I rarely ever comment on videos, but I have to commend you for being able to share your innermost feelings like this; I have dealt with chronic depression for the past 16 years of my life, and I can talk about it when my anonymity is preserved, but I would never be able to do what you do and I respect you so much for bringing awareness to how important it is to focus on your mental health. You're a good man boogie and your videos have made an immense difference in my life on many bad nights. It's always a good feeling when I see a new upload from you, and I always feel so appreciated (as a fan) when watching your videos, so keep up the great job and stay true to yourself. Lots of love to you from a long time fan from Denmark.
Rubik how are they not trolls, they dont know boogie, boogie doesnt speak negative on anyone, so yes they are trolls looking for likes on their comments
The people who thrive on other peoples failures are the same people that are responsible for all the "news" that is covered by big networks being so negative. They only want to see hardship on others. I'm sure you can do pretty much anything, and its going to prompt someone somewhere to get all pissy about it. I've learned a long time ago to not let those kinds of people affect my goals in life. You're the reason i've ever started actually watching youtube. You got this shit man. "Just by choosing to work towards bettering yourself, you have already come so far. That's something to be proud of. So don't let anyone tell you any different (including yourself). Don't beat yourself up, you got this man!" Keep going dude, you're doing AMAZING!
Boogie! RUclips dad! Even if you are having a day where you feel numb as you read this. Please remember that my boyfriend and I as well as thousands upon thousands of people ARE feeling for YOU! We talk about you almost everyday and how proud we are of you. We love you very much and will see you again soon! In the next video. :)
Yeah... for actual clinical depression, the emotional numbness and restless sleep is normal. To be honest, for me that inability to feel pleasure is the worst part of depression. Just remembering the feeling of emptiness makes me shudder, it's worse than physical pain. Hope you claw your way out of the slump soon, Boogie!!!
Dude depression is SCARY sometimes. Afterna really bad low a few minths ago, i had a week where i just felt NOTHING. My eyes were just flaccid, no emotion. I had Last Of Us Joel-face. Nothing. I felt completely neutral about killing myself. I didn't do it because it would break my parent's hearts, and i am loyal. I just didn't give a shit about myself. When i snapped out if it i was so happy to be alive! My lungs felt fresh, smells were fantastic, my eyebrows were up and emoting! I was so relieved I didn't kill myself. It was like i was actually a DIFFERENT PERSON. Not a lot if my willpower and values carried over to the depressed mindset. Wow.
You look good Boogie I know some games piss me off too but we always go back to the game and learn how to beat it that's how winning is done you get knocked down a couple times but you get back up Mickey is right beside you saying you're a bum Rock Hey Yo take it easy so my point is don't let nobody get you down
Boogie, my man, your openness has been so inspiring to me. You tell us how you feel and it's not a pity party at all. You've helped me deal with my depression and anxieties. You say that for you, depression is like feeling nothing, and that's exactly how it is for me. I go through my day not looking forward to much of anything and not feeling satisfied by much of anything either. You've helped me put meaning into small things. For example, a simple 15 minute video of you has so much meaning to me. I love helping people with simple tasks because, while it may not directly being me joy, I feel satisfied knowing that I've prevented someone from feeling the way I do. It may help you to know how much you do for all of us even just by streaming. While you can't directly see how it blesses us, you NEED to know that it really does. I hope you gain some satisfaction from the fact that your videos let me feel some joy. Keep being strong, I'm looking forward to 300 lb boogie!
wow I weighed exactly 387lbs on november 12th, 2016, and I was 18 at the time. Since then, I've managed to get down to 258lbs, and Im lighter than I was in the 7th grade. I feel great, and am hoping to get down at least to 230lbs and if I'm not happy then, then to get to 200lbs. you're doing great, love your videos!!
Dude, you're amazing. You're doing so fucking great...an inspiration! I too suffer from PTSD, chronic depression and everything that goes with it. Been seeing therapists my whole life and I've learned to notice the red flags when depression starts to creep in. I've only been a subscriber of yours for a few months, but your one of my favorite people on the platform. I can relate to so much of what you talk about. Thanks for being here man. I know it hasn't been easy, but you've changed lives for the better by just being here. I'll always be rooting for you. Hugs.
i dont get why people hate you, you are one of the most admirable human being i now i follow you videos like a year ago and man you are a really strong respectful and eloquent man i dont get it really
I have a similar version of the depression you mentioned where I feel nothing about almost anything. Usually I have to go out and do things, anything, everything - I have to search hard to feel something - even if its anger (within reason). Make sure you see that therapist and stay resilient. Your channel is helping people see what it takes to get their lives on track as you are doing - you are helping other people while you are hurting. What you are doing is admirable, it is selfless, and it will pay off with yourself and others. You are generating some real good in the world. I wish you all the best. Cheers.
Man I love these kind of videos. It really makes me feel like I’m actually engaging with a conversation with you, Boogie. It helps me just as much as it might help you (by this I mean it helps me control my anxiety when I feel like I’m talking with you). Thanks a lot! :)
I like how you respond with love and kindness when someone hates on or challenges you! It’s a great quality that many people don’t have. You don’t need to be better than other people... they can be good at something that you aren’t and you’re ok with that! I really admire that and I think more people should strive for that! Thanks for these videos boogie! Good job in your life improvements!!! You deserve to take time for yourself!
Try aquatic exercise man. Way way easier on your bones and joints. You can even just sit in the hot tub and swing your arms from the side to infront of you and back in the water as fast as you can, for as long as you can. It's great for getting your heart rate up, keeping it up, and sweating a lot.
You're a national treasure Boogie. We've never met but I almost feel like I actually know you due to these videos. You talk about things that are hard and must be embarrassing to talk about, but are also needed, and you seem really genuine, honest, and charitible, looking for the best in others, when discussing the hard topics as well. I know you probably won't read this in the sea of others replies you get but I just wanted to say how awesome and inspiring you are to so many other people out there. You rock Boogie.
