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Hey guys. This one in particular is kind of harder to post maybe because it's a bit more detailed than my previous ones but I hope it will serve some type of purpose for some of you or bring a bit more transparency and awareness if nothing else.
Please note I am only speaking of my personal experience here.
You can find Mental Health Hotlines across the world information here:
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I feel like I forgot to mention in this one, I am a BIG believer (obviously, since my degree choice) in seeking help and assistance from trained professionals, you do not have to deal with anything like this on your own. I have sought help before and had it, this is why I am applying what I have learnt during that, during my degree, and during the years following - but if what I tried wasn't working I would have definitely gone to seek assistance, so please keep that in mind and talk to our GP when you're ready if you're going through something that interferes from you living your happiest life.
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Hey guys. This one in particular is kind of harder to post maybe because it's a bit more detailed than my previous ones but I hope it will serve some type of purpose for some of you or bring a bit more transparency and awareness if nothing else.
Please note I am only speaking of my personal experience here.
You can find Mental Health Hotlines across the world information here:
www.cocoonais.com/mental-health-hotlines-worldwide/
I feel like I forgot to mention in this one, I am a BIG believer (obviously, since my degree choice) in seeking help and assistance from trained professionals, you do not have to deal with anything like this on your own. I have sought help before and had it, this is why I am applying what I have learnt during that, during my degree, and during the years following - but if what I tried wasn't working I would have definitely gone to seek assistance, so please keep that in mind and talk to our GP when you're ready if you're going through something that interferes from you living your happiest life.
Love, G
Thank you for sharing your experience with mental health, and for being honest about your desire to keep part of it private. I have gone through a few very traumatic incidences in my life that I now have PTSD from, and I used to suffer with night panic attacks every night for years. Only recently have they subsided (I have about 2-3 a year). I just want to say that you're amazing, I love you, and keep fighting the good fight and spreading awareness.
Thank you for talking. My generation is a keep it to yourself. Please keep talking your voice is needed. There are so many negative & shaming voices out there we need an understanding voice coming out of the void.
I watch all your videos, they help me deal with my anxiety. And of course the books! I did the owls because I watched your video. Amazing job on that catalog! (I did all 12)
Again, thank you. You matter!
G! I'm in tears. Night panic attacks. I wasn't even aware that these were a "thing" but it exactly describes some things I've been going through and perfectly demonstrates what a relief it is to learn that someone has had the same experience (even though I would never wish it upon anyone!) You are able to put feelings and emotions into exactly the right words. You are a beautiful person and I adore you. 💗
thank you so much for sharing and speaking up about mental health i really appreciate these videos and think you’re amazing 💗💗💗
I have had depression with anxiety for a long time (who cares how long, one day with it is hard enough). I think that speaking about it is a new thing for those who live with it. I just never talked about it because I felt it was my personal issue and no one is experiencing it the same way I do. I am so glad you feel open enough to share it with us. I sat hear agreeing with all you were saying and tearing up in understanding, Thank you! I have learned some great coping exercises that I have changed from time to time because they stop working for me. My current help is the 5,4,3,2,1 (5 things I can see, 4 things I can hear, 3 things I can touch, 2 things I can smell, and 1 thing I can taste). It’s been good to get me to stop thinking of the anxiety/panic attack. I hope it works for me for awhile. I hope you never stop this channel, because if you’ve reached one person you’ve accomplished a great thing.
Hi G! Thank you for sharing your experiences and being so open about mental health issues. I just wanted to tell you that I have night panic attacks every once in awhile and I understand what your going through. So, be strong!🤗 And I do really like your channel, I like watching you (not in a creepy way) and listening to you. You do have a beautiful channel and you are a really beautiful woman. So thank you again and I hope that you have a OK day (if not wonderful). Bisoux from Canada!😘
Thank you for sharing, it always helps me to hear other stories and know that I’m not alone!
My anxiety centers around restaurants/eating in public and more specifically the fear that I will get sick in public. It has never happened, but that doesn’t stop my body from thinking it will. My throats closes and I get that fight or flight response as soon as I get into the building. But that being said I keep going and keep trying. Some trips are better than others and I don’t think it will be something that I will ever entirely get over.
I also lost my father to suicide 5 years ago and knowing that I have a lot of his traits and mental issues worries me a lot. I’ve taken steps in this area as well but I worry it won’t be enough and I will end up hurting those around me like he did.
I’ve been wanting to share my story in some way with people for a long time and seeing you being so brave and making videos about your struggles has put me on the path of starting to think about making a mental health story on my own channel.
