There is a lot of misinformation in this video, suggesting premature birth was a result of having an abortion. Does Lisa think that miscarriages also cause later premature births?
@@allyjmjm it can be does not mean everyone who has one going to have pre mature just like everyone who smokes gets cancer because that does t happen just means higher risk . I’m pro life so it puts you at higher risk .
It never goes away. I cried that day at 16 and I cry today at 52. I pray I meet this baby one day😢Ty for your story.only about 5 ppl know . I have not shared this in 20 yrs
And..your baby is waiting for you in heaven. You will no doubt be reunited. God is so merciful. If you are a follower of Jesus, this is your future, Praise the Lord! 🙏🙏🙏
Oh Sweetie: Choose a neutral name And tell your Baby their Name that you love them. You will when you get to HEAVEN hug them. No condemnation you are forgiven for your sin in JESUS name. That is JESUS BLOOD 🩸✝️🕊️💥🤴 is skinned ALIVE suffered bled and died for each of US in JESUS name 3 days later HOLY SPIRIT Resurrected ALIVE and Well. It's finished. If you aborted it's challenging but I miscarried 12-15 times. It was so challenging but GOD gave me PEACE ✌️🕊️ over it.
I am ashamed of the choices I made to abort my babies, I think of my babies daily and will never forget them but I've repented of my grave sins. God is merciful and forgiving, I am so grateful for this! Praise be to our Lord and Savior!
I agree, I have confessed my abortion story to my sons, daughter-in-laws and youtube. You never ever forget, or wonder what if, or stop crying. I have my sins laid it down and ask God for his forgiveness. Praise God. But the sadness, shame and tears still come everyday.
I relate to Lisa’s experiences and believe God has restored and given me new life. Yet the shame can feel heavy at times. Thank you Jesus for the brave women who share there’s stories of hope.
That shame is not coming from God but from the enemy. He wants to keep you in that guilt and shame. Oh how I know! God can cleanse you and completely set you free!
Wow, her comment about feeling like death in the clinic that's powerful. I have no experience with pregnancy/abortion but as a woman I really felt that.
Wow, anytime I hear about some deleting their child i instantly want to cry . My mother when I was either 15 or 16 years old thinking I was pregnant since I had done the deed said why don’t you take the pill and I instantly knew that I wouldn’t sadly I had an ectopic pregnancy , I know years later my mom regretted ever saying that but she was scared. Now at 22 I had my beautiful miracle baby and I could never even imagine life without him in it
I've had 3. Long stories that don't make sense to sane rational people. I was young. Fear, low self esteem, lack of knowledge. Easily influenced by others. Had no power or identity of my own to stand up for me and the baby. I have had 4 boys and raised 2 step children now. I think of all the lies I was told and false fears others projected on me. How weak I was against their words. I now know that there were resources and I wasn't alone. It's not been easy forgiving myself. Raising children is scary no matter when you do it. I now know how beautiful and fulfilling it is to be a mother. God forgave me, the minute I leaned on God I found my strength and my identity. I do believe women have the right to know the full story. I wasn't informed. I do believe there are limits to this medical practice. Already had 3 abortions and 2 children and became pregnant with 3rd child. they tried to convince me to abort my 3rd son due to a blood test that said he would have health issues. I said no to abortion and decided to pray and trust God, I had already prayed for my past 3 abortions to be returned to me and I apologized to God for years after I had my first child. I promised God I would trust him over any human ever again. All this was in my 20's. Life is blessed and kids are beautiful ❤️ God answers God loves
Thank you to your Uncle and Aunty for sharing their story! It is such an encouragement for women who are on the fence about abortion and need clarity on the cost of making such a decision🙏🏾
I have always been ashamed of my abortion when I was a teenager. I would cry every year of that baby would have been birthday for over 20 years. I could not forgive myself nor could I let it go. I was in church and I had a dear sister in Christ that did inner healing. Until that day I hated myself for doing what I did. After I got inner healing and I seen my baby in the arms of Jesus after seeing myself hand the baby to Jesus. it was a baby girl and her name is star. May the Lord comfort us all that made the wrong choice. God bless you all ❤️ love you your sister Linda ❤️
@@mmhoff3525its deceitful philosophy that has infiltrated the church with twisting scripture and many other things. Idk where is started but Bethel pushes this demonic doctrine quite a bit
Thanks for opening your hearts and sharing your story with us. We need to stop being so quick to judge others. We need to offer compassion and grace. God bless y’all.
I was pro choice (I would never have one but was ok with it) until I took my best friend to her abortion appointment in 2014. It was a dark place full of young women, all doped up on the meds they are given. Then sat in the waiting room for hours until it's their turn.... All while watching craft shows on a channel called "Create." Sickening.. God wanted me there to show me the full truth of what I was supporting. I've been loud and proud pro life ever since.
Same thing happened to me. I drank the liberal kool-aid. "Okay for some, just not for me." Went to a clinic and saw the true horrors. After that pro-life all the way!
In 1997, I was 17 and 5 weeks pregnant, I was terrified and my boyfriend and my mother really did push abortion on me. But honestly it’s what I thought I wanted at the time, so with them telling me to abort and being terrified I justified it. My best friend went with me, she was the only voice of reason, she tried so hard to get me to change my mind. Unfortunately I didn’t change my mind and I’ve had to live with that horrendous decision for 27 years. The planned parenthood I went to was the same as you describe. It was dark, cold, depressing even though the staff was trying to be helpful and assure us that we were making the right choice. All the girls were somber, very quiet and I could feel the oppression of the enemy, Satan himself. I remember everything from that day, one of the worst days of my entire life. I had nightmares after and I could hear the crying of my baby in my dreams, I could hear them begging me not to take their life. If it wasn’t for the Mercy of Jesus Christ I would be dead as well, because making such a horrible choice as to murder your baby can lead to suicide, just to stop the dreams and the pain of what I did. I cling to Jesus and He is everything to me!! He has blessed me with a loving husband and two beautiful children that I didn’t deserve nor believed I should or could have! His forgiveness, love, mercy, Grace are just some of the undeserved beautiful gifts I have received! I’m thankful for you telling the truth about the inside of these clinics.❤
@@jeng8000 thank you for sharing this beautiful life story. The more you share, the more of a lifesaver you become! We are redeemed by the blood of Jesus Christ. Forgiveness is given freely, accept and have the courage to change someone else's life.
