The good thing about men is they don’t judge your bits. I’ve been so insecure after having two kids, being cut open both times (and butchered by the 2nd doc), and then having my cervix/uterus removed...I’ve been so insecure. My husbands enthusiasm always fixes any insecurity. :-) sry tmi
Alicia's husband has seen life from both sides now.....Heheh... I was going to post above on Peggy's..... If you asked your nurses to "open" up to you..... you'd see a lop-sided-ness.... a freckle here or there....a skin tag.... Don't go in for extra surgery.... I think Maya is chill enough she wouldn't over react..... So, not too worried. Oh....You may've slipped or overlooked "twice-a-day" a few times....I wouldn't confirm you're fine to skip it! Thanks......
I had my surgery about one & 1/2 months after you and it has been so excellent and helpful watching your update videos. It gives me something immediate to look forward to, following a very similar process and so relatable rather than getting lost and overwhelmed in the enormity of the entire process. Thank you.
As women with a vulva and vagina, i hate to see this idea that "it" has to be perfect. no vulva looks the same, they're all different, literally every single one of us, even a trans persons vulva and that's what's beautiful about women's vulvas. Women have been taught to feel very insecure about our vulvas and vaginas, how they look, feel and smell. so welcome to the club. i'm sure when you're properly healed that your vulva will look and feel like a normal vulva, after all what exactly does normal mean? Just know that you're not alone.
@@luminatrixfanfiction Hiya, so Trans women have some re-assignment surgeries that gives them self lubricating vaginas exhibit A: Rectosigmoid Vaginoplasty Exhibit B: Penile-Peritoneal Vaginoplasty technique (SRS-PPV) a special type of vaginoplasty that select few hospitals have which is less riskier than Using the colon as the lining and instead using a bit of the penile skin and peritoneum pull through technique to create the neovaginal canal. No Shade just giving out new info if you want the articles a few is right here: www.mtfsurgery.net/peritoneal-pull-through-vaginoplasty.htm pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/28194347/#:~:text=Rectosigmoid%20vaginoplasty%20is%20useful%2C%20safe%2C%20and%20well-accepted%20operative,of%20a%20dilator.%20Is%20Rectosigmoid%20Vaginoplasty%20Still%20Useful%3F
@@luminatrixfanfiction listen I’m a trans woman myself and what you’re talking about right now is absolutely ludicrous. Firstly doctors do swear by oath to do no harm to their patient but this does not relate at all to trans re-assignment surgery. Trans women (the reason why I refer mostly to trans women is because trans men don’t get the bottom surgery much as doctors don’t have much experience with phalloplasty) overall feel happy in their bodies when they get bottom surgery and less dysphoric. What causes dysphoria? The feeling of being in the wrong body this has to do with gender identity and sometimes biological factors that we don’t entirely understand. You can’t compare a trans person with a schizo or any other mental disorders because being trans is not a mental illness. I’m going to send you scientific articles about what dysphoria does to trans people and aftermaths of trans peoples surgery. nationalpost.com/news/world/an-mri-brain-scan-can-reveal-if-you-are-transgender-says-study greatlakesledger.com/2018/05/23/mri-scans-of-the-brains-of-transgender-people-are-different-from-non-trans-people-shows-study/ altermd.com/before-after/male-to-female-gender-confirmation-surgery/ www.hli.org/resources/what-percentage-of-transgenders-regret-surgery/
You are so courageous and grounded. This is the most frank, real post-op report on RUclips. It will help thousands of people make informed decisions. THANK YOU
Regarding the TMI , what you're sharing is SO very important for those who are considering surgery. Thank you for sharing. I really admire you for being so open and candid. You give other trans hope for their future.
Very interesting, I'm a cis woman so really curious about this, thanks for being this honest and transparent. Happy that the healing process is going well overall, wish you all the best x And by the way you are gorgeous all the time honestly 💕
Don't worry about the makeup, Maya, you have a natural beauty and not everyone has that. Take your time recovering from this surgery and don't rush things. We want you to be healthy, both physically and mentally, and we're all here for you, all 207K of us! xx
So glad you're back - and thank you for actually telling your experience in all the gorey (yet demonitisation avoiding) details. As someone who started transition later in life (33) and has many decisions about where it will go, it is really refreshing to hear actual details without either the panic of the transphobes or the rose tinted glasses that many trans people tend to view it with.
Go girl! Am in the process right now quite early now, but at my age I am envious of your recognizing yourself early enough. You look beautiful and I realize at my age the vocal range is out of my realm as well as my size and build. I am still working forward with it and use people like yourself for encouragement. Please continue with content and postings just for moral support for us late bloomers and girls that will never "pass". We need every positive that we can get. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.♥️♥️♥️♥️🙏
I love your videos and there’s never TMI! To many postop girls won’t discuss anything about their surgery.Your videos really help us girls out that are planning on having this surgery for the journey we will endure. I only have 3 more months until my surgery & I plan on doing what you are,giving as much information about my experience as they want no matter how in depth they want too get.Thanks Maya,keep them coming girl 💗
Hi, Maya! I’m a cis woman and I have had scars from other things, but if you use cocoa butter on your scars it fades away faster & a plus is it smells nice and is so moisturizing. You can get the jar of it or a stick for easier application. Using once a day or twice a day in morning to night.💓
I'm a middle-aged, cis woman.Girl, you are A MAY ZING! And let me tell you something. I've had two vaginal births, one vaginal hysterectomy and I'm 52. There is no perfect. We are all different down there and the aesthetic changes over time. The most important thing is sensations and that doesn't require a perfect aesthetic. Even sensations change as you get to know yourself better. After living as a straight woman for 40 years and then experiencing intimacy differently as a lesbian, I can tell you that sensation is more about your mind then the physical act. And you have a beautiful, brilliant mind. Celebrate your new found freedom and live for today. You've accomplished so much with such intelligence, strength, beauty and grace. Don't forget that.
Your video about preparing for the surgery helped me a lot. I ended up putting almost half of the stuff you did in the video I made recently. I go on Jan 25th! It’s exciting and giving me some anxiety, but overall happy. Thanks for the constant inspiration xo
Maya, you're beautiful with or without makeup, dressed up or down, by all means just be you. It'll take time before all the results of your surgery come together, you may not need any additional tweaking. Take care, don't let anybody bring you down.
IMHO, trans or cis, all women look better when they are real, natural, without makeup. I never understood why women don't believe it when men tell them that.
Thanks for this informative update! It sounds like you’re doing great and you look lovely! Have you ever considered working in the medical/health field? You are so knowledgeable and have such a gentle and soothing manner! Patients would really respond well to you! Just something to think about! We will all be so much happier when this kooky pandemic is behind us. You are not alone, dear one! ❤️ Stay well!
I just discovered your channel and this video. It sounds like phenomenally good news for so soon after surgery. Best wishes for continued positive progress in all aspects of your recovery. Congratulations on reaching this wonderfully promising stage!
Maya, my love, stay away from negativity people because they always want to create dramas. You are looking great and I admire your decision about the surgery as I know that is exactly who you are . Everything has its ups and downs but overall, you are doing great and look stunning. Love you lots always.