Thank you for always being you
Do it! It can only help people, and will help you
lazy homebody thank you for the support🥰
It's honestly so important to share these subjects and such a brave thing to do as well! It's so heartbreakingly relieving to know that it's not just me that gets panic attacks through anxiety about stuff that people find so normal. It really helps you not feel alone or abnormal. Thank you so much for sharing! I also find it interesting and it could be a complete coincidence but a lot of my friends who have anxiety and panic attack are also bibliophiles. You're some woman G! Also this is my first year passing my OWLs so thank you for that! Whoot whoot! ❤
I am watching you for who you are. Book tube, unboxing, mental health? I am watching only your videos on these topics because I feel so inspired and close to you. I am grateful for having you to watch and feel like I have a friend far far away. So if you mess something up, or if you feel like you don t belong, think that there are people that like and watch you just for who you are and need you to brighten their day. Thank you, G! A lot. 💜
Thank you so much for uploading this, I know it really can't have been easy to talk about but it's so helpful to hear. I've only recently (in the last 18 months) started to struggle with anxiety and panic attacks and mine is all transport based. Buses, cars, planes.... it's exhausting to have to deal with every day especially when I know I had no issues at all before. I didn't even know I was having panic attacks because I wasn't passing out and thought that's what happened. All of your mental health updates have been so incredibly helpful to me and actually your advice on coping mechanisms (ie. trying to not rely on having a physical item with you), breathing and tensing/relaxing muscles from your toes upwards has made such a massive difference to me. I haven't had a full blown panic attack for a little while now because I can catch them before they get too far. I massively appreciate the effort to talk about mental health because it's made all the difference for me. On body image as well you're definitely not alone there. I also have a daily mental struggle about what I eat and how much and my weight and my clothing choices and I hate it with a passion. All I can do is not let it completely control me, but I totally relate to you saying it always takes a backseat to more pressing issues.
TL:DR - I think you're absolutely fantastic and I'm so grateful for finding this channel, for the effort you put into everything you do here and on Twitter for the readathons, and I feel like a pretty crappy area of my life is made just a little better by your courage to talk out about your mental health
You are doing a great job! You really really are :) Everytime someone like you makes a video like this, you are not just helping yourself by talking about it (which is so important), but you are also helping the next generation of kids going through it. My daughter is 14 and struggling with her GAD. Everyday she faces the world thinking no one believes her, no one 'gets her'. Sadly, most of the time she is proven right. Teachers roll their eyes at the mere mention of anxiety, and require constant paperwork and PROOF that she has a clinical diagnosis. Her friends use 'anxiety' and 'depression' as an excuse to get out of things like tests with zero regard for what having either of those actually means. They can't see that the girl who actually does have a diagnosis isn't using it as an excuse, she's doing everything in her power to hide it from people because she doesn't want anyone to think there is something wrong with her. They don't see how mentally, emotionally, and physically exhausted she is at the end of the day from a brain that has her on constant high alert with hyper-vigilance. They don't see how desperately she just wants to 'be normal' and fit in. Videos like this show her that she's not alone and that she will be ok. We use exposure therapy with her as well (I also have a psych degree!) and do whatever it takes to help her see that anxiety won't stop her from succeeding in life. The more that people like you speak up and share their honest experiences, the more you are paving the way for her to live a life where she won't feel the stigma of having a mental illness. I have mentioned her anxiety in a few of my videos, but she isn't ready to talk about it to anyone outside of her family and therapist. I hope that will change as she sees more people like you!!!
I can’t tell you how much I appreciate you talking about these topics. I struggle with anxiety and I feel like it gets brushed off by others and it makes me feel stupid for having it even though I know I can’t always control it. I’m sorry to hear you feel that way about your RUclips channel. I too have always felt that I don’t belong or that I am inadequate to do certain things. But for me you are my favorite RUclipsr. I love your content. It makes me laugh and cry. You inspired me to start reading again and start a bookstagram. Had it not been for you I would have never known about bookstagram and I have made some wonderful friends on there and for that I will be forever thankful for you.
Thank you for posting this video and thank you for your channel all together!
Your channel is what introduced me to the existence of BookTube. You are clever, articulate, knowledgeable, witty, and funny but most of all you come across as open, honest, and genuine. You don’t seem to put on affectations or do super gimmicky things to “get views.” When I watch your videos I feel genuinely connected to a worldwide community and it makes me grateful for the communication age in which we live.
I know it can be super hard to be as candid as you have been in this video. Thank you for you trust in us to share it!
My heart hurts for how you feeling. I'm not a hugging kind of person but I'm sending you virtual hugs!
