I shoudn't take things so serious I don't think they mean any harm But it would sicken you too If it happened to you And you had to relive every part Here come the flashbacks And the panic attacks How long does that shit last I'm losing myself by the day see And I know you all think that I'm crazy That the demons that show up At the foot of my bed Are just figments from memories That fucked up my head That night terrors ain't nothin But a real bad dream So quit being a God Damn drama queen I seal myself in a sound proof room So no one can hear how loud I scream But you don't think it's as bad as it seems Cause you've never dealt with PTSD Frozen in your track Take a visit to the past To see the devils dirty deed Leave a mark all down your back I can't even be around cigarettes You know how many people smoke? Approximately one billion And just about everybody I know You think you know but you don't When someone's broke you can't just heavy sigh And roll your eyes Like if they ain't physically ill Then they must be a liar But wouldn't you recede to the fire If everything around you became a threat And everyone surrounding you said GET OVER IT It becomes unbearable to live in So listen Triggers are relentless They ain't gonna quit They don't go away just cause you don't Believe it Reliving each nightmare on an everyday basis I don't think I can do this I don't think I can take this Frozen in your tracks Take a visit to the past To see the devils dirty deed Leave a mark all down your back Frozen in your tracks Take a visit to the past To see the devils dirty deed Leave a mark all down your back You sent my mind on fire Sparks flying I'm rewired You left me no desire Broken and uninspired I feel you all conspire Left all alone with liars Hopeless so I get higher And higher till I'm tired And there's no reminder Of what I'm crying for Cause I can't fucking do this anymore Frozen in your tracks Take a visit to the past Repay the devils dirty deed With a gash all down his back You set my mind on fire Sparks flying I'm rewired You left me no desire Broken and uninspired Hopeless so I get higher And higher till I'm tired And there is no reminder Of what I'm crying for I can't do this anymore What am I even fighting for?
Hey hey I don't know if you understand I win this he My I have been true to you all you do no it for life I promise past past level that shit behind it my he is let go don't hurt because im telling Tell you the truth store
I wonder how many people realize the scene that Maleficent woke up screaming with her wings burned off is a metaphor about rape- going to sleep with someone you think you trust, only to not know they drugged you and took something from you (wings and virginity respectively). Even though Maleficent was able to reunite with her wings, rape victims can't get that back. Stay strong, let your friends be your wings to keep you stable until you can fly by yourself.
exactly.. not many know that fact. i actually put an article from vanity fair in the description.. i wrote the song and showed my girlfriend and then she made this for me. it was too painful to create myself so she told me she had the perfect movie .. she was right. thank you for listening. i hope you enjoyed it!
@@SkyDxddy That's cool that you put an article about it in the description. More people need to know. You're welcome! I really enjoy your music, I actually found you on tiktok first, then looked for you on youtube and Spotify. Your songs, the lyrics, the meanings, they all hit deep.
0:43 ok those few lines couldn't be more true and realistic, some people think its all fun in games until it happens to them, its all jokes and a laughing matter until they get to see it with there own eyes
I know you won't see this. But I just wanted to say that I am so thankful for this song. I have PTSD really bad, I was sexually assaulted three times and was in a very abusive Relationship and this helps me cope. I've never been able to find a song that I can relate to about my PTSD and ever since I found this over a year ago I play it all the time. So thank you so much for this amazing song. I'm still fighting. I'm not a victim. I'm a survivor.
i believe u can do it...it wasn't ur fault so u don't need to be sad...u r the best cz u have survived until now and believe me u will in future too but u ARE NOT survivor but a WINNER👏👏👏
I was abused when I was 8 years old until I turned 13 years old. I remember what happened to me. I was diagnosed with PTSD, Flashbacks and Nightmares at 14 years old. I'm on medicine for my diagnosis. It really helps me to cope the majority of the time. I'm still in therapy with a female therapist who has been with me until I turned 17 years old. I'm 37 years old now and I will be 38 years old in May of this year. I will be hopeful to be able to get a new female therapist soon to be able to work with again and work through my other mental health diagnosis that I have. Skydxddy I think you are doing awesome music that I can relate to. ❤️
I understand. Im 33, and It took me till I was 30 to relive the memories I repressed when I was a child. Listen, though, what happened absolutely wasn't your fault, and I know how hard it is to accept it, but repeat it, like a mantra. You're valid, you're seen ❤
It was for me was never strong enough I'm not even strong enough to get out of bed in the morning but ppl pretend like it's easy and act like it's a joke but it's serious and it happens to much
So powerful. Using the Maleficent clips is like thr icing on the cake, too. My wife showed me your work and my jaw is still dropped at how dope your work is.
I know those feelings all too well...I fight the demons of PTSD daily. My therapist said it best when she said " there is nothing wrong with you mentally EXCEPT for the fact that you've been through traumatizing situations that unfortunately a pill and no amount of talking can take away the fact that those events happened. All you can do is hold your head up and say "I SURVIVED" and hope that maybe you can save another from experiencing the same pain"
Thank you. 10 years of being SAed by my father and it took others screaming I’m not alone for me to see it. My inner child is so scared but we’re trying to fix what they broke. The night terrors the ptsd the anxiety I struggle just doing my job where I take care people. Thank you for screaming for us who can’t or feel they aren’t strong enough
I...I am not diagnosed with PTSD. Possibly because I keep the things that have happened close to my chest. However, it needs to be said that I thank you for this song. It makes me feel less alone. And that even if I can't speak my truth yet, someone else is speaking theirs.
it becomes more bearable with time. I tell people what happened to me and let them decide if they feel safe or comfortable enouph to share with me or not. ive been the first person to know someones story so many times this way, and when they where ready helped them tell others and they eventually grow out of needing the blanket of security i offer as they find their own voices.
you cant keep flashbacks to yourself. It takes everyone around me to talk me back into the present every time, and I can be trapped in rumination memory yelling and pleading to not be hurt again, out loud at someone gone a year now for 15 hours at a time or I get trapped in days of complete fear shut downs where I do nothing, no sleep no eating no nothing but sit crying in terror. ptsd is a bit different to c-ptsd. both are awful.