Lisa, thank you for sharing your story! Your testimony is a powerful source and reminds other unmarried and pregnant women that no matter what, God will provide. Fear can feel overwhelming, and many women feel pressure to make a quick decision. They don’t know where to turn, and they think their lives and dreams are over. Embrace Grace provides support and community through local churches for single and pregnant young women and their families. We continuously pray that every girl with an unplanned pregnancy has a church to go to for spiritual, emotional, and physical support. 🌸💖
Dr. Ben Carson’s interview with Tucker Carlson is amazing!! Please listen if you have a chance. Dr. Carson stated while he operated on babies in the womb at 27 weeks gestation, anesthesia had to be given to the baby in the womb to prevent the baby from feeling surgical pain. An abortion to an unborn baby… I can’t begin to imagine the amount of pain the baby will suffer 😢💔
I have felt that i can't talk about the decision I made, I feel as though you get people on both sides that make you feel the shame you've dealt with since that horrible decision. I really appreciate this, and women should be able to talk about the hard. We are children of the most high, and his grace is what saved me!
The beauty of God's grace. He already knows what we've done, he's just waiting for us to come to him...with EVERYTHING. We can come with shame and leave with forgiveness and peace!
Dear Sadie, Thank you for sharing your abortion story. It will help so many grieving hearts. In 1979, l was laying on my stomach watching TV when all of a sudden I felt tiny feet kicking really fast. I sat up and put my fingers on the spot. Looking down my fingers were on my right side groin area. I thought "Oh no! If l go to the doctor they will tell me, "You can't carry a baby there." So l waited until l was seven months pregnant to see a doctor. Two years before this in 1977, l was forced to have an abortion by my baby's father. I passed out as soon as we came into the house/turned into clinic. They said l was unconscious for three minutes. When l came to, l was cold, wet and clammy. I was shaking so bad. They had my go into the hallway and lay on a cot. After about twenty minutes, they took me to a room. I couldn't say anything, l was in so much distress. They did the first procedure. As they left, they said the pain will go away in a few minutes. In a few minutes l was in so much pain, it felt like a spaghetti spoon was wrapped around my insides. I know now that my baby was turning and turning mortally wounded. After fifteen minutes, the doctor walked in and said, "We didn't get all the parts" he said l had to get back on the table. I didn't feel anything during the second procedure. But when he told the nurse, "She will be a candidate for a hysterectomy, l thought to myself, "l will die of Cancer before you get my uterus" And few years ago they thought l had cancer, but they couldn't get a biopsy, l told them, "lf nothing can get in, nothing can get out" l don't have cancer, l have a very scared uterus. I carried my last baby in a displaced position, on my pelvic floor the whole nine months, due to the damage of that double procedure abortion. I still have problems walking, but I would have carried him in my big toe before I would ever have another abortion. I begged God to help me carry my baby in that displaced position. He did! My son is 44 years old now. I named my aborted baby, "Anna Catherine" because I felt she was a girl. I know I will see her again in heaven. Sadie l will be praying for you and your family!!! My two older children, I had before my forced abortion are affected too, they not only lost their sibling, but l wasn't emotionally there for them at a crucial age, 5 and 7. It took ten years to face what happened in that clinic and put words to describe the pain. God and l know!
Praying for you all What a devastatingly traumatic part of your life I am so sorry you and your children went through that. Thank you for telling your story. May it open the eyes of many to the horrors of abortion on women. 🙏💔
Does anyone in this chat think that unborn babies deserve the same equal justice protections as born persons, that a federal law should establish that unborn babies are human persons and therefore anyone who murders them should be held accountable just like anyone who murders anyone else? This would include the mothers. This would NOT be retroactive (go back in the past). If you are curious about this position and why it’s biblical, please look up “Abortion Free” on the Foundation to Abolish Abortion channel on RUclips and check out the new docuseries.
I do but if the mother is suffering and dying because the baby is not fully developing like a miscarriage then no. Now what I mean by this is if the babies brain dead then it’s ok. I have seen many people born without limbs and have been a great blessing in this world! But anyone that takes a life because of their own selfish desires then yes.
@@LJHLU Unfortunately the laws that Sadie and her movement promote will still force a woman who is carrying a baby that will never be born alive to carry that baby to term regardless of how traumatizing it is. Thanks to the pro life movement, Kentucky law requires that a nine year old who is abused by her stepfather will have to carry his baby to term or until she gets close to losing an organ.
Thank you Sadie for sharing your Aunt’s story. Almost word for word my abortion experience and the way God has used me to participate in the saving of 5 babies. It is another healing time when God reminds me , He knows that I know He has forgiven me of this sin in my past , but also that I need to stay humble about the choices I made based on my lack of education and lack of support , and the misuse I’d my “free will”. God Bless you.
Thank you Lisa for being so honest and telling your story. So brave. I got chills when you said that the day you went to the clinic to have your abortion and you said you smelt death, that's exactly what Abby Johnson always says.
What a wonderful, personal, straight conversation on life, being a teenager out of control, realizing what choices are doing and yet courageously sharing. Love and prayers for you to take this time to save babies and their mothers from the grip of death. ❤
What a Beautiful Testimony From your Aunt. Been there myself. But l was the Adulterer. After l came to Jesus l ve never been better except lm all Alone. But really lve never been alone Amen 🙏
I live everyday thinking about the child I aborted. I was a single mom with one child who’s father divorced me when I was 8 mo pregnant . The guy I got pregnant by & was seeing stopped by & said he was moving out of state. I never even told him. I know God has forgiven me but the pain is still there. I look forward to the day I meet my baby in heaven. It’s something you never get over.
I cant believe thats what they tell you at the clinic. Unbelievable. I feel so strong about pro life. Its insane the things of this world but thats why we need jesus every single day.
God bless y’all for this testimony; I know that many people will be touched and even encouraged because of God’s grace and forgiveness. All have sinned and fall short of His glory but we have an advocate with the Father through Jesus Christ.
Tbh I never watched Duck Dynasty until I watched the movie the blind and it was so beautiful story. Not only was the movie good but the show was beautiful to see healthy family dynamics! ❤
I had an abortion but still to this day LOVE that child. I had the decision I had to make but it was the best decision at the time with the knowledge I had. This was so reassuring and encouraging ❤
My Mom always said don't ask the question if you're not prepared for the answer. I took that to heart. If I don't want to hear a certain answer ...don't ask. Simple. I'm pretty straight forward but try to apply diplomacy since it's still honest .