*Boogie... seriously... YOU CAN'T PLEASE EVERYONE. It honestly ridiculous to even HOPE for such a thing.* *Just do you man. Do what you know is best in your heart, and those who agree, will continue to support you.* 👁️
You’re awesome, Boogie. Thanks for this video. I just quit a job that was really not good for me, but it allowed me, like you were talking about, to be distracted and to put off dealing with some things that I really needed to take care of. Since I’ve quit I’ve really been in a funk, but allowing myself to focus on those issues like you’re doing and to try to work out my problems is helping me pull out of it. As much as I want to distract myself it looks like facing those issues is what’s really solving the problem. Keep it up. There’s light at the end of the tunnel.
Boogie man, from the bottom of my heart I love you. I have been watching your videos a while now, I tend to listen while I work on the episodes for Extra History and now Extra Scifi and I feel always humbled and inspired to become a better person like you do every single day, you´re one of my personal references , how you turned your life around It´s impressive. I´m so happy to see that you look ahead with joy and hope. I wish you the best.
I absolutely love your "rambling" videos, they are honest refreshing, and forthright... I've used the word "endure" I guess in the same way you're using resilience... It does require bravery and strength and you are very brave. I'm praying that you continue to be strong, and I'm sure you will remain blessed and everything will work out wonderfully for you. Thank you for all having genuine feelings and sharing them with us.
Hey Boogie! You've been doing so great, don't be upset if things start to slow down. Every ounce of loss is an achievement. The best thing you can do mentally is have realistic expectations. This is a long process and if you expect too much it can impact your long term endurance of the struggle. As for everything else, HUGS! You do need to give yourself time to process the trauma that has happened to your life but don't force it. It's okay if you still need the distractions to get through it all, just start with 5-10 minutes at a time if that is all you can bear. You can and will eventually get to the other side.
I want to thank you so much for saying you feel nothing with depression. I experience the exact same thing, through life in general (much much lesser so) and exemplified in depressive episodes. It is total apathy, you just go emotionless and turn into a slightly functional vegetable. It is hard to do anything! You don't have the will, or any shred of feeling or motivation (and the like) that would push you to get up and do even the most basic tasks, like brushing your teeth. Anyway, I wanted to thank you so much as I have never heard another person say they experience depression in this way, it has never been 'confirmed' to me before and I feel empowered to talk to a therapist about this now as I know it's a real condition and facet (form?) of depression and I'm not crazy. Thank you so so much, I can't believe there's someone out there like me. Thank you for talking about that, you don't know what that means.
Take all the time you need to feel again, to process, to live better with all that happened to you. You've been through a lot, and you're so strong facing it, dealing with it, talking about it. Thanks for being so open to talk about your feelings, I'm sure it helps a lot of people going through similar stuff! I've always had a problem with the word resilience, maybe because I don't get what the meaning of it is, to me it always sounded like a weakness. Like, accepting the bad thing in your life. I've fought a cancer two years ago, been cleared last fall, and during all the treatments, I tried to live my life as normal as I could. I told myself everyday: that bitch ain't gonna control who I am, it's just a thing I need to kick out of my life as soon as I can. I didn't want to talk about it, to think about it. I feared it was denial, that it would eventually come back to my face, but it was my way of surviving, of getting through this. People told me I was resilient, and I was telling myself, I can't accept that this is happening to me, I don't like that word. Does that makes any sense to anyone? Like, I didn't want to accept this sickness as a part of me, that's not why I was trying to live my life normally, all the contrary. And today that it's behind me, I don't want to associate my life with it. It's part of my history, it belongs to the past.
I remember first discovering you on a PKA episode with wings 5+ years ago. You were being EXTREMELY friendly and offering so much support to Jordie during the show, and he essentially just brushed you off and didn't even say thanks. No appreciation whatsoever. That's the day I figured out what kind of guy Wings really is.
I know that you can do it. And your positivity will ALWAYS overrule those negative bastards. I’m glad that we do these rambling because it means you’re comfortable enough to share with us. Just know we are always here for you.
I just watched ur Draw my life Video and i have to say that i got so much respect for u . You have been through really hard moments and you are still standing and fighting. I appreciate u and i am very happy that you exist love your vids keep it up man stay awesome :)
Boogie you need to build up your core muscles for your back to improve. I have a real bad back as well and crunches worked to lessen the back pain. You're looking great keep it up.
Proud of you Boogie. I started following you about a month before your surgery and can’t stop watching because I love seeing your journey and your transformation and the man you are becoming. Stay strong!
Some of the "fans" you mentioned early in this video kind of sound like they're sick in the head and just projecting their inadequacies on you, Boogie. What kind of fuckin' fans are those? I love you, man. I've been watching your videos for years, and I've witnessed your changes; dealing with all the ups and the downs. All the shit you've been through, that I have been privileged to see, and I just gotta say that I'm really happy for you, man. You're a much stronger person than you may give yourself any credit for.
I feel you with that depression shit boogie, i was first diagnosed with depression at 12. I'm 18 and in college now but I still got it, sure I hang out with friends, play video games and watch RUclips but it all seems pointless, none of it makes me happy... it just kinda fills the void where happiness is supposed to be. I'm trying to make it better with religion (Buddhism), therapy, and meds but it's not really working. Hell I've even taken up studying psychology so I can understand it and even if I can't fix myself maybe I can help someone else. Anyways, I like you boogie. You're a good guy or at least want to be and that's good enough for me my man.
sparcleznight9 you can find happiness. Use your depression as a stepping stone for your emotional development rather than an ailment. You can be happy.