I just recently discovered your music thru a friend and I'm so obsessed now. I'm 51yrs old. I am a domestic violence survivor with severe ptsd and I can't even tell you what your music means to me. Thank you🖤💜🖤💜🖤
46 same and yep, my new life is this song and fighting being trapped in it again non stop. its only been a few months I got away properly and put into a safe house system, they say it will take time but it will get easier to control :(
I just love how some did a maleficent edit of her pain and didnt make her out to be the villain. She was betrayed by her first friend turned lover in the worst way and just expected to let that go? I always saw the 3 fairy mothers as the villains cause they knew what happened and still took the side of the betrayer. They basically just gaslight her cause she shunned humans from the grove after having her wings cut off by the guy she trusted most. He did that to her for greed and used her for his gain. He wasnt a good person anymore after that night. That song was great and fit perfectly. Hits hard to cause its true.
As someone who suffers from ptsd This song makes my anger and rage at the world so much easier to deal with Thank you Thank you for making it easier to deal with day by day
Love this so much. ❤ It truly helps with coping. I have C-PTSD and BPD as a result of 10+ years of abuse and multiple compounded traumas. This song gives me words yo describe it.
God bless you, nobody should have to deal with the diplaced issues of others. The best thing i know to do is to make sure it ends . I sometimes struggle not to be hurtful to people. I try to remember how it feels and that i never want anyone else to feel that way..♥️
@@thetruthspeaker1978 Thank you! ❤ And yes, breaking the cycle is SO important! I struggle with it too b/c you do wind up harboring so much anger & hurt from what was done to you but you also know you can't take it out on people who didn't do it. Its hard but its worth every moment of recovery and healing.
I have cptsd as well... It's ridiculous the amount of bullshit I've been dealt. Feels so unfair, if it weren't fory children I would no longer be here...
Trauma is when you think you're safe and something happens that makes you realize you aren't. You are not being dramatic. You just realized that you are not as safe as you thought you were. As someone who has been sexually harassed by both men and other women, I can tell you that it is normal to become more cautious around people and to feel uncomfortable. However, if it has come to the point where you have flashbacks, panic attacks, or no longer feel safe around people you may need to seek professional help because there most likely is another more serious underlying trauma involved. To be fair though, I "fought off" anyone who sexually harassed me, which may have lessened the trauma's effect on me. Additionally, everyone reacts to trauma differently so don't just take my word for it.
Many small but bad things happened to me and at some point I ended up in a mental health clinic and one patient opened my eyes about the way I was thinking with one sentence "just because other's had it worse doesn't mean u're struggles aren't valid" he said that after a long conversation and me feeling bad about complaining since he experienced many more hard times than me... u're not over dramatic
I wasn't assaulted or anything. But my family member hid a camera in the bathroom to record me showering. I have never felt like the same person since. A part of me will always remain in that bathroom. All trauma is valid. I dont feel my trauma is significant enough to talk about or complain about but I will never feel comfortable in a bathroom again.
That's a terrible abuse of trust. It is a serious assault . Please validate yourself and your feelings. Talk to someone. Maybe a therapist or helpline. You shouldn't keep it to yourself. It will fester. You are the victim. You have every right to your feelings. I hope you find your righteous anger. I wish you all the very best with your healing.❤
Everyone always tells me "You just gotta think of good things" "You need to stop focusing on all the bad and you'll be fine" "You're just being dramatic, your past could've been worse" "Others have gone through worse than you" This shit right here is what pisses me off. I can't stand it. You know who all says this to me? People who don't have PTSD. My husband's mom and grandmother being those people and honestly? Idk what to do with them, how to explain it
I am so sorry certain members of your family are saying those sorts of things. Yes, some people have objectively been through more $hit, but that doesn't ever EVER mean that you haven't suffered as well. One person's pain does not lessen the pain you feel. In my experience, when I encounter people with that small mindset, I just don't bring it up with them. There is no point. I hope things get better for you. Your abuse that you suffered through (and are still suffering from) should never define you. I'm not saying pretend it didn't happen, it did. But the quote at the end of this song is true: "The villains in your story don't deserve to see you fall." 🖤
You have to mind over body shit. It aint easy and dont ever let your weak times make you quite. Cuz your loved and needed and you can conquer that shit
I’m so sorry that all of these things have been said to you. Something that I always say to others when they say stuff like that is, “yes, people do have it worse. But that doesn’t automatically mean that I don’t have it bad.” You are so strong and I’m so sorry about anything bad that has ever happened to you. You are amazing. ❤
As if it's a damn choice. They piss me off too but then I think, I'm glad they don't understand. I don't ask people to understand I just ask them to love me anyway.
"Frozen in your track Take a visit to the past To see the devils dirty deed Leave a mark all down your back" the absolute most accurate description of what a flashback feels like. i have been listening so much on spotify and finally come to see the videos. im crying so hard :( this is a masterpiece. im going to watch all the others now
I've listened to this song ever since it came out and I've never realized what her getting her wings taken away mint but now it all makes since and i can 100% relate. Love this song and the music video to it it goes so well together.
I love the emotions they out into this song. I've been through a lot of shxt, and its been really rough the last five years. All my trauma and PTSD start to come back in flashbacks. One of the hardest ones is that my twin sister almost died to cancer twice. I was only ten. This song helps me feel like I'm understood. Thanks!