Hey G, thank you for sharing your experiences with us, you are such an inspiration to so many people and we all appreciate you and what you do so much, you work so hard and do so much for the community you have established and that you are a mental health advocate means so much to me in particular. My own GAD manifested because of a plane trip when I was 12, I felt so stupid and ungrateful because everyone told me I should be excited to go on a holiday and no one understood why I was afraid of flying when it is safer than going to school. But it’s not about that, it’s not an emotional or mental response you’re so right, it’s completely physical, and logic or evidence does not help. Which makes it so much harder to defeat. I’ve come to learn that it occurs in places where I cannot escape, in situations where I feel trapped. It happened to me in buses and trains too but at least we can get off at the next stop if it gets too much, cannot exactly do that on a plane. This year, 7 years later I have booked a 23 hour flight to go to a country that I have wanted to go to since I was 5. It’s my first ever holiday and plane trip by myself. I’m starting to get incredibly anxious about it but trying desperately to be okay because it’s something I really want to be able to do. Hearing your story and experiences really helps me to feel like I’m not alone. Thank you for posting this and for being honest, I love your videos so much. Thank you for everything. I truly hope you are able to go home to visit your family when you feel ready and I hope you continue to go up on this roller coaster ride that is the life of someone with GAD 💜
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I start the day with a panic attack coming on it was getting bad when my phone pinged and it was your video being posted, as I was watching it my anxiety went away, I think it is your voice I find it to be very calming. Thank you so much for getting your voice out to the people that need it.☺️
I am sending so much love and support to you, and so much of what you say I was nodding along, because we're in a very similar boat. I've had clinical depression and generalized anxiety for a long time, but a few years ago, along with other health complications, I had my first panic attack, and yes...I truly did think I was dying. Not like "OMG this is scary I'm gonna die" but legitimately didn't know what was happening to me and thought this was my body actually dying--my entire body seized up from head to toe, I couldn't move a muscle, couldn't speak or barely breathe. It was the most terrifying thing I'd ever gone through. And then it started being an ongoing issue, especially in the car which has left me unable to drive anywhere outside of town. One time when I tried driving on the freeway, I ended up having to call for an ambulance from the side of the road. FUN. I was diagnosed about a year or so ago with panic disorder with agoraphobia (it was really interesting to learn what agoraphobia actually is, it's definitely not just "being afraid to go outside" but rather it's the fear of panicking and losing control in a public place where you have no escape from it and from other people witnessing it.) All the physical symptoms you describe are 100% familiar, and the thought processes, too. I'm so sorry that you are dealing with this, and I'm very very proud of you for being open about it. I completely agree that talking about mental health struggles is incredibly important, and fuck anyone who says you shouldn't. They don't matter. You have so many people here who are on your side, and folks like me who can truly sympathize and know how frightening all of this is. Thank you so much for this. If you ever need someone to talk to who isn't there in front of you and so maybe the conversation might be easier (it is for me, a lot of the time) I'm alisonrose711 on Instagram
You're brave for sharing this. I also get night time panic attacks but I usually can't get back to sleep afterwards.
I have also been suffering with some majorly messed up eating habits the last 5 years or so and have been in and out of therapy for it. I have read a lot, listened to and cried through a lot of podcasts, been in group therapy, one on one therapy, and recently attended a yoga retreat that was focused on relationship with body and food and it was so incredibly validating to hear other amazing and courageous women share their experiences and identifying with them and feeling the support of others as I shared and felt unbelievably vulnerable. So I also understand how helpful it can be to feel validated in your experience, especially if it feels very shameful and interior to you. I hope you can find some support soon 💚💙💜
I think it's so great that your open and talking about mental health. It's so needed. Sorry you've been going through that ❤ I can definitely relate. I dont get panic attacks nearly as often as I used to anymore, but when things are stressful just in general all of a sudden I can get one just going to the post office or something. It's like c'mon body why do you have to react to stress that way, that's the opposite of what I need right now!
So, I want to say how much I was moved by your admonishment to your viewers to ‘be kind’ in the first ever video of yours I watched (an earlier video) It was noteworthy and refreshing, simple and profound. I want to remind you that kindness is huge. Its impact changes people. I want to remind you to be kind to yourself in your thought life especially when you find yourself being you own harshest critic.
Your honesty is a generous gift to your subscribers. Your kindness is a remarkable gesture that sets the bar for others to emulate.
Be well, friend. ❤️
This video... the feeling I get from it... Thank you for talking about this, thank you for not hiding your mental health, thank you for giving me and many others the kind of support that you get from knowing you are not alone, you are not the only one and it doesn't have to take over your life. Just thank you.
I am so proud of you for uploading this!!! You are not inadequate. I value your videos & you as a person. I have anxiety, depression & PTSD & lately its been bad. I total get where you are coming from G. You aren't alone & we are always here for you. Please don't delete your channel. You are a gorgeous, kind person. I have an appointment in May to talk to my doctor about switching medicines to hopefully get my mental health under control again.
Well done talking so eloquently about your experience with anxiety. My hubby cannot go on buses at all now, it is just too hard for him, but he is ok on trains. There doesn't seem to be any logic to anxiety. You are so brave getting back on the buses - such a great Gryffindor :) You are right about the control thing - he hates not being in control. Thankfully we have a car now so it's minimised stress for him.
that's so wonderful you had a good talk with your mum and that it helped - it's the kind of empathy that someone who hasn't suffered can't truly give. I've never had anxiety really so I'm learning about it through my hubby. I'm gonna share this vid with him and hopefully it'll help.
Thanks so much for sharing this G. I have experienced very similar things in regards to going to restaurants and the cinema, it can really hold you back, especially socially. Your point about not being able to rationalise it is the most frustrating part! Speaking out about it mustn't be easy on a big platform like this, but the more people are open about mental health means less stigma. Serious kudos to you, and I hope you feel better soon
G - I think you are so strong. For meeting your anxiety head on, for not giving up, even though it’s hard to keep going sometimes, for sharing this with us and for us and just in general. I really admire who you are and what you do. Thank you for sharing ❤️
P.S. of course I hope you have won the battle against your recent anxiety period by now. May the anxiety shut up and leave you alone. Lots of love ❤️
I am so sorry this is happening to you, but I have to thank you for this video because I have been dealing with this exact same thing the last 2 years. My first one I had my boyfriend at the time call 911 cause I thought I was having a heart attack and dying. It was truly terrifying and effects me to this day. Anytime I start noticing something is off with my body, it sets in the panic and it's very hard to climb out of that mindset. It's debilitating and scary, especially when you're a logical person and know you have nothing to panic about and know nothing is wrong... but you can't convince your brain of that. Know that you're not alone, cause having a diagnoses and understanding of the symptoms was a huge win in the ongoing battle.
