Crystal Meth Addict interview-Ernest
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- Опубликовано: 4 окт 2024
- Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Ernest, a homeless crystal meth addict in Santa Monica, California.
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Broke my heart so bad “am I being judged ?”😢 Bless him
I see it this way if people don't want nothing to do with you screw em there already pretty much dead inside we need more people that are compassionate or what are we as human being?
How can you believe anything this prevaricator says?
UPDATE ON ERNIE…..
After seeing this a few weeks ago, prayer was made for Ernest that he’d safely return home here in West Monroe, Louisiana. I hadn’t really thought anymore of it this week but I walked into our church tonight (Wednesday 6/15/22) and there was Ernie sitting on the front row! He looked as if he’d lost even more weight since this interview and had the look of a homeless person. He didn’t remember me from before when he used to attend church but was happy that I greeted him and sat with him. I asked him where he was staying after church dismissed and he said “nowhere.” Then I asked where his family was and he said that he had no more family in West Monroe and asked if I could get him something to eat, which of course I said “sure.”
On the way to the fast food place, Ernie told me his nearest family was in another town about 60 miles away. I ordered him a bacon double cheeseburger and fries, which he pretty much inhaled. I told ernie that I’d take him to his family’s house and he lit up with joy and said thank you for what seemed a minute straight. On the drive down, I told him about seeing him on soft white underbelly. He asked for my phone so he could see the interview. It was his first time to see it. We talked about music, religion, the lack of compassion in this world, mental illness and life in general. There was some grandiosity in his speech but he was coherent, intelligible and in his right mind and definitely not on drugs. I asked him when was the last time he’d used and he said “just before I left California.” He’d said doctors diagnosed him before with schizo affective disorder and bipolar but says he was definitely not crazy!
We stopped about halfway to our destination and I got him some toiletries, some comfort items , socks, towels and a backpack to put it all in and he was very thankful. I gave him a Bible too of course. By this time we are in extreme rural central Louisiana. A very long way from Hollywood, Santa Monica and LA in general. I’m talking dense pine thickets and roads that go for miles with no houses. We pulled into the little town and I safely delivered him into the hands of his great Aunt. I know where she lives and have her number. They also have my number. So Ernest is alive and well and has a roof over his head for the moment but says he will absolutely go back to California as soon as he can.
what a legend
Man that Ernie is something else.
@@randyjoe595 does he still think hes an alien?
@@walterclements1466 Well, he thinks a lot of stuff. His mind was moving at a million miles a minute. He did repeat some of the things he stated in this Interview though and said a lot about extraterrestrial beings, God, spirits and other worlds so he may have said something to the effect.
Randy you’re amazing! I’m sure you were that hope and compassion that he needed.
As a recovering alcoholic, it hit me so hard when Mark responded 'not at all, I don't do that" when he was asked if he'd judge Ernest for his honesty. We all know this. We see it in every video. As someone who still worries about stigma around addiction, hearing this is everything. Thank you, Mark.
. 'will Mark wonder if it had anything to do wit his video when the guy gets bashed to death for touching up kidys Hmmm i wonder. Yes truth is so powerful as-long as its not about you ..maybe Mark should tell us all his deep dark secrets so we can look at him differently too.
I loved that too
If you believe a single word that came out of this mans mouth you should have your head examined. He is clearly on the edge of psychosis and his reality is changing by the minute
I couldn’t agree more.
@@davechristian7543 who got bashed to death?
🤔Funny how other interviewees get praised for coming on talking delusional content, but this guy gets badgered. I read praises all weekend for a particular guest. Let’s extend grace to all that are willing to share their story.
Johna Rhodes...
Thank you so much, I totally agree.
@Fart Knocker
That's because you're an immature low life. And I'm only guessing that based on your name and what you said. I hope you can find better things to do with your time, this is probably very unhealthy for you to watch. Come back when you've had more life experiences and a bit more mature.
(Once again..I'm only assuming the things I said based on the things YOU said)
I completely agree
Great comment.
@Fart Knocker 😂
The part where he said he prostitutes because he craves being around someone who shows compassion, because he hasn’t been loved in so long really pulled at my heartstrings.
that was super fucked up I usually have a quite radical view on people like him.....but he doesn't deserve this
Ya man, that was rough.
mine too. this is to heavy
Missed the bit qhere he insinuates he is a pedo?
@@nikiindzhiev5369 eugenics
So sad. He's obviously in a drug indused psychosis and very lonely. Rather than laughing at him, understand that he deserves help. He may sound sketchy, but he's ill and has no one. I hope he gets the help he so desperately needs.
I agree I hope he gets the help he needs. The forgiveness peace is big although.
who's laughing at him? all i see is compassion.