I feel this so hard. My mum has ignored the fact that I am still deep down a traumatized child. No one believes me when I tell my side, they all say "oh don't go pulling that card again." so now I have no friends because i put up boundaries to protect myself from the flashbacks. Does anyone else get super panicky and violent when the flashbacks are almost done? Cause I do, but i dunno if its normal... Anyone else get like that?
i totally understand - i get flashbacks n triggers from smells , certain places , clothes etc + it sucks cause i’ve lost touch wit reality n get told ta “move on” “it’s over” n i “should move past it” like it’s sooo easy , so i’ve jus rlly been self destructive ta myself a lot lately since ion rlly have nobody ta lean on w/o getting criticisms as if it’s my frickin fault n it drives me crazy i wanna scream …. so no , yhu’re not totally alone n have ppl like me in our position who actually rlly get it n wont jus tell yhu wutchu wanna hear . much love angel , i hope yhu’re doing well 😔💙
@@lilmadrox1de385 n dats one of many things i cant stand - we cant do anything w/o worrying abt upsetting ppl while so when rlly , we jus wanna be comfortable , like no , we jus want our peace n safe space n they fail ta realize its not our fault we can’t trust ppl ykwim
I've been listening to skydxddy for a long time and this will forever be my favorite song. I relate so freaking hard. I have PTSD and a lot of trauma. This is the only song that I've found about PTSD and I've never related to anything so hard. Thanks skydxddy for this forever banger.
I don’t know why I found this song. Or maybe it found me but as long as you rapped and said this one line I started to cry. I was raped and all I could smell was the smell of cigarettes. I can never forget Bc of how many people smoke. It’s been 6 years I’ll be 22 so almost 7 and I still have nightmares. I never found a song that related so much
I wonder how many people heard this and Realise that this is what they go through daily, As a person with ptsd I can relate and I kinda feel at eased that a lot of people go through this pain and not just me (it makes me feel not alone)
For anyone on here please know that after seven years your body is brand new meaning if its been seven years you have a body that your abuser has never touched i hope this helps some of yall like it helped me ❤️
It does get better, I promise. It will take years, but you will find your strength, your voice. I struggled heavily for 2 years, half of which with undiagnosed PTSD. After a year of doing emdr, I finally am ready to move onto talk therapy. It’s hard, it really is. But you got this, I know you do. You’re stronger than you know.
Being someone with cptsd.... This song speaks volumes to me and those around me I'm so tired of people treating me like it's my fault or like I can control it when I can't.... This song makes me feel like I'm not alone
I've been bullied for years for being adopted and recently I got given some bad news and this song has helped me so much. it's been the motivation for me to get up when I've completely felt like not getting up. So thank you Sky, you are a true helper and inspiration. My PTSD has gotten worse as I've grown so this song has really helped.
The fact I relate to this so much and that there's music like this just makes me feel less alone. Also fun thing about is that people have started realising that I'm a lot kinder than I seem people started calling me cruella
My best friend sent me this cus I told what I was struggling with: PTSD. Anxiety. Depression. Disassociation. Random Depression episodes. You know when I was going thru a very dark time. I want to thank you for helping me thru that.
this song explains a lot and people need to listen to what it has to say cause every song has a meaning of why it was made most people I know will just say this song doesn't mean anything but they're wrong this song has a lot to say and I love how you made it because most people would make the song but not feel how the song says they feel but the voice in this was so passionate to proves you experienced every part you wrote about this song. keep making great songs never stop what makes you happy and able to express yourself
I've never heard someone talk about this out loud in the open, and for the first time in my life I don't feel alone. I have PTSD, and I've suffered in silence since I was a child. All of the rage I feel, the pain I've suffered, the night terrors and flash backs I'll never be able to erase- this captures it all. This song is more validating to my pain than I've ever had. Thank you, I needed this.
I had a blackout at work in front of two of my bosses yesterday. My eyelids are so swollen I can barely see. I'm glad I had today off but I'm going to play this to them to try to explain. I sent it to my bf too and he said that it makes sense now. I can only imagine the pain it took to write this but I'm glad that you did. So little understand.
As someone that struggles badly with my mental health because of severe trauma, I appreciate this song sm. People don't realize how hard it is to deal with something when they've never gone through it. I'm tired of people fucking say just forgive and forget about it. You try to forget about it when the smallest things trigger anxiety all the fucking time.
This song is my daily motivation. My therapist listened to it with me Sunday, she said it's the best representation of PTSD and what you feel like after trauma she's ever heard. Thank you for your music it has helped me so much as I start my healing through C-PTSD ♥
I heard this for the first time a few days ago. Mine happened 10 years ago. I tried to unalive myself a year after. I had this moment of amazement when I listened to this. Because this was it. This was exactly it. But I’ve come so so far. I still have nightmares sometimes. But I’m a completely different person. I was telling someone about how this song made me think back on it and it made me sad. But not in a way that it was a trigger, but in a way I would feel if someone told me they had the same thing happen. In a “I’m so sorry this happened to you,” kind of way. And then I started crying. I’ve heard it said to me before, but I don’t think I’ve ever said it to myself. If that makes sense. Thank you for this song. Thank you for helping me realize how far I’ve come and for that little extra bit of healing.
I need more of this. I feel your music to my very core. This deserves more recognition. I've listened over 20 times in two days and shared with 3 friends.
I was recently diagnosed with PTSD and this is the best song that I’ve ever heard that describes what it feels like and that I can relate to. Flashbacks and nightmares are constant and I relive my trauma almost every day. Thanks for writing this song so I don’t feel so alone. I feel understood finally. Also, I love your style of music and your song Battlefield! Thank you for everything SkyDxddy ❤️
God I feel this song so deep in my heart and soul deeper then any song I feel her pain, I feel your pain you feel mine to through is message we are warriors we are survivors we were meant for this journey and paint be able to get through everything we are strong it hurts it aucks but are stronger and more knowledged because of it. We got this girl! I love you!
It's been 4 to 8 years since my last sa and I still wake up with nightmares, this song very well described what it's like to deal with the trauma I went through
yhur lyrics come from such a raw , real + personal place . (i understand , i went thru it n am still suffering it too yrs later) so yhu n yhur music are rlly like a savior ta me . much love
I don’t have diagnosed ptsd but I can feel this song a little to much as I wanted… hopefully everyone who had such moments can handle them and stay strong!
I have C-PTSD and PTSD... I feel like I'm never gonna get over it. It already been 2 years (soon 3) from my PTSD trauma and I just discover slowly all the traumas I have from my childhood as a neglect and abandonned child...