Good to see/hear this post. What you're doing here is very necessary and you do it so well. (It's shifted the way I, for one, think about such matters and that's no small achievement.) Full marks to your developing linguistic dexterity, achieved with such good humour (yes, I'm English). One minuscule piece of advice: give yourself time. Healing 'down there' takes ages. My perspective as a bloke is from a couple of relatively recent hernia ops that left me alarmingly swollen for a lot longer than I had expected from such a minor op! But it did all go down in time - and the numbness went too. Sympathies with the C-19 lockdown; it's the same here in London. And yes, so glad for you about the apartment.
I'm so glad you're happy, yes, these videos can be a bit graphic to some, it's good to learn about this, and what you had to go through for you to feel right in the right body. I personally am a straight female but I like to learn about all this. Thanks for sharing this with us, I know it can be quite private. And I'm happy you finally have your own place now. 🙂❤
Also, Just so you know, Miss Maya- coming from a very sensitive “pleasure bean” person, being sensitive is actually quite normal for many CIS females :) so, you’re pretty close to being “normal” being that it’s sensitive there- especially after an “O” ❤️🥰
I was thinking the same thing. Sometime direct stimulation on the bean is to much to enjoy. Sometimes a little off center is better. It takes years for women to get to know our bodies, and, it hasnt been to long since its been ok to discuss female pleasure. Consider it a normal journey!
My god, I didn’t even have an orgasm until I was in my 30’s! Talk about pitiful! But as someone previously mentioned, it’s pretty much beaten into our psyche’s all our lives that vaginas look ugly, smell bad, are gross, etc...it takes maturity and confidence through experience to really appreciate how amazing and beautiful all vaginas are! Many actually give birth to human lives! Now how could that be anything but phenomenal?!💕👏🏼💪🏼🌷
The soul is the true self. Our physical bodies are all made up of the same things. Your consciousness and soul are what resides with in your body. Your flesh is just a vessel loaned to you while your here on earth. Your soul lives on forever. We are all a little of both feminine and masculine. We have the choice . We also have a choice of being a Loving person or being a judgemental jerk while here. Which side do you choose? Just curious 😉
You have a great way of presenting many detailed aspects of your surgery unlike many I have viewed. Factual and informative to anyone considering this path. 200 K + subscribers obviously must agree , MAYA ROCKS !
You have taught me so much!!! You have done all your “homework “, and you are so strong to share all this!!! You are so amazing and I wish you all the best!!!! X
you are such an inspiration maya. im so happy for you. the fact that youre sharing these things that must be weird and uncomfortable to talk about because you know they will help other trans women, is so amazing ❤️
I've followed your story along the way and must say I can't imagine you were ever male. Your a gorgeous woman, a brillient speaker, well versed, glib, funny and anyone that becomes your eventual pardner should never have any problem with you or your body.. Sex is just a very small part of a relationship. I wish you continued good luck while your healing and you future looks dam good to me .
I love following your journey Maya - with all the negativity in the world, just watching your strength and courage as you simply put one foot in front of the other with positivity puts all that other crap in perspective. This is life being lived and enjoyed. Thanks so so much for sharing.
I continue to be impressed with what an articulate, brave, generous, talented, lovely person you are! Which stands in stark contrast to the person whose comment you showed, who seems to be consumed with examining and criticizing other people’s lives, putting negativity into the world instead of living their own life. This video was so informative and helpful, an intimate subject, tastefully done, with humor. Congratulations on the new apartment! Can’t wait wait to see the lifestyle content you’ll create there. I always enjoy all your content, whatever the subject matter! 💖
You should definitely wait it out for a little while to get a view of the full result and how everything feels. My husband has a huge scar across his stomach, which has gotten flatter and lighter over the last 5 years and the numbness has reduced over time too. As long as you are not in constant pain you should give your body and mind time to recover from this life changing procedure. The hardest part is over, enjoy your life as a woman❣️
Honestly, hearing you talk and comfort yourself and be kind to yourself in your dialogue is so so so beneficial for my mental health. You are truly leading by example for self-love and I appreciate everything that you share with us, your community! :)
Thank you so much for your openness and honesty about your entire transitioning process, I have followed you for years and you have helped me so much in my own journey. Thank you Maya xxx
Ok so I just had to look at before and after pictures, they were from medical sites I hope that's ok..But they all looked great! All looked like normal vaginas to me, pretty amazing. Most men don't even know female anatomy lol, they're not going to notice if the labia minora isn't positioned perfectly
You don’t need the makeup and hair done. You are so naturally beautiful, and so totally present as female . As a biological woman myself, I am surprised at how female you present. Your voice, mannerisms etc. I can understand why you would want to make everything else complete. Blessings to you sweetie ❤
@@Mandy-nt2csRight on. I am a man. Not "cis." Especially considering the alleged origin of the word, I prefer not to be referred to as such. I'm simply a man.
I love watching your videos as I am just starting my trans journey and I really appreciate how real and honest you have been lately about everything that goes on with transitioning to be more informative for us girls looking to get some perspectives on the different hurdles we will face in our transitions. Keep up the great work!
Nia, a few words of advice as your journey continues: get negative toxic people out of your social circles and create a network of supportive friends and family. You're going to need support through this process. Just remember: never let anyone or anything stop you from this process. It's truly life saving. Lots of love.
Love that you’re recovering well and love the positive messaging at the end! I totally agree that trans women get some so much extra pressure to be perfect all of the time. Life is too short for all of that lol.
Darlin you do you. We like you and that’s why we are here. You have no idea how much your helping others. May you have a clear mind and soul. God speed. You know who you are. You look flipping gorge girl !
I'm glad you're accepting your new body , stay close to your family... two things , I've had surgeries that have cut through nerves (amputated part of an infected toe) and it can take a long time to desensitize back to normal ... I've also had a 3+ hour ankle reconstruction.. not as invasive or crazy as your procedure... and it takes well over a year for swelling to go down. You have the right attitude. Relax and go with it.
All us cis girls should send you photos 🤣🤣 you'll see how they come in all kinds of crazy shapes and sizes and colors.... no matter what you got... it's sufficient and it's yours and thats what matters... ♡
Im getting old and it's ok. Gravity has gotten ahold of lots of things. My body has changed with age and its quite shocking. We just have to go with it. Everyone is different
I think I might have ripped a labia minora a month or two ago accidentally when I was washing, pinched and pulled. So you can have the unsymmetrical and red new skin in a cis private area too. No idea what anybody else’s looks like but it’s bound to be varied like everything else is.
As a retired nurse i find your info interesting. I have had only one surgery, a low cut cesarean. The nerve sensation was never the same again. it still feels numb on and around the suture line and that was 33 yrs ago. I never felt the same again. It feels like the nerves never lined up again in a large area. This stuff is really serious. I cannot even imagine going through what you have gone through. In my mind we "ALL" have a 3 piece set and it makes no difference at all to me. I wish everyone felt that way. If you are a woman with a male 3 piece set, good by me. I really don't understand what all the fuss is about. I hope one day we will all love and accept everyone, without feeling we have to jump through all of these hoops to be different. Thank you for sharing your story.
As a person who have put anime as PP, we don’t claim that bigot. I can’t wait to get my own surgery and your videos help me see how things are going for a trans woman who have been living as a woman for years now. Love you, m(a)y(a) love!
