Chief, after my 3rd tour in Iraq i came back to a place i didn't recognize and to a home i didn't know. Everything looked different and felt different. I am always on high alert especially when my children are with me. I truly felt like if i had a good day and let my guard down i would lose everything i loved. So, since that day i haven't and i have been in a perpetual state of being on guard. It's no way to live i know that but when you have seen what i have it is impossible to go back to who i was before i left. So today i will continue to stand in the Gallows as Ren says on my tip toes so i can breathe just a little bit more.
Thankyou for your service. Seems such a small thing to say in the face off the horrors of war. You are so appreciated and deserve to be looked after post Military life. I hope you have all the support and love you need. The toll PTSD has on humans is immense. PTSD is caused by many things. War being the worst of them. Mine was caused by violent partners. I was unlucky enough to have two in the space of 10 years. Its a road to recovery. Just glad you made it back, glad your kids get to grow up with a Dad.
You might feel a bit different. Vet here too, but got out before the war. But, I used to be able to cry before I served. There was such a pull to not show weakness that I can literally count on both hands the amount of times I have been able to let go since. Death of a cat who got me through mental health crisis when he was 17. The birth of my kids. Ren's made me cry again. So grateful for it, instead of making myself even more numb.
It's not impossible, the goal post are a little far from where you think they are. Trust me finding an escape from the chaos helps tremendously. Hobbies that are in left field help make the air feel breathable.
One of my favourite Ren songs. For me it's 'in the gallows, I balance on my toes, so I can breathe'. That struggle to keep your head above the water, all the energy it takes, just destroys me.
I have lost two very dear friends to suicide... and this song reminds me both of their struggle, but also that I love them and that I miss them and that I try to be ok for them, for their future, for their greatness. Much love to you darling.
I'm a 60 year old guy who's recently discovered Ren, and he's had me bawling many, many times watching his videos... This one in particular hit me hard, the chalk outlines to me, means that when you take anti-depressants, you lose who you are, and just become a chalk outline of yourself, and also the line "you erase yourself in a chalk outline" is self explanatory in this context.... it's perfect
The first time I heard "Floating Chalk Outline" I couldn't believe how perfect it described how I felt on anti-anxiety meds. A shell, hollow, dead to myself and how people saw me.....yet walking around trying to live.
Right? No artist of any art form has made me shed as many tears in the past 50 years of active listening. It's kind of ridiculous at this point, but I'm happy for it.
I wanted to simply just say that I think that you are probably one of the most beautifully minded men that I have had the pleasure of ever coming across in my life...and to ask that you never change or apologize for your honest reactions. Music has saved my life countless times and to this day has and ALWAYS will be my therapist. Please, stay the way you are, and don't apologize. It's beautiful...
I was a district nurse for many years in the UK, helping patients and their families deal with mental health problems... dementia mostly. Then had an accident where I injured my back, had to learn to walk again and lost my job through it. The same hospital I used to work for now gives me strong pain meds and psych meds... increasing it twice a year or more due to the fact my body learns to tolerate the lower doses so fast. They tell me to take them even if I am having an ok day... just in case. You feel his hurt and his passion through his pieces of art. Spread the word and love for Ren folks! Have a great week all.
I started to crumble at "...In the gallows, I balanced on my toes So I can breathe." Trying so hard to just keep your head above water - struggling for every breath. Really hits home. "Walking around in a floating chalk outline.". The pills making you feel numb to your surroundings, more dead than alive. A lot of us can relate to much of this - hearing those familiar feelings communicated in art is cathartic.
Thank you for sharing these words with us. I don’t know much about mental illness but listening to Ren and reading other people’s reactions is very enlightening! Thank you again.
It's amazing how Ren's music has opened all this dialogue about so many subjects. Things we wouldn't normally share with strangers. He's allowed people to be real, to empathize with others. To share our deepest truths and experiences. He's literally changed dso many people and brought so many people together. LOVE him and love YOU.
Having Bipolar disorder I find the depressive phases almost comforting these days. They are safe, it can't get worse. (Don't get me wrong, they are still horrible in the way depressions are horrible). But every time things goes up, I have a hard time to enjoy it as I know the inevitable downfall will come again, and it's always just around the corner. It's gotten better however as the right medication has found it's place. I was nothing but a chalk outline before I got the right diagnosis and medication. They kept pumping me with Zoloft and other antidepressant not hearing me properly. But today, I am much better, and I'm filling in those outlines again.
My husband passed away almost 3 years ago. We were married for over 33 years. Ren and his community of wonderfully diverse and incredibly bright people are helping to bring me out of this shattered lonely world. Please continue to react Ren's music, so all of us can heal, even just a bit. ❤❤
I found it helpful to hear Genesis and The Hunger after so much sadness, to see Ren happier and healthier and rapping like a beast. He makes great beats, and is as smooth as the best while still dropping heavy thoughts. Highly recommended.
His newest song: Illest of Our Time is easily his BEST hip-hop piece and clearly a HIP-HOP piece of music. It is beast, it is intense, it is beautiful.
"In the gallows I'm balanced on my toes so I can breathe" is the line that knocks me flat. Please don't apologize for being emotional. Ren has exposed all his raw nerve endings. Responding to that in an equally raw, emotional way is fitting and honest, and incredibly cathartic. I love how many conversations about mental health have been instigated by his music.
You're probably my favorite reactor even thought I have only been watching you since you reacted to "Hi Ren" about a month ago now. You're so down to earth and very kind person and you know what relatable is. I know this song relates to me sooo much because I have been taking medication since I was about 8 or 9 years old now and I'm going to be 35 here in May. Been taking Sertraline which he talks about in this song which is a generic version of Zoloft. I feel like this song so many days out of the week than I'm okay with. So I just wanted to thank you for your reaction, also wanted to say you are a version handsome person too. Thank you, sincerely Jay.
