@CABIPA (P cbc) - You can still view the Uncensored Version here, minus the lyric video. Uncensored Audio Only Version here.... ruclips.net/video/clIwm8Ly9AQ/видео.html
@@tobehidk4825 This version does not have the "how to kill yourself!" At the begining. If you search for the song itself you can notice it. Here is a link: ruclips.net/video/clIwm8Ly9AQ/видео.html
I am obsessed with themes of death and gore, dark humor creepy stuff i take all that very lightly But this is actully creeped me out! Well done man bravo!
While songs like Circus Hop and Normal resonated with me because of the themes of suicide this one hit particularly hard cause feelings of worthlessness and failure are what I went through in my particular case.
Its make 10 times much horrifying when it has a happy upbeat and light, because its make you think that the suicidal person consider suicide as something that is not chocking or hurtful for the people who are part in your life. As if it was a normal choice with no consequences for you friends and family.
As stupid as this might sound, this song is very comforting to me. I used to not be in the best headspace, but this song (and circus hop being based around the same thing) essentially made me realize I wasn’t alone. They made me realize my feelings weren’t invalid. Mind you it wasn’t purely Yon’s songs that helped, but they certainly did comfort me when I was stressed.
I find the strange mix of uplifting music with depressing lyrics an odd yet festinating tonal juxtaposition that I just cant help but love. A few examples include, The rhyme (Scratch21) On our own (Wasteland wailers) farewell my old friend (The Cog is Dead) Pretend to be happy (Jay Foreman) The gypsy bard (Friendship is witchcraft) and of course, most of YonKaGor's songs. And if others can gain some real benefits from these unusual songs. Well, all the more power to theme!
@@GearHeadedHamster I was introduced to this song randomly when it first came out, and it was when I was not in a good place mentally, so it felt surreal to have something I felt understand me, leading to me now liking most of Yon’s songs (usually) due to the meaning behind the lyrics, such as in you’re just like pop music where it makes me reminisce on an old friendship I had online that we don’t keep up with anymore simply since we moved on, and also since the song itself is just enjoyable . Circus hop is a bit more unique because unlike the other songs it’s not something I’d normally go out of my way to listen to without the meaning behind it due to the main theme of the song being circus related. (I say usually because I can’t relate to songs like you’ll be gone, another mistake, or I forgot that you exist, but since one song really took my by the feels and I have a kind of attachment, and the songs are just good, it’s not surprising I just picked them up) Do keep in mind, though, that this is like the first time I’ve ever heard a song that was like this since before then I didn’t listen to music much so take what I say with a grain of salt as to fair opinions on the songs.
Holy shit this is a long comment, I didn’t really realize how long until I hit send I just kind of typed without realizing how much I had, apologies for the giant text wall.
@@cloamker2533 *"I was introduced to this song randomly when it first came out."* For me, it was stumbling across Circus hop. *"it felt surreal to have something I felt understand me."* I'm happy to hear that. It's always nice to know that we are not alone with our struggles, regardless of what struggles we may face. (Also a cute cartoon cat helps too :) *"makes me reminisce on an old friendship"* Alas, I too have had friendships fade away. And while it's sad, I do remember the good times fondly. Much like the passing of a love one, I'll morn the loss, while also cherishing the joy and fun we shard. *"Circus hop is a bit more unique because unlike the other songs it’s not something I’d normally go out of my way to listen to"* Aww, I like that song... Oh well... 🤷♂ Different strokes for different folks as they say. Whelp, time to listen to Entry of the Gladiators again. *"I can’t relate to songs like you’ll be gone, another mistake, or I forgot that you exist."* Thankfully I haven't gone though most of the thing YonKaGor sings about. Well... with perhaps the one exception of enjoying fish. :) But I do sympathize with the plights in his songs. His lyrics paint such a vivid story of false love, rejection, loneliness, and depression. All of this done in a way that make me want to know more, and to see a happy resolution. The songs are also just so gosh darn catchy. My three favorite songs (for right now) are Fallacy, Circus hop, and I forgot that you exist. Just such a great time listing to these. *"so take what I say with a grain of salt as to fair opinions on the songs."* That quite alright. You like them because they give you comfort. And that more than reason enough for me. Keep enjoying what you enjoy! ps. On a side note, have you ever watch My little pony? While not for every one. I know it always cheers me up when I'm having a ruff day. Just asking. :)
@Starry Skies The video has a Trigger Warning, and the original version had a message about calling the Suicide Hotline and emergency services in the video itself
I feel like this is like how lots of people feel when they suffer depression or suicidal ideation. The despair is inside a happy beat. Especially the part about mental health not covering health insurance. I really like this. Especially as dark humor, and being in that situation before.
