i dont know why i feel the need to write this. even if i know no one will read or care. im listening to this while studying for a final i have in a couple of days. im the youngest girl of four siblings. ive been surronded with drugs as long as i remember. and dealt with SA, physical violence, betrayal, robbery, mental abuse, you name it, from the people who are supposed to be the closest to me. i used to not care about anything, especially academics. but some things in life make you realize that you have nobody but yourself. not your parents, siblings, lovers, friends... its just you. and your knowledge and money. ive transferred my major and basically a year behind everyone i know. its 3:09 AM right now and i wont stop studying until im completely satisfied. i wanna build my life from the bottom that im in. and im sure ill be able to. i work as a freelancer designing video game assets and i refuse to let anyone spend money on me. i refuse to date or be in casual romantic relationships. it never really meant anything to me neither did the modernized idea of love. im supposed to work for the life i want not get it handed to me. i pay myself for everything and i will be what i wanna be one day. i wanna look back on where i was today and be proud that i kept pushing. that i didnt destroy myself like my siblings.
I use klr's videos to study too, no exaggerating but it's been 4 years for me studying on these ambiences, i use them basically for sleeping, spending depression and melancholy times, besides your text, congrats fr because you're being a real regular human, keep it on!
@@sustainpainoh i just discovered them yesterday tbh. didnt know its up for 4 years lol but i only seen this ambience and its so good like its very unique. i’m presuming studying right now on 7PM and listening to it. good luck on your studies and thank you so much
Hey, I just want to say your words matter. The strength and determination you’re showing are incredible. You’ve been through so much, yet you’re still pushing to build the life you deserve. Keep going you’ll look back on this one day with pride. You’re inspiring, and I’m rooting for you. You’ve got this.
@@trash7891thank you so much. im rooting for you too i wish you all the best in life you got this. its just gets exhausting sometime you know? but its okay. thank you again
Dreamers are desperate people, they live chasing something that doesn't exist and yet life without a dream seems to have no meaning or it doesn't have one regardless. There is no way to escape the pain and trying to do so only makes things worse. pain and pleasure live simultaneously, never stop suffering, never stop feeling pleasure, I don't think light really exists, I'm done waiting to see it. I learned to love the night.
The Real aesthetics of Melancholy
listening to this while studying
serenity 💗
i dont know why i feel the need to write this. even if i know no one will read or care. im listening to this while studying for a final i have in a couple of days. im the youngest girl of four siblings. ive been surronded with drugs as long as i remember. and dealt with SA, physical violence, betrayal, robbery, mental abuse, you name it, from the people who are supposed to be the closest to me. i used to not care about anything, especially academics. but some things in life make you realize that you have nobody but yourself. not your parents, siblings, lovers, friends... its just you. and your knowledge and money. ive transferred my major and basically a year behind everyone i know. its 3:09 AM right now and i wont stop studying until im completely satisfied. i wanna build my life from the bottom that im in. and im sure ill be able to. i work as a freelancer designing video game assets and i refuse to let anyone spend money on me. i refuse to date or be in casual romantic relationships. it never really meant anything to me neither did the modernized idea of love. im supposed to work for the life i want not get it handed to me. i pay myself for everything and i will be what i wanna be one day. i wanna look back on where i was today and be proud that i kept pushing. that i didnt destroy myself like my siblings.
I use klr's videos to study too, no exaggerating but it's been 4 years for me studying on these ambiences, i use them basically for sleeping, spending depression and melancholy times, besides your text, congrats fr because you're being a real regular human, keep it on!
@@sustainpainoh i just discovered them yesterday tbh. didnt know its up for 4 years lol but i only seen this ambience and its so good like its very unique. i’m presuming studying right now on 7PM and listening to it. good luck on your studies and thank you so much
Hey, I just want to say your words matter. The strength and determination you’re showing are incredible. You’ve been through so much, yet you’re still pushing to build the life you deserve. Keep going you’ll look back on this one day with pride. You’re inspiring, and I’m rooting for you. You’ve got this.
@@trash7891thank you so much. im rooting for you too i wish you all the best in life you got this. its just gets exhausting sometime you know? but its okay. thank you again
@@donthelpmethxThank you! It’s okay to feel tired it shows how hard you’re working. Keep going, you’re doing amazing.
listening to this while work at 4 am
Dreamers are desperate people, they live chasing something that doesn't exist and yet life without a dream seems to have no meaning or it doesn't have one regardless. There is no way to escape the pain and trying to do so only makes things worse. pain and pleasure live simultaneously, never stop suffering, never stop feeling pleasure, I don't think light really exists, I'm done waiting to see it. I learned to love the night.
The best way to calm my anxious mind
Top Danke Dir 🤗
What do you use to make this? It's great.
perfection
Assim eu vejo o mundo!
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