@@piaxgft5799 I am LMFAO GET OFF THE METH AGAHAHAAHAHHAH
Nah. He’s Kurt cocaine and Courtney loves son. He’s Alex from full house.
Many have mental illness issues before they start using. It's a nasty cycle.
Been clean from meth for 11 years now. Seeing this interview makes me so happy I'm off that crap. Meth will steal your soul and by this interview it shows you it will take your mind too. Praying for all addictions.
You look damn handsome so thank goodness you rebounded quite well. I used off and on for 8 years and luckily I don’t have to walk around looking sucked up anymore. I did however lose a back tooth from this last relapse bc meth mouth is REAL! Keep on going forward in your recovery, way to go! 82 days here. 🤘🏻
@@glockinshpiel thank you. And proud of you too man!!
, you all deserve long term recovery. ❤️ keep fighting
As a Mother of an addict. I'm very proud of you.
@@80polishprincess thanks and I wish you the very best 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
I've heard some horrible things in life but one thing that really gets to me is hearing someone in tears saying they want to feel loved
You can hear he has much kindness in him just in his voice alone. He is someone that would love and appreciate to be taken into your arms and hugged, a real long, hard hug while being told he matters .....that is how I see him.
He describes his delusions with such sincerity and gentle conviction it’s just sad to hear how disconnected from reality he is. I hope the best for Ernest and that he could overcome his addiction.
You can tell Ernest has been through a lot
All the best to anyone watching this. You are loved!
Just like that girl he was talking about in the beginning? I bet she's been through a lot too.
Thank you, GOD BLESS YOU
🙏🏽🙏🏽
Thank you, too! Blessings for you!
No. I'm not loved. By anyone, and saying "you're loved" on o comment on a RUclips video doesn't do jack for my demons. I could die right now and not a soul on earth would care until I started rotting and smelled up the place. Don't patronise me.
This man needs professional help.He won't make it without this help.I wish him all the best.Ernest,please seek help.Love from germany
You would be surprised. People are very resilient
He needs to quit using meth
Sadly, in this country, he won’t be able to get it. :(
newsflash...they all need professional help but hey dont worry your government got rid of mental institutions and in return created drug programs and the ideology of the inclusive society.
After reading the comments, I'm shocked at how many people laughed and made jokes about Ernest. Honestly, there's nothing humorous about anything he said. He desperately needs help to free himself of drug addiction. I feel very badly for him and pray he gets the help he needs.
Absolutely agree with you
I feel this. As a loyal, DAILY watcher of SWU, I quit commenting on videos. The trolls are absolutely ridiculous. He needs a hug so bad. "To inspire my family to love me again.." No sadder words have even been spoken. He's a struggling soul.
@@lovelymess1019 my son uses substances … meth is his DOC. He acts “crazy” and threatens violence. If he is sober - he is a different person. Meth has got to be one of the worst… he’s on the street now because he won’t go to treatment.
Whatever this person is said to have done cannot be judged and condemned simply because of his confused, ill state. I agree with you, Ernest doesn't need any more kicks. He's already on the ground.
Agree, i was surprissed....he has a soul and heart. So sad
I was asking someone about you just the other day Ernie. I was wondering where you’d went. I went and looked for you at that vacant building you used to stay at out by Garrett road in Monroe even. You spoke with coherence and clarity when talking about your faith in this interview and you and I both know why. You were doing so well for a while there. Back on your meds, off drugs and coming to church. I don’t know how to find you but I’ll be praying for your safe return to West Monroe and ARC.
This is so heartbreaking, if you find him or hear from him again please keep us updated
The meth is soo bad here in WM and i feel like our community doesn’t try to help rather than run from them and make jokes about them. I know it’s a problem everywhere but driving through Bawcomville and thru town you can see how bad it’s gotten here. I wish he could’ve found help here close to his family.
@@Tamara2984 I’ve seen another side of America since watching Soft White Underbelly. I thought we had problems in the UK, but America is on a whole other level. It worries me that we will follow the States, just like most other things.
I hope your country can overcome these issues.
@@dieselhatz4247 we’re doin’ just fine. Freedom of choice. These people are free to do as many drugs and fry their brains as much as they’d like!
I have an update ! See the comment thread .
This man made a few very true statements.He knows he messed up.
I do feel sorry for him. He's sad and feels utterly rejected and unloved.
I hope in time he finds healing, sorry Ernest.
i wonder how his niece feels after he touched her in a way that got him put in jail. sometimes theres a good reason to reject someone from the family.
You jumbled up your words. I think you meant to say, "he made very few true statements"
@@jriver3145 He's not an alien?
