My Experience With Schizophrenia and Psychosis
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- Опубликовано: 3 май 2021
- It was awfully difficult making this video, if you did end up watching this thank you. It is easy to forget people care about you with something this so I hope that I can connect with anyone who can relate, and express my vulnerability in an effort to take away the stigma behind a mental illness like this. I also hope that in time we can work on legalizing psychedelics so that more research is found that will support the theory of whether or not psychedelics can be as effective, if not more effective than common SSRI’s and anti depressants
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Thank you for this video, my 19 year old son was just hospitalized a month ago for paranoid schizophrenia after months of hearing voices and feeling watched by strangers and possibly the government. I needed your story to understand better what he is going through, and I have hope that you, my son, and others living with this condition can stay in recovery and live productive, successful, & fulfilled lives. Again, thank you, and please keep us updated on your journey in that successful, meaningful life.
You are not alone. You’re bright, intelligent, and courageous. Take heart and know that it will get better. Your life matters and anything you set out to do can be accomplished. The weed can induce psychosis along with the bad habits you described. My son went through a similar episode when he was only 16. Tough age. He has had to battle the stigma and shame that goes along with the tag “mentally ill”. I'll subscribe to your channel and watch as you get the word out. Peace
Thank you brother, you are not alone in this fight against yourself.
I’ve been slowly learning to accept that thank you 🙏🏽
This broke my heart, can’t believe how u can feel this much pain just by watching someone who’s feeling pain .I now started to look up for explanations after a long time of denial and worry of how others would perceive me ..I’m very young and ambitious, don’t get sad easily even if I did I pick my self right up .. I go days without sleeping because I’m THAT ambitious. Turns out that these were nothing but symptoms, I was very scared when I first heard someone talking to me in my head .. I couldn’t explain this to anyone not even my self , ppl around me aren’t very familiar with mental illnesses.. so they wouldn’t understand either.Feels like a black whole that only you can feel it’s depth .
I wish nothing but the best for you and anyone struggling
Anytime anyone goes days without sleeping, they will cause an immense amount of harm to their mind. Make sure you do your best to get at least 6-7 hours of sleep every night if you can, you will be surprised how productive you can be with a full nights sleep ❤️
I was diagnosed Last year With paranoide schizofrenia and it is so hard blessings for you
Thank you for sharing... it makes me feel less alone, I hope I have enough courage to make a vid about my schizophrenia one day
Thank you for your story, stay strong brother.
You really made this so relatable for people that probably are feeling the same way you are and I can actually relate to you even though I don't have those symptoms I can feel your pain in your words I would really like to hear more about your experiences in more detail you're very strong person and you're very good at articulating your feelings
Thank you for sharing. Would love to see more videos on this
When you cried I cried with you.. my son Jeffrey has the same schizophrenic symptoms for 11 years now.. he is I a mental facility now.. maybe he will be good tomorrow to pick him up… we will see…. Love you brother❤
Oscar, wishing you well as you continue on your journey.. thank you for sharing. I suffer with depression and multiple sclerosis. When we don’t look any different on the outside, sometimes people don’t realize that we may be struggling. Keep your head up! Join a support group.. I have had counseling, support group and a few supportive friends and husband. Don’t face this alone.. no shame.. f-- the stigma! Get the help you need!! As people of color, we often are told to suck it up.. you don’t know how good you have it here! You don’t need no help. It takes a great deal of strength and courage to tell your truth! Much love to you ..
you are a wonderful yoing man thank you so much for sharing ❤❤❤ god will bless you
I REALLY appreciate you sharing your story. A lot of what you said resonated with me. A lot better than the information videos/readings on Schizophrenia. Thank you. If you see this comment & have the time to reach out, I would like to ask questions. I'm nobody but someone trying to figure themselves out.
Ask away ! Anything I could share with you that you think would help in any way, I don’t mind at all
Stay strong brudda
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I hope you’re doing & feeling good
Stay strong ma boy 💪🏾
Hope you're feeling better. Stay safe.
thank you
Wow this was painful to watch, I appreciate you making this video, you are a very brave person for sharing this🤍
I relate to how you feel got diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder at 18 stay safe bro
I want to hug you..my daughter going through same thing😍
I accept your virtual hug 🤗❤️
Its heartbreaking to see you cry, man :^(
My brother had a reaction 3 days ago and he has been admitted to a phyc hospital am just praying that he feels himself again... They gave him haldol and he is still sedated.... How long did they keep you there and how long did you take to feel like your self again... This video was on point and needed..