I've been there and still am. You have to take it as humor since the other option is crying about it. Anyways, got therapy tomorrow, let's give it a few more tries shall we?
honestly, its a great representation of people with depression that arent nececcarialy depressed, like you know you shouldnt be trying to do this, but it feels like the only way out so you try to trick yourself.
1:09 man I was really not ready for how hard this hit me. My family has a history of severe depression, both my parents, my brother, and most of my extended family have been medicated for it. I had shown no signs of depression, but around 8 months ago it slammed into my mind like a truck. All of a sudden I found it extremely hard to get out of bed, or really even care about anything. Honestly I think the apathy is the only reason I’m alive today. If you put me on the side of a bridge, or put a gun in my hands, I don’t think I would have hesitated much, if at all. This song scared me when I saw it recommended to me back then. I don’t think that I really wanted to die back then, but I also just couldn’t see the point of living life out fully, especially with the (very) nihilistic view I had of climate change, and don’t even get me started on politics. I hate american politics with a passion. I feel like I’m constantly forced to support a bad option, or a less bad (but still not good) option. I was scared that this song would give even just one little push, and then I’d be gone. Thankfully I'm better now, I’ve been going to therapy for a while, and have a prescription, but I still sometimes struggle with caring about things. And that’s honestly not even a bad thing most times, you would not believe how helpful it is to just be able to look at a political argument or an attention grabbing article about something horrible that happened somewhere and then you just decide that you don't care. It helps me avoid so many spirals of back and forth pointless arguing and endless bad news articles. Anyways sorry for the essay, I started writing and then words just kept coming out. I hope whoever has read this far has had a wonderful day, and that tomorrow will be even better.
Sorry to hear your roller coaster ride of emotions, but I'm glad you made it through. It's also neat hearing you talk about apathy in a positive light. To paraphrase Dr Wolf, "I tend to find we grow the most when we can turn our greatest weakness into our greatest strength."
Fantastic to hear you're in a better position. A lot of people think of apathy as a negative thing. They're not right or wrong. I find that ability to not care is somewhat of a counter to other negative feelings. My passage in life has turned me quite apathetic but it's for the better. Otherwise I probably wouldn't be typing this right now. Take care brother.
As a suicidal person, this hit me like a truck. "I can't find something worth trying, so i guess ill live another while" hit too close to home 😭😭 thank you for this masterpiece!!
I can understand why RUclips would jump the gun on this and force it to be censored but at least the Spotify version is untouched. It’s still an amazing song even if some parts feel awkward without lyrics and it still showcases Su!cide in a more relatable manner then most popular music, like a few other of your songs have which also end up being the ones that really hit hard. Truly amazing, keep up the god tier work m8
I woke up this morning and was genuinely upset and terrified I couldn't find the original I had saved to my everyday playlist, so relieved! still love ya song tho! Even if you had to censor it it's still good!
@花子 Oh god, found the cringe weeb. Everyone else, keep scrollin on past the cringy edgelord's dullness and have a great day! (For anyone wondering: no, I made this comment based on the fact that this edgy person really decided to comment this cringe under multiple different commenters, lmao. So I'm guessing probably a cringey kid or edgy teen, pffft.)
honestly i dont get all the hate on this, this is literally my brain whenever i get depressed, its a great representation of how you try to trick yourself into thinking its "the right thing to do" and how every "online guide" and just the internet's "help" is always just like this. Edit: also here’s a little help with therapy, for me I kinda just had a panic attack and spilled out everything about me, and then they just had a bunch of little solutions and it really helped, gl guys!
There is something darkly hilarious about someone being such a failure that they can't even kill themselves correctly and being forced to live because of it.
Although I am new to the channel. I must say, All your songs are such a vibe, You really deserve much more, Thanks for all your efforts and keep up the amazing music.
For those who can’t tell the difference or didn’t hear the uncensored version, here’s all I could find 1. In the beginning the robotic voice says ”here’s information for how to k!ll yourself”. In this version it is cut off. 2. During 1:17 the robotic voice says ”talking to someone might help. Want me to search the web for the national su!cide and emergency hotline?” or something along those lines. Really those are the only ones I could find right now edit: oh, and also the search at 2:23 was changed. I think you guys can imagine what the original ”how to” search was Edit 2: as someone pointed out in the replies, you can actually see the original search if you slow down at around 2:29!
I was going through a very rough time when you released this song, let's just say I listened to it hundreds of times whilst on walks contemplating my own death. It's terrifying listening to it nowadays because of that association, and whilst I didn't like the censored version when you released it, nowadays it helps blunt some edges. Your songs are so good and thank you for putting so much effort into them, even when it comes to these things.
Music theory. Mastering it can make everuthing sad or hapy. I can take this song flip one chord minor... and we have the saddest song ever. Just change the rythem and some few tempos. Now its sad. Music theory sucks...