Thank you so much for sharing! It really helps a lot of people to hear that they are not alone... Two years ago I moved to Scotland with my boyfriend. This big change was extremely hard for me because I've never lived far away from my family (which I'm really close to) and my friends. I was working from home at this point so I was spending a lot of time alone at home. I was crying a lot, sometimes without knowing really why. I developed some kind of anxiety - I was out only to go to the shop, I didn't want to meet new people and make new friends, I was always thinking of excuses to not go out and if I went I was trying to not get the attention on me so I don't have to talk to people (I was really terrified that I had to speak with people in English all the time, although I've been learning it all my life). The second year I didn't find any passion in my work, so I quit. I wanted to find a new job, preferably in an office, but I was so terrified to go to interviews that I always made excuses. I was spending my time trying to learn new things that would help me in my future job but my mind was always distracted. The happiest part of my day was when my boyfriend was back from his work... He helped me a lot during these 2 years because I was getting worse and worse and he kept encouraging me and was very very patient.
Finally, this year, I made it! I finally found the courage in me to get out of my shell and now I have a new job that I love. The contact with the people in my office helped me immensely. I don't feel that terrified all the time.
Btw, when we moved here I searched youtube for creators in this area and your channel appeared. Since then, I've been following you. I want to say thank you, because your presence made me feel less lonely, your videos made me feel happy and inspired. Thank you!
After familial trauma and the passing of this family member I would have night terrors, panic attacks and more. Having had panic attacks since I was younger this was a complete shock as like yourself I had sorted out a system that helped me. Now I sometimes get a panic attack whilst sleeping and panic attacks/anxiety due to my health. The night time is so exhausting and you feel at your most vulnerable because like you said there’s fuck all you can do about it, which is awful. I appreciate you sharing, I think it helps so much to talk about mental health. 💙🦋
Thank you so much for sharing G. I love your channel , you are so genuine and interesting. I don’t find I relate to a lot of other Booktubers or you tubers in general. I love seeing your cats, and hearing your thoughts on books, whatever they might be, they are always honest. I also find you have a good sense of humour which can be seen in your vlogs. I know that even if we all tell you how much you mean to us that you might not be at a place of self love to hear it, but I couldn’t watch this video without leaving you a response as your video is very impactful and I truly respect your openness and vulnerability.
Thank you so much for uploading it. Sometimes it helps to just hear that other people are going through these things to. I totally get it; that heartbreak type feeling when you’re struggling to do seemingly normal things. Well done for getting on the bus - even tho your mind is freakkkkking out. Sending you all the good vibes 💛✨
Thank you so much for posting this. Last year I finally recognized my anxieties and have been working on ways to combat them, but it's an ever changing battle. I had a bad experience on a flight last summer, and had to make excuses to avoid flying home for Christmas because I wasn't ready to work through that anxiety yet. I'm hoping to explain my situation to my mom soon, but it's very hard to vocalize these fears because I know they are not rational. I also deal with daily anxieties that prevent me from driving and going to public places alone. I'm feeling hopeful about this year though, and want to eventually seek professional help :)
Also, I just discovered your channel this month, and I love your personality and videos so much! You said you were insecure about your channel and afraid that your content was not deep enough or that you're not well-spoken.... but honestly that's why I love your videos! 😄 I'm a casual reader who loves fantasy and doesn't want to take reading too seriously. I want to see people's reactions and hauls and ships more than eloquent book reviews. Watching your videos feels like chatting with a silly friend, and I love that 💗
This is a brilliant thing to do. Every hard experience in life is eased when people learn someone else has gone through what they have.
I have a mother that has panic attacks, I inherited it and am a stress log in general. But I have larger medical issues that have caused a lot worse mental and emotional issues. it's not easy. I would like to mention that because you have thyroid problems (myself and family members have different thyroid issues), and talked about hot flashes, tingling, and closing in spaces(yes anxiety can cause all this), just look out for hormone imbalances and lowering blood pressure. I myself get all these symptoms when pain spikes and blood pressure drops. Completely understand if you don't think it's an issue and it's all anxiety, but if you haven't been tested for each of these things, please consider it. So many physical problems with the body manifest as each other and mental responses. 💛
Edit: just wanted to add the further anxiety you mention you and your family go through sounds a lot like agoraphobia. My mother suffered it during her early thirties for a few years. And there are other big diseases that get looked down on. One of my main diseases, endometriosis. Our insides are physically gluing together but you can't see it without surgery so people think you're lying, lazy, taking or a drug addict because you need pain medication. Its ridiculous and only picked up knowledge in the last few years. Its not fun and why I can relate to your problems. Hope I haven't said anything triggering or upsetting either.
Hey G,
I am so so soooo impressed by this video. It surly requires a real lot of courage to post a video like this and speak open about such intimate things! And even though I do not suffer from mental health problems myself I am very grateful for your support for those people.