Thank you so much for this video. I'm a trans man, trying to learn about "the other side" as it were, and I love your approach to this subject matter, it makes surgery much more humanized. Thanks for sharing!
I can’t get over how beautiful you are. Not only gorgeous but well spoken and fluent in your speech. You are still very young and you have achieved so much. Also you are humble and you share your thoughts quietly and with purpose. I wish for you only the best life has to offer , and I feel with your level of kindness, and maturity you can handle any bump in the road that may come your way. Thank you for sharing this private part of your life.
Thank you for talking about it in such detail! There are people out there who are genuinely interested in how you're doing and how the surgery actually ends up looking and feeling!
Thank you *_SO_* much for continuing to chronicle your GCS journey! 🥰 My GCS will be on 8/20 this year and your anecdotes shed so much light and clarity on what I might encounter! Congratulations and best wishes on a continuing excellent recovery! ❤️✌️
You are so knowledgeable. I’m a cis woman that enjoys learning about the experiences of transgender folks. I consider myself an ally and feel as though I still have so much to learn. Thank you for sharing your experience!
I think this video is one of your best. Your frank discussion of the effects o your surgery but more importantly you attitude and your realistic expectations. I hope you continue to recover and regain sensation. Speaking as a retired gynecologist all V & Vs are different and unique.
Thank you so much for "going there" with us and sharing the details. It's refreshing to see you being so open, this is what helps others. You're doing a great job and I'm so glad you are well.
Hi!! As a cis woman I believe my parts r.e., the hood and labia minora are the same as you described yours-there is just so much diversity in labia/hood shape/size in general!! 🤍🤍🥰
As someone exploring and figuring out gender, I really appreciate you being open about such personal things like gender confirmation surgery. It feels like it's impossible to find information and people don't ever speak frankly about it. Thank you so much, Maya!
@@olenaj6188 regardless of one's "God given gender," if someone would like to alter their body in any way, have the means to do so, and are happy with what they have decided to do - how does that impact you, a complete stranger, in any way?
@@KeelyAnn I have the right to speak what I wish just like you. I choose to openly call out deception for what it is because truth is the only thing that will set us free and lead many out of darkness. Do you know how many regret changing their gender? Their lives are ruined BECAUSE they were deceived. Had the truth been spoken to them they could have recognized lies.
@@olenaj6188 of course you have the right to speak your mind (: I'm curious on why some feel so strongly about others life decisions that don't impact them personally. Everyone is entitled to their opinion. I have heard stories from people on regretting their transition, and I have also heard from others who are truly happy with their decisions in life. Ultimately I believe our soul and spirit aren't necessarily male or female. Our souls do live within a human shell while on this earth though, and if for some reason someone feels gender dysphoria and like they aren't themselves, and are able to do something about it in order to live a happier life, than who am I to judge? Many individuals who do come to regret their decision in regards to transitioning, have experienced trauma in their life which impacted the way they viewed themselves and the choices they have made-and come to regret. There are also other folks who have grown up free from trauma and felt a soul and body disconnect, and were very happy with their choices regarding this issue. I don't claim to understand everything by any means, but I do try to have an open mind, and support others in living their lives how they see fit, learning from their mistakes, etc.
@@KeelyAnn Speaking the truth is NOT judging. It is love that causes us to care about others. When I see a person being deceived I will speak up in hopes to help that person. Stop with your "you are judging, hate speech, close minded" kind of talk. You said it yourself this is connected to trauma and the reason people try to physically change themselves because they dislike themselves the way they are, they are trying to not be themselves to become happier. Instead of teaching them to love themselves THE WAY THEY ARE, they are deceived into rebelling against God. God makes all things beautiful and does not make mistakes. Are they taught this truth? No. This truth is conveniently hidden from them. And when someone like me boldly speaks up the truth, someone like you tries to go into this philosophy how we are sooooo close minded and tries to shame us into being judgemental, hateful, or racist which can not be further from our real intentions: to help. When an 8 year old decides to get a surgery for a gender change and is taken away from parents by state authorities because parents try to help the child who doesn't yet know what he/she is doing, perhaps just trying to get accepted or hears this teaching 24/7 how cool it is to change genders - all of THIS is wrong on all levels and absolutely affects me personally, my world and the people I love. Don't bs me abt having an open mind. My mind, heart and soul are fully open to the truth. Open your mind to truth, reject lies and false teaching. THEN you can tell me what the soul is all about.
Thank you for this video! I'm currently 2 weeks post op and I've never been happier. I totally connect with all of your feelings and emotions. You are 100% my go to trans girl when looking for videos. Happy recovery ❤
Thank you SO much for this video series on your surgery recovery. I’m headed to talk with the surgeon to start the same process next week so knowing some truth to what I’m facing has been so comforting. You’re amazing! Thanks for what you do darling!
Wow very informative indeed ,thank you so much ,I’m still in the process to think about it but it help me to know some of the expectations I should consider ,thanks a lot dear Maya, good luck ,keep us up to it please cheers
Maya, believe me, girl with or without makeup you look beautiful and the fact that you have an honest and genuine personality, makes you even more attractive. I follow your videos and I'm glad to see and hear that you are doing so well right now. I get a lot out of your videos with the information you provide as I'm sure most of the other girls do too, especially thoughts of us who are considering surgery. Thank you Maya xx
I'm really happy for you. I can't wait to feel that happiness. My electrologyst says I am making good progress, I hope she's right. My birthday in September is my goal.
You’ve really made me feel better about this surgery, I’m on the waiting list to get it on the NHS in the UK and I was mostly scared about dilation tbh
Bullshit. Seriously, this is kind of a gross comment, not true, and feels like internalised misogyny. Maybe you were just trying to be kind, but there's no need to say stuff like this, sorry. Plenty of women are not unhappy about how their genitals look, and the fact that you use the euphemism "down there" honestly makes it seem like you have serious issues with the female body. I'm sorry for you if you feel that way, but it's not "part of being a woman".
@@Saan42 glad you can be so confident with your "down there" but so many women are infact not 100% ok with how their "down there" looks. Especially after any aging or childbirth.
@@freedomvandersypen3933 I'm not denying that some women feel that way, however I take issue with the statement that feeling that way is "part of being a woman". It's absolutely not, and to suggest it is feels very misogynistic to me.
I feel proud of you, to be so natural telling your story. Is much easier for so many other people to understand the transformations that we see around. Keep up with your positive attitude.🙏👍🙏👌😊🌈🌺❤️🌼
I'm just so scared. Scared to transition. Scared of society. Scared I'm wrong. Scared something bad will happen. Scared that I will be more scared. I'm starting therapy soon, but even that, I'm scared.