From one metal head to another, and im 50 years old and have been a metal head since i was about 12 or 13, and i feel the same about ren. I just discovered him less than a month ago and i cant stop watch every reaction videos to rens songs. He has the creative power to touch all our hearts and minds and souls no mattet what style or genre we prefer or whatever. His shit makes me cry and laugh and every emotion in between. A true artist. His stuff touches resl people cuz hes real people. And thanks to you and other reaction videos we can join our real human emotions to yours by watching how you react. Im 50. Im covered in tats. Im a metal head. And i cried seeing you react to the emotion of the song. Thanks bro.
MUCH love, Jason. I feel you BIG time, my friend. The power this packs, no matter who, where, what or why, is undeniable and, honestly, SUCH an incredibly bright light. Sending you a giant virtual hug, my brother. Thank you so much for being here and taking the time to share your feelings and a glimpse into you, bro. We are kin and I appreciate you sincerely
If it gives any comfort, this song had the same affect on me. The words struck a chord and brought tears to my eyes too. That's the power of real music. Ren continues to amaze me with his vulnerability and truthfulness. He's been my find of 2023. I don't think we've had anyone quite like him before. I hope his music reaches far and wide.
Chief, I had the same reaction as you to the line “I’m scared of being ok cuz all things change” - because the same for me. I had 3 loved ones die back to back, and just when it seemed like I could breathe again, my husband was diagnosed with cancer… he went into remission but then the pandemic hit… and just as we got our footing again, I was diagnosed with a disabling neurological disease. It has absolutely made me scared to relax and enjoy the “ok” for fear of the other shoe dropping. I share your emotion and tears, and your vulnerable reaction made me feel seen and less alone in my feelings. Thank you. You’re a gorgeous human and I’m so glad I found your channel back when you did Hi Ren. Much love, brother. 💜
no new (to me) artist has affected me this strongly since radiohead or tool in the 90s, maybe even nirvana when i was in high school, and i never felt this degree of immediate emotional connection even back then. as much hype as ren has received since hi ren debuted, it's still not enough.
Watching Ren reactions, I feel like a grief tourist. I know when I watch certain reactions (such as yours), I'm gonna get pure emotional catharsis. As far as reactors who are 100% true to the way they feel and don't posture or hold back... you're the realest one.
I feel like I’m a grief…and catharsis tourist when I watch the reactions to REN’s artistry. Opening hearts. Starting important conversations. Unbelievable
I saw one reactor say "I don't do recreational sadness" and I was like... "why the hell not, what's wrong with recreational sadness? feel those feelings man!" ... I think we connect with people when we see them feeling what we feel - mirror neurons like Ren says.
Never apologise for getting emotional I’m a disabled man who isn’t in a great place dealing with my disability and my mum is not going to be here much longer due to illness listening to music helps me get through it and ren is a genius sorry about going through my life at the moment take care and everyone stay strong
I saw two bits of Ren as a person this week. One was his first busking gig with Sam Tompkins that lasted about 30 seconds and maybe he was 21 or 22. It was interesting but the text said Sam posted it and explained he was an insecure busking singer who couldn’t play guitar and Ren said he was done for the day but Sam could use his gear and when Sam said I don’t play Ren told him I’ll back you up and you can keep all the money. They played for an hour after he felt like going home already, for no money, and just played along to whatever Sam sang. The second is from a cut of them interviewing each other maybe last year? They were reflecting on the moment that blind eye started blowing up, someone famous shared them and they started getting real hits. Ren said man I loved that because we did it together and both of us knew how hard the other had worked and how much they wanted and deserved it. It would have been cool to do it alone but because someone you cared about knew exactly what it felt like and no one else could, that made it so much better. That’s the kind of guy he is. It’s why his musical truths mean something because it’s obviously not bullshit.
Great to see you back brother. If it helps I've listened to this one a dozen times or more and it still makes this 6 foot 5 hairy Aussie bloke blubber like a baby. I'm cool with it if you are man cause it hits home for real. Peace and much love
Yeah this one hit me so hard. I suffer from an autoimune condition as well for the last decade. This resonates so much for me because of the strength you feel within them as they sing. The 'Little by little' part is the hard part just to keep your head above water. The scared to be ok, cause all things change line is one that you have to have lived with pain to understand. I could tell as soon as you heard it that you understood. Its a small comfort to not feel alone even if I wouldn't wish suffering on anyone. So many people hide their suffering and their pain and it can make the world feel like a pretty lonely place at times. Anyway, sorry for the ramble. I love the honesty of your emotion.
Chief, what a kind, genuine soul you are. Your willingness to be vulnerable helps more people than you can ever know. I am 53 years old and just discovered Ren (and now Chinchilla). I watched Hi Ren about 3 weeks ago and it opened something in me I can’t describe. I think those of us who have stood in the flames resonate with his work on an incredibly visceral level. I was almost hesitant to watch more of his stuff after Hi REN, I didn’t think anything could move me like that did and didn’t want to lose what I had, if that makes sense. Then I watched Chalk Outlines. I could feel my eyes well as the song progressed, but when Chinchilla stood up at the end and delivered that belt, I completely and suddenly burst into tears. It was like she reached into my soul. What a special pair these two are. You earned an enthusiastic sub from me. I also gravitate heavily to metal (love the Jinjer sweatshirt, BTW), but the world needs more of this music right now. And keep doing what you do, it truly matters.
Mayor of Whoville. Too funny. Love it! I appreciate your sensitive reaction. I actually sent it to a friend struggling with the same thing to let him know he's not alone. Thank you!
I recently saw your " " H i R E N " " reaction . Loved it . --- Chief . You . . . eventually . . . . . . now . . . reacting to " " Chalk Outline " " . I ' m sooooo thankfully glad . . . and . . . glad - that you liked it .
Cmon bro, you cry then I cry and I've got 2 electricians in my house right now doin work and now I'm all misty eyed. Great fucking reaction mate. I love your realness!
Awww you weren't alone.. Just know we were all tearing up too!😢 It was a very heartfelt reaction->ain't nothing wrong with that! Peace and love always until there is no more!😊❤
The reason you say what makes Ren so likeable and relatable is the same reason we like you. Thank you for keeping it real and showing your true self. Trust me, you are not alone. I would say, the majority of those who watch, if not all, can relate to your words.