I am sure you did not mention your doubts about your chanel and content to get compliments but I still want to state that you are absolutely great! When I first watched one of your videos I was so excited that I found you! I really enjoy watching you and I think you are clearly spending loads of thought on your content but you are still very kind and warm-hearted at it. I am often wondering why the best people always doubt themselfs the most...?! :) please really never delete your chanel (no matter how deep the dip)!
Lots of love! 😊
Thank you for sharing G! We love you! I also have generalized anxiety disorder and my random thing that makes me anxious is things blowing in the wind. I thought I was crazy for years. You are not alone.
I suffer from social and situational anxiety and a lot of your points and thoughts I could 100% relate to. However my case is not nearly as severe and I have only had a full blown panic attack once or twice in my life. I dont mean this to sound like I'm glad you have this horrible experience in your daily life at all because I am so sorry to hear that you go through this all the time but hearing your experience helped me to realize that I could have it a lot worse and I should be grateful that my anxiety is more minor and less debilitating than other people have it. I hope you get better and get through this.
As someone who also has anxiety and has had panic attacks in the past, I want to thank you for sharing this. It cannot have been easy! You have reminded me that I'm not alone and I just want to remind you of the same xxx
Your channel and videos are one of the highlights of my week. They just bring me joy and I hope you find that same kind of joy again soon in relation to your youtube channel xxx
G, thank you so much for every word. It is so brave of you to share your story despite the stigma that surrounds topic.
Thank you for sharing. It’s important to do so. So many people keep their stories to themselves because mental health is almost something to be ashamed of now. Continue destroying the stigma! And I’m glad you’re ok. Attacks on a bus? Yikes.
Hi G. Thank you for doing this and your other mental health videos. I have been struggling with my anxiety more in the past year than ever before, and even though I know other people deal with anxiety, it helps when someone talks about it. You are amazing and I wish you good luck with your channel and your life.
I think more people are challenged with some kind of mental health issues than they are willing to admit. And I think that it’s important to realize that you’re definitely not alone. Anxiety really manifests in so many different ways for everyone too which makes it more difficult to talk about. Any person who is willing and uses their voice to talk about mental health is a superhero! Our generation (millennials if you will) have been shit on with so many stigmas, many of which are not very nice and positive, but I think our generation is by far the most open and supportive and empathetic. We are connected and able to share and need to speak about the hard issues of life. Where as I feel like past generations were more about keeping your head down, mind your own business and don’t talk about the “personal” problems in your life and family. Ugh. We are a social beings and take a lot of meaning from shared experiences.
I don’t know many people who’ve never experienced some kind of mental health hiccup or breakdown or issues, myself included. A few months ago I returned home from taking my cat to the vet and had a full blown panic attack! At the time I didn’t know what was triggering it and after doing some self reflection on my inner stresses I figured it out. And like Voldemort, once I named it, it lost some power...and when we had to return to the vet for a follow up the next month (I made sure to go by myself again...exposure therapy!) I was mostly ok, a little arm tingling and restlessness but I was able to breath through it and make it to work that time). Win!
We love you G, and the community of booktube and bookstagram and magical muggles are with you and we are grateful for you and your honesty.
There is a lot of love out there for you, coming from all around the world...including Sudbury Ontario Canada! ❤️
Thank you for sharing :) I have been in a bad mental place recently, struggling with anxiety a lot and feeling panicky. Honestly this OWLs readathon has helped a lot, I have opened a twitter account and met new people, gone out to the library and bookstore for books, started a bullet journal and it's given me a little goal for the month. It's helped keep me a lot happier than normal.
I know you weren't talking about your relationship with food, but I just want to quickly add you would definitely not be alone there, no matter which end you're struggling on. I have a terrible relationship with food. It is exhausting because like you said, it takes up your whole mind every day. It's brutal. We need to eat, so we have to focus on it. And then obsess. And then it's in the back of your mind all day every day. So tiring.
I hope you are feeling better soon, G! Well wishes your way.. you are not alone! Xoxo
Thank you so much for this video! I've been watching (and loving!) your videos for a while now, but I just had to respond to this one, because it is so incredibly relatable. I'm struggling with anxiety as well and this feels like talking about it with a friend who really understands. This video has been so helpful for me, you are so brave for sharing this and I really admire your strength :) Also, your videos have been there for me during really anxious moments, because they really distract me in the best way and your content is just so lovely!
I have terrible anxiety and I appreciated this video ❤ my social anxiety is the worst anything in crowded areas triggers me. I'm glad there are no negative comments on this video
You are so strong! As a fellow sufferer, just know you are not alone. I feel comforted by your openness and honesty. Thank you for using your channel to address metal illness.
Thank you for posting this, G. I've been diagnosed with hypothyroidism after having a string of panic attacks, and I'm on medication now, but still struggling with symptoms. Some days are horrible and I barely manage to get out of bed. I really appreciate the fact that you are open about your issues and it helps me to know that other people are going through this and I'm not alone. Hugs!
