason I want it even though I've been diagnosed with dysphoria since then
Okay, so I'm glad you spoke about singing while taking t that made me feel better about it. Today I was brushing my teeth. Like one does. And I looked at myself in the mirror and was like "damn, I look like my brother" then I thought about the single random strand of hair that grows on my chin for no reason, and then about my faint mustache. Then I realized an unknown fear I had about whether I should take t or not... I don't wanna look like my brother! Not trying to be rude to him or anything but his nose is huge and I really hate facial hair. I have a dilemma 😫
Don't worry about facial hair, remember that a lot of cis guys don't like it either! You can get good multi-bladed razors that give a close shave if you don't want any stubble. But of course if/when you get to the point in your transition that you're discussing things with a doctor about T, you should bring that up and have a chat about it. Tbh I hope I end up looking more like my brother on T, he's a good looking guy, with a smashing beard.
my best friend is trans & these videos help me so much with understanding his transition without having to ask him questions that he might find uncomfortable, thank you noah ! 💜
I just wanna say thank you Noah you have helped me to tell my family I’m bi and it was hard but you have helped me over come my anxiety so thank you so much 😊
I have the feeling it’s impossible to finally get to know myself and my gender identity. After coming out as queer on my 14th i thought i had gotten to know myself. But now im 19 and literally questioning everything, its so frustrating to say the least. I truly hope to get to know myself as you got to know yourself. Liked the video :)
I’m sorry you feel that way... But maybe you don’t have to know everything about yourself, you are you and perfect the way you are, do what makes you truly happy, you don’t have to label yourself if you can’t yet. Though I understanding wanting to know yourself. I hope it didn’t come as mean I just wanted to help if I could. Anyways I wish you the best ❤️
Omg yes it is so confusing. I catch myself literally 300x a day looking in the mirror trying to see the real me. Its so weird. I hope you find yourself ❤️
I have my first appointment to start T this December!!! Your videos have been so nice to watch over the years, and I know watching them made younger me feel a lot less alone, thank you
I cannot believe this! I watched you so many years ago, like 5???? I recently rediscovered your channel.. And now you’ve been on T for three years holy shit. I am so incredibly proud of you and how overall successful your journey has been :’)
Thank you for talking about singing! I love singing but the way my voice is now makes me dysphoric and I look forward to singing after having been on T for a while
Review the video titled “schools are teaching gender and sexual identity” please. I really love the vids by the way! I’m from a conservative family and while I’m still Christian, I’m also queer and not on the right. They still love me dearly but they don’t agree with me at all which still hurts. You helped me a lot with acceptance so thank you🖤
Hi! Same! I think a lot of the views the church has on queer people are heavily biases and have no real grounds if you go back to the original languages the scriptures they point to were written in! I wish you all the luck in navigating this cuz it's scary and hard, but know you're not alone even if others with similar beliefs as you try to isolate you 💜💜💜
Some things in this video just related to how I’ve been feeling, and it honestly is like the first time I’ve heard someone talk about these things, so thank you.
"When can I start living my life?" Starting from 13:20ish. Argh, this hurt my heart. As a cis gendered woman, I will never understand what it's like to feel gender dysphoria but I do my best to try and empathise. This line hit different, I never really thought about it like this before. Happy three years :)
The part about feeling like you’re floating, waiting to be activated. I have felt like that so much lately, and when I realized it, it made me realize that I can’t keep putting off my medical transition. Your video was wonderful, I loved hearing about all the random changes that we don’t always think about
I am 18, I live with my mother, my father and my 4 sisters. About 2 months ago I came out as "non-binary" knowing that I am a trans guy. I have known it for many years, but I am a coward, I have a very great social anxiety and also a dysphoria that does not let me leave the house. But I got tired, I got to get depressed and want to finish everything many times, but I think I'm ready. In these weeks I am going to came out at once and legally change my name. I'm already doing paperwork for the top surgery. I got tired of a miserable life, I've been following Noah for years, and it's time for me to take care of my life. I'm scared, but not in the same way anymore, I'm anxious, I want to start being me. Sometimes I think I can bear to hear my deadname and feminine pronouns, and other times I realize how disgusted they make me feel. I live frustrated, angry, in a bad mood for continuing like this. I don't want to fight everyone and treat them badly, they don't know, it's not their fault. It's time, I'm ready. I will come back to update on how it went, my name is Dani and my pronouns are he-him. Finally I apologize for my English as it is not my first language. 