I’m scared too right now for different reasons but that feeling of utter fear is one I’m living with. I wish I could make everything better for everyone.. take away their pain. Remember though.. pain.. it’s how we learn and grow and without it there would be nothing. Without knowing what it’s like to be scared or hopeless we could never understand hope and love or know we were having fun. It’s the great juxtaposition of life. One thing that I do know is (to quote Florence and the machine and everyone else who’s ever said it) that it’s always darkest before the dawn. So when you feel the worst there is always something so much better on the horizon. Trust in that and the darkness will slowly fade away. 💜
U should be scared... because such a body modification may have a detrimental impact on Ur longevity. Anytime, anyone alters what Mother Nature provided, said individual places him/ herself in the "span of life" risk pool. E.g. When an athlete uses anabolic steroids that althlete puts him/herself in that very risk pool. It's proven that use of such steroids can and will cause health issues. How serious those health issues are dependent on a variety of individual variables. COVID is ultimately the result of genetic mutation resulting from chemical saturation/alteration/adsorption-absorbtion in the ecosystem. Ergo, it would've foolish to think that such a body modification wouldn't be inherent of life-altering/ affecting risks. So think and research before you decide to make "thee switch." Just being conceived and born has its own inherent risk. Modifying that which vame natural magnifies that risk.
Thank you Maya for your candid input here. Been following you for a few years and I love your vids. I myself had the surgery 1yr and 5 mo ago. Couldn't be happier and hopefully after discussing with my surgeon and getting insurance approval we're hoping sometime mid spring, beginning of summer. I'm so glad you are doing well with everything. Nothing but love here for you girl.
I’m a woman and always have been and I’m very happy that your body is working correctly. And best of all, you are who you were always supposed to be. Ps...we all have mental roadblocks at times, so no worries. I think you are incredibly brave to have the surgery and don’t worry you will be absolutely fine and comfortable.💕💕💕💕💕
So glad you're feeling good and healing well! I'm wondering: do you feel like the gynecology profession is as educated as they should be on caring for trans patients? Seems like maybe finding a gyno might be challenging and could be an area that the medical field could improve on, but maybe I'm wrong and that kind of education is more present than I think it is.
All vulvas are unique so even if it is anatomically slightly different, majority of people can't really tell the difference. Think of it as a designer part, it looks great, feels great and that's the most important thing. :)
First off: love the term "pleasure bean". I'm ftm and I still find your videos oddly affirming and educational, like any trans journey affirms me, just seeing others who feel so themselves in this way. But it's just also nice for me to be more aware of the trans femme journey so I can be a good ally to my sisters too. I recently had top surgery and so I recognize the weird "sensation" of your brain being confused. I touch the underside of my scar and it is distinctly "underboob" and then above the scar is much higher up on my chest , according to my brain. And I have sensation in my nipples so they register as nipples in my brain, but I also have nerves deeper under the skin that's like, "no I'm the nipple" and the two sensations want to connect in my brain, but they aren't in the same place physically. So yeah, the brain gymnastics are real!
Thank you. You are so brave and beautiful. Thank you for having the courage to share the details that might not be comfortable. Congratulations on the new apartment!!!
It takes a long time to fully heal. Numb areas will usually come back over a year or two and swelling will go down over an extended period as well. It takes a long time to fully, fully heal. Don't get stressed over it. All the tissue will settle, scars will fade and nerves will slowly grow back.
I appreciate your honesty Maya. What I wish, based on listening to you, is that there are more good doctors that help trans people with their transition without making them regret surgery just because of a doctor being indifferent or incompetent. Your recovery seems to be going well and the surgery will soon be a thing of the past, because it’s not the main thing about being a trans person, I’m so happy for you and the success that you are for your community. 😊♥️
You are beautiful inside and out girl! Thank you for being so genuine about who u r and what u want to represent. Ps. U have beautiful eyes! Frfr not just throwing sugar to b sweet- I mean it. Praying for a speedy recovery!
Girl, everyone’s labia is so different and no one is ever down there inspecting things except your doctor. Rest easy and give yourself time to heal. Best wishes.
As a ciswoman, I appreciated this as my vagina doesn't look or work perfectly either. It's been a pretty similar process in getting to know and appreciate my body, especially over different phases of life. I guess the beauty of our vaginas is that they are ultimately uniquely ours. Thanks for sharing!
Maya, I saw Dr. Brassard about three weeks before you. Your expressing all the stages I too am experiencing is very helpful. I too do not have any regret and am very happy to be rid of what was not wanted. The appearance and numbness will improve over time and your posts remind me of that. Thank you. Stephanie
I am finding this very interesting even though I’m not intending this process for myself. Thankyou for being so candid and sharing. You are very pretty also. XX
A Trans woman on another channel said that coldsores in the mouth were a given when going thru the surgery. I’m not trans but do get coldsores from time to time and Abreva works if you jump on it early enough. As soon as you get the lump in your mouth get it covered with the Abreva. Small tube, a bit spends but it saves 10 days of discomfort.
It sounds if you had enough to deal with .It's hard enough having major life changing surgery plus all the post operation care then having to find an apartment on top of it all...no wonder you've been so busy .
The good thing about men is they don’t judge your bits. I’ve been so insecure after having two kids, being cut open both times (and butchered by the 2nd doc), and then having my cervix/uterus removed...I’ve been so insecure. My husbands enthusiasm always fixes any insecurity. :-) sry tmi
Sounds like a great husband, Alicia! Glad he’s able to help you feel comfortable in your body! 🤗
Alicia's husband has seen life from both sides now.....Heheh... I was going to post above on Peggy's..... If you asked your nurses to "open" up to you..... you'd see a lop-sided-ness.... a freckle here or there....a skin tag.... Don't go in for extra surgery.... I think Maya is chill enough she wouldn't over react..... So, not too worried.
Oh....You may've slipped or overlooked "twice-a-day" a few times....I wouldn't confirm you're fine to skip it! Thanks......
Men absolutely do judge vaginas. Sounds like your husband loves you.
I mean, there are certainly men who won't judge your bits but there are also men who absolutely do judge
He's your husband. He better be on board. Sounds like a great guy.
I had my surgery about one & 1/2 months after you and it has been so excellent and helpful watching your update videos. It gives me something immediate to look forward to, following a very similar process and so relatable rather than getting lost and overwhelmed in the enormity of the entire process. Thank you.
As women with a vulva and vagina, i hate to see this idea that "it" has to be perfect. no vulva looks the same, they're all different, literally every single one of us, even a trans persons vulva and that's what's beautiful about women's vulvas. Women have been taught to feel very insecure about our vulvas and vaginas, how they look, feel and smell. so welcome to the club. i'm sure when you're properly healed that your vulva will look and feel like a normal vulva, after all what exactly does normal mean? Just know that you're not alone.
Well. Self lubricating and cleaning, for one. That’s normal.
@@heatherb9588 that goes without saying, no?
@@luminatrixfanfiction Hiya, so Trans women have some re-assignment surgeries that gives them self lubricating vaginas exhibit A: Rectosigmoid Vaginoplasty
Exhibit B: Penile-Peritoneal Vaginoplasty technique (SRS-PPV) a special type of vaginoplasty that select few hospitals have which is less riskier than Using the colon as the lining and instead using a bit of the penile skin and peritoneum pull through technique to create the neovaginal canal. No Shade just giving out new info if you want the articles a few is right here:
www.mtfsurgery.net/peritoneal-pull-through-vaginoplasty.htm
pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/28194347/#:~:text=Rectosigmoid%20vaginoplasty%20is%20useful%2C%20safe%2C%20and%20well-accepted%20operative,of%20a%20dilator.%20Is%20Rectosigmoid%20Vaginoplasty%20Still%20Useful%3F
@@luminatrixfanfiction Btw They are A She if you were referring to Maya if not ignore this comment. Have human decency thank you ☺️
@@luminatrixfanfiction listen I’m a trans woman myself and what you’re talking about right now is absolutely ludicrous. Firstly doctors do swear by oath to do no harm to their patient but this does not relate at all to trans re-assignment surgery. Trans women (the reason why I refer mostly to trans women is because trans men don’t get the bottom surgery much as doctors don’t have much experience with phalloplasty) overall feel happy in their bodies when they get bottom surgery and less dysphoric. What causes dysphoria? The feeling of being in the wrong body this has to do with gender identity and sometimes biological factors that we don’t entirely understand.
