unwell in Austin
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- Опубликовано: 12 мар 2024
- I went through like 76 emotions in this vlog but please join me for a 2 day Texas extravaganza to hang out with the unwell girlies and boy it was very fun very special and now I am going to journal about it
love u guys thank u for watching
Madeline, your authenticity is needed in this industry!!! Thank you for being you, please never change for ANYONE!
Agreed!!!
Watching the interactions made me remember that feeling of being around people I do not click with and feeling like I’m just there and they’re the ones performing for everyone if that makes sense
The clip w her and Alix with the pasta was so awkward 😭 They’re so total opposites 😂😂😂
so is alix’s best best friend and sister though, they’re both very calm and introverted so i’m sure madeline and alix get along well in other situations
I think you’re homesick and you’re just not around people who bring out the best in you, this is relatable and people definitely resonate :) I hope you give yourself more grace
Wait same!! I feel so fake when I´m out with people or meeting new people at parties. It´s so annoying. It´s like I can´t be authentically myself although I´m in a comfortable situation. Then I try to force myself to be real but that´s just not real like yk :) Then I get so disappointed in myself for not being the way I wanted to present myself. Idk what I´m talking about.
@@user-nh8bh8ez5i I do have add so that adds up
@nelliegra 💯
Now that I watched this entire vlog I’m uncomfortable. These are not your people. And it’s okay. Because it’s why so many of us like you. Your tribe is out here.
felt like this the whole time through middle school / high school
Literallt
@@akalanadelrey .. this is NOT about 'you'.
@@newoaknl ? it’s just a comment i added because i use to feel just like her
aw madeline🥺you’re definitely not alone in the way you’re feeling, meeting a bunch of new people in a new environment is so overwhelming especially if you feel like you have to be a certain type of way and want to show the best side of yourself. also seemed like you didn’t really have someone truly close to you there for emotional support when other people did. its a super intimidating environment to be in, especially if you’re struggling mentally. i couldn’t even imagine the journey you’ve done in just the last couple years, it’s intense and it would be weirder if it didn’t affect you. but i hope you know you don’t ever have to put on a show or be someone you’re not to impress anyone or be successful. you are here because you are you. and not being comfortable in all of these crazy and intense situations and sometimes feeling out of place is okay and you are not alone. i bet so many other people at that party felt the same way you did. you’re doing amazing and everything will work out the way its meant to. be kind to yourself and don’t put pressure on yourself to be someone you’re not because you think that’s what other people want or expect of you. it’s normal to feel a little lost and lonely sometimes no matter who you are, you’ll figure it out. i hope you feel happier soon but it’s also okay not to be happy all the time❤️ wish you the best x
i can tell you’re very empathic and sensitive to energies and its hard to regulate or even fully process your emotions but you’ll learn along the way im like that too
i’ve never been able to put the particular emotion of ‘social sadness’, into words, but this is completely relatable
thank you so much for your transparency & for letting us have a backstage pass into your world, we all love you so much Madeline!! ❤
that would've made me panic, ur strong for holding on LMFAO
as an awkward autistic girlie, I think it also might be about maybe making peace with the idea that it is difficult to come across as the person you want to be. and that is okay !!
you’re not alone madeline. all of your experiences that you’ve described are so relatable to me 💗
I don’t envy you. I wouldn’t want to be at that event or really around those people at all. Not because they’re bad, we’re just in different places. I’d have to be inauthentic to fit in and that would be draining.
womp womp
this is so random
Such a weird way to put that…. She obviously is struggling with all this and isn’t looking for people to envy her.
@@lib3664 what a weird way to read that
@@cassandra.rose. no one cares abt ur opinion how r you not embarrassed
I hope you get better, you literally deserve an Oscar for how relatable and helpful your content is, love you xx
Alex, Alix and Remi? My love, these are so very clearly not your people nor your vibe. You are so much more authentic, dynamic and interesting. You’re swimming in a sea of beyotches trying to one up each other to appear the coolest or most outgoing.
You will feel the way you do when you’re not matching energy with the people you’re surrounding yourself with. ❤
💯 agree
why did you call them a slur? You don't even know these people.
@@yeahnah4303 oh the irony of this comment considering you don’t know me, yet here you are making the assumption that I’m a mean person vs speaking from a personal experience.
I absolutely relate. I tend to feel a ton of good energy being around others, it’ll make me feel somewhat better but then the loneliness I feel even when I’m surrounded by tons of people is exhausting & nauseating.