As a fellow suffer I am extremely proud of you for making this video. I am sorry you are having a bit of a rough time at the moment but hope you can continue to regain yourself and stay on that upwards path. Having anxiety panic attacks is extremely difficult and horrible as it can come at you from nowhere. It takes so much out of you mentally, physically and emotionally. I really admire your courage and strength and wish you all the very very best. Sending love, hugs and support to every single day x
I'm so glad that you feel strong enough to talk about this subject. I hope that you feel better each day. The thing that stuck out to me was when you described getting off of the bus, sliding down the wall wheezing, and thanking God that no one stopped. I am not someone who wouldn't stop if I saw someone in that condition. How could I help without making it worse? Do most people realize they are having a panic attack? Would they be able to indicate that they need, or deny medical attention if I asked?
I relate to this a lot. I tell myself all the time "I've felt this before. I've went through this and it went away" I've been advised many times by my therapist to do exposure therapy. But yeah, it's not fun. It's really hard to make yourself do.
Thank you for speaking so candidly G, it means a lot to me. I also suffer from panic attacks and general anxiety, lately it's been manifesting in ways that are unforeseen and random so hearing your story is something I really needed to hear. You speaking of things like this really does bring more attention to it and helping to get rid of the stigma surrounding it.
Also, if you needed to hear it today. Your RUclips channel is amazing and you matter, you are wonderful 💕
Oh my god. Your thoughts around RUclips and you not being good enough for it totally broke my heart. Like not true at all ~ I feel like that too a lot but hearing you say it is like man no. I think you’re the coolest! And I adore your videos so much 💛 I tend to give into that negative voice and stop doing the things I enjoy. But I hope you keep going. Being ok is ok, being ok is enough ✨💛
G...I know everyone is going to say this (hopefully) but WOW...It really does mean so much that you share your experience and struggles with us cause it really does help us feel like we’re not alone and that we all have our struggles and doubts! I don’t struggle with anxiety but more so depression which definitely had affecting me more since I have started my channel! I also have some of the same doubts when it comes to my channel and body image...where I don’t even want to film anything just because I know I’ve gained more weight and I don’t think anyone will want to watch me anyway! So it means so much to me that you shared your doubts and worries...but I do want to let you know that I absolutely love your channel and your videos (which I think are very informative and smart)! I love how relatable and fun you are and I look forward to your videos every Wednesday and Sunday! 💕 Sending love your way always! Tabby
I suffer from depression and panic attacks. I was on a medication for 7 years and one day it stopped working. I has 2 awful panic attacks 2 days in a row and I fell into a deep state of depression. I stupidly waited a month before I went to the Dr. We finally found a medication that works again. It's such a hard thing to deal with. And many people do not understand it. 💞 Sending hugs!
I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety after I had my youngest son who is now 10 but it took me nearly 6 months to admit something was wrong and seek help from my Dr. My friend thought it was postnatal depression as it was 6 months after I had my last child but once I spoke to my Dr he realised that I had actually been suffering with depression and anxiety for a very long time. I completely applaud you for your honesty and speaking about your own experiences and you’re right we need to talk about mental health and end the stigma. I was the same the first time I had a panic attack whilst picking my youngest up from school and trying to get through a busy play ground and explain to my sons teacher what was going on was the scariest time in my life. I’m sending you lots of love from one mental health patient to another ❤️❤️
Thank you so much for sharing! I have really been struggling with my anxiety a lot lately as well. I know none of this is about me by any means, but I would be so upset if you deleted your channel. I truly love your content and get so excited when you post! I hope you get to feeling better soon, it looks like you are on the upward climb 🙂
Thank you for sharing. I totally understand and appreciate this video. You are not alone with these experiences. You have made me feel less alone.
G I love your channel! I seem to have a lot of the same taste as you in books and shows. I love hearing your thoughts on books. I've read a lot of books based on your recommendations which has helped get me out of a reading slump. I also think you're so sweet, real, & relatable and I love that. Sending you love and prayers for each day as you deal with your mental health. Take care of you and do what is best for you.
You are very Brave!! Thank you for sharing your experience, it is very helpful to know that I’m not alone in dealing with anxiety. 💓
Thank you for sharing this. It makes me feel less alone in my struggle.
Thank you for sharing your experiences! I have been trying to be more aware of my own mental health and videos like this are really helpful to watch :) Also, you are a wonderful booktuber!! I’m a new subscriber and your OWL readathon had me shook bc it was so awesome! I hope your self doubts don’t get you too down because you really do make great content!
I am slowly slipping into a mental health dip at the moment which feels so frustrating and alienating because no one understands and I just can't seem to stop it from happening. I finished my GAD therapy half a year ago and this is the first time I seem to be slipping and ohmy am I not having fun... I have been feeling a panic attack coming up for days now but hearing you talk about the amount of adrenaline feels like such a relief in a weird way? I will try to keep that in mind when I have one.
As much as I wish you all the best things in the world (you are awesome!) it's also nice to hear that I'm not alone. I know that I'm not but hearing someone talk about it is different than just "knowing". Most of my panic attacks happen when I'm in public transport and they suck so much. Definitely recognising myself in what you describe with not wanting to leave the house. I didn't go to my friend's house warming party and didn't even visit her for over a year because I had to go with the bus and train! In the end, I told my boyfriend and he offered to drive us there with the car so that we could leave whenever we needed. A good and understanding support makes so much difference in everyday life.