You can’t compare a trans person with a schizo or any other mental disorders because being trans is not a mental illness. I’m going to send you scientific articles about what dysphoria does to trans people and aftermaths of trans peoples surgery.
nationalpost.com/news/world/an-mri-brain-scan-can-reveal-if-you-are-transgender-says-study
greatlakesledger.com/2018/05/23/mri-scans-of-the-brains-of-transgender-people-are-different-from-non-trans-people-shows-study/
altermd.com/before-after/male-to-female-gender-confirmation-surgery/
www.hli.org/resources/what-percentage-of-transgenders-regret-surgery/
"The Pleasure Bean" sounds like the coolest coffee shop ever.
Glad to hear you're doing fine :)
OMG! This made me crack up. 🤣😂
Maya needs to copyright this asap! "The Pleasure Bean. Coffee by Maya" 😁
In my town we have a coffee shop called “Flick the Bean”.
I mean, I’d sip that coffee 😉
"A cup of you finest Pleasure Bean!"
Her regrets are so real, common and same with mine. I’m really happy that she has positive attitude. ❤️
You are so courageous and grounded. This is the most frank, real post-op report on RUclips. It will help thousands of people make informed decisions. THANK YOU
Courageous.......🤔
Regarding the TMI , what you're sharing is SO very important for those who are considering surgery. Thank you for sharing. I really admire you for being so open and candid. You give other trans hope for their future.
Literally never TMI. Mature people truly appreciate your raw and informative content. 🙂 Love your journey and your channel. Glad to have you back!
Very interesting, I'm a cis woman so really curious about this, thanks for being this honest and transparent. Happy that the healing process is going well overall, wish you all the best x
And by the way you are gorgeous all the time honestly 💕
Don't worry about the makeup, Maya, you have a natural beauty and not everyone has that. Take your time recovering from this surgery and don't rush things. We want you to be healthy, both physically and mentally, and we're all here for you, all 207K of us! xx
So glad you're back - and thank you for actually telling your experience in all the gorey (yet demonitisation avoiding) details. As someone who started transition later in life (33) and has many decisions about where it will go, it is really refreshing to hear actual details without either the panic of the transphobes or the rose tinted glasses that many trans people tend to view it with.
Go girl! Am in the process right now quite early now, but at my age I am envious of your recognizing yourself early enough. You look beautiful and I realize at my age the vocal range is out of my realm as well as my size and build. I am still working forward with it and use people like yourself for encouragement. Please continue with content and postings just for moral support for us late bloomers and girls that will never "pass". We need every positive that we can get. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.♥️♥️♥️♥️🙏
I love your videos and there’s never TMI! To many postop girls won’t discuss anything about their surgery.Your videos really help us girls out that are planning on having this surgery for the journey we will endure. I only have 3 more months until my surgery & I plan on doing what you are,giving as much information about my experience as they want no matter how in depth they want too get.Thanks Maya,keep them coming girl 💗
Hi, Maya! I’m a cis woman and I have had scars from other things, but if you use cocoa butter on your scars it fades away faster & a plus is it smells nice and is so moisturizing. You can get the jar of it or a stick for easier application. Using once a day or twice a day in morning to night.💓
I'm a middle-aged, cis woman.Girl, you are A MAY ZING! And let me tell you something. I've had two vaginal births, one vaginal hysterectomy and I'm 52. There is no perfect. We are all different down there and the aesthetic changes over time. The most important thing is sensations and that doesn't require a perfect aesthetic. Even sensations change as you get to know yourself better. After living as a straight woman for 40 years and then experiencing intimacy differently as a lesbian, I can tell you that sensation is more about your mind then the physical act. And you have a beautiful, brilliant mind.
Celebrate your new found freedom and live for today. You've accomplished so much with such intelligence, strength, beauty and grace. Don't forget that.
Why lesbian? Lesbians aren't attracted to Men.
@@tinakrisnaibot3233 that would suffice as a basic definition of a lesbian.
That is so beautiful, kind and true. You, my dear are also a wonderful, amazing woman!🌷💕🌸
@Hoodie got The uzi love reply and really love you’re RUclips moniker😅👍🏼.
Your video about preparing for the surgery helped me a lot. I ended up putting almost half of the stuff you did in the video I made recently. I go on Jan 25th! It’s exciting and giving me some anxiety, but overall happy. Thanks for the constant inspiration xo
Good luck to you! Hope everything is going well
Maya, you're beautiful with or without makeup, dressed up or down, by all means just be you.
It'll take time before all the results of your surgery come together, you may not need any additional tweaking. Take care, don't let anybody bring you down.
IMHO, trans or cis, all women look better when they are real, natural, without makeup. I never understood why women don't believe it when men tell them that.
I personally like both your appearance and your voice. It’s awesome. :)
Thanks for this informative update! It sounds like you’re doing great and you look lovely! Have you ever considered working in the medical/health field? You are so knowledgeable and have such a gentle and soothing manner! Patients would really respond well to you! Just something to think about!
We will all be so much happier when this kooky pandemic is behind us. You are not alone, dear one! ❤️ Stay well!
@Yo Dick don't we all
I just discovered your channel and this video. It sounds like phenomenally good news for so soon after surgery. Best wishes for continued positive progress in all aspects of your recovery. Congratulations on reaching this wonderfully promising stage!
Maya, my love, stay away from negativity people because they always want to create dramas. You are looking great and I admire your decision about the surgery as I know that is exactly who you are . Everything has its ups and downs but overall, you are doing great and look stunning. Love you lots always.
Good to see/hear this post. What you're doing here is very necessary and you do it so well. (It's shifted the way I, for one, think about such matters and that's no small achievement.) Full marks to your developing linguistic dexterity, achieved with such good humour (yes, I'm English). One minuscule piece of advice: give yourself time. Healing 'down there' takes ages. My perspective as a bloke is from a couple of relatively recent hernia ops that left me alarmingly swollen for a lot longer than I had expected from such a minor op! But it did all go down in time - and the numbness went too. Sympathies with the C-19 lockdown; it's the same here in London. And yes, so glad for you about the apartment.
I'm so glad you're happy, yes, these videos can be a bit graphic to some, it's good to learn about this, and what you had to go through for you to feel right in the right body. I personally am a straight female but I like to learn about all this. Thanks for sharing this with us, I know it can be quite private. And I'm happy you finally have your own place now. 🙂❤
Also, Just so you know, Miss Maya- coming from a very sensitive “pleasure bean” person, being sensitive is actually quite normal for many CIS females :) so, you’re pretty close to being “normal” being that it’s sensitive there- especially after an “O” ❤️🥰
I was thinking the same thing. Sometime direct stimulation on the bean is to much to enjoy. Sometimes a little off center is better. It takes years for women to get to know our bodies, and, it hasnt been to long since its been ok to discuss female pleasure. Consider it a normal journey!