I feel unwell because it has nothing to do with anyone but myself, weird but wholesome feeling.
Love these videos!! ❤️
Thank you for being so vulnerable you’ve made me feel so seen. I don’t have social anxiety either but when I’m around so many people who have really big personalities i tend to retreat as naturally I’m not a very loud in your face person, so amongst those people I tend to worry I’m being seen as boring, or not fun when that isn’t the case at all. I can imagine how difficult it would feel on top of all that being around people who supposedly know you and watch your content, that must be very overwhelming. But from what I can see from these clips you come across so down to earth, approachable and sweet. I would feel much more comfortable around you than anyone else in that room ❤
this is so true
YOU LITERALLY JUST PUT HOW I’VE BEEN FEELING INTO WORDS. thank you so much. Please continue sharing you as you. Your authenticity means so so much and honestly keeps me going.
You’re doing amazing Madeline and ur not alone on what ur feeling ❤️ I love ur content and it makes me feel wholesome with ur talks
Madeline, you don’t have to be happy or have it all together for great content. You being vulnerable and real is what I appreciate the most about you and why I watch you. Love when you’re silly goofy but also love when you talk about the hard stuff and I feel like you’re saying things that I struggle to put words to!!!
so relatable are you kidding me i feel this so hard. thanks for being so vulnerable because sometimes i dont feel like other people experience the same things so its reassuring. i think ur the realist person in this video
Listening to Madeline is like talking to a counselor. 🤔😭👍 such a healing vibe
Hey i wonna know something that she really with central cee now or nah because i can't understand nothing same said yes and others said no
GIRLLLL i’m so sorry that you feel that way socially but selfishly i’m also grateful that i’m not alone. i know exactlyyyyyyyy how you feel to a tee and honestly it’s relieving because everytime i try to express myself to my friends and family they never understand/relate which makes me feel so isolated. sending you love ♥️♥️♥️♥️
I so feel you! Just feeling emotional and sad and lonely, seemingly out of nowhere even though I'm surrounded by great people, but just not feeling it, at all. Hope we all get better soon lol xx
6:11 - you absolutely are not alone. I personally feel this way often. I don't know how to explain it but I resonate with you 1000%. Proud of you and you're doing great🫶🏼
I get pretty lonely living alone but listen to you on my days off, at my busy hospital job, and when I get home some days and you help me feel so comfortable and like a best friend. I could listen to you talk forever haha. I love the way you analyze things and your awareness and interpretations are so comforting and freeing. Your rawness and imperfectly perfect such beautiful human personality is such a blessing. You are a true gem Madeline and I hope you embrace yourself💞Love you🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻
madie gang 4L !!!
the fact that this vlog came out SO fast is literally making me insane in a good way
i love u dear
my make my heart beat faster and then melt entirely ❤️
and know that we will NOT judge you for anything really literally anything
don’t think that you are alone
we experience all feeling with you
this whole video is just so cute and sweet omg
madeline i love u so much. i paused the video cause i'm choking up just to say we're on this journey with you don't worry. love you to bits
you are so not alone, i have never related/looked up to u more
Overwhelmed Madeline is so cute!
madeline, your not alone at all. your beautiful soul is going through something extremely normal. weather you see this or not, hang in there babes. good things come, you just have to start believing you deserve it. thewizardliz helps
I pray that you get your confidence back because you’re soooooooo cool I’m not even kidding I tell all my friends about you you’re seriously the IT girl 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻
So so happy to see this video appear on my u tube feed 💖 xx
It makes perfect sense
like a nostalgia queen
Looks like you’re learning a lot. You’re doing great. Take care of yourself! ❤
i’m only part of the way in but it’s so refreshing to see a girl my age in these types of settings who’s introverted and genuine-so coming off as bubbly just isn’t natural. ugh it resonates so hard and especially how being composed causes you to be the target of other peoples projections and insecurities.
girl i love you so much please dont stop what youre doing you r keeping me alive
Boy looks like a lot of fun lol
Oh I most certainly resonate lol. I get so frustrated when I feel like I can do a stand up job of socializing with people and making the people around me happy, but I still ultimately walk away feeling like I had a mask on the whole time. Or I'll feel dishonest or screwed up because I don't feel like I was able to present all of myself, or I knew I was only effectively catering to the person or personality in front of me.
