Steve thank you for your honesty. I’m going through a rough time right now but I keep telling myself it’ll get better. But I think for you it has and I’m happy you’re better. Seriously your videos are such a nice break in my day so thank you for all your work on this channel.
You are an amazing story teller; I'm sure you've heard that once or twice before. :) I remember you mentioning that a life goal at one time was to write a book. I wish you would reconsider that. I laughed out loud at your comment that not breaking glasses for 3 years was a "perk of recovery". Thanks for sharing.
Oh Steve... wow. As @purplesneakers says below you truly are a remarkable storyteller. I've opened my laptop... man, I'll try so hard not to burn a black hole through your comments section AGAIN! It's taken me a few hours to make myself sit down and watch this. I've been a bit like a cat on a hot tin roof this afternoon, getting myself to sit still, breathe and NOT MOVE until I watched you speak all the way through. Avoidance, avoidance, avoidance! I ended up grabbing my weighted, soft cuddly blanket, three extra pillows, clung tightly to, jumped into bed and here we are. I watched it through twice just now, after many 'less than a minute in' attempts. I then took my ciggies, sat on my balcony for some quiet reflection and to give thanks for how you and Marc have helped me through some quite rough times (more back a year to six months ago than now, but hey...) and promptly burst into tears. I haven't cried like that for well over a year. I cried for you, for Marc, for your parents, for everyone still in the thick of the battle, those who didn't made it and of course myself. THANK YOU! Cathartic to say the least. You've told this story to a larger audience more than once, hey?! I see you!!! Very well done. So many layers, dark alleys, close shaves, humiliations you cleverly wove your way through without losing the power of your recovery or a taste of the darkness you experienced. Definitely a book or three in there, though you communicating so well through your channel has probably made that idea redundant. You are brilliant with your turn of phrase, of framing, clarifying, setting intention etc. I'M SO, SO GLAD YOU MADE IT THROUGH ALIVE, STEVE! So, so glad. Many similarities between us and naturally some differences. WOW, you take Naltrexone! Such a lifesaving drug, one the Australian government still refuses to formally recognise, hence making it affordable for most here. I know it's not for everyone. It has saved a few people I knew though. It wasn't an option for me, but thankfully, I've made it through the worst without it. Our countries have some very stark differences when it comes to rehab options, imprisonment etc. We are rather 'lighter' on both for most of us, particularly if you are a white, middle class girl without parents willing to mortgage the house for private rehab! I skated over VERY THIN ICE in the courts to avoid imprisonment. Our Aboriginal brothers and sisters EXPERIENCE THE OTHER END OF THE SPECTRUM. My precious friend and ex-partner Cass being one example. I ended up doing GROW which came out of AA here in Australia in the 1950s. 12 steps with a bigger focus on mental health, but covers addictions too. I lived 'the program' twice, for about a year and half each time. Agree with everything you shared about your experience with it AA. It's no longer for me and I have friends who live and breathe it successfully. Whatever it takes hey! CAN WE HAVE MANY, MANY MORE OF THESE? Yours and Marc's? I'm torn about this, though I keep coming to the idea that aspects of recovery and relapse, things that worked and didn't and why, could be so helpful to so many! I LOVE (paraphrasing) 'GIVING UP THE ONE THING, SO YOU CAN HAVE SO MANY MORE OTHER GREAT THINGS'. How true this is. Both you and Marc inspire me. I'm so glad I stumbled upon your channel during a particularly dark time when hope had once again disappeared from view, about a year and a half ago. I laugh, I cry, I learn from you both. I recommend your channel to friends and even a few people I've got chatting to down the street. I've come a very long way in the last 18 months. Still a long way to go, but I am unrelenting in my pursuit of even better. Some of this is thanks to you both! 💖🐨💖🐨💖🐨💖
Carolyne’s mentality this is a great comment. It’s taken me two weeks to watch because I wanted to give myself time to really listen and reflect. I am also Australian and went to GROW for mental health for a while. I felt some of the material was really dated but I did love some of the sentiments. ‘Credit yourself for success’ made a huge difference for me because even if I did something that I was proud of I would move into the next failure. That was a much healthier mindset for me!