Have you considered a possibility of an environmental issue that can cause it? It's not always psychological. Maybe your deficient in some vitamins. It could be biological too. There's many possibilities but I wish you luck on your journey. I can relate enough to know the struggle. 💕
Boogie, I discovered you over night. I've always known about your presence on the internet but, I never thought that your content would hit me like it did. I am going threw some troubles at the moment and I really needed the laughs and even tears I received while watching your videos. Some guy ran a red light and totaled my moms car. He and his insurance are fighting tooth and nail to prevent us from getting any form of payment for as long as possible. We also ubered for our income, which is not possible now with out our car. I was lucky enough to quickly find a decent enough paying job that I can swing these bills with alone, but they just called me this morning saying there was an issue with my background check coming back in time and have pushed me back another week before I can start. The rent is already 2 months late, water bill is due, I have no idea how I am even going to get back and forth to this job when it comes, and more just keeps on piling on top. This is definitely the lowest point in my life. I've sold everything I own and I am now on the urge of losing my home. I feel like such a let down to my mom who i can't even take care of through these hard times. Hearing your story has lifted me out of my slump. You have inspired me to keep fighting. Thanks for everything. You have a sub in me for life. Stay strong my friend.
It's funny, during a psychology lecture the teacher told us that depression removes your will to do anything. So the best remedy was to go out with friends or start a hobby, until you could feel something again. But you are actively doing the exact opposite: streaming less, seeing fewer friends and spending more times alone with your toxic thoughts. Distracting yourself (whilst depressed) can be bad if you do it alone or if it involves drugs, but seeing friends is always good think. You are the most resilient person I know and a huge inspiration, because of your issues and the fact you work on both RUclips and Twitch, both of which are filled to the brim with toxic people.
I like you boogie, your so real and I admire you because you show both sides of the story. You deserve the most amount of subs and so so much happiness
You know what boogie, your one of the best RUclipsrs out there. The candid nature of your videos really hit home. A lot of people are going through similar struggles and after watching your videos it's like "I can do it too". Stay strong buddie, keep doing you.
I've started eating Healthy thanks to you...10lbs down in 2 weeks... I said if Boogie can do it then so can I. I was at 339 my heaviest...now at 229. I had to get a good start so you didn't pass me. Thanks for the encouragement for saying to try and keep it natural. And thank you for doing everything you do. And for the haters...In the words of Francis...."Sonsabitches"!
Hey, you might never read this but boogie but I get how depression feels. It eats at you and makes you uninterested in change, growth and self sustenance. I had a year last year where I nearly ended it all because the only things I was feeling were pointlessness, useless stress and worry. I hate that feeling but it does change, it gets worse and it gets better. What I hate about it is that when you are at your worst you feel so powerless to change, so impotent in every way, that depression feels endless and it becomes easy to accept it as part of who you are rather than a thing against which you should fight. Depression isn't you, it's not some aspect of you, it's just a shitty terrible thing that you are prone to. I don't know that this is helpful but maybe connecting a bit with someone over the internet makes you feel less alone, your video's have definitely done that for me.
You keep it up Francis Boogie Steven I don't really care what your name is you're a good person and you're doing great that's all I care about is to hair that you're doing good so keep up the work don't listen to them people because you're not alone you have people for you I care about you remember that
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I appreciate you taking the time to talk about your experience with depression. It's something similar that I've faced that people in my life don't really understand so hearing someone talk about it openly in this way helps.
Who would win: 1 man who has battled with abusive parents, PTSD morbid obesity chronic depression, lymphodemia, divorce, anger issues, back pain, chronic pain in multiple areas, poverty, and an eating disorder and is still alive and thriving today, *or* 1 raid from WoW
Dude way to be an inspiration. Yesterday was my birthday and I did a lot of introspection which sometimes enables my depression/anxiety. It's nice to have a positive person always to tune into when that happens.
Can't say anything to make a guy like you Boogie, Happy. And I don't mean to say that negitivly but because I don't know how you truly feel. You just keep finding that light or silent voice that keeps you keeping on. Be you, my man. I hope you keep kickin it on RUclips. No one else does Boogie, better than Boogie.
I feel you on the level of depression where you just feel nothing. I have been there for a while. I don't care about doing any of the things I used to love. I'd rather just sit home by myself. I just had my second back surgery in five years and have been stuck here alone with my thoughts recovering at home. I've never commented on your videos before, but I have been following you for a while. I'm proud of your progress. I've been working on shedding pounds myself. I've lost close to 100lbs. Hoping to lose about 100 more. Keep it up man.
Suddenly when I feel depressed, I watch very old classic TV shows. Like from the 40’s or 60’s, my favorite TV shows are one of the animated cartoon shows “Tom and Jerry” and “Gilligan’s Island”.
Ive only been a subscriber a few weeks but i can honestly say that i hope nothing but the best for you dude. Please do not ever change your outlook on life and try to stay positive as you always are. As long as you love life and love what you do, life has this way of working itself out. Never feels like it bit thats the truth
Really appreciate your candor talking about the things going on in your life. I struggle with some of the same things, and its encouraging to see you battle through. Keep it up!
I've been having hard times lately, thank you boogie for putting out these rambling videos and speaking your mind. It makes me feel like if you can get through all these hardships in life, I can also do this. Depression is not easy and not something you can't handle alone. Listening to you ramble makes feel like I'm not alone. Thank you so much boogie.
Chriiiiiiiist you looking skinny. I watch almost all your vids so I guess I haven't noticed the gradual change. But damn for some reason today its hit me! Youre doing it man. Gonna have to call you Buffie2988 in the no to distant future.
What I see (but more importantly HEAR) here is a LOT of realness. I've watched a lot of your videos, before and after the surgery, and you are just so full of light, humor, and you just...stuff that could shake some of us (me for sure) could lead one to give up, but YOU? Nuh uh. You build your life within your difficulties and challenge you, you just embrace it all and it doesn't define you. You are a smart, talented, and amazing fella. In spite of all that your depression presents you...I hope you get the counseling you need (and that comes not from a voice of judgement, but rather it's about you feeling whole...which you may not have felt in a long time...if at all) All the best to you moving forward...
Hey Boogie, UK follower here. I love watching your videos, the simplicity of them is the whole magic of your channel. Talking about important issues like depression is something that needs to be mentioned more on RUclips. Also, although I have a relatively small channel at the moment, I can appreciate the amount of work that goes into making videos, the research, the editing, the self promotion etc (not so much the sponsorship for me sadly 😉) but all that can get on top of a person. You need to time to take stock of your own life, your own needs, so take a break once in a while, you’ll feel better for it. I’m always here if you ever need a chat buddy, obviously being in the UK I can’t turn up at your house so you’re safe there. 🤣
Maybe once you hit that mark back off of "the gym" but bump up the daily walking by a lot. If you really get as tired as you describe then walking is better than sitting. Good luck.