Your emotion to the music is a part of what endears us to you. It shows that you don’t just listen to the music you feel it and that is what we all want from our musical experiences. Great to see you back and to be strong enough to not fear having emotion
Aw when ur voice cracked, I got teary eyed. I mean i already get emotional listening to this song but this time it was ur voice cracking.. I love seeing how many ppl feel from this song..
Never really understood the reaction RUclips community until I randomly ended up watching "Hi Ren" and couldn't help but watch videos of other people reacting to his genius. I haven't generally subscribed to the reactors channels but your reactions are so thoughtful, heartfelt and and genuine, I'm interested in what you have to say on other subjects.
It tells me a lot about a reactor when they don't talk through the start of this song. Many reactors talk through the beginning, as though the beginning is "throw away". You know? It sets the mood for the whole song. It bugs the F out of me when they do that lol. Thank you. You get it.
This one has been on repeat for a while in my playlist, such a beautiful song. I love Ren, I'm so happy I follow you because you're the reason I discovered him. Much love 🫂
"It's such a perfect day, take it just in case, take it just in case. I'm scared of being okay 'cos all things change............." That killed me. The desperate anxiety, the fear that can destroy any joyful moment. I was already sold on this song before the tempo changed and those desperate lines came in but wow..........that is powerful. Lots of raw emotion in this, and your reaction too.....!
I feel the sting in my eyes every time I watch this video. Ren's and Chinchilla's voices in harmony together is one of the most beautifully sad sounds I've ever heard and I love it.
Your reactions move me as much as REN’s work does at times. Simpatico my fellow human being. That line about being scared to be okay ripped through me as well. REN shreds our shields with his insights. Watching your reaction actually calmed me as I realized the beauty of the emotion. Please keep being you. We are counting on you. ❤❤❤
I absolutely love your emotional side, a lot of people out there are too scared to show them, as they believe it's a weakness! You are brilliant. Loved your reactions for Hi Ren, and all the others. I've been on the Ren train for about 8 months, but there are sooooo many reactions 😂 but I love watching them. And I'm right there with the 'scared of being ok' Sending 🤗 much love ❤
When I heard this tune for the first time, (after willingly throwing myself down the Ren rabbit hole lol)....that guitar.....those live acoustics....that hook.....their vocals.....their harmonies.....and then the lyrics!?!?! Man, I know I am in touch with my emotions and the lyrics relate as always, but this ridiculously talented creative performance artist does me everytime?!?! I had to listen to it 5 times before i could move on with my life lol. Discovering Ren has been an incredibly cathartic experience / journey :) one love and peace x
Thank you for this reaction. If you want more of his deeply emotional music I highly recommend Crutch feat. Bibi. One of my absolute favourites from Ren.
This resonates with so many of us Ren resonates with us all. He is an onion pealing back the layers of humanity and if you aren’t crying you aren’t human. My son can’t listen to Ren too painful hits him too hard. Try Ren and Chinchilla How to be me next. Sending hugs your way ❤
Bless your heart bro, songs like this rip us open for a reason and catch us off guard. I could never go on camera and express those feelings like you have, and Ren/Chinchilla did and I give live presentations to people every week. We find comfort in each other, it's a spider web of connection and it's our true purpose.
There's nothing better than seeing men dispay real vulnerability and emotion. Let the tears flow - its natural, normal and necessary! Ren has arrived and he's making generational change. It's okay NOT to be okay 😌
There's something about the way she says "down" at the 11:46 point in your video that gets me. It's like she drops the musicality for a moment, and just states it in a defiant way with such sincerity that just rips into me every time.
You are not alone reacting to his songs and storytelling. Anyone has has had doubts at themselfs, had mental illness either themselfs or someone close can relate and these songs hit so HARD.. Which is why we love them. I just can't get enough of Rens world even if my feelings are all over when enjoying how he is able to put words to such subjects.. Oh an yeah, Subscribed and liked :)
We don't throw them at you to make you cry its just a happy side effect! Also yes sayings are good is like saying whats the worst that can happen. Its practically inviting karma to fuck you over lol
Good to see you back Chief. Wondered where you went! It's worth checking out Ren X Chinchilla 'How to be me' (Live). It is beautiful, haunting and sad. It relates to Chalk Outlines and you might need some tissues handy. I did and I'm 58yrs old and thought that music had lost it ability to reach out and touch us in a visceral sense. Ren, his former band The Big Push, and his collabs with Chinchilla, Sam Tompkins, Eden Nash etc have reinvigorated my enthusiasm and hope for the music scene for the future.
You’re just lovely! Found you the other day, after finding Ren the other day. It makes me so happy to know that there is kind and rad people out there, existing on this planet at the same time as I am!
Nice reaction. This girl's voice is like an angel. Ren is doing his thing, his voice and lyrics are a force of nature. That guitar and the setting sounds so sweet. The echoes... This will be on repeat.
This, Hi Ren, How to be Me, and Tale of Jenny & Screetch hit me hard no matter how many times I listen to them. He's the master of making you feel something and bringing you with his work.
I’m always am waiting for the chair reaction at the start and you didn’t disappoint! I learned from a comment on a different reaction that ‘cherophobia’ is the irrational fear of being happy. I’m sure that’s an Easter egg from Ren!
Hey Chief, I appreciate your connection to the music and your comments on him Remember, even though he puts you through the ringer, it's because you know he's seeing you and you feel a sense of validation because of that. I find if music effects me emotionally like this (and Ren does so more than any artist) I come out the other side richer for it. Also, he's releasing a new track on March, 29th! His birthday.
It took me probably 50 times of listening to this to where I didn’t bawl my eyes out every single time. Everything about this song is HAUNTINGLY beautiful. You seem so sweet, too. It’s such a joy watching you experience the music.