Wow, I’m very impressed with your honesty in regard to your struggles. Actually you are an honest person so I would expect nothing less! I appreciate your sharing with us! So thank you! It really is one day at a time! Have a good rest of the day. Ciao - Peace out
Thank you for sharing, Steve! I'm in recovery myself from clinical depression and anxiety and felt like I wasted 6 years of my life. I'm 27 now and started college last year. Still a long road ahead, but you give me hope that it can all work out in the end. Your story is so real, not what they show in movies, where you have one wake-up call and it all goes up from there. Glad you made it and share with us today ❤️
Leonie Cohrs oh you have so much time. I know it doesn’t feel like that but as someone quite a bit older than you please believe me. I know so many people that changed direction in their 30’s and 40’s.
Thank you for sharing Steve my son is 34 and is an alcoholic and is addicted to spice. I've tried and cried so much for him to him to change his life around..You give me hope.
Yes there definitely is hope. Don’t ever give up. I’m a mother I believed my daughter would leave her husband and after 20 yrs she did. We aren’t speaking at the moment. Flip side. I’ll stole my mother’s pain pills. I’m going to hell on that one. My mom always says she would never see me grow up. She was right. Just believe. Prayer helps also
Judie, my therapist lives by the saying 'whilst there is breath, there is hope'. It took me until my early 40's to really gain some traction in my recovery. I know my Mum cried and tried so much for me too. I truly hope you are taking good care of yourself and surrounding yourself with the support you need to keep going. I know this can be so tough. Whilst not a mother, I was the partner of a man, deeply mired in addiction and mental health issues for well over a decade. I had to get into recovery to be of any help for him. It's taken many years, but finally he has mostly moved away from the worst of his addictions and all that goes with it. I also have a dear, dear friend who is the mother of two young men with severe addictions. I feel her pain and help hold her brokenness at times she is brought to her knees by their struggles. I feel for you!
I remember right before I got sober walking in on my friends discussing how and when they would find out that I was dead or in jail. I look back and can see they weren’t just being jerks they were seriously worried and had come to terms with the fact nothing they said or did was going to stop me. Those same friends were the first to jump and help when I finally hit that holy sheet I cannot live like this anymore but had absolutely no idea how to not live like that. Thanks for sharing your story Steve.
It takes guts to be this honest, and you know what else? A hard working successful recovery! You've done the hard work, and I find that so respectful to peel back all the layers it takes to get this done right! You rock Steve!
You know Steve, I am prob ably about the age of your mama...and I just want to drive to Scranton and give you a hug and tell you how proud of you I am, I once told my uncle who overcame alcohol that is was one of my great heroes...some one who has the courage to conquer the demon of... ( fill in the blanks) Hugs~ Lea
As a Mother of a former addict I appreciate your candor. The trust aspect is something I understand so well. I've had that conversation so many times. He can tell me he's sober all he wants but until he shows me over and over again, I just can't trust his words. He owns it and has really worked to show me. My Mama heart is always scared though. 😢
Thank you so much, Steve, for so generously sharing your recovery with us. You are such a different man from the troubled soul in the mugshot, physically, mentally & emotionally. Truly remarkable & I am so glad you're here with us all today. Blessings to you & Marc.
I love that you shared this. I have my own story and I recognize myself in a lot of your story. I understand what you mean by saying that it may seem like you are making light of this. It’s often the only way you can tell the story without falling down the rabbit hole of shame, guilt and depression. You almost have to tell it like it’s someone else’s story. You are so strong ❤️. Thanks for sharing!
Even though I have binged almost all of your content including your previous videos about addiction and recovery, I think that this topic is very important to revisit for those who are new to your channel. Thank you Steve for sharing your story with us.
Steve, I love your openness. I've been a 'fan' (LOL) from around 150 subscribers. I admire your honesty about your struggles. To me, you are amazing. Thank you for sharing.
I, too, admire the honesty shown in this talk. So many are so fake on "social media", that this is refreshing. What I most appreciated was acknowledging that sometimes others are blamed as a way of avoiding personal responsibility, but that one can only truly recover and heal by taking that responsibility on, head on.