🙀🙏 UPDATE: I CAME OUT ON JUNE 13! I was very nervous and did not dare to say anything, but when I see they start to leave I shouted "Hey, you two come", followed by "Yesterday I told them something (three of my sisters) and I just needed to tell you (Dad, mom and older sister), nothing serious, it is something silly." (Me trying to get weight out of the situation) ..*swallow in fear*... "-I'm going to change my name". -Ok! (Dad and Sister) I told them that I was going to be testing "Dani", even though I'm very sure and I've been using it for months heh.I think I always leave one foot out so I can run if I freak out, even when I'm sure. We laughed and the conversation ended, a "that easy?" Escaped my mouth. I could not believe the moment, all this time I prepared myself for the screams, the disappointment, the insults, among other things that I am used to, but none of that happened. Haha until... My mom spoke. But hey in summary it was a very strange talk, with laughter, tears, anger, laughter again, and more. She obviously said horrible things to me, but they didn't hurt anymore. For the first time I had 5 people who supported me, for the first time I felt free, light, and all my frustration and anger go away. So many years of suffering, it doesn't seem real.. buuut, like I said, "I always leave one foot out so I can run away". For now I did not tell them my true pronouns, I am not ready, i am a ball of dysphoria who cannot bear to receive help from others. Since I was a child, externalizing my feelings never made me feel better, it only weighs on me even more because I am soo self-conscious. Being vulnerable only makes me more aware of the things I hate about myself .. *cofcofdysphoria* They are very Christian and before I thought I was doing everything wrong, but now I see that I did things quite well. Having done everything so slowly made them accept with me. If I told them that I was not female and that I am going to have top surgery, I suppose they were "chewing" on the idea of me changing my name or doing other things. I really need the top surgery to be able to let go of all these behaviors that I adopted to survive. To finally be able to say who I am to others, I need a little confidence, a base, To be able to do it, but for now I feel better Finally, for the little me "Will we ever be able to tell others?", Things have changed, we are not yet where we want, but we are on our way to one day being happy. Someday we're going to laugh at all of this, and we're going to be able to call it past. Happy pride month everyone! 🌈💞
Firstly, well done mate for realising what will make you happy and taking steps to achieve it, it's so important that you're your authentic self in life and everyone has the right to that. I wish you the best of luck with all of it, and your English is also amazing :)
Hey Dani? We're proud of you. You're very strong for what you're doing, not to sound patronizing. I myself am a trans man, a little younger than you, and let me just say, what you're doing is brave, not because you're trans, but because you're getting your life together, taking it into your own hands, and standing up for yourself. That's very admirable. I'm excited for your journey too! And for you getting your life back. I know how it feels to fear leaving the house, I myself was...Well, to put it bluntly, I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for HRT. It's gonna be a process, but just know you're not alone, and if you ever need someone to lean on during any of it, just know you can find someone in an LGBTQ+ community, hell, I'd be up for letting you talk to me if you feel overwhelmed or feel alone. You're most certainly not, we're here for you. I also know how it feels to have your dysphoria sort of vary day to day. Your English is perfectly fine, any grammatical mishaps are made up for with context clues, and it's more than legible. Best of luck, my guy. You deserve this. You deserve to be happy, to have a life. Good luck on your journey. :)
I'm so excited to come out to my parents , they'll never accept me and probably disown me and I might have a panic attack but I also might be finally free :]
Congrats Noah! In september it will be 6 years since I started T, idk where the time has gone, im 23 now. So happy for you!! Happy pride everyone 🏳️🌈🏳️🌈🏳️🌈🏳️🌈🏳️🌈🏳️🌈
I'm still 12 so I can't start t yet, you have to be at least 13 1/2 so I've got like 8 months but I can't wait and seeing other trans guys go through second puberty really gives me hope that I can get through this and live a normal life
Congrats on three years, Noah! I’m seven months today. You’ve become a big part of my journey since I’ve started T. Thank you for making the content you do. I’ve felt way less alone since finding your channel.
Stop plucking your facial hair!! Just shave it dude. Takes one second if you’ve got very little hair. Plucking can effect the growth - think about people who over pluck their eyebrows sometimes it never grows back.
Congrats on three years and thank you for making these updates. As a guy who’s 3 months on T videos like these fuel my excitement for my own future! Even though everyone’s transition is unique it’s nice to see.