My god, I didn’t even have an orgasm until I was in my 30’s! Talk about pitiful! But as someone previously mentioned, it’s pretty much beaten into our psyche’s all our lives that vaginas look ugly, smell bad, are gross, etc...it takes maturity and confidence through experience to really appreciate how amazing and beautiful all vaginas are! Many actually give birth to human lives! Now how could that be anything but phenomenal?!💕👏🏼💪🏼🌷
It's called a clitoris 🤦
Your soul is obviously female.. You turned into an intelligent and beautiful Woman. ♥️
How would a soul be male or female?
The soul is the true self. Our physical bodies are all made up of the same things. Your consciousness and soul are what resides with in your body. Your flesh is just a vessel loaned to you while your here on earth. Your soul lives on forever. We are all a little of both feminine and masculine. We have the choice . We also have a choice of being a Loving person or being a judgemental jerk while here. Which side do you choose? Just curious 😉
@@JDJD-mw9rr oh Go away🙄
How do you know it's "her" soul?
Read the book, The Unquiet Dead, by Dr. Fiore.
@@SomeOne-ji8ny I'm going to look this up. Sounds interesting.
Girl I love your personality. And you are so intelligent and well spoken I could listen to you all day. Which is why you have so many subscribers ❤️
Thank you for your authenticity and your openness. Nice to hear that things are progressing nicely😊
You have a great way of presenting many detailed aspects of your surgery unlike many I have viewed. Factual and informative to anyone considering this path. 200 K + subscribers obviously must agree , MAYA ROCKS !
Sounds to me like even your “failures” are kind of success in a way. Thank you for all the details and really happy for you and your partner.
You have taught me so much!!! You have done all your “homework “, and you are so strong to share all this!!! You are so amazing and I wish you all the best!!!! X
Every time I’m on here I can’t get over your skin!! It is perfect 💗
you are such an inspiration maya. im so happy for you. the fact that youre sharing these things that must be weird and uncomfortable to talk about because you know they will help other trans women, is so amazing ❤️
I've followed your story along the way and must say I can't imagine you were ever male. Your a gorgeous woman, a brillient speaker, well versed, glib, funny and anyone that becomes your eventual pardner should never have any problem with you or your body.. Sex is just a very small part of a relationship. I wish you continued good luck while your healing and you future looks dam good to me .
She wasnt. She was always herself.
I love following your journey Maya - with all the negativity in the world, just watching your strength and courage as you simply put one foot in front of the other with positivity puts all that other crap in perspective. This is life being lived and enjoyed. Thanks so so much for sharing.
I continue to be impressed with what an articulate, brave, generous, talented, lovely person you are! Which stands in stark contrast to the person whose comment you showed, who seems to be consumed with examining and criticizing other people’s lives, putting negativity into the world instead of living their own life. This video was so informative and helpful, an intimate subject, tastefully done, with humor. Congratulations on the new apartment! Can’t wait wait to see the lifestyle content you’ll create there. I always enjoy all your content, whatever the subject matter! 💖
You should definitely wait it out for a little while to get a view of the full result and how everything feels. My husband has a huge scar across his stomach, which has gotten flatter and lighter over the last 5 years and the numbness has reduced over time too. As long as you are not in constant pain you should give your body and mind time to recover from this life changing procedure. The hardest part is over, enjoy your life as a woman❣️
Honestly, hearing you talk and comfort yourself and be kind to yourself in your dialogue is so so so beneficial for my mental health. You are truly leading by example for self-love and I appreciate everything that you share with us, your community! :)
Welcome back Maya! It’s so beautiful to see your journey, been watching your channel for a few years now. Glad to see you’re doing well 🥰
I completed my second month post-op and had the same experience as yours. Thank you for posting and looking forward to updates! 💖✨
Thank you so much for your openness and honesty about your entire transitioning process, I have followed you for years and you have helped me so much in my own journey. Thank you Maya xxx
Ok so I just had to look at before and after pictures, they were from medical sites I hope that's ok..But they all looked great! All looked like normal vaginas to me, pretty amazing. Most men don't even know female anatomy lol, they're not going to notice if the labia minora isn't positioned perfectly
You don’t need the makeup and hair done. You are so naturally beautiful, and so totally present as female . As a biological woman myself, I am surprised at how female you present. Your voice, mannerisms etc. I can understand why you would want to make everything else complete. Blessings to you sweetie ❤
As a CIS woman I have both numbness and hypersensitivity in that same spot at times so in my opinion you're right on track girlfriend!
Your just a woman. There doesn't need to a prefix. A woman is either trans or a woman. There simply is no need to explain that your a woman.
@@Mandy-nt2csRight on. I am a man. Not "cis." Especially considering the alleged origin of the word, I prefer not to be referred to as such. I'm simply a man.
@Mandy-nt2cs cissy
I love watching your videos as I am just starting my trans journey and I really appreciate how real and honest you have been lately about everything that goes on with transitioning to be more informative for us girls looking to get some perspectives on the different hurdles we will face in our transitions. Keep up the great work!
Nia, a few words of advice as your journey continues: get negative toxic people out of your social circles and create a network of supportive friends and family. You're going to need support through this process. Just remember: never let anyone or anything stop you from this process. It's truly life saving. Lots of love.
Love that you’re recovering well and love the positive messaging at the end! I totally agree that trans women get some so much extra pressure to be perfect all of the time. Life is too short for all of that lol.
Darlin you do you. We like you and that’s why we are here. You have no idea how much your helping others. May you have a clear mind and soul. God speed. You know who you are. You look flipping gorge girl !
You are wonderful and the best part is still in the process of becoming all you want to be. Be Blessed and much Love to you Maya.
I'm glad you're accepting your new body , stay close to your family... two things , I've had surgeries that have cut through nerves (amputated part of an infected toe) and it can take a long time to desensitize back to normal ... I've also had a 3+ hour ankle reconstruction.. not as invasive or crazy as your procedure... and it takes well over a year for swelling to go down. You have the right attitude. Relax and go with it.
All us cis girls should send you photos 🤣🤣 you'll see how they come in all kinds of crazy shapes and sizes and colors.... no matter what you got... it's sufficient and it's yours and thats what matters... ♡
Im getting old and it's ok. Gravity has gotten ahold of lots of things. My body has changed with age and its quite shocking. We just have to go with it. Everyone is different
Seriously.
I think I might have ripped a labia minora a month or two ago accidentally when I was washing, pinched and pulled. So you can have the unsymmetrical and red new skin in a cis private area too. No idea what anybody else’s looks like but it’s bound to be varied like everything else is.
As a retired nurse i find your info interesting. I have had only one surgery, a low cut cesarean. The nerve sensation was never the same again. it still feels numb on and around the suture line and that was 33 yrs ago. I never felt the same again. It feels like the nerves never lined up again in a large area. This stuff is really serious. I cannot even imagine going through what you have gone through. In my mind we "ALL" have a 3 piece set and it makes no difference at all to me. I wish everyone felt that way. If you are a woman with a male 3 piece set, good by me. I really don't understand what all the fuss is about. I hope one day we will all love and accept everyone, without feeling we have to jump through all of these hoops to be different. Thank you for sharing your story.