Thank you for sharing this.. I’m half way through and I’m thinking.. this is you explaining how it happened, the things you did to feed your addiction.. and now you’re talking about consequences... And although different in our details.. I found by listening to many stories like yours.. I realized that I followed the same path. Different consequences but the same basic steps. If you never have.. I pray you do a speaker meeting one day.. you’re the person who really helped me in early recovery. The ones brave enough to tell their story. Warm hugs. Back to the video.
Wow, so good to hear this Sue's Journey. Small though they think their channel is, Steve and Marc are having a great impact on so many people's lives. So much love and wisdom.
I'm so glad you were able to overcome the addiction and most importantly, that you're still here to share your life with us! My daughter's friend died at 27yrs old, and I didn't realize he had a drug addiction until he was in the ICU at the hospital, had overdosed on heroine, and was brain dead. :( He died a few hours after being admitted. It was so shocking to his mother show no emotion while making the decision to remove life support, and watch her son die. I later learned she had lived through hell for 10 yrs prior and had been to the hospital many times thinking it was his last day to live, and he would rebound, swear he was going to stay clean, and then go back to stealing, and doing drugs. His struggle had been painful to himself and all those around him.
Hello Steve! Wonderful video...I feel the only way to tell your story is to start with the truth.I love your honesty.I also have struggled with my own issues for many years.Thanks for sharing.
Steve, I've been a sub since you guys were about 350 subs. I remembered your story from the first time you went through it. Sometimes I'm amazed how some of us made it through these lives we lived and have been able to survive. Thanks so much for your frankness and openness! Love you both! ^---^
I'm a nurse, I'm positive I don't know what spice is. I've seen a lot of od's brought into the ER. I drank once, the day I graduated from HS, my uncle made me a blue Hawaiian, I was dating hubby who just got a new truck, he was going to take me back to the apt where I was living with 3 other soon to be nursing students. All of a sudden I said, I'm gonna loose it, he pulled my braid back and up it came. What goes down blue comes up blue. He sat on the curb with me, rubbing my back, got the hose and cleaned up my mess. Took me back home, 8 months later we got engaged, 6 months later we were married. I've never had a drink again. At our wedding my mom kept saying the bride should be drinking champagne. 👎 nope, not me. Just the smell of alcohol made me sick. 44 years later, I think I've had one or two Baileys over crushed ice. Your story makes me think of my son, he is gay. He started HS when we moved from California to Pennsylvania. He became goth. When he started driving he drove my car since I worked nights. He started working in a restaurant also, it was easy for him to take bottles of booze. I give him credit, he would call me and say he was staying at a friends, he never ( don't think drank and drove) he had boyfriends but was good at making them seem like friends. I'm a mom, I knew it. When he was 17 he bought a sports car, went from goth to very gap, Macy's, etc, polo shirts and pressed slacks . No more doc martens. He changed to expensive shoes. When he got his sports car, he carried a baseball bat in the car, I could never figure that one out, then one day I got it. He was tall and well built, not skinny, not fat. The bat was to beat the shit out of anyone who harassed him. Long story, he went to Penn State, graduated, stayed at home while working in Philadelphia , finally got a job in Los Angles 😥. He's doing great, has a wonderful bf, before he left, he sent me upstairs telling me he needed to talk to dad. I already knew what was up. My poor husband didn't have a clue, we worked opposite shifts, he did notice the difference from goth to cool. I think moms have an instant. In our family I felt bad for my husband, we are Italian, I gave him an heir and a spare plus a daughter. The heir is gay, the spare does not show any interest in kids, his gf is 44, they live in NY ,our daughter..... long story, somewhere along the line we messed up, she ran away at 18 to join a religious cult. We see the boys, thank you covid, vacation off this year. No Italy for the 4 of us🤣 Man Steve you really went through hell. I'm so glad a puked up the blue Hawaiian. Yes, my boys drink so dies DIL , I wish they would not, when they come I take most of the alcohol off the dry bar and out of the wine fridge. Usually one of them asks where is the " good stuff" I say the cleaning lady out everything in a box and we can't find it... do they think it's bull shit, I'm sure they do. I don't like overdrinking. We now have a beautiful built in pool. We don't keep much alcohol around but if people want to drink it's on them. I'm not a babysitter, we only know a few people here. What a story! ✌🏻💜💐. PS still married 44 years. Time flys when you are having fun!