@@MarkGelderland 🤣🤣🤣🤣
"very true statements" = lying from beginning to the end
It’s hard to tell if there’s parts of his story are true or not, but there’s true pain. I wish him the best. Thank you, Mark!
You just got hustled.
The alien part is definitely true
@@shelby3822 I told my brother that anime rots your brain. I sent him this video as my case in point... as long as he ignores the meth part. I consider this a win.
I mean, obviously he is not Kuut and Courtney's son.
It's hard to tell? LOL
The part where he's an alien from planet truffles and bacon or the part where he's Kurt Cobain's family?
Anything to do with Crystal meth breaks my heart, my close friend died after taking Crystal meth at a party, fell from a balcony. He had no history of drug use, and it absolutely broke me. I’ll never get over it. I really hope Ernest can get help, I honestly wish him all the best x
WoW 😑 that is horrifying & sudden.
I'm so very sorry for your loss. Truly❣
@@Elhastezy888 thank you. It was totally unexpected. He had just got over having skin cancer, and everything seemed fine.
He was 36 years old when he passed, and I miss him every single day. Drugs are no joke, and they claim some of the most beautiful young people.
I am so sorry 😔 meth is a monster of a drug. My 💜 & 🙏
@@connieb9034
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I hope time can help you & others who loved him heal & find some kind of peace, even though it never goes away completely. many many blessings dear
@@Random-es7yo even people hitting crystal meth daily? Yes like coke party disco party (each generation has it's party drug) in the day but it was put aside as not addicted. Some can't and it takes over the mind and body sadly.
Nobody is here to judge you man, no matter what you’ve done. We are all here to listen to your journey through life so far. We all have skeletons in our closet. Some have more than others
This was a wild one. Sleep deprivation is such a crazy thing. This is the underbelly.
After he said he was an alien and the son of celebrities I’m not too sure what was true but I just know he’s hurting and those drugs aren’t helping. I hope he can eventually get back to his family in Luisiana and be apart of his kids life. No one should feel unloved
So love him then
yeah help him
That's a nice comment, Khalilah D..I totally agree
@@wesleyalan9179 ur mom
But the Bible says that in the end of days, The process that occurs to fix a solar system until the end of time is like having a thumb print. No other God or GOD can claim ownership of the process, spirits or property. Purgatory Law 101.
He broke my heart so bad...he just seemed so lonely and just wanted to talk without being judged as he said. I've learned that forgiveness really has not much to do for them but everything to do for OUR mental health, peace and closure.
"I'm looking to be loved" - this phrase hit me directly in my soul. ... Oh. I hope he will be helped and will be fine...
I really feel for Ernest. He's at a stage where he's having *some* rational thought, but also quite a bit of delusional thoughts and doesn't realize it. Meth will steal your mind. I hope he gets better for his own sake. ❤️
No! Fuck this guy he's absolutely a danger to society. And little kids, he's too far gone. There's not anything that he can do to redeem himself.
Yes, meth DOES steal a person’s mind. I’ve seen it so that to my son. When he has had extended sobriety he has regained some mental health, I so worry that he will go so far, so long that he can’t come back.
Meth is EVIL on earth....it's took everything from my brother I hope he is in there somewhere but haven't seen it in a long time I feel like I lost HIM long ago😞I am afraid his mental health has been damaged permanently
Meth basically takes away everything that makes someone who they are. Their looks and their mind.
Mark: I know you want the attention to be on the people featured in your videos but you deserve some recognition. You’re a good, honest and genuine man. Thank you for helping people, for getting peoples stories out there who otherwise wouldn’t have had a voice and for changing peoples views (including mine) on certain people/industries/lifestyles. Please keep it up ☮️✝️💜
E Presley....yes, Mark is unique in his
caring attitude and non judgmental
manner where he gives a voice to
those who are ignored. What an
godly example to all of us: to treat
these with respect and listen with
a caring heart. A heart that is
open, a heart that can be trusted .
Whst a gift to all of us. Thank you
most sincerely, Mark.
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to all of us
So I've seen a handful ov people saying this and I hate to be da killjoy BUT it's just absolutely not true /: mark def makes a point to verbalize his personal opinion on the actions of his subjects at times. It's jarring every time honestly, and is not an isolated incident ive def seen it more than a handful ov times. Watch enuf n ull see wut I mean.
He’s not “helping” anyone but himself and his RUclips Revenue you nitwit. He’s exploiting these people for financial gain.
@@paul4366 Really, how so? And why do you spell like you're a roadman innit?
@@bobafettish6730 what is exactly does your 'how so?' inquiry refer to? Gonna ignore the blatantly unconstructive remainder ov yr comment, hopefully u understand.