What a shame... Still love the tune though. 1:44 Such a good play on this 2:34 Too real, too real Edit: I meant it was a shame because it was taken down
I love how with your music you cover heavy topics so perfectly, the Music seems like how everyone sees you as "You're Happy" and the lyrics perfectly betray your actual inner emotions you feel, I know this cause I have Suicid@l thoughts, I love how accurate you betray those feelings, it kinda comforts me that you understand people like us... it's way more than just "thoughts saying for us to die" and I like that you show that, thank you so much for these songs Edit: The songs Circus Hop and Another Mistake are also amazing, weirdly I love those songs and this song so much!!
Good god, the health insurance part hit me like a truck. While I don't have to pay it (yet), the things I've been taught in my public health courses have basically framed health insurance in the US as some sort of insanity-inducing, clunky, jumbled mess of a system that is damn near impossible to understand.
I honestly prefer this version of the original. While your other songs hide the references or dance around the idea without explicitly telling you, the uncensored version of this is just a bit TOO on the nose, and tells the listener exactly what your character is trying to do.
love how youtube is always quick to strike down anything that is important and spreads awareness but doesn't get rid of the plethora of actually harmful content
Honestly I find YonKaGor an amazing musical artist and as odd as it is I have listened to this song on many occasions when I felt suicidal or lost in some tough time and overall I think YonKaGor is an amazing person and if you are reading this I just want to Profusely thank you as I don't think I would be this far in my life if it weren't for your songs!
I am SO glad I listened to the entire thing. I almost stopped listening after the first half because it was a little too heavy for me, but it seems to be a lot more positive/bitter-sweet at the end
Oh YT, I am glad I saw the first version before it was deleted. Bet YT didn't hear the end of the song😐 Edit: the previous version made me little concerned yes but the ending made my worry disappear And to anyone thats reading this even if your having hard times I believe in you don't ever give up!
THE ORIGINAL WAS DELETED?! God.... Pisses me off RUclips... Anyone know where I might find the original now? (YonKaGore, you have other platforms right?)
•May someone help me compare the uncensored part that was “against RUclips policy”? I really am curious since I’m only finding this now.• All of Yonkagor’s content is very positive in the end when it comes to grim topics, I just wish that RUclips can realize why these types of videos are important. This is quite an underrated channel, respect to him and the team who helps make these!
I am pretty sure it basically changed the voice in the background to speak more lines, like in the blank space at the beginning it was "Here's information for: How to kill yourself," take my words with a grain of salt though, I do not quite remember as I barely got to listen to the uncensored version. Edit: 5 seconds later, found out the uncensored version is still on youtube, just not the MV
Really (responsible?) of you to use your talents to talk about such a serious issue. I'm impressed at the accuracy at some of these points such as at the start because the actions feel so counter-intuitive however it's true. You need to not make yourself more sad and maintain logical and practical outlooks. Then moving on, it was also nice to see the song u-curve into some positivity. I shouldn't be suprised to see this honestly given the themes you cover in other songs. Artists compose based on what matters to them and your heart is clearly in the right place. Keep your mind in the good space too :D You've done a good service here.
This song truly does mean a lot to me I have been suppressing my feelings for 4 years now and Yon really helped me feel validated and show me that other people go through this same thing. Thank you so much Yon for this absolute masterpiece of a song
a really chipper and pleasant tune for such a gloomy subject and theme. even if it's like that it's a really great song and a vibe. being in a state like that earlier, which makes one relate at a level. and i'm surely getting this wrong, but, it seems like it's continuously telling one to keep on going. i possibly couldn't thank you enough Jon, for making songs with such themes making people more aware
This is kind of what I’m going through at the moment I don’t like therapy or wanting to call that number I don’t feel like I have a purpose to live or anything and since I’m a Irish man I’m declared not to cry or anything I just want to escape from this world
Is the original posted anywhere? Everywhere I looked the original (with uncensored audio and visuals) was basically scrubbed completely from the internet.
I love this guy songs. These past few months they have been a comfort for me. I do feel this song has a deeper meaning and if so I hope your okay with what's happening in your life. I'll say this for people who need to see it that things will get better soon ☺️ Better days are coming for you and keep looking forward 🤗 Stay safe everyone!
My brother and I had a deep convo once and he showed me this song and it triggered me to cry. I never related to something so hard and I sometimes come back to listen to this for comfort. I've listened to your other songs and I find comfort and relate to them. Thank you 💜
Are you gonna be reuploading the uncensored version anywhere else? It’s a huge shame RUclips is censoring artists like this :/ as long as everyone knows it’s not promoting suicide I see no issue with the uncensored ugh
RUclips is censoring your content again. Had to click on this song repeatedly to get to it. I always saw this song as playfully ironic yet it seems that the internet thinks I'm somehow harmed by listening to it. That is sad.
