This! I have lost what i called my “bonus grandfather” i haven’t got any grandparents anymore, I lost my “bonus grandfather “ last year and this will be the second christmas without him and i still miss him everyday, Grief is strange thing specially around the holidays, But so glad to know that we here are there for eachother❤️ I lost my last grandmother 10 years ago and it will get abit easier but it will never go away, take care❤️
I’m reminded of a Bastille lyric: “I have written you down, now you will live forever” Through sharing this in your vlog, your aunt will live forever through you and now us as well. From someone who is grieving a lost one too, thank you for sharing her with us ❤
So sorry for your loss, it’s not over sharing at all. I lost my dad last December, his anniversary is next week and I’m struggling. I think I was still in shock last Christmas and I know I’m going to find this year harder. He loved Christmas and made the best Christmas dinner. Sending big hugs ❤
“To grieve deeply, is to have loved fully” ❤️ Your grief is a beautiful sign of how wonderful your Aunt must have been. Thank you for sharing such deep emotions with us. This is my first Christmas as a parent, and even 12 years after their passing my heart aches that my grandparents aren’t here to share these special moments any more but, as you say about your Aunt, they are always with us. Sending so much love ❤️
I never comment on videos but just want to say thanks Mark for sharing what you're going through with your Auntie. I have gone through exactly the same thing these last few weeks and attended her funeral Monday. Been the hardest time & Christmas is even more difficult during these times. Seeing you crying in the car has been a mirror image of myself so big love and thanks for the reminder that we are not alone in these things. Please continue to share any ways you help yourself to get through it all.
I appreciate you talking about how difficult Christmas can be for a lot of people. There's so many people having a hard time during the holidays and very few people acknowledge that. Sending you tons of hugs Mark. ❤
just loving vlogmas so much this year, mark. you’re doing so great and bringing so much joy. this is my second christmas without my dad and in a lot of ways it feels a bit harder than that first one. i’m doing all the christmassy, festive things but everything feels a bit lackluster, like the brightness has been turned down. you are always safe to share your grief here in this space you’ve created. sending you so much love & hope your auntie sends you lovely christmas signs so you feel her all around this season❤
I lost 3 grandparents in the last 18 months, this year is the first Christmas that I won't be sat round my nan and grandads house, it is now empty. Teared up buying Christmas cards because I only had one nan to buy for. There will always be those moments. I'm sorry you're going through it too. Much love xx
I love your transparency, I have just found out my Dad has Cancer as well as dementia, it’s hard, you voicing your pain will help you, I am old and appreciate that I now have the knowledge to know that saying it out loud makes a huge difference. Carry on being you, you are real and loved. X
Hi Mark! 🎄 I’m usually a silent watcher but just wanted to say how great it is to have someone share who is going through something similar. Grief is a weird thing and is totally normal feeling to go through the ups and downs. I just lost my uncle in August whom we were really close with. He was always the life of the party and will sure miss him this Christmas. Listening to you talk has definitely helped ❤
Thank you for talking about this. I lost my mom in September. I can't even get my head around it. She was a healthy 78 year old who was so let down by the medical system. Always remember to be your best advocate. I know this time will be hard but it's okay to share the low times. Your aunt sounds like a lovely person. She must be so proud of you Mark!
Grief is love with nowhere to go. Feel it when it’s heartbreaking and feel it when you’re happy. It won’t always hurt. Thinking of anyone dealing with hard things.
Thank you for sharing your grief, I lost my grandma (day before Thanksgiving 2021) and cousin (December 4th,2021) a week apart from each other 2 years ago and it’s so hard… I appreciate you for being so open it brings me comfort
Hey Mark! Thank you so much for being so vulnerable about your grief for your auntie. I also have lost someone very close to me, my mom, and seeing your videos has really helped me not only come to terms with my grief, but also helped me sit with it and remember how amazing my mom was. Your aunt must have been an amazing person to leave everyone filled with so much love for her. Christmas is always a difficult time for grief, but your vlogmas videos and your openness about who you are and about your aunt are helping so much, more than you even know. Thank you so much for sharing!! ❤
So sorry for your loss mark, I lost my auntie in 2019 and it was so hard she was crazy funny and the life of the party, sometimes feels harder to lose someone so full of life and that pain never goes away but every Christmas we have a brandy and Diet Coke (her favourite) and you realise how lucky you were to have such a special person in your life ❤️ Thank you so much Mark, grief is so tough (especially at Christmas) and it’s so refreshing to get your genuine and raw thoughts and feelings on it. Loving this vlogmas series, you’re smashing it 🥹🎄
Someone once told me grief is like a pendulum. One day your ok, then it swings in another direction and your angry, then another day you can be sad. I lost my Dad 11 years ago and sometimes I think oh I must call Dad ! Then I remember I can’t. Grief looks so different to different people and different days. ❤
Your not over sharing at all I really appreciate it my dad passed away three years ago and I wish people would talk about grief more it helps me at least to talk about it and hear others talk about it. Sending you love mark your very wise 💕 xx
Thank you Mark. Third Christmas without my Grandad, eighth without my Nanny. Grief still catches me off guard. Sending love and strength this festive season✨🫶🏼
i’ve been watching your videos for about six years now and i can’t express how much you and your content means to me. i’m so so sorry for your loss, my nannie passed away 12 days ago, i’ve been so close to her my whole life and i still can’t process any of it. i’m turning 18 this month and i don’t know how i’m gonna do it without her, but hearing from you that i’m not alone means so much. thank you mark, sending love.