This one really hit home and was tough for me to get through. As the daughter of a former meth addict that lost his battle with addiction 4 months ago, my heart truly goes out to this guy. I pray Ernest seeks the help he needs and finds love and himself. Thank you, Mark.
Im so sorry for your loss. Sending love and healing energy your way 💙💙
Sending Love to you 💞
This breaks my heart. Ernest please don't give up on getting help.
This is a truly unpredictable person and possibly even a danger to others... Can't even distinguish what's real.
. But we decided to defund and shut down mental health facilities in this country because it was "inhumane".
Somehow living like this isn't considered inhumane though. So we just send them to the underbelly and hope for the best.
Our system is utterly broken.
Right! I understand that some patients were mistreated but, I don’t think they should’ve completely shutdown most of these facilities. They could’ve shifted staff, treatments, implemented better training/procedures etc.
However, they don’t desire to allocate funds towards it. Being homeless on the street is more “humane”.
I know that, everyone knows that and sees that, problem is why USA or whoever rules you is trying to impose it over everybody on this planet when it doesn't even work for you there
Don't get me wrong, I live in a pretty poor and problem riddled country, but we still can let our 10 year old kids stay out after sunset, noone ever thinks about something could happen to them and nothing ever does, we dont have mad, addicted people sleeping on streets, doing drugs in front of everyone... I wouldnt give that feeling of safety for all your money there
I've been thinking about a possible solution because it is a civil rights violation to hold people against their will (even though they do it to foster kids, because they are minors). I think nice places with couches, food, bathing facilities and beds that will attract mentally ill patients to stick around and get help are a possible solution. Sounds expensive but jailing hundreds of thousands of mentally ill people in prison isn't any cheaper.
It's because the left, who according to Jon Haidt's research (he's not the only one to conclude this) are the main ones to care about the vulnerable, are so weak in the USA. No other country in the first-world has such a weak and hapless left. That's why we're utterly broken in this regard.
This is heartbreaking to see this poor young man in such a deep state of disillusion. I hope he finds his way to peace and wellness.
i dont know why i feel so sad for him... i have heard many stories on this channel but Ernest is one of the rare people that i deeply felt sorry for...
I feel so bad for him I just want to hug him! He can still have such an amazing long life if he is willing to get help! Sending you hugs for all you do and listening to people and their stories❤
1\400 psychosis patients(meth) remain in psychosis absent the drug use. And sadly,leave a wake of destruction not always confined to themselves
As someone who’s struggling with a meth addiction it hit me hard when he started talking about how much he misses his family as my family has turned their back on me too.
Because they can’t trust him when he is on meth around small children.
Prayers for you Jason 🙏
You've got a friend here bro. I hope that you can be re-united with your family in time. I will keep you in my prayers. All the best to you, Ernest.
He said in the beginning he was accused of 'touching' his 7-8 year old niece... He was 23 (later changed to '16'). He said the "niece was manipulating him" because "she wanted to steal the grandmother's $5000" ~ that's how/why it happened.. And then he said "nothing happened". But he even went to prison for it! Did most of you miss that part? I see only supportive comments here, nobody mentioning the little niece...
Yeah, he's still a human so not meaning to judge. But there's a BIG reason why his family disowned him! He was adopted to the family and he molested the little niece. You can kind of understand the family disowning him, right? What I heard was a lot of excuses and him feeling sorry for himself. I do believe in 2nd chances though, but everything starts by first getting CLEAN.
I thought he meant the uncle was manipulating him for the 5k from the grandmother. Setting him up.
But who knows! Your understanding of his story is as good as mine.
@@tammy_vip Oh yeah, you're right! I had to re-watch the beginning. You're right - it was the UNCLE "trying to manipulate him" for the money! And then 'as revenge' pressed charges at him...
I do believe he really touched the niece, because he said he managed to lower the charges to 'assault' and did 7 years in prison. No way he would have gotten charged just for hearsay, right?
If it's true I have no empathy for him.
So much of what he said is confused...probably a mixture of truth and lies.
he also said he threatened to burn his family alive in their trailer. but were supposed to feel bad that they want nothing to do with him?
My brother is on this train. Hear breaking.
I cry myself to sleep when no one around. To grow up with a young brother with dreams and to see him talking like this guy.
Heartbreaking hearing him Yearn for his family… support, connection and unconditional love is vital for survival. I hope he finds his place in this world
Mark some of your video's I believe your taking risk's of your own safety. Don't get comfortable sir it's a very scary world. Mental disorder's are real here in the United States and only getting worse as people can't get the proper medication's as well as help they truely need and I think they use alternate methods as in drug's use to take whatever feeling's or pain they have and the outcome is almost always the same. Your a kind human for sure Mark and thank's for taking us along with you and also maybe bring some light on the situation at hand.