@@celestirr That is probably due to the fact that it more directly broaches the topic rather than being cleverly hidden behind puns or subtle meaning. I enjoy the cheerful sadness of this song and the complicated emotions it deals with.
Why RUclips had such a problem with this that it ads a link to a suicide health line under it wich is fitting since the video encourages people to phone suicide health lines
Your songs always hit home with how vague they are. I knew soemthing was up when I saw the lack of the red bar on this video. I knew I had listened at least ten times. RUclips needs to let creativity flow. Even if it’s touchy subjects.
I think this song helps me because it's upbeat, but talking about the serious topic, and idk, it's more helpful then the sad sounding beats of a lot of other songs on this topic
@@florisototorres9872 they are a troll, the only video and comments they have are all just insults to Yon with over half of them using cringe. Just ignore them and let them have their temper tantrum because that is all they know how to do, they kick and scream trying to get attention online and pick on others because they want to make themselves feel better but never will. They call everyone cringe because they can't look in the mirror and realize it isn't everyone else who is cringe, but he is infact the one who is the most cringe.
Thank you for the 100k views !
Congrats!
:D
When's ur next song?
congrats!
Dude, amazing job
Suicidal themes are very tricky - RUclips doesn't always let it pass like nothing, but y'all probably already know this
Yeah, I was actually listening to the song right before it was taken down on loop...
@@nragen me too
I already miss the other one,i was still awake at 3am looking for the video and i was like noooo where'd it go
Оу, привет!
@@Niko._.975 i think its still there, but not the actual music video
It's a shame that it got deleted, I saw the previous version. It was very good!
@CABIPA (P cbc) - You can still view the Uncensored Version
here, minus the lyric video. Uncensored Audio Only Version here....
ruclips.net/video/clIwm8Ly9AQ/видео.html
Can someone point out the difference? I have seen the first version but can't really tell
@@tobehidk4825
i think it’s the intro and that’s it
@@tobehidk4825 This version does not have the "how to kill yourself!" At the begining. If you search for the song itself you can notice it.
Here is a link: ruclips.net/video/clIwm8Ly9AQ/видео.html
@@tobehidk4825 like one or two lines that directly mentioned suicide were deleted
Yon, When did you become the WI-FI that everyone wants?
Found this sound cause of your furality concert! Always loved your songs and I’m glad to have discovered more!!
Well fuck me this hits way too close to home
I am obsessed with themes of death and gore, dark humor creepy stuff i take all that very lightly
But this is actully creeped me out! Well done man bravo!
While songs like Circus Hop and Normal resonated with me because of the themes of suicide this one hit particularly hard cause feelings of worthlessness and failure are what I went through in my particular case.
thk for the tips
You'd expect songs with suicidal themes would be dark and sad.
But it's even darker when it's so upbeat and light.
Just hits different..
Yep.
it's the song people put on, but some little time's you can hear the subtle truth on their melodies. and most of the times it isn't as obvious.
Its make 10 times much horrifying when it has a happy upbeat and light, because its make you think that the suicidal person consider suicide as something that is not chocking or hurtful for the people who are part in your life. As if it was a normal choice with no consequences for you friends and family.
I Think I’m Going To Kill Myself - Elton John
It’s also upbeat though a bit more cynical in its lyrics
As stupid as this might sound, this song is very comforting to me. I used to not be in the best headspace, but this song (and circus hop being based around the same thing) essentially made me realize I wasn’t alone. They made me realize my feelings weren’t invalid. Mind you it wasn’t purely Yon’s songs that helped, but they certainly did comfort me when I was stressed.
not stupid bro. it did the same thing for me.
I find the strange mix of uplifting music with depressing lyrics an odd yet festinating tonal juxtaposition that I just cant help but love.
A few examples include, The rhyme (Scratch21) On our own (Wasteland wailers) farewell my old friend (The Cog is Dead) Pretend to be happy (Jay Foreman) The gypsy bard (Friendship is witchcraft) and of course, most of YonKaGor's songs.
And if others can gain some real benefits from these unusual songs. Well, all the more power to theme!
@@GearHeadedHamster I was introduced to this song randomly when it first came out, and it was when I was not in a good place mentally, so it felt surreal to have something I felt understand me, leading to me now liking most of Yon’s songs (usually) due to the meaning behind the lyrics, such as in you’re just like pop music where it makes me reminisce on an old friendship I had online that we don’t keep up with anymore simply since we moved on, and also since the song itself is just enjoyable . Circus hop is a bit more unique because unlike the other songs it’s not something I’d normally go out of my way to listen to without the meaning behind it due to the main theme of the song being circus related. (I say usually because I can’t relate to songs like you’ll be gone, another mistake, or I forgot that you exist, but since one song really took my by the feels and I have a kind of attachment, and the songs are just good, it’s not surprising I just picked them up) Do keep in mind, though, that this is like the first time I’ve ever heard a song that was like this since before then I didn’t listen to music much so take what I say with a grain of salt as to fair opinions on the songs.