I have a hard time realizing when it's the depression. Because you kind of dont realize it's the depression talking. You start feeling like all this work is useless, and that things don't really get better. But telling yourself that you were so happy with all that work you had put in just recently, and that this feeling will come back, and even stronger, if you just don't give up and keep on working. Makes it a little easier to handle, even if it's hard to believe.
You've certainly inspired me Boogie, seeing you improve makes me happy for you as i'm trying to fix my own problems. it's giving me hope. Love ya, all the best.
keep on doing what you doing. Haters hate, remember you are cool. and they have theiur problems thats why they will never be satisfied.they will be sad individual.
Right now im going through a tough time in my life and depression hits me very hard. Watching you talk about what has happened to you and seeing that you still try gives me some inspiration and I really do hope that things get better for both of us, thank you Boogie for everything.
Honeslty your one of the most mature and adult person i have ever seen . You are a great inspiration to me and i think i speak for all of us when i say “your and inspiration for all of us”. Keep it up boogie you know we all care about you. We love you man
can't wait to see how you're doing in a few years. I'm on my fitness journey right here with you man. Highs and lows. Lots and lots of lows. But what's a day without night. Keep it up brother, keep focusing on improving yourself health-wise and mentally.
Hi boogie2988, I’ve been watching your channel for about 6 month now. I have enjoyed most of your content and appreciate what you do. Don’t stress the haters. If anything let that push you forward. Much love boogie, take care bro!
You're awesome boogie! Great job on the milestone and keep up the great work. I myself suffer from clinical depression and use to be overweight as well so hearing your encouraging words of not giving up and being resilient helps brighten my day a bit. You're a great inspiration man! Proud to be a subscriber!
Boogie, I've spent more than half my life dealing with depression. The best thing you have at dealing with it is willpower. Willpower isn't a muscle, so it can't get tired. It's not your heart and the emotions that it contains and its not your brain and the logic of simple survival. It's everything. When you feel like shit, the willpower of your brain takes over and gets you to do the basic needs of staying alive. When you can't think and logic fails, let the willpower of your heart be strong. Willpower has no limits, so make it never ending.
Your mindset is inspiring Boogie. Keep going and fighting this battle so to speak. You're going to push through it and come out stronger for it. You will reach your goals and break through them. We believe in you! Edit: also boogie, I've experienced the "not feeling" anything before. But not to that extent. So maybe it would be good to talk to a therapist about it. I like how enthusiastic you become though whilst talking about your passion, videogames. So we can tell you enjoy that still.
Boogie - long time watcher here... Stay strong man. A favorite saying of mine is 'nothing is permanent.' hold out for the day your depression goes. It will come, and it will be glorious. And remember - we love you, dude!
Dude, I've mentioned it before but my goodness I can really see you've shrunk. It's really incredible to see your continued progress. Keep it up and stay strong! You rock!
Please stay strong Boogie
Zico Tops OMG IM A HUGE FAN
congrats on not letting anything keep you down!
Have some respect, this man has gone through a LOT, you don't even realise. So keep you're mouth shut please.
I rarely ever comment on videos, but I have to commend you for being able to share your innermost feelings like this; I have dealt with chronic depression for the past 16 years of my life, and I can talk about it when my anonymity is preserved, but I would never be able to do what you do and I respect you so much for bringing awareness to how important it is to focus on your mental health. You're a good man boogie and your videos have made an immense difference in my life on many bad nights.
It's always a good feeling when I see a new upload from you, and I always feel so appreciated (as a fan) when watching your videos, so keep up the great job and stay true to yourself.
Lots of love to you from a long time fan from Denmark.
Dan Keep fightin the good fight man
Dan well said, i agree 100%. Hope you’re doing okey too
Danmark!!
As boogie gets slimmer the trolls get fatter and more greasy.
Sad Vegan -- You assume anyone with a dissenting opinion is a troll. That's your first problem.
Rubik You're defending trolls that attack other people. That's your first problem.
What a bunch of trolls. Only trolls post disagreeable comments. Knock it off, all of you.
Rubik how are they not trolls, they dont know boogie, boogie doesnt speak negative on anyone, so yes they are trolls looking for likes on their comments
The people who thrive on other peoples failures are the same people that are responsible for all the "news" that is covered by big networks being so negative. They only want to see hardship on others. I'm sure you can do pretty much anything, and its going to prompt someone somewhere to get all pissy about it.
I've learned a long time ago to not let those kinds of people affect my goals in life. You're the reason i've ever started actually watching youtube. You got this shit man.
"Just by choosing to work towards bettering yourself, you have already come so far. That's something to be proud of. So don't let anyone tell you any different (including yourself). Don't beat yourself up, you got this man!"
Keep going dude, you're doing AMAZING!
Boogie! RUclips dad! Even if you are having a day where you feel numb as you read this. Please remember that my boyfriend and I as well as thousands upon thousands of people ARE feeling for YOU! We talk about you almost everyday and how proud we are of you. We love you very much and will see you again soon! In the next video. :)
DestinyDK I like how you reinforced his depression by making sure you let him know you have a relationship and he doesn't.
Muhbagg7667 ok so thats clearly not my intent, you just dont have anything better to do.
DestinyDK Destiny your comment was perfect don't listen to them lol. 👍
i suck dixx Shitty bait
Yes boogie is amazing 😀
Yeah... for actual clinical depression, the emotional numbness and restless sleep is normal. To be honest, for me that inability to feel pleasure is the worst part of depression. Just remembering the feeling of emptiness makes me shudder, it's worse than physical pain.
Hope you claw your way out of the slump soon, Boogie!!!
Dude depression is SCARY sometimes. Afterna really bad low a few minths ago, i had a week where i just felt NOTHING. My eyes were just flaccid, no emotion. I had Last Of Us Joel-face. Nothing. I felt completely neutral about killing myself. I didn't do it because it would break my parent's hearts, and i am loyal. I just didn't give a shit about myself.