I really love your channel. You gave me a lot of good advice bc I'm also a trans guy so thank you for the advice! Its pretty hard bc both my parents are homophobic but I did come out to my 18 year old sister and she supports me and is trying to help me! But how tf are you so good looking like I'm jealous 😭 Btw happy pride month y'all💜
I would like to see a video on healthcare for transgendered people. I saw an American documentary once called “Southern Comfort”. It detailed the heartbreaking journey of an FTM who was dying from ovarian cancer and his inability to get care from OB/GYNs. Dr’s wouldn’t treat him because of who he was and that these so called doctors were worried about upsetting their clientele. It outraged me and had me thinking about this as an issue.
i know exactly what you mean about the pre-T waiting to be activated feeling, i had the exact same thing and now im 2 and a bit months on T and already feel so much better as my voice is skyrocketing down haha
Idk if this sounds strange but i have always found your voice comforting, i would wach your videos when i was feeling down or not believing in myself anymore. Being a trans teen in an unsupportive family can be very exhausting.. thanks man :)
Hi Noah! I’m currently on the waitlist to start testosterone (tho unfortunately I’ll have to wait some years) and I remember seeing your t updates videos 3 years ago, wow how fast time goes by! Hope you have a good day Noah! :) Happy pride btw!
As a trans male singer that hasn’t started T, this made me feel so much less nervous and cleared up so many questions I had about how T would effect my singing. Thank you Noah :D you have truly helped me so much
I use to do shots every week on Friday and by Wednesday I would get horrible period cramps. I've been on jell for 4 months and no more cramps thank God!
@@kaitenunicorn783 Honestly for me it’s a huge thing but it’s worth the risk. It’s like either lose nipple sensation or never feel comfortable in my own skin, not be able to wear the clothes I want, have to have sex with a shirt on etc. so the cons of not having the surgery outweigh the one pro😂.
I’m still at the point in my transition where if I like pink, anything stereotypically “girly”, feminine mannerisms, or want to paint my nails I also get really mad at myself. I have no problem with guys doing that stuff I honestly love it and sometimes find it attractive. I want to be able to be happy with what I like and who I am but I won’t be able to until I actually look like a man.
Omg same. I actually really like certain feminine things and I don't want to be very masculine with a beard or anything. But my dysphoria around my body and voice is so bad I can't really express myself :/
@@lynca2205 I know what you mean. But if you aren’t ready to wear them then don’t wear them yet. Maybe try pushing yourself? But I understand if you can’t. You’ll feel confident enough to wear them someday! 💕
Kinda sounds like you’re confused. Before my 27th bday I had never felt feminine. I had never embraced my femininity. I don’t feel particularly fem now. My gender is female no matter how removed from other women I feel. It’s just not within my power to change. That is true for almost all people. Please just give yourself a chance to mature. It will happen.
a video on reflection on fears you had about coming out now as someone who's pretty well into their transition would be very interesting as someone hoping to come out soon. like your expectations of being an out trans person and peoples reactions vs how it actually all went
My 5’5” sister fights at 57kg bc she does mma but she is super muscley. Like so much so that she has recently lost her period and everything she walking around at about 59-60kg depending in the day obviously. Also happy pride month, I just came out as pan to my bff and you look great as always
@@fritzthecat6164 she wasn’t on anything. Just her exercising and stress levels were very high. She’s got them back now but not regular and it’s been over a year
Thank you for this video and also like the words of encouragement for people who need hrt/top surgery but are waiting for what feels like forever. It’s what I needed to hear
I used to say the exact same thing about facial hair! Also got annoyed that it wouldn't come in, not because I'd want it that bad but just so I'd have the possibility to grow it. Nice to see it described like that!
HAIRY BELLY? YES OR NO?!
YES!
omg is that noah fence
Noah, you have been a big influence in my realisation that I was gay❤️
yessir-
Yes
“my singing voice... it’s fine” says the man who has released multiple singles since his voice dropped and fucking killed them
🥺🥺🥺
It’s true, Noah’s music is fantastic!
He’s amazing!!
🏳️🌈 HAPPY PRIDE EVERYONE! HAVE A COOKIE BECAUSE THERAPY IS EXPENSIVE.. 🍪☺️
Thank you!!
That cookie just cured my depression 😇
you are such a *SUNSHINE* ! and here's a cookie for you! ☺️🍪
Thank you!!
I have some cake so here you go 🍰
tanks ya🏳️🌈💞
Trans Dudes: "I'd like a beard, please."
Testosterone: "...Butt hair?"
Trans Dudes: "No, a beard, on my fa-"
Testosterone: "BUTT. HAIR."
Lmaooo 😂
So true 🤣
@Mike Hunt 😧
Ikr, I’m super hairy everywhere but my face and my hair is receding like crazy.
I kinda want the butt hair too 😩🤚🏼
Noah: *mentions not having a beard 8 times within 4 minutes*
Also Noah: "I don't know if I want fascial hair that bad"
I DONT AND THATS THE THING LIKE I JUST GO ON ABOUT THINGS BECAUSE I CAN
@@NOAHFINNCE It's the adhd🙃 also same
@@NOAHFINNCE i just... i cant with you XD
YALL I CAME OUT TO MY PARENTS YESTERDAY AND IT WENT SURPRISINGLY WELL :)) HAPPY PRIDE!!!