Holy shit this is a long comment, I didn’t really realize how long until I hit send I just kind of typed without realizing how much I had, apologies for the giant text wall.
@@cloamker2533 *"I was introduced to this song randomly when it first came out."* For me, it was stumbling across Circus hop.
*"it felt surreal to have something I felt understand me."* I'm happy to hear that. It's always nice to know that we are not alone with our struggles, regardless of what struggles we may face. (Also a cute cartoon cat helps too :)
*"makes me reminisce on an old friendship"* Alas, I too have had friendships fade away. And while it's sad, I do remember the good times fondly. Much like the passing of a love one, I'll morn the loss, while also cherishing the joy and fun we shard.
*"Circus hop is a bit more unique because unlike the other songs it’s not something I’d normally go out of my way to listen to"* Aww, I like that song... Oh well... 🤷♂ Different strokes for different folks as they say. Whelp, time to listen to Entry of the Gladiators again.
*"I can’t relate to songs like you’ll be gone, another mistake, or I forgot that you exist."* Thankfully I haven't gone though most of the thing YonKaGor sings about. Well... with perhaps the one exception of enjoying fish. :) But I do sympathize with the plights in his songs. His lyrics paint such a vivid story of false love, rejection, loneliness, and depression. All of this done in a way that make me want to know more, and to see a happy resolution.
The songs are also just so gosh darn catchy. My three favorite songs (for right now) are Fallacy, Circus hop, and I forgot that you exist. Just such a great time listing to these.
*"so take what I say with a grain of salt as to fair opinions on the songs."* That quite alright. You like them because they give you comfort. And that more than reason enough for me. Keep enjoying what you enjoy!
ps. On a side note, have you ever watch My little pony? While not for every one. I know it always cheers me up when I'm having a ruff day. Just asking. :)
So rap can talk all about abuse and drugs but this gets taken down. Damn.
Way too true. YT sucks sometimes
I mean, to be completely fair, the first line is “here’s how to kill yourself”. That’s a legal liability for them I can only assume.
@Starry Skies The video has a Trigger Warning, and the original version had a message about calling the Suicide Hotline and emergency services in the video itself
I feel like this is like how lots of people feel when they suffer depression or suicidal ideation. The despair is inside a happy beat. Especially the part about mental health not covering health insurance.
I really like this. Especially as dark humor, and being in that situation before.
I've been there and still am. You have to take it as humor since the other option is crying about it. Anyways, got therapy tomorrow, let's give it a few more tries shall we?
You’d be correct atleast for me
honestly, its a great representation of people with depression that arent nececcarialy depressed, like you know you shouldnt be trying to do this, but it feels like the only way out so you try to trick yourself.
Wait my mental health is supposed to cover my insurance? God damn it, I knew it was freeloading off of something!
1:09 man I was really not ready for how hard this hit me. My family has a history of severe depression, both my parents, my brother, and most of my extended family have been medicated for it. I had shown no signs of depression, but around 8 months ago it slammed into my mind like a truck. All of a sudden I found it extremely hard to get out of bed, or really even care about anything. Honestly I think the apathy is the only reason I’m alive today. If you put me on the side of a bridge, or put a gun in my hands, I don’t think I would have hesitated much, if at all. This song scared me when I saw it recommended to me back then. I don’t think that I really wanted to die back then, but I also just couldn’t see the point of living life out fully, especially with the (very) nihilistic view I had of climate change, and don’t even get me started on politics. I hate american politics with a passion. I feel like I’m constantly forced to support a bad option, or a less bad (but still not good) option. I was scared that this song would give even just one little push, and then I’d be gone. Thankfully I'm better now, I’ve been going to therapy for a while, and have a prescription, but I still sometimes struggle with caring about things. And that’s honestly not even a bad thing most times, you would not believe how helpful it is to just be able to look at a political argument or an attention grabbing article about something horrible that happened somewhere and then you just decide that you don't care. It helps me avoid so many spirals of back and forth pointless arguing and endless bad news articles.
Anyways sorry for the essay, I started writing and then words just kept coming out. I hope whoever has read this far has had a wonderful day, and that tomorrow will be even better.
Sorry to hear your roller coaster ride of emotions, but I'm glad you made it through. It's also neat hearing you talk about apathy in a positive light. To paraphrase Dr Wolf, "I tend to find we grow the most when we can turn our greatest weakness into our greatest strength."
Fantastic to hear you're in a better position. A lot of people think of apathy as a negative thing. They're not right or wrong. I find that ability to not care is somewhat of a counter to other negative feelings. My passage in life has turned me quite apathetic but it's for the better. Otherwise I probably wouldn't be typing this right now. Take care brother.