As a person who have put anime as PP, we don’t claim that bigot. I can’t wait to get my own surgery and your videos help me see how things are going for a trans woman who have been living as a woman for years now. Love you, m(a)y(a) love!
Thank you so much for this video. I'm a trans man, trying to learn about "the other side" as it were, and I love your approach to this subject matter, it makes surgery much more humanized. Thanks for sharing!
Vagimjams are like snowflakes, girl. Wait until you’re fully healed before you overthink your new part :)
Awesome comment! I love the Snowflake reference! 😁❄️❄️😁
I can’t get over how beautiful you are. Not only gorgeous but well spoken and fluent in your speech. You are still very young and you have achieved so much. Also you are humble and you share your thoughts quietly and with purpose. I wish for you only the best life has to offer , and I feel with your level of kindness, and maturity you can handle any bump in the road that may come your way. Thank you for sharing this private part of your life.
Thank you Maya for your bravery and for enlightening those of us old people that have always had questions. Big Hugs from me to you.
Thank you for talking about it in such detail! There are people out there who are genuinely interested in how you're doing and how the surgery actually ends up looking and feeling!
Your honesty is both refreshing and appreciated. Thank you!
Thank you *_SO_* much for continuing to chronicle your GCS journey! 🥰 My GCS will be on 8/20 this year and your anecdotes shed so much light and clarity on what I might encounter! Congratulations and best wishes on a continuing excellent recovery! ❤️✌️
You are so knowledgeable. I’m a cis woman that enjoys learning about the experiences of transgender folks. I consider myself an ally and feel as though I still have so much to learn. Thank you for sharing your experience!
I think this video is one of your best. Your frank discussion of the effects o your surgery but more importantly you attitude and your realistic expectations. I hope you continue to recover and regain sensation. Speaking as a retired gynecologist all V & Vs are different and unique.
You are really helpful to parents of transgender girls who are concerned about the wellbeing of their kids. Thank you. You are the best. Love you.
You’re a trash parent if you let your kids transition
@@Jjjbbb5678 actually I am child psychiatrist. And you are a troll. 😜
@@SROBERT123 if you encourage kids to take experimental hormone blockers and mutilate body parts you deserve to go to hell
@@Jjjbbb5678 Troll.
@@Jjjbbb5678 you've been reported.
Thank you so much for "going there" with us and sharing the details. It's refreshing to see you being so open, this is what helps others. You're doing a great job and I'm so glad you are well.
Speaking from experience, it really can take up to a year for the swelling to go down completely/for you to actually see your full results!
Well-spoken, courageous and absolutely gorgeous without makeup!!
You're transparency is so pristine, you inspire me to be a better person
Hi!! As a cis woman I believe my parts r.e., the hood and labia minora are the same as you described yours-there is just so much diversity in labia/hood shape/size in general!! 🤍🤍🥰
As someone exploring and figuring out gender, I really appreciate you being open about such personal things like gender confirmation surgery. It feels like it's impossible to find information and people don't ever speak frankly about it. Thank you so much, Maya!
Aren't we born w God given gender? There is nothing to figure out here. You are deceived.
@@olenaj6188 regardless of one's "God given gender," if someone would like to alter their body in any way, have the means to do so, and are happy with what they have decided to do - how does that impact you, a complete stranger, in any way?
@@KeelyAnn I have the right to speak what I wish just like you. I choose to openly call out deception for what it is because truth is the only thing that will set us free and lead many out of darkness. Do you know how many regret changing their gender? Their lives are ruined BECAUSE they were deceived. Had the truth been spoken to them they could have recognized lies.
@@olenaj6188 of course you have the right to speak your mind (: I'm curious on why some feel so strongly about others life decisions that don't impact them personally. Everyone is entitled to their opinion. I have heard stories from people on regretting their transition, and I have also heard from others who are truly happy with their decisions in life. Ultimately I believe our soul and spirit aren't necessarily male or female. Our souls do live within a human shell while on this earth though, and if for some reason someone feels gender dysphoria and like they aren't themselves, and are able to do something about it in order to live a happier life, than who am I to judge? Many individuals who do come to regret their decision in regards to transitioning, have experienced trauma in their life which impacted the way they viewed themselves and the choices they have made-and come to regret. There are also other folks who have grown up free from trauma and felt a soul and body disconnect, and were very happy with their choices regarding this issue. I don't claim to understand everything by any means, but I do try to have an open mind, and support others in living their lives how they see fit, learning from their mistakes, etc.
@@KeelyAnn Speaking the truth is NOT judging. It is love that causes us to care about others. When I see a person being deceived I will speak up in hopes to help that person. Stop with your "you are judging, hate speech, close minded" kind of talk. You said it yourself this is connected to trauma and the reason people try to physically change themselves because they dislike themselves the way they are, they are trying to not be themselves to become happier. Instead of teaching them to love themselves THE WAY THEY ARE, they are deceived into rebelling against God. God makes all things beautiful and does not make mistakes. Are they taught this truth? No. This truth is conveniently hidden from them. And when someone like me boldly speaks up the truth, someone like you tries to go into this philosophy how we are sooooo close minded and tries to shame us into being judgemental, hateful, or racist which can not be further from our real intentions: to help. When an 8 year old decides to get a surgery for a gender change and is taken away from parents by state authorities because parents try to help the child who doesn't yet know what he/she is doing, perhaps just trying to get accepted or hears this teaching 24/7 how cool it is to change genders - all of THIS is wrong on all levels and absolutely affects me personally, my world and the people I love. Don't bs me abt having an open mind. My mind, heart and soul are fully open to the truth. Open your mind to truth, reject lies and false teaching. THEN you can tell me what the soul is all about.
Thank you for this video! I'm currently 2 weeks post op and I've never been happier. I totally connect with all of your feelings and emotions. You are 100% my go to trans girl when looking for videos. Happy recovery ❤
Maya's videos are a fascinating insight. I'm not trans, but I do support people being happy.
Thank you SO much for this video series on your surgery recovery. I’m headed to talk with the surgeon to start the same process next week so knowing some truth to what I’m facing has been so comforting. You’re amazing! Thanks for what you do darling!
Wow very informative indeed ,thank you so much ,I’m still in the process to think about it but it help me to know some of the expectations I should consider ,thanks a lot dear Maya, good luck ,keep us up to it please cheers
Maya, believe me, girl with or without makeup you look beautiful and the fact that you have an honest and genuine personality, makes you even more attractive. I follow your videos and I'm glad to see and hear that you are doing so well right now. I get a lot out of your videos with the information you provide as I'm sure most of the other girls do too, especially thoughts of us who are considering surgery. Thank you Maya xx
I'm really happy for you. I can't wait to feel that happiness. My electrologyst says I am making good progress, I hope she's right. My birthday in September is my goal.
Pretty clear you’re a dude
Crazy what doctors can do. This was very interesting and soul lifting to watch! Happy for you Maya.