You are so very eloquent and have a great voice, you should definitely write a book about this, stay well and safe, say hello to your lovely Marc, I am one new subscriber, binge watched almost all your videos, you two are a lovely heartwarming, authentic couple 😍
Honestly I didn’t jive with the 12 step program all that much.. but it gave me something to do until the bad withdrawal subsided. And hearing people’s stories helped me feel less embarrassed about mine. I still have a soft spot for it but never go to meetings.
Tell me about your backdrop (the stuff on the table behind you). It looks like brochures for tourists to pick up at motels, etc! I always find myself perusing the items back there, though I can't fully see them. :)
You are unrecognisable in your mugshot. That comment about all the dead guys phone numbers was so sad. I watched Marc’s video and he said that different things work for different people. I am curious what thoughts you have about how the system handles addicted people with DUI’s and other crime relating to drug and alcohol use. There must be a better system that what we currently do.
Why did you get your tongue pierced? Is it still pierced and do you still wear tongue piercings? If you do still wear tongue piercings, you talk very well and I can't tell.
Ironic you posted your recovery story today. My boyfriend has overdosed 4 times in 10 years. He's currently in the hospital as of yesterday (he got lost taking buses home. He takes them home Mon-Fri and he kept not answering my texts and calls and when he does answer my calls, he hangs up.) so I had to call 911 to track him down (thank god I have tracking on our Iphones so I knew where he was so I could tell the cops where to look for him!) They found him and took him to the hospital. Whatever he took messed him up bad (he took it at work so I don't know what he took) he couldn't get home and is in ICU right now (not on a ventilator this time but on oxygen) and I haven't heard from him today. I don't know if he's gonna face legal consequences from this or what. He's gotten away with ODing all these years with no legal consequences so maybe it will happen this time. Maybe it will be his FINAL rock bottom! I sure hope so! Thanks for sharing your story and I love your channel!
@@laevan2053 no I'm not we've just been together for a long time and we're kinda codependent. I've struggled with my own issues myself but got myself together a few years ago and then last year in April I moved out because I couldn't put up with the shit anymore and I lived with my parents (which was a nightmare) for a year and then I moved back in this past April and things were going good until yesterday. He took something at work. Couldn't make it home. Thank god I had a locator on my phone so I could tell the police where to find him because he was so out of it he didn't know where he was. I'm super stressed right now! I'm glad he's safe and alive but I don't know what the next step is. I really don't want to move back in with my parents but I'm on SSI and can't afford my own place even with a roommate I get so little. :(
@HollyWood PLEASE TAKE VERY GOOD CARE OF YOURSELF. I hope your boyfriend makes it through. I'm sure you've heard it a million times sweetie, we can't help anyone else until we get the help we need. Don't give up.
![Ice On My Teeth - ATEEZ エイティーズ 에이티즈 [Music Bank] | KBS WORLD TV 241115](http://i.ytimg.com/vi/c-n92OgbbwA/mqdefault.jpg)
Steve thank you for your honesty. I’m going through a rough time right now but I keep telling myself it’ll get better. But I think for you it has and I’m happy you’re better. Seriously your videos are such a nice break in my day so thank you for all your work on this channel.
You are an amazing story teller; I'm sure you've heard that once or twice before. :) I remember you mentioning that a life goal at one time was to write a book. I wish you would reconsider that. I laughed out loud at your comment that not breaking glasses for 3 years was a "perk of recovery". Thanks for sharing.
Oh Steve... wow. As @purplesneakers says below you truly are a remarkable storyteller. I've opened my laptop... man, I'll try so hard not to burn a black hole through your comments section AGAIN!
It's taken me a few hours to make myself sit down and watch this. I've been a bit like a cat on a hot tin roof this afternoon, getting myself to sit still, breathe and NOT MOVE until I watched you speak all the way through. Avoidance, avoidance, avoidance! I ended up grabbing my weighted, soft cuddly blanket, three extra pillows, clung tightly to, jumped into bed and here we are. I watched it through twice just now, after many 'less than a minute in' attempts. I then took my ciggies, sat on my balcony for some quiet reflection and to give thanks for how you and Marc have helped me through some quite rough times (more back a year to six months ago than now, but hey...) and promptly burst into tears. I haven't cried like that for well over a year. I cried for you, for Marc, for your parents, for everyone still in the thick of the battle, those who didn't made it and of course myself. THANK YOU! Cathartic to say the least.