Hey Ernest stay strong and open. It's hard to put this out there and your a courageous soul. Wish you the best brother
I'm not sure what is true but I felt sincerely how much he misses his family. He really wants, needs to be loved. Thank you for sharing your story ❤ I hope you can find sobriety and heal from all the pain✨
This interview was so sad from start to finish. I hope he gets the help he needs.
Good morning SWU fam. As always sending love💕
Goodmorning to you too! #SWU
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Back at you JM!
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Good morning, guys!
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My psycho ex once spiked my smoothie with meth. It was hell. I heard leaf blowers outside my windows for 8 hours. In fact, writting this comment gave me triggers. I cant imagine what this guy is hearing in his head right now.
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Seems like there was a lot of leaves for them to be blowing for 8hrs
@@WhiteRhino. all day REEEEUUUUUURRRR REEEEEUUUURRRRR
Omg....never thought of this....not like i have beverages from others. But, good to be aware of. Smh
Damn I'm sorry, jeez. that's really awful that you had to go through that. I was already thinking this dude was pretty far gone unfortunately... and then he busts out "I'm from the Dragon Ball alien planet, that one and Nibiru are real." oh wow.
In the beginning he said he's the son of Kurt Cobain and Courtney Love... they had one kid. And then he said he was Alex from Full House. Meth really does have such a crazy effect on the mind.
My nephew used to speak like this when he was deep into meth. If he can escape this nightmare of drug use, he can get closer to reality.
Someone said loneliness in and of itself is a profound disability. This guy is so desperately lonely it’s really sad.
And what about Francis bean?
I find him to be dangerous. I don’t know how Mark keeps his cool with whoever comes through the curtain.
I feel it too, Yvonne.
I have never asked if smell bothers him, but I guess it truly does not. Many people haven’t washed.
@@annieseaside.. I've always wondered if people like you make comments like this between hits of meth.. I must ask mark do people like you that have access to shower actually do ? .. smfh weirdo
Just like a lot or us we start doing drugs to ease the pain but he’s in denial to think he’s not addicted. Hope the best for him
This guy seems suspicious, however I also feel very sorry for him. He seems utterly crushed and defeated.
Same
suspicious?
What I heard was a lot of excuses and him feeling sorry for himself. I do believe in 2nd chances though, but everything starts by first getting CLEAN. He did admit to 'touching' his little niece and going to jail for it, so there's a good reason why his family disowned him.
God bless you, Ernest.
Keep searching God. You hear the voice of God.
Satan trys to cause static so we cant hear the words of God.
@@heatherh.197 I don't think he's in psychoses here.. He's just still high on meth, which is making him say some silly things (about Kurt Cobain etc). But it's not psychoses, just 'normal' meth high when done in big quantities, which wears off as the drug leaves the system..
I was pushed into taking meth one time by my boyfriend and my friend who both had lots of experience with it. I saw what hell was like that night. I watched my boyfriend turn soulless. Thank God I had a bad experience with it! But still the next day my mind kept repeating the meth to me. I felt so much shame, but the craving was unbearable and the come down of trying in one time was really bad. I remember bawling the next day for hours. I rushed both to church and therapy. What I learned was this drug will take your soul and it’s nothing to play with!!!! Please I beg of you, don’t play with this drug. They say it will most likely hook you after one time, but if you dare to try it a second it’s over!!!
I hope your boyfriend gets help. I'm in the same boat... I feel miserable and gray when I don't have it but when I do I feel miserable just with more energy.
Sorry maybe not the same boat but I have the same problem he does. Meth is so hard to stop and I hope to God he feels remorseful and horrible for making you try it.
Absolute bs I’ve tried meth 4 times now in 2 and a half years and I’m not hooked. It’s the darkside of my personality. I’m too busy with life to do it every day because when I’m on it it take about 4-5 days of a comedown just to start to get back to my routine of work eating properly and sleeping at a reasonable time. Just knowing those logical reasons stops me from doing meth regularly. I’m not an impulsive person there is always method to my madness.
this is really sad, and its even more heartbreaking when its someone you know and watching them struggle. sending prayers ernest…
Can't believe I don't know him, he's about my age and I'm pretty sure he said Tawakoni? That place isn't that big.
How's the little girl doing?
@@allysonogston522 ??
@@jamesmarshall8177 the little girl that he molested.... it just seemed like she's been forgotten. I bet she struggled through life way more than he did.
@@allysonogston522 oh, I'm a dummy. Thought you were talking to me, especially since I have one child, a daughter lol.