This is such a powerful message. I believe that them sharing their story makes us realize that we’re human. We make mistakes, we aren’t born perfect, BUT GOD. We all have a story that leads us to the BUT GOD. BUT GOD, restores us, he takes our burden, he welcomes us home no matter what, that’s what’s so beautiful and special that makes us all realize how good God is. His goodness is beyond comprehension, there’s no reason to hide or stay away from Him. He loves you SO much.
Thank you so much for this. I had 2 abortions and have recently began giving my life to Christ and I have felt so much shame I never shared my secret with anyone.
Allen's testimony is just really really encouraging, idk i just feel the need to say this because im just hurting and grieving and others out there might be as well, its just amazingly encouraging because my brother is making some big mistakes similar to what All was doing. My brother is about to be married to this woman who has just about ruined my life, slandered me behind my back and has made me loose all my friends, my mentors, my oldest sister, and my brother who I have always been extremely close to. Every time ive prayed about it I feel like God has just revealed to me that eventually my brother will come back, through a lot of parables God has spoken to me, and dreams and just ways the Spirit has led my mother to pray over my brother that has actually come to exist. So I know he will come back its just so hard, he is going to get really really hurt, hes surrounded himself with a bunch of people that will not love him unconditionally and has gotten rid of everyone who will. This story is just so so so encouraging, really what I needed to hear because he obviously hasnt come back yet and i dont know when he will, but if God could reveal himself to Allen then he can reveal himself to my brother. Y'all are just amazing and this is just such an encouragement to hear. You have been reminding me to praise God through the battle because theres a reason hes letting it happen.
Dear Sadie, l'm sorry, l commented before I should have. I thought you had an abortion. I watched your video. What a beautiful testimony Lisa has. I can relate to her in many ways. God's grace and mercy shows through her story.
Good stuff. Real. Honest. As Charles Swindoll said often throughout his life: Life is 10% of what happens to you and 90% of how you respond to it. An attitude of gratitude changes everything when it is rooted in our Savior.
The fact that Lisa was able to physically have two glorious daughters! My friend who had AN ABORTION @ 16. Regardless of here walk w/CHRIST was never able to have children! 😢❤🙏 Looking forward to PART 2! THANK Y’ALL FOR SHARING!
Talking about opinions when people ask your opinion about their hair, or life in general or how you’re feeling. At church when you come in and the greeters say, “Hi! Great to see you! How are you doing today?” I always come back with ”Do you want my honest answer, or do you want my faith statement?” or if it’s a Wednesday night, and you’ve had a day, and you get to church on Angels wings, lol. And they asked me that question, sometimes I come back with “I’m tired and grouchy, and I’m going in for an attitude adjustment”. 😁 🤷🏻♀️
Coming to the realization that we overcome by the blood of the Lamb and the word of our testimony, when people ask me how I am I tell them some of these: "blessed to be a blessing because Jesus Christ lives in my heart," "blessed, highly, favored, and the Lord is with me," "blessed going in and blessed coming out, blessed in the city, blessed in the field, "I am complete in Him who is the head of all principality and power."
Someone I know (very dear to me), had an abortion, regretted it, and for 40 years has felt remorse and pain from it. After her abortion, she got married, had more stability, got pregnant from her husband and miscarried. She forever said that she felt it was payback to take a life from her, after she took a life. Praying God will truly bless those in repentance and heal their heart.
When I was 19 my girlfriend at the time got pregnant. In my mind I thought we were happy about it. She had an abortion and I didn't know anything about it until it was too late. The day I found out I packed her, and her belongings up and dropped her off at her brother's house. Her mom wouldn't have her because she had also just found out about the abortion. (This was 20 years ago, and I hope they reconciled that relationship.) From my position I've always wanted children, and a family and I knew this from a young age. So that's not the option I would have ever agreed too. If I look at things from her position I can kind of understand why she made that choice. I'll never agree with it but I can kind of understand it. I was not nice back then. Never violent with her, or any other woman. But I was angry, moody, and hard to get along with most of the time. I was drinking a lot, and messing with drugs. I spent a lot of time drinking in bars, and frequently looked for situations to fight with guys. So she had seen the police bring me home telling her to make me sleep it off. She'd seen me come home so full of adrenaline and rage after a bar fight. And she's also had to come pick me up at the hospital a few times because I took a beating. I understand her not wanting me to father her children. Thank god I am not that same man anymore. Unfortunately that may have been my only chance to have a child.
Hi Sadie! I just found your podcast! Beautiful!❤ Thank you Lisa for honest testimony. Mine is quite similar, and no one ever wants to talk about it. I admire you all.❤
Thanks for telling your story, Lisa. I have a story almost identical, 16 years old. Searching for love in all the wrong places was told it was a clump. Petition was told never to think about it again. It was a dark and lonely place and I went alone I was dropped off by an older friend. I didn't even tell my parents. I was a product of teenage parents. My parents were not togethorrible horrible.
My 31 year old daughter and 4 year old granddaughter were living with me when my daughter told me she was pregnant again. The person she was dating had been in prison and was not nice. I remember asking her when she was moving out or getting an abortion. I wasn't thinking of the baby or my daughter, but the fact that that man was so scary and had brought us so many sleepless nights I couldn't imagine living with that the rest of my life. Fortunately, she kept the precious baby and I know GOD has forgiven me. I love that 13 little girl so much and cannot imagine life without her. Praise GOD!
True, because the woman bears the brunt of it. We never judge a man for disappearing after he gets a woman pregnant. He caused the circumstances to contribute to the abortion just as much as she did if he left her feeling hopeless and broken.
A community church put up a little tree in the graveyard then, even those who had aborted babies were invited to put the name of those unborn babies on little wooden plaques that each of us were able to hang on the tender branches. There was no condemnation, for those present, no matter how many years had passed. Anyone who lost a preborn or a born baby are still welcomed to mourn there. I go there often. Thank you Lord for forgiving me. I put my trust in Jesus. I know you, Lord have forgiven me. Thanks for making a way for me to write my story. It’s not often there are people who want to hear. ❤ PS I, too had a miscarriage after that abortion.
When I was growing up, I would visit my dad in AL. We would do the same thing-drive around Hardee's. The teens in the town would hang out in the parking lot and drive around it. That's so funny.