Awwww i’m so happy for you
Well done 🏳️⚧️🏳️🌈🏳️⚧️🏳️🌈🏳️⚧️🏳️🌈🏳️⚧️🏳️🌈🏳️⚧️🏳️🌈
r u gonna go pride.
Yay congrats! 🏳️🌈🏳️⚧️
Good 4 u bestie!! 🏳️🌈🏳️🌈🏳️🌈happy pride
I’ve been waiting for the song voice update and I’m not disappointed
Yeah the song thing looks so fun, I need to choose a song I love enough to do that when I get on t
"I've got hairy legs"
-NoahBidinnce, 2021
In all seriousness, congrats on three years! :)
BIDINNCE
@@NOAHFINNCE You heard them. That’s your name now.
@@Ibaldry YESSS HE HAS MY VOTE EVEN THO IM NOT OLD ENOUGH TO VOTE
The last few months, I noticed that: 1. You dared to, and 2. you can: sing high and act 'girly' and still come across like a guy. So happy for you.
Noah! I’m also 3 years on T and my facial hair is only just starting to coming in more, so don’t worry, there’s plenty of time!
@Bokuto’s *thicc* ass I'm curious about the same but a guy on tik tok completely still looked cis and it was as if he never stopped T even tho he'd been off of it for 6yrs. I'm sure it's a lot different for everyone tho
@Bokuto’s *thicc* ass it depends on the person ! some ppl prefer to stay on n some ppl after awhile decide to go off. a youtuber named miles mckenna made a video abt why he want off t after i think a year if ur interested
If you have a hysterectomy you have to take it forever (or oestrogen) because your body cannot produce its own hormones after that. Otherwise, as others have said, you can choose how long you want to be on it. 😊
Yeah, also lots of cis men don't grow facial her and a lot of cis women do, so🤷♀️
@@eneedham789 think you mean an orchiectomy or what's the name for ovary removal. But it's true, you need either T or E for some non sexual purposes in your body. They are chemically nearly the same.
You know with the voice thing it’s actually super interesting. There’s not a whole lot of research that’s been done about it yet, but there is a lot of anecdotal evidence that trans people who take testosterone and were AFAB have a larger range compared to a cis male because they don’t lose the strength of their upper register when they start taking T, they just get their range expanded downward. This gives so much versatility to your voice because as you said your range is very wide! I just think it’s super interesting, and more research should definitely be done about trans voices
That is crazy interesting! I’m now somehow more excited to start T and try to do all the muppet voices with my amazing range
after starting on T i basically completely lost my voice range, i can’t make it lighter or even scream bc then my voice just cracks and sounds ridiculous. my voice is kinda just stuck on one level and it’s pretty bothersome sometimes
It was the same for me. I just sound the same all the time and i can't change my voice much like I used to pre-t.
I am an 21 year old cis guy and I have the same amount of facial hair growth. I know it may be a bit disappointing, but it doesn't make you be any less of an awesome man! You're amazing!
You give me hope that I can gain ur confidence 1 day. The changes from pre T to now is insane. Thank you Noah
I finally got my first binder, idk how to tell my parents i want to start t tho
Congrats and good luck! ❤️
Only thing I can say is don't mention a stupid reason in a casual conversation because then you won't be taken seriously. I'm pretty dysphoric about my voice so I casually mentioned that I wanted to be able to sing lower and I wanted to start T, obviously they didn't take me seriously and now I have to deal with them thinking that's the only reason I want it even though I've been diagnosed with dysphoria since then
I’m glad I’m not the only one with the “when can I start living my life” mindset
i feel that on pre-t
Yeah I’m taking a gap year in between highschool and college and having a “wtf am I gonna do” crisis while also being pre t so I R E A L L Y felt that
I really thought it was just me too omfg
I was just thinking that the other day, now seeing Noah and all these other people on the comments feeling the same , I feel like we will be okay ❤️
PAYING MY RESPECTS TO YOUR HAT NOAH
HAPPY PRIDE MONTH NOAH AND CONGRATS ON 3 YEARS!!
yo i’m happy for you man, i’m starting t today so i’m pumped
Congrats
Wow congratulations!!🎉
I'm happy!! Congratulations bro
Congrats man!
Congrats !!! Starting T made me so much happier I wish it will be the same for you !!!
Okay, so I'm glad you spoke about singing while taking t that made me feel better about it. Today I was brushing my teeth. Like one does. And I looked at myself in the mirror and was like "damn, I look like my brother" then I thought about the single random strand of hair that grows on my chin for no reason, and then about my faint mustache. Then I realized an unknown fear I had about whether I should take t or not... I don't wanna look like my brother! Not trying to be rude to him or anything but his nose is huge and I really hate facial hair. I have a dilemma 😫
@vick • Haha, you'll have to find him first 😈
@vick • 😱 says who?!