You've told this story to a larger audience more than once, hey?! I see you!!! Very well done. So many layers, dark alleys, close shaves, humiliations you cleverly wove your way through without losing the power of your recovery or a taste of the darkness you experienced. Definitely a book or three in there, though you communicating so well through your channel has probably made that idea redundant. You are brilliant with your turn of phrase, of framing, clarifying, setting intention etc.
I'M SO, SO GLAD YOU MADE IT THROUGH ALIVE, STEVE! So, so glad.
Many similarities between us and naturally some differences. WOW, you take Naltrexone! Such a lifesaving drug, one the Australian government still refuses to formally recognise, hence making it affordable for most here. I know it's not for everyone. It has saved a few people I knew though. It wasn't an option for me, but thankfully, I've made it through the worst without it. Our countries have some very stark differences when it comes to rehab options, imprisonment etc. We are rather 'lighter' on both for most of us, particularly if you are a white, middle class girl without parents willing to mortgage the house for private rehab! I skated over VERY THIN ICE in the courts to avoid imprisonment. Our Aboriginal brothers and sisters EXPERIENCE THE OTHER END OF THE SPECTRUM. My precious friend and ex-partner Cass being one example.
I ended up doing GROW which came out of AA here in Australia in the 1950s. 12 steps with a bigger focus on mental health, but covers addictions too. I lived 'the program' twice, for about a year and half each time. Agree with everything you shared about your experience with it AA. It's no longer for me and I have friends who live and breathe it successfully. Whatever it takes hey!
CAN WE HAVE MANY, MANY MORE OF THESE? Yours and Marc's? I'm torn about this, though I keep coming to the idea that aspects of recovery and relapse, things that worked and didn't and why, could be so helpful to so many!
I LOVE (paraphrasing) 'GIVING UP THE ONE THING, SO YOU CAN HAVE SO MANY MORE OTHER GREAT THINGS'. How true this is. Both you and Marc inspire me. I'm so glad I stumbled upon your channel during a particularly dark time when hope had once again disappeared from view, about a year and a half ago. I laugh, I cry, I learn from you both. I recommend your channel to friends and even a few people I've got chatting to down the street. I've come a very long way in the last 18 months. Still a long way to go, but I am unrelenting in my pursuit of even better. Some of this is thanks to you both! 💖🐨💖🐨💖🐨💖
Carolyne’s mentality this is a great comment. It’s taken me two weeks to watch because I wanted to give myself time to really listen and reflect. I am also Australian and went to GROW for mental health for a while. I felt some of the material was really dated but I did love some of the sentiments. ‘Credit yourself for success’ made a huge difference for me because even if I did something that I was proud of I would move into the next failure. That was a much healthier mindset for me!
Wow, I’m very impressed with your honesty in regard to your struggles. Actually you are an honest person so I would expect nothing less! I appreciate your sharing with us! So thank you! It really is one day at a time! Have a good rest of the day. Ciao - Peace out
Thank you for sharing, Steve! I'm in recovery myself from clinical depression and anxiety and felt like I wasted 6 years of my life. I'm 27 now and started college last year. Still a long road ahead, but you give me hope that it can all work out in the end. Your story is so real, not what they show in movies, where you have one wake-up call and it all goes up from there. Glad you made it and share with us today ❤️
@LeonieCohrs don't give up Leonie. Baby step it, keep trying. It can get so much better.
Carolyne’s mentality Thank you!! Good vibes back to you too 😊
Leonie Cohrs oh you have so much time. I know it doesn’t feel like that but as someone quite a bit older than you please believe me. I know so many people that changed direction in their 30’s and 40’s.
Andraste Thank you ❤️
Thank you for sharing Steve my son is 34 and is an alcoholic and is addicted to spice.
I've tried and cried so much for him to him to change his life around..You give me hope.