I'm absolutely loving Vlogmas so far! 💛Ferris, you are smashing it!!! You bring such a realness to RUclips & social media and it's so refreshing. Thank you for making my day brighter 🥰💫
I'm a newer subscriber, but from the first video I watched, I was immediately compelled to keep watching your videos. You're such a sweet and GENUINE human being. Bless you Mark Ferris 🩷
Thank you so much Mark for doing vlogmass and for being so open and honest. I lost my grandad three months ago and still can't believe he isn't amongst us anymore. The holidays will be so weird without him. Missing him more and more everyday. And always will thinking extra about him around this time. That indeed is real life. thank you for being you!
I completely get how you feel Mark and I’m sorry for your loss. I lost my Auntie in June this year too and I still have days where I think she’s with us still and maybe it’s because I don’t quite want to believe she’s gone as it’s so painful. Seeing you share about your aunt gives a lot of comfort to know we’re not alone and we are all struggling with things in some way or another and it’s good to allow ourselves to let our emotions out when we need too. Thank you for your videos and always being real 🩵
Hi mark, I haven’t ever commented something like this but you make me feel comfortable to do so. I found out yesterday that my nanna has early signs of dementia. My little sister struggled with the news and it dawned on me that I’ve never gone through grief or anything like that before. It’s so scary. However seeing you be so strong, embracing the tears, and being your earnest self throughout that vlog gave me so much reassurance that things will be okay. Reminded me of what I might be capable of. Please keep doing your thing, lots of love x
It’ll be my families first Christmas without my Uncle this year. I can definitely relate, thank you for being so real and vulnerable with us ❤💕 sending love
it's been 30 years since my mother passed and today I felt quite emotional while making ornaments for my Christmas tree knowing if she was here she would have been with me making them with me. Sorry for your loss, holidays change the more loved ones we loose.
Thank you for sharing Mark! I appreciate you being real and sharing your emotions and experience with grief. I have lost both my grandparents this year and sometimes grief can feel lonely. All around people are excited and happy in the holiday spirit. I feel that way sometimes but its also hard going through the firsts without your loved ones.
Thank you for this video. I’m so glad you’re doing vlogmas ❤ I also went through a very horrible traumatic life changing experience a few years ago… and I’m still trying my best to heal. It changed who I am and it changed how I see people. It did really help me to share with people. Most don’t understand but through that… I have made a few very close dear friends that I would never have had the chance to meet. Every day is a gift. Grief takes time and it’s so individual. Thank you Mark. You bring a bright spark into so many lives ❤
Thank you for sharing Mark!! I lost someone this year too and talking about it is so helpful and it’s also nice to know we are not alone in feeling grief.
I’ve been a silent viewer for years but today I just wanted to thank you Mark! I really appreciate you sharing your feelings, I lost my grandma this year and I feel this so much! So sorry for your loss and sending lots of love your way 💗
Thank you for being so open about grief it’s going to help more people than you think,. Hope you are your family continue to heal, we are all here for you ❤
Thank you for talking about it mark when I was 12 I lost my godmother right near Christmas and still to this day 4 years later I still find it hard around Christmas especially since she loved it so much and most memories with her were at Christmas so thank you for speaking about it and we have got this ❤
So so appreciative of you, I lost my aunt 5 years ago and the grieving never stops, you learn to ride the waves. Keep talking about her with your friends and family 🤍
I love how open and vulnerable you are with your grief. I lost my grandpa three years ago just a few days before Christmas and it’s been the hardest thing for me because I feel guilty for being happy around the holidays without him. Thank you for being a light for people going through hard times
Mark you’re the most beautiful person inside and out! Thank you so much for sharing your happy times and your vulnerable times it’s very important for many people. Can’t wait for tomorrow’s vlogmas!