Don't worry about facial hair, remember that a lot of cis guys don't like it either! You can get good multi-bladed razors that give a close shave if you don't want any stubble. But of course if/when you get to the point in your transition that you're discussing things with a doctor about T, you should bring that up and have a chat about it. Tbh I hope I end up looking more like my brother on T, he's a good looking guy, with a smashing beard.
@@Robb3636 that is a good point! My boyfriend suggested laser hair removal. I wish you the best of luck!
Aha relate lol
my best friend is trans & these videos help me so much with understanding his transition without having to ask him questions that he might find uncomfortable, thank you noah ! 💜
Congrats! I'm 4.5 months on t now and definitely looking forward to being on t for so long that it's just normal.
I just wanna say thank you Noah you have helped me to tell my family I’m bi and it was hard but you have helped me over come my anxiety so thank you so much 😊
I started testosteron like 2 weeks ago, so excited for seen changes in my body!
Congratulations!! ❤️ I’m so happy for you!
hey how's the changes going bro?
I’m officially one month on T today ☺️
congratulations!!!💞
congrats 🥳
Yay I hope everything is going and will go well for you 🥰
IM SO HAPPY FOR YOU !!
yayyyy
the one dislike is the beard Noah never grew 💀🤚
so glad i’m not alone with how my transition is going, three years on T and we have about the exact same changes!
Congrats Noah! Cant wait until I can start T and get to this point! It somewhat alleviates my dysphoria knowing that this will be me one day! ❤
I always enjoy your voice drop on T videos lol, especially the Justin Bieber one 😂
Happy pride month everyone 😁🤍
I have the feeling it’s impossible to finally get to know myself and my gender identity. After coming out as queer on my 14th i thought i had gotten to know myself. But now im 19 and literally questioning everything, its so frustrating to say the least. I truly hope to get to know myself as you got to know yourself. Liked the video :)
I’m sorry you feel that way...
But maybe you don’t have to know everything about yourself, you are you and perfect the way you are, do what makes you truly happy, you don’t have to label yourself if you can’t yet. Though I understanding wanting to know yourself. I hope it didn’t come as mean I just wanted to help if I could.
Anyways I wish you the best ❤️
holy shit this is my exact situation only i'm a year older. wish you the best this is literally the most confusing thing to deal with mentally.
Thankyou so much 🥺❤️
Omg yes it is so confusing. I catch myself literally 300x a day looking in the mirror trying to see the real me. Its so weird. I hope you find yourself ❤️
We could honestly start a talkinggroup 😂
I have my first appointment to start T this December!!! Your videos have been so nice to watch over the years, and I know watching them made younger me feel a lot less alone, thank you
3 years and I still believe you're an angel😔💕🌻✨
I cannot believe this! I watched you so many years ago, like 5???? I recently rediscovered your channel.. And now you’ve been on T for three years holy shit. I am so incredibly proud of you and how overall successful your journey has been :’)
Thank you for talking about singing! I love singing but the way my voice is now makes me dysphoric and I look forward to singing after having been on T for a while
I clicked so fast yay I’m so happy for you, I’m nearly 3 months on t :)
Noah: women hold their fat in their butt and boobs and thighs.
Me, holding all my fat in my stomach as a cis woman: I wish, sigh
Lol ikr, PCOS entered the chat
ok i really thought this said fart
i just remembered my user is literally fart
@@curebeheaded BAHHAAH
i would just like to say that you’re the only thing that’s been keeping me from being so overwhelmingly depressed like you’ve helped me so much
Thank you so much for making this💖
I started Testosterone just 3 weeks ago and I’m much happier 🥰
super happy for you dude! as my “comfort youtuber” your reassurance rlly makes me feel better... i hope to one day be in ur place
i just want to say, im so proud of you, you have came so far
Super glad you feel more comfortable with yourself! If you can’t be comfortable in your own body, you can’t be comfortable anywhere.
Review the video titled “schools are teaching gender and sexual identity” please. I really love the vids by the way! I’m from a conservative family and while I’m still Christian, I’m also queer and not on the right. They still love me dearly but they don’t agree with me at all which still hurts. You helped me a lot with acceptance so thank you🖤
I'm glad you're accepting yourself as a queer Christian! Keep being you
Hi! Same! I think a lot of the views the church has on queer people are heavily biases and have no real grounds if you go back to the original languages the scriptures they point to were written in! I wish you all the luck in navigating this cuz it's scary and hard, but know you're not alone even if others with similar beliefs as you try to isolate you 💜💜💜
@@elianna_ecc thank you!🖤🖤🖤
@@ibreathefiction I really appreciate it🖤
@@cborgcyborg1150 No problem!!