It can be especially frustrating when like... you know you can be yourself, you're confident that you could just BE like everyone else can. But you can't figure out how to put the mask away and keep it away, it's just an automatic thing. Then that's when the spiraling thoughts of loneliness sets in, because everyone else are themselves, but you can't even manage to be for whatever reason. It's exhausting to enjoy socializing, only to then be more exhausted and defeated about it for no reason when you get home. So fun
I feel the same, and the only thing that worked for me is "recharging my social battery" I know it sounds a little crap, but having a little break genuinely helps me. Some people function with immediate confidence and charm and others need a little time, or a break before they do that. It's totally normal. And that break might be short or extra long, it really depends on how socially exhausted you've gotten. I also find that reconnecting with old friends helps a lot, or at least the people that make you most comfortable with yourself. People who bring out your best bits.
I've always felt that I left my personality at home and brought nothing to the table at hang-outs with new friends whom I genuinely liked, but I've come to find out that I'm just someone who needs a little more than a nudge to come out of my shell, which isn't bad at all, it just makes me a different type of person. People come in different shapes and sizes, which just adds to the beauty of making new friendships. I say give it time.
i know exactly how you feel madeline!!! trust me when i tell you there are soooo many other people around you feeling the exact same way. it can be frustrating and sad when you realize the people you just met don't actually know the true version of yourself, but if they actually respect you and are interested in getting to know you, they'll make an effort to see your authentic self. much love!!
I really resonated with a lot of the things you said in this video and just wanted to give my experience and maybe some advice. For me, I’ve always definitely been a weird kid but I loved myself and didn’t gaf what people thought about me. Then as I’ve grown up, for a moment, whilst I still loved my personality I started realising that people saw me as weird and started to have the mindset that I should have a different personality around other people (swear this all happened subconsciously as well it wasn’t a conscious choice) but this made people perceive me as uncomfortable and awkward (which imo is worse than being perceived as weird). I literally couldn’t help it tho. Only recently, I’ve made a best friend (we’ve known eachother for two years but I’m such a slow burner as a friend lol) and shes genuinely the first person apart from my family that I’ve let see my true personality, and she loves me because of it. She’s a very confident person and very transparent as well, as she’s said many times “you were so quiet/boring when I first met you” sounds harsh haah but I genuinely think I needed to hear that. Being around her over time has taught me that (in general) people are going to prefer you for being your true self cos even if you’re weird that’s so much nicer to be around than someone you can sense is uncomfortable or masking in some way. Just her alone had made me behave so much more authentically around new people and I’ve really learned that other people can love your weird side. I think once I felt like someone else loved me for me I stopped giving a fuck what other people thought about my personality and people can even read that in you and it makes them respect you. Hope this doesn’t come across brutal but I want you to know that what you’re feeling can actually go away it’s just about trying to find those people who you can let your true personality out to and once you truly have that, you will stop feeling the need to fit in with people who you don’t necessarily vibe with and you will naturally come across more content and authentic. The people saying how conversations with Alix Earle etc lack depth and whatnot I don’t think that’s actually the inherent issue, I think it’s a bit deeper than that.
This has been me for the past 2 years and I have put it down to depression and being disassociated. We need a “reconnecting to my self” series🥺
That's such a good idea. Would love to see her do that!
I am so sorry to admit that this is my comfort video. I feel so seen and understood wow
maybe you‘re sad / uncomfortable because you‘re in social situation that lack depth and are inherently superficial
Thisssss is it
Yup! Happened to me
Blunt. 😂
Business party you mean business party
Exactly
Party situation looked so stressful. You did a great job. As a fellow neurodivergent person, I'd be very stressed
Madeline, I never ever comment on videos but I thought I should comment on this one.
Thank you truly for being so vulnerable, you have reminded me a lot of myself and what reactions I am trying to avoid when going out by drinking. But I realize I should listen to myself and how I feel. I don’t think there is anything wrong with you, you probably have people you feel safe with and I think those are the ones we should think about in moments like this. As of feeling like you are not showing the real you- again, I relate a lot. Neurodivergency is a lot about masking which I’m struggling with a lot too, but this outer perspective makes me realize we shouldn’t hate ourselves into being better for contexts we might not even truly want to be part of, if it weren’t for the societal pressure.
much love
it does make sense, u just put into words that feeling for me😭
I literally love you so much. Keep being you babe
Omg I felt you’re words after that first party so so sooo much - like, I get the EXACT same feeling which you tried to describe!! and then weirdly after some social situations more than after others and don’t know for what reason exactly.. barely ever related to something so much 😫😢
In public settings with ppl I am hesitant to be around, I feel hollow. Hence why I prefer to avoid such situations and embrace who I prefer to be around given the occasion and be myself. Otherwise I feel like I am forced to be someone I am not.