You're right tho, that's a very insightful perspective that we (the viewers) don't think about in cases like this. Maybe we should take a compassionate view of situations like this. Even if it is just asking the question, "how is the victim doing?"
Great interview ‼️ Mark, thanks for your patience and compassion!!!
my boy said he's from planet Vegeta LMAO goated interview, a true man of culture
Poor Ernest he’s so lonely these dam drugs are messy with his mind Prayers he can get better….
First Mark I have to say you are so great. Giving no judgement to anyone you interview. Ernest - I can see why he uses, this poor guy uses to help him deal with what he’s gone through.
He's a predator! What you talking about?
Ernest, you are 100% right: LOVE is the answer! I hope you make it back into your family, I hope this experience doesn't kill you.
GOD BLESS this young man with Deliverance, and GOD BLESS everyone watching this🙏🏽👊🏽
Thank you kindly oh, may God bless you as well
God has nothing to do with any of this. God and the devil is in the hearts of man. We created God in our image. Not the inverse.
Epicurus put it thusly:
Is God willing to prevent evil, but not able? Then he is not omnipotent.
Is he able, but not willing? Then he is malevolent.
Is he both able and willing? Then whence cometh evil?
Is he neither able nor willing? Then why call him God?
No such thing as God.
God bless you too!!
@@jingalls9142 GOD created the wicked for the day of evil
I'm not American but he is right when he says America has split into different countries.
You have no idea just how correct you are.
Interesting how even in this state his perception of God is pretty on point- a father full of unconditional love ❤️
god is not real, only your thoughts of him is real. when you see the world in its entirity good and evil you will know there is no god.
@@kimberg2539 the lessons and situations you learn from are from God. Not everything is good and evil admittedly. Some of the hardest learning experiences that at the time were thought of as evil. Strengthened me to a point that gave me a new understanding of God's lessons. Good luck , and it's not chaos.
YES! Alien Father of the year!
@@robertalexander9365 just because he says these things doesn’t mean there aren’t moments of normality in his thinking.
I've known so many meth addicts and when he got really deep to the root of his problems (lack of love) that's where the meth mind kicks in and gets you start talking about the woo-woo stuff. I hope Ernest realizes that God loves him and he can overcome and heal.
God loves him so much to give him and those around him this life.
So invalidating. If god loves him then god is a twisted abusive parent to make his life so brutally painful.
@@ledgy69 We have free-will. We punish ourselves.
All the best to you Ernest , truly hope u find some peace and healing before it’s too late
There have been several attempts at the definition of insanity on this series but no one can quite get it right
Did he get it wrong? It sounded pretty accurate to me
As much as different interviewees speak of different realities, aliens and government programs it makes me think there is something to it 🤷♀️
I wish Ernest the best!
Planet Vegeta uh?
He may be off His Dragon Ball'z but i do feel for the man.
I had a friend who was brilliant, probably had a 130 IQ and could have been anything, but he did meth, like LOTS of meth, and before we knew it he was inventing his own language and talking about cameras hidden in everything--even birds. He confronted a neighbor about a "robot parrot" (was just a regular parrot, sadly, a robot parrot would be cool) that was spying on him and he was sent to the nuthouse for a week. I picked him up and his hair was all chopped up (he "shaved" it with scissors...) and he was wearing a burger king crown. At the fist stoplight, he said "GOOOO!" in the most insane voice I ever heard and it turned green. Then he turned to me and my brother and said crazily but 100% seriously, "I DID THAT...." and just stared at us.
Long story short, he stopped doing that crap and was 100% sane again. Meth can literally make you like a schizophrenic person so there is no way to know if it's drugs or mental illness.
"I did that" 😂 thank you for writing this comment it was amazing to read.
It completely throws a person out of body and opens a dangerous portal.
@@sallyann985 LOL me and my brother still have that running joke between us at stop lights :)
@@24tommyst 🤣🤣🤣 now I almost wish I'd been there.
@@sallyann985 hahaha ya, it was funny AF. Sadly, this was before cell cameras. :( lol...it had potential to be a classic YT video, I'm sure.
Sad, but so many meth heads end up sounding the same. We all start differently, but meth makes people funnel into the same model.
Meth will suck you in faster than pretty much any drug. It's pure evil.
Agree
I think he really needs help. I hope he gets it. Poor guy.
For anyone who doesn’t understand his extraterrestrial claim, he’s quoting a very famous Japanese anime called dragonball z.
Thank-you. Hey everyone, he didn't make it up. 👋
@@gwennk4962😂😂😂
I loved his advice. Love each other, live every day like it was the last but don’t go too crazy and be grateful. It was clear that he needs to put the meth down and get some mental health therapy but the advice at the end was beautiful
Yes, that advice was breathtaking....a poet amongst men.