Some things in this video just related to how I’ve been feeling, and it honestly is like the first time I’ve heard someone talk about these things, so thank you.
My favourite part of your voice updates is seeing your confidence/happiness grow as it gets closer to now
"When can I start living my life?" Starting from 13:20ish. Argh, this hurt my heart. As a cis gendered woman, I will never understand what it's like to feel gender dysphoria but I do my best to try and empathise. This line hit different, I never really thought about it like this before. Happy three years :)
The part about feeling like you’re floating, waiting to be activated. I have felt like that so much lately, and when I realized it, it made me realize that I can’t keep putting off my medical transition. Your video was wonderful, I loved hearing about all the random changes that we don’t always think about
I am 18, I live with my mother, my father and my 4 sisters. About 2 months ago I came out as "non-binary" knowing that I am a trans guy. I have known it for many years, but I am a coward, I have a very great social anxiety and also a dysphoria that does not let me leave the house. But I got tired, I got to get depressed and want to finish everything many times, but I think I'm ready.
In these weeks I am going to came out at once and legally change my name. I'm already doing paperwork for the top surgery. I got tired of a miserable life, I've been following Noah for years, and it's time for me to take care of my life.
I'm scared, but not in the same way anymore, I'm anxious, I want to start being me. Sometimes I think I can bear to hear my deadname and feminine pronouns, and other times I realize how disgusted they make me feel. I live frustrated, angry, in a bad mood for continuing like this. I don't want to fight everyone and treat them badly, they don't know, it's not their fault.
It's time, I'm ready.
I will come back to update on how it went, my name is Dani and my pronouns are he-him.
Finally I apologize for my English as it is not my first language. 🙀🙏
UPDATE: I CAME OUT ON JUNE 13!
I was very nervous and did not dare to say anything, but when I see they start to leave I shouted "Hey, you two come", followed by "Yesterday I told them something (three of my sisters) and I just needed to tell you (Dad, mom and older sister), nothing serious, it is something silly." (Me trying to get weight out of the situation)
..*swallow in fear*...
"-I'm going to change my name".
-Ok! (Dad and Sister)
I told them that I was going to be testing "Dani", even though I'm very sure and I've been using it for months heh.I think I always leave one foot out so I can run if I freak out, even when I'm sure.
We laughed and the conversation ended, a "that easy?" Escaped my mouth. I could not believe the moment, all this time I prepared myself for the screams, the disappointment, the insults, among other things that I am used to, but none of that happened.
Haha until... My mom spoke.
But hey in summary it was a very strange talk, with laughter, tears, anger, laughter again, and more.
She obviously said horrible things to me, but they didn't hurt anymore. For the first time I had 5 people who supported me, for the first time I felt free, light, and all my frustration and anger go away.
So many years of suffering, it doesn't seem real.. buuut, like I said, "I always leave one foot out so I can run away". For now I did not tell them my true pronouns, I am not ready, i am a ball of dysphoria who cannot bear to receive help from others. Since I was a child, externalizing my feelings never made me feel better, it only weighs on me even more because I am soo self-conscious. Being vulnerable only makes me more aware of the things I hate about myself .. *cofcofdysphoria*
They are very Christian and before I thought I was doing everything wrong, but now I see that I did things quite well. Having done everything so slowly made them accept with me. If I told them that I was not female and that I am going to have top surgery, I suppose they were "chewing" on the idea of me changing my name or doing other things.
I really need the top surgery to be able to let go of all these behaviors that I adopted to survive. To finally be able to say who I am to others, I need a little confidence, a base, To be able to do it, but for now I feel better
Finally, for the little me "Will we ever be able to tell others?", Things have changed, we are not yet where we want, but we are on our way to one day being happy. Someday we're going to laugh at all of this, and we're going to be able to call it past.
Happy pride month everyone! 🌈💞
Firstly, well done mate for realising what will make you happy and taking steps to achieve it, it's so important that you're your authentic self in life and everyone has the right to that. I wish you the best of luck with all of it, and your English is also amazing :)
Hey man, you can do it! I believe in you! Also, I'm looking forward to that update!
Hey Dani? We're proud of you. You're very strong for what you're doing, not to sound patronizing. I myself am a trans man, a little younger than you, and let me just say, what you're doing is brave, not because you're trans, but because you're getting your life together, taking it into your own hands, and standing up for yourself. That's very admirable.