As a suicidal person, this hit me like a truck. "I can't find something worth trying, so i guess ill live another while" hit too close to home 😭😭 thank you for this masterpiece!!
Fr, if not for my frens I’d have nothing
@@BillBillyAnimaticsI have no friends
It's a shame that RUclips censure artists for this kind of subject. All my support Jon (PS : As always, I love your songs)
Pretty sure they go by Yon now just so you know
@@bluedrake1218 Sure, I'm just used to and it's kinda the same, they just changed because of people missreading their name but yeah both works
*they
@@Rezbii thanks ! (totally forgot)
@@yathergame279 they do not go by jon anymore
2:26 has a SINGLE frame where the search result still says "how to kill yourself"
I can understand why RUclips would jump the gun on this and force it to be censored but at least the Spotify version is untouched. It’s still an amazing song even if some parts feel awkward without lyrics and it still showcases Su!cide in a more relatable manner then most popular music, like a few other of your songs have which also end up being the ones that really hit hard. Truly amazing, keep up the god tier work m8
This get censored yet there are plenty of other songs on RUclips that talk about misery, depression and suicide
I woke up this morning and was genuinely upset and terrified I couldn't find the original I had saved to my everyday playlist, so relieved! still love ya song tho! Even if you had to censor it it's still good!
I use RUclips Music and the original is still on there. I would recommend using it!
@花子 Oh god, found the cringe weeb. Everyone else, keep scrollin on past the cringy edgelord's dullness and have a great day!
(For anyone wondering: no, I made this comment based on the fact that this edgy person really decided to comment this cringe under multiple different commenters, lmao. So I'm guessing probably a cringey kid or edgy teen, pffft.)
HowTo:
"earn mental stability"
"be happy"
"earn enough money for rent"
"quit playing gacha games"
what 😭
You don't always have to be a strong cowboy. Sometimes, being an alive cowboy is good enough.
It feels wrong focusing on the video editing here, but it's genuinely so well done.
I saw people complaining about this song despite the fact they ignored trigger warning and it just made me salty.
lol
Lmao "this video contains topics of suicide" like thats gonna stop me hehe
honestly i dont get all the hate on this, this is literally my brain whenever i get depressed, its a great representation of how you try to trick yourself into thinking its "the right thing to do" and how every "online guide" and just the internet's "help" is always just like this.
Edit: also here’s a little help with therapy, for me I kinda just had a panic attack and spilled out everything about me, and then they just had a bunch of little solutions and it really helped, gl guys!
This song was actually pretty clever. I'm impressed. It's hard to find so well thought-out poetry and concept online these days.
There is something darkly hilarious about someone being such a failure that they can't even kill themselves correctly and being forced to live because of it.
RUclips really sucks sometimes
Btw awesome like always yonkagor
Good joob
‘I tried so many times, But I can’t do anything right’
Damn I can truely understand..
Although I am new to the channel. I must say, All your songs are such a vibe, You really deserve much more, Thanks for all your efforts and keep up the amazing music.
For those who can’t tell the difference or didn’t hear the uncensored version, here’s all I could find
1. In the beginning the robotic voice says ”here’s information for how to k!ll yourself”. In this version it is cut off.
2. During 1:17 the robotic voice says ”talking to someone might help. Want me to search the web for the national su!cide and emergency hotline?” or something along those lines.
Really those are the only ones I could find right now
edit: oh, and also the search at 2:23 was changed. I think you guys can imagine what the original ”how to” search was
Edit 2: as someone pointed out in the replies, you can actually see the original search if you slow down at around 2:29!
A few more changes were made to the "How To" line during the enumeration. (G. Translate)
If you play at 0.25 speed at 2:29 at 2:30 it shows the old text.
@@rainoffire621 trolling
@@cringium no it's true
@@charwa-8491 i did not mean it literally
I was going through a very rough time when you released this song, let's just say I listened to it hundreds of times whilst on walks contemplating my own death. It's terrifying listening to it nowadays because of that association, and whilst I didn't like the censored version when you released it, nowadays it helps blunt some edges. Your songs are so good and thank you for putting so much effort into them, even when it comes to these things.
It sucks that YT took down the original :( This is such a banger I love this song so much
had to be censored ? god dam, cringe youtube tbh
Я где-то видел эту Аву. Вроде на Редите.
tip: dont give all your money away, use it to help yourself.
there are 2 ways to help yourself.
I was scared that I never see this again its a pretty good song.
And I was shocked after I looked into my playlist not finding this song
why are you able to make depressing topics such a bop
I agree. It shouldn't be as good as it is...how great it is
Music theory. Mastering it can make everuthing sad or hapy.
I can take this song flip one chord minor... and we have the saddest song ever. Just change the rythem and some few tempos.