{hugs} TC.
Yes there definitely is hope. Don’t ever give up. I’m a mother I believed my daughter would leave her husband and after 20 yrs she did. We aren’t speaking at the moment. Flip side. I’ll stole my mother’s pain pills. I’m going to hell on that one. My mom always says she would never see me grow up. She was right. Just believe. Prayer helps also
@@laevan2053 thank you
@@bluedenim732 thanks I'm continually praying
Judie, my therapist lives by the saying 'whilst there is breath, there is hope'. It took me until my early 40's to really gain some traction in my recovery. I know my Mum cried and tried so much for me too. I truly hope you are taking good care of yourself and surrounding yourself with the support you need to keep going. I know this can be so tough. Whilst not a mother, I was the partner of a man, deeply mired in addiction and mental health issues for well over a decade. I had to get into recovery to be of any help for him. It's taken many years, but finally he has mostly moved away from the worst of his addictions and all that goes with it. I also have a dear, dear friend who is the mother of two young men with severe addictions. I feel her pain and help hold her brokenness at times she is brought to her knees by their struggles. I feel for you!
I remember right before I got sober walking in on my friends discussing how and when they would find out that I was dead or in jail. I look back and can see they weren’t just being jerks they were seriously worried and had come to terms with the fact nothing they said or did was going to stop me. Those same friends were the first to jump and help when I finally hit that holy sheet I cannot live like this anymore but had absolutely no idea how to not live like that. Thanks for sharing your story Steve.
It takes guts to be this honest, and you know what else? A hard working successful recovery! You've done the hard work, and I find that so respectful to peel back all the layers it takes to get this done right! You rock Steve!
You know Steve, I am prob ably about the age of your mama...and I just want to drive to Scranton and give you a hug and tell you how proud of you I am, I once told my uncle who overcame alcohol that is was one of my great heroes...some one who has the courage to conquer the demon of... ( fill in the blanks) Hugs~ Lea
WOW! What a journey Steve! Thanks for sharing. I'm sure you are giving hope to many who are struggling with addiction.
As a Mother of a former addict I appreciate your candor. The trust aspect is something I understand so well. I've had that conversation so many times. He can tell me he's sober all he wants but until he shows me over and over again, I just can't trust his words. He owns it and has really worked to show me. My Mama heart is always scared though. 😢
Thank you so much, Steve, for so generously sharing your recovery with us. You are such a different man from the troubled soul in the mugshot, physically, mentally & emotionally. Truly remarkable & I am so glad you're here with us all today. Blessings to you & Marc.
I love that you shared this. I have my own story and I recognize myself in a lot of your story. I understand what you mean by saying that it may seem like you are making light of this. It’s often the only way you can tell the story without falling down the rabbit hole of shame, guilt and depression. You almost have to tell it like it’s someone else’s story. You are so strong ❤️. Thanks for sharing!
Even though I have binged almost all of your content including your previous videos about addiction and recovery, I think that this topic is very important to revisit for those who are new to your channel. Thank you Steve for sharing your story with us.
In the afternoon. Looking forward to this. Really. You are so calming
Agreed! And always so friendly
Steve, I love your openness. I've been a 'fan' (LOL) from around 150 subscribers. I admire your honesty about your struggles. To me, you are amazing. Thank you for sharing.
I, too, admire the honesty shown in this talk. So many are so fake on "social media", that this is refreshing. What I most appreciated was acknowledging that sometimes others are blamed as a way of avoiding personal responsibility, but that one can only truly recover and heal by taking that responsibility on, head on.
@@laevan2053 Thank you and I agree. Steve is wonderful - ask him anything and he'll tell you. He owns his actions & illness. He's inspiring.
Thank you for sharing this..
I’m half way through and I’m thinking.. this is you explaining how it happened, the things you did to feed your addiction.. and now you’re talking about consequences...
And although different in our details.. I found by listening to many stories like yours.. I realized that I followed the same path. Different consequences but the same basic steps.
If you never have.. I pray you do a speaker meeting one day.. you’re the person who really helped me in early recovery. The ones brave enough to tell their story. Warm hugs. Back to the video.
hey Sue! Hope you’re doing well
Katherine Kwok
😊
Wow, so good to hear this Sue's Journey. Small though they think their channel is, Steve and Marc are having a great impact on so many people's lives. So much love and wisdom.