As an unwed pregnant teenager, I thank my parents for teaching us that life begins at conception. We chose life. Our birthson is adopted and he is thankful that we did not choose abortion. 👣
Testimony is so powerful! Thank you for being strong enough to be vulnerable in sharing a piece of your testimony! Ps… love your chair! I’d love to find one, know the place by chance?
What a great video, thank you for your honesty. I was surprised to hear your advertisement for tattoos and mad rabbit. No judgement, but I would love to hear a show on what the Bible says about tattoos. I have always heard that, in the Bible, only Gods enemies had tattoos. Would love to hear your thoughts
I am against abortion also ,unless there is a medical issue like a miscarriage or being forced . I dont want to judge anyone because with the most respect I have known people . Some women have regret it later . Some felt forced to get abortion. Has a Christian I am believing that some women and men turn their life around and give there life to jesus and are a born again believe. God forgiven them . All babies are a truly a blessing from God . Babies are a mircle ❤. God bless
According to former abortionist, Dr. Anthony Levatino, abortion is never the answer for medical issues. If there is a medical emergency, a cesarean section would be performed to save the life of the mother. In these instances, the baby may or may not survive but they have a chance. An abortion is a long drawn out procedure whereas a c-section is a quicker and safer procedure for a woman or baby in distress. Check out his videos and resources. I've learned a lot from him.
I'm 56 young women , an when they were talking about back in the day when they were kids what they did for at nights hang outs , at the mall an stuff an that's what we did back in the day in our town in North Carolina, back in the late 70s an early 80s an middle 80s , an then I moved away but , that brought backsome memories 😅
I had mine at almost 19. I was about a month out from my 19th… deep in my heart I didn’t want to get it, I did it because I was with someone who was coping with his own issues via drugs and alcohol. He wasn’t kind to me either at that point and I found out a couple months later that he had cheated on me multiple times the entire 5 1/2 years anyway.. He told me my child would grow up without a father and I have my own trauma in regards to that….. there is not a year that goes by that I don’t think about that baby, the month it would have been born, how old it would have been if I hadn't done what I did…… I had trauma and could still FEEL that feeling of the procedure for about a year or two after.. and as an almost 29 year old woman, and ever since I was 16 I wanted to have a happy marriage and children…. I am still yearning for a happy marriage and children and I COULD have at least had a child in my life if I hadn’t made that decision… I think about it everyday…. I didn’t want to let that child down by not being able to provide a happy healthy stable family, success that wasn’t hard to come by, watching your mom struggle because she got pregnant so young. But I have found Jesus and I pray everyday for forgiveness…… I pray that maybe one day somehow, god will send that soul baby back to me, maybe I’ll have children one day and have a husband who cares and wants a wife and wants to be a dad…… I am scared everyday that my chance will never come and I ruined that ONE chance of being a mother at almost 19 because of a stupid decision I made….
Oh how funny your comment about the pie!!! My favorite is apple but my mother in law makes pineapple all the time thinking it is my favorite. I like of course, but not as much as apple pie.
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There is a lot of misinformation in this video, suggesting premature birth was a result of having an abortion. Does Lisa think that miscarriages also cause later premature births?
The whole family nothing but beautiful souls … I have watched from The beginning now all the podcasts individually !
@@allyjmjm it can be does not mean everyone who has one going to have pre mature just like everyone who smokes gets cancer because that does t happen just means higher risk . I’m pro life so it puts you at higher risk .
This was a great conversation! You are doing amazing @SadieRobertson. On an off topic question, where did your chair come from?
It never goes away. I cried that day at 16 and I cry today at 52. I pray I meet this baby one day😢Ty for your story.only about 5 ppl know . I have not shared this in 20 yrs
The Lord forgives when you ask. He loves you unconditionally. ❤
And..your baby is waiting for you in heaven. You will no doubt be reunited. God is so merciful. If you are a follower of Jesus, this is your future, Praise the Lord! 🙏🙏🙏
Your baby is with Jesus and yes you will see your baby again in but you have to be saved in order to get to Heaven.❤
Rachel's Vineyard offers wonderful post-abortive healing - it doesn't matter how long ago the abortion was
Oh Sweetie: Choose a neutral name And tell your Baby their Name that you love them. You will when you get to HEAVEN hug them. No condemnation you are forgiven for your sin in JESUS name. That is JESUS BLOOD 🩸✝️🕊️💥🤴 is skinned ALIVE suffered bled and died for each of US in JESUS name 3 days later HOLY SPIRIT Resurrected ALIVE and Well. It's finished.
If you aborted it's challenging but I miscarried 12-15 times. It was so challenging but GOD gave me PEACE ✌️🕊️ over it.
Lisa's story is a prime example of how God will take what the enemy meant for evil and use it for his glory. Love you guys thank you for all you do
amen!
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Pro-choicers or someone will read your comment and ridicule you for the middle part of your comment.
I am ashamed of the choices I made to abort my babies, I think of my babies daily and will never forget them but I've repented of my grave sins. God is merciful and forgiving, I am so grateful for this! Praise be to our Lord and Savior!
But he will ask you why did you throw away his gift. 😢
Im sorry.
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Unnecessary comment dude @@brendamorris5036
@brendamorris5036 This is certain!
I agree, I have confessed my abortion story to my sons, daughter-in-laws and youtube. You never ever forget, or wonder what if, or stop crying. I have my sins laid it down and ask God for his forgiveness. Praise God. But the sadness, shame and tears still come everyday.
I relate to Lisa’s experiences and believe God has restored and given me new life. Yet the shame can feel heavy at times. Thank you Jesus for the brave women who share there’s stories of hope.
That shame is not coming from God but from the enemy. He wants to keep you in that guilt and shame. Oh how I know! God can cleanse you and completely set you free!
Wow, her comment about feeling like death in the clinic that's powerful. I have no experience with pregnancy/abortion but as a woman I really felt that.