I cry to this song the lyric “I seal my self I’m a sound proof room so no one can hear how loud I scream you don’t think it’s as bad as it seems because you never delt with ptsd” hits close to sto home my aunt awhile back before she passed she called my mom we rushed to her house by the time we got there she was being carried out se was gone I was five and that’s how I learned what death was I never got to say goodbye
..your music really fucking hits me. You make people feel less alone sharing your story and your story matters. So thank you... I love your fucking music and I just started listening to it.
Skydxddy, how did you get better from what you went through? Most of the time I can't even leave the house because I feel so ashamed people tell me it was my fault because i did nothing. I was 5-7 1/2 when it happened. therapist have asked if I like what i went through.
That's so fucking twisted, i'm really sorry you had to went through that, i hope soon you can find a way to heal the most possible, you're strong and know it wasn't your fault, whoever says it it can fuck off. Only you and you know the pain you carry.
I am deeply sorry you went through this . I am deeply sorry that you got to meet an incompetent, ignorant therapist. What helped me was a ton of therapy, talking with my friends and in the end realising not only intellectual but emotionally that all that was not my fault. I was a child. I was thinking childlike thoughts, feeling like a child. Reacting like a child, even if my body reacted as nature intended and I felt a conflict of body and mind, of what I definitely did not want, but was made to feel. That is not easy to make peace with. Reading up on the developmental stages of childhood might help to adjust your framing of past events. Affirmations. Getting into martial arts. As you realise the strength and weakness of you body you also realise the strengths and weaknesses of the people around you. And than comes the point when you realise - it was never your fault. You never had a chance. But you were made to believe it was your responsibility, your fault. And then you will have to find a way to deal with an overpowering amount of rage in a constructive way without blasting you whole life ...
I lived in an abusive home. Physically i was at school work and home, but mentally i relive what happend , the pain, the metal problems. Like maleficent, i found my wings this song was my crutch, and now im flying on my own. Thank you, i really appreciate it.
Why haven't I discovered her sooner her music hits home for me in a relatable way and I haven't been able to have a real cry from a song in so long. Thanks for you music love you've inspired me today. ❤️
This is a powerful song!! Along with your other Amazing songs you've made! 💕💜 you surprise me with your meaningful rap! This is what people should hear!! Kepp going bb ❤😁
Listening to this on repeat to try keep myslef here and crying and screaming why and what did I do wrong to have it happen to me while trying to drink the pain away because otherwise I’ll try end myslef
Probably couldn't put words to how much this song has comforted me during my hardest moments. Currently I'm living at a relatives house because a very very horrible family member has destroyed every possession I owned that I couldn't scramble to take out in time. On top of crippling PTSD due to other issues, this is the only song I can reliably go to that really understands. I want to go home
I shoudn't take things so serious
I don't think they mean any harm
But it would sicken you too
If it happened to you
And you had to relive every part
Here come the flashbacks
And the panic attacks
How long does that shit last
I'm losing myself by the day see
And I know you all think that I'm crazy
That the demons that show up
At the foot of my bed
Are just figments from memories
That fucked up my head
That night terrors ain't nothin
But a real bad dream
So quit being a God Damn drama queen
I seal myself in a sound proof room
So no one can hear how loud I scream
But you don't think it's as bad as it seems
Cause you've never dealt with PTSD
Frozen in your track
Take a visit to the past
To see the devils dirty deed
Leave a mark all down your back
I can't even be around cigarettes
You know how many people smoke?
Approximately one billion
And just about everybody I know
You think you know but you don't
When someone's broke you can't just heavy sigh
And roll your eyes
Like if they ain't physically ill
Then they must be a liar
But wouldn't you recede to the fire
If everything around you became a threat
And everyone surrounding you said
GET OVER IT
It becomes unbearable to live in
So listen
Triggers are relentless
They ain't gonna quit
They don't go away just cause you don't
Believe it
Reliving each nightmare on an everyday basis
I don't think I can do this
I don't think I can take this
Frozen in your tracks
Take a visit to the past
To see the devils dirty deed
Leave a mark all down your back
Frozen in your tracks
Take a visit to the past
To see the devils dirty deed
Leave a mark all down your back
You sent my mind on fire
Sparks flying I'm rewired
You left me no desire
Broken and uninspired
I feel you all conspire
Left all alone with liars
Hopeless so I get higher
And higher till I'm tired
And there's no reminder
Of what I'm crying for
Cause I can't fucking do this anymore
Frozen in your tracks
Take a visit to the past
Repay the devils dirty deed
With a gash all down his back
You set my mind on fire
Sparks flying I'm rewired
You left me no desire
Broken and uninspired
Hopeless so I get higher
And higher till I'm tired
And there is no reminder
Of what I'm crying for
I can't do this anymore
What am I even fighting for?
Hey hey I don't know if you understand I win this he My I have been true to you all you do no it for life I promise past past level that shit behind it my he is let go don't hurt because im telling Tell you the truth store
LoL funny he really
Thank you
I love this song so muchhh
Awesome for sharing....thank you
I wonder how many people realize the scene that Maleficent woke up screaming with her wings burned off is a metaphor about rape- going to sleep with someone you think you trust, only to not know they drugged you and took something from you (wings and virginity respectively). Even though Maleficent was able to reunite with her wings, rape victims can't get that back. Stay strong, let your friends be your wings to keep you stable until you can fly by yourself.
exactly.. not many know that fact. i actually put an article from vanity fair in the description.. i wrote the song and showed my girlfriend and then she made this for me. it was too painful to create myself so she told me she had the perfect movie .. she was right. thank you for listening. i hope you enjoyed it!
@@SkyDxddy That's cool that you put an article about it in the description. More people need to know.
You're welcome! I really enjoy your music, I actually found you on tiktok first, then looked for you on youtube and Spotify. Your songs, the lyrics, the meanings, they all hit deep.
When I seen that part I immediately thought that’s what happened to her and I got really sad
@@SkyDxddy thank you it helps so much
Damn
0:43 ok those few lines couldn't be more true and realistic, some people think its all fun in games until it happens to them, its all jokes and a laughing matter until they get to see it with there own eyes
exactly ! the culture is looked at like some fuckin joke when people are killing themselves from the pain there in..