It was wonderful. I really understand. I love pain pills. Omg. I’m very very happy for you. I Iove watching you and Marc. Your such nice guys
Thanks so much for sharing! Very powerful story and I’m happy it has a good ending 🙂
Thank you for sharing. I’m glad you are doing so well now. Sending ❤️
I'm so glad you were able to overcome the addiction and most importantly, that you're still here to share your life with us! My daughter's friend died at 27yrs old, and I didn't realize he had a drug addiction until he was in the ICU at the hospital, had overdosed on heroine, and was brain dead. :( He died a few hours after being admitted. It was so shocking to his mother show no emotion while making the decision to remove life support, and watch her son die. I later learned she had lived through hell for 10 yrs prior and had been to the hospital many times thinking it was his last day to live, and he would rebound, swear he was going to stay clean, and then go back to stealing, and doing drugs. His struggle had been painful to himself and all those around him.
Congratulations to you, Steve. Stay strong and healthy and love your life without the alcohol! That was quite a story.
Hello Steve! Wonderful video...I feel the only way to tell your story is to start with the truth.I love your honesty.I also have struggled with my own issues for many years.Thanks for sharing.
I'm sucked in! Can't take my eyes off the screen. You are amazing with stories and so calming 💕
Steve, I've been a sub since you guys were about 350 subs. I remembered your story from the first time you went through it. Sometimes I'm amazed how some of us made it through these lives we lived and have been able to survive. Thanks so much for your frankness and openness! Love you both! ^---^
Thanks for sharing your story, Steve!
Thanks for sharing! Glad you made it through and into a much happier life!
This was amazing!!!!!
Thanks for sharing your story Steve, it was really interesting and I'm so glad you finally kicked it and are doing so well now :O) XOXO
Thank so much for sharing! ♥️
I really appreciate you and this video! It takes alot os strength and courage!!
Thank you for sharing! So interesting to listen to your story and where you have come from.
I'm a nurse, I'm positive I don't know what spice is. I've seen a lot of od's brought into the ER. I drank once, the day I graduated from HS, my uncle made me a blue Hawaiian, I was dating hubby who just got a new truck, he was going to take me back to the apt where I was living with 3 other soon to be nursing students. All of a sudden I said, I'm gonna loose it, he pulled my braid back and up it came. What goes down blue comes up blue. He sat on the curb with me, rubbing my back, got the hose and cleaned up my mess. Took me back home, 8 months later we got engaged, 6 months later we were married. I've never had a drink again. At our wedding my mom kept saying the bride should be drinking champagne. 👎 nope, not me. Just the smell of alcohol made me sick. 44 years later, I think I've had one or two Baileys over crushed ice. Your story makes me think of my son, he is gay. He started HS when we moved from California to Pennsylvania. He became goth. When he started driving he drove my car since I worked nights. He started working in a restaurant also, it was easy for him to take bottles of booze. I give him credit, he would call me and say he was staying at a friends, he never ( don't think drank and drove) he had boyfriends but was good at making them seem like friends. I'm a mom, I knew it. When he was 17 he bought a sports car, went from goth to very gap, Macy's, etc, polo shirts and pressed slacks . No more doc martens. He changed to expensive shoes. When he got his sports car, he carried a baseball bat in the car, I could never figure that one out, then one day I got it. He was tall and well built, not skinny, not fat. The bat was to beat the shit out of anyone who harassed him. Long story, he went to Penn State, graduated, stayed at home while working in Philadelphia , finally got a job in Los Angles 😥. He's doing great, has a wonderful bf, before he left, he sent me upstairs telling me he needed to talk to dad. I already knew what was up. My poor husband didn't have a clue, we worked opposite shifts, he did notice the difference from goth to cool. I think moms have an instant. In our family I felt bad for my husband, we are Italian, I gave him an heir and a spare plus a daughter. The heir is gay, the spare does not show any interest in kids, his gf is 44, they live in NY ,our daughter..... long story, somewhere along the line we messed up, she ran away at 18 to join a religious cult. We see the boys, thank you covid, vacation off this year. No Italy for the 4 of us🤣
Man Steve you really went through hell. I'm so glad a puked up the blue Hawaiian. Yes, my boys drink so dies DIL , I wish they would not, when they come I take most of the alcohol off the dry bar and out of the wine fridge. Usually one of them asks where is the " good stuff" I say the cleaning lady out everything in a box and we can't find it... do they think it's bull shit, I'm sure they do. I don't like overdrinking. We now have a beautiful built in pool. We don't keep much alcohol around but if people want to drink it's on them. I'm not a babysitter, we only know a few people here. What a story! ✌🏻💜💐. PS still married 44 years. Time flys when you are having fun!