Wow, anytime I hear about some deleting their child i instantly want to cry . My mother when I was either 15 or 16 years old thinking I was pregnant since I had done the deed said why don’t you take the pill and I instantly knew that I wouldn’t sadly I had an ectopic pregnancy , I know years later my mom regretted ever saying that but she was scared. Now at 22 I had my beautiful miracle baby and I could never even imagine life without him in it
I've had 3. Long stories that don't make sense to sane rational people. I was young. Fear, low self esteem, lack of knowledge. Easily influenced by others. Had no power or identity of my own to stand up for me and the baby. I have had 4 boys and raised 2 step children now. I think of all the lies I was told and false fears others projected on me. How weak I was against their words. I now know that there were resources and I wasn't alone. It's not been easy forgiving myself. Raising children is scary no matter when you do it. I now know how beautiful and fulfilling it is to be a mother. God forgave me, the minute I leaned on God I found my strength and my identity. I do believe women have the right to know the full story. I wasn't informed. I do believe there are limits to this medical practice.
Already had 3 abortions and 2 children and became pregnant with 3rd child. they tried to convince me to abort my 3rd son due to a blood test that said he would have health issues. I said no to abortion and decided to pray and trust God, I had already prayed for my past 3 abortions to be returned to me and I apologized to God for years after I had my first child. I promised God I would trust him over any human ever again. All this was in my 20's.
Life is blessed and kids are beautiful ❤️
God answers
God loves
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Thank you for sharing your story ❤
Thank you for being so vulnerable.
At 16 you are so scared and impressionable.
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Thank you to your Uncle and Aunty for sharing their story! It is such an encouragement for women who are on the fence about abortion and need clarity on the cost of making such a decision🙏🏾
Best decision I’ve ever made
A decision that NEVER leaves you. 😢
I have always been ashamed of my abortion when I was a teenager. I would cry every year of that baby would have been birthday for over 20 years. I could not forgive myself nor could I let it go. I was in church and I had a dear sister in Christ that did inner healing. Until that day I hated myself for doing what I did. After I got inner healing and I seen my baby in the arms of Jesus after seeing myself hand the baby to Jesus. it was a baby girl and her name is star. May the Lord comfort us all that made the wrong choice. God bless you all ❤️ love you your sister Linda ❤️
Aloha 🌺🏝🐬Brave soul , surely goodness n mercy will follow you all rest of your days. 🌻🐝 We are Truly forgiven, God FORGETS♥️🤍🕊💙
What do you mean by inner healing?
@@mmhoff3525its deceitful philosophy that has infiltrated the church with twisting scripture and many other things. Idk where is started but Bethel pushes this demonic doctrine quite a bit
Thanks for opening your hearts and sharing your story with us. We need to stop being so quick to judge others. We need to offer compassion and grace. God bless y’all.
I was pro choice (I would never have one but was ok with it) until I took my best friend to her abortion appointment in 2014. It was a dark place full of young women, all doped up on the meds they are given. Then sat in the waiting room for hours until it's their turn.... All while watching craft shows on a channel called "Create." Sickening.. God wanted me there to show me the full truth of what I was supporting. I've been loud and proud pro life ever since.
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Same thing happened to me. I drank the liberal kool-aid. "Okay for some, just not for me." Went to a clinic and saw the true horrors. After that pro-life all the way!
Wait until you see how many meds they dope you up on to give birth.
In 1997, I was 17 and 5 weeks pregnant, I was terrified and my boyfriend and my mother really did push abortion on me. But honestly it’s what I thought I wanted at the time, so with them telling me to abort and being terrified I justified it.
My best friend went with me, she was the only voice of reason, she tried so hard to get me to change my mind. Unfortunately I didn’t change my mind and I’ve had to live with that horrendous decision for 27 years.
The planned parenthood I went to was the same as you describe.
It was dark, cold, depressing even though the staff was trying to be helpful and assure us that we were making the right choice. All the girls were somber, very quiet and I could feel the oppression of the enemy, Satan himself. I remember everything from that day, one of the worst days of my entire life.
I had nightmares after and I could hear the crying of my baby in my dreams, I could hear them begging me not to take their life.
If it wasn’t for the Mercy of Jesus Christ I would be dead as well, because making such a horrible choice as to murder your baby can lead to suicide, just to stop the dreams and the pain of what I did.
I cling to Jesus and He is everything to me!! He has blessed me with a loving husband and two beautiful children that I didn’t deserve nor believed I should or could have!
His forgiveness, love, mercy, Grace are just some of the undeserved beautiful gifts I have received!
I’m thankful for you telling the truth about the inside of these clinics.❤
@@jeng8000 thank you for sharing this beautiful life story. The more you share, the more of a lifesaver you become! We are redeemed by the blood of Jesus Christ. Forgiveness is given freely, accept and have the courage to change someone else's life.
So grateful for the vulnerability and willingness to share those dark moments, it served it's purpose - thank you ❤
Lisa, thank you for sharing your story! Your testimony is a powerful source and reminds other unmarried and pregnant women that no matter what, God will provide. Fear can feel overwhelming, and many women feel pressure to make a quick decision. They don’t know where to turn, and they think their lives and dreams are over. Embrace Grace provides support and community through local churches for single and pregnant young women and their families. We continuously pray that every girl with an unplanned pregnancy has a church to go to for spiritual, emotional, and physical support. 🌸💖
Thank you for having the courage to share you story. I hope this reaches so many hearts. I know it touched mine.
Thank you all for your honesty!! We need more honesty and vulnerability like this. It shows the true grace and love of Jesus!
I love Alan and Lisa’s story. They were late coming into the limelight but they have been raw, real and the most relatable to me. 🩵
Dr. Ben Carson’s interview with Tucker Carlson is amazing!! Please listen if you have a chance. Dr. Carson stated while he operated on babies in the womb at 27 weeks gestation, anesthesia had to be given to the baby in the womb to prevent the baby from feeling surgical pain. An abortion to an unborn baby… I can’t begin to imagine the amount of pain the baby will suffer 😢💔
I loved that interview!
Oh WOW... You're so right 😢 😭
Love Dr. Ben Carson...
abortion is done 12 weeks max, the fetus isn't developed enough.
@@zairabandy8695 , unfortunately that is not true. Please research.
So great to see AL and Lisa on Sadie's podcast
This is one of my favorite podcasts you've ever done because it's so real, full of humor and honesty 💛☺️
I have felt that i can't talk about the decision I made, I feel as though you get people on both sides that make you feel the shame you've dealt with since that horrible decision.
I really appreciate this, and women should be able to talk about the hard. We are children of the most high, and his grace is what saved me!
My mom had two abortions and it messed her up. She had such a difficult time forgiving herself and accept God’s forgiveness
The beauty of God's grace. He already knows what we've done, he's just waiting for us to come to him...with EVERYTHING. We can come with shame and leave with forgiveness and peace!