@@SkyDxddyI agree with that statement. . . . (I think statement or fact)
Even then when they do see it we're still called fakers
I know you won't see this. But I just wanted to say that I am so thankful for this song. I have PTSD really bad, I was sexually assaulted three times and was in a very abusive Relationship and this helps me cope. I've never been able to find a song that I can relate to about my PTSD and ever since I found this over a year ago I play it all the time. So thank you so much for this amazing song. I'm still fighting. I'm not a victim. I'm a survivor.
i believe u can do it...it wasn't ur fault so u don't need to be sad...u r the best cz u have survived until now and believe me u will in future too but u ARE NOT survivor but a WINNER👏👏👏
@@navpreetdhillon8174 you said it perfectly
@@cassondraannfrost9618 i am glad u agree with me
@@navpreetdhillon8174 you are amazing. I'm just seeing this now. Thank you so much you give me hope. I am a winner 🏆
I’m sending positive energy your way ❤ you’re a warrior you got this ❤
One thing I love is the passion/anger with which you rap ! It sends shivers down to my spine !
thank you! alot of people dont like that. im glad some people understand the intensity.
Same here, I think her voice is so unique and I love her music
Took the words out my mouth!! You can feel her music
Its because she speaking on experience. 🥺💔
@@SkyDxddy whaaaaaat? That WHY...I listen to it. I feel my pain through your music
I've recently been recovering memories of my abuse when I was a child. This song helps me get through the night terrors, memories, PTSD
i was abused to but i remember everything good this song helps
I was abused when I was 8 years old until I turned 13 years old. I remember what happened to me. I was diagnosed with PTSD, Flashbacks and Nightmares at 14 years old. I'm on medicine for my diagnosis. It really helps me to cope the majority of the time. I'm still in therapy with a female therapist who has been with me until I turned 17 years old. I'm 37 years old now and I will be 38 years old in May of this year. I will be hopeful to be able to get a new female therapist soon to be able to work with again and work through my other mental health diagnosis that I have.
Skydxddy I think you are doing awesome music that I can relate to. ❤️
I understand. Im 33, and It took me till I was 30 to relive the memories I repressed when I was a child. Listen, though, what happened absolutely wasn't your fault, and I know how hard it is to accept it, but repeat it, like a mantra. You're valid, you're seen ❤
I'm so sorry to everyone that is here. What happened to you was NOT your fault. Please remember that.
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Thank you. I took me years to realize it wasn't my fault because no one ever told me different.
That’s so sweet 🥹… it’s still taking me awhile to know it wasn’t my fault and now hopefully he gets put away…
It was for me was never strong enough I'm not even strong enough to get out of bed in the morning but ppl pretend like it's easy and act like it's a joke but it's serious and it happens to much
So powerful. Using the Maleficent clips is like thr icing on the cake, too. My wife showed me your work and my jaw is still dropped at how dope your work is.
How is ur wife? Is she ok
I know those feelings all too well...I fight the demons of PTSD daily. My therapist said it best when she said " there is nothing wrong with you mentally EXCEPT for the fact that you've been through traumatizing situations that unfortunately a pill and no amount of talking can take away the fact that those events happened. All you can do is hold your head up and say "I SURVIVED" and hope that maybe you can save another from experiencing the same pain"
I'm right there with you 😢 sa and DV survivor. You got this
Another warrior here, child neglect and abuse and DV, just keep putting one foot in front of the other and light the way for others.
As a cptsd survivor this song literally gives me chills
same dude
Wow. Same.
😂😂😂😂
Thank you. 10 years of being SAed by my father and it took others screaming I’m not alone for me to see it. My inner child is so scared but we’re trying to fix what they broke. The night terrors the ptsd the anxiety I struggle just doing my job where I take care people. Thank you for screaming for us who can’t or feel they aren’t strong enough
This made me cry. This is the first song I've heard that accurately depicts how I feel on the inside. Thank you.
me too . touched me on so many levels , ion think she knows just how much ha music helps .
Same here
yup. and the way people around you behave when you are having episodes. Like its choice.
I...I am not diagnosed with PTSD. Possibly because I keep the things that have happened close to my chest. However, it needs to be said that I thank you for this song. It makes me feel less alone. And that even if I can't speak my truth yet, someone else is speaking theirs.
it becomes more bearable with time. I tell people what happened to me and let them decide if they feel safe or comfortable enouph to share with me or not. ive been the first person to know someones story so many times this way, and when they where ready helped them tell others and they eventually grow out of needing the blanket of security i offer as they find their own voices.
I feel that exact feelings I know how u r feeling I promise
did buddy stutter LMAO
God damn. Felt like u wrote exactly my emotions in words when I listened to this song. ❤️
you cant keep flashbacks to yourself. It takes everyone around me to talk me back into the present every time, and I can be trapped in rumination memory yelling and pleading to not be hurt again, out loud at someone gone a year now for 15 hours at a time or I get trapped in days of complete fear shut downs where I do nothing, no sleep no eating no nothing but sit crying in terror. ptsd is a bit different to c-ptsd. both are awful.
I just recently discovered your music thru a friend and I'm so obsessed now. I'm 51yrs old. I am a domestic violence survivor with severe ptsd and I can't even tell you what your music means to me. Thank you🖤💜🖤💜🖤
46 same and yep, my new life is this song and fighting being trapped in it again non stop. its only been a few months I got away properly and put into a safe house system, they say it will take time but it will get easier to control :(
normally i don't like rap music. but your voice... the pain and anger... wow love it
I just love how some did a maleficent edit of her pain and didnt make her out to be the villain. She was betrayed by her first friend turned lover in the worst way and just expected to let that go? I always saw the 3 fairy mothers as the villains cause they knew what happened and still took the side of the betrayer. They basically just gaslight her cause she shunned humans from the grove after having her wings cut off by the guy she trusted most. He did that to her for greed and used her for his gain. He wasnt a good person anymore after that night. That song was great and fit perfectly. Hits hard to cause its true.