Now its sad.
Music theory sucks...
Really nailed the wikihow artstyle
What a shame... Still love the tune though.
1:44 Such a good play on this
2:34 Too real, too real
Edit: I meant it was a shame because it was taken down
イラストも歌声も最高でした！！！
I love how with your music you cover heavy topics so perfectly, the Music seems like how everyone sees you as "You're Happy" and the lyrics perfectly betray your actual inner emotions you feel, I know this cause I have Suicid@l thoughts, I love how accurate you betray those feelings, it kinda comforts me that you understand people like us... it's way more than just "thoughts saying for us to die" and I like that you show that, thank you so much for these songs
Edit: The songs Circus Hop and Another Mistake are also amazing, weirdly I love those songs and this song so much!!
I thought this was an actual video about 10 things you need to do before you die-
sad to see youtube took the other version down, you did good on this song yonkagor!
I remember this making me not do it. DAMN THANKS
🎉🎉🎉
Average furry
Is that love or joke
1:07 Shit, it says "fined", not "fine"?
This took a turn for much darker all of the sudden, I'm scared what will be next
Good god, the health insurance part hit me like a truck. While I don't have to pay it (yet), the things I've been taught in my public health courses have basically framed health insurance in the US as some sort of insanity-inducing, clunky, jumbled mess of a system that is damn near impossible to understand.
I honestly prefer this version of the original. While your other songs hide the references or dance around the idea without explicitly telling you, the uncensored version of this is just a bit TOO on the nose, and tells the listener exactly what your character is trying to do.
This was the first song I found of you and now I'm addicted.
same, I found "Circus Hop", listened to literally every song they made and they are all basically my fav songs lol
i found "You'll be gone"
love how youtube is always quick to strike down anything that is important and spreads awareness but doesn't get rid of the plethora of actually harmful content
I realy like this song not because im not alright in the head I just thonk its a nice song
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I like how RUclips put a warning on this video but not circus hop
Has anyone scanned the QR code at 0:40?
Leads to half of a discord link, there's another qr code later in the video to the second half
Honestly I find YonKaGor an amazing musical artist and as odd as it is I have listened to this song on many occasions when I felt suicidal or lost in some tough time and overall I think YonKaGor is an amazing person and if you are reading this I just want to Profusely thank you as I don't think I would be this far in my life if it weren't for your songs!
RUclips be like: let us not censor the version that has no MV but the one that does? Absolutely we have to
I am SO glad I listened to the entire thing. I almost stopped listening after the first half because it was a little too heavy for me, but it seems to be a lot more positive/bitter-sweet at the end
Oh YT, I am glad I saw the first version before it was deleted. Bet YT didn't hear the end of the song😐
Edit: the previous version made me little concerned yes but the ending made my worry disappear
And to anyone thats reading this even if your having hard times I believe in you don't ever give up!
@Retentionation Idc if he is cringe, I like his songs
WHY THE F DOES THE SEARCH BAR SAY STOP PLAYING GOTCHA GAMES?!??!
Best music to add it on my Playlist
This is really the most wholsome song that you really outdone it YonKaGor with such stellar work and thanks for the song i really love hearing it
Sometimes life’s a bitch and you keep on living :P
THE ORIGINAL WAS DELETED?! God.... Pisses me off RUclips... Anyone know where I might find the original now? (YonKaGore, you have other platforms right?)
its on soundcloud too
I used so much time to get this back
Entiendo la cansion y aunque no sea mi idioma prinsipal me gusta mucho
its a good song :) love it
Anyone got the uncensored version?
Depressing fact:
For a couple frames near the end the search in the Google search bar changes from "how to feel alive" to "how to k*ll yourself".
That’s what it said in the uncensored version but they had to put text over it because of problems with youtube
Hey if you don't really care about visuals all that much if you go to the album on RUclips it's uncensored the comments are turned off tho
•May someone help me compare the uncensored part that was “against RUclips policy”? I really am curious since I’m only finding this now.•
All of Yonkagor’s content is very positive in the end when it comes to grim topics, I just wish that RUclips can realize why these types of videos are important.
This is quite an underrated channel, respect to him and the team who helps make these!
I am pretty sure it basically changed the voice in the background to speak more lines, like in the blank space at the beginning it was "Here's information for: How to kill yourself," take my words with a grain of salt though, I do not quite remember as I barely got to listen to the uncensored version.
Edit: 5 seconds later, found out the uncensored version is still on youtube, just not the MV
why isnt this as popular as their other songs? This is very good!