Same!! Omg I can’t express how much I relate! I used to be so confident going out and talking to people but nowadays it gives me so much anxiety it makes you feel like there’s something wrong with you! But these comments are very reassuring lol love y’all 💖
gir f its gonna make you feel any better i feel lonely too and totally get how you're feeling loveee
Omg I feel like that all the time!
It’s hard to be an introspective girl amongst woo girls.
I just love this
dw queen i feel so similar to you, so chronically lonely - in this together
This was so real ❤ love you
It's normal because its a proccess. Proccess of getting to know yourself. Things you like, things you don't like and things you love&hate at the same time. I hope you can find your people who let you be your filter free self around them
Yeah I feel like this group of girl are not helping you to show your full potential self, you need to surround yourself with more grounded people that are looking for a meaningful life and then you will find your full self and explore without feeling like this
everything you said starting at minute 4 is something that I've been struggling with for soooo long! It made me leave my College for dance and performing arts because I just couldn't be proud of any creation I'd made, because to my feeling I always performed and made something that was not representing my qualities and my potential that I believe I have in myself as a performer and as a person. A teacher once took me aside for feedback and said that whenever he watched me dance or "be", he only saw a big question mark, not a person. And I've never been able to explain this to him.
It may be you’re sad in these situations because although you are surrounded by people and are enjoying what’s happening, you may not actually be connecting to anyone on a deeper level. Which also may mean you aren’t able to feel like you have the space to fully open up and show who you are. Like a little trapped within yourself maybe. Your true self glows when you are with the right kind of person and the right energy. You are putting pressure on yourself to be in the right spot when you’re still travelling on your journey. I say this to you but simultaneously to myself because I am feeling similarly. Take ur easy. The right people already see you, I do.
i too have been unwell in austin bestie....solidarity luv u
this was just so relatable and made me feel not alone because I feel this exact same way and just really felt it when i visited my best friend. I went to her place and we did fun stuff but for some reason i felt very self conscious and almost too self aware the entire time and when i left and got in my car i just started to cry because it all just made me feel sad and i dont know why
me too sis ur not alone
I promise, you’re going through a massive change and thus you don’t recognize yourself. Change is weird and uncomfortable. You’ll be great, we just have to live through the awkwardness and change!
Love you x
ahhh I wiiish I ran into you in Austin so I could tell u what a pure sweet soul sis u r 🥺😇💘💘
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I was choosing between this podcast or hot mess with Alix for my Thursday 5am routine, I clicked Madeline’s and why is Alix there too? LOL I loved the realness and awkwardness 🤣
I RELATE SM TO YOU
Maddie always delivering
Love your videos! 💕💓
I love you I love this
Wow
your so great
Never related with that feeling more x
Yayyyyy this is so calming wth
please do lots of more vlogs and longer ones
You aren’t the only one at all please believe that x
nothings wrong with you. you were overwhelmed. you are doing amazing xxx
how can I know exactly how you feel, it's scary how I could understand this perfectly...
love herrrrrrrrr 🩰🩰🩰🩰🩰💓💓💓💓💓💓🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶💎💎💎💎💎💎
I think it‘s just a big difference on what people are with you the time You’re socializing - you have a much different character than the others have- You wear your tongue on the heart and the others were just (sorry for that) total american public person with no character, they are just beautiful and say whats entertaining the crowd and not what embraces a real conversation with depth and intelligence. You Are good as you are, I would also feel uncomfortable at this evening tbh 😄♥️ lots of love from Germany
love you
About the 5 minute-ish rant: I think you're an introvert at heart who's overwhelmed by wholesome overly extroverted people. It makes you feel lonely yet guilty about feeling that way because the people are awesome. Cognitive dissoance :p I'd be the same as a guy too
no ways! were you guys intoxicated?😭😂😂😂
around 5:00 omg i feel like this all the time-i keep such walls up and also used to be so outgoing and yet find it so hard to represent who i really am
oh my god she's literally me
You should bring your boyfriend or a friend with you for support
ME TOO.
I feel the same. Whenever i'm interacting with people I forget how to be myself and it makes me so uncomfortable.
I thought there was a Ysl vlog too!😭
i love you sm
I know that feeling too well
Your thoughts are my thoughts. Socialising make me feel terrible. I would rather spend almost every single second alone. I’m so lonely in social settings but so content with myself.
god this is so relateable you have no idea
You’re not alone