Sending hugs for you and family ❤ We lost my sister in November 2021 and it’s so true that this time of year is wonderful but is also a time where grief for the ones we’ve lost is prevalent too ❤
Loving vlogmas so far, thank you for the videos Mark!! 🎄❤️ You are such a beautiful human being & you're doing an amazing job & making your Auntie proud every single day 💕 xxx
Thank you for being so real with all of us today, love your content and love your beautiful face ❤ grief is constant and sharing your thoughts makes me feel better lost my mom and the holidays are so hard .❤😊
You've got such a beautiful soul, Mark. Thank you for always being yourself and so real with us 🤍 Your videos feel like getting a hug from a friend, and that's such a gift to the world 💕
Thank you for another lovely vlog Mark. So sorry about your Aunty, but talking about her all the time will help heal the pain. I've lost both my grandparents many years back and still find Christmas hard. Stay strong, we're all behind you❤
Thankyou for this video! Honestly relate a lot 😢 lost my uncle who was like my best friend 3 years ago and spending the festive period which includes my birthday without him is heartbreaking :( You’re not over sharing it’s refreshing to hear, love you Marky x
Thankyou for keeping it so real this Christmas. I am usually the most festive person you could ever meet around this time of year, but it’s my first Christmas in 7 years that I won’t be spending with my boyfriend. I’m grieving the loss of our relationship and it’s so hard! I’m still trying to enjoy Christmas as much as possible but I’m definitely having down days where I miss him so much 😢. Your videos are a joy each day that I look forward to ❤
Good to share Mark, you will always have your memories and grieving never goes away and catches you out when you least expect it. Your family will be very proud of you
Lost my dad in may, first xmas without him. Christmas is cancelled for me i cant even deal with it, cant stand the decs, the adverts, the music. None of it....and i usually love it . Love to you hunny, your vlogs are really bringing me so much comfort in such a gloomy time xxxxx
You talking about your auntie is making me emotional because I was watching old “vlogs” of my auntie from like 2004 before she passed and it’s so nice to see her face and hear her voice at times like this ❤
So sorry for your loss mark 💕 its always hard for my family around this time as well . I always say just be kind to everyone , you never know what a person may be going through . Hugs to you 💕
Ahh Mark, I feel for you so much! My mam got ill at Christmas and lost her in January. It’s so hard and every year the sad feelings come back but over time you do heal and know that they’d want us to be happy and have fun. Just do what you need to do to get through it, whether that be staying in with food and having a cry or going out and having a few drinks and laughing with friends, no one is judging we all deal with things in different ways. Loving the vlog, it’s a real highlight of the festive season this year and thank you for sharing, things get easier, I promise. Your lovely auntie will always be nudging you along ❤ Sending lots of love x
I’m so sorry for your loss Mark. The first holiday season without a loved one is so hard. Some days you’re fine and others you just can’t cope. And it’s so surreal to see that the world just moves on when you feel your world has come to a stop. Time will heal the rawness of her loss and allow you to look back on memories with a smile. Their loss never goes away but over time you cherish the wonderful memories you have without the pain of them not being there. Thank you for sharing your life with us and being so raw about it. Honestly found that talking about the loss helped. My Grandpa passed around Thanksgiving 10 years ago, we still miss him but now we chuckle at how he would act around the holidays and honor his memory. You’re doing beautiful hun! ❤
I lost my dad in August and the things you mention are very relatable. The still not believing they are gone and then when you get a moment and realisation kicks in it literally takes your breathe away. Thank you for being raw and honest, being the first Christmas without my dad and finding it really hard. This is refreshing to hear and see I’m not alone in my thoughts. Sending you love and hugs x
I loved this vlog, it showed that there can be sadness during the festive times. I don't like seeing people upset but I am glad you showed and shared how you were feeling. Like you said in the video, even if it helps one person, you still helped ☺I am incredibly sorry for your loss Mark, wishing you all the best ❤
This Christmas is a hard one for my family, we lost someone recently. You have really helped with just a little bit of joy and it's greatly appreciated. 💜
Hearing you talk about grieving during the holiday season is so heartwarming and makes me feel not alone. It’s the first Christmas since my parents separated and it’s so mixed emotions. It’s my husbands and i first Christmas as well. It’s also the 3rd Xmas without my husbands mom who loved Christmas. Thank you for being open about grieving and processing 💕
Thank you for sharing the harder parts of life as well. I lost my uncle this past summer so I feel like I'm going through the same thing as you right now, where it just doesn't feel real sometimes. Sending you so much love and all the hugs ❤❤
Mark, I want to thank you from The bottom of my heart for being so real and authentic with us this Christmas! All though it’s so nice to see someone’s highlights / exciting moments during the holidays- for some it’s not always so joyous. I’ve been struggling the last few Christmas’s having lost my auntie as well- who was VERY much like an older sister and my only best friend. Please don’t ever apologize for going through something so difficult. I wish I had this when my aunt did pass away. I had never felt so numb and lonely- but to have this now and also seeing you push through and still enjoying life as best you can is just HEART WARMING and so SO incredible to see.❤️ love you Marky Mark!!