As someone who suffers from ptsd
This song makes my anger and rage at the world so much easier to deal with
Thank you
Thank you for making it easier to deal with day by day
Exactly, I know how you feel
Agreed. I get so sick of hearing " just get over it" if it was that easy to just let it go.. Man you can have it. I wouldn't wish PTSD on anyone.
It does the same thing to me. Outstanding
Same
Love this so much. ❤ It truly helps with coping. I have C-PTSD and BPD as a result of 10+ years of abuse and multiple compounded traumas.
This song gives me words yo describe it.
God bless you, nobody should have to deal with the diplaced issues of others. The best thing i know to do is to make sure it ends . I sometimes struggle not to be hurtful to people. I try to remember how it feels and that i never want anyone else to feel that way..♥️
@@thetruthspeaker1978 Thank you! ❤ And yes, breaking the cycle is SO important! I struggle with it too b/c you do wind up harboring so much anger & hurt from what was done to you but you also know you can't take it out on people who didn't do it. Its hard but its worth every moment of recovery and healing.
I have cptsd as well... It's ridiculous the amount of bullshit I've been dealt. Feels so unfair, if it weren't fory children I would no longer be here...
Ptsd and bpd, are an awfully tragic mix. You are not alone, this sucks. This song really explains a lot of the unspoken feelings.
@@BatttleKattt Same 🙏🤍🙏🤍🙏🤍🙏 Light Love & Levity To You & Yours 🤍
I wasn’t sexually assaulted or abused but I was sexually harassed, people tell me I’m over dramatic. This song really helps
Thanks
Trauma is when you think you're safe and something happens that makes you realize you aren't. You are not being dramatic. You just realized that you are not as safe as you thought you were.
As someone who has been sexually harassed by both men and other women, I can tell you that it is normal to become more cautious around people and to feel uncomfortable. However, if it has come to the point where you have flashbacks, panic attacks, or no longer feel safe around people you may need to seek professional help because there most likely is another more serious underlying trauma involved. To be fair though, I "fought off" anyone who sexually harassed me, which may have lessened the trauma's effect on me. Additionally, everyone reacts to trauma differently so don't just take my word for it.
You are with us. Safe. No matter they had there way physically or mentally to put you here ..hugging you...
Many small but bad things happened to me and at some point I ended up in a mental health clinic and one patient opened my eyes about the way I was thinking with one sentence "just because other's had it worse doesn't mean u're struggles aren't valid" he said that after a long conversation and me feeling bad about complaining since he experienced many more hard times than me... u're not over dramatic
I wasn't assaulted or anything. But my family member hid a camera in the bathroom to record me showering. I have never felt like the same person since. A part of me will always remain in that bathroom. All trauma is valid. I dont feel my trauma is significant enough to talk about or complain about but I will never feel comfortable in a bathroom again.
That's a terrible abuse of trust. It is a serious assault . Please validate yourself and your feelings. Talk to someone. Maybe a therapist or helpline. You shouldn't keep it to yourself. It will fester. You are the victim. You have every right to your feelings. I hope you find your righteous anger. I wish you all the very best with your healing.❤
Everyone always tells me
"You just gotta think of good things"
"You need to stop focusing on all the bad and you'll be fine"
"You're just being dramatic, your past could've been worse"
"Others have gone through worse than you"
This shit right here is what pisses me off. I can't stand it. You know who all says this to me? People who don't have PTSD. My husband's mom and grandmother being those people and honestly? Idk what to do with them, how to explain it
I am so sorry certain members of your family are saying those sorts of things. Yes, some people have objectively been through more $hit, but that doesn't ever EVER mean that you haven't suffered as well. One person's pain does not lessen the pain you feel. In my experience, when I encounter people with that small mindset, I just don't bring it up with them. There is no point. I hope things get better for you. Your abuse that you suffered through (and are still suffering from) should never define you. I'm not saying pretend it didn't happen, it did. But the quote at the end of this song is true: "The villains in your story don't deserve to see you fall." 🖤
You have to mind over body shit. It aint easy and dont ever let your weak times make you quite. Cuz your loved and needed and you can conquer that shit
I’m so sorry that all of these things have been said to you. Something that I always say to others when they say stuff like that is, “yes, people do have it worse. But that doesn’t automatically mean that I don’t have it bad.” You are so strong and I’m so sorry about anything bad that has ever happened to you. You are amazing. ❤
As if it's a damn choice. They piss me off too but then I think, I'm glad they don't understand. I don't ask people to understand I just ask them to love me anyway.
I don't think people understand on how much you want dwell on the bed even if you want to think about the good the bad overwhelms you
I found your music not long ago and it’s so powerful and inspiring
I felt this because I know a form of this pain. Im living with PTSD myself. Thank you for this ❤
This edit with this song gave me super chills
"Frozen in your track
Take a visit to the past
To see the devils dirty deed
Leave a mark all down your back" the absolute most accurate description of what a flashback feels like. i have been listening so much on spotify and finally come to see the videos. im crying so hard :( this is a masterpiece. im going to watch all the others now
How hard this hits home 😢 such a great song to explain ptsd ❤
I've listened to this song ever since it came out and I've never realized what her getting her wings taken away mint but now it all makes since and i can 100% relate. Love this song and the music video to it it goes so well together.
I love the emotions they out into this song. I've been through a lot of shxt, and its been really rough the last five years. All my trauma and PTSD start to come back in flashbacks. One of the hardest ones is that my twin sister almost died to cancer twice. I was only ten. This song helps me feel like I'm understood. Thanks!
Also this sone is one of the best songs I have ever heard 💕💕
thank you bb xx
When you live this life the lyrics hit hard💥🔥🔥🎧🔊🔊😎🤟🏼🖤
This song be hitting to hard recently
I know it's been four years but I'm still attached to this song on a personal level ❤
I feel this so hard. My mum has ignored the fact that I am still deep down a traumatized child. No one believes me when I tell my side, they all say "oh don't go pulling that card again." so now I have no friends because i put up boundaries to protect myself from the flashbacks. Does anyone else get super panicky and violent when the flashbacks are almost done? Cause I do, but i dunno if its normal... Anyone else get like that?