Thanks Steve for sharing
You are so very eloquent and have a great voice, you should definitely write a book about this, stay well and safe, say hello to your lovely Marc, I am one new subscriber, binge watched almost all your videos, you two are a lovely heartwarming, authentic couple 😍
Thank you and welcome! :-)
It must have been a struggle,but you got there,and remain sober and drug free well done
Honestly I didn’t jive with the 12 step program all that much.. but it gave me something to do until the bad withdrawal subsided. And hearing people’s stories helped me feel less embarrassed about mine. I still have a soft spot for it but never go to meetings.
Very interesting Steve. I bet you could write a book and it would be a best seller. God Bless
Thank you Steve!...
Thank you for sharing. You are such a sweet authentic guy I totally would have wanted to be your friend. 💞
tfs Steve wow what a journey. But just look at you know. hugs to both of you.
Tell me about your backdrop (the stuff on the table behind you). It looks like brochures for tourists to pick up at motels, etc! I always find myself perusing the items back there, though I can't fully see them. :)
Your glasses will break or scratch in week now that you tempted the Glasses Gods and Goddesses. Ha Ha
Honest
You are unrecognisable in your mugshot. That comment about all the dead guys phone numbers was so sad. I watched Marc’s video and he said that different things work for different people. I am curious what thoughts you have about how the system handles addicted people with DUI’s and other crime relating to drug and alcohol use. There must be a better system that what we currently do.
Why did you get your tongue pierced? Is it still pierced and do you still wear tongue piercings? If you do still wear tongue piercings, you talk very well and I can't tell.
I don’t think it was right the cop kicked you in the back,it didn’t matter if you were in jail it wasn’t right
Ironic you posted your recovery story today. My boyfriend has overdosed 4 times in 10 years. He's currently in the hospital as of yesterday (he got lost taking buses home. He takes them home Mon-Fri and he kept not answering my texts and calls and when he does answer my calls, he hangs up.) so I had to call 911 to track him down (thank god I have tracking on our Iphones so I knew where he was so I could tell the cops where to look for him!) They found him and took him to the hospital. Whatever he took messed him up bad (he took it at work so I don't know what he took) he couldn't get home and is in ICU right now (not on a ventilator this time but on oxygen) and I haven't heard from him today. I don't know if he's gonna face legal consequences from this or what. He's gotten away with ODing all these years with no legal consequences so maybe it will happen this time. Maybe it will be his FINAL rock bottom! I sure hope so! Thanks for sharing your story and I love your channel!
I hope you're not staying with him out of some kind of savior complex.
@@laevan2053 no I'm not we've just been together for a long time and we're kinda codependent. I've struggled with my own issues myself but got myself together a few years ago and then last year in April I moved out because I couldn't put up with the shit anymore and I lived with my parents (which was a nightmare) for a year and then I moved back in this past April and things were going good until yesterday. He took something at work. Couldn't make it home. Thank god I had a locator on my phone so I could tell the police where to find him because he was so out of it he didn't know where he was. I'm super stressed right now! I'm glad he's safe and alive but I don't know what the next step is. I really don't want to move back in with my parents but I'm on SSI and can't afford my own place even with a roommate I get so little. :(
@HollyWood PLEASE TAKE VERY GOOD CARE OF YOURSELF. I hope your boyfriend makes it through. I'm sure you've heard it a million times sweetie, we can't help anyone else until we get the help we need. Don't give up.
@@permissiontoshine thank you so much for the love and support!