There is a beauty of the vulnerability you’ve shown, Chief. Ren has the ability to zip line right into the heart of the audience. I watched a hard core metal fan weep hearing this track. I held him while we cried until we laughed. The guy is my brother whom I have never seen cry. I’ll never forget this. 🙏
Oh. Also you’ve gotta check out Rens masterful rendition w his band “The Big Push” called “I shot the Sheriff/ Road to Zion/ hip-hop”. A masterpiece for a Busking video!!
He sings the songs we have all written in our heads at one time or another, we feel like we helped write it , although we never knew how to say it out loud to make anyone truly understand, ren figured out how
I've watched about 400 Ren reactions over the last couple months (don't ask me how haha), this might actually be my favorite. I love how emotionally aware you are and how great you are at describing your internal state. Thanks for doing this one!
You’ve may be my new favorite. It’s deep. So simple yet so much truth. For those of us who are afraid to have a good day because we can’t enjoy it, knowing it’s temporary so what’s the point….. it hits.
Absolute facts.. I find it's the simpler, perhaps more subtle, kinda stuff that often hits me the hardest. There's a few things that Chinchilla does in this that get me in the feels. Even her face and body language are doing loads.
You are a sweet and sensitive guy who feels things deeply. It's all good. We need men who can openly model being in their feelings for those who follow. Sorry you've been unwell, but it's good to see you back at it. Thanks for the reaction.
❤This is tremendous!!!! We need this emotional release. Ren and Chinchilla tapped into that masterfully! These pieces are life changing!! Loved this sweet reaction, so thank you!! Ren is the artist we need for our times. He's real in a time where so much is NOT. ART IS WHAT WILL SAVE HUMANITY . IT IS THE BEST OF WHO WE ARE.
Your comments regarding his real, common person viewpoint. So down to earth! In Hi Ren, the line that gets me is when he he says he will prosper because " I stand here BESIDE you today". My mind always expects him to say I stand here BEFORE you,and WE must remember . He puts himself right on our level.
Just when I had gotten to the point where this song didn't full-on kick me in the feelicles every single time, you go and react to it. Seeing you get choked up over it has me sniffling again.
Right there with you, mate. "I'm scared of being okay, 'cause all things change" gets me every time, and I've probably listened to this some 50+ times at this point. SO relatable. And then when Chinchilla hits the high notes in the acapella section... pure, raw emotion and catharsis. Great reaction, brother. (BTW - I'm stealing "The Lovely Bastards" as a possible future band name!)
Hi, Chief, I too have been knocked out this last week with a tooth infection, 5 days without sleep dragged me way down. If you want more emotional punishment, How to be Me by Ren and Chinchilla knocked 6 shades of shit out of me, 15 years a full time carer without a day off or even an evening out and the loss of a few friends in that time I can relate so well to that song.
I was 32, spent half my life in various shades of depression, and was finally feeling the best I felt since I was a pre-teen. I felt okay. Driving home from work that day, I had a vision of getting home, loading my weapon, and finally ending it. The next two years were the lowest of my life to date. I am so afraid of being okay. That line wrecked me, too.
I love your empathy. It’s so keen. I’m so happy you’re doing better. Ren posted how difficult he’s been since he too has a mouth infection after surgery. He said his neck is black and blue and he can’t close his mouth. He said it’s the worst pain he’s suffered to date. I’m so glad you’re back❤
I don't even know you but since the first time i got here through ur first ren reaction, i just thought to myself this seems like a guy with a beautiful heart, it looks like he's been though things and he deserves to be okay
I just found Chief , he cracks me up when he gets side tracked then wonders around a bit , then apologizes (politely ) then says let’s crack on. His demeanor is so relaxed honest and British (compliment). It’s just a guy in a guitar, I mean playing a guitar, well for all I know he could be in room that’s set in a giant guitar LOL , Lol ah the simple things in life are the best. Peace from USA
Chief, after my 3rd tour in Iraq i came back to a place i didn't recognize and to a home i didn't know. Everything looked different and felt different. I am always on high alert especially when my children are with me. I truly felt like if i had a good day and let my guard down i would lose everything i loved. So, since that day i haven't and i have been in a perpetual state of being on guard. It's no way to live i know that but when you have seen what i have it is impossible to go back to who i was before i left. So today i will continue to stand in the Gallows as Ren says on my tip toes so i can breathe just a little bit more.
Damn, bro..
Thankyou for your service.
Seems such a small thing to say in the face off the horrors of war. You are so appreciated and deserve to be looked after post Military life. I hope you have all the support and love you need.
The toll PTSD has on humans is immense. PTSD is caused by many things. War being the worst of them. Mine was caused by violent partners. I was unlucky enough to have two in the space of 10 years. Its a road to recovery.
Just glad you made it back, glad your kids get to grow up with a Dad.
🤜🤛 much love bro, from a Dad in Yorkshire.
You might feel a bit different. Vet here too, but got out before the war. But, I used to be able to cry before I served. There was such a pull to not show weakness that I can literally count on both hands the amount of times I have been able to let go since. Death of a cat who got me through mental health crisis when he was 17. The birth of my kids. Ren's made me cry again. So grateful for it, instead of making myself even more numb.
It's not impossible, the goal post are a little far from where you think they are. Trust me finding an escape from the chaos helps tremendously. Hobbies that are in left field help make the air feel breathable.
"i dont want that to be over" - best ren reactor comment ever
100% agree.
One of my favourite Ren songs. For me it's 'in the gallows, I balance on my toes, so I can breathe'. That struggle to keep your head above the water, all the energy it takes, just destroys me.
LOVE, friend
I have lost two very dear friends to suicide... and this song reminds me both of their struggle, but also that I love them and that I miss them and that I try to be ok for them, for their future, for their greatness. Much love to you darling.
I feel you. I too thought of the times when it’s all I do is tread water to keep from going under.
And then he takes a breath, audibly, before the next line. It got me.