Thank you for talking about grief so openly. It means the world to those of us who are having similar experiences. It feels like being seen and reminds me that we are not alone in our grief but part of a community of others trying to get through. Loving this vlogmas! Can't wait to see what the rest of the month has in store.
Losing a close friend or family member is always hard, and more so at holiday times or special occasions that you often shared. I hope that you and your family can find a measure of peace and enjoyment in your holidays this year.
Oh Mark. My heart breaks for you. Thank you for being so open and candid about your grief. Stay strong and know I am praying for you 🙏🏻 I know your aunt is in Heaven smiling down on you and sending her love to you.
Yes thank you for sharing the normal fact that people are grieving everyday, today is day three with out my auntie who was my best friend growing up I grew up with her She was only 58 years old She was a teen when I was born she was my entire childhood and been close to me and how I constantly wanna go to message her about what my mom and grandma are doing for her memorial and end of life celebrations is still a shock to me that I can't but its just natural. It helps to know other people are grieving and living life going on but still thinking of their loved ones. Speaking about her helps.
we lost my grandma around this time last year and i still can't believe she's gone. thank you for sharing this mark. your positivity and realness helps so much
Thank you for sharing Mark. I lost my grandmother in June and she was more than just that to me. She was also my best friend she held our family together and made every holiday special. This is my first Christmas without her. I’m devastated, but watching your vlogs is helping me. Thank you, continue to be authentic you’re finding the right people. 💕
I’ve lost my aunt last year and it really was devastating but I understand that this is life and we can’t stop things from happening. It’s ok to not be ok. The first year will always be the hardest. Be in your feelings and let it out. So sorry for your loss. Sending you big hugs and love.❤
I hadn’t even realised that it was our first Christmas without my grandma this year until I’ve been watching your vlogs. With her having dementia we all felt we went through grief when she lost herself and more so felt relief when she passed. But realising that she won’t be here at all this Christmas is definitely a strange feeling. So Thankyou for being so honest and open, it makes it not so lonely xx
Mark, I'm so sorry for your loss! Even more heartbreaking at this time of year as well. We're here for you. On an unrelated note the comic store reminds me of a shop near me named cool merch I love it for not only the loungefly stuff but for anime merchandise and music merch
You are doing such a lovely job with vlogmas! I really appreciate you opening up about your life and family! I’m really enjoy watching your vlogs everyday. Love from New York! 🎄
It's been 14 years without my dad during the holidays. This is when I think of him the most cause Christmas was his favorite. I'm thinking of you and your family during this holiday season ❤
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I don't think this is oversharing at all!! I'm so sorry for your loss Mark
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This! I have lost what i called my “bonus grandfather” i haven’t got any grandparents anymore, I lost my “bonus grandfather “ last year and this will be the second christmas without him and i still miss him everyday, Grief is strange thing specially around the holidays, But so glad to know that we here are there for eachother❤️ I lost my last grandmother 10 years ago and it will get abit easier but it will never go away, take care❤️
I’m reminded of a Bastille lyric: “I have written you down, now you will live forever” Through sharing this in your vlog, your aunt will live forever through you and now us as well. From someone who is grieving a lost one too, thank you for sharing her with us ❤
So sorry for your loss, it’s not over sharing at all. I lost my dad last December, his anniversary is next week and I’m struggling. I think I was still in shock last Christmas and I know I’m going to find this year harder. He loved Christmas and made the best Christmas dinner. Sending big hugs ❤
“To grieve deeply, is to have loved fully” ❤️
Your grief is a beautiful sign of how wonderful your Aunt must have been. Thank you for sharing such deep emotions with us.
This is my first Christmas as a parent, and even 12 years after their passing my heart aches that my grandparents aren’t here to share these special moments any more but, as you say about your Aunt, they are always with us. Sending so much love ❤️
I never comment on videos but just want to say thanks Mark for sharing what you're going through with your Auntie. I have gone through exactly the same thing these last few weeks and attended her funeral Monday. Been the hardest time & Christmas is even more difficult during these times. Seeing you crying in the car has been a mirror image of myself so big love and thanks for the reminder that we are not alone in these things. Please continue to share any ways you help yourself to get through it all.