I was in there for 5 days, and it took a couple weeks before I felt normal again, but even the normal wasn’t my true self, especially after they gave me haldol I just felt very numb from everything
Thanks from Chile I was diagnosed with schizophenia in 2019 I am 34 years old I am so sad I do not have not symptoms but I do not know what to do with this diagnosis is so hard
Some of the things that I have done to help my mental health out are the regular things you hear about like eating a little better and exercising, making sure I get atleast about 7 hours of sleep every night ( I try 😂) and just doing things I love like making music. If they told you to take a medication, then I would maybe try it out but if the medication they give you isn’t helping than I would recommend learning about microdosing psychedelic mushrooms because I discovered that there are TONS of people with all kinds of mental illnesses (including schizophrenia) that have been treated with mushrooms…. Including myself
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What meds do you take and how much mg
I microdose occasionally on mushrooms and excercise often to keep my mental alright…. I don’t know what medications or SRIs are recommended for mental illness this severe, but I’ve been doing good using these two components as medicine. I love basketball so it’s easy to stay in shape, but I also smoke a lot of weed which is probably not the best thing for me. However im not alone, a majority of people diagnosed with schizophrenia tend to do some form of narcotic because of how hard it is…. I just don’t abuse anything… My best advice is taking fitness seriously one day at a time, excercise is the one drug every human being can indulge in without negative side effects
@@oscar5mj23 thats crazy i have to take my meds, abilify or else i get delusional schizophrenia effects everyone differently i suppose
Did you have depression on steroids after all this happened? I’m 24 and was doing very well before my marijuana induced psychosis. Started manic thought Jesus was working through me for some weeks, then it went dark and I had demons living inside me and crazy shit. Double meanings in conversations and the TV speaking to me through signs, colors had meanings(red means don’t do it or think about something) etc. off the wall shit but seems so real in the moment
I just thought I had to get through it and it would all be done. I could go back to my girl, my body and lifestyle and I got so depressed I tried to take my life. 3 times in a facility now and finally doing better. Life is just blah now I don’t have the same motivation or confidence that I used to
@@leesmith6740 I lost a lot of hope when I had those breakdowns, and yes very similar to what you experienced. I thought at one point I was the second coming, it was very very hard and it still has been…. I used to believe that it would be alright if I took my life, because of how alone I felt, (but as you can see we aren’t alone in it) but doing the things that I truly enjoy, like things that I felt was innately connected with me like creating music for example, or playing basketball, kindve just keeping myself busy but also being productive… it’s hard to escape this darkness once you’re there, but if there was any reason to live at all it was to see how far I can go in life staying true to myself and committing to the things I love doing. It’s been like 5-6 years now and I’ve repeated the cycle of wanting to live, and not wanting to, but I always come back to the perspective that if I just keep pushing with these positive ideas in mind I can get to a place where I can feel alive again. The most confusing thing about mania is that it was the most euphoric and intensely pleasurable feeling (despite all the hallucinations and delusions) I’ve ever experienced. Trying to get back that feeling was like a trap, because if I did manage to feel like that again it became even harder to get out of. You gotta put in work to maintain your mental health whether it’s going for walks or jogging, taking time to learn skills that you’ve always been fascinated with, going out and just doing something DIFFERENT to remind yourself how fresh the experience of living can feel ! However I’d be a hypocrite if I said it was the one size fits all answer, the hardest part is staying consistent and not falling back into that dark space, but as I improve myself in different areas of life I also improve my CONFIDENCE, and that is a big help to stay out of that space.
I couldn’t agree more about the euphoria, I still get goosebumps hearing certain songs, I used to not even like Michael Jackson and his music was the best during my mania phase. But yeah when I say dark I mean my moms Michael Jackson poster in my basement turned into a devil looking thing telling me to just breathe and I need to see this to save the world. I was on a huge mission and felt towards the end when things were bad that I was the antichrist taking on the sins of the world and being reborn to save everyone. Doesn’t make sense and hard to explain but yeah. Finding that drive and just hunger for life and joy in everything has been really hard. Guitar snowboarding and gaming have been 2/10 and they used to be 9/10. I think it will take a lot of time to heal but it showed me just how resilient a motherfucker can be. Nobody can relate because nobody has been through what you and I both went through and continue to go through. It’s really hard to fathom the suffering endured. Who knows maybe we are some type of prophets taking on evil and are rewarded as pimps in the after life
@@oscar5mj23 do you have schizoaffective bipolar type I do to
curse/blessing ... it depends on how the user sees it
schizophrenic symptoms are more ancient and i actually buy into my own delusions.