I'm a 60 year old guy who's recently discovered Ren, and he's had me bawling many, many times watching his videos... This one in particular hit me hard, the chalk outlines to me, means that when you take anti-depressants, you lose who you are, and just become a chalk outline of yourself, and also the line "you erase yourself in a chalk outline" is self explanatory in this context.... it's perfect
Hi Chris....have you heard this song : Ren & Bibi~CRUTCH ? ....Absolutely phenomenal artist and Bibi ....oh wowowowow !!! 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥
The first time I heard "Floating Chalk Outline" I couldn't believe how perfect it described how I felt on anti-anxiety meds. A shell, hollow, dead to myself and how people saw me.....yet walking around trying to live.
Right? No artist of any art form has made me shed as many tears in the past 50 years of active listening. It's kind of ridiculous at this point, but I'm happy for it.
How good is he, most of his fans are oldies likr us
I concur, Chris.
I wanted to simply just say that I think that you are probably one of the most beautifully minded men that I have had the pleasure of ever coming across in my life...and to ask that you never change or apologize for your honest reactions. Music has saved my life countless times and to this day has and ALWAYS will be my therapist. Please, stay the way you are, and don't apologize. It's beautiful...
🥹❤️🫂 My goodness, this is so lovely. Thank you ❤️ and yes! Music is THE therapist IMO. I feel that totally. Thank you for this 🥹🫂 Have an amazing day!
Was about to say the same. 😊
@@Chief322same here, just watched you on the trilogy ... " Fuck a duck. Merch 😂❤
Waited a year to come back and watch your Ren reacts all over again. They’re my favorite.
Every lyric in this song hits hard. The first time I heard this it total wrecked me. It's nice to know you are not alone.
Absolute facts 👆🏻 Love, brother 🙏🏻
Hugs 💝
SAME! Holy crap! Glad I’m not the only one!
I was a district nurse for many years in the UK, helping patients and their families deal with mental health problems... dementia mostly. Then had an accident where I injured my back, had to learn to walk again and lost my job through it. The same hospital I used to work for now gives me strong pain meds and psych meds... increasing it twice a year or more due to the fact my body learns to tolerate the lower doses so fast. They tell me to take them even if I am having an ok day... just in case. You feel his hurt and his passion through his pieces of art. Spread the word and love for Ren folks! Have a great week all.
I started to crumble at "...In the gallows, I balanced on my toes So I can breathe." Trying so hard to just keep your head above water - struggling for every breath. Really hits home. "Walking around in a floating chalk outline.". The pills making you feel numb to your surroundings, more dead than alive. A lot of us can relate to much of this - hearing those familiar feelings communicated in art is cathartic.
Thank you for sharing these words with us. I don’t know much about mental illness but listening to Ren and reading other people’s reactions is very enlightening! Thank you again.
It's amazing how Ren's music has opened all this dialogue about so many subjects. Things we wouldn't normally share with strangers. He's allowed people to be real, to empathize with others. To share our deepest truths and experiences. He's literally changed dso many people and brought so many people together. LOVE him and love YOU.
Having Bipolar disorder I find the depressive phases almost comforting these days. They are safe, it can't get worse. (Don't get me wrong, they are still horrible in the way depressions are horrible). But every time things goes up, I have a hard time to enjoy it as I know the inevitable downfall will come again, and it's always just around the corner. It's gotten better however as the right medication has found it's place. I was nothing but a chalk outline before I got the right diagnosis and medication. They kept pumping me with Zoloft and other antidepressant not hearing me properly. But today, I am much better, and I'm filling in those outlines again.
My husband passed away almost 3 years ago. We were married for over 33 years. Ren and his community of wonderfully diverse and incredibly bright people are helping to bring me out of this shattered lonely world. Please continue to react Ren's music, so all of us can heal, even just a bit. ❤❤
Tears are good , they heal wounds. REN is like a Therapy session. He is healing the World one person at a time. X
I found it helpful to hear Genesis and The Hunger after so much sadness, to see Ren happier and healthier and rapping like a beast. He makes great beats, and is as smooth as the best while still dropping heavy thoughts. Highly recommended.
His newest song: Illest of Our Time is easily his BEST hip-hop piece and clearly a HIP-HOP piece of music. It is beast, it is intense, it is beautiful.
"In the gallows I'm balanced on my toes so I can breathe" is the line that knocks me flat.
Please don't apologize for being emotional. Ren has exposed all his raw nerve endings. Responding to that in an equally raw, emotional way is fitting and honest, and incredibly cathartic. I love how many conversations about mental health have been instigated by his music.
You're probably my favorite reactor even thought I have only been watching you since you reacted to "Hi Ren" about a month ago now. You're so down to earth and very kind person and you know what relatable is. I know this song relates to me sooo much because I have been taking medication since I was about 8 or 9 years old now and I'm going to be 35 here in May. Been taking Sertraline which he talks about in this song which is a generic version of Zoloft. I feel like this song so many days out of the week than I'm okay with. So I just wanted to thank you for your reaction, also wanted to say you are a version handsome person too. Thank you, sincerely Jay.
Jay, my brother
Got yourself a subscriber. Ren is real. You are real. Thank you.
I also take Zoloft along with Xanax for PTSD, anxiety and depression. It’s beautiful how music and be so powerful.
From one metal head to another, and im 50 years old and have been a metal head since i was about 12 or 13, and i feel the same about ren. I just discovered him less than a month ago and i cant stop watch every reaction videos to rens songs. He has the creative power to touch all our hearts and minds and souls no mattet what style or genre we prefer or whatever. His shit makes me cry and laugh and every emotion in between. A true artist. His stuff touches resl people cuz hes real people. And thanks to you and other reaction videos we can join our real human emotions to yours by watching how you react. Im 50. Im covered in tats. Im a metal head. And i cried seeing you react to the emotion of the song. Thanks bro.
MUCH love, Jason. I feel you BIG time, my friend. The power this packs, no matter who, where, what or why, is undeniable and, honestly, SUCH an incredibly bright light.
Sending you a giant virtual hug, my brother. Thank you so much for being here and taking the time to share your feelings and a glimpse into you, bro. We are kin and I appreciate you sincerely
Never be afraid to cry mate. Its a divine right. Every single tear of yours is welcome.