When i snapped out if it i was so happy to be alive! My lungs felt fresh, smells were fantastic, my eyebrows were up and emoting! I was so relieved I didn't kill myself. It was like i was actually a DIFFERENT PERSON. Not a lot if my willpower and values carried over to the depressed mindset. Wow.
Believe me, it indeed sucks. I've had it for almost twenty years now and my worst days...I don't even want to say.
No, there's really not.
It’s awesome to see how far you’ve come from your surgery! Thank you for sharing such a personal journey!
CheeryGiggles he is truly a inspiration
It's very inspirational
You look good Boogie I know some games piss me off too but we always go back to the game and learn how to beat it that's how winning is done you get knocked down a couple times but you get back up Mickey is right beside you saying you're a bum Rock Hey Yo take it easy so my point is don't let nobody get you down
Boogie, my man, your openness has been so inspiring to me. You tell us how you feel and it's not a pity party at all. You've helped me deal with my depression and anxieties. You say that for you, depression is like feeling nothing, and that's exactly how it is for me. I go through my day not looking forward to much of anything and not feeling satisfied by much of anything either. You've helped me put meaning into small things. For example, a simple 15 minute video of you has so much meaning to me. I love helping people with simple tasks because, while it may not directly being me joy, I feel satisfied knowing that I've prevented someone from feeling the way I do. It may help you to know how much you do for all of us even just by streaming. While you can't directly see how it blesses us, you NEED to know that it really does. I hope you gain some satisfaction from the fact that your videos let me feel some joy. Keep being strong, I'm looking forward to 300 lb boogie!
wow I weighed exactly 387lbs on november 12th, 2016, and I was 18 at the time. Since then, I've managed to get down to 258lbs, and Im lighter than I was in the 7th grade. I feel great, and am hoping to get down at least to 230lbs and if I'm not happy then, then to get to 200lbs. you're doing great, love your videos!!
Jake Zed kick butt dude!
I am wondering, what are you doing to slim down?
Awesome job! I hope this next chapter in your life is the best one yet. 🙌
Jake Zed Congrats! Keep going - you can do this. Many people are in the same boat and have your back.
Jake Zed best of luck Jake.
I was 271 in October and now I'm 215 and I'd like to get down to 200 and I should be good there since I'm 6'2
Dude, you're amazing. You're doing so fucking great...an inspiration! I too suffer from PTSD, chronic depression and everything that goes with it. Been seeing therapists my whole life and I've learned to notice the red flags when depression starts to creep in. I've only been a subscriber of yours for a few months, but your one of my favorite people on the platform. I can relate to so much of what you talk about. Thanks for being here man. I know it hasn't been easy, but you've changed lives for the better by just being here. I'll always be rooting for you. Hugs.
i dont get why people hate you, you are one of the most admirable human being i now i follow you videos like a year ago and man you are a really strong respectful and eloquent man i dont get it really
Felix people will go out of their way to hate absolutely ANYTHING. It's incredibly sad. Boogie is a wicked dude!
He use to post pics of tubgirl on Christian forums.
I have a similar version of the depression you mentioned where I feel nothing about almost anything. Usually I have to go out and do things, anything, everything - I have to search hard to feel something - even if its anger (within reason). Make sure you see that therapist and stay resilient. Your channel is helping people see what it takes to get their lives on track as you are doing - you are helping other people while you are hurting. What you are doing is admirable, it is selfless, and it will pay off with yourself and others. You are generating some real good in the world. I wish you all the best.
Cheers.
Man I love these kind of videos. It really makes me feel like I’m actually engaging with a conversation with you, Boogie. It helps me just as much as it might help you (by this I mean it helps me control my anxiety when I feel like I’m talking with you). Thanks a lot! :)
I like how you respond with love and kindness when someone hates on or challenges you! It’s a great quality that many people don’t have. You don’t need to be better than other people... they can be good at something that you aren’t and you’re ok with that! I really admire that and I think more people should strive for that! Thanks for these videos boogie! Good job in your life improvements!!! You deserve to take time for yourself!
Try aquatic exercise man. Way way easier on your bones and joints. You can even just sit in the hot tub and swing your arms from the side to infront of you and back in the water as fast as you can, for as long as you can. It's great for getting your heart rate up, keeping it up, and sweating a lot.
Dont let the minority speak for the majority, were rooting for you boogie, from one human to another
I'm genuinely happy for you and proud of you
Hennessy 1979 Me too! Boogie is worth being proud of and an inspiration ^(^-^)^
You're a national treasure Boogie. We've never met but I almost feel like I actually know you due to these videos. You talk about things that are hard and must be embarrassing to talk about, but are also needed, and you seem really genuine, honest, and charitible, looking for the best in others, when discussing the hard topics as well.
I know you probably won't read this in the sea of others replies you get but I just wanted to say how awesome and inspiring you are to so many other people out there. You rock Boogie.
*Boogie... seriously... YOU CAN'T PLEASE EVERYONE. It honestly ridiculous to even HOPE for such a thing.*
*Just do you man. Do what you know is best in your heart, and those who agree, will continue to support you.* 👁️
Thank you lol.
Well he does have Aether Heart :P
Yup, just keep doing what your doing.
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Right on!
You’re awesome, Boogie. Thanks for this video. I just quit a job that was really not good for me, but it allowed me, like you were talking about, to be distracted and to put off dealing with some things that I really needed to take care of. Since I’ve quit I’ve really been in a funk, but allowing myself to focus on those issues like you’re doing and to try to work out my problems is helping me pull out of it. As much as I want to distract myself it looks like facing those issues is what’s really solving the problem. Keep it up. There’s light at the end of the tunnel.
There will be people always hoping you will fail. It is just life if someone wishes ill on you then there not worth your time. This true for everyone.