i study this shit and i realized theres demonic forces that r unseen in this dimension they live in a loop snd if they are able to attach onto u and control u they will make u black out usually it happens to ppl who get xanned out . or excessive amounts of alcohol r used they black out and take control opon ur body .
but it can also happen to u if ur brain has more
unlocked potential. i found many ways i dont allow them to ever control me but basically i now can communicate with these spirits and they guide me threw out important decisions , its rlly hard to explain but like the main one is usually the gut - so ur own intuition u keep it clean and healthy and it helps guide u then theres always ppl who worship other spirits and i usually sense when they r around cus they have a huge aura around - i personally dont worship any because i believe they can make a conttact that then makes u slave upon - but alls i can say is to study the occult study what the ancients mayans and natives did with schizophrenia. usually they isolated them at youth and they were in a mission to commune and make the new rules for their society
demonic but they can also be angelic to be honest it sounds like u were doing some sort of energy work with the wind its common in ancient times but if u blacked out most likely it was that an angelic force that took control
@@SDaniLogiQ talk about more of this energy work with the wind, that’s really fascinating because I have faint memories of doing something like that
Funny the hole in the wall.
it is funny kus you know damn well i punched that shit in out of anger hahaha but im in a better place praise God
My son has recently been diagnosed with schizophrenia at first they thought it was schizotypal personality disorder he just turned 18. The only emotion we see now is anger do you experience that too.
All too often I get very angry, I wish there were simpler methods to calm me down but yes very often… it is hard for people around me to see and also makes it hard for me to connect as deep as I would like with many people, but I notice that if I stay aligned with what I naturally want to do with my life, (exercise is a big one) music, keeping in touch with loved ones from time to time, then these angry symptoms won’t be so frequently visited by me. However, it’s very hard, just today I almost lost my shit 😭 but I try to remember to breathe deeply and that the thing I’m angry about isn’t going to be on my mind for too long
@@oscar5mj23 thank you for your response Oscar. If you do not mind sharing did you cut off your friends too? Not to compare just looking for some insight. My son will not reach out to any of his cousins they are all young adults now and could be sharing life experiences together but he only wants to interact with me mom and dad rarely his older sister and we all live in the home together. He is also not that verbal at all for instance he would not be able to post a video about his experiences like you have.
@@patriciatoney240 I definitely did and you have to understand, very few people are even WILLING to understand this illness, and part of the reason is because very little is known about it. Even doctors and scientists don’t fully comprehend the capabilities of the mind, and so it remains a mystery in modern society. When most Americans think of someone with schizophrenia they picture ‘disability’ and so it creates a feeling of separation. One, the person with the illness feels very few if anyone can understand him, and the others (his cousins for example) probably can’t even relate or don’t feel that they can. It is easy to feel like a burden with the illness and it’s a big reason why I don’t reach out enough personally. Until I conditioned my mind into believing I am worthy of love despite all this crazy, I was fine with isolation. Friends and family can help by sending all the love and genuine words of encouragement possible to lift up the individual struggling
@@oscar5mj23 let me know if I am asking too many questions.as I said before I greatly appreciate you sharing your experiences. What made me click on your video is because you are a young black man and my son is too. What did it take for it to click in your mind that you are worthy? I tell my son he can have everything he desires he has to want it. My son is young he wants a job he wants to drive but execution is the main reason he has not achieved these things. Did you have trouble initiated getting started with your goals and what did you tell yourself to get them done?
@@patriciatoney240 if I can help at all I feel obligated so it’s no problem… but that’s a tough question. Everyone’s experience is different, it’s going to take time and patience, I myself am still leveling up on self confidence, but if I could give examples of things that helped me out, it was diving deeper into a spiritual journey and educating myself on what was right for me to ingest, whether it be food or information. When I started reading a lot of self help books I gained a better attitude and understanding of life in general, but also realizing my mind can improve based on the proper sustenance I provide it made me do things differently. It took a bit of time, but anyone can prosper from telling themselves positive things repeatedly. I won’t tell you I have all the answers but I have spent a lot of time researching on what I could do to improve my life because of how low I’ve been. Sometimes those low points are greater teachers than some of the brightest individuals