Alan and Lisa shared your testimony of love, hardships, and faith. Thank you. The Robinson families' testimonies have helped so many, God bless.
Dear Sadie, Thank you for sharing your abortion story. It will help so many grieving hearts. In 1979, l was laying on my stomach watching TV when all of a sudden I felt tiny feet kicking really fast. I sat up and put my fingers on the spot. Looking down my fingers were on my right side groin area. I thought "Oh no! If l go to the doctor they will tell me, "You can't carry a baby there." So l waited until l was seven months pregnant to see a doctor. Two years before this in 1977, l was forced to have an abortion by my baby's father. I passed out as soon as we came into the house/turned into clinic. They said l was unconscious for three minutes. When l came to, l was cold, wet and clammy. I was shaking so bad. They had my go into the hallway and lay on a cot. After about twenty minutes, they took me to a room. I couldn't say anything, l was in so much distress. They did the first procedure. As they left, they said the pain will go away in a few minutes. In a few minutes l was in so much pain, it felt like a spaghetti spoon was wrapped around my insides. I know now that my baby was turning and turning mortally wounded. After fifteen minutes, the doctor walked in and said, "We didn't get all the parts" he said l had to get back on the table. I didn't feel anything during the second procedure. But when he told the nurse, "She will be a candidate for a hysterectomy, l thought to myself, "l will die of Cancer before you get my uterus"
And few years ago they thought l had cancer, but they couldn't get a biopsy, l told them, "lf nothing can get in, nothing can get out" l don't have cancer, l have a very scared uterus.
I carried my last baby in a displaced position, on my pelvic floor the whole nine months, due to the damage of that double procedure abortion. I still have problems walking, but I would have carried him in my big toe before I would ever have another abortion. I begged God to help me carry my baby in that displaced position. He did! My son is 44 years old now. I named my aborted baby, "Anna Catherine" because I felt she was a girl. I know I will see her again in heaven. Sadie l will be praying for you and your family!!! My two older children, I had before my forced abortion are affected too, they not only lost their sibling, but l wasn't emotionally there for them at a crucial age, 5 and 7. It took ten years to face what happened in that clinic and put words to describe the pain. God and l know!
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Wanda, That was a powerful story and I am so sorry you had to go through in your life. God is so good
Praying for you all
What a devastatingly traumatic part of your life I am so sorry you and your children went through that. Thank you for telling your story. May it open the eyes of many to the horrors of abortion on women. 🙏💔
@@melissacoterel8149 Melissa, you will never know how much this comment means to me. God bless you mightily!
Does anyone in this chat think that unborn babies deserve the same equal justice protections as born persons, that a federal law should establish that unborn babies are human persons and therefore anyone who murders them should be held accountable just like anyone who murders anyone else? This would include the mothers. This would NOT be retroactive (go back in the past). If you are curious about this position and why it’s biblical, please look up “Abortion Free” on the Foundation to Abolish Abortion channel on RUclips and check out the new docuseries.
i agree
Yes!!
I do but if the mother is suffering and dying because the baby is not fully developing like a miscarriage then no. Now what I mean by this is if the babies brain dead then it’s ok. I have seen many people born without limbs and have been a great blessing in this world! But anyone that takes a life because of their own selfish desires then yes.
@@LJHLU Unfortunately the laws that Sadie and her movement promote will still force a woman who is carrying a baby that will never be born alive to carry that baby to term regardless of how traumatizing it is. Thanks to the pro life movement, Kentucky law requires that a nine year old who is abused by her stepfather will have to carry his baby to term or until she gets close to losing an organ.
Yes I fully agree as a Christian!!! 🙋♂️🫡
I enjoyed this podcast. Thank you for sharing your story Lisa and Alan. You don't know how much I know Jesus did die for our sins.
possibly my favorite podcast yet! Love the raw realness and honesty. she described everythming i went through at 15 to a t.
Thank you Sadie for sharing your Aunt’s story. Almost word for word my abortion experience and the way God has used me to participate in the saving of 5 babies. It is another healing time when God reminds me , He knows that I know He has forgiven me of this sin in my past , but also that I need to stay humble about the choices I made based on my lack of education and lack of support , and the misuse I’d my “free will”. God Bless you.
We placed Lisa on our prayer roll as well as Miss Kay during their medical trials. We asked for healing and comfort for them.
Thank you Lisa for being so honest and telling your story. So brave. I got chills when you said that the day you went to the clinic to have your abortion and you said you smelt death, that's exactly what Abby Johnson always says.
Absolutely enjoyed this broadcast! Alan & Lisa are raw & example of radical transformation of Christ 😭💛
What a wonderful, personal, straight conversation on life, being a teenager out of control, realizing what choices are doing and yet courageously sharing. Love and prayers for you to take this time to save babies and their mothers from the grip of death. ❤
This was one of my favorite episodes!!! Such a powerful story
What a Beautiful Testimony From your Aunt. Been there myself. But l was the Adulterer. After l came to Jesus l ve never been better except lm all Alone. But really lve never been alone Amen 🙏
I am so blessed to have my 2 sons. Thank you Jesus ❤️
Hugs Lisa! Thank you for sharing your past and speaking up for life 💛😭
Love the podcast. Love how Luda and Al are so open with their story and experiences - so as to help others
Thanks for sharing this podcast. I really appreciate your family and the way they share Bible truths in their testimonies.
I live everyday thinking about the child I aborted. I was a single mom with one child who’s father divorced me when I was 8 mo pregnant . The guy I got pregnant by & was seeing stopped by & said he was moving out of state. I never even told him. I know God has forgiven me but the pain is still there. I look forward to the day I meet my baby in heaven. It’s something you never get over.
You had an abortion at 8 months pregnant? 😢
@@jeannedennis5863no her first child’s father divorced her when she was 8 months pregnant. (With the first one)
@@jeannedennis5863that's not what she said.
Your forgiven in JESUS name No condemnation in CHRIST JESUS
Your baby has forgiven You ❤️💖❤️💖 Thank GOD You are Alive and WELL and forgiven in JESUS name
I cant believe thats what they tell you at the clinic. Unbelievable. I feel so strong about pro life. Its insane the things of this world but thats why we need jesus every single day.
God bless y’all for this testimony; I know that many people will be touched and even encouraged because of God’s grace and forgiveness. All have sinned and fall short of His glory but we have an advocate with the Father through Jesus Christ.