My life’s goal is to give boogie the biggest hug he’s ever received.
you‘re so strong & inspiring i‘m rooting for you ✨
saaame
Yea stay strong boogie
Kushyy Nuke does boogie ever reply to comments?
nope
Parzival he does have millions of people messaging him so I don’t blame him
Boogie man, from the bottom of my heart I love you. I have been watching your videos a while now, I tend to listen while I work on the episodes for Extra History and now Extra Scifi and I feel always humbled and inspired to become a better person like you do every single day, you´re one of my personal references , how you turned your life around It´s impressive. I´m so happy to see that you look ahead with joy and hope. I wish you the best.
Something i noticed is how tour shoulders dont touch the sides of the screen anymore
I absolutely love your "rambling" videos, they are honest refreshing, and forthright... I've used the word "endure" I guess in the same way you're using resilience... It does require bravery and strength and you are very brave. I'm praying that you continue to be strong, and I'm sure you will remain blessed and everything will work out wonderfully for you. Thank you for all having genuine feelings and sharing them with us.
Start lifting, go light but do it, u will use up a lot of cals
Hey Boogie! You've been doing so great, don't be upset if things start to slow down. Every ounce of loss is an achievement. The best thing you can do mentally is have realistic expectations. This is a long process and if you expect too much it can impact your long term endurance of the struggle. As for everything else, HUGS! You do need to give yourself time to process the trauma that has happened to your life but don't force it. It's okay if you still need the distractions to get through it all, just start with 5-10 minutes at a time if that is all you can bear. You can and will eventually get to the other side.
Boogie is looking better and better in every video! Keep on losing man! All of us on youtube have your back!
I want to thank you so much for saying you feel nothing with depression. I experience the exact same thing, through life in general (much much lesser so) and exemplified in depressive episodes. It is total apathy, you just go emotionless and turn into a slightly functional vegetable. It is hard to do anything! You don't have the will, or any shred of feeling or motivation (and the like) that would push you to get up and do even the most basic tasks, like brushing your teeth. Anyway, I wanted to thank you so much as I have never heard another person say they experience depression in this way, it has never been 'confirmed' to me before and I feel empowered to talk to a therapist about this now as I know it's a real condition and facet (form?) of depression and I'm not crazy. Thank you so so much, I can't believe there's someone out there like me.
Thank you for talking about that, you don't know what that means.
Im down to 360
Andrew Woods congratulations 🎊🎉🎈
Andrew Woods Congrats man, keep it going!
Your Xbox One broke?
Well done
great job bro
Take all the time you need to feel again, to process, to live better with all that happened to you. You've been through a lot, and you're so strong facing it, dealing with it, talking about it. Thanks for being so open to talk about your feelings, I'm sure it helps a lot of people going through similar stuff!
I've always had a problem with the word resilience, maybe because I don't get what the meaning of it is, to me it always sounded like a weakness. Like, accepting the bad thing in your life. I've fought a cancer two years ago, been cleared last fall, and during all the treatments, I tried to live my life as normal as I could. I told myself everyday: that bitch ain't gonna control who I am, it's just a thing I need to kick out of my life as soon as I can. I didn't want to talk about it, to think about it. I feared it was denial, that it would eventually come back to my face, but it was my way of surviving, of getting through this. People told me I was resilient, and I was telling myself, I can't accept that this is happening to me, I don't like that word. Does that makes any sense to anyone? Like, I didn't want to accept this sickness as a part of me, that's not why I was trying to live my life normally, all the contrary. And today that it's behind me, I don't want to associate my life with it. It's part of my history, it belongs to the past.
I remember first discovering you on a PKA episode with wings 5+ years ago. You were being EXTREMELY friendly and offering so much support to Jordie during the show, and he essentially just brushed you off and didn't even say thanks. No appreciation whatsoever. That's the day I figured out what kind of guy Wings really is.
Marubolas I had to stop watching Wings after a long time being a fan. I wont talk ill of him, but I had to stop watching all together.
Lol you comment on almost every RUclips I watch
I know that you can do it. And your positivity will ALWAYS overrule those negative bastards. I’m glad that we do these rambling because it means you’re comfortable enough to share with us. Just know we are always here for you.
I just watched ur Draw my life Video and i have to say that i got so much respect for u . You have been through really hard moments and you are still standing and fighting.
I appreciate u and i am very happy that you exist love your vids keep it up man stay awesome :)
For everyone around the world, we love you man. You are never alone.
Boogie you need to build up your core muscles for your back to improve. I have a real bad back as well and crunches worked to lessen the back pain. You're looking great keep it up.
Any alternatives? I feel like he can't do crunches just yet
Proud of you Boogie. I started following you about a month before your surgery and can’t stop watching because I love seeing your journey and your transformation and the man you are becoming. Stay strong!
Every video I watch you're getting noticeably thinner boogie, keep up the good work man
У него даже нет выбора, блять
Some of the "fans" you mentioned early in this video kind of sound like they're sick in the head and just projecting their inadequacies on you, Boogie. What kind of fuckin' fans are those?
I love you, man. I've been watching your videos for years, and I've witnessed your changes; dealing with all the ups and the downs. All the shit you've been through, that I have been privileged to see, and I just gotta say that I'm really happy for you, man. You're a much stronger person than you may give yourself any credit for.
I feel you with that depression shit boogie, i was first diagnosed with depression at 12. I'm 18 and in college now but I still got it, sure I hang out with friends, play video games and watch RUclips but it all seems pointless, none of it makes me happy... it just kinda fills the void where happiness is supposed to be. I'm trying to make it better with religion (Buddhism), therapy, and meds but it's not really working. Hell I've even taken up studying psychology so I can understand it and even if I can't fix myself maybe I can help someone else.
Anyways, I like you boogie. You're a good guy or at least want to be and that's good enough for me my man.
sparcleznight9 you can find happiness. Use your depression as a stepping stone for your emotional development rather than an ailment. You can be happy.