You are by far my favourite RUclipsr, not just Booktuber!
thank you for sharing your experience, it helped me and i'm sure many of us. i always felt like these panic attacks that evolve around such mundane activities like going on the bus are such a me thing, it really helps knowing i'm not the only one. also i had no idea that night panic attacks are a thing damn that's what's been happening with me lately..
From 33:30 and after is me on an everyday basis, so hard to hear someone else say it outloud and realise that you think the same thing but you feel like why are they feeling like that (I don't know how to express it but basicaly my brain was fighting with one part that was thinking it is ridiculous that you feel like that because you are wonderful and we love you G and the other part that was like, wait this is exactly what I do to myself so who am I to judge ....). Anyway I think it is wonderful that you are brave enough to talk about it because we need to make a normal conversation and not something we should not talk about (oh struggling with english today, sorry not my language). Anyway I love you ! And I love your video !!! So sending you a big hug from France :) :) :)
You are so brave for talking about your mental health! We need more people to talk about it publicly to not become a taboo. Thank you so much for this 💕
Thank you, I related a lot to that. By the way I don't judge people in terms of adequate/inadequate. You will always find someone who is better or worse at any specific thing. I'm inadequate in a lot of ways and in my good moments I couldn't care less. You're a great person and that's that.
Hi G, thank you for talking so openly about your recent experiences.
I have GAD, and hypothyroidism (I don't know if you have hypo or hyper).
I had been learning how to control my anxiety for a few years, it is always very triggered through exam periods but by events not necessarily related to my exams (i.e. Driving a car).
I started my PhD in October and from December to January I gradually lost 'motivation' , stopped going to uni, made up excuses. By the end of January I couldn't leave the house and eventually only left 3 times in 3 weeks! I nearly quit my PhD, I couldn't imagine facing doing it anymore.
I was diagnosed with depression and I had to start managing that along with my GAD. my thyroid was fine too, I was slightly annoyed by this because it was easier to blame my thyroid than trying to deal with the thought of having depression.
I looked at my partner getting up and leaving the house for work in a morning and couldn't fathom how he was doing it.
Thankfully I'm starting to come out the other end, I've left the house every dya for 2 weeks now! I couldn't imagine doing that a few months ago.
Focusing my brain on reading a lot has really helped, keeping my brain occupied. Stay strong, thank you for being so honest and thank you for your owlsreadathon, it has been a great distraction for me and helped to focus my mind ❤️
I thought I was the only one who has to stand up and walk around when I start panicking! Thank you for talking about this topic it really helps. 💙
I love you, you absolute Queen
Thanks for sharing your story and experience, you're definitely not alone. I went through a similar situation, I had a panic attack on a plane and had to get off even though I'm not afraid to fly and I've been on planes before. And I do get moments where I'm hoping my Anxiety is calm enough to not bring on any Panic and I hate feeling defeated if I'd have to tell anyone. I totally get how Anxiety gets out of whack, making you question so many things about yourself but you're very much a fighter.
Thank You for sharing this, you are so brave, I have anxiety especially social anxiety and I am glad I am not the only one.
Thank you for sharing, awareness is so so important! And, I can relate so very much. I think what is most frustrating is that I know the fear I feel is not rational. It's a journey and it shapes us. It has made me more compassionate towards others. ❤️
Thank you sharing and for being transparent about it. I relate to this a lot. I had really bad travel anxiety for no reason I could think of. I just faced it by keep on travelling (it was especially bad on trains tho). I think I'm okay with travelling now tho. But my anxiety has sort of manifested itself with uni now and has made it difficult to actually go to lessons and stuff. I'm just trying to work through it. Also I would just like to say that I love your channel and the content you put out 🙂
Hi G - I cannot offer any advice on the mental health front, all I can say is I hope it starts to get better, and I think you sharing your story does totally help others. What I do want to say is that in addition to it not being worth your time to compare yourself to others, I hope you know that I, and probably lots of your other subscribers, probably aren't *just* subscribed because we're super into booktube stuff. So any feelings of inadequacy that you have about that, you should just through them out the window! I can't remember how I stumbled across your channel, but it had nothing to do with reading, but I watched a video and just thought, "Hmm this girl seems super cool. She reminds me of my friends. I feel like we could hang". And even though we've never met or ever had any interaction, you've kept me company for countless hours now. I recently moved 3000+ miles away from my family and friends, live alone, and have limited social interactions outside of work, so I really rely on youtube for entertainment and oddly enough socialization. It just makes me feel like I'm hanging out with a friend in my apartment. And I'm sure I'm not the only one. So please do not kid yourself in thinking that you don't measure up to other booktubers. You totally do, and then some!
Thank you so much for making this video! It helps so much to be able to relate to having anxiety and all the struggles that go on with it. 💛
I adore you, and thank you so much for sharing it ❤️ just today I had an anxiety attack and I felt so lonely and this helped me remember I'm not alone. It does means a lot to me to hear other people talk about their experiences with mental health, because usually I feel ashamed but people talking about it often reminding me that you should talk about it. My comment is a bit of a mess cause I'm crying but I just wanted to let you know how much I appreciate you ❤️💛💙💚
Thank you so much for your comment. I truly hope you find what works for you and remember with every bad day we only grow stronger and learn to appreciate the good ones better! ♥️♥️💪
Thank you G ❤. I've had panic attacks for some time. Around 10? I'll be 28 in May. I would and still have them anytime anywhere. The worst was school, people would call me a drama queen and because panic attacks take so much out of you, i would have to go home so then i would be called lazy......i love these videos because they let me and so many others feel like we aren't alone. 💜
you're a beautiful person. thank you for sharing this. sending you lots of love and biiiiiig hugs 💗
Thank you for sharing! I needed this!