I'm excited for your journey too! And for you getting your life back. I know how it feels to fear leaving the house, I myself was...Well, to put it bluntly, I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for HRT. It's gonna be a process, but just know you're not alone, and if you ever need someone to lean on during any of it, just know you can find someone in an LGBTQ+ community, hell, I'd be up for letting you talk to me if you feel overwhelmed or feel alone. You're most certainly not, we're here for you.
I also know how it feels to have your dysphoria sort of vary day to day.
Your English is perfectly fine, any grammatical mishaps are made up for with context clues, and it's more than legible.
Best of luck, my guy. You deserve this. You deserve to be happy, to have a life. Good luck on your journey. :)
Good luck man!
I'm so excited to come out to my parents , they'll never accept me and probably disown me and I might have a panic attack but I also might be finally free :]
i know we will all support you even if they dont! GOOD LUCK!!
good luck! everyone here supports you
This is my first pride month I came out trans to my mum three days ago she doesn’t like me anymore but I’m going to have the best pride month
Damn thats sad my mom doesnt belive im trans but lets have a good pride month like you said!
I'm CERTAIN she loves the shit out of you and just needs time to understand and adjust. Huge hugs to you for coming out and Happy Pride Month! 😁🥰
happy pride month charlie
@@pissy8745 happy pride month
Happy pridw
Congrats Noah! In september it will be 6 years since I started T, idk where the time has gone, im 23 now. So happy for you!! Happy pride everyone 🏳️🌈🏳️🌈🏳️🌈🏳️🌈🏳️🌈🏳️🌈
I'm still 12 so I can't start t yet, you have to be at least 13 1/2 so I've got like 8 months but I can't wait and seeing other trans guys go through second puberty really gives me hope that I can get through this and live a normal life
im so proud of you noah omg
AH, I CANNOT BELIEVE IT'S BEEN 3 YEARS?! I'VE BEEN HERE SINCE THE BEGINNING AND I CANNOT EXPRESS MY HAPPINESS FOR YOU.✨💖
"Lack of testosterone gave me anxiety"
Me a girl: I understand now
1 year late but the terfs have heard you
I can’t wait to start T one day. Also Noah you got such a glo up on T 👏🏼👏🏼
Congrats on three years, Noah! I’m seven months today. You’ve become a big part of my journey since I’ve started T. Thank you for making the content you do. I’ve felt way less alone since finding your channel.
"So to update you now my butt is hairier." Noah 2021
i got so nostalgic when you showed the voice updates, i cant believe i been here for 3 years, im so happy for you always!!
Stop plucking your facial hair!! Just shave it dude. Takes one second if you’ve got very little hair. Plucking can effect the growth - think about people who over pluck their eyebrows sometimes it never grows back.
Congrats on three years and thank you for making these updates. As a guy who’s 3 months on T videos like these fuel my excitement for my own future! Even though everyone’s transition is unique it’s nice to see.
Good luck with your goal of getting a beard! And Congratulations!
i've been here since u were A MONTH on T, it hits hardddd 🥺 genuinely so proud and happy for u!!!
I didn’t know Noah was a fan of MCR
Love that 💕
It makes so much sense
mama starts playing
I’m so glad to hear that you’ve been doing so much better since using the gel 🙏🏼 it’s so good to hear how much more comfortable you are in yourself ✨
Dude, you should do more covers!!
Oh, NVM just saw your YUNGBLUD cover.
I really love your channel. You gave me a lot of good advice bc I'm also a trans guy so thank you for the advice! Its pretty hard bc both my parents are homophobic but I did come out to my 18 year old sister and she supports me and is trying to help me!
But how tf are you so good looking like I'm jealous 😭
Btw happy pride month y'all💜
:D I'm almost on my first year of being on T. Seeing this made me so happy.
Congrats!!!
I would like to see a video on healthcare for transgendered people. I saw an American documentary once called “Southern Comfort”. It detailed the heartbreaking journey of an FTM who was dying from ovarian cancer and his inability to get care from OB/GYNs. Dr’s wouldn’t treat him because of who he was and that these so called doctors were worried about upsetting their clientele. It outraged me and had me thinking about this as an issue.
i know exactly what you mean about the pre-T waiting to be activated feeling, i had the exact same thing and now im 2 and a bit months on T and already feel so much better as my voice is skyrocketing down haha
I'm so happy for you dude! I'm 6 months on T in a couple of days so I'm in the midst of all the exciting changes lol
HAPPY PRIDE MONTH HONEYYY & CONGRATS ON 3 YEARSS
Your videos literally lighten my day
It's nice hering other people talk about this.
Makes me feel more comfortable
Idk if this sounds strange but i have always found your voice comforting, i would wach your videos when i was feeling down or not believing in myself anymore. Being a trans teen in an unsupportive family can be very exhausting.. thanks man :)
Hi Noah!