The original got taken down cuz RUclips is a sissy when it comes to suicide
WHY DID RUclips TAKE IT DOWN GRRRR
Im gonna guess the blatant suicidal themes
youtube no like "kill" word
Probably the title sounds suicidal, so those bots succeed
@Retentionation stop crying dude u here hating on every single comment grow up
Really (responsible?) of you to use your talents to talk about such a serious issue. I'm impressed at the accuracy at some of these points such as at the start because the actions feel so counter-intuitive however it's true. You need to not make yourself more sad and maintain logical and practical outlooks. Then moving on, it was also nice to see the song u-curve into some positivity.
I shouldn't be suprised to see this honestly given the themes you cover in other songs. Artists compose based on what matters to them and your heart is clearly in the right place. Keep your mind in the good space too :D
You've done a good service here.
"i tried so many times" lemme read that one more time
This song truly does mean a lot to me I have been suppressing my feelings for 4 years now and Yon really helped me feel validated and show me that other people go through this same thing. Thank you so much Yon for this absolute masterpiece of a song
a really chipper and pleasant tune for such a gloomy subject and theme.
even if it's like that it's a really great song and a vibe. being in a state like that earlier, which makes one relate at a level.
and i'm surely getting this wrong, but, it seems like it's continuously telling one to keep on going.
i possibly couldn't thank you enough Jon, for making songs with such themes making people more aware
Well I thought Mr Sunfish was a chill song, but I do be pausing, and now I know
Also I just noticed "How to quit playing gacha games", lol
Still a pretty good song but I missed the not censured version
This is kind of what I’m going through at the moment I don’t like therapy or wanting to call that number I don’t feel like I have a purpose to live or anything and since I’m a Irish man I’m declared not to cry or anything I just want to escape from this world
Is the original posted anywhere? Everywhere I looked the original (with uncensored audio and visuals) was basically scrubbed completely from the internet.
Anyone knows where to find the uncensored version? (Really need it)
I don't know.
spotify or soundcloud, its only 2 sentences that got uncensored though, just youtube being annoying
Literally just: "Welp, guess I'll live"
I love this guy songs. These past few months they have been a comfort for me.
I do feel this song has a deeper meaning and if so I hope your okay with what's happening in your life. I'll say this for people who need to see it that things will get better soon ☺️ Better days are coming for you and keep looking forward 🤗 Stay safe everyone!
My brother and I had a deep convo once and he showed me this song and it triggered me to cry. I never related to something so hard and I sometimes come back to listen to this for comfort. I've listened to your other songs and I find comfort and relate to them. Thank you 💜
My friend was really into your music. Maybe I should've taken that as a sign.
Insurance doesnt cover mental health
Bars 😢
Are you gonna be reuploading the uncensored version anywhere else? It’s a huge shame RUclips is censoring artists like this :/ as long as everyone knows it’s not promoting suicide I see no issue with the uncensored ugh
RUclips is censoring your content again. Had to click on this song repeatedly to get to it. I always saw this song as playfully ironic yet it seems that the internet thinks I'm somehow harmed by listening to it. That is sad.
IKR? Yon has made a number of songs on this topic but this one in particular just refuses to play half the time.
@@celestirr That is probably due to the fact that it more directly broaches the topic rather than being cleverly hidden behind puns or subtle meaning. I enjoy the cheerful sadness of this song and the complicated emotions it deals with.
Damn i thought this was gonna be like an actual list like "Number 6 get laid"
Nope, far from it
You can not find any results for “How to off yourself at home” for anyone wondering
wait what does google not actually allow results? (I dont wanna look it up o_o)
Annnnnd a song that perfectly represents 2023 cuase a part of this is how life go 😭
Why RUclips had such a problem with this that it ads a link to a suicide health line under it wich is fitting since the video encourages people to phone suicide health lines
Your songs always hit home with how vague they are.
I knew soemthing was up when I saw the lack of the red bar on this video. I knew I had listened at least ten times.
RUclips needs to let creativity flow. Even if it’s touchy subjects.
WAIT HOW DOES BRO KNOW ALL THE STEPS?!?!?!?!!
LOVE YOU YONKAGOR
I think this song helps me because it's upbeat, but talking about the serious topic, and idk, it's more helpful then the sad sounding beats of a lot of other songs on this topic
is the original gonna be on spotify? the original was great and catchy, despite some little changes in this one.
@Retentionation why so?
@@florisototorres9872 they are a troll, the only video and comments they have are all just insults to Yon with over half of them using cringe. Just ignore them and let them have their temper tantrum because that is all they know how to do, they kick and scream trying to get attention online and pick on others because they want to make themselves feel better but never will. They call everyone cringe because they can't look in the mirror and realize it isn't everyone else who is cringe, but he is infact the one who is the most cringe.
@花子 mf this ain't twitter
We need another Seadrive song
how informative
Oh hell nah, they deleted the funny suicide version
I love your songs, whenever you post a new song I can not stop listening to it. Thank you for the great work on your songs and animation.
Bro when this video get censored 😭
aw man it got rusty cage'd