You’re so brave to share your mental health journey here. I have sent you a package that’s an OWLs survival kit, but also works for self-care, so I hope it’s arrived and you’ve enjoyed the contents! If you want to show the contents on a video, that would be cool with me. Keep taking care of yourself.
Stay kind, stay awesome and looking forward to your next video.
Just wanted to say thank you. Thank you for sharing. Thank you for being so so honest all of the time. And thank you for creating such lovely content that introduced me to the booktube/bookstagram community
Thank you so much for opening and sharing your experiences! I suffer from anxiety too and - seriously - I relate to your story 100%. You helped me feeling less alone ❤
I battle with anxiety and it’s difficult. Some weeks are worse than others. I try as well to just be okay. Thanks for sharing this video. It does help others. I know it helped me. Today especially.
Thank you so much for sharing G, it is so helpful and you are so brave ❤︎
all i wanted to do is virtually hug you and tell how much loved you are!!! thanks so much for sharing!!! 😘
sending you love! anxiety is so debilitating sometimes. thank you for making these videos ♡
Your channel is really lovely, you are such a valid booktuber! I can't thank you enough for all the beautiful work you out into the O.W.L.S., your readathon makes me feel less alone.
Congrats for being so brave and facing your anxiety, it takes some guts to apply exposure therapy!
You are so so so brave and strong!!
I have problems with mental health since I know for myself, but have been worsted in the last five to six years. I suppose because I started to live alone, my parents moved to another state, I have no other family here or a lot of friends. I spent three years in heavy depression, I cried every day, but I still did all the work. Today, Its not that hard anymore, but about one year ago started panic attacks. They are a little different than what you have described, are not stimulated from the outside, at least not at that point, most often occur in moments of relaxation, when I go to sleep or while standing in the store and doimg my own business. I start to sweat, hard breathe, my heart starts to swing fast. It often takes a few hours and then it just stops. In the last few days I find it hard to fall asleep because panic attacks start when I lie down in bed. For this, literally, two people know in my life, everyone thinks I am very sucessful and everything is okay. They dont know how hard is sometimes to do anything even the smallest thing. Almost every day I strugle with the lack of will and energy. Sometimes i feel shame of myself although on the outside I am very sucessful in my work. My parents do not know. I'm afraid they will condemn me and say that I'm guilty of it. Still, I decided this week to go to the doctor. It looks stupid, but for me it's a big step. I live in a small town and it is hard to pass without condemnation. I just want to say, you are not alone! We can do it! ❤️
Good for you! You have a lot of strength
@@lazyhomebody1356 Thsnk you! 💙💙
I have the same condition, it’s so nice hearing somebody else talk about it
♥️♥️♥️ we got this 💪
@@BookRoast yes we do!!
Bless your heart.....you mentioned thyroid meds, you might want to hangout TSH levels tested.....sometimes thyroid meds have to be readjusted...if meds are off it can definitely put hormones out of whack and can cause panic attacks...
It was the first thing I tested after the bus panic attack ♥️
Thank you for sharing your experience! You are very brave and it means a lot to hear this. 💖😊
G ❤ You gorgeous human being. Stay strong and hang in there! I am glad you talk about mental health issues, because so many still underestimate them and think they are lazy ppl's excuses... If you feel a sudden warm feeling, it's me sending a big a$$ hug through the internet 😘
I had a panic attack once in the car - it was random, not triggered by anything - and there are still days that I start getting anxiety in the car. Not so much being scared of something but more nervous that I will have another panic attack. They wipe me out too. It feels like I'm getting over the flu for the next 24 hours.
Thank you so much for sharing such a personal thing - you are brave and such an amazing person to share and be honest. We all have our own demons and for some reason think we are the only ones, but we aren't and you are helping others. The one thing that I can say helped me the most was a book by Ekhart Tolle called A New Earth. If you are ever looking for an interesting book that makes you look at things in a different way check it out. Thank you for being such an amazing young woman with so much courage.
Great channel keep it up
Thank you for sharing.
I'm so glad you had a positive experience with feeling you could relate.
And I agree about the diabetes comparison. I dont get all the shit I do about having diabetes as I do about having an anxiety disorder and bipolar disorder.
"Anxiety is a bitch."
Truly agree with that.
PS: Thank you for shining a light on mental health.
Thanks so much for sharing with us. It’s so important for us to share and support each other here💕
I aslo do not like to be touched/talked to when Im having one. I need to calm myself a bit before I can deal with it.
I had panic attacks starting in graduate school until a little after graduation. I legit thought I was having a heart attack the first time because I'd never felt anything like that before so I went to the ER and then the cardiac doctor after to have an ultrasound of my heart. It was so bad, I wouldn't wish that shit on anyone.
I think working out and trying to take more control of my life really helped me out.