I’m currently on the waitlist to start testosterone (tho unfortunately I’ll have to wait some years) and I remember seeing your t updates videos 3 years ago, wow how fast time goes by! Hope you have a good day Noah! :)
Happy pride btw!
As a trans male singer that hasn’t started T, this made me feel so much less nervous and cleared up so many questions I had about how T would effect my singing. Thank you Noah :D you have truly helped me so much
I use to do shots every week on Friday and by Wednesday I would get horrible period cramps. I've been on jell for 4 months and no more cramps thank God!
Awe I’m so jealous of how far you have come I wish I had the confidence to even come out to my parents 💙
So does “my nipples are nippling” mean you have sensation in them?😂 I’m about to have surgery and that’s the number 1 thing I’m concerned about.
OMG I THOUGHT THAT WAS JUST ME!! Thank god I found you!
I’m also concerned about that!! I’m nonbinary and that’s literally the only thing stopping me from having top surgery...
@@kaitenunicorn783 same..
@@kaitenunicorn783 Honestly for me it’s a huge thing but it’s worth the risk. It’s like either lose nipple sensation or never feel comfortable in my own skin, not be able to wear the clothes I want, have to have sex with a shirt on etc. so the cons of not having the surgery outweigh the one pro😂.
@@eeedeee7206 haha!😂 it’s a huge deal to me, I don’t see how more people aren’t concerned about it.
The voice difference is amazing, science is very cool!
I’m still at the point in my transition where if I like pink, anything stereotypically “girly”, feminine mannerisms, or want to paint my nails I also get really mad at myself. I have no problem with guys doing that stuff I honestly love it and sometimes find it attractive. I want to be able to be happy with what I like and who I am but I won’t be able to until I actually look like a man.
Omg same. I actually really like certain feminine things and I don't want to be very masculine with a beard or anything. But my dysphoria around my body and voice is so bad I can't really express myself :/
@@lynca2205 I know what you mean. But if you aren’t ready to wear them then don’t wear them yet. Maybe try pushing yourself? But I understand if you can’t. You’ll feel confident enough to wear them someday! 💕
Kinda sounds like you’re confused. Before my 27th bday I had never felt feminine. I had never embraced my femininity. I don’t feel particularly fem now. My gender is female no matter how removed from other women I feel. It’s just not within my power to change. That is true for almost all people. Please just give yourself a chance to mature. It will happen.
I’ve listened to some of your music for a month now and had no clue that you were transitioning your voice is so masculine, glad to see you happy.
OH MY GOD YOU HAD THE TESTOSTERONE RESISTANCE ANXIETY TOO? I thought that was just me lmaooo.
im starting testotrone in 3 days, and i am so fucking excited!!! watching this video is making me cry tears of joy, i am so happy
Thank you Noah for giving me confidence to tell my parents that I’m gender fluid, and happy pride month 🏳️🌈
a video on reflection on fears you had about coming out now as someone who's pretty well into their transition would be very interesting as someone hoping to come out soon. like your expectations of being an out trans person and peoples reactions vs how it actually all went
My 5’5” sister fights at 57kg bc she does mma but she is super muscley. Like so much so that she has recently lost her period and everything she walking around at about 59-60kg depending in the day obviously. Also happy pride month, I just came out as pan to my bff and you look great as always
Sorry how long On TT for her period to take off?
@@fritzthecat6164 she wasn’t on anything. Just her exercising and stress levels were very high. She’s got them back now but not regular and it’s been over a year
I am so happy for how far you've come and how much happier you are 😊
Noah, we love you. But, please bring back the black/brown hair! It was so cute💅🦋❤️
the singing thing. omg. I’ve waited. so. much. thank you. your amazing.
Noah:I'm happy,and I feel good with myself
Me: * Smile and smol tears of joy appear*
Thank you for this video and also like the words of encouragement for people who need hrt/top surgery but are waiting for what feels like forever. It’s what I needed to hear
I STARTED T THIS MORNINGGG FUCKING FINALLT
Nice man
HAPPY PRIDE MONTH EVERYONE! I love all of you :)
Pls do a day in the life I really wanna know what u do in a normal day ❤️
I used to say the exact same thing about facial hair! Also got annoyed that it wouldn't come in, not because I'd want it that bad but just so I'd have the possibility to grow it. Nice to see it described like that!
You're litteraly so gorgeous I can't- don't worry about the beard lol
i have followed you for a long time and it's so good to see you feel better and more confident about yourself
how can u be so handsome Noah. congrats btw
HAPPY PRIDE NOAH
happy pride everyone!! also I’m losing my shit over the parents cover. it’s insane!!! Go stream it!!