Tbh I never watched Duck Dynasty until I watched the movie the blind and it was so beautiful story.
Not only was the movie good but the show was beautiful to see healthy family dynamics! ❤
I had an abortion but still to this day LOVE that child. I had the decision I had to make but it was the best decision at the time with the knowledge I had. This was so reassuring and encouraging ❤
This has probably been the best episode along with part 2. Wow. I have a very very similar story like Lisa! I’m so impacted by this! ❤❤❤
My Mom always said don't ask the question if you're not prepared for the answer. I took that to heart. If I don't want to hear a certain answer ...don't ask. Simple. I'm pretty straight forward but try to apply diplomacy since it's still honest .
Thank you for telling your story. I hope to speaks to people considering the lies they’ve been told ❤
This is such a powerful message. I believe that them sharing their story makes us realize that we’re human. We make mistakes, we aren’t born perfect, BUT GOD. We all have a story that leads us to the BUT GOD. BUT GOD, restores us, he takes our burden, he welcomes us home no matter what, that’s what’s so beautiful and special that makes us all realize how good God is. His goodness is beyond comprehension, there’s no reason to hide or stay away from Him. He loves you SO much.
Thank you so much for this. I had 2 abortions and have recently began giving my life to Christ and I have felt so much shame I never shared my secret with anyone.
You are forgiven ❤
Lisa, you look lovely! I’m so glad to watch this podcast with you three talking intimately. I loved your book, “Sister Roar”. Thank You 💕💕
Allen's testimony is just really really encouraging, idk i just feel the need to say this because im just hurting and grieving and others out there might be as well, its just amazingly encouraging because my brother is making some big mistakes similar to what All was doing. My brother is about to be married to this woman who has just about ruined my life, slandered me behind my back and has made me loose all my friends, my mentors, my oldest sister, and my brother who I have always been extremely close to. Every time ive prayed about it I feel like God has just revealed to me that eventually my brother will come back, through a lot of parables God has spoken to me, and dreams and just ways the Spirit has led my mother to pray over my brother that has actually come to exist. So I know he will come back its just so hard, he is going to get really really hurt, hes surrounded himself with a bunch of people that will not love him unconditionally and has gotten rid of everyone who will. This story is just so so so encouraging, really what I needed to hear because he obviously hasnt come back yet and i dont know when he will, but if God could reveal himself to Allen then he can reveal himself to my brother. Y'all are just amazing and this is just such an encouragement to hear. You have been reminding me to praise God through the battle because theres a reason hes letting it happen.
Loved them on the podcast!! Please release the rest of it soon!!
I have shared my story of getting pregnant while dating and have helped women with same stories release their shame from condemnation of church goers.
Dear Sadie, l'm sorry, l commented before I should have. I thought you had an abortion. I watched your video. What a beautiful testimony Lisa has. I can relate to her in many ways. God's grace and mercy shows through her story.
Thank you Lisa for sharing your testimony!!!
Good stuff. Real. Honest. As Charles Swindoll said often throughout his life: Life is 10% of what happens to you and 90% of how you respond to it. An attitude of gratitude changes everything when it is rooted in our Savior.
Such an Awesome testimony! I have been reading their book this summer, so when I saw this interview I was super excited!
Which books? Please and thank you.
I will never forget hearing my aunt cry about the baby she aborted 30 years later.
I saw my aunt cry 50 years later!
This was beautiful thank you Sadie!!!🎉
The fact that Lisa was able to physically have two glorious daughters! My friend who had AN ABORTION @ 16. Regardless of here walk w/CHRIST was never able to have children! 😢❤🙏
Looking forward to PART 2!
THANK Y’ALL FOR SHARING!
I loved listening to this Pod Cast so much....
Thank you Lisa.
Talking about opinions when people ask your opinion about their hair, or life in general or how you’re feeling. At church when you come in and the greeters say, “Hi! Great to see you! How are you doing today?” I always come back with ”Do you want my honest answer, or do you want my faith statement?” or if it’s a Wednesday night, and you’ve had a day, and you get to church on Angels wings, lol. And they asked me that question, sometimes I come back with “I’m tired and grouchy, and I’m going in for an attitude adjustment”. 😁
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Coming to the realization that we overcome by the blood of the Lamb and the word of our testimony, when people ask me how I am I tell them some of these: "blessed to be a blessing because Jesus Christ lives in my heart," "blessed, highly, favored, and the Lord is with me," "blessed going in and blessed coming out, blessed in the city, blessed in the field, "I am complete in Him who is the head of all principality and power."
Thanks for sharing your story this will help so many women and families!! God Bless you and your family 🙏🙏
Please do a part II. Thank you.
Thank you for sharing your testimony. God is so good 🥰🙏
Thank you for sharing-it really means a lot. Forgiven
Love it! I Love your beautiful family! So encouraging and inspiring.
Yes! Al’s first tip of advice! 👏🏼👏🏼 Spot On
Someone I know (very dear to me), had an abortion, regretted it, and for 40 years has felt remorse and pain from it. After her abortion, she got married, had more stability, got pregnant from her husband and miscarried. She forever said that she felt it was payback to take a life from her, after she took a life. Praying God will truly bless those in repentance and heal their heart.
When I was 19 my girlfriend at the time got pregnant. In my mind I thought we were happy about it. She had an abortion and I didn't know anything about it until it was too late. The day I found out I packed her, and her belongings up and dropped her off at her brother's house. Her mom wouldn't have her because she had also just found out about the abortion. (This was 20 years ago, and I hope they reconciled that relationship.) From my position I've always wanted children, and a family and I knew this from a young age. So that's not the option I would have ever agreed too. If I look at things from her position I can kind of understand why she made that choice. I'll never agree with it but I can kind of understand it. I was not nice back then. Never violent with her, or any other woman. But I was angry, moody, and hard to get along with most of the time. I was drinking a lot, and messing with drugs. I spent a lot of time drinking in bars, and frequently looked for situations to fight with guys. So she had seen the police bring me home telling her to make me sleep it off. She'd seen me come home so full of adrenaline and rage after a bar fight. And she's also had to come pick me up at the hospital a few times because I took a beating. I understand her not wanting me to father her children. Thank god I am not that same man anymore. Unfortunately that may have been my only chance to have a child.
wow what a great podcast. I didnt know the boys had a podcast and currently listening to theirs. THANK YOU!!