Let's all think of Mark's auntie together, sending her lots of love and good energy❣ Towards the light and beyond✨🌟✨💕💖
I appreciate you talking about how difficult Christmas can be for a lot of people. There's so many people having a hard time during the holidays and very few people acknowledge that. Sending you tons of hugs Mark. ❤
just loving vlogmas so much this year, mark. you’re doing so great and bringing so much joy. this is my second christmas without my dad and in a lot of ways it feels a bit harder than that first one. i’m doing all the christmassy, festive things but everything feels a bit lackluster, like the brightness has been turned down. you are always safe to share your grief here in this space you’ve created. sending you so much love & hope your auntie sends you lovely christmas signs so you feel her all around this season❤
I lost 3 grandparents in the last 18 months, this year is the first Christmas that I won't be sat round my nan and grandads house, it is now empty. Teared up buying Christmas cards because I only had one nan to buy for. There will always be those moments. I'm sorry you're going through it too. Much love xx
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I love your transparency, I have just found out my Dad has Cancer as well as dementia, it’s hard, you voicing your pain will help you, I am old and appreciate that I now have the knowledge to know that saying it out loud makes a huge difference. Carry on being you, you are real and loved. X
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Hi Mark! 🎄
I’m usually a silent watcher but just wanted to say how great it is to have someone share who is going through something similar. Grief is a weird thing and is totally normal feeling to go through the ups and downs. I just lost my uncle in August whom we were really close with. He was always the life of the party and will sure miss him this Christmas. Listening to you talk has definitely helped ❤
Thank you for talking about this. I lost my mom in September. I can't even get my head around it. She was a healthy 78 year old who was so let down by the medical system. Always remember to be your best advocate. I know this time will be hard but it's okay to share the low times. Your aunt sounds like a lovely person. She must be so proud of you Mark!
Grief is love with nowhere to go.
Feel it when it’s heartbreaking and feel it when you’re happy. It won’t always hurt. Thinking of anyone dealing with hard things.
Thank you for sharing your grief, I lost my grandma (day before Thanksgiving 2021) and cousin (December 4th,2021) a week apart from each other 2 years ago and it’s so hard… I appreciate you for being so open it brings me comfort
Hey Mark! Thank you so much for being so vulnerable about your grief for your auntie. I also have lost someone very close to me, my mom, and seeing your videos has really helped me not only come to terms with my grief, but also helped me sit with it and remember how amazing my mom was. Your aunt must have been an amazing person to leave everyone filled with so much love for her. Christmas is always a difficult time for grief, but your vlogmas videos and your openness about who you are and about your aunt are helping so much, more than you even know. Thank you so much for sharing!! ❤
So sorry for your loss mark, I lost my auntie in 2019 and it was so hard she was crazy funny and the life of the party, sometimes feels harder to lose someone so full of life and that pain never goes away but every Christmas we have a brandy and Diet Coke (her favourite) and you realise how lucky you were to have such a special person in your life ❤️ Thank you so much Mark, grief is so tough (especially at Christmas) and it’s so refreshing to get your genuine and raw thoughts and feelings on it. Loving this vlogmas series, you’re smashing it 🥹🎄
Someone once told me grief is like a pendulum. One day your ok, then it swings in another direction and your angry, then another day you can be sad. I lost my Dad 11 years ago and sometimes I think oh I must call Dad ! Then I remember I can’t. Grief looks so different to different people and different days. ❤
Your not over sharing at all I really appreciate it my dad passed away three years ago and I wish people would talk about grief more it helps me at least to talk about it and hear others talk about it. Sending you love mark your very wise 💕 xx
Thank you Mark. Third Christmas without my Grandad, eighth without my Nanny. Grief still catches me off guard. Sending love and strength this festive season✨🫶🏼
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i’ve been watching your videos for about six years now and i can’t express how much you and your content means to me. i’m so so sorry for your loss, my nannie passed away 12 days ago, i’ve been so close to her my whole life and i still can’t process any of it. i’m turning 18 this month and i don’t know how i’m gonna do it without her, but hearing from you that i’m not alone means so much. thank you mark, sending love.
nothing makes me happier than a youtube notification from mark ferris makes my whole day x
I'm absolutely loving Vlogmas so far! 💛Ferris, you are smashing it!!! You bring such a realness to RUclips & social media and it's so refreshing. Thank you for making my day brighter 🥰💫
Honestly sending so much love to you Mark and anyone who's grieving a loved one, especially during the holidays!