We all feel this way about him and this song😮😢
If it gives any comfort, this song had the same affect on me. The words struck a chord and brought tears to my eyes too. That's the power of real music. Ren continues to amaze me with his vulnerability and truthfulness. He's been my find of 2023. I don't think we've had anyone quite like him before. I hope his music reaches far and wide.
It will if we make everyone we know aware of him. Share it. Preach it. Make his art and poetry real for others.
@@LiannaBabeli Most definitely! We all have a part to play in making others aware.
Throw songs at you to make you cry…
It’s reassuring when someone reacts to songs that make us cry with their own tears.
Her pleading and shouting "OH my my!" Gets me every time. I wonder why that in particular hits so many men. It's like a 'cry now' button.
Chief, I had the same reaction as you to the line “I’m scared of being ok cuz all things change” - because the same for me. I had 3 loved ones die back to back, and just when it seemed like I could breathe again, my husband was diagnosed with cancer… he went into remission but then the pandemic hit… and just as we got our footing again, I was diagnosed with a disabling neurological disease. It has absolutely made me scared to relax and enjoy the “ok” for fear of the other shoe dropping. I share your emotion and tears, and your vulnerable reaction made me feel seen and less alone in my feelings. Thank you. You’re a gorgeous human and I’m so glad I found your channel back when you did Hi Ren. Much love, brother. 💜
no new (to me) artist has affected me this strongly since radiohead or tool in the 90s, maybe even nirvana when i was in high school, and i never felt this degree of immediate emotional connection even back then.
as much hype as ren has received since hi ren debuted, it's still not enough.
Watching Ren reactions, I feel like a grief tourist. I know when I watch certain reactions (such as yours), I'm gonna get pure emotional catharsis.
As far as reactors who are 100% true to the way they feel and don't posture or hold back... you're the realest one.
I feel like I’m a grief…and catharsis tourist when I watch the reactions to REN’s artistry. Opening hearts. Starting important conversations. Unbelievable
I saw one reactor say "I don't do recreational sadness" and I was like... "why the hell not, what's wrong with recreational sadness? feel those feelings man!" ... I think we connect with people when we see them feeling what we feel - mirror neurons like Ren says.
Never apologise for getting emotional I’m a disabled man who isn’t in a great place dealing with my disability and my mum is not going to be here much longer due to illness listening to music helps me get through it and ren is a genius sorry about going through my life at the moment take care and everyone stay strong
I saw two bits of Ren as a person this week. One was his first busking gig with Sam Tompkins that lasted about 30 seconds and maybe he was 21 or 22. It was interesting but the text said Sam posted it and explained he was an insecure busking singer who couldn’t play guitar and Ren said he was done for the day but Sam could use his gear and when Sam said I don’t play Ren told him I’ll back you up and you can keep all the money. They played for an hour after he felt like going home already, for no money, and just played along to whatever Sam sang.
The second is from a cut of them interviewing each other maybe last year? They were reflecting on the moment that blind eye started blowing up, someone famous shared them and they started getting real hits. Ren said man I loved that because we did it together and both of us knew how hard the other had worked and how much they wanted and deserved it. It would have been cool to do it alone but because someone you cared about knew exactly what it felt like and no one else could, that made it so much better.
That’s the kind of guy he is. It’s why his musical truths mean something because it’s obviously not bullshit.
Great to see you back brother. If it helps I've listened to this one a dozen times or more and it still makes this 6 foot 5 hairy Aussie bloke blubber like a baby. I'm cool with it if you are man cause it hits home for real. Peace and much love
Yeah this one hit me so hard. I suffer from an autoimune condition as well for the last decade. This resonates so much for me because of the strength you feel within them as they sing. The 'Little by little' part is the hard part just to keep your head above water. The scared to be ok, cause all things change line is one that you have to have lived with pain to understand. I could tell as soon as you heard it that you understood. Its a small comfort to not feel alone even if I wouldn't wish suffering on anyone. So many people hide their suffering and their pain and it can make the world feel like a pretty lonely place at times. Anyway, sorry for the ramble. I love the honesty of your emotion.
“In the gallows I balanced on my toes so I can breathe” probably my favourite line of the song
Chief, what a kind, genuine soul you are. Your willingness to be vulnerable helps more people than you can ever know. I am 53 years old and just discovered Ren (and now Chinchilla). I watched Hi Ren about 3 weeks ago and it opened something in me I can’t describe. I think those of us who have stood in the flames resonate with his work on an incredibly visceral level.
I was almost hesitant to watch more of his stuff after Hi REN, I didn’t think anything could move me like that did and didn’t want to lose what I had, if that makes sense. Then I watched Chalk Outlines. I could feel my eyes well as the song progressed, but when Chinchilla stood up at the end and delivered that belt, I completely and suddenly burst into tears. It was like she reached into my soul. What a special pair these two are.
You earned an enthusiastic sub from me. I also gravitate heavily to metal (love the Jinjer sweatshirt, BTW), but the world needs more of this music right now. And keep doing what you do, it truly matters.
"If not for long, then just for a while, I'll bury myself in a great big smile". I get this totally! I go through this daily.
Mayor of Whoville. Too funny. Love it!
I appreciate your sensitive reaction. I actually sent it to a friend struggling with the same thing to let him know he's not alone. Thank you!
I recently saw your " " H i R E N " " reaction .
Loved it . --- Chief . You . . . eventually . . .
. . . now . . . reacting to " " Chalk Outline " " .
I ' m sooooo thankfully glad . . . and . . . glad
- that you liked it .
Cmon bro, you cry then I cry and I've got 2 electricians in my house right now doin work and now I'm all misty eyed. Great fucking reaction mate. I love your realness!
Awww you weren't alone..
Just know we were all tearing up too!😢
It was a very heartfelt reaction->ain't nothing wrong with that!
Peace and love always until there is no more!😊❤
The reason you say what makes Ren so likeable and relatable is the same reason we like you. Thank you for keeping it real and showing your true self. Trust me, you are not alone. I would say, the majority of those who watch, if not all, can relate to your words.