Thank you for sharing this Sadie 🩷
Hey Sadie I love your podcasts, books, shows, and family! :)
Hi Sadie! I just found your podcast! Beautiful!❤ Thank you Lisa for honest testimony. Mine is quite similar, and no one ever wants to talk about it. I admire you all.❤
Lisa, did you ever ask your mom if she really felt that the baby was just tissue? I just wondered if you and your mom ever talked about this later
It cracks me up that the younger generation doesn’t know about “riding around town”.
That’s how I met my husband.
What a great video to share! KEEP IT GOING.love you family of CHRIST,IN JESUS NAME .🎉❤❤❤❤❤❤
Thanks for telling your story, Lisa. I have a story almost identical, 16 years old. Searching for love in all the wrong places was told it was a clump. Petition was told never to think about it again. It was a dark and lonely place and I went alone I was dropped off by an older friend. I didn't even tell my parents. I was a product of teenage parents. My parents were not togethorrible horrible.
Thank you for speaking up for the pro life movement! 🥰🍼
Sadie’s face was hilarious when Al says “baberaham Lincoln”
I understand. I was 17. I got married at 19. Same guy. Three beautiful children from 26 and 28(2).
My 31 year old daughter and 4 year old granddaughter were living with me when my daughter told me she was pregnant again. The person she was dating had been in prison and was not nice. I remember asking her when she was moving out or getting an abortion. I wasn't thinking of the baby or my daughter, but the fact that that man was so scary and had brought us so many sleepless nights I couldn't imagine living with that the rest of my life. Fortunately, she kept the precious baby and I know GOD has forgiven me. I love that 13 little girl so much and cannot imagine life without her. Praise GOD!
Also people should never ever judge someone if they decided to get an abortion. You never know what lead them there.
True. You never know what led them there, and what they’ve been thru since. I admire Al & Lisa for bravely sharing their story.
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True, because the woman bears the brunt of it. We never judge a man for disappearing after he gets a woman pregnant. He caused the circumstances to contribute to the abortion just as much as she did if he left her feeling hopeless and broken.
@@agees924 also some men force their wife or girlfriend to abort
You will never forget 😢
A community church put up a little tree in the graveyard then, even those who had aborted babies were invited to put the name of those unborn babies on little wooden plaques that each of us were able to hang on the tender branches. There was no condemnation, for those present, no matter how many years had passed.
Anyone who lost a preborn or a born baby are still welcomed to mourn there. I go there often.
Thank you Lord for forgiving me. I put my trust in Jesus.
I know you, Lord have forgiven me.
Thanks for making a way for me to write my story. It’s not often there are people who want to hear.
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PS I, too had a miscarriage after that abortion.
God is so good! ❤️🙏🥹
When I was growing up, I would visit my dad in AL. We would do the same thing-drive around Hardee's. The teens in the town would hang out in the parking lot and drive around it. That's so funny.
As an unwed pregnant teenager, I thank my parents for teaching us that life begins at conception. We chose life. Our birthson is adopted and he is thankful that we did not choose abortion. 👣
Testimony is so powerful! Thank you for being strong enough to be vulnerable in sharing a piece of your testimony!
Ps… love your chair! I’d love to find one, know the place by chance?
What a great video, thank you for your honesty.
I was surprised to hear your advertisement for tattoos and mad rabbit. No judgement, but I would love to hear a show on what the Bible says about tattoos. I have always heard that, in the Bible, only Gods enemies had tattoos. Would love to hear your thoughts
God’ Grace is sufficient.once repentance happens GOD FORGIVES
I am against abortion also ,unless there is a medical issue like a miscarriage or being forced . I dont want to judge anyone because with the most respect I have known people . Some women have regret it later . Some felt forced to get abortion. Has a Christian I am believing that some women and men turn their life around and give there life to jesus and are a born again believe. God forgiven them . All babies are a truly a blessing from God . Babies are a mircle ❤. God bless
According to former abortionist, Dr. Anthony Levatino, abortion is never the answer for medical issues. If there is a medical emergency, a cesarean section would be performed to save the life of the mother. In these instances, the baby may or may not survive but they have a chance. An abortion is a long drawn out procedure whereas a c-section is a quicker and safer procedure for a woman or baby in distress. Check out his videos and resources. I've learned a lot from him.
I'm 56 young women , an when they were talking about back in the day when they were kids what they did for at nights hang outs , at the mall an stuff an that's what we did back in the day in our town in North Carolina, back in the late 70s an early 80s an middle 80s , an then I moved away but , that brought backsome memories 😅
Soo many of our younglings could benefit from 👂🏽listening to these soldier's warrior's in Christ & this that don't have mentors ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
This episode is good one. ❤
"Shalom" hahahahha the hairdo 😂 oh my gosh that's great hahaha
I had mine at almost 19. I was about a month out from my 19th… deep in my heart I didn’t want to get it, I did it because I was with someone who was coping with his own issues via drugs and alcohol. He wasn’t kind to me either at that point and I found out a couple months later that he had cheated on me multiple times the entire 5 1/2 years anyway.. He told me my child would grow up without a father and I have my own trauma in regards to that….. there is not a year that goes by that I don’t think about that baby, the month it would have been born, how old it would have been if I hadn't done what I did……
I had trauma and could still FEEL that feeling of the procedure for about a year or two after.. and as an almost 29 year old woman, and ever since I was 16 I wanted to have a happy marriage and children…. I am still yearning for a happy marriage and children and I COULD have at least had a child in my life if I hadn’t made that decision… I think about it everyday….
I didn’t want to let that child down by not being able to provide a happy healthy stable family, success that wasn’t hard to come by, watching your mom struggle because she got pregnant so young. But I have found Jesus and I pray everyday for forgiveness…… I pray that maybe one day somehow, god will send that soul baby back to me, maybe I’ll have children one day and have a husband who cares and wants a wife and wants to be a dad…… I am scared everyday that my chance will never come and I ruined that ONE chance of being a mother at almost 19 because of a stupid decision I made….
Oh how funny your comment about the pie!!! My favorite is apple but my mother in law makes pineapple all the time thinking it is my favorite. I like of course, but not as much as apple pie.
My family is so much like the Robertsons, it’s not even funny or maybe it is I don’t know. it’s fun to listen to you all.
💙 Congrats on the news!! So happy with you!!