Such nice comments, their are always big underlying issues others don't hear about, hope he's doing well for himself,
Good luck u
As a recovering addict who has been in a drug induced psychosis from meth before, watching this breaks my heart. I pray that he is able to find his way to recovery & a better life & sane mind. All I can see is a lost soul who is full of sadness & loneliness & someone who is in the grip of addiction.
But on the light hearted side, the part where he started singing the song he wrote killed me😅😆
Half way through he seemed to be suddenly speaking with alot of emotion and clarity, and then he slipped into the alien reality. Although he made some interesting points. His ending remarks were sweet. I hope Ernest finds healing and maybe even true love.
Good work and God bless you Mark
Him asking Mark if he would judge him for molesting his 7 year old niece when he was 23 (but he was actually 16 and it didn't happen) cracked me up.
Yeah I think a lot of people missed that part....
@@jojobee42 I love how Mark sets the mood for the interview by showing us snippets of it at the beginning. Makes some of them extra funny.
@K.M.V S the octuplets part took me out.
@@sallyann985 Lol, that's true!
@@jojobee42 "I'm not being judged, am I?" 😂
I can't stop watching that part.
Drug induced psychosis is very sad to see. I hope Ernest gets some help.
If he gets clean will the psychosis go away?
@@AnOldHag7299 It can go away with time. But not always. I've seen folks become clean and still believe the things they heard and saw while in addiction were real.
@@AnOldHag7299 Yes, it goes away. A lot of it is sleep deprivation. They used to give fighter pilots speed for a reason but it you're up for days at a time it takes its toll. Using that stuff all the time exhausts your synapses but if he were clean and rested for a month you'd see a different person.
He's thrown completely out of body spiritually with meth. No wonder he's saying what he is saying. The meth opens a bad spiritual portal
@@AnOldHag7299 Guilt induced psychosis comes before drug induced psychosis. Take away the drugs and they still have to face the guilt they were masking. If they can face that after they get clean, they have a fighting chance of rising up.
“I came out here to inspire my family to love me again” that broke my heart. 😔 I hope he finds peace.
This is really sad, too be able to see clearly the effects of Meth on someone. I'm clean now for 4 years and I was wackadoo before I quit. Everything seemed so real. Even the wildest fantasies. It's just part of Meth, eats little holes in the brain like swiss cheese. My thoughts and prayers go out to him. I hope you find safety and solace in the Lord, soon.
But that sex was interesting wasn't it?
I'm so proud of you. Keep it up! I'll be 2 years clean from opiates, but was very critically ill until my diagnosis
Keep up the great work! It’s totally worth it! Thank you for sharing! 💕
Watching this to distract me from my anxiety for my ACL surgery In 5 hours 😭😭
Good luck on your surgery
I watched SWU last month before my heart surgery..it worked!! :-) Get well soon..
GOD BLESS YOU
I’ve had both of mine done and later ended up having a total knee replacement. You’ll sail right through it, I promise!! ♥️
Good luck, get well soon! Don't dream about earnest you might wake up mid cut.JK you'll be fine!lol!
we love you mark!
This man is breaking my heart. He is important. Mark, thank you for giving everyone on here dignity to tell their story.
My brother is homeless he talks just like this guy and he has countless options. Don't believe the bs they want to get high damn the consequences.. then they tell a sob story for pitty money
You do such a great job with these videos. I know a homeless guy just like this who roams around my neighbourhood. You can talk to him a little bit before he goes off the deep end. I can see why his family has shunned him. It's terrible that there is such a low recovery rate from meth, and its so sad that there are so many forgotten people.
Praying for you Ernest
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I feel so bad for Ernie 😞 he speaks alot of truth between his delusions about his feelings and events in his life
This delusion meth head freak is who you feel bad for!
I can't help but feel sorry for this guy.
He did get the reference in John 4: 19-24 right! That's impressive!
I just thought the exact same thing. His understanding was spot on
“I’m not addicted to it” after he says he shoots it up. This is called pre contemplation in the stages of change. That planet/alien shit got me like 🤯
Cobain and Love's son. Give me strength. Meth heads are always undpredictable, they lie, and this makes them dangerous. This guy doesn't actually look like he's hit the bottom yet....he's wired, but not that rough....he could still get it together if he wanted to....pity party has to stop though. And he has to BE SORRY FOR MOLESTING THE LITTLE GIRL - which I don't think he is....
Just so you all know... When he was naming off the television characters as his family members... He was speaking metaphorically.. as in they raised him by watching them. He isnt crazy. This man is very intelligent. Got bless him.