I do...
I'm scared to put up boundaries so I get flashbacks very often.
i totally understand - i get flashbacks n triggers from smells , certain places , clothes etc + it sucks cause i’ve lost touch wit reality n get told ta “move on” “it’s over” n i “should move past it” like it’s sooo easy , so i’ve jus rlly been self destructive ta myself a lot lately since ion rlly have nobody ta lean on w/o getting criticisms as if it’s my frickin fault n it drives me crazy i wanna scream …. so no , yhu’re not totally alone n have ppl like me in our position who actually rlly get it n wont jus tell yhu wutchu wanna hear . much love angel , i hope yhu’re doing well 😔💙
@@lilmadrox1de385 me too :( then it’s like we’re duh bad guys once we set up our boundaries like CANT WE DO ANYTHING RIGHT ??!??? 😔🥺
@damagedemoangel666 yeah it's like we can't set them because then we are wrong for not trusting people
@@lilmadrox1de385 n dats one of many things i cant stand - we cant do anything w/o worrying abt upsetting ppl while so when rlly , we jus wanna be comfortable , like no , we jus want our peace n safe space n they fail ta realize its not our fault we can’t trust ppl ykwim
I'm feeling this to my core. This is truth.
I honestly love that I found ur music I deal with extreme PTSD and this song is so relatable
This is a wonderful way to explain and what a great reminder. Forward only now and forever
I've been listening to skydxddy for a long time and this will forever be my favorite song. I relate so freaking hard. I have PTSD and a lot of trauma. This is the only song that I've found about PTSD and I've never related to anything so hard. Thanks skydxddy for this forever banger.
I freaking LOVE this! HTH did I miss this. Girl you've got it going on! Never stop!
I love this so much its so Powerful and beautiful ❤❤
thank u my love!
You enunciate the words so well, even when you’re really rapping them fast!!! You’re so talented and the music video is so excellent.
"What am I even fighting for...?" Miss... If not for yourself, for the people you save with this music.
Relating to this song rn, i love your music sm
I don’t know why I found this song. Or maybe it found me but as long as you rapped and said this one line I started to cry. I was raped and all I could smell was the smell of cigarettes. I can never forget Bc of how many people smoke. It’s been 6 years I’ll be 22 so almost 7 and I still have nightmares. I never found a song that related so much
Wow. Chills.
I LOVE U this song has helped me so much and literally describes my feelings and how ppl treat me due to my trauma
Makes me feel less alone
What i love is that this can be related to any kinda of trauma
Exactly I relate to this completely because of my ptsd/survivors guilt from my 2 best friends sui*****s
I wonder how many people heard this and Realise that this is what they go through daily, As a person with ptsd I can relate and I kinda feel at eased that a lot of people go through this pain and not just me (it makes me feel not alone)
I get that feeling alot and Maleficent has been my favorite and I know how she feels especially when I feel that way as well.
For anyone on here please know that after seven years your body is brand new meaning if its been seven years you have a body that your abuser has never touched i hope this helps some of yall like it helped me ❤️
That unwanted kiss... the smell of smoke on their breath, it's something you don't forget.
It does get better, I promise. It will take years, but you will find your strength, your voice. I struggled heavily for 2 years, half of which with undiagnosed PTSD. After a year of doing emdr, I finally am ready to move onto talk therapy. It’s hard, it really is. But you got this, I know you do. You’re stronger than you know.
Just saw this song live last night and got drenched with water, Absolutely love you and your music ❤
Being someone with cptsd.... This song speaks volumes to me and those around me I'm so tired of people treating me like it's my fault or like I can control it when I can't.... This song makes me feel like I'm not alone
I've been bullied for years for being adopted and recently I got given some bad news and this song has helped me so much. it's been the motivation for me to get up when I've completely felt like not getting up. So thank you Sky, you are a true helper and inspiration. My PTSD has gotten worse as I've grown so this song has really helped.
Your fighting to help those who can relate feel like they aren't the only one who feels that way ❤️ thank you for this song
The fact I relate to this so much and that there's music like this just makes me feel less alone. Also fun thing about is that people have started realising that I'm a lot kinder than I seem people started calling me cruella
My best friend sent me this cus I told what I was struggling with: PTSD. Anxiety. Depression. Disassociation. Random Depression episodes. You know when I was going thru a very dark time. I want to thank you for helping me thru that.
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this song explains a lot and people need to listen to what it has to say cause every song has a meaning of why it was made most people I know will just say this song doesn't mean anything but they're wrong this song has a lot to say and I love how you made it because most people would make the song but not feel how the song says they feel but the voice in this was so passionate to proves you experienced every part you wrote about this song. keep making great songs never stop what makes you happy and able to express yourself
Amazing! Love the song, and also this movie.
The emotion in the words. Wow. You get it. Beautiful
I've never heard someone talk about this out loud in the open, and for the first time in my life I don't feel alone. I have PTSD, and I've suffered in silence since I was a child. All of the rage I feel, the pain I've suffered, the night terrors and flash backs I'll never be able to erase- this captures it all. This song is more validating to my pain than I've ever had. Thank you, I needed this.
You’re unreal. Seriously this song is out of this world I can’t believe a person could be this talented. ICONIC!!!
I had a blackout at work in front of two of my bosses yesterday. My eyelids are so swollen I can barely see. I'm glad I had today off but I'm going to play this to them to try to explain. I sent it to my bf too and he said that it makes sense now. I can only imagine the pain it took to write this but I'm glad that you did. So little understand.
As someone that struggles badly with my mental health because of severe trauma, I appreciate this song sm. People don't realize how hard it is to deal with something when they've never gone through it. I'm tired of people fucking say just forgive and forget about it. You try to forget about it when the smallest things trigger anxiety all the fucking time.