I'm a newer subscriber, but from the first video I watched, I was immediately compelled to keep watching your videos. You're such a sweet and GENUINE human being. Bless you Mark Ferris 🩷
Mark is a kind of person beautiful from inside and outside 😊🎉❤ be happy and have a great festive season
Thank you so much Mark for doing vlogmass and for being so open and honest. I lost my grandad three months ago and still can't believe he isn't amongst us anymore. The holidays will be so weird without him. Missing him more and more everyday. And always will thinking extra about him around this time. That indeed is real life. thank you for being you!
So sorry for your loss, Mark 🤍 Sending lots of love. You are pure light ✨
I completely get how you feel Mark and I’m sorry for your loss. I lost my Auntie in June this year too and I still have days where I think she’s with us still and maybe it’s because I don’t quite want to believe she’s gone as it’s so painful. Seeing you share about your aunt gives a lot of comfort to know we’re not alone and we are all struggling with things in some way or another and it’s good to allow ourselves to let our emotions out when we need too. Thank you for your videos and always being real 🩵
Sharing your experience does help others. It has helped me with my own grief and knowing that you’re not alone ❤
We love your mark! Thank you for being so vulnerable and open💖💖💖 sending love and hugs xxx
Hi mark, I haven’t ever commented something like this but you make me feel comfortable to do so.
I found out yesterday that my nanna has early signs of dementia. My little sister struggled with the news and it dawned on me that I’ve never gone through grief or anything like that before. It’s so scary. However seeing you be so strong, embracing the tears, and being your earnest self throughout that vlog gave me so much reassurance that things will be okay. Reminded me of what I might be capable of.
Please keep doing your thing, lots of love x
the best way to start friday!! ❤ you make me so happy
You’re doing so great,sending you so much love
It’ll be my families first Christmas without my Uncle this year. I can definitely relate, thank you for being so real and vulnerable with us ❤💕 sending love
I love that your sharing this about grief, experiencing this personally right now & this helped me remember I’m not alone ❤
it's been 30 years since my mother passed and today I felt quite emotional while making ornaments for my Christmas tree knowing if she was here she would have been with me making them with me. Sorry for your loss, holidays change the more loved ones we loose.
Thank you for sharing Mark! I appreciate you being real and sharing your emotions and experience with grief. I have lost both my grandparents this year and sometimes grief can feel lonely. All around people are excited and happy in the holiday spirit. I feel that way sometimes but its also hard going through the firsts without your loved ones.
Thank you for this video. I’m so glad you’re doing vlogmas ❤ I also went through a very horrible traumatic life changing experience a few years ago… and I’m still trying my best to heal. It changed who I am and it changed how I see people. It did really help me to share with people. Most don’t understand but through that… I have made a few very close dear friends that I would never have had the chance to meet. Every day is a gift. Grief takes time and it’s so individual. Thank you Mark. You bring a bright spark into so many lives ❤
Thank you for sharing Mark!! I lost someone this year too and talking about it is so helpful and it’s also nice to know we are not alone in feeling grief.
Sending all the love and strength in the world mark, it’s okay to be vulnerable and youre helping so many people sharing this! Much love ❤❤❤
I’ve been a silent viewer for years but today I just wanted to thank you Mark! I really appreciate you sharing your feelings, I lost my grandma this year and I feel this so much! So sorry for your loss and sending lots of love your way 💗
Thank you for being so open about grief it’s going to help more people than you think,. Hope you are your family continue to heal, we are all here for you ❤
Thank you for talking about it mark when I was 12 I lost my godmother right near Christmas and still to this day 4 years later I still find it hard around Christmas especially since she loved it so much and most memories with her were at Christmas so thank you for speaking about it and we have got this ❤
❤ It’s perfectly normal to feel this way!! I love your down to earth vlogs! Thank you for being yourself! ❤
You are such a beautiful human Mark , I am so glad you are in this world ❤
So so appreciative of you, I lost my aunt 5 years ago and the grieving never stops, you learn to ride the waves. Keep talking about her with your friends and family 🤍
We love you so much Mark, your aunt is looking down to you always and shes so proud of you❤️❤️❤️
Praying for you and your family during this hard time. Sending all the love and light your way! ❤❤❤
I appreciate you keeping it real! I love this time of year, but it brings sadness and grief with it as well. We’re all in this together! ❤❤❤
So sorry for your loss Mark! I hope you’re ok. Smashing VLOGMAS ❤
I love how open and vulnerable you are with your grief. I lost my grandpa three years ago just a few days before Christmas and it’s been the hardest thing for me because I feel guilty for being happy around the holidays without him. Thank you for being a light for people going through hard times
Mark you’re the most beautiful person inside and out! Thank you so much for sharing your happy times and your vulnerable times it’s very important for many people. Can’t wait for tomorrow’s vlogmas!