Your emotion to the music is a part of what endears us to you. It shows that you don’t just listen to the music you feel it and that is what we all want from our musical experiences. Great to see you back and to be strong enough to not fear having emotion
I love this song, would love to see a 9 minute version of this one.
She has a beautiful voice, and it matches Ren's perfectly.
Ren truly knows how to kick me in the feels… I’ve been through to much in one lifetime, but still fight to be the best me daily remembering to breath.
REN’s talent is beyond anyone else in my opinion!
Aw when ur voice cracked, I got teary eyed. I mean i already get emotional listening to this song but this time it was ur voice cracking.. I love seeing how many ppl feel from this song..
Just want to hug you, Chief! Much love!
🫂💜
Never really understood the reaction RUclips community until I randomly ended up watching "Hi Ren" and couldn't help but watch videos of other people reacting to his genius. I haven't generally subscribed to the reactors channels but your reactions are so thoughtful, heartfelt and and genuine, I'm interested in what you have to say on other subjects.
Beautiful reaction! Dark may follow after the light, but light also ALWAYS follows after the dark.
It tells me a lot about a reactor when they don't talk through the start of this song. Many reactors talk through the beginning, as though the beginning is "throw away". You know? It sets the mood for the whole song. It bugs the F out of me when they do that lol. Thank you. You get it.
This one has been on repeat for a while in my playlist, such a beautiful song. I love Ren, I'm so happy I follow you because you're the reason I discovered him. Much love 🫂
"It's such a perfect day, take it just in case, take it just in case. I'm scared of being okay 'cos all things change............." That killed me. The desperate anxiety, the fear that can destroy any joyful moment. I was already sold on this song before the tempo changed and those desperate lines came in but wow..........that is powerful. Lots of raw emotion in this, and your reaction too.....!
I feel the sting in my eyes every time I watch this video. Ren's and Chinchilla's voices in harmony together is one of the most beautifully sad sounds I've ever heard and I love it.
Hooray! You are back with Ren! We missed you.
Your reactions move me as much as REN’s work does at times. Simpatico my fellow human being. That line about being scared to be okay ripped through me as well. REN shreds our shields with his insights. Watching your reaction actually calmed me as I realized the beauty of the emotion. Please keep being you. We are counting on you. ❤❤❤
I absolutely love your emotional side, a lot of people out there are too scared to show them, as they believe it's a weakness! You are brilliant. Loved your reactions for Hi Ren, and all the others.
I've been on the Ren train for about 8 months, but there are sooooo many reactions 😂 but I love watching them.
And I'm right there with the 'scared of being ok'
Sending 🤗 much love ❤
When I heard this tune for the first time, (after willingly throwing myself down the Ren rabbit hole lol)....that guitar.....those live acoustics....that hook.....their vocals.....their harmonies.....and then the lyrics!?!?! Man, I know I am in touch with my emotions and the lyrics relate as always, but this ridiculously talented creative performance artist does me everytime?!?! I had to listen to it 5 times before i could move on with my life lol. Discovering Ren has been an incredibly cathartic experience / journey :)
one love and peace x
Glad to have you back. You're not the only one who's afraid to be ok. Ren's music is so real.
Thank you for this reaction. If you want more of his deeply emotional music I highly recommend Crutch feat. Bibi. One of my absolute favourites from Ren.
Yessssss....discovered CRUTCH a couple days ago...I must've listened to it 30 times already !!! Phenomenal song !!!
This resonates with so many of us Ren resonates with us all. He is an onion pealing back the layers of humanity and if you aren’t crying you aren’t human. My son can’t listen to Ren too painful hits him too hard. Try Ren and Chinchilla How to be me next. Sending hugs your way ❤
He got me with the exact same lines! Dude just gets it that's why he's so good
Bless your heart bro, songs like this rip us open for a reason and catch us off guard.
I could never go on camera and express those feelings like you have, and Ren/Chinchilla did and I give live presentations to people every week.
We find comfort in each other, it's a spider web of connection and it's our true purpose.
There's nothing better than seeing men dispay real vulnerability and emotion. Let the tears flow - its natural, normal and necessary! Ren has arrived and he's making generational change.
It's okay NOT to be okay 😌
There's something about the way she says "down" at the 11:46 point in your video that gets me. It's like she drops the musicality for a moment, and just states it in a defiant way with such sincerity that just rips into me every time.
Don’t apologize for feeling your feelings. That’s the most human thing you can do. ♥️
You are not alone reacting to his songs and storytelling. Anyone has has had doubts at themselfs, had mental illness either themselfs or someone close can relate and these songs hit so HARD.. Which is why we love them. I just can't get enough of Rens world even if my feelings are all over when enjoying how he is able to put words to such subjects.. Oh an yeah, Subscribed and liked :)
We don't throw them at you to make you cry its just a happy side effect! Also yes sayings are good is like saying whats the worst that can happen. Its practically inviting karma to fuck you over lol
Wait until you get to How To Be Me...
Brings me to tears every time.
Good to see you back Chief. Wondered where you went!
It's worth checking out Ren X Chinchilla 'How to be me' (Live). It is beautiful, haunting and sad. It relates to Chalk Outlines and you might need some tissues handy. I did and I'm 58yrs old and thought that music had lost it ability to reach out and touch us in a visceral sense. Ren, his former band The Big Push, and his collabs with Chinchilla, Sam Tompkins, Eden Nash etc have reinvigorated my enthusiasm and hope for the music scene for the future.
You’re just lovely! Found you the other day, after finding Ren the other day. It makes me so happy to know that there is kind and rad people out there, existing on this planet at the same time as I am!
I'm crying with you!!! So powerful.
Nice reaction. This girl's voice is like an angel. Ren is doing his thing, his voice and lyrics are a force of nature. That guitar and the setting sounds so sweet. The echoes... This will be on repeat.
Your a Bastard too! 😂 I always tear up to this one, it resonates too much with me. Too many years feeling this way.