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This song is my daily motivation. My therapist listened to it with me Sunday, she said it's the best representation of PTSD and what you feel like after trauma she's ever heard. Thank you for your music it has helped me so much as I start my healing through C-PTSD ♥
I heard this for the first time a few days ago. Mine happened 10 years ago. I tried to unalive myself a year after. I had this moment of amazement when I listened to this. Because this was it. This was exactly it. But I’ve come so so far. I still have nightmares sometimes. But I’m a completely different person. I was telling someone about how this song made me think back on it and it made me sad. But not in a way that it was a trigger, but in a way I would feel if someone told me they had the same thing happen. In a “I’m so sorry this happened to you,” kind of way. And then I started crying. I’ve heard it said to me before, but I don’t think I’ve ever said it to myself. If that makes sense. Thank you for this song. Thank you for helping me realize how far I’ve come and for that little extra bit of healing.
I love this song the rapping is what really pulled me in and made me look at the lyrics and I honestly love this song, my favorite.
I need more of this. I feel your music to my very core. This deserves more recognition. I've listened over 20 times in two days and shared with 3 friends.
I was recently diagnosed with PTSD and this is the best song that I’ve ever heard that describes what it feels like and that I can relate to. Flashbacks and nightmares are constant and I relive my trauma almost every day. Thanks for writing this song so I don’t feel so alone. I feel understood finally. Also, I love your style of music and your song Battlefield! Thank you for everything SkyDxddy ❤️
Your music found me at the right moment. Thank you.
God I feel this song so deep in my heart and soul deeper then any song I feel her pain, I feel your pain you feel mine to through is message we are warriors we are survivors we were meant for this journey and paint be able to get through everything we are strong it hurts it aucks but are stronger and more knowledged because of it. We got this girl! I love you!
It's been 4 to 8 years since my last sa and I still wake up with nightmares, this song very well described what it's like to deal with the trauma I went through
Gladly found a young and person I relate to
I’m so happy I found your music it’s amazing ❤️😘
This scene ugh makes me want to watch it again 😩❤️
I always enjoy your music man.
yhur lyrics come from such a raw , real + personal place . (i understand , i went thru it n am still suffering it too yrs later) so yhu n yhur music are rlly like a savior ta me . much love
I don’t have diagnosed ptsd but I can feel this song a little to much as I wanted… hopefully everyone who had such moments can handle them and stay strong!
You left me no desire, broken and uninspired, hopeless and tired! Totally accurate.
this is painfully relatable...and I'm so glad I stumbled upon this, thank you.
I have C-PTSD and PTSD... I feel like I'm never gonna get over it. It already been 2 years (soon 3) from my PTSD trauma and I just discover slowly all the traumas I have from my childhood as a neglect and abandonned child...
Your music is helping me with my troubles thank you fro you beautiful songs and voice
This helps I lost my brother a year ago and I truly thought he was happy
I love how deep your lyrics are your music hits so close to home for me sadly but your music helps me get through it ❤
Just found this yesterday. Can’t stop listening. 🤩 wow
The amount of times I’ve listened to this and cried is astronomical. But thank you…. For this
I cry to this song the lyric “I seal my self I’m a sound proof room so no one can hear how loud I scream you don’t think it’s as bad as it seems because you never delt with ptsd” hits close to sto home my aunt awhile back before she passed she called my mom we rushed to her house by the time we got there she was being carried out se was gone I was five and that’s how I learned what death was I never got to say goodbye
..your music really fucking hits me. You make people feel less alone sharing your story and your story matters. So thank you... I love your fucking music and I just started listening to it.
😭😭😭😭😭 I'm over here screaming, I've NEVER heard my life experience put into words....I'm speechless.
Skydxddy, how did you get better from what you went through? Most of the time I can't even leave the house because I feel so ashamed people tell me it was my fault because i did nothing. I was 5-7 1/2 when it happened. therapist have asked if I like what i went through.
That's so fucking twisted, i'm really sorry you had to went through that, i hope soon you can find a way to heal the most possible, you're strong and know it wasn't your fault, whoever says it it can fuck off. Only you and you know the pain you carry.
I am deeply sorry you went through this . I am deeply sorry that you got to meet an incompetent, ignorant therapist.
What helped me was a ton of therapy, talking with my friends and in the end realising not only intellectual but emotionally that all that was not my fault. I was a child. I was thinking childlike thoughts, feeling like a child. Reacting like a child, even if my body reacted as nature intended and I felt a conflict of body and mind, of what I definitely did not want, but was made to feel.
That is not easy to make peace with. Reading up on the developmental stages of childhood might help to adjust your framing of past events.
Affirmations. Getting into martial arts. As you realise the strength and weakness of you body you also realise the strengths and weaknesses of the people around you. And than comes the point when you realise - it was never your fault. You never had a chance. But you were made to believe it was your responsibility, your fault. And then you will have to find a way to deal with an overpowering amount of rage in a constructive way without blasting you whole life ...
I lived in an abusive home. Physically i was at school work and home, but mentally i relive what happend , the pain, the metal problems. Like maleficent, i found my wings this song was my crutch, and now im flying on my own. Thank you, i really appreciate it.
Thank you for making these songs
Damn. That one hit hard.
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I’ve been looking for a song exactly like this🙌🏼🥺💜
Thankyou 💛 I really needed to hear this, you couldn’t say it better.
Why haven't I discovered her sooner her music hits home for me in a relatable way and I haven't been able to have a real cry from a song in so long. Thanks for you music love you've inspired me today. ❤️
The quote at the ending of the video ‘“the villian of your story doesn’t deserve to watch you fall”’ hit me hard thank you!
This is a powerful song!! Along with your other Amazing songs you've made! 💕💜 you surprise me with your meaningful rap! This is what people should hear!! Kepp going bb ❤😁
Listening to this on repeat to try keep myslef here and crying and screaming why and what did I do wrong to have it happen to me while trying to drink the pain away because otherwise I’ll try end myslef
Probably couldn't put words to how much this song has comforted me during my hardest moments. Currently I'm living at a relatives house because a very very horrible family member has destroyed every possession I owned that I couldn't scramble to take out in time. On top of crippling PTSD due to other issues, this is the only song I can reliably go to that really understands. I want to go home
Wow I never really had a song relate to me so much thank you I needed this.