Sending hugs for you and family ❤ We lost my sister in November 2021 and it’s so true that this time of year is wonderful but is also a time where grief for the ones we’ve lost is prevalent too ❤
Loving vlogmas so far, thank you for the videos Mark!! 🎄❤️ You are such a beautiful human being & you're doing an amazing job & making your Auntie proud every single day 💕 xxx
Filling your heart w love and a huge hug ❤ you truly got this
Thank you for being so real with all of us today, love your content and love your beautiful face ❤ grief is constant and sharing your thoughts makes me feel better lost my mom and the holidays are so hard .❤😊
You've got such a beautiful soul, Mark. Thank you for always being yourself and so real with us 🤍 Your videos feel like getting a hug from a friend, and that's such a gift to the world 💕
Sending all my love to you all during this hard time ❤🙏
You've been vloging for a whole week im so so happy for you to make it so far 💗
Thank you for another lovely vlog Mark. So sorry about your Aunty, but talking about her all the time will help heal the pain. I've lost both my grandparents many years back and still find Christmas hard. Stay strong, we're all behind you❤
Not over sharing! Thank you for being your true, real and authentic self! I adore you, Mark! Sending you hugs ❤
Oh Mark 😭 You are so strong. Never wanted to hug someone more 🫶🏽
Thankyou for this video! Honestly relate a lot 😢 lost my uncle who was like my best friend 3 years ago and spending the festive period which includes my birthday without him is heartbreaking :(
You’re not over sharing it’s refreshing to hear, love you Marky x
I LOVE YOUR HONESTY
Thankyou for keeping it so real this Christmas. I am usually the most festive person you could ever meet around this time of year, but it’s my first Christmas in 7 years that I won’t be spending with my boyfriend. I’m grieving the loss of our relationship and it’s so hard! I’m still trying to enjoy Christmas as much as possible but I’m definitely having down days where I miss him so much 😢. Your videos are a joy each day that I look forward to ❤
Good to share Mark, you will always have your memories and grieving never goes away and catches you out when you least expect it. Your family will be very proud of you
Your pickles!!!😩😂 I love you Mark, don’t ever be afraid to share anything with us❤️
Love you so much Mark, you’re such a pure light. Thank you for being you🤍
Lost my dad in may, first xmas without him. Christmas is cancelled for me i cant even deal with it, cant stand the decs, the adverts, the music. None of it....and i usually love it . Love to you hunny, your vlogs are really bringing me so much comfort in such a gloomy time xxxxx
You talking about your auntie is making me emotional because I was watching old “vlogs” of my auntie from like 2004 before she passed and it’s so nice to see her face and hear her voice at times like this ❤
Bless your heart. It is not oversharing. Thank you for being real.
So sorry for your loss mark 💕 its always hard for my family around this time as well . I always say just be kind to everyone , you never know what a person may be going through . Hugs to you 💕
I’ve never wanted to hug someone so much through a screen 😢 Mark bless your heart ❤
Ahh Mark, I feel for you so much! My mam got ill at Christmas and lost her in January. It’s so hard and every year the sad feelings come back but over time you do heal and know that they’d want us to be happy and have fun. Just do what you need to do to get through it, whether that be staying in with food and having a cry or going out and having a few drinks and laughing with friends, no one is judging we all deal with things in different ways. Loving the vlog, it’s a real highlight of the festive season this year and thank you for sharing, things get easier, I promise. Your lovely auntie will always be nudging you along ❤ Sending lots of love x
I’m so sorry for your loss Mark. The first holiday season without a loved one is so hard. Some days you’re fine and others you just can’t cope. And it’s so surreal to see that the world just moves on when you feel your world has come to a stop. Time will heal the rawness of her loss and allow you to look back on memories with a smile. Their loss never goes away but over time you cherish the wonderful memories you have without the pain of them not being there. Thank you for sharing your life with us and being so raw about it. Honestly found that talking about the loss helped. My Grandpa passed around Thanksgiving 10 years ago, we still miss him but now we chuckle at how he would act around the holidays and honor his memory. You’re doing beautiful hun! ❤
I know exactly how you feel Mark. We keep going day by day but when the reality hits, it hurts so much.
We're strong for us and for them❤
Mark
I lost my dad in August and the things you mention are very relatable. The still not believing they are gone and then when you get a moment and realisation kicks in it literally takes your breathe away.