This, Hi Ren, How to be Me, and Tale of Jenny & Screetch hit me hard no matter how many times I listen to them. He's the master of making you feel something and bringing you with his work.
I’m always am waiting for the chair reaction at the start and you didn’t disappoint! I learned from a comment on a different reaction that ‘cherophobia’ is the irrational fear of being happy. I’m sure that’s an Easter egg from Ren!
Hey Chief, I appreciate your connection to the music and your comments on him
Remember, even though he puts you through the ringer, it's because you know he's seeing you and you feel a sense of validation because of that. I find if music effects me emotionally like this (and Ren does so more than any artist) I come out the other side richer for it.
Also, he's releasing a new track on March, 29th! His birthday.
I cried with you brother. I honestly know the feeling. Much love from New Zealand dude.
It took me probably 50 times of listening to this to where I didn’t bawl my eyes out every single time. Everything about this song is HAUNTINGLY beautiful. You seem so sweet, too. It’s such a joy watching you experience the music.
That's the thing about great works of art, they're emotionally moving. And Ren is absolutely and undoubtedly a great artist.
There is a beauty of the vulnerability you’ve shown, Chief. Ren has the ability to zip line right into the heart of the audience. I watched a hard core metal fan weep hearing this track. I held him while we cried until we laughed. The guy is my brother whom I have never seen cry. I’ll never forget this. 🙏
Oh. Also you’ve gotta check out Rens masterful rendition w his band “The Big Push” called “I shot the Sheriff/ Road to Zion/ hip-hop”. A masterpiece for a Busking video!!
He sings the songs we have all written in our heads at one time or another, we feel like we helped write it , although we never knew how to say it out loud to make anyone truly understand, ren figured out how
Thank you, Chief, for sharing your inner thoughts and feelings after reacting to this gorgeous video. I'm grateful for your generosity.
I've watched about 400 Ren reactions over the last couple months (don't ask me how haha), this might actually be my favorite. I love how emotionally aware you are and how great you are at describing your internal state. Thanks for doing this one!
You’ve may be my new favorite. It’s deep. So simple yet so much truth. For those of us who are afraid to have a good day because we can’t enjoy it, knowing it’s temporary so what’s the point….. it hits.
Absolute facts.. I find it's the simpler, perhaps more subtle, kinda stuff that often hits me the hardest. There's a few things that Chinchilla does in this that get me in the feels. Even her face and body language are doing loads.
You are a sweet and sensitive guy who feels things deeply. It's all good. We need men who can openly model being in their feelings for those who follow. Sorry you've been unwell, but it's good to see you back at it. Thanks for the reaction.
Beautiful reaction! I love this performance by these 2, gets me every time a reactor really understands the beauty they have just witnessed
Your willingness to be vulnerable is beautiful.
❤This is tremendous!!!! We need this emotional release. Ren and Chinchilla tapped into that masterfully! These pieces are life changing!! Loved this sweet reaction, so thank you!! Ren is the artist we need for our times. He's real in a time where so much is NOT. ART IS WHAT WILL SAVE HUMANITY . IT IS THE BEST OF WHO WE ARE.
Your comments regarding his real, common person viewpoint. So down to earth! In Hi Ren, the line that gets me is when he he says he will prosper because " I stand here BESIDE you today". My mind always expects him to say I stand here BEFORE you,and WE must remember . He puts himself right on our level.
You should hear your own voice through my head phones!!! Tiss fantastic 😊
Just when I had gotten to the point where this song didn't full-on kick me in the feelicles every single time, you go and react to it. Seeing you get choked up over it has me sniffling again.
Right there with you, mate. "I'm scared of being okay, 'cause all things change" gets me every time, and I've probably listened to this some 50+ times at this point. SO relatable. And then when Chinchilla hits the high notes in the acapella section... pure, raw emotion and catharsis. Great reaction, brother. (BTW - I'm stealing "The Lovely Bastards" as a possible future band name!)
Hi, Chief, I too have been knocked out this last week with a tooth infection, 5 days without sleep dragged me way down.
If you want more emotional punishment, How to be Me by Ren and Chinchilla knocked 6 shades of shit out of me, 15 years a full time carer without a day off or even an evening out and the loss of a few friends in that time I can relate so well to that song.
GREAT TO HAVE YOU BACK CHIEF AND REN THANK YOU AS ALWAYS
Much love, you legend 🤘🏻
I was 32, spent half my life in various shades of depression, and was finally feeling the best I felt since I was a pre-teen. I felt okay.
Driving home from work that day, I had a vision of getting home, loading my weapon, and finally ending it. The next two years were the lowest of my life to date.
I am so afraid of being okay. That line wrecked me, too.
Man. really appreciate your realness and honesty. Best reaction to this song I’ve seen
They're dressed in white, because they're walking around dead. "Erase ourselves in these *chalk outlines* ..."
Rahhhhted.. 🤯 Okey DOKEY! Damn.. even deeper than I'd thought haha
Wasn’t gonna comment but I have to. Thank you for this emotional and honest reaction. Made me cry.
I love your empathy. It’s so keen. I’m so happy you’re doing better. Ren posted how difficult he’s been since he too has a mouth infection after surgery. He said his neck is black and blue and he can’t close his mouth. He said it’s the worst pain he’s suffered to date. I’m so glad you’re back❤
I don't even know you but since the first time i got here through ur first ren reaction, i just thought to myself this seems like a guy with a beautiful heart, it looks like he's been though things and he deserves to be okay
I can't help getting emotional every single time I listen to this song, it's like it resonates with how alot of people feel but never talk about
The number I play after this one is always How to be me(live) another example of the hauntingly beautiful blend of their voices.
I just found Chief , he cracks me up when he gets side tracked then wonders around a bit , then apologizes (politely ) then says let’s crack on. His demeanor is so relaxed honest and British (compliment). It’s just a guy in a guitar, I mean playing a guitar, well for all I know he could be in room that’s set in a giant guitar LOL , Lol ah the simple things in life are the best. Peace from USA
For a change and pure smiles and feel good REN “ what you want “ is the song for you old skool with a modern twist