Keep fighting. You'll find something that can make you happy
Have you considered a possibility of an environmental issue that can cause it? It's not always psychological. Maybe your deficient in some vitamins. It could be biological too. There's many possibilities but I wish you luck on your journey. I can relate enough to know the struggle. 💕
Boogie, I discovered you over night. I've always known about your presence on the internet but, I never thought that your content would hit me like it did. I am going threw some troubles at the moment and I really needed the laughs and even tears I received while watching your videos. Some guy ran a red light and totaled my moms car. He and his insurance are fighting tooth and nail to prevent us from getting any form of payment for as long as possible. We also ubered for our income, which is not possible now with out our car. I was lucky enough to quickly find a decent enough paying job that I can swing these bills with alone, but they just called me this morning saying there was an issue with my background check coming back in time and have pushed me back another week before I can start. The rent is already 2 months late, water bill is due, I have no idea how I am even going to get back and forth to this job when it comes, and more just keeps on piling on top. This is definitely the lowest point in my life. I've sold everything I own and I am now on the urge of losing my home. I feel like such a let down to my mom who i can't even take care of through these hard times. Hearing your story has lifted me out of my slump. You have inspired me to keep fighting. Thanks for everything. You have a sub in me for life. Stay strong my friend.
"Haters always gonna hate!" or even better "You can't fix STUPID!"
Keep on being the best version of you that you can & want to be Boogie!
It's funny, during a psychology lecture the teacher told us that depression removes your will to do anything. So the best remedy was to go out with friends or start a hobby, until you could feel something again.
But you are actively doing the exact opposite: streaming less, seeing fewer friends and spending more times alone with your toxic thoughts.
Distracting yourself (whilst depressed) can be bad if you do it alone or if it involves drugs, but seeing friends is always good think.
You are the most resilient person I know and a huge inspiration, because of your issues and the fact you work on both RUclips and Twitch, both of which are filled to the brim with toxic people.
I like you boogie, your so real and I admire you because you show both sides of the story. You deserve the most amount of subs and so so much happiness
You know what boogie, your one of the best RUclipsrs out there. The candid nature of your videos really hit home. A lot of people are going through similar struggles and after watching your videos it's like "I can do it too". Stay strong buddie, keep doing you.
Treat yourself to a vacation Boogie, sit under a palm tree and watch the waves lap the sand as a small sailing boat drifts by :)
My heart swells when I go from watching one of Boogie's older videos to one of his newer ones. Such an inspiring transformation.
My mom is trying to lose wait, and I told her about you. I told her about how you've love nearly 300 pounds. You inspire so many people, thank you
I don't think he loves 300 pounds. Just saying.
TriceriCops I understand. Still, he's happy he's made this much progress and hopes for much more
I've started eating Healthy thanks to you...10lbs down in 2 weeks... I said if Boogie can do it then so can I. I was at 339 my heaviest...now at 229. I had to get a good start so you didn't pass me. Thanks for the encouragement for saying to try and keep it natural. And thank you for doing everything you do. And for the haters...In the words of Francis...."Sonsabitches"!
Hope everyone is SMILING today💙
I try... lol
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fuck off with that shit, wanna send me some money?
TeraBYTC 💙💙💙
Hey, you might never read this but boogie but I get how depression feels. It eats at you and makes you uninterested in change, growth and self sustenance. I had a year last year where I nearly ended it all because the only things I was feeling were pointlessness, useless stress and worry. I hate that feeling but it does change, it gets worse and it gets better. What I hate about it is that when you are at your worst you feel so powerless to change, so impotent in every way, that depression feels endless and it becomes easy to accept it as part of who you are rather than a thing against which you should fight. Depression isn't you, it's not some aspect of you, it's just a shitty terrible thing that you are prone to. I don't know that this is helpful but maybe connecting a bit with someone over the internet makes you feel less alone, your video's have definitely done that for me.
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I appreciate you taking the time to talk about your experience with depression. It's something similar that I've faced that people in my life don't really understand so hearing someone talk about it openly in this way helps.
Who would win:
1 man who has battled with abusive parents, PTSD morbid obesity chronic depression, lymphodemia, divorce, anger issues, back pain, chronic pain in multiple areas, poverty, and an eating disorder and is still alive and thriving today,
*or*
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Dude way to be an inspiration. Yesterday was my birthday and I did a lot of introspection which sometimes enables my depression/anxiety. It's nice to have a positive person always to tune into when that happens.
Can't say anything to make a guy like you Boogie, Happy. And I don't mean to say that negitivly but because I don't know how you truly feel. You just keep finding that light or silent voice that keeps you keeping on. Be you, my man. I hope you keep kickin it on RUclips. No one else does Boogie, better than Boogie.
I feel you on the level of depression where you just feel nothing. I have been there for a while. I don't care about doing any of the things I used to love. I'd rather just sit home by myself. I just had my second back surgery in five years and have been stuck here alone with my thoughts recovering at home. I've never commented on your videos before, but I have been following you for a while. I'm proud of your progress. I've been working on shedding pounds myself. I've lost close to 100lbs. Hoping to lose about 100 more. Keep it up man.
Good for you man. Keep at it sir!
Suddenly when I feel depressed, I watch very old classic TV shows. Like from the 40’s or 60’s, my favorite TV shows are one of the animated cartoon shows “Tom and Jerry” and “Gilligan’s Island”.
Ive only been a subscriber a few weeks but i can honestly say that i hope nothing but the best for you dude. Please do not ever change your outlook on life and try to stay positive as you always are. As long as you love life and love what you do, life has this way of working itself out. Never feels like it bit thats the truth
I understand you're depressed. I just want you to know i love you and the person you choose to be.
Really appreciate your candor talking about the things going on in your life. I struggle with some of the same things, and its encouraging to see you battle through. Keep it up!
You're doing great boogie :D I have been a loyal A.I. ever since the very first Francis rages. Keep it going!
I've been having hard times lately, thank you boogie for putting out these rambling videos and speaking your mind. It makes me feel like if you can get through all these hardships in life, I can also do this. Depression is not easy and not something you can't handle alone. Listening to you ramble makes feel like I'm not alone. Thank you so much boogie.
Something seems different. Did you change your lighting or get a new camera or something? Or maybe you're just more handsome than usual 😎
Sarah Acree more handsome?! he's sexy af when's he not?...