Thank you for being raw and honest, being the first Christmas without my dad and finding it really hard. This is refreshing to hear and see I’m not alone in my thoughts. Sending you love and hugs x
I loved this vlog, it showed that there can be sadness during the festive times. I don't like seeing people upset but I am glad you showed and shared how you were feeling. Like you said in the video, even if it helps one person, you still helped ☺I am incredibly sorry for your loss Mark, wishing you all the best ❤
This Christmas is a hard one for my family, we lost someone recently. You have really helped with just a little bit of joy and it's greatly appreciated. 💜
Hearing you talk about grieving during the holiday season is so heartwarming and makes me feel not alone. It’s the first Christmas since my parents separated and it’s so mixed emotions. It’s my husbands and i first Christmas as well. It’s also the 3rd Xmas without my husbands mom who loved Christmas. Thank you for being open about grieving and processing 💕
Thank you for sharing the harder parts of life as well. I lost my uncle this past summer so I feel like I'm going through the same thing as you right now, where it just doesn't feel real sometimes. Sending you so much love and all the hugs ❤❤
Mark, I want to thank you from
The bottom of my heart for being so real and authentic with us this Christmas! All though it’s so nice to see someone’s highlights / exciting moments during the holidays- for some it’s not always so joyous. I’ve been struggling the last few Christmas’s having lost my auntie as well- who was VERY much like an older sister and my only best friend. Please don’t ever apologize for going through something so difficult. I wish I had this when my aunt did pass away. I had never felt so numb and lonely- but to have this now and also seeing you push through and still enjoying life as best you can is just HEART WARMING and so SO incredible to see.❤️ love you Marky Mark!!
Thank you for talking about grief so openly. It means the world to those of us who are having similar experiences. It feels like being seen and reminds me that we are not alone in our grief but part of a community of others trying to get through. Loving this vlogmas! Can't wait to see what the rest of the month has in store.
Losing a close friend or family member is always hard, and more so at holiday times or special occasions that you often shared. I hope that you and your family can find a measure of peace and enjoyment in your holidays this year.
You know it is hard but always remember the good times you had with the person that always helps to keep the memories and them
Oh Mark. My heart breaks for you. Thank you for being so open and candid about your grief. Stay strong and know I am praying for you 🙏🏻 I know your aunt is in Heaven smiling down on you and sending her love to you.
Yes thank you for sharing the normal fact that people are grieving everyday, today is day three with out my auntie who was my best friend growing up I grew up with her She was only 58 years old She was a teen when I was born she was my entire childhood and been close to me and how I constantly wanna go to message her about what my mom and grandma are doing for her memorial and end of life celebrations is still a shock to me that I can't but its just natural. It helps to know other people are grieving and living life going on but still thinking of their loved ones. Speaking about her helps.
Big hugs to you Mark ❤. So sorry for your loss 💞
Love you Mark, thank you for all you do, you dont know how amazing you are and how these videos do help so many people xxx
we lost my grandma around this time last year and i still can't believe she's gone. thank you for sharing this mark. your positivity and realness helps so much
Thank you for sharing this part of your life. I know it will help others. ❤
Thank you for sharing Mark. I lost my grandmother in June and she was more than just that to me. She was also my best friend she held our family together and made every holiday special. This is my first Christmas without her. I’m devastated, but watching your vlogs is helping me. Thank you, continue to be authentic you’re finding the right people. 💕
I’ve lost my aunt last year and it really was devastating but I understand that this is life and we can’t stop things from happening. It’s ok to not be ok. The first year will always be the hardest. Be in your feelings and let it out. So sorry for your loss. Sending you big hugs and love.❤
I hadn’t even realised that it was our first Christmas without my grandma this year until I’ve been watching your vlogs. With her having dementia we all felt we went through grief when she lost herself and more so felt relief when she passed. But realising that she won’t be here at all this Christmas is definitely a strange feeling. So Thankyou for being so honest and open, it makes it not so lonely xx
Sending hugs Mark. Still miss my aunty nearly 5 years on. Really feeling it this year. ❤❤❤
big virtual hug, thank you for sharing & keeping it real!
Mark, I'm so sorry for your loss! Even more heartbreaking at this time of year as well. We're here for you. On an unrelated note the comic store reminds me of a shop near me named cool merch I love it for not only the loungefly stuff but for anime merchandise and music merch
You are doing such a lovely job with vlogmas! I really appreciate you opening up about your life and family! I’m really enjoy watching your vlogs everyday. Love from New York! 🎄
It's been 14 years without my dad during the holidays. This is when I think of him the most cause Christmas was his favorite. I'm thinking of you and your family during this holiday season ❤