You’ve really made me feel better about this surgery, I’m on the waiting list to get it on the NHS in the UK and I was mostly scared about dilation tbh
Being unhappy about how "down there" looks is part of being a woman
100%
Welcome to womanhood ❤️❤️
There's nothing wrong with how "down there" looks. It's a work of art by Mother Nature.
Bullshit. Seriously, this is kind of a gross comment, not true, and feels like internalised misogyny.
Maybe you were just trying to be kind, but there's no need to say stuff like this, sorry. Plenty of women are not unhappy about how their genitals look, and the fact that you use the euphemism "down there" honestly makes it seem like you have serious issues with the female body. I'm sorry for you if you feel that way, but it's not "part of being a woman".
@@Saan42 glad you can be so confident with your "down there" but so many women are infact not 100% ok with how their "down there" looks. Especially after any aging or childbirth.
@@freedomvandersypen3933 I'm not denying that some women feel that way, however I take issue with the statement that feeling that way is "part of being a woman". It's absolutely not, and to suggest it is feels very misogynistic to me.
I feel proud of you, to be so natural telling your story. Is much easier for so many other people to understand the transformations that we see around. Keep up with your positive attitude.🙏👍🙏👌😊🌈🌺❤️🌼
I'm just so scared. Scared to transition. Scared of society. Scared I'm wrong. Scared something bad will happen. Scared that I will be more scared. I'm starting therapy soon, but even that, I'm scared.
Its a scary time, period!
I’m scared too right now for different reasons but that feeling of utter fear is one I’m living with. I wish I could make everything better for everyone.. take away their pain. Remember though.. pain.. it’s how we learn and grow and without it there would be nothing. Without knowing what it’s like to be scared or hopeless we could never understand hope and love or know we were having fun. It’s the great juxtaposition of life. One thing that I do know is (to quote Florence and the machine and everyone else who’s ever said it) that it’s always darkest before the dawn. So when you feel the worst there is always something so much better on the horizon. Trust in that and the darkness will slowly fade away. 💜
Meditate daily. It will take the fear away and replace it with trust 💜
U should be scared... because such a body modification may have a detrimental impact on Ur longevity. Anytime, anyone alters what Mother Nature provided, said individual places him/ herself in the "span of life" risk pool. E.g. When an athlete uses anabolic steroids that althlete puts him/herself in that very risk pool. It's proven that use of such steroids can and will cause health issues. How serious those health issues are dependent on a variety of individual variables. COVID is ultimately the result of genetic mutation resulting from chemical saturation/alteration/adsorption-absorbtion in the ecosystem. Ergo, it would've foolish to think that such a body modification wouldn't be inherent of life-altering/ affecting risks. So think and research before you decide to make "thee switch." Just being conceived and born has its own inherent risk. Modifying that which vame natural magnifies that risk.
Ive got people talk negative everywhere i go. I ignore them. No family. No friends. But im transsexual forever
Thank you Maya for your candid input here. Been following you for a few years and I love your vids. I myself had the surgery 1yr and 5 mo ago. Couldn't be happier and hopefully after discussing with my surgeon and getting insurance approval we're hoping sometime mid spring, beginning of summer. I'm so glad you are doing well with everything. Nothing but love here for you girl.
I have such a long way to go. I hope my journey goes well
I’m a woman and always have been and I’m very happy that your body is working correctly. And best of all, you are who you were always supposed to be. Ps...we all have mental roadblocks at times, so no worries. I think you are incredibly brave to have the surgery and don’t worry you will be absolutely fine and comfortable.💕💕💕💕💕
So glad you're feeling good and healing well! I'm wondering: do you feel like the gynecology profession is as educated as they should be on caring for trans patients? Seems like maybe finding a gyno might be challenging and could be an area that the medical field could improve on, but maybe I'm wrong and that kind of education is more present than I think it is.
All vulvas are unique so even if it is anatomically slightly different, majority of people can't really tell the difference. Think of it as a designer part, it looks great, feels great and that's the most important thing. :)
First off: love the term "pleasure bean".
I'm ftm and I still find your videos oddly affirming and educational, like any trans journey affirms me, just seeing others who feel so themselves in this way. But it's just also nice for me to be more aware of the trans femme journey so I can be a good ally to my sisters too.
I recently had top surgery and so I recognize the weird "sensation" of your brain being confused. I touch the underside of my scar and it is distinctly "underboob" and then above the scar is much higher up on my chest , according to my brain. And I have sensation in my nipples so they register as nipples in my brain, but I also have nerves deeper under the skin that's like, "no I'm the nipple" and the two sensations want to connect in my brain, but they aren't in the same place physically. So yeah, the brain gymnastics are real!
Thank you. You are so brave and beautiful. Thank you for having the courage to share the details that might not be comfortable.
Congratulations on the new apartment!!!
I’m so glad that you’re fine 💕 can’t wait to see more new videos 💗
It takes a long time to fully heal. Numb areas will usually come back over a year or two and swelling will go down over an extended period as well. It takes a long time to fully, fully heal. Don't get stressed over it. All the tissue will settle, scars will fade and nerves will slowly grow back.
I appreciate your honesty Maya. What I wish, based on listening to you, is that there are more good doctors that help trans people with their transition without making them regret surgery just because of a doctor being indifferent or incompetent. Your recovery seems to be going well and the surgery will soon be a thing of the past, because it’s not the main thing about being a trans person, I’m so happy for you and the success that you are for your community. 😊♥️
You are beautiful inside and out girl! Thank you for being so genuine about who u r and what u want to represent. Ps. U have beautiful eyes! Frfr not just throwing sugar to b sweet- I mean it. Praying for a speedy recovery!
The pleasure bean, I haven’t heard that one before! 🤣 I’m so glad to hear that you feel more reaffirmed in your gender x 🥺🥰
Thank you for sharing all this. And being so open about the things you experience. I wish you all the best for your journey!
Girl, everyone’s labia is so different and no one is ever down there inspecting things except your doctor. Rest easy and give yourself time to heal. Best wishes.
I love how real you are about everything 💜 this has been really informative!
As a ciswoman, I appreciated this as my vagina doesn't look or work perfectly either. It's been a pretty similar process in getting to know and appreciate my body, especially over different phases of life. I guess the beauty of our vaginas is that they are ultimately uniquely ours. Thanks for sharing!
Maya,
I saw Dr. Brassard about three weeks before you. Your expressing all the stages I too am experiencing is very helpful. I too do not have any regret and am very happy to be rid of what was not wanted.
The appearance and numbness will improve over time and your posts remind me of that.
Thank you.
Stephanie
I am finding this very interesting even though I’m not intending this process for myself. Thankyou for being so candid and sharing. You are very pretty also. XX
A Trans woman on another channel said that coldsores in the mouth were a given when going thru the surgery. I’m not trans but do get coldsores from time to time and Abreva works if you jump on it early enough. As soon as you get the lump in your mouth get it covered with the Abreva. Small tube, a bit spends but it saves 10 days of discomfort.
It sounds if you had enough to deal with .It's hard enough having major life changing surgery plus all the post operation care then having to find an apartment on top of it all...no wonder you've been so busy .
I am so grateful for your candor but actually also for the sincere personal details you ad about your feelings.
You are so poised, articulate, and such a good spokesperson for trans people in my opinion.
Totally agree!! Such a Lovely young woman!