Sarah Acree he’s more handsome for sure. And the growing confidence, dayuuum!
jeommy kin thanks :*
I dont think thats what he needed now
I didn't notice any such differences.
You are talking a lot faster and in general are a lot more energetic now. It's really nice to see and makes me feel good.
Chriiiiiiiist you looking skinny. I watch almost all your vids so I guess I haven't noticed the gradual change. But damn for some reason today its hit me! Youre doing it man. Gonna have to call you Buffie2988 in the no to distant future.
What I see (but more importantly HEAR) here is a LOT of realness. I've watched a lot of your videos, before and after the surgery, and you are just so full of light, humor, and you just...stuff that could shake some of us (me for sure) could lead one to give up, but YOU? Nuh uh. You build your life within your difficulties and challenge you, you just embrace it all and it doesn't define you. You are a smart, talented, and amazing fella. In spite of all that your depression presents you...I hope you get the counseling you need (and that comes not from a voice of judgement, but rather it's about you feeling whole...which you may not have felt in a long time...if at all) All the best to you moving forward...
Thank you for helping me through a bad time in my life boogie ty
Hey Boogie, UK follower here. I love watching your videos, the simplicity of them is the whole magic of your channel. Talking about important issues like depression is something that needs to be mentioned more on RUclips. Also, although I have a relatively small channel at the moment, I can appreciate the amount of work that goes into making videos, the research, the editing, the self promotion etc (not so much the sponsorship for me sadly 😉) but all that can get on top of a person. You need to time to take stock of your own life, your own needs, so take a break once in a while, you’ll feel better for it. I’m always here if you ever need a chat buddy, obviously being in the UK I can’t turn up at your house so you’re safe there. 🤣
Maybe once you hit that mark back off of "the gym" but bump up the daily walking by a lot. If you really get as tired as you describe then walking is better than sitting. Good luck.
Thank you for being you. Knowing that others are out there feeling like I am makes it easier to keep going.
@boogie2988 Congrats on your progress. Keep on keeping on man. All we can do is keep going every day.
I have a hard time realizing when it's the depression. Because you kind of dont realize it's the depression talking. You start feeling like all this work is useless, and that things don't really get better.
But telling yourself that you were so happy with all that work you had put in just recently, and that this feeling will come back, and even stronger, if you just don't give up and keep on working. Makes it a little easier to handle, even if it's hard to believe.
Everybody believes in you
Today is my birthday, and I always love listening to Boogie's talks, especially since this is something I've lived through :)
Hey Boogie, You are doing great and I've been watching for a few years. Keep it up man proud for you.
You've certainly inspired me Boogie, seeing you improve makes me happy for you as i'm trying to fix my own problems. it's giving me hope. Love ya, all the best.
keep on doing what you doing. Haters hate, remember you are cool. and they have theiur problems thats why they will never be satisfied.they will be sad individual.
Right now im going through a tough time in my life and depression hits me very hard. Watching you talk about what has happened to you and seeing that you still try gives me some inspiration and I really do hope that things get better for both of us, thank you Boogie for everything.
Love you boogie
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Tears in my eyes reading all this positivity. Love you all. Especially you boogie. Stay resilient brother we believe in you!!
Boogie is awesome!! Looking good
Honeslty your one of the most mature and adult person i have ever seen . You are a great inspiration to me and i think i speak for all of us when i say “your and inspiration for all of us”. Keep it up boogie you know we all care about you. We love you man
hire a trainer / nutrientionist.. ... you can do it boogie
Awyatt Mann I'm laughing!!! Hilarious! 🤣🤣 Funny joke my guy. Boogie already has a nutritionist. :)
can't wait to see how you're doing in a few years. I'm on my fitness journey right here with you man. Highs and lows. Lots and lots of lows. But what's a day without night. Keep it up brother, keep focusing on improving yourself health-wise and mentally.
You look great dude it cant be easy nothing but respect for you bro
Hi boogie2988, I’ve been watching your channel for about 6 month now. I have enjoyed most of your content and appreciate what you do. Don’t stress the haters. If anything let that push you forward. Much love boogie, take care bro!
🎉Boogie has main character immunity. The "special" people are jelly that they are background characters. Lol. 🎉
You're awesome boogie! Great job on the milestone and keep up the great work.
I myself suffer from clinical depression and use to be overweight as well so hearing your encouraging words of not giving up and being resilient helps brighten my day a bit. You're a great inspiration man! Proud to be a subscriber!
look how far you have come! you got this, boogie!
His tiny stomach has got this.
Boogie, I've spent more than half my life dealing with depression. The best thing you have at dealing with it is willpower. Willpower isn't a muscle, so it can't get tired. It's not your heart and the emotions that it contains and its not your brain and the logic of simple survival. It's everything. When you feel like shit, the willpower of your brain takes over and gets you to do the basic needs of staying alive. When you can't think and logic fails, let the willpower of your heart be strong. Willpower has no limits, so make it never ending.
Careful with the housework. It can become an intense work out before we even realize! Keep moving ✌
Your mindset is inspiring Boogie. Keep going and fighting this battle so to speak. You're going to push through it and come out stronger for it. You will reach your goals and break through them. We believe in you!
Edit: also boogie, I've experienced the "not feeling" anything before. But not to that extent. So maybe it would be good to talk to a therapist about it. I like how enthusiastic you become though whilst talking about your passion, videogames. So we can tell you enjoy that still.
You look better and much more happier ("don't give a shit about what other say").
am i the only one who thinks that these rambling videos should be MUCH LONGER? I would listen to Boogie for hours...
If you actually show up at a RUclipsrs house there is something wrong with you
Boogie - long time watcher here... Stay strong man. A favorite saying of mine is 'nothing is permanent.' hold out for the day your depression goes. It will come, and it will be glorious. And remember - we love you, dude!
I agree, getting into something new is healthy and fun!! Old new or one of a kind, get into new
Dude, I've mentioned it before but my goodness I can really see you've shrunk. It's really incredible to see your continued progress. Keep it up and stay strong! You rock!