Nah he’s not. He’s in a meth induced psychosis man. There’s nothing beyond a broken mind state. Meth does that brother.
I'm sure Courtney Love will be fascinated with this new information. That starts an interview letting you know what's up.
I know HUNDREDS of people who've used meth exclusively for years. This is 99.99% of them to a T.
However. This does not mean this man IS NOT an individual with an important story regarding himself and his experiences.
Thank you for sharing bro. Please find sobriety and work towards LOVING YOURSELF YOUR WORTH IT.
Im in recovery from meth addiction myself. It breaks my heart to see anyone suffering from addiction. Mark thank you so much for shining a light. This is therapy for the suffering. God bless this man and you as well Mark. We do recover. If not for the grace of God there go I. We have to support one another or we fall apart. Much Love 🙏
His theory on aliens is spot on. He said something like Earth is the heart but it's not the center of the Universe. He said if it was it would be more in the stomach area. He said that whoever created us created aliens too. I hope he gets help. Bless his heart
Thank you for doing these videos, most people, definitely not me would take the time to let one of these unfortunate people just talk. We get to listen them from the safety of our own space thanks to you. Gives me clarity on how good I have it in life.
Let's Learn Mark, Buenos Días!!!
Pretty crazy how someone floats between delusion and reality so freely
I'm amazed at how good Mark is at telling when he needs to move on an ask another question. Because the alternative would be a follow up question to an asinine statement.
Mark’s side is always interesting, how he discerns what to ask, when and also when to completely let it all roll
This story is a heartbreaker...he is so delusional...its hard to tell the truth from the lie. But one thing is clear...this is a lost soul.
Unfortunately this is the reality of what prolonged methamphetamine use looks like
Drug addiction can be either mental , physical, or both. Earnest described being addicted to drugs to ease physical pain. I don't think he understands he is addicted to the drugs because his body experiences physical withdrawal pain.
He may suffer from drug induced delusions, but he remembered John 4-19-24 so he still has God in his heart. I hope God speaks louder and he hears time is short. All that calls on Jesus will be saved.
Lol, God will do jack shit! Only give good people cancer and heart conditions. What a prick!
doesn't seem to be doing him much good.
I’ve memorized some telephone numbers.
I’m just as protected against addiction as he is, if not more so. Because at least for me, someone is on the other line.
people with bipolar and schizophrenia tend to get obsessed with the bible, because they obsess over the idea of being special, so it tends to take over their lives and feeds the delusions.
I’m the mother of one still using . Mine is 35 and has been using since 17. The stories she made up ( she came from a loving home) for her “ hustle “ was astonishing and it seemed so easy for her to lie off the cuff .
I hate this drug . She acts like him and their stories and buzz words are the same . So is the body language. He’s not being very honest and the manipulation is palpable.
I feel for you. My son is 23 and BiPolar. He is clean and sober 2 years, 10 months, but part of that is because he is in jail the past recent months. Off his meds and on street drugs he IS an Alien all right, out of his mind. There is no helping until they want to stop. I’ll be right where you are if he lives to 35. He hates the meds and once he is released he will go off them again. It is the 10th circle of Hell to be an adoring Mom and be impotent. No Mom should have to bury their child.
You both are responsible to some degree for your children addiction and suffering, i know it sound judgemental but thats tha ttuth, but good news it doesnt have to be your fault, you could do whatever you can but without understanding how young mind is being developed and affected by certain things you cant really do anything, thats why i encourage people who have kids like that to get into psychology, read books and try to understand reasons why your kid behaving certain way. 99% of the parents think they understand and assume they know how to make things right, and thats the problem, something pops up in your mind and you believe it immedietly, and from now on you think you are helping you kid, but in reality you have no idea if you do more harm than good, you just believe its the right way. Its like screaming louder nad louder to a deaf person and you assume you cant help them couse you cant scream any louder.
@@annieseaside ♥️ I’ve buried two . Not bc of drugs however. To know one can get the call anytime for a 3rd is overwhelming.
It kills part of your soul to birth a child .To see one who needs real help like ours ( mine is bi polar too ) is cruel .
Thank goodness I am a member of Alanon bc I could not do this on my own . I do hope things work out .
The irony is -my husband who passed 4 years ago literally worked in the psychiatric and substance abuse field .
I remember when facilities began to close like dominoes.
So many of the homeless suffer from mental illness FIRST .
@@ripper9112 you’ve got nerve . Her dad literally worked psych for years as well as substance abuse . Clearly you are completely ignorant .
@@ripper9112 This is such an ignorant standpoint, nothing is more directed to development than your peers. Educate yourself, not every horrible parent raises a drug addict, and not every perfect parent raises